http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:maddy39&section=today deviantART RSS for by:maddy39 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 23 Nov 2009 20:03:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28324163/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28324163/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 23:03:23 PST but then
first day
i hated it

biology was okay.
then i had maths
maths was bad..i had the teacher that i dont wanna hav...even tho he is head teacher.. (u wont understand until u've met him) and i hav no one in my class=[

within that period the head teacher had emphasised "what are u doing in here?!"
once when he was markin the roll. and second when my class teacher paid a visit. My class teacher was like she doesnt want to do 3 unit (higher lvl) of maths.

I already felt like aloner== and to make it worse he said it twice and made me feel as if i dont belong. Mayb i dont, but i cbb thinking bout it. It frustrates me..coz i reckon im good in wat im doing, but if i move up i wont be good i'd be only okay.

Iono...so boring...scool is BORING!

well..nowadays..my group of friends are quiet..or mayb its jst me and those around me
majority of us hates our classes.
No friends in our classes...

i dont hav any friends in maths, ancient history and business studies..

i had my first lesson of business today..i dont know why i picked it..dont know why..


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im considering 3 uinit..but i needa think bout it more..
lol

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28282077/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28282077/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 22:52:37 PST then we mucked around after payin scool fees etc etc
then we went to library and did our last exam - computer skills
xD

i hope i get 90% + im so bad with comps!XD
trust me ..i jst learnt the order of these yseterday..>> bits, bytes, kilobytes, megabytes, gigabytes and terrabytes.

xD

Hmm..wat else..ah yes

Today is officially the last day as yr 10
as of tomorrow im going to be a senior!!!! ^^

Its called a Yr11 roll over. We chose our subjects for the nxt two senior years already. But just this week or so we'd be erm tasting our chosen subjects so we can change it before we REALLY start nxt year!


^^ wish my good luck..OMFG IN 2 YEARS IM GONNA BE SITTIN FOR THE HSC - UNIVERSITY EXAM NOOOO


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Today was my friends bday- Serena !

Over the past days, my friends and i planned to buy her sometin. They chipped in and i went to get somethin. I wanted to get her ipod accessories, but nothing was really nice enough. XD SO i went to buy an anime dvd.

Genius Party its called. 5 anime movies.
I actually wanted to buy FF VII Advent Children Complete. But i didnt know it wasnt out yet in aussieland. so i bought the wrong dvd in the middle of my study days. xD Had to wait until yesterday afternoon to go exchange it for sometin else..


FF7 Advent Children is pretty cool!!!
lots of new stuff and features 26mins directors cut and stuff=]
My bro ordered it overseas off the net so i watched it already
u guys ought to check it out!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28135299/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28135299/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 23:40:28 PST .<

Anywayz today i played tennis with friends
And me and couple of my mates ran towards the courts to grab one. But unfortunately when we got there, only one was left and it was a grass court. We took it anywayz. We were bout to play when a 3 other girls from another group came. We know them but iono we arent tat close, only 2 of our friends are clsoe with her.

So they started playin in our court and one of them took my friends raquet out of her hands and played and said '5mins! and i will give it back to u"

== Me and my friends who did run for the court didnt get to play
Everyone jst came and took the court for granted and the court became crowded a min after we got the court

So my group of friends and i went to go play squash but all rooms were full.

=[
I was a lil disappointed coz i wanted to play, and i dotn hav anythn to play at, and one of the girl who took out court didnt ask and i dont like her. I dont hate her but shepisses me off..u will know why later

LUCKILY public visitors were jst bout to leave, and so teacher told me to go and wait outside the court. The guys left very quickly and i ran in and called my friends. We played a while

Then towards the end, a friend of mine sprained her ankle.
I wanted to help, but i told her to put her leg straight out but she wouldnt listen. Then me and my other friend hooked our arms under her armpits and wanted to gently lift her up so she can go to the chairs. But she jst went ahh i cant it huurrts

Then the girl i dont like out of no where came and went " AHH DONT TOUCH HER DONT TOUCH HER GET AWAY FROM HER DONT U GUYS KNOW ANYTHING, SPACE SPACE . AND DONT TOUCH HER" As soon as she said it the first time we already had our hands off but she kept going
Her voice was already LOUD literally, and she talked soo much. i shouldve told her to shut up coz she was being noisy or talk quietly if she really needs to. Then she was liek "I KNOW THIS!"

I asked my friends "where did she come from?" Coz we were at the far end of the place in the 2nd last court and she was in the very first one. o.o She didnt appear until she saw us crowding around.. == im like WTF

Then she went to get teacher and stuff and bla bla bla
Teacher got her to bring chair over.

At the end they had to get her to take her shoe off, straighten her leg and LIFT her onto the chair.

== Then the girl was like LUCKY I CAME EARLY COZ THEY WERE PLANNIN TO LIFT HER
And teacher was like ye..u shouldnt move her incase she puits too much pressure on her ankle.

My friend and I explained that we were planning to lift her to the nearby chairs like they did - and i emphasised "like you did"

==
then my friend was all fine coz it was one of those one-off injuries that fixes itself in a jiffy..

Pissed me and my friends off tho. We didnt do anything wrong; we would be dumb to lift her and let her walk on her own - we're too smart for that. But farout she thought she was soo good and she was over-confident.

I think its all coz she has a boyfriend who always say on msn and stuf "MY GIRLFRIEND IS THE BEST AND I LOVE HER THE MOST" ETC == and coz she has a few good friends - so practically everyone loves her.


Then i explained to my friends that since the first day of basketball last term, i didnt play basketball games with them. Instead i rather shoot baskets by myself. Coz i dont wanna play with her since its going to piss me off- i rather not.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28057672/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/28057672/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 04:01:44 PDT going to world dog event tomorrow with two older cousins and mum tomorrow. Gonna go at 10 30 then leave at around 2pm.

I wanna go and sit at a stadium for once, but besides that, it looks cool haha ^^ i hope i can take good pics and hav loots of fun! xD cant wait!


ugh studyin starts soon! Gotta study for school certificate exam that goes for 3 days starting on the 9th of Nov. TT ends on my friends bday lool.

I cant wait to hav some fun and stuff afterwards. coz thats when im truly free and i start yr 11.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27916648/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27916648/ Fri, 23 Oct 2009 02:39:24 PDT worked until 3 30am?=S on my multi assignment tat was due the nxt day. Other friends did so too, some had to stay up all night.
Thing was, we didnt know it was due on tues. We only realised when we asked the teacher on monday. == and so we had to spend first day back at school (i.e. monday) to rushy rushy GRRR

== its so not fair. we didnt know coz she didnt tell us ==

Anwayyz. got it over and done with and its better than i thought. I got full marks for my bookwork which had to include layout, storyboard, screenshots, 2 website analysis, and other comprehension stuff we did.
I got my multimedia exam back (yearlies) !i got 94/100
lol
xD better than i thought hehehe >.< and for someone who studied but kept gettin the answers with the questions mixed up - its pretty good. Other friends who knew the answers to everything i tested them on got a lower mark =S
When they tested me that day i was REALLY sleepy, and i remember the stuff, jst i dont know which answer goes where XD

anywayz
I got my science exam back too..=[ got 78/100 BOOOO!!! TT
but the highest in the grade was 88 lol
I got my english back too..erm i think it was out of 90..i got 63
Havent received my other yearly exams yet..oh wait MATHS! I IMPROVED! SOO HAPPY

well this ones a topic test. i got 78/82
^^ but 4 wrong is a lot to my dad. i havent showed him my exam..>.>
last time i got 5 wrong he pulled me to my tuition and got my principal to find a teacher and stuff to explain to me why i got somethin wrong when i told him i understood why i got it wrong==

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27755059/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27755059/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 23:46:24 PDT XD For my birthday, my friends chipped in to get me a deviantart print >>> [link]
xD i've been waiting for it for DAYYS

it was sent to my aunts place, and i was callin a lot to ask if its here yet and stuffXD i had to try to stop myself hahahah

It came this morning!
XD i was so happy!!! XD i went and got it lik 15mins ago! xD the package was so big!!!!
i opened it immediately and stuff hahaha
VERY professional wrapping DevART!~
XD haha

it was soo cool=] i showed my uncle, cousin and aunt haha XD
Then i showed their pet dogs XD they were lookin at me hahaha
Then afer lookin at the print, i picked up the box and looked at the postage stickers on the box.
xD i kept touching it hahaha and thought.."ah...a big package..with my name on it...hehe...madison wong" XD HAHAH IM SO HAPPY WEE

gonna take photos and show my friends hhaha


weeeeeeeeeeee~!

i wanna yell and squeal loudly so badly!!! haha xD but its kinda embarrassing with people around hahahah

xD i was bout to do it in my aunts front yard but there were cars coming around hahah XD
so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


now..finding space on wall to hang it..hehe

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27737966/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27737966/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 02:47:55 PDT
xD im kinda surprised hehe, pictures and poems are downloaded. I didnt expect poems to be downloaded, but it was cool! =]

thanks guys!

---TODAY -----
i was woken up early this morning by my brother== i slept at 1am and woke at 9am uggh
my bro was like get up bla bla bla and im like im meant to get up at 10! and he was like jst get up
eventually i got up
==
he jst wanted me to accompany him coz dad was asleep, and to do stuff for him while im at it.

Anywayz by 11 45 am iwas at the cinemas with my friends (and yes i was late to an outing again) and we went in to watch UP 3D.
It was funny and couldnt stop cracking up loudly. XD

After watching we went to eat lunch. Michelle (a friend) and i both chipped in for a korean bibimbab. it was alright, wasnt as good as i thought. mayb coz they gave less chilli sauce. But i had to ask for lil chilli sauce in a separate container, coz michelle CANNOT take chilli. not even chilli flavoured chips or sweet chilli sauce. she'd die if she comes together with chilli!

Anywayz, well we didnt end up finishin it. We ended up chuckin half the bowl and iknow it was such a waste.
We walked around the shop and stuff. bookstore, toys r' us, reject store lol
Then we eventually went home.

I got my bro to drive me. We ended up going to this carwash place. It's pretty convenient and cool.
You put coins in, and according to the amount of $ u put in, the longer and more minutes u get to use a tool.
So we first hand cleaned the inside of the car by pickin up all the rubbish. My bros a junkie; he has rubbish all over his car, and i filled up two plastic bags of rubbish to the MAX. Then he vacuumed the car while i put coins in everytime theres 10secs left.

No matter where i stood, i got wet. why? coz people on both sides were spraying their cars with the high pressure rinser== and then came the wind.

It was alright..jst some sprays. kinda enjoyable but u wont want other stuff sprayin on ur face and u dont know, like soap.

So afterwards, my bro got the fragrance sprayer thing. We picked vanilla, and bro sprayed it all over his carpet and stuff in the car. We vacuumed the mats.
Afterwards, we decided to wash the car. First up money in, and turned the spinner-arrow thing to where it goes "start" and there we used a hose with liquid coming out of it that is used to wash the engine and tyres. Then we changed the arrow to the nxt stage, and so on. Bro did everything,, i jst sat and put coins in.

I wanna help, but then he wouldnt let me. Coz im just too dopey and too slow for it - according to him. Iono, wateva i do is never right. He doesnt trust anyone in doing anything perfect unless he does it himself. and he isnt satisfied until he does it himself - if u do it, he wont be satisfied, unless ur more skilled at something in particular that he needs.

So this went on and i kept puttin in coins bla bla bla

Then i went over to Hungry Jacks to get change for $10. I walked over there and there were these guys eating outside eating. As i came by, one of the guys moved his head towards me, and nxt thing, all the guys there were staring at me as i walked past.
It was WEIRD! but i was like ughh......and tried not to look at them==

Then i got my change and quickly walked off.

So finally after we were done we parked the car at the nearby carparks. So we were waitin for the car to dry, but then bro decided to use his friends towel to wipe the car ==
great. xD i wonder how he is gonna explain it when his friend asks for the towel.
So yay we finally dried it when the whole car is covered with bugs.
I thought it was safe to get into the car first. So i did, and i held my bag when i saw a bug on the bag. Then i see tiny crawlers on the window inside the car.

== On our wayhome, wedidnt open the windows incase bugs came in. I was paranoid == coz i dont wanna get bitten. and i dont like bugs much.
it was hot and the car smelt of vanilla. I dont understand why we didnt turn on air-con, mayb incase bugs came in through the vents..thatd be disgusting ==

Anywayz ye we got home. I was kinda pissed at my bro though....well nto really
== he said i was sulky all of a sudden. i only think im like that coz its him
When i was cleaning his car with my bare hands, picking up tissues and cups of soft drinks and milktea == getting my fingers dirtied he told me that i wasnt a very good cleaner == ugh. The way he said it and with a sigh - tat attitude was like == mean
I was used to it tho, he a... ]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27720114/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27720114/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 06:25:54 PDT but it still feels fragile TT I hope i dont kill them whenever i clench my teeth together to test if it still hurts >.>

ANywayz XD hehe tomorrow gonna go out with friend; its a make up outing for my friends birthday two weeks ago. We couldnt celebrate coz we had exams so ye
Gonna watch a movie and eat lunch there
i cant wait!
im planning to get a friend to try the korean Bibimbab with me! I always wanted to try it hehehe i cant wait! i jst hope my teeth can chew chew chew=[
And yes i know, the food name sounds WEIRD xD but it looks yummyyy
google it hehe

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OMG mum came home late today. amnd i was starvinnng
TT i tried smuggling in foood like biscuits
but my brother reckons ihav an addiction to food, and like people trying to quit drugs, ur brain makes u think u need it badly, and my brain made me think i was hungry
xD and mayb he is a lil right..ONLY a little =="

But ye i failed smuggling bread, and wafers TT he confiscated it wah

Then i managed to smuggle a small biscuit packet
I shoved it into my sleeve and walked around. =[ i accidently made a crackly noise
then bro stared at me
and i went..hahaahah wat o.o it wasnt mee hahaha XD and he came to feel me to see if i hid it somewhere

I couldnt stop giggling haha

Then i did it again afterwards when i jumped onto the couch
and he was like...giving me that look xD and went do it again. i want u to fall onto the couch face down XD I did it and tried to avoid hitting the arm with the biscuit
Then i had to do it 2 times before he believed me
He was like "why'd u do it so softly?" and im like "well my face would hurt if i did it hard" XD

Then i accidentally made a crackly noise AGAIN TT
i giggled xD liek full on!
Theni had to walk towards him and when he was about to grab my arm i quickly pretended to scratch my head with that arm XD

BUSTED haha
he confiscated tat biscuit too T..T

So i was on the couch- starving xD
I ended up drawing food onto the calender and white board...:: cake, macas fries, instant noodles, bowl of noodles, coke, watermelon...uggh..yummy...

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27661675/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27661675/ Fri, 09 Oct 2009 02:56:27 PDT
I was bout to cancel it too coz i had to change dates coz of this and tat bla bla bla ==

but luckily
today was fun ^^ better than i thought haha

Last night, last minute, we dragged two more people along so 5 people. One of my friends was the first to say she will come when i talked to her bout it before holiz. == Then last night she said she cant come == and she didnt tell me!!!!! GRR!!!!

We asked her to ask again, and then her mum let == phew! i wouldve been so disappointed too=[

So we had some fun, iwent out with people i arent really clsoe with at school jst chat and stuff and hang at the same place. but it was really fun ^^

Cracked up and stuff.

---------POOLS---------------
so funny we all went into the change rooms. And u can change in the big room with benches where everyone else changes. xD But when we got in and dropped our bags we went.."uughh.....i dont feel comfortable..."XD One of my friend headed straight to the cubicles. The other one didnt change until we went outswide haha she only took off her shirt and left her pants and jacket. Then me and my friend were like ugggh who cares and jst stripped XD (NOT literally, we had our swimmers underneath!). The other one was ready.

So we headed out XD
one of my friends didnt know wat to wear, she didnt hav swimmers lol

so she jst wore casual clothes XD and jumped in hahaha

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i wanted to head to the outdoor pool coz it was deserted and we can swim freely. XD
So me and another friend ran outside first to see how cold it was LOL
when we first opened the door and went out XD "cRAP ITS SO COLD!" XD the wind wasblowign and stuff!

We quickly ran into the pool and phew it was warm like inside haha
XD I went in and got the others out haha they screamed at how cold it was and headed straight to the pool hahahah

it was fun
swam for an hour and ye.
Was meant to swim for 1h and 30mins but one of us was really late so we waited 30mins for her lol shehad to bring her bro along XD

We dont liek her bro coz he is annoying for a 12yr old too. like we arent mean and stuff== we're mature enough to tolerate annoying stuff, but he is really bad XD
(e.g. shows off too much, bias, talks too much, u can play a game and comes over and takes ur control and go "this is how ur meant to do it!" or scream ont he side liek telling u how to play so dam annoying)
We were like "if he annoys us, we can drown him xD"

but unfortunately he wasnt swimming xD and thank god, he was left lookin after our bags with his ds while we swim away from him haha


=[ my teeth still hurts from braces TT

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27621246/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27621246/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 18:20:35 PDT the instant i got it, i was alreayd thinking of gettin rid of it in 2years time.
i cant wait XD i make a lil celebration mayb by going out to eat hahahah

=[ i said goodbye to a chocolate shop as i walked past it to go to my ortho for braces TT
boohoo

hopefully in a few days time, pain will go away and i'll get used to the braces xD

i started gettin used to it this morning. I woke up and didnt really felt i had somethin inbetween my lip and teeth xD but gum aches =[

TT hav to eat soft stuff now wahhh never knew eating could be so hard

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27564646/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27564646/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 18:49:57 PDT the last day of school didnt seem like a last day of school at all!!!
we dont usually hav exams on the last day, and first time ever, nearly everyone was at school on the last day! it was hectic!!!!
we had a maths party, people were dancing with music plugged into the comp and stuff haha

== we had ice cream cake..but ..NO SPOONS!
xD
some had to use fingers
a guy licked it off his plate until there was ice cream all over xD hhaha

I was the only one who had a spoon coz i brought congee for lunch XD and ye haha

friends were like "WHERED U GET TAHT SPOON!?"XD

i hope i improved inmaths! i think i got alower than usuall for science XD im so stupid i forgot some words.i was like "i know this word!!! but i forgot it!!!!"XD

hate it when those times come along!
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*sigh its holiz now.
one more big assignment to do and thats Multimedia xD eeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!
== hav to make another website. im gonna make it on studio ghibli now XD haha
i did some of my intro already XD
uggh
im gonna go partying and hangout with friends! do some assignments! chores! and ye haha its only 2 weeks holiz. i needa enjoy it before start of school again
coz there'd be a BIG MASSIVE exam xD

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27514222/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27514222/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 00:42:32 PDT started this monday i was like study study xD and i was soo tired uggh
so stressed
after this we hav no more assignments, or exams!! wweeee~!
=[ but then big exam after holidays TT waaahh

i hope i improved for maths! i really doooo no more silly mistakes please! >.< i realised i got one silly mistake wahh but uggh no moree no moree

tomorrows last day of exam - science and pd!
=[ i jst got separators yesterday at my orthodontist
TT its to make space for braces at the back of ur teeth.
=[ it didnt hurt at first, then gradually it hurted when i ate with back teeth
i have 4 separators in my mouth TT its hard to eat

funny i got free gum, they gave it to me
how ironic ye?

they encourage me tho, coz it helps separate teeth faster.

tomorrow we're gonna hav a party for maths!! i cant wait!!!
first two periods exam, then double maths for party! then nxt two periods for another exam! then hooome time and RELAX! WEEE~!!


wish me good luck *wink* ^.~

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27331029/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27331029/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 00:17:36 PDT
Both at 17, about to graduate within a week or two and was looking foward to their Yr 12 formal have left us suddenly. Jason's girlfriend is really upset; shes a schoolmate of mine in my grade. I really do feel for her.

There was a large photo of Jason Tran outside the Hall at my school today, and all Yr 12s wore black. Flowers and candles surrounded the photo. The group of friends also held a memorial service on the weekend at the crash scene. Poles were covered with photos, messages and flowers.

Its unfortunate such young lives left us so soon. Nothing can ever replace a life; and nothing can ever bring them back. The whole school was left in complete silence today during the year meetings. Never have we been so quiet - but this melancholy day, hopefully, will be the last.

I saw in an article, a friend had stated "..We need to make sure we drive carefully, because we cant afford to lose anymore friends.."

R.I.P. JASON TRAN & KEVIN PHAN

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27275162/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27275162/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 05:36:30 PDT [link]

My school has been in the worse lately.
Swine Flu, then Tuberculosis, and straight away this.
one after another.

whats wrong with society nowadays?

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27106684/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27106684/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 01:26:35 PDT it looks big and stuff and its metallic too << guess tats wat scares me the most - it looks so solid.

So today asked so many people bout it. and ye scared me haha

So i got there. got teary. Then neeedle...like 3 needles.
Then i touchjed left side of my face. it felt funny haha
like i cant feel it. but my finger tells me it feels like puffy. xD tho it isnt.

Reminds of giant sausage lips. lol

So ye.. in goes the clam, out comes the teeth . wasnt so bad.
now im waitin for the after-pain...TT

two more teeth to go nxt time

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27066648/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27066648/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 03:37:20 PDT in my whole entire life
my dad was telling me off
full on
in the middle of no where
in the shoppin mall
full on shouting
like so loud
for not pickin up 4 of the calls he made to my phone

and i didnt purposely not pick up his calls
my phone was on silent and i was with mum. she was helpin me pick a present for my friends bday tomorrow.
and because i was really occupied with tryin to get it over and done with i didnt feel the vibrations of my phone. I wanna do it quickly coz my dad usually tells us off for makin him wait.


dad went to buy printer ink
so even if it was vibratin i didnt know
i usually notice it
mum and i walked over to him
and he started blastin at us full on
he was like
IF U DONT WANNA PICK UP MY CALLS, THEN DONT EVER DO AND DONT EVEN CALL ME UR DAD
then i said "ur the one who said tat. and i didnt intentionally not pick up ur calls, if u think that then fine "
then he continued
people around us started lookin at us
he was talkin in chinese
then my mum started shputin at him in eng

then he told me off all throughout the ride home
then i started crying
then i started tellin him
FINE, DW BOUT IT MUM. HE ALWAYS THINKS IM WRONG. COZ IN HIS MIND, IM SMALELR, AND HE IS OLDER. SO HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT.
he kept going on and on about wats the point of havin a phone
so i turned off my phone
and threw it to the front of the car
he said he wont ever call me again since i dont pick up
i hope he keeps his promise

so i got home
dropped my stuff
stomped to my room
screamed my head out
my hands wrapped around my face
screaming so much
i coughed and nearly vommited
over
and over
again
for an hour
i hate
my EFFIN dad

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27026434/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/27026434/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 00:22:49 PDT
I came STRAIGHT home from scool, and quickly got changed, and stuff then cleaned my room and help set up stuff. lucky my bro was home XD haha he set up the dinner tables outside on our porch while mum coooked xD

=O my mum bought flowers and put them together and made a big box of flowers with an aluminium happy bday balloon on it!!!! ^^ itssoo cool and prettty and smells soo good too haha ^^
Then omg one after another my friends came. i wasnt even ready!!!! XD then i was runnin around rushing to do this do that! first time being a host for my own party is a bit of a......xD

Anywayz, got drinks outside with esky, and i brought out soft drinks and orange juice. While they were playin guitar hero xD

Then brouight out food and stuff. I yelled "EATING TIIIMEE!!" XDthen we all got out to eat. =[ two peopl eleft straight after eating coz they had to go hom eTT
and then one person didnt come coz no one could drive her >.< if she told me earlier i wouldve driven her! but TT ah well

okay, so we ate dinner together on my porch. it was asian dishes, my mum cooked lol. I didnt eat much TT coz i was kinda too happy to starve, and too busy to eat much.


hmm at the beginning of dinner i was the last one to come out. my friend got a seat ready for me beside him haha. When i came out they were like "come out madison!!" and lookin at me..i was like scared haha coz they might freak me out with some prank xD and i get scared REALLY easily.
I was like..."okay im scared...." xD and some laughed haha XD so i went out.
then they told me..

"WE ALL CHIPPED IN TO BUY U A CANVAS PRINT FROM DEVIANTART!!!!! " my reaction was "...o.o....REALLY?! OMGG YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!@!!!!!" xD haha i ALWAYS ALWAYS WANTED ONE OMG XD HEHEHE SOO EXCITED!!! i got them to choose one for me haha when they askd if i wanna choose or not. xD

Anywayz, haha so we ate.during dinner LOTS OF THINGS happened. i was glad they were happy and liked my mums cooking ^^ coz they ate lots haha. I went to get drink, my friend Allan, and another friend , Michelle came along. Allan stood between me and michelle. Michelle accidentally spilt my cup of sunkist that was on the table. xD
Then allan was liek AHHHH XD MY SHOOE XD haha and i looked .
His shoe turned from GREY to... ORANGE!!! like instant! XD hahaha michelle cracked up hahaha

Then we went bak to eat. i forgot to tell michelle thatthe stir fry rice noodle is chilli. She CANNOT take a lil chilli at all, liek the ones from kettle chips. xD all of a sudden she jumped out of her chair! and went " IT BURRNS IT BURRNS AHH IT BURRRNSSS XD" hahahahaha i was tryin not to crack up and choke xD and quiickly swallowed then ran to the drink section with her. I opened the esky and i was like tryin to say " TH-THROW AN ICE IN UR MOUTH NOW!!!" xd and tats wat she did hahahaha xD I went to get her water but she was like NOO IT MAKES IT WORSE XD so i got her sunkist instead hahahah xD

okay so tat was a drama lmao!!!!

Soon after, i got my bday cake out. Its a cheesecake with chocolate ribbons on top and strawberries (pics will be uploaded). And hehe >< my friends was like "wow..."
anywayz xD we took photos, sung happy bday and stuff XD i felt soo weird, i didnt know how to react! bro and mum took photos lol blew candles and ye xD they were like "hip hip! horaaay!" XD haha

WOOO !!! XD then we mucked around. hmm we took group photos on my porch. OMG a friend, Harvey, leaned on the fence and the whole fence fell!!! i guess the wood was a bit weak, coz that part is where the rain gets to. Lucky he didnt get hurt, and the porch wasnt THAT high up, and we kinda held onto him so he fell slowly. xD

So after taking HEAPS of photos, we played PARTY POPPERS!!!!!! XD BANG BANG BANG!!! XD haha OMG ALLAN GAVE IT OUT TO EVERYONE, THEY ALL LINED UP ON EACH SIDE OF THE STAIRS OF THE PORCH AND XD I HAD TO LIKE WALK THRU IT IT WAS SCARY!!! xD but i didnt really walk thru it hhahah was too scared.
We ran out of party poppers REALLY quick TT
Then we played SPARKLES!!!! the sticks that u light up and thers flares flying everywhere. There was two rounds. First round we played. Serena was SCARED XD hahaha Coz she never played it before and thought she would get burnt haha allan had to try help her xD Then the 2nd round, XD allan stuck heaps into the ground and made a "M" and then harvey sa... ]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26989036/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26989036/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 02:07:32 PDT xD
Today i went to school, then my friend gave me this phone accessory she made, coz she likes making jewelery and accessories xD its orange!! with a bell! so i attached it on my skirt and everytime i run i hear myself haha XD

well partyin tomorrow gotta cleaaaaaaaan up!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26971132/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26971132/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 05:09:56 PDT balancing both school work, relaxation and planning together hahah
xD

Gonna hav a bday party this friday at my place for the first time. I've never invited more than 2 people at my place at a time xD mum decided to cook, we gonna game, ping pong, cards, jenga, lol etc xD haha

I invited like...19 people, but only like 10-13 peeps coming.
Erm ye.. haha ^^

I got bday pressies from my cousins!!!! wahhhh
my cousin , Mimi bought me a headband, and bow clip (i only get them from her, xD its too expensive that i dont even buy them formyself haha my friends always spend money on them, i use wateva my mum has) And OMG HARAJUKU LOVERS

xD i always wanted a harajuku fragrant!! but i know it expensive so i didnt bother lookin for hthem , but i see them in mags and stuff ahh xD i jst really wanna ocollect the toys haha
xD she bought me lil' angel and i squealed when i took it out of the bag and first saw it haha my mum was like "wat happened?" xD

my other cousin, Michael, bought me a plush haha. He said its cheapy, and i guessed the right price too haha but i dont care. its not cheap actually. i dont buy toys for tat price haha $10 for a 25cm plush toy. But its soo cuute haha i can add it to my collection!!!

its the character from Ponyo!!! the red baby xD haha its soo cuute!!!
Ponyo is a new Studio Ghilbli movie for thsoe who doesnt know! its reallly coool, i wanna watch it .>.<


hehe anwayyz XD im excited bout my bday

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omg today i had sport, i was soo bored. I havent played any basketball even though basketball is my most loved sport. Coz my friends play it without proper rules, and there arent any proper referees, and stuff =[ so its boring and no one passes me the ball

xD so my big maths teacher who was supervising was like, "cmon, u shoot and will get the ball for u and stuff"
XD i cant shoot from far away, i hav to do a kind of lay up, coz im not strong enough to push the basketball so far. But he taught me how, by bending my knees more which allows me to jump higher and stuff xD haha
so i did it
at the 3 pointer line, within minutes, igot a few balls straight through.

Then i went to the three throw line, and i got more than 5 shots straight in without touchin the sides of the hoop. xD then i tried shootin backwards with friend, and i got it in in my first go haha
i was surprised!! haha ^^ it was fun!!!

i jst needa continue playing, after a few years not playin basketball, my skills are fading haha

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26927823/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26927823/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 01:35:03 PDT
Then my other friend told me that:
She was workin at macas last night. And after work, her colleagues held her down, and cut her hair.
Me and another friend thoguht he was joking, coz he always does, but he was like im not im not!

So ye..tat was pretty serious

i was likedidnt u report to manager?! and she was like i cant its after work, then i was liek u shouldve called the police! it was abuse!

== but she didnt do anything uggh

then my other close friends knew. Even tho most of our group doesnt like her, we still felt sorry for her and stuff - it was bulying like in the movies.

So a friend dragged her to a close teacher of ours, and shes planning to talk to the teacher of welfare for her =]
pretty good - she seemed a bit happy to get it off her chest lol

i told my mum and she was like xD really mad haha
and went on and on about it lo

Then my friend who helped her said "makes you feel happy when u help someone" we were all like yup

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26848640/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26848640/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 01:39:56 PDT coz my other friend is holding his bday party nxt sunday too..
=[
and i cant do it on saturday..coz i hav tutor, and most of my friends are going to animania.
I cant do it this weekend, coz itd be too much of a rush and some are going to USYD open day.

And i cant go to my first animania or usyd open day..coz i hav tutor..and i realyl wanna go..


so how disappointing all together....and i feel very VERY un happy

AWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! >.<

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26810733/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26810733/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 05:44:16 PDT I gave her the bday pressie with my friend this morning!!! she was SURPRISED HAHA xD
but she didnt show much. I guess she is the type tat doesnt like..finds it hard toexpress her happiness =] like my mum haha. But shes happy inside
=]
She barely gives hugs, and she h ugged us both ^^

Im soo happy, even tho i had two big inclass essays today, her bday made my day =] and her reaction and stuff
i was really glad she was happy - made me proud that i picked the best pressies ever. XD and she said to others its her best bday evercoz no one ever did this to her=]

I 've been plannin for the last two weeks. went on cute-plush.com and bought her pair of blue panda drop earrings, and a $15 voucher from a local beadshop (even i havent heard of the shop, so neither hav my friends haha). THen i asked my friend if she wanted to chip in and she did. Decided to get her the bead voucher coz like she likes makin accessories haha. ^^

So i had to make calls and emails ensuring everythin will go as planned. TT i had to force myself to talk confidently on the phone haha with a stranger so it was extreme. =]
im not used to talkin to people i dont know and ask bout stuff lmao.

But ye, last night i happily prepard the jewellary box (with mums help) and mum gave me a nice lookin lil rose bag. I wrote the note for her, and decorated the note and stuff ^^
Then i put it all together into the bag with the voucher in its red envelope =]

At first she was like thinkin she'd get someone to go buy her beads frm the shop coz she prolly wont be able to get to the area (no one is free to drive her). i was disappointed, but i only told her its better if she goes, i didnt wanna say too much or itd be like forcing her to go and its her pressie she can do wateva she wants. =]

However, after checkin out the site XD she was liek THE BEADROOM IS LIKE HEAVEN, IM ECSTATIC!! XD

I dont think she knows that i did all the work of preparing..i want her to know i did it all without my friend helpin. But i dont wanna like...tell her tat directly, coz then itd be mean and stuff and so ye

but wats important is that shes really happy! ^^ haha

=O my friends ,mentioned my bday today! I was liek its nxt month. they were like no..its like nxt week
im like REALLY?! o.o i didnt know tat
then i checked calender jst then and it was!! haha XD i hav no sense of time haha ^^

=] plannin to hav a home party for the first time. i usually hav it at scool in primary school haha XD i hope my friends will come =]

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26787468/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26787468/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 01:44:37 PDT i bought her a blue panda drop earrings from cute-plush.com and phew! it was delivered today! so yaay!! i was worried bout it!
and i also got her a $15 voucher from a nearby bead shop coz she likes making accessories.
then i asked a friend if she wanted to chip in half. ^^

I've been counting down to her bday since 2 weeks ago!!! i cant waiiit to see her face! i hope shes surprised/happy!!! ^^

=[ bad thing is tomorrow we have two in-class assessment where we hav to write out essays!! >.< im a lil worried that i wont be able to finish in time wahh
but i prepared .>.< i hope i can manage!!!!!

hehe im excited and nervous haha >.< time to study my notes for tomorrow!! wee~!

i had to remind mosy of our friends that tomorrows michelles bday >.<

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26726628/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26726628/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 03:31:17 PDT >.< i got sore throat yesterday
then it got worse this morning - it was like swollen, i felt it.
Then I drank like 1.5L+ of water today == had to force myself.
and then i started gettin the sniffles
TT wahhh
i cant eat my chocolate coated -vanilla icecream i bought!! >.< wahhhh!!!!!!!

TT and no chippies no fried stuff wahh TT this sucks!!

i dont wanna get siick TT i jst got well from being sick a few weeks ago!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26622862/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26622862/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 05:56:00 PDT Humid, sunny, with a breeze.
I wore my favourite clothes-
short shorts and t shirts!

I'm lovin' it XD

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26582549/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26582549/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 03:58:40 PDT i had to get ready for this school interview thing that was on today. We had to go in and be interviewed by a teacher whom we dont know who - it can be a deputy principal too or the principal herself. This is to give us an experience of work interviews and stuff, and they help us and see if we picked the right subject for senior years (i.e. nxt two years).

We had to organise a portfolio, wear formal work clothing, resume, and stuff it was nerve racking. We also had to submit in our form which had the subjects we wanted.

Yesterday i was soo stressed and worried and started to have 2nd thoughts when fillin in the form but ugggh i was soos tressed. XD

Today i went to school after being dropped off by bro. My appointment was at 11:15 but i had to be there like 20mins earlier. I saw my friends as i went in and one of them dragged me to take a photo with her
xD i was liek do i hav too TT xD
Then i walked in to sign in. I signed my name and went to chat with friends. The lady who i signed off with told me i had Mr Chisari - a teacher who is strict, and deals with bad kids and detentions and stuff, and when he jokes he makes fun of you sometimes. That is the rumour haha i was soo scared coz i was scared he would ask me questions i couldnt answer.

So I was called in. Then i walked into the middle of the hall. There were seats in the middle. It was really silent. There were like 12 desks in an oval around us with each teacher sitting at it and some were stilll interviewing.
Some kids were put on probation - and some were not bad kids we were soo shocked. mayb its cause of their attendence or somethng =S

My hands were sweaty, and i was reciting the words in my head- the answers i prepared for the questions i knew they would definately asked.

Thank god the teacher wasnt bad. he was VERY NICE ! and surprised me. i know it sounds weird but his voice was very gentle - it wasnt a hard flat voice if u know wat i mean.

He walked over to me, and i shook hands with him. He asked how i felt i went nervous. He sat me down and went dont be nervous and explained why the teachers organise this.

So i got full marks for my portfolio and everything
and i answered questions right
Then he helped me choose my 2nd choice subjects (incase i wont get in my first choices). He literally wrote it out like a maths workingout and tried to make subjects fit, but it wouldnt. So he was like hmm..eventually we managed


i was so happy i got it over and done with
it was truly the best day ever. The best weather too
=]
it was sunny
good day to go out haha but i didnt
i walked with friends, then i went home to eat lunch, and watched It Started with a Kiss and then lmao i watched it while making pies haha

=O first time i cooked without supervision and assistant! xD and i mixed stuff togehter. So i had a pie with egg, and bacon in it. with cheese on top

mum said it tasted delicious so i added veggies
eventually i had mixed ingredients but i ranout of pasties TT

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26414258/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26414258/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 00:28:39 PDT =[ Her cat was hit and was left on the road to die.
What was worse was that the corpse wasn't in her street. She only accidentally saw the corpse coz it was along the way she walks to school every morning.
=[ i feel soo sorry for her and i wish it wasnt her cat.

It was no wonder she barely talked all day and when friend of ours saw her with red eyes, i thought it was because she had a sore throat and was sick......aw..i remember how much it hurted when an animal friend of yours die. Its the most heart breaking feeling ever..because no matter how much you want...its the one time where u cannot bring them back...

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I feel so DAM STUPID TODAY!
...we had this maths competition that you pay to do. And its like a sit down exam, except what you get are certificates - i.e. participation, credits, distinction, high distinction...

and it was soo HARD
I ended up guessing a lot! There was one question where i couldve used formula to solve, instead i didnt know and forgot the formulas, so i had to go through a VERY STUPID way to do it . luckily i ended up witht he correct answer

i felt soo dumb..all my friends knew and remembered the formulas.
=[ i didnt. i dont even know wat they were for or wat they looked like or how to use them..
i feel so dumb..
i learnt them last year, and im gonna need them for this BIG exam at the end of this year tats based on stuff we learnt these two years...
im soo..

going to do bad...

i feel so depressing

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26393986/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26393986/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 02:35:23 PDT On the way to school, he kept lecturing me on how bad i did in maths, and stuff..
i cried in the car...
I improved since last year by 2 positions..this year i was 15/209.
...but its still bad compared to my older ranks...which were top 5.

and i went down from equal 2nd to 5th for english.

...so i cried..and he saw me cry so he stopped talking..he said he want to see my half yearly exam tomorrow..im so dead...
...then tat jst ruined the day and was the start of my bad day

I got to school..trying to cover up my sad face by smiling and wiping my tears and stuff
i fooled everyone until someone asked me how was my report...and i told them my dad told me off in the car..

then it began

i cried ...and then it was roll call..i was meant to teach yr 7 kids to read. my eyes were red. I kept askin my friends if they looked like i was cryin and they did..
so i tried my best to cover it up

Instead..i had this kid staring at me for 15mins coz he didnt had anyone to teach him to read.

i felt so sad..
through out the day..

sport was the last two periods.
I was meant to be excited coz i always liked bball..but today i didnt play instead i spent 2 hours doing nothing cept standing around..
no one would pass me the ball...iono...mayb i wasnt tryin hard enough..and partially because i werent in the mood..

then i sat on gum...and it was stuck to my pants...
then i went cousins place i played with the dogs..and one of the dogs, i think it stepped on poo and then stepped on my sleeve. so i ended up having brown smely stuff on my jumper..

great...wat a day ye?

i came home..cryin while tellin my mum wat happened..then i cried in the shower..then i cried sitting at the comp telling my friend and talkin to him bout stuff..

then ugh..i had a headache...im so scared...so pressured..so worried...about tomorrow..

coz itd be me and him alone tomorrow morning..mum wil be at work, bro will be asleep

i brought green tea and some fruity flavoured kitkat to scool and shard with everyone today..

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26372567/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26372567/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 03:15:33 PDT I went down for the important subjects TT and the other subjects i went up >.<

Okay well my rank is:
English : 5/209 (whole grade;=[ i went down i was equal 2nd last year TT )
Maths :15/60 (60= total of the grades top classes)
Science : 4/209 (never did better xD)
Geography : 2/209 (never did this good either)
History : 3/209 (glad i kept this rank for like 1 and a half years, cept teacher still thinks i talk too much in class xD)
PDHPE : 12/209
Multimedia : 5/42 (im kinda disappointed with this mark,but ah well i think i know why xD coz of one stupid assigment XD)
Commerce : 5/32 (i went down =[ i was like equal 2nd last year)
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JAPAN!
XD YAAAY BRO FINALLY CAME HOME!
he got me a kokeshi doll (i always wantd one!! but its so expensive here TT like at least $100+), DS screen protectors and broguht home HEAPS of KIT KATS with WEIRD flavours (i.e. soy sauce, green tea, lemon vinegar, apple vinegar, peach/apricot, sangaria) and a box of weird japanese sweets (sticky round balls, some on a stick).
He bought some clothes in japan, jst a lil. Climbed Mt Fuji, and spent a night in the Capsule Hotels!!!! XD i wanna go in one too!!! >.<

And he bought himself a Luffy figurine!! erm...wat else...oh oh CUTE and colourful chopsticks as souvenirs for others, and LOADS of WII STUFF!!!

Bought 2 WII Pro controllers - only out in japan at the moment a couple of days ago.
Bought 3 skin for wii controllers, except, these ones hav a plug or somethin at the back to enhance sensitivity or something =S
erm and some other wii stuff i dotn remember xD haha

so happyyyy ^^
hmm....a ceramic hand made statue, IT LOOKS SOO FUNNY AND CUTE! the face haha xD soo funny i laughed at it when i first saw it. Post Cards And i think tats about it. now we have heaps of kit kats to snack on, ive never seen this much in my whole life ==

Funny, some stuff that were in boxes were wrapped in present wrappings. They were sold like that xD

My bro went to Osaka, Tokyo, Harajuku and one more city....=S i forgot TT
and he climbed Mt fuji with friends! ^^

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26330745/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26330745/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 03:45:17 PDT xD
And even worse my friend was stressed that she started talkin bout sci prac and then maths exam and im like thinking DAMIT SHHUUSH
==

wish me luucckkkyyyyyyyyy!

i finished a small assignment today. ^^ proud of myself. i might needa read over to rephrase better.I started today and finished it today yay xD

aye so tired. i wanna paint but i dont hav time =[ i so wanna paint that new deviation i submited called Red.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26266977/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26266977/ Thu, 30 Jul 2009 00:27:16 PDT
I dont know..
Felt left out with my other friend too

We were meant to do an experiment and there was insufficient equipment so we hav to do it per table. So each table has max. 4 people.

My table was all filled up with me and 3 other friends.

We were getting equipment, when this girl that no one from our group really likes comes to our group. She used to be one of my friends' friend but they realised she was no good.
I dont like her coz she teamed up with another girl to bully me a few years back and even though i warned people about her, they didnt mind and now they regret it.

Anywayz, all of a sudden she was doing our experiment with us. She was standing beside us, and then my friend puled me away and asked me quietly "is Kim doing our experiment with us?" and im like "..i guess so?" == him and me ended up being left out of the group TT and didnt do anything

She was meant to be with HER table that only has 3 people. We already had 4 people ==
So because 5 was a crowd. Me and another friend was like standing on the side line watching
it was SOOO boring
and it was meant to be revision for us coz we hav a test next week.

=[ She didnt even asked if she can join us, she jst stepped in and decided shes part of it.

TT i think she did it coz one of the people from our table felt sorry for her so she kept her company sometimes. And she thought that "connections" will let her go do experiment with us. ==


=[ aye..

She knows i dont like her xD coz i made it very public and i dont care.

I dont mind if my friend chat to her coz she pity her, but at least dont affect me and others ==

Pissed me off all afternoon.
Even at maths
==
I didnt like it at first
It was a column of two tables
Me and Serena (friend who sympathies kim) sat nxt to each other. Kim was left alone. So she got her table and joined onto ours.

So then, serena didnt do much work coz she ended up chatting with kim.
I was in my own lil corner. But i liked it. Coz at least my corner lets me concentrate on work and kind of give me a feeling that Kim isnt there.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26199168/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26199168/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 20:52:46 PDT
i cant believe it
tomorrows 1st day bak at scool
AND OMG WE HAVE ENGLISH FIRST DAY BAK
EWW NOOO
TT

im not reaady for scooooooool
waaaaaaaahhh

TT

I WISH TIME GOES BY SLOOOWWLLYY......TODAY..

*panic attacks*

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YAY\
my mum took me shopping today! at last somethin to do on the last day of my holiz!
i went to Officeworks to buy myself a new maths book (runnin out of pages) and checked out some stuff.

Went to a s hoppin mall to buy grocery and a cd wallet tat holds 100!!! YAAAY I NEEDED THAT
and and

FNALLY
^^ I BOUGHT TWO COPIC MARKERS YAHOOO
SOO HAPPYY
xD instead of seeing it on a monitor i got to touch it hehehe >< so happyyy
i kept lookin at it and taking it out hahaa and weeee!!!!!

i bought YR02 and E11.
They were the closest i can get from the skin colour copics used here >>
[link]

GONNA PRACTICE USING THEM!

^^ OH BTW I FINALLY FINISHED PAINTING THAT AUTUMN TREE THING i submitted onto dev. I will take photo and submit it nxt time. ^^

it didnt turnout how i wanted. Too bright killin my eyes
xD but i was never good with painting, and first time i actually seriously painted and on a canvas xD
without much help haha

jst like opinions and suggestion from my mum =]

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26164355/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26164355/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 04:39:17 PDT
TT not im 2 days away from school! S***T!!!!!!! XD
GOING BAK ON MONDAY! NOO!!!

sooo stressed!!!

1) ASSIGNMENTS are gonna come POOOURING in and i mean it!
2) Senior Year Interviews!!!! DAMIT gonna get my portfolio up to date etc. and get my formal clothing prepared!
3) SUBJECT SELECTION! >.> im not sure wat im gonna pick..well not 100%
4) REPORTS 4/08/09!!!>.<

TT wahhh save meeeeeee

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26103283/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26103283/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 07:58:19 PDT
TRANSFORMERS SOOO COOOL (those who h avent watched it yet - ITS A MUST!) XD and Ice Age the best continuous comedy ever XD
Usually the sequels are worse than the first one, but bravo these two movies did really well to keep up the high standards. ^^

TT unfortunately 6 people were meant to come TT two didnt end up coming
But we still had fun!! ^^
i didnt feel good at first had a lil tummy pain but wore off afterwards coz i was distracted haha XD

^^ im so haaaaaaaapppy today was sooo fuun

on my way to cinemas, cousin txt me askin if i wanna go out with her at 12 for hot chocolate at this new place. But i told her im not gonna be able to coz out with friends

TT i wanna go XD like nxt time haha i LOVE hot chocolate XD

did i tell you, im still sick been 4 weeks and two boxes of flu meds


TT boo hoo~!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26079383/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26079383/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 03:35:04 PDT .<
bro is gonna go japan tomorrow >.<
and he went to doc today to get shots.
then i woke at 8 to wake him
then made breakky for him
then i went bak to sleep until 10 somethin
practised piano

ate brunch

watched bit of drama (i.e. Wolf's Temptation<< korean really funny, good and sweet)
then was b0ut to wash dishes..when..
RIIINGGG~!!!
bro calls to get me to wash his black/grey clothings==
he loves his clothing so much, i had to call over and over to ask if its okay to wash this or this or this

then i got dad to help me work the washin machine coz i dont really know how. he kept shouting at me saying U SHOULDNT HAV PROMISED UR BRO U'D DO IT BLA BLA BLA WHY CANT HE DO IT
and i shouted bak COZ HE IS AT THE DOCTOR DAD, SOMETHIN IMPORTANT, HE ISNT MUCKING AROUND

== so he had to help me HAH

then i was waiting for the washing to be done, i was at my backyard and i didnt wanna be alone at home hanging the clothing lateron
so i called Valentina (my neighbours cat)

I meowed coupole of times and did this weird sucky iono sound that u do with ur tongue and roof of ur mouth to call animals sometimes xD << when i do it the cat responds XD

So lookin around didnt see anything, then i looked down and the cat was between my legs ==

everytime the cat comes, i never see from what direction. Its so....weird o.o


I played with it while waiting, gave it some dried food and it gave me a nice scratch on my palm == and it bled a lil and stung and a nice lil holes on the other side of my hand >.<

but i played with it. it stayed with me until i went inside and went shopping with bro == great (for stuff for his SLR)

lol so jst came home at 6==
TT so sad, i was plannin to paint, do my maths hw, wash my hair shower bla bla bla TT AND ALL MY PERSONAL TIME GOOONEEEE TT

So tired tooooo

and i missed my first round of dishes, now im gonna hav HEAPS to wash

TT and i had to wash my hair at night >< so coooldddddd

TT and im not even well yet after 2 packet of cold meds. TT im risking being sick again


TT my bro bought me a 50cents ice cream from hungry jacks to say "thanks for all the hard work"

GOING OUT TOMORROW!
YES
MOVIES - ICE AGE, TRANSFORMERS 2

>.< one of my friends might not come! but we already had postponed the outing like twice already for her sake, she better come tomorrow ro shes dead>.<

her rents might not let her coz she lost her phone on the bus yesterday when going out with friends==

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26036930/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26036930/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 01:30:00 PDT well i had troubles deciding if i wanna paint in my room, or out on the verandah in my backyard. Then decided my room coz i can jst leave things as it is without having to worry bout it getting dirty.

So i painted the background, and jst a few tree trunks xD
I was kinda worried at first, but as i started painting i got the hang of it.

had troubles deciding wat to paint first lmao. Then i asked my mum and she said background i was lik eokays!

lol
=] i think i know wat i needa buy when i visit that art store again. that plastic plate thing for paint!

im using the canvas, brushes, and brush holder my cousin gave me. convenient

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26015046/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/26015046/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 21:07:13 PDT been staring at them on the net TT
i finaly found a shop tat sells them XD
so happyyyyy

and i bought acrylic paint today to paint this on a canvas my cousin gave me years ago >> [link]

^^ any tips on painting? coz im never good with painting.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25997499/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25997499/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 00:53:58 PDT
So he came home after going to friends place. I was soo worried between the time i scratched his ps3 and when he went out. So worried tat he wont talk to me or something. TT kept getting teary and then i was in a bad mood.
Luckily he came home and talked to me and teased me. So i was like.."PHEW" in my mind. a BIG 'hew'.

I told my mum and i was like...mayb its coz he went out and had a good time. Coz then he isnt usually so forgiving...>.>unless ur a child.

>.< im so DAMN CLUMSY tho

i was washin dishes yesterday (same day i scratched the ps3) and it was only a few hours after i scratched the ps3.
I had a whole tray of dinner dishes on the bench. Half was outside. And i didnt know. So i lifted the bowls on the side tat was on the table.
Right after tat, a dish of veggies on the other side fell onto the ground. TT there goes all the veggies - in da bin..


aye..then i started hating myself == why am i so clumsy
hate it hate it
hope it goes away soon stupid clumsy disease.


I told my bro when he came home, and he was like...aye...so clumsy == (under his breath)

lol

=[ he is gonna go overseas nxt wed. To japan. i wish i can go lol.

I wanna spend more time with him at home. but he has work everyday. But whenever he is home, after dinner he goes out. =[ and its been like this everyday
TT im so bored coz its holiz. wish he was home a bit more or bring his friends over..but i guess the tv he can use is a bit too small. My parents uses the bigger one in the other lounge room at the back (we call tat family room). but i gues my mum wont mind if we swap jst for tat day..
ah well..

im jst glad he wasnt THAT mad at me TT but i still regret scratching it

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25977741/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25977741/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 04:01:37 PDT i scratched bros ps3
but it was by accident!!
i was on the couch, which is right nxt to the ps3. I turned to pause the vid, and i slipped off my couch and i lost balance, and my slippers (i was wearing them) scratched the ps3

TT i got teary and bro seemed so frustrated but he didnt want to shout at me or wateva coz he knew i felt bad
TT i wish scratches can be fixed

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25890636/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25890636/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 00:25:24 PDT .<

FAROUT!!!
i wanna go out with my friends tomorrow.
Its holidays,and we finally hav rests.
And i went thru all the troubles, to find out the events of tomorrow i.e. 2 movies, walkin at shopping mall and workingout the approx time id get home (which my friends dont even know! ) I had to do all this, coz knowing my dad, if u dont hav a set time and stuff he wont let u go out or wateva. Or if ur plan changes he'd tell u off when u come bak. so stubborn yes?

==
After all tat stress and trouble, i managed to get the courage to ask him.
And whatd u know?
Just as i said dad i wanna go out tomorrow with my friends.
his reply? no.
why? because im sick

>.< farout! im getting better! im energetic now sleepy and feverish like few days ago!
I cant go out unless my completely well. MAN! sniffles and blocked nose, and a bit of coughs are pretty regular for flu!

He said its cold outside, i might get sick. The cinema is INSIDE the shopping mall which is warm and heated and with crowds of people giving off infra red.

He didnt say anything when i was out and about with him and mum grocery shopping out in the open in the afternoon, until 5pm when its getting dark!

farout! he always had to make things so DIFFICULT!
everyone at home is always fine with my going out as long as it doesnt interfere with anything important

and here he comes, saying no whenever he feels liek it


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wth is wrong with my dad?!
there is seriously something wrong with him

after so many weeks of scool and half of year of non-stop rest from assignments i finally really get to hav a truly period of relaxation.
and 4 days jst into it, dad starts to find plans to keep me from being at home.

He keeps askin me to go learn art or something, or go learn chinese.
He asked me wat u wanna do at home? are u gona sit there and dont do anything?
im like well im gonna do wat i like to do at home (note: these are things i always wanted to do, jst never got the chance, such as gaming and i havent touched my consoles for months, i barely touch them; drawing, cooking, shopping).
he pisses me off

he doesnt know how stressful and busy i hav been the past half year, and here he goes, assuming i've been up to no good or mucking around and stuff and shove stuff in my face to fill up my time.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25823880/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25823880/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:19:27 PDT .< GRRRRR felt so tired..and sleepy...
a night later, im still havin a feveer==
went to docs and stuff == so tired...but dont wanna sleep anymore..

no scool for me for the rest of th e week..
luckily its holiz nxt week..

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25788371/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25788371/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 03:40:06 PDT i hung out with my friend today right after scool until 6pm. coz mum had to work later today, and come bak at 6pm. and i dont know how to catch buses..well im scared xD i rather walk home which is like 1 hr or so walk haha but mum dont trust me >.>

So i went to my friend, Michelle 's place for the first time. amazingly others who went o her house NEVER went into her room before o.o

xD so im so privileged! yaay~!^^

So i went on the bus with her to my old primary school which i havnt been to since..three years ago XD to pick up her lil bro
i was soo HAPPYYYYY XD

Firsttime i used my bus pass too xD
I was like jumpy, smiley, fidgety, squealing and laughing on the bus all the way xD
i was like "YEEE~! SOO EXCITEDDDDD YAAAAAAY SO HAPPYYYYYY~!!!!" xD and michelle was laughing and she went "aye..so naive" XD i was like WAAAAAAAT?!

Then we headed to her mums car after picking her bro up. and her one is a 2 door car..
and i needed to sit at the back, so i was like..hmm..
I jst walked in..then after taking a step in...TT I WAS JAMMED
XD
I WAS LIKE..aiya aiya everytime i tried to get int TT MY BAG WAS TOO BIG TO GET IN
xD then i got out, but my leg was hooked on the seat belt haha
so i had one leg up, and arms in the air and hopping around going "ah ah aiya aiyaaaaa" XD and me and my friend LAUGHED TO MUCH XD
and her mum tried to stop laughin

aiya so funny xD omg SO EMBARRASSING!! FIRST FEW MINS WITH HER FAMILY OMGGG XD

then wen we got to her place, my friend got out then went to me.."ALRIGHT GIMME UR BAG"XD hahaha then i got out hahah so funny


I got to her house, then went to her room, then nearly tripped xD luckily we were near a bed hahaha so i landed on it xD IM SO DAM CLUMSY OMGGGGG

i saw her rabbits soo ocuuteeee
like 4 rabbits, 2 females and 2 males
they were soo biiggg xD they looked funny when sniffing haha their nose hahaha XD

and then i saw her puppy ahh so cutte the Pomeranian.
Then i went to see her older dog which was the father, and was also a promeranian XD
It reminded me of my old dog - my very first one. XD but i tried not to think of it- so scared im gonna think this is my dog XD
aiya when watchin my friend and her dog with her reminds me of the good times i had when visitors came over, and my dogs would stick with me all the time haha it was soo good. but i had to force myself to accept tat was back then =]


Then ye so funy - we watched dramas, ate and stuff and watched anime ^^ talked on msn haha
FIRST TIME SHE WAS SO BUSY
WE HAD PHONE CALLS, THEN CONVOS ON MSN OMGGG
XD
she was like "first time i've been so busy o.o" haha XD

I was like to our friend on the net "TT shes feeding me, trying to make me all big and juicy for her dinner" XD hahaha coz they kept giving me food lmao so funny

But anywayz, her mum was nice, made us erm this desert thing with lychee jelly and fruits in syrup ^^ yummy haha
i wanted to finish it before i go coz itd be rude to waste it. But i couldnt finish it TT my mum was outside
lol
so i had to go.

but 2 mins before tat
It was silent in the room
when
"THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEEL! THE WAY U TURN ME ONNN!!" XD a recording of my friends and me singing (i set it as my ringtone and forgot to change it)haha my phone rang, and then michelle looked at me funny
xD then i starrted cracking up like mad hahahah xD


ah havnt laughed so much in a day for soo long XD best day so far SO MUCH FUN

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OMG OMG GOING TO UNIVERSITY OF WESTERN SYD TOMORROW! THERES GONNA BE OTHER LIKE EDU ORGANISATION LIKE TAFE AND OTHER UNI'S AND STUFF THERE TO ADVERTISE AND TELL US BOUT THEIR UNI AND THEN THERS PEOPLE WHO SPECIALISE IN CAREERS LIKE DOCTORS, DENTAL, PHARMACIST AND STUFF SOO COOOL

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at scoool theres this senior and shes writing a biography about Michael Jackson OMGGG and she got permission from the jackson family - meaning she was in contact with them XD SOO COOOOOOOL
and they said they will let her if she can get 1000 signatures of MJs fans!!!!

SO YES HAHA ^^ ME AND FRIENDS ALL WENT TO SIGN STRAIGHT AWAY SO COOOL
>< i was too scared to tell them i wrote an MJ poem incase they think im a show off or "leecher" TT but i wanan tell them..xD i was too chicken haha so my friend went over and told them
i was hiding behind..trying to..but i was too tall xD

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25643614/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25643614/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 04:15:35 PDT aye..especially when shes stressed or busy or something
she'd like..not care much bout others.....and think of herself first.
Even if her friends are in need of the same help she needs = =
Like jst then when we were studying for a lil test, she asked me to test h er and i tested her then i asked her to test me and it took her ages to reply and then when i asked her to test me she asked me a question. i didnt know it and i asked her the answer = = she took like 15mins to reply

Then at scool sometimes when teachers hand out text books and we hav to share she'd take the book to herself = =
and sometimes u hav to ask her for it, other times it takes heer like 20 mins or somethin then she goes oh sorry = =

farout TT

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25556440/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25556440/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 00:30:40 PDT i was like...he did?o.o userious?
i believed it after a few seconds, but i was shocked. If anyone died, u wouldnt expect it to be him. U wouldnt think someone like him would die from something small like Cardiac Arrest. Maybe its because he is a famous and highly-influential person - the King of Pop; The successful singer since childhood after Elvis Presley. Its really sad for someone like him to die at such a young age=[and the world had lost another one of the greats. and its such a shame. Shows us how fragile human beings really are - and its not blatant in our every day lives until we see or know about something like this; then we start to think..

ANd like few days ago, he would probably be alive, and its only been a few days and he isnt here anymore.

I wiki-ed him and news articles and stuff =[ so sad

I remember growing up and my big bro recorded his concert on tape and i watched it. I used to watch tat tape over and over again. I thought he was a girl - then my brotold me i was wrong lol. His songs are very well-known and i used to like them.

If he wasn't here, racial discrimination would probably still exist or will take ages for it to disappear. We wouldn't have singers like Mariah Carey, Akon, Usher and stuff.

=[ i feel sad too..i cant believe he died...at 50 and he was planning his come bak too!
i wouldnt have mind to see the news about him performing his concerts on tv. And all the tickets to his 50 concerts were sold out so quickly too! it sucks he is gone now=[

Dont you just wish this was all a prank? Thousands of fans jst grieving..out there..

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25464170/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25464170/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 23:45:08 PDT but im kinda glad i stayed home. i feel better

=[ but TT i missed out on PE practicallll
we were being assessed on relays
damit i shouldve been there = =
so for pe i got 9/15 =[ boo hoo

and then people got their history exams bak. I got equal with friend - 44.5/50 tats kinda okay lol i did worse than last year tho..

im most disappointed at commerce tho
iono
i did worse than last year i know tat.
I came equal 2nd last year out of two classes.
My friend came 3rd but i think i got lower rank

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25427252/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25427252/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 01:52:44 PDT but it seems like i have already failedXD

i got a sore throat yesterday
then
got worse today with sniffles..
TT cant breattheeee uggh = = nose is blocked and throat hurts ugh

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The cat came to our house again. she stopped coming for like a week now. She didnt look happy at all! and her round eyes were shaped like squares and shedidnt want to eat. We played with her a lil with this cat toy we bought her.

Turned out someone took her to the Vet to castrate her. I was unhappy when i saw the bald part and stitched up opening. i was thinking omg people hav no right to do this to a stray cat!

then my neighbour came and asked hav u seen my cat Valentino? i need to go now, but she needs to take her medicine coz she had a surgery lately.

i was like ohhh ok er....ye shes been here lemme go get her
and i got the cat and gave it to the owner

then i wasnt so upset anymore lol
and kinda happy coz she has an owner.
when my neighbour said to me "i think my cat likes u coz it goes to ur place everytime u guys come home" i thought he also picked up the stray cat like us xD but it really is his haha

im pretty glad

and i finally know her name! it isnt Violet its Valentino!


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and no my Mood isnt sad = = i cant seem to change it =[ emoticons wont load for me

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25408209/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25408209/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 04:20:19 PDT
xD bt i was lazy to think of anything so i stuck with swimming carnival - except i stuck in the "strict principal competing"
lol to make it sound a lil diff.
.
^^ when we all got it bak, my friends all got 6 and 7s and 8s and i got 9!!!! i was surprised!!!
XD my friends were like "=O WAT U GOT 9?!" and i said and i wrote bout the swimming carnival lol and they were like "OMG!" then my friend read mine and said..oh xD now i see why u got 9 haha

xD coz i used a lot of descriptive words making it sound very exciting!! ^^ yaay >< hehe everyone got lots of comments on grammar and this and tat and all i got was "excellent report - very exciting!" XD so happpyy yeee!

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=O im piss at this "friend" of mine = =
LAst time he told me off through MSN when i didnt let him see my assignment.
Then this time he was challenging me.

We had to answer this question after reading a prescribed poem. the question on the sheet was "What language did the poet use to describe the setting, people and/or events?"
And people were confused so me and a friend went to ask our eng teacher who wrote it. And she said "well its not english german and chinese. obviously its language techniques /devices" so we were like ohh phew!

Then i put it on my MSN personal message "EVERY1! ITS LANGUAGE TECHS NOT LANGUAGE!" coz some friends were still confused.

MY friend Leslie saw it and said to me:

hey
i disagree with your PM maddy

i asked why and he said:
Coz if it meant language techs it wouldve said- (i cut him here)

i said "but i asked the teacher"

and then he went "well obviously she didnt understand her own work, or forgot wat she wrote!"

Then i said "ah well if we lose marks we can blame her coz she told us tat"


then he said:
if i lose marks
beware!
im going to complain

and i said okays lol

then he said: If you lose marks
sorry

FAROUT! HE SOUNDED LIKE A KNOW-IT-ALL
>.< i was helpin people by putting tat PM up and here comes someone pissing me off
wats his problem?! why is it ALWAYS ME?! so freggin annoying

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25301071/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25301071/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 00:53:00 PDT at all.........

In fact i was sad throughout the whole trip, to and back and a bit now.

I was upset at my brother. He knew he promised that we will go this week, today to shop for my clothes. However, when he came home he told me we gotta rush, coz he gonna go out at 4 to go take photos with his friends. Right after lunch i showered and washed my hair and everything. I was about to get out to blow dry my hair when he was at the bathroom knockin on the door and went "hurry up! i gotta go at 4!!!"
=[ i was annoyed by then and went "okay okay okay!!!!!!!!!" >.<

then me with my hair all wet still and outside so cold, we went out. i didnt even get to wear wat i wanted to wear, i had to quickly changed into very casual clothes=[

but i wasnt upset at this ..likenot physically if u know wat i meant. I was actually pissed coz he knew we were going today, and he knew it takes like 30mins to get to DFO, and he had plans at 4. i told him lets go nxt time, and he said we cant go until like 3 weeks coz he got work.
i was like okay. nad he went nahlets go now and pushed the time to 5

like FAROUT u knew we were going to go shops today and u made plans at 4!? and i didnt even know until he got home, i thought we had plenty of time, so i didnt get ready until after lunch, he didnt even tell me when we were going.

do you guys get me?

in th e end we bought clothes, but i wasnt in the mood at all to do anything, i didnt want tothink wat i want, i jst wanted to go home.

I told mum, she didnt understand me and made it sound like my fault and tat i shouldve got ready early bla bla bla

why doesnt anyone understan d?

and my brother was like u still look upset, wassap? after he bought me stuff
he doesnt know why im upset, and even if i tellh im he will prolyl go oh is tat it?
coz h e is a BOOOYY freggin hell

it makes me so upset =[ and want to cry

i hate people like that.
We plan stuff, and then others make their own plans tat affects me and they dont tell me earlier.

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25266082/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25266082/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 02:51:43 PDT
i think this one is the best speech ive ever written and presented.
Coz ive enver used voice expression or hand gestures until this time.

When i first got up there i was actually shaking but i tried to calm myself and got on with wat ihad to do..

XD im glad i was entertaining to some hahaha

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xD so funny
It was meant to be my friend then my other friend then me
and i was like..crap lol
but then two other girls wanted to do it first
so we let thenm
once they finished i was like AHHHH panicking and stuff and hiding my face and shaking my friends hand hahaha
then my first friend went up
i was like EEEPPPPPP
then she conclucded
i stared at my other friend who did hers and went " CRAP...AHH "XD and my friend laughed

then my 2nd friend went
and i was like crap crap calm down calm down haha

when she finished i was like NOOOOO xD
then when i was bout to stand up xD a girl was faster than me and wanted to do it

so she went
and i was lik "AH...YES PHEW! *pat my chest* haha XD

the teacher said "ah..madison lives again, for another 4 mins" xD (speech goes for 3-4mins)

xD friends cracked up lma
hahaha

xD but yaaaaay so happy ^^

tats all for now!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25247746/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25247746/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 03:47:08 PDT xD but me and couple of friends didnt end up being picked to do it
so tomorrow we are definitely doing it

xD IM SCARRREDD LOOOL

im scared im gonna stuff up, coz its the first time i needa and gonna use gestures and expression when reading xD so scared hahah

wish me good luck~!

i got my commerce exam bak today. i thought i did worse than usual!!

at first it was 29/35 then i compared my answer to my friends and i wrote jst bout the same thing, so i got teacher to check again and then i got full marks for tat question ^^ so i got 31/35 i was soo happpy! i didnt planned to go up and ask him to check again, lucky i did!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25229837/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25229837/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 05:40:55 PDT im so happy ><

out of 75 i got 69! ^^ im 2nd in my class yaaay ^^ so h appy hehe

i cant beleive it tho! and after doing the exam i scared the crap out of myself coz i know i did one Q wrong and i assumed it is worth 5 marks but it was only worth 2 haha im so stupid tho XD

^^ yaaay improveeeeeee

>.< but i think i went down for eng waaah and commerce waaah TT

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25174016/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25174016/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 06:24:14 PDT Its not at all lovey dovey, XD its so funy but verrry sweet ^^
YOU hav to watch itt!!! i jst finished it a min ago >< waah i think im gonna watch the whole thing again hhaa its sooo good sqqqueeee

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25170097/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25170097/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 22:26:05 PDT but then mum said she couildnt go coz busy..,
so i told bro and bro said oh then we go nxt week then

then she jst realised tat we needed her to go if she dont go we wont go..=[
then wahhh

..
..

...so disappointed...

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25137229/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25137229/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 04:43:17 PDT < teehehhehehe

I GOT MY GEOGRAPHY EXAM RESULTS BAAAK yweeeeeee!!

^^
out of 40 guess wat i gooottt?
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*drum roll*
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>< tehe 36 yaaaay!!!!! ^^
i think i came 2nd or 1st in the class ormayb 3rd
but im reallly happy^^ did better than i thought!! >< and better than my friends tehe shhh

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25009075/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/25009075/ Fri, 29 May 2009 04:07:24 PDT and for the first time i have finally conquered my pressure during exams ^^

I used to have mental breakdowns in the middle of an exam. I would stress and cry in the middle of it, then forget how to do things.

I cried yesterday, for english exam - i've never done so bad in english before.

I cried last night while studyin- not because im scared im gonna get bad marks, but because im scared im gonna have another mental breakdown.

Its surprising how many people supports you when u least expect it.

Im a cry baby, and i thought itd be annoying for most people haha.

My friends - i didnt expect it, but they cheered me on.
My brother, and my mum ^^

I cried last night while hugging my mum. I told her about what im scared of, and how the flicking of pages from others during exams freak me out and scares the hell out of me.
She told me i needa handle this pressure, if im already stressed before the exam, then im already losing. She and bro told me, the flicking of pages is jst an illusion. Just coz u hear lots of pages being flicked doesnt mean they are better than you. its becuase theres heaps of people in the room, and that they mightve skipped questions.


cant believe it. but my mum told me how i cant even handle pressure now, then she wont let me go to uni, coz itd be worse for me. She said so unless u can handle it and conquer it then u can go uni. u said u wanted to be a vet


Today i managed to conquer it. I think i will do better than i usually do.
I tried my best today. At first i was kinda nervous. But i ended up finishing and jst sitting there waiting for time to past. I checked over and over incase.

I think tat kinda boosted my self - esteem. When collecting the first booklet back, my teacher told me "YOu were very nervous" I looked up saying "me?" and he said yee i see u writing and then i hear "dat dat dat dat dat" (writing noise on paper) lmao
i laughed lol

i was so happy when i finished 2nd paper early. I literally went "yay!!! "XD
Some people in my class were asking others for help, like jst formulas, but i guess its a trend now. This year more people tend to do it. A guy in my class asked me for the formula coz he forgot lol. I gave it to him. But tats it- im not fond of helping them during exams.

Im now stressed on assignments. RIght after english exam, teacher gave us another assignment.

Now i got one whole multimedia project to start-finish in this week and a commerce half yearly exam coming up this thurs. Then i got a speech, and assignment due nxt nxt week.


^^ wish me good luck again AYE >.< i hate this stress-ness


oh btw, after school, my mum took me to shops ^^ i havent been to shops this yearafter scool for sooo long like moooonths
I've missed the mum-daughter time since dad is always home = =

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24953296/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24953296/ Tue, 26 May 2009 00:03:01 PDT
and yesterday had history exam >.< and i forgot to mention two stuff so i lost 2 marks at least waahhh

today was EVEN WORSE! = =
I had science exam and i bet i lost at least 5 marks T.T
Lost 2 marks on somethin i didnt know
then i lost 3 marks on somethin pretty stupid = =
it was this question bout why a night vision camera with an infra-red detector can take photos of animals or people in pitch dark areas.

= = i actually didnt thought "infra red detector" LITERALLY means detects infra red
so i wrote silly stuff bout reflection of light >.< IM SUCH AN IDIOT !!
ahhh 5 marksss >.< soooooo muccchh

waaahh

and im kinda upset at my friends == two of them cheated coz they helped each other!!>.<

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24917079/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24917079/ Sun, 24 May 2009 01:28:48 PDT today was VERY FUN AND TIRING haha
i woke up at 8ish then got ready, picked up a friend we went to school and met up with other friends
then went into scool
Me and my friend went in earlier to check it out, we went to the hall, but we heard...prayers..o.o and chanting and stuff...
then we realised it was the church service haha

afterwards we found the place. Then our group came along, we went in and my friend's cousin Cindy signed up as team captain haha XD

Afterwards we were driven to the area wher we hav to go doorknocking and we had maps.
Some of us got the driver's number so we can call bak to pick us up later.

We split into groups of 2s and 3s. I went with my friend Michelle, and we went to lots of houses
^^ it was soo fuun
thing was ther were lots of hills, and because of tat LOTS of stairs and mansions and stuff = =

XD When we saw one where we hav to walk up hill, michelle said to me "Your turn xD u go"
haha i laughed lmao

bout an hr later, we were tired, michelle and i took a seat in the middle of no where on the foot path, drivers looked at us haha

We continued after meeting up with friends and telling them wat streets we're gonna do.

ONE EMBARRASSING MOMENT!

TT i knocked and said "hi im with the salvation army, would you like to doowwwnload?..o.o I MEAN DONATE!!!!"
TT then she laughed XD and i tried sooo hard to not crack up LOL

=O and an old man ^^ gave me a cheque yaaaaay~!!!

A man asked how old i am hah which was weird. i said 15 and he cracked up xD

Another man came out like flung his door open when my friend knocked! i thought she was in troublE!! luckily he was only very enthusiastic, and said =O u guys salvation army? good on ya! gave us $50 and then went on saying u guys from St Johns Park High school? and we said yup XD haha and he kept going on how good we are and stuff lol

^^ Another man when i knocked, he said no. After wards he came chasing after me and gave me 20!!! yaay

HOurs later we were close to finishing.
We did like HEAPS of streets like more than 10!!! in the teens prolly or more than tat!!!
We had to write receipts, keep record of who gave wat amount, and handed out a "sorry we've missed you" card. but it wasoo fuuun!!!

We finishd at like 1 something , called thedriver and we headed to the point where he was to pick us up. We waaaved when we saw the van, and we hopped on!^^

got bak to scool, went into room, we each calculated our money. I raised $127.80, michelle raised $90 something, so together we got like 200 something ^^

XD yaaay XD haha the erm salvos said i was prolly the first one tat got a cheque! hehe felt kinda special >< ^^ then another salvo smiled at me haha

=o ALTOGETHER! MY GROUP OF 7 RAISED $500+!!!!! YAAY ^^

soo goood lol well i was soo happy ^^

We had chats with the salvos while eating sausage sizzle and cordial they provided us ^^
LOL MY FRIEND Cindy, was soo funny.She asked.."is there whole meal..."XD for sandwiches haha and then she mixed mustard, tomato and sweet chilli sauce together on her sausage XD and hahah omg a salvo looked at her weirdly hahah aXD

Shes so funy = = aye lol

but ya
first time doing this I HAD A GREAT TIME! CANT WAIT FOR NXT YEAR ^^

We all got an award for participating hehe ^^ yaaayy
AND we covered the whole area tat was given to us!! ^^.

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OKAY! needa study now, exam tomorrow >< history exam on vietnam war and australia and aborginals - changing rights and stuff lol

wish me good luck!!!! ^^

wahh got assignment to do too ><

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24884713/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24884713/ Fri, 22 May 2009 03:44:07 PDT We went to see her today
jst me and mum
and coz my granny didnt know any eng, we wanted to stay there until she gets dinner and coz she cant see and doesnt hav many teeth, we wanted to chop stuff for her and stuff

we got there at like 5 something
got home at 7 something
dad started yelling and shouting like FULL on
how like why we so late home, and OMG
he told my mum on the phone "Since you like looking after ur mum so much, why dont u jst stay there and dont come home!?"

FAROUT! how could he say tat?! if i was mum i wouldnt go home. Granny is like 90 something!!!!

We came home he started shouting bout how late it was and theres no dinner bla bla bla
then he said YOU DONT NEED TO VISIT UR MUM AT THE HOSPITAL, THERES LIKE NURSES THERE AND STUFF THEY WILL TAKE CARE OF HER!

wth!!!!! man i sooo wanted to go up to him and say "WELL, BAK THEN WHEN U WERE IN HOSPITAL , WE SHOULDNT HAV VISITED U EVERY DAY COZ WE'D GO HOME LATE AND ITS SO FAR, WE SHOULDVE JST LET NURSES TAKE CARE OF YOU!"
but i didnt, i jst told mum she can use it to bak it up if he says any other stuff again


Then he stared at me and shouted at "DID YOU BRING UR PHONE?" and i said "yes" and he said "WHY DIDNT U PICK UP WHEN I CALLED U?" and i said "i turned it off" then he said "DONT USE UR PHONE IF UR NEVER GONNA PICK UP THEN!" and i said calmly " y eokay i wont bring it nxt time when i go hospital" then he shouted "U DIDNT NEED TO TURN IT OFF!" and i said " YES I DID, THERES SIGNS IN HOSPITALS DAD! THEY SAY PLZ TURN OFF UR MOBILES COZ ITD AFFECT THE MACHINES!" and he jst started at me and said " YOU CAN JST TALK ON THE PHONE OUTSIDE" and i had to go thru the explainin bout HOW DO I KNOW U CALLED ME WHEN THE PHONE IS OFF?!AND IF I KNEW U CALLED ME I WOULDVE WENT OUTSIDE BUT MY PHONE WAS OFF DAD!

afterwards he didnt say anything

woo! i won!xD

------- school --------

my friends learnt their lessons from yesterday.
How i got upset over them so inconsiderate leaving my bags for random kids to touch

Today it poured a lot and stopped then poured (rained) again

I think i went to the bin and it poured so one of my friends grabbed my bag and said " i got ur bag" and went undershelter with it
XD i was kinda happy haha lol i didnt expect them to change tat fast but yay!^^ im glad i had effect on them! and that they respect me too=]

been studying everyday today!^^

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24867279/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24867279/ Thu, 21 May 2009 02:35:30 PDT and no, not about stupid lovey dovey stuff .

it was recess. i dropped my school bag and sat down. then a friend wanted me to accompany him to the canteen since i had nothing to do.
i did and left my bag there, and told 1 person to look after my bag, but jst incase i told a 3 more friends of mine.

I went canteen, when i came bak the bell went. i was worried tat my bag was left alone and tat they had forgotten. then i realised my bag wasnt there and i was so happy tat my friends took it ^^ and so proud i had friends like tat

Then
half way walking to class, a friend of mine came running after me with my bag. I didnt tell him to look after my bag, so i asked him how did he know my bag was there and stuff.
He said he went bak there when the bell went, and everyone was gone and only my bag was there.
Kids came and wanted to do stuff with it and throw it and touched it. He said if i didnt trust him i can ask another friend of mine.

I was so glad he picked it up for me and i was sooo thankful - coz he usually is very annoying on purpose coz he is so booreed and grab stuff of u and u hav to chase him.lol

I went to class.i saw my friends lining up. I went over and told them "i told u guys to look after my bag, and u jst left it there, lucky Harvey came and picked it up for me, and kids were going to throw it and touch it and stuff. im not leaving my bag ever again with u guys" and i said it in a serious tone.

Straight after that they didnt say anything and was silent
Then we had class, i was still upset, i couldnt my friends did this to me. It wasn't something big but it was the 2nd time!
First time, i witnessed by myself, coz they were walkin away and luckily even tho i was very far, i was heading bak to get my bag.

I started crying = = then they know i was really angry with them and upset.
= = i didnt talk to them for 2 whole hours and ugghh i cant believe even the friend where she had the most mature personality did this to me too

how disappointed!

]]> ~maddy39 http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24798218/ http://maddy39.deviantart.com/journal/24798218/ Sun, 17 May 2009 04:05:43 PDT First time im doing it. i always wanted to do it everytime they come ask us at scool.
^^ im finally allowed! im gonna do it with two friends i cant wait!!!!!! yaaaayy!!!!^^

*so exciiitteed~<3!*

^^ its gonna be 9am-1pm!!!^^

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