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You get three wishes!

What are they? (do they involve glitter )

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/27490155/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/27490155/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 16:44:35 PDT

Hi,

My friend, *lisaradgirl , lost her friend. Her friend has an account here, but my concern is for Lisa to know people care, so I am not linking directly to her friend. If you want to know more you can read Lisa's Journal.

I know a lot of you may not know Lisa, but please give her some support. Please go give Lisa a hug? And flowers? And chocolates? And art prints? and lots of

I did not know Lisa's friend, but it is so sad when this happens. Lisa, hugs to you, I am so sorry you are hurting.



Chris

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/27241584/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/27241584/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 19:46:30 PDT

*Miss-Rita Sep 10




~Dolphingal Sep 12




=lydyzze Sep 15




=paleypeach Sep 16




~Sacagawea Sep 17




~worldofmyown Sep 21


]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/25668669/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/25668669/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 08:40:04 PDT

If you want to see my answers, go to *Mahkohime's journal. This is a meme, she happened upon. I have no idea who to credit for the original meme. Answer if you want to! Tag if you want to!

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/25403401/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/25403401/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 20:35:14 PDT

I would like to apologize
I am sorry
for the things I have done
I have not commented on deviations
in ages
I have not finished every card
that I promised
and no
I have not given up on those
I am sorry though
for making you wait
I am sorry
that I disappear sometimes
I drop off the map
I care for so many of you
and yet
I do not show it well enough
I care about what people think
bad, I know
I care if people like me
Just character defects...

I am sorry to each of you I have disappointed.

Sincerely,

Chris

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/24309047/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/24309047/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 14:00:57 PDT

I need blank time before I make the feature.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/24166686/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/24166686/ Thu, 16 Apr 2009 08:09:25 PDT

If you responded, great, you are safe from my wrath.

If you have not yet responded to this, I will beat you down if you don't do it. I will steal your cereal. I will hide your remote. I will put syrup on your laptop keyboard, I will let hogs from the wild into your house/room and let them tear up all your s*it, I will make up nasty bad rumors about you and then post them in town hall, I will break the erasers off all your pencils, I will saran wrap your toilet seat, I will mess up your pantry, so when you get hungry you can't find what food you wanted, I will email you Barry Manilow mp3's, I will mail you Kenny Rodgers 8-Track Tapes, I will pour copier toner in your bathroom rug, I will sprinkle glitter throughout your dwelling in every room, every closet, every drawer, I will put feral cats in your car, I will lick every clean dish you have so you'll have my germs, I will fill a glass with elmers glue and drop all your spare change in it, If you have a car I will spray paint "Pussy Wagon" with pink on the back of your car, I'll leave a banana peel outside your door, I will put elmers glue in your hair while you sleep (yes your private hair too), I will do all this and much much more. You will pay for your insolence.

SUBMIT.

OBEY.

SUBMIT.

OBEY.

SUBMIT ART TO BE FEATURED BIOTCH. NAOW.

/end of update on violent request -----------------------------








I am doing a feature, on art from only people that watch me.

You can suggest your own work, or another deviant's if they watch me.

The response was low.

I am going to make it easier.

If you want to be in the feature or promote someone else...

Note me or respond in this journal with:

A) a specific work you want featured (or more than one) link or thumb.

B) if you can't pick the work, let me pick, and just give me the deviant's name, link, whatever and I will do the rest.

I want you guys to be in my feature, please? pretty please?

I want to share the love, I want to promote you. I want to show appreciation to the people that watch me. Will you be a part of it?

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/24025814/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/24025814/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:30:56 PDT

I said I would do a Red themed feature. When did I say that? Oh yeah, it was Feb 2008. Oops. Guess I avoided doing it. But that isn't fair to those who submitted, so I will do it now. Sorry for the delay, of 14 months. A special thank you to ~worldofmyown who helped me edit and choose.

Thank you to these people who contributed:
@FixMeKnow photographer and admin. She likes nature and complex setup-self portraits.
*Mahkohime digital artist & jewelry maker. She makes avatars, stamps, and wearable art. She loves to bake. Is in love.
=michelephant Fetish photographer. Rated R, or higher. Often Self Portrait. Saucy!
=NineWhileNine Photographer of places and people. Is brilliant with both. Very expressive person.
`laurart Traditional artist. Super nice person.
~worldofmyown Digital Artist. Funny Girl, and makes lots of original characters.
=TheUnorthadox Pencil Artist. She is magic with pencils, and she has a toast obsession. Makes her own comic strips.
~Corsetx Digital Artist. Makes original characters. Lives near alligators.
~AmIWryNO Fashion Designer. Is very kind, and often absent.

I was listening to this [link] (not that you care)


Suggested by @FixMeKnow A girl who likes shoes and diamonds, who knew!?



Suggested by *Mahkohime Mahko sees red in nature.
=littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23969102/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23969102/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 13:57:16 PDT




Bigger version if hard to read: [link]

Note: Once you get to the image, you left click the mouse to enlarge the image (you see a magnifying glass).

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23866400/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23866400/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 13:25:28 PDT

This is random, I am making it up as I go.

1) Your shoe size is:
2) Your height is:
3) Your eye color is:
4) Color most or more of your clothes are:
5) Adjective to describe you in a bad mood:
6) Furthest place away from where you live, that you visited:
7) Do you have writers/artist block right now?
8) Adjective for how you feel when ignored:
9) What you do when extremely agitated or frustrated:

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23742690/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23742690/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 07:56:58 PDT

=littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23598033/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23598033/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:38:51 PDT

I am at Times Square. I just got out of seeing a Broadway musical: Chicago. Smexy.

I had never been to NYC.


WOW.


So


many



people.



Amazing.




]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23520571/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23520571/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 08:28:48 PST

I don't expect many people will read this. Who has time anymore?

I am down to the wire in money, as are many people everywhere.

I have overdue bills, my business is slow.

I have been so scared for so long, over 9 months of nail-biting. Although in actuality I don't bite my nails.

Now, I have reached a point where, if I lose everything, I am not scared anymore. I could lose our home, vehicles, business, possessions. Screw it.

I also spent half my life afraid of getting cancer, since people in my family have died from it. I am not scared of that anymore either. if I get it, I get it. My doc says there is no prevention, other than taking care of yourself. So screw that too.

I have been scared of poverty my entire life. I am from a very typical middle class background. For those of you not from the US, to me that means, not poor, not rich, get getting through.

I don't even think I am scared if I die. I now realize that everyone dies. Millions die from disease, why should I think I am different and nothing will happen to me. Bad things happen to everyone, in one form or another.

So this meaningless entry I am typing is saying, I am numb, the fear finally overloaded my circuitry to the point of burning it out. This is just how I feel right now. Feelings change. I might feel different later.

I don't feel fearless, or like a superhero. I just don't care anymore.

If I end up living in a cardboard box under a bridge with terminal cancer, I think I'll draw and paint, and not worry about dying or being poor.

This may seem dismal, but it isn't. The things about my life I love, no poverty or disease can take from me. No one can take my art from my mind. No one can take my attitude. No one can make me choose, I choose.

I am a very lost little child. But today I feel unafraid, even though I should be.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23378914/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23378914/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 14:53:35 PST

Upcoming Birthdays!


=Sir-Pimpalot Mar 12
=kissmypixels Mar 22
=stars-and-glitter Mar 26
=NineWhileNine Mar 27


In other random news, I am very low on energy. Somebodeh, save meh!

We all make our own world (this person has a beautiful and unique mind)

A lot of times I still feel like a baby

Sometimes I don't know where my head is

I would like to live in a drawing for today

Someone wind me back up today?

I feel a little like this:

But don't worry, different day, different feelings

Everyday is different for me, I wonder where my feet will take me

At its best my mind is a fairy tale

At its worst, I can't sleep sometimes

Sometimes I get irritable but not usually

Most times, I am just relaxed (I wanna be at least )

I get jealous! http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23316947/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 01:59:25 PST

I don't like the new look of the user pages.

Infinitely customizable.

Bland.

It makes me mad.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23027648/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/23027648/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 18:52:37 PST

Do it. F*cking Now!

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22882009/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22882009/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 09:23:58 PST

So, since I love polls so much, and polls are nothing more than questions... I will ask you some questions. I don't have a single one in mind, this will just be whatever pops into my head, okay?

If 81 is too much at one time, answer them over a period of time, I really am interested in you.

1. Do you eat scrambled eggs?
2. In your dreams, are you wild and slutty?
3. In your dreams, are you violent?
4. In your waking life, do you have anger issues?
5. Do you ever just sit in the closet on the floor?
6. Do you think that I am fun, silly, interesting, or meh?
7. Do you have times when you ate something just because you were bored?
8. Do you like Shrek?
9. Do you wish that the networking features on dA were improved rather than changing the way it looks all the time? (I do)
10. Do you feel like no one cares about you?
11. Do you feel ignored, on dA?
12. Fill in blank: I wish dA people would __________ for me/about me/to me.
13. Have you ever been wildly infatuated with someone on dA, just on a chemical level, a feeling, not so much how they look at all.
14. Do you think some numbers are unlucky? Which?
15. Would you be bored if you did not have the internet?
16. What would you do if there were no internet?
17. Do you find online interaction preferable to in person interaction?
18. Have you ever ran from someone while you were nude?
19. If you could never die (like Jack Harkness on Torchwood), what would you do? I mean, all the rules for life would be changed.
20. If you could film something funny and put it on youtube, what would that be?
21. Does @FixMeKnow know where you are at night? (Don't make her worry like that)
22. Who is the person you worry about most? Why?
23. Do you believe it is bad luck to break a mirror? What about to blow up a building (abandoned)?
24. What sort of thing makes you laugh hysterically?
25. What do you think I should do more of or less of?
26. Do you think that work is just something most people will be unhappy with?
27. Do you think casual sex is okay for you?
28. Are dried up markers the devil?
29. Do you wish we did not have to eat?
30. What three things would make you happy?
31. Do you like being the photographer or model?
32. Do you dress like crap and not fix yourself up sometimes, b/c, you don't really give a damn what other people think?
33. Does your geography please you? (where you live)
34. Are flying insects attracted to you?
35. Do you take pleasure in hot baths?
36. Would you love it if you had a webcam on you all the time and thousands of people subscribing (money not being a factor)?
37. Why do people who fall in crush with you not the ones you want to?
38. How do you wish you were different?
39. How do you wish people were different?
40. Do you use a fork or a spoon or chopsticks to eat Ramen?
41. Why do you have low self esteem(sometimes)?
42. Why do you think you are the greatest?
43. Are you invisible?
44. Do you have a secret personality?
45. Why is it easier to destroy than create?
46. Do you have a lot of contempt in you?
47. Do you worry that a deviant friend of yours might find you boring if they met you IRL?
48. Innuendo, or straight up dirty talk?
49. How could I improve my relationship with you?
50. Where do you feel amazing?
51. What is your favorite weather?
52. What causes you to become bored?
53. Are you getting worse or getting better?
54. Have any of your friends died?
55. Do you know anyone your age or younger with a terminal illness (I have a friend with Cystic Fibrosis)
56. Tell me something you like that might be considered trendy.
57. Do you feel alone a lot?
58. Do you feel lost on dA sometimes b/c there are so many people?
59. If there were no taboo's, what thing would you do? (I am not here to judge)
60. I saw an ad on craigslist, a girl selling her used unwashed panties. What do you think of that?
61. What one thing could I do for you, that would make you smile, or happy, if just for a moment?
62. Do you think the opposite sex has it made? Why?
63. Why is it considered a grave offense to insult someone's mom?
64. How can nannies start producing milk as a surrogate for the real mom, for a baby?
65. Were you sexually abused? Mentally? Physically?
66. How often do you fantasize of destroying things? What things?
67. Are you ticklish? Where?
68. What do you wish old people would do differently?
69. Have you ever 69'ed... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22588368/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22588368/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 00:18:11 PST

[chris]: the tragedy of my life is that I cannot be an artist all day everyday.

[DEA]: Rohypnol (flunitrazepam)

[chris]: i like that word

[DEA]: Rohypnol (flunitrazepam), most commonly known as a date-rape drug, continues to be abused among teenagers and young adults, usually at raves and nightclubs. The drug remains readily available, mainly through pharmaceutical operators located in Mexico, especially Tijuana.

[chris]: can you sell me some so I can rape myself and forget about it?

[DEA]: Rohypnol is marketed by Hoffman-La Roche Inc., and is legally sold in Latin America and Europe as a short-term treatment for insomnia, and as a preanesthetic medication. One of the significant effects of the drug is anterograde amnesia, a factor that strongly contributed to its inclusion in the Drug-Induced Rape Prevention and Punishment Act of 1996. Anterograde amnesia is a condition in which events that occurred while under the influence of the drug are forgotten.

[chris]: anterograde, great word. i want to forget

[DEA]: Rohypnol is available as a .5-milligram and 1-milligram oblong tablet, as well as a 1-milligram per milliliter injectable solution. Hoffman-La Roche phased out the 2-milligram dose tablet from 1996 to 1997, and is currently phasing out the round, white 1-milligram tablet. The licit market for the drug is currently supplied with a 1-milligram dose in an olive green, oblong tablet, imprinted with the number 542. The new tablet includes a dye that, according to Hoffman-La Roche, will be visible if it is slipped into a drink. Reports indicate that Rohypnol is often sold for between $2 and $5 per dosage unit, although it may sell for from $10 to $30 per dosage unit.

[chris]: i want to forget


[chris]: i want to forget


[chris]: i want to forget

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22282120/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22282120/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 14:49:18 PST

Thanks!
I just want to say thank you to everyone who is (or already did) a card exchange with me! I am still making cards... I am not finished yet. I just want you to know that I have really had fun doing these, and I have really loved loved loved getting cards from you people!

Thank you to the following for interacting with me:
@FixMeKnow
=minchanexcels
~Corsetx
~ranidelnoche
~IamCat
~HopesHearts
"West Nile"
*Mahkohime
=lydyzze
~naboo-jedi
~x-Eilidh-x
=NineWhileNine
~Fenchurch-St
=MrMushroomMan
~maikoneko
~Daggle
*Heather-The-Hermit
*lisaradgirl
~Morfindel
=stars-and-glitter
~laquaza
~worldofmyown
~milk-thistle
`laurart

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22267537/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22267537/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 19:27:19 PST

I am wanting a new journal so it is time to make stuff up.
Copy/Paste and you answer, in the comments or your journal.

Y=Yes, or I haz, or I wantz, or I can haz, Likes
N=No, noes, I can't haz, I don't wantz, don't like, don't want

Green Beer? Y
Underwear from Moscow? Y
A good book in bed? Y
Ignore politics? Y
Bewbs? Y
Hot Weather? N
Grey Winter Day? Y
Rain? Y
Thunderstorm? Y
Tornado? N
Vodka? Y
Rum? N
Cigarettes? N
Rice? Y
Depressing Music? Y
Angry Music? Y
Anger problems? N
Taking drugs, illegal type? N
Likes popcorn? Y
Are you a vampire? N
Do you like to lick? Y
Will you break glass if you can get away with it? N
Lucky Charms? Y
You assume everyone has guns and crack. Y
Oral sex is a casual thing. N
I have been arrested? N
Are you a Pirate. Y
I have wanted to smash a computer monitor. Y
Think about sex daily? Y
Likes the dark. Y
Believe in ghosts? Y
You have an imaginary friend? N
Stockings? Y
Shoes? Y
Raincoat? N
Snow? Y
Enjoy foreign accents? Y
Heights? N
Enjoy alone time a lot? Y
Immaculate? N
Like some types of erotica? Y
You are a good cook. N
You are tired of being bombarded with sex and violence. Y and N
Chocolate? Y
Pippi Longstocking? Y
Easily Amused. Y
Amuses self. Y
Mental. Y
Likely to speak before thinking. N
Toys? Y
Loves to read. Y
Likes perfection in people. N
Jealous? Y
Having sexy thoughts. Y
Allergies? Y
Underachiever? Y
Overachiever? N
Slacker? N, well, maybe sometimes
Likes to write. Y
Feels guilty too much. Y
Bi-curious? N
Milk. Y plz
Love? Y
Hats from Switzerland? N
Overstimulated. Y
/end Y/N

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22131653/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/22131653/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 22:40:39 PST

yes i have been tagged by ~maikoneko -- Ima kill you thisa is so long maiko!
Rules:
1. tag 5 friends (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. put crosses in the brackets that apply (answer all truthfully)
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tags on their profile that they have been tagged

Info
[] I am shorter than 5'4.

[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (sometimes. everyone feels that way unless they are really up themselves right?)

[] I tan easily. (In summer. winter i turn pale...)
[] I wish my hair was a different color. (i would love colourful streaks, preferably deep blue)
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. (like, everyone!)
[] I have a tattoo. (xD)

[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. sometimes
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts. I need reading glasses

[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (ew no way!)

[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (...)

[] I have more than 2 piercing. (none >__< )
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears. (i said none. NONE.)

[x] I have freckles. Yes I do.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home. when I was little.

[] I've been kicked out of the house. (mummy loves me too much. heh)
[] My biological parents are together. (My father died.)
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday. Already have, and done now.
[] I've lost a child. (!!!!???)

School/Work
[x] I'm in school I never quit learning.
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. ( <_< )
[x] I almost always do/did my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.

[] I failed more than 1 class last year. ( that would be not good. )
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. yes, but I was not really embarrassed, maybe that, should embarrass me.

[] Disney movies still make me cry. not really
[] I've peed from laughing. x_x no

[x] I've snorted while laughing. :nods:
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (hellyes!)
[x] I've glued my hand to something. (i glued my fingers together with superglue unintentionally Dx )
[x] I've had my pants rip in public. yes, but not in any embarrassing ways.

Health
[?] I was born with a disease/impairment ?? ADD ??
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. thumb

[] I've broken a bone. (nope)
[] I've had my tonsils removed. (no no)
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. (nope)

[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. They said when I was all doped up I flirted with the nurse x_x

[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox. (when i was really young, apparently.)

[] I've had measles (nop. vaccinated.)


Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day (1,200 miles)
[x] I've been on a plane. ( LOVE planes. )

[] I've been to Canada. (i definitely want to visit someday!)

[x] I've been to Mexico

[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe. (OMG i want to go so badly! especially all of it)
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[] I've gotten lost in my city.

[x] I've seen a shooting star. (lots of times)
[x] I've wished on a shooting star (each time)

[] I've seen a meteor shower. (strangely enough no)
[] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.

[x ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping

[x] I've played spin the bottle. (yes, actually -_- at a party)

[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.

[] I've met someone in person from myspace.

[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.

[] I've seen the Northern lights. (so want to)

[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.

[] I've played chicken.<... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/21797041/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/21797041/ Fri, 20 Mar 2009 10:28:03 PDT

+++ Progress Update March 20th 2009 Friday 12:23pm +++

Mailed 3 today!
*Heather-The-Hermit
=stars-and-glitter
`laurart

==========Finished and Sent!!===========
@FixMeKnow Mailed 12/9/08
=minchanexcels Mailed 12/19/08
~Corsetx Mailed 12/19/08
~ranidelnoche Mailed 12/19/08
~IamCat Mailed 12/19/08
~HopesHearts Mailed 12/19/08
"West Nile" mailed 12/19/08
*Mahkohime mailed 12/23/08
=lydyzze mailed 12/23/08
~naboo-jedi mailed 12/23/08
=MrMushroomMan mailed 1/12/09
~maikoneko mailed 1/12/09
*lisaradgirl mailed 1/12/09
~x-Eilidh-x mailed 1/12/09
~Daggle mailed 2/17/09
=NineWhileNine mailed 2/17/09
~Morfindel mailed 2/17/09
*Heather-The-Hermit mailed 3/20/09
=stars-and-glitter mailed 3/20/09
=littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/21540569/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/21540569/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 18:57:17 PST

I still love you guys. I am not gone.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20929735/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20929735/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 01:14:01 PDT

i'm waiting
*Raimlla


mind is wandering...
=lydyzze


I feel empty
~blue-blood-karina


direction is directionless
~the-box-ghost


don't question it
=MaliceTear


am I?
~AmIWryNO


Lie to me?
~aranylapi


want not feel
~Neitakun


mind desolation
~NineWhileNine


moving away from you
~tamarack1pines


sliding downward..
=brittanysaysmoo


i can't see you anymore
=OmahaNebraska


i hate you
~DismalxStars


evermore http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20648707/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 09:08:09 PDT

Uploaded 29 images to scraps.
There is a reason why.
Because all of them are how they started out.
In other words, all of them are unfinished.
Or some may never be finished, depends on my passion about each one. A few are nearly finished though.

So the reason: If I later finish some, I can link back to the scrap, how it looked as a preliminary work.

Do not feel ANY obligation to comment. There will be a lot of uploads. You may comment, if you wish, I won't stop you. But I don't EXPECT comments. I am doing this for reference reasons.

I wondered what a lot of my drwings looked like mid stage, and I never scanned them at that point, so I am now.

Thank you for the outpouring of support, last journal. You all are the most wonderful, adorable, supportive, kind, sparkly/glittery, and caring friends, anyone could ask for. I am sorry I get down sometimes. But I am not down all the time, promise!

Also, I have started chatting with some dA ppl on MSN. That has uplifted me so much, that you just can't know, Thank you. (You guys got to see my typing, talking, and singing drunk, heheh) But that was grand fun.

Thank you for the texts too, those of you who did.

Me loves you all.

And if you don't like the mushy approach:

*smacks your ass*
*bumps into you*
*grabs your hair and pulls it*
*tries to tackle you, while calling you bad names (in jest of course)*
*shoots rubber bands at you*
*steals your pencil and runs while you chase*
*picks up your drink and licks the rim or straw or whatever*
*makes fun of your fayce*
*runs up behind you and puts pantyhose over your head, and then takes pix of you like that, and posts them on the internets*

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20616836/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20616836/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 09:56:51 PDT

I was not lying in the title.
I just want to say,
right now, my life IRL is very out of sorts,
with work,
how I feel about where I live,
how I feel about what I want from life,
how I feel about myself,
how I feel about how I got HERE (in life),
how I feel about all my messes I have created.
I am not special.
Everyone has problems.
Everyone, unless they are dead already.
I am sorry to bother you all with this entry of nothingness.


Beyond that,
I don't know how long it will take me to catch up on comments, replies, and certainly looking at all of your lovely deviations. Why? I am trying to get some things sorted IRL, and I need to spend more time seeing to that. I won't give up though. I won't abandon any of you.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20565052/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20565052/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 08:28:49 PDT

Hurricane came.
Hurricane, he knock down many trees.
Trees fall on power lines.
Power lines fall and break.
Now 22% of Texas has no Powa.
Our town had no generator for the town water supply.
So guess what?
No wata!
For 3 days.
No power for 5 days.
All food in fridge and freezer thrown away.
Chris survived on bread and PB and bottled water.
Nothing happened to my house.
Galveston was severly flooded.
But the death count was low: 2 drowned, and 5 natural causes.
Now you know everything.
Well, an outline.
Thank you for electricity. *happy tears*

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20464095/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20464095/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 23:39:40 PDT

Goonight. 1:38am GMT-6 Central Standard Time US.
Hurricane 5-6 hrs from me.
Will pass directly over me.
High probability of power outage.
So I will be gone however long we have no power.
Bye.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20303875/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20303875/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 15:42:37 PDT

Sept 6th, 2008:
Tagged by ~Fenchurch-St

EACH TAGGED PERSON MUST POST 8 FACTS ABOUT THEM SELVES IN THEIR JOURNAL.

i) I like orange juice, late at night, if I wake up. And cake, if there is any. Cheesecake is my favorite cake. Cheesecake from places that specialize in pies and cakes are best. The kind from the store are meh.

ii) I have never been out of the USA, except for Mexico. And I feel so deprived of the world's culture. My uncle travels the world all the time. Everything foreign seems fascinating and exotic to me. It is a conundrum, I don't like to travel, but I want to see the world. I wish I could shrink myself and just live on people's hats, or on their shoulder, and just travel that way, living through them.

iii) I have lost a lot of enthusiasm I once had. Sometimes I wonder if it is gone for good. Oh, I am supposed to be positive, sorry! I am enthusiastic about many things still, just a general malaise, I think. Wonder what's wrong with me.

iv) My favorite shoes are Docs. I have 2 pair, one white, one black. Black is the color I feel most comfortable in. Black is how I want my room for sleeping (not paint, just no light). I don't prefer a black car, they show dirt teribly. I don't drink coffee black. Black is one of my favorite things. I generally do not remeber color from dreams, just mainly events and emotions, so in black and white. I prefer black and white photography over color. I don't dislike color photo, I just have a preference, like a bi, favoring one direction, you know?

v) I know one person who has committed suicide. He was wealthy, very, had a nice family. But sometimes I understand the thoughts he must have had, or anyone who contemplates that. I have never tried that nor do I intend to. Someone I know recently attempted that, did not do it, thankfully.

vi) I used to think I knew things. The older I get, the the more I realize how much I do not know. I realize how small I am. I realize how little difference I make, I realize I am not really anything at all. Saying all this also makes me realize how self centered and selfish I am. And it makes me realize I like to be dramatic.

vii) I love the rain, and thunder and lightning storms. Let it pour. Let it lightning and thunder! I want that.

viii) My fantasies are not sexual. I fantasize about what other people's lives must be like. I try to imagine it in great detail, the minutiae. I especially focus on the everyday things they might be doing, ordinary things. It thrills me in some way. I don't know why I don't fantasize sexually. I am sure I did, as a lad. But I can have that whenever I want. Does that mean I think it is boring? No, I just think about other stuff most times, and then naked time comes, and I am like I remeber this! And it is awesome.





This next part is the tagg I did from ~maikoneko, you may have already read this, as I added this new tag to the same journal.
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Sept 3rd, 2008:
TAGGED BY ~ =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20185084/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/20185084/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 13:43:00 PDT

I want to hear a confession! Do It! Now! Or I will beat you down!

I'll start
*I never did do the red feature.
*I am loads better at starting a new project than I am finishing it.
*In high school, I filled my good friend's locker (ALL THE WAY FULL) with potatoes. Many lulz ensued.
*I play on dA at work
*I ignored the hamster last week
*I resist being serious, almost to a fault
*I almost got arrested in high school for chaining a nice shrub to my vw bug & the driving off (It ripped it out of the ground in an explosion of dirt!) - That was soooooo almost! But we had hidden the chain and ditched the shrub in the nick of time.
*I almost got arrested in college for spraying the entire art hall with a fire extinguisher. (I hid quickly), unfortunately, a French drunk painter was there (at night) and started thinking it was like destruction and mayhem time, he started breaking glass things in the hall, he DID get arrested, at least by campus police.
*I almost got arrested for letting my friend ride on top of my bug, he was a little drunk and fell off, causing him to go to the hospital.
*I was almost expelled from grad school. for altering the plumbing in my studio (to accomodate my darkroom). I am reeaaallly good at writing letters to people, and I wrote a pretty long apology to the Dean.

Okay, I gave you many confessions, you give me one!

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19966470/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19966470/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 08:32:17 PDT

Whatever it is you need to say?
_{Randoms is good, but anything is okay, you gotz imagination? use it.}

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19942367/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19942367/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 20:59:20 PDT

I was tagged by ~aranylapi I want to say something nice about ~aranylapi, just to embarrass her: She gives very wonderfully detailed comments when she looks at your art.

Write 8 things about myself in my journal.
Tag 8 people

Oh well.. here goes:

1. I never think of glitter... ever. I never make polls either.
2. I live in my own little world. Come join me!
3. I have some ADD issues, distractability on unwanted tasks/hyperfocus on things I want to do, does not always complete what was started.
4. I like Diablo II, Soul Calibur, and Guilty Gear. Talim is fave fighter on SC2. I like Ling Xiaoyu on Tekken. I think Amy Lee is pretty, but I like video game girls more.
5. I don't blog, besides my dA journal. I have always written in a journal since I was 10. I have filled at least 10 of them. 10x10=100, and that has nothing to do with my journals, just free associating.
6. I was very quiet as a child. And I am funny when tipsy. But I didn't drink as a child. I should have.
7. My favorite funny "character" is Stuart from MadTV. Then Little Britain (most all of the skits).
8. My favorite material posessions: dirt bike, computer, cameras.
9. I love plays. I wanted to break the rules of 8, so I made #9.

I tag: no one this time, this is my third tag in less than 30 days, so I have already tagged a bunch of people. Do what you want coz a Pirate is free. [link] But if you want to do this, do it!

Okay I tag ~Neitakun Are you happy now?

One more thing, ~LalalaTheDestroyer did you disappear? Props to =MrMushroomMan for his latest 2 videos, I liked them! ~maikoneko and ~naboo-jedi - need images if you want avatar!

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19792218/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19792218/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 14:28:24 PDT

Rule-Breaker! You are.

Here is the deal, anyone who responds here I will go look at their current work. My dev-watch is full beyond hope. I was just trying to make sure I see the work of my closer friends who actually read my polls and journals.

Since you can't look at 100 dev's at a time anymore, I am frustrated beyond hope of redemption with the dev watch. Kill it!!!

If you want me to look at specific works of yours, say so, or link it.

You don't have to say anything other than hello in this journal for me to go see your work. I won't make you "ask me".

Thank you, all of you, who interact with me. I don't care how many people watch me, I care about the interaction. okay, okay, I am getting sappy. /sap

Oh yeah, and tell me something about you? How you are? A random fact? Random is better than how you are. I don't care how you are, b/c you will just say fine even if you are dying. jk, really, how are you?


*Heather-The-Hermit : I am still on your collage, promise! (and your capsule) :]
~blackeyedbirdy : I have not started the larger drawing of the sketch, am I gonna get ?
~Yasnah Yours is not forgotten.
*Raimlla You are next! for happy trades.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19715325/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19715325/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 09:25:09 PDT

I just feel like complaining. So stop reading now if that irritates you. Really, the title should have gave it away and you should not have even clicked, if you "doen liek"

It's so freaking hot right now
I am in a foul mood this morning
I don't feel like being at work today

I am tired of my customer's stupid stories. Yesterday, one of my customers said that he nearly had to hit his ex-wife while she was staying with him. He doesn't like her, so why have her over? Then before he leaves he tells me there will be a rumble at the funeral after the preacher says amen, between him and 4 relatives, he wants them to start something. Then he casually says he'd like to be with this girl, who is technically his niece, but since it is step, and not blood, it should be okay.

Then I have my uncle's stupid stories. If I wrote them all down you would think I am nuts. Last stupid one I heard. Said his ex-wife's son was with him in the woods, and they needed to take a leak. So they do, and they peed on poison ivy. He said ex-wife's son had poison ivy next day on his manhood. So my uncle tells me that the poison ivy actually traveled up the stream of pee and that is how he got it there. He has dozens more like that. *crosses eyes*

Then I have all these other little nagging things.
You know, like, would like a different job, would like to move somewhere closer to a city, would like to meet IRL people who are not "cowboys" and "cattlemen" and 30 yrs older than me, to boot. Several of the machines are down, some of the bikes have flats and two of the buggies need a new battery, and one atv needs me to fab up and weld in a battery tray. I have online frustrations too, but that I won't go into. Oh, and money is a bit tight right now. And taxes will be due to be filed and paid again soon.

Nothing exciting happens to me. I live in the middle of nowhere. I think I am going to go dig my own grave and lay in it for a while, feel the cool earth, dig my toes in, contemplating my navel. Gahhhh.

On the flip side, many many things are good in my life. But I can't talk about those right now or it will spoil my rant and foul mood.

One more thing, some people asked me to join lastfm. Well, I already was, but did not use it much. Now I remember why. The jackasses who designed that website should be keelhauled, and whipped with a horse whip. The interface is so terrible. The navigation is the worst I have ever seen, even worse than amatuer websites. WTF? Did they get ADD and retards to design the navigation? (I can say that, I am a bit ADD myself, and can be retarded at times too). But this is a huge site. *I am (someone interrupted me, I have no idea what I was going to say, add to the list.) Also, this is no slight against my friends, just the design of lastfm.

The bug's alternator went out. Do you know how much it cost? Including about $100 labor, $766.00. I have always worked on my own cars, but bug is still under warranty, so I let them fix it. Have you ever seen a $650 alternator? BTW at the dealer it was $514, but add mileage to get it there and it was the same as the $650 one. So, I used to have an old Porsche, my sis still has her 928. She just bought a new alternator and hers was around $200. I bought one for mine and it was about the same. $650 A/C compressor, okay, I understand that, and have paid that! But $650 for an alternator? WTH!? It's fixed and is so wonderful, but I can't talk about that right now or it will spoil the mood.

My computer at home, retarded. It is always "acting up". Sometimes, it won't recognize a flash drive, restart, fixed. Sometimes the gerbils who are in the keyboard quit talking to the gerbils in the tower, and POOF, keyboard is down, restart, fixed. Other people forget to log off, and I tell the gerbils in the tower I need a restart, they come back and tattle that so and so did not log off, do I want to restart anyway? And I say yes, and then those gerbils are not listening anymore, probably camped out by the CPU fan, drinking tea. So then, I have to do a hard shutdown. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

v6 loads slower than a fat man getting out of a recliner. I mean seriously. When I click my message center, 10 to 25 seconds is the lag time, on DSL. I know DSL isn't the fastest, but it loaded my v5 me... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19682777/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19682777/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 14:53:05 PDT

I was tagged by `FixMeKnow that little spank-happy windblown mudfoot saucy dizzy-eyed horned-beast wagtailed jack-a-nape hugger-mugger. :]

Rules of the game
* Choose a singer/band/group.
* Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
* Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged).

I am gonna use clan of xymox

1. Are you male or female? Masquerade

2. Describe yourself. The child in me

3. What do people feel when they're around you? A million things

4. How would you describe your previous relationship? Agonised by love

5. Describe your current relationship. Written in the stars

6. Where would you want to be now? Out of the rain

7. How do you feel about love? Blind hearts

8. What's your life like? Obsession

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish? Love me

10. Say something wise. No human can drown

I tag:
=AmandaTheStampede
=FoxLi
*lisaradgirl
=lydyzze
~maikoneko
*Mahkohime
~x-Eilidh-x

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19638384/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19638384/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 09:22:29 PDT

And here's a tag I got from =brittanysaysmoo

1. Nick Name(s): Chris, duck (I guess)
2. Who do you think you look like: Some Asian girl
3. Birthday: May 25th
4. Place of Birth and Current Location: Houston, TX, now live betw Hou & DFW
5. Nationality: caucasian
6. Astrology Sign: Gemini
7. Chinese Astrology: Dog
8. Religion: Christian, baptist or methodist
9. What's your favorite smell: perfumes, coffee, castor 927 oil being burned from a 2 stroke dirtbike
10. Political Position: Meh
11. What do you prefer to drink in the morning: coffee with hazelnut creamer
12. Hair+Eye color: light brown, highlighted, blue eyes
13. Do you look like anyone famous: no
14. Any unusual talents: Define unusual
15. Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous: Righty
16. What do you do for a living: self employed
17. What do you do for fun: riding, draw, read, think in a quiet place, music, coffeehouse
18. What kind of material do you like to use: vintage
19. What kind of materials would you like to work with: boobs are kinda my favorite.
20. What celebrity would you date if you could: none
21. Favorite place to be: in bed, reading or errm, you know , or at the track
22. Least favorite place to be: My accountant's office at tax time
23. Do you burn or tan: Burn baby!
24. Ever break a bone: not yet
25. What is your favorite cereal: Kellogs Raisin Bran
26. Person you cry with: alone? It is hard for me to cry.

Do You Have...
27. Any sisters: 2 real, 2 step
28. Any brothers: 1 real, 1 half, 1 step
29. Any pets: chihuahua, 2 hamsters, 1 rabbit
30. An illness: Does mental count haha?
31. A visible birthmark: Yes
32. A pool or hot tub: Have, no, like, yes
33. A car: 3

Describe Your:
34. Personality: fun, spry
35. Your clothing style: Casual.
36. Room: Sanctuary
37. Relationship with your parents: v. good
38. Do you believe in yourself: yes
39. Do you believe in love at first sight?: That is a complicated question, riddles with exceptions and misconceptions, but in a word, yes. Possible? Y. Probable? Not as.

Do you:
40. Save your emails: not most of them
41. Pray: Yes
42. Believe in reincarnation: No
43. Brush your teeth twice a day: Yes
44. Like to talk on the phone: Don't like, I do that at work all day!
45. Like to eat: Sort of, it's a hassle really
46. Like to exercise: Like Yes, do I? Not currently, I should be.
47. Like to watch sports: Motocross
48. Sing in a car: If the music is too loud for people to hear me, okay
49. Do you have nightmares: Hardly ever, but yes.
50. Sleep with a stuffed animal: Yes, Owl pillow
51. Right next to you: it is one of my pillows
52. On your coffee cup: It is a cup from starbucks
53. On your mouse pad: a really cute (drawn) girl with net stockings.
54. Your favorite flavor of gum: I don't chew gum.
55. Your brand of deodorant: DKDC (don't know don't care)
56. Your dream honeymoon spot: already been, but, a cruise
57. Your bad time of day: all times are okay, but I don't like Sunday evening a lot, but I find that bedroom activities at that time make me forget I don't like it.
58. Your worst fear(s): Losing spouse, or child, or deadly disease.
59. What's the weather like: 100 F all week
60. What's your favorite time of year: Fall and Winter
61. Your favorite holiday: Halloween
62. A material weakness: dirtbikes
63. The hardest thing about growing up: F*%king all of it.
64. Your scariest moment: I can't remember, I block that sh*%, but I guess, car accidents I have been in?
65. The worst feeling in the world: Sever Depression, or a panic attack
66. The best feeling in the world: So many! The is a list a mile long, all are great, none is best
67. Who sent this to you: =brittanysaysmoo and answer #2 was her answer, but I thought I'd be cheeky and leave her answer.
68. What's your favorite color: Black, grey, blue
69. If you could be anything you'd like to be, what would it be: Me.
70. What's your favorite food: Don't have.
71. What's your favorite yaoi pairing: Do not want.
72. Are you a morning or an evening person: after midnight person
73. If you c... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19569228/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19569228/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 08:49:14 PDT

I was supposed to do this in Feb. I still have your notes peoples. Someone wanna collaborate and help me make the feature? (Basically help me choose the images) Working with others motivates me.

I hope my glitter polls are amusing you and irritating you.

I made youtube videos! It is quite fun! I made my 1st video documenting the collage I am making for *Heather-The-Hermit After I am done there, I have a trade to do with ~blackeyedbirdy but I have to lay a trap and pin her down. Then I hope to make something for *Raimlla and ~Yasna -- It's busy, but I am so happy to make thing for other people, it makes me feel wonderful.

Can someone tell me, I have Hybrid Theory (Linkin Park), what of theirs would I like next?

Is there anything similar to Xymox? ~NineWhileNine --- are you listening?

~spazannah, Where are your glitter eye pictures? *waiting, tapping foot*

fukukenobu, you are getting the award for kindest about participating and commenting. What you do is quite astounding.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19533444/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19533444/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 08:59:34 PDT

If you have no idea WTH that is -----> [link]

Wonder twin powers, Activate!!!

Form of.... _____________ (you tell me)

Shape of... ______________ (you tell me)

Chris:
Form of: an Ice Blizzard!
Ohhhhhhhhh I am all cold and blowing on all of you now!

You can be an animal, or something else like an inaimate object or a force of nature like a tornado, or whatever, use your imagination-station inside your brain. If you think this is gay, then go put glitter on your nipples in protest.

So tell Chris, what are you?

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19289164/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19289164/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 09:45:03 PDT

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I have these things:
myspace - hate it, don't use
facebook - registered, never use
livejournal - abandoned over a year ago
MSN - use randomly, but not a huge chatter
ICQ - use randomly
A paper journal - used daily (not published online)
Sketchbook - used daily

My youtube channel is: [link]

You tube is something I really enjoy. I only have a handful of videos I have uploaded.

Don't give me your myspace or facebook, I won't look anyway.

But, would you give me a link to your youtube channel (acct) if you have one, so I can friend you there, and see what videos you upload and watch? I would like that a lot.

Thanks for all the birthdays, I will get those in my shoutboard. You guys rock.
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]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19071476/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/19071476/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 08:22:52 PDT

1) Tell me your birthday & zodiac(year not necessary, just day and month. Mine is May 25th - Gemini.


2) I want to know if you want me to see any certain work you have done lately (or even old work)? Link or just tell me? (My deviations inbox is bursting, but I would like to comment if you have one you want me to see!)


3) Ask me questions. Serious, Silly, about me, about anything, whatever.



PS... I don't know CSS well and all this text is a link to Photobucket. :\ It isn't supposed to be. Just FYI.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/18412633/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/18412633/ Tue, 20 May 2008 09:49:58 PDT

Hello,
Say something random to me or send me a link.
The more random the better.

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/18204633/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/18204633/ Tue, 06 May 2008 22:17:18 PDT

Tomorrow I get my blood drawn. I can't tell you what a baby I am about that. F*%K! I have to get it drawn to test for compatibility with ~LalalaTheDestroyer -- I am donating blood to her. If you have any extra blood, she needs it.


That is really a lie. She is my friend and I am just giving her a hard time. But I DO get my blood drawn in the morning.

Reason? Doc is checking my seratonin levels and cholesterol. I think she is going to have to up my anti-depressant. And I bet anything I will have to be on cholesterol meds. Both of those problems are in my family.

On a serious note. My depression/anxiety has gotten severe. So severe, that I am considering seeing a psychologist. I have struggled with it [depression/anxiety/ADD-like behavior] since I was a kid. I have been treated off and on. And I have mostly been a non-compliant patient. I am ready to get help. Mostly I have not gotten help in the past as I have no med insurance. But when you get to feeling so bad, you don't really care what it costs to get help, you just want to. I am there. I am barely functional. I won't know about the psychologist until after Friday's Dr. Appt. See, I told you guys I was mental!

I could write a book to you guys about my life so far, it would take so long to explain. Anyway. If I get absent a little from dA, I am trying to take care of myself.

After reading about *Eldaran passing away... I feel like I would like to leave a mail address in case I ever disappeared:
C.M.
PO Box 185
Normangee TX 77871
(USA)

Specifically, these people have been supportive and friendly to me lately, thank you, each one of you: (not in any order) : ~NeeDoll =worldofmyown ~Dolphingal ~blackeyedbirdy =MrMushroomMan `FixMeKnow ~Corsetx =brittanysaysmoo ~naboo-jedi =OmahaNebraska =utqtbry ~Raimlla `laurart ~maikoneko =TheUnorthadox =kissmypixels =the-box-ghost =AmandaTheStampede *lisaradgirl =Mahkohime =NoodleDoodler ~moclovneerg =misslucifelle *lisaradgirl =brittanysaysmoo =michelephant ~CorporateXLullabies ~NineWhileNine ~Riotgurrl *ElectricMayhem =lydyzze
If I missed anyone who has been talking to me lately, I am sorry, it is not intentional. I still love you too.

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I read this article today. I am saddened at how some humans are really sub-human. Evil really does exist. The part that always strikes me about things like this is that there is nothing that can be done to the man that will repay him for what he did to his daughter. Another thing that this article makes me think is this: most really cruel and unusual sh*t that we read about IRL is often family violence, rather than "serial killers" and things people are so afraid of. Be afraid of your own family! I weep inside for this woman.


This link is the article source: [link]

Long-missing woman found
Published Monday, April 28, 2008 2:11 AM

By VERONIKA OLEKSYN
Associated Press


VIENNA, Austria -- Police have found a woman missing since 1984 who told authorities that her father had kept her in a cellar for almost 24 years and that she had given birth to at least six children after being repeatedly raped by him.

The 73-year-old father was taken into custody, said Franz Polzer, head of the Lower Austrian Bureau of Criminal Affairs, on Sunday.

Authorities found the woman Saturday evening in the town of Amstetten following a tip, Lower Austria police said in a statement.

The 42-year-old woman told police that her father began sexually abusing her when she was 11 and locked her in a room in the cellar Aug. 28, 1984.

During the 24 years that followed, she said, she was regularly abused and gave birth to six children, the statement said. She said she gave birth to twins in 1996 but one died several days later; police said they were investigating.

Police said the woman appeared "greatly disturbed" psychologically during questioning. She agreed to talk only after authorities assured her that she would no longer have to have contact with her father and that her children would be taken care of.

DNA tests are expected to determine whether the man is the father of the six surviving children, according to police.

Police said three of the children were registered with authorities and lived with the grandparents. The other three children were apparently held captive in the cellar with their mother, Polzer told reporters in broadcast remarks.

The Austria Press Agency said the three boys and three girls range in age from 5 and 20. One of the children, a 19-year-old woman, was being hospitalized in very serious condition, according to Austrian broadcaster ORF.

Sunday's developments recalled another case that shocked Austrians in the summer of 2006, when a young woman escaped after being largely confined to a tiny underground dungeon in a quiet Vienna suburb for more than eight years.

Natascha Kampusch was 10 years old when she was kidnapped in Vienna on her way to school in March 1998. Her abductor, Wolfgang Priklopil, threw himself in front of a train just hours after her dramatic escape.

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Link to where these came from: [link] [link]

This one made me

URINE THERAPY
12/06/2007: Kris Kemp (bicycledays@yahoo.com) from Burlington, Vermont writes: Urine therapy works. I remember feeling depressed, anxious, and cloudy headed, unable to concentrate. I drank about a cup of my own urine, and literally minute later felt a rush of energy and this sense of happiness come over me. Urine therapy and taking a cold shower for 60-seconds are amazing cures for a lot of health problems. It's not disgusting--just hold your nose and drink it in the shower. It will cure your physical problems and eliminate your depression. There's books written about it, too. Get them at your local library or from Amazon. Thanks! Kris [link]"




I thought this might make you blind

SUN GAZING
8/21/2007: Michael from Gig Harbor, Washington writes: "I started sungazing one year ago because I needed more balance in my life. I was depressed do to the lack of sunlight in Western Washington state. In the past year I have logged hundreds of hours of sungazing directly at the sun. Depression disappeared in a matter of weeks, my vision and night vision have both improved. I sleep less and have more energy then I have ever had before. Being in a good mood almost all of the time is another wonderful side effect."



Ummm, Okayyyyy? Wiggle my what?


WIGGLE THE TOE METHOD
7/4/2007: Hazel from London, England writes: "I had psychotic depression after my childs birth. I didn't sleep for days. A reflexologist told me this. You wiggle one toe, then the next one, then the next one and so on. Over and over. It works brilliantly, try it tonight!"




This just makes me giggle


PEANUT BUTTER
2/5/2007: Ryan from Lasalle, Quebec writes, "Peanut Butter cured a anxiety panic attack. When I am having a panic attack or feeling one coming on; I just eat 1 or 2 table spoons of peanut butter (right off the spoon) and I feel calm almost instantly."



I love it, it corrects brain chemistry!


8/22/2006: Sharon from NYC writes, "I read about cold showers on your site a few months ago. Since then whenever an anxiety attack hits me, I jump into a cold shower and stay there for about 5 minutes until I warm up. I am amazed at how fast it works to diminish anxiety. It must correct brain chemistry."




Note: I actually enjoy reading things on that website, but the way some people write about their experiences is comical. Also, I think the number of things people list that cure things can in itself be both bewildering and comical, ie the peanut butter!

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This one is insanely good! I am amazed:

This one makes me feel, errm, what is that word ... happy?


Do you know of any cool ones (Artist's depicting themselves in their environment)?

]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/18019257/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/18019257/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 08:21:29 PDT

This is just a short journal, I need to vent!

Okay, to set the setting, we live in a town of 700 people. I go to the post office each morning about 9:30am. The street has bad terrible potholes by the exit side. People go in and out of both the entrance and the exit, all the time, every day, all day, no one observes them. (Entrance only/Exit Only) -- Mainly because the street is so torn up by the exit side it will tear up your car, literally.

So I was leaving, waiting, stopped, to go out (in the car) and this man runs his truck right at mine and nearly hits my car! (He literally had me blocked from going forward) Then he won't back up! So I backed up as he shook his finger at me and was hollering with the windows up. At first I thought he wasn't paying attention, then I realized he did it to make a point that I was going out the wrong way. So we roll our windows down and he starts screaming at me (literally hollering) that I was going the wrong way. I was so mad!!! (He has a speech impediment so it was almost funny him yelling at me but I wasn't feeling very jolly at the moment) This happens each and every day and people just are used to it (using both exits). The entrance is plenty wide enough for two Full size trucks (I mean, like duelly's), not narrow at all. So Each time he yelled, I just said, "you don't have to run over people."

I know that I should use the exit, and so should everyone else, but no one does. So I am not perfect, I realize that. However, when is it ever acceptable to pretend to almost wreck into someone to teach them a lesson? When is it acceptable to block someone in because you are angry?

I am so hot I cannot think rationally at the moment.

A side note, in Houston where I grew up, people sometimes get shot by other motorists. You just don't f*ck with people. I got chased in Houston for honking at someone. I never mess with other drivers, I don't want to become a victim of someone's rage.

I hope he never does that to my customer S. Gust****, he is always packing, and has a temper, and would likely have shot the man. And that is not an exaggeration by any stretch.

F**k I am sooo mad!!! I hate to be yelled at! Partly why I hate it so very much is I will not yell back, I won't get on their level. So now I have this acid rage to deal with this morning and no outlet! F**ck F**k F**k!

Death to that man Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

(not really death to him, but I am so mad and irrational that my mind is saying that.)



PS, after writing this I am feeling much less angry, writing helps me so much, and I thought you might get a kick out of seeing me on a tirade, since it hardly ever happens.

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My feeling in general is


My psyche got all sideways


This has been the landscape of my mind


My thoughts all stacked up


Nooo not that kind of stacked you perverts!


More stacked like this


So I don't really trust myself to


I am fading


And I don't want it anymore


I may be small inside


But the wall ...


I just can't apologize anymore


And I don't think I can do it anymore


I won't play by my own stupid rules anymore


So I say to myself


No really


I am going to quit trying so hard http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/17065768/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 21:43:48 PST

My life is unraveling

I feel Isolated

Everything I thought I was

Is a lie I told myself

I thought I had it all figured out

I was so wrong

I am a mask So much that I even fooled myself. I thought I was this wonderful person, who could be an asset to the world, and people, and me.

Now I sit at the edge of emptiness

My inner self is wasting away

I thought you would be entertained

More than that, I thought I had found a life path

Instead I find I am in white out conditions

I can't see a way out

I feel dysfunctional

I'm currently useless

Now I just wait for the end

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*Edit 2/14/08 Thurs 2:02pm GMT-6 (CST)* Last Call. Send if you would like.



Feb 1, 2008
Okay, I did a poll, and Red was the clear winner. So, with Valentines in two weeks big surprise, right?

What am I doing? I am making a journal feature, a themed one, RED is the theme. No, it isn't a Valentine feature, just red. Red needs to be a central theme in the work. It can be red elephants for all I care. And it can have other colors, as long as red is central. I will also be mentioning every deviant who submitted work that makes it into the feature. What I really want most, is for the submitters to think and write about why they want work featured. If all you can say is "b/c it's cool" -- then -- You've go to do better than that. I think people who view the feature and who are featured themselves will really appreciate your thoughts about the deviations you are promoting. Try to be specific in your words. "Kawaii!!!" is not a description


Who can be in this themed journal? Anyone, but I will be selecting the best of what is submitted.


What are the rules?
1) All submissions must be noted to me. Please don't post them in this journal. That way if I choose not to accept one, it is more private.

2) It is mandatory that you say why you like each submission. This will weigh more heavily to me than if I think the piece is good or not. Convince me why you think it is good.

3) Can you submit your own work? No. This way, if a work is not accepted, feelings will be less hurt, plus, if you want to pimp your own work, then use thumbshare forum or your own journal.

4) How many can I submit? As many as you like. Just remember, you must explain why you like each one. And I can guarantee not all will make it to the journal.


When will this journal appear? Before Valentines. I cannot be more specific, but I will take submissions for a week, the deadline is 2/9/08.


Questions? Ask in this journal or in notes.

I am interested to see what others who don't watch me would come up with so I started a thread in the dungeon [link]

If you think this is dumb, too bad. You go make your own journal.

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WTH [a sneezing fetish forum? Read some there it is lulz worthy: [link] for lulz



I have a cold. And I don't feel great. But life hardly pauses a microsecond for colds. In other news I looked in the fridge: Why is all the cheesecake gone?





For me, there is none. I have hit a brick wall. The room in my mind where art is made is silent. That whole wing is silent. I am not going to force things to happen. So, until the sleeper awakens, I am not going to do anything.

However, I did try like mad for a month to learn how to convert video and audio files from one format to another, and how to upload/edit etc new videos. (I got a new Sony 30GB HDD Camcorder in Dec.) All I ended up with was an upload to Youtube of something mocking =OmahaNebraska's voice vid for the deviants forum thread. I think it is kinda funny. Video is cool. But it looks like it takes Forevah to edit them. And the good editors like Adobe's are pricey. Learning vid editing is a whole 'nother realm.




I am going to just feature some things I faved recently.
by ~sophiadrevenstam I was like Her arms Her arms I feel sad she would do that.
by *Hankita So it is a DD, shut up, I really don't care. But I liked how applicable it was, probably to most people.
by =tori-margaret I wanna eat doze o's. I bet I could pick them up with my tongue!
by ~nastizolcompuesto Why? Because I feel like that lately: Lost... a little green being in a black and white world. I feel a lot of emotion from this. I am not sure what others would feel, maybe nothing -- just little punk girl with camera. That is only surface to me.
by ~nastizolcompuesto I feel the same again. Who Am I? Is this real? Is this me? Why am I here? Very odd feeling. I really like... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/15504677/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/15504677/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 09:14:03 PST



I am feeling really sad and totally pathetic today. I just feel like my life is... But rather than talk about my feelings in detail, which would just embarrass me and make me later delete this entry, I will instead focus on a few deviants who have been so kind to me lately. Some talked to me, some commented on my work, some made me laugh, and some are just speyshul.
~rubberduckiegirl she is not active on dA at all, but she is my IRL woman. I her more than anything.
=TheUnorthadox she is very kind to me, always cheerful, my print I bought of her work arrived today in the mail, it is adorable.
=utqtbry She is a new friend. She is so kind, and very supportive to me in general. She is really a good person to know.
~worldofmyown Lee is good people. She is always nice to me and everyone.
=Mahkohime New friend. I like this person. She has been very fun to talk with. I get the feeling she is *good*
=NoodleDoodler She is a good forum friend. Makes me laugh and smile often.
~2xrayzerase gives the most thoughtful and deep comments on my work. I appreciate her!
=laurart Very kind, and also funny. Another forum buddy. I like her long chains in the forums.
^touchedvenus Kudos to her: she will talk to you when by all rights she is way too busy to have the time. As sincere person as you will meet. So polite.
=the-box-ghost Ever a friend, if you need one, she is it!
=michelephant Love her random notes. And her enthusiasm.
~maikoneko You just can't do without her!
=AmandaTheStampede Forum friend. Really a little shy, but cheerful and kind. She is funny and witty too.
~Raimlla Good talks!
*kissmypixels She is loved by everyone who knows her. Get to know her if you don't. You won't be disappointed, she is kind and sincere.


Thank you all.



1. Avatar for ~naboo-jedi - in process - see my scraps
2. Gift art for =michelephant - not started yet - still thinking
3. This journal:
a) CSS skeleton: Done
b) Dividers: The "ideas" are done, but these fonts/boxes may change
c) Header: Started with typography, but needs more - not finished
d) Footer: Not started yet


littleblackduck's photographs
littleblackduck's printmaking
littleblackduck's deviant art related work



=littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/14671450/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/14671450/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 12:04:49 PDT http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/13314928/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 10:17:25 PDT Chris
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(clip) [link]

Aqua Teen Hunger Force

Cybernetic Ghost

Transcribed by Audra. Aqua Teen Hunger Force is TM & © 2001 Cartoon Network. An AOL Time Warner Company.





(Giant monster hand crushes Dr. Weird's fortress and Dr. Weird and Steve run away)





(Carl is sleeping)

Robot: Fat man, arise!

Carl: Huh? Oh God!

Robot: Now you listen directly to me. For I am the Ghost of Christmas Past, and I have come to show you what Christmas was like.

Carl: Alright.

Robot: This was Christmas for little Carl in 1968...



Little Carl: Oh boy! Oh boy! I hope this is a new mommy!

Carl's dad: Yeah, it's not. Unwrap it you little creep. We gotta be at work in an hour.

Little Carl: What is this there? What? Is this carpet, daddy?

Carl's dad: Carpet? No, no, it's Berber. That's an industry term.

Little Carl: Hey, it's like a flying magic carpet here. Look at this! I'm flying around in Egypt land!

Carl's dad: Hehe, that's cute. Don't get too attached there, Aladdin, cuz it's about to be magic flying dinner.

Little Carl: You can't eat carpet, silly daddy.

Carl's dad: No, of course you can't like that. You gotta boil it, til the glue gets soft, ya know. Aw geez, look at the time.

Little Carl: But it's Christmas, daddy! (Cries)

Carl's dad: You're not getting out of this. Put on your work boots and your respirator. I had to pull a lot of strings to get them to hire and 8-year old.

Little Carl: Don't make me go! I don't want to make insulation!

Carl's dad: Come on, yer late!

Little Carl: Oh God!

(Shooting lasers and Robot's foot stamps down in Little Carl's living room)



Robot: You remember that Christmas, don't you?

Carl: No, I, you know, I remember eating carpet, but not so much the lasers and the robots though.

Robot: The war of man against machine raged on through the early 70s. You don't remember because back then it was only a prophecy, but now, in the future, the past has occurred.

Carl: Just hang on a second, okay?

Robot: Surely.

Carl: You're the ghost of Christmas past, right?

Robot: That is correct.

Carl: Okay, well, I mean, you know that it's February, right?

Robot: I am a robot.

Carl: Well, ya know, obviously. What are you, stupid?

Robot: W- Well no I -- I will see you in December. Tomorrow.

Carl: Whatever there. Just lock the door on the way-- (Robot crashes through wall)

Robot: Do what?

Carl: Never mind, just leave! Oh great.

Shake: Hey Carl.

Carl: What? Why are you here? What else happened? Is my car messed up?

Shake: Alright, listen. I wouldn't bother you like this...

Carl: Something's wrong with my roof, isn't it? What, the robots on my roof, right? He's ripping up my shingles, what?

Shake: Carl, just relax. Listen, this is TOTALLY not a big deal. (Carl's swimming pool is filled with blood)

Carl: This IS a big deal! It's a VERY big deal! What is this?

Shake: Look, at first I thought this was that stuff that turns red when you pee in it, because I've had to pee here a number of times, but look at it, Carl. That's blood, my friend.

Carl: It's like someone wrang out a herd of cows though a juicer or something.

Frylock: (Using his Frydar) This is not cow blood, Carl. This is...elfin blood.

Carl: Who would do something like this to me?

Robot: I don't know, maybe...oh wait. I did it.

Frylock: So why did you fill Carl's pool with blood?

Robot: Well, this is going to take a long time, so you may want to get some snacks.

Frylock: No, no, that's alright. I think I can wait for it.

Shake: Well, I'M going to get food.

Robot: THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO, before the dawn of man as we knew him, there was Sir Santa of Claus, an ape-like creature making crude and pointless toys out of dinobones and his own waste, hurling them at chimp-like creatures with crinkled hands regardless of... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/13124028/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/13124028/ Mon, 28 May 2007 10:37:15 PDT TheUnorthadox


]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/12464369/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/12464369/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 00:36:58 PDT [link] D&D Silliness

[link] Reno 911 D&D Silliness... with Patton Oswalt "I live in a world of cold steel, and dungeons, and mighty foes" "I'm wearing boots of escaping!!!" "I'm a demon god of conquest"

[link] Digital D&D Play
"roll the dice to see if I'm getting drunk!" "Are there any girls there?"

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
And my feature... I am featuring NietzschesErbe

One thing about him... He has never ever responded to any comment I have left, so maybe don't expect him to if you leave one... But his work is badass in my opinion and his gallery is worth looking at. Lots of war imagery, very beautiful collages and image combinations, powerful. Leave me a comment and let me know if you liked any of it?
... ]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/12396435/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/12396435/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 17:42:24 PDT
This ep he goes to the therapist.
[link]

Bitch Goddess by ~Hollinger aka Loki God of Mischief, hailing from Las Vegas. Mainly a pin up photographer. Hollingers gallery rocks, check him out.
Brilliant IMO. I just love this. Everything about it.

A few more of Hollinger's works:


I like his work.. I like the pretty girls, I have always liked pin-ups... and I love his processing methods too. From the garishly bright colors to the sublime solarized look of his B&W's. Really nice gallery.

Do you like his work too? Let me know why or why not?

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Featuring
She is a super nice person. Very good communicator. She is a 3D artist. She is a Poser addict (I think ). FULL VIEW IS A MUST!!!! Here is a few of her works!


]]> =littleblackduck http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/11077288/ http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/11077288/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 20:04:54 PST Is my featured arist today!

Lalala The destoyer is a lot of fun. She makes me laugh non-stop. Her drawings are really charming, and fun! Please check out her gallery! Visit her page! Make sure to read her deviation desriptions... They are FUNNY!!!!!!! Please leave her a comment or a note that you looked at her page or dev's. She would appreciate that!

I don't have legs anymore... They were surgically and violently removed by Lalala The Destroyer... Actually I donated them... She really needed them. She is making a doomsday device to control the world. Or was that to destroy the world? Ahhh, I should have asked more questions. Anyway you can ask her about it. I am pretty sure she is still needing more body parts, and she would be happy for any donations you could provide.

Inquire with her. I don't trade in parts or broker for her... I am just promoting!

She draws!

She likes gaming!

SHe makes avatars!:

She has mature fantasy chars!, well one...

She has a cuuute dog!

She makes banners! Donate a body part, she might make one for ya!

Don't cross her, she has magical firestarter powers:

SHe does comic strips (her awesome humor in action):

She makes cute dev ID's:

Shennanigans to be found:

More comics. I like Lalala's style!

Just effing brilliant!
http://littleblackduck.deviantart.com/journal/10940844/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 19:19:23 PST
If you like any of my work, leave a comment!

Since this is my 1st entry, I am keeping it short!

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