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First off, my apologies that I haven't had any new deviations for years, ran into a creative block, and got so tied up with work that I honestly haven't had time to write much (not to mention that when I do write anything when I read it back it kinda scares me, so I decided not to put them up).

Secondly, I've been on more recently, so feel free to send me messages or a comment just to chat.
Also you can find me on:
Facebook
MySpace

or you can add me on msn as kissmyass16202@hotmail.com

Hope to hear from you all

James aka Hazzer

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/11554017/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/11554017/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 14:10:53 PST
im feeling better than my last journal


just thought you'd like to know

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/10691230/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/10691230/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 14:54:24 PST I wanted to put this in a deviation, but I couldn't find a category to put it in, it's like musings and random thoughts from in my head, but it didn't seem to fit anywhere.



It's all getting to much for me, I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
People have no idea how hard it is to be me right now, the daily struggle to remain sane grows harder and harder, soon it may overwhelm me and I'll break down.
A nervous wreck.

Maybe that wouldn't be such a bad thing, at least then I can rest. I need a break from being me, I need to be someone that doesn't have hundreds of worries all at the same time, I need to be someone that doesn't wake up disappointed that they didn't die in their sleep, I need to be someone who still has the ability to be happy.

People don't understand what it's like in my head, so maybe you all need an analogy.

Ok. Picture this, you work in a bar, it's Saturday night and you're working on your own, there's a band on so the bar is packed, you have a hundred people all trying to get you to serve them, the phone is ringing, your mobile is ringing, the band are playing, there's sirens going outside and planes flying overhead.
This cacophony of noise is something like whats going on in my head, a meaningless jumble of thoughts and feelings.

Maybe you all think I'm being emo here and writing about how depressed I am. I'm not. The one thing I'm not is depressed. Confused and two steps beyond a breakdown, held together by pure bloody mindedness, staying sane for the benefit of countless others that need me.
I do too much for other people and not enough for myself, I need a holiday. I need someone to be there for me when I need them, I need people to repay what I've done for them, now I'm the one that needs support.


....
..
.

I can't face the thought of tomorrow, I don't want to think about what else will go wrong, what new way they can find to torment me.

Some might say a drink would help.
I don't wanna go down that path. If I start drinking to forget, I'll never stop. I don't wanna rely on it, I don't want to be an alcoholic again.

My hands are shaking now, I need sleep...
Goodnight all.

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/8481531/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/8481531/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 18:04:05 PDT
hello again my friends, its been a while. sorry if i had any of you worried, there have been certain... barriers... to me coming on here a lot.

im not sure how long this will last so if i disappear again i'll be back again.. dont fret. ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/7398659/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/7398659/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 03:27:38 PST but xmas isnt about that really is it?
stop that right now! lol
xmas is a time of friendship and unity. also of forgiveness.

so this year, maybe the best present you can give someone is to accept their apology, let people say that they're sorry.

ok?

now on with the partying!

Merry Xmas all and sorry for the cheesy xmas message.

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6971675/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6971675/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 01:27:51 PST Competition cancelled due to complete lack of interest


Okay. Time for another little competition I think. This one is aimed at you artists out there.
I want you to draw me. Any medium, style, size etc*.
*Note: Digital manipulations are NOT allowed.

Okay I don't expect you to draw me without knowing what I look like, so I actually took a photo of myself (omg such a rare occasion).
And here it is.... COMPETITION REFERENCE


Rules
1. Must link back to me in the description
2. No digital manipulations.
3. Note me or comment here with a link to your entry.
4. I take offense easily. Be warned!
5. Only joking.
6. Competition closes on NEW YEAR'S DAY at midnight (so that's 1/1/2006 at 00:00 GMT+10 Eastern Standard Time. Yes I will be in Australia )

Prize
A 3-month sub for the winner.

All clear?
Then brushes/pencils at the ready and good luck to you.



]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6945220/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6945220/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 13:58:50 PST THANK YOU to those that entered. And shame on you to those that didnt.

So, the winners.
Well the winner of the photography comp is ~Kaz-D by default being the only entry.
And here it is

And the winner of the poetry comp (this was a close run thing by the way)
Soldier's Reflection by ~vgmmaster

Contact me to collect prize.

And well done to the others that entered. All your poems were good.

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6654415/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6654415/ Wed, 02 Nov 2005 11:25:34 PST COMPETITION IS NOW CLOSED



Hey everybody, long time no see, been a wee bit distracted with things. Ah well.

Just to say I'm back! I'm running another competition.

Or more specifically two at the same time.
The subject is "War and Terrorism"
One competition is for poems, the other is for photos/photo manip
Need more entries in the photo/photomanip section!
You may enter once in each or just one. The choice is yours.

Rules
1. Must be a new deviation.
2. Must say in the description that it is for my comp, and must link to this journal entry.
3. Entries must be posted on this journal or noted to me.
4. All entries must be in by 31st October 2005

Prizes
Prizes for winners only a 1 month sub and a request from me (poetry)
That is there is a prize for best poem, and a prize for best photo. In the unlikely event of the same person winning both, I will extend to a 3-month sub.

Good luck.

Final entries are:

Entries - Poems
A Terrible Crime by ~Moonsong-Fae
Leave Them Something... by ~Kaz-D
A Man and Hig Dog by ~Allingoodtime
Forgotten Soldiers by =D4rkMisFit
For What? by ~mortals-twisted-fate
Soldier's Reflection by ~vgmmaster


Entries - Photos/Photo Manips
by ~Kaz-D

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6134148/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6134148/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 16:27:20 PDT Sadly it seems like !Waterinmyeyez4u2 has got banned and as such her entry has been discounted.
Also of note, sorry to ~emptyjester but ur photo really wasnt a good enough scan for me to judge.

So, here's what you been waiting for, the results.

In a very definate 1st place, is Didn't he care enough? by ~Kaz-D

2nd place goes to =Mezrella for her entry, Society's Angel

and finally the 3rd place is for ..Farewell.. by ~D4rkMisFit

Congratz to you 3, if u want the poetry requests note me what you want me to do. ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6089663/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6089663/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 14:10:27 PDT Ok everyone, the competition is now closed, no more entries will be accepted.
Thank you everyone who entered,

The entries are as such (in order of entry)
Why by !Waterinmyeyez4u2
Why Me by ~RKartist
Didn't he care enough? by ~Kaz-D
Black - The New Black by ~ElijahSnow
...Farewell... by ~D4rkMisFit
Why can't I find me? by ~StarlitRainbow
Alone...but why? by ~emptyjester
Society's Angel by =Mezrella
Why-Comp by *AydSay


I will be annoucing the winners in a few days, good luck to you all. ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6086569/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/6086569/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 08:55:43 PDT I'm sure you're all aware of the recent issues with °jark's forced removal from staff. Because of this, and because of the blatent facism from those in charge, I am withdrawing my support for the site, I shall not be renewing my subscription tonight. Also I will not be submitting any new deviations, and will put all my deviations into storage for the duration of this issue.
I urge all of you strongly to do this and to pass on this message to all you know.
To put your work into storage go to [link]

BRING BACK JARK!

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5915130/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5915130/ Thu, 28 Jul 2005 16:17:55 PDT Edit 29th July> Just to remind anyone reading this, there are only 2 1/2 days left to enter, I will be closing entries at 10pm on Sunday. Anything recieved after this time will be discounted.

Right just because I'm in a strange mood right now, I think I'm gonna start a little competition going here.

The subject is "Why?"
This could be anything from "why did you leave me?", to "why is my ice cream melted?"

it can be in any form, poetry/prose, photography, drawing...whatever...

im running this until the end of the month...so last entries to me by 31st July

ok so let me go over the rules.

1. It must be a new piece, not something already submitted.
2. You must say that it's for this competition in the the description and must link back 2 either this journal or my main page. If you do not know how to do this see FAQ #81: How can I make links to other deviants, deviations, or websites?
3. You must either post the link to me on this journal entry or send me a note, entries on the main page will be discounted.
4. Only one entry per deviant please {edit 16th July 12:51am}

Prizes
This is what you want to know right? seeing as people have been complaining, I have decided, once only to change the prizes 2 this.

1st Place - 3-months subscription for either you or a friend, a from me, a from your gallery, and a request for poetry from me.
2nd Place - 1 month's subscription for you or a friend, a from me, a from your gallery, and a request for poetry from me.
3rd Place - A from me, a from your gallery, and a request for poetry from me.

but after this, any competitions I run will be a 1 month subscription for the winner only, no 2nd and 3rd prizes.

All clear?
any questions just ask



Entries (in order of entry)
Why by ~Waterinmyeyez4u2
Why Me by ~RKartist
Didn't he care enough? by ~Kaz-D
Black - The New Black by ~ElijahSnow
...Farewell... by ~D4rkMisFit
Why can't I find me? by ~StarlitRainbow
Alone...but why? by ~emptyjester
Society's Angel by =Mezrella
Why-Comp by *AydSay

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5906260/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5906260/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 16:29:55 PDT
]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5885657/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5885657/ Sat, 09 Jul 2005 11:58:59 PDT now things have been sorted im *almost* ok again..
dunno what came over me really
anyway
thanx again

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5878620/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5878620/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 16:07:09 PDT and she acting like nothing different so i guess thatz my answer
loooks like i'll have 2 ease the pain with alcohol...oh look i already have...
*is vvery drunk here*
oh well u cant win em all

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5847750/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5847750/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 13:40:00 PDT all the signs are there,
sweaty palms, that hot sensation in my stomach, the tightness of my chest, the general shortness of breath and heart that beats like 120 times a minute just by thinking of this girl

and the worst part?
she wont ever love me back...not after the shit she's been thru....i dont think she even knows...and im 2 spineless 2 tell her

any suggestions?

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5830389/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5830389/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 15:49:33 PDT [link]
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thanx a lot
HazZeR

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5799783/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5799783/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 09:05:50 PDT
1)Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought: -
tin of biscuits
box of oinks
case of coca cola cans
the MOT fees of my car (£250 eek!)

2)Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
coke
lilt
vodka
red bull

3)Last Time You Cried:
cant remember

4)What's In Your CD Player:
Green Day, Dookie

5)What's Under Your Bed?
big pile of rubbish

6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today:
bout 9:30

7)Current Hair?:
a mess

8)Current Clothes?:
black jeans, skeleton skater t-shirt, hat, underwear

9)Current Desktop Picture?:
Green Day


10)Current Worry?
just spent 250 i havent got on gettin my car fixed

11)Current Hate?:
silliness


12)Favorite Place To Be?:
in bed

13)Least Favorite Place?:
on my own


14)If You Could Play An Instrument?:
guitar

16)How Tall Are You?:
5'11"

17)Favorite random quote?:
if life tries to beat you into submission, grab a bigger stick and hit it back

18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
there isnt any1

19)Favorite Day?:
friday

20)Where Would You Like To Go right NOW?:
somewhere where some1 is gonna give me a lot of money for no apparent reason

21)Where do you want to live when you get married? meh...i dunno if im gonna get married yet

22)Favorite food?: chinese takeaway

23)Color of most clothes you own?
black

24)Number of pillows you sleep with?
2

25)What do you wear when you go to sleep?:
erm that a real short list...not even 1 entry

26)What were you doing 12AM last night:
getting drunk

27)How old will you be in 10 yrs:
29 eek


28)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
nothing

30)Are you paranoid?:
no

31)Do you burn or tan?:
neither

32)what is the brand of your wallet?:
Billabong

33) bf/gf?:


34)First piercing/tattoo?:
none

35)First enemy?:
erm cant remember

36)Last person you yelled at?:
the dog (to stop barking)

37)Last crush?
heh think im saying that where any1 could read it?

38)Last thing you ate?:
erm pizza (last night) geez i really need 2 go eat something

39) Last thing you drank?:
lucozade

40) Last person you spoke to on the phone?:
my mum

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5713783/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5713783/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 12:17:46 PDT i'd recommend if you have a chance to see them, then do it.
Billie Joe is an excellent performer and entertainer..
and erm...
GREEN DAY ROCK!!!!

punk is SO not dead yet ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5704310/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5704310/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 12:47:27 PDT come on!!
you always telling me i need 2 cheer up

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5678456/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5678456/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 16:29:12 PDT dont know how long it will last.but i'm making the most of it 2 write some happy stuff for once

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5617795/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5617795/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 11:04:54 PDT im fine how i am thank you so much...lol

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5561547/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5561547/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 14:49:30 PDT so that means that bad things happen to good people right? *sigh* all i ask for is a happy ending, i read all these stories and sometimes i just wish that once, it was me.
theres a girl i really like but im such a fucking idiot these days i cant seem 2 get my words right.
maybe i should just accept my fate is 2 be fucked around, yeh i know...it happens to men too.
i thought i could tell myself that i dont care, that i dont need anybody...
i cant even fool myself...
...
..
theres a part of me that i just cant ignore, and thatz my heart, beaten and abused it may be, it still wants to love, and be loved...
..
is that too much to ask?

]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5549795/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5549795/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 08:27:18 PDT I submitted a piece of poetry days ago and still it hasnt showed up in my gallery.
I read the yellow aliens transmission thing that says that the deviation doesnt show on the recent deviations table but does in the gallery
BOLLOCKS!
really pissed off cos it was a gd piece of work which i now cant remember

"Much is expected of the future....me? oh i dunno, i don't expect much from anything" ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5274335/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5274335/ Thu, 05 May 2005 12:03:11 PDT have no fucking idea who im gonna vote 4 tho, none of them appeal 2 me...

"Much is expected of the future....me? oh i dunno, i don't expect much from anything" ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5247705/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5247705/ Mon, 02 May 2005 14:22:52 PDT
Went up 2 alton towers today, was wicked, although i did have 2 drive there myself, kinda scary, furthest i ever driven lolz...oh well i made it bk in 1 piece.
also subscribed 2 dA 2day...i have no idea why 2 tell the truth

"Much is expected of the future....me? oh i dunno, i don't expect much from anything" ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5157302/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/5157302/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 10:48:20 PDT ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/4872256/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/4872256/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 13:07:52 PST Dont be overly critical. Itz been years since i done photography, im a bit rusty. Bear with me....and if any1 wants 2 volunteer 2 model for me i'd be appreciative lolz....not holding much hope on that 1 tho ]]> ~kissmyass16202 http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/4590013/ http://kissmyass16202.deviantart.com/journal/4590013/ Tue, 15 Feb 2005 14:23:20 PST ~kissmyass16202