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The Light In the Darkness

~love-runner — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 14:43:10 PST

Today is actually a rather wonderful day...it started off rather terrible, but I decided that I wasn't going to let life get me down and I had so much to smile about. It's been an incredible ride and now I'm letting things slow down. See I'm startin' to clean up my house and my thoughts; I know I've been so wishy washy, but now I'm determined to help myself look up to the bright side. My friends are phenomenal, my family I adore, Feeha brilliant, Jesse funny and most of all Jake my best friend. (You three are my closest friends.) I know things have just taken a road that is completely and utterly CRAZY, but crazy is how I flow. Please realize it's not that I don't care about you, it's not that I don't love you, we're just not helping each other grow any more. You're always going to be one of my most trusted friends and I'll hold you dear to my heart. After all you never did anything wrong and I never did anything wrong either; we've just out grown each other. Promises aren't going to be broken because I promise you're coming to my wedding either way. These two years have been awesome, and there's no need for tears...I'm not leaving out of your life, or screwing you over; I hope we're still going to be friends. I do love you...but it's more brotherly and best friendy any more.

With love,
Raelee

Your Lies Are Truth

~love-runner — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 15:05:55 PST

It' awful. Your foul lies, your awful rumors. You're so heartless, look at what you're doing? Please, I know you're hurt...but take a look at how much bigger you've made this delicate mess. Jeez, you're not kind; you see I don't understand all your lies. You could have parted your ways with out all this drama...take a look at what has happened. Cut open the house and look at what a disaster it is. Clothing is lying on the ceiling, couches ripped to shreds, animals going unfed, sheets stained with blood, tears leaking from the faucets and ceiling fans slicing heads. Please just take a glance; he used to talk so highly of you...told me you deserved a great guy and were a wonderful person; the two of you just weren't fate. Now his whole opinion has changed; he can't stand the sight of you, it's become poison to his hazel eyes. Your voice makes him deaf, and he wonders what has happened to you? You're heart broken and that's lead to you being hateful, harmful, awful and acting completely out of turn. You're a senior, the top of your school...what a low role model you are. Do you see how people look at you? Honey, you could do so much better...everyone is wound up and adrenaline is flying in the air. Please, I'm asking you...just let things go...move on to better things. If he is such a horrible person, then why are you bothering with him? Why are you wasting your precious time? Because deep down you know you're still in love with him. Your chance was given to you, you had the chance to be friends...but you made it so your depart was heated and burning...he didn't want to deal with that. Can you blame him beautiful? If he's such a bad person, then he shouldn't matter. Where are you trying to go with all this hate; you're just running in place. People love you, so hang out with your friends; learn to continue smiling and appreciate the things you do have. Don't keep this drama up, stop connection with him...stop bothering with him. Because if you don't in the end someone's going to end up truly hurt...if that's your goal then just bless your beloved soul.

Love,
Waves

Just Lost for Awhile....

~love-runner — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 14:29:44 PST

Time, time...
Where is my chime?
I've lost my way.
I wish today was the day.
I have a fork in the road,
Do I take the traveled lane?
Or the over grown, path?
There isn't any wrath,
Both are quiet and peaceful.
Birds singing and waterfalls falling.
Adventure or proven promise.
I'm standing here shaking,
My boots are soulless and
Heart torn right in two.
Is there a wrong thing to do?
Logic vs emotion...
Confusion vs passion...
I wish I could make a simple
Decision...

Dearest Feeha,

~love-runner — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 00:53:31 PST

It's freakin' crazy how barely 2 months ago we didn't even know each other...we were only myspace buddies. Now we spend week days and weekends with each other, a couple hours on the phone and smiles shared that last forever.

Singing together, laughing till sun set and rise, I can't believe I barely new you.

I'm completely comfortable with you, I can share everything with you, I smile with you. It's amazing how you just randomly came walking by.

Best friends forever!

With the love of a million suns,

Waves

Down on the Corner!

~love-runner — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 12:55:07 PST

Early in the evenin' just about supper time
Over by the courthouse, they're startin' to unwind.
Poor kids on the corner try to bring you up.
Willy picks a tune out and he blows it on the hum.

Down on the corner, out in the street,
Willy and the poor boys are playin';
Bring a nickel. Tap your feet.

Gersta hits the white bow. People just gotta smile.
Lucas thumbs a gut-bass, yeah, solos for a while.
Poor boy brings the rhythym out on his kalamazoo
And Willy goes into a dance; doubles on his lou.

Down on the corner, out in the street,
Willy and the poor boys are playin';
Bring a nickel. Tap your feet.

Down on the corner, out in the street,
Willy and the poor boys are playin';
Bring a nickel. Tap your feet.

You don't need a penny just to hang around,
But if you got a nickel, won't ya lay your money down?
Over on the corner there's a happy noise.
People come from all around to watch the magic boy.

Down on the corner, out in the street,
Willy and the poor boys are playin';
Bring a nickel. Tap your feet.

Down on the corner, out in the street,
Willy and the poor boys are playin';
Bring a nickel. Tap your feet.

Down on the corner, out in the street,
Willy and the poor boys are playin';
Bring a nickel. Tap your feet.

Down on the corner, out in the street

It's Starting to Get Easier...

~love-runner — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 12:43:53 PST

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

You hurt me and you hurt me...now I'm stronger than the hurt you used to use against me. I've lost you and I'm not longer interested in finding you, everything about you isn't good for me any more. It's easier when you told me you hated me and never cared about me...a lot easier to say goodbye. I don't want to talk to you...because it always hurts so much. Thanks for all the fond memories...I'll move on.
You and I is not a thing anymore, no longer best friends...because we're better off this way. It'll get easier every day. I'm not a fool to let you slip away, you disappeared a million days ago. It was nice having you, now it's nice not having you. I'm free from the drama...you were always my drama. Bye, bye blue boy and bye, bye Red Eyes.

"Nothing's gonna change my world..."

Fifteen

~love-runner — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 10:59:30 PST

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
Its the morning of your very first day
you say hi to your friends you aint seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybodys way
its your freshman year and youre gonna be here
for the next four years in this town
hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
you know I havent seen you around, before

Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen
feeling like there nothing to figure out
well count to ten, take it in
this is life before who youre gonna be
fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
and soon enough youre best friends
laughing at the other girls who think theyre so cool
well be out of here as soon as we can
and then youre on your very first date and hes got a car
and youre feeling like flying
and youre momas waiting up and you think hes the one
and youre dancing round your room when the night end
when the night ends

Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tell you they love you
youre gonna believe them
when youre fifteen and your first kiss
makes your head spin round but
in your life youll do greater than dating the boy on the football team
but I didnt know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
but I realized some bigger dreams of mine

and Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
who changed his mind and we both cried

Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen, dont forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
and you just might find who youre supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

La la la la la .. la la la la la . La la la la la

Youre very first day
take a deep breath girl
take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.

People In General!

~love-runner — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 13:54:52 PST

Today should be rather entertaining!

BORED! Haha...well this evening should be nice! Yea, very much so!

Everyone is amazing! I love you all!

Thank you my watchers!

Ily

Waves

VEEWEE! THE RANT!

~love-runner — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 17:53:31 PST

RANT RANT RANT!!!

BLAH! This is completely my luck! Blah blah blah! Rambles rambles!

It's so absolutely pointless...60 easy extra credit points out the HUGE window! RAWR!

So today was I was oh let's go check to see what that extra credit it...wee happy me...

Option 1: Genghis Khan Exhibit at the Nature and Space Museum

Directions: You will need to attend the Genghis Khan exhibit at the Nature and Space Museum in Denver. You will need to make sure that you complete the following sections within your notebook to be turned in for evaluation for the extra credit. You will receive a maximum of 60 points of extra credit for this assignment.

So I go to check the free open days for this museum and you know what I FIND?!

This magic:

* Sunday, January 11
* Monday, February 2
* Wednesday, March 18
* Sunday, April 19 (Earth Day)
* Sunday, May 31
* Wednesday, June 10
* Monday, July 13
* Wednesday, August 12
* Sunday, September 13
* Sunday, October 4
* Monday, November 2
* Sunday, November 22

ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? Just one day!? It couldn't be like 10 that way I don't feel like I completely lucked out!? FINE WORLD! You know what I'm going to do about this? Absolutely nothing...I'm just going to sit here and stare that the words and rant and rave! RAWR! MEOW! HA! OH OH AH AH! I don't know! But any way now I get to write a nice long essay because it's like 20 bucks to get in and money is PAPERY stuff that is pointless! The more you have the less you have. Hi world I love you too!

WAVES!

A Different Kind of Pain

~love-runner — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 17:07:37 PST

Before I let you go,
Give me just one more night to show you just how I feel.
I lost all my control.
If it takes my whole damn life, I'll make this up to you.
Kind of like the waves
That roll their whole life towards somewhere crashing on the shore
It's blown in by the wind that carries the clouds to
hide my wish on a fallen star.

A different kind of pain,
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?
A different kind of pain,
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?

I tried to let you go.
I wish I could turn back time,
And show you just how I feel.
I needed you to know.
If it takes my whole damn life,
I'll make this up to you.

Kind of like the waves,
That roll their whole life towards somewhere,
Crashing on the shore.
It's blown in by the wind,
That carries the clouds to hide,
My wish on a fallen star...

A different kind of pain,
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?
A different kind of pain,
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?

Before you let me go away,
Before you let me go away,
Before you let me go away,
Before you let me go away,
I needed you to know.

A different kind of pain,
Is someone there that to hold you?
Is someone there that to take you away from me?
A different kind of pain,
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?

A different kind of pain, it's a different kind of pain...
A different kind of pain, it's a different kind of pain...

It's a different kind of pain...
It's a different kind of pain...
It's a different kind of pain... (Before you let me go)
It's a different kind of pain... (I needed you to know)
It's a different kind of pain...
It's a different kind of ...

This song is Perfect!

~love-runner — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 13:44:08 PST

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too

Because
Oh
Because I've fallen quite hard over you

If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

All of the while
All of the while
All of the while it was you, you!

--

I've also falling in love with this song:

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe m

Innocent or Guilty?

~love-runner — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 11:54:03 PST

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
(So people reading this, if you want an explanation, comment.)

Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your journal , delete my answers, type in your answers.

Kissed one of your DA friends?
Guilty

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Innocent

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Guilty

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty

Kissed in the rain?
Guilty

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
Guilty

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Donated Blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Innocent

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards?
innocent

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Joined a pageant?
innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

Had communication w/ your ex?
Guilty

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney/tricycle fare?
Innocent

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Guilty

Thought about suicide
Guilty

Thought about murder?
Innocent

How bout mass murder?
Innocent

Tried illegal drugs and the like?
Innocent

Rode on a stranger's vehicle?
Guilty

Stalked someone?
Innocent

Been so drunk that you forget things that happened while you were intoxicated?
Innocent

Had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Guilty

In love?
Guilty

My Love

~love-runner — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 23:21:24 PST

Come a little closer, baby
I feel like layin' you down
On a bed sweet surrender
Where we can work it all out
There ain't nothin' that love can't fix
Girl, it's right here at our fingertips
So come a little closer baby,
I feel like layin' you down

Come a little closer, baby
I feel like lettin' go
Of everything that stands between us
And the love we used to know
I wanna touch you like a cleansing rain
Let it wash all the hurt away
So come a little closer baby
I feel like lettin' go

If there's still a chance
Then take my hand
And we'll steal away
Off into the night
'till we make things right
The suns gonna rise on a better day

Come a little closer baby
I feel like strippin' it down
Back to the basics of you and me
And what makes the world go round
Every inch of you against my skin
I wanna be stronger than we've ever been
So come a little closer baby
I feel like strippin' it down

Come a little bit closer baby
Just a little bit closer baby
Come a little bit closer baby
I feel like layin' you down

You're Given What You Want.

~love-runner — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 14:44:18 PST

Alright, so today was what I would call ridiculous! I mean just the all around aspect of it. Mr. Adorable and Mrs. Gorgeous are still together and my best friend is upset about this. I've come to start to believe that all of this is just because we're all bored and because we're bored we're acting out of turn and just being completely childish. I'm tired of being a puppet and my friends being a puppet to get to me. You're not our puppeteer and when it comes down to it, it's not my choice if you kill yourself; it's yours and completely yours...I'm not going to hold a gun to your head and be like KILL YOURSELF; that would be pointless. If I want to play the cello, it's not because I'm copying you, it's because I want to play the cello. I don't have a desire to be you, everything about you is not in my best interest. Any time I get involved things get all dramatic and crazy; people get hurt and things get even more twisted. I've lost you and I'm no longer interested in finding you. How you deal with your problems is not my idea of a good healthy way to do solve situations. Over reactions are pointless; I'm sorry that it has to be this way; but you were right we can't be friends...because every time we are friends we're not healthy for each other. You're no longer who you used to be and I've changed too. Times were sweet and fun once upon a time...now they're full of bitter and hate. This is not something I can deal with and bare. So to make it easy, let's leave it as you never cared (like you told me) and still continue to never want to be in my life. It's okay don't worry; I'm stronger than you honestly think I am, and I'll continue to follow my dreams and desires; because that's what I honestly do best.

Love,
Raelee

Fine...FML sometimes.

~love-runner — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 23:31:58 PST

I swear...it's so easy to just give up and try something new. So easy to just stop fighting and raise our hands and say there's nothing we can do. That is what I CALL FUCKING LIES! While we watched out relationship decay away, we would say we didn't know what to say, or what we should do. When we would try, it would be fixed, it would work...but we're bored and bored out of our minds. Our relationship is like air; air is every where and when you have it everything is fine and dandy, but as soon as you take it away you start to suffocate and turn purple. You really realize what you had and what you need...I think we should give it one more shot and try this time...instead of just letting everything die!

Love.
Waves

It All Started With Casual Talk...

~love-runner — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 21:11:52 PST

Daddy, I want you to know
My heart hurts.
What's wrong honey?
My heart, it aches.
Have you taken a
Stake to your heart
Sweetie?
No, dad not I...
The boy who whispers
Of only forever and love.
He's removed the stake
That was keeping me from
Bleeding out.
Daddy help sew my wound closed;
It's profusely bleeding.
Honey, I haven't
needles, string or medicine.
Time will have to do
My sweet darling.
Daddy my words are growing
So faint...I don't know
How to keep with the fight.
Honey you're doing it just right.

VEEWEE!

~love-runner — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 14:28:32 PST

Today was interesting one of my best friends gave me a birthday present that he made me and man oh mighty is it gorgeous! It matches me too, I'm amazed how well he did...but hey he's him so I shouldn't expect less! It's so sweet and the symbolism is phenomenal! I'm glad I have people like Jesse, Feeha, Jake, Sammie, Billy, Twich, Swingert, Jezsi, Aly, Rayne, Ambre, Ash n Joe, Aunty, Becca, Jeesea, Leslie, Payton, Rebecca, Sabrina, and Stasch; all of you and the rest of my friends are incredible! Remember ily to all my watchers too!

Love,
Waves

Bleh.

~love-runner — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 17:38:20 PST

For some reason I feel like a horrible person after that written note...bleh.

Sometimes I hate saying things that I wish I didn't have to say. Life. Honesty/bluntness is so gahing! Specially when you're the one saying it....it's like damn did I just do the right thing? I hope soo....

I'm sorry...

With love always,
Raelee

Lil Bits

~love-runner — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 16:56:08 PST

Today I went and got two ity bity baby hermit crabs! Yes, I know...but I couldn't resist they're sooo cute and sweet and BLAH! I did a crap load of research too...and I found that they can live decades if you take care of them right. I still haven't given them names since I barely just got them...but there this lil guy that just is so adventurous and I think it's the sweetest thing. I can't wait to get to really know them, they just make me giggle and smile like no other, it's awesome! I think the adventurous one is going to be named Enigma; yea that sounds about right...and as for the other lil guy he still hasn't come out so idk yet! But I am ecstatic about my lil future with them!

Alright so the lil other one just came out n is playin peek-a-boo so that's going to be his name Peek-A-Boo!

Just thought I would edit that in!

Love,
Waves

TODAY IS MY....

~love-runner — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 13:32:13 PST

BIRTHDAY!

YAY!!! Turning 17...score!

Love,
Waves

Devious Journal Entry

~love-runner — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 17:02:00 PST

So here I am just sittin on my bed talking to my beloved. I start rocking back and forth because I can never sit still when all the sudden the floor become my very best friend. Ha! It was wonderful!

White Flags

~love-runner — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 14:58:44 PST

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction
To come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again

And if you live by the rules of it's over
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there will be there still
I'll let it pass and hold my tongue
And you will think that I've moved on

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Empty With You

~love-runner — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 17:10:33 PST

I haven't lost anything except my mind
Expect a thousand confessions that you will not find
I try to take off my head sometimes,
because I can't escape the memories
I haven't lost anything except my mind (except my mind)

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything,
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you.

I haven't wasted a thing except my time (except my time)
Forget the treasures we burned because we'll be just fine
I try to take off my head sometimes
because I can't escape for the life of me,
I haven't lost anything except my mind (my mind)

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow,
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you

Instead of going underground
Instead of calling them out
Instead of running 'cause your still breathing
Instead of swallowing lies
Instead of buried alive
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
If you need a confession, I'm guilty
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
Do you think I feel sorry? Forgive me.
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
Instead of going underground
Instead of calling them out
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you

Survey

~love-runner — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 16:19:04 PST

Do you think someone is falling in love with you?
Jake loves me.

So, you have brown eyes?
Nope, hazel.

You had sex last night didnt you?
Oh yea totally, fersure! Something I do all the time. Ok all of that was sarcastic.

If you could, would you go out with the last person you texted?
Hmm, he's my bro ha!

Reason behind the last time you cried really hard?
Oh boy, don't bother to ask.

What's the last thing someone bought you?
An izzy!

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
Yep!

It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?
Oh I don't even know, prolly feeha or Jesse.

if somebody liked you, would you want them to tell you?
if you want

First person to text you today?
Uhh Feeha

Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
Not yet.

Do you think your past mistakes made you into a better person?
Sometimes

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
Something I'm very good at!

Do you still pinky promise?
sometimes

What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
honesty, love, happiness and trust

Sex ruins relationships, right?
Depends on the couple.

Ever had a 3 some?
Nopers

When was the last time you really laughed?
uh, prolly when I was happy.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you did?
Of course.

Angry at anyone?
hurt, sad, confused, annoyed, and frustrated, but not angry.

Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yes, indeed!

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Jake

Do you like Red Bull?
nope

How many people can you trust with just about everything?
You know Feeha. Or Jake.

Is it hard to make you laugh?
No!

Are you happy with life right now?
Life is moody right now.

Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?
of course

Do you currently have any bite marks/hickeys on your Neck?
no.

What are you thinking about right now?
How I just want to run away and never return. How I'd like to start over. How I'm tired of all these circles. How all I want is honesty. How lies are pointless. How betrayed I feel. How much everything hurts. N how tomorrow I have to wake up and live it all over again.

How do you feel about smoking?
it's your choice

What's bothering you right now?
look up ^^

Wallpaper on your phone?
a sunrise

What is the last thing you drank today?
milk

What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
skirt

Does anyone know your password besides you?
no

What will you be doing in a half hour?
Homework

Do you plan on getting drunk in the near future?
Who knows.

Do you drive?
I've got a permit.

Whose bed did you sleep in last?
Mine

Is it okay for someone you're "talking" to to have sex with someone else?
Uh...wait relapse what?

How was your day today?
fuck.

Do you think anyone likes you?
yea

When was the last time someone apologized to you?
Uhh today...

No Need To Say Goodbye

~love-runner — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:56:58 PST

ÂThatÂs what it was like to be alive. To move about in a cloud of ignorance; to go up and down trampling on the feelings of those...of those about you. To spend and waste time as though you had a million years. To be always at the mercy of one self-centered passion, or another. Now you know- thatÂs the happy existence you wanted to go back to. Ignorance and blindnessÂ - Our Town

"How could be so Dr. Evil?
You're bringin' out a side of me that I don't know
I decided we wasn't goin' speak so
Why we up 3 a.m. on the phone?" -Heartless

"If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden." ~Claudia Ghandi

"Gone - flitted away,
Taken the stars from the night and the sun
From the day!
Gone, and a cloud in my heart."
~Alfred Tennyson

"Where there is love, there is no question." -Yogi

Coming cross more n more quotes! I love them!

It's Okay Too Smile!

~love-runner — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 20:54:32 PST

YouÂ´re better then the best
IÂ´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow thatÂ´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that itÂ´s ok yeah itÂ´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when youÂ´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

DonÂ´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile

Smile- Uncle Kracker

Let's Scream!

~love-runner — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 15:03:02 PST

Just fuck. Just damn! Why in the hell can't I just you know what...I'll tell ya what? I'll go jump in front of a car and see how that goes. See if you'll notice me from so far away. I've contemplated so many outs, so many escapes! I'm just going crazy; just losin my mind and heart. I don't know where to go, what to do; how to handle everything. I'm no, just no. Stupid song; I've already cried my eyes out. Doesn't matter.Don't tell me to get over you, you're the one that told me you'd never stop loving me, or forget me. You've done both. Just bam, doesn't matter. I want to scream so loud, do something so obnoxious, something where I'll end up barely living! Yea, I already new that...didn't have to remind me. I'm just going to go sit somewhere and just disappear; just fall off a cliff. I was good enough, and then I failed you...I FUCKING FAILED YOU! Just fought so hard, tried so hard and then one day it just hurt to much; hate is always so much easier. Take it all away from me, that way I don't have a reason to live any more. Make it so no one cares that way I could just disappear without any tears. I just want to run away, run away so far. Following your heart just leads to hurt, specially when you avoid what you're feeling for months upon months. I hate crying it always ruins your mask of mascara. I'm tired and worn...this is just a vent. Prolly won't read it any way..

Cheerio,
Raelee

P.S. I'm better now, had to get it out of my system!

VAITING!

~love-runner — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 13:58:22 PST

BORRREEEDDD!!!! Out of my mind...so I went and got ready...but I have a feeling I shouldn't have because I don't think we're going to be able to hang today... but hey, hey it's okay!

Any way here I am being bored out of my mind, with homework that I could be doing, but who wants to do homework on a Saturday?!

*NOT ME*

So I'm going to describe my outfit, I'm wearing a pattern dress and a white flowy blouse thing over the pattern dress. Then I've got eye shadow and chap stick on...initially I wasn't going to wear eye shadow, but the stuff from yesterday didn't come off in the shower so I just redid it. I'm thinking maybe mascara, but I don't know. I smell like kiwilime and sweet pea...hmm! My hair is nicely done but not to much! Just casual.

I kinda want to take pictures, but I don't have film and the batteries for my little camera dies after about a minute in thirty seconds. Which is completely pointless, but I guess it's what floats your boat.

I found all my other missing stuff and I'm glad.

I hate how short the days are when you know you're running out of time, so you watch the clock like a hawk watches rabbits! SANTANA! SWEET BEANS!

"BAM BAM, LIKE A GIFT FROM THE HEAVENS IT WAS EASY TO TELL; IT WAS LOVE FROM ABOVE THAT COULD SAVE ME FROM HELL! SHE HAD FIRE IN HER SOUL, IT WAS EASY TO SEE HOW THE DEVIL HIMSELF COULD BE PULLED OUT OF ME!"

MUHAHAHA!

The Enchanted Forest Chronicles!

Oh and apparently I use from Willy Wonka's dictionary! Hee hee...you're so awesome!

"When we kiss there perfectly alined!"

"Shapes like puzzle pieces!"

Oh my goodness small details are awesome and so are lilies! And butterflies, their so gorgeous and graceful!

Great Heights!

Inevitable!

Perfect from far away!

Ok done!

NOT!

When was the last time you said that? "You're cool! NOT!"

Yea that was forever ago!
MONSTERS! The Rugrats! DOUG'S FIRST MOVIE! POKEMON! Jewel, Tracy Chapman, Tom Petty, Johnny Cash, Jesse McCartney, NSYC, Brittney Spears, Train...Oh my goodness! Amazing!

I want a part of bell bottoms! Oh yea!

Ok done!

Is Something Wrong?

~love-runner — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:20:11 PST

I am in need of a scanner! I have a beautiful photo that I took and just recently developed in the dark room, but I don't have a scanner in site! Ha!

I have major staring problems! Not even kidding you, I swear...if my eyes weren't glued then maybe it would be easier not to stare...but they're glued.

I've also have some amazing friends! Absolutely incredible!!!

Came across a beautiful song; which makes the day so much better!

One thing that's bothering me is not having that certain someone in my life! Drives me mad, n thank goodness for Mrs. B, she's wonderful at giving advice.

"You and I are both similar and we're both in love with being in love." - Mrs. B

That's my problem! Haha, but who says it's a problem!?

I'm so tired of being lost at sea, one moment I'm content and the next I'm finding bottles with letters in them!

I think I'm going to be getting out my ring from my best friend & that ribbon that I MISS SO DAMN MUCH! I swear with out her I go crazy!!! I've tried everything, but anything reminds me of her! I can be sitting on a desk and next thing I know I'm thinking of her! And then here is Your Song! And him...shoot with this being completely honest and follow my heart stuff; who knows how I'm going to end! I've thought of a million different things I could do, start carrying the stuffed animal she gave me...ect.

"How wonderful life is now you're in the world."

DJ Aligator! Amazing SONG!

~love-runner — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 14:55:53 PST

Set me free why don't you babe
Get out of my life why don't you babe
'Cause you don't really love me
You just keep me hangin' on

You say although we broke up
You still just wanna be friends
But how can we still be friends
When seeing you only break my heart again
(And there is nothing I can do about it)

(2x)
Set me free why don't you babe
Get out of my life why don't you babe
'Cause you don't really love me
You just keep me hangin' on

You dont want me for yourself
So let me find somebody else

(2x)
Set me free why don't you babe
Get out of my life why don't you babe
'Cause you don't really love me
You just keep me hangin' on

Get out, get out of my life
And let me sleep at night
'Cause you don't really love me
You just keep me hangin' on

Why don't you be a man about it and set me free
Now you don't care a thing about me
You're just using me - hey, abusing me

You just keep me hangin' on

You're Great!

~love-runner — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 14:14:03 PST

Laughing, and laughing!

It's worth the happy tears!

Life is great!

I wanted to let the world know that my friend Feeha is pretty darn awesome! Actually he's hilarious and someone I've always been able to count on! He was there when I was in shambles and continues to be there for me! Thanks so much for being phenomenal!

TRY THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

~love-runner — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 23:35:23 PST

I'm totally crazy!!! I don't ever get myself, one minute I'm feeling one way and the next the direct opposite! I keep just watching the stars and they are yearning to lean down and kiss you. I'm pathetic...one look, and just one and Bam! I'm blushing and smiling and melting and screaming.
So how about we have a Bury Raelee International DAY?! Oh, and of course my name is spelled wrong! (Adds to dictionary) My concert was so swell, it was completely and utterly the most enjoyable...I just kept smiling and smiling and smiling and laughing and shaking and acting crazy! I got the butterflies; BUTTERFLIES!

SET THE BUTTERFLIES FREE!!!

I want Mentos and my freaking GREEN NAIL POLISH! Oh, and a wand to rid of my homework! And some new ideas on MUSIC!!! A beach set would be nice too, warm water and dolphins diving around a sun set! What is with me and sun set and rises!!!??? Blah, it's those small details! *Wink* That's not even fair! HAHA!!! Life isn't fair Raelee! Shaking hands with your thoughts is so well, ridiculous! How can you shake hands with a thought? Of course, you just go up to it and say well my name is WAVES and YOURS?! SNICKERS! SAND IN MY SHOES!!!

I want to see some beautiful drawings! *twitch* HAPPY VALENTINES! I have 13 days till my birthday!!! What am I to do? Oh yea, that's going to be bury Raelee international DAY! Ok, maybe not; but chillax it'll be ok! I know you think that....oh who knows!

Cat n MOUSE!

This isn't to you!

*hugs*

PROMISES!!!

*wink*

Give Me a Grin!

~love-runner — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 12:36:59 PDT

It's okay to smile.

Remember that!!!

Love Ya,
Waves

Oh Boy My Name is Trouble

~love-runner — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 20:17:03 PDT

Well I've had this secret
And I feel it's time that you should know
When I'm in your arms it turns me on
But I've got a conscience too
And it says my heart's never in tune
With anything I do

So this is the last time that I'll hold your hand
I want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you
I'm your biggest fan
I'm your biggest fan

I've had this secret
And now it's time that you should know
I was wrong to string you along
But circulating the streets in the pulsing heat
I scoured your town, completely aroused
And making love to your memory

So this is the last time that I'll hold your hand
I want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you
I'm your biggest fan
This is the last time that I'll hold your hand
I want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you
I'm your biggest fan

Sad minion of mine
Don't be so unkind
I know I stole your coat
You can have this song I wrote
I've just crossed the line
From fashion to crime
It's such a perfect fit
When I am wearing it
Sad minion of mine
Don't be so unkind
I know I stole your coat
You can have this song I wrote
I've just crossed the line
From fashion to crime

So this is the last time that I'll hold your hand
I want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you
I'm your biggest fan
This is the last time that I'll hold your hand
I want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you
I'm your biggest fan
So this is the last time that I'll hold your hand
(I wanna) Kiss you on the mouth and tell you
I'm your biggest fan
I'm your biggest fan

He's a Tramp

~love-runner — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 11:01:53 PDT

He's a tramp
But they love him
Breaks a new heart
Ev'ry day

He's a tramp
They adore him
And I only hope
He'll stay that way

He's a tramp
He's a scoundrel
He's a rounder
He's a cad

He's a tramp
But I love him
Yes,even I
Have got it pretty bad

You can never tell
When he'll show up
He gives you
Plenty of trouble
I
guess he's just a
No 'count pup
But I wish that he
Were double

He's a tramp
He's a rover
And there's nothing
More to say

If he's a tramp
He's a good one
And I wish that I
Could travel his way(x3)

Fucking White Horse

~love-runner — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 04:47:56 PDT

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naÃ¯ve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

In the mood to cuddle, tell stories and have hot chocolate.

Devious Journal Entry

~love-runner — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 19:37:56 PDT

I don't understand, why did you have to tell me. -sigh- We're in a pool with the sharks now and they're starting to bite my toes. How am I supposed to look at you and just keep it as is? I guess we're just gonna have to see.

How Could You?

~love-runner — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 16:21:39 PDT

I despise you.

Everything N Right Here

~love-runner — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 19:34:51 PDT

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you i suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could
Learn how to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel

--

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But i always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

Foolish Games

~love-runner — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 23:04:52 PDT

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...

[Chorus]
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.
You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.
I hid my soiled hands behind my back.
Somewhere along the line, I must've gone
Off track with you.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.

[Chorus]
You took your coat off,
Stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.

Nickleback

~love-runner — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 20:01:40 PDT

"Never Gonna Be Alone"

[Verse 1]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

[Chorus]
Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
Never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

[Verse 2]
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

[Chorus]
Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

[Verse 3]
Oh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...

[Verse 4]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

[Chorus]
Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day.

I Guess I Miss You...

~love-runner — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 17:50:23 PDT

I miss you...
I just miss you...
You're being missed right now...
Why have you gone???
I want too hold and smile with you...
It's to much to ask...
I miss you...
I miss you a lot...
I sometimes hate that I miss you...
It hurts to miss you...
Where did you go???
What about Jesse's birthday?
What about our memories?
What about jobless slushy's?
I miss you...
My wings have broken...
I wish I could fly...
I know I'm still smiling...
Is smiling okay?
My pencil's gone dull...
I miss you...
What happened to you?
I don't remember...
Where am I?
I just lost my train of thought...
Why does it hurt so much?
I hate that I'm denying that I miss you...
I'm just scared to admit it...
Where have I been?
I hate these chains...
And I want to shake of this dust...
It's turning me into rust...
I want it to change...
I don't want this to stay the same...
I don't want to know...
I just want to run too you...
And take off your chains and throw them away...
Sooner than later...
I can't be your savior...
I want to be your savior...
I miss your sent...
You were so breathtaking...
Where did you have to go?
I can't take it all away...
But I would love to catch all your tears...
Shoot where are your fears?
You ran away so fast...
I miss you...
I just miss you a lot...

Do I

~love-runner — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 14:11:23 PDT

Baby, what are we becoming
It feels just like weÂre always running
Rolling through the motions everyday
I can lean in to hold you, or act like I donÂt even know you
Seems like you could care less either way
What happened to that girl I used to know
I just want us back to the way we were before

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I still enough
Tell me donÂt I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I

Remember when we didnÂt have nothing
But a perfect simple kind of loving
Baby those sure were the days
There was a time our love ran wild and free
Now IÂm second guessing everything thing I see

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I still enough
Tell me donÂt I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I

Still give you what you need
Still take your breath away
Or light up the spark way down deep, baby do I

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I still enough
Tell me donÂt I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life

Tell me baby do I get one more try
Do I, baby do I

by Luke Bryan

Shout Out!

~love-runner — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 10:03:13 PDT

What is my problem?!

TMI: That's My Indian!

ÂIt has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world.Â

The sun makes snow fall!

Peaberries Coffee, or Cheap 7/11 coffee.

SCIENCE RULES!!!

Start all over.

Imagine no heaven, it's easy if you try.

Hee hee shabutie!!!

No more sailing...

I love...

Swine Flu Epidemic!

~love-runner — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 17:44:36 PDT

Every year we get an official flu vaccine media blitz from Department of Health and Human services (HHS) and the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC). In fact, the CDC oversees a National Immunization Program (NIP). The motto of the NIP is: "Leading the way to healthy lives."

Healthy lives? Okay, so again: Why aren't these officials urging U.S. citizens to take vitamin C and other supplements that have been shown to help reduce the risk of picking up colds and influenza?

It's simple. The folks at the NIP have millions of vaccine units to move.

According to The Detroit News, most flu vaccines are purchased and distributed by the government. So why in the world would NIP officials promote vitamin C? That job would be the responsibility of those who actually sell vitamin C. The NIP isn't in the vitamin supplement business; it's in the flu vaccine business.

Hmm...isn't it weird last year the gov't was telling us that the swine flu was going to spread...I wonder when they learned to read the future.

How did they know that the swine flu was going to "mutate?"

M ss ng

~love-runner — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 16:20:45 PDT

You know what sounds nice?

A nice cold Slurpee! Not even kidding you!

That would be so nice, maybe the sore throat would go away.

My account was almost hacked...BLAH! I received a email saying I forgot my password...NO, I DID NOT!

But any way...life has been pretty interesting. With watching from the side lines and laughing over every stupid thing there is.

And what really sucks is I've missed three days of school and every one of my grades have dropped about 10%, wth?

I got to see my sister! Sweetness, and she has some insane tattoos one being a cartoon skeleton playing the cello, and a treble and bass clef on her fore arms....and hopefully sometime soon I get to see my bro-ha!

The cool thing is I'm staying up to speed with all the missed work, so this is a really good thing!

Homecoming was pretty darn amazing if you ask me! I mean wowzers, best DJ yet....

I love: Caravanserai by Loreena McKennitt gorgeous song!

Love yas,

Waves

SHIT...FREAKY HAPPENINGS IN PROGRESS!

~love-runner — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 14:26:57 PDT

[link]

Take a look guys...seriously it's freaky stuff.

Where is our Constitution going?

ily

Waves

Devious Journal Entry

~love-runner — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 19:05:12 PDT

First DRAMA ADDICTS DRIVE ME INSANE! (They're everywhere!)
Second best thing happened! We might buy the house, which would cause miracles for the money problem we have.
Third I'm gaining my violin talent again.
Fourth I burnt the roof of my mouth...(not so pleasant)
Fifth Jake is absolutely amazing, to see his smile today made everything ok.
Sixth you can just count me out tonight.
Seventh take a step out and take a look at what everyone is doing...people are fabulous!
Eighth I don't have and eighth.
Ninth time doesn't really exist.
Tenth tell me it's over, everything is over, I know you know I'll never let this go!

FROM,
Raelee

New Music.

~love-runner — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 14:37:34 PDT

Yeah, I get it, you're an outcast
Always under attack, always coming in last
Bringing up the past, no one owes you anything
I think you need a shotgun blast, a kick in the ass
So paranoid, watch your back

Oh my, here we go

Another lose cannon gone bi-polar
Slipped down, couldn't get much lower
Quicksand's got no sense of humor
I'm still laughing like hell

You think that by crying to me
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe
You've been infected by a social disease
Well, then take your medicine

I created the sound of madness, wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here to explain
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?

I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality
If there's an afterlife then it'll set you free
But I'm not gonna part the seas
You're a self-fulfilling prophecy

You think that by crying to me
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe
You've been infected by a social disease
Well, then take your medicine

I created the sound of madness, wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here to explain
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?

I created the sound of madness, wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here to explain
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up, when you gonna wake up and fight?

I created the sound of madness, wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here to explain
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?

When you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?
When you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?
When you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?

Just to make it clear this isn't about any one...and no symbolism is in this. I just enjoy the song. Thanks.

ily
Waves

You're So Lost....So Here I Am.

~love-runner — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 21:01:17 PDT

Hello,

I'm here to say a few words of well, advice. First telling your best friend to fuck off is the stupidest thing I've ever heard of doing...extremes are not the key to this situation. You're not going to save someones life by making them depressed. Blaming yourself is even stupider...and then telling the guy that it is all someone else's fault, when in fact you were the one to do it, is completely ridiculous. Stop focusing on Nox and do what you think is right in you mind, not what everyone else thinks...don't believe in something no matter who has said it, where you have read it, not even if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own common sense. Start thinking logically, because you're full of potential and you have a huge warm heart. Don't change yourself because you want someone's acceptance if they were worth your time then they would except you. Don't be a coward and run away either, because that in itself isn't intelligent. You're just proving how weak you are. So get up, and leave your broken pieces...the damage is done there is nothing you can do...you can't take back what you did, you can't undo what you said and most of all you can't sit here and dwell on the past. Remember the past is the past and the present is your everyday gift from the world; so live it as long as you can. No more tears and remember I love you.

ily
Yourself

Today

~love-runner — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 20:11:01 PDT

Today was pretty damn amazing. I had the best mango E-V-E-R and I love the new music we got in Orchestra. Not to mention Mr. Best couldn't be any cooler, and my new friend in that class that can draw wonderfully and be absolutely incredible at the same time that posture is going to be FLIPPING AWESOME! Oh and Mr. Collins is well just FABULOUS! (Even with all the hw he still manages to make the class fun.)

Hopefully there is nothing wrong with having a wonderful day...I wish you a magnificent DAY!

My Homework...haha

~love-runner — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:03:16 PDT

4. Identify the characteristics of the people of the Old Stone Age.
The characteristics of the people of the Old Stone Age are: Paleolithic ate wild berries and nuts, fruits, wild grains, green plants, buffalo, horses, bison reindeer and fish. They were nomadic so they moved with there food. Paleolithic people lived in caves, or made there shelter. Women gathered food and men did the hunting.

5. Analyze the importance of the use and discovery of cave paintings in the Old Stone Age.
Cave paintings are important because it gives archeologists and anthropologists an idea of what their life's were like. It's given a few conversational topics too; some people believe that these paintings were rituals and others believe it was just made to beautify the caves.

6. Analyze the importance of the greatest technological advances of the Paleolithic people.
The Paleolithic people's greatest technological advances were stone tools and fire. They made stone hammers, spears and knifes out of flint.

7. Define the Agricultural Revolution as well as its most significant achievements.
The Agricultural Revolution greatest achievements were: the shift from the hunting of animals and gathering food, to taming their own animals and growing their own food. They started planting grains and vegetables to provide their own food supply. They tamed cows, pigs, goats and sheep which provided milk, meat and other essentials to live life.

8. Trace the movement the agricultural revolution around the world.
It started in the Middle East where wheat and barley were grown, then farming spread into the Southern Eastern part of Europe. By 4000 B.C. farming had been established in central Europe and coastal regions. By 6000 B.C. West Asia to the Nile valley of Egypt was covered with wheat and Barley. Rice was also grown in Southeast Asia and spread to Southern China.

9. Explain and analyze the common characteristics of civilizations and how they each help to create unity among the individual civilizations.
Common characteristics of civilizations were many of them had a government that judged the interactions between individuals and groups of people, many of them were led by kings. Religion helped explain the workings of nature and form groups with in the cities. Writing helped the people communicate with other cities which led to unity. The artistic creativity helped by introducing different ways to other cities...which lead to a successful way of doing things normally.

Snow.

~love-runner — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 14:18:24 PDT

So I have my friends pet rat, right? Well let me tell ya, she makes my day. If I'm down all I have to do is look at her and I smile. She licks you and kisses you...now I know some of you may think oh my god EWWW!!! But I don't think so...she's soo sweet, and kind. Little furry animals are just amazing!!!

Heroes

~love-runner — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 13:01:49 PDT

When it comes to heroes everyone thinks of Superman, Spiderman, the good guys that beat up the bad guys.
Well my hero's are my family and friends.
I love them, and always will love them.
So here is a dedication to every single one of my friends and family...
To any one person that has ever been in my life, I want you to know that I believe you have morphed me into a better person over the years.
Yes, some have hurt me, but I still want to thank you for giving my those experiences...I now know how to deal with those things in the future; because of you.
To those that love me and continue loving me after all my mistakes and mishaps let me tell you...Thank you so much for being the friends I believe you to be.
We always have great laughs, many smiles and talks that could last a million years with all the words we spill.
Things change, but who ever comes in my life will become my hero or heroine some way or another.
So my past hero's will never be forgotten...because the best thing you can do for someone is remember them.
People want to be remembered, I want to be remembered.
Everyone that is in my life and has been in my life, I'll continue to love you for the rest of my life...because everyone has a heart some way or another.

(Song I Found... To Run by Josiah Leming)
I showed up at her door
no gifts or explanations for
the way that i've been acting
Father time just kept on passing
i tried to kiss her lips
she said lets put an end to this
a simple overreaction
it sent my head into a backspin
i dont know where to run
to run

she was a teenage girl
i made sure to promise her the world
spent money fast as lightning
anything just to keep her smiling
my voice was all she heard
sentences filled with empty words
i thought i was so clever
i never knew that our line would sever
i dont know where to run
ohhh ohhh
i dont know where to run
ohhh ohhh
i have nowhere to run

i wake up on the floor
my head replays that closing door
my heart wont stop rewinding
inside clocks all out of timing
she starts to disappear
there'll be no turning back from here
when all is said and done
and i begin to run

I Don't Mind.

~love-runner — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 23:20:06 PDT

I don't know what to say.
I don't know where to go.
My cheeks are always going red.
But being perfect is impossible, and the harder I try the more I fail. So maybe if I were just myself and stop trying to be perfect, things would actually be ok. What am I to say? I honestly try...but apparently in all the wrong ways. I move one way and it's the wrong way I go the other way and I was supposed to go straight. I've been on a roll, and it's just wasting my life away. Watching my best friends fade away.

I listen to you, I get fucked over. I don't listen to you, I get fuck over. I will always have things that I can not say. I don't have words in my head, they're always just another wrong way. You've got me in a trap, and there is no way out.

I want you to just stop fucking with my head. You're right I'm a cunt, a fucker, a stupid kid, a bitch, a mess up, a mistake, a fake and most of all I don't give a fuck about any one. Because if I did I wouldn't have made so many mistakes, I wouldn't have came late and I wouldn't have tried to be perfect.

Nox you're a manipulator and have a heart. You're almost honest to the core and hate every fucking person on this earth other than Euthais. Believe it or not you've helped me in the most bizarre way. I don't care if you like it, you have. You've slaughtered me, thrown me, crushed me and then killed me. Revenge is a beautiful thing in your eyes and I get that.

Rem you're full of talent. You write poems, have the ability to make anyone smile, play miraculous tunes and have the most caring personality one could have. You say you could disappear and if you do then I guess I'll remember the song, Things I'll Never Say by Avril Lavigne and Come What May by Moulin Rouge and wait for you to come back because I won't ever replace you with anyone. Your one of my best friends.

Flower if you ever read this...I miss you like the night misses the clouds on a clear night. I won't ever be replacing you. Jesse has a ring for you. I'm waiting for you to come back...Even if it be forever, but I'm going to be here. Here is me being straight forward.

No more riddles, I have none. No more puzzles, I've lost the pieces.

School...

~love-runner — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 14:14:35 PDT

Well it was nice
I enjoy my new orchestra teacher, he's pretty neato. Mr. Best is pretty awesome too if you ask me.

Thinking I'm going to drop photography and hopefully get into German. (I don't like the teacher...)

Mr. Collins is funnier than most, but a hard ass.

Off hour second is pointless.

Math, I never have liked math.

Spanish= hilarious teacher, fun class, and great people.

The freshman aren't all to terrible.

Lunches are wayyy too short.

So we have longer classes and shorter lunches...It's quite annoying and my bus picks me up at 6:45 since when did my bus pick me up then? Talk about an annoyance.

But any way...yea life is pretty good, not gonna lie.

Devious Journal Entry

~love-runner — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 13:23:10 PDT

Seven Deadly Sins Survey:

~~~WRATH~~~
1) Who did you last get angry with?
*thinks* Idk.

2) What is your weapon of choice?
Kindness.

3) Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
Depending.

4) How about the same sex?
Not likely.

5) Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
Prolly Nox.

6) What is your pet peeve?
Pointless stuff.

7) Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
I can let them go, normally.

~~~SLOTH~~~
8) What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't?
Go running and read my summer reading book.

9) What is the latest you've ever woken up?
Prolly 1:00

10) Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't.
No one...

11) What is the last lame excuse that you made?
I'm busy.

12) Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
haha yes!

13) How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
And estimate of 7

~~~GLUTTONY~~~
14) What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
Haha...coffee

15) Are you a meat eater?
Yeppers...

16) What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
A glass of wine

17) Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
Yes.

18) Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
sweets

19) Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
Most definitely not!

~~~GREED~~~
20) How many credit cards do you own?
zip zilch zero

21) If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
Buy the house I'm living in and then share it with the rest of my fam.

22) Would you rather be rich or famous?
neither

23) Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
No sir...I want a job I'll enjoy

~~~PRIDE~~~
24) What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of?
Violin

25) What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?
Good grades prolly.

26) What thing would you like to accomplish late in your life?
Become a teacher.

27) Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
Not at all.

28) Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
Nope.

29) Have you ever cheated to get a better score?
*thinks* Prolly.

30) What did you do today that you're proud of?
I got my sound working...

~~~LUST~~~
31) How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
None...

32) How many people have seen you naked (not counting physicians, doctors, family, locker rooms, or when you were a young child)?
NONE...damn double wammy

33) Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
Haha...nopers.

34) What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
Eyes, arms and smile.

35) Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
Nope.

36) Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
No sir.

~~~ENVY~~~
37) What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
I'm happy with my stuff..

38) Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
Either Flower or Jake.

39) If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
Me.

40) Have you ever been cheated on?
No

41) Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
Yep.

42) What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
I'm pretty happy with myself.

~~~WHAT DEADLY SIN...~~~
~Do you do the most often?
envy

~Do you do the least often?
wrath

~Is your favorite to act on?
sloth

Hi.

~love-runner — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 12:19:51 PDT

Welcome back.

Playing the Game Of Life.

~love-runner — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 10:18:39 PDT

Done.

ÂFor everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.Â

"Everything changes."

"No one can help someone, who doesn't want help."

"A ship is safe in harbor, but thatÂs not what ships are for."
ÂWilliam Shedd

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." (Law of attraction)

"The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet."
- James Oppenheim

"You could have a thousand lies and the only way to undo them is the truth."

"One man tells a lie, dozens repeat it as the truth."
- Chinese Proverb

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."
- Buddha

I'm going to try to live to these. It'll take sometime, but eventually it'll be easier. I hope it'll help prevent future mistakes.

Well Here It Is.

~love-runner — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 10:37:31 PDT

Some people live by these:

If you can't convince them, confuse them. Author : Dr. Seuss

Love without understanding isn't different in it's effects and activity than hate, for it does not know what is beneficial or harmful, according to its purpose or in contradiction to it. Author : Alan W. Watts

--

Done with the beautiful riddles, you want the honest truth. I have no idea, what in the hell to do. I sit here, lay there, and all I ever do is contemplate. My problem is, I care about them both.

Rem and Sarah are good...and Sarah is putting her heart and soul into him and Rem to her...she says she's not going to leave, and if she HAS any logic she won't leave him. She won't slaughter him like we all think she will. She'll stand by his side like a shining star...because all he ever does for people is bring the best out of them, and I've come to realize I am confused (knew that), I am late and I don't expect him to just get up and leave the person who has made him smile while I triggered his pain. That would be stupidly selfish.

Jake is trying to figure things out, you can't blame the boy for wanting to go out and try the waters, but you know he seems pretty darn determined to get us to work...and if that is the case then I'm willing to give him the millionth chance...because that is who I am. We broke up because we were bored and he wanted to test the waters...I was fine with that. Heart broken, but fine...now he wants me back...and I'm fine with that too.

If Sarah does hurt him, then I will be there for Rem...I'll help him through his living hell. Along with Flower and anyone else who would want it.

I miss my best friends, I miss seeing her smile. I want them to be happy and happy they are not. I don't know why, but if everyone around you is telling you are not happy then how in the world are you supposed to be happy?

Life was hell, and that was because of me. I've sent you guys jumping through loops, but that doesn't mean I'm a horrible person. I'm not perfect, never have been. I don't mean to hurt people, mistakes happen.

People told me to tell you to fuck off, but that will never happen, because I will never forget you and I will never want you to just go away. I'm terrified of you, just going away...any of you for that matter. You guys are my best friends, quite literally and it takes a shit load and tons more for me to just let them go. I'm willing to stand by your side through anything...I just don't want to lose you.

I. Love. You

-Your Forever Butterfly