http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:lasercat&section=today deviantART RSS for by:lasercat en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 03:46:23 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/17710101/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/17710101/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 05:40:11 PDT POKE. They got their office in Shoreditch, it is the cool part of London. I have only been here one week and so far i have gotten to work a bit with Orange, doing some illustrations and mockups and so on. And i have gotten mac-A-fied, its going to take a while to get used to but i guess i will get the grip of it eventually. Anyways, every day we get free lunch served and we get loads of loads of tea and fruit as well. Its really nice i tell you...

London is not at all like Sweden, so i do miss my home but i guess that's only normal. It's only been one week and i have been living on a hostel for 6 days so I'm blaming it on that. I just moved into my new room a bit outside of town but still its really nice. Feels sweet not to live in a bag anymore. got my one room, my one bathroom and Internet. life is getting better and better

I have also been mentioned in Computer Arts lately! I know its just a small notice but i still got my name in there! I'm so happy i just cant believe it!

lots of luuuuve
/stina
spacedown


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/16701514/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/16701514/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 05:54:27 PST

lots of luuuuve
/stina


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/14834834/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/14834834/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 00:17:42 PDT

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal / blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged


Random facts:

1. I'm a vegetarian sins 8-7 years ago.. something like that

2. I'm also lactose intolerant so I'm kinda picky when it comes to food

3. I'm really tired on having to be so picky when it comes to food, so I'm thinking about starting to eat some damn animals like ehh... umm... fishes.... but well... i probably wont sins i don't like the fact of eating something that's been living a life x.X

4. I don't know the name of the girl I'm living with at the moment

5. I'm really bad on learning names on people

6. I think about food most of the time

7. I'm kinda hungry at the moment

8. I feel like i probably will brake the rules with this tagg rules thingee. I'm not gonna pass it on to someone else. if you feel like doing this in your journal, fine... joust remember that i didn't tell you to do it and that you really don't have to.

lots of luuuuve
/stina


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/14526674/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/14526674/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 06:24:07 PDT
So i haven't been sleeping much this week. been allot of working and allot of talking and allot of crying. i feel really tired atm.

On Wednesday we had a pitch for MTV. We where supposed to talk about they future of entertainment and what MTV needs to think about in the future in order to stay fresh. I think it all went really well. was kinda scary at first to meet em and talk to em but in the end we are all just humans. we are all the same.

We also got a assignment to write a manifesto. Just to clear things out about ourselves. Where we wanna be, how we wanna act and so on. Ill probably change it in the future but for now this manifesto feels good.

______________________
My Manifesto 2007-09-07

PLAY.
Don’t be afraid of trying new things. Playing is a part of life, and as long as you are trying new things and having fun with it you wont be limiting yourself.

EMBRACE.
Instead of running away from things try to face them and accept them for what they are. Be there not somewhere else. (I also think people should be hugging more but I will leave that as a parenthesis)

SMILE.
Stay positive to things, this will bring you more opportunities, and you will feel better about things as well. this does not mean that you should deny your feelings. Its totally okay to feel sad.

LIVE.
Don’t deny yourself, don’t limit yourself, try to stay focused. Now is all that really matters.

BREATHE.
Do not stress yourself out about things. even though things sometimes seems hectic things always works out. so take your time to fill your lungs with air.

lots of luuuuve
/stina


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/14120415/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/14120415/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 14:08:09 PDT
Hope ya all have been having a nice summer. I been working like crazy as usual

I have just moved down to Stockholm. Haven´t really found a place to stay at yet so I'm just chasing where ever i can find a place.. Haha.. Imma homeless hobo at the moment. Hopefully things will work out really soon.

My new school started 2 days ago. I'm so exited about it, everyone is really cool and nice i think i really gonna like my new class even though i constantly do miss my friends and family at home. Kinda far from them at the moment. Oh well.. I guess there is newer a place as good as home. Ill guess Ill have to live with that.

And omg am i confused about this place?!?! Its so freaking big! Not even close to the place i come from. I spent my first day just running around confused trying to figure out what subway i should ride. It was all kinda messy in my head there for a bit but its all sorted out now. Kinda. I still have to look at maps and think about where the hell I'm going and where i am... Feel so lost most of the time.

Before i moved down here i managed to updated my portfolio. Its a bit pinker and not as dark as it use to be. Go check it out

I have gotten hold of a really good book as well. Just so that i will be able to get some inspiration and lose some time. And ofc its about vinyl toys, its cover is made out of cardboard... And its pink... It doesn't get much better then that to be honest.

lots of luuuuve
/stina


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/13315563/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/13315563/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 11:19:09 PDT
and sins i graduated from my Creative Design professional education thingee i figured i better try and get my ass into a new school by fall.. or maybe even find some kinda crazy work. so i applied to this [link] ...a really good school in Stockholm anyways... i have meet a few peeps from that school and their educations seems really giving and inspiring. its kinda hard to get into that school as well so i guess so I'm happy i made it to the next lvl. i been invited to the team days thingee that they are hosting before they have decided who gets to go and who doesn't. omg.. I'm so nervous... haven't decided if I'm gonna go or not. I'm just gonna go and see what happens.

my moms been really worried about this talking about moving down to Stockholm. i haven't even gotten into the damn school and shes trying to make me stay. its kinda weird but i guess i cant live next door to my parents all my life. gonna have to move sooner or later. but i really love this place, this apartment is my heart 'n soul <3

got lots of things to do anyways, paintings, photo edeting, logos and lots of things and stuff ghaa... dunno how I'm gonna have the time for it all but ill try. got all thees ideas in my head but all i seem to get done is boring paperwork.. ghaddamnit

oh! and i was so happy when i stumbeled upon the illustrations that brandon reese is creating. I totaly love his work! you should go and check it out

making appelpie atm so if you want some feel free to drop by
im gonna go and eat some... see ya all laters

lots of luuuuve
/stina


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/12093900/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/12093900/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 14:02:39 PST SPACEDOWN

its a bit darker then it used to be but mainly its the same idea as the old one. keeping things simple. i still have some stuff i need to figure out whit the actionscript on it but its mainly working so i put it all up for peeps to wive.

a sweet friend of mine have asked me to start in some kinda Japanese talking class. would be so much fun! i think I'm gonna do it even if I'm some what limited when it comes to writing and spelling considering my damn dyslexia.. talking should be different. I'm much better whit sounds then whit words haha.. well.. we will see what will happen.

speaking of japan.. seems like everything is about that place thees days. gonna have a Japanese weekend whit some other friends. we are gonna make sushi (whiteout animals in ofc) and eat whit sticks. omg... its not gonna be pretty. but I'm gonna try. for the sake of art!

lots of love to all of you out there <3


]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/11918789/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/11918789/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 08:46:40 PST
hello Lasercat
been a while sins i updated my diary so i guess its about time i did it now

so whats up?
things are just really crazy at the moment. i got so much things to do and more work just keep flowing in. and i do so love it. playing creative makes my head a bit dizzy. and all i can think about is colors and shapes. new ideas keep hitting me like rocks when i try to sleep. its a wonderful to feel inspired.

so whats new then?
well i been working on my new portfolio but nothing seems to be going as planed. i keep changing my mind about things to much. i need to get it together and just decide what way i should go. i have also done some illustration works and website designs. but i dunno if i will get to do them in the end. at the moment they are deciding if they want me or not i guess. also have some ideas for a stop motion short movie.. and i got this paintings in my head i need to get out. ghaaa! i need more time!

what about your friends and family?
maybe I'm a bit selfish. living in my head all the time, i may be a bit hard to get to. especially when i never seem to get the hang of answering my phone. I'm a bit weird

what are you doing today then?
i have installed a trail version of Corel Painter IX and i must say that its really crazy.. been playing around whit it all day. the way the colors are mixing together are so sweet. if anyone happen to know anything about tutorials to this program i would like to know. would be sweet to get better on making things in it

so what is it that's going on in your head?
well as i said. at the moment its filled whit inspiration. i just keep dreaming about images and peeps i like and stuff i wanna do. and my emotions keeps going from really happy to really sad.. in the end i get a bit stressed up about it all. you know when you start to think to much. its not good. and i get kinda sad about it. like i was watching this show on TV. about children in Africa (don't remember where in Africa i know its a big place but it was somewhere in Africa) ...anyways. i got really sad about the fact that there are lots of children out there having a pain every day and I'm not doing anything about it. I'm just concerned about colors and about what I'm gonna do in the future. its really shitty.. i should go and do something. get my nails dirty or whatever ghaa. i hate this world! why cant things be fair?

how are you really feeling?
i guess that i do feel great about my life right now... and that's why i feel like a shit. sometimes i just wish i was a robot whit out feelings. but.. i guess that would be kinda boring.

what you gonna do now?
well i guess I'm on my way home. gonna make me some tea and try to call some off my friends. been talking about going to Berlin and i would hate to miss that. anyways. i don't have the money for it at the moment but if i do get thees jobs i talked about earlier I'm gonna go.. or maybe i should take it from my savings.. and live on noodles for the rest of my life.. sounds worth it.. i should go. i really need to see something new

well nice to talk to you Lasercat and good luck in the future
oh i hope all of you are doing great and I'm really sorry that I'm not as active here as i should be. damn time keeps running away from me! dunno where it goes...

lots of luuuve and kisses to all of ya

]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/11287062/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/11287062/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 11:03:24 PST
i hope all of you have had the greatest holiday ever! and i hope everyone will have a super sweet new year as well ^^

anyways have the sweetest calendar ever. everyday is a new illustration and new inspiration oh.. I'm so happy i have it standing on top of my cpu i almost don't wanna use it

i only have like 1 term left on my education now and its basically only the internship period i got left to do. I'm kinda nervous about not having school to go to anymore. have to figure things out. have to get a new job or something ghaa. i don't wanna think about it right now. anyways me and my sweet friend peter is gonna be at North Kingdom and play creative until may.[link]

oh and i have gotten a myspace place to hang at as well. I'm kinda slow haven't really figured that place out totally but well i guess i will manage in time. if you wanna add me go ahead o got like no friends there and i could use some nice company [link]

i have emptied the art workshop place i used to hang out whit my friends. i just need to move the crap down to the basement where i got a room to play creative at. i hope im gonna be able to paint more now that i got my artsy stuff closer to the apartment... i havent made any new year promises when i know i can never keep em.. the only thing i know i really have to do is that i need to stop playing so damn much video games all the time.

oh! i also found a nice blogg made by a guy named Riven Phoenix.. his blogg is filled whit usefull tips on how to draw humans directly from your mind. its really interesting and kinda cool as well.. i mean... like.. oh.. well.. you better take a look by yourself [link]
he also got a DA page to check out [link]

]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/10730453/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/10730453/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 05:01:27 PST [link]

i also went to lots of museums and other stuff.... and i got a book filed whit inspiration... [link] i am plastic by kidrobot <3

just arived home. been sleeping in a train all night and i feel sorta tired and hungry but inspired. think i might have to go to school today after all. have 2 things i have to hand in tomorrow and i have some new ideas for them that i wanna try out. so far it only looks good in my head. even though its a messed up place


the only thing i know for sure is that people are strange.. that's the only true thing in the world


xoxo /lasercat

]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/9811362/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/9811362/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 02:08:53 PDT
what have happened to this place?!? everything is like.. different!... have i been away for that long?

anyways things are pretty much back to normal. started school yesterday at the internship place. have gotten some fun assignments to do in flash. i hope they will turn out well. and i still have a CD design to complete. just some minor changes on it though so it wont be that hard to get it done and out of the way. gonna start working on my portfolio as well and start working on getting a new good place to do my next internship at after new year. wohaa.. lots of work ahead :S and i was thinking about trying to get an exhibition whit all my painting s :S darnit. wounder if there will be time for everything in my head haha xD

I'm really sorry i haven't answered anny of your comments and i haven't given anny comments to anyone during the summer. its not that i don't like when i get comments cause i do, i wanna answer them all and give you lots of lots of hugs and stuff for just taking the time to stopping by my place. i hope you all can find it in your hearts to forgive me. forgive the fact that i am a lazy bum during summer and that i haven't had the time to be here and play creative whit all of you

anyways i missed you guys and i miss not having anything to submit. i gotta get my ass working and hopefully ill have something to post... at least that's what I'm hoping on.

xoxo /lasercat ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/9290281/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/9290281/ Thu, 06 Jul 2006 09:20:17 PDT
hope you all are doing well in the summer heat. I'm really sorry about not been around da as much as i should. i do miss this place allot and i do miss playing creative to, but at the same time its been sooo nice just to do nothing at all. haha. that's what summer is for right?

well umm what have i done so far? i have painted a bit. but not on canvas and not any crazy motive or anything. i have helped my parents a bit whit the repainting of their house.. haven't been able to use my colors, my cans or my canvases. the room where me and my friends used to hang out and paint in have been moved somewhere, i dunno where.. i should try to figure it out though. or like.. maybe i should call someone and ask them... but i don't have their phone number. i sort of lost it. why do i always mess things up?

speaking of messing up. the CD artwork thing i was working on for elodie didn't work out at all. its all my fault though. i like hiding in myself sometimes. don't like to be around to much ppl all the time. so when i spent my time whit myself thinking about things and feeling bad about unnecessary stuffs i missed the deadline. oh well.. at least i got a nice painting done and 3 different interested buyers. so i guess that its not a big lost in the end.. well.. I'm still angry on myself for being like i am.

oh and my lil brother convinced me to start playing rose online once more lol. i love games. the only problem is that everyone i play with is like 13 years and well.. i dunno if its a problem its just that.. well.. i feel so geeky

and i have been out on a road trip through Sweden. in the end i gathered allot of memories consisting of mosquitoes, IKEA and waterfalls

tomorrow ill start working. feels like time have just disappeared. where did all the time go? I'm to lazy. i managed to find a place to do my internship at this fall. I'm gonna be on thomson.. you are able to check their site out over here --> [link] i really would like to go to japan or somewhere fun to do the next internship though. but my economics are really sucky atm... so. ill guess ill stay here smelling the flowers.

omg. i should figure out where my colors and canvases are. i really should get things together ._. ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8552648/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8552648/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 16:05:02 PDT
oh and i got 2 cd designs thinny i need to start on now. i got lots of ideas. its going to be so much fun

hihi. im so happy right now

go and check it out [link]

oh and i hope everything is good whit you... and im really sorry about not beeng around here on da as much as i should ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8434167/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8434167/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 02:26:08 PDT
i really needed to take a brake from school and from my work a while. feels like I'm doing things all of the time but I'm never getting anywhere. walking in circles. getting more and more things to do but i never have the time to get it done. ghaaa! i still haven't turned in some works for school that should have been handed in two weeks ago.. ghaaa.. and the radio thingy want me to make 2 more images. dunno when i will get time. and my boss wants me to take me to take on more responsibilities at the youth center and i really dunno if i will manage to do that. I'm going to end up like i was 4 years ago. all burned out

and i have been busy working on my portfolio. doesn't feel like I'm getting anywhere whit it ether. its all black and it sort of feels like 1997. dunno if its a good thing. i really want it to be good though so i will be able to get a nice internship this fall. i have told myself that i have to have it done before 10/5. cant decide if i like it to be black or if i should add some color. i like color allot but i don't want it to be to much ether. ghaaa. i will probably never get happy about the way it looks

anyway I'm really broke now. i don't have any money left. have to like 100 skr until Friday. gha. and i don't have any food at home. i have to take some money from my savings. don't like to take that money but i have no choice. shitty. shitty. the life of a student is busy and poor. haha.. maybe i will get some food if i stop by my parents later today.

and i have to find a place to work this summer. i will probably get to work at the place that i worked last summer, but i dunno if i wanna do that.. the old ppl are nice. its just all of the crap from my co workers i don't wanna take. like i wouldn't know how to change a diaper or how to make dinner.. haha.. or how to make the bed. damn. like i wouldn't know anything after working there for 3 years!!!

doesn't feel like I'm evolving at all. i want to get to the next level in my creativity. going to stop sleeping. and I'm going to stop complaining. i just want all of you to know that I'm working really hard and i don't have as much time to be on deviantart as i would like 6_6 I'm really sorry about that

now I'm trying to learn joomla. my head is hurting from thinking to much. or maybe I'm just stressed up about all the things i have to get done. i dunno

note to self:
spending 22 hours on a train is not that fun wen it all comes down to it ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8071137/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8071137/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 04:44:06 PST
soon its 1 year ago sins p-o died. he was more of an grandfather to me than my biological have ever been. and he had those eyes. just sparkling whit life. anyways. i think about him allot thees days and i miss him.

been feeling bad about the fact that I'm no good on keeping contact whit my grandma and grandpa. i don't got time for it even if i do love them. but i should take the time for it before its to late. time passes to fast i guess. and regret is something humans have to live whit. its so hard to live in the presence. hard to let go of the past too

so well. thats some of the stuff my head is filled whit. i whish i could find a off button some day. that would shout down all the feelings and all brain activitys... when i get bigger im going to be a robot. guess thats the only way to go is i ever wanna feel good

stinabot ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8013523/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/8013523/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 22:27:15 PST even if im going snowboarding...


well.. hmm.. guess i need to pack my lunch bag now ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7777617/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7777617/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 04:42:22 PST everything i had saved on my cpu. music, art, photos and memories are totally gone. i know i should have made an backup but its to late to think about that now. anyways. it feels sort of empty. i was going to use most of the stuff for my portfolio but well i guess its quite hart to do that now

the wall paintings i made at Pinkerton ( [link] and [link] ) is destroyed. they had a watter damage and they had to pull down the walls. i would have been less sad about it if i still would have had the high resolution pics that i had on my cpu before it all went away...

and well.. I'm still waiting for the third thing to happen. i wouldn't be surprised if the workroom where i spend my time painting caught on fire

think their is something wrong whit my karma or something. stuff like this is not supposed to happen. or well i guess they do happen and i guess it could have been worse.. but I'm still weary sad about the fact that life seems to wanna hurt me so badly right now. i have to start over. maybe i should throw everything i got left away and begin something new ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7691832/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7691832/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 05:05:51 PST haha. feels fun when ppl wanna have my art on their walls but well hmm.. its a bit hard to understand sometimes.. have a nother friend who im gonna sell another painting to... hmm.. well.. ja.. i really like giving away things better but.. i really need the monney. so i feel a bit shitty for making them pay me for the paintings 6_6 anyways.. this is the painting she got [link] ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7541874/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7541874/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 05:39:06 PST

so.. what have the lasercat aka "stina" been up to latly? obvioslu she have been cind of buissy thees past few days. she hase spent her days outside in the frech air riding snowboard.. thats why her butt is all blue and sore.. but she hade a fun time anyways. she feels sooooooo good when she gets to go really fast down the slopes... and she hase been planing on how she will decorate her new chitcen and the halway.. hmmm.. the colors red, pink and yellow is curantly running around in her head. making stina all dizzy 6_9

oh! and she dreamt abou a camera that was able to takes pictures whit 360°... ghaa.. it was really cool in the dream but when thinking about it now she really dunno how it would have been possible

and she havent made any new years promesis.. she was thinking about becomming a vegan but she like the chees to much + she thinks that her friends and fammily would only think that she was a pain in the butt... and she was thinking about giving up alcohol 6_6 but that havent really been a sucsessful progress... anyway. ppl are talinng about beeng more creative this year and doing better and greater things... but not stina the only thing she knows is that she is not going to work full time this summer, 75% tops.. she is running out on energy to take all the crapp from all her co-workers. this year is not going to be like last year. just a bit simular but not exaktly the same... ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7379056/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7379056/ Thu, 22 Dec 2005 03:49:30 PST
anyway i guess im going to be sort of away fromb the cpu-world for a while. going to work on a painting and do other usefull stuff too.. like.. umm.. like... usefull stuff like eating... eating food i guess.. umm... well.. and working whit the old ppl agen.. hmm.. hope they havent forgotten about me... hmm.. well.. hmm... think thats about it... maybe i sort of guess.. going to go snowboarding next week so that will be fun.. i hope.. or i know it will be fun... hmm.. well.. ja.. we will se

anyways... hope you guys will have a nice hollyday and all ... and ill hope i get my internett working well sone agen. ghaaa.. im going mad over here!!!! ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7281186/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7281186/ Sun, 11 Dec 2005 09:19:16 PST

10 things you like:

1-when my iPod nano filled whit good music
2-my kids at the youth center... but sometimes they are a really annoying >_<
3-winter
4-my canavas, paint colors and my cans
5-to drive really fast in my mazda haha.. zomzomzom
6-night time.. i like to look at stars
7-play guitar and sing
8-spicy hoooot fooood... mmm.. i like foood
9-flowers.. but im no good on ceeping them alive u_u
10-play saxophone (havent done that in a while.. dunno if i remember how to 0_o )

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3 things that make you happy:

1- art and creative pepole
2- my cats
3- my family and friends... love to you all <3

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3 things that anger you:

1-when i get thickled.. ghaa.. it is a bit fun and really frustrating at the same time
2-when the car dosent pass the survery
3-pepole who dosent ceep their word.. or well.. guess i just hate to be disapointed

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10 things that you hate:

1-war
2-when i over sleap (always feel so guilty when i do that)
3-when i forget to buy someting important when beeng at the store.. like toiletpapir... ghaaa!
4-sueside.... its really pointless.. and sad 6_6
5-the dentist
6-clowns... they are SO scarry 0_o
7-spiders and bugs.. mostly just insects.. huh.. i cant take them.. they are to much insectish to me
8-to feel stupid..i know i am i just dont need pepol telling me that all of the time 6_9
9-beeng sick
10-hate.. i hate to hate

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3 facts about your name:

1-i was suposed to be named Lisa but my grandma dident like that name so my parents changed their minds and named me Stina instead
2-my full name is Moa Stina Sofie
3-i have never really haved a real nicname.. so.. well.. i guess im not nice egnuff

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5 facts about yourself:

1-I'm a taurus... mu
2-I'm a vegitarian.. that means i dont eat animals... so well..
3-I have a imagionary friend... hes a bit scarry but sometimes hes cool
4-I can be a bit confused.. like always
5-I'm paranoid... more or less.. not as much now ass i used to be though.. but still.. a bit..

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4 random thoughts:

1-tomorow will be a loooong day
2-wonder if i will be able to do the lucia vigil
3-hope the project is going to work out fine...
4-am i hungry... ?.. no?.. i guess not

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Song you're listening to (give singer):

1- me whitout you --silencer
2- a perfect circle -- the noose

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10 People you'll tag this to:

http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7261037/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 01:01:52 PST
we went to school toghetter. ill have to say that shes more productive than me and she hase really inspired me to play creative. anyway i think she got skills so well.. im not saying that you have to like her stuff but atleast check it out first


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]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7041395/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/7041395/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 01:43:42 PST I've been looking round the town
For somebody just like me
But the only ones I see
Are the dummies in the window
They spend their money on clothes
It saddens me to think
That the only ones I see are mannequins
Looking stupid, being used and being thin
And I don't know why I hang around with them
The way they act, I'd rather be fat than be confused
The way they act, I'd rather be fat than be confused
Than be me in a cage
With a bottle of rage
And a family like the mafia

this weekend I've been feeling down. been thinking to much a gen i guess. i want things to matter, i want things to have a substance and not be so shallow and cold. i try to make the best out of things but recently I've been feeling that everything that i try to make and everything i try to play creative whit have been so flat. i want to be able to supply my feelings through the stuff that I'm making. i want others to understand what I'm feeling inside whiteout saying a word. its really hard and i really hope I'm going to make it some day. not that i think i will, I'm just hoping and dreaming about it. otherwise i would be feeling even more useless than i am feeling right now. ghaaaaa! yea. well. i get really upset at myself for even having this feelings. its just stupid. i don't want to be thinking this way but its like a bad circle. well.. i do have allot of images in my head that I'm trying to put out there but its a slow proses. and right now I'm working whit some old memories that isn't helping me to forget this feeling I'm having. shit. this is really a pointless diary


http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/6940883/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 01:10:01 PST

thank you, all of you for suporting my art and for sneeking around in my gallery n_n




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but i still think I'm going to do it. think it would be fun. you know. just to try. I'm going to send them some photos on the kids or on some kids at the youth center. i really wish i could take some new photos but i don't think there will be time for that and i don't work there until next week and well.. hmm. think maybe the photos I've already taken can do. or i hope so anyway.

if i should win I'm going to post the photos here at DA. otherwise i just wont bother

oh.. and i like to thank all of my friends at home and here at DA.. you guys rock!



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i really thought it would be gone in one or two days as it usually tend to do the first time it starts to fall. but it has gotten really cold lately and the snowflakes are feeling really comfortable in the grass. its a good thing to have the snow. it brightens up the darkness and makes me a bit happy. always liked the autumns and the winters the best. even if I'm always freezing i don't mind the cold. its more frustrating to be freezing when its really hot outside. ghaaa. ja.. i don't want to think about it

I'm happy the winter has started anyway

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bye-bye C.K. I'm happy for the memories you gave me

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the first news is that I'm no longer just working. I'm going to school. going to become a web designer (or a creative designer as they call it) and it is only a two yer long education. so hopefully i will have gotten better when I'm done studying... hmm.. anyway. I'm really happy that i decided to go to school. the work i had was really killing me and changing diapers on old ppl is really nothing i enjoy doing...

the second news is that I'm no longer pet-free. i got two cute little kittens they are 10 weeks old. named naruto and kiba.. i know its a bit nerdy. but what can i say. i really love naruto.. mmmmmmm *dreams away*

the third news is that the work at the youth center finally has started over a gen... and i have finally meet my hooligan-kids after a long but well deserved summer vacation... i have missed them so much ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/6020309/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/6020309/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 11:18:10 PDT ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5983782/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5983782/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 05:35:19 PDT (i really don't like using the term cpu.. it sounds so un-personal)...
anyway allan broke down! "dadadadaaaaaaa" <- (reviling sound) the screen went black and the image dissapered infront of her suprised eyes.
- WTF! what is this!!? stina schoted out loud so her nex door neigbours culd hear her. she tryed to figure out what went wrong and why allan dident want to be her friend today. but beeng the confused creature as only a stina can be she culdent get the peaces together. her brain started to slowly overhet and she really tryed hard to think... but to no sucsess.. allan dident want to start and allan dident want to be nice whit stina today.
-shit! why does this always hapen to me? this question was a mor or less inteligent one comming from a confused stina. but allan did not anser her question and that made her relly angry... and belive me.. you don't want to make a stina angry. but she qvikly calmed herself when she realised that she hade a plan... she was going to use reversed psykology. just like the one her mom used to use on stina when she was smal.
-if you allan don't want to play whit me im going to ignore you! im going over to my nintendo gamecube to finich what i started on paper mario! and that will take hours and hours and i will not be around you.. you will be standing her in your corner all by yourself colecting dust, thinking about how boring you are when you dont want to play whit me... stina slowly turned her head away from allan facing the gamecube. she tryed had not to think about how anoying allan was and how much he had hurt her fealings when he distoyed the image she almoast had goten perfect. she had been so close and then that shitty allan made everything wrong! its just not fair! stina started to feal more sad then angry. she really diden want to fight whit allan. slowly tears started to apere from her eyes and she fealt really really bad about beeng so stupid and evil whit allan. she turned her head down.. looking at her tears droping down at the floor making a little poddle at her feets. when all of a sudden.. she saw something in the corner of her eye.. something that was wrong...something that was out of order... after alot of thinking she realised what the error was... the contackt was unplugged.. but how? stina dident really know why and she knew that she problably newer would so she tryed not to think so much about it. she was happy to have solved the mystery of allan. now they could finaly be friends agen. just like in the good old times

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huh.. thees last days of work have been a real struggle for me. i really cant understand that i really did it.. i made it through! .. the last time i had a vacation in the summer was like three years ago... and that was against my one will, i wanted to work! so i think i deserve a little bit of rest... if only for two weeks...

anyway. i really don't know if their will be so much of the resting part. i have lots of stuff that needs to be done. and some art-works that i need to finish or get started on. i have like three paintings that i promised a friend last year...i really don't know what i should make too her... think i have to try to make the art happen... or just play creative for a while and maybe ill find out what to make her...

and right now.. I'm SO tired.. i only slept for 2,5 hours last night and just finished a 10hour working pass... so.. I'm thinking i might go and take a little nap... and maybe open a bear later... it is going to taste SO nice... mmmm... ah... finally... two weeks... mmm.. sweat two weeks... ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5724104/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5724104/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 13:45:55 PDT ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5458209/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5458209/ Wed, 25 May 2005 14:25:59 PDT
mm.. when I'll get home I hope on having my head filled whit inspiration... have allot of canvas that awaits my homecoming.. only need to get hold of some nice colour's

hope you guys get a nice weekend and stuff!!!

bye-bye for now ^_^ ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5316801/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5316801/ Tue, 10 May 2005 01:48:07 PDT because you're evil and you lie
and if you should die I might feel slightly sad
(but i won't cry)"


today i become 22 years old... huh..i don't know. i really don't want to be any older but i guess I'll have to learn to live whit it. feels strange to be one year shorter of life or maybe one year closer to wisdom. my family is coming over today and we are going to eat cake and get fat.. and i hope my friends show up later so we can eat some pie.. lots of eating to do today... huh.. well.. i know i will be happy once this day is over.. or just when life goes back to normal. or when i forget about being paranoid over getting any older.. haha.. oki... i guess I'm happy now.. only a bit nerves maybe

lots of love to you all ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5219218/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5219218/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 06:44:21 PDT
i sure will miss the old Mr P. he was a inspiration of life. in only 15 minutes he got to see hes long life flashing by hes eyes. it is really sad when people die.. but then again its not a matter of how many years one live.. its how one live the years that matters...

now he is gone.. only existing like a liquid memory.. it has been a honour knowing him..

bye bye Mr P ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5008137/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/5008137/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 14:51:10 PDT
talked whit a lady today... about education and stuff... hard to know what to become... hard to know anything

also think I have to go to an optican and have my eyes checked...

tjoflöjt ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4551385/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4551385/ Fri, 11 Feb 2005 02:32:15 PST dreams will fill him somethimes
he'll have a secret feeling
a taste of honey in his mouth... ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4454065/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4454065/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 14:10:50 PST in the end i gues that it is bether that the car broke down when i hade money.. I meen... it is no fun but i have to accept it... maybe im not ment to have a camera... maybe im not ment to have a car... i dont know...

you cant always get what you whant... i guess i dont want what i get... ]]> ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4186250/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4186250/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 15:03:49 PST ~lasercat http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4097135/ http://lasercat.deviantart.com/journal/4097135/ Sat, 18 Dec 2004 17:21:25 PST ~lasercat