http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:kistern-san&section=today deviantART RSS for by:kistern-san en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 03:55:40 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8738443/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8738443/ Thu, 11 May 2006 09:55:07 PDT I love this name but it was a friend thing backin texas at school, I want to have something a little more mature seeing how I have grown up some in the past near year I've been here.

Add LittleWolfSpirit
if you want to keep watching my stuff ^^
I'll check this account rarely ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8738321/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8738321/ Thu, 11 May 2006 09:27:28 PDT I was wondering if I should change my account name to something that describes me more.
That unfortunately means getting a new account and possibly loosing a lot of the friends I've made on here.
So...Opinions would be great here. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8508932/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8508932/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 09:33:19 PDT SHould I audition or should I not? ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8428919/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8428919/ Mon, 10 Apr 2006 15:00:37 PDT ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8382475/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8382475/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 09:14:29 PDT Do you feel like you're sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see
Cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower
Whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on
Be strong
We're taking each step one day at a time
You can't loose your spirit
Let live and let live
Forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember
Keep it together
Don't you know you're not alone
Cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower
Whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on
Be strong
No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're allowed to cry
Cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower
Whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on
And be strong
Hang on
Hang on
Be strong
Hold on
Be strong ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8160137/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/8160137/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 14:41:19 PST Art teacher gave me an assignment today. To make a storyboard to a song of my choice with me as the singer. This is to prepare me for the college course i'm going to be taking. I can't figure out which song to do...Here's the ones I've selected,

Do I Have to Cry For you
Help Me
I Still
Safest Place to Hide
Incomplete

I wnat help on deciding which one to do....So let me know what yout hink... ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7961107/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7961107/ Tue, 21 Feb 2006 10:22:19 PST
For everything you do
I'd like to swallow you
And everyday I'm gonna blame you
Even if you justify
Every fucking bullshit lie
It only makes me want to break you
You pull me down
And you crucify my name
You make me insane
It's broken now
Don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playin'
'Cause I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me
When you repeatedly
Take advantage of me
The only thought I get of you sickens me
Everybody knows you're fake
You're everything I fucking hate
And I'm everything that you could never be
You pull me down
And you crucify my name
You make me insane
It's broken now
Don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playin'
'Cause I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me
I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me
(Fuck you)
(Fuck you)
(Fuck you)
You pull me down
And you crucify my name
You make me insane
It's broken now
Don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playin'
'Cause I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me
And I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me
Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you (fuck you) ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7914857/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7914857/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 10:08:54 PST


"I Stand Alone"



Now I've told you this once before
You can't control me
If you try to take me down you're gonna pay
Now I feel your every nothing that you're doing for me
I'm picking you outa me
you run away
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
You're always hiding behind your so called goddess
So what you don't think that we can see your face
Resurrected back before the final fallen
I'll never rest until I can make my own way
I'm not afraid of fading
I stand alone
Feeling your sting down inside of me
I'm not dying for it
I stand alone
Everything that I believe is fading
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
And now its my time (now its my time)
It's my time to dream (my time to dream)
Dream of the sky (dream of the sky)
Make me believe that this place isn't plagued
By the poison in me
Help me decide if my fire will burn out
Before you can breathe
Breathe into me
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
Feeling your sting down inside of me
I'm not dying for it
I stand alone
Everything that I believe is fading
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
Inside ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7893256/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7893256/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 09:27:24 PST
[ANASTACIA]
She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself,
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages,
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing

[CHORUS: Ben Moody / Anastacia]
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
'Till everything burns

[ANASTACIA]
Ooh, oh

[BEN MOODY]
Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

[CHORUS: Ben Moody / Anastacia]
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns

[BEN MOODY / ANASTACIA]
'Till everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams..
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh..
(While everyone screams)
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away... ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7837589/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7837589/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 13:00:58 PST ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7693653/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7693653/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 10:06:32 PST After all this time my heart still burns for you
If you don't know by now that you're my only one
Then take a look inside me and watch my heart strings come undone.
I know I promised you forever
There's no stronger word I can use,
To reasure you when the storm
Is raging outside, you're my safest place to hide
Can you see me?
Here I am
I need you like I needed you then
And when I feel like giving up
I climb inside your heart and still find
Your mine,
You're my safest place to hide
You see colors no one else can see
In every breath you hear a symphony
You understand me like nobody can
I feel my soul unfolding like a flower blooming
When this whole world gets to crazy
And there's no where left to run
I know you give me sanctuary
You're the only truth at all
You're the road back home
Can you see me?
Here I am.
Standing here where I've always been.
And when words are not enough
I climb inside yoru heart and still find
You're mine,
You're my safest place to hide
My safest place to hide
I know I promised you forever
There's no stronger word I can use
To reasure you when the storm
Is raging outside
You're my safest place to hide,
Oh,
Can you see me,
Here I am
Standing here where I've always been
And when I feel like giving up
I climb inside your heart and still find
Yeah, yeah
You're my safest place to hide
Oh yeah
You're my safest place to hide

---THinking of my girlfriend and I usually sing her this song it will be on a drawing of her i'm doing that i'll post up here if i can. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7497438/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7497438/ Tue, 03 Jan 2006 09:39:42 PST Are you still the same or did you change somehow?
What do you do?
At this very moment when I think of you.
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
No matter how I try it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yea, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
I wish I could find you just like you found me then I
Will never let you go
Though everything's been said
And done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7175246/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7175246/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 09:30:15 PST Competence is my watch-wrod. My two basic responsibilities will always be uppermost in my mind--accomplishment of my mission and the welfare of my soldiers. I will strive to remain tactically and tecnically proficient. I am aware of my reole as a Non-commissioned Officer. I will fulfill y responsibilities inherent in that role. All soldiers are entitled to an outstanding leadership; I will provied that leadership. I know my soldeirs and I will always place their needs above my own. I will communicate consistently with my solders and never leave them uniformed. I will be fair and impartial when recommending both rewards and punishment.
Officers of my unit will have maximum time to accomplish their duties; they will not have to accomplish mine. I will earn their respect and confidence as well as that of my soldiers. I will be loyal to those with whom I serce; seniors, peers, and subordinates alike. I will exercise initiative by taking appropriate action in the avsence of orders. I will not compromise my integrity, nor my moral courage. I will not forget, nor will I allow my comrades to forget that we are professionals, Non-commissioned Officers, leaders! ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7175202/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7175202/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 09:24:33 PST To this end, I will not only seek continually to improve my knowledge and practice of my profession, but also I will exercise the authority intrusted to me by the President and the Congress with fairness, justice, patience, and restraint, respecting the dignity and human rights of others and devoting myself to the welare of those placed under my command.
In justifying and fulfilling the trust paced in me, I will conduct my private life as well as my public service so as to be free both from impropriety and the appearance of impropriety, acting with candor and integrity to earn the unquestioning trust of my fellow soldiers--juniors, seniors, and assocaites--and emplying my rank and position not to serve myself but to serve my country and my unit.
By practicing physical and moral courage I will endeaveor to inspire these ualities in others by my example.
In all my actions I will put loyalty to the highest moral principles and the United States of America above loyalty to organizations, persons, and my personal interest. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7175172/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/7175172/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 09:20:33 PST I am loyal and patriotic.
I am the future of the United States of America.
I do not lie, cheat, or steal and will always be accountable for my actions and deeds.
I will always practice good citizenship and patriotism.
I will work hard to improve my mind and strenthen my body.
I will seek the mantle of leadership and stand prepared to uphold the Constitution and the American way of life.
My God grant me the strength to always live by this creed. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/6924234/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/6924234/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 09:06:38 PST ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/6187529/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/6187529/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 11:34:06 PDT ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5512936/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5512936/ Tue, 31 May 2005 15:16:49 PDT ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5488450/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5488450/ Sat, 28 May 2005 20:16:29 PDT ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5437978/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5437978/ Mon, 23 May 2005 11:22:34 PDT By Wendy Gragg

A thick fog of silence and greif formed aroudn the Shoemaker High School flagpole Thursday evening as students congregated to mourn one of their own.
Teenagers walked to the mounument gripping each other, wiping their tears. they placed at the bas eof the flagpole flowers, candles, anything that reminded them of their beloved friend and classmate Deirdra Todd.
Todd, a Shoemaker High School senior, died Thrusday morning from injuries sustained in a Wednesday morning traffic accident on Clear Creek Road in southwest Killeen.
She was apparently on her way to school Wednesday when the car she was driving was struck by a vehicle emerging form the Liberty Village military housing area. She was airlifted in ciritcal condition to Scott & White Memorial Hospital in Temple.
A top cadet in the Grey Wolf Junior Reserves Officer Training Corps, Todd had earned the friendship and respect of her colleauges. They showed that respect Thursday thorugh the solemn and sincere memorial service thay arranged at the flagpole.
JROTC instruct Lt. Col. lennon Tatum said the 18-year-old was an important part of the JROTC program, an asset to it and to the school.
"She was a very intellegent, mature, responsible young lady," he said. "We are numb in our grief, and we really miss her."
Cadets raised the American flag to half staaff while the growing crowd of students watched. Only soft breathing and crying could be heard as everyone stood, hat i hand, hand over heart. A cadet read Psalm 2:3 and a Soldier's Prayer. Another cadet read a peom he had written for Todd that day.
"She stands tall in the memories of others and evn taller in the ones who were close," he said.
Grieving shoemaker students were encouraged to hold tight to thos ememories as they wandered through the school day Thursday.
The Killeen Independent School District's Crisis Team descended upon the school Wednesday, following a protocol that it knows all too well. Counselors from across the district were present to offer both students and staff emotional support.
Judy Picot, coordinator of guidance and counseling, said team members encouraged students to talk about their good memories of deirdra and "just remember all the wonderful things they know about Deirdra and how she celebrated life will help them celebrate life."

Todd was apparently in the top 10 percent of her class and had planned to attend college at the University of Texas--San Antonio. Not only admired by students, Picot said, Todd was also well-liked by her teachers.
Picto said the counseling was difficult, helping student sthrough the grieving process, but also letting them know it's OK to be happy about graduation, which is schdule din two weeks.
A somber pall was cast over the school district as wel, as district officials had Todd and her forlorn friends in their thoughts. The Killeen school board took a grim pause during it's worshop meeting in the early morning, to hear a report on Todd's status. It was such tragic news during a time that hould be filled with celebration, said board president Brenda Coley, who asked board memebers to remember everyone involved in their prayers.
Dr. Jim Hawkins, district superintendent, released a statement Thursday addessnig the tragedy and its unfortunate timing.
"This is a bittersweet and difficult time for the staff and students at Shoemaker High. As students feel the excitement of graduation, they grieve, meanwhile, over the unexpected passing of one of their own classmates," Hawkins said. "The district shares its deep regret and sorrow for the family of this student and all others who have been affected by this tragedy."
Dierdra Todd is the sixth high schoool student Killeen school district to die this year.
The Crisis Team remains at the school, offering a trained ear for members of the Shoemaker family. A district statement said afte the initial shock subsides, a smaller group of counselors will remain at the campus for several days, if needed.
The Shoemaker JROTC family will undoubtedly continue to comfort each other. (And we still are! ^^)
Current and former Grey Wolf cadets made a thick circle around the flagpole Thursday evening. With red eyes and tear-stained cheeks, they recited the Cadet Creed at top volume. But an intense silence quickly crept in again as they stood at attention and offered Todd a final salute as the flag was lowered for the evening.
--END--
For the remainder of the school year the flag will remain raised at halfstaff in rememberance of C/1st Lieutenant Todd. This year has proven to be the most difficult for Shoemaker High School students and especially the JROTC department. Withi... ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5410307/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5410307/ Fri, 20 May 2005 09:05:24 PDT Febuary 13, 1987-May 19, 2005
Cause of death: Car accident ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5309513/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5309513/ Mon, 09 May 2005 09:04:21 PDT Distan faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find the way
Where i'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this hear to be unbroken
But without all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on
But I can't seem to let you go
And I don't wanna let you face this world alone
I don't want to let you go alone
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
Incomplete ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5304961/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5304961/ Sun, 08 May 2005 18:31:47 PDT ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5085342/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5085342/ Thu, 14 Apr 2005 08:35:03 PDT If you have any questions about the problem just email me at susan's address, catlin_irish_warrior@yahoo.com
Thank you,
Eire ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5085334/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/5085334/ Thu, 14 Apr 2005 08:34:04 PDT And everyone's so fake
And everybody’s empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my sea
You know that I’ll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There’s oceans in between us
But that’s not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When ya shoved it in my face?
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When ya shoved it in my face?

Everyone is changing
There’s no one left that’s real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my sea
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There’s oceans in between us
But that’s not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When ya shoved it in my face?
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When ya shoved it in my face?
This pain you gave to me

Oh, Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you where to run away

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When ya shoved it in my face?
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When ya shoved it in my face?
This pain you gave to me

No, this pain you gave to me
Take it all away
Take it all away
Pain ya gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4995849/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4995849/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 08:42:32 PDT 3:23 A.M
Karol
Pronounced dead. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4870260/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4870260/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 09:11:39 PST I hate how..Just..Everything in eveyway just fell apart for me yesterday...Just at the point where it feels like nothing else matters..Just wanting to shoot myself or have someone else do it for me.
Just..When you think something is so right...then it just collapses or just..I'm awiting for everything to hit the ground...
It's just like..No matter how hard I try...Ever since Amanda died..Everything just has been going wrong.
And I just feel like it's my fault every damn time..Like..Just..I'm letting it get in the way of everything...Then on top of that..Just shit with my dad...Then the divorce...Trying to move up to MA but gettign no where in all of this just...Where I want to scream at the top of my lungs...But really what is the point of doign that when you can't find one person..That you want to care..Care...It's like it's just going over and over and over again in my mind..Just won't stop..And you dont' know what to do about it.
Maybe....I dont know..Just it doesn't feel like anything I'm doing...matters or that I'm not trying...I keep on letting all my friends down, and just...I don't know..I mean I have like two songs goign thorugh my mind right now...i guess I can post them...well three...but i'll post the first two....

I've been looking in the mirror for so long,
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
Too sharp to put back together.
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
but I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong what's wrong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

[Chorus]
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

[Chorus]

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallin' behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

[Chorus 2xs]

She's lost inside lost inside (oh oh)
She's lost inside lost inside {oh oh oh ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4784001/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4784001/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 08:02:21 PST ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4775845/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4775845/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 08:44:43 PST God..I love him so much. I just can't wait.
Instead of waiting to move up there nxt year..I'm gonna take a test to get my GED..So that way I can move up there before it snows there...Still trying to figure out if we're flying or driving though...Might be cheaper to fly if you think about it...But then again...Renting a car and stuff...Okay..I need to quit thinking about that now..
*looks through her pictures of nate* I realy miss him *cries* I really just want to hear his voice or something...Tell him how much I really love him. Which is a lot..By the way...I love him very very very very very much...Nothing, absolutely nothing. Can keep me from loving him as much as I do...now here I go into my little testimony thing..But I mean honestly....Haven't any of you out there, loved somene so much. So much that you'd die for them if you needed too...I know I sound pathetic. But...After I lost my brother..I never felt so alone...But when I was with Nate..That small part that felt so lonely inside of me..Disappeared. I mean..I wouldnt' think about anything else..Even if I had the worse day in the world..When I see him or talk to him..Even think about him or hearing his voice inside my mind....That puts a smile to my face that no one could take away. It's just like there's this part of me that, I dont' know..Won't stop thinking about him..And I never want to stop thinking about him...I don't even want to loose him...I mean, Yea...I fuck up a lot...Who doesn't when they're in love? Right? But..Knowing that I'm the luckiest person in the world, cause I'm with the most amazing person in this universe...That can't help but make me feel that I've done something right for once..That..Never have I felt something so right inside of me.
I mean..Even going through a hard time right now..With Amanda and then school...But when I turn my head knowing I have Nate there..It's just the most incredible..Spectacular feeling in the world knowing he love's me..And I just...God..I love him so much.. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4749730/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4749730/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 08:36:06 PST And travel my last weary mile,
Just forget if you can,
I ever frowned and remembe ronly the
Smile.
Forget unkind words I have spoken,
Remember some good I have done.
Forget that I ever had heartache.
And remember I've had loads of fun.
Forget that I've stumbled and blundered
And sometimes fell by the way.
Remember I have fought some hard
battles
And won, ere the close of the day.
Then forget to grieve for my going,
I would not have you sad for a day.
But in summer just gather some flowers
And remember the place where I lay.
And come int eh shade of the evening
When the sun paints the sky in the west
Stand for a momenet beside me
And remember only my best.

For Amanda Turner.
Born: Febuary 5, 1986
Entered Into Rest: Febuary 8, 2005 ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4691332/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4691332/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 09:23:01 PST And then I just found out that RE3 is for gamecube 8does happy dance* ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4691119/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4691119/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 08:52:07 PST
The thing is..This week is gonna be Hella stressful. Especially cause we have VASE here on Saturday and until friday to get this damned ddrawing of Vera Farmiga done. Other thing is a I have two artworks going, besides this...A painting..The one with the guy holding the guitar and shit..But that just needs to dry cause I finished it...I might repost it...But anyways..I'm far from done at the Vera drawing...So far..Tha paper...has...well...Nothin ^^
Well see you all later. Bye ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4660670/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4660670/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 08:46:18 PST He was at this girls house...He was drinking and claimed he fell asleep after a couple of beers. Cause he said after drinking you have to wait to drive.
That was cool I mean he is doing what he should be doing..But when I sit down and think about it..It aws a school night..I had to call my friend to make sure i was up and ready for school. I should have to do that at 3 in the morning...
The worst part is he used to hit me and I'm scared that if he keeps drinking he might do it again..It just bothers me...Even though he ahsn't done it in a long time I just feel very uncomfortable with it..I mean I dont' care if he drinks on the weekend or anything and as long as he's away from me when he does it i'm fine..But this is during the school days...at 5:30 in the morning...
I mean..I just don't want to take care of my sisters and shit...I hate doing that...Especially cause I'll be living with him...I dont' want to live in that kind of enviroment..Especially cause it causes a huge influence on my alcohol intake and I dont' want to do that stuff again..So I'm thinking about moving towards Nate sooner but more likely move in with my French Teacher or Leon's fam..Which ever comes first...Well I'll let you go now...See you around.. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4587715/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4587715/ Tue, 15 Feb 2005 08:42:05 PST see ya around. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4536299/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4536299/ Wed, 09 Feb 2005 08:37:50 PST I really miss nate. I just really want to talk to him right now...Fucken school sucks..Then I dont' get to talk to him unless i call him from the phone....Which even sucks more...No rp for 3 days ><''''' Anyways....I'll catch you all later... ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4525491/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4525491/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 23:10:22 PST At 10:30, Febuary 7, 2005 I got a phone call. This wasn't any mnormal phone call. It was a friend of mine, her name is Michelle. Guess what she told me...Her sister, a very close friend of mine, like family even, has been in a car accident and is on life support with 5% chance of living.
At first my mind froze. When I realized what she said..It hit me so hard..And unbelivably fast. All I could do was start crying. And think Oh my god..All I could say over and over again.
About 11:30 at night that same day....She passed away..The ironic thing is all of us that went over all of us that were being told about her death...We were all looking at pictures of her..Thinking of memories...Now all there is is memories...She ded right after turning 19, Saturday...Last saturday was her birthday..
And here I am sitting here..Can't believeing she is gone..So if any of yo uout there that read this please send your prayers out tot he Turner Family who have just recently lost their oldest daughter...Also send them out to her friends and other family..Thank you.. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4518961/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4518961/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 08:54:48 PST ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4478026/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4478026/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 08:38:35 PST I know it is the truth cause she has done the same for you. Only she has HATED HERSELF EVERYDAY. CURSED HERSELF. BLAMED HERSELF. You have done nothing worse to her than she has already done. You have only scared her face. She has torn her heart to bits.
You love her. And you want to be with her. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4469308/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4469308/ Tue, 01 Feb 2005 09:15:34 PST
Just yea thinking about that. Reading it over sounds like something one of my firends said to my brother. About how I felt on his death thingy...Complicated story and not really wanting to go in detail about it but yea..well i guess i'll see you all later when i get home form school. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4413210/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4413210/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 16:37:38 PST ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4395896/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4395896/ Sun, 23 Jan 2005 16:52:39 PST But I won't be home again,
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And barely concious you'll say to no one,
Isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my absence I know,
You forgot me long ago,
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me not now,
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone, Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, Please forgive me,
But I won't be home again,
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me not now,
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I bleed,
Knowing you don't care,
And if I sleep, Just to dream of you,
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me not now,
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me? ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4292762/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4292762/ Tue, 11 Jan 2005 08:35:15 PST Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am

{Chorus}
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

{Chorus}

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever

Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)

{Chorus}

My hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption... ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4226412/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4226412/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:19:58 PST Scene: Taking place in Branca's car after Creegan had "assaulted" the suspect in his own vehicle. (her eally just spit on him and wen int he car without permision.) So Branca is upset and starts to lecture him.

Branca: You can't act that way with suspects.

Creegan: Why not?

Branca: Because if he files assault charges you cuold blow the whole case. There are lines you can't cross.
Creegan looks to Branca
Creegan: Lines? There are no lines. There are three boys who are going to die if we dont' find them. Us Susan. Nobody else. There are no lines.

Branca: You need to take a step back and get some perspective. Because when this case is over there is going to be another case, and another, and another. Bad people are gonna kep on doing terrible things to people who don't deserve them. And you can't hold yourself responsible. You can't help them all. It-it's not possible.

Creegan: *raising his voice* But that's why I'm here. That's why I was sent back.
Branca looks to him confused then looks back to the road looking to Creegan every now and then when she can.
Branca: Sent back? From where? Who sent you?
Creegan sighs and then looks back out the window.
Creegan: I mean that's why I came back. That's why I came back to work.

Branca: You're not on a mission from God or some crazy buisness like that are you? Huh? Tell me. *she turns her head to look at him* Answer me cause if you are delusional I need to know.

Creegan: Neither God or any of his represenitives have given me any instructions what so ever. At least. Nothting I can tell you anyway.
Creegan begins to laugh a bit and then Branca gets more irritated with him.
Branca: We are federal agents. Do you understand? Do you get that? Yea? We're Goverment employees, so no bullshit is allowed. None. And as long as we're partners, you will keep your disturbed ass with the program.

(tell me what you guys think) ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4226343/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4226343/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:04:03 PST Leon will be Creegan and I will be Branca^^ hope you enjoy the line. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4028606/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4028606/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 16:12:37 PST ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4017740/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/4017740/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 09:22:09 PST C: What?
B: You're staring at me.
C: You're very beautiful.
B: Alright. Rule number one: No personal stuff. No sex stuff. Dont' tell me I look nice. Don't tell me I smell nice. Don't mess with me period.
C: When I say you're beautiful, I don't mean you're beautiful in a sexual way. I mean you're beautiful liek the night skies, like birds in flight are beautiful. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3839733/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3839733/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 08:54:27 PST Trust me, it's paradise. This is where the hungry come to feed. From mine it's a generation that circles the globe. And searches for something they haven't tried before. So never refuse an invitation. never resist the unfamiliar. Never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome. Just keep your mind and suck in the experiance. If it hurts, the it's probably worth it. But if I was being completely honest, I was being like everyone else: Shit scared of the unknown.
But when you develop an infactuation for someone. You always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason.
And me, I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it's not some place you can look for. Cause it's not where you go. It's how you feel for a moment in your life, when you're a part of something. And when you find that moment. It lasts forever. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3758936/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3758936/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 08:41:56 PST With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah
And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3723080/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3723080/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 09:06:51 PST You showed me, When I was young just how to grow, You showed me, Everything that I should know, You showed me just how to walk without your hands, Cause mom you always were the perfect fan,
God has been so good, Blessing me with a family, Who did all they could, Now with many years of grace, And it flatters me when I see the smile on your face, I wanna thank you for what you've done, In hopes I can give back to you, Be the perfect son.
You showed me, When I was young just how to grow, You showed me, Everything that I should know, You showed me, Just how to walk without your hands, Cause mom you always were the perfect fan,
You showed me how to love, You showed me how to care, You showed me that you would always be there, I wanna thank you for that time, And I'm proud to say you're mine,
You showed me, When I was young just how to grow, You showed me, Everything that I should know, You showed me, Just how to walk without your hands, Cause mom you always were the perfect fan.
Cause mom you always were, Mom you always were, Mom you always were, You knew you always were, Cause mom you always were, The perfect fan

I love you mom ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669582/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669582/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 09:10:01 PDT I talked to my brother about it. Well maybe I should start from the beginning on this.
I have a brother, him and I were supposed to be getting an apartment to move in together which was the coolest thing in the world. Just a 2 bedroom apartment, us sharing a room and then having an office room. Sounds pretty cool right? But then things began to change. He wants his girlfriend to move in with us. Which I'm pretty sure to you guys thats not a big problem, the issue with it is well she has a baby. I mean it's not that I don't like little kids or anything it's just well him and her want to have one of their own. Which means no more two bedroom apartment, it's now going to have to be a three bedroom apartment. Which he continuously argued with me about....Which pissed me off so bad ><''. Well then it turns into two other people will be living with us besides his g/f and the baby. Kim and Jessica...That really set me off!!! ><''' (<----again witht he angry face you might see this one a lot in this particular entry to my journal.) I mean don't get me wrong I love Kim as if she were a sister to me but the fact is he just keeps adding more people in the house. Because of that he suggests a four-bedroom apartment. FOUR-BEDROOM APARTMENT!!!!!!! ><'''' Where does he expect all of us to get the money for that kind of place anyways. So then I went back to suggesting having a three-bedroom apartment, (Notice how that is now in Italics!) So I came up with this rule if he wants to have another baby in the house that once his girlfriend or fiance or whatever she will be then is 7-8 months pregnant that Jessica and Kim have to be gone out of the apartment to make room for the babies. He argued stating that he can fit a small work area with his computer, two cribs then a bed for him and his "person" in one small little room so Kim and Jessica don't have to leave. Well YOU are not going to have room for FOUR PEOPLE and a WORK AREA in a room, besides don't you all agree with me that giving them almost a year and a half to find their own place is fair? So then we got back on the subject of only keeping a four-bedroom apartment in mind. (Which basically means we aren't really sure about it or not but if I have anything to say about it..It's going to be a NO!!!!!).
Well then I realized what my teacher told me. (You know the teacher I mentioned that was going to let me stay with her if I could.) He got so mad at me. Here's the conversation:
Bro: Jeanie is down in Wacco.
Me: What is she doing in Wacco. She's not supposed to be here for a while.
Bro: She's only visiting relatives.
Me: Right and then she's going to come down here. Man what is wrong with you. We don't even have an apartment yet.

Me: There is a possibility that I'm not going to be moving in with you.
Bro: What are you talking about?
Me: I might be living with my teacher....
Bro: Why?
Me: She just wants to make sure that I'll be okay and stuff man.
Bro: Of course you're going to be okay. Which teacher is it?
Me: My French Teacher.
Bro: French Teachers........

And well I'm pretty sure most of you can guess the rest of what happened and everything. But now I feel really bad about it. I mean we've been planning this for a very long time and living together would be incredibly awesome you know but I mean the chance of a life time to have an actuall family that accepts me for me. I mean I know I love him and everything but I just want to have a chance at having something I never really had. But at the same time I don't want to try to hurt his feelings and stuff....If anyone could please give me advice on this.
Well class is almost ending. I'm going to go ahead and sign off of here. TTYAL ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669495/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669495/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 08:53:10 PDT You're always with me
Even though, you're far away
Talkin to you on my cell
Just the sound of your voice
Makes my heart melt
Oh girl, well it's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No baby, you never
Have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it's always you I'm singing about
There is only one
These words are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you
I know you worry sometimes
Some other girl will
Make me forget you're mine
There's not a doubt in this world
That anyone could take
The place of my number one girl
It's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No baby, you never
Have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it's always you I'm singing about
There is only one
These words are going out to
Ohhh girl, I'm all about you
When I close my eyes
I can see you
It's like you're right here
And this feeling's only getting stronger
You're with me everywhere
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No baby, you never
Have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it's always you I'm singing about
There is only one
These words are going out to
Ohhh girl, I'm all about you
I'm all about you


Fades... ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669443/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669443/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 08:46:33 PDT Why weren´t we able
To see the signs that we missed
and tried to turn the tables?
I wish you´d unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
Lately there´s been too much of this,
but don´t think it´s too late
Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
And I hope that since we´re here anyways
we can end it, saying
Things we´ve always needed to say,
so we can end up staying
Now the story´s played out like this
just like a paperback novel
Let´s rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a Hollywood horror
Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren´t we able
To see the signs that we missed
and tried to turn the tables?
I wish you´d unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
Lately there´s been too much of this,
but don´t think it´s too late
Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
I know you´re wondering when ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669418/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669418/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 08:41:56 PDT #This file is the author's own work and represents their interpretation of the #
#song. You may only use this file for private study, scholarship, or research. #
#--------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------#

Nickelback - How You Remind Me
Written by Nickelback from their CD, Silver Side Up

Transcribed By Nate "The Man" Reilly listentonickelback@hotmail.com
Updated Feb 7/2002
[link]


Verses
E|--------------------------|----------- ------------r----|------
B|--------------------------|----------- ------------e----|------
G|--5--5--3--3--5--5--3--3--|----5------ 8------3----s----|------
D|--5--5--3--3--5--5--3--3--|------5---- --8------3--t----|------
A|--3--3--1--1--3--3--1--1--|--3------6- -----1-----------|------
E|--------------------------|----------- -----------------|------



E--------------------|
B--------------------|
G----5------8-----3--|
D------5------8---3--|
A--3------6-------1--|
E--------------------|
^Chomp away on this chord

Chorus
E--------------------------------------- ----------|
B--------------------------------------- ----------|
G--5--5--5--5--8--8--8--8--3--3--3--3--- ----------|
D--5--5--5--5--8--8--8--8--3--3--3--3--3 --3--3--3-|
A--3--3--3--3--6--6--6--6--1--1--1--1--3 --3--3--3-|
E--------------------------------------1 --1--1--1-|



Two first chords, hit 2x, then rest after each
E--------------------------------------| -------------------------
B--------------------------------------| -------------------------
G-5--5--8--8---3--3--3--3--------------| --5--5--5--5-------------
D-5--5--8--8---3--3--3--3--3--3--3--3--| --5--5--5--5--8--8--8--8-
A-3--3--6--6---1--1--1--1--3--3--3--3--| --3--3--3--3--8--8--8--8-
E--------------------------1--1--1--1--| --------------6--6--6--6-



E--------------------------------------- -----------------------------
B--------------------------------------- -----------------------------
G---3--3--3--3-------------------------- -----------------------------
D---3--3--3--3--3--3--3--3-------------- -----------------------------
A---1--1--1--1--3--3--3--3-------------- -----------------------------
E---------------1--1--1--1-------------- ----------------------------- ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669386/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3669386/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 08:37:08 PDT What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3647845/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3647845/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 09:04:47 PDT There's a feeling that's come over me
Close my eyes
You're the only one that leaves me completely breathless
No need to wonder why
Sometimes a gift like this you can't deny
'Cause I wanted to fly, so you gave me your wings
And time held its breath so I could see, yeah
And you set me free
There's a will
There's a way
Sometimes words just can't explain
This is real
I'm afraid
I guess this time there's just no hiding, fighting
You make me restless
You're in my heart
The only light that shines there in the dark
'Cause I wanted to fly, so you gave me your wings
And time held its breath so I could see, yeah
And you set me free
When I was alone
You came around
When I was down
You pulled me through
And there's nothing that I wouldn't do for you
'Cause I wanted to fly, so you gave me your wings
And time held its breath so I could see, yeah
And you set me free. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3647835/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3647835/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 09:03:17 PDT The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look you're never there
And every time I sleep you're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me? ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3647816/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3647816/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 08:59:55 PDT ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3641028/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3641028/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 09:21:44 PDT Just talking to the rain
You say I’ve been driving you crazy
And it’s keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
‘Cause I don’t wanna waste another moment
In saying things we never meant to say
And I take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I’ve been waiting for a chance to let you in
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I’ll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You’ll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Well it’s all so overrated
I’m not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what’s real
And I give you just a little time
I wonder if you realize
I’ve been wanting ‘til I see it in your eyes
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I’ll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You’ll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
So I whisper in the dark
Hoping you’ll hear me
Do you hear me?
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I’ll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You’ll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Everything is alright if I just breathe
I’ve been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3641025/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3641025/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 09:20:48 PDT Goodbye to you, Good bye to everything that I knew, You were the one I loved, The one thing that I tried to hold onto,
It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time, I want whats yours and I want whats mine, I want you but I'm not giving in this time, Good bye to you, Good bye to everything that I knew, You were the one I loved, The one thing that I tried to hold onto, Goodbye to you, Good bye to everything that I knew, You were theo ne I loved, The one thing that I tried to hold onto, The one thing that I tried to hold on to, And when the stars fall I will lie awake, You're my shooting star. ]]> ~kistern-san http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3640985/ http://kistern-san.deviantart.com/journal/3640985/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 09:15:03 PDT ~kistern-san