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oh well, my style kept changing, yet I've not found my own original style. ughh!! patience, self! patience......


I'm such a lazy bum bum. lol


priority no.1:
must.... reducing my socializing activity for god sake!!! hedonism is not good, you guys!

priority no.2:
reducing my socializing activity .... again. -_-

priority no.3:
kill my laziness. For those who know the weapon to demolish this bastard, please do tell. ha ha ha ha .... no, seriously.



neeways, thank you for the favorites, watches, or for just even looking around to my so-not-update gallery.

till then~


PS: do not believe anything you read in the description below the journal's title.

]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/19513247/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/19513247/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 07:17:09 PDT
Some people (real life and online) were asking me how did I use photoshop CS to coloring my drawings. They were asking questions that I didn't even understand what the questions were all about.
They thought I was some kind a photoshop expert or something.

Well, here's the truth.



I'm not. My photoshop skill pretty much basic if not VERY.
What I've done on it were just brushing, burning, dodge, smudging, adding multiple layers, adding text.
That's it.


I don't even understand what my ~AreYoU try to teach me on masking here.


I wish I could learn more about photoshop (or painter) techniques more professionally, but so far I've only learned from any online tutorials out there, which I only understand half of it, instead of learning properly in some kind of course or from book.



That's all what I want to tell.
Sorry to disappoint any of you. ._______.;

]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/19346134/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/19346134/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 23:45:03 PDT







nothing else to write.
I might post something, just for the sake distracting myself from my report. *sighs*

]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/18518549/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/18518549/ Mon, 26 May 2008 21:19:26 PDT
Wednesday.... If it's been decided and if ... it's not doing as I'm hoping to be, then.... well Imma kill myself!!!!!!!
Kay that's too much, but this is matter of life and death to me.
Why am I telling this here, I don't know..... Probably I just can't stand to keep it by myself anymore longer.

On the other hand, I'm surprised my Uruha drawing got some lovin. xD
I was almost scrapped it, but .. yeah well it's alright now.
It was nothing surprised everytime I checked my dA messages and my Gackts drawing being faved (it's always been that way) , so everytime I saw ppl faving my other stuff it's always overwhelming.
So thank you very much. m(_ _)m


Who am I talking to anyway? It's not like people would be reading this.
So not in positive thinking attitude right now..........

]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/17605796/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/17605796/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:44:04 PDT Instead I should of working on my final report.
But I usually draw like mad, just for the sake distracting myself from work..........

Aaaaaggghhh it's 2:33 AM already!!!
I only have couple hours to sleep (or not!).

I want to post my (long time no draw) Ayu, but.... in some part I'm embarassed.
It's been too long since the last time I drew her.
It's like, "is this even her?? or is this the singer from some visual kei band????"

Ayu turned into bisshies (pretty boys)....yup


gaaaaahhhhh!!!
I just want to rant rant rant rant!!
I shouldnt rant here, no? But my wordpress is not fully fixed yet, so.... -_-

Anywaaayy... sorry for the messy grammar.
Can't be fcuk to type proper english now.


off to go~

]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/17204941/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/17204941/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 04:49:05 PST
Really busy lately.
That and even when I have spare time, I spent it on books.
Just finished 3 books today, and I'm reading something else now. @_@

Funny how lately reading econs stuff is as exciting as reading manga. hmmm...

I even just realized that I've dled Hikki's utaban episode since last week.

Now I have something really worth to watch! (lol)


Btw I randomly watched Underworld: Evolution on HBO few days ago.
boy.... Kate Beckinsale sure is hot! My kind of woman. (lol)


I'm still drooling...


Huh... I think I had her on my WIP.
Maybe someday I should finish her picture.

]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/16653232/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/16653232/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 03:01:06 PST Now if someone called me from either left or right side, I have to turn my whole body to see them. oh man..

Bff: (greeting from left side) hey!
Me: oh hi (turning my body to the left so I could faced her)
Bff: Wow aren't you polite naw~~
Me: Heh?
Bff: Usually you're only waved back or nodded.
Me: I can not nod now.
Bff: Eh why?? Too cool to nod? (laughs)
Me: what the.. no! my neck hurt like shit.
Bff: Oh injured huh? No wonder.. Have you check to a doctor?
Me: No, I haven't, and no wonder what?
Bff: Well no wonder it was strange, because you would never be polite with me. (laughs)
Me: oh shaddup
Bff: see~ (laughs) now this would be interesting to see how's your reaction over your fanbois greeting (smirk)
Me: I better run!
Bff: Break a neck! whoops I mean Break a leg!
Me: bitch.
Bff: Luv ya too!!


Tomorrow is another torture!!!!!!!!! gaaaaaaaaaaahhh with 2 appointments I have and the long hours before that. I hope my neck is going to be JUST fine.
After a week being tortured by this weird fever I had, finally I'm able to be doing something like a real youth again.

Right now, fever is gone! But neck can not be moved...........

Great. Just great.


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*mwaaah*


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/16544267/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/16544267/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 22:05:50 PST Let see if I could finish them. lol

It would be some sort of challenge for my unpracticed hand, that's for sure.


And finally I could see the lights again, after weeks of sorrow and sadness.
Thanks to my friends and family who supports me, and of course my darling . *muah*
But nevertheless, my pray go to him.


RIP my dearest friend, you will always be missed.



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*mwaaah*


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/15126935/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/15126935/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 09:54:17 PDT Someone knows exactly what I mean *wink wink*

But this one was nothing like my.... 'usual habit', right now my right ankle hurts like shit, just because I've got tripped.... by my left ankle! #%$^&*$#

*sighs*
Although.. I must say alco is kinda work for creating inspiration for me. lol!
*ebil laughs*

Anyway, I made some illustration few months ago, and it somehow attracted some people.
So they wanted me to sell it to them, and well.. yeah not that I care much bout the money, I mean someone interested over my work is priceless already for me let alone want to buy it?? So yeah, and now they want me to create some stuff again.

Kinda weird to see some of my works being used in some ad in magazine.
But .. yeah well. It's amazing and overwhelming.

Ugh, I should back to work. And doing homework in the same time.
Good thing the mid test is done, so I can bit relaxing (when am I.. not? lol).

Avoiding internet now, just so I could go away from the things I love.
Ayu, chatting, Ayu, downloading, Ayu, browsing, Ay... yeah well you got the point. lol

kthxbye!

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My darling...


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/14385184/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/14385184/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 18:25:19 PDT
First of all whoever read this... help me??

See, i'm not taking art/design major nor taking any art/design course so i don't know exactly what kind of type all the deviations i have in dA.
Digital painting? is it?

Question is,
What kind of job i could have with it?
Like to what kind of company i could send my portfolio (my whole arts stuff)?

Because i have quite a lot of abandoned work in my computer, and honestly i don't know whether it's worth it to taking this hobby seriously or not.
Mainly coz i'm on economics major (yeah like wth is that related with art?? lol), and i have to concentrate to my major enough as it is.
So that's why i haven't updating my dA page since ever!
Not that ppl will notice anyway. lol

Oh well.. any suggestion will be much appreciated.
Thanks a lot for everything.

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My darling...


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/9099511/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/9099511/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 19:58:35 PDT Current Mood:
Listening to : Imogen Heap - Speeding Cars


hello fellow friends,

just want to let you know that i'm still alive.
i was being hiatus, and most of the time forgot that i have a page here. -_-;
because i have personal problem that needed to be solved.

anyway thank you for been visiting my gallery and faved my deviations, and even for the watched.
i miss most of my DA friends. how are you guys?? TT_____TT
it seems i've lost contact with them, i hope we can catch up later.

God, it's been ages since the last time i drew something
and i have a lot, i repeat, A LOT abandoned sketches, and somehow i lost my artistic mood and also right now i have this lacking of creativity phase, which scares me to death, because without my creativity, then what am i? >_<

i couldn't even make a simple wallpaper let alone designing character nor drawing!! that's how uncreative i am right now!!

anyway, i hope my creativity will be back very soon, so i can update my page, and so i can practice for preparing this oil painting course that i always planning to join in.

so take care you guys.
and thank you for everything.
much love.


PS: Mona, if you still here, i wonder if i should finish the uruha drawing, or not? xDD


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7570678/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7570678/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 04:34:58 PST maiahi maiahu maiaha maiahaha
silly song yet so addictive. it's been on my head for days. .________.


Current Mood:
Listening to : L'Arc~en~Ciel - New World


just watched Ayu Countdown Live 2005-2006!!!!!!!!!!
Ayu ish teh LARF!!11one!1

next monday, my uni will be starting again.
i'm not anxious to get back to all those routinity again. -_-
and i haven't even register my subjects, while all my friends already done it on monday.
why am i so lazy???? >_<

my grades on last semester are ok though.
but Mona, your GPA is still higher than meh!!11one!!1 gaaahhhh!!!1111


anyway, if you like my anime drawings, no i wont draw anime for a while.
i'm going to finish some of my realism sketches.
*hint hint*
AAaaAAaaAAYUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuUuUUUU


anyway, enough for the randomness.
thank you for watching, commenting, faving, and visiting my gallery. ^__________________^

see you guys later.
take care.


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7437083/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7437083/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 05:03:42 PST mood: ^_____________________^
listening to: ayu's album (miss)understood


yay! i am so happy that decided to stay on DA again. *hyper mode on*
somehow i felt lonely when she decided to leave from DA. TT_______TT
good thing she changed her mind though.


so anyway, 2006 is in front our eyes now.
what you guys going to do in new years eve?
me and my family are planning to spend our new years eve on outside the city, but things still not fix yet, so i don't know.

i will be sad if we just spend our night in house watching TV, while others enjoying a blast night. <_<;
about new years resolution, all i want is make my lazyness go away. forever!
and then i'm hoping 2006 will be better than previous years. ^^

yeah well, it's simple resolution.

so anyway in advance,
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006 EVERYONE!!!


edit: i just found out that ayu's new album (miss)understood is number one in oricon today!!! [link]
wohhhooooooooooooooooooooooo
that totally made my day!!!!!
*fangurl mode on*
yeah i'm an ayufreak. XD



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7395766/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7395766/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 19:40:00 PST mood: to Pea and Mona. *being random*
listening to: Def. Diva - Sukisugite Baka Mitai. rofl! XD


On Thursday i spent all my day in amusement park with my friends.

Athough, it's very crowded since we picked the wrong date to visit.
it's schools holiday so most people spent their holiday in amusement park.
omg! one half an hour just to queueing one ride >_<
but however, it was fun!!!

Even though the rollercoaster made me headache, coz i accidentally hit the safety belt (which so hard)
and on one ride (which is so scary), i screamed so loud and maybe because of the tension. it caused my pimple bleeding. rofl.
*boots all my friends who pointed and laughs at meh*

funny thing that, it seems all people i know in uni are visited the amusement park.
coz everytime me and my friends queued some rides, we always met people from our uni, so it made our groups becoming larger and larger from every rides to another. XD

don't you all lub holidays???

anyway that's it.
till next time. ^^v
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!


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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7325936/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7325936/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 08:17:49 PST Weeks of hell are passed. Absolutely a hell, i tell you.

1st, i rarely sleep
2nd, i threw up almost everyday
3rd, i had diarrhea
4th, my brain went BLANK everytime the test started.
5th, pimples are all over my face now! omfgwtfbbqzomghelpzzz!!!1111one!!
6th, my friends are dissapear.. busy with their own life. fun! (not)

and, one certain people is annoying me, i am very dissapointed, and really really upset!!!!!!


anyway, on the bright side, i'm more and more liking my new car.
driving alone around the city somehow can be a peaceful moment.
things that i never realized since i start driving 4 years ago.
and also, i am going to buy a tablet. probably tomorrow or so.
early christmas present. or just something to forget my stupid stress. ^^


yeah well, that's it. sorry for the rants.
but.. that what's journals are for, right? ^^
Lastly, thank you very much for visiting, commenting, faving my arts. I can't reply one by one, since.. well.. it's too many messages in my inbox. <_<;
So once again, THANK YOU!

Till next time. ]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7223526/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7223526/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 19:20:25 PST mood:


wish me luck guys
take care and see you all later.



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7110964/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/7110964/ Tue, 22 Nov 2005 02:50:32 PST Mood:
Listening to : Namie Amuro - White Light single

thing is...
i can't draw as fast as before.


lack of practice?
maybe


busy?
maybe


lazy?
maybe


bored?
maybe


anyway forget bout that,.. SO!!
last friday i watch Harry Potter, and it's r0x0rz!!
must watch!!!! must watch!!!!
no, don't worry i wont write any spoiler here.

and i hate ayu new single. don't argue with me. and don't attack me.
coz for me it just sucks and yes, it's my oppinion.
period.
and no, i wont hate ayu.
and yes, i will still support her.
end of story.


and yes, today not a really fun day.
and no, i wont leave DA
and yes, this is my weirdest journal ever.

so till next time.
ja.



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/6836842/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/6836842/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 12:46:28 PDT Mood:
Listening to : Trance Wave - Lunar Reflection


i just got back from a trip to UK! *jetlag mode on*
and like omgz!!! Peeps in London are sho HawT!!!!!
i went to London, Oxford, Stratford, York, and to Edinburg and Glasgow in Scotland.
sho fun!!! *hyper*

a lot of shopping of course, and i think i over limited my credit card. lol.
took me 17 hours to go to UK from my country, so that's why i'm still tired this couple days.
guuu i want my energy bak!!! >_<


for y'all UK people out there, i can't believe you can afford stuff with those expensive price. O_O;;;;
but emm maybe that's prolly my country's money currency is very weak comparing to USDollar and other international currency, so that's why maybe i felt the price there extremely expensive. -_-"


anyway i wanna crapping more but it's almost 3 am now, time to huggin my pillow. ZzZzZzzzzZZzz
so that's it for now..

take care people. \(^o^)/

PS: mona chan, thank you sho much for the ayu drawing you sent to me.



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/6238601/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/6238601/ Mon, 15 Aug 2005 21:47:47 PDT mood:
listening to: NANA starring Mika Nakashima - Glamorous Sky <--- must listen song!!



heh.. appearantly i'm still alive..
no new deviation tho, since i broke my little finger few weeks ago.
i can type, and i can write (altho the result sucks. ), but no drawing for now thank you.


anyway, .....
LISTEN TO NIGHTMARE SONGS AND WATCH THE PV!!!111one!11
ok that's a message from the Nightmare's number 1 fangirl ~mona-chan


been quite listen to that band, not bad.. in fact i kinda like it.
i usually dislike jrock, mind you. XD


so... my friend just gave me my uni's schedule last night, and.. i'm not happy with my new schedule!! >_<
i had 2 class that started on 7am!!! gaaahhhhhh... i hate wake up early!!!
somehow i'm always failed on 7am class, coz i'm always late, and that'll affect my absent..


and when i told my friend that, she was like, " OMG!! You such a lazybutt!! You need to learn to wake up at 4 or 5!! you know what, i will call your cellphone at 5 for you to wake up!! "
nyeh.. like she could do that.. she also as lazy as i am. but at least she's being a nice friend.


bleh.. now i rarely talk to my bf, and even if we're talking, somehow he annoyed me. sucks.. <_<
peachan help me to boots him, will ya.


gaahh i'm tired now. need to go to uni, to check some stuff.
so cya!



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/6038157/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/6038157/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 09:43:35 PDT and done.


sorry for disturbing you all, i will be back someday later.

*dies* ]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5963839/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5963839/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 23:34:49 PDT Mood:
Currently Listening to: Namie Amuro - Queen of Hip Pop album, her best album so far!



since i've been thinking maybe i can work as ilustrator or something. not sure. XP
i'm going to do more anime / manga drawings in my gallery. [ bisshies alert!!! ]


gaaahhh.. starting august i will be damn busy, uni will be my life...? >_<
so,, if you see me submit many deviations this month, please understand..
coz while uni starts i dont have much time for drawing and stuff.
i want to graduate with great grades. *cross finger*


btw today is my bf bday, so happy birthday to him.
i hope he's happy with me, since i'm soooo far away from a perfect girl nor gf. -_-


okiee.. gtg now, -__-
damn! why i'm busy in this special day??!!!?!



MY WORKS SO FAR!
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FINISH PROJECTS! wohooooooooo!!!!!!

G A C K T version I
G A C K T version II
Battlefield (fanart of Cloud Strife version I)
Cloudy CLOUD (fanart of Cloud Strife version II)

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FEW PROJECTS NEED TO FINISH:

lovey dovey project (55%) my lazyness is killing meh!!
Ayanami Rei (1%) thanks to =YAZ77K for the beautiful piccies.
Miyavi (5%), got the pic now, thanks to ~mona-chan
Ayu (-200%) yes, MORE minus! too bored and too lazy to do it.

yea yea... i have no life, whatever~

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still.. feedback needed!
what do you want to see from my gallery?



thank you.
take care, and please give me feedback.



matane minna~ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5757444/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 06:08:32 PDT Mood:
Currently Listening to: Namie Amuro - Queen of Hip Pop album


Finally!! A new drawing!
But i am still lazy... -_-


===========================================================
FINISH PROJECTS! wohooooooooo!!!!!!

G A C K T version I
G A C K T version II
Battlefield (fanart of Cloud Strife version I)
Cloudy CLOUD (fanart of Cloud Strife version II)

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FEW PROJECTS NEED TO FINISH:

lovey dovey project (50%) scannneeerrrr...come to meeeeee.. -__-
Ayanami Rei (1%) thanks to =YAZ77K for the beautiful piccies.
Miyavi (5%), got the pic now, thanks to ~mona-chan
Ayu (-200%) yes, MORE minus! too bored and too lazy to do it.

yea yea... i have no life, whatever~

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anyway, i need to update my gallery, so what do you want to see from my gallery?


thank you.


take care, and please give me feedback.
*needsimprovement.co.jp* <------ lousy joke. lol



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5640663/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5640663/ Mon, 13 Jun 2005 20:34:50 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Heartsdales - Superstar album
Reading: manga Ren-Ai Shijo Shugi , i am sooooo addicted reading manga lately!
VCD: Full House (korean series) | To The One I Love (j-dorama)
DVD: Ayu concerts
Theater: Mr. & Mrs. SMITH | House of Wax (need something to laugh, coz Paris Hilton is on it)



okieee.... i've been a year on DA. not expecting i'm still active.
so this journal is my tribute for my special friends.
i love you guys. *huggles*



:my (real life) brother.
duh, he needs updating his page! -_-


:very nice friend.
he also the first person i talked from DA, and the one who pushed me to made an msn acc. i still remember i keep bothering him via notes before. but he is so patient.


TN troops!

oh yeah.. the mobs are here.
great people from a great community Tokyo-Nights Forum


: diru addict! but she rocks. lol. and weird. muahahahah.. j/k
really nice talking to her, we better catch up more on msn.
pay attention monachan! muhahah!


: i used to spam her msn, but she... ]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5564015/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5564015/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 19:55:11 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Carrie Underwood, the American Idol!
wahahahhahah, so cheezy i know, but i like her.



And the whining starts.....

puuu... first, my grade is increasing this semester (yay!), but not as well as i expected.
but, i'll take it as a motivation to study harder for the next semester. which starts on August!!


second things that happened not as i expected is, that i usually enter short semester (that's what we called on my uni, but maybe in your country it called summer school??) ; but this semester the uni rejected my application for apply a short semester.
so yup, that means i have 2 months holiday! no uni at all! hiks..
i can go crazy if i stuck at home for that long. need to get out, need to get out.


btw, i don't know Ayu still bring attention to you guys, i drew her and she still brings good response, more than Takeshi or Tackey or even Namie that i drew previously. lol.
that's interesting.


pah, that's it don't want make any of you bored reading this journal.
take care, my awesome friends.



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]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5473412/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5473412/ Fri, 27 May 2005 03:39:38 PDT i am confused, surprised and happy. lol
Thank you DA.

anyway, i'll make it short.

i always had a delay if i submit my deviation. whyyyyyyyyy??
this a bit disturbing since i'm in holiday now, so if i'm not hanging out with my friends, i usually ends up drawing in my bed. hahah!
what a life.


kay, that's it.
good luck with some of you who having exams period now.
GANBATTE!!

the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5179806/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5179806/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 19:30:07 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Ayumi - STEP you / is this LOVE? CD single , finally, i can get used with those songs..


Uni sucks!! uni sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even though i'm trying to kill my lazyness, and trying so hard to study, i just CAN'T enjoy the university like old days.
so many task! so many problems! i have tons of crap in my head!

for the first time in my life, i just want to die!
let just hope that's not happen soon. hiks...

now that i looking at my gallery, what makes me realize, all of the pictures are ayu. all of them!
starting with the featured deviation, my latest deviation, even the recent favourites!
holy geez.. i really need a life! -_-
(edit: i changed my featured deviation to Hyde now, bubye ayu huehuehue.. )

if all this uni crap done, i swear GOD i will finish my anime drawing!
and i'll have a vacation! i need away from my city, stuck in this town for months just felt like i were trapped in a cage or something.

oh, another thing. don't fell to guy's words.
if someone i knew in my real life reading this, you know what i mean.

okay i need to shut up now, somebody just shoot me!


no wait, changed my mind. Don't shoot me. just shoot that guy i mentioned.
j/k

this is probably the longest and the most annoying journal i ever wrote. sorry..... -_-
i usually don't whining over the internet. anyway, i just have to stop now, before it's getting too personal.


see you guys later, and thank you for those who watching me and add my deviations to their favourites.
i may not saying personal thank you to your gallery, but it doesn't mean i don't feel thankful.

take care my friends. ^__^



the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5066523/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/5066523/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 03:59:58 PDT

I dont have time to comment all of the deviations, coz this is what i got when i log in to my DA page: Deviant ~m-ayu has 214 message centre items ( 87D, 64M, 51C, 12J )


and also i'm sorry not able to say thank you for all those who faving and watching. Deepfully thank you from me.


Right now i am so busy fixing my grade, and that's make me can't online as often as before. so you won't see me for awhile.

but before that, i will submit a new deviation tomorrow, after i finish my uni tasks.


so that's it. sorry if i somehow made you upset. -_-
take care and see you all later. ^__^


PS: Don't forget to keep creating great arts people!




the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/4810421/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/4810421/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 12:23:22 PST
and in fact today, March 15th 2005. i'm officially 21 years old.
sad, i know. but i'm also legal now. muheheheheh.

ok, i'm expecting replies here!!
just...... kidding.






no wait, seriously.

anyway, i am sooooooo lazy updating my DA page, so some suggestions wiil be appreciated. ^^

note:
any suggestion who suggest me to stop draw those jpop hottie, definetely will be IGNORED.


the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/4249730/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/4249730/ Wed, 05 Jan 2005 20:46:08 PST and got my own internet connection either..

hope you guys are happy because of the holiday season..

what you been doing anyway?
mine is.. pretty much boring.. lol
if u want u can tell your experience..

the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3904862/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3904862/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 21:28:20 PST
with this, me wanna say goodbye to you all..
i dont have internet connection anymore since last week and will continued for 2005.. till the new connection arrived which is i'm not sure at what month..
i doubt it if it arrives on the early year..

so.. i just wanna say merry cristmas and happy new year.. i know it's too early,but i wont be here at that time anyway.. =__=
i already missed DA and gonna miss it even more..
forgive me if i made a promise to some of you and cant fulfill it..

anyhow, take care and happy holiday.. ^^

bye..

the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3771469/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3771469/ Sat, 06 Nov 2004 20:26:40 PST current mood :
current activity :
current favourite songs:
~LISA - Switch feat. Koda Kumi
~L'Arc~en~Ciel - Jiyuu e no shoutai
~m-flo loves Melody & Ryohei - miss you
~Namie Amuro - Four Seasons


I just bought a new PC!!!

I'm soooo happy... yey!!
that's why i made my recent deviation, SWEET Ayu .. for testing the photoshop.. hahaha..

i've been lost mood to draw lately, so that's why now i rare to submit..
but maybe it will back again after my final exam next month... so hard to draw if you have pressure like exams thingy.. <<

btw could you suggest me something or someone i should draw? so maybe i got inspired or something.. ^^
anyway, that's it folks.. dont want to bored you with long journal..

cheers to everyone!!!

the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3525575/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3525575/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 10:00:05 PDT current mood :
current activity :
current favourite songs:
~melody - Simple As That
~Mai Kuraki - Kiss
~Sakamoto Maaya - Gravity
~Namie Amuro - The Speed Star
~Gackt - Last Song
~Ayumi Hamasaki - CAROLS


I FiNiSH My exams!!!!!

Finally, after 2 weeks of mentally depressed..
now i can relax a bit, till the uni start again on next monday..

i really want to submitt a deviation again......other than my desktop screenshot...
so now, i'm drawing so many scetches but........too lazy to finish it..
i really miss DA *hugs monitor* and my friends....


the clubs :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3403478/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3403478/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 01:05:51 PDT current mood :
current activity :
current favourite songs:
~Ayumi Hamasaki - CAROLS
~Namie Amuro - Alarm
~Mika Nakashima - Oborodukiyo ~Inori
~BoA - Kono Yo No Shirushi
~L'arc~en~Ciel - Stay Away


Exams coming...

i really need good grades...
so i will stop hang out with my friends, stop online, pending all the drawing project, stop chatting and stop crapping unnecessary stuff...
which is so hard for me to do...huaaaa....

so...wish me luck guys...
see ya later...

the clubs (though i'm not so active on it... ) :
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3052739/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/3052739/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 22:14:21 PDT current mood:
listening to: Ayumi - CAROLS

nothing special lately..
monday is the beginning of new semester..
hope i'm not too busy to draw..><

anyway, if you have any interesting pic / pose of beautiful people..lol..(j-artist, i prefer) ^^
and you trust me to draw them, please tell me..
i'm kinda bored with the old pics on my comp..

okay that's all..i'm not really good on making long journal..
unless you want me crapping all stuffs that i had for these week..and trust me that's not interesting..

clubs:
]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/2866998/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/2866998/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 19:36:12 PDT
"no way to say" at this "moments",

it's all "depend on you" to comment it..
maybe you can "inspire" me..



clubs that i join this far..


~still waiting the answer from other clubs.. ]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/2725211/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/2725211/ Wed, 23 Jun 2004 09:21:58 PDT
Btw, my mom just bought me some new drawing tools.. Yay!!! Thanks mum, luv u..
But that's not all, she said i should learn more about drawing real objects, so it means no more anime.. hiks ..
..at least untill i improve my drawing skill.

well... that's all for today, since i had a mid term next week so got to study.

please add some comment bout my gallery. thanks. ]]> ~m-ayu http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/2693975/ http://m-ayu.deviantart.com/journal/2693975/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 05:03:49 PDT

I’m a little bit embarrassed that I only submit 2 deviation recently even though that I’ve becoming a member for exactly a week now.
Since that I’ve been very busy taking request from the people I know.. (~sighs~) including my family..

Anyway, I found this pic that I made a looong time ago..on my PC, which I think it was the first deviation that I improved using photoshop..and well I think...yeah why not I add this one?

Basically it’s just for fun.. Hehe.. Hope you’re enjoy my gallery, I’ll add a new deviation in few days (hopefully).. ~cheers~

Thanks for all you’re comments.
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