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Why I think slash is important (the second coming!)

I am making this entry as a follow up to my last "Why I think slash is important" entry because I think there a few key concepts of it that I didn't get the opportunity to touch on last time. In other words: RANTZ TIMEZ! haha!

When I made the last entry about this topic, it was in response to the homoerotic nature the pro wrestling industry had and its semi-denial of it. But I felt as though there are more issues that revolve around the greatness of slash fiction and it's writers that should be pointed out.

1) The Taboo's of that wicked beast known as man.
Let's face it: Guys can be such bull-shitters. Men like to feel powerful and strong in some of the most absurd and dumb ways to prove their "Manhood". Some men have to prove it by putting another guy down. They compete with each other over women, money, power, etc. Creating an environment where they talk about their fears, feelings, insecurities and emotions with one another like they were on Dr. Phil just doesn't happen every day. A good writer can tackle those things with a good plot device and break that social taboo. If the writer is skilled, he/she can create a plot device that can strip away all sorts of superficial ideology that reveals a reflection of our own inner fears of relationships. Some of the best fiction I've read has always involved a buildup of some inner issue and demon that the characters have needed to take on in order to become better people. When I look in the comment boxes after reading a fic that was written well, it's not unusual for me to see people type in: "When is the next chapter coming out?!?! I can't wait!!!!111111"

2) The feminine principal of control.
A huge chunk of writers and fans of wrestling slash are female. I find that to be so fascinating. Growing up, all I ever heard were the tales of how guys liked girl on girl action and such. Women never really shared their sexual fantasies because they were receptive emotionally. In other words, they wanted to be chased and not the pursuers. So when I see these fics of guys being under the influence of a female writer and her control, I can't help but feel a little joy for them. I feel as though that this is a great outlet for them to exercise their fantasies and feel in control. Women should be able to beat on their chests like Tarzan and take the reins of power as well. I say if same sex fantasies about women are cool, the reverse should not be belittled. Let me give you a better example:

A LONG time ago I was part of a now defunct fiction/pic posting wrestling group on Yahoo. I recall a woman who was married who liked slash fiction posting a message about how her husband caught her reading a fic. He was really worked up and pissed over it and she wanted to share the story because she thought his reaction was funny. I personally thought it was funny too. Part of me wondered what was he doing so wrong that she needed to turn to the internet to pique her sexual curiosity!

I wonder if that marriage ever lasted? LOL.

It's nice to see that there is a counterculture of women that are into this kind of thing. I saw a clip of a movie once where a woman was telling a guy she liked gay porn, when he asked her why, she replied: "Because I love penises, duh..."

It's that kind of up front attitude that makes my mind open up a little more and question why some people can be accepted being perverse and be proud, while others can't. So dare I say it ladies: you just might be blazing a trail of sexual revolution!

3) The ends justify the means.

For me, when I try to draw a illustration, I have a goal in mind when I put pencil to paper. I have to decide what poses I want, how the angles will be, and all sorts of crap that gives me a headache sometimes. But it is all necessary for me to do that if I want what I imagine to come to life. It doesn't have to be perfect, but it has to be something that I don't get out of me, then I will likely forget it later. For writers, some of those factors goes into a fic they write. They have to de... ]]> *kittysenshi OFFICIAL NOTICE: Y2J is Blacklisted! http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/28189953/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/28189953/ Sat, 07 Nov 2009 01:06:29 PST

As the title implies I am putting Chris Jericho (Whom I will refer to in this post by his real name Chris Irving.), on a definite blacklist of my works.

This means he will NEVER be in my Inspirational Wallpaper series or any other wrestling Yaoi/Slash works I produce.

Why? This is why ----> [link]

If you can't see it, or are just too lazy to click the link I will give you the shorthand version of how I took it; He used a homophobic, and bigoted epithet that was in total poor taste, then when he made a Faux-pas apology, saying he was more happy to be on TMZ then to be humble about how the power of his own voice could be used to hurt others.

But that is not my major beef. At first when I read that, I was so pissed of. Not because he said a word that any third grader on a recess break could have used with little to no social skill, but rather his apology was so half-assed that it was a skip away from saying he really wasn't sorry at all.

Quite frankly, I think he lied when he said he was sorry. How sorry was he? Was he sorry enough never to do it again? Or was he only sorry that he got on camera, clearly intoxicated and caught making a fool of himself? What are you REALLY sorry for Mr. Irving?

Now, I'm sure some people might not quite get why this is such an issue to me. It's understandable considering that Vinnie-Mac was dumb enough to use the term "That's Gay" on Raw, (Which I made clear in a previous post I was NOT offended by.) So why be offended this time? It's simple to me; he should have just known better. Here's Why;

1) He is an established wrestler who has been in the industry for a couple decades, he is not a dime a dozen jobber, and should have known that eyes would be on him.

2) Because of experience he has given in reason one, he also knew that there were stereotypes about the very industry he works in. Which means that if he wants to perpetuate the image that pro-wrestlers are meat-heads with little to no respect for other people's values(and alcoholics to boot. Don't go to an event wasted stupid!), then he had influence to make that very image possible every time he stepped in front of a camera, by showing some dignity for himself.

3) Sports fans are diverse group of people. When this happens in other sports, such as baseball and football, sometimes there are consequences for those players when they use those terms because they have to follow a code of ethics once they sign a contract (Such as a fine or suspensions.). I'll bet you any given amount of money that Chris Irving is into other sports that have these similar kinds of contracts, also given the fact that his father was part of the NHL, you think somewhere common sense would dictate that SOMEBODY would have told the kid; "Uh, hey. You might not want to go saying that in front of too many people." But it's ok Mr. Irving, I'm sure Vinnie-Mac won't go giving you a slap on the wrist anytime soon, besides, heaven forbid that you DON'T insult anyone to begin with! I mean, that would just be plain no fun right?

I have to think to myself as well here, and say that I know these men in the industry are no angels, between this incident, the Jeff Hardy drug charges drama, and the Chris Benoit and Eddie Guerrero incidents from years back, its pretty obvious that I shouldn't get so worked up. This is just how some celebrities get their kicks. This is how they enjoy their fun of sorts. This is just how some people cure boredom.

However, I also felt for that what was done here was in no way shape and form positive and constructive on his side, and he was aware of that. I cannot reward that, or just let it slip with a "that's just what they do" kind of mentality.

No this time I am putting him on a Blacklist; a list of people whom I find totally uninspiring and can never be on one of my wallpapers, because they do not meet the requirements of intelligence, dignity, respect (or self respect), positivity, or common sense to make the world a more happier place to live and love in.

Now I'm sure this will generate no tears from anyone... at least I would hope no one would cry over that lol. But I making this not only as a rant, but as an official notice to all of my watchers: Don't expect any Y2J illustrations from me, now or in the future, I will not accept any requests for him e... ]]> *kittysenshi A 'Bourne' confusion? http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/27849365/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/27849365/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 07:38:42 PDT

Ok, here is the deal, I just went to Google and typed in "Evan Bourne slash fiction" in the search box. The first result that came up was my own DA page! There is something creepy yet accomplishing about that, being the first name drawn out of the hat.

But seriously, anyone know where I can find some? The usual haunts didn't have anything new posted. If I don't get some, I might have to be forced to (Gasp) write some! Oh noes! (sarcasm)

Favorite Quotes!

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

"I can see a dream in you dance! I can see tomorrow in your dance! We can call it: 'Our Hope'..."

Announcer from 'Dance Dance Revolution"

"I don't wan't friends to die, or fade away... I don't want to fight battles where we have to lose in order to win!"

Yuna from FFX-2

Stamp-Box

*kittysenshi Assorted entry http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/27572105/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/27572105/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 06:21:37 PDT

This is going to be one of those assorted topics kinda entries.

Topic 1) The shoutbox

For anyone who sees this right now, PLEASE use my shoutbox! Its so bare and empty... I think I am the only one who uses it!

Topic 2) 3k kiriban?

I didn't do a kiriban for my 2k pageviews because when I made an entry about it there seemed to be no ideas that I could conjure up that would satisfy me. Anyone interested in sharing ideas for this one? I doesn't have to be slash fiction related. I'd like to make this one a free for all if possible. (Wild freaky circus sex anyone? LOL!!!!)

Topic 3) I learned something! YAY!

I finally figured out how to use the pen tool in Photoshop! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO damn stoked about that!

Topic 4) String of G-strings!?!?! WTF?

Anyone who prowls the internet notice that a lot more wrestlers are practically getting stripped of their pants lately? (And literally?)

First a series of Rhodes/DiBiase vids hit the net of them being pantsed (that's not unusual for house shows. Happened to Randy a million and one times lmao.) And now Mark Jindrak has ass shots from his stripping shows in Mexico. Oh and to top it off, Zach Ryder ripped the trunks off of some poor guy and EVERYTHING was showing! I believe it was edited out, and I'm not complaining, but you would think we could just speed the eroticism up a few notches and get back to Tuxedo and Mud wrestling matches? plz-k-thx-bai!

Topic 5) Happy full moon.

Title says it all. I hope I can see it clearly tonight!

Topic 6) A rant on manhood.

I recently saw a video trying to promote Tekken 6 coming out over at Gaygamer.net here -> [link] (I say *Trying* as loosely as possible. Since it had absolutely NO GAMEPLAY FOOTAGE WHATSOEVER!!!) It mostly contained a bunch of MMA fighters spouting off about manhood and why fighting is important. Don't get me wrong if you are into cage-fighting, I have no problem with that. I don't LIKE it, but I tolerate it. (Just as I would ask people to tolerate Gay Marriage, but hey, it doesn't mean they have to like it either!)

But I am straying from topic here. When I saw the video I thought the ideals these guys had was nothing short of immature. (And coming from a perv like me that means something!!!) I have to disagree strongly whenever I hear that manhood involves whooping some other guys ass for fun.

Why?

It's way too linear and one sided. Men are composed of so many more things it could make one really sit back and wonder what we are truly missing in life. Men are not always dominating creatures. We carry ingenuity, observation, curiosity, mechanical skills, sexuality, spirituality, the list could go on. I really believe that maturity and masculinity are only small pieces of the pie that make up what a "Man" is supposed to be. So when I hear some D-bag meat-head trying to talk down to someone in order to validate himself I have to wonder: "Is this why the male gender as a collective is so stereotyped as stupid?"

Oh, and I'm not going to by tekken 6 anytime soon, maybe I'll buy it used at EB sometime in a few years hehe.

Topic 7) I have a question!!!!

I'd like to know to anyone out there what places or haunts you go to to get your fix of slash. I usually find a Livejournal group here and there. But If there are other places, I'd be curious to know. GIVE ME INPUT!!!

Topic 8) My last poll.

I normally do not count my own votes for my polls, I only vote so I can see the results (Isn't that messed up?!

) So there is another tie again! Everyone liked both ideas I had! Thank you so much! I have ideas for making strips for both "Slash and the City" and "Gakuen Evan"

Topic 9) Thank you so much!

this entry is now officially over! Thank you for playing our game! (INSERT COIN) lol j/k

*kittysenshi Why I think Slash Fiction is important.... http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/27097796/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/27097796/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:39:18 PDT

Just recently on a gay oriented blog I usually read from time to time, I heard of a complaint from one of the editors about WWE monday night RAW. Apparently, during the episode of "Vince's Birthday", a bunch of girls came out dressed in vivid color outfits (sans Vegas/Show girls style) and I guess he said something along the lines of "That's so gay" or "That's kinda gay".

I personally did not catch that episode and was not offended, the editor of this particular blog however, was. He made it quite clear that these were two hundred pound muscle guys who wear next to nothing, use oil, and put them selves in homoerotic situations, and somehow, Vinny-mac had forgotten about that aspect.

Although his rant was a good laugh, it did get me thinking hard about some things.

For example: Why do these men wear so little and why must the stories be so dramatic? Does not the drama itself, inspire imagination? Is what the WWE and other promotions produce just for the sake of profit? Or was it meant to actually inspire us on some level?

thats when it hit me; I finally understood why the slash community exists.

We use the wrestlers as mediums just like promoters use them as workers.

Authors of slash write with the intent to use the given person as a image to reflect some higher (or in some cases smutier) form of expression. This might sound like a confusing concept at first, so follow if you can. If you take a good look at the diverse type of men that work in the WWE, you will see that there are so many that reflect what most authors want to express and be inspired by. They are not only actors of stage in real life, but also to slash writers.

Their image is used with purpose; to express an emotion, perhaps is loving, caring, sexual, spiritual, or even violent. Sometimes it's used as a means to express ones own previous trauma. Fans of wrestling see it as a sport, of heroes that entertain us. The difference between them and Slash authors, is that the slash community has the ability to peel away the layers of vanity in order to toggle with the rubix cube of that particular wrestlers' mind. A good writer will think; "Hmmm, what kind of human being is he really like underneath?" "What kind of fears, of pains does this person have."

Still sound too confusing for you? Ok, let me simplify it:

Slash writers have the ability to take an industry plagued by drama and turn into a message of love. Does that sound "Gay" to you? It should, as a matter of fact it DAMN better be!

Why? Because people on a conscious level are sometimes scared to love, therefor Pro-Wrestling on its own merit's as an industry does not fix that. Now enter Slash authors; the secret underground society of people who carry a hidden message that businessmen like Vinny-Mac can't convey. It's the same message that causes wars, its the same message that drives the world as it is today, it is the same message that got Jesus himself crucified: what is it?

It is the message of love...

As corny as it sounds, that is what drives me to do what I do, and what so many others out there do as well. By using a particular wrestler as a medium to convey our feelings, we get to release a side of ourselves that we cannot normally share. A side that scares people, but yet can be one of the nurturing processes that an author can do for his/her own self.

Is Slash fiction gay? Yep, but if that is all you see, then you miss the bigger picture. That is why Slash is important. The direction we take the characters in reflect us. So the slash community must convey these things on the internet, like the underground railroad; keeping the freedom of love a secret, shown only to those who find the way with the same heart... or perversions, give or take.

My deviations!

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/26665129/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 06:18:28 PDT

GALLERY | FAVORITES | PREVIOUS ENTRIES |

Ok so I made a new poll today because I about two months ago and I couldn't decide who on earth would be the ideal slash partner for our little Evan. (Well, besides ourselves that is lol.)

I also got ahold of some fake photoshopped pics of Centon in XXX action on someones livejournal page, and I must say, you can tell some of them are doctored up because the heads do not match the bodies lmmfao. However some of them look really... good. Kinda scary. They aren't safe to post a link to here so if anyone wants the link just send me a note. I feel as though its my duty to share that Centon booty. (yeah corny phrase so sue me. )

Lastly I just watched RAW for the first time in months. I was not impressed to say the least. Looked like the same storyline I've seen over and over again. I am beginning to wonder if I am over wrestling all together. Although I saw the Gail Kim vs Mickey James match and felt so bad when they bungled up the end of it. ><; Yikes...

Well, Gail looks absolutely BEAUTIFUL, so I think I can let it slide lol.

My deviations!

Stamp-Box

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/26164634/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 05:14:14 PDT

GALLERY | FAVORITES | PREVIOUS ENTRIES |

Ok so here is the deal, I haven't really gone anywhere or done anything art related in a while. I just passed my 2k kiriban (w00t!), but I had absolutely no creative juices to make something of it. The reason why is because I've been working on other projects in my own little neck of the universe. I've been looking in setting aside more time for meditation and wiccan practices because next month I plan on becoming a wiccan priest. Quite frankly I can't believe it myself. If you asked me a few years ago if I would be interested in any type of spiritual practices, I probably would have laughed in your face. I started down my path about a year ago, and I have learned quite a bit when it comes to the forces of nature.

I have also been practicing touch typing so I can get a different job. The health care industry is so vile in every direction that it knew it was time for a change for me.

I have also been tinkering with the idea of making my own game for the past month or so now. Of course it would be a fan made game using the RPG maker 2003 program, but still, the thought has been nagging me.

Lastly, I apologize to anyone waiting on the next wallpaper. As it stands right now C.M. Punk won the last poll. Shawn Michaels will be done after him. I don't know how long it will take because my schedule is so up in the air right now.

Take care slash fans!

My deviations!

Stamp-Box

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/25172791/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 03:54:13 PDT

GALLERY | FAVORITES | PREVIOUS ENTRIES |

What's up slash fans? Long time no slash! I will be blunt, I've fallen into a sinkhole. FFXI + Full time job = EPIC FAIL. I just love it so much! I can't help it! No matter how many things go wrong with it I still keep coming back. I am officially its slave. Even though it is a one sided love, and I will probably have nothing to show for it other than a 'you wasted your life you loser.' from my subconscious mind. Now that I think about it, I still haven't opened my Devil Summoner 2 game yet. It came with a cute Jack Frost doll! So CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!

Second thing on my agenda, is my last poll I made. So far it is a tie! C.M. Punk vs Shawn Michaels! I will give it about one more week before I end that poll and start beginning work on it. If you haven't voted yet then now is you last chance!

Also I just recently checked my pageviews, I'm almost to 2k! Sweeties! I open for suggestions on what some of you guys would like to see! I have and idea on what I want to do for it. But I still would be open to anything anyone else says too! Leave a comment and I will be happy to hear it!

And happy full moon! MWAHAHAHAHAH!

My deviations!

Stamp-Box

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/24472755/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 22:49:02 PDT

GALLERY | FAVORITES | PREVIOUS ENTRIES |

Hey y'all! Just doing a quick FFXI rambling here. I know most of you don't play it, but I need to warn ANYONE who just ordered the new security token from Square-Enix to PAY CAREFUL ATTENTION WHEN REGISTERING ON THE SQUARE-ENIX SITE! Make sure you select the right region under which to register your token under. I just made the fatal mistake of registering under the europe section of the site because of the "English language" choices that were presented to me, I looked at language not the region, so I screwed up. I sent a email to square enix to hopefully fix it, but I know how un-user-friendly SE's staff and services are. I don't want to have to shell out another 10 $ just to get a new one.

So if you know anyone who plays or if you are waiting on one in the mail, make sure to pass this link along to anyone you know who does. I hope I just didn't waste 10 bucks like a moron.

guide to the security token: [link]

My deviations!

Stamp-Box

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/24421070/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 02:47:13 PDT

GALLERY | FAVORITES | PREVIOUS ENTRIES |

Hello party people! I'm testing out my new journal CSS right now that I got from here: The only problem I have encountered so far is from previewing the CSS in my firefox browser because of a add-on I use called "No-Script" that stops particular scripts from running on a web page. It took me a few hours to figure out how it works as well as editing the header with a quick lineart I used in my transformation meme. Leave some feedback to let me know if you can see it properly or not! Thanks!

My deviations!

Stamp-Box

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/24337665/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 05:07:00 PDT

GALLERY | FAVORITES | PREVIOUS ENTRIES |

Ok after my last entry it has been a full 24 hours since I got a MySpace and Twitter accounts respectively. I think I'm ok. I do not appear to be hurt, and there has been no damage to my psyche (at least that I'm aware of.).

LOL, I'm just goofin'. It wasn't really that big of a deal after all. I was apprehensive about getting them when the came out because of the harsh criticisms about how the friends you make on there are not genuine, and how a big friend count and popularity is all that matters to some of those users. (In other words, it was just fancy spam whores lol.)

But I did NOT stop at MySpace and Twitter; nope, I also upgraded my DA account and now I can create polls, use stamps and I can use CSS if I can figure out how to do it.

Look out! I'm finding new ways to occupy myself! LOL!

But on a good note, I'm working on a new piece while I am still uploading the first 10 chapters of the "Me and Bobby McGee" series (yes I said 10 chapters. I originally thought it was 30 but i sliced them down to 10, and the story was never finished so I have no idea how far it will go if I decide to continue working on it!)

Take care everyone!!!

My deviations!

Stamp-Box

"I am that merry wanderer of the night..."

William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream"

http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/24302355/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 05:25:59 PDT
I got a MySpace and a Twitter account... (hangs head in shame.)

I always rebelled against the idea of doing those kind of sites because none of my friends really use them, and I never thought of them as practical. However, I was bored, needed something to do, and I wanted to see what the fuss was about. It hasn't been 24 hours yet since I got them, and I have a feeling of guilt and shame sweeping over me LOL. Ok well not really, but still, Tom is NOT my friend! He's a liar, I know it, he's a slut lol.

To my Myspace: [link]
To my Twitter: [link]

It's OK if you don't check them out, I barely have anything on them yet. Now if you don't mind, I need to wash the shame and guilt away with a nice long hot shower. Oh no, my arm is all itchy! It must have been a locust! AAAAAAAAAAAH! (screams in terror)

]]> *kittysenshi Another list of topics to cover... http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/24231725/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/24231725/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 02:24:16 PDT
1) A Slash Bible?

Yes, you heard this one right. I am still practicing to become a typist, so I figured that I may have to write one to help sharpen my skills! I got the idea from looking back at my old Centon wallpaper ([link]) that I made up just as a joke. Well I see no reason not to make one either, but if I do I'd also like to have some questions answered about slash. For example; what the heck is a "Muse" that I often hear so much about, but never see? Could a fangirl help me out there? Another reason I was considering making one is simply out of fun and for the love of it. I assure you, you will not find any bullshit on "Leviticus" and/or any homophobic, hateful crap like that in my Bible! LOL.

2) A pause on the wallpaper series

Yes, I will have to take a break from the wallpaper series. Sorry. However the good news is that I am not taking a break from submitting more stuff here. I just have an agenda of things that need to take center stage at the moment (like the slash bible, old sketches I want to finish, a potential collabaration with , etc.)

3) An old story

Years ago, when WWE's "Tough Enough 3" was airing on MTV, I began to write a slash story of my own between Randy Orton and John Morrison (Hennigan). I think I might have been 17-18-ish at the time actually! (Was it that long ago? Wow...)I never finished it, but I did manage to crank out about 30 or so chapters that I have NEVER shared with the world. The file still sits in "My Documents" folder to this day. I don't know if I will ever finish it, but I may load it up here to share with everyone.

I think that's it for right now. If you would like to submit any opinions or pointers for the Slash Bible, by all means let me know! Especially from you writers who have been around the block before!

]]> *kittysenshi What's been going on... http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/23977204/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/23977204/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 21:41:58 PDT
Let me start with topic #1: Requests.
I seem to get from time to time, (I'm not accusing anyone by the way.) some people who either add me to their watch list or add a piece of mine to their fav's, and then randomly just ask me to work on stuff. Don't get me wrong, I love getting feedback,but dropping everything I'm doing to work on something completely new just doesn't work like that. (And I've been a good boy too! I haven't been playing FFXI in the past few weeks!)

Topic #2; Who's next?
I plan on starting a new wallpaper but I am stuck between which two wrestlers I want to do next. I've narrowed it down between C.M. Punk and Evan Bourne. Since I can't make polls because I'm not a subscriber, I'd like to hear any opinions about which you would like to see next!

Topic #3: Other Art projects.
I will also be working on a Meme (or whatever it's called) next before I continue with any more wallpapers. I've also been going through my old sketch books that I found packed away while I was doing spring cleaning and found some really neat stuff I should share. Some of the old sketches aren't even finished so I may either upload them as is in pencil, or work on them to completion.

Topic #4: Personal stuff.
I've just recently celebrated the Pagan Holiday Ostara this month. I put some eggs underneath my bushes as an offering. My overall goal is to become a Wiccan Priest by this August (Lammas), since that is the anniversary date I started on my spiritual journey. Ive practiced as best as I can so far. Not everything has been a smooth ride and just like here on DA I feel like that there are some areas that need work on, but heck, I'm my own worst critic! Lol

I've also been working real hard on becoming a Typist. The job I have now is fine and dandy, It pays the bills and I have health insurance with spending cash to spare, but I can't STAND some of my more miserable coworkers! They are just not happy with themselves at all, and some are just downright rude as hell. So rather than suffer through it I've been practicing to learn how to type. The Typist test comes in two parts over July and August. For the past month I've been learning the basics, and have most of the letter keys down. I saw a youtube vid of some guy giving tips, and he said that he can do about 117 words a minute!!! My average time: 19-29 words a minute I have to make a lot of time to practice for my own good. Come July/August I will be stacked up against people who probably have been typing for years, and even if I do pass and beat everyone else out, it's only a civil service test, which means that there is no guarantee of a job if there are no Job openings! But regardless, it's a skill that would be good to pick up anyway. (I typed out half of this entry without looking at my keyboard lol. My hands started to cramp halfway through lol.)

Topic #5: Final Fantasy XI.
I'm sure that most of you have not heard (or care lol.) But FFXI is getting more content added to it this April, a LOT of content. This scares the hell out of me since I've been trying to pull away for its mind numbing grasp on me. Just thinking about all the time I could waste playing that game makes me want to duct tape my hands together so I can't play it. Oh and one more thing, back in the "Sluts vs saints" Journal entry I made, I have NOT seen the guy who was in the conversation since then. I hear he still plays but I think it was kinda weird that he just up and magically disappeared like that. I often play at night so maybe he plays during the day, oh well. Guess it wasn't a big deal after all...

thanks guys for reading! and let me know if you want to see CM Punk or EVan bourne! FEEDBACK IS LOVE!!!

]]> *kittysenshi Quick update http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/23556860/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/23556860/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 13:01:17 PST
I've been working on my latest wallpaper now for a little while and I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not satisfied with the way it's turned out. It one of those things that I KNOW I could do better, so I have to start from scratch. My watchers deserve nothing but the best! I'm the mean thime please amuse yourselves by checking this site out and getting a few laughs:

whackyourboss.com: [link]

]]> *kittysenshi SLUTS VS. SAINTS! O_o http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/23414240/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/23414240/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 11:00:51 PST (Hey it's cheaper than seeing a psychiatrist ok? )

Ok so here is the deal. I make no bones about how I love playing Final Fantasy XI (FFXI), and on the server I play on (Ironically called the "Fairy" server.), there are a casual group of gay men and women I play with so we don't have to put up with the typical anonymous homophobic, douche sticks. Now this happened a few days ago, and I'm still stewing over it. A conversation started in the chat box that went a little something like this:

(Guy #1): I haven't been laid in a year
(Guy #2): I have you beat, I've never been laid before.
(Guy #1): Orly?
(Guy #2): Yeah I'm still a Vir-gyn
(Me): Yeah me too. I just don't believe in having sex before marriage.
(Guy #3): pre-req? Rly?
(me): Yeah it's just not me.
(Guy #4): I need sex before marriage >_>
(Guy #1): Yeah, but what if the sex is bad?
(Guy #4): I agree with (Guy #1) I at least want to feel something back there!
(Guy #1): What if he has a small dick and you don't feel anything.
(Guy #2): I have need for intimacy.
(Guy #4): I usually stop seeing them when they start to fall for me.

I'm going to stop there because the conversation went off into penis sizes of some of the partners they've had :rolleyes:. I was a little offended because they seemed to not understand what kind of guy I am. I felt like Guy #1 took a potshot at my dignity a little as a man.

Don't get it twisted, I have no problem with sex, or being sexual/exuding sexuality (you all should have figured that out just by seeing my works ) but some of us are looking for something a little more than getting off. The whole reason I don't want to have sex before I'm married is simple: I want a strong man to be mine, and a weak man who lives to get a nut is not the man I need. It has nothing to do with feeling impure or religious dogma's, but if someone who respects me by showing me he is willing to wait, shows me he is willing to commit to me by going through an entire wedding ceremony in front of his peers with me, then that will prove to me his is a STRONG man, and respects my spirit as well. And that is what I feel we don't have enough of in the male gender. Regardless of their sexuality, I feel that there are just not enough strong men out there. (oh and FYI: Guy #1 also has a picture he posted of himself in a leather harness on the website we use to communicate when we are not in game :rolleyes: So you know what he is after! LOL.)

So I just wanted to put that out there, especially for the gay men who might feel a little insecure about themselves at times because they aren't having sex by a certain age or they are being pressured into keeping a man because of it. We have to keep in mind that we also don't have a incredibly large dating pool like straight people do. (they statistically outnumber us 10 to 1 !!!) So we have to look farther and longer sometimes before we stop kissing frogs. And if that means you need to save it until you are damn near 80, then so be it! Do not ever settle for second best, and not ever do anything that you feel will make you unhappy. There is nothing wrong with trying to get what you want, every other man will try to get what he wants to, so keep your back straight and your head up!

Because when it comes to men; there are Pros and then there are Ho's. Lmmfao!

(whew) Ok now i feel better LOL. Rant over- now I can go back to making my next wallpaper. (Starts singing to himself : "If you like it then you shoulda put a ring on it...")

]]> *kittysenshi Taggerz! http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/22959886/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/22959886/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 08:34:39 PST
i was looking for an excuse to get tagged so thanks Relics! :wink:

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same
journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

8 things about myself:

-I work in a nursing home
-I live in a trailer park
-I've never done Pot before
-I want to make my own Homebrew RPG one day via RPG maker
-I am a Virgo
-My favorite color is Green
-I still can't make sushi on my own quite right yet...
-I HATE going to get my haircut!!!

I tag anyone who wants to do it. (I don't think I have 8 friends lol. I like my posse small anyways.)

]]> *kittysenshi Don't call it a comeback.... (No seriously, don't) http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/22839965/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/22839965/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 09:24:37 PST

Ok So a few people wondered; "Kitty, where the hell did you go to for like, the past two months?"

The Answer: My addictions have caught up with me once again. Yes it's true my video games have alienated me once again. Although it was fun as hell to play them. I kicked my FFXI habit only to discover two new ones: Persona 4 (PS2) and The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion (PC). Apparently the word moderation is not in my vocabulary because I sucked those games down like cheap beer. I still haven't finished Elder Scrolls, but I still wanted to do some more wallpapers.

So I rolled up my sleeves put my perverted mind to work for the greater good of slash fantasies everywhere! Slash fiction is nice, but I realized there is no one out there making any kind of wrestling yaoi out there. This is unacceptable people! And i guess I have more work ahead of me if I intend to fix it!

But it hasn't been all video games and laziness that I've been doing lately. I've also been doing something educational as well that I've recently seem to have a passion for over the last six or so months: Occult studies and Wicca/Paganism.

If you don't know what Wicca is, just do a quick Wiki search and you will get more than enough info on it there. I would recommend Margot Adler's book "Drawing down the moon" for more accurate information though. It's a real eye opener. But anyway I've been practicing hard to become a Wiccan, and it's has had some interesting results. Recently I've decided to become a vegetarian because of it, as well as practicing candle magic. (which has had good results actually!) Throughout the process of it though I have been questioning myself on spirituality a lot. I was a atheist a good number of years ago, and if you had come from the future and told me that I would be practicing Witchcraft in some form down the road, I probably would have laughed in you face. It's nice to see I can eat some humble pie once in a while. I could go on about it, but I don't want to rant about here, I'll save it for another entry.

But for now, a BIG thanks to all the peeps who welcomed me back! I'm still checking out some of the work you guys do too! But I also need you help! I'm looking for some feedback! I already have my next wallpaper idea laid out and ready to get underway, but I'm not entirely sure which one I should do after that. I've made a checklist here of wrestlers or people related to wrestling that I haven't done yet, and what I'd like is if you have any kind of cute or funny quotes you'd like to see mixed into the wrestler's wallpaper like I normally do, to let me know! Or if you have any idea how I should make the illustration work with a particular wrestler's gimmick I'd like to hear about it as well. It's not that I'm out of gas making these things, but when it comes to these cute quotes I put at the bottom let's face it: I'm starting to scrape the bottom of the barrel. Even I can't pull rabbits outta my hat forever!

Here's the list I've been thinking about doing so far:

-Evan Bourne
-Matt Striker "Remix" (I want to do another of him eventually because I like the original I did, but that was when I was first starting to learn the basics of using a tablet, so I feel it's outdated.)
-Todd Grisham (Announcer)
-CM Punk
-Jamie Noble
-Kofi Kingston
-Michael Cole (Announcer)
-Davari
-John Morrison
-Lance Storm (Retired)

Give me a heads up! I'm curious to hear what you have to say!

Oh, I should be fair and let you know what wallpaper i'm doing next. My next endeavor is: (DRUMROLL. . . . . . . .)

The Hardy Boyz! ^_^ (I'm sure the fangirls will go nuts for this one! LOL!)

]]> *kittysenshi Go-Go Kiriban! http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/21674598/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/21674598/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 03:36:26 PST

I just wanted to give a world of thanks to the people who watch my little pervy slash drawings and such. I will be working on a piece to honor this Kiriban eventually but right now I'm working on a piece for contest, so afterward I'll get on it! ^^ It will be a surprise so I hope everyone will enjoy it!

As for my "Inspirational Series Slash Wallpapers" are concerned, I have so far 3 more wrestlers I'm considering doing right now at the moment (I don't want to give away the secret of who they might be right away either , I know, it's not fair, but patience kiddies!)

And I have to reiterate right now, I officially do not watch wrestling anymore, however I still gawk at the photo stills of wrestlers over the net of nice people who make screencaps. (Check out the Pro Wrestling thread over at Dreamcaps.org if you can, I'm not sure you can sign up right now because the applicants were being refused for some reason, but its still worth trying! TRUST ME on it! ^_-) The reason I'm saying this is because if you try to talk to me about any sort of plot-lines going on at the moment, I will have to give you the blank stare and go "Huh?" Lol, so just remember it's all for good eye candy; I could care less about what drama goes on TV. Since I'm on the subject of wrestling, I also want to mention the Randy Orton's new tattoo's look "kinda/sorta/maybe if I'm drunk enough" hot on him, but there is probably no chance in hell that if I draw him again that those new sleeve tat's will be on my artwork. It looks way too strenuous and intimidating to take on. Sorry but Randy Orton is like Coca-Cola; nothing beats a classic look!

And lastly I just wanted to mention something about the last piece I submitted here to DA: the "Heterophobia" piece. When I posted that piece it was a few days before the Prop 8 ban passed in California. At first it was intended for a contest entry I bailed out of, and had NOTHING to do with the ban. But after I posted it, it was ironic to see the massive protests and anger across the nation and the REVERSE discrimination against the Church that resonated with what I was feeling when I made it. To put it bluntly; anger doesn't have a face, it doesn't have a gender, it doesn't have a ethnicity, it doesn't have a color, it doesn't have a religion and now it doesn't have a sexual orientation. Think about it next time when you get mad at a group of people, is it actually a groups fault? Or is it a just lot of individuals who HAPPEN to be socially irresponsible? Labeling can be a terrible way to get points across, especially when the cycle of ignorance get thrown into overdrive when we get mad to begin with. Just think it over.

But all in all, I want to give another big thanks to all the people who have watched me over the past year, and hopefully in 2009, I'll be making you more inspired with more half naked guys! YAY! My only drawback so far is that I've been playing too much Final Fantasy XI, seriously, that game is like total crack! LOL If I get a chance I'll post a screenshot sometime so you can see what my character looks like! ^^

For now: Syonara!

]]> *kittysenshi Drama Sauce! http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/20930691/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/20930691/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 02:41:44 PDT
First my home was struck by a pickup truck and sped off. It was a neighbor and we think he was drunk, luckily no one was hurt and the damage is all superficial (and minimal! Only a 6 inch gash on my siding. Phew!), the police will be dealing with him eventually...

Second I lost my sketch book for a few days, but thankfully found it. It carries all of my works that I may or not submit. But it had a important one I wanted to submit for the DApride contest going on right now, hopefully I will make the deadline!

And lastly I fell victim to a craving to play a old MMORPG again Final Fantasy XI I used to play off and on again, (This game could have very well been the reason I never got out of the house to begin with!)As soon as I renewed my subscription for this month I realized why I left to begin with! LMAO! Serves me right though!)

Oh well, In the mean time I'll submitting older works that I created when I first started learning how to use Photoshop and digital imaging. Hopefully I will be able to get back on track. (Throws the PC joystick to the side.)

Later y'all

]]> *kittysenshi Update! http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/20488326/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/20488326/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 11:51:18 PDT
For anyone wondering why I haven't made anymore slash inspiration posters, it's because I'm renovating my home. (Well actually more like fixing all of the damage done to it by my parents and pets! ) It's a project I'm doing completely on my own while working overtime at my job sometimes. I barely get time to play my ps2 anymore (God bless the DS!)

Speaking of the inspirational wallpapers series, I've decided that I'm going to branch out with different people in them. My last submission was of a porn star, so who knows what other crazy (yet still hot!) guy I might put in next time! The reason for not sticking strictly to just pro-wrestlers anymore is because I don't watch wrestling anymore, I've grown out of it. Sometimes it's just too immature for me to watch the story lines. I do however still check the net to see what skin is showing on RAW Besides, with Randy and John both out with injuries, it's really a deal breaker right there.

I've also gotten into reading a new style of Yaoi that is way better than the tradition effeminate boys you see; it's called "Bara", and holy crap what have I been missing not reading this stuff! You can tell that Bara was really intended for the guys! I curious to see if I could make my own soon! (crosses fingers!)

]]> *kittysenshi Allow me to say everything... http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/19622841/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/19622841/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 12:21:59 PDT
And in all of the day-to-day rushing I do in my life, I don't think I ever really took the time to introduce myself here on DA. (Yeah I gave a bit of thanks to my watchers, but that's not the same as opening the door to my world for people to see.)

Okay where to begin? Well, I have the wonderful pleasure of working full time in a nursing home. No I'm not a nurse, I work as a housekeeper in the laundry department. I've worked there for almost 7 years now. Great job, meeting and helping the elderly with their day to day tasks and meeting their families. Great benefits too, health insurance, retirement plan, dental plan, you get the picture...

Just one slight problem: I have a really tough time talking about my job to others when the topic comes up. Why? Because I work in the laundry department.

"But Kitty, that doesn't sound so bad! You made it sound so good right now, like you were happy!"

And I am, no lie there. It's just no one immediately draws the conclusion of what it means to work with the elderly's laundry right off the bat once you talk about it. Do you have any farthing how hard it is to admit you wash and fold granny panties for a living?! DO YOU?! LOL!!!

I have a friend who is well... He's a slut lol. (Nicest way I can put it.) He loves women, and he loves getting in their pants even more. He was gawking at some girls some time ago, being a typical guy. He said something along the lines of how many times a girl has left her skivvies at his home, and I had to stop him in his tracks, I told him:

"Dude, I play with panties for a living. you've got nothing on me, And I get PAID for it!" Long story short, he peed himself laughing.

I always have to wonder, when I die and I'm at my funeral, is my eulogy going to involve how secure of a man I was for washing panties for a living? Is that what I'm going to be remembered for? lmao.

Of course I'm kidding about this, there have been WAY worse things at work to talk about than that. I just wanted to open up a little of my world you all and give you a little message:

It takes a real man to do a woman's laundry.

]]> *kittysenshi Thankful http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/19102031/ http://kittysenshi.deviantart.com/journal/19102031/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 00:24:52 PDT
I wanted to start by introducing myself and let you all who have added me to thier watch list (even if you don't comment or upload your own artwork.) an extension of thanks.

Before I started uploading my stuff to DA, I was definitely afraid that there would be eyebrows raised if I posted stuff like my lance cade poster or my wrestling manga.

So far since I've uploaded my ideas to DA, I have not received one nasty comment or one out of line person who has made it a point to put me down about my stuff.

Truly, I am grateful to this open minded community. You see I hang around youtube as well, and some of the most simple of videos uploaded there are bombarded with comments from people who are just downright vile about their opinion. (Even more scary one of the youtuber's I subscribe to has been hacked multiple times by a white supremacist group just because of her views on feminism and she's black.) But here it's different. Coming as you are is encouraged here. And thats the only way I know how to appear!

Thanks to all of my watchers who have added me over the past few months!

]]> *kittysenshi