http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:laugh-cry-kill&section=today deviantART RSS for by:laugh-cry-kill en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 23:45:31 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/21029943/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/21029943/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 10:51:40 PDT
i was on this kick that im going to find ME.

through all the drama and bullshit i have went through throughout the years and me getting older.. i lost who i was .. which makes me really sad bc if you think about it.. how the fuck can you NOT know who you are.

right?

well i was getting there and my progress was awesome.. but then i fell down and just didn't stand up again...


i put my kids before everything and i work and take care of them so much that i don't have time to do the things i love and relax and be me, i just started taking new pics lately, which i haven't done in forever.. and it has been at least a year or more since i have wrote..anything..even a poem.

my two passions and been but on hold for life... which sucks. life sucks!

so now its time for me to declare who i am again.

this will be hard.
this will be full of emotions.
this will be confusing.
this will be DONE.

its something i have to do to make myself happy with me.

]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/18434008/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/18434008/ Wed, 21 May 2008 16:03:13 PDT
then again it has been a while since ive even taken good quality shots of anything to put up here

with having my son and going through the normal dramas of everyday life plus some, my world is always crazy

its been over a year since ive wrote a journal period so i will up date you all

my son Caden Zeppelin will be 1 year old on June 6, which is pretty much 2 weeks away.

i cant wait! i am so freakin excited.

ill be posting pics of up him soon, i have some of him when he was newborn that are really good, plus jessi who i loves so much ..everytime she comes over she has her trusty cam with her and takes pics of the kids like they are going to evaporate right in front of her, LOL

as far as the party goes, we want to do toy story but could only find BUZZ lightyear on everything, so we have been buying things seperatly and special ordering things... so far our tablecloth is fucked up, our banners we bought are fucked up... thank god the cake topper we got is just freakin perfect.

i feel as thought that day is going to be pure hell when it gets here, i want everything to be good.. doesnt have to be perfect, just good, and already im doubting everything.

anyway asides from that sara starts 4k this year, so her butt will be going to school in aug, which is mad crazy to me, i know she has to go to school but ive always had her by my side..period.. and now shes going to be GONE, somewhere else, without me

eh..well i guess that is enough of my update, laterz

]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/12247852/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/12247852/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 16:37:39 PDT
BLAH, its like a camera block or something?

btw..

i miss my appt the 13th, so now i dont find out what im having till the 28th, yay, go dad who overslept!, BAH

]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/12007701/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/12007701/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 23:29:14 PST

but give me a few weeks and i will be submitting pics like i use to


btw, im pregnant.. due june 11th find out on the 13th what im having so yeah...


i missed my pics!<3

]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9544289/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9544289/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 14:59:35 PDT
workin my ass off

spending as much time with sara as i can

hopefully me and Jade are going to the beach, if her mom doesnt change her mind

cant wait to take sara there, she loves the beach

and then hopefully, if i have a ride, im going to warp tour!, woot!

heck yes!


and also, last night was rather interesting, wont get into any details...

just beer and cameras together are fun

i had a short photo shoot with Echo last night, pictures will hopefully be up soon.... very soon, maybe like.. i need to load them now or something...

but im going to run, im going to start takin my camera everywhere again, bc i enjoyed the photo shoot, i missed my camera, and not being able to take pics and shit.... laytur! ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9261729/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9261729/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 14:13:35 PDT

i work at da wizzle hizzle

lol


the waffle house

so far so good

im still in trainin, but they told me i am catching on fast, my only thing is remembering the prices and everything, yeah


i havent gotton my camera from andy yet, i have to talk to him about that tonight when i call him, i wants it bad!!!!!!!!! i miss it so much!


and i dont get much time to spend on the computer to do any editing or photo manips, then again, when do i have much time, its crazyness around here

i have a lot of things on my mind lately

but i will leave them there ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9145187/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9145187/ Thu, 22 Jun 2006 07:27:02 PDT


i had my FIRST photo shoot with a MODEL last night!

and it was fuckin awesome

my thing is more shooting live events, like bands and shit

but one of my bestfriends... violent danni... who is also on here...

does models and stuff like that.. so im kinda gettin into it

i thought i would be nervous workin with someone tellin them how to lay and being all in their face and shit, but i wasnt... then again, it was ECHO, and she is fuckin BEAUTIFUL!

pics will be here a.s.a.p... once i get a chance to steal dannis computer to edit them and what not...

much love fuckers<3 ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9144343/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9144343/ Thu, 22 Jun 2006 05:01:16 PDT
and it was fuckin awesome

my thing is more shooting live events, like bands and shit

but one of my bestfriends... violent danni... who is also on here...

i thought i would be nervous, but i wasnt

pics will be here a.s.a.p!!!! ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9107528/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9107528/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 16:55:28 PDT
me and my daughter now live with jessi

so far so good, cept i need to get a job really fast over here, so i can have money for our own things

its kinda stressfull, but hell, i will have to deal

..

my phone is gettin fixed soon, so yay i wil have my phone back, but i dont know if i will still have all my numbers, so yeah, if you have my number, you will have to fuckin call me so i can have your number again

..

i went to BLOODFEST 2006, and it was awesome, i took some awesome pics of bands mostly , and my artsy shit i love to do

i need to post them up, but its kinda hard when i dont have my own computer, i hate useing other peoples comp for that shit, bc im not use to it, so give me a break, ill def get them up as soon as possible

we both used both cams, and its a bitch sortin out whos pics are whos, i think we have em all, if not, oh well... i guess i can let her take credit for my amazing work! LMMFAO -DIES-

...


so i havent posted anything in a while, bc again, im not living at home anymore, stressfull stuffs been going on, and i dont have my own comp, so yeah

but yeah

im ok ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9015890/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/9015890/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 06:56:52 PDT
bad

like

real bad!


like

REALLY REALLY BAD

hire me!?

PLEASE!

i love you

you love me

so.. pay me.. lol ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8973956/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8973956/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 00:44:18 PDT ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8924185/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8924185/ Tue, 30 May 2006 19:46:13 PDT
lifes a bitch

and so isnt money

seein as how i lost my job

my internet might be gettin cut off for a little while

but if you would like to keep in touch with me...

.. just drop me your number, and ill call ya sometime...


<3 love, peace, and chicken grease dudes <3

]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8898076/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8898076/ Sun, 28 May 2006 01:36:26 PDT
its never going to change

so why do i try

it just makes me cry

you win

i give up. ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8885360/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8885360/ Fri, 26 May 2006 16:21:50 PDT


yeah




thats about it




and

im flat fuckin broke



but on the other hand

t.d. got his prince paul cd i bought for him today, and he loved it, he was so fuckin happy to get it seeing as how he broke his damn ipod with all his music on it by gettin sand in it!


well sara is fussin, im gonna lay her down and go for a walk.. i need to think about a lot of things ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8872435/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8872435/ Thu, 25 May 2006 10:12:15 PDT

so i didnt get to go to work yesterday.. no ride ^.^


and, im prolly not gonna get to go today... no ride ^.^

SO MUCH FUCKIN FUN!

~~

i had my interview at BK tho, took the personality test, he said when he got the results back, he would call me... and set up another interview.. prolly for monday he said, bring me in to talk about the hours and what not.

i need this, i really do, even tho its shitty bk, i need this A LOT! for many reasons

1 - walking distance, i dont have to depend on anyone else

2- i would be able to work more hours.. meaning my paycheck would be bigger... meaning.. i can save.. for a car.. and get the fuck out... and also, i dont have to pay ppl gas money to bring me home!

3- i need to get my shit straight!, and this WILL HELP

~~


i finally talked to my aver last night, i love her to peices, but im hurting bc she is hurting, she left a voice mail on my phone of "the song", and once i heard it, i balled -=\ yeah.

i want to take all her pain away, id go through it for her, just to see her smile and be happy!

~~

eh, t.d pissed me off last night, then again, i think i pissed him off too, oh wells.

im really glad i found him, bc he is pushing me to do the things i need to do in my life to be happy, he is pushing me to get a better job.. he wants me to go to a secratarys (sp) job, seein as how i can type all fast like, with that i would be able to afford a place of my own for me and my daughter.

love ya negro ;x

~~

on other notes, i have bunched of pics i need to get to editing and shit so i can post them up, ive been a lazy little fucker lately

i also have a shitty drawing im going to post up

and some lyrics

.. wow.. ive been mad slackin

~~

anywhos!

im gone, i have to call t.d.

hope you fuckers are doing better than I ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8823878/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8823878/ Sat, 20 May 2006 08:35:23 PDT
dannis back! yay!, i havent had a chance to bug the hell outa of her yet!

t.d. wont be back till tues/wed.. CANT WAIT!


dads car is broke down like a mug!, oh snapples!

i have a job interview at HAVE IT YOUR WAY! bk wed at 4pm, hopefully i can get this job ... its closer... i can work longer hours if they give me the hours i want... and i wont be spending hella money on gas -.- and its within walking distance, so yeuh.... i will need to invest in some good shoes tho...

I WAS SO MAD, my work shoes are tearing up... so i was forced to wear my converse to work last night.. -CRIES- i got bleach on them.. -cries-... they are black... with pink spots now... well.. at least they are original and no one else has them right? -smh-

my tooth is still killing me.... god i love lortabs <3

i need to go finish those lyrics i wrote.... yes... i need to


im rambling on.... i guess ill go..

much love and laytur days<3 ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8798452/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8798452/ Wed, 17 May 2006 13:32:13 PDT

so, i went to work

came home

bitched with the bunghole

and cleaned some

now im on here, checking my stuff



last night i was like FUCK IT, i finally dled psp from ava, YAY, all i have to do now is get her brushes and shit

on the other note

danni is STILL GONE

t.d. is STILL GONE

-falls over- and i have cookies, YAY! ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8784570/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8784570/ Tue, 16 May 2006 02:18:56 PDT
dannis still in fl

t.d. just left on a plane for costa rica for a whole week

and im off today

tho i might have a dentist appointment

and i want to cry ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8761771/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8761771/ Sat, 13 May 2006 18:41:05 PDT
1st - my icon thingy keeps going poof, one min its there... next.. its not!? yarg!

2nd - t.d is going away for a whole week -=\ i wont get to talk to t.d for A WHOLE WEEK! A WEEK! 7 DAMN DAYS! -sighs-

3rd - i toted my cam with me everywhere today, even on my walk, i got some pretyt good pics, well at least i think so, and im about to load them up, resize them and start addin em away!

4th - im hungry! feed me!

5th- ive just recently learned, im obsessed with coverse shoe pics, so if you see i have a lot added.. thats why, lol, deal with it

6th - theres a 6th, bc i just want 6, and i wanted to say have a wonder fuckin full day -=d

-=The J-nEss=- ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8747138/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8747138/ Fri, 12 May 2006 07:06:30 PDT

IM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS SITE!

-sighs-

thank you violet danni... i almost typed danni jess!


im still slowly posting all my shit on here, i need to pull out my lyrics book and start typing away, and put some more of my drawings on here, i dont have many bc ive been so busy i havent been able to draw much


but yes!

i love it!

hope you all have a wonder-fuckin-full day! - ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8743247/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8743247/ Thu, 11 May 2006 18:48:43 PDT
anyways, i want to thank violet danni... for teachin me shit


and yeah

thats it

for now..

UNTIL I RETURN ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8734658/ http://laugh-cry-kill.deviantart.com/journal/8734658/ Wed, 10 May 2006 20:32:19 PDT
jessi help me!, lol ]]> ~laugh-cry-kill