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]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/20923994/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/20923994/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 16:15:57 PDT
About 2 months ago i had my first anxiety attack ever. I thought to myself wow im getting old. I hadn't seen a doctor or a hospital in like 4 years.

Other than that Ive been going to school and working at the college. It doesnt pay much.

Im rooting for Obama in these upcoming elections.

I never really write. What better way than to express and maintain ideas than to jot them down on paper or text. I dont know if it helps me express my problems or concerns but at least it helps me remember. Maybe if I spot out my problems and give them names. then i can own my problems.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/19320449/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/19320449/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 22:20:42 PDT
i felt like i was water..

...i became part of the universe and had an idea of every white had a black and in from of everything had a way of leveling out


people in society weren't unique but just factors of what they experience and are exposed to.

it was logic and so hard to not see. I felt like a real animal seeing no real material value in anything. however i would analyze the simple things we do as humans like i have never seen them before. i knew why we do laundry, pay taxes, buy cabinets and know that these were innovations of people before our time and i have never noticed it before .

everytime i was reborn a new person and sort of blend in with a new chapter however i never realized how similar they were.it was chaos. never again. however i feel enlightened to some life changing concepts.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/18084698/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/18084698/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 11:03:38 PDT
...

I do believe there are steps to take.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17863435/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17863435/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 11:54:50 PDT not knowing how to set his alarm clock he just bought

I go...

find a plug in
notice a battery backup.
ask what time he wants to wake up every morning.
what his favorite radio station is.
set the time and region.

set the clock and ask him to go home and plug it in.

my goal in life is to do that on a wider scale?

maybe an IT job.

im in college for a Web Development degree..however a multimedia major maynot be too far away.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17700981/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17700981/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 14:58:39 PDT

I feel it is not good...

my natural state feels like it will crumble....

things will change.

no sense in trying to fix some things. others i just with i knew where to start.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17481468/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17481468/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 19:35:42 PDT
Something turned around.

It was very unexpected. I didn't see it coming. As if there was no end.

I am sorry for all the crap we went though....

Maybe this can be a new start.

I love that kid.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17270337/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17270337/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 12:12:06 PDT
I work electronics now.
My dubplates and and turntables come in tomorrow

Life is Good

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17165511/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/17165511/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 14:05:42 PST His words always seemed to blunder
He claimed the world was after him
So he brought the world down under

Marshall was of uptown kin
With a mile long face with a 3 foot grin
Like a church that exiled a sin
Theres just some things that should not have been

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]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/16275621/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/16275621/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 19:20:16 PST
"The best thing about life
Is knowing you put it together"

----

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/16078019/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/16078019/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 13:32:20 PST
Peachy.

My hands are messy from painting.

At the moment im getting ready to head to derby to spend the eve with the famz

I feel lucky to not be working today.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15714158/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15714158/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 21:25:59 PST
I made some email accounts on my personal websites so

ppl can email me at.

deadly22@deadly22.com
deadly22@moroii.com

i got both emails linked to my private server....

maybe the spam bots will leave me at peace now.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15615919/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15615919/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 06:39:26 PST
I haven't had much time to play around with finals and such coming up. However I do have some art and stuff to submit in the near future.

Ive fired up games now and then and they just seem to be boring. My computer used to have all these games and interesting stuff on it. Now I feel its more of a tool. Its not a bad thing really. I made my own business cards the other day.

Aside from that theres nothing new to update.


claire comes soon.

[link]

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[link]

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For you myspace people, I opened up my myspace from private.

[link]

aside from that there are new new updates to report...

have fun.



]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15397444/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15397444/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 19:26:13 PST
I learned some basic skills organizing my files to make my production easier. When I come to think of it. All Hard tasks can be broken into a certain method.

I love premade actionscript.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15342306/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/15342306/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 07:42:32 PDT
8 megapixels of astounding lobster nuggets

bring that shit nukka...

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/14188151/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/14188151/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 22:45:48 PDT
I start classes Monday. Right now I'm focusing on getting a job. This summer has been quite an experience. Change is to be welcomed i guess. It's had its ups and downs.All I can do is do my best and remain hopeful that things will improve.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12886371/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12886371/ Tue, 08 May 2007 09:54:24 PDT
so many good times....

Im gonna miss everyone.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12839647/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12839647/ Fri, 04 May 2007 12:28:28 PDT
My new laptop is swell. Ive been a busy bee. rarely at my house anymore.

I gave two interviews yesterday. I dont think they were Gadzooks matirial. Nothing personal really.

Im sitting in the coffee shop surfing the free internet... I'm on my lunch break. I have so many things on my mind I wouldn't know where to start. I don't know. Im just trying to keep my days eventful.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12736641/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12736641/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 21:55:57 PDT
Let me set a few things. Now. My name is Kevin Heckart. And It has been a dream of mine to have a laptop of my own. My own ideas, expressions, communication, and revisions can be now mobile and more convenient for my life. If thats not a step up then i don't know what is. Im pretty sure there are people with the same aspect in mind , and i feel for your people. I know what its like. Its just a personal thing for me.


My laptop comes in tomorrow...It like a chapter of my life. I know great things will come of it. I had an interview at a new exciting job...it went well...well enough to set up another interview with higher management. I feel like im part of the story that actually reaches some reasoning. Thing go as they should. I fit. I have seen thing I thought I would never. And somehow im supposed to be surprised by it yet I believe this is all how it is supposed to be. I am meant to BE. My life has somehow been a filmstrip that has lost sync of the projector, however now it has found its way on track. For once I feel ahead of myself. In Control. Confident. I hope it stays. This isnt about some gurl either.... this is my life.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12321591/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12321591/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 10:47:22 PDT
V1.24.5.1.1.65

Wish me luck.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12268107/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12268107/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 07:06:00 PDT I want to know what you love most,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing.

I don't care how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for our dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

I don't care what your fucking sign is,
I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow,
if you have been opened by life's betrayals or
if you have become hard and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can tolerate pain, mine or your own,
without trying to hide it or change it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own;
If you can get crazy and dance, letting the fun fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be
careful, be realistic or to remember the limitations of being human.

I don't care if the story you are telling me is true,
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself;
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own
soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty
even when it is not pretty every day,
and if you can source your life from wisdom and compassion.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
And still stand up and shout gabba gabba hey, for no reason at all.

I don't care about where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done for the children.

I don't care who you are, what band you are in or how cool you are.
I want to know if you will stand in the middle of the fire with me
and fight for what we know is right.

I don't care what religion, race, sexual preference
or political stance you have.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if what keeps you from a 6 x 8 cell wall is what really matters to you.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12212485/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12212485/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 21:45:26 PDT
Today is a very special day for me. I have changed. A lot. Its amazing. Reminds me of 'Metamorphosis' by Franz Kafka. Fear has seemed to be apparent but a plan is always in order.

Justified.

Fuck.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12099729/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12099729/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 22:21:33 PST
Nothing really bothers me at all.

Im attending butler classes soon.

My job is ok.

I have a lot to look forward to.

I just dyed my hair...

I love my friends....

Its like another chapter of a novel I can talk about.

This night is epic because it is mine.

I am overwhelmed by my own freedom and opportunity.

I enjoy everything.

That is all.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12071171/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12071171/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 17:11:23 PST
]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12046011/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/12046011/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 21:01:13 PST
Hello Mind

How have you been?

Do you want me to lie or do you seriously want to know how I feel?

Aww fuck I wouldnt tell you anyway...

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11915751/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11915751/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 23:44:19 PST
So far ....

'Me, I'm Not' is my favorite song of the album. The end is very moving.

there have been a few leaks of the album that i have had the privilege to let vibrate my eardrums.

Im moved into my new domain. Its all well and good. I posted some pics of my girlfriend, Rachel. Shes amazing as always. I will spare the details for no one will understand them as much as myself and even that I cannot even begin to write about for I lack the expression to do so.

Among other things, I've been here and there. Applying at schools and new jobs. Saving Pennies. Did my Taxes. Little stuff here and there.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11627872/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11627872/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 19:32:04 PST
Rachel and I were on our way to Augusta to hangout. These past weeks have been amazing like walking in luke warm water. We have so much in common. Our connection is perfect. We stopped at a Quicktrip on Lincoln and Hydralic. When I was backing out my left brake locked. I bought new brake pads priors but was waiting for the weather to get better before I got them installed. It got really bad really fast. My pad locked into my caliper. We were stranded at Quicktrip. But It was fun because at least I was with her. Hard times. But, its all good. My dad came and we are going to work on it tomorrow. So my car is just stuck there at the gas station until we get it fixed. It would cost too much to get it towed. I have work on friday so i hope it gets fixed.

my phones screen is about to die too....

Its not going to get me down.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11575458/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11575458/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 11:52:35 PST





Things are looking up.
I have a ways to go.

My bank didn't charge me for over drafting. It was awesome. Im looking at moving in with a friend of mine.Its not the best place in the world, but the bills are cheap. Last night was amazing. I had fun at the arcade and spent quality time with Rachel.

I can look forward to many things in the future.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11515487/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11515487/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 09:08:10 PST

Wrecked my car on my way to pick up paycheck. (because of snow)
Recieved a rather small paycheck (because of crappy hours at work)
Over drafted in my bank. (because of repairs)
Might not be able to pay my cell phone bill. (because of overdraft)

Most would say that i had a pretty crappy weekend. But, not me. I know i had a wonderful weekend. I got to hang out at Rachel's house. Shes amazing. We have so much in common. I gives me hope for tomorrow.



This will work out. I will ask for help from my dad for like 30 buck to get me by until next paycheck. And my phone bill will get paid. And hopefully find a job closer to home with better hours.

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11025043/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/11025043/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 06:17:04 PST
]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10870631/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10870631/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 17:00:50 PST _ _

I analyze myself. new friends are so hard to find....my phone contact list gets smaller....the hole gets bigger...the social paranoia gets more powerful...the truth becomes more clear...the pain becomes more felt...and one sits there with nowhere to run and no one to communicate with and the walls get smaller...the air becomes scarce...warmth of a tear becomes a vital sense....and he says "man, I hit it low" ... silence ...the last thing on his mind is his other half...

did u know loneliness and despair have a smell
the smell of damp linen pillowcases and Kleenexes
its something u see. Too
its got a pattern like some foreign planet you look strait up to find it
its got a feel..
its a cold that you don’t feel...but you still wrap your arms around yourself to protect you from the cold...
its has a personality.
it will always wait for you....it will always be there for you...it is your true friend
- -

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10588121/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10588121/ Wed, 01 Nov 2006 22:57:59 PST
With a little mix of somthing else....

Thats my life.....

Im not saying that im totally devistated but thinks could infact be better....

Some people do not come to stance with thier own issues. Get over them, I tell you. Fool. You are fooling yourself.....And hurting others.....This attachment means nothing if its only one sided........

Enjoy what you have....Everyone

]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10402578/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10402578/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 15:04:29 PDT

This week was very stressful. At least its over for now. Todays my one day off in the week. At least I have this.

My car is fixed. Im pretty happy about that. The new parts we put in it cost more than the car. I offered to pay my dad for the parts and fixing its but he replied. "Im not going to let you do that" My car is better than ever. I just gave it a tune up and cleaned it too. Its ready to go places if need be. I truely 'baby' my car

I still go on my nightly walks. I need to get out at times It calms my soul. Work has been really stressful. I feel isolated from the friends I have. The ones I am not isolated from in a sense are pure gold. Awxsome. Although among the mess of problems in life we have, I will always seem to have a sort of happiness to look forward to.

Theres a girl whom i have interest for. Im convinced she doesnt have interest in me. Her phone broke so she stopped returning calls and calling;lost total comminication. I still like her and want to hangout with her and get to know her. But overall, its not up to me. She asked me one night when I was watching the game why do I look so sad. I didnt know what to say. I had alot on my mind. But wasnt 'sad'. Could it be that she is as afriad to show affection as I am? Could it be that we are two of the same quest and our lack of initiative on both sides are the only things keeping us apart? And maybe if she knew how I felt about the situation and felt the same, it would mean the beginning of something new and beautiful.....perhaps... we may never know....









Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart




]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10294936/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10294936/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 15:43:47 PDT

I bought WoW the other day....

Prolly not the best idea on meh part....
at least I wont be bored.....

My car is still broken....

Im pretty sure 'that girl' has no interest in me...

Planning to see placebo the 29th...






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10274162/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10274162/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 17:21:40 PDT

Concert Roxed.....

Im in the process of getting my hair cut on my day off tomorrow....

tonight im dying my hair....mainly because i didnt go get it cut today because i didnt have time...






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10230017/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10230017/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 20:17:37 PDT

Im going to KMFDM tomorrow w00t w00t...

i hope to have a fun time....

and to get my mind off of stuff that has been botering me...






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10198472/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10198472/ Tue, 26 Sep 2006 21:59:16 PDT

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck

MY CAR

Its Dead

And im stranded with no transportation....

I feel like a freedom has been killed and now i am stuck in a hole....

Im so depressed over it....

Why me

Why the fuck me right now...

WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRR!!!



It could get no worse right now.....

Im stuck here with 'the bad decisions crowd....

I feel like just camping in the street instead in the presence of this.....





I feel like screaming and kicking somthing....


Logic.... must maintain ....






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10160680/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10160680/ Sat, 23 Sep 2006 09:57:38 PDT

Listening to: With Teeth - NIN
Reading: Metamorphasis - Franz Kafka
Watching: Pi: Faith in Chaos

Last night was fun and interesting. I got to hang out with alot of friends.

Earlier this week,

I fixed some ppls computers and they said they would mail me money for it. :woot:

Today,

Im going to best buy with and Roger.


Right now,

Im uploading ringtones to my phone... It feels like an old past-time

Sunday,

I plan to go to a movie. I really hope it works out.






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10153753/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10153753/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 16:02:12 PDT

I bought a Jacket yesterday...

I took this pic on the way there...




I should take more pics....






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10137956/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10137956/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 22:53:54 PDT

I have an interview for a better job today.....

Wish me luck...

Then I hope to hang out with Christine because she doesnt have work...






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10126754/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10126754/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 20:26:31 PDT

"My black backpack's stuffed with broken dreams
20 bucks should get me through the week
Never said a word of discontentment
Fought it a thousand times but now

I'm leaving home
Here in the shadows
I'm safe
I'm free
I've nowhere else to go but
I cannot stay where I don't belong

Two months pass by and it's getting cold
I know I'm not lost
I am just alone
But I won't cry
I won't give up
I can't go back now
Waking up is knowing who you really are

... in the shadows
I'm safe
I'm free
I've nowhere else to go but

I cannot stay where I don't belong
Show me the shadow where true meaning lies

So much more is made in empty eyes"

_ _

Enought of it is left in resolution.....
Its a very vulnerable time for me...
Not totally a bad thing...






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10078556/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10078556/ Fri, 15 Sep 2006 15:49:12 PDT

[edit]

WTF was i saying...of course i can get over it....

hahahah im THe fucking Man.....

Im Kevin Heckart.....and you are not so go get fucked...









Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good


- Evanescence "Good Enough"







Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10051779/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/10051779/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 16:01:50 PDT

Fuuuuuck.....

I dun really want to talk about my life right now....

maybe later....






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9889736/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9889736/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 20:48:10 PDT

Mood: In Love
Listening to: Youre My Best Friend - Queen
Reading: Metamorphasis - Franz Kafka
Watching: V for Vendetta

I will be moved out by sunday at least. Maybe earlier... This might be a one of the last journals I write for a long time....

but prolly not.... seeing that im buying a laptop.....

"all systemz go"






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9861900/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9861900/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 12:34:58 PDT

Mood: In Love
Listening to: The nurse who loved me - A Perfect Circle
Reading: Metamorphasis - Franz Kafka
Watching: Snakes on a mutha fucken plane!!!

If I lived in my car, I could:

Save up for college
Have less bills to pay
Buy a laptop (for college)
Save up for an apartment....

I have had alot of time to think. My priorities in life need to be examined.....

I just need to sort out the details....
I can't keep living like this....
Its in a circle where nothing can be progressed...
Im 19, its about time I start making decisions that are good long term and stop worrying about the temporary closures....

All is well on this front....






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9833833/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9833833/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 00:12:05 PDT

Mood: In Love
Listening to: What would you do - City High
Reading: Metamorphasis - Franz Kafka
Watching: Snakes on a mutha fucken plane!!!

Theres this game for pc called need for speed most wanted... and i have the crazy idea of getting people together to play it......they all need to supe up thier carz though

Im still crazy about Ally!!!! I <3 her soooo much......

I have a feeling that there are gonna be alot more photos posted on my page....

Im feeling alot more artistic.... Im also in love....

yes...

i said it...






Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart


]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9830704/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9830704/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 18:06:52 PDT

Listening to: Fuck the pain away - The Peaches
Watching: Snakes on a plane

Can't wait to go out and take some pictures!!!


Im looking for another job in my spare time lawl.....


everything else seems to be going well.....

Comrades:

Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart ]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9821757/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9821757/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 23:08:32 PDT

Listening to: Fuck the pain away - The Peaches
Watching: Snakes on a plane

I bought a camera today.....

Im hoping to take some pictures with it soon...

I miss Ally...



Comrades:

Deadly22 a.k.a. Kevin Heckart ]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9813743/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9813743/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 08:53:33 PDT ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9780957/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9780957/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 09:48:21 PDT
I need a better job.

A more dynamic Kevin is in the making.... ]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9696971/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9696971/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 23:12:07 PDT

ugh...

i donno why either.....




i need some medicine....can quite possibly the company of others ]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9690479/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9690479/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 12:20:24 PDT
This ones as open as possible...

My everyday living in my own place. Feelz depressing at times. But to move back in with my mother would mean my own demise for the bad decisions made by the people who live in that house. So I can feel confident in living here. Im still in awe and cannot believe i can financialy make it on my own. I go to interviews for a better job. And college feelz like a off and on possibility....still within reach but with such weak arms. I dont even have a very stable budget...But as of now I have no debt and for that I feel good. Having my own house, car, and phone for which I pay for all is not that bad...

on the other hand....

My self confidence feelz in shambles at times. Ally. Well. It worries me. She is so perfect in my eyes....I cant but worry that somthing like this is a great big terrible lie. A huge joke. i think this because I am happy and well havent been happy like this in awhile and used to think that being like this wasnt for me or somthing.....Oh well....I am gonna live with it.....And do my best for her as much as a surely can..... It feelz bad at times because she lives so far away. And somtimes she forgets to call or somting comes up. I cant let my paranoia get the best of me though... Who knowz.... I have alot of stuff in front of me....And gotta enjoy what I get as it comes at me.....

The quiet side of me.....

Still working @ DQ. Thats all for now. I need my own digital camera. At least 4 mega pixel ]]> ~keitaro22 http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9670726/ http://keitaro22.deviantart.com/journal/9670726/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 22:00:10 PDT
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