http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:lordlossxz&section=today deviantART RSS for by:lordlossxz en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 03:08:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/28324725/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/28324725/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:19:53 PST This is a very important and inspirational day for me and so many others.
It would be absolutely amazing if you could participate on this day.
To Write Love On Her Arms Day is a day where anyone can write the words 'Love' on their arms, to support those who are fighting against depression and those who are trying to recover.
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To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.
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So join us this Friday! Write 'Love' on your arm/arms and spread the word.


I'll certainly participate. I hope lots of you do too.
This simple act could bring hope for someone out there.

(copy/pasted from a friends journal, but ive decided ill be participating and hope you do too)

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]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/26385700/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/26385700/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 17:07:31 PDT So, thank you all, very very very much! Seriously, it brings joy to my day when I log on here and see that, lol. You guys (and gals) are great ^^

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/26191484/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/26191484/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 13:47:10 PDT And what's a future without you..? Not one I care to know...

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/26187532/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/26187532/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 10:17:15 PDT ...And I don't want to see what happens at the other side of this point yet...
You could have at least have at least had the decency to say goodbye last night
instead of ignoring my I love you... Ignoring my good night... It's fairly obvious this is going right back where I never wanted it... Because I thought I deserved some answers
Apparently I pushed my luck though didn't I?

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/25634406/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/25634406/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 17:02:38 PDT And conversely, all of us too know that inspiration can come to us from the most unlikely of places sometimes, and others, its from a continuous scource. Whether our muse be a pet, a place, or a loved one is up to the individual. And as inspiration can come from a great many places, so will it come from emotions.
Love, happiness, lust, peace. Sorrow, despair, pain. Anger, hate, rage. All of these can create inspiration and for some of us, the darker of these emotions inspire more than the light.
For myself, i garner my inspiration often from the love and happiness of my loved one...
And then, when the love is torn apart, I;m only left with the dark side of it all.
I guess I can say that I have felt extremely inspired lately, for pain is my greatest inspiration of all.
But i think, that if pain is to be my inspiration, I'd rather remain uninspired.
I've written a slew of poems and added to stories lately, but I feel that it is all to be unshared.
I do not usually have a problem sharing. I like the critiques, but maybe, for once, it's all just too dark and personal to be unleashed. So in my head it will all stay. Locked away to keep me, and her, safe...

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/24006750/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/24006750/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 14:19:49 PDT and then giving my love some flowers and an ask to prom

shes gonna be surrised
also, im bored, bc my teacher is no longer talking to me bc he actually has to teach now
fail
sophomores
lol
he likes sophomores, but personally, id die trying to put up with them... or probly better yet, theyd die, hehe

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/23854202/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/23854202/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 17:47:40 PDT I'm so stressed out and I'm depressed. And lately, I can't stop myself from taking it all out on the one person who cares enough to try and make it better. If your reading this, I'm sorry. I love you. It'll pass. It always does. Its just hard right now. I just hope I'm not pushing you away...

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/22705031/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/22705031/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 22:38:23 PST Check out her work, I'm sure you'll like it.

Here is her profile: (Clicky the liny) [link]

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My friend Megan is pretty awesome as well. Go look.
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And lastly my friend Amanda
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]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/21824755/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/21824755/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 00:07:30 PST And i just found out that i dont rly like a perfect circle too much thnx to pandora

anyway, so, heres my update.
i am going to be writing a lot more in preperation for college plans and career goals. I spend maybe just a little too much time at my girlfriends, but you know how that works, especially since im enaged to her
(SURPRISE TO ALL WHO DIDNT KNW!!)
yah. but alas, january will begin school and between work and school i will have almost no time to spend at Taylor's and will be forced to stay at home where most of the time, instead of doing homework until the last possible minute, i will instead be writing, lol, cuase im just cool like that

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/21072303/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/21072303/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 23:18:09 PDT
People like it? Zomgs!
This makes me happy.

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/19315622/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/19315622/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 17:50:01 PDT I swear, all I want to do is breakdown, mentally and physically
Just let my body erode into dust and cease to exist.
But I know... No matter what, I HAVE to keep going
I NEED to keep pushing on, til its my time to die. I know I havent yet made it to this point in life where its my time. and I NEED to push, even when I feel I cant, even when I need to use my friends as a crutch.. Because Though my life isnt what it once was, I still have it, and I cant give up until I reach the end. I need to know that when I join the ARMY that I was strong enough to make it through. I need to live long enough to see my daughter, Emily Kay... and my son, Kael Anthony
I cant give up. Not yet. And though Sometimes I wish i could, and almost have, I CANT..
So Life is hard...
Its not easy for anyone...
But it's getting better...
(Wish me luck on my date tonight ^^)

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/19029253/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/19029253/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 22:09:36 PDT but in light of recent events
The only way i can of celebrating is a short drop with a sudden stop

Wanna help?

PS: Fuck you mood thingy.. Triumph is the FURTHEST thing from the true mood...
fucker
its stuck...

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/19008550/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/19008550/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 19:38:15 PDT its stuck
proper mood=numb
or suicidal...

Cant think
Cant sleep
Cant eat
Hard to breathe
Wish is was dead

I fucked up the best thing in my life
it wasnt perfect
but so close...
and now shes gone...
why..?
why do i do this shit?
i hurt her... beyond repair this time
physically gave her a heart attack...
i didnt know.. her heart was weak
i didnt know...
what else didnt i know?
theres no justificaition...
i fucked it all away

Relaitionship
Marriage
Loft in Seattle
Life
Baby Kael
Hopes
Dreams
Plans
I fucked it all away

i wish someone would just blow me away...

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/18961570/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/18961570/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 05:20:05 PDT just typing is tedious when you've already written it out once >.>

anyway
ill be posting more frequently now i think

thankseveryone
lol
ttys

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/18524906/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/18524906/ Tue, 27 May 2008 10:11:16 PDT So, it's been written out
like a lot of it
you know the one, A Lost Serenade
well... I think I should really stop being lazy andTYPE it up so I can post it.
But here is the problem
see, I do have a good excuse, really
I'm at school from 7-3 then I work from 3-8
leaving me with an hour to homework
and then im too tired to type
..or it could be that damned Warcraft III (it never gets old)
...but Im going to stick tomy original story ^^
lol
no time
so yah
dont hate me
as soon as i graduate (9 days away)
ill type it up ^^

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/18240232/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/18240232/ Fri, 09 May 2008 10:41:43 PDT and all their he said she said bull shit
it fucking pisses me off
because i almost, and still might have lost the one person in this world that i care about more than anyone else becasue of it
because of hearsey
and it fucking sucks
idk what to do
because no matter what i tell her
even tho its the truth
shes not believeing me
shes not trusting me
and idk what to do anymore...
FUCK

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/17920498/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/17920498/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 23:57:13 PDT dont worry, I can handle it. lol
I just want some opinions.
I'm actually quite proud of this one. I also have a LOT more of it already written, it just needs to be typed up.
Ugh o.0

^^
PS, I love all of you (if you read it, lmao)

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/17422801/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/17422801/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 08:42:37 PDT -spazzes-

...umm, yah
dont mind me
lol
so, interesting morning [long fucking week]
apparently someone threatened to make our school the new columbine this morning
lawl
(im not worried)
Llama!
(dont ask)
...should i listen to Eighteen Visions or 32 Leaves..?
32 Leaves
ok, so important stuffs now
Im joining the ARMY come June after i graduate
and me and my g/f broke up (I with her) bc of it
she makes me worry a lot though >.<
gah
and hence my recent flood of poetry
yah...
-sings- "All is numb, I've been lost too long, my face has been mistakenly chosen. All is numb, yah I've done yo wrong, my face is mistakenly chosen"
32 Leaves reminds me of Revis a bit
of course, none of you know who im talking about...
Ryan MAYBE
.. /shrug
adieu!

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16518801/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16518801/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:07:43 PST i had the full intent of putting it up but i never got around to it
but i promise, it will be up by friday at the latest!
(dont hate me, lol)

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16349406/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16349406/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 19:42:03 PST i have 40 pages written and i've decided that im going to start posting it on here (no huge cliff hangers this time) and you guys are gonna tell me what you think, pllllzzzz
lol
i REALLY like it so far
im quite proud actually
so, expdect to see it soon ^^

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16263519/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16263519/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 23:38:02 PST Im fine, now..
I had a bad night and got rly depressed but im better
Thankyou amanda, btw, for being her, it means a lot to me, and to those who never got around to reading it but i know would be here for me if they had, thank you too
anyway, im better now, so dont worry
OH! And go read my story, or the part of it thats on here ^^

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16238249/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16238249/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 10:46:10 PST
The new year has begun and not in a good way... I'm scared... I had a fun (yes, thats sarcastic) breakdown last night. I've realized that i need help, more help than friends can give. I dont want these thoughts circling around in my head anymore. I dont want to hope that everytime i get into the car we'll get in a carr accident and die. I dont want to hope that if i just dont pay attention when i walk across the street i might get hit. I dont want these thoughts anymore. Theres NO reason for them either. Why am i unhappy. I have Taylor and i LOVE her, soooooooooooo much... I'm getting almost straight A's in school, family life isnt perfect but its not this bad. Im scared and im crying right now...
Im gonna see Taylor today and after i leave her house im gonna talk with my mom... What will she say, what will she do? Will she start crying like Taylor did last night? i cant bear that. If i can help it, i NEVER want to hear Taylor cry like that again, it felt like i was being torn in two, and it was my fault. I dont want her to love me this much, i dont deserve it anyway...
Im scared...

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16197516/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16197516/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 00:16:44 PST My most favorite-est spot on the planet, lol
i had a blast
snowboarding rox my sox off (sometimes literallly (oww))
annnnnyywaaay
im back!
and
and
AND
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16049144/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16049144/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 19:51:04 PST
i am reeeeeeeaaalllllly excited
3 weeks from today
my birthday
ill be 18
and im going fucking skydiving!!!!!!!
WOOOOOT
OOOOOOMG
IM EXCITED!

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16012488/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16012488/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 10:05:42 PST i guess im using them as the equivilant of bulletins on myspace, lmao

anyway, the news, the reason for this
OOOOOOOMG!!!
I LOVE TAYLOR ANN POWELL
she got me like the coolest book about vampires and stuff for Christmas
its hilarious too
i love it
she is perfect (or as close as it gets, lol)
anyway, that is all, lol

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16002875/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/16002875/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 15:51:09 PST I'd be GREATLY appreciative
and soon, for those who are interested, im going to start posting stories on here
I have 2 short stories fully written and im working on a novella, possibley a full novel that i'll post in segments
so if you would all be so generous as to waste a little time on me, i'll love you forever

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/15989495/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/15989495/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 16:24:28 PST so help me out ^^
come join!
[link]

]]> ~lordlossxz http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/15965451/ http://lordlossxz.deviantart.com/journal/15965451/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 20:38:50 PST i hate thoe two words...
"lets just be friends"
ugh, and the worst part is, her whole reasoning was one big mass of contradictions! WHY DO GIRLS HAVE TO BE SOOOO DAMN CONFUSING?!
gah
i swear, i (almost) wish i was gay
at elast i understand guys better
first she loves me (which is great) then she doesnt (at elast not the way i want her too)
i make her really happy (yet she was really unhappy being in a relationship with me)
i was the best boyfriend she ever had... which explains why she dumped me?
WTF?!
she doesnt think that she'd have made me very happy
yet she doesnt see then that she ade me happier than ANYONE, in a LONG time
like... 6-9 months long time
FUCK! (pardon the language)
someone, explain this to me in guy terms? idk... everyone of my DA friends are girls, maybe you guys can explain ti to me?
just a little help plz
or randomness to cheer me up even, thats great too

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