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]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/10634792/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/10634792/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 10:00:13 PST
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thats just absurd!

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/8150116/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/8150116/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 14:10:53 PST ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/7830636/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/7830636/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 16:36:29 PST $#%#@%@#
. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/7261010/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/7261010/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 00:53:33 PST ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/7145473/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/7145473/ Fri, 25 Nov 2005 23:58:10 PST
[what does this one say?] ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6686860/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6686860/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 13:12:35 PDT
"i am committing suicide by cigarette." i replied. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6372865/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6372865/ Tue, 30 Aug 2005 20:01:12 PDT but i know it's too late and i should have given you a reason to stay. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6246914/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6246914/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:11:01 PDT ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6128631/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/6128631/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 02:43:37 PDT need < want.

the sun just rose. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5889639/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5889639/ Sat, 09 Jul 2005 20:46:35 PDT ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5731546/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5731546/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 08:16:22 PDT ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5565105/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5565105/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 22:06:36 PDT
this is horrendous.
really. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5406959/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5406959/ Thu, 19 May 2005 21:25:45 PDT
p.s. i'll never remember your face.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5316081/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5316081/ Mon, 09 May 2005 22:41:48 PDT ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5143686/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5143686/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 22:13:31 PDT i know this will go over my head.
i want to drown in your eyes.
but i must find a way in.
i don't know how.

merry 420. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5025411/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/5025411/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 13:03:04 PDT the pills that fix the way to feel
now they've shown you what to get
you feel it coming on.

low low low down
high paid primtime capsule maker
sickness lover
i'm gonna shut if off
down all the power
i'm a doctor today
i'm curing viewers by the thousands. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4963946/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4963946/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 19:02:48 PST ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4929808/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4929808/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 23:55:22 PST
i don't believe there is one.

what a shame. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4899714/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4899714/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 11:47:58 PST doesn't matter about the lies we make.
go slow.

i think of how you're making me mad.
i think of all the love we had.
feel so.

always question never quenching your thirst.
let me die when i lie to you first.
i follow.

when i'm with you it's from within.
i know you can see through my skin.
i'm hollow.

i need you to feed me once more.
i need you like i needed before.
i'll grow.

imissyou.
butiwillneverletyouknow.
imissyoualot.
iwishyoudcomegethighwithme.
butishouldntdreamofthingsthatwillneverbe .
again. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4869495/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4869495/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 06:32:59 PST if you are ready, 'cause here we go with
what i need from you,
what i need to show.
i know you feel it.
yeah, you.
one day, you're gonna have to....

let's get over this.
i'm your lovertits. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4849532/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4849532/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 21:06:23 PST these graces of beauty have left me so cold.
i once had a heart, but hearts are like snowflakes.
and snowflakes, one warm touch and they melt away.
maybe we'll get wings. maybe anything.
just anything to set us free. maybe we'll wake up.
a golden exit. must we always wait for sleep?

but you said you had to go. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4805282/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4805282/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 19:36:19 PST
Did you date a lot in high school? Were you always chasing girls? Couldn’t you find some young valentine to steal your heart for good? Were you content, or contemptible? Are your memories pleasant, or is it a string of endless flings of bitter resentment. Seems that what you want and what you need doesn’t mean a thing, we’re just here for the taking.

When you said you’d hurt me, did you think you hurt me? Are you really that cocky? Oh, what a heartbreaker! Well, I’ve got my armor – yeah, I’ve been through some battles before – and I met your old girlfriend, she said, “Baby, don’t bother.” She told me you told her you’d hurt her… funny, how familiar. So, how much of this relationship was rehearsed? ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4784256/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4784256/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 08:46:20 PST and turn them into to beautiful film.
i will take your most important things,
cast them gold, fill a museum,
so your heart doesn't know where mine's been.
i'll never let your heart go where mine's been.
i will kiss away every tear,
they'll disappear in my mouth.
and i will believe in all your fears.
you let them in, i'll let them out.
and put them in their place, my love.
so your heart doesn't know where mine's been.

it's always a song. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4761230/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4761230/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 14:50:21 PST how simple. how soon.

i just simply cannot wait.

i should have loved a thunderbird instead;
at least when spring comes they roar back again. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4732308/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4732308/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 04:33:13 PST and i made lemonade out of it.
pass me the sugar and things still won't be right.
look what you've built,
now are you proud of your deceitful quilt.
well i won't cover myself in it,
the warmth has just been choking me.

thanks! thanks for nothing.
i've taken all you got and started walking,
not broken, still standing,
been ripped apart, but now i'm demanding
no more shit, this is it.
i am leaving for myself and no one else.
so long, been swell, see you in hell! ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4711246/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4711246/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 13:16:31 PST that these things take forever
i especially am slow
But i realize that i need you
and i wondered if i could come home.

remember the time you drove all night
just to meet me in the morning
and i thought it was strange you said everything changed
you felt as if you had just woke up
and you said "this is the first day of my life
i’m glad i didn’t die before i met you
but now i don’t care i could go anywhere with you
and i’d probably be happy."

so if you want to be with me
with these things there’s no telling
we just have to wait and see.

imissyoublueeyesbutiknowyoudontmissme. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4688732/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4688732/ Sun, 27 Feb 2005 22:04:33 PST
lack of breathing. lack of beating.

the girl who tamed the tiger yeah, yeah.
the heart of southern lovebirds.
they found her under the sea.
she said she came from cell block three.
the girl hit hard like a barracuda, baby.
she floated on air like a crest of wave.
she was a primal instituation, she was a danger to herself.

i can't wait until they leave. i will be alone. free to do what i please. and everything will be loud. i can be crazy again. the room can shake. the words will bleed from me and i will think no more.

oh anticipation. <3. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4664495/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4664495/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 17:10:20 PST maybe i'll disappear
tracks will fade in the snow
you won't find me here.

ice is starting to form
ending what had begun
i am locked in my head
with what i've done
i know you tried to rescue me
didn't let anyone get in
left with a trace of all that was
and all that could have been.

please take this
and run far away
far away from me
i am tainted
the two of us
we're never meant to be
all these pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only i could see in my nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
gone fading everything
and all that could have been. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4606239/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4606239/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 12:02:44 PST
Describe yourself: head like a hole. black as your soul. i'd rather die than give you control.
How do some people feel about you: well i think i'm gonna push it as far as it can go. give into desire. only you will know. so tell me all your secrets. i'll stick it in your head. i wish i could remember everything she said.
How do you feel about yourself: what have i become? my sweetest friend. everyone i know goes away in the end. you could have it all, my empire of dirt. i will let you down, i will make you hurt.
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: she shines in a world full of ugliness. she matters when everything is meaningless. fragile, she doesn't see her beauty. she tries to get away. sometimes it's just that nothing seems worth saving. i can't watch her slip away.
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend/crush: i just want something i can never have.
Describe where you want to be: ocean pulls me close and whispers in my ear. the destiny i've chose all becoming clear. the currents have their say, the time is drawing near. washes me away. makes me disappear.
Describe what you want to be: perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most. forgot how it feels well almost.
Describe how you live: tried to save a place from the cuts and the scratches. tried to overcome the complications and the catches. nothing ever grows and the sun doesn't shine all day. tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away.
Describe how you love: i'm drunk. and right now i'm so in love with you. and i don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do.
Share a few words of wisdom: problems have solutions. a lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash.
You are…? watching the hole, it used to be mine.
Everyone Should Have: why does it come as a surprise. to think that i was so naive. maybe didn't mean too much. but it meant everything to me. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4565286/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4565286/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 20:28:49 PST and the air keeps getting colder,
and my friends keep getting older.
and i know you knew the answer-
it grew inside you like a cancer.
try to stop it, make it leave you,
but it won't and that's what scares you.
and i know it's not forever.
trying so hard to be clever.
i never wanted this to happen.
why the hell'd this have to happen?
and you left me, like you always said you wouldn't..
but you did it and i knew it- it has to happen.
ever since you turned into them-
and on and off with the ones left behind.
and where do you feel at home?
that's for you to decide and everything you said?
i never should have bought it... ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4534699/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4534699/ Wed, 09 Feb 2005 01:30:09 PST to people who'll never know
just how purposeless and empty they've grown
because the language confuses
like computers refuse to understand how i'm feeling today.

i'm freezing and losing my way
i don't need another map of your head. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4484351/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4484351/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 22:01:57 PST it was like a stab in the heart, and then a big crash.
crushed.
hah, that's it.
that is what i am.
feeling.

i want out of my head.
this head.
it's not mine.
none of this is mine.

maybeimjustparanoid.
butireallydontthinkso.


this isn't supposed to make sense.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4472776/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4472776/ Tue, 01 Feb 2005 16:14:56 PST because the body of the doll it don't look like hers at all.

so she straps it on, she sucks it in, she throws it up, and gives a grin,
laughing at herself because she knows she ain't that at all.

all caught up in the trends
well the truth began to bend
and the next thing you know, man
there just ain't no truth left at all

'cause when the pretty girl walks
she walks so proud.
and when the pretty girl laughs
oh man, she laughs so loud ..

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4364839/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4364839/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 22:27:15 PST when your only friend is gone
and every time you look around
well, it all, it all just seems to change..



giveuponme.
youknowyouwantto.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4331329/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4331329/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 00:28:20 PST maybe i'm so messed up in you.

this is the only time i really feel alive.

i swear.
i just found everything i need.
the sweat in your eyes, the blood in your veins,
are listening to me.
well i want to drink it up, and swim in it until i drown.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4232578/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4232578/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 19:32:17 PST to think that i was so naive.
maybe it didn't mean so much,
but it meant everything to me.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4214420/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4214420/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 17:39:21 PST
but i'm not. so i'll just bottle it up, and you will never see. no one will. i want to scream as the top of my lungs. i just want to let it all out. i may be young but i'll never be stupid.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4138974/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4138974/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 18:23:13 PST never meant to hurt anyone
in bed i was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall
you were easy, you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
i catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had left behind
you remind me of that leak in my soul..

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4084960/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4084960/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 00:13:25 PST that your kiss might kill me.
so won't you kill me,
so i die happy.
my heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
whichever you prefer.

<3

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4049202/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4049202/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 11:05:23 PST who’s lost my self-identity
and i hide behind these books i read
while scribbling my poetry
like art could save a wretch like me
with some ideal ideology
that no one could hope to achieve
and i'm never real, it's just a sketch of me
and everything i’ve made is trite and cheap
and a waste of paste, of tape, of time.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4011480/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/4011480/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 13:55:12 PST v. re·gret·ted, re·gret·ting, re·grets


1. a sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone.
2. a feeling of disappointment or distress about something that one wishes could be different.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3987337/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3987337/ Sat, 04 Dec 2004 12:41:29 PST bullshit.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3952300/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3952300/ Mon, 29 Nov 2004 22:34:55 PST thank you for listening, thank you for being there.
thank you for hanging out with me, i had suchawonderfultime.
thank you for caring, thank you for saying i love you too.

----


lies.

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3896828/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3896828/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 20:39:36 PST the farther away they hid you...

]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3885374/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3885374/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 11:09:46 PST
i have my mind set on one thing. and that thing i don't think i'll be getting. i'll be devastated.

you always devastate me.
i set myself up for disaster.
i never do it any other way.


my fault.

.... ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3857269/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3857269/ Wed, 17 Nov 2004 12:55:48 PST
.... ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3802272/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3802272/ Wed, 10 Nov 2004 14:33:39 PST give me your money baby, now’s your chance
your lies like cyanide

i am so dumb
just beam me up
i've had it all forever
i've had enough

remember, you promised me...
i’m dying, i’m dying please
i want to, i need to be...
under your skin.

.... ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3779963/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3779963/ Sun, 07 Nov 2004 20:03:40 PST in the doorway of my demise i stand,
encased in the whisper you taught me.

um.

i don't have anything to say.

.... ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3752508/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3752508/ Thu, 04 Nov 2004 13:12:02 PST too bad.
hope you had fun.
fucking up your life. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3710701/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3710701/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 22:29:26 PDT tired of everything?
can you feel what i can,
almost everything?

i wanna leave today.
the sky is big and my life is small.
i wanna leave with you,
so we can build a perfect garden.

the stars are far away,
i can see them with my eyes.
i watch them burn away,
like the moments of my life.

i wanna leave today.
the sky is big and my life is small.
i wanna leave with you,
so we can build a desert garden. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3674659/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3674659/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 20:20:24 PDT i don't care,
please.

i wanna go home,
i wanna go home,
i wanna go home,
i wanna go home.

'cause when a lover aches, is when a lover breaks. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3623609/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3623609/ Mon, 18 Oct 2004 23:44:44 PDT and the next. you're ice cold. we're crying. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3551327/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3551327/ Sat, 09 Oct 2004 16:41:02 PDT they don't even live together anymore.
but they fight like they still do.
the second they come in contact, yelling.
i hate it more than anything. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3395190/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3395190/ Sat, 18 Sep 2004 22:57:33 PDT
the glass is half empty or half full.

it's half empty.

i do not know why. i do not want to know why. there are so many things i want. so many things i think i need. things i pretend i live for, things i pretend i love.

i love you, but you went away.
i love you, but i can't talk to you anymore.
i love you with all my heart, but now i am nothing.

her life story. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3299809/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3299809/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 11:55:43 PDT



chuck palahniuk. <3. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3270540/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3270540/ Thu, 02 Sep 2004 13:08:09 PDT ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3241042/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3241042/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 17:01:30 PDT
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do you miss me, MISS MISERY?
like you say you do... ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3180757/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3180757/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 14:20:12 PDT
----

thou with a tiger spring dost leap upon thy prey,
and tear his helpless breast, o'erwhelmed with wild dismay. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3168681/ http://lovelyneverchange.deviantart.com/journal/3168681/ Thu, 19 Aug 2004 21:58:12 PDT you're crying over them again
living off sticky greens
in time your numb as you were before
you just hide that look on your face
you lie well, but not well enough
you could get away with so much more
if you shut the door, they'll never see
hear, smell, care.
in time you're just a useless girl
brown eyes, constant frown
in time you're exactly the same, again. ]]> ~lovelyneverchange