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At any rate, this summer I will not be working at the Henry Ford Museum. Instead, I'll be working at Cedar Point in an attempt to test my ability to live away from home. I already live pretty detached from my family considering my campus residential status, but to live three hours away should be an excited experience.

I will be working with my dorm mates, basically five of my other friends. So, really, it's like we're taking a vacation to earn a lot of money. Among them, my job is the easiest. They have to work food service, I'm in Live Entertainment.

That's right, this year, I'll be one the various Snoopy's wandering Cedar Point. At first I thought this would be a somewhat hard job, considering how hot the suit is going to become. Though when explained by my new boss I realized that I will only be outside for 25 minutes at a time while taking 30 minute breaks in between (or rather, this is what I was told. Hopefully, the woman wasn't mistaken as this sounds to good to be true!.

I leave on May 17th. I'll be living in the apartments down there, the ones with the cable tv and the internet, however I'm not certain as to how active I'll be on here when I get down there, not that I'm all that active on here now.

As for other news: Check out the Avatar Roleplaying Website Hou Tian: [link] It's a personal invite from me, one of the founders. Just drop a hollah at Kris (that's my username).

For all those BBA people out there, check out Death Valley on the website. We're currently accepting pack members. Remember: nothing spells out war like Enix.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/16327741/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/16327741/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 10:07:30 PST
I went with my close friend this year and even made new ones. I can't wait for the next one however. My favorite Sailor Moon sticker artist was there, so I bought some stuff from her. She's on deviart too! But, I forget her screen name. -rubs chin- Reguardless, this time at the con I bought mostly Mai HiMe stuff.

Damn I am obsessed with that anime.

I bought the new PS2 game for Mai Otome/Mai HiMe, which is in japanese. If I buy the little disk thingy however, I can play it in my own american ps2, I just have to read the translation while do so. In the meantime, I'll look at the pretty box and sigh dreamily.

Now me and my friends are preparing for Youmacon, we plan on cosplaying this time so it'll be really kick ass. I'm thinking either...Bleach or Mugen Haruka Tenoh from Sailor Moon. Though, between now and then who knows.

I almost didn't have the funds to go to Ohayocon but because I got good grades in college [A-, B, B-, C; and believe me, that's good grades for someone who doesn't do try xD] I managed to get some extra money. I'm still collecting x-mas gifts from family memebers too, so I'm definetly going to save the cash from that to prepare for my family gathering in Atlanta and Youmacon, plus I'll be using whatever I make from working in the Village this year at Henry Ford (I need a change a little scenario change, working in a costume is bound to be more exciting then being in a shirt and hat). Man I hope Youmacon gets here fast though and I'm hoping Kayfedewa will come back again so I can kick her ass in more Mario-Kart!

Thanks again for my cameo sheet too, Kay.

In other goods new, we're finally moving to larger house. It's hard work moving, but it's gonna be sweet. I think God for the oppertunity and hope he gives my family more blessing.

Here's also to hoping more friggin Avatar comes out soon, I r having withdrawlz.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/15049759/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/15049759/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 20:45:56 PDT
Canada has some weird food though, it just tastes different is all.

But uh, I'll say one thing, at night, it seems like all canadian television just plays porn.

Not that I'm complaining or anything, a heh heh heh.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/14323313/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/14323313/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 17:51:14 PDT
Oh it's almost embarassing to say.

I...like The Avatar.

It's no Kim Possible or Sailormoon for me

But it's just about right up there with...well maybe not up there with Hentai either.

I like it though. XD Alot.

I sat up and watched nearly all the seasons the other day from a website, Luckeh gave me. She forced me to watch them with her. D:

Now we can be Avanerds together I suppose.

Oh...AND MY SAILORMOON SUPERS AND S DVDS CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY, OMG YES.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/14181632/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/14181632/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 14:23:47 PDT
For anime-cons and most importantly, furfest wif Luckeh XD

Ohio in Januany

To Shire's in Novemeber

To Youmacon wif me buds, might be able to drag Lylie along to that one, that too in Novemeber.

Move into me dormz on sept 1st, and while I really won't be but...bouuuut, a few miles from home, I ain't gonna be in da house, so thank goodness for that one, lawl.

Already got friends and stuff, but I still need to meet me dormz buddy. It'll be awesome if we can draw together though.

Oooh, yez, and I'm happy for my home boy, Deven for getting leadership props. Congratz cuz, it's bout to be sunshine days for me Bianca Carl and Jayald XD

Und thankz to my bba peeps for, well, you already know.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13916947/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13916947/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 17:03:19 PDT
For the last few days work has been pretty decent, if you know what I mean so speaking of which.

The other day I worked at the Weiner Moble Cafe, which was filled with weeniers and the usual whiny customers. Working at Henry Ford Musuem should fill one with pride an joy, but it usually just fills me with the basic sensation of fustration, delerium, and agitation.

I get delerious after saying 3.18 so many times, lol.

Anyway, so we're setting up the Cafe, which is long boring an redundant, when as usual an old man tries to shove his wheel chaired friend off the stairs. All we hear is a loud cry of general suprise, but not only did that happen, someone who was trying to stair at the man tug his friends back up the stairs slipped down the RAMP.

Yes, we have a ramp for wheel chairs, and stairs for people but sometimes they just don't put two and two together.

Usually, when I work down there, whenever the leader is gone I take control. It's not that hard when you know everyone and is more dominant then them, but sometimes...

Hah, sometimes its okay, it's really fun, especially when you get to drag your employees back to work.

Though, speaking of which today we had this consert thing, so everyone expected us to be busy. We were less busy today then we were yesterday, or it felt like that anyway. But, at the end of work something wonderful happened.

Besides the fact that I can't really remember if I clocked out or not.

I went to Best Buy on a whim and bought....

A tablet! Yes, my very first expensive ass drawing tablet. It better be worth the cash. I only got it today because it was next to Myers, where I went to go buy my cedar point ticket for monday.

Anyway, so now I've got a brand new shiny wacom to use on my crap, dunno how to use it no, but the fact that I have one makes me feel like I've accomplished something. I've got this list of crap I have to buy. Next thing up, a webcam and a air conditioner for my laptops. Those are only 33 bucks so I'll get one next time.

I guess the only reason I got it was because I got a raise at work, so I could finally afford it. This thing comes with Photoshop Elements too, and I dun have dat, so, it'll be interesting figuring out what it does.

So expect a lot of strange stuff now that I can draw on the pc, or, at least I'll be learning too.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13876183/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13876183/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 15:39:04 PDT
First thing up, I've been practicing my human drawings every other day. I'm slowly improving, though I can't churn out masterpieces and shit like some of the other peeps 'round here. Tis a shame really, I think if I were more patient more shit would get done.

Second thing up is to gain more patience, which I've been trying that too, that's getting better actually. When you work in a job with foriegners you start gettin' 'em.

I got a new laptop, so, now this one is for papers, this one I'm on now is for crap like hentai and vidoes and the big computer is for...hentai and games.

My wolves are looking better, awesome.

Goin' to cedar point on Monday, that's gonna be neat.

Gotta start savin' money for Atlanta next year.

Gotta finish this HUGE ASS Harry Potter book, like this shit is so big it should be illegal and I'm only on chapter 3 and I've been just about spoliered to death. >_>

Gotta get more hentai.

Gotta build up my credit cards so I can get more hentai.

Oh yeah. Me open house is on the 5th, so I gotta go to that, which means BBA Peeps, I probably won't be rping that day till like...at night.

Oh yeah, gonna start taking commissions soon. Who wants crappy funny looking wolves? You know you do.

Hm, I think that's about it. Job's not all that good, it's depressing but my very close friend, Daddy, I'm going to leaving in about 2 years to go Colorado, then I know all my crap'll really be on the ball.

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Is all I have to say. Be careful and drop baggage.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13272008/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13272008/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 23:42:27 PDT
I've decided that this summer I'm going to focus/practice on my human designs. Gonna work on the things I suck at, like breast and legs and fingers and faces and...yeah basically everything.

Though I need more work in the faces department. Hair too.

It makes me wonder how people learned how to draw humans in the first place. Do people take classes or do they just try and draw what they see?

Must be great having skill, I'll tell you that.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13181646/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13181646/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 20:23:31 PDT
So many things to say that I'm to afraid to say, to angry to say, to confused to say, or I just don't care enough to say it.

I still won't be able to say them, because despite my want, I'm just not heartless enough to hurt a person who I care for's feelings.

I'll be a good little doggy for two more days.

Maybe.

I’ve become cynical and bitter since my 18th birthday. The world has changed for me and reality has a biting edge. I’m sick and tired of people, all people, not just those I know, who are changing either for better or worse, but just people.

There are things wrong with me, with my judgment and my focuses that cause me to fear what drives my actions. However, these are the things that make me, initially me. I am incapable of caring about others, I don’t have time for grudges, another’s tears make me uncomfortable and I can’t live for anyone else but myself. I often forget what happens the day before, and the past is often to painful to remember. I can’t move on with my life if someone else is holding me down.

Today was the last day of school, we walked up the hill and people began to cry. Why? Are you sad you no longer have to see the fuck ups and bitches that you see everyday? Sad that you no longer have to walk into a room full of your peers and feel uncomfortable, like everything spewed from their mouth is another rumor, another snicker, about how you act or look physically? I searched deep within myself, and honestly, I feel nothing.

The only tear I’ll ever shed in remorse and loneness will be for Alexis.

Fuck those who dare go behind my back and spew lies that ruin what little relationships I have. I won’t be able to hurt you physically, I won’t be able to kill you like I so long to do with my twitching fingers and racing heart, but I will find a way, and hell has no fury like a black woman scorned.

There are only a select few who I believe belong to me and I will let no lanky fool destroy my pack.

Though, I will let those who wish to believe things that are said if they want to. Those who know me can contact me if they’ve got shit to say.

Silently, I watched, empty, as Alexis drove away. I know I won’t be able to ever connect with this woman again, I’ve got to work on the other three people I’ve got left. Though things are quickly falling apart, and I don’t have the experience or the glue to keep this together.

This was the last day of high school, I will not be surrounded by children no longer, I will no longer be able to associate myself with people who I’m not sure if they’re my friend or not. I’m not worried about this; there are two more days we’ve got to go, prom and graduation. Both of those days, both of those days I’ll be anticipating, I’ll be waiting, and I’ll have this burning ball of aggressive energy waiting to be released on the nearest subject who rubs me the wrong way, who betrays me and what little trust I have to offer. I will no longer sugar coat who I am, what I am, I’ve become an adult physically, but mentally I have always been.

And let someone come up to my face and deny me my justice. I don’t have time to play games with grown ass women.

Just because one has ruined their life, doesn’t mean I will let them ruin mine.

The last day of school, and all I did was put on my mask of delight while I burned with rage within and pretended to be ‘nice’. Though, I’m a damn good actor, it’s hard to notice when I’m angry, unless I’m really angry.

And I am really angry.

Tomorrow, I’ll have forgotten about today, and I won’t care.

That’s how I like it though.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13084645/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/13084645/ Fri, 25 May 2007 05:16:56 PDT
I've got nothing to say. XD

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/12852092/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/12852092/ Sat, 05 May 2007 12:38:17 PDT
Recently I turned 18, and athough I don't feel older, and it just seems like more responsibility and trials have been thrust upon me I'm still relieved to have lived this long. Once again I didn't get much acknowledgement on my birthday, and I didn't get any gifts really or a party. It felt like I had to remind my friends that it was my birthday and they seemed relectant to help me celebrate it.

It's now I realize I only really have three friends who care about me in real life.

I still don't know how to drive and I'm still broke as hell.

Senior prom is coming up and I can't afford a dress, I'm not sure how I'll get it or if I'll get it. I'm just lucky I have a caring prom date that is paying for my ticket and my share of the limo because I really can't. I'm not as fortunate as some people who actually have the money, I didn't even think I was going to college. I'm also lucky that the college is giving me a free ride. I'm also having an interview for Boarders on wesnday so I might be able to afford a dress yet!

I dunno if I'm actually gaining another crappy job, because they want to put me in the cafe, or not.

Chris is also bringing another friend to prom and he asked if I was okay with that. I said yeah, because I'm really excited about meeting this girl so I can *evil laughter* seduce her. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

But I get off the subject.

Jessica, Chris, and I skipped friday for senior skip day and it was like, a blast. We went trampalining, we played with puppies, we rolled down the hill at the park, Jessica fell on her fat ass and got mud all over her shoulders, ass, and knees. I even got to drive alittle so that I could get experience.

I'm alittle worried about some of my other friends though, especially since me and Alexis don't talk as serious as we used to.

Oh well, I'll try to appreciate what life is handing me right now, carry on, stop being bitter, and stop crying at night. One day, when I have the money, I'm taking out all the people I care about the most someplace special.

I'll anticipate that moment.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/12516073/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/12516073/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 20:07:20 PDT
It's gonna be sooo sexy.

I'm hoping I'll gain some sort of drawing skill while there.

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/11539571/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/11539571/ Tue, 23 Jan 2007 09:30:30 PST
Then they left me, alone and cold and unable to cope with the reality that my own inabilities had ruined the only friendship I was able to keep for seven years.

I’ve a low self-esteem, anxiety, and a twisted sense of friendship.

Four years later, one has to cling desperately to the only link to the past, a link that seems more indifferent and burdened then grateful for a presence haunted by mistakes and actions that must not be repeated.

Though they get repeated.

And every morning, when I wake up, I stare at that link and I can see it fading.

Pain from a loneliness crafted by abandonment keeps me wondering.

How do I solve what I don't know how to fix.

I can't get rid of this...

Low self-esteem, anxiety, and twisted sense of friendship.

You cannot seek love when there is none to be found in the place you’re looking, otherwise would there be a point?

And you can't find friendship in people who have no desire to cling back to you.

Why must I feel so insecure over things that don’t matter or hold a purpose?

If you cannot let go of the past you can’t let go of the pain you experienced in order to shed wings and fly.

Then again, you cannot fly if you never had wings to begin with.

Tomorrow morning, in silence, I’ll sit with that link again, and think these same damn things I’ve thought before, but I won’t speak, or say a word.

In the end, because I have no courage to voice what I feel, I’ll continue to watch it drift away.

And in the end, the gap will get larger and larger.

How pathetic.

So, how can these ramblings mean anything to those who don’t care?

They don’t.

They never did.

And there’s nothing that makes this a story, unless you already know the plot.

But you don’t.

I’ve no courage to voice it.

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]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/10880334/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/10880334/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 14:56:12 PST
I finally bought a subscription to this thing after being on it for about three years. Not that that'll make my art any better, but it's worth a try. Maybe I'll magically, improve, that would be awesome.

Anyway, now that I've got a paypal and some freetime, I think I might start taking requests. Want sometin' drawn? Eh, I can try my best to get it to you perfect and pretty.

At the moment, I can do simple sketched or inked drawings, and I'll do 'em for five bucks.

However, since I only seem to be good at drawing:

One)
Animals/Creatures: Any type of canine creature is best though I can stretch it to alot of things.

Or

Two)
Kim Possible: I love drawing that, so I think I could rock it if anyone wanted anything.

Those two things will be the only thing I can draw for anyone, should they request it.

I never done nofin like a character trade before, or something along those lines but I'd be willing to try it. I'm open to alot of stuff.


If anyone wants somethin' colored, I could try...but I doubt I'll be doing that right now.

Anything I draw will be scanned and then smacked on the computer. Slowly, I am learning how to use Photoshop better, so..you know. Just, no digital coloring or masterful artwork yet.

So like, drop me a note or sometin' if you want anything. n-n;

]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/9996962/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/9996962/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 09:43:45 PDT ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/7705153/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/7705153/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 14:34:09 PST
I've found out that I've got another obsession, though not as great as my Sailor Moon one is. I like Kim Possible. I know, people are groaning in the background but that show is really hilarious, just like Totally Spies. If I can I might start doing fan artwork of it. I like the sound of that challenge.

On another bright side of things I saw some old friends two days ago and the meeting was really fun. Hopefully, I can come into contact with my old best friend, who I'm sure has moved on but I can't help missing her, she was my partner in crime.

But anyway, enough of my useless ranting. Till the next time I get the urge to write in this thing. Chow. ]]> ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/6636831/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/6636831/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 18:25:41 PDT ~kitoko http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/3256587/ http://kitoko.deviantart.com/journal/3256587/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 16:16:42 PDT ~kitoko