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deviantART: by:ladywinde http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ladywinde&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ladywinde en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 05:53:04 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png New Computer Here! Saving forAdobe PS CS4 http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/27396432/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/27396432/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 17:03:04 PDT I am sooo happy.

Anyways Sorry there hasn't been anything since I lack my Adobe. That is one program I hate living without.

A friend said I should get it through devious matters but I've always been one to have a cd for reasons such as this one. I just hate that I lost it.

Stupid... misplacing... stuffs...

Anyways! I hope you all are well!

]]> ~ladywinde Computer Dead, Commisions Closed http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/27104528/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/27104528/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 21:16:08 PDT
It's like you don't know whether to laugh or cry because you feel that with the way things are going of course the computer would die to make things even better. And funnier.

Not so funny since this computer has my adobe program and the cd and the key are now all but lost. Ah well... We'll see what happens. There may yet be hope for the machine.

Time will only tell.

Until it gets fixed or I get a new computer there will more than likely not be anymore submissions of any kind until that is taken care of.

Best Regards,

Winde

]]> ~ladywinde Commissions http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/26835438/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/26835438/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 11:54:04 PDT
I'm kind of in a rut right now and am in need of some quick cash to cover rent thanks to a very poor paycheck

I'd like to announce I'll be doing some commissions(jpeg files) for a certain period of time for tips (Any amount you want). Naturally tipping isn't necessary but graciously and thankfully accepted.

Tips can be sent through Paypal at this link --> [link] to windeiine@aol.com

So any one for have a request? Let's do it!

Â§*~Winde

1.

FaeTian, OC Ashlyn - Complete

]]> ~ladywinde "Busy like a Hurricane" http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/25120417/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/25120417/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 07:08:59 PDT
Today I'm meeting up with the author of the children's book I'm illustrating. I really hope she likes what I've done. I'm trying to harden my heart to any criticisms that will arise but I'm sure you guys know how it goes. It's hard to not have hurt feelings but it's all part of the job. I'm probably worrying too much about that.

Anyways I am a week fresh back from Boston. Meeting my dear friend, Victoria was a blast and we had a ton of fun. I've never played laser tag before but woo it was lots of fun!

We went to Salem and did the night tour thing. It was very interesting and the tour guide was so quirky and funny. hehe

Anyways here's hoping I can start some more personal projects and update the gallery some more.

Cheers!

]]> ~ladywinde New Year means new self projects... and wee ninjas http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/22234941/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/22234941/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 22:59:10 PST
I have a feeling my eyes were doing that weird anime watery thing anime eyes do when someone is super happy/thankful/and in awe. I know my jaw certainly hit the floor. I agreed to do it.

So that makes project number one for this year.

Second project is a bit ambitious and is completely inspired by

~zelda994612's My Seasons. For over ten years I've had a story I've nurtured, changed, chopped, and loved and I had always thought that writing it out a la novel would be the way it would finally come out. Who knows. The whole comic idea might fall through and it goes back on the shelf but I certainly know that these drafts of the characters want to come to life. ;_; They really do.

I think the only thing I can dub the project is Comic Impossible simply because of the hours I work. And then there's WoW >.> But IceyCold said she'd forgive me if I made "Teh_AWESOME" into something real. And damn it. I want to!

By the way. Ninja Town. That is one fun DS game. They are so cute. o_o It's some kind of RTS game with cute written all over it. I love Ol' Master Ninja and the Ninja Mayor. I recommend it.

Atleast for a one time play through.

Anywho. Winde has much to do. So much to do... T_T!

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In my dreams I think I see you there... Oh if only... If only you were real!

"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. ButÂcouldnÂt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

ButÂwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Flip Flopping! WoW Style! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/18481401/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/18481401/ Sat, 24 May 2008 15:20:27 PDT
I don't plan on working on anymore Final Fantasy art. Unless of course someone really, really wants me to but I don't see myself working on it unless seriously prodded. So my apologies go to those who have been waiting anxiously for more (insert hawt man)/tifa pictures. ^_^; My muse just hasn't been in that department lately!

So I've been flopping between servers lately. Been horde for the past year and part of me is desiring some good ol' fun Alliance happy fun time.

But I don't want to give up my horde happy time either. T_T Ugh decisions!

With the new expansion coming out I will more than likely stick to horde because that's were I have stories set up and a certain deceased Sin'dorei who wants to finally come out of the woodwork and make his own notch in history.

We shall see though.

I love you guys and thanks for taking the time to stop by.

Take care!

*~*~

In my dreams I think I see you there... Oh if only... If only you were real!

"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. ButÂcouldnÂt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

ButÂwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde A Simple Kind of Life http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/14332585/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/14332585/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 10:39:29 PDT Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells"

"If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?"

"Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life "

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. ButÂcouldnÂt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

ButÂwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde The Definition of Longing http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/13852670/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/13852670/ Mon, 23 Jul 2007 22:37:34 PDT In your possession for safe keeping.
With me a piece of your heart you have given;
In my possession for sweet reminiscing.

Such precious treasures, these pieces have but one wish:
To become whole again,
Wash away the anxiety that ensnares the heart from such longing.

So with this a promise is made, unspoken.
The pieces will become whole again...
And with that result lovers reunite.

---

Written for my Tyler. <3 Love yous

*~*~

Anyways! Still alive. Still playing WoW. Game is like crack. Srsly!

Anyways I want to say how much I adore Mila, Icey, Rim, and others I haven't seen in ages. MUCH LOVE TO YOU OMGZ.

And I moved out of my dad's! I'm a woman out there! In the world! Earning her place in the world! So happy!

Anyways. That's it. Just letting you know I'm here.

Winde

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Is that a mana worm in your pocket? http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/11736930/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/11736930/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 15:31:36 PST

Oh hey I kinda joined this ACF Community:

:AdventChildren-Net:

*~*~

So I havne't updated this particular part in a while.

Sorry. I've been rather busy.

So what to say? I'm burnt out on Final Fantasy right now. Doesn't mean I won't ever pick up on the pending requests. Right now the muse just isn't inspired when it comes to good ol' Squeeee-enix. Sorry guys.

I know you have been waiting quite a while and I offer my deepest apologies.

So Burning Crusade has been released and I have been sucked in. For those interested in sending me a hello I roleplay quite a few characters on the Ravenholdt server(RP-PVP server). Lerato, Windeline, Serafine, and Keene. If you happen to catch me, send me a hello!

So as you can see by the latest pieces that have been submitted, the WoW bug has ensnared my muse and refuses to share. Bastard!

Tonight I take my leave for Seattle per usual. Seems it's tradition to go around this time of year. Once in February and then in October. *le sigh*

So I hope you all are well and I hope to have new stuff out.

Take care guys!

Winde

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde *crickets chirping in the distance* http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10974122/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10974122/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 15:55:33 PST

Oh hey I kinda joined this ACF Community:

:AdventChildren-Net:

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I stand proud on this rock. Proud to shout out to the heavens how much I despise the commericalism of the holidays.

People become ruder.

Oh well it all comes with working with retail. There. My whine ends there.

Now on to other things:

1. I've been busy. So busy I have lacked sleep. I love sleep. I go sleep soon.

2. Happy Holidays people!

3. Looking for a new place to live.

4. Looking for a new job.

and finally 5. I miss my free time.

I miss you all guys. Mila! I love you! Icey my lovely lady! I miss you terribly.

and to Rim! Dude. You rock my socks. Seriously.

Okay going back to the pits of hell. Wheeee *jumos back in*

Winde, charred

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde I still live http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10670729/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10670729/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 16:15:45 PST

Oh hey I kinda joined this ACF Community:

:AdventChildren-Net:

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I just wanted to give you guys the heads up that I have not forgotten the requests that have been in the queue forever and a day. I have been extremely busy with hurdles and other obstacles life has decided to throw my way. It seems the closer the holidays get, the less amoutn of sleep I'm allowed.

Not only that but I am also tending to my beautiful mother who has surgery on monday. The first couple of days have been a real doozy but she is getting better and stronger.

I hope you guys ar well and that the muses have stayed with you. Take care. I hope you guys have an awesome Thanksgiving and if you don't celebrate that holiday then make an excuse to make some turkey and mashed potatoes. The most awesome combo in the world. *heart*

Okay jetting off. Take care my loves.

Winde

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Four more days! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10285887/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10285887/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 18:24:43 PDT

Oh hey I kinda joined this ACF Community:

:AdventChildren-Net:

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That's right everyone! Four more days until the world can rejoice the coming of Lady Winde into the world!

That's right ladies and gents! The lovely Lady Winde is a Libra! O_O

It's so hard to believe I'm going to be 26 soon. Well as you guys know October is the month were I go to Seattle for a bit to spend time with the ultimate love of my life. And no it isn't Vincent. XD

I managed to finish another request and I certainly hope she likes it! ^_^ Will touch it up a bit later.

Holidays are coming up

That means less time to update but I shall do my best. Take care everyone!

Oh and if I don't update before hand HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Winde, forever busy

===Requests Complete====
1. For

a VinTi almost kiss request

2. For

A stargazing
request

3. For

Pretty/sweet or funny romantic pic. Like Sephiroth struggling with Tifa for a Pancake or something like it

===Current Requests in Progress/Pending====

1. Reno X Tifa - Both facing to the left, Tifa more in foreground. Reno is laughing, or smiling, maybe with his eyes closed. Tifa is looking over her shoulder toward viewer with a slightly surprised expression. Hair flowing slightly to the right, to indicate that they are walking.

2.Vincent X Tifa - Them snuggling. It can be in the bushes or in the snow or sidewalk, your choice. The challenge will be to..have cool lighting. It can be dark with streetlights or lantern lights, etc.

3. Vincent X Tifa - A picture of Tifa giving Vincent a shooting star at the end of the cave like in the story, Feathers in the Maelstrom.

4. Vincent X Tifa - A scene from one of Savvy Savie's fics.

*~*~

"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

... ]]> ~ladywinde Another request done! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10126206/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/10126206/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 19:33:20 PDT

Oh hey I kinda joined this ACF Community:

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That's all she wrote!

Kind of.

Well I am no longer taking any more requests but take heart! The requests that were made will be finished before I start my spree of chaos X KOS-MOS shipping! Blame Xenosaga III (what a fabulous game too!) It's fan art department needs more love and I plan to deliver! Especially when it comes to the mysterious teen angel and the stoic robotic femme fatale!

Anywho another request has been finished and added to the show off list! XD

This certainly has been a learning experience. Behold my attempt at a moonlit sky!

I'm rather pleased with it. Don't expect this kind of thing all the time though!

My eyes like vacations too! Hehe... Okami comes out tomorrow!

*excited*

Winde, overworked at work *sob*

===Requests Complete====
1. For

a VinTi almost kiss request

2. For

A stargazing request

===Current Requests in Progress/Pending====

1. Sephiroth X Tifa - Pretty/sweet or funny romantic pic. Like Sephiroth struggling with Tifa for a Pancake or something like it.

2. Reno X Tifa - Both facing to the left, Tifa more in foreground. Reno is laughing, or smiling, maybe with his eyes closed. Tifa is looking over her shoulder toward viewer with a slightly surprised expression. Hair flowing slightly to the right, to indicate that they are walking.

3.Vincent X Tifa - Them snuggling. It can be in the bushes or in the snow or sidewalk, your choice. The challenge will be to..have cool lighting. It can be dark with streetlights or lantern lights, etc.

4. Vincent X Tifa - A picture of Tifa giving Vincent a shooting star at the end of the cave like in the story, Feathers in the Maelstrom.

5. Vincent X Tifa - A scene from one of Savvy Savie's fics.

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde The Muse Needs Help! - Fan Art Brainstorming! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9950010/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9950010/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 18:56:55 PDT

:AdventChildren-Net:

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Well I thought I'd try something new! These are the kind of things I am taking requests for!

Tifa X Vincent

Tifa X Rufus

Tifa X Reno

Tifa x Zack

Tifa x Sephiroth (For you mila hehe)

Aerith X Zack

Aerith X Sephiroth

Aerith X Tseng

Aerith X Reno

Aerith X Rufus

Basically you pick a pairing. Say what you want happening in the picture (must be sure not to cross any DA guidelines

) Comedic, Happy true love, OMG drama welcomed! No mean ones like seph stabbing aerith through with a heart or anything. hehe. Anywho.

Holding hands, about to kiss, someone's oblivious, someone realizes they need to change, etc! Requests will be done in the order they are recieved!

Turk!Vin~ Turk!tifa~ Be specific in what you want!

Let's see some requests!

Winde, needs a jumpstart!

===Requests Complete====
1. For

a VinTi almost kiss request

===Current Requests in Progress/Pending====

1. Vincent X Tifa - Stargazing sitting on the well in Nibelheim. Vincent has draped cloak around Tifa's shoulders looking into each other's eyes. Yuffie in background with camera, cloud's head popping out of plant pot. Fluffy humor

2. Sephiroth X Tifa - Pretty/sweet or funny romantic pic. Like Sephiroth struggling with Tifa for a Pancake or something like it.

3. Reno X Tifa - Both facing to the left, Tifa more in foreground. Reno is laughing, or smiling, maybe with his eyes closed. Tifa is looking over her shoulder toward viewer with a slightly surprised expression. Hair flowing slightly to the right, to indicate that they are walking.

4.Vincent X Tifa - Them snuggling. It can be in the bushes or in the snow or sidewalk, your choice. The challenge will be to..have cool lighting. It can be dark with streetlights or lantern lights, etc.

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himse... ]]> ~ladywinde Winde's thoughts on FF VII: DoC http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9833523/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9833523/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 23:17:02 PDT

:AdventChildren-Net:

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Ok. This game was doomed before it even slid into my playstation 2. Why doomed?

Because this game portrayed my most favorite character in the final fantasy franchise as it's main character. This game attempted to fill in holes that had quite a few years of speculative thoughts already thought up, fought over, and theorized.

That is why this game was doomed.

I am a Vincent Valentine fangirl, thus any opinion of the story that they presented is obviously biased. I can't deny that fact.

I still dislike Lucrecia Crescent as much as I did when I saw her square shaped lego polygon self in the original game. I thought the reasons Square-Enix presented were rather poor and the reason the gave for her ultimate reason for choosing you know who over the tormented one was... well stupid.

And unless I missed it, I didn't see any reason why she would have submitted her child to experimentation.

I really wanna go into more detail here but I'll stop. Perhaps there are those that saw her reasons as valid, but seriously I saw her reasons for doing most things as completely wacko.

Now for Shelke; Will someone please slap some OMGsense! and brains into this child's head? Good grief! I'm not going to give away the main reason why I dislike her, but what got it going was the fact that she simply could not understand why you help others.

Things like the above were just so completely hard to swallow I had to hold my eyes so they wouldn't roll out of my head.

Gameplay wise it was mediocre. There were a few ai bugs where they'd get stuck and I could sit down and rest a bit, get back up and see the same guy stuck behind the fence trying to run through it instead of around. Cute little guy.

Some things in the plot just felt so... ooc with vincent's actions. Things he would say, do, etc.

Like I said. This game was doomed. Now when I say doomed I don't mean like it'll fail or anything like that. What I mean is... hmm like accepted. AFter so many years it's really hard to swallow all these plot fill ins and new characters etc. What makes it bearable is regarding it as official fan fiction. A what would happen in the mind of tetsuya nomura and crew. Hadn't most of the orignal people who worked it left the company anyways?

Anyways the game was 'okay' but not something I'm going to play twice.

This game ultimately could not live up to my expectations for the sole reason that I am such a fan of the original mysterious vincent valentine. -That- is why the game failed for me. -That- is why I could not enjoy this game.

I hope I made some sense. For people who haven't played FF Vii please do play it. It does ok. Really.

Winde, wanting the compilation to end. desperately

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Staying http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9469047/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9469047/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 14:48:04 PDT

:AdventChildren-Net:

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Well come monday I have to call the school to let them know I am unable to attend. Maybe better luck next year. Still quitting my job to pursue something else. Retail sucks and so I am leaving it behind come the 18th of august. Whether I have a job lined up or not.

... I, I really wanted to go.

winde

*~*~

"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Outlook not so good http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9341282/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9341282/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 12:55:02 PDT

:AdventChildren-Net:

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*edit* 2:54pm cst

I'm losing my mind. Sanity is just fleeing as fast as she can.

Cosigner just let me know they had really bad credit.

Despite the overwhelming of OH MY GOD I still love her. I'll always love her.

I was really hanging on with but a shred of ... something.

Wow.

Really and completely blown away and just a bit devastated.

Who knew laughing and crying could go hand in hand when you're feeling so utterly and completely low.

Time to e-mail those aunts and uncles.
-------------------

It's really hard for me to stay positive.

And I have about a week left to find the funds that I need or else all that I've done and strived for to get into that school will be a waste.

I'll be losing my job since they believe I'm leaving, which I suppose isn't a bad thing since it will force me to look somewhere else for work...

I don't want to rely on a miracle. Mom had agreed to be my cosigner but when it didn't get approved through an online application and I ask her to come with me to the bank so we may have a better chance at finding something better she says no she's too busy.

That hurts. A lot.

I don't want to be here. I'm tired of crying over it too. God I feel like I'm fricking emo. Heh and to think I even wrote some bad poetry too. Heh what else is on that emo check list?

Well... I guess if there's anything I can do maybe I can start with my room. Get it tidied up... call mom... call dad.

I hate how Nick says it'll be okay and that I can always go next year. He knows all the crap I go through down here. The car thing. The work thing. The i'm alone emo thing. Down here I feel like I'm just stuck. Waiting for him to finish so we can be together forever and always. /cut sappy music. And don't get me started on that last bit. Whole other bitter can of worms.

I know he's trying ot make me feel better but it's not what I want to hear. I want to hear encouragement not some oh better luck next time phrases.

I'm probably acting like a child and I certainly hope that's forgivable.

I know people hate the expression that life isn't fair and they're probably thinking omg get over it well i don't care. I'll gladly shout out how much I loathe my stupid cicumstances and my inability to move forward despite the oppurtunity that has presented itself like some heavenly beacon.

All I have to do is cross that bridge to get to the otherside. Except... the bridge is broken. No rope in sight.

I'm so close. All I need is the funding. God this is so hard. Despite the scholarships, grants, loans applied for nothing comes back positive. At this point as I tupe this up I can't shake the negative feeling that has wrapped itself so tightly around me. I'm trying to stay positive but even my optimism, despite my promise to continue to have a positive outlook, is dwindling.

Well I said I'd clean my room. So... I better get to it.

Winde, drama queen

*~*~

"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde A serious plead to those willing to listen http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9278047/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9278047/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 05:27:28 PDT

:AdventChildren-Net:

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Once before I sent out a cry for help and was pleasantly surprised how quickly people were to respond and act. Granted it was asking for a small amount when I couldn't afford it, this however is quite the opposite. I realize it's asking for a lot and I certainly am expecting no miracles as I continue to try and find a cosigner but I figure I can atleast try.

[link] : this link details my ordeal. I doubt you'd want to read it once here and then there.

If you're unable to help, please know that's quite alright.

I'm just happy to know that someone would take the time to read it.

I want to give my thanks in advance and here's hoping everything shall work out in the end.

Anna.

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"Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde A little project here and there. http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9253326/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9253326/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 17:33:39 PDT
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So I'm tinkering around with the Neverwinter Nights tool set. Yes I am checking out loans and stuffs but there is so much I can do in a day without a car. So after filling out the forms I've needed too and checking out the Digipen housing guide my brain needed a little rest.

Which instead I punish it with more work. Working with dialogue and scripting. wheeee

I don't envy programmers. My god I can't get over all the white and black. My eyes scream for color!

I made the first area of my little blossom of boredom. Land of Dreams. Working on the little dialogue from a story I have long abandoned in high school. No guys it is not from Foretelling of the Heart although one day when I get in the mood I'll rewrite that sucker.

Winde needs her scrumptious little tiefling after all. *heart*

Anywho the fact I got the pc talking to the desired npc was the goal and a goal I met. I wonder what I shall accomplish next.

winde, bored.

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"He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Wow. XD http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9240327/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9240327/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 09:18:23 PDT
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[link]

I may not drink beer but I can certainly appreciate austrailian commercials for them.

winde, smiling

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"He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Like my old store manager used to say... http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9234102/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9234102/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 16:24:21 PDT
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Could someone just be a dear and stab some scissors in my heart? Something?

"No? Just give it a little push. C'mon. No? Damn. Just do it."

I know. Melodramatic as usual. Even though I'm not the one that wrecked the red car, I have to pay for the rental car. I mean I know I am the one that used it the most but my god I had to. What was I gonna do to get to work? Bike peddle? What's $400 to anyone anyway?

Yes I know it's not the end of the world but it's relatively painful to part with money of large quantities when I need it most for tuition, rent, books, etc.

Life's unfair and shall continue to always be and is something I should never really be surprised about.

...

When did I start sounding so pessimistic?

Like I used to believe in perfect. I used to believe in true love. I used to believe in optimism. When did I become so... bleh.

So what could make me happy? Perhaps I should focus on that.

Hmm.... what would make the super lovely lady winde (oh no.not vain. not vain at all) smile?

For starters I'd like the discord in the family to disappear. If that could happen before I left that'd be great.

Secondly I'd like to see my friends, the few that I have anyways, before I leave here for four years.

Thirdly I want a party. Before I leave. Well okay perhaps not a party but it'd be nice to hang out witheveryone somewhere. Like a karaoke bar or something. I love singing. People should hear me sing. I hear I do okay. (*preen*)

As for fourth... I don't know and I forgot what I was going to say. Whee.

So I didn't know you could post fan-fiction on deviant art. That makes me happy. I hope you all enjoyed the little letter.

So I was asked why do I like to draw characters about to delve into the realm of intimacy. Two answers. 1. Because I'm a pervert. 2. Because they seem to convey an emotion I like seeing.

To be in the arms of someone... about to let your lips touch or perhaps you're lying still and suddenly you feel this warmth creep up and around you. It's so lovely... I declare this snuggle day. Go snuggle a pillow, your lover. Tell them you love them. That you always will.

I'm a huge romantic sap. And yes I read those kind of stories too. Teresa Medeiros for teh win!

Anyways I've been rambling and I have quite a bit to do. Like cry a little as I write out that check then write a check for rent, and maybe ponder other meaningless things like why the hell I don't have any pens around.

A girl needs her pens after all.

Winde, frustrated; lonely; anxious; and probably hungry too.

omg eats....

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"He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde I GOT IN! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9151132/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9151132/ Thu, 22 Jun 2006 17:47:18 PDT
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Holy cow on a jumping pogostick of pure happy goop!

They actually accepted me!

ME.

Words can not express how happy I am right now.

OH MY GOD!!!!

AGHHHHH!!!

winde, can't stop grinning!!!

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"He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde They Have Made a Decision! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9141696/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/9141696/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 20:30:23 PDT
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Well for those that know me on a personal level you know that my life lately has been one equalling a rather unlucky emotional rollercoaster.

June shall be known as the month that sucks and it wears it's little medal proudly let me tell you.

I'm going to miss him terribly. I wish I had taken the time to visit him more but I can't live in regret. He wouldn't want that at all. So I'm going to do my best to make sure the rest of my life isn't full of what ifs and what not.

So what's the first thing on the list you ask?

1. Going back to school. Digipen is my shining beacon of education. It's my current goal to attend there and achieve a degree. The Bachelor of Fine Arts in Production Animation one. The new one.

I had been checking my status as of late and a day or few ago the status showed that low and behold they had reached a decision on my application.

I hope I made it in. I really, really do.

If I somehow don't make it in (a possibility I hope with all my heart does not come to pass) then that leads to goal number 2:

2. Find a better job.

I love my current job I do. But at $9.90 an hour at the age of 25 just isn't going to cut it anymore. I can barely get by as it is. I'm positive I can find something out there that will let me work something like 9-5 and have weekends off. Retail just isn't for me anymore. It hasn't been for the last few years and I'm sure you are all tired of listening to me rant on about sucky customers and sometimes not so nice peers.

What else is on my agenda?

3. Spend time with loved ones.

It was rather eye opening to see all my cousins and such after a few years. I couldn't even remember some of there names let alone the new additions that were added. That's probably rather sad to some but for those not in the know I happen to have 58 first cousins. Knowing and remembering all of there names is a feat all in itself and one I'm rather failing at the moment.

4. Get to know future in-laws.

Nick and I will most likely be married in three years. And the tnesion I feel from time to time from being in the same room with them is rather... sad.

Sometimes I feel the conversations I may have are awkward but I suppose that can't be helped since I'm older than Nick by three years, I haven't finished my college, I hadn't had a job for a few months at some time, I'm shy, and so on and so on.

My mother tells me sometimes this can't be helped but I'd like for that awkwardness to go away so we all don't feel so uncomfortable.

5. Get out more.

I'm rather pale for someone of my heritage. I remember back in the day I had a nice healthy tan. My laziness and reclusiveness (and fear of all things that sting) has well kept me indoors. When I was younger I remember loving to be outside playing with my brother and sister and with our dogs. Now that I'm older I'm just content to stay inside to read, draw, or play games.

But it's summer... and things that go buzzbuzz are about. *shiver*

...

So I am writing this out. About to go to bed. Have to open the store tomorrow. I can't tell you how anxious I'm feeling. I seriously hope the letter the school sends is a positive one.

I really need some positive right about now.

Positive.

Now.

Winde, wants to be happy damn it!

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"He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde Unhappiness, Frustration http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8993881/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8993881/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 21:47:12 PDT
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I have to get my act together.

Each day that passes that I haven't turned in that application I know the chances of me getting into that college lessens...

Why can't I focus? Is it work? Stress? Love? Lack of attention? Lack of free time?

GAh...

Please... If there was anything I want to achieve... need to achieve... it is to get into that school.

*shakes fist into the air*

Bah.

Who am I kidding? My confidence is at an all time low.

I can do this. I can't possibly make myself into more of a recluse than I already am. What's my excuse for not getting these sketches done? :\

I am probably being to hard on myself... but the pressure I feel upon my shoulders is just so heavy right now.

I miss being happy.

I miss not having a care in the world.

I miss those care free days of my youth where the worst thing that could happen was that somehow the boy I had a crush on would reject my poor optimistic heart.

I want those days back. I want my innocence back.

I miss being happy.

Winde

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"He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom. ]]> ~ladywinde 2k views!? o_o http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8799115/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8799115/ Wed, 17 May 2006 14:44:56 PDT

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Wow! I can't believe I've finally hit that 2k mark. o_o

I wish I had a nice picture ready for you guys.

I've been so terribly busy, well not so busy, since I've been taking my vacation. Yup though it today is my last full day in Seattle I'll be heading back home to houston tomorrow.

Back to the same old boring work and sleep routine at home. Oh how i can not wait.

Actually this time I am going home with a mission.

Not just any mission, but a mission to try and get into Seattle's Digipen school. It's a nice little school that happens to be connected in the same building as Nintendo of America. How hot is that?

Anyways I have a really short amount of time to come up with 20 sketches ready to be sent in a portfolio; 10 sketches of observing animals and 10 sketches observing people. These drawings can not be taken from say photographs. SO what i plan to do is head over to the mall and sit in the food court drawing some people and then heading over to the zoo.

I really hope I do get in. It's a shame my parents won't help with the tuition.

I hear it's like 26k a year and i just happen to want to you know... take the four year art program. hehe...

That's cool though. O_O cause i shall try my best to get as many grants and school loans I need to pay for what I need.

Man... I really hope I get in.

Times like these I start feeling all pessimestic and stuff. Oh well. Well hear's hoping for the best!

Winde, tired and waiting on laundry

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde Watched It. The AC I mean http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8595986/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8595986/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 19:48:15 PDT

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So yeah I watched Advent Children a couple of days ago. The official english version that is.

All I have to say is. THANK GOD the yo is gone. Sabresoul I'm sure you can agree with me there.

Mena Suvari still acted as though she could have cared less if she was portraying a box. I feel bad for you Aeris fans.

I don't know. Perhaps you guys can look over it, me? Eh well it grates on my nerves a little bit. ^_^;;

I liked Cid's voice. People are screaming omg he's not a cowboy! I thought it was aperfect match honestly. And I nearly spilt my coke at Barret's voice. Oh it made me happy with much glee.

Zack was nice too. ^_^

Rufus... knowing now what Wally looks like actually kind of killed it for me. Yes. I am that base. Hehe ^_^;;;

Overall I thought the voice overs were really well. ^_^ And man did the offical translacion clear things up. Like why int he heck Reno got so upset at Kadaj.

Anyways long story short... Vincent is still pure sex.

La Fin.

Winde

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde Becareful when crossing fences http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8405278/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8405278/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 06:54:47 PDT

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I'm going to be very brief since I have to be at work in about 40 minutes.

Guys, when crossing fences... don't do it with arms full and don't do it if no one is near enough to catch you just in case you lose your balance.

I seriously can't stress that enough.

Why you ask?

You may or may not tear off appendages.

Seriously? Not worth the risk in my very humble opinion. Go around.

Now do not be worried, did this happen to someone I know? Yes. They are being treated and since he's recieved his meds he's relatively okay.

What was nearly torn off? His foot.

Becareful and safe guys.

Winde

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde Kingdom Hearts II - Completed http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8359082/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8359082/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 23:02:33 PDT

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Well I finally completed Kingdom Hearts II. Alot of it I felt was like rehashing much of the first one. I liked the first one though so I suppose that's not a bad thing. The new reaction commands were a nice treat (though the last boss is sure to have my hand cramping due to omg must punch triangle button super lightening fast!)

Some of the story I just didn't get, some I was like OH HEY!

I'll go ahead and say it now. Ms. Suvari did a terrible job voicing Aeris. I dropped my controller and jaw at the utter shock knowing that an actual actress was the owner of said talent. Wow. Mandy should have stayed on board but ah well.

I enjoyed it althoug I don't believe I'm going to take the time to go through and get everything. One play through was enough for me. Not to sure how I feel about the ending concerning Hollow Bastion and a certain gunswordsman. All I gotta say... is that, that better be from... someone else. XD

Winde, there will be no Kingdom Hearts fan art. Sorry ^_^;

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde Suikoden V - Completed! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8307601/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8307601/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 18:02:30 PST

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Every once in a while there comes a game that draws you in and makes you connect with the unfolding events its story has to offer. You laugh, you cry, your drop your jaw in disbelief... what the character goes through you feel the hurt and ache that he feels.

Suikoden V made me burst into tears about five times. For sadness and for happiness. Honestly? I don't think a game has ever taken it's talons and gripped my heart so.

This feeling won't be felt by all the gamers who may decide to play this certain game. The facial expressions, the voices, and some of the music (there are one or two that certainly help set the mood) help to pull you in the country of Falena.

I guess what really helped was the fact that a main part of the story dealt with family and loss.

I know some of you may say "Cheer up Emo kid," but hey I don't care and I'm not ashamed. Playing that game was like reading a book. As much as I love Suikoden I and II I am definitely going with V as my favorite. I know this won't be everyone's opinion and I'm cool with that.

The only bad thing I can say about this game was the fact that it had to end and that I wished some of the endings for the 108 stars of destiny were just a teensy bit more detailed but I can hardly complain when they do stay so true to tradition.

I know it's silly of me to say this since in the last entry I said I wasn't too fond of the music, but I am defintely craving a soundtrack, and yes I already have the Limited Edition one that came with the artbook.

This series has inspired the muse.

Expect to see some fan art in the near future most likely concerning Hero, Lyon, Roy, Arshtat, Ferid, Sialeeds, Luserina and more.

Anyways...

Kingdom Hearts II and Harvest Moon Magical Melody came out today. Currently playing KH II... It's starting off slow... but we shall see what the ol' opinion thinks about it later on.

Later guys.

Winde

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde Suikoden V http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8251001/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/8251001/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 22:42:49 PST

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You know there has to be something that must be said about a game that can make you feel the tears coming three hours into the story.

Wow. I am in love with the Prince. There's this gentleness to the way they created him. I think it's his white hair. Hmm. I'm not really sure. But I get so excited when we get close ups of him and his face shows his expressions.

I feel so terrible for him though regarding the story line. I won't ruin it for those that adore the Suikoden series. So far gameplay is close to the original games.

Duels are handled a little differently. The only thing that's really changed is the fact you have a limited amount of time to react to what they've said. If you don't react in time they get a free hit on you. It certainly adds a level of excitement to it.

Also the mass battles are in real time now. And they went back to the "rock paper scissors" thing from Suikoden 1. Well... in a sense. Basically you'll control a few groups. Infantry, Archers, and Calvary. You pretty much tell them were to roam and when they meet you're treated to a little film of the two sides fighting and so on. I like it honestly.

Concerning the sound track... I find it lacking.

I miss the music quality of Suikoden 1 and treasured themes from Suikoden 2 but oh well.

There is so far one character I can not stand. And that is Lord Barows. Oh my lord if only he could just shut his yap and quit yelling in my television. XD Seriously. You'll know what I mean should you ever meet him.

I add the Prince to my list of super cute video game guys list.

Winde, Vincent is still number 1 though...

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So I'm very bored at the moment.

It's the sort of unproductive bored where no matter what you try to accomplish you end up sighing discontently because the activity does little to take away the boredom.

So I thought "Hey! I haven't updated this journal so let's get to it."

Hmm.

Final Fantasy. I am so Final Fantasied out right now. Still love Vinny, Rufie, and Reno though. Maybe later the fangirlism flames of desire will once again ignite. But for now... my brain is so tired trying to wrap around the cash cow that it is. Love the cgs but oh my god the continuity sucks hard core.

Moving along... somehow or another I ended up reading Inuyasha fanfiction... XD I really don't know how it happened but unfortunately my boredom could not be alleviated.

Instead however I couldn't help but get a little irritated at how some of these fanfictions absolutely INSIST to use japanese words as if we all know what they mean. Granted I learned a little japanese in the process but I couldn't help but find these little additions more of an irritating distraction than but a simple word in a sentence. I apologize to those that may be offended by this opinion, but I just can't read it without getting a headache and leaving mid-paragraph.

Moving along... So I started to contemplate this Inuyasha anime. And I realized I absolutely do not like Kagome and Inuyasha. Watching these two dance around each other in heated arguments, shouting each others names god knows how many times, to have a slight reconcilation then to start up all again is very tiring.

I have found however I adore Miroku. Be the perverted monk that you are and be proud of it you wonderful thing you!

Thinking on the whole Inuyasha/Kagome thing I can't help but think gosh golly gee that I've seen this couple before. OH MY GOD! It's Ranma and Akane. No wonder I was annoyed. Now I know what you're wondering. Why annoyed? These two people obviously like each other. But they deny each other. Why? -_-

Watching Akane and Ranma get sweet each other (very very brief moments) but a smile to my blackened little heart. But once they started all over again into the dark depths of "hating" each other well god. XD

I liked Ryoga better anyways. He was such a sweety. And he turned into a piggy. To bad he loses himself in such emotion that he crushes things. Oh well. I love you Ryoga!

Hmm... What else to talk about randomly...

OH! The Silent Hill Movie.

I need to watch that movie. Sean Bean is going to be in it! XD I've been keeping up with it every now and then and it looks promising. The trailer looks awesome and the website is freaking fabtabulouso.

April 21st just can't come fast enough I tell you.

Someone made a Sean Bean banner on one of the forums I lurk. I just couldn't help but giggle. "One does not simply walk into Silent Hill." Lord of the Rings reference for teh win!

Okay I think I covered up all the things I felt like talking about this update. See you guys and take care.

Winde, uncertain of what to do next

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Loc... ]]> ~ladywinde back and sick http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7960353/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7960353/ Tue, 21 Feb 2006 08:36:45 PST

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Well I'm back.

Time with my beloved was heavenly blissful.

I cooked for him, lanned with him and his buddies and watched a few movies.

Since the weather in Seattle tends to be very different from Houston I seem to have gotten ill.

Yey.

The plane ride home could have been better had I been well.

The pressure in my ears just wouldn't let up no matter what I tried, and it seemed the longer the ride went the worse it got.

I tried everything. Chewing gum, yawning, burping (yeah i know but I was in pain), anything. The pressure got so bad I could feel it pressing against my back teeth. Meanwhile while I'm writhing in pain, the stewardesses just walk back and forth, oblivious to my extreme discomfort.

me: *hands clasped to head, face writhing in agony, gasping for some sort of relief*

sterwardess: *walks by several times singing lalala*

me: omg... you are all gonna~ omg it hurts to think!

so anyways when we landed, much to my horror the pain and the weird feeling that developed in both ears did NOT go away. Much to my relief however I discovered that I did not lose my hearing though I was very disturbed that doing so was like having to listen to things through some sort of foggy filter.

Very disturbing I tell you.

It's better today however. No filter, back to having a sore throat.

Yey.

Anyways I'm back. Hopefully more art will grace this page when I have the time and of course feeling better. Take care my loves.

Winde

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde off i go to a land far far away http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7911156/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7911156/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 21:29:15 PST

Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love.

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So I'm still packing for my annual trip to Seattle to see the apple of my eye, the cream of my coffee, the... guy that makes me go oh mah gah... you look perdy.

Anyways, Chapter two of Places of Origin is currently on hiatus. My mind can't help but be distracted from the things going on at work and at home. Not bad things per se, just sometimes it's nice to sorta just unwind without having to worry about doing anything.

So let's see if I'm not going to do any writing what about drawings? Well there are currently three projects in the works for the fangirls. Three words: Rufus, Reno, and Vincent. Muscle. Skin. Want. Need.

Mrr.

Seriously, it's sad when you need a drool bucket just to continue on with what you're working with. Hehe...

Anywho the announcement of the Advent Children english voice cast has caught my fancy that's for sure. Even more awesome is the fact Mr. Blum is voicing the super sex that is Vincent Valentine.

Spike Spiegel is going to be VINCENT! Some people have their doubts, but I have faith that he's going to be awesome. Mrr, baby. Mrr.

Okay must get hormones in check... XD Anyways, so yeah I'm going to be gone for about five days, so if anyone's wondering where i'll be... well I'll be in Seattle, dreaming of Vincent, Rufus, and Reno plushies.

Tata guys!

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde My Little Black Heart http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7882608/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7882608/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 11:25:38 PST

Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love.

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So yeah... I realized my heart got a little blacker today. o_o

So why do I say this, you ask? Well I was reading over some World of Warcraft forum posts (yes, my soul belongs to that game <3 ) and I happened to click a link that read "Would you do this to your little brother?"

So I clicked.

Summary:

A child is sitting at a computer, looking pretty engrossed in some sort of mouse game. He's being videotaped. It's very quiet. The child can't seem to understand why isn't the game working but seems to be progressing anyways.

A minute or two goes by then it happens. I'm sure a few of you have experienced the startling trauma before. Some twisted demonic face suddenly takes over the screen, her deafening scream scaring the child to join in unison with her unholy song of dark death. Little limbs flail about as the child scrambles to get as far away from the computer as possible, trying to find some solace in the comfort of the step father who is taping the whole ordeal.

Meanwhile... I'm trying not to choke on my soda from laughing so hard.

...

...

I am so going to hell.

Winde, pondering todays actions

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde @_@ snooze button! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7729271/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7729271/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 06:58:51 PST

Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love.

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So Here I am writing a post before work.

I really do despise the weekends because by the time they roll around I just want to curl up into a ball and stay in bed like i used to before I was promoted.

Weekends are long gone I'm afraid.

The days I get off? Tuesday and freaking Wednesday.

What the heck can you do on those days?

Besides drawing that is.

I thought so. hehe

Anyways I'm up to about 6 pages on the ReTi submission for a group fic. So far the leader seems to be pleased and I can smile all hunky dory like~ whee.

Still going to finish that chapter two for Places of Origin. Fear not! It WILL be done!

I hope to update with some Rufus pics. Maybe even a Tseng. I'm not really sure. I just know I'm in the mood to draw a hot guy. In a hot seductive position. Because damn it I CAN! Mua haha! XD

Anyways I'll be seeing you guys! Check out the new Crimson Hearts banner. Oh Vincent. You are a hawt sexy man of delicious godhood. (hint second vincent banner ^o^)

Anywho going to get ready to leave. Take care guys, have fun, and may Rufus, Vincent, and Reno be with you! heehee~

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Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde Fics! Art! GAH! http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7673848/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7673848/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 08:22:27 PST

Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love.

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Well if work chooses to be kind we may actually see what appeared to be fruitless brainstorming finally start to take shape for chapter two of Places of Origin!

Oh em gee! Rejoice! *throws confetti all around*

I've been working on another VinTi piece though I'm not sure if I'm going to color it like I have the others or... go the "Moon Princess" route. The later obviously will take more time... but ah well. The muse shall fight over it in my head.

Probably battling my laziness with a nerf bat.

So anyways tomorrow I get to go to jury duty. *sarcastic yey* Not happy but oh well.

I just hope and pray I don't fall asleep like I did last time. ^_^;; Ah man good dreams, sucky crick in the neck.

Anyways work beckons and I being the sheep must follow onward!

Winde, baaah

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"On that night, not so many days past, he had bitterly chided himself for his base desires, for his romantic yearnings, for his impossible dreaming of being with a woman he could never have, knowing full well that he was not the man to be graced with her favor. He could never be the man she deserved. Now, as then, he went to task to admonish himself of the same. He had no choice but to accept the truth. He was not the man she wanted or would ever want. He wasnt, was he? No, he was not. He was not the man for which she longed to hold her. Not the one she longed to kiss her. No, that man would be Cloud Strife. He was the man Tifa Lockheart wanted. Wasnt he? The one she loved. Didnt she? Yes, she did. Cloud could be the man who could hold her. The man who could love her. Butcouldnt he be? He shook his head in a single sharp jerk of his head, not only in rejection of his question but also in rebuke to the marked lack of conviction to his argument. He tried again, frowning deeply in his determination to persuade himself.

No, he damn well was not that man. He could never be that man.

Butwhy not? " - An exerpt from Penfeather's awesome FF VII Fic, Feathers In The Maelstrom.

Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified. ]]> ~ladywinde A cow goes wha? http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7656993/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7656993/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 11:39:21 PST

Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified.

~*~*

I just wanted to say that I detest work!

woooo! Go me! I win at life!

After this month I'm going to be working more hours in a different store that's going to drain more from my bitter little spark called a soul.

I wish I had Vincent's attitude and power to just send a death glare at somebody so they could back away before appraching me.

oh man Vincent... the sales clerk.

hehehehe

Ah that makes me giggle.

Anyways, still trying to decide what in the heck to do with my chapter two for Places of Origin. Hope to have my brainstorming done and get it up and loaded in time for Valentine's day.

Oh well.

By the way... Feathers in the Maelstrom rocks my socks!

Winde, blubbering about in randomness

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Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love. ]]> ~ladywinde The brain has hit a wall http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7572804/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7572804/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 10:43:30 PST

Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified.

So I've been trying to brainstorm for chapter two of Places of Origin (that can be read here *hinthint* [link] *hinthint*

I'm trying really hard to not formally introduce Miss Lockhart into the story. I figured perhaps he could travel around Kalm a bit more and do more reflecting like he did in Chapter 1. But then I think what if the readers get bored?

I figure if I am going to go the reflective bit it would just show how their relationship progressed. As in relationshp I mean just them getting to know each other. They aren't romantic yet, though it shuld be obvious Vincent's thoughts are starting to edge a bit more toward that direction. Him and his over obsession tendencies. XD

Anyways any thoughts or ideas would be appreciated.

I'm curious to hear what some of you would like to see and suggest.

Winde, brain still trying to get jump started.

Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love. ]]> ~ladywinde Whee! Loved and happy things http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7458392/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7458392/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 18:57:51 PST

Vincent Valentine and Tifa Lockhart... Stunned as they blink into each others eyes... cutely chibified.

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So let's see... update~ time to update~ Well things considered I got alot accomplished family wise this holiday season.

Family troubles aside I've accomplished something I haven't had in a while.

REST!

Oh my god REST! I have missed you so!

Two days off in a freaking row! Can you say WOOOT? I can! XD

So this journal entry should radiate bounciness and happiness!

In other news! Some of you know I have been craving a tablet... well

I GOT ONE FOR CHRISTMAS!!

So I've been practicing with it and dear lord it is so different from "mousing it." I almost want to say it's harder but I know with time it'll prove to be so much easier. Atleast that's what I hear anyways!

Well okay I think I'm going to go ahead and jet. Take care my friends! Enjoy VinTi! ReTi! RufTi! AerSeph and for mila! SephTi! XD

See you guys around!

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Reno looks forward unsure of the distant future... meanwhile Tifa's floating head gazes longingly at the Turk o' Love. ]]> ~ladywinde Into the welcoming dark embrace of... http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7336863/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/7336863/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 13:04:06 PST
Obsess much? Yes. ^_^

Anyways it's been about two months since I updated and I figured while I had the chance that I would indeed do that. Update I mean.

Well for those that know I've been fiddling around with fanficion. Vincent X Tifa fanfiction to be exact. Head on over to Fanfiction.net and do a search for fics containing Tifa and Vincent... uh oh yeah the one I've been working on is called Places of Origin.

Hope you all like it so far.

Hmm what else... Oh yeah work. o_o Whatever you do boys and girls never enter the horrible world of retail. Once you're in you never can get out! Never! Retail is a swirling void of a blackhole that leeches away any free time you once were happy with. It leaves you feeling drained, tired, and hating the entire human race.

It's THAT evil! o_o

I havent had a chance to really doodle anything. Okay I lied a little bit. I have doodled a few things but nothing worthy of being submitted to deviant. ._. I promise I'll submit something soon!

I've had something more in thinking of doing a Rufus Shinra piece... even going as far as ... that's right you guessed it! A Rufus X Tifa picture! That gal sure gets around. Atleast in my head anyways. o_o Not that I think badly of Tifa! Oh no I adore her character. The most likely reason why I keep pairing her with any hot man in the final fantasy 7 land.

Ahem... Anyways So well I want you guys to have a happy holidays, get drunk off of eggnog, and get the presents like you all deserve.

Winde, hoping for a nicely wrapped Vincent underneath the decorated tree ]]> ~ladywinde Absence http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6817821/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6817821/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 10:49:06 PDT
I think the only thing that has me worried is the cab fair. o_o so expensive.

Tomorrow is our 5 year anniversary.

Super excited about that. Xd And we are celebrating it by going to see the Doom movie.

Ah bliss. Ah Karl Urban... Mrrr....

I know the last few works have been Final Fantasy VII related. There's something about the VincentXTifa pairing I adore. They look well so sexy together.Very pleasing to the eye.

Now someone suggested that if I like VinTi so much I should check out the Yuffentine stuff.

I did.

And...

I hate to say it but unfortunately it is not my cup o tea.

So if you are looking for some YuffieXVincent Art don't expect any soon. It may happen but chances are not likely. Sorry.

Anyways, hopefully the muse will have cooked up some stuff while away so when I get back the drawings are ready to scan.

So anyways you guys take care and have fun. Cause having fun is good.

Winde, packing. ]]> ~ladywinde wheee http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6734408/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6734408/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 20:57:32 PDT
So the last two pictures have been inspired by Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children.

I really liked the movie for what it was. Fan service~ Wheee~

Still going to buy my copy. Even bought a Vincent doll.

Oh Vincent~ How I love thee~

Anyways there isn't much going on in the life of LadyWinde.

I have turned 25. So i guess that's a big thing. I'm now a !/4 century old. A little frightening.

Soon I shall be travelling to Seattle to see my beloved. I can't wait.

I pretty much gave up on the full cg pic I was working on. I sort of feel bad for giving up but I just don't have the time to color/paint in that detail. And my patience was never something to test anyways. hehe ^_^;;;

Anyways you guys take care of yourselves. Have a happy October and a happy upcoming Halloween!

winde,

]]> ~ladywinde The Swelling Melancholy http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6244066/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6244066/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 14:14:04 PDT
I love him dearly.

It's such a drag to know he's going to be leaving in a few days. With out me.

This is probably something better left for live journal but hey whatever. This is a journal too ain't it?

One day I'll be up there in the north. I'll be out of retail, perhaps I'll alteast have a certificate, and maybe just maybe I'll get some recognition with my talent (though shifting through quite a few deviations I have so much more to learn and to experiment with, rather humbling when you look through the greats such as heise).

I suppose it doen't help I've been called in at work on my last day off for the week. The week -he- leaves. I really need to do something about that whole feeling honor bound to work thing. hehe.

To bad I don't have time to work this mood into something constructive like a drawing or something.

Atleast when Friday (a.k.a. the day of impending depression and wasted kleenexes) passes I can use that energy to finish the experiment with painting.

That's right. My First attempt at a full cg portrait. So far i guess you could say it's about 50% complete. I am still retouching the face.

And please don't get me started on hair.

Winde, painting hair may cause suicidal tendencies

]]> ~ladywinde An update. http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6163890/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/6163890/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 23:28:32 PDT
I know a bunch of it is old art but I thought it would be better than nothing. I've been so busy lately with work and with nick visiting I hardly have any time for anything else.

I will say I have started to work on a full cg portrait. and I have one thing to say about that: I absolutely hate painting hair.

I don't understand how some people can get hair looking so lifelike. I truly look up to those who are so talented and gifted.

Anyways I thought I would give a heads up of sorts. Be gentle!

XD

Have fun and take care guys!

Winde. ]]> ~ladywinde So here I am http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/4684990/ http://ladywinde.deviantart.com/journal/4684990/ Sun, 27 Feb 2005 14:10:58 PST I go by ladywinde and it's a pleasure to meet you.

Drawing is a hobby of mine i considered doing seriously when i was younger but... well some things just don't go as planned.

I'm okay with that though cause well drawing just helps me escape and make some fantasy be as well real as they can be on paper. XD

Anyways... I'll submit some art soon.

ladywinde ]]> ~ladywinde