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                <title>New</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 27 Apr 2009 19:23:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ kawin has 6,704 pageviews total and their 10 deviations were viewed 1,434 times. Kawin watches 41 people, while 38 people watch kawin.<br /><br />Overall, their deviations received 116 comments and were added to deviants' favourites 26 times, while kawin commented 1,152 times, making about 0.81 comments per day since kawin joined DA. This means that kawin gave 99 comments for every 10 that kawin received.<br /><br />Their deviation with the most comments is You have no power over me... with 46 comments, while their most favourited one is Contemplating Man, with 10 favourites. Their most viewed deviation is Contemplating Man with 397 views.<br /><br />2 favourites were given for every 10 comments.<br /><br />Every 140.8 days kawin uploads a new deviation, and it's usually on a Sunday, with 3 (30%) of their deviations.<br /><br />Their busiest month was April 2004 with 4 (40%) of their deviations.<br /><br />The majority of their deviations are uploaded to the photography gallery (7), while their favourite category was photography>misc with 5 deviations.<br /><br />Comments per deviation: 11.6<br />Favourites per deviation: 2.6<br />Views per deviation: 143.4<br />Comments per day: 0.08<br />Favourites per day: 0.01<br />Views per day: 1.01<br />Pageviews per day: 4.75<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Gallery Stats</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 26 Apr 2005 12:02:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ kawin has <b>5,002</b> pageviews total and  their <b>9</b> deviations were viewed <b>709</b>  times. Kawin watches <b>39</b> people, while <b>44</b>  people watch kawin.<br />
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Overall, their deviations received <b>109</b>  comments and were added to deviants'  favourites <b>15</b> times, while kawin  commented <b>1,139</b> times, making about <b>1.03</b>  comments per day since kawin joined  DA. This means that kawin gave <b>104</b>  comments for every <b>10</b> that kawin  received.<br />
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Their deviation with the most comments  is <b>You have no power over me...</b> with <b>45</b>  comments, receiving an average of <b>3.21</b>  per day in the first 2 weeks, while  their most favourited one is <b> Contemplating Man</b>, with <b>7</b> favourites,  averaging <b>0.21</b> per day in the first 2  weeks. Their most viewed deviation is <b> Contemplating Man</b> with <b>237</b> views.<br />
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<b>1</b> favourite was given for every <b>10</b>  comments.<br />
<br />
Every <b>122.6</b> days kawin uploads a new  deviation, and it's usually on a <b>Sunday</b> , with <b>3</b> (33%) of their deviations.<br />
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Their busiest month was <b>April 2004</b> with <b> 4</b> (44%) of their deviations.<br />
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The majority of their deviations are  uploaded to the <b>Photography gallery</b>  (6), while their favourite category was <b> Art Photography > Miscellaneous</b> with <b>4</b>  deviations.<br />
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Comments per deviation: <b>12.11</b><br />
Favourites per deviation: <b>1.66</b><br />
Views per deviation: <b>78.77</b><br />
Comments per day: <b>0.09</b><br />
Favourites per day: <b>0.01</b><br />
Views per day: <b>0.64</b><br />
Pageviews per day: <b>4.53</b> ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Beautiful. . .</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 08 Oct 2004 23:05:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Today, I experienced sorrow, pity, and  beauty all at once. Sorrow for a  friend's misfortune, pity for the  cause, but beauty in their emotion.  There is beauty in all things, now. Do  you ever feel it? I will admit that I  am at the point where I do not need to  sit still to feel it. It moves you so  strongly, that if it were any more, I  think I could possibly fall over. It's  in the leaves, in their veins, in the  dew that appears on cobwebs. This one  is especially beautiful. One can be so  alone in the mornings, but seeing the  dew on cobwebs...as the solar rays  appear behind it--beautiful. It makes  the morning air not so cold, more  tolerable. I like hearing the leaves  crunch under your feet. I like the  feeling of having your hands in your  pockets, as you're walking alone to the  next building. People walk around you,  and it gives you time to think. ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>doh!! &gt;.&lt;</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 12 May 2004 23:58:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i screwed up on the scrapbook stuff.. i  didn't realize it would take it out of  hte gallery.. and put it in scrapbook..  i was just playing around.. bahh.. now  it screws up my whole 6 black and  white...and then 6 colored.. thing.. o  well.. ill start that.. at the 18th  submission i guess <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>operation organization</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 17 Apr 2004 21:31:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yes almost there! i have one row of b&w,  and then almost done second row of  colored pictures, then i can upload my  sketches, then i can do colored  paintings perhaps?? hmm maybe ill go  digital..then go back to graphite  sketches.. ohh this is a great plan!  yes.. methinks it is a great plan! ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>woman of quiet force</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 10 Apr 2004 22:26:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b>BASIC CHARACTER</b><br />
Your strong emotions and positive  morality, in combination with your  will, make you a resourceful and  goal-directed person. You tend to be  scrupulous and self-effacing, despite  your high level of activity. Though you  often appear quiet and sober on the  outside, you are motivated by a  forceful combination of intellect,  principles, and purpose. You're a  faithful, dedicated worker and friend  with an unobtrusive charm and high  ideals.<br />
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<b>YOUR PSYCHOLOGY</b><br />
At times, your scruples give way to  puntiliousness, especially if you feel  your morals or privacy are being  intruded upon. You have an inclination  toward anxiety and nervousness when too  much is asked of you socailly, and can  become almost obsessed with guilt  feelings and self-doubts about your  abilities. Much of this stems from your  natural introversion. LIke your totem  plant, the retiring fern, you lean  toward shyness and the shadows of  others. Still, you are perfectly  capable of lashing out with the  ferocity of your totem animal, the  sole, should your personal universe be  threatened; you are quick to anger over  emotional issues. Your will is strong,  even if you don't always apply it when  you could. Although you are sensitive  to failure, you are not easily  discouraged from pursuing a course  which you've chosen. <br />
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<b>YOUR DEEP INTUITIVE PERSONALITY</b><br />
There is something captivating about  your intuition--all the more pity that  you do not heed your inner voice more  often than you do. It is penetrating  and effective, but you tend no to put  much faith in it. <br />
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<b>YOUR INTELLIGENCE</b><br />
Your mind works systematically and  methodicall, and yet it is lively.  Intellectually, you tend to be  analytical and require a thorough  understanding of details in order to  decide precisely how you should act on  any problem or in any situation. Your  memory, like your intellect, is  well-structured and vast.<br />
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<b>YOUR EMOTIONAL NATURE</b><br />
You tend to restrain yourself when it  comes to expressing your feelings,  partly because of a natural distrust of  others' affections. Great declarations  of love are downright distasteful to  you--too theatrical and pretentious to  be real. Still, you can be a most  endearing and faithful lover, and you  require a lot of understanding and  considerable attention and affection.  Sexually and sensually, you are soft  and shy, and your sexuality, is often  inhibited by considerations of the  status quo. You're able to turn off  your sexuality in the name of good  taste and are more apt to be seduced  than to do the seducing.<br />
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<b>YOUR HEALTH AND VITALITY</b><br />
Although you tire easily and your  health can suffer from nervous strain,  you enjoy generally good vitality and  health. You need fresh air and some  sort of regular exercise in order to  keep from succumbing to mental  exhaustion. Your weak areas are the  intestines and nervous system.<br />
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<b>THE SOCIAL YOU</b><br />
You have a small circle of faithful  friends whom you entertain with a quiet  charm. You do not like to be intruded  upon--a surprise party is a horror to  you. Often you become upset by the  superficiality of large gatherings and  tend to shy away from a demanding  social schedule. You need the softness  and sincerity of special friends in  small gatherings, not the loud and  frightfully boisterous clamor of  annonymous crowds. The intimate setting  of trusted and proven friends helps you  to bring out your pleasant  sensibilities and, at the same time, to  act in your natural, slightly reserved  way. ]]></description>
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                <title>exercising is hard!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 29 Mar 2004 23:29:15 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I can't do full situps!! My feet go up  in the air when i try to go up!! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/shakefist.gif" width="24" height="18" alt=":shakefist:" title="CURSE YOU!" /> <br />
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murphys law... ]]></description>
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                <title>Taking a break</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 04 Mar 2004 00:40:37 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hi<br />
<br />
I just wanted to say that I will be  taking a month's break from going  online. I hope to come back with plenty  to upload. This break will allow me to  do plenty of sketching, experimentation  with other mediums, and hopefully I  will get my multiple projects done.  I've been wanting to 'start' so many  projects at the same time so that if I  get sick of one project.. or fear that  I am ruining it.. I can go to another  project..and do a little bit on that  one..and so on. This way I get more  things started...and it will push me to  get more of them finished (well that is  the plan anyway!). I am in a period of  soul-searching, as some of you know,  and this break will also be a part of  that. Too much to explain...but good  luck to the rest of you.. I will be  watching.<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /><br />
Karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>*sob sob*</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 09 Feb 2004 23:59:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I lost the file!!! It's all gone... all  gone.... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br />
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*Crying by Don McLean*<br />
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...<i>And I'll always be crying over you,  crying over you <br />
Yes, now you're gone <br />
And from this moment on <br />
I'll be crying, crying, crying, crying <br />
I'm crying, crying over you...<br />
</i> ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>What to do, what to do. . .</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 01 Feb 2004 15:44:33 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b>Mood:</b> Peaceful <br />
<b>Listening to:</b> Passion by Peter Gabriel  (instrumental only)<br />
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I could ride a bike, or climb a tree<br />
Sing a song, or swim in the sea<br />
Hear the buzz of my computers belly<br />
Watch a show on the upstairs telly<br />
<br />
Wonderul is the world today<br />
Tomorrow the skies will be painted gray<br />
The flowers sprout new baby ...borns<br />
To stand beside the stalks of corn<br />
<br />
Admire the nature that all surrounds  you<br />
Lay in the green grass, fresh of dew<br />
Take care of the earth, for she has  been kind<br />
Love yourself, do keep this in mind. . . ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>why?</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 Jan 2004 23:53:33 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ sometimes you make me cry, and the  'you' is not meant to be anybody. its  like as if i dont really know who 'you'  is, but what is really scary, is that i  dont really know who 'me' is either.  emotions run high, and i have no idea  what i am talking about. i can laugh  with you, and smile with you, joke and  love you; and when im all by myself,  ill play a soft tune, listen to the  drumming and the digiredo(sp?), tones  high and low, and i will cry, but i  have no idea why... ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Someone loves you. . .</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 02 Jan 2004 11:33:19 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <i>Ego Dilecto Meo et Dilectus Meus</i> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /><br />
I am my Beloved, and my Beloved is  mine. <br />
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Look up at the ceiling and smile,  people. <br />
<br />
~Kawin ]]></description>
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                <title>i'm bored..</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 20 Dec 2003 21:54:59 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ They say that people who are bored are  boring people themselves... although, I  think it's just work that's dragging me  down... working 6 days straight this  week.. yay me....<br />
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anyways.. I hope I get some inspiration  to create.. or some focus.. or down  time... anyways.. jayen.. I got your  package today <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" />'s to you.. you are  wonderful.. <br />
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happy holidays ppl, and merry xmas<br />
<br />
karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Most honoured...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 03 Dec 2003 11:20:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ A quick last message.. 12 minutes  remaining on this computer I am on...<br />
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I would like to extend many thanks for  those who have added me onto their  deviant list. To this, I feel very  honored, I have not done much art, and  yet I have made friends in this  community, and have came across others  from other communities. For this, I  would just like to tell you, that your  comments have helped me grow in my art.  Your support has made me continue, in a  time, where I really thought of giving  this up, and thinking it to be a silly  past time. <br />
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Much love goes out to the the vets of  ninjai, and the artists that I have  encountered here...<br />
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Thank you <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> X 1 billion trillion!<br />
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God bless, God speed,<br />
Karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Hey Folks!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 02 Dec 2003 00:31:53 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've been noticing that I cannot view  people's art unless it is in Full View  mode, so just a word up, if you're  finding this problem as well, try  clicking on it to see it in full view,  and it should come up in a snap! <br />
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May you continue to be deviant,<br />
Karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>problems?</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 29 Nov 2003 21:24:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ its 9:24pm on a saturday night.. im  having problems with submitting my  art.. it says i submitted it, but it  aint showing up.. anybody else having  problems? ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>i GOT into BCIT! babyyyy~!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 29 Oct 2003 22:44:52 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ BOOYAHhh!!! whats this? whats that?  ohhhh yeahhhh!!! babyyyyy....<br />
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i got into BCIT with "full acceptance"..  it has the most rigorous Advanced  Accounting Program in B.C. Wayyy more  vigorous than UBC's.. graduate with  121.5 credits in the first and second  year...and then go for the bachelors  yayyy!! WOOT.. DO I ROXORS OR do I  ROXORS?? I ROXORS THE CABANA JOE BOB!!  yAHhh!!!<br />
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*so delirious.. MUST NEED PIE!*<br />
<br />
PEACE OUT my chicky  babies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! outtaaa  heresszzzzz<br />
<br />
karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>i deleted it no biggie</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 27 Oct 2003 22:03:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ okay so i deleted the "help me think of  a title please".. mind you i noticed i  spelled 'please' incorrectly.. oh  well.. it just looked stupid after  awhile.. and plus theres so much dead  space cuz the clouds sucked that  night.. like the formation of them..  not the COLOR.. like that sunset would  have looked awesome.. IF the clouds  were spaced out better..and if there  were MORE OF THEM.. the color i can't  complain with..cuz the color was  awesome..but stupid clouds.. stupid  stupid cloud formation.. didn't help me  one bit.. oh well .. winter is here..  so sunsets are very few and far between  now... (From where i live).. i live in  marshlands so i dont get to see it with  the water where as West Vancouver is  lucky.. silly geeks...<br />
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oh well, life goes on ya?<br />
<br />
karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Here Comes the Hawaiian Express..</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 20 Oct 2003 22:57:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey folks! I wont be online for much  really.. I'll maybe update my uhh  webcam thingy depending.. I just need  to study for Bio midterm.. cuz it was  canceled friday..so im having to study  longer.. anywho's...hawaiian express is  here.. major flooding.. warm air  currents, but massive rains.. 495mm so  far... (almost half a meter for those  of you who aren't in with metric  system).. <br />
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I'll probably put THOSE pics for my  webcam after a bit.. right now..webcam  shot shows the night sky and lights  outside the same balcony.. winter is  coming folks...<br />
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winter is coming.... ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Hmm.. Mauna Loa Chocolates...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 14 Oct 2003 21:15:31 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmmmm.. Mauna Loa Chocolates.. straight  from Aloha land... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/i/imslow.gif" width="19" height="19" alt=":slow:" title="Slow" /> Soooo yummy...  *slobers all over them*..Yes that's  right! I have a box of chocolates  straight from the the lovely Big  Island. That's right.... come and get  'em... before their all gone.. aloha  land chocolates.. hmmm.. macadamian  nuts.. Hmmm.. nuts.. hmmm.. chocolate..  hmmm.. hawaii...<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" /><br />
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....This is Karen...signing out... ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Hmmm.. Yummm...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 12 Oct 2003 15:42:28 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Tomorrow is Canadian Thanksgiving yay!!  Today.. we went to Costco..and it was  nuts on the road..everybody is in a  rush to get last minute preparations of  food...and turkey..and vegetarian  lasagna or vegetarian stuffing if you  are a vegetarian.. Yummmm!!! and we  went to costco to buy chocolate cake  for someone at my dads work..and then I  picked out pumpkin pie for me! YAYyyy! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" />  Yummmm.. I just had a big peice of  it..I was going to get some whip cream  thingy..but my mom was like, "PUT THAT  BACK!" .. I didn't even get it out of  their swinging freezer doors <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" />.. she was  like, "there's nothing in there but fat!" ..and I was like, "but.. I like fat! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" />"  LOLL... yeah.. imagine me 20 years from  now.. all plump.. HEhehehe.. ehh I hope  I don't let myself go as I get older..  Oh well! <br />
<br />
Happy Thanksgiving to all you Canadians  out there ...Yummm.. Tomorrow is a  holiday! yay!!! (4 day weekend for me  because I don't have class on Tuesday!)<br />
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God Bless! and be Thankful!!!<br />
Karen ]]></description>
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                <title>Words are invisible wounds...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 06 Oct 2003 23:18:17 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ What sucks, is that people have me on  their deviant list.and I'm not sure if  they have me on journals too.. so now I  feel weird to really write how I feel  about certain things.. afraid that  those who actually know me might be  actually reading this.. almost feel  like I have to censor my feelings  because I'm too afraid of others  finding out how I really feel about  stuff. <br />
<br />
I wonder if others do that too.. you  know? I mean, I'm not saying.. oh hey!  I put a mask on and people think that I  am who they see.. I don't do that.. I  just dont show every corner, angle, and  aspect of myself.. and yet.. the  subject of this title is 'words are  invisible wounds'.. and I want to write  about it.. yet am too afraid of those  who would read this... hear what they  have to say about it.. bahh... I should  really just go to bed...<br />
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Goodnight ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>kerrrplunk...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 07 Sep 2003 22:25:07 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so sweepppyyy folks.. so  sweepppyyy.....*yawns* ]]></description>
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                <title>What a bunch of bullshit..</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 14 Apr 2003 23:50:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmmmmmm.. you know what pisses me off? Is how people can post some nudy  pic it gets so many views...and if somebody puts a drawing up, less  peolple view it..I'm not against nude pictures, but some of the  photographs that I've been seeing on deviant are really amateur(sp?).  I'm not trying to diss people here, but when you are taking a picture,  try to make a SMALL effort in making it seem professional. Add a  blanket, or a sheet in the background... is there any way where you  could add more lighting? I mean.. even if you don't have the best  camera, you can still pur efforts in other areas to make the picture  better.. example.. There was this one picture in Photography>Stock  section, and it was this same girl in different positions, and her  facial expression was the same.. It was cold, and boring. The bed had a  really ugly bedspread on it, which didn't even go with the rest of the  room. It amazes me how with an effortless click, you can get so many  views; but with the hours spent on painting or sketching a piece of  work.. you barely get half of the views that a photo can get. I posted  my grad picture up, and it's gotten the most views in my whole gallery.  That in itself, pisses me off. I mean, how much time does it take to  produce that picture? It took SOME time, but I really doubt it even  compares to the time it took to draw some of my 'actual sketches'.. I  mean.. the fraction it takes to take a picture, doesn't even come CLOSE  to the time spent on say.. hmm.. shading a ball! I just don't get it..  I'm really not trying to attack people who are photographers, because  I've seen some really great pictures. I can totally understand the time  it takes to get the best "sunrise" or "sunset" shot.. or any shot in  nature.. since that is unique in itself..I can appreciate the female  form--I'm female myself. A lot of photographers have taken pictures  that really flatter the female form, but those who dont make the  effort--please, keep it to yourself.<br>
Karen ]]></description>
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                <title>ummmmmm....</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 13 Apr 2003 19:39:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm tired.. but I'm healthy..and my final exam is on tuesday.. i am  ready... hell.. I'm woman.. hear me roar.... hahhaa.. okay..but  seriously.. math will be easy .. piece of cake... ]]></description>
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                <title>ummmmmm....</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 05 Apr 2003 21:47:19 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ im suffering from nicottine withdrawal.. umm.. omggg.. i drank some  wine tonight..so im realy suffering from it now ..cuz i dont have a  cancer stick to make the anxiety to away.. but whatever. .. im doing  alright right? i havent had a smoke in 2 weeks.. going on my third..  almost through my third week..and after a month. .. i'll be good..  wow.. i think its mostly the wine thats made me in this mood.. man.. is  this hard.. if i had a cancer stick right now.. id do it.. umm.. no i  wouldn't.. im doing good.. umm.. be strong.. yes.. ill be strong.. be  strong.. hmmmmmm... ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>~booya~</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 05 Mar 2003 22:10:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~yesssssssssss~i got 95% on my math midterm yay me!!!<br>
<br>
<br>
kg ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>~booya~</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 05 Mar 2003 22:09:52 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~yesssssssssss~i got 95% on my math midterm yay me!!!<br>
<br>
<br>
kg ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>~blah blah~</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 05 Mar 2003 22:01:52 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~BOOYAH~I got 93% on my math midterm.. I R0XORs the cabana!!!<br>
(that doesn't even make SENSE! Lol!Llrfsdjlsjrfo!oeruoertj )<br>
<br>
karen ]]></description>
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                <title>~Tonight~</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 02 Mar 2003 23:19:12 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~WELL THIS SUCKS~Okay so tonight two good friends were being silly..and  I know their intentions were really to just get a rise out of me..but  it wasn't funny at all... somethings were said..and it was like.."ouch  that hurt"...and.."okay the jokes been taken a bit too far now"...  anyways.. im in a bad mood now.. not bad as in mad..but bad as in  sad...<br>
<br>
karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>OMGGGG!!!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 23 Feb 2003 14:17:28 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~WELL THIS SUCKS~I thought I was being original..cuz I wanted to use  the You are Stupid smiley in my ninjai sig.. but silly GOTEN521 already  HAS IT!!!!!!!! asraghhhhhhhh!!!! SHITTEeeeeeee.. mate! ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>This is the night..</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 19 Feb 2003 23:01:27 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~yo~This is the night..that the stars shine so bright.. on this lovely  bela noce.. okay no it isn't..and i doub thats even how the words  really go.. okay so ive drank some wine and ate some cheese..what is  there to party on about? ohh yeah.. look at this .. this rhymes: party  harty!.. ohh yeah.. am i good or what? Well anyways, so tonight i had  my first cheese & wine party with a good buddy of mine.. we shall  call him "Mike" *wink* Anyways, so i read this friends deviant journal  tonight..and it made me so sad..because the minute i finished reading  it..they messaged me online saying they were going to bed and they  neede a good cry..and it sucked because i wanted to take them in my  arms and just hold them there because it just felt right...and lately  ive been feeling weird..although i can cover up my "i feel lost" face  so easily by focusing on concrete "things" that i have to deal in my  life; suck as work.. oh work is such a blessing for me.. its aboslutely  boring, yet i get to watch people and how they are at the library.. its  quite thrilling.. at times.. anyways i must go.. i feel empty and  incomplete since i couldn't get my point across to a certain someone..  to which i hope they know that i love them... ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Eye Doctors..evil!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 15 Feb 2003 20:57:20 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~optometrists suck~So today is february 15th and i am not looking at my  keyboard while i type this so excuse me for any mistakes that i will  have in my following rant.. today i went to the eye doctor and i  tsucked so much... because i didn't like it...okay so any of you had  your eyes dilated so that the doctor can check inside your eye.. like  the inside of your eyeball.. not just the whites of your eyes..but like  your pupils are aall big and then they shine a light in ur eye...and  they look inside ur eyeball..anyways.. so the lady put this eye dropper  stuff on my eyes..and within seconds they were numb!! and it sucked  because i couldnt feel amy eye.. well i dont go feeling my eye and  stuff but like i could'nt feel it when she was putting pressure on  it..see she made me put my chin on this place where u put your  chin..and she pushed this pointy thing in the center of my eyeball and  she pushed it so that she could measure the "pressure" of my eye.. she  did it to both of them.. my family's got glucoma and cataracts in th e  family history and stuff.. and i guess eh wanted to see how bad my eyes  are deteriorating..and then.. like i could feel the after effect of  where she was pressing on my eyeball..but good thing it didn't hurt so  much since she numbed my eye..but then i couldn't see straight for 4  hours.. i hope that says 'four'..anyways.. yeah and like i was in the  mall where my eye doctor hads her practice..and stuff and all the  lights in the mall were hurting my eyes and stuff..and it sucked so  bad.. and u know when u wattch tv and they secensor something? well it  was like that.. every time i saw a light.. it would blurr out and my  whole vision in that area would be blurry..and it didn't help when they  were fitting me with contacts.. and so my eyes couldn't adjust to the  contacts cuz i haven't worn contacts in a really long time.. so i was  like.. dang!! i can't really see..and then i was walking around the  mall cuz my mom wanted to shop..and my eyes kept watering because the  lights were hurting them..and i felt like just closing my eyelids and  keeping them like that..but that stupid numbing effect was still  there..and it was like someone was keeping my eyes open and holding  them open..and i couldn't really lclose them because my pupils were  completely dilated..and if u looked at my eyes.. it looked like i was  on drugs of something.. u couldn't see the brown much.. it was like  this big black circlce.. sorta shitty..and then there was this hot guy  in the mall..and a bunch of the malls lights were behind his head..and  that was all blurry.. so it was liks this blurry halo around his  head..and it was like..wow....that was one good dthing..but nobody  believes me he was hot..since my eyesight was all blurry..so maybe i  was just imagining it..but still.. good eye candy... :/ and then on teh  way home... my mom was driving cuz i certainly couldn't.. all the  headlights of the cars and traffic lights were hurting my eyes.. so now  ive been wearing sunglasses indoors since they still hurt..  and i  lowered the brightness and contrast of my monitor and i have my  sunglasses on still..so it doesn't hurt as much..but hell.. it hurts to  look at the monitor for very long... i hope this wears off soon.. <br>
<br> ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Absolute Uncertainty</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 10 Feb 2003 22:29:26 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~Feeling weird~Well I'm feeling really weird tonight.. It's 10:25pm and  there's nothing much going on... I'm not going back to school in  September like I had planned, and that's a frightening thought.. I'm  going to still be working and saving up money.. *sigh*.. I feel like I  need somebody to hold, physically, not just spiritually.. somebody to  say I love you.. although right now I'm all by myself ..in this  room..and well.. that isn't getting me anywhere.. This September I'll  be going to Europe, and stay with my dads family and see what direction  I should take to get my life really "started". This, freakin' scares me  since I don't know what I want to do with my life, and not knowing or  feeling like I have control over it is really terrifying. I've already  checked some schools to take a trades course, but I don't meet their  requirements, since the courses I took in highschool were directed to a  "science-related" path..and I didn't bother to take any mechanics  courses. But anyways.. I don't really know what to say anymore so I'm  going to end it at that.. <br>
<br>
Keep on loving... ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 15 Jul 2002 23:32:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~For Bryanne~I don't know what to say  bryanne..except I need you to talk to  me.. to really talk to me and withold  nothing...please .. ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 28 Jun 2002 15:01:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~LAST JOURNAL ENTRY~Hi,<br>
<br>
I know I didn't stay long enough and I  never got to show you my photorealism  project..because of my scanner. It  doesn't matter anymore since my GPA  wasn't high enough for my parents to be  satisfied (only a 3.8 and a 85.5%  average) and I wasn't up with the 90%  this year.. <br>
<br>
The result will be our internet being  disconnected since this hinders my  'procreativity'. <br>
<br>
*sigh*<br>
<br>
Even if I'm not here, shine on you  crazy diamonds!<br>
<br> ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 18 Apr 2002 22:15:31 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~FUCKING HELL~I just found out that my  teacher is dying of skin cancer today..  FUCK! This is so unfair... I can't even  type right now.. <br>
<br>
<br>
Karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 13 Apr 2002 23:28:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~THE STARS~Wether galileo was correct,  or wether he was wrong--the stars may  be in orbit; but they don't shine as  bright as they claim. Each one is  supposed to be a sun, yet its warmth is  hardly there. "Kindness" is hard to  find. "Compassion" is very rare. The  authentic ones are cherished as  priceless jewels. When you find  authentic warmth, hold it dear to your  heart. Never shut it out. The stars  (after time) will blow up--shattering  away in a cosmic existence. The warmth  disapparates into nothing. That is why  they do not shine as brighty as they  claim.<br>
<br>
Karen ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 09 Apr 2002 20:46:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~DARK DAYS~A war of voices<br>
That drowns my soul<br>
Killing me slowly.<br>
<br>
Oh the pain, it aches my heart.<br>
If you stay still, you can feel it  actually "ache".<br>
I feel like sleeping it away,  <br>
Perhaps only then will I not feel pain.  <br>
I can sleep away problems, can  I?<br>
Forever and ever? <br>
Just sleep...sleep it away..<br>
<br>
It's my fault.<br>
It's MY fault, I can't deal with my  pain<br>
Deal with their words<br>
Deal with my anger.<br>
I feel so drained of all emotion.<br>
They don't know my pain, my  frustration. It's my fault.<br>
It's my fault I can't deal with my  frustration. <br>
I love them.<br>
Love them so much, that I DO TRY.<br>
I cry now as I write this because it  comes from the heart.<br>
<br>
They wish so much<br>
TOO MUCH<br>
They think that I am as I am.<br>
Yet, I'm not. I'm everything inside.<br>
I'm my words, my hair, my eyes, my  haert, my everything. <br>
But most of all, <br>
I'm ME.<br>
They think they understand me, <br>
Yet even when I cry, they don't hear  me, see me.<br>
They scream and take it that I'm mad <br>
That I don't talk to them.<br>
Yet, I'm really keeping my head down <br>
So they don't see my pain.<br>
The pain shows in my eyes... in my  face.<br>
I want them to know, but I can't seem  to tell them.<br>
I love them, yet I am disappointing  them.<br>
It's all my fault.<br>
All of it.<br>
<br>
Karen ]]></description>
                <author>~kawin</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 07 Apr 2002 18:28:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ~No Control~The fear of falling is so  much greater now. It is as though  you're in a dream. It is completely  dark. Blackness surrounds you. You are  falling at an incredible speed. Air is  flowin gbetween your fingers. Your  hands are outstretched because your  natural tendency is to grab for  something. You are not secure.  Falling... deeper... so fast. It is  almost too fast. The heart is receiving  quite an exercise, for you don't know  when you will crash to the bottom. Or  perhaps, there is no bottom? What if  you fall right through the earth, its  center, fall out of earth? You will die  in outer space, where there is no air.   Your corpse will be floating around the  galaxy...an empty temple with no inner  GOD that embodies it. This empty  capsule will glide among side the Gods  of the outer sky. Escape the limits. It  may be the only physical fleshy corpse  among the heavens. Though, it is dead,  it cannot schmooze among the wise  philosophers of our time. What a  shame.....* I'm quite moody right now..  *<br>
<br>
Karen ]]></description>
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