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deviantART: by:lena91 http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:lena91&section=today deviantART RSS for by:lena91 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 03:48:58 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Matura http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/27242823/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/27242823/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 10:16:59 PDT Zastanawiam siÄ nad rozszerzonym polskim i fizykÄ podstawowÄ.

IdÄ na PolitechnikÄ GdaÅskÄ na ElektronikÄ, a jak nie, to zostaje Politologia na Uniwersytecie GdaÅskim.

...Teraz tylko mam nadziejÄ, Å¼e nie zmieniÄ zdania.
Wracam do nauki!

]]> ~lena91 So I had my birthday and now I'm 18 http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/24158242/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/24158242/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 03:33:31 PDT

"Take my hand and let's end it all!"

]]> ~lena91 . . . http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23723286/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23723286/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 03:46:04 PDT Some people, some people, some people,
Call it insane, yeah they call it insane
I play Russian roulette everyday, a man's sport,
With a bullet called life, yeah mama called life
You know that every time I try to go
Where I really want to be,
It's already where I am,
Cause I'm already there?!

]]> ~lena91 Let myself down http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23692001/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23692001/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 10:33:08 PDT I wish I could.

My sister wanted me to make her earrings, but I don't have any idea. Well, I'm too tired anyway, what a waste of time!

]]> ~lena91 It feels like Saturday - totally http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23664281/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23664281/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:32:20 PDT Friday. I hope I won't forget about it and will eventually get up at 6:50 and go to school. Jesus, I have... 7 lessons, what the hell?

I want the weekend now.

It's all because my parents went for a week to Turkey and now I'm at home only with my sister, we do what we want to do, and it feels like some kind od never-ending weekend. And I'm permamently tired. Whatever, I'm going sleep.

_{Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday...}

And what's with me and my sister quoting Chris Moyles all the time? Wicked.

Lol, emosie (~Porcelainx3), ta rymowanka z MacFly (czy jak to siÄ pisze) to byÅo MacFly drop by

]]> ~lena91 Let me sleep! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23554994/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23554994/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 10:40:00 PST three hours to cover 60km. Madness. I went with my school mate to GdaÅsk to take part in a competition about Polish soldiers in 1921-1945 - questions were ridiculously difficult, and I didn't study at all. At least they gave us something to eat and drink

We went there with two teachers, who have some stuff to do in GdaÅsk/Gdynia/Sopot/other end of the globe/wherever we've been when I was sleeping, and a driver who kept calling me Kate - wha-?! Weirdos.
Utterly exhausting day.

Tomorrow I have to get up early cause I'm going to a hairdresser at 10:30

And then I have my mock CAE at 13. I should revise something. Lol, I don't know what.

I'm quite disappointed cause I didn't get my package from qnszt.pl - I ordered some materials to make jewelry, I just CAN'T wait to try the wire wrapping!!

I also have 3 orders from my friends - there's some money to be made

And now I guess I will go sleep.

Ahh, finally I feel quite happy and glad. It's great

]]> ~lena91 I want to die and resurrect in April http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23428512/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23428512/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 06:50:43 PST Standing in the sun I'm wasting my time
^{- Daron Malakian in Old School Hollywood}

PEACE, OH PEACE!
^{- Serj Tankian being Serj Tankian}

I am so overwhelmed right now, I feel down. All of my plans are just going wrong. I'm feeling this growing self-odium and I don't see other way to eliminate it but to listen to music really loud. I wish I could draw, so that all of my feelings would just wound up on a paper. But my lack of talent only increases my frustration. Life is hard, eh?
I want to just lie down and do nothing.
Don't wanna sleep.
Don't wanna talk.
Don't wanna eat.
Don't wanna read.
Don't wanna write.
Don't wanna draw.
Don't wanna play.
Don't wanna study.
Don't wanna feel.
Don't wanna live?
Nah. Living is always better than not-living. "The only thing that's worse than one is none."

Btw, go and say hello to

because she's new here.

Bye~

]]> ~lena91 It's time to start working hard http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23320973/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23320973/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 09:17:31 PST "So you really practise yoga?"
^{- My friend Ola}

"You write?"
^{- My friend Amelia, after seeing my Devious Info}

"You play guitar? You could take the thing from pen and play with it, you know..."
^{- Ola's younger brother}

Yes. All the things people wouldn't even suspect me of. I mean, I don't practise yoga, I only do one asana (plow), and I believe I do it wrong, but it's great. And makes me feel better. And looks just hilarious.
But I do write, ha! Who would tell! I do it rarely and it's not too good, but still I enjoy it. Hmmm... Maybe I should write something good and put it here. But if I write it in Polish, not many people will understand. And if I write it in English, it will be a lot worse

Whatever, it doesn't matter 'cause I don't have time now for anything.
My fingertips are dying in this very moment. I played guitar about 3 hours ago, God. I'm only a beginner and I suck at changing chords quickly. There are so many things to learn! And I feel I'm getting better, that's great. And I don't have "the thing from pen". I have pics. One thick and one extra thin. My mom bought them, I only use the thick one xd

I have plenty of work. This school year I'm taking part in ridiculously large amount of competitions! English, German, ecology, Maths, History, that's insane!

There are about 3 months of studying left at school, will I manage to improve my grades? I'm so lazy, I hate it. I'm wasting my life. So now I'm going to read "Lalka". I have about 700 pages left and I have time till Monday. But tomorrow I have to study so I don't think I will sleep tonight. That's ok, I suffer from insomnia, so what's the difference, really?

So that's all for now. I will probably disappoint ~weronikja again, as she would like me rather to write the story of my life

Bye, love you all

]]> ~lena91 New profiles are driving me INSANE! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23210164/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23210164/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 06:15:40 PST How? So yes, I'm clicking "Edit", and then I click "Choose A Deviation" but what's the point of that button if nothing happens? I can click it till infinitive and beyond, but nothing will ever happen, wanna know how? BECAUSE IT DOESN'T WORK! God! What an utterly useless thing! Yes, I know, It's drivin' me insane is a good drawing, obviously, but it's from 2007 and I'd like to change it! o_O And now I can't! It's glued there! Old version of profiles was ok, and now it's bad and it doesn't work properly! Jesus. What a waste of time, clicking not working button hopelessly many times and looking through settings trying to work it out. Damn, instead, I will upload more deviations. At last.

]]> ~lena91 Damn it! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23138929/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/23138929/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 13:18:14 PST nothing and waisting my time. Everyday I wake up late and get sick from it

Well, that's probably because of watching films late at night... But it's Vincent Price, you know.

I've got some new drawings, back from December, but I just don't feel like uploading anything. Also I wrote "SOAD's Christmas" and "SOAD's New Year's Eve" - I would put it here, but it's already February o_O Tell me if you want to see it. Well, it sucks 'cause I'm not good at writing in English, but still I find it quite amusing. Well, probably it's just me.

5 days till the end of my break. And then back to school. Omfg, hopeless! o_O I have 4 competitions in February & March and I'm not prepared whatsoever!
Duh. I must go and do something constructive in my life. Bye, humans!

_{PS. Does anyone else think that Alan Rickman somehow resemble Vincent Price? o__O}

]]> ~lena91 Tag! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/22028695/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/22028695/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 08:34:02 PST evilchiharu B)

Dear ~weronikja/~Kyotama/~just-one:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our horoscope doesn't match. I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds with George Bush and his wife and I saw you castrate my mustard soufflÃ©. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your old lottery coupons to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember eggplant-fetishism.

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,

Lena.

I blame... I mean, tag (xD)

!!

___________________
Fill in the form below with the answers to the questions (also below).

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal or anyone you'd like):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,

-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflÃ©
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - which your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That youâre Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - which I get turned on by garbage men
Over joyous - That I'... ]]> ~lena91 It's been a while http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/21975601/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/21975601/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 07:04:20 PST Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
_{Serj Tankian - The Unthinking Majority}

Oh my Serj (forgive me, I just have to say it! xD), I haven't been here FOR AGES! Literally! Hahaha, and I write like 5 entries a year xD
And I don't really feel like writing anything now. I mean, I want to write about so many things that happend in my life, but I can't be bothered, really. I'm quite busy downloading System of a Down discography. Well yes, ~weronikja tried to make me like them but eventually I was so stuborn she gave up. Then I started liking Empty Walls by Serj and about week ago I downloaded his solo album and ~weronikja send me some SOAD song and here I am, new fan xD Or rather fan-to-be XDDD
Yes I know, that was absolutely fascinating and marvellous story xD

Right, and I started going on so-called ballet lessons. Which aren't really proper lessons, awww, what a shame. And I want to learn playing guitar being completely unmusical, crazy me.
[In fact, my unmusicalness is the main thing that's been bothering me for my whole life, it's terrible, it's ruined my life, MY LIFE IS RUINED, RUINED!! Oh noes!! What am I going to do now, WHAT?!?!

]
[Lol, whatever XD]

Hahaha, I'm now listening to Suger System of a Down and I can't stop laughing, it sounds like Russell Brand featured in it! XDD

Right, so goodbye, good luck and good whatever, I'll write next journal in May 2009 so enjoy this one. ENJOY!! And now I'll make myself new avatar. With Serj, mwahaha, why not xD

]]> ~lena91 Laziness http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/19177601/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/19177601/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 04:43:49 PDT I think I won't be too active here in the near future. I have holidays, I want to relax xD

But, if anyone is curious, I draw a little more than I used to during the school.
And I think about making new account...
And look at my new awesome avatar! xD It's Tsukasa, yay! XD

]]> ~lena91 LONDON! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/18712906/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/18712906/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 11:20:02 PDT I'm quite scared, it'll be the first time I'll go somewhere by plane and new rules are incredibly stupid, you can't bring anything to drink on the board! >__> Yeah, I know about the terrorism and things, but that's just ridiculous.

~bye for now! ^^

LLAMA!

]]> ~lena91 It's okay, it's alright http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/18628426/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/18628426/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 14:03:29 PDT I'M FEARLESS NOW! Lol XDDD Shall I rule the world now!! XDDD

Just wanted to stop and write it here to let you know that I didn't fainted during my Speaking nor anything like that ^^
8-11th June - I'm in London

14-15th - in GdaÅsk taking my Reading, Writing, Use on English and next day Listening FCE.
from 20th June - HOLIDAYS! So I shall draw, read, learn German, Japanese and Icelandic, study History and Geography and do that kind of amazing things, yay! Perhaps I'll go to San Diego (California, USA) in July - my brother-in-law, who's American Chinese (XD), wants me to. And my sister wants me to read Alex, my nephew, some fairytales in Polish, because she didn't go with them to the USA.
But I just don't like California, I don't know if I'll go. I'd rather go to the New York... Though flying alone to America sounds interesting!

And yes, I want to learn Icelandic, hahaha xD It's so cool! All because LazyTown, it's a children show but LOL, it's so funny, I watched like 2 episodes and I can't stop laughing xD And, well, yes, I have to admit it's also because I love how Sportacus do all that acrobatic things, I remember when I was little I wanted to do something like that! xDD But it seems they show that in quick motion so it isn't the same xD
And hey, watch that! [link] Now I'm dead, I love that song, hahaha xDDD Moskau, Moskay, wirf die Glaser an die Wand, Russland ist ein schones Land, ho ho ho ho ho, hey!! XDDDDD They've been trying to learn me German in school for 4 years and still I don't understand almost anything from that song!

But it's hilarious!!

So, well, yeah, Icelandic is cool, LazyTown is so stupid that really funny and I'm happy ^^

Moskau...
Fremd und geheimnisvoll
TÃ¼rme aus rotem Gold
Kalt wie das Eis...
Moskau...
Doch wer dich wirklich kennt
Der weiÃ, ein Feuer brennt
In dir so heiÃ...

Kosaken hey hey hey hebt die GlÃ¤ser
Natascha ha ha ha du bist schÃ¶n
Towarisch hey hey hey auf das Leben
Auf Dein Wohl Bruder hey Bruder ho!

Moskau, Moskau
Wirf die GlÃ¤ser an die Wand
Russland ist ein schÃ¶nes Land
Ho ho ho ho ho, hey!
Moskau, Moskau
Deine Seele ist so groÃ
Nachts da ist der Teufel los
Ha ha ha ha ha, hey!
Moskau, Moskau
Liebe schmeckt wie Kaviar
MÃ¤dchen sind zum kÃ¼ssen da
Ho ho ho ho ho, hey!
Moskau, Moskau
Komm wir tanzen auf dem Tisch
Bis der Tisch zusammenbricht
Ha ha ha ha ha!

HILARIOUS!!

]]> ~lena91 "Grey and Hopeless" http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/18446598/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/18446598/ Thu, 22 May 2008 12:19:28 PDT
God, it's so... hopeless. I'm tired.

I started practising writing with left hand. And drawing. It's great! xD I've heard that left-handed people are more creative etc, but I don't really think it's the same with someone who actually learned to write with left hand. But still it's great, I want to be ambidextrous! And use mirror writing, god, it's so unusual, original and cool! _{I'm weird, I know & don't care ^^}
Actually I drew Eunice from Quo Vadis (book by Sienkiewicz) with left hand. It took me like 10 minutes and it's rubbish but if you consider the left-hand thing it's really amazing! I will upload it to my Scraps.

I also sketched Irwin Sparkes from The Hoosiers. I'll add it as well.

Gotta end now. I want to watch House MD, one of the very few things that can cheer me up these days. I just love Hugh Laurie as House, he's gorgeous!!! x3

~Bye

]]> ~lena91 Bloody tired http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/17178295/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/17178295/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:53:26 PST At last my arm is complete again!

Again, I'm so really tired. I'd like to tell you about every thing that's happening in my life, but I don't have any energy.
I'm not even sorry, I know that no one bothers to read my journal nor visits my profile. Well I'm not surprised. I haven't submitted any art since... ages! Reason? I gave up drawing. It's just completely hopeless. ~lunatic-art said my drawings are rubbish. Well, right, I showed her some sketches which weren't too good, but saying they are completely rubbish? She even criticised things I thought were quite good. In fact, she criticised my whole style of drawing.
I guess we just care about something else in our drawings. She wants everything to be pretty and anatomically correct, while I want to express my feelings or some funny ideas. I want them to mean something. Well, but she sees in my drawing a horrible zombie. Right, I wanted her eyes to symbolize emptiness but it seems I really suck.

So I give up.
And everyone's glad.

I have some drawings but I won't submit them.

On Saturday I wrote my FCE mock exam - Use of English, Writing and Reading. I had already written Listening one on lesson on Thursday and I got A. And today I got rest of my results - A, A, A!! Incredible!! Quoting Vaughan, I'm top of the class!! I'm really happy. I can do better in Use of English if I start learning hard. But I'm really scared of speaking - I will fail! I suck at it! I wish I could talk with someone from UK by Skype but I don't have any close friends from there. And I doubt any stranger would like to talk to me, I think I really bad at it - I will start stumbling and everything, I'm always so nervous and shy >__o

Well. I've seen Sweeney Todd!! It was SO awesome!! I'm totally in love with it. You should watch it. I began being interested in the legend of Sweeney Todd. And in 18th and 19th century in England, really fascinating - fog, filth and darkness. Really, I'm not joking xD

Duh, right. I'm terribly tired. I wasn't sleeping this night (studying Maths and doing homework was more important!) and I'm dreaming of a warm bed. Thank God my lessons start at 10:35 tomorrow. Yes, but I have to copy my Geography notebook. I wanted to study hard and report (is it good word? normally I'd say "answer" but my dictionary says it's "report" or "lesson" when you are given a mark on lesson - yeah, my English sucks) from it to improve my grades.
But I'm so tired... duh...

And once again I made myself a new avatar! With Johnny Depp as Sweeney Todd. His white strand of hair is gorgeous! xD Previous one was with Richard Hammond in his I'm-so-cool sunglasses but his hair looked too much like my parrot's. Or former mayor's of my town, indeed

ATTENTION!!

moved her account to

(and her new avatar is made by me too)

moved to

- and she's so much better now!

Friends:

~lena91 Damn, I'm ALIVE! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/16701758/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/16701758/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 06:23:33 PST

Well, and I'm tired... School, school, school. I'm too lazy for my own good! Now, I have to make myself a new avatar!

Do you know Richard Hammond? Anyone?

]]> ~lena91 New school http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/14530843/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/14530843/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 13:30:13 PDT Historia magistra vitae.
M. T. Cicero

First of all - Happy Birthday ~Gigglee!! Yay, she's 14 now!! I have to draw something for her! :3 I started week ago, but this week I hadn't time for anything except school... I hope she won't be angry

(She already is, but about something else...)

School! School! Schooool!!
New high school. 4 buildings (A, D, F and building where we have PE). Uniforms (black jacket). 33 people in class -> 28 girls, 5 boys. English-History. Yay!! x3 (But there's cold in here!)
I still can't remember names. From my old school I know 5 girls. Today I was in Hamlet on pizza with 7 girls ^^ They are nice :3
Teachers seem to be nice too. And WoÅºniak, from History, is really funny o____o
I have to buy books >__> Mooom, giveee meee mooneeyyy...

Knowing me I should sit alone in a corner and not talk to anyone, be shy, asocial and everything. But I'm not, I talk normally with everybody o_O Really strange! What's happening with me?!

After first day I got few smses from my friends asking how was it, wow xD Even ~just-one wrote, man, she doesn't use to write me smses

What more what more what more? I thought it would be a long journal. But it's late, I'm hungry and I have to go.

Look! I have a nev avatar! made by myself! XD

xD I have to make 2 for ~Gigglee with Johnny Depp.

If someone want he can hunt for 1,000 kiribian. Well, I still have to draw one for ~evilchiharu... I don't have time for drawing, school and school and school. And I really can't draw

Now I'm reading Stephen King's books. Misery was great o_______o Now I'm reading Gerald's Game but I'm waiting for my friend to end Shining. I really, really, really want to read it!

^{(And I hate my family, really...)}

Tomorrow I'm going out with Ola (I'm in class with her), Dorota and Marysia. . We will probably talk about schools. How boring xD And buy books, I think...

I will buy 30 Seconds To Mars cds!! And I have 3 pins! YAY!! *_______________* But I... I don't know... I don't want to buy the cds... Well, maybe I'll write about it in next journal ;|

Guess what. I have zero unread messages! xD But still 216 deviations

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 2% (tried to do a little sketch)
practice drawing
draw birthday gift for ~Gigglee
draw kiribian for ~evilchiharu (Itachi)
~lena91 Maybe... http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/14286571/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/14286571/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 10:52:20 PDT I won't even think that it's possible. Nothing never is.

^{But I hope.}

Well, they still think I'm weird. But at least they talk with me.
_{That feeling I'm so important that they wanna talk with me.}

Not my dreamed friends. But I don't have to sit all day at home and listen to music pointlessly anymore.

I tried to draw Johnny Depp as Jack Sparrow in realism. And he looked like Giertych
I wanted to start practicing my drawing, but I'm busy with reading books. Now Memoirs of the Geisha. At Saturday will watch the movie.

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 2% (tried to do a little sketch)
practice drawing
draw "Drunken Kiss" - 1% (idea)
draw "I can't help the fact everyone can see these scars..." - 7% (little sketch)
draw that girl... - 20%
draw kiribian for ~evilchiharu
color Eruru - *becky-kitkat's lineart - 4% (but will have to start again)

Friends:
http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/14180589/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 13:10:06 PDT Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
Photograph of you and I...
...in love...

So I'm back. Happy? Unhappy? I don't really care (And I don't think that anybody cares about me.)

Today we have Polish Army Day or however you will translate it. With my dad we were watching in tv parade in Warsaw. It was funny Lech KaczyÅski makes me smile... or laugh... There was even PiÅsudski's daughter! I was like omg, she still lives?! o__O Well, right, May Coup was in May 1926 but for me it was ages ago! And seeing his daughter...! I admire JÃ³zef PiÅsudki Yeah, ok, say that I'm weird I admire also Alexander the Great. I'm telling my mum to buy me his biography from Internet shop (<- weirdo!)

I lately tried to draw something but I'm horrible and I can't

~Gigglee is leaving tomorrow to Bulgaria for 12 days. Man, without her it'll be so boring!! She said she will send me a postcard in which she'll write that she didn't meet Jared

Fun, fun, fun!

Yesterday Beata told me she will be going to artistic school in Warsaw o______o *shock* I was surprised! Jealous? Maybe, but I didn't feel it - too happy with her success
Yes, happy, but later... I felt empty. We used to be friends. 4 long years ago... It made me think about it. Again. I'm pathetic, I know.
They said: You have changed. You don't belong.
Thinking about it over and over again...
I feel like from that moment my life stopped. Every day makes it more empty. I don't enjoy new people that I meet. I just think about "old good days". It hurts... And knowing how pathetic I am doesn't help
Also from that moment I have deadly fear of being rejected and I'm asocial. I mean... I don't think that I was like that 4 years ago... I think I didn't care so much about what people will say. Now I'm pretending that I don't give a damn about them. Well... do I pretend? I don't know. This disguise is built dtoo deep inside me that I don't know when I'm honest and when I'm not. I'm confused about my own feelings. I hate it... I don't even know myself!
But I know one - I hate talking about my feelings. And writing it here so you all can read it makes me a little bit unsure. Showing emotions is a sign of weakness. And I'm so weak...

Enough of this talking... I think I'm going to be depressed. Or I'll be insane and have my own imaginary friends. But from the other hand... that would be good. I wouldn't know that they're imaginary ('cause I'm already insane) but still I'd have friends! Man, I'm genius...

Short song to cheer up! I was listening to it today for about an hour. And I cried...
_{Three Days Grace Â» Let it die

We had fire in our eyes

(In the beginning)

I never felt so alive

(In the beginning)

You, you blame me but...

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't want to hear it anymore!

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

We had time on our side

(In the beginning)

We, we had nothing... ]]>
~lena91

Farewell
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http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13804718/
Fri, 20 Jul 2007 06:32:17 PDT

To buy the truth

And sell a lie

The last mistake before you die

So don't forget to breathe tonight

Tonight's the last to say goodbye...

I wasn't here for quite long. And I won't be even longer. I have to do something with my life, with myself...

Maybe I'll draw something. But it won't be nothing good, as usually...

Quite depressed.

I'm watching movies with Jared Leto. My new hobby, hahaha. I've already watched Requiem for a dream, Alexander, Lord of War and Chapter 27. Also Panic room, long time ago in television. He was great as Vitaly in LoW, hahaha ^___^ Great actor.

I feel so damn lonely... I had a quarrel with ~Gigglee. And now I'm alone.

I don't belong to this world.

Goodbye.

_{You can send me an email, if you want. Address in my information section.}

]]>} ~lena91 O co chodzi??/What\\\'s going on?? http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13574596/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13574596/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 07:31:26 PDT .<
Niby nic takiego, a jednak Åzy w oczach. Beata mi pisze, Å¼e trzeba byÅo zÅoÅ¼yÄ drugie podanie. Nie rozumiem, po co, do cholery, mam siÄ powtarzaÄ i dwa razy to samo pisaÄ?! Nevermind. Mam caÅe 2 miesiÄce by dojÅÄ do siebie, hahaha. Tylko w ÅrodÄ przymiarka mundurkÃ³w. Ale Marzena to jest... Åmiech na sali, 110 punktÃ³w?! Uff... Beata mnie prosi Å¼ebym jÄ wykopaÅa z tej klasy, hahaha.
ZauwaÅ¼yliÅcie jak mÃ³j humor zmieniÅ siÄ z poczÄtku do koÅca tej krÃ³tkiej notki?
Opis Marzeny na gg: "YEEEEEEEAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUUUUUUUUUUHUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!" Hahaha, jakieÅ¼ bÄdzie jej rozczarowanie gdy zepchnÄ jÄ z listy... :3 MogÄ od dziÅ skÅadaÄ odwoÅanie, a w ÅrodÄ wywieszÄ kolejne listy. Mamo, czemu nigdy ciÄ nie ma jak jesteÅ potrzebna?! Nie wiem, jak mam napisaÄ odwoÅanie, jakiÅ wzÃ³r?
Ok. Beata mi pomogÅa JuÅ¼ wszystko wiem, man, ona nawet nie wie jak doceniam jej pomoc.

English

Not in mood to translate that to English. Well, ok, I'll try.
I have just checked in internet lists admitted to schools. I applied firstly to humanistic to old high school. Before I needed one point to be admitted. And now what I'm seeing? Girls with 133 and even 110 points are on list! And I have 134!! I don't understand it, did I missed applying something or what?! I don't want to go to ekonomik, duh >.<
Supposedly it's nothing, but tears in eyes. Beata is writing that second application had to be written. I don't get why, the hell, I should write the same second time?! Nevermind. I have whole two months to get over it, hahaha. But at Wednesday there's uniforms fitting. But Marzena it's...ludicrous, 110 points?! Uff... Beata asks me to kick her out from that class, hahaha.
Have you noticed how my mood changed from beginning to ending this short entry?
Marzena's description on gg (it's a Polish communicator): "YEEEEEEEAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUUUUUUUUUUHUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!" Well, what her disappointment will be when I'll kick her out of the list :3 From today I can apply cancellation and at Wednesday they will hang next lists. Mum, why your are never here when I need you?! I don't know how to write it, any model?
Ok, Beata helped me. I know everything, man, she even doesn't know how I appreciate her help.

Add

I translated that mostly with dictionary so probably something is wrong. And I don't care, hope you just understand what I mean.
My dad bought me new headphones! Yay! I promise I will treat them better and hope they won't break so quickly...
At Friday my sister with her husband Weiming, American Chinese, and their son visited me. So I was speaking English a lot. But I'm just so shy that I didn't know what to say!
Yeah, I'm still obsessed about 30STM. And Jared. Ha! And ~Gigglee is becoming obsessed about him too! HAHAHA!! I'm so evil. We are just looking through YouTube and watch videos with them. Hahaha, they're hilarious, I love them!
Yeah, but still Linkin Park is deep in my heart! xD Yesterday I was watching tv and ~http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13526465/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 14:08:51 PDT Be a hero
Kill your ego
It doesn't matter it's all just a pack of lies...

Damn. One point.
I don't want to learn Russian! I want Latin!!
One.

Oh, ok. Let's chill out. Hahaha. Be suspicious, be, be suspicious... Why Jared looks like... like... Enrique Iglesias?! xD Yeah, whatever I think I'm blind. Hahaha.

Let's start from last Friday, 'k? It was end of school. I didn't even cry, didn't say goodbye to anyone. I didn't really care. Well, quite strange.
At Monday I was picking strawberries. I picked 3 baskets. And earned 7,50zÅ Man. That kind of money doesn't deserve that work! It was first and, for now, last time I went there. But tomorrow I'm going. I have to. They must give me my money! Hahaha! xD

Yesterday they hanged lists to which High school you get. I was so scared, but, yeah, I got to Ekonomik on History - English. Not so bad! But if I had one point more I would get to old High School on humanistic. ONE! Well, I still have a chance. Two persons want to go to GdaÅsk/Gdynia/whatever so maybe there will be place for me ^-^

Lately people just annoy me. Duh, they always want something from me, I'm not safe even in my own damn home, what for? Ee... Too much Fort Minor? XD No, I haven't been listening to them for 3 weeks or something! Not that I listen only to 30 Seconds To Mars *closes Mars TV ep 3 (<- and now what that is?! Mars TV?! O___o)*. At Saturday I listened all LP songs that I have. It's about 64 or something. And, of course, to Gray Daze xD

Man. What's going on? My parents came an hour earlier than they should. And I'm writing this entry 3 hours! No way! O___o Well, ok, I'm watching some interviews with 30 Seconds To Mars and I think they are really funny ^^
Hahaha. What a stupid dream I had today. Jared was on Bravo's (it's a stupid, really stupid magazine) cover. And inside there was his photo. Black clothes, hair like in From Yesterday and... angelic wings?! WTF?! XD Hahaha! And there was also Linkin Park & 30 Seconds To Mars concert. I don't remember if I had tickets or no... Hmmm...
Yesterday I was walking in circles in my room obsessed with 30STM xD So I sketched chibi Jared. Man. He looks like L. And his hands are like elephants feet. Should I end it? Vote now! xD

I joined Jared's fanclub here on dA! xD And I'm going to make one about 30STM! O___o It's crazy! I don't know nothing about them! I just... listen their music, I'm not such a big fan like I'm LP's fan

I know. I'm insane. Hahaha!

Also. I'm really sorry that I don't visit your profiles and comment journals and deviations! I just... don't feel like writing in English, duh... Maybe tomorrow I will comment everything.
Oh, no. Tomorrow I'm kidnapping Jared with Michael. We will put him in Warsaw and you will can make photos with him. Of course, if you pay. We will be rich!! Hell yeah, it's way better than picking stupid strawberries! xD I have to say that Michael hates him ^^ He doesn't know him, but, you know, he hates everything I'm talking about. xD
(Note: Michael is my friend from one message board, man I know him since last holidays! We were writing Nonsense together xD We are so... stupid... but funny! xD)

What more to say? *yawns* I feel lost with all that things you have to do to go to High School. Well, I don't have to worry about them tonight

I still don't have new headphones. And in my old ones even right is getting broken! It's horrible. I will die without my music! xD

I want to join Echelon. Any informations, help?

And I'm really confused with that Mars TV thing. LPTV is much better. Longer, I mean xD

Today I saw music video Revolution Nevada Tan. And I died.

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 0%
draw "Drunken Kiss" - 1% (idea)
~lena91 "Jared sings better than Chester" http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13429974/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13429974/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 08:18:44 PDT . I won't talk about him... Whatever...

And. How boring. On my entries, however long it would be, you only comment something about LP. Yeah, great... So I'll write something specially for you. But later.

Why are you here?
Are you listening?
Can you heal what I am seeing?

I am not here.
I'm not listening.
I'm in my head and I'm spinning...

Ball was boring. I'd rather stay at home... I wouldn't have hurt my feet. And I wouldn't cry like everyone. Because Asia was leaving so we won't meet again. Am I really sad about it...?

Today my class wasn't at 3 last lessons. Hahaha, who would like to be in class? We even don't do nothing and the boredom is killing me. We went behind Martens (it's a shop). WTF?! That place was all dirty! And, of course, everyone was like "who has cigarettes"? So Beata, Martyna and I we went to the park. We meet there another class xD It was nice, then my class came and... they started talking about alcohol They are sometimes so stupid... And I'm really pissed of by the really good students who now drink, smoke and God knows what more. Stupid little children. They think they are soo cool. No one who I can really talk with.

Tomorrow school year is ending. Geez. I don't want to cry . But probably I will *yawns*.

Holidays begin.

And I'll be picking strawberries. Don't think I'll earn much.

So, you're here because of the tittle? Well, so let's the fun begin.
I didn't really meant that Jared is a better vocalists. Gigglee misunderstood me so we had an argue. I meant that I'm bored with Chester's voice after knowing it for 7 years. And Jared is something new.
But he's an actor. When I read it I was like "wtf?!". And he's quite famous actor, I think. So I thought that I can't really say that 30 Seconds to Mars is a good band because of their so-called vocalist.
But now I don't care. I enjoy listening them.
But I can't listen. My headphones are broken. And my battery is empty. So I can watch them only on 4fun in 4fun rocks. So I will.

And now I prefer 30STM than LP.

But I don't really want to know them too good. Not as much as Linkin Park. Because it'll hurt.

I'm proud of myself. I drew 2 drawings in one day. Go check my Gallery. ^^

Chaotic entry. But I don't have too much time. Have to go now. Bye.

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 0%
draw "Drunken Kiss" - 1% (idea)
draw "I can't help the fact everyone can see these scars..." - 7% (little sketch)
keep practicing drawing "It's like I'm paranoid" - succeed!
draw that girl... - 20%
draw kiribian for ~evilchiharu
color Eruru - *becky-kitkat's lineart - 4% (but will have to start again)
watch Frat Party at the Pankake Festival - I downloaded about 35%! Yay!! ^^
watch Live in Texas

Friends:
~lena91 Mike as a sexy ninja squirrel!! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13304497/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13304497/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 14:33:13 PDT my. Next Monday is last, but that day I have my finishing school ball.
So, last English lesson. I feel both happy and sad. Happy - you know, it's an end of school. Sad - I really liked people with who I was attending there. Not that we were close to each other - we were just spending nice time together, laughing and going through English grammar, hahaha. And I don't know if I'll meet them again. I don't know if I'll go there next year. It depends on my parents. And it costs. And this year I was lazy and didn't go to a few lessons... But I can't imagine my life without talking and listening to English 3 hours per week! But, yeah, I'll go to High School and have more homeworks etc. But, hey, English is my life! xD
I'd prefer to go to my English school than on ball. I don't even have partner to polonaise I mean, ok, I don't mind, but - hell! I'm just standing with another girl with who I'll be dancing (nothing abnormal - there are more girls than boys) and few boys haven't got a partner. So teachers are searching for girls. And, damn, I'm invisible or something?! I'm just standing here and no one notices me o.o It's not even about the polonaise... but really, I felt invisible o.o

A good news - it looks that my first day of holidays will be really nice! At school my friends were talking about going to GdaÅsk or Gdynia. And, as my sister and mother are everyday there, I just joined their conversation "train or bus?". We were talking for awhile and suddenly I was like "Hey! I want to go with you too!!" And they agreed, yatta!! ^^ It's kinda strange, because girls from my class make two "groups" - and you can say either I belong to both or I don't belong to none of them. I'm usually everywhere and I'm talking with everyone, but I'm not too close to anybody. Well, as usual. Even in internet it's the same..
So we planned to go by train at 6:30 am to Gdynia and then go to GdaÅsk by a line. We will sunbath at beach, go to the cinema at Pirates of the Caribbean and then go to Pizza hut ^-^ YAY, PotC 3!! But I haven't seen PotC 2 yet

I want to draw Mike as a sexy ninja squirrel!! I was inspirited by this ^^ (I didn't photoshop this picture, it belongs to someone on LPMB - forgot who...) He looks just sweet.

I have request for you. Could you visit 's profile? It's not any big idea, just go and comment her journal and drawings. Make me a favour. I beg you! xD Otherwise I will...

I'm lately just in love with 30 Seconds To Mars. Jared Leto~!

Yeah, I have to go now. Bye!

I have almost 600 hits! Thank you! If someone wants he can try a kiribian hunting...

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 0%
draw "Drunken Kiss" - 1% (idea)
draw "I can't help the fact everyone can see these scars..." - 7% (little sketch)
keep practicing drawing "It's like I'm paranoid" - succeed!
draw that girl... - 20%
http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13276330/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 10:34:04 PDT I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another sunny Saturday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder...

Nice.

In fact, I have things to do. I just printed information about JÃ³zef Wybicki and how to write speech. I have to write it to have 5 from Polish ^^ My teacher said that it'll be easy for me 'cause I can write literary beautiful. Riiight... *yawns* Born to write, huh?
Also I printed some Fort Minor's lyrics. I have to translate them, I want to know what are they about. And know what?! They closed section with translations on emuzyka.pl!! Damn! All because police found out it's illegal to translate anything without author's permission. They closed napisy.org where were subtitles for movies. And, yeah, now I know - I'm a criminal. Do I have to delete my translations from my dA? Well, naa... *yawns* Who really cares? I don't think that guys from Linkin Park would be angry about it...
I figured out that, although I know what songs on M2M are about, I don't know what about are from Hybrid Theory and Metora. It's like, I listen to them over and over so I know words but don't know what do they mean. Fortunately on lpzion.pl there are translations.
I think It'll be difficult to translate FM lyrics. You know, it's rap - lots of words and slang.

Yesterday I was watching Mtv and there is a contest in which you can win meeting with Linkin Park. My first reaction - grab cell phone. Second thought - I don't have money on my account... But who cares? Yeah, but it's a competition only for people with tickets on concert...
I looked through tv paper - none of Polish music channels won't transmit concert. What a pity...

I downloaded 2 Grey Daze's albums. It's former Chester's band. No Sun Today it's great. Especially Anything, Anything, Drag and Saturation. Chester's voice, mrauu.... *-*
And I'm downloading Frat Party at the Pankake Festival.

...Why do I always write about Linkin Park?
Guess it's all my life...

Pathetic

I keep on drawing It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back and I think I finally succeed. But it's only sketch so I won't submit it here.
(Since when I don't submit sketches? *looks at "School mess"* Yeah...)

Now I'm trying to draw hmmm... how to say that... profile, but when you're looking from back at it... it's like... 1/4 view? XD Oh, man, you know - someone is lying on the floor on his back and it isn't profile at all xD
Pointless explaining, you won't get it, will you?
Haha. Comma before question tag.

About Mike and Chester. Kyotama found 2 quotes:
Mike: I'm addicted to Chester.

Chester: I'm the most important person...ever.
Mike: I think Chester's full of himself, and I think thats really HOT.
Chester: Sometimes at night you're full of me too

And from me:
Chester: I think I'm gay. (<- it's translated from Polish, so you know)

Hahaha. They're great.

End of school is coming. Great. Free time. And than in July I'm picking strawberries. Money. Great.

Now I'll commit suicide. So:
Do anyone wants me to draw anything?

So now I'm dead.
Hope no one will answer!

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 0%
draw "Drunken Kiss" - 1% (idea)
draw "I can't help the fact everyone can see these scars..." - 7% (little sketch)
keep practicing drawing "It's like I'm paranoid" - succeed!
draw that girl... - 20%
draw kiribian for ~evilchiharu
http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13228091/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 13:31:21 PDT I'm hungry. Hell, I have to eat something. Wait.

Ok. So I made myself GorÄcy Kubek (Hot Mug XD which is an instant soup you can make in your mug xD) and I'm eating it with some bread. You know, I haven't eat nothing substantial for all day. That's why I feel weak and have a headache.
I could say I'm pretty busy today. But it isn't truth at all. I should be busy. But I'm lazy.
Don't ask me about school. I guess I blew it off. For today I had to do work for Art, learn Physic, History and do my Geography and Polish belated homeworks. Yesterday I had a headache so I went to bed about midnight. I woke up at 3am and than study Physic to 5am. Wanted to do rest but I just felt asleep.
Woke up - sun was shining in my face. 7:34am. Panic. I dressed quickly, packed my backpack and run to school. Without sandwiches nor eating anything. And that's all about my awful morning.
Somehow I got through my all 7 lessons. Well, the only thing that most of times rescues me is my damn luck. But I can't stand the way I act. Being so irresponsible. So lazy. It's like I live from one getting away with my non-preparation to another. It makes my life difficult, tiring and stressful. And I just can't stand it.
So for tomorrow I have to do my work for Art and my belated Polish homeworks. Then I have 4-days long weekend. Hope I'll become more responsible.

Bet nothing will change?

Holidays are coming. In July I'll have summer job - picking strawberries. You can't do nothing better when you're 16 and live in Poland. But the most important thing is that I'll earn some money so I can buy Minutes to Midnight.

I feel like I hate myself. Please, people, kill me. Nobody will cry nor be sad.
I don't have any confidence right now. Feeling so neglected and there's nothing I can do.

It's funny. The only thing that gives me some respect is criticizing. *becky-kitkat, ~StaticFactory and ~Kyotama said some nice words about me and even don't know how much it means to me. People usually don't know how much I appreciate simple things.
I wrote it was funny. That's because I used to be hated because of my critique. People usually were offended. Well... painful memories.

Let's talk about something nice! *pretended enthusiasm*
WON KIRIBIAN!!
Here's the proof.
Chiharu, send me some details about what do you want to get. I'll start drawing tomorrow, when I'll have free time.

At Sunday on Mtv there was an hour about Linkin Park ^^ Faint at Rock am Ring (dunno if that's how it's called... whatever) concert was just great. Hahaha, Chester at the end was so funny! And Mike's rapping was just like... awww... *-*
Also after looking through Bravo (very stupid magazine for teenagers >.o") I noticed something. Don't Mike and Chester spend many time together lately? On photos Mike is hugging Chester. And that quote: "sometimes we blew off others and worked together". Yeah, I think it's suspicious, isn't it? xD
So now I guess I won't have moral blockage to draw "Drunken Kiss". It'd be sweet xD But still I don't have enough talent.

And with this very positive though I'll end this entry.
Hahaha, bye~ ^^

To do:
draw Jack Sparrow (in reality) - 0%
draw "Drunken Kiss" - 1% (idea)
draw "I can't help the fact everyone can see these scars..." - 7% (little sketch)
keep practicing drawing "It's like I'm paranoid"
draw that girl... - 20%
draw kiribian for ~ ~lena91 Dress||Emo?!||KIRIBIAN HUNTING!! - ENDED! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13188314/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13188314/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 07:37:46 PDT
No. I can't keep on sitting here, reading and writing. I need a fresh air. Ha! I'll open a window. And eat something. And drink something cold.
So I'll add this and edit soon. Puff, it's hot here, isn't it?

Ok. I'll watch "Niania"! ^-^
________________

Hahaha, it was a hilarious episode! xD
I feel more energetic now.

If you comment here...

1- I'll answer with something random about you.
2- I'll dare you to try something.
3- I'll say a color I associate with you.
4- I'll tell you something I like about you.
5- I'll tell you something I always remember about you / a first memory about you.
6- I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7- I'll ask you something I always wanted to ask you.
8- If I do this for you, you must put this in your journal. (You don't have to, really.)

So, let's go with the entry!

Wait, where's my mp3 player?! Ok, in my pocket.
I'll close the window. It's getting cold...
I'll listen to "The Kill" x3 No. It depends on what's in tv xD Aaaa!! Cabarets on tvp2!! "Krakow vs. rest of the world" Hahaha!! Hilarious Live from Krakow xD

I haven't write for a long time because I was just feeling tired. Lately I am tired, I don't know... One day I can wake up at 4:30 AM and one day I'm waking up at 7 AM and feel totally sleepy!
Also I was busy. It's almost End of school year and it's end of my school. Next year I'll be in a High School... Without my classmates... Well, it's sad. But I'm busy because of my grades puuff... They are lower than I wanted
Also the ball is coming!! I have a dress, it's really beautiful! ^^ Black with white flowers. I like the material very much, it's really smooth... I had to give it to dressmaker. Hahaha, I'm too slim!! I have to buy some shoes to it. I think that with make-up and nice hairstyle I'll look great ^^ And we have awesome choreography to polonaise. My class will teach other classes because it was Beata's and Asia's idea ^^
Hahaha, cabarets are great! Grupa Mozarta was playing some popular songs (they play on strings, you know, Mozart) and than one of them started rapping about Mozart xD "Where is Mozart?" XD Hahaha ^^ It ends at about 11PM. Great. Krakow really is only 750 years old? My town has about 610 years

I think I'm becoming emo. Hahaha. Well, maybe not, but I started to like emo music! I mean, I don't know at al is this emo. Nowadays you can call everything emo, gosh... I mean, I like 30 seconds to Mars, although the vocalist has black nails @__@" Hahaha, I even like My Chemical Romance "You can't love me now" or something like that, I don't remember... And I like Gerard's eyes! He looks like he's about crying hahaha. Cute.
Damn. I'm scary, am I not?! Noo, not another emoish person!! I just need more Linkin Park!! But I can't stop listening to "The Kill", bury me, bury me!! Hahaha.
But don't worry. I'm too cheerful to be emo xD I guess o.o
About LP. I almost won 2 tickets for their concert at 13th June in ChorzÃ³w!! Really!! There were only 4 smses to end of the contest! And than stupid error in my cell phone ruined my dreams... So stupid ;/ And also I noticed that I can't draw. Ehhh... And my sister just so pissed me off!! I ended up crying and listening to "Part of me". "Cut myself free..." I don't know what's this song about at all, but it sounds depressing xD Hahaha, I love it! ^-^
What else? I don't know what to write more...
Tomorrow's one hour with LP on Mtv! ^-^ Half an hour of a document and than half an hour of relation from their concert Great And my parents today went away for a week so I won't have any problems with watching it ^^
Yesterday was Children Day. I got 50zÅ. Hah, I've already spent 20 ==" Stupid thing. I need more money for myself! :/ Not saying I'll have pay for the dressmaker on my own...
Tomorrow I think I won't be here. I have to do my belated Polish homeworks and do work for Art.
I have to draw something. I have some ideas and two wor... ]]> ~lena91 Uhh...||Tireeed.... http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13175384/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/13175384/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 13:51:08 PDT
Yeah. So, I updating. Only to say that I won't update it XD Yeah, it sounds stupid. Whatever.
I'm tired and sleepy. I've commented on almost every journal etc. And now I have, like, 55 deviations to look through. I'll do it tomorrow. Uff... Sleep sleep sleep. Today I was shopping. I found nice dress for my ball. I'll buy it tomorrow. Hahaha, nice ^^
Yup, today I made a good thing - found a song from nokia's advertisement for Beata ^^ Yeah. And its lyric. And sent it all to her xd Now I'm listening to "The kill". It's great! XD
I'm happy. I'm downloading Frat Party at the Pankake Festival ^^
Well. Hope I'll update my journal tomorrow.

Hahaha.
"Fall Barbarossa". STUDY HISTORY!!

]]> ~lena91 They || I quit! || Sherbet? http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12974757/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12974757/ Wed, 16 May 2007 07:49:25 PDT Do not appreciate.
Do not care.
Do not answer.
Do not talk.
Do not listen.

I do hate 'em.

Thank you very much for NOT entering my contest. Yeah, it was really nice... *sarcasm*
I feel tired with writing smses to people who aren't going to answer. Stupid. With this money I could send some smses for charity actions.

I added two drawings to my Gallery. And yes, I quited drawing. I only do chibis.
But I'm going to draw Mike Shinoda. Someday. Maybe.

Well. I can't log in on LPMB. "We are currently down for maintenance. We apologize for the delay. Please check back shortly." Gosh... And there are so many interesting topics I want to post in xD
I have heard "No Roads Left", new LP song available only in preorder on iTunes. Yeah, but, of course, I've downloaded it. And I'm confused. Mike sings so... strange? I think that he can't sing at all, but I still love that song.
Ok, I can log in on LPMB.
"Method Not Allowed
The requested method POST is not allowed for the URL /process/login."
Oh, well. Or maybe I can't.
Refresh.
"We are currently down for maintenance. We apologize for the delay. Please check back shortly."
Deja vu?

I have to go and buy some paper, brushes and paints. Tomorrow I have Art and I have to do my work. But I'm too lazy to go to shop.

School is finishing. And my grades are so low, I was surprised when I saw them... Only B and C?! Damn it.

My life is so boring.

To do Linkin Park edition:
watch Frat Party at the Pankake Festival (yeah, pankake!). Somehow. YouTube?
listen to Collision Course
I think I wanted to write something more, but now I don't remember what.

Friends:
Friends? I don't have friends.

sent me a link to 's Mike. Hahaha. It was really nice. I think it'll be another person to watch. xD

Sherbet

]]> ~lena91 COMPETITION!! || Minutes to Midnight leak!! ^^ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12908543/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12908543/ Thu, 10 May 2007 07:21:52 PDT
So, to begin with - there was leak of Minutes to Midnight, new Linkin Park album!! And, of course, I downloaded it xD It's great! Chester's at his best!! And, did you know that Mike can sing? xD He's amazing, I love how he rap in "Bleed it Out" or Fort Minor songs. I'm gonna buy M2M ^^ Ok, my mom is going to buy it in GdaÅsk xD She don't want, though ==" And I want CD/DVD version, I really really have to get it, I'll die if not! xD
Yeah, I think that Mike is amazing, but I'm in shock, though. I was reading sme scans form "Kerrang" magazine and there was site about music that Shinoda listens to (dunno who is really interested in that... ). And there was photo of his face and omg! What have he done with himself?! Damn, whatever, but I like his clothes, that scarf rules! xD
And I won't even mention about Chester. There was his photo too, on other site xD And he's wearing big, black earrings @.@" It's... awful
Linkin Park changed a lot. But I still love their music ^^ And I'm just totally in love with Brad! xD His solos in "In Pieces", "The Little Things Give You Away" or "Shadow of the Day" are just great!! ^^ I've never liked solos, but these I just love xD

i have to stop talking about LP. But I'm so excited! xD "I've got Chester from Linkin Park signature! I've got an autogram, I'm so excited!" said fish and fell down from a stick xD

Time for a COMPETITION!!
It's a literary competition. The tittle of work is "My dreamed holidays". Work should be quite short, have some mistakes (like wrong tense, lack of "a/an/the" etc. Simple mistakes) and should look like it was written by a Polish student xD
Winner with get a picture! Funny picture... And it will look terrible, as terrible as your works should! xD (ok, I'll do my best, but i can't draw!) xD
Deadline is at Saturday. Send it in note ^^Hurry up!
To add - it's not for me, it's for my friend xD She have to write it to Monday, but she's leaving and have no time. So help her!! xD It'd be fun ^^

'K, what more to write? draw me Mike Shinoda and put it into scraps. I'm disappointed =="
I'm translating lyrics from M2M. I have about half ^^ Yesterday I made account on emuzyka.pl and I'm putting there my translations. Wanna share with others xD

Bye~ ^^

Friends:
~lena91 10 Things||Exams||This damn guitar..||Afraid http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12816793/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12816793/ Wed, 02 May 2007 14:26:34 PDT
Let's start with nice game ^^
~StaticFactory gave me the letter S ^^

FIRST: Leave a comment and I'll give you a letter. You have to write ten different things you like starting with that letter.

1. SHINODA!! Mike Kenji Shinoda aka Spike Minoda and, probably, aka Akira, but I'm not sure. Yeah, Akira sounds cool and he definitely is!! And, damn, I'm not a fangirl ;D /Well, he's not a thing, but whatever.../
2. Singing - though I really can't and have terrible voice. But I can't listen to LP and not sing, for me it's impossible! xD
3. Sketching - especially on boring lessons.
4. Sleeping, yeah, we all just love it
Err... 5 more?! I dunno... It's hard to think about words in English
5. Screaming with Chester when I'm angry. It really helps me, try it ^^
God, 4 more?! *opens dictionary* Yeah xD
6. Sailing - though I did it only once.
7. Stars, they are so beautiful ^^
8. Songs. Music in generally xD
9. Silence. Nothing more to add ^^
10. Damn... Shinoda Sunshine? xD

Ufff, it was so damn hard xD

About my exams. They were easier than I thought! To be honest I wasn't studying too hard And I think I will have about 80%. Good ^^

And now I have long weekend, whoa! Yesterday was holiday and tomorrow is too. So at Saturdays (14th and 21st) we were at school and we aren't going this week. Cool! ^.-

At Saturday or Sunday I was smsing with ~Gigglee about instruments. I was so really angry that people like Mike Shinoda can play many instruments and I don't have any talent, I'm just awful in everything. I couldn't stand it so I just took my fathers guitar and very old book and wanted to learn how to play. But, well, I didn't understand what they're talking about and I thought they weren't right in some things and I was even more frustrated. Damn, I've got hidden none talent... It pisses me off! Damn!!
Another thing that annoys me is my sister. She thinks she's some kind of master and she can rule me! WTF?! I won't write more about her, because... Whatever, I wanna kill her >.<
Today I downloaded Fort Minor album "The Rising Tied".It's awesome, you should listen to this songs! ^-^ And it's good not only because Mike is raping =o=" Oh, well, of course, he's soo talented, but not only he made it xD ~Gigglee, really, I'm not fangirl, leave me alone! xD

"Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed?
Ridiculous, without even trying, how do they do it?!"

I just feel tired with waiting for new Linkin Park album and listening to "Given up" snippets al the time. And I'm so afraid about "Minutes to Midnight". They changed their style and everybody on LP zion forum writes that their good days passed and "Given up" is so bad and "What I've Done" is even more awful... I like this songs and thanks to them I still believe in them. But all those fans on LP zion, their words pain me and make me so unsure, I don't feel good, so afraid... I know, I should just not read what they write and think what I want to but I can't. I don't know why. It's only 14 songs, nothing so important. But I'm still scared. I'm confused about my own feelings, ehh...
I don't have any motivation to draw. I think I should just take a pen and write story I have on my mind... And we with ~Gigglee have a sketch of our parody of lovestory hahaha, haven't we? xD It will be so dramatic at the end... Poor Mike and Chester... xD
I have a poster with Linkin Park ^o^ I'll hang it on wall in my room, yeah!

Ok, I will end now. I wanted to write longer entry but I'm tired.

Friends:
~lena91 Just wanna say hi http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12753709/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12753709/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 11:19:45 PDT will you help me? xD Shinoda Sunshine!! Damn, I just want to take a shower and sleeep... It'll be great 9 days! but meybe boring, umm, great weather and me alone at home... Whatever, always I can just go alone for a long walk But it'll be boring...
K, that's all for today. Tomorrow I'll write something and comment all your journals and deviations. See ya!

]]> ~lena91 Hello http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12665654/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12665654/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 09:29:15 PDT So, whassup people? <- I just HAD to write it! It reminds me Mike Shinoda XD Don't know why so don't ask me xD

Today I was in High-school on open doors ^^ And I'm going on humanistic or History-wos profile ^^ (WoS - Wiedza o SpoÅeczeÅstwie - subject about politics etc.). I will study LATIN! Yay, so excited!! ^^ At Tuesday and Wednesday I'm getting my exams. I didn't study yet, I hope it will be ok... ;/ I'm too lazy!
I've added chibi LP in Scraps - you'd better check it out xD And just don't laugh at Brad, duh...
Yay, I feel like some kind of Mike's fangirl, yay! xD And I'm happy about it, hahaha ^^ Linkin Park, my little obsession ^o^ Today I read review of all their Minutes to Midnight songs. And I'm scared, they changed their style!! Well, I still hope theiur new album will be good... I want to buy it!!
About the review - What I've done got 5/5! Well, It's good song but not SO good... And there will be less Mike... Puff...
[click] <- too funny to not watch!! XD AUTOGRAM! XD
[click] <- poor Mike... XD "HAHAHA", like he'd say.. XD

Friends:

Bye for now people, see ya~ ^_~

]]> ~lena91 I'm sorry//High Voltage~//blabling, as always xD http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12590257/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12590257/ Sat, 14 Apr 2007 07:02:50 PDT I'm sorry for not commenting your journals nor drawings. I don't feel like doing it. But if you want me to comment something just ask. Then, for sure I will.
Today I was at school, stupid, it's Saturday. Why can't we just go to school in May? I don't need a long weekend. I can't have normall weekend, then go to school, have 3 free days, go at Friday and than have weekend. It would be better. Now I'm going to school at Saturday and next week it'll be the same. And I have exams at 24th, when I will rest?! 6 days in school per week. Great. xP
I still have my Linkin Park obsession ^^ Yesterday I was searching for their pictures on deviant and I saw 3 MikexChester ones... God, how can they? I understand pairing manga's characters but real people? Whatever...
I was trying to translate "What I've done" into Polish. Some words just don't make sens for me, I don't like using dictionary xD And I read translations on popolsku.pl and they made me laugh. Those people really don't know what they're writing or I'm so stupid and don't understand?
For example:
I'll face myself - BÄdÄ miaÅ nowego siebie - I'll have a new me (myself? ) xD
Of a thousand lies - po tysiÄcu kÅamstw - after 5 thousand lies
Put to rest what you thought of me - Zapomnij to co o mnie myÅlaÅeÅ - Forget what you thought of me
Erase myself - oczyÅciÄ swoje imiÄ - clean my name (?)

After reading 4 such translations I'm hesitating do I know English... Maybe they're right, well, 4 people wrote that! o.O"
Ehh...
So can you help me? Explain some sentences in other words, can you?
"'Cause I've drawn regret
from the truth
of a thousand lies"
Damn, draw regret? There is whole page about meaning of "draw" and it confused me xD
"While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty"
What does "slate" means? I want a definition xD

What more to say... Um, I don't know, any ideas? xD
I'm persuading my parents to make Windows reinstalation. This computer is broken, I can't live with such thing!
High Voltage rules~ I'm going to download Hybrid Theory EP ^^ And, hahaha, Jamelia's cover of "Numb" xD I can imagine it - "I've become so numb (eo, eo eo...)" XD If I only could sing I would do soo cool covers ;/ xD

"Just do somethin' to tell you who I am"
High voltage, nanana, Mike rules xD

Days left to exams: 10!?! WTF, I have to study!

Friends:

Bye~
Mr Haaahnnn... Let's begin! xD

]]> ~lena91 My obsession http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12508797/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12508797/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 10:55:42 PDT "Its like Im paranoid lookin over my back
Its like a whirlwind inside of my head
Its like I cant stop what Im hearing within
Its like the face inside is right beneath my skin"

Happy Easter, people!~

On Friday I woke up and started singing "I can't hold on! It's so too much to take in...!" and from that moment I'm singing Linkin Parks songs all the time. On that day I bought mp3 player! YAY! And I was just so excited! Also I got letter from She send me Ragnarok, whoa! And draw some nice pictures, they're kawaii! ;3
When I came back from shop I sat in front of computer and put all my songs on mp3. I don't have many, only Linkin Park songs from Meteora , Hybrid Theory and Reanimation, PCD and Christina Aguilera, opening from DN and that's all. And new Linkin Park song!! Whoaa! Thanks to ^^ "What I've done", it's just awesome~ ^^ But I hadn't seen video yet ;( I wasn't watching viva nor mtv recently. I don't have time. And I won't watch it on YouTube, because my computer will restart xP So annoying!!
But I've seen some photos from this video. And I just hate new Chester's image o.O" He looks just stupid! Uhh... Now Linkin Park reminds me U2. Chester = Bono ==" I have notebook with Bono, it's kinda funny
Yup, I'm talkin about Linkin Park all the time. I'm listening their songs. I'm reading about them in internet. I'm printing their lyrics. Annoying, na? I was so HUGE fan two years ago. ~Gigglee would say that I was brainless fan True, true... I had 2 posters in my room Hahaha, it was funny... But now I don't want to be such a fan. It was just stupid. I hope it will pass...
So. I'm just listening and I have to study!! But I'm too lazy. And I'm not even drawing. Although Linkin Park song give me soooo many inspirations. But I think I'm just too bad "artist" to draw Nah, it's not for me.
Linkin Park, Linkin Park, Linkin Park. Bla bla bla

My sister didn't buy me that crayons. But I don't care, I'm too excited about my mp3 XD

I have a question. Do you like visiting "popular" category?
I don't, at all. They're so good works that I don't really take pleasure from looking at them. And stupid thing, for me, is that people favourite these arts but don't comment. Huh, kinda stupid. And even if you comment I don't really think that this person will answer your post Well, I prefer "New" category

Arts To do:
Closed for now. I'm too lazy

Days left to exams: 16!!!

Friends:
~lena91 Disappointed~ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12467208/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12467208/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 07:46:28 PDT still coloring in OC. [It's on lineart.] Just to make my profil more interesting xD Now I'm scanning my exercises on drawing body and I'll add it to scraps. And you know what? o.O" My scanner is making some strange noises o.O" Whoa... But it still scans, so it's ok xD
Today my sister Kasia arrived from Warsaw (where she studied) and I asked her about Otaku. And she said she hadn't bought it!! There was only no. 3 and she looked through it and didn't like it... But you see, it's only Polish magazine about manga and anime!! And you can buy it only in Empiks! Which are only in big cities... I would love just to go to such a shop, look through Otaku, read article about "Death Note" and decide not to buy it xP But I can't and that's the point! Yesterday she wrote me a sms with wishes and that I have to wait for rapidograph (hahaha, there isn't probably such a word, I made it by my own because I didn't know how it's in English xD In my dictionary I don't have this word. But it's pen to make linearts ;D) and now I don't think that she bought me Faber Castell crayons ;/ I even didn't ask her and now she's sleeping all day >.>" I'm disappointed ;/
Tomorrow I'm going with my mum for my birthday present. I wanna mp3 player and maybe some clothes
Yesterday my sister Ania from USA called by Skype. And you know what she told us?! She's married on Monday!! And Weiming (yes, that's his name - he's family comes from China ) wasn't even her fiance o.O" Well, ok, they have baby xD But it was only civil wedding so she can have green card. They will have normal weddin in Poland
What more to write about...
"no messages" - Yay! I love it
My dad bring me Germany course. I really have to study, because I don't understand nothing in Germany and I just hate it @.@"

To do:
Have a long sleep @.@"
copy pictures from body tutorial - 10%
correct and finish that untitled art
draw Jack Sparrow - 0,5% (photos)
finish coloring Sakura - 60%
Mystery fanart, I won't tell you, it's so funny XD (Bai knows xd)
copy these 12 pictures just to practise - 5%

Days left to exams: 19!!!

Friends:
~lena91 Birthday ^.^ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12454064/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12454064/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 08:09:32 PDT Thanks for many comments in my last entry Well, it was only from 6 people including me Thank you anyway.
And today is my birthday! Whoa! ^^ Although I don't feel it at all. Only in school my class sang for me ^^ And they pray for me on RE XD It was really nice, though I'm atheist
Beata gave me b-day card and Ferrero Rocher We usually give each other presents on party (I don't make parties 'cos no one would come... >.>"), but she gave it because on her birthday I gave her book XD "First steps to Lucid Dreams" - once she was interested in LD and I saw this book in December and decided to gave it to her XD And her birthday was in January ^^
I have a headache >.>"
And don't know what to write now, I'm just tired. Holidays became. 6 days free from school. Super! *-*

To do list:
Take some rest!
Start to study...
Practise drawing
Read all that messages and deviations... Uh... ;/ I don't feel like doing it...

I don't know what to write. I'm tired. I don't want to read and comment your journals nor arts. I want to... I don't know what. Ehh... Maybe I just don't want nothing... >.>" No. I want my mp3 player! Don't think will get it. xP

Sorry for my English. I feel like I made many mistakes. Don't care at all. Uhh... Happy birthdays... >.>" <- talking to myself? XD
Bye~

]]> ~lena91 Weekend... Give me comments people @.@" http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12387223/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12387223/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 10:23:31 PDT you! For myself I would write in Polish, simple.
So, if you not going to read it, it will be short.
Today after school my mum gave me my cell phone. I put my sim card in and turned it on. All my stuff was gone!! All my photos, games, music, videos... I was collecting it for 9 months. And now it's gone. Ok, I know, it's only photos, but they were part of my memory! My friends were on them, my arts, L, my dormice...! Ehh, I don't like my cell phone anymore, no one can now say I'm addicted ==" And you know what is the most stupid thing in all that?? Only recharger was broken! Nothing in my phone! And they gave me new recharger and just clean my phone for God-know-what ;( Damn Motorola... Next time I will just buy Nokia. Not Motorola only because it was for 1zÅ. Damn...
Well, I wanted my mother to buy me mp3 player. And she didn't, geez... >.>" My birthday are not before Wednesday. And I want mp3!! I just need it =="
I have 5- from my History short test. I didn't know anything, I'm just great!! @.@"! And I was asked on Geography... And have 5-, too @.@" Whoa!! I don't need to study!
Yesterday on Maths we had "lecture" about high-schools and enrollment. And I'm just terrified!! @.@" I will give my application to High School no. 1. on humanistic profile and Economic High school on English-History. And to Gdynia to High school no. 3, which is third the best school in Poland. On profile humanistic-interdisciplinary. I even don't think that I could get there, it's impossible. I hope I will get to High School. But it all just make me hysterical @.@"
I want a job, I need money... But there isn't any job for me. So I have to ask my parents for more money...
Now I'm reading drawing tutorials. I've read huge amount of it, but I need more. Well, I don't know how to draw body. And finally find tutorial about it @.@" I just kind draw, ehh...

Days left to my exam: 25
Days left to my birthday: 5!!

Arts to do:
[closed]
No one is interested in my drawings, I can't draw, so conclusion is clear.

Friends

Sorry for all mistakes, especially in part about school, I didn't know how to write about it.

]]> ~lena91 Any idea for tittle? http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12335961/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12335961/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 12:26:28 PDT Yesterday all day I was making my homework... Especially from supplementary English, it was so difficult that my brain hurt ==" But teacher didn't check it...
In school before Germany I with some of my friends had a "battle" with teacher (we don't know her). She forbade us to sitting on the window-still. When she told us that once again Martyna asked why we can't sit here.
- It is written in regulations - she told us and moved away with superiority.
She couldn't know that not so long time ago I'd read regulations because of PaÅubicki (from History) and earrings. I didn't remember nothing about stills, so I went to read it once again. Of course I was right, there wasn't nothing about it. I told everybody that they can sit and we were waiting for teacher's reaction. But it was end of break and we hadn't got fun, what a shame... >.>" Well, nobody will be teaching me about regulations, phi How stupid adults are, no comment.

MaÅysz won a Ski Jumping World Cup and Otylia JÄdrzejczak has got a second place in swimming. Don't you think that Poland rules? Well, everybody know that, after all I'm from Poland I know, I know, I'm too modest... xd

My mother got an promotion so she has her own computer (she's a judge and now she's a president of assembly... or something like that, whatever). So maybe they will take away her notebook as she doesn't need it. But maybe, maybe she will have it so she will bring it home... And don't need to use this computer I want her to buy internet to the laptop so that parents will have it and I with my sister will take computer to our room ^^ Yay, it would be soo good!! ;D But I don't think it would happen at all...

Last time I asked you about coloring. Chiharu told me about Copy Sketch Markers. They're awesome!! And cost about 300$ for 72... I don't have so much and don't think I will have in nearest future ==" Dreaming about it pointless... And I even can't draw I think I will buy a Faber Castell crayons.
And my next question is: what do you use to make linearts? I use a simply black gel pen 0.5mm - it's too thick. I want to get better one but I just don't know what. Repeat - I can't draw, but I have my birthday soon and want my sister to buy me something ^^ She's in Warsaw so there must be an art shop :3 I wrote her to buy me "Otaku" number 3 and 4 - it's a magazine about m&a ^.^! I want it! XD

In the end of May JPF will probably publish "Death Note" manga!! Hurra! I want to buy it by Internet! but I think it will be too expensive for me... ;/

I gave Chiharu my address. She will send me something m&a, yatta! ;]
And i can't wait untill she end her art for Ami (~Gigglee). I saw only a hair, it so beautiful, awesome, great, fantastic etc!! I feel so small now TT_____TT I can't draw and will never learn... ;( And she is so good! And Ami showed me her hairs - they're awesome too! I can't draw hair, I haven't any ideas for it >.>"

Drawing, drawing, writing... Wha-? XD I wanted to write a story named "Wish". At the beginning I thought it will be fantasy, but I thought it's just too simple. So I want to write a detective story in XIX Poland! Well, actually Poland haven't exist in that time, it was under a partition (is it correct??). Whoa, it would be interesting! ^-^ But I have to find some history facts and i don't have time That story was inspired by Boris Akunin's books

Today P.E. while playing we (girls from my class) talked about decorations on our ball. We're hesitating to do like a Wild West or mythology. I wanted pirates bu well... >.>"

Huh, I'm writing and writing o.O" My sister is pissed off xD

Arts to do:
http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12309778/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 12:46:56 PDT TAG is in previous entry!
Today Adam MaÅysz won in Ski Flying! Åiii! ^.^ I hope that tomorrow he win too and he win Word cup 4th time!! ^.^
And right now we're winning with Azerbaijan 4:0 in Football match. It's just too easy...
I think I'm quite odd. Everyday I'm just clicking on "browse" and in Newest looking for manga/anime pictures.. And then comment it Isn't that really strange? o.O" You know, you're [5:0 XD!] happy on your profile and suddenly somebody starts to comment all your arts and even journal
Well.
I have a question: what crayons do you use to color? I have BiC, but they aren't too good and I want new ones for my birthday (4th of April). Or maybe it's in paper? Well, I'm not expert so I use paper that my parents buy for our printer I really don't know what to use to color and my pictures are terrible... >.>" Help me!
Yesterday at school Kobus said that in other class they're already making pairs in polonaise which we're dancing at 3rd classes' ball. And he asked Asia to dance with him. She agreed because we said she should [And so we won 5:0. Last time it was 8:0, well... XD] And I'm worried that I won't dance polonaise. All because they're 7 boys in my class and 14 girls o.o" And 5 girls surely will dance and I don't think [OMG! My computer has restarted but thanks to Firefox my entry is still here *-*] that anybody will chose me... In fact, I can't imagine myself dancing with anybody from my class, huh o.O" They aren't handsome, intelligent, cute, nice, kind and anything else And probably I won't have any good dress, in my town you just can't buy a good dress ==" I don't feel like going on a ball >.>" But I'm sure it will be fun!! ^^
Yay! I have 104 hits! Thank you all! I think I should draw a kiribian, shouldn't I? XD but I don't know what... No. Now I know
Aww... *-* Today is "Gorgeous" on tv!! Romantic comedy with Jackie Chan, I love it x3 YAY!!
I don't know what to write...
I have to do my homeworks tomorrow... Uh... >.>" And finally draw something!!

Arts to do:
Jack Sparrow - 0%
coloring Sakura - 60%
coping 12 anime pictures as a exercise - 5%
LxR - 1% (idea)
Kiribian - 1% (idea)

Days left to my exams: 31

Friends
~lena91 Yesterday, today, always is time to TAG! XD http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12295748/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12295748/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 11:35:27 PDT
I wanna photos from Wednesday... Today Asia gave them to Beata. I will wait
Yesterday I had short test from Maths. I hadn't been studying! But I wrote all 2 exercises () and they were quite easy. Although that, I'm sure that I have wrong answer in 2nd. What a shame! Me, who in primary school got 6 from maths! Well... It was long, long time ago XD
Also I had a test from English. Did it in 15min, then 5min for checking and 20min of boredom 30/30, as always. Beata had the same, she's quite good at English. Of course not as good as me, because I go to English school Once she told me that she hasn't got money. Well, if she spend less on clothes and sweets...
And today! Today I had test from Polish from "Pan Tadeusz" - I even hadn't read it!! But it was rather from logical thinking - we had two texts and 26 questions about it. Then about 5 open exercises. Kinda stupid dedication - "on holidays you met foreigner and you are giving him "Pan Tadeusz". Write a dedication." Firstly - I wouldn't give foreigner book in Polish and write dedication in Polish! Rather in English... Well, stupid xd
And short test from Physics. How stupid I am! Everything correct not including speed of wave of sound. And it was on the board!! But I didn't want to look, it would be too suspicious XD I wrote 2448km/h instead of 1224km/h ;___;

Time to TAG!

Tagged by ~

A. choose your top 10 music singers:
Err.. can be band?
Black Eyed Peas
Fergie
Nelly Furtado
Gwen Stefani
No Doubt
Linkin Park
Christina Aguilera
Pussy Cat Dolls
Megumi Hayashibara
Within Temptation

B. choose your top 10 things you can't live without:
School! Say what you want, but without it life would be empty!
My friends ^.^
Manga
Anime
Music
My pencils ;]
Death Note! L! *-* http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12271589/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 13:12:16 PDT But. My friends Beata, Martyna and Ola were hip hop style, Asia - hippie and Sonia and Natalia almost a hip hop XD Kiszka was a Black Woman XD Hahaha, so funny! Asia and Natalia had cameras and were taking photos ^^ They'll record (?) photos on a CD and everybody will copy it. So I'll add some photos probably next week, it was so funny ^^ And we were playing music, yeah ^.-
Nadia didn't come to school. I'll kill her!! she had to give me our op-art and I had to finish it!! And now what?! She's so stupid, trusting her is pointless and nonsensical!! How I hate her, she's stupid and she is astound that nobody likes her! God, once i checked up in encyclopedia meaning of the word stupid and she really is! x/ I don't care about that stupid op-art, her fault.
Well, but this day was great ;] I didn't learn yesterday for my Biology test. but it was so easy! 20 questions with answers a, b, c, d o.O" I made it in 10min! Then I went on supplementary Maths lesson, we're doing question, which may appear on our exam. Normally I don't do nothing on Maths, I just talk and laugh, so sleepy and lazy. But on that supplementary there was only me and 4 people from my class and it was quiet and everybody were working. I only add that they weren't any grinds, we're normal xD I like that Maths, it's quite interesting and today it was funny Tomorrow's short test, I need to learn. I'm so stupid xD
When I came home I have rest and then tidied my room and washed up o.O" Then do my homework, omg, I'm not lazy! Yeee!~
I have to learn, tomorrow we've got History and Geography >.>" When it rains, it pours?? Only at Tuesdays and Thursdays
Now I'm coloring Sakura in OC ==" Her hair! Don't know how to shadow it xP

To Do list:
finish coloring Sakura
draw Jack Sparrow
copy those anime pictures
start studying Germany
start studying Japanese

Friends:

I'm talking too much, am I not?

]]> ~lena91 It made my day... Made it terrible!! http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12257638/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12257638/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 12:00:13 PDT
Today after school I went with Nadia to her house. We had to make our op-art for Art lesson. She's so annoying!! First we were arguing about what to draw - she wanted a difficult picture which contained 2592 circles!! I wanted a simple (but impressive) black-white rectangles. And I won, as always... But it was so annoying, really! I don't like her, but I hadn't got a pair to draw this stupid op-art >.>" We didn't finish it, she will make the lines and I all the rest. If I want to something be done good, I have to do it by myself >.>"
When I came back home my mother told me that in Plus they hadn't got a substitute cell for for me! >.< What now? I need my mobile! Not even to communicate, but it's my watch, my alarm clock, my calendar and things like that ;/ Well, it's only a week...
Today I had a short test from History and I didn't know too much... I was only guessing and writing about nothing, as always ^^" I think I will get 3 (in 1-6 scale, while 1 is the worst and 6 is the best) Tomorrow is first day o Spring, so we have a Truant Day. With my friends we were planning how to dress, but I don't have any clothes for so occasions.
Tomorrow I'm writing test from Biology. I don't know nothing! Have to study hard and have 5 again.
Yesterday I wrote very pessimistic entry. Well, sometimes I just have to complain about my failures. It's normal for me! After writing that I printed 6 pictures of Jack. I really want to draw him! I even invented fantastic pirate costume! But I don't have such a clothes so I won't dress ^^" Hahaha, who normal keep a sabre in his house? I'm crazy xD Krejzolka, mwahahaha! You should watch sketch "Blondynka" Paranienormalni But... it's in Polish, hahaha xD I'm krejzolka and so krejzi xD (crazy)
Err... Back to topic. I had also printed 12 random anime pictures, just to practice drawing body, I'll copy them twice. I don't want to give up drawing... I want to be as good as my friends!
Especially , I just admire her! She draws a few drawings per day and they're so good! I thinks she ends everything she started to draw, not like lazy me! xP
And - she's got so good works in her Gallery! Please view her profile and comment her drawings and journal - she don't want to write anything because she says no one except me will read it >.>" Make her feel good and comment something, she's so good anime artist!

Well, I feel tired by writing so long in English... Uff... Sleep... Tomorrow I start lessons at 8:55, YATTA! I love Wednesdays!

Greetings for:

...
So tired... >.>"

]]> ~lena91 Wanna die... http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12245337/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12245337/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 13:49:31 PDT After that I came home and watched news. Bad things happen, as always. Don't know why war with Iraq still exist.(probably exist isn't good word, but I don't want to think...). It's so stupid and pointless... Whatever.
While watching tv I wanted to draw something. And I just can't draw bodies!! I'm completely broken... I should just practice but I'm so lazy and impatient that I just can't!! I feel sad >.>" And so lonely... In fact I don't have any friends >.>" It so sad, heh Whatever...
I don't want to draaaaw, I'm so hopeless, pheh...
I'm tired and sleepy. But tomorrow is History and Geography so I have to study hard... Sleep... sleep... Z.z"
Pheh...
Bye~

]]> ~lena91 Short http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12242778/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12242778/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 08:56:03 PDT At 5:10 I've got my additional English school, uwww.. >.o" And it's 4.55 (my time -> GMT+01.00) I don't have my handout done!! Uwaa! And we have a short test! My god XD Don't know nothing...
Be back at 7:00, maybe write something later
Bye~
- update your journal! In English, NOW XD English is fun

]]> ~lena91 So lazy... http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12233040/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12233040/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 13:27:02 PDT I adore myself because of him *-* Uh, stupid me, it's only a simple sketch So what Now I'm searching for photos of Jack Sparrow. Tomorrow I'll print them and start drawing day after tomorrow, I think.
Uh, tomorrow's Monday, I hate Mondays! Like Garfield xD I'm so lazy and my life is so chaotic with making homeworks at night, studying in school break before my test and all that things. Lazy and chaotic. I hate it >.>" I have to start studying and organize my time, so that I have time for school, drawing and relax. Dreams, I'm not able to do that xD
Stupid me.
Crazy me.
Uh =="
I have to practice drawing more. I want to get better and better >.>"
Well... It's time to end this entry, it's nonsensical

Greetings for:

]]> ~lena91 My first note ^^ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12216476/ http://lena91.deviantart.com/journal/12216476/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 08:12:12 PDT So... what to say, what to say, what to say... Errr... only singin', love this song
Yesterday I watched "Pirates of the Caribbean: the curse of Black Pearl" and I decided to draw Jack Sparrow. Decided. So I think that I'll never finish it, hahaha xD I'm so lazy and i haven't got any talent... Who cares? Drawing is so much fun xD Like writing in English, although I think that I'm making now lots of mistakes... Whatever xd
Drawing Jack... No, it would be too difficult for me. Manga is easier than portraits. But I'll try Now I'm coloring Sakura on Chiharu's lineart in OC. Um, I wanted to color it, but OC went crazy and I don't have tools o.O" Strange xD
And today I was in hairdresser and I have fringe, yay! xD Now I look so different xD I was also in Plus shop with my mobile. Recharger doesn't work ;/ Wanted buy new one, but seller said that maybe it's the mobile fault and they'll send it and recharger to Motorola. I have to bring them my guarantee card. Week without my mobile and I'm not worry, though I'm sms maniac xD
I think that's all for now... Uff, English I've used dictionary only two times, impressive xD And my teacher wanted me to write FCE? Hmm... I would write it, but wasn't on mock... Had my polish competition, 3rd (and last) stage. But ended up in bed, being ill =/ 3rd of March is the worst day in my life But it doesn't matter at all now.
And still writing... Time to finish. Byee~ xD

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