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]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/8348103/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/8348103/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 21:34:12 PDT
I will try in the near future. I promise! ]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/7392597/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/7392597/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 13:25:22 PST ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/6698942/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/6698942/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 20:15:25 PDT
and I am only like.. 20 cents off on my devdollars from reaching the price for a subscription. psh.

anyway.. I haven't had any photo ideas lately. so, i ask you guys.. what would you like to see? (no nudes, sorry. )

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/6646433/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/6646433/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 21:56:50 PDT It is something that I am reminded of with every little thing I do.
Oh yes, I’m afraid that it’s true.
It’s something I must admit,
That when I am not with you…
My heart is torn in two.
It barely beats.
Because the other half, my dear…
is in you.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/6030602/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/6030602/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 13:16:58 PDT Even though you've said nothing at all,
Nothing at all...

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]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5714420/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5714420/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 13:33:39 PDT
first thought- "What on earth is going on?"
second thought (after seeing my picture under 'daily deviation' on the front page) - "wow!"

so, i haven't even started to read all the comments, etc .. but i'd just like to THANK EVERYONE. especially ^hesitation for selecting it.



]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5698871/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5698871/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 09:12:31 PDT
Now, what is everyones take on this? I, personally, use myself as a model because I am always here, and I usually know the exact expression/pose/mood that I want to convey in the photo and it's just easy to do it myself.

So I explained all of that to this guy. I told him that the main reason I do it is because it's just convenient. And then I felt silly for even feeling like I had to defend myself. I guess that I felt defensive about this subject for SOME reason. *shrug*

Anyway, yeah .. I just felt like getting that out there.


edit- just incase anyone else gets alarmed, I cleaned out my gallery last night. it's something i'd been wanting to do FOREVER but never had the patience to sit down and actually DO. I took out most of the old stuff, but kept a few things.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5617086/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5617086/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 09:29:16 PDT and now i feel guilty.
and now it itches even more.

ahh i'm such a rebel.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5556153/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5556153/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 23:26:41 PDT Beth
is a Procrastinator
is Female
is a deviant since Aug 4, 2003, 9:25 PM
is subscribed until Sep 7, 2005, 5:41 AM
has 19,998 pageviews







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perhaps i should watch it turn. hmmm. i wonder if that's possible. lol. the funny thing is that i get more excited about the way that the numbers are (for example, one more pageview and it'd be 19999 .. and all those nines is just cool to me) than the amount of pageviews. pageviews don't really mean a whole lot to me, honestly.

hm. i need to submit something fabulous. i'll love myself if i can figure out how to do just that.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5477211/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5477211/ Fri, 27 May 2005 13:00:13 PDT

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5356187/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5356187/ Sat, 14 May 2005 12:57:44 PDT Lying here, sleeping in, losing in
Love.

I know you didn’t ask but I just had to tell
One more time what you’ve known forever
And the world stops moving when you’re around
You pick me up and place me down,
There is no other solace like that which I feel
When I here your voice utter that sound
So framiilar

And it’s just like they said it’d be.
The tide may be rising but I’ve got you to
Keep me from surrendering to the depths of the sea.

And it’s just like they said it’d be.
Perfect words said at a not so perfect time
Screams heard behind the eyes

Take the deep breath before you
Utter them silently
Rehearsing your destiny

I wish there was a way
To know that here and now would be forever.
Smiling behind my insecurities
Love chased and love won
This long fought race..
Give up to something larger than me
Give in to you.
And it’s a beautiful tragedy
Forsaken words heard spilling into your soul
Sitting behind ... driver of this long and unknowing ride
Only you can impede the racing drums your words
Cause me to feel on the inside.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5108121/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/5108121/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 23:49:33 PDT
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....

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4904080/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4904080/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 20:25:38 PST
i want to write them down but i can't. i don't even know where to begin. nothing makes it sound as good as it feels.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4862374/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4862374/ Sun, 20 Mar 2005 11:22:01 PST but the feeling I get inside when you hold me tight
is enough to keep me from saying not tonight
yes, that was my voice shaking .. saying those words took more than i thought.
i'm sorry for the mess that I feel like I'm sometimes making, the one you
swear that I'm not

maybe i'll believe you now.

i'm sorry for even hinting at making your heart feel like it was breaking,
i hope my words now untie that forming knot

and i could mutter a thousand promises, good intentions are always just that ...
i wonder if there's something better, more sound,
something that is a shout of forever,

perhaps my reasons will never be found.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4788658/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4788658/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 19:08:39 PST
i'll catch up on sleep and get a tan.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4632059/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4632059/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 19:26:45 PST
the only thing that is stopping me from deleting everything in this gallery is the fact that it'd take way too long to delete 300 something deviations.




















i feel un-special.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4601641/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4601641/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 19:47:26 PST All the words you say while you can’t look at me
Touch me; it makes my heart skip a beat,
Blush and look down at my feet.
This might not go anywhere
But maybe I just won’t care.
Tonight makes me feel alive inside
Tomorrow maybe different but I can’t help it.
Don't worry, I'll come back just to see if it fits.
Mostly because I’m still wondering what it’ll feel like
The first time we kiss.
I'm horribly complicated
and simply elated.
Sit and talk to me
For a brief moment I'll feel like you could set me free.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4514883/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4514883/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 18:51:41 PST
Just so you can close your eyes

Instead of staring at the star filled sky

Repeat the words; write them down

Even if you’re not sure

Saying it will make it so

And don’t listen to what I say,

It just changes from day to day

You’re too nice and

I’m too afraid of something that doesn’t even exist yet.

It’s my own tragic story

Played out on an imaginary stage

I promise I never mean for it to mislead you

you're just too nice and I'm too afriad

maybe i don't want it bad enough to deserve it.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4415846/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4415846/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 21:40:34 PST
i changed the prices on a handful already, i'll finish the rest later.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4403966/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4403966/ Mon, 24 Jan 2005 15:41:18 PST *tear*


ok, so it's not THAT big of a deal .. but hm .. maybe some feedback on this? i suppose it doesn't do any harm to have products available as prints even if no one is buying them ... *shrugs*

but yes ..

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4222223/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4222223/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 16:06:34 PST [link]



i finally got it working! i was doing it wrong before. but now, yes .. working.

so, uhmm .. enjoy? if there is anything that i don't have available as a print, and you KNOW that you would buy a print of it for SURE .. then, just let me know and I'll see what I can do..

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4201731/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4201731/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 13:14:50 PST

yay. over the next few days i'll start putting some prints up ...

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4165295/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4165295/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 21:58:33 PST
thanks again! *hugs to all*

btw, i wonder who the 200th watcher is going to be. and what i should do for this special person .... hm ....

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4145301/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4145301/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 11:49:11 PST
So ... I checked them out, realized they were 25 dollars, though "oh, that's not much .... i can pay that" .... then realized that I don't have a credit card. lol .. just cash.

And then I got to wondering if anyone would actually buy anything that I've submitted.

So maybe if you guys give me some feedback on what works you'd actually consider buying, if any at all ... maybe I can get a print account in some way .... *shrugs*


Btw, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4106453/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4106453/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 21:28:42 PST
i just got reminded of something that i never wanted to think about again.

and now i can't stop crying..


i hate the people who give me reasons to cry.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4080104/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4080104/ Thu, 16 Dec 2004 11:15:05 PST [link] added some more stock photos for the first time in a while today. click.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4035966/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/4035966/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 15:15:55 PST


ieeeeee! [link] gorgeous, isn't it?

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]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3726965/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3726965/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 17:07:54 PST sorry, no portraits this time around!! Oh well, something new is good!



]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3649379/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3649379/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 14:42:44 PDT
Needless to say, I recieved a note today saying something along the lines of, "There is nothing left for me, I am going to kill myself. Goodbye."

It upset me a lot, and I don't even know if the person was being serious. I urge anyone who has thoughts of killing themselves to seek help somewhere other than me ... go to someone you know, a teacher, friend, family member ... but I cannot do anything for you. I am sorry...

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3615198/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3615198/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 23:13:14 PDT
but ... i'll try to get around to taking some new stuff soon.

try is the keyword.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3584548/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3584548/ Wed, 13 Oct 2004 20:26:08 PDT
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]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3560833/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3560833/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 21:24:18 PDT
I don't even know what anything is worth anymore. There are things in my life that are worth more than they should be, and others that are worth far less than they ought to be. I care about some people more than words can express when they don't even give a shit about me, and if they do ... they are doing a really crappy job of showing it.

There are some people who I want to show exactly who I am. I want them to see me inside and out, because I think they'd change how they view me if they could see me like I see myself. I want to tell them everything I think about, and I want them to understand what I say exactly how I mean it. But I stop myself from pouring my heart out to them. I stop myself because I know my actions would be pointless. I know I wouldn't get a reaction. I wouldn't get anything that would let me know my words meant something.

I try to avoid writing down my thoughts to this extent as much as possible. I've found that I come off as depressed and generally unhappy when I write stuff like this. I don't want people to think that is who I am. I am a happy person. I smile much more than I frown, and I laugh far more often than I cry. I am carefree more often than I am a dweller. But I have to get this stuff out at some point or another.

I am not your average girl. I am not how I come off to be, and those who have once known me inside and out don't anymore. I've gone through many changes the past few months. I am proud of who I am, yet I am still a bit lost.

I don't know if I should follow my heart, or bite my tongue.

Some thing that I might want to do strongly one day, the next I have no desire to do.

I often plan out things to say to someone only to change my mind a few hours later.... because I realize that they aren't worthy of hearing something like that from *me*.

My intentions are good, but I am a little too naive.

I'm bitter to an extent. I've had to endure things you haven't, and if you have I am so sorry. Of course, I have it so much better than a ton of people do. My life as a whole is one of the best there could be.
But the wounds some people have made on my heart are still fresh even though it's been months. They've healed a lot, but easily get torn open. Sometimes I wonder if I'm picking at my own scabs, and others I think they're just destined to never fully heal. It's not even about what happened anymore, or who said what or didn't say ...whichever. The quote about how people will forget what you did and said, but will never forget how you made them feel.. is true. I can't put into words what I went through, and I wouldn't wish it upon even my worst enemy.

I am very tough and don't give a shit when it come to some stuff, but other things I am so, so sensitve to. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking in circles ...

I am the most complicated person I know.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3514430/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3514430/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 20:08:38 PDT
And when you listen to it it reminds you of the time period where you used to, and it makes you feel really really weird...



...... remind me to not listen to "only one" by yellowcard anymore, thanks.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3497433/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3497433/ Sat, 02 Oct 2004 18:30:35 PDT In your hands, in your hands
And it’s bleeding.
Bleeding, seeping
Seeping into your veins.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3461055/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3461055/ Mon, 27 Sep 2004 19:34:15 PDT well, you get the point.

I am going to get my haircut sometime this week.
I want something different than how it is now (obviously)
Right now it's about three inches below the shoulders and has a few long layers. My hair is fine textured, but I have a lot of it. It's straight, but I can wear it curly with some gel.

I want something stylish and cute. I don't care if I have to style it everyday, I don't mind that.
But, here's the catch .. I need to find a picture to show my stylist. I think Julia Stile's hair in The Prince and Me was really cute, but I don't know if I am brave enough to cut it that short.

Suggestions, links to pictures? Anyone? lol... help!

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3454528/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3454528/ Sun, 26 Sep 2004 21:42:17 PDT
I'm at a point in my life where I am changing rather quickly.
My personality is somewhat different. I'm more talkative, outgoing, and up front. I'll tell you what is on my mind and I wont put up with crap, I know how I deserved to be treated and I know not to put up with anything less by those who say that they care about me.

I find my morals have changed. Or, rather, gone back to how they used to be about a year and a half ago. Wow ... I can't believe it was that long ago. o_O

I refuse to create a physical bond with anyone that is meant to be forever if the chances are that it'll be broken. Bonds like that aren't meant to be broken, and when they are ...
yeah.

I think I am just realizing so much about myself that it's a slight shock. Yet there is still so much that I feel like, "who am i?" about...

I dunno.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3449488/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3449488/ Sun, 26 Sep 2004 09:13:10 PDT [link]

Check that guy out. He's doing a few vectors of some of my portraits.. I think they look pretty cool. :-D There's more to come, so keep an eye out! I think he's doing two more ... *shrug* not sure.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3446565/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3446565/ Sat, 25 Sep 2004 20:45:30 PDT
I'm sure you guys really benifited from reading that.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3409266/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3409266/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 18:58:31 PDT
]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3403005/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3403005/ Sun, 19 Sep 2004 22:38:43 PDT

I have no clue how to resolve them. And now I'm crying again. I don't know.. I don't want people to think I'm still attached to him or anything like that, cause I'm not. I just ... I cared about him a lot and he hurt me more than anyone ever has, reapeatidly.. over and over.

He's realized how stupid he was being, and he's being nice now.

But I don't know how to deal with everything that's still inside of me. I mean, do I let it all out on him? Do I tell him how much he hurt me? Or do I go back to not talking to him altogether?

I need to resolve the issues within myself, because I don't they'll never go away.

But I don't know how.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3397975/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3397975/ Sun, 19 Sep 2004 10:37:09 PDT I have thoughts racing through my mind, and many of them contradict eachother.
I woke up with a weird feeling and it's sticking with me, I hate it...

Something's wrong, and I don't know what it is.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3393889/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3393889/ Sat, 18 Sep 2004 19:33:38 PDT in what you feel?

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3373705/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3373705/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 21:49:53 PDT
Yet I still feel bad about it, I just have to learn that you can't change/do anything about the way people are.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3358059/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3358059/ Mon, 13 Sep 2004 20:04:41 PDT
My theme is going to be macro/texture... the two go hand in hand if you ask me.

I have already figured that I'll macro things like insects and flowers, the usual.

But I need help in finding a good macro lens for my nikon camera.

AND I need help in ideas for things to macro. I have to have the shots be unique and breathtaking, my teacher wouldn't have it any other way... she has her standards for me set pretty high.. especially after my portfolio last yar (I won the outstanding photographer award )

So.. thanks for the help guys!

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3301178/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3301178/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 14:58:29 PDT
We had to write our first paper, an expressive narrative .. and I have no clue if mine is gonna cut it.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3254365/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3254365/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 10:49:43 PDT
Umm... I am bored! I got a phone call last night at 12.40 ... was quite annoying. It was some guy saying, "Hey I just called because your number was in my phone, sorry if it's too late or anything."

And I'm thinking, "What the crap?"

I had no clue who he was ...


Sorry I didn't get around to taking any pictures this weekend. I was busy elsewhere.

Have a wonderful day everyone!

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3230852/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3230852/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 10:06:02 PDT
Hopefully I'll get in the mood to take some pictures this weekend. I haven't had much time with school and everything, by the time I get home in the evenings the last thing I feel like doing is picking up a camera.

I went and saw Garden State last night. That movie is amazing. I need to get the soundtrack, too.

Everyone have a wonderful day/weekend/whatever!

I love you all!

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3209379/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3209379/ Wed, 25 Aug 2004 10:42:07 PDT

I wish no one that I knew personally visited this site, that way I could tell you all the horrid things that have been told to me that have just freaking PISSED ME OFF MORE THAN ANYTHING EVER HAS.

And I'm not usually an angry person.


someone ... something ... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhh.


can i hurt someone? please???????

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3183620/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3183620/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 21:43:32 PDT
]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3167722/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3167722/ Thu, 19 Aug 2004 19:41:16 PDT And I’m screaming from the anger and this pounding in my head
And I’m drinking and I’m thinking, so alone within my bed
And you love me, how you love me, but I wish that I was dead

‘Cause a heart won’t heal,
when the mind can’t deal
and this life has become
just a bit too real
in my mind you are prying,
while I’m silently crying
and with each moment passing
a part of me’s dying

and you see me, and you need me, but you’ll never ever reach me
Try to free me, and forgive me, beg, implore, beseech me
please believe me, that to love me, this pain would have to leave me
and I’d need a strength, that I don’t have, it won’t be you who frees me

so you scream and yell and ache and cry
with each day more this slowly dies
and I cant even say ill try
to make this work, it’d be a lie
and that look you get, it drives me mad
so hurt, frustrated, oh so sad
I’ve taken all the hope you had
in guilt my soul’s forever clad

But you love me, how you love me, and you swear that I’m not trying
Kiss me hug me, kiss me hug me, this illusion I’m not buying
‘Cause he hurt me, how he hurt me, there’s no room left for denying
That to love me, truly love me, is just too horrifying.

I said he hurt me, yes he hurt me, you’d never know how much
So I’m different and I’m bitter and I’m uglier as such
And this heart inside is hidden and you’ll never ever touch
The part of me you swear ‘til death you could have loved so much.

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3149515/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3149515/ Tue, 17 Aug 2004 17:46:55 PDT
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Lying all alone and restless
unable to lose this image
sleepless, unable to focus on
anything but your surrender

Tugging a rhythm to the vision that's in my head
Tugging a beat to the sight of you lying
So delighted with a new understanding
Something about a little evil that makes that
Unmistakable noise I was hearing
Unmistakable sound that I know so well
Spent and sighing with a look in your eye
Spent and sighing with a look on your face like

Sweet revelation sweet surrender
sweet, sweet surrender
Surrender...

Tugging a rhythm to the vision that's in my head
Tugging a beat to the sight of you lying
So delighted with a new understanding
Something about a little evil that makes that
Unmistakable noise I was hearing
Unmistakable sound that I know so well
Spent and sighing with a look in your eye
Spent and sighing with a look on your face like

Sweet revelation sweet surrendering
Sweet revelation sweet

Thinking of you, thinking
Thinking of you, Thinking of you, Thinking of you, thinking...

Sweet revelation sweet surrendering
Sweet revelation

-thinking of you - a perfect circle

]]> ~lilylover http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3131545/ http://lilylover.deviantart.com/journal/3131545/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 12:11:11 PDT The ones that he gave me on our six month anniversary. They had been sitting on my desk for 8 months. Today I broke them in half and threw them in the trash bag.


And I must admit, it felt good.

Yet I can't bring myself to delete all the emails (there's over a 100) and throw away the letters.

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I wonder if it makes him feel good to know that i can't remember the last time i cried that it wasn't because of him.

I wonder if he even fucking CARES.



I hate that he's not who I knew for so long. I hate that everything is different.


I regret making him my world for a year. A freaking YEAR. When you make someone your world and they remove themselves from you ... it's the hardest thing ever.

Don't ever make someone your world. Never. Ever. I won't ever again.

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