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not really sure what i am, really.
oh well.
life manages to somehow go on.
it had better be good.

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/14761595/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/14761595/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 17:06:25 PDT no.
so anyway.
im nineteen.
my mom and stepdad were the only ones to buy me anything. my dad didnt do shit. suprise surprise.
my uncle is taking me out soon, hes only a month late. whatever. shit happens.
I'm tired.
partied all night last night.
it was stupid.
i dont know why i keep going to those, i always end up dissapointed.
depressingly so.
i've all but forgotten about deviantart. too much shit goin on recently, i guess.
who cares.
scuse me while i rot.

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/12690536/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/12690536/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 11:04:13 PDT
so, im making my bike work again, i already went on the ol trail once, and i think i need to submit a picture of me now, and then a picture of me at the end of summer to see how much ive changed.

i quit drugs (again T_T) and im doing good this time.
i have a new puppy named murphy. shes adorable and my new best friend.

she can sit and stay and lay-down already, and shes only about 15 weeks old.

shes a cross between a chocolate lab and a black lab.

i cut off my mohawk, so now i just have a bunch of fuzzness goin on.
im gonna grow my shag back

and dye it azure blue, in homage to 2D, my fav singer ev-AR

i bought the Rise of the Ogre book, the gorillaz one, its pretty sick.

im soooo incredibly good looking, its ridiculous.

hahaha

so yeah. im in a pretty good mood. the cold weathers almost gone, its fuckin sunny out, no clouds, and around 20 degrees C out there

intense.

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/12163621/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/12163621/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 23:39:24 PDT when did that happen.


i feel like theres hope for me yet.


oh yeah.
i got a mohawk.
im sweet like that.

my dad yelled at me for about an hour for wearing a bracelet with iron crosses on it.
yeah, he's drunk. but nowadays, who's dad isnt.
apparently, his grandpa (my great grandpa) was killed by germans in the first world war.

no offence, but alot of people were killed in the first world war.
and im not wearing the bracelet to rub it in his face, im wearing it because my friend gave it to me.
besides, its not like its a swastika or anything. this was before the germans were considered demons.
funniest thing is
my moms side of the family is all german.
so what
the fuck
does it even matter?


so
im dropped out of college, working in the mall, minimum wage.
im lonely (love-life, i mean. i have more than enough friends)
im angry,
im ranting
i dont even have it that bad. i know.
but all the same.
im a pissy, 18 year old drug addict insomniac writing a journal entry at 237 AM because he's too bitter to go upstairs right now.
fuckin eh.


someone needs to shank me in the stomach with a thermometer and watch my temperature go down.

or


give me some free ketamine.
eithers cool with me

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/11307642/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/11307642/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 22:45:13 PST lemme know.

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/11214978/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/11214978/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 18:58:31 PST woot.
its a new opportunity i guess.
figure out what i want to do with my life.
anyway
heres what i want to ask: comment this journal with links to the scariest art you have seen on this website. i look around macabre and horror and i never see anything really, truly scary. maybe im de-sensitized, maybe i find different things scary, i dont know. just send me the creepiest ones you can find.

P.S.--im not afraid of clowns, i like them. so none of those undead clown things will work, sorry.

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/10124348/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/10124348/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 16:43:00 PDT ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9746484/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9746484/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 09:54:09 PDT \Feels obstructed in his desires and prevented from obtaining the things he regards as essential.

My Stress Sources
The existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as he has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to his self-sufficiency because of the restraint he normally imposes on himself. Since he wants to demonstrate the unique quality of his own character, he tries to suppress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned self-reliance to conceal his fear of inadequacy, treating those who criticize his behavior with contempt. However, beneath this assumption of indifference he really longs for the approval and esteem of others.


My Restrained Characteristics
Relationships rarely measure up to his high emotional expectations and his need to be made the center of things, leading to disappointment . Always has mental reservations and tends to remain emotionally isolated and unattached.


My Desired Objective
Wants to make a favorable impression and be regarded as a special personality. Is therefore constantly on the watch to see whether on the watch to see whether he is succeeding in this and how others are reacting to him; this makes him feel he is in control. Uses tactics cleverly in order to obtain influence and special recognition. Susceptible to the esthetic or original.


My Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety. Desires recognition and position, but is worried about his prospects. Reacts to this by protecting at any criticism and resisting any attempt to influence him. Tries to assert himself by meticulous control of detail in an effort to strengthen his position.

My Actual Problem #2
Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase his self-esteem and his feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets himself high standards. ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9707615/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9707615/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 22:30:35 PDT ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9548469/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9548469/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 10:15:36 PDT anywhom
my throat is itchy so im gonna go drink something
and then attempt sleep
and then attempt life.
and then attempt something else. maybe eating, i don know. nighty night! ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9428289/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/9428289/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 15:31:36 PDT NUMBERS!
1) new bible. tis called JTHM. look it up. if youre reading this, you would like it.
2)i once ate a peanut that tasted like a strawberry. im not even lying, i swear to god it was sooooo wierd.
3)my sister has a pet bunny, and im thinking about hammering it to a wall and calling it nail bunny. like in JTHM. only real-er. and it wont talk to me cuz im not insane. yet.
4)im trying not to sleep, to see if i can start hallucinating. its like drugs, only harder and less addictive and much more painful.
5)i gots a haircut but it isnt like i wanted but its still pretty cool, i guess. i look like a pixie i think.
6)im going to stop putting end-brackets at the end of my numbers, to show that i can be unpredictable, even though i just told you so now u can predict it.
7-WHOA! bet u didnt expect that, unless u have any intelligence at all, in which case.....stop reading this u make me feel dumb.
8- i honestly dont know what to put for this...cept maybe that my crotch is amazing.
9 = i bet that all your base are belong to us.
10-im going to a birthday party on saturday. i wonder how that will turn out. dirtyface, if ur reading this, your party ad better be good cuz i dont wanna waste any of my precious few saturdays.
11)FEEL MY NUB
72------> i want some fucking soda. find me some.
506938428495029402<>im the re-incarnation of a carnation. the flower thing u wear at prom. i think thats what they are called ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/8939254/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/8939254/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 10:34:01 PDT only going to twelve.
1)im excessivly tired
2)im bored and in english class.
3)i think im the coolest thing since the flying refridgerator.
4)under the stairs. your freakin foot is in my eye.
5) eff yoo seeeee kay. carson weekly.
6) im a celebrity at the local meat packing factory
7)this, my friends, is the number of times i have done something that i have done seven times.
8)this guy i know, jacob, is totally illiterate (he cant read at all) but he has msn. wtf is that all about.
9)have u ever noticed that checker boards are not only a cheap rip off of chess, but also extremely fashionable nowadays? i have checkerboard vans now, that look emo, so i guess im scene now. ew.
10)i want to go to a rave.
11)one more to go.
12) this is twleve. journal and number 12. i want to go be hyper and jmp around and climb trees and do handstands and marijuana. ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/8829352/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/8829352/ Sat, 20 May 2006 20:41:55 PDT 1)french fry
2)pandas are keen.
3)neon lights are a fave.
5)i wish i had some nachos.
6)i dont like spicy foods.
7)cars are smelly
8)yellow #red.
9)this is number 9
10) 10 was how many journals i made b4 this one
11) kittens are cute and this is my elevthing joynal.
14) i didnt like my other number that belonged between 14 and 11.

nighty nighty, nightengale. dont let the bed bugs or the bed itself eat you. ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/8615579/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/8615579/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 20:28:00 PDT ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/7877200/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/7877200/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 19:22:42 PST 1)got a gf.
2)got new friends to add to my roster.
3)new HIM shirt
4)ps2 isnt working
5)everyone is gay. especially the str8 people.
6)best vid ever:go to albinoblaccksheep.com and watch ultimate showdown of ultimate destiny
7)i dont know what to put here
8)bought some new CD's...
9) ever notice nine is an upside down six? whoever made numbers was a lazy fuckhole.
10)im in an angry mood. the ground is all trampolines. everyone on earth is a robot except me. the creator of the universe is an apple fed to eve by a snake that eats its own tail and is actually the embodiment of time.
11) im not insane, ur jus programmed to think that, robot bastard. ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6927429/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6927429/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 15:24:58 PST align=left>
I adopted a cute lil' giraffe fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

thats right. a giraffe fetus. got a problem, bitch? no. didnt think so. rawr. im big (no im not). i got dumped, which makes me happy. now i can flirt and not feel bad. yay flirtage! im pissed at school. if it isnt enough that i get pushed around bcuz of the friends i have, i now get pushed around for being a fag. i made an announcement for a queer str8 alliance and not many people liked me for it. screw them, i dont need them. they suck. most people suck. except the ones that dont suck. they dont suck. anyways, i got a question for yaz, if u could be anyone in the world other than yourself, who would ya be? comment me for ur answer.

anywayz, i think i should go be emo and snort glass, cut myself, and drink bleach. (jokes, i cant make fun of emos. im friends with some. i dont mind them too much)
im off, i thought id jus tell people about my life (or lack there of.) ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6746522/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6746522/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 08:28:57 PDT
im at school, workin on a poetry unit. im bored, i cant do poetry. i decided id update my journal. so here i am. i got nuthin to say. im litenin to the soundtrack from queen of the damned

]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6269060/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6269060/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 08:25:45 PDT my b-day is in 6 days!!!! 17! weee! :escited:
yeah, im gettin rollerskates, the old 70's ones, and im gettin lightning bolts on the sides of themn, and im tryin to get my dad to give me his camera. an old, shutter thingy, with the big zoom lens. they rock. i cant wait. im soooooooo looking forward to this. D i cant wait!! ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6148112/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6148112/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 07:38:33 PDT i am at home, awaiting my mothers return from the grocery store. its like knowing as soon as she gets home, im gonna die. shes taking me to my cottage, for a week. i hate my cottage. all im bringin with me is my ps2 and my sketch book, which i always need more paper for whenever i go there. i use it so often. i dont know anyone up there, and all there is is a beach. i dont DO beaches, unless im with a bunch of friends who like to do stupid mindless beach games like frisbee or volleyball. i dont got alot of friends that are into that, i think its kuz im secretly a kid at heart. well, not so secretly. but anyway. my sketch book is getting full, and im yet to draw one decent looking picture, which i why i havent posted any.
my moms a liar though, she said last time i went to the cottage that if i went i wouldnt have to go again this summer, and look! oh! im goin! big surprise!
i never trusted my parents anyway.
i jus watched a BEAUTIFUL newgrounds vid on columbine, and it was amazing. here it is, its on columbine. [link]

yeah, frightning as it is, it reminds me of me and my friend steve.were gettin constantly ridiculed at school. its a pisser. i dont think either of us are stupid enough to do anything like that, but when u lose it, u lose it. who knows. i got alot of friends, but there bark is worse than there bite. e.g.: my friend nathan. hes kinda big, hes hardcore punker, and hes constantly makin death threats to people who bother me and steve. yet, when me and steve where gettin jumped a couple of months ago, he sat back and did nuthin, he said it was cuz "he thought we could handle it" there were 6 of them, 2 of us. real smart, nathan. oh well, life goes on, and i dont really care. what doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger. (or just hurts alot, either way, its ok).

also, on one further gloomy note, i think im losing the ability to care about people.im sorry to everyone who this may have an effect on, but i cant help it. sorry.

i know, i sound emo. but hey, at least im not cutting myself, and i dont plan to either,if anyone gets cut, it wont be me. but i wont do anything dumb unless theres no way out. and besides, only one more year of this B.S. to go through, and im outta high school. i actually cant wait for gr. 12 to start, i think itll b fun, im makin friends. who knows, maybe ill be the one with all the people backin him up. i certainly hope so.

well, im off, ttyl ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6065576/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/6065576/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 08:32:18 PDT ! i dont know what else is goin on, but ill be sure to steal my sisters digital cam and take pics of myself with the new rollerskates. im gonna put lightning bolts on them when i get them, in glitter glue ^^


well, tata for now, note me if u wanna talk, im not on chats much anymore ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/5952641/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/5952641/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 16:44:03 PDT
Do you wear black eyeliner?: ugh. i did once but i looked like a girl. an UGLY girl.
How much black clothing do you own?: OMG CRAPLOADS
Do you think about death often?:my death, or others? well, the answer to both is YES
Do you want to die?:.........sometimes....like now.
Are you a social outcast?: not at all!
Are you pale?: nope, i try to be, but i burn too easy, and the burn turns into a tan
Do you cut?:not anymore
Do you like Hot Topic?: is that that t-shirt company? i barely know it so i cant say i do or dont.

--Skater Punk--

Can you skateboard?n occaison
How often do you go into Vans?: um...whenever my mommy drives me somewhere.
what's your sneaker brand?: recently, ive been wear sandals cuz my sneakers are death. (as in, falling apart) but they were converse all stars chuck taylors (the high tops for those not in the know.)
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: pfft. im no poser. i dont need friends around to make me do stupid stuff.
Are the long skater cuts hott?: i sorta got a skater doo, but it will soon jus grow out of being skater and turn into the style i want. (hopefully)
How much do you get in trouble?: how often do fish swim?
Do you listen to the bands who are considered
"posers"?: um...i dunno, i listen to almost anything. especially disco and electronica.
How many piercings do you have?: i USED to have an eyebrow ring, but i was dumb and it healed over so im getting it re-pierced soon.

--Prep--

How often do you say the word "like"?: alot
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no
Are the A&F models hott?:i dont know, ive never seen them
How many purses do you own?: none

Is lipgloss a must?:no.
How often do you wear makeup?: no
Ever had a manicure?: no
Rock music is bad, right?: FUCK no!
Are you ever ditzy?: almost 24/7
Do you own high heels?: no.
Have you ever said "Oh my gosh"?:yeah, but that was along time ago. now i jus say holy shit/fuck/cow/cock/pizza
Are you a cheerleader?: ....do umbrellas eat fish legs?

--Hippie--

Is your hair long?:yuppers, and i dont plan on cuttin it anytime soon ^^
Are you a vegetarian?: i wanted to be for a while, but i have REAL bad adhd, and id order a hamburger and not really realize it.
Do you own a tye dye shirt?: HECK YEAH!
Do you want peace?: yeah
Do you want to save the animals?:i like animals, but im not risking my life to save any.......unless my friends were helpin me out, and we had guns.
What do you think about the war?: "The" war? u mean theres only been one? no. i hate it, i think its dumb. all of them. dumb.if we have to kill one another, do it without...um...killing...one another.....shit that sounded better in my head
Have you ever made a peace sign with your two
fingers?: yeah, all the time

--Gangsta--

Are you from the ghetto?: no
Do you own "bling bling"?: no
What do you think about do-rags?:...no
Do you like rap?: ......definitly not.
How about hip-hop?: no
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: i never listened to him, but no.
What do you think about afros?: fro's are cool, but not on gangstas
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: all the time, as a joke. i think people who say it seriously are dumb.
How about 'oh, snap son'?: i say oh snap alot, but not son.

--Frat--

Is life a party?: i guess
How often do you get drunk?i dont drink
What's the point of getting drunk anyway?: um, i dont drink, but ill guess. to get laid?
Do you care about your grades?nly cuz ill b a hobo without good ones
Do you need attitude adjustment?:no


--Emo--

How often do you cry?: well, never.
Do you have an ex?: about 96
Do you have an acoustic guitar?:yup, and an electric too
Are you emotional?:recently, no.
Do you like soft music?: if im in the mood for it
Do people understand you?: never.
Do you write your own songs?: um. no
Is your hair dyed dark?: nope

--Jock--

Do you play any sports? yeah
How important are they to you?:not really.
How important is your reputation?: not important...i dont have a reputation. well, if i did, it would be: the guy who is totally unpredictable so he doesnt... ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/5936997/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/5936997/ Thu, 14 Jul 2005 21:13:11 PDT
2. with problems, whom do you run to? noone.

3. which finger is your favorite? wtf kind of a question is that? i dont know

4. what's the most disgusting thing you've ever eaten? a bug.

5. would you kill someone?.....if they pissed me off enough, i would, but wouldnt anyone kill under enough stress?

7. if you were making a movie about yourself, who would play you? i dunnno...whos the ugliest male actor out nowadays?

8. do you like your handwriting? do pigs have head-mopunted laser cannons? no. (at least, not untill im through with them)

9. who are you jealous of? just about everyone i know.....

10. what kind of person do you want to marry?........ill tell u when i meet them

12. what do you put on your sandwiches? i dont like sandwiches

13. do you think people on the Gap commercials are cool? HECK yeah! (but not really!)

14. if you were another person, would you be friends with you? .......let me answer your question with another question...would it be considered suicide if i killed me?

15. are you a daredevil?if im hyper and with those friends who my mom hates, yes

16. how big was the biggest mango you ever ate? ok again wtf. i dont even know what a mango looks like

17. have you ever told a secret you swore you'd never repeat?who hasnt

18. what do you think is the most attractive animated character? (im not animated) um. i dont know.

19. do looks matter? sometimes

20. favorite colors? blue, red, black, white, green

22. are you trendy?on occaision

23. what do you do to prevent anger? you can PREVENT anger now?

24. who is your idol? i dunno...lotsa people. mostly my pal steve

25. who is your second family? uh....i unno

26. do you trust others easily? i USED to, but that stopped quickly if you know what i mean

27. what was your favorite toy as a child? um...my transformers an a super saiyan trunks toy.

28. your favorite myth: i cant think of it atm
29. your favorite mythological character: that quaker oatmeal dude.

30. your favorite body part: depends...on mine, or someone elses body?

31. your favorite author:well, id have to say amelia atwater rhodes.

32. your favorite obsessions: i dont know...deviantart is one.

33. your favorite number:7, 777, and purple.

34. your favorite excuse:nope

35. your favorite emotion: umm...ecstasy would be a givin, wouldnt it? i mean, isnt everyone ecstatic to be....ecstatic?

36. your favorite drug:i quit

37. your favorite drink: fruit punch, and applejuice

38. your favorite place:somewhere with cats and computers and video games and sex.

39. your favorite unattainable object: the holy grail, and freinds

40. what do you regret most: my life.

41. your favorite thing to hate: this survey, and the human race

42. your favorite paranoia: zombies taking over

43. your favorite way to die:well, out of the COUNTLESS ways ive died......wtf! seriously what a dumb question! id like to be turned into a vampire.

44. your favorite insecurity: i dont even know how to spell insecurity

45. your new favorite favorite:..once again (and hopefully for the last time...) WTF!

46. your favorite frustration: everything

47. wallet? is full of cash and in my wide-open backpack in the middle of a crowded street!

48. hairbrush: i dont brush my hair

49. toothbrush: i dont brush my tee--jus kidding. the kind that brushes my teeth is my fav kind
50. jewelry worn daily:my celtic cross

51. socks: if i wear them at all, i wear one black, and one white, to avoid racism.

52. pillow cover: i dont use a pillow

53. blanket: warm ones

54. coffee cup:i dont drinmk coffee

55. sunglasses: OOH! very pretty navy blue aviators with diamond studs on the edges!

56. underwear: MY SPONGEBOB BOXORZ!

57. shoes: sandals or sneakers or skater shoes

58. nail polish: don’t wear it

59. handbag: dont have one

60. keychain:see above

61. favorite top: dont have one

62. favorite pants: jeans, or my new shorts

63. soap: irish springs

64. perfume (cologne?):i dont wear either, thanx

65. cd in stereo ri... ]]> ~kat-of-insanity http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/5899640/ http://kat-of-insanity.deviantart.com/journal/5899640/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 23:32:05 PDT ~kat-of-insanity