http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:lowra&section=today deviantART RSS for by:lowra en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 04:39:06 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/615370/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/615370/ Sat, 12 Apr 2003 09:22:49 PDT ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/607131/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/607131/ Wed, 09 Apr 2003 11:36:00 PDT ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/521660/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/521660/ Sun, 02 Mar 2003 09:23:53 PST ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/514981/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/514981/ Wed, 26 Feb 2003 07:13:29 PST
I only wish I could've spent more time there. Oh well, summer will be coming soon.

It's kind of cold in here. I'm very tired of this weather...very tired of it. But I'm on vacation! yay!

]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/489136/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/489136/ Tue, 11 Feb 2003 16:30:34 PST ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/466985/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/466985/ Wed, 29 Jan 2003 12:13:32 PST ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/456441/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/456441/ Thu, 23 Jan 2003 09:15:39 PST
So I'm trying to move on and accept the fact that we may just be better as friends, but I'm tired of this failure. It seems as though there is nothing in my life that works out, and honestly, I wanted this to work out more than anything. But he said those words that every yearning heart dreads..."I don't know if I want to be with you. Some days I think about it and wonder why I'm just with one person". That hurts...and I'm tired of hearing it.

Sometimes I wonder why feelings change. I mean, one second something can be so strong and then the next it's gone. Love is so fleeting...and I think he's taken mine for granted. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/430364/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/430364/ Tue, 07 Jan 2003 18:22:47 PST ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/383789/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/383789/ Mon, 09 Dec 2002 12:54:03 PST
I've started writing again. Thank God. I missed it.



]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/368832/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/368832/ Sat, 30 Nov 2002 11:22:46 PST
I'm stuffed and I love potatoes. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/349025/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/349025/ Sun, 17 Nov 2002 08:48:54 PST
I don't know how else to say sorry for not being here for people. I hope I can make it up to you sometime.

Listen to Five for Fighting..."The Last Great American" ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/325941/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/325941/ Thu, 31 Oct 2002 16:56:30 PST
I'm truly, genuinely happy. Even when I don't feel good, I'm happy.

Finally, Ricky and I are together. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/318753/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/318753/ Sat, 26 Oct 2002 08:22:03 PDT ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/309515/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/309515/ Fri, 18 Oct 2002 18:47:35 PDT
I'm sorry, but I feel like saying goodbye. I don't know what it is, but I just can't talk to you right now. I feel as if everything that happened between us meant nothing and means nothing to you. Maybe it is for this reason that I have nothing to say to you. Maybe it is for this reason that everytime you are mentioned, my stomach jumps into my throat and I feel almost resentful...I don't mean to hurt you, but I think I have to tell you how I feel...who knows, maybe you feel the same. All I know is that everything I once felt is gone...
I can understand if you're trying to forget yourself how it felt to kiss me, and even though I don't remember myself, it bothers me that you refuse to acknowledge everything we said to eachother and I'd just like to know that it hurts to even think about it and for this reason, I can't think about you...even after you meant so much. I can't say the same anymore. I'm sorry. I feel like saying goodbye...because you won't tell me otherwise.

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I want to know how he feels...but I don't think he'll ever read this, so those that know who this is.....yeah, this is how I feel. I just want to forget...I really do. Because no one knows how much pain there is deep down inside. So many lies told to me..so many promises broken...and this won't let me trust. I'm tired of it.


So if the person this is about reads this....please let me know what you're thinking, because you don't know what pain is until you can't feel what it is to trust someone anymore. But at least you let me feel that someone cared..

]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/294863/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/294863/ Sun, 06 Oct 2002 11:15:38 PDT ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/290739/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/290739/ Wed, 02 Oct 2002 19:37:46 PDT
Guys are confusing...but damn me for loving them.

Friends are awesome...but damn me for not trusting all of them like I should.

The past often sucks...but damn me for letting it get the best of me sometimes.

Basically...things will be what they will be. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/277588/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/277588/ Sat, 21 Sep 2002 06:12:34 PDT

And things are kind of strange lately with someone...he won't tell me if he likes me, but everyone else says he does. I guess I'll have to wait to find out.

Oh, and I'm going to be taking some poetry down from here. So if you want to see my poetry, this is your last chance.

Luv ya ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/272738/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/272738/ Mon, 16 Sep 2002 17:47:19 PDT http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/269254/ Fri, 13 Sep 2002 12:40:02 PDT ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/266277/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/266277/ Tue, 10 Sep 2002 19:51:03 PDT

I miss all my friends from Green Acre. I called Susan today and Jesse [LAMAS!!!!] and I are gonna do something around Thanksgiving. So yay!!! I wish I could just go see these people whenever I wanted to. I need to get out of this town.

Dream Theater on Saturday...I'm so freakin' excited. And YAY!!! I'm going with Alex, Zoe, Maya, and Chris!!

Oh, well....life is not so bad right now. I just wish more people would call me. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/262970/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/262970/ Sat, 07 Sep 2002 20:11:15 PDT Until Saturday, that is...when I see Dream Theater!!! But yeah, Blessid was awesome at Riverfest last night. I was in my glory. And the food was yummy too. wow...that's a lot of smilies.

My feet hurt from work. I like feeling that I've done something though.

I want to have a huge deviant party ...yes, I do.
]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/260558/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/260558/ Thu, 05 Sep 2002 18:32:54 PDT . They forgot about me. So Ricky stayed with me for an hour and we talked. It was nice, but I was tired, hungry, and cold. AHHH!!

Well, at least I'm going to see Blessid Union of Souls tomorrow.

I'm sorry for all whose work I usually comment on...I've been SO busy lately....I haven't had any time...I'm so sorry..I'll get to it. I promise. And plus, my devwatch is broken.

God, I'm so tired. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/257719/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/257719/ Tue, 03 Sep 2002 12:30:00 PDT [link] . It is very much appreciated by both of us and we love you guys.

I'm beginning to wonder what happened to everyone I used to talk to a lot...in school...or online. I never see them anymore. It sucks, because at one time we had a good thing going. Hmm...now I feel like . But I'm not complaining, I LOVE my friends now..I just wonder what happened to my other ones.

Heh. I really want to know how many people actually read my journal. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/255467/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/255467/ Sun, 01 Sep 2002 18:31:25 PDT And what's more is that my friends from MA may be able to come!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!This makes me happy. I've loved this band for over 5 years now and they're finally coming to Manchester! AHHH! NICE!

I've just returned from Green Acre and it was lovely. I went with my buddy Shannon and it was grand. Good food...great people..old friends...new friends...and SMOOTHIES!!!!!


]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/252779/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/252779/ Fri, 30 Aug 2002 11:57:30 PDT
I had this dream last night about a kiss...and it was real. It was so damn real...I want to go back to it.

I want to go back to it. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/250576/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/250576/ Wed, 28 Aug 2002 16:22:34 PDT

Thank you everyone who has given me advice on this subject with my friend...I suppose I'll just have to wait it out and let our friendship take it's course. But that's the other thing, I don't want to lose our friendship, because we get along so well. I just hope he realizes that as well. I wish the little punk would call me sometime. lol

Damn..."Disappear" is really a great song. I can't wait to see Dream Theater.

School always depresses me....makes me want to escape. I just want to take all my friends and get out of this mundane life. I want to experience it and live it as it's supposed to be lived. Yeah, that would be so nice. Who wants to come???

Something else that has left me stressed and depressed lately is the fear that for some reason I'm going to lose my friends...I don't know how...but I'm just worried about it. And I want all my friends to know that I love them very, very, very much and I hope they know that. Seriously...they are my life. All I have besides my belief in God and the Bahá'í Faith and music....they are my music and that's never going to change. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/248145/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/248145/ Mon, 26 Aug 2002 18:36:54 PDT Help?

Welp, school is tomorrow...and there I will be again, sinking into an abyss of dead faces and pipe dreams. I just wish people would sometimes realize that there's so much more out there than high school. Sure, the world is cruel and unkind, but it's meant to be experienced and in the long run, what we experience makes us who we are [ as well as many other things]. I just threw my two cents in there because it was laying arounf collecting dust.

"Dust in the Wind" is a good song. Yes it is.

I miss everyone. I get lonely here by myself. I think I'm one of those people that will always have friends around in college.

"This Ruined Puzzle" is also a good song.

I was just thinking how this past year has changed my life. I've been through a lot and I think I don't regret almost everything that happened. I think it's all made me grow and I'm probably a better person because of it. Whether I was ready for it or not, it came, and I'm still alive. I'd like to thank everyone who got me through it. I love you all very much.

"Black and White" by Michael Jackson is a good song too.

Okay, that is all. Farewell and goodnight. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/247353/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/247353/ Mon, 26 Aug 2002 07:09:25 PDT ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/247352/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/247352/ Mon, 26 Aug 2002 07:09:10 PDT ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/246268/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/246268/ Sun, 25 Aug 2002 10:45:05 PDT





~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/245548/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/245548/ Sat, 24 Aug 2002 19:54:31 PDT

I've been having really strange dreams lately...and in most of them I die and no one cares. I hope those are not preminatory dreams.

School starts on Tuesday....I dun wanna go...not at all.



]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/242994/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/242994/ Thu, 22 Aug 2002 21:23:02 PDT

I wonder if I'll be any good. Probably not.

How is everyone out there? ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/241690/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/241690/ Wed, 21 Aug 2002 21:45:26 PDT
This is a...something about how I was feeling earlier. I hate it, but I want to share it with you>
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Hi, my name is fear
And I'd like to fly away from here.

Once thought I was afraid of nothing
But as much as I loathe to admit it
I'm afraid of love
Everytime I fall
I land ass first in a ditch
Made just for me
If you believe, please pray for me
I'll always pray for you.

Once thought I knew them
Those people that I left my trust in
Now I need that back
But I fear they have sent it out of this world
Where my pride may await
And when I told them to make it go away
I did not mean my peace of mind.

Once I thought I was happy
If ignorance is bliss
Then I was one damned blissful person
But no more does my hand need to be held.

Never fear,
I'm going to fly away from here.

]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/240321/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/240321/ Tue, 20 Aug 2002 22:05:57 PDT
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]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/237578/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/237578/ Sun, 18 Aug 2002 20:17:31 PDT I want to be there still.

After hanging out a good deal in town and other various places with the people I love, AKA Kelly-Ann, Maya, Zoe, Davy and few others that I have just met, I think it is justified to say that I did not want to come "home". I miss you guys!!!

Yeah, actually, David [link] and I got to hang out today finally....hadn't had the chance before. He's an awesome guy. We had mucho funno!

So the reason I said "home" in quotations is because the place I am sitting in right now is my "home" in the technical sense of the term, but it is not where my heart always is. That place is Amherst...truly...it has a piece of my heart...or rather, the people there do. I think you all know what I mean.
Anyway, I thought I'd just share that with y'all.

]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/233390/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/233390/ Thu, 15 Aug 2002 21:31:29 PDT Yes, yes, yes.

Listening to Dashboard at the moment.

Also, tomorrow night I'm going to Amherst, MA to see my beloved friends. I cannot wait another second! s for all of them! I you all to pieces of delicious key lime pie! ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/232467/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/232467/ Thu, 15 Aug 2002 08:59:13 PDT Yes, yes, yes.

Listening to Dashboard at the moment. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/224734/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/224734/ Fri, 09 Aug 2002 07:09:56 PDT But anyway, if you need to reach me, my email is vanillasea008@msn.com

I hope you all are enjoying your summer. I sure am. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/223293/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/223293/ Thu, 08 Aug 2002 06:11:30 PDT

Only two more days of driver's ed! :woot!: Can't wait.

And this coming Friday through Wednesday, I'm going to Green Acre [link] for a youth institute. It should be great, I'm sure.

Well, I'm having a lovely summer for the most part...I just dun want it to end.

Take care, everyone! ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/220139/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/220139/ Mon, 05 Aug 2002 20:49:42 PDT
I wish I had a large family sometimes. I watch the family across the street with their Sunday cookouts and I wonder of someday I'll have that. I think it's what I want more than anything for myself somedays. To be happy with my family and to know that there will always be blood relatives close by. Yeah....I want that.

How is everyone doing???Are we all happy??? We better be, or we're going to receive a HUGE from LOWRA! ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/217128/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/217128/ Sat, 03 Aug 2002 14:08:18 PDT
I can't wait to go to Massachusetts to see my Fred, Maya, Davy, Hannah, Alex, Kelly-Ann and all the people I love. I'm looking very forward to it.

Teddy Grahams are good food. I urge everyone to get some...uhh...teddy grahams, that is. Mmmm...

It has come to me that I do not really need a romantic relationship right now. If it happens, fine, but if it doesn't, I'm not going to long for it. I'm becoming happy with myself and that comes first, I believe.

Yes, yes...it's all good. Or at least most of it is when you know what's going on. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/217127/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/217127/ Sat, 03 Aug 2002 14:07:35 PDT
I can't wait to go to Massachusetts to see my Fred, Maya, Davy, Hannah, Alex and all the people I love. I'm looking very forward to it.

Teddy Grahams are good food. I urge everyone to get some...uhh...teddy grahams, that is. Mmmm...

It has come to me that I do not really need a romantic relationship right now. If it happens, fine, but if it doesn't, I'm not going to long for it. I'm becoming happy with myself and that comes first, I believe.

Yes, yes...it's all good. Or at least most of it is when you know what's going on. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/214345/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/214345/ Thu, 01 Aug 2002 11:49:32 PDT
I can't quite seem to write any really good poetry lately. I'm blank. Some might argue that that is my state a great deal of the time.

But see, confusion is a confusing state of mind.

I told ya

]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/213211/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/213211/ Wed, 31 Jul 2002 14:24:20 PDT
Hendrix-"Somewhere Over the Rainbow". ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/208764/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/208764/ Sat, 27 Jul 2002 22:39:32 PDT
In other news...I love my work...it helps me forget everything sometimes and I just let go. I love the people..they're awesome.

Hmm...I'm cold.
Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............... ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/208122/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/208122/ Sat, 27 Jul 2002 08:06:44 PDT
Everyone gets a ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/205415/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/205415/ Wed, 24 Jul 2002 20:32:53 PDT
Uh...well, today has certainly been an interesting day. Especially when the cops showed up because my brother was screaming so loud he scared the neighbors. I would be laughing, but it's not so funny when he threatens me.

I thought he was going to come after me with a , but he wouldn't do that.

Yeah, I don't even want to explain it here...I'll just conclude with the fact that my friend Janalee is now afraid of my brother. I'm tired of this. I want to move out....no, I want HIM to move out. I don't need this. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/200607/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/200607/ Sat, 20 Jul 2002 20:59:35 PDT
Bev
Ed
Jen
Davy
Laura
Deej
Heather
Maya
Zoe
Hannah
Kelly-Ann
Joe [tank]
Joe
Marcy
Alex
Nina
Shannon
Janalee
Julie
Kenzie
Esther
Richard
Melissa
Jarrett
April
Alyson
Curtis
Chris
Felicia

And everyone else I may have failed to mention...
I LOVE YOU ALL TO PIECES!!!! And each one of them has made my life all the more special.



]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/198561/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/198561/ Thu, 18 Jul 2002 21:30:23 PDT
The only thing that is difficult is remembering everything that was said. And the songs...I don't know why, but the songs make my soul tear up. Especially when I'm lonely .

I have to save this journal entry. I have to remember how this feels. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/196878/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/196878/ Wed, 17 Jul 2002 10:00:11 PDT ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/193419/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/193419/ Sat, 13 Jul 2002 22:01:28 PDT
SECRET GARDEN

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

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I'm sure a lot of you know that song...I really don't want it to sound like I'm bragging or anything..I wasn't the one who said the song as about me...it was someone else that said it could have been written about me. I've never seen him again though. Not for the longest time. Don't know where he is.

Maybe it's just because I'm tired, but I don't know where I am either...if that makes any sense.
]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/191612/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/191612/ Fri, 12 Jul 2002 06:36:15 PDT
"Hey Alice, are you completely satisfied. With Wonderland and all its wonder. 'cause if you're not, you know I've heard that. They're handing out. A money-back guarantee at the door Going blind to the pain. Going deaf to the sight. Going dumb to the cries. Of the innocent life I read the paper and I drank all the juice. In my refrigerator now I'm starved for knowledge. And thirsty for the truth. And in the pages I could sense all the longing. In the world, I closed my eyes. 'cause I'm longing too Who knows your name anymore, anymore? I'll say your name forevermore, forevermore"..


"Honest"

"Boy know your place, lies do not become us Real is more attractive than a slick and polished mask. Girl dig down deep, I know there's more between us. There's bound to be a question you're just dying for me to ask If you can be honest, I can be too. If you'll take the first step, I'll follow you through. But no one wants to bleed, no one wants to hide. No one wants to hurt, alone inside Child, don't close your eyes the truth contains much beauty. And though it scars your soul, it can heal the wounds it makes You've been deceived to think the pain is to be dreaded. When you've got nothing left, it'll give more than it takes (Bridge) If you can't find the peace, I'll help find it for you. I don't know how, but one thing that's sure is I won't leave you now"

"Never Leave"

"In the midst of my darkest hour you see my
tear-stained face. This broken form that no longer feels power with no apparent place. But even when this world has turned her back on me When it's cold where it once had burned . When my thoughts are frightening You will never leave me When I fail at living and loving when I fail you Lord. I want things that I know very well I cannot afford. When I feel like I have no purpose except to live and die. Or all they tell me is that I'm worthless why even try (Bridge) I cannot be sure of my love for you. But in the midst of my doubt you are true"


Remember that.

[All songs by Kendall Payne]


]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/189813/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/189813/ Wed, 10 Jul 2002 15:14:05 PDT

Thank you so much again. I love you all very, very, very much....you are my world. Remember that. And Jen, I will tell you more if you really want to know.

I love you all!!!! ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/185496/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/185496/ Sat, 06 Jul 2002 21:02:39 PDT
You were on my mind
Inside the cinema
You looked so beautiful
I almost had to go
And when I got outside
I thought of you again
I think you should be framed
In some Fine Art gallery
I know you'd disagree with me
But I love you anyways
And should I climb high my
Dreary city walls
They make me feel so small
Oh let me fade away
This city's so cold & old
Forever rain or snow
I'd really love to come and go
Oh won't you go stay with me
I know you'd disagree with me
I just know you'd disagree
But I love you anyways
You were on my mind
Inside the cinema
You looked so beautiful
I almost dried an eye
And when I got outside
I caught the 44
It dropped me outside my front door
Forgot what I'd been living for

-Travis
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I just thought that song was beautiful. I'm in love..the world is beautiful.
]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/180562/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/180562/ Mon, 01 Jul 2002 20:11:03 PDT

That is all that I can say at this moment. I'm too excited.

I will be gone for a few days as well, so leave me a note and I'll get back to ya when I get back. but let's not talk about that.

Take care everyone and I love you all!

And to you, sweetie, boy, do you have kisses coming to you. ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/178865/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/178865/ Sat, 29 Jun 2002 21:59:48 PDT [link] . Her artwork is wonderfully done, and so is her poetry. And she's a very close friend of mine, so yeah, you betta check her out! I love you, Bev!!

Uhh...I think I'm too tired to say much else...except...

July 4th...a magnificent date.

]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/176719/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/176719/ Thu, 27 Jun 2002 20:10:37 PDT
First night of work tonight. Not easy, but not hard either. Just kind of...a job. I'll get used to it, I suppose.

Five days to forever.... I cannot wait. I cannot. To kiss him will be like spilling my core into a utopian palace....yes, THAT beautiful. THAT perfect.
]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/175331/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/175331/ Wed, 26 Jun 2002 14:41:02 PDT In a week, we will be in eachother's arms. I cannot even do anything but smile.

Is it hot in here or is it me??? ]]> ~lowra http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/172195/ http://lowra.deviantart.com/journal/172195/ Sun, 23 Jun 2002 19:18:50 PDT
Well, actually...boring for the most part. No one to talk to really. Nothing to do. So I just played piano...improv mostly. If I had a mic, I woulda recorded it. But Last night we rented "Serendipity" and then had an interesting talk on why finding your true love young is perfect, because your mate is conceivably so much smarter, for they are virtually untouched by the horrible things in the world and have not been married ten billion times [obvious exaggeration] and therefore have no notion of what love really is after they've been cheated on and lied to and abused from all those wives or husbands. Yeah, so anyway...here is how the conversation started. My mother's friend was talking about the age of maturity in the Bahá'í Faith, which is 15, and how parents don't seem to realize that and still try to control and dictate the lives of their children to a disgusting degree. I'm only talking about those parents that pretty much lock their children up in their rooms or don't let them make their own decisions. But even with religion. Yes, you can bring a child up in a religion and show them the ways of the religion, but when they are old enough to decide whether they want to be a part of that religion or not, let them make the choice. I feel very strongly about that. Gee..can ya tell? Don't get me wrong, I love my religion. It's one of the best things in my life.
So the bottom line of our conversation was that adults should never say that teenagers are too young to be in love, because hey, they're old enough to feel it...and if you think about it, they probably know better than a lot adults what true love is.

I had another strange dream last night. I was on a table with Josh Hartnett, but it wasn't him, it was Ed...with Josh's neck and body. It was so weird. Haha. We were just taking pictures for a magazine, but he was saying things to me like, "I love you so much, Laura....you're everything". I remember saying in the dream to myself, "Yup, this is definitely Ed".

So today I watched "Ghost World" and loved it. Then we went art gallery hoppin' and I saw my old art teacher and ate good food. And then we went to the Millyard Museum, which was actually pretty interesting. I know this city and the old mills, so maybe that's why.

I start driver's ed. tomorrow. I'm a lil nervous. And I start my job Wednesday. A lil nervous for that too. Tell me I'll do fine. I need to hear it.

I love you all! A for all! [Even though I dislike donuts].....okay, so a for all of yas!

Damn...I seriously need to go to New Jersey. ]]> ~lowra