http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:kuwari&section=today deviantART RSS for by:kuwari en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 22:50:32 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/19244573/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/19244573/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 22:45:42 PDT But since I have the summer to do some artwork that's outside of school, I've been keeping an art journal of one drawing per day.
Nothing too fancy, and I only started it a few days ago, but it'll be the main place I'll be doing drawings... I'll try to photograph some stuff from school and things for here, but otherwise I may just disappear..again.

[link]

Anyway, happy trails.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/15024169/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/15024169/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 03:47:46 PDT Yes, you know you want to -- [link]
Anyone who takes the challenge, and succeeds... well, I'll do some art for you. How about that?
Which means I already owe Bram something, I'm sure


And second of all, Oxy tagged me. And as much as I loathe being tagged, I can't sleep and am bored, so here it goes.


1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post, 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.
6. Make the last one embarrassing and/or shocking. Please, nothing nasty.


1. Because I transfered and PSU's art major is about three times as intensive as UPS's, I'll probably need to take another year.
2. This is actually my third year writing for NaNoWriMo, but it's my fourth book... Fifth, including the (not-yet-done) colab I'm doing with Ash. I am in no way a wonderful writer, but I do enjoy it as much as doing artwork.
3. I actually really... really hate painting. If I never paint again, save for watercoloring, for the rest of my life, I will be content. Painting on the computer, different story. But, I just... hate.. painting! Haha!
4. I grew up on a ranch. Yep. Doesn't really seem to fit my personality, but I definitely spent a good part of my young(er) life with animals such as cows, geese, goats, chickens, ducks, and pigs. And even a donkey, once.
5. I haven't done an AF comic in more than a year. Not an entirely good sign, I understand.
6. Talking on the phone with people terrifies me. I am just that socially awkward. Even though I love my friends to death, I will find every excuse possible to avoid calling them back. It's terrible, I know... but it's just one of my quirks.
7. Even though I wanted to live in Japan before even going there, I'm kind of wondering if I still do. Loved, LOVED the time I was there. But could I really live there? Still trying to figure that one out.
8. I am still afraid of the dark. There, are you happy?

I'll try to name eight people, though it may be difficult.

and... I dunno, whoever else cares to go. But be forewarned: I don't do tags... or rarely do, I guess. Please don't be surprised if I coldly ignore you if you tag me.


As usual, I promise to photograph some art soon. I actually have to take some for class, so I might just roll it all together at once. We'll see.
Okay, time for sleep and things like that.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/13787448/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/13787448/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 21:04:47 PDT I cannot keep still.
Hopefully I'll bring back lots of pictures and exciting things. Hopefully I'll be able to post some things up here while I'm there.
Dunno whatelse to say.

Be back around the end of August

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/13570360/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/13570360/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 22:16:46 PDT I just don't know what to do with myself.
Grades were posted a little while ago. I got an A in Japanese Art History, an A+ in Painting, and a flat B in Japanese Writing. I'm not terribly surprised about the B, but I'm kind of mad at myself for not getting a B+. I worked hard, really.
I'm just not destined to be good at this language.
But, once I get back, I'll be able to school everyone in my class.

(hopefully)

I'll catch up again before I leave. Hopefully by then I'll have gotten up off of my lazy butt and taken pictures of all the stuff I've done over this year. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/12737877/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/12737877/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 01:31:44 PDT
Adrian's mom, Holly, introduced me to the concept of doing really itty-bitty pieces of artwork (2.5 x 3.5" to be exact) and selling them on ebay. Apparently, it's a rather large community and I'm surprised I hadn't heard of it before. So, of course, what else do Kus do when they're excited? They jump right in.

So I made one, and it's on auction until Sunday. It's one of maybe 5 in a series about people representing fruit.
Curious?

[link]
Beginning bid is just a small $0.99.

The main thrill of this is making little pieces. It's really fun.
And the prospect of making money... especially since I got accepted into the Japanese summer program over at Waseda Daigaku, and I need money... bad. I don't want to have to ask my parents for it again, though I really doubt that ebaying my art is going to pay off the entire tuition. I mean, seriously.
Anyway...

Oh, and yeah, I'm still alive. Writing a journal just didn't take my fancy for the last four months, apparently. I may be uploading some new work soon (hopefully).

Ku, over and out.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/11168575/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/11168575/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 23:59:07 PST Need to soak up all of that laziness before I have to go back to the schoolandwork demon on january 8th.
Trying to motivate myself to at least draw, but eh. And it doesn't help that my computer gives me the blue screen of death after about ten minutes on the internet (any ideas, guys?). I at least need to get most of my Mother Nature 2006 done before.. well.. 2006 is gone.

Oh yeah, and merry whatever you celebrate. Happy holidays. Don't get drunk and kill yourself. Kiss someone on New Year's, even if it's your cat. Spread the love, not the hate. Recycle your boxes and wrapping paper. Be good children.




*rolls over and falls asleep*

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10908480/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10908480/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 01:53:08 PST I got three finals over with today, and just have my storyboard project left to do and study for my Japanese final that's on monday. After that, I'm free of school for a month.
Free of writing (for the most part) and free of school. All I'll have to do is work, and maybe AF if I can get back into the swing of things.
I really don't know what I'm going to do with all of my free time. It actually kind of freaks me out. I've already made a list of things to draw, scarves to make, and manga to read, but could that really fill up that much time? I'm scared of being bored.
How odd. I've been seriously considering picking up some charity work or something to kill in those questionable hours. Or maybe I'll do another 24-hour comic. Who knows.

So I guess I'll just upload some stuff I've been doing, but nothing's too exciting. What a life, huh. I think at this point I'm just rambling because I'm tired but can't fall asleep...

Anyway, congrats to Bram for also finishing. We both just rock so much.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10829130/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10829130/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 23:15:52 PST First day off in about two and a half months, from both school and work. It wasn't as relaxing as I was hoping, but hey it's better than nothing. It was good to relax at least a little before diving right into Black Friday, the biggest shopping day and biggest headache day of the entire year.

So, here's what's going on:

NaNoWriMo is over in about seven days, and amazingly enough I have 41k words (thank god for Thanksgiving or I'd never get this thing finished). It still amazes me every time I look at the word count, and keep telling myself something must be off -- I can't have written that much, right? But apparently I have.
Finals start in a little over a week, so it'll be an interesting crunch time. I have a lot of projects to finish up, but if I really focus I should be perfectly fine.
Adrian and I finally got the bunny! Her/His/Its name is Mochi (we won't know the gender until we get it fixed in about two months). Mochi is a broken fawn (white with brown spots) mini flop, and is the cutest thing ever. I keep wheeling back in my chair, looking at it, and it's doing something ridiculously cute and I yell "Why are you so CUTE!?" which scares me.

And after that whole fun mess is done, I'll have a month off from school so I can actually upload something! Amazing, considering that's what this place is for. I do have one photo (out of about 300) that I took as a present for Paul for his birthday but haven't been able to fix it up properly. So there's that to look forward to.
Anyway, I hope everyone is going well. I'll get back around to doing dA stuff soon enough, and hopefully some AF too.

Much love.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10439562/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10439562/ Tue, 24 Oct 2006 14:31:09 PDT But I'm gonna do NaNoWriMo again.
Really, someone should put me down for even thinking it.
It's basically going to be my drive to trash what little I had of the chapter of Le Destinee I had and start it over with a better plan for the characters.
The chance of me actually finishing it this year? Low. But I'm going to give it a try.
It doesn't really give me much hope either that I've been on the verge of giving up my job as a manager because it takes away too much of my time. But I'm enduring it. It won't be for forever, anyway.

[ps] So people that know Ash will stop pestering me, when I said I'd "start it all over" I did NOT mean the entire book that she and I have been working on over the last few years. I mean the CHAPTER I was working on, chapter 12, a piece of the book... not the entire thing. I'm not going to ravage her characters and flip them up-side-down, okay?
So leave me alone, please.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10224263/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/10224263/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 10:12:39 PDT And I also started my new job as service solutions Manager at the Tigard Office Depot, where they're asking me to work about 40 hours a week.
Adrian and I are moving into our new apartment this weekend.

So... if you guys don't see me ever again..
....Don't be.. surprised.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9901844/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9901844/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 23:18:22 PDT challenging:
Jess, Andrew Snook, Sam, Shiyou, Gami, Kenna, Tweek, Bandi (if I can get a hold of her..), and Tom.

People I have sent an official challenge to:
Fred Gallagher, Gabe of PA, and ~qiqo.

People who have accepted (and I love just a little more):
Jess (this weekend!), Shiyou, Gami, Qiqo (maybe.. and that's a big maybe). ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9797264/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9797264/ Sun, 20 Aug 2006 20:13:17 PDT
[link]

Tomorrow, after I wake up and prepare all of my materials...

...(so probably about 1 PM or so)...

... I'm putting myself through a challenge no one in their right mind should. Which is quite alright, since apparently completing NaNoWriMo last november and eagerly waiting for it again this year defines me as quite insane.

I'll post updates every couple of hours, maybe with photos of my progress. So far, I know that I'm doing it with real media with brush pens and maybe copic multiliners.
Anyway, wish me luck. You guys should.. you know.. do it too o_o Or something.


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Actually, I just found out that there's an Official 24-Hour Comic Day. It's October 7th, which is probably a Saturday. The exciting part of this is the fact that there're places hosting comic artists that want to do it... The Most Exciting Part? Pacific Northwest College of Art (PNCA - [link] ) is hosting this year, and most definitely I'll probably be doing this again just as an excuse to spend 24-hours in my favorite art school ever.

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August 21 @ 1:10 PM:

I am... so not ready for this ~_~;
Starts in about 20 minutes (because I'm really neurotic about starting things to the hour or half hour).

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@7:48 PM:

Well, 8 1/2 pages down... I think I have a pretty stable story now, after sitting down and thinking for a while. I'm really hoping I can just.. get this all over with because it's just so.. hard -_-; Almost half way there.. almost.

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August 22 @ 3:33 AM:

That time is not going to make someone happy, I know that. 17 pages down, onto the 18th... Note to self: do not drink monster energy drinks after brushing teeth.. very bad combination. I'm really hoping it's going to help me from crashing. Been taking pictures, but am way too lazy to upload them anywhere. Maybe later. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9400313/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9400313/ Sun, 16 Jul 2006 23:43:01 PDT [link]

*Cries* Why? WHY?
Why do I always stumble across things that have majorly unrealistic timelines and are tempted by them? Whyyy?
A 24 page comic done in 24 consecutive hours, with all new characters, plots, and everything?
Why did I find this during the summer!?
*continues to cry*
Is anyone else just slighting tickled by this idea, or is it just me? ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9370746/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/9370746/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 00:23:45 PDT





AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!


/mid-life crisis ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8782380/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8782380/ Mon, 15 May 2006 19:38:32 PDT I'm home!

Anyway.
So this last week was very emotional. I'm pretty sure that I overpowered the majority of my finals, but my Japanese final was easy enough to make me suspicious. The only part that was really emotional was saying good-bye to people and not having the chance to say good-bye to certain people, especially my rommate of two years. Hm. Anyway.
I shot my portfolio a week ago, so I'll edit those and post them soon. Also, I have photos that I want to edit and post, but will probably end up in my scraps later on.
So, expect a mass dump and then I'll go to Minnesota for a week then start work, so who knows what'll happen after that? But here's a list just to remind myself:

-Do a few comics.
-Finish profiles of AF characters.
-End AF then start a different comic.
-Finish typing Le Destinee.
-Get better at photography, if only a little.

I hope everyone is doing well.
...
*dances* I get a 4 month long summer! HA
..Okay, I'm done ^_^ Keeee. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8587222/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8587222/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 23:41:51 PDT I suggest that any college student out there should do this as well, especially during a stressful time such as this. It took me a few weeks to actually completely, but it's well worth it. It's easy to start but kind of difficult to finish.
So anyway, here are 100 things that make me happy, in no particular order (because I need to be reminded constantly throughout the days because finals are going to eat me):

1. Adrian. Everything about him. Everything that he does. Everything Adrian. Wow, that kind of sounds like a Calvin Klein commercial u_u
2. Hearing people laugh, especially those who I’m close to.
3. Sunshine.
4. Scary movies (though I’d be hard-pressed to tell you why).
5. Teapots.. You know, making them, learning about them, looking at them, etc.
6. Reading the newspaper, and getting ink all over my fingers.
7. Music that never gets old.
8. Friends. Close friends, acquaintances, good friends, okay friends, all kinds of friends.
9. Cooking, especially when the result is good.
10. Waking up naturally… None of this alarm clock crap.
11. Dogs, especially happy ones.
12. Along with dogs, puppies that haven’t yet grown into their large paws, and are awkward and floppy.
13. A nice long, warm shower after not having one for a while.
14. Couples that hold hands when they walk together.
15. Paintbrushes and feeling their bristles.. also, taking forever to look at them all.
16. A perfect sunset that shows the most beautiful pallet of colors.
17. The sound of soft rain as I fall asleep.
18. Cuddling.
19. The tick of a clock.
20. Warm slippers in the winter.
21. Singing at the top of my lungs.
22. The sound of a Japanese koto.
23. Books that are so good, you can’t put them down and you’re sad when they end.
24. Hugs…. From the right people.
25. Watching fish swim, especially ones with long extravagant tails.
26. Katamari Damashi.
27. Looking at photographs of people that I know, especially from times when I hadn’t quite met them. I especially love it when I get a chance to see pictures that my grandfather took of my mom and her siblings when they were young.
28. Chocolate.
29. Random adventures with people – driving in a random direction, getting lost, finding new places, then finding our way back.
30. A purring cat that sleeps against you, keeping you warm but doesn’t look like he wants to admit helping you in any way, and just wants you to think that he’s sleeping next to you to keep himself warm (*ahem* Zeke).
31. Love. I love love. I love hearing about people that are in love, how they met, what they do now, and what they want to do in the future. It makes me all warm inside.
32. Listening to music in a different language.
33. Summer time, especially at the beach.
34. Knitting, especially if I’m making something for someone.
35. Staying up late talking to Melissa, and laughing because we’re both utterly ridiculous.
36. Washing my hands with warm or hot water. It’s just so nice.
37. Throwing a perfect piece of pottery on my first try.
38. Swimming.
39. Getting lost in humongous book stores for hours upon hours, especially the Powell’s in Portland.
40. Laying in bed and listening to everything really closely while having my eyes closed.. listening to noises that we just take for granted and never listen closely to. I don’t know, it’s a kind of meditation.. You guys should really try it.
41. Quilts, especially when someone close makes one for you.
42. Not being on my period. Good times.
43. Family get-togethers that aren’t awkward but are actually fun.
44. Children that mind their parents and the people around them, and don’t scream at the top of their lungs or cry when they don’t get what they want.
45. Fight Club.
46. Drawing other peoples’ characters for fun.
47. Smiling at people or being smiled at randomly. It always makes the day so much better.
48. The perfect cup of tea.
49. Happy, bouncing, lovable kittens.. or when cats just get into one those moods when they go berserk.
50. Goofing around.
51. Making other people happy.
52. Waking up next to the person you love.
53. PUGS. Especially pugs in hats.
54. Ladybugs.
55. Filling out surveys.
56. Pho. Well, Vietnamese food in general, especially if it’s homemade… or made by my dad or grandma because, you know, they’re awesome chefs.
57. Discoveri... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8318988/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8318988/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 23:01:02 PST But here I am.
During my last entry, I was in the last legs of the three-week long war called midterms. My Asian art, art 101, and Asia in motion midterms were all perfectly fine, I actually did quite a bit better than I was expecting. Japanese pwned me though. Alas, you can't win them all.
Spring break was great. Except for the fact that I worked the entire time. Yeah. But my boss was kind enough to give me the last two days off so I could actually do things fun, instead of talking technology-stupid people into buying things they either don't need or don't have the capacity to handle.
Then of course there was last weekend, which was a rollercoster of.. well, a lot of stuff.
Basically, I went to my first anime con, Sakuracon, in Seattle for a day. ~the-beatnik and I were there bright and early around 7AM because Fred Gallagher and his wife, along with Tycho and Gabe (aka Jerry and Mike) were having panels at 8:30 and 10-something. This was really exciting because we all know how much Fred has inspired my art, no matter how much I deny it, and Tycho and Gabe are just badass (expect pictures of their fantasticness).
Besides that, the mass of otaku and badly dressed cosplayers kind of killed my soul.. badly. It was like pitting a fluffy bunny against a starved very large dog, my soul being the bunny of course. For every good costume, there were 300 that were completely god-awful costumes (like Vash from Trigun carrying around a SWORD? WHY?). And of course the scary anime people in large masses did not do too well for me either. The best part of the con was not, however, getting to meet Fred and being a creepy fan by giving him art, or getting to talk to Gabe, but seeing ~nillin out of the blue and getting tackled by her. It really made the whole experience worth it.
After this whole fiasco, Adrian came to visit for his Spring break and I attempted to show him all the nifty photos from the con I took with my even niftier camera when I made a mistake and formated my memory card.
Massive panicking ensued. Fortunately, Paul knew what was going on and I got the photos back for a price. So, expect some interesting photos. And then I continued to go to class and let Adrian sit in my room and be bored for a week. Excitement. But we just had a wonderful day in Seattle, so hopefully that makes up for me trapping him in my room for forever.
So, all in all, I'm done with anime for a while.. I've had my fill. Truthfully, it kind of makes me feel ill to even look at the manga in my room. I've also had my fill with crowds of people that should not get that large. Ah. People.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, no, I really haven't done anything worthwhile art-wise, but I have been getting into a lot of stuff lately. Yeah. That's all. And that I'm not dead. I'll post photos and maybe some stuff from art 101 soon, and maybe, just maybe, I'll be so un-lazy that I'll actually post the comic that I've had the panels done for for about a month.. or two. Hm.
Hope everyone else has been having stress-free weeks.

[edit:] I'm sorry, I forgot your moment of zen: [link]ug%20i%20love%20you ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8106811/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/8106811/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 19:40:50 PST

But not nearly long enough.
I love you, Adrian. There isn't a single word or group of words in any language to describe how much. Thank you for loving me and letting me love you.






And to the rest of you: be prepared for some chibi mushyness. I have an idea.. I just need time to do it. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7993763/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7993763/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 20:14:35 PST I kind of gave up on the deviations and comments//favorites when they got older than January, and completely gave up on journals -_- I'm sorry I'm such a slacker, I really just don't have the time to do this.
But now that I'm caught up, hopefully I'll be able to keep up (eh, we've all heard that one before).
And, as always, if any of you guys really want feedback on a piece or anything, you can ask me. I know that you guys probably won't, but I just want to throw it out there.

Anyway, I'm beat. The last two weeks have practically killed me, and the next two weeks are going to finish me off (midterms, aka a crapload of work plus tests). I do have stuff to put up, like drawing and designs from Art 101 and random photo jaunts I've gone on with ~the-beatnik, and =kiestphoto as well... though I can't compare to them at all.

Ah, so. I hope everyone is doing well. Sorry I'm such a slacker. Blah.

And now, for your moment of Zen: [link] ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7756394/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7756394/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 21:46:26 PST because he obviously hates me, just like Bram.
Also, it's good to kill time when you're trying not to do homework.

RULES:
Step 1: Open up whatever MP3 program you use and add every song in your collection.
Step 2: Put it on random.
Step 3: Pick your favorite lines from the first 10 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 4: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 5: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 6: DON'T GOOGLE THEM! [trust me, with some of these, if you google them I will know.]

And here's a helpful Ku-hint: there're a surprising amount of Radiohead songs (well, maybe not surprising when you think of who this is coming from).


X1. I don’t know why you say goodbye
I say hello.

2. Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds

3. But then, my knees give under me. My head feels weak and
suddenly it is clear to see that it is not them but me, who has lost my self-identity.
As I hide behind these books I read, while scribbling my poetry,
like art could save a wretch like me, with some ideal ideology that no one can hope to achieve.

4. Flies are buzzing around my head
Vultures circling the dead
Picking up every last crumb
The big fish eat the little ones

5. I have seen too much
I haven't seen enough
You haven't seen it
I'll laugh until my head comes off

X6. There are plenty of ways you can hurt a man
And bring him to the ground
You can beat him
You can cheat him
You can treat him bad and leave him
When he's down

7. And if you're still feeling down
Then maybe you need me around
To love and hold you
Don't say I hadn't told you so
Maybe you need me around

8. Peace na kibun, yoishirete　[ Peace な　気分　よいしれて ]
Kagayaki heaven akogarete　　[ かがやき　Heaven あこがれて ]
Sutekisa sono atama　[ すてきさ　その　あたま ]
Mou omatsuri sawagisa　[ もう　おまつり　さわぎさ ]

9. First I see you
And then you let me go
The only time I touch you's
when you don't want to know

10. I wanted you so bad
And I couldn't say
All things fall apart
We wanted out so bad
We couldn't say

BONUS [ because it’s my favorite song right now]:
I wear my own crown and sadness and sorrow
And who’d have thought tomorrow could be so strange?
My loss, and here we go again

I tag ~shiyou, ~shi-chahn, ~peristalticxrush, and ~janu-sama.
And with this, I hereby cancel my ability to participate in any more tagging events (which, I think, entitles me to kill you if you tag me again). ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7689177/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7689177/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 19:48:54 PST hates me.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
•"Individual genetics aside, purebred Labs all share certain predictable characteristics” -Marley & Me by John Grogan. I swear I’m not becoming a crazy dog woman. It’s a good book.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
•If I wanted to, I could turn off the light.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
•Wow, I can’t remember.. it's been so long. If DVDs count, Fargo.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
•7:45 pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
•7:39 pm. Damnit.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
• “Somebody to Love” by Queen, and some drunk people screaming outside because it's not like being in college means you're mature.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
•I meandered over to Jones to get quarters so I could do laundry.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
• Bram’s survey, then my cell phone, then my homework (with guilt).

9. What are you wearing?
•NIN shirt, PJ pants, orange slippers, misc. undergarments.

10. Did you dream last night?
•Yes, but for the life of me I can't remember what it was about.

11. When did you last laugh?
•I don't laugh. I'm not human.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
•Posters: Fight Club, two (2) Radiohead, Totoro, Naruto, Dali, Mucha, Michelangelo, two (2) maps of the World; one (1) Pug calendar; one (1) massive collection of paper cranes (366 to be exact); photos of family and friends; a card; a nude model drawing schedule that’s expired; IES Japan pamphlets; and directions to the closest Trader Joe’s.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
•[link] This is weird because I didn’t realize this kind of technology existed until the other night. And it’s amazing.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
•I’m a survey whore. This is nothing.

15. What is the last film you saw?
•Fargo (aka, best movie ever).

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
•The rest of my tuition.. hell, everyone's tuition that I know and love. Then I'd get my mom a better place. Then I'd buy a vacation for me and my boy, because he deserves it

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
•Whenever someone talks about a pet dying, I bawl like a baby that just got dropped by an incompetent babysitter.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
•Make weekends three days long. Maybe even four… but that’d be a little excessive. Wow, that’s horribly selfish. Uh.. In all seriousness, I'd want people to just be happier in general. Ending wars or hunger or disease or anything else what kills off humans would just make the world overpopulated, and that's not happy.

19. You like to dance?
•I do like to dance, but I never really get the chance to do it so I’m horrible at it and refuse to do it in front of people unless it’s slow dancing (which takes little to no skill).

20. George Bush:
•Don’t get me started.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
•Lily or Chloe or Emma.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
•Ah jeez. Noah or Patrick or Koda. But I’m horrible with names… and kids.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
•Yes, either in Japan or Germany. Japan’s a lot more likely, though.. and soon, too.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
• “Just kidding! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh, that was good.”

25. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
Bram already got Adrian, and Adrian already got Jess and Snook... so.. hm..
and... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7499492/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7499492/ Tue, 03 Jan 2006 13:50:58 PST I promise.
Er, hopefully.

At least finals are done and overwith. I finally got my grades today, and I did .. well, okay. The only class I completely bombed was International Relations, which makes me sad because it's a 100 level class and I really enjoyed it. Getting a C isn't the end of the world though. At least I got B+s in the rest of my classes, which was quite surprising especially for Japanese (because the final pwned me).
Anyway.
I'll be back with some art and maybe some photography... I uh, kind of bought a camera that I need to figure out before I start trying to take serious photos. So far, I have pictures of my cat, my pottery, and my family, all of which none of you want to see, let me tell you. Maybe pottery.. Maybe.

I hope everyone had happy holidays and everyone has a great new year and all that jazz. If you really need to get a hold of me, I suggest doing it through other means besides the internet because 56K hurts my brain. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7193036/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7193036/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 09:22:08 PST Kind of.
Guess what next week is? Dead week! And what's after that? Finals! And you all know what that means! I'm so excited I could vomit cookies and happiness everywhere.
Anyway.
I might upload some photos of the dishware I made in ceramics once it's all fired, but that takes time. I don't know. Don't expect anything exciting for a while... or anything at all, for that matter.

And now, because it's perfectly relevant, a poem by Winston Churchill:
Poor Puggy-wug
Oh, what is the matter with poor Puggy-wug
Pet him and kiss him and give him a hug.
Run and fetch him a suitable drug,
Wrap him up tenderly all in a rug,
That is the way to cure Puggy-wug.

]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7039543/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/7039543/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 19:50:04 PST _> This is all `coshdaddy's fault. He tagged me in his journal, and basically I need to state 20 things that may not be known about be, then tag 10 other people. T3h suck, Cosh, seriously. One of the reasons I'm doing this is so I can spread the pain to others. Onward.

1. My birthmark's on the bottom of my left foot. Just trust me on this one.
2. I think I'd die if the world suddenly ran out of hasbrowns. My heart basically breaks whenever I go into the sub and they don’t have hasbrowns.
3. One of my favorite smells in the world is newspaper. I don’t know why, but I have a feeling I picked it up from my sophomore newspaper teacher, Mr. Nesse.
4. Out of the few physical fights that I’ve ever been in, they’ve all been with boys.
5. One of my favorite past times is singing as loud as I can to the Moulin Rouge soundtrack. And I have absolutely no shame.
6. I saw my fist rated-R movie when I was about 6. I don’t remember what it was (possibly True Lies, or Terminator I... I just remember Arnold), but I remember it was with my brother Tony and my dad. And the main reason I remember this is because my mom practically had a hernia when I told her.
7. I’m a lock junkie. I lock everything every time I leave it alone (the house, the car, everything). I’m trying to convince myself that it’s because I grew up in southern California. Once I moved to Oregon, people always made fun of me for doing it o_o;
8. My greatest fear, besides stalkers, the dark, spiders and heights, is getting breast cancer. Even though there’s absolutely no trace of it in my family, it’s been a fear of mine since I was at least a pre-teen because I constantly heard “1 out of 4 women get breast cancer”, etc.
9. When I was little, everyone said I was irrationally paranoid about everything. I’d wash my hands all the time, not talk to anyone because EVERYONE was a stranger, and had nightmares about things like wolves and, once, squirrels coming to kill me. The paranoia was also aided in the fact that I had a lot of waking dreams when I was little that I couldn’t explain until I was older.
10. I cannot fall asleep without holding something, which is why I have to have at least two pillows with me when I fall asleep: one to put my head on, and one to hold. The fishpillow has often helped me with my insomnia.
11. I have six siblings. Two are half siblings, one is a half sibling of those two half siblings so we’re only related by marriage and living together, then I have three ex-step-siblings that I’ve also grown up with but I still love more than anything. Even though only two are related by blood, I could never imagine calling them anything but brothers and sisters. If you disagree with me, I guarantee you I will have some very potent words for you.
12. I love cooking. If I could, I’d be a cook for the rest of my life. But, the fact that I have zero talent in the cooking department has kind of destroyed that whole dream.
13. Definitely, I’m a survey-whore. If someone does a survey, I’ll fill it out to pass time but won’t always post it. Some times I hunt for them just to kill time. It’s kind of sad.
14. I’d rather be recognized for my art than being socially suave (which we all know isn’t really possible). I don’t care if people don’t care for my personality, but if they bash on my art, I feel mortally wounded. Why? I dunno.
15. Actually, I take a lot of things personally. I kind of pride myself on my patience, but I get my feelers hurt a lot by a the smallest things. Fortunately, I usually realize it’s foolish and regain composure.
16. I'm a three-button heathen (I grew up mostly on sega).
17. Algebra was probably one of my favorite subjects in high school, next to english.
18. I still want to go to an art school, with all of my heart. I’d do anything to be able to graduate from an art school and be able to support myself with a job oriented around art.
19. I love pugs. Pugs make the world go round.
20. My father is indeed part of the Vietnamese mafia.


Aaannnd, I tag ~Ashum, ~shiyou, ~shi-chahn, ~AnkhaCrow, ~janu-sama, *kiestphoto, ~peristalticxrush, ~the-beatnik, ~Blanch1000, ~peachzilla507, and whoever the hell else wants to do this. If you don't do it, have the comfort in knowing that I know exactly where every single one of you sleep. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6953417/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6953417/ Fri, 04 Nov 2005 12:31:56 PST
I'm sorry I haven't been doing as much as I should. I only get to draw once every two weeks or so when there's a free model drawing my school hosts. Other than that, I don't have any classes that require a lot of drawing.. In ceramics, I'm supposed to make sketches of my projects but those are definetly not worth posting, though we are done firing and glazing a few pieces so I might take a few pictures and scrap them. And the drawings that I actually get done with the models are not as good as I'd like, but I'll still end up putting them up... eventually.

Okay, so here're my excuses for not doing art:
1. Classes & homework
2. Sickness
3. Jobs (2)
4. NaNoWriMo
5. Classes & homework

Basically, dead-week for finals is in about a month, so I need to start getting ready. I can't believe this semester's almost over already. Registration for next semester's actually next wednesday for me. That's kind of scary. Where the hell did this semester go to?
Hope everyone's well

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Works in Progress:

-=AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
- Fight Club fanart.
- Kabuki fanart.

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6580974/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6580974/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 11:26:26 PDT So I'll just do it here.
Thanks.
Also, I haven't been able to give the deserved feedback on your guys' art, but I have been looking at it.. so, many kudos to you all

So, here's the deal: I got rid of all the comments, deviations, and misc messages because I hit about 750 because I just hadn't done dealt with any of them since the summer began (working 2 jobs, then moving, then starting college again kind of sucks up all your time). It was just a very.. very hard task that I knew I would never have time for.. But starting now (hopefully), I won't let things get backed up again, and I'll start commenting on art and responding to things.
And.. maybe even doing some art on the side.
I might end up uploading some of the posters I've done as graphic designer, but none of them are anything to shout about, especially since most of them I had to pull out of my ass as quickly as I could. Might as well just throw them into scraps for shits and giggles.
Other than that.. I can now sucessfully make pottery and other things by means on clay and a wheel. It makes me all warm and fuzzy inside, even if everything I make turns out to be either a.) a bowl or 8.) a lop-sided cup. Once I fire and glaze all of it, I might upload some pictures because I am damn proud of my stuff. Some people might even get stuff.. like a rice bowl? Anyone, anyone? I made an ice cream bowl already.. Eh?

Okay, you're allowed leave now. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6353331/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6353331/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 17:58:43 PDT


I have a few drawings I'll upload that I just kind of leaked out of my brain. It's been so long since I've been able to just sit down and do something pleasant, like drawing.
Classes start tomorrow, and I'll be a party-pooper and say that I am really excited for them to start. ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6052814/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/6052814/ Wed, 27 Jul 2005 22:02:26 PDT I'm officially a tech rep at Office Depot.
And 4 projects for my graphic designer job have been dumped on me.

w00t.


I get to design the ASUPS (assosiated students of UPS) t-shirt because they're tired of the crappily designed maroon ones (don't blame them -- I wouldn't wear it), a poster for LogJam! (the all-campus party thing), the diversity-year theme poster ("Liberty and Justice for Some"), and finally a diversity theme year speaker poster ( her name's Rachel Safran, and that helps me).
It should be exciting, and I have until the beginning of September, so it shouldn't be that bad.
Hopefully.
Tweek's moving to Portland in almost two weeks, as he will be attending an art school here. I'm very happy for him, and glad he's coming here because he likes Portland so much.
Shiyou's coming on monday, I've just learned <3<3<3
Nintendogs comes out on august 22nd, and I'm excited even though I don't have a DS.
And, yeah, that's about all.

Random updates are pure sex on a stick, and you know it.

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Works in Progress:

-weekly assignment: moon scene (from Voln)

-~AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-=rah-bop - kiriban
- Fight Club fanart.

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Today's poll: Does the whomping willow eat or kill the bird in third HP movie?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/5707438/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/5707438/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 19:07:29 PDT nillin and I were spoiled with the perfect county -- they practically governed each other and did everything themselves, and we ended up with the Governor, a Girls' Nation senator, and a Supreme Court Justice Chair (all of which are really high positions, the first two being the highest you can achieve). This year, we got squat. I'm fine with it now because I can tell a few of them are going to go very far in life, and they're going to make quite the difference. And hey, I got to be a counselor with Kelly, who was the counselor for the county Kenna and I were in and it was a lot of fun to work with her again.
All in all, it was exhausting and challenging, but it was worth it. One of the members of the commission kept a walking meter with her all the week, and she ended up walking about 68 miles in the entire week (I can only imagine what everyone else walked); the girls stayed up late and I got up early; there's a train track about 20 feet from the dorms, and they go by every hour or so even at night, honking and making a cacophony like no other that people don't sleep through; practically, babysitting 23 girls was tiring.

And working at Hallmark isn't bad at all. I only made about a million mistakes at the cash register, but my two supervisors said I did fantastically. Since it's the day after Father's day and graduation's over, I got to reprice everything that was oriented around that (it took a good 2 hours), then got to move stuff around and try to help people find things that were a mystery to me. I'm sure it'll just take some getting used to. Work at Office Depot starts on wednesday, and that should be joy-filled.
Speaking of work, Jess and I are starting a weekly assignment thing that involves practicing backgrounds and such. At first I thought it would be a cake walk, but soon found out that backgrounds are, indeed, a bitch.
On the better half of good news, I only have 387 messages to go through. Only.
And I said all of this because you all care, so very much.
That is all.

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Works in Progress:

-weekly assignment: unknown

-=AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-=rah-bop - kiriban
- Fight Club fanart.

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Today's poll: Does the whomping willow eat or kill the bird in third HP movie?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/5378668/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/5378668/ Mon, 16 May 2005 23:32:49 PDT

Well, I'm done with my first year of college. I really don't know what to say about it... It was one of the best times of my life, but I'm glad it's over. For once in quite a while, I can draw without feeling guilty because I'm not studying, working on homework, researching or making something for 3-D. Just the freedom from worrying about finals is reward enough. Lord.
Now, if only I could empty my brain of all the western art history I've learned and ditch it like I ditched my humongous book.
Finals almost killed me, but I won the battle in the end. Mmhm. Hopefully the results won't make me want to drive myself off of one of those large bridges in Portland.
I've also decided that watching Japanese soap operas without subtitles with my professor and a bunch of fourth-year students has to be one of my favorite new past-times. Especially when one scene pops up with a couple sitting on a couch... the guy looking nervous, turns and looks at the girl then says, "suru?” I hope someone else out there gets it.

In a week, expect a lot of art.. I have the art trade with Jess and the kiribans almost done, and a lot of other crap that's partially done or really close. Also, I'm hoping to get anti-feline up and finished over the summer because I seriously doubt I'll be able to continue it because of how my schedule is shaping up for next year.

Oh yeah, guess who's gonna be University of Puget Sound's graphic designer next year
Oh, and it's also been two years since I joined dA. Weird.

So, that's it for me ... How have all you guys been?

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Works in Progress:

-~AnkhaCrow - art trade
-=AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
- Fight Club fanart.

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Today's poll: Does the whomping willow eat or kill the bird in third HP movie?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/5261155/ Tue, 03 May 2005 23:14:15 PDT


Just a warning.. I'll be gone for about a week (well, I've been practically gone anyway but who's lookin'?). My last day of classes is tomorrow, then the rest of the week and the weekend are considered a reading period to prepare for finals, which are next week. And I don't think I need to say it, but I will anyway -- I need to study. Art history and Japanese are kicking my ass, and it's not exactly a pretty sight.. But I will not go down without a fight. So, it's enough to say that I really don't have time right now, and I think all my free time either goes to sleeping or... sleeping.
Yep.
Summer is so close I can almost taste it. And it seems like it would taste like sleep.
Stay well, kids. And for college students, or students alike: best of luck with the end of the year, whether it's soon or in the next month or so.


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Works in Progress:

-~AnkhaCrow - art trade
-=AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
- Fight Club fanart.

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Today's poll: Does the whomping willow eat or kill the bird in third HP movie?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/5079248/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 14:47:12 PDT _>; But it's still a kiriban, eh?


Thankfully, my art professor had pity on a few students and he's giving us until tuesday to finish our latest project. If this hadn't happened, I don't think I'd be alive right now. So now I need to finish two art projects... Fish is due on tuesday, the wire hands are due on thursday. What a joyful week. At least the hail didn't kill me.

And now for your cute photo of the month (I should make this a tradition):



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Works in Progress:

-~AnkhaCrow - art trade
-=AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
- Fight Club fanart.
- (school work) fish sticks and wire expression project.

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Today's poll: Does the whomping willow eat or kill the bird in third HP movie?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4920874/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 01:33:34 PST .
And now I'm back from being MIA, but I might not be able to do much. I have a rather large 3-D project to finish by thursday, in which I need to make a large objects out of smaller objects that are both linked together somehow (ie, making a dog out of dob biscuits, making a shirt out of tea bags, etc). So, I'll be making a rather large fish out of popcicle sticks... (fish sticks.. eh, eh? Okay, nevermind). And I'm not too far on it, though it shouldn't take as long as the other projects. Just general school things will probably keep me away, but I'll try to at least get to commenting on deviations.. ._. Sigh.
I also went to a nude drawing session with Adrian and a couple of girls from my floor, so I might upload some of those if I decide they're worthy of eyes.
So, basically, nothing's really happened.. well, a lot's happened, but you know. Just wanted to warn everyone that I'm alive again.. and I'll try to be more active.. or something. Instert more comforting sentences here.
Thanks for being patient with me I guess.

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Works in Progress:
-~shiyou - my half of the art trade (still).
-=AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
-~AnkhaCrow - art trade
- Fight Club fanart.
- (school work) fish sticks.

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Today's poll: Does the whomping willow eat or kill the bird in third HP movie?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4806529/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4806529/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 22:48:32 PST _> And I thought I remembered everything when I packed...
So I'm going to save the little power the oC pimp [aka my computer] has and use it to write the two papers I need to work on this week. Sorry for the inconvenience, and I'll work on my messages and crap later. Uhg. Stupid.. stupidity. And I was going to get a comic and some art done too.. Ah well. It'll give me freedom to actually, you know, do the school work I need to do.
Uhm.. so.. everyone behave.. and.. I dunno... this was a completely worthless entry, but I just wanted everyone to know so you guys didn't think I died or something. Kay.... bye.

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Works in Progress:
-~shiyou - my half of the art trade (still).
-*AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
-~AnkhaCrow - art trade
- Fight Club fanart.
- (school work) 3-D puzzle column project.

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Today's poll: Do you approve of Valentine's Day?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4657834/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4657834/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 21:14:01 PST




When I'm down, all I need are these. It's amazing.
[ps] Neither of these are mine, though I wish they were sooo badly. Oh, and the pugs too <3

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Works in Progress:
-~shiyou - my half of the art trade (still).
-*AnimeArtistWannabe - kiriban
-*rah-bop - kiriban
-~AnkhaCrow - art trade
- Fight Club fanart.
- (school work) 3-D puzzle column project.

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Today's poll: Do you approve of Valentine's Day?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4585419/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4585419/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 22:09:58 PST
That is all.

Works in Progress:
-~shiyou - my half of the art trade (still).
- Fight Club fanart.
- (school work) 3-D puzzle columb project.

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Today's poll: Do you approve of Valentine's Day?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4457651/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 21:44:12 PST This is what I do with my time *shakes head*

Classes are still going well, I suppose. I do believe, though, that 3-D Foundations is trying to kill me... or that I'm just trying too hard in fear of disappointing//making an enemy of another art professor. Today alone I spent nearly 7 hours straight in the sculpture studio working on my piece. I guess I should explain.
My professor, Mike, is very passionate about this class and art in general. Usually, when professors are passionate and excited about the class, the energy flows to me, and I get really excited about it. And well, I got really enthusiastic about this class and the project. The first project (the current one; it's hard to explain, bear with me) was to be carved out of plaster that was cast in a half gallon milk carton. We were supposed to carve the reaction between a natural shape being obstructed or punctured or changed somehow by a linear shape (ie, stabbing a pencil through an orange... bad example).
The ideas in my head changed a lot over the past two weeks; it was first a squash//shell-shaped balloon with liquid inside of it, and the liquid broke part of the skin and was leaking out, causing the natural shape to deflate and kind of crack. That evolved, over a few ideas, to a balloon-like thing with thicker skin with a few boxish and circle-ish objects inside of it, pushing out, so you see the strain against the skin and the object on the inside. Then, at the top, a finger-shaped thing has punctured the skin and is kind of wiggling out. And that's the shape I need to paint that represents the linear or unnatural object.
That wasn't long winded or anything.
Well, practically, I've been working on it for about a week, and in the process of carving away about 60 to 70% of the plaster with a chisel, I hurt my right wrist (strained it, I think), then decided it was smart to use my left hand to work and hurt that one too. It was bad for a few days.. couldn't pick up books or open doors or get up on my bed with my hands, but they're fine now. Now I'm just working at the detail. Yesterday, I worked on it for 4ish hours and today I worked on it for about 7. Figure I put in about 20 hours in it so far, and I'm still not done x_x But it's looking good, I'll post pictures and all.

Uhm, other than that, not much has happened. Wait, I know.. My mom got a job! That's really good. I know she reads this, for the most part, and I just want to say that I'm proud of her (well, not proud... because that makes it sound bad)... more like I'm really happy for her It's a very good thing.
Annnnnddd... yeah.. I dunno... More has happened, but I can't think of what. I'd do more art if I wasn't living in the sculpture building *nods* And now, time to study for my Japanese test.

[ps] I deleted about 10 deviations and a few scraps, as a kind of winter cleaning. Nothing very important.. it shouldn't be noticable.

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Today's poll: Do you approve of Valentine's Day?
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4377977/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4377977/ Fri, 21 Jan 2005 15:03:21 PST 's site and gallery... Seriously. His stuff is just amazing. Great caricature paintings.

Anyway..
Scraps. It's a friend and an enemy at the same time. You all know what I'm talking about (or, at least you out there that upload stuff). Or maybe it's just a problem with me...
It's great to upload sketches and things that wouldn't be considered finished or "polished," but I'm finding myself putting a lot of stuff in there recently because I really can't see the aesthetic value in any of it. Even if I spent a while on it and it does show at least a little bit of what I can do, it usually goes into scraps. Maybe I just need to try harder at art and actually do something that I can be proud of... I also just need to work with drawing people and other skills that are not doing so good right now.
I don't know.
I was just kind of wondering if anyone else had that kind of love-hate relationship with scraps, or if it's just me -_-;

*Sings Katamari Damachi songs*

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Today's poll: Love is . . . (please excuse this)
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4343046/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 13:19:55 PST So you guys get a before and after picture thing.



It's exciting. And.. cold.
But I can do the bishy hair-flip now.. which really doesn't work with me, but it's still fun.

Anyway..
Classes start tomorrow, and I'm a tad bit nervous because I neglected Japanese all break and the rest of my classes sound fun but I'm not sure if I'll do well in them or not. Oh, and I have class from 10 AM to 6 PM tomorrow, with a two hour break somewhere in there. What a way to start off the semester. I guess I shouldn't complain.. I really wanted to start classes anyway and start being busy again because, even though it's stressful and deadly, I work much better in conditions like this.
Other than that, hopefully I'll have more art to upload other than random caricatures of movie people and.. more exciting things to talk about.. ._.; Stupid random and pointless journals.. blah.
Happy January.

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Today's poll: Love is . . . (please excuse this)
Current Featured Artist: ~SqueakyJo

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4225160/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 22:45:52 PST Hmmm. I guess I should say something about the new year, and how 2005 is going to be so much better than 2004 but it has a lot of things to live up to, in my opinion. Let’s see… Got through the collge thing, decided where I was gonna go, fell in love with the perfect guy, graduated from high school, became a junior counselor for 30 wonderful young politicians, turned legal, hung out with a Texan, went to college, met new people, made new friends, found out that I can call an all-girl dorm my 'home', battled the evil art professor, made plenty of art, and.. I dunno… grew up a little, maybe? But that’s just been with me. This year (well, 2004.. you know what I mean) offered so much for everyone, and I hope that it gave everyone more good to contemplate than bad.
Gad, that wasn’t about 2005 at all. I really need to learn how to keep on track.

Break has been going well except for the fact that I haven’t been productive, and I’ve just kind of been sitting around catching up on my pokemon ruby game that my nephew erased over graduation. Haven’t even read a complete book since I got home, and that’s just… sad. But, I have been hanging out with Adrian a lot, and got to see *shi-chahn and ~moleculo (who, by the way, have to be the most disgustingly cute couple on the face of the planet, I swear >_> ). It ended up, thankfully, that I didn’t have to go and visit my father, with two good reasons: first off, my dad was leaving for Stanford for his part-time teaching job two days after I would have arrived; also, he couldn’t find a return flight home for me because they were all sold out (leave it to my dad to buy things at the last minute.. actually, he didn’t even remember I was visiting, but that’s a different story). This was quite a wonderful thing because I hate dealing with holiday flights, my dad’s trying to sell the house (I hate that kind of setting), and he’s also going through a divorce (another setting I don’t want to be in). It was just convenient.
Anyway. . .
Two weeks left before I head back to the ol’ U of PS, so maybe I’ll get around to doing comics again or some other sort of art… or something other than playing pokemon and sleeping in until 12:30. Sigh.
And I guess I should state my new year’s resolutions and everything since I actually do go through the trouble of thinking of them.
1. Have a better attitude about uhm… everything.
2. Work harder at school and art, and study much, much more for Japanese.
3. Stop wasting time (watching tv, wandering the internet, staring at dust particles, etc.).
4. And finally, my annual resolution, lose weight.

Gad, what else can I say? I’m really not sure, sorry for the ramble.. A lot more has happened in 2004 and in the last few weeks, but you know? You guys were there for 2004 (I… think) and things are going fine. Have a good year and all that jazz, and.. I’ll be back when I have something artistic to offer -.-

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4150658/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4150658/ Sat, 25 Dec 2004 00:52:21 PST Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Thank god for John Lennon. This time of the year not only means quality (no capital Q, thank you) time with family, friends, and loved ones as well as giving, but it also means peace to me. Happy holidays to everyone and, if you don't celebrate any holidays during this season, happy uh.. snow, cold weather, bitter people and uhm... winter.

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4020266/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/4020266/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 15:38:24 PST The F-word. The word that causes students to keel over in fright. The word that can either make or break someone in a college setting. The word that causes death.
Finals. Arhgdeath.

Starting today, it's officially dead week for me. Today was my last day of classes, which makes me sad in some ways and happy in others. I'm sad because it was officially my last class with my Japanese professor and the students in that class, who I appreciate so much, because I have Japanese with the other professor next semester; it was also officially my last SETI class, which was one of the best classes I've ever had, and the people in it were incredible.. not to mention Bernie, our professor, was a really great guy. I'm also sad that I have to take finals, but there's no way to really avoid that.
However, I'm happy that I never have to take math again. Ever. Unless I get a random urge to take linear algebra, which could.. possibly happen. Uhn.
And I'm also very happy that I'm done with drawing 109.. forever. The students in the class were wonderful towards the end and I started to talk to the majority of them a lot, but ekhrq3uy4roihjq;ldjf;lkjasdf I will not miss the professor. Unfortunately, if I stay here, I'll have him as the professor in the majority of my art classes.
Sigh.

So, I'll probably not.. be around.. at all.. because I need to, very badly, study for my math and Japanese final, and write my final paper for SETI. But for the Oregonians in the neighborhood, I am planning on going to the devmeet on the 18th... I just need to figure out a gift x_x crap...
And so, for all the students out there that are going through finals right now -- good luck to ye all. And for everyone else... well, it was nice knowing you x_x;..

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3959588/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 21:48:29 PST
Yesterday, Mel and I braved the frigid winter of Tacoma in search of a piece of the holidays to keep us company in our room. Layered in probably way too many layers of clothing (t-shirt, long sleeve shirt, hoodie, jacket, coat and hat, each), we managed to meander to the large gathering place of shoppers called, wittingly, Target. After circling the store in the wrong direction, we fell upon the aisle we were hunting for, which they cleverly hid next to the toys, video games, bicycles, CD players and other expensive novelties.
Singing Santas, blinking lights, sparkling tinsel, red-fluffed stockings, fake plastic trees, live plastic trees, glass ornaments, and everything that represented the cold, merchandise-enriched holiday that I fear so much stared at me at point-blank range. Why was I standing in this flesh-infested building with hundreds of other cold, unhappy shoppers unwillingly shifting through piece after piece of unnecessary items that represented some number of monetary value?
Because we were in search of a single serving of Christmas.
After looking through innumerable amounts of live, indoor, miniature trees that could survive inside of an all-girls dorm, we found a slightly lopsided and gangly stone pine that stood about to our knees and decided that it was perfect in its imperfection. We then found a 14 foot string of colored lights that were in proportion with our lovely form of green pine needles and such. It made me feel... well.. in the spirit, so to speak. It made me feel horribly greasy with the Christmas-shopper spirit, which I feverishly opposed, especially only a few days after Thanksgiving.
But somehow, hearing the Christmas music, looking at the ornaments that sparkled so well, smelling the trees, looking at the variety of pieces of the holidays, all hit something inside of me that I hadn’t felt in many, many years. I was actually warm about the thought of Christmas. I think it’s because, perhaps, I’m going to be home for Christmas, which hasn’t happened in almost 6 years. See, for the past 6-odd years, I’ve been at my father’s house for Christmas, which does not have spirit whatsoever. We all gather together on Christmas day, muddled in a large family that doesn’t really appreciate one another, to try and be more of a family which drives us farther apart. We open presents that are awkward because we don’t know each other very well, and eat our traditional BBQed pieces of dead meat that had been slaughtered the day before. Then, the eldest get drunk, make fools of them selves, and the kids (my generation) all gather together and escape to either get better food or catch a movie.
This, in my mind, killed Christmas for me – the lack of love and appreciation of each other’s company probably did it in for me. I greatly enjoy spending time with my siblings, but it just doesn’t seem fully comfortable with everyone, especially with the many little tiffs going on in the family, currently. But this year, I’ll be with my mom because that’s what I want, and I’ll actually be at home, and we’ll be able to celebrate like usual by baking cookies, exchanging presents that we both understand the other will enjoy, spending time with other family and close friends who I really belong with... You know? It already feels much more like Christmas.
The rest of the night, I was squeaky and unusually smiley, suddenly pumped full of that child-like desire to wake up early on Christmas day to celebrate with some of the ones I love... It’s just strange to feel like a kid again, to be excited about something like this, it’s all so foreign yet refreshing. I don’t really mind giving in to the holiday spirit so early anymore because, as hard as I try to suppress it, it will not go away.
And it’s all thanks to a single serving of Christmas joy. I really should thank Mel for this because it’s all her fault; she’s the one that wanted that tree in the first place.

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3908660/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3908660/ Wed, 24 Nov 2004 12:09:49 PST [link] that I thought were fun. I'm much against the mass slaughtering of the seven-faced bird to celebrate the fact that certain people invaded this country, killed many, and claimed it theirs. Ehhh.
Happy turkey day (or soon to be), everyone.

Ben Franklin, in a letter to his daughter, proposed the turkey as the official United States bird.

In 2003, the average American ate 17.4 pounds of turkey.

The heaviest turkey ever raised was 86 pounds, about the size of a large dog.

A 15 pound turkey usually has about 70 percent white meat and 30 percent dark meat.

The wild turkey is native to Northern Mexico and the Eastern United States.

The male turkey is called a tom.

The female turkey is called a hen.

The turkey was domesticated in Mexico and brought to Europe in the 16th century.

Wild turkeys can fly for short distances up to 55 miles per hour.

Wild turkeys can run 20 miles per hour.

Tom turkeys have beards. This is black, hairlike feathers on their breast. Hens sometimes have beards, too.

Turkeys’ heads change colors when they become excited.

Six hundred seventy-five million pounds of turkey are eaten each Thanksgiving in the United States.

Turkeys can see movement almost a hundred yards away.

Turkeys lived almost ten million years ago.

Turkey feathers were used by Native Americans to stabilize arrows.

Baby turkeys are called poults and are tan and brown.

Most of the turkeys raised for commercial production are White Hollands.

Turkey eggs are tan with brown specks and are larger than chicken eggs.

It takes 75-80 pounds of feed to raise a 30 pound tom turkey.

United States turkey growers raised 270 million turkeys in 2003.

Forty-five million turkeys are eaten each Thanksgiving.

Twenty-two million turkeys are eaten each Christmas.

Nineteen million turkeys are eaten each Easter.

Male turkeys gobble. Hens do not. They make a clicking noise.

Gobbling turkeys can be heard a mile away on a quiet day.

Minnesota, North Carolina, Arkansas, Virginia, Missouri and Virginia are the leading producers of turkey in 2003. These states produced 75% of all the turkeys raised in 2003.

Illinois produced 2.9 million turkeys in 2003 and ranked 15th in turkey production in the United States.

A 16 week old turkey is called a fryer. A five to seven month old turkey is called a young roaster and a yearling is a year old. Any turkey 15 months or older is called mature.

The ballroom dance the "turkey trot" was named for the short, jerky steps that turkeys take.

Turkeys don’t really have ears like ours, but they have very good hearing.

Turkeys can see in color.

A large group of turkeys is called a flock.

Turkeys do not see well at night.

2.74 billion pounds of turkey were processed in the United States in 1994.

A domesticated male turkey can reach a weight of 30 pounds within 18 weeks after hatching.

Turkeys are related to pheasants.

Commercially raised turkeys cannot fly.

Turkeys have heart attacks. The United States Air Force was doing test runs and breaking the sound barrier. Nearby turkeys dropped dead with heart attacks.

Wild turkeys spend the night in trees. They especially like oak trees.

Wild turkeys were almost wiped out in the early 1900's. Today there are wild turkeys in every state except Alaska.

In England, 200 years ago, turkeys were walked to market in herds. They wore booties to protect their feet. Turkeys were also walked to market in the United States.

Turkey breeding has caused turkey breasts to grow so large that the turkeys fall over.

June is National Turkey Lover’s Month.

Since 1947, the National Turkey Federation has presented a live turkey and two dressed turkeys to the President. The President does not eat the live turkey. He "pardons" it and allows it to live out its days on a historical farm.

The five most popular ways to serve leftover turkey is as a sandwich, in stew, chili or soup, casseroles and as a burger.

Eating turkey does not cause you to feel sleepy after your Thanksgiving dinner. Carbohydrates in your Thanksgiving dinner are the likely cause of your sleepiness.

50 percent of U.S. consumers eat turkey at least once per week.

According to the 2002 census, there were 8,436 turkey farms in th... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3871590/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3871590/ Fri, 19 Nov 2004 14:40:52 PST my
god.

I met Sascha.
And he gave me a hug...

[/fangirlmoment... for now]

So, the concert.. just rocked. SOOO, I'm going to go into detail about it because no one can stop me

After driving for three hours, I stopped at home to take a breather and talk to mom about how I'd be back really late and to not worry, blahblahblah, then drove to P-Town to pick up Jess (~AnkhaCrow). The drive to Eugene was about an hour and a half long, and we didn't get lost, not once! I got kind of paranoid that we were lost a few times, but that was about it x_x! And it was a great time hanging out with Jess because I haven't really seen him since... august? I think?
The Jungle is a restaurant somewhere in the middle of Eugene and a rather small venue (I want to say only about 150 to 200 peopleish), and it was so small that the members of KMFDM were just kind of wandering the crowd before the show started. In fact, while Jess and I were waiting in line to get shirts, Sascha (THE Sascha) walked by us, into the t-shirt booth and started talking to the guy. Spaz attack number one. At first, I thought my mind was playing tricks on me, but it was Sascha x_x Then I got too scared to talk to him and just kind of watched him walked by, towards Lucia (spaz attack number two).
The concert started late which was typical, and the two beginning acts (death metal wanna-bes and two random techno guys) were by far the worst opening acts I have ever run into (sorry that were godaweful, Jess x_x; ) But, oh my god, it was so worth it.
KMFDM started about 11ish.. Everyone but Sascha entered the dark stage, then, of course, Sascha walks on stage and lights a cigarette, which lit up his face just enough.. I love how he does it ^_^ It's so awesome! Andand they played so well, I love them so much live, it's just so much more incredible.. And thank god, they played Godlike as their final song.. their Encore. That is my favorite song of theirs, and was kind of scared that they weren't going to play it at all.
But they are just.. amazing live, period. It's seriously rivaling the Radiohead concert, seriously. It was worth the long drive, putting up with the flu while doing it, the money, everything.
It just .. rocked. And, in good company, it was even better X3
After the concert, Jess and I just kind of hung around, trying to find one of the posters advertising KMFDM, when the band members started coming out.. and there was Sascha, maybe 10 feet away, so of course I had to go over there and see him x_x
Walked up to him, realized I didn't know what to say, then did one of my scaredjusttalk things and said "I've been trying to hunt you down all day," which he gave me a very odd look for and said "I'm not that hard to find." I then explained to him that I saw him a few times but was nervous to approach him, and he told me not to be nervous and GAVE ME A HUG!!!!!!! At first, the invasion of the personal bubble made me want to cry then that was done and overwith because it was Sascha. THE Sascha. My hero. I told him that I drove here from Tacoma//Seattle and then he invited me to go to the Seattle show x_x and said "See you tomorrow." *Cries* Then he signed my CD.
Jess got to meet him then, and shake his hand.. Sascha checked out Jess' buttons on his coat and asked "Do you climb trees, man?" which we both assumed meant that he thought Jess was a Hippie (Go hippies!) and it was a great time.
After all that, Jess and I bounced around like fangirls (or... fangirl and fanboy), and bounced around all the way to the car and IHOP because it was THE best concert ever. (I'm just kicking myself because I didn't bring a camera ~_~... ) And after about 4 cups of coffee and a pepsi, each, plus food and another good conversation, we took the drive home with the 1984 - 1986 CD (tv tv... tv tv... tv tv... tv tv) and just... it was so much fun ^___________^ Thank you, Jess!!! It was great!!!
Then, yesterday morningish, I went in to Art Seminar at High School (which was really.... really weird) and got to see Adrian , and a few of my old teachers and friends which was.. well, it was really really nice but it felt odd at first.. I dunno, it's hard to explain, but it was sooooooo nice to see Adrian, even if I am still recovering from the flu and coughed on him and spread my disease ._. Then about 3 PM, I drove back and kind of.. died... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3848787/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3848787/ Tue, 16 Nov 2004 11:14:49 PST
And so it starts.
Tomorrow, and I are going to the KMFDM concert in Eugene, bwahahaha. It's going to be so fun.. and we get to break Jess' concert virginity
So, practically, I'm going to not go to drawing 109 (oh, a stab to my heart), and drive to Portland.. jeez, it just feels like I did that two days ago.. Then I'll hang out there until Jess wants to go and we'll drive to Eugene and have the best time ever.
Sooooooo excited *can't keep still* KMFDM was the first band (real band, actually) that I saw in concert as well, and it's just... so exciting.. It's at The Jungle, which is an 18 and over restaurant and sounds like a pretty small venue, which is nice... and Sascha's gonna be there, and Jules and Lucia It's for their 20th anniversary and now I'm just rambling like an idiot but I'm so excited.
After the concert, I'm just gonna crash at home because, amazingly enough, mom said it'd be okay if I missed math because she prefers that I don't drive back to Tacoma at 2 or 3 in the morning @_@ I'm really happy about that.
Aaaannnnyway, just wanted to rant about that because it's great fun... Now, I should probably go back to work and try not to sneeze on anything, or infect anyone else...

*dances*

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~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3813390/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3813390/ Thu, 11 Nov 2004 20:44:41 PST Other than that, this thursday was probably the most calm thursday yet. Usually, I'm running around screeching because I have so much to do, but tonight things seem to have gotten done early apparently. All I have to do is look over my SETI essay and revise it a bit, work on my scholarship essay for a while, then just finish studying for Japanese.. That alone can take the rest of the night, but it's just nice to sit and keep still for a while.

Okay, so I have something I want to ask everyone. It's kind of fun. But there's a story behind it, so bear with me.
A few weeks ago, I went to see the Japanese movie Afterlife. Basically, the story is this: after you die, you go to a place much like just a boarding school, and you're assigned to a person (this person essentially takes care of about 8 to 10 people that have died). Practically, they tell you that you have died, and that you have a week at this place.
During that week (which starts on sunday, when you get there) you have to pick out the one most important memory to you. The person that is assigned to you helps you pick out this memory by asking you questions and just reviewing your life. You have three days (until wednesday) to chose this memory. This memory is the one that will stick with you until you are reincarnated and put into another life. After you pick the movie, the people at this place build a set and get actors that will reenact your memory and capture it on film. Then, after the week is over, everyone gathers together and watches all of the memories that were captured. After your memory is shown, you blink out of existence with just that memory attached to you and you are put into another life.
I personally found the whole concept fascinating, and I've been having the hardest time figuring out what my memory would be.

So I was wondering, what memory would you pick?

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http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3741877/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 10:47:56 PST The nation was fucked over... Another four years of this?
But, at least we tried and gave them a run for their money. It was a really close race. Really close.

This is a very dark day for America.

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Current Featured Artist: *Ashum ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3729685/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3729685/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 22:55:36 PST Tomorrow should prove interesting.
I hope that everyone who's old enough, and that resides in this country, voted... responsibly, might I add.

*Sigh*
Here's to the future *crosses fingers*



[ps] I was going to do an AF drawing for Halloween but got kind of busy... I might still do it for shits and giggles, but there're so many other things I need to do.. Kiribans, commissions, gift art, etc. Blah to that.

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Current Featured Artist: *Ashum ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3628428/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3628428/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 16:04:12 PDT
*Rant alert: I’m voicing my opinion. If you have a problem with it, I will be civil with you if you’re civil with me*

Well, there's an interesting measure trying to be passed in the lovely land of Oregon, and it's called Measure 36 *thunder and lightning clash* and god is it ugly. Practically, if it passes, it's illegal for same-sex couples to get married... and I'm sorry, but that's denying someone their love, to show their bond, and many other things such as rights to see their partner in the hospital, to see their partner's death record, no right to share insurance or share property, and that’s just wrong. I know these sound like reasons that are just for money or other material gains, but if heterosexual couples are allowed this, hell, why not all married couples?
Then there's the argument of "Well, god, then same-sex couples'll just get married for the benefits." Well, jee, look, heterosexual couples do it allthefuckingtime too, so deal with it. Marriage isn't as "sacred" as it used to be, you know? I mean, if you look at the divorce rates, it's more than obvious. "But, these same-sex marriages will just add to heightening the divorce rates" -- actually, it's proven that gay couples are far more less likely to split apart, especially over stupid reasons that are the main reasons for heterosexual couples to split (and I say stupid because the majority of reasons couples break up over are stupid. Think about it for a second. I could name about ten million).
I guess I must point out that I have a rather shaky opinion on marriage in general, but that’s because of my parents’ and my sister’s. But I refuse to think that they shouldn’t be allowed to marry. Everyone should have the right to marry another person, just like everyone should be able to love, to express themselves, to laugh, to cry, to be.
It's so unequal and unfair that it just blows me away. Who are we to have to right to deny someone's love? This is just another form of discrimination that needs to be taken down. This country is so much about freedom and equality and it just feels like we’re contradicting ourselves again.
One of the arguments against 36 says "Vote no on Constitutional Amendment 36 because our Constitution is designed to protect people... Not hurt them" and I don't think I could agree with something any more than that.
And on that note, my roomie, smart lady she is, brought up this argument: many people that are involved in a religious faith believe that they love their God. Well, what if they were suddenly told that they could no longer love God or they could not show that love because of an amendment that bans it. I know it's not the same thing, and I know it won't apply ever, but just think about it. Imagine if you loved some one so much that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with them, but were denied that "sacred bond." For some people, it may not matter but for many, it can mean the world.
And finally, why do we care so much? Why do we not want these couples to not marry SO badly? They're dealing with their own lives, not our own. We, of all people, do not have the right to tell them no. Why do some people find it so difficult to say 'yes' to this, I will never understand. I also understand that getting married does not automatically equal love and that people can, obviously, be couples and be in love without being married. But denying these couples the right to marry feels like just the first step in trying to break them down all together. They’re already discriminated against, screamed at, ridiculed and so many more negative things and it’s just so unnecessary.
We are all beautiful people, no matter what gender, race, age, skills, disabilities, hair color, eye color, origin or sexual preference. Because, really, we can control all of those just as much as we can control our own sexual preference.
Our lives are too short to make other people miserable. I’d love to go off on the need for peace after this, but I’ll leave that for a time later on.

In closing, I know I’m not the best speaker or.... writer in this case and that I’m rather biased on this subject because I have a sibling that is gay and a few friends that I love more than anything that I never want to see being neglected, mistreated or hurt in any way, and as far as I’m concerned, this whole issue is a rather large threat to them. And I will fight to protect them until the day I die, and that is a promise that I wi... ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3543092/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3543092/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 14:40:52 PDT http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3529594/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 19:09:48 PDT A little over four years ago, my mom moved to Portland and stayed with my aunt for about a week until she found an apartment. She took our cat Tiger with her because my dad wasn't going to let me have a cat at the house with four dogs, or how ever many we had at the time (when my mom decided she was moving to Oregon, I protested by moving in with my dad... which lasted for 3 months. End of story). So, a few days after she got to Portland, she called and said "You know how you told me not to let Tiger out because he'd run away? Well, he slipped past the door and..."
And so ended the legacy of Tiger.. my first cat, which I got in second grade and love to this day. When I decided to move up to Oregon to get away from my dad, we went to the Humane Society (after how many more months after Tiger was lost, we figured he was long gone) and got a cute little black and white american short-hair kitten with a gimp ear and belovedly named him Zeke.

Well, I thought that was the end of the whole Tiger story, until today. Once my mom said the good-and-bad news thing, she said "They found Tiger." Well, I kind of did a double-take and said "What?" because at this point I thought he was dead and he would be about 11 years old now, which is quite the age for a cat. That, and I thought that after four years, the search would go cold for our little Tabby.
She explained that the Humane Society called and said they found "our cat", which she thought was Zeke (which was odd because he was sitting with her at the time, apparently) until they explained that it was a rather aged brown-tabby with a cut up nose... with a chip in his ear that said he was ours. My mom rushed to the Portland Humane Society, completely ecstatic that they found our cat after four years until she saw the condition he was in.
His back legs refuse to work because, the vets say, "it looks like something beat him up," his eyes are extremely dialated, he hasn't eaten in god knows how long, he's extremely irritable and he might have leukemia. But he's alive.
I'd call this my miracle of the decade. I can't stop thinking about it because of how.. incredible and random it is.
Mom said that if the vets say that he can survive surgery and treatment that she'll pay for it.. and I'll get my kitty back... He won't be the same, but god, I can have Tiger back... it's just incredible..
I'm still trying to decide if this is a good thing though... because, from how she explained it, he sounds like he's in extreme pain and I do not want him to go through that.. He deserves peace, of all things. She said that they can put him down, but it's my choice. What the hell am I supposed to say to that? She also told me that she'd call me and tell me everything when the vets explain everything.

Other than that, I had my Japanese mid-term today... I thought it was easy and got done with it a little early, which usually indicates that I screwed up A LOT, but it should be fine seeing how much I studied for it. Also have a math test today... oh, and someone very special's doing a lecture here... For the people at TuHS that have ever taken Brinkman's class, or are taking it, know this name by fear and loathing and general pain:
Terry Tempest Williams.
I won't explain why, but just know that this is the ultimate pain... and she's doing a lecture on republicanism... How perfect.
Other than that, nothing else... these events are the most exciting, random and incredible things that have happened lately... Maybe I'll keep it all posted when I figure out what's happening.. and maybe even start up AF again when I have the time..

[ps] sorry for the random and unneccessary journal.

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Today's poll: Omigod, Kerry Vs Bush... Winner? (Please have a reason or two) ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3483128/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3483128/ Thu, 30 Sep 2004 19:50:27 PDT Made a list of Bushisms I'll upload later. Kweet.

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Today's poll: Omigod, Kerry Vs Bush... Winner? (Please have a reason or two) ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3425082/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3425082/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 21:04:57 PDT
Kinda need the money.. and.. yeah.. -_-

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Today's poll: Which do you prefer, traditional or digital art? ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3371303/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3371303/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 16:28:03 PDT I cringe whenever I think about the critique days because the teacher always verbally rips my finished and matted drawing into bits and pieces. Today was no different.. He spotted it and pulled it off the wall and said that it was interesting. Interesting with a slight hint that he was going to kill it. It would have made me feel so much better if he had just torn it in half right there in front of the class. I'd be shocked, but it wouldn't hurt as much.
He said that it wasn't simplified enough (we were supposed to turn a still-life into simplified shapes) and that where the lines intersected didn't make sense and all of this other shit.
Well, I was about to either scream or cry so I raised my hand and asked him if we could move on. He turned to me, scoffed a bit and asked me to not be such a drama queen.
A fucking drama queen. That is the first time I have ever been called that.
I am a hair away from dropping that fucking class. I thought we had squared away everything and we talked last week and I thought he decided we wouldn't pick on each other.
Then in the class while we were working on a new drawing, he told me I was doing it wrong and pulled out some crap about line quality... I don't think I have ever felt like crying because of a drawing class, but this one... this one just makes me want to give up drawing all together. I don't want to major in it any more, I've lost so much faith in this.
I really need to talk to my teacher because our chemistry just doesn't mix, but I want to know why he always singles me out and tears me apart. Is it because I'm the only freshman in that class? I don't know what the hell I'm doing there or what the hell I'm doing wrong.. I know I shouldn't really be losing faith in myself because of this jackass that thinks he knows art and because he I don't know.. singles me out... but it's so hard...
And it's only been three weeks...

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Today's poll: Which do you prefer, traditional or digital art? ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3335355/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3335355/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 20:54:23 PDT
At dinner, Mel (my roomie) and I ate with two girls from my hall, and we started talking about hairstyles. I told Kayla, one of the girls, that I was thinking about cutting my hair for locks-of-love eventually, but not until my hair grew out a lot longer, since they require a foot of hair when they chop it off for donations.
Kayla started talking about how much she loves to style hair, and later on she showed me pictures of friends that she cut hair for, and she does actually do it really well. Then for shits, we measured my hair and it turns out that if I did cut my hair, it'd be a little above my shoulders.
Well.. I got kind of excited about the idea of having a different hair style because I've had the same one for .. well, my whole life. The only time I changed my hair was in 6th grade where I cut it above my shoulders.. and of course it was at that awkward time in life where I couldn't be told from a boy.
That was quite traumatic.

So, I'm nervous about cutting my hair this short again because I have those anxious feelings about being... well... too boyesque again..
But it'd be really relieving since long hair's really hard to take care of (well, not like I take wonderful care of it anyway) but I like my hair... and.. I don't know. It keeps me warm. But it'd be nice to have a change.. And Kayla wants to give me bangs.. She said I'd look cute in the hair style.
*shrugs*
So, I want to ask of some opinions, please... Because I'm being really indecisive...
Should I cut it now or wait another year to chop it all off? Eh?


(ps) so far, Shiyou and my mom have said Go, but my sister Summer and Tweek have said No... But then Tweek changed his mind. Yay for indecision day.

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Today's poll: Which do you prefer, traditional or digital art? ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3308232/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3308232/ Tue, 07 Sep 2004 13:01:15 PDT Only have to memorize 8 Hiragana tonight, and that means I get to relax just a bit.. But I still have two drawings to do for class tomorrow and a few math assignments I neglected over the weekend.
Oh, and a comic.

I'm starting to meet more people, but it still feels unfamiliar here. When I got home (real home in Portland) it felt like I had never left and that UPS could very well be some strange dream that got to me. It was a really strange feeling. But I think the whole college transition is done. But, yeah, meeting people is not easy, so Thom is wrong. It's so hard to open up to people even a little bit because they're all so.. new. I don't know how to explain it.. , I've been asked to lunch and other little things like study parties with people from my Japanese class.. but I can't really tell right now if they're going to stick around. Maybe I'm just being paranoid again.
People and I generally don't mix... I've always had a hard time with meeting people or making friends. As one of my general rules, I usually don't like or dislike someone at first, and the effort to get to know them if they seem safe just seems to be a lot harder here. I don't know what I'm getting at. People make me edgy. I really wish I could force myself to be friendly with people and try to be social... I don't know what's wrong with me -_- I tried to make a promise to myself that I'd change and actually try and meet people here, kind of start over and get away from that shyness trait.
*dies*
Also doesn't help that I'm in an odd mood.. What the hell did I just write about? *shakes head*
Try to remember the water, zen water, flow around the people not through them..

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Today's poll: Which do you prefer, traditional or digital art? ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3216801/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3216801/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 11:59:57 PDT
By the way, uploaded new art but it's not showing up on my front page... x_x not that it really matters, just a warning... since I'm probably not going to be uploading much for a while.
OH! And I finally got my schedule squared away.. I managed to steal the last seat in the advanced drawing class ^^ Well, it's not extremely advanced, but it's farther than Elem. 2D drawing x_x Kee.
Art109B - Drawing -- monday_wednesday 1300-1550
Japn101A - Elem. Japanese -- monday_tuesday_wednesday_friday 1000-1050
Math271B - Applied Stats (again ~_~; ) -- monday_wednesday_friday 0900-0950 and _thursday_ 0930-1020
Phys103A - SETI seminar (searching for E.T. intelligence ^^ ) -- monday_wednesday_friday 1100-1150

Then I get to work for 10 hours a day as a computer consultant in the Office of Informational Services ._. At least I got out of that Subway job, eee. And that's about all that's happened... yeeah. And my classes and job start this monday x_x Busy.... *dies*

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Today's poll: which weather condition makes you wiggle with happiness? (because I'm bored, it's August and rainy, and I wanted a new poll up) ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3182454/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3182454/ Sun, 22 Aug 2004 18:34:40 PDT So far, UPS is incredible. The campus is really big and there're so many trees. There're fields and fields of green grass to just sit on and hang out under these trees that shadow the buildings.. Oh, and the buildings are beautiful, the brinkwork is incredible in all of them. So far the people are relatively friendly, but most of the freshmen are still a little freaked out and quiet, but it'll change soon.
I haven't been able to sign up for any classes yet but that'll change on tuesday, and my group has first-pick so I should get all the classes I want... Only downside is that my group'll get last-pick when it comes to the next semester, but eh whatever.
Compaired to the rest of the dorm rooms, I think my roomie Mel and I got the biggest room x_o It's really nice. We're on the "garden level" (aka, the basement), which is nice because we can get in and out quickly and it's really quiet. And it's really cozy, I have everything organized on my half of the room. It took about 10 hours to figure out how to get the ethernet to work for both of our computers but it just started working o_o so... *shrugs* Whatever works.
Okay, time for the hall meeting.. So much more has happened, but I'll just write about it later. Much fun so far... but I feel horribly home sick -_-


[ps] And if I hear "What can Brown do for you?" as another reference to UPS and the stupid postal service, I will be homicidal. Promise.

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Today's poll: which weather condition makes you wiggle with happiness? (because I'm bored, it's August and rainy, and I wanted a new poll up) ]]> ~kuwari http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3163822/ http://kuwari.deviantart.com/journal/3163822/ Thu, 19 Aug 2004 10:39:34 PDT I don't know when I'll be able to draw anything or actually get online.. It's so unpredictable. But I know the next time I'll be home is Labor Day weekend, which isn't horribly far away *makes a face*
Dunno what else to say. Just a warning that I'm moving into my dorm soon and everything's going to be hectic on my side for a while. Gad. *shakes her head* It still hasn't sunk in yet, but I'm waiting for it.. then I'll spaz. Yay.

Well, I guess I'll see everyone later o_o

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