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The EPIC Feature

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/23302570/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 08:16:13 PST I just want a distraction to be honest, because its just one of those days that everything seems to suck. On a brighter note, my subbie is almost over and I didn't get to do what I wanted - to feature all my great watchers. BUT, I plan a big huge feature ahead, so everyone who leaves a comment here saying they want to get featured, will get a place in the feature in my next journal. Hopefully it'll make someone happier

Oh, and I know I've been down on submissions, but things have been such a hectic mess lately, I really didn't have time. I do however have loads coming soon and I'll hopefully get some of it out tomorrow and in the next few days...

Exam countdown: 2.5 days left....

]]> ~kibirkstele Guess what + love http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/23085910/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/23085910/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 15:38:42 PST Well guess what, once again, I'm sick.
I think I actually don't have an immune system anymore... Like seriously... How many times can I get sick over 1 winter??? And its always in a way, I always miss something important to me because of it.

This time itÂs my French tape test on Tuesday, if I miss it IÂm toastÂ
Anyhow, on a brighter note. My fever went up enough so that my head is actually pretty clear. I hate being foggy minded.
Going to get a news article out tomorrow so watch out for that, itÂs gonna be hot!

Mock exams in two weeks, eep!

And I decided to participate in EpPoWriMo, an epic poem writing contest.
Which is an epic, 1000 words, with rhythm etc. I thought IÂll take up reading some Iliad in English to be sure what IÂm aiming at, but man, there is like no time for anything right now. Nonetheless, I hope I can make it. Its such an awesome project, it sucked that I missed NaNoWriMo, no way IÂm missing this.

Anyway, and epic is a huge step. I mean plot wise alone, is HUGE. I havenÂt started brainstorming yet (I know, I know, I should really hurry upÂ

) so if you have some brilliant ideas, pile them on me, Âkay?
I was meant to say more happy things but I forgot about themÂ
No wait, we got more snow today! I got into a snowball fight with a guy from work while we waited for the owner to get there and open the shopÂ It was so much fun!

Okay dokes.

That's it for tonight,
Ruta.

Features

Stamps

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22987565/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 16:19:08 PST Today is my dA 1 year anniversary!!!!

I can't believe its been a year!!!
And I got a subbie today too. Its just a month but I still love it!!!
Still need to find a CSS. The one that actually works too!
Something nice and red maybe?

I just want to thank so much to all 60 of my watchers and everyone else I met around dA that made it suck an amazing artistic experience. I really appreciate all the critique, all fangirl screams and everything I learned from you and about you. In general, I want to thank people who were there for me when I was giving out about something random and totally pointless, who were there to cheer me on during one of my writer's blocks, who were there to keep me going when I thought I'm finished (thats bout my bleak patch while I was working on Between the Lines). I like to thank for for sticking with me for a year and not once, letting me down in any way, quite the opposite, you all were great support.

And to Sammi, Dan, Tali (unless your friends are calling you a different name already, even though technically you still have to stick with the old one[for everyone else, don't ask, just don't

]) , ~Slightly-Odd and ~barbed-m-mud thanks for making me laugh when I wanted to cry.

Now, go ye all and abuse that shoutbox I put my page, lol. Shoutboxes rock my socks off!!!

Just for the record, prepare for a huge amount of poles!!

Featured Artist

Stamps

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22901483/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 10:01:01 PST

That short story coming up real soon. And most of my friends who read it really liked it in general. As usual, the intro isn't done well enough to draw the reader in instantly so I'll have to correct it. But when I'm done I'll post it up

]]> ~kibirkstele Pimped http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22732805/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22732805/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 12:42:09 PST Did you see the new user pages???!!! I've been waiting for them to be introduced for general public ever since they first appeared and I LOVE it now!!!!

What do you think?

But it kinda makes me sad that I don't have a subbie...

The first thing I'm getting when I get a laser bank card is a subbie!

Today was briliant and I'm VERY happy right now. And you will probably be getting more art from me especialy since I'm getting the hang of my PS.

And there is a short story coming out soon. Keep an eye out for it.

Love ya all to bits,
Ruta.

xxx

Give them some LOVE people!

]]> ~kibirkstele Lietuviams & photoshoot screwed over http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22628860/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22628860/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 08:05:18 PST >>>>>Scrol down for English part of the journal.

Tiesiog norejau paklausti Lietuviu kurie si tai skaitys, ar zinote, matote kas per nesamones Lietuvoje dedasi. Riauses prie seimo rumu, zmones pries valdzia eina toks vaizdas vel nepriklausomybes metai, o mano giminaiciai kai kurie neturi ne zaliausio supratimo kad tai vyksta, ir ne kokiam kaime, Kaune gyvena ir nemato kaip salis byra. As busiu neutrali del akivaizdziu ir neakivaizdziu priezasciu. Viena is ju kad nenoriu buti akmenimis uzmetyta zmoniu kurie palaiko viena ar kita puse, o likusios priezastys liks nepaminetos...

Bet norejau isitikinti kad jauni zmones dar gaudosi kas darosi aplink juos.
* * * * * * *

Today I got the house to myself and planned to do a nice photoshoot but it didn't work out, and there is a fucking storm outside and I'm angry, sad, depressed and in a worst possible mood!
I was meant to be talking to my friend on skype today. Mostly about guys and what is going on with our lives, and she's not online. I should probably text her to log on. But I realised I didn't want to talk. I wanted to talk to her but I didn't want to talk about what we were going to talk about. Maybe its just because my life seems a big pile of crap right now, the weather and a huge load of homework and the whole college aplication deadline stuff, and exams are adding their toll on everything too.
So yeah, since the planned photoshoot didn't work out, no artistic semi-nudes to you (yes, thats what I was planning to shoot) my little pervy friends.

And In general, if I won't get someone to model for me, I'll go insane. And there aren't even desent landscapes for me to get ditracted on. (Winter is not particularly pretty in Ireland...)
I still have some pictures to submit but I'll get to it later...

And sprry for laying all of this on you guys, usualy my friends are very much my family but I don't want to burden any of them with all this crap. I mean who wants to hear rants/whining of a fellow teen?

See ya folks,
Ruta.

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]]> ~kibirkstele Truth or Dare? http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22544719/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22544719/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 14:20:16 PST
I just thought how I'm saying too many secrets isn't healthy so I thought for once I'll follow my own advice

By the way, today was a kick-ass day, although I thought its gonna be horrible.

Lots of Love,
Ruta.

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]]> ~kibirkstele To love and to DRINK! http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22466583/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22466583/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 08:47:31 PST [link]

Guys, you just HAVE to watch this. I mean its just PURE and COMPLETELY awesome RANDOMNESS!!!

Going ice-skating tomorrow. But its a school tour and I've no idea what other people are going so I have a feeling its a disaster waiting to happen... Or maybe it'll be good. I really hope it will.

I'm thinking about organizing a contest....I'm not sure what the theme of it would be yet. Would anyone be interested?

Lots of Love,
Ruta.

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]]> ~kibirkstele Taking things apart... http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22408737/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22408737/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 06:40:28 PST
It was really fun (as I often say, I'm easily amused.) and I got to keep the bottoms of the drawers because they are really good for painting, and they are big too! So thats gonna be fun. I still have a tiny bit to finish up on the old painting, but its practicaly done.

The new one I picked out is "Dahlia, Red Flower" by Laurie Justus Pace. (Yes I use references for painting, I'm lame like that.) And I found some more of my old work yesterday. I thought I left it in a different country...

You might have noticed "You have to be me..." in my gallery. Probably my first philosophical SUBMITION. Well point is, I can't sleep so I think even more than I usualy do... Which probably isn't even healthy.... ^^ Point is, I'm trying to balance out art, writing, photography, music, well all my art in short, with my school work, but its VERY hard. My exams are at the start of June and I have to do well, plus I'm down on motivation, again, because I'm little doubtfull about my college choice (again)... So I just want to say sorry for the upcoming lack of submitions. To everyone who are reading "Between the Lines": Please don't kill me guys. I'm doing the best I can to get it out...
And one more thing to you, if you have in mind something you really want to happen in 'Between the Lines' its your chance to make it heard. I'm taking ideas from the readers and I'll put some of them into the story before the ending if it fits into the context, so don't be shy!

I think this is it. I have a load of pictures already taken. I'll TRY to get them out, but no promises....
Gotta go and do an English paper. So I'm not in this world for the next three hours...

(

I'm getting Photoshop CS4 in like 2 hours...

)

Lots of Love,
RÅ«ta.

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]]> ~kibirkstele Happy New Year and a Cow http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22305397/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22305397/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 14:04:23 PST
Don't have time for much but I hope you have a blast tonight, and that next year is going to be a lot better than this year (which seemed to be pretty shite for most of us...)
I'm gonna buy a cow! Well not really, but I'd like a souvenir cow statue, they always are really cute and funny...

I might get one if I see a nice one around the place... (Probably won't see one around, but you never know...)
And the whole big deal about cows here is because 2009 is the year of the brown cow/bull.

Oh, I finally got out of the house today. We went down to see YesMan. It was really good and funny, you should see it!

LinksmÅ³ NaujÅ³jÅ³ MetÅ³!!!!!

Neuvairuokit iÂgÄrÄ arba per daug linksmi. GirdÄjau kad Lietuva vis dar apsitraukus ledu.
Dovi, parasiau e-mail'a, nepamirÂk pasitikrinti.

Lotsa Love,
Ruta.

]]> ~kibirkstele Sick...Again!!!! D; http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22226471/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22226471/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 13:04:28 PST But I can take all that crap, I'm far tougher then some stupid flu, the main reason why I'm upset that I will be missing =ArtfromRed's 18th birthday because of it, and I was really looking forward to that... I was especialy looking forward to seeing someone that night that I don't get to see often enough. I wish he was still in school...

Well we might go to see Twilight with a few other people so that is the only thing thats good about that....

Plus I got the birthday boy a cool present and now I'll have to give it to him in school when we get back from holidays...

Anyway, I know I shouldn't be ranting and whinning like that but I really do feel like crap...

Anyway, since I'm stuck at home I'll try to write more of Between the Lines. If I'll be able to get out bed that is....

No one got my Kiriban so no one's getting a prize!!!

And the last five or so deviations are the Christmas present for people. I'm too lazy to put down links and dedications. So if you have been around a quite lot lately, check those deviations.

Lots of love,
Ruta.

Anyone has some possitive energy to spare?

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]]> ~kibirkstele *Merry Christmas, Everyone! http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22159146/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/22159146/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 07:29:35 PST I'm soo happy its finally here. And I know that I probably don't have a right to celebrate Christmas in some people's opinion because I'm not particularly religious but... I don't care, I just love the holiday so much! And not for commercial reasons either.

We start celebrating on Christmas eve, today, with a huge dinner consisting of at least 12 courses, we have about 15-16 so far, and I THINK we're still counting

and they can't consist of ANY meat. With the last day of advent and all... And tomorrow we are going to open all the presents and have loads and loads of food again(major weight gain plz

) like turkey, ham, and loads of other foreign stuff you would probably have no idea what it is.... And this year my parents and I are gonna play Monopoly lolz

What are your plans for the holiday??? Oh, and since I missed the 3k and 4k page views I'm doing a Kiriban on the 5000. Catch it!!!!

I really hope my Christmas cards reached dA h.q. in time!

The thing I tried to organize in my area didn't work out 'cause I was sick and then I ran out of time to get everything sorted...

But at least there will be people going down caroling at the old people's home that we wanted to bring cards to. And school chaplain said he'll make sure it becomes a tradition from next year on, so I guess some good did come out of it after all.

Chapter 18 might not come out today, due to all the preparations that have to be done. But I'll try.

Tik Lietuviams:

LinksmÅ³ KalÄdÅ³ visiems!!!! Smagiai kimÂkit pilvus per sekanÄias tris dienas.

Dovi, bÅ«tinai papasakosi kaip KalÄdos praÄjo

NeÂinau ar laiÂkas atÄjo ar ne, Kauno paÂtas Âiais metais labai lÄtas.

Tikiuosi, kad gavai.

Dar kartÄ, LinksmÅ³ KalÄdÅ³ visiems. Linkiu smagiai praleisti laikÄ!

Lots of Love this Christmas,
Ruta

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]]> ~kibirkstele The PERKS of being Sick http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21974373/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21974373/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 04:20:51 PST
These are actualy amazing things considering I fell asleep about half past one last night - I just couldn't sleep. Thankfully I had someone to keep me company

The down sides are the obvious feel-not-so-good factor and the fact that I can't speak. To make it even better... I have a prayer service to sing at tomorrow and carroling in the village/town on Tuesday, I will actualy die if I have to miss that...

Requests are still open and I take ANYTHING!!!
(Tali, you still need to specify a little on what you want!!!)

We already have our tree up so you'll get some Christmas shots soon. I just have to transfer the photos and maybe edit a few...and theres a bunch of stories and stuff that will be coming, I just have to type up a lot... ^^

By the way, some of you might have heard about Christmas Card Project organised by dA. I took part, so should you. Furthermore it inspired me so much I organised a similar thing for the old people's home in my town. We're writing up cards for everyone who is staying there over Christmas, because they don't have a family anymore, or they don't have a family who cares enough to take them home over Christmas.

Oh, which Photoshop version is the best one to go for?

LotsA Love,
Ruta

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]]> ~kibirkstele If YOU LOVE Me at all http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21849944/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21849944/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 14:58:18 PST
On the other side of things, I've been thinking about this for about 2 weeks now, since I made my first one.
Its a designer refil pads/notebooks by... ME lolz
It would not be expensive but I'm not sure about the prices just yet.
Would you be interested? It would be AMAZING if you could spread the message between your friends, maybe to someone who you know would love that kind of idea. Of course you might feel that you are buying a cat in the bag/sack/whatever because I haven't put many of my designs up, but remember my halloween costume one (is in the first 10 recently submited), its about like that. I can do sophisticatedm gothic, punk artsy or just pure mad. I'm gonna upload some sample designs soon. Its your choice. I'm thinking about t-shirts too, but that still needs some thought.
So, anyone wants to order one?

But before I get this up and running... My parents would probably kill me/call me an idiot repeatedly/forbid me to use the internet for like the eternity or all of the mentioned above if I told them about this plan. So I need to hide the income of cash because they tend to read my bank statements... (Don't ask why... I'll never get it, they probably abuse the fact that I'm not 18 yet...) So any ideas how I could keep this little business a secret??

]]> ~kibirkstele Already???????? http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21701431/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21701431/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 14:55:15 PST
But I'm gonna pull through, or thats what I'm saying to myself, lol.

Doing my nails right now, and gonna go to sleep, I'm so tired its really hard to stay awake... I've no idea what to do with them, so it would be nice and go with my dress (which is white and red and gorgoeus!

If I am going down, at least I'll go down in style, lmao)
I have the base coat on, almost tranparent, the one you use for french manicure, but I don't like it. I'd say I'm just gonna leave it and go to sleep.

Practising from 9 to 11.15 tomorrow morning, which means I'm missing the main day of the open day of the college I want to go to (phrasing frenzy? lol), but its on on saturday too so I can go then.

It all sounds kinda crapy when i wrote it down now, but I really am exited about it all and... happy, and last year's graduates that were in bands and stuff are coming in for the night too, and I miss them. So its panning out to be a great night!

I fixed Simon's mentor badge, kinda. LOL.

Anyways, gonna go to sleep 'cause it doesn't look like I can think straight right now...

Goodnight, Wish me luck,
Ruta.

]]> ~kibirkstele Absolute Christmas Madness http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21628198/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21628198/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 09:45:08 PST > [link]

Check it out, its LOVE!

My Christmas Wish list:

*********** A SUBBIE!!! I WOULD LOVE YOU FOREVER IF YOU GAVE ME SUBSCRIPTION LOLZ I am still one of those people who hope a sub might appear out of nowhere

**************

1. I really really really want a laptop. Dell inspiron to be more exact, Don't think I'll be getting one before college...

2. ART, be it fanart of my own characters, other characters or best of all, OCs!!! Or stamps, I love stamps, or a new flash icon. Any art. From online one to prints! I'm a total art addict. lol

3. Not to be commited by my english teacher after he reads my poems

Or refered to a school coucilor...

4. Get a debs date that I would be happy to go with.

5. Go to a live concert of a band I like before summer.

6. More time. And requests lol

7. Know what to ask my parents for christmas. Suggestions plz???

8. Know I am not an outsider in a crowd of my friends. I'm hitting my usual november depresion everytime I go to school tired. Any remedies from that other than sleep and pulling a sickie?

9. BOOKS, BOOKS AND MORE BOOKS!!! I LOVE READING!!!

10. Be HAPPY with where I am in life.

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]]> ~kibirkstele Ups and downs = weirded out http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21616742/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21616742/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 15:40:16 PST
CHARITY CONCERTS IS NEXT FRIDAY!!!! EEP!

Well I've been writing poetry for a while, and I've given my work to my friends so they could read it. And on friday I got this irrational urge in the midle of my english class. I had an original of 'Heartbeat' with me, in one of my notepads. I wrote it out and gave it to him to read. And... He loved it!!! I mean he said that there might be talent there and asked me to bring in more... And the guy was lectured by Seamus Heany (not sure if I spelled it right...) and he won a nobel prize, so his students should have an idea about poetry too, right? So in general I am extremely happy about this.

Then some you might have noticed that I flooded your inboxes with my poems, old ones too. But I'm writing them all into one notebook, because so far, dA was my storage space. So while I'm at it, I'm making some changes too, plus most of my new watchers only have read a few of my poems so I guess I wanted to show them the old ones too, get few new opinions as well. To people who read them already - Sorry. But I wanted to adjust them too. Make them more flowing. Because now when I read over them, I realise that I have improved quite a bit ^^

Oh, today was interesting... One guy in the shoe shop asked if he could have my number...

Ofcourse I said no, but it still was a bit of a compliment, proves to me that I still have it in me, plus he was cute and wasn't weird about me saying no...

And then after the movie (a family day out, we watched Max Payne) couple of girls in the bathroom asked me if they could take a picture with me... Sorry but that weirded me out soooo much!!! O_o I mean are the demented or something?

Anyhow... Have to go to sleep now...

Got a long list of books I want today... Torrents here I come, haha!

Oh, and I hot the hottest pair of jeans ever on friday!

See you soon,
Ruta

]]> ~kibirkstele New. All Hallows Eve http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21229449/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21229449/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 09:07:05 PDT Hi lads and ladettes

,

Well, I just have to scream this out... I HAVE A NEW CAMERA!!! A DSLR!!!! NICON D60!!!! (I LOVE NICONS AND THE WAY THEY GO OLD SCHOOL...WITH STABILISATORS IN LENSES) AS OF TUESDAY!!!!! AND I WENT ON A MINI PHOTOSHOOT TODAY, BECAUSE THE SUN WAS OUT, AND OMG I'M SOOO HAPPY!!!!

So now my pictures should qualify for more then snapshots (you know who you are....

)!!! Although I'm only starting to to use it and it will be a while until I get the full quality that the camera is capable of, so just be patient with me, kay? (I ask that a lot, don't I?)

Halloween is tomorrow!!! Can't wait! I'll post my costume on dA latter because it kicks-a$$!!! Seriously, the best ever, and took me about 4 hours to paint the back of it yesterday (yes, I should have been studying all that time.) but its sooo worth it!

Who are you going to be? I'm being an urban elf (with bright yellow ears

)!!!!

I'm making chicken enchiladas italian way for dinner, yum!!!

Love ya all,
Ruta

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]]> ~kibirkstele Feed your brains and the rest of your body parts http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21154823/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21154823/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 12:01:16 PDT [link]

Some of you might remember the search of invormative blogs that would provide news with a little twist. Well I spent a LOT of today looking for those sites... In vain. So I created my own. It just launched and it only has one article but its gonna be BIG if anyone will read it. Its interactive so if you ask me to look into any topic, I will. So click on the link at the start, read, comment, tell your friends and enjoy yourselves!

Love ya all,
Ruta

]]> ~kibirkstele Give some LOVE http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21124055/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21124055/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 11:11:43 PDT [link] Give it some LOVE, and spread the message!!!! I know I haven't been on much but is it too much to ask? Don't think so! So go and read it NOW!!! Yes, yes, you, the one who is starring at the screen right now!

Oh, I got through auditions for the charity contest. I'll be doing two pieces for it on violin.

Exams end tomorrow and then its mid-term. A week off school!

So I'll post some pics and stuf. BEWARE of that!

I'm gonna be an Urban elf for Halloween!

Love you all,
Ruta.

]]> ~kibirkstele Time is going by http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21003397/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/21003397/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 15:05:28 PDT So updates on what happened recently.

School is gonna choke me. The amount of stuff I have to do (but don't) is insane, all that we have to learn... And the first round of mock exams is next week.. I'm soooo f*cked...

I choped my hair off. Yes, you heard it right, that curly, waist lenght mane is gone. Its just a little bellow my shoulders now.

And I really like it. Its not as a helluva to look after...

The most amazing thing is that... I'm happy... And content. Even though I am tired so much I nearly pass out at school. I'm gonna get killed when mock exam results come out. I am single (and loving it, by the way), don't even have a crush (people who have a crush on someone are usualy irrationaly happy) and there is nothing special about anything, except I had auditions for a charity concert and I think I got through. And although a lot of you might think I am happy all the time, its not true. I try my best but I haven't felt so light and content (not hyper kind of happy) in... well I can't remember when I felt so content to be honest... (Might be the memory loss...) But I think its all because I finaly made a decision about my future. I'm going to go into finance and this time its not because my parents force me to do so, this time it is my own choice.

Can't wait for halloween! I'm being an elf

except I can't find elf ears for sale and I can't come up with something that they could be made from... And as tradition is, halloween will be celebrated at my friend's house. And she lives near a graveyard... (Now, let's see how well you know me...

) So me and few other people are talking the rest to take a walk on halloween night down there. I'm not sure if it'll work out, because her parents are really against it... But fingers crossed.

I started to listen to Miley Cyrus, her new album... I dunno why.. But, but... I like her.. I'm seriously scared!!!!!! Those things don't and shouldn't happen!!!!!

I'm writing more songs...

Might post some later. And of course Static is moving forward, although slowly, I just don't have time to type it up. Sorry guys. I'll have mid-term for halloween week so I should get some work done. And there is a bunch of pictures I wanted to submit too.

If you read it all you earned my eternal sepect. Seriously.

Love you all,
Ruta

]]> ~kibirkstele 36% virgin & What is and will be http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20759416/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20759416/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 12:06:39 PDT Today was just messed up... Thats all I can say without giving too many personal details involving other people.
And I have to find courage to do something by the end of this week, and I can feel it is not going to be easy or have a good outcome. My hands start trembling when I think about it, althought it might just be that I'm cold...
Anyway, on a brighter note, I think I will get a new camera in about a month or so... And we might start looking for a house pretty soon too... Look into mortgages and all the paper work stuff...

And if the computer's virtual memory is low, what can you do about it? Because this is at a bad state in my pc among all other things and I'm afraid it might die on me pretty soon...

Something I stole off

1. Smoked. Yes
2. Drank alcohol yes
3. Cried when someone died. yes
4. Been drunk. no
5. Had sex. no
6. Been to a concert. yes
7. Gotten/given a handjob. no
8. Gotten/given a blowjob.no
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed. yes
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody. yes

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 95%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up. yes
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose yes
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before no
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend. yes
15. Been to prom. no
16. Cried at school. yes
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store. no
18. Went streaking. no
19. Given or received a lap dance. yes
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. yes

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 89%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over. yes
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. yes
23. Kissed a stranger. yes, he wasn't a person whom i haven't seen before but i didn't even know his name. It was a round of spin a bottle at someone's party.
24. Hugged a stranger. yes (on a dare)
25. Went scuba diving. no
26. Driven a car. yes
27. Gotten an x-ray. yes
28. Hit by a car. no.
29. Had a party. yes
30. Done serious drugs. no

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball. yes
32. Got paid to strip for someone. no
33. Run away from home. yes
34. Broken a bone. yes
35. Eaten sushi. yes
36. Bought porn. no
37. Watched porn. yes. it was kinda accidetal. my pc went mad and the only internet page it would open was some porn page instead of homepage...
38. Made porn. no
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex. no
40. Been in love. no. love is too big of a word.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 77%

41. French kissed. yes
42. Laughed so hard you cried. yes
43. Cried yourself to sleep. yes
44. Laughed yourself to sleep. yes
45. Stabbed yourself(not on purpose)? yes
46. Shot a gun. no
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day. yes (what? i can be a passionate person, i give out shit one minute, and forgive them the next..)
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours. yes
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. yes
50. Watched an animal die. yes

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

51. Watched a person die. no
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. yes
53. Pranked somebody yes
54. Put somebody in the hospital. no
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out. yes
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex. yes
57. Dressed punk. yes
58. Dressed goth. yes
59. Dressed preppy. yes
60. Been to a motocross race. yes

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 61%

61. Avoided somebody. yes
62. Been stalked. yes
63. Stalked someone. no
64. Met a celebrity. yes
65. Played an instrument. yes
66. Ridden a horse. yes
67. Cut yourself(by accident).yes
68. Bungee jumped. no
69. Ding dong ditched somebody. no
70. Been to a wild party. yes

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 54%

71. Got caught stealing something. yes
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls. no
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend. no
74. Gone out with your friend's crush. no
75. Got arrested. no
76. Been pregnant. No ( if I did I would freak out)
77. Babysat. yes
78. Been to another country. yes
79. Started your house on fire. nearly, but no.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost. no.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 51%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients. no
82. Been asked out by... ]]> ~kibirkstele Sick sense of humour http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20635759/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20635759/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 10:50:36 PDT EDIT: Me and my friend made up. And I only left a short version of what happened on here. So its all good.

I scored in hockey today!

I didn't actualy do anything in basketball because the guys would have crushed me...

Still loads of homework to do even aftee 2 hours of after school study....

Old journal:

Guess what? I'm not talking to one of my good friends because he is a piece of scum and isn't worth to walk this earth....
Basically what happened is that when Simon first called me foreign and everyone else freaked I didn't mind. I mean I am foreign in Ireland, because I'm not Irish. So he would call me foreign once in a while, but not in a bad way. But recently... For the past month, actually even more than that, he started using those foreign references in offensive ways... So yeah, yesterday I had enough.

And I had my first guitar class yesterday. It was great except couple little details. Everyone there is middle aged!!!!!!!!! The youngest there, besides me, is this 20-something-year-old (I think) who sat next to me. And most of them are women too. I was kinda hoping a couple of hot guys in the class too. But I guess someone flushed all my good luck down the toilet...

Oh, and if you are reading any of my novels I have 2 questions for you.

1. What novel of mine are you reading?
2. What age are you?

I just want to know to what age group is my literature most appealing. If you don't want to specify your age, then give me an age group you belong to, but make it fairly narrow. Okay?

Love you all,

Ruta.

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http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20507876/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 15:15:57 PDT
A year and I'm legal baby!!!!

And it feels awesome! Had great fun yesterday in Dublin. We hunted down a cinema, pretty literaly too. But by the time we reached the restaurant, the kitchen was closing, so we were left without a meal. It was a nice Italian place too. So today we got a cake and went out for a dinner to Spur Stakehouse. Let me just mention that my fetish for spicy food is about as big as the one for shoes... Maybe even bigger and they have the most awesome mexican dishes ever! Guess what I had...

I got a term of guitar classes from my parents!!! I mean, omg!!!!!!

Love you all,

Ruta.

_{Stamps!!! My stamps!! All mine!! MY STAMPS!!! MY PRECIOUS!!!}

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20181812/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 15:37:17 PDT
Seriously. It was such a laugh.

Oh, I moved up to a higher level (AP) French! Now I will have a teacher who actually teaches!!! And IÂm all higher level/honors (AP) student!! IÂm so proud, eep!

All my friends are severely dirty minded, SEVERELY!!! But thatÂs why it was so much funÂ ManÂ We are PERVERTED! (Some slightly some rigorously…

IÂm doing indoor PE this yearÂ ^^ Should be pretty good or just plain hilariousÂ

IÂm a mentor for first years(freshmen) so I have to come in tomorrow too (I thought I donÂt have to and I will be able to type up Part 5 and maybe write Part 6 of Static) , there is 32 mentors in total. One of my friends got really hot over the summer. He has a full Sexy-Emo-kid look.

Right, IÂll post my time table so youÂd know what sort of hell IÂm in. An probably put up a pic with my uniform... Yes, we have to wear them and theyÂre horrible. I mean everything is boy fitted: jumper, shirt, we have a tie (I kinda like the tie though), a boy fitted jacket (as in the jacket you wear when its cold or raining…

. The only thing that isnÂt fitted for boys is the skirt. That part of a uniform is fitted for nuns, except I shortened mine, so now it looks kinda cool! XD

Monday:
Tutor
Business
Business
English
Accounting
Break
Accounting
L.C.V.P
French
Lunch
Irish
Physics
Maths

Tuesday:
Tutor
Maths
English
Physics
Physics
Break
Religion
Religion
Irish
Lunch
L.C.V.P
French
Business

Wednesday:
Tutor
Accounting
Accounting
Maths
Break
Maths
Irish
French
Lunch
English
P.E
P.E

Thursday:
Tutor
French
Maths
Business
Break
Business
Accounting
English
Lunch
Physics
Physics
Irish

Friday:
Maths
English
Religion
L.C.V.P
Break
English
French
Irish

That leaves us with 10 (TEN!!!) classes on Monday and Tuesday. 9 on Wednesday and Thursday and 7 on Friday. Thats the reason I put hell in the title. Time usualy flies by though...

P.S. Hair is probably staying as it is because you can't do anything with curly hair.. At all. Except have them as they are. Or straighten them, which I am sooo not doing. I guess I'll just have to change my attitude, starting tomorrow.

P.P.S. Hayden Christensen can act! I mean what the hell happened to him? He was ridicilous in Star Wars(the worst one there)! But he is pretty decent in Jumper. By the way, I recomend to watch it if you're not looking for some brain food kind of movie.

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http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20145296/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 09:32:46 PDT That is not healthy...

Anyhoo... Back to school on Wednesday. My boss is having a constant PMS or she just went completely insane... Or both, most likely both...

So just you know, I'm not going to be on that much durring school year. I'll try to keep as much work comming in as possible, but no promises, especialy on stories.. Sorry guys... But I mean I need to get enough points for college and I'm not sure what I want to do so I need as many points as I can get. that means: study my a$$ off because I did nothing last year. I'll get an ocasional journal too, but as much as I'd hate it, I'll have to beat my dA addiction. So yeah, I won't be on much...

I'll miss you guys...

Oh, I bet the shite out of my dad in 'Singstar'!

Dunno how that happened...

I don't have a good voice and my dad can sing (kinda) but I set the high scores so high he is a little mad 'cause he can't reach them. And I wasn't even trying to really...

Signing off, Ruta

_{Deviations & Projects:

1. Handbag!!!
2. Painting (in progress. need. to. finish. it!!! Damn you violet!)
3. Between the Lines editing (in progress)
4. Story Not to be Told (on hold )
5. Personalised poem for someone if they ask for one
6. Mine for Eternity. (It is not a love story!!!! kinda on hold really...)
7. Lucy Liu drawing (in progres...zzz)
8. Static}

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http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20090258/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 05:34:07 PDT But no, I wasn't drunk and that cordination, or rather lack of was probably from all the dancing...

I'm nearly deaf from all the loud music

It was AMAZING!!! The only crappy thing was that I had to leave at like 23:30 or 23:40! I mean WTF??? i'M ALMOST 17. And there were adults around... SOMEWHERE... My dad had a go at me like it was my idea to have a party at a public place and not a house and start it at 8. And I think I'm banned from going paintballing on saturday. But its worth it, I wasn't so arsed to go in the first place, but I mean, it would have been fun...
OMG, I was acting like such a hug freak over the goodbyes!!

Well, I guess I AM a hug feak so...
Probably the second best thing was that I made a start with a guy I like.

And I'd say the only reasons why we kept it hugs only was that I needed to leave early, and there is no way that I would make a first move in THAT. I'm not like that. (Yes, hard to get and proud of that. It sucks that guys don't chase girls anymore, because girls chase them...!) But jeez did I miss him over the summer, I didn't realise that up until then...
So yeah, no regrets this time. I actualy had the most fun ever and I didn't mess up anything... How did that happen???

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/20057401/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 10:23:47 PDT
Gotta go and type up some Static before ~Wolf-Reaper goes on a killing spree. Need to do my nails first though (shallow much? XD ) 'cause I need to look pretty for the party tomorrow. Its my friend's 18th. Got her an awesome gift too!

There are few naughty things I could get up to and couple of people that I could fool around with but I still don't know whether or not go for it. So I guess I'll leave that posibility open, have fun and see how things go. I know I post journals waaaay too often(and blab on about stuff I really shouldn't, like now), but I'll try to tell all of you how the party went. Its gonna be huge! (The party, not the journal

). CAN'T WAIT!! It's my last bash before the school starts so I want to make as much out of it as I can.

Just to put myself in more pain, I'm going paintballing on Saturday. Wish me luck, or survival. Not sure wich one would be more afropriate in this case.

Signing off, Ruta

_{Deviations & Projects:

1. Handbag!!!
2. Painting (in progress. need. to. finish. it!!! Damn you violet!)
3. Between the Lines editing (in progress)
4. Story Not to be Told (on hold )
5. Personalised poem for someone if they ask for one
6. Mine for Eternity. (It is not a love story!!!! kinda on hold really...)
7. Lucy Liu drawing (in progres...zzz)
8. Static}

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~kibirkstele The world is starring... O_o [+LT] http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/19963832/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/19963832/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 04:08:24 PDT I've been living off lion bars for the last three days... XD And now I decided its time for a change, deviation-deleting kind of change. And I am having a hard time to decide what to get rid off. So... I'm asking you what do you think I should delete and what should definitely stay...

Recently IÂve been getting so many favourites thoughÂ And not just from my watchersÂ From random people too. So yeah, still dumbfounded about that.

IÂm glad that the war in Georgia is coming to an end. Because Russia was seriously wrong there. You just donÂt do that sort of thing. They should remember that the world is watching!!!

Also, Thanks for all the feedback recently. And a little announcement: I LOVE MY WATCHERS!!! Seriously. You guys are awesome and could drag anyone out of any self esteem problemsÂ

I started watching those animated movies. Yesterday it was Brother Bear 2 today itÂs the second part of Atlantis. That might explain why I am so irrationally happy. Though its probably because I spent quite a while laughing my head off with my friend yesterday. Best friend dare I say really. So yeah, that was fun. Some fence climbing tooÂ God, did we look dodgyÂ

Anyway, IÂm waiting for your suggestions for the great clean up!

[No work till Sunday

]

LietuviÂkai:

Kelias pastarÄsias dienas maitinuosi vien Lion Âokoladukais.

Ir dabar nusprendÂiau kad atÄjo laikas Âokiems tokiems pokyÄiams. AÂ ketinu iÂtrinti kai kuriuos darbus iÂ savo galerijos ir tam praÂau jÅ«sÅ³ pagalbos. SiÅ«lykite kuriuos darbus iÂtrinti o kuriuos norÄtumÄte kad bÅ«tinai palikÄiau, nes niekaip negaliu apsisprÄsti...

Signing off, Ruta

_{Deviations & Projects:

1. Handbag!!!
2. Painting (in progress. need. to. finish. it!!! Damn you violet!)
3. Between the Lines editing (in progress)
4. Story Not to be Told (on hold )
5. Personalised poem for someone if they ask for one
6. Mine for Eternity. (It is not a love story!!!! kinda on hold really...)
7. Lucy Liu drawing (in progres...zzz)
8. Static}

_{Stamps!!! My stamps!! All mine!! MY STAMPS!!! MY PRECIOUS!!!}

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/19839803/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 05:48:41 PDT Okay.. There seem to be a lot going on in my life, but I won't be rambling about it, if you are so curious, you can ask, I don't really mind, and anyway, I can always not answer if you cross the limit.

But I found this latvian artist the other day, and she is amazing, I mean make-it-into-popular-section-every-day kind of amazing. She is

and check her out, and advertise her in your own journal... Please? Pretty please?

Oh, and I am watching second season of Heroes at the moment... West, he is like the hotest guy I ever seen...

That intense look...? I mean wow... I bet he is gonna hurt Claire real bad though, he is lying!!! No spoilers plz, not yet, cause I'm only past episode 4...

If any of you are reading "Between the Lines" its your chance to get famous. I'm a little short on what will happen next before the part that I have planned out come because if I write it as I go you might end up with 50 chapters before the grand finalle.
So... You can suggest what you want to happen next.. No overly happy stuff though, I'm going for some serious action thriler drama, so don't make it too sweet and happy. But other than that, give me your best shot, ok? So ideas plz...!

Oh, and about the book again, I'm, lost for the cover ideas.. I have too many of them, and neither of those seem right... So yeah, drop a comment on that too.

Few birthdays coming up. One is on 21st of august. Its a beach themed 18th of my friend... And I don't know what to get her.. I was thinking jewelery... Something purple

And the other one is planed by me and my other friend, we are planing a surprise concert as a birthday present...

Talking about birthdays, did you do anything for dA birthday yesterday?

Signing off, Ruta

_{Deviations & Projects:

1. Handbag!!!
2. Painting (in progress. need. to. finish. it!!! Damn you violet!)
3. Between the Lines editing (in progress)
4. Story Not to be Told (on hold )
5. Personalised poem for someone if they ask for one
6. Mine for Eternity. (It is not a love story!!!!)
7. Lucy Liu drawing (in progres...zzz)}

_{Stamps!!! My stamps!! All mine!! MY STAMPS!!! MY PRECIOUS!!!}

http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/19801437/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 02:14:22 PDT and I thought I'll dedicate the whole day to writing "Between the Lines" because I have a brand new fan whol will not leave me alone without getting more, playing guitar and reading ~dramaartist's story, well turns out it doesn't work that way... It's raining now and I might have to walk those two and a half miles in the rain to get to work.. So yeah, all that good mood went down the drain....

Ah, well, I guess its just life and I have to get over it.

And everyone that I am watching. Someone on dA reminded me what being a wathcer is all about and I have been doing an awful job recently, unlike my own watchers who are awesome. Love you guys!

So if you have anything you want for me to have a look at, just write to me and I will hop to your page first thing.
Sorry again for doing such a lousy job.

Pleading for forgiveness, Ruta

Deviations & Projects:

_{1. Handbag!!!
2. Painting (in progress. need. to. finish. it!!! Damn you violet!)
3. Between the Lines editing (in progress)
4. Story Not to be Told (on hold )
5. Personalised poem for someone if they ask for one
6. Mine for Eternity. (It is not a love story!!!!)
7. Lucy Liu drawing (in progres...zzz)}

Stamps!!! My stamps!! All mine!! MY STAMPS!!! MY PRECIOUS!!!

~kibirkstele I'm Ba-ack [ir Lietuvikai] http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/19731742/ http://kibirkstele.deviantart.com/journal/19731742/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 07:51:06 PDT
Well, hello there. I am oficially back to give ye all a giant headache and laughing fits.

But first things first.

They finally put out version 6 for everyone!!!! Before this only beta testers (subscribed people) could use it, and I was seriously bummed about that. BUT IT'S HERE NOW!!!!

And I don't know when I will be able to answer all your comments, because I have 276 messages a bunch of deviantions and a good few notes. So please be patient with me on that, ok? The process might be slow too because I will try to upload as much stuff as I can because I have loads of it.

The holiday itself was.. weird... I mean the parts with my friends were awesome but there is something fucked up with my familly... You can note me if you want to hear it, I'm not hiding anything and it seems more normal and simpler when talked about.
I will post few colages to show few things. Just a promt. WE WENT BANNANAS!!!!

The pictures from Lithuania are coming soon. Captured some great architecture down there and some panoramic views too.

Dan, seriously sorry your story is taking so long. I'll try to finish it up as soon as I can without wrecking it.

Oh, and I bought a guitar!!!

And a debs(prom) dress. It is a year early but I like that it's halfway sorted. And I'm not sure when I'm going there next summer, because of exams and uni...

And one last thing, I came up with an ending to "Between the Lines" and a brief story line for a follow up of this book.

The ending is absolutely unexpected.

Get ready for

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Ir Âis tas LietuviÂkai. Matot aÂ net paukÂtelius naudoju

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Atostogos buvo puikios, ir kartu keistos, bet tai jau ilga is istorija, o kam reikia tas ir Âino kuo tokios keistos jos buvo. Mane Âi kelionÄ Âiek tiek Ä¯kvė

Ä raÂyti LietuviÂkai, todÄl mielai laukiu pasiÅ«lymÅ³ kÄ bÅ«tent galÄÄiau raÂyti. Tik jokiÅ³ knygÅ³, gerai?

JÅ«rate, paskutinÄ dienÄ Lietuvoje man kilo idÄja. Ar noretum versti knygÄ iÂ AnglÅ³ Ä¯ LietuviÅ³ kalbÄ. Jokio spaudimo, tiesiog pagalvojau kad jeigu ketini tapti vertÄja galbÅ«t tau patiktÅ³.

Jei susidomÄjai paraÂyk raÂtelÄ¯ deviantart'e arba e-mail'a adresu rainbow.freak091@hotmail.com

Pati knyga yra Äia, ji vadinasi "Between the Lines" taÄiau gali bÅ«ti kad pakeisiu pavadinimÄ.

Greitu laiku Ä¯dÄsiu nuotraukÅ³ iÂ Lietuvos, taÄiau neÂinau kiek laiko truks ÂinuÄiu atsakymo procesas turint omeny kad gavay jÅ³ 276... Pasistengsiu paskubÄti, taÄiau nieko nepriÂadu. Nepykit.

Signing off, Ruta

Deviations&rojects:

1. Handbag!!!
2. Painting (in progress. need. to. finish. it!!! Damn you violet!)
3. Between the Lines editing (in progress)
4. Story Not to be Told (on hold

)
5. Personalised poem for someone if they ask for one
6. Mine for Eternity. (It is not a love story!!!!)
7. Lucy Liu drawing (in progres...zzz)

Stamps!!! My stamps!! All min... ]]> ~kibirkstele