http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:lioness17&section=today deviantART RSS for by:lioness17 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 05:00:22 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/25330003/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/25330003/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 13:33:47 PDT
My GCSE's are thankfully coming to an end! Only two exams left woo! So far they've been goin' pretty well I reckon, not TOO MANY major disasters where I was stuck in the exam hall rocking back and forth muttering "I'm gonna be a hobo". I emphasize the 'too many' as there's been a few times I've been close to that stage!

On the depression side of things.. almost got sectioned/put into hospital over it, so NOT so good, but I'm working my way through it, just trying to look on the bright side and keep my spirit's up. I ain't bein put away, not a chance in HELL!

Lovelife side of it.. ehh shan't say much incase I give him a big head as he is a stalker and will most definately read this I shall just say that I'm very very happy right now <3

Soooo onto summer eh?

My plans:
.Job
.Work on portfolio
.Get a decent tan
.Get back into swimming
.Visiting little sis in hospital
.Decide what I want to do with my life!
.Spending as much time as humanly possible with Marc.
.Tidy room (this would take all summer tbh!)

What's everyone's plans?

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/24702314/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/24702314/ Mon, 11 May 2009 12:10:15 PDT
Basically, I'm very, very upset/depressed/lonely right now, and I do believe that it is my own fault. I go from one horrible relationship where I'm treated like an object of no worth, to another where I kid myself that I mean something. I don't. They always remind me.

School is just the last thing on my mind right now when it should be the first, I've just started some of the most important exams I will ever do in my life, I should be studing SO HARD right now.
But all I want to do it curl up and cry so hard. I just want someone who gives a damn, someone who'll tell me that everything's going to be alright...that they CARE.

I'm so lonely in this world, my friends are moving on, I'm stuck in a rutt with nothing left to give...

I feel like there's no one who wants to listen, but I KNOW people care and that they want to help, it's a very contradictory feeling which drives me insane! :/

I'm scared to tell people because I don't want them to feel guilt or any sort of burden from me... and, I'm scared they'll turn away.
As for the shrinks? I'm just trying to get out of therapy! It's the loneliest place in the world.

Hell by this time next year I'm pretty damn sure that my parents will be seperated, where does that leave me and my sisters? Where does it leave any of us?

I feel like my world is moving so rapidly yet so slowly at the same time. I do things, stupid things to snatch the feeling of be wanted for just a moment, I get myself in terrible situations and I only have myself to blame.

All the time this burden on my shoulders gets heavier, and my medication pile grows larger.

I just want out.
I want someone to hear me, and help.
I want to help others too.. but what use can I be like this?

"And when they met..the angels whispered.. perfect."

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23862284/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23862284/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:07:54 PDT
She was a quiet child, no one could fully penetrate the barrier she put up to stop anyone getting close, to stop herself from being hurt.
"Manic Depressive with Post Tramatic Stress Syndrome." The doctors declared, doling out the drugs which were meant to keep her going.
Some days she was alright, she could allow herself to hope that things were getting better. But there were the other days, the days which tormented her.

She loved saturday mornings. Those mornings where made for just her, and her dog. Together they would trek to the lagan across the road, amble through leaves and chase eachother around knarled trees. This time was simple, this time was a treasure.

"GERI!" She would often have to call through panting breaths as she finished her weekly lap around the field. The dog would sometimes look up, usually she just ignored her owner. Sniffing was much more important! Humans would never understand!
At the end, she would always amble across to be greeted with the open arms of the girl which loved her endlessly.

"I ruv you." Was whispered to her at the end of the day, as the sun went down and bed-time was approaching. "I ruv you so much."
The girl would stroke the dog until she was grunting in pleasure, but their time had to end. For there were other people who longed for the girl's company. Her grandmother.

Her grandmother lived alone in a beautiful big house, the dog was her only companion.
Due to her depression, the girl's father suggested that she spend weekends with her grandmother. She obliged, thinking joyously of the time she could spend with the dog. Her dog.

The girl didn't care much for other humans, they were much too shallow, too bitter and full of evil. In animals, her trust lay. She loved them with all her heart. But, to this dog, Geri, she gave her heart.

Everynight, she would have to tell her dog off at least five times for barking. But really, she wasn't mad. She would sit in the rain, soothing her beloved labrador as the taunting puppy next door yelped vigorously.
"Shhh, it's okay. It's going to be okay." She whispered into the damp, smelling fur she'd grown accustomed to over the last 10 years.

One night, as the girl lay on her make-shift bed (sofa) she began to read a book she bought for 50pence at the local animal charity store. The story made her weep hysterically as it ended. The book was called, "Marley and Me" and it was of a labrador who reminded her so much of the black mutt stuck out in the garden.
The aching joints, the tiredness which the star canine, Marley, faced in his elder years, Geri had now. She was the ripe old age of 13, and her age was starting to take its toll. But still the dog would bound around as she was greeted each morning by her owner. Still she would gobble up food as if she had been starved.

That night, the girl got up, and went out to see her dog. She hugged her tightly as she wept. "I ruv you... I really really do, so much." She murmered, wiping her eyes and looking into those milky brown ones which faced her.
She soon went back to bed, and fell asleep. She felt so much better.

But nightmares started to come to the girl.
Nightmares filled with death, and trecherous grief.
Nightmares where he beloved dog, lay before her, and slowly died.

It was the 20th of February, 2009. Exactly one week after the first nightmare, when the girl's father came home and announced that Geri was ill.
"She's just not eating. Won't get up." He sighed.
The girl knew. She knew.

The next morning, the girl's father recieved a phone call. It was from her grandmother, the dog's legal owner.
And she knew. She knew.
"It's a no go with the dog." He admitted, coming into the livingroom where the girl had slept that night, tormented with nightmares and crying out in the night.
A no go? The girl thought... she's still sick. But I will spend her last day with her. She assured herself behind her tears.
"She was put down early this morning. It was the best thing."

And with that, the girl's world fell apart.

Four weeks later, the movie of "Marley and Me," was released, and she watched it at home. But this time, as she sobbed uncrontrollably, there was no black dog, snoring in the kennel, who could offer her comfort. Who would make it all okay.
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That's pretty much my story. I thought it would be better by now, but it isn't. I miss her. And now off to the doctors for me, more anti-depressants, more counselling, more exams, and no more dog.

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23862253/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23862253/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:04:38 PDT
She was a quiet child, no one could fully penetrate the barrier she put up to stop anyone getting close, to stop herself from being hurt.
"Manic Depressive with Post Tramatic Stress Syndrome." The doctors declared, doling out the drugs which were meant to keep her going.
Some days she was alright, she could allow herself to hope that things were getting better. But there were the other days, the days which tormented her.

She loved saturday mornings. Those mornings where made for just her, and her dog. Together they would trek to the lagan across the road, amble through leaves and chase eachother around knarled trees. This time was simple, this time was a treasure.

"GERI!" She would often have to call through panting breaths as she finished her weekly lap around the field. The dog would sometimes look up, usually she just ignored her owner. Sniffing was much more important! Humans would never understand!
At the end, she would always amble across to be greeted with the open arms of the girl which loved her endlessly.

"I ruv you." Was whispered to her at the end of the day, as the sun went down and bed-time was approaching. "I ruv you so much."
The girl would stroke the dog until she was grunting in pleasure, but their time had to end. For there were other people who longed for the girl's company. Her grandmother.

Her grandmother lived alone in a beautiful big house, the dog was her only companion.
Due to her depression, the girl's father suggested that she spend weekends with her grandmother. She obliged, thinking joyously of the time she could spend with the dog. Her dog.

The girl didn't care much for other humans, they were much too shallow, too bitter and full of evil. In animals, her trust lay. She loved them with all her heart. But, to this dog, Geri, she gave her heart.

Everynight, she would have to tell her dog off at least five times for barking. But really, she wasn't mad. She would sit in the rain, soothing her beloved labrador as the taunting puppy next door yelped vigorously.
"Shhh, it's okay. It's going to be okay." She whispered into the damp, smelling fur she'd grown accustomed to over the last 10 years.

One night, as the girl lay on her make-shift bed (sofa) she began to read a book she bought for 50pence at the local animal charity store. The story made her weep hysterically as it ended. The book was called, "Marley and Me" and it was of a labrador who reminded her so much of the black mutt stuck out in the garden.
The aching joints, the tiredness which the star canine, Marley, faced in his elder years, Geri had now. She was the ripe old age of 13, and her age was starting to take its toll. But still the dog would bound around as she was greeted each morning by her owner. Still she would gobble up food as if she had been starved.

That night, the girl got up, and went out to see her dog. She hugged her tightly as she wept. "I ruv you... I really really do, so much." She murmered, wiping her eyes and looking into those milky brown ones which faced her.
She soon went back to bed, and fell asleep. She felt so much better.

But nightmares started to come to the girl.
Nightmares filled with death, and trecherous grief.
Nightmares where he beloved dog, lay before her, and slowly died.

It was the 20th of February, 2009. Exactly one week after the first nightmare, when the girl's father came home and announced that Geri was ill.
"She's just not eating. Won't get up." He sighed.
The girl knew. She knew.

The next morning, the girl's father recieved a phone call. It was from her grandmother, the dog's legal owner.
And she knew. She knew.
"It's a no go with the dog." He admitted, coming into the livingroom where the girl had slept that night, tormented with nightmares and crying out in the night.
A no go? The girl thought... she's still sick. But I will spend her last day with her. She assured herself behind her tears.
"She was put down early this morning. It was the best thing."

And with that, the girl's world fell apart.

Four weeks later, the movie of "Marley and Me," was released, and she watched it at home. But this time, as she sobbed uncrontrollably, there was no black dog, snoring in the kennel, who could offer her comfort. Who would make it all okay.
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That's pretty much my story. I thought it would be better by now, but it isn't. I miss her.

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23694960/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23694960/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 13:31:26 PDT
2. Honestly, what’s on your mind? The Fishin' Exebition I just went to.

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? Typin' this out... obv.

4. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? I guess I'm alright.

5. Honestly, have you done something bad today? I don't think so actually.

6. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel? TECHNICALLY. Cus it's always ON in my house and I MAY just glance over OCCAISIONALLY

7. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Nope. And what's with all the 'Honestly's?!

8. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? Animals, Food and Sleep makes one a happy bunny

9. Honestly, do you bite your nails? Only durin' english class if I'm bored.

10. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? Not really.

11. Honestly, when is the last time you went to Taco Bell? I erm... we don't have one of those down here in li'l ol' Ireland.

12. Honestly, are you in denial? Yep, about a lot of things most likely. Least that's what the shrink says *laughs*

13. Honestly, where would you rather be right now? Sleepin'.

14. Honestly, do you like someone? I dunno, I'm a teenage girl with ragin' hormones, you tell me.

Anger Section

1. What do you do when you're mad? Either fume silently and snap at everyone or go pretty damn mental (scream, yell, violence).

2. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yeah, sadly.

3. Do you swear when your mad? Ye-up.

Crying Section

1. When was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out? When Geri was put down.

2. When was the last time you cried yourself to sleep? Ditto above really.

3. Do you still cry when you get an injury? Nope, I just curse XD or laugh... depending really.

4. What usually makes you cry? Parents arguing, Shrinks being idiots, thinkin' bad thoughts... the usual really. Oh an not bein' able to SLEEP! UGH!

Happy Section

1. Are you usually a happy person? Nah not really.

2. What can make you happy? Time with family, a good movie, playin' with animals, drawin'... that sorta stuff.

3. Does being with your friends make you happy? Not really nope.

Self-Esteem Section

1. Do you believe in yourself? When it comes to certain things, yes.

2. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you agree? Only if I'm bein' arrogant that day XD

3. Are you one of those people that thinks they are ugly? Nope.

dA Section

1. Why did you join dA? ArtArtArtArt

2. Are you addicted to deviantART? Nahh not yet.

3. What type of people were you hoping to meet? Anyone and anything will float this girl's boat!

4. Are you looking for love on dA? Erm. No?

5. What do you think of the person that tagged you with this evil survey? He's a magic lizard! a reaaaallly nice one too!

(Ill put the taggin' people up later)

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23659102/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23659102/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 12:45:08 PDT
Anyways, bout time for an update bout moi I believe!

As many of you know, my beloved mutt Geri passed away a few weeks back, I'm still grieving but it's definately getting easier because I just think of how HAPPY she is now!

I have my art exam next week and have been revising pretty well for my upcoming GCSE exams - (think it's the equivilent SAT's of Finals or something for Americans)The theme we were given is "The Blue Planet" so I'm just doin' bout conservation, AKA: ANIMALS!

I can't WAIT for this summer, shall be drawin endlessly! I have LOADS to upload here but keep getting way-laid. (Cba hookin' up the scanner... my bad XD).

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[link].THESE.SURVEYS! XD <3

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W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?

1. Pierce Your Nose Or Tongue ; Tongue
2. Be Serious Or Be Funny ; Funny
3. Drink Whole Or Skim Milk ; Whole. Skimmed eez MANKIN!
4. Die In A Fire Or Drown ; Neither!
5. Spend Time With Your Parents Or Enemies ; Parents... they can't hit ya back


D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.

1. Flowers Or Sweets ; Sweets.. mmm sweet tooth.
2. Grey Or Black ; Black. It's more definate!
3. Color Or Black And White Photos ; colour
5. Sunrise Or Sunset ; both, they're both ends and beginnings.
6. M&Ms Or Skittles ; skittles
8. Staying Up Late Or Gettin Up Early ; Stayin Up Late.

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y..

1. Do You Like Anyone? I love EVERYONE!
2. Do They Know It? You all do now XD

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R..

1. Sun Or Moon ; Moon
2. Winter Or Autumn ; winter
3. Left Or Right ; Left
4. 10 Acquaintances Or 2 Best Friends? 2 bestmates
5. Sunny Or Rainy ; Rainy
6. Vanilla Ice Cream Or Chocolate Ice Cream ; Chocolate

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What Time Is It? 19: 43
2. First Name ; Kerry
4. What Is Your Birthday : 17th December
5. What Do You Want ; Sleeeeeeeeep.
6. Nervous Habit ; Fidgeting
7. Are You Double Jointed ; Hands And Arms Are very flexible but I dunno....
8. Can You Roll Your Tongue ; yep
9. Can You Raise One Eye Brow ; Sometimes.
10. Can You Cross You Eyes ; I don't actually know..

R A N D O M.

1. Did You Eva Lie To Avoid Goin Out With Some One ; Too Many Times
2. Ever Thrown A Shoe At Some One ; YES!
3. What Was The Oldest Some One Thought You Were ; 17. Then again my friend thought I was in my 20's... from a DISTANCE :L


O T H E R.

1. Do You Twirl Your Hair ; In A Word: No.
3. What's Your Favorite Non-Alcoholic Drink ; Coke!
4. Do You Cook ; I am somewhat domestically challenged in that area.

IN . T H E . L A S T . M O N T H . H A V E . Y O U..

1. had a fight wif your friend ; No *touchwood*
2. Bought Something ; Yuuup
4. Sang ; Yessums
5. Been Hugged ; Yeah
6. Felt Stupid ; Hell yes LOL
7. Missed Someone ; Oh yeah! Too much ><
8. Got Drunk ; Nope, been good!
9. Danced Crazy ; Errrrrr...
10.Gotten Your Hair Cut ; Nope.
11. Cried ; Yes.

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23658868/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/23658868/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 12:30:29 PDT
]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/22469600/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/22469600/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 12:48:02 PST
I have a maths exam tomorrow which is half of my final grade and in all honesty I STINK at maths! But everyone is counting on me to PASS! 'I' am counting on myself to pass! I've revised, sure. But probably nowhere NEAR as thoroughly as I SHOULD have!

It's re-sittable, but I don't wanna let everyone down... the most I can get is a C anyway and most people can get that with their hands tied behind their BACKS! ><

I'm so tired all the time and I'm gonna be EXHAUSTED in the morning... plus I have normal classes afterwards:

Financial Services(Blah, teacher's gonna kill everyone over coursework) Maths (She hates me. No joke.) Graphic Design (Frig sake I need to finish cutting and sticking a load of crap in that sketchbook) and English (Doin' something to do with coursework I suspect... I've already started jotting down ideas for the coursework, so I'm not overly worried).

At least I have my grans to look forwards to I guess, get out with Geri to relax for a while...

*looks up* wow, I didn't mean to type that much... but anyways, hope everyone else isn't getting TOO stressed with schoolwork atm. ><

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/22322136/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/22322136/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 01:36:09 PST
I never normally do New Years Resolutions as tbh i have never been able to keep them and am farr too lazy to make them up. But here's some goals I guess:

1)Stop being off school so much
2)Study hard
3)Pass GCSE's one way or another
4)Try not to be so hard on myself

Anyone else making New Years Resolutions? I'd love to hear em to get some ideas lol!

Anyways, Happy New Year, I hope it's a good one for you all!

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21830664/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21830664/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 12:25:26 PST
Started my final piece for Art GCSE, a big ol' watercolour/ink illustration type thing, it may just kill me, (and TheLividDead as he's on the same boat as me) but I'll get it done! (so will he ^^)

Christmas is just round the corner! YAY! It's my favourite time of year because everyone seems to be in such good spirits,plus the presents... yes they're good too XD. My family tree is not up yet, and will not be up till like a week before Christmas (shame on us I know!) but when it IS up I will bombard it with silly tit-bits I made when I was five - it HAS to be done!

At least this year I don't have to put up with a silly pink glittery tree ><*

But yeh, goodwill all round and all that! OFF SCHOOL SOON!!!!! WOOPEEEEEEE!!!!

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21631950/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21631950/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 13:38:42 PST
I'm starting to feel a bit better now, got a long way to go but I've survived this far and I'll survive the rest!

But will I survive Maths class? No, dying of boredom is becoming increasingly contagious I hear!

I have a lot of art to do for my GCSE mock in it, I've been off a bit so needa catch up agh!

And my birthday issss... umm..about three weeks away! The 17th of December, coming close to the big 16! ^^

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21465992/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21465992/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 08:11:39 PST ) and my head of year came in, riffled through some sheets and then called me over to give me my exam time-table, DAYS before everyone else is gettin' theirs!

But ugh, it's only MOCKS so I don't really see the point of them... but still I shall be revisin' so don't be surprised if ALL my upcoming pics are about me rippin' up some sort of paper or killin' teachers... it's HEALTHY XD

Yeaah..random Blog I suppose, but still, if anyone else out there (IS there anyone else out there?!) is doin' their exams then all the best. We're all gettin' dropped in the deep end together

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21372130/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21372130/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 12:27:04 PST
Yesterday, my daddy was attacked and robbed when he was in Belfast, got his head split open and we couldn't contact him for hours. Same day, a few hours earlier, my nanny went into hospital, she can't breathe.

I suppose that's what made me snap, my daddy is my hero, he is so full of kindness to others, always helping out whenever he can, he didn't deserve it; and when he finally got in contact with my mother, she slammed the phone down on him. This, ontop of a hell of a lot of other stuff, added to my breakdown - everyone's been wonderful, and I'm getting help now, my GP said I might need to go away to a special ward to be monitored for a little bit if my condition doesn't improve, but that's okay; I've hurt people enough, I want to get better.

I'm posting this here, although I know many people can read it, because although I am ashamed of many things, I am not ashamed of getting help, and so I encourage others to talk to someone if they are feeling low, don't let it taken over you like I did; it's not worth it.

It's just the beginning, but just a little bit longer, and I'll be fine.

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21165165/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21165165/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 03:16:41 PDT And it feels OH SO GOOOD!

I never really realised that whole 'there's no place like home' thing before, but now I just totally AGREE with it!

Also, working has made me actually not mind school as much, least I won't have to get up at six AM and I'm surrounded by people who love me, not ones who think I'm a bit of a burden.

Annnd I'm not stuck in a house where everything went missing! A bag of my clothes, my toothbrush, all of my medication and my painkillers DISAPPEARED! I had to phone home to get some more! And going a day without my medication is something I never want to go through again!

Of course there where some good bits about Work Experience - I had an awesome supervisor, men bought me lunch all the time, I made a load of friends, I made friends with a boy from Thai Land who had moved over to Northern Ireland (I found it easier to understand him than most others did because of experience with people learning english), I got PAID! The OWNER asked me to design a new animal logo/symbol for the company which he would look at and get back to me on, got to experience loads of different art programmes.

The good things happened during the last three days, as for the first two... UGH!!!!!!

Another good thing about being HOME tho? ...I HAVE THE INTERNET AGAIN!!!! WEEEEEEE!!!!

And I'm off for Halloween ^^ Sleeping Time!

Glad to be back everyone! Missed you all like crazy! ^^

x

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21043029/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/21043029/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 07:11:47 PDT
I am gonna be oh so bored, get to bring my laptop to 'do my coursework' on, ha! I'll be drawin' away at every chance I get XD however no uploads till I get back, it's only for a week so don't fret - I shall miss you all!

x

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20773327/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20773327/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 08:47:26 PDT
Then today, as I arrived home early after skiving off P.E. I found an email from the website... and Cathy Cassidy HERSELF wrote in the email that she adored my picture and it had totally made her week and cheered her up from the winter-blues.

"It's absolutely FAB!"

And then it was written that because she loved my picture so much, it's published on the site, send to all her fans via the online newsletter and her magazine, AND she's sending my a free SIGNED copy of any book of hers I want to say thanks!

OH MEH FUCKIN' GAWD! I could NOT believe it! I was running round the house SCREAMING!

I didn't even send it to a COMPETITION! Just randomly because it was something to do at the time, and it was sent with like fifty other pictures too!

So yeh. YAY!

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20521435/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20521435/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 13:01:31 PDT F*ckin' wonderful, how the heck am I meant to get my GCSE's done at THIS rate?
This time in first year I was perfectly normal, bounding with energy and happiness.
Then the pains got worse.
And worse and worse.
As the years went on, I got more and more tired.
And now?
Bleh.

It'd be great if I could be a*sed to at least do some coursework, I try and force myself but just get stressed out or something.
The teachers have no idea so just think I'm putting it on and being lazy, so gotta try and keep up..

but I'm sooo tired.
And atm it's made me sooo sick!

AND I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT!

I don't wanna be sick anymore, I wanna be healthy again!

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20455779/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20455779/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 14:05:24 PDT Well.

First day of school: I broke up with my boyfriend. He did not take it well and has been a little b*tch ever since.

Rest of the time? Head down, working steadily, focusing on getting all my coursework done and such.

Been to the doctors to get my blood pressure taken (standard check up for someone with PCOS), he's a good guy, doesn't get why I hate Health Centers and Hospitals.
Neither do I, but they scare me a heck of a lot!

Blood pressure was good, but I give it until the GCSE's get closer for it to ROCKET!

So all in all, things are just a-flowing for me.

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20053273/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20053273/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 04:00:26 PDT
Escape: A Christian Youth Club 3 more days of it left!

Barbecue: I will know no one, it's a friends-familie's thing, but any excuse to get out!

Paris: Going to Paris and Disneyland for FIVE DAYS the last week of summer!

Creating Spoof Trailers: Gonna do Twilight, Harry Potter, Mean Girls and um.. suggestions welcome! Check out our channel on Youtube!

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Work Experience: Going to my uncle's work "Moffett&Sons" for five days experience, and will be stayin over at my grans for the duration (Note to self: Bring FOOD!)

Halloween: Dunno What I'm doin' for it, Scotland or a party at a friends, either way it's a reason to dress as a VAMPIRE!

Twilight Movie: SQUEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

My Birthday: Oh and my twin's too.. our 16th! Probably not doing anything for it as it happens to falls on a school day..

Christmas: YAY!!! The Birth of Our Lord! Plus there's a non-uniform day at school before it! RESULT!

*Skips by mocks*

Valentines Day: Dunno if I'll still have a boyfriend for it, or have a new one, so watch this space! (I hate this holiday, but it's exciting none-the-less).

*Skips by GCSEs*

OUT OF SCHOOL FOREVER! YESSSSSS!!!! FINALLY!!!!

And then it's onto the summer folks! I CAN'T WAIT!

]]> ~lioness17 http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20053172/ http://lioness17.deviantart.com/journal/20053172/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 03:48:43 PDT FINALLY!
I can't wait to get away from that place, I just feel like I'm READY too.

Think back to when you were leaving Primary School (Middle school) and you were SO nervous about leaving, you didn't WANT to!
I was like that, but NOW I am ready and rearing to finally leave forced-education all together! And it's honestly a wonderful feeling, I may not know what direction I want to take my life in, or what I wanna do, but all I know is that I NEED a release from it!

And minus about four people, I can't wait to rid myself of the friends I've held for four, now almost five, years... mean as that sounds, it's like the ones who are more like aquaintances are trying to hold my backa nd mould me into the person who I was wayyy back in my first year of school. And THAT, my friends, was a mess of a person if I'm honest.
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Anyway! The reason for this title? Well it has been RAINING for a large majority of the Summer in Northern Ireland, and I just know that the second we start back, the sun will come STREAAMMING in!
Tan? Ha!

At least I have a week in Paris to look forward to before the end of the summer! I honestly cannot WAIT! I'm really into documenting experiences so I'll be going mad with my camera!!!!

Over and Out for now *salutes*

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