http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:maddyXkankuro93&section=today deviantART RSS for by:maddyXkankuro93 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 05:01:11 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/28752337/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/28752337/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:22:51 PST then choose and tag ten other people, which in turn makes them do the same thing.

1. I'm in an *almost* 1 year relationship

2. I'm planning to go to college to be an artist at either Heartland community college or
The art institute of Chicago

3. I'm 16 years old

4. I suck at math *trust me I fail at it*

5. I have had 9 boyfriends in my life *not counting 3, which makes it go down to 6*

6. I'm a huge Tim Burton fan *I LOVE his work as a director*

7. I have 4 older siblings, 1 half brother, 1 half sister, a step brother,
and a brother-in-law.

8. I hate my mother's excuses and stupidity of the world because of her "disease"

9. My Favorite animal is the Snow Lepard and the wolf *sorry if I spelled lepard wrong*

10. I have almost 1 year and 10 months before I can finally leave my mother and finally be with the one I love without any consiquences.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/28163077/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/28163077/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 15:00:24 PST shoot it repeatedly and toast it ^^

2. Which of the following would you classify Jigsaw as? (Or whatever the name of the guy who kidnaps people in Saw is.)

[A.] Gamesman- Usually controlling of the victims, falsely promising to free them if the victim does as they're told.

B. Strong and Silent- Obsessed with the single idea of killing the victim, no matter what else is happening around them.

C. Mama's boy- Usually have some rough past that won't allow them to make connections with people, usually caused by their mothers and feel the need to continually kill them, though 'Mother' never seems to stay dead for long.

D. Wisecracker- Loved by the crowd and always rooted on to victory. Their timing is usually impeccable, intelligent, and are much more aware of the world around them

3. At high school, if you're making fun of a pale, scary-looking kid and wind suddenly starts blowing around without affecting him, what do you do?
I smile wickedly and start to fight back with my powers ;D
*then again I don't make fun of people like that, I'm usually their friend*

4. You're offered a babysitting job that happens to have a warning of a babysitter-killing psycho in the area, do you go?
Fuck that, I'm gonna be hanging with donovin and playing resident evil ^^

5. You hear someone walking around upstairs when you know full well that you're home alone. Do you go investigate?
Yes...with a slegde hammmer or really big axe 0_0

6. An evil vehicle is chasing you, where do you go for safety?
A. Into a deep lake/ body of water
B. into a family house
C. into a school/shopping mall/office building
[D.] Into the car that's chasing you

7. Are all ghosts/spirits dangerous? Explain.
No, it depends on the situtation of the spirit or ghost,
in other words what kind of life and death the spirit had,
could end up making the spirirt good or bad.

8. Which of the following must NEVER be placed in a child's room? (Hint: There's more than one correct answer)
[A.] Anything clown-like
B. toy monkeys that bang cymbals together
C. fairy princess tea sets
D. Closets
E. race car beds
F. sleeping bags
[G.] Ouija boards
[H.] Tarot cards
[I.] anything belonging to the person(s) to live in the house (Before they mysteriously died)
J. Candy
K. playing cards

9. An army of the living dead suddenly comes limping into your town. What do you do?
Gather up some friends and some heavy duty weapons...
and totally destroy them!!

10. How do you escape a house with the killer inside?
A. escape on the floor you're currently on, even if it isn't the ground floor.
B. Run loudly down the stairs and toward the front door whilst screaming your lungs out.
C. Try and fight the killer and at the same time find the door
[D.] None of the above.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27945403/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27945403/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 16:54:28 PDT
[ ]Extensions
[ ]Dyed at least once
[ ] Dyed it more then 5 times
[ ] Use hairspray, hair gel etc.
[x] Change hairstyle regularly
[ ] Have layers, hair feathered etc.
[x] Straighten your hair
[x] Curl your hair
[x] Blow dry your hair
[x] Lots of clips, hair bands etc.

So far = 5


Face:

[ ] Foundation DARKER than your natural skin tone
[x] Foundation which matches your skin tone
[x] Mascara
[x] Eyeliner
[ ] Blusher
[ ] Bronzer
[ ] Lip gloss, lip stick etc.
[ ] Fake eyelashes
[ ] Eyelash curlers
[ ] About a million makeup bags and brushes

So far = 8


Body

[ ] A piercing
[ ] More then one piercing
[ ] Fake tan
[ ] Have/had fake nails
[ ] Eyebrows waxed/threaded
[ ] Have used a sun bed
[ ] Have had a pedicure
[ ] Have had a manicure
[x] Legs waxed/shaved
[ ] Tattoos

So far = 9

Others

[ ] Worn/wear coloured contacts
[ ] Worn/wear contact lenses
[ ] Own fake designer stuff
[x] Follow the latest trends
[ ] Look orange regularly
[ ] Pretend your fake stuff is real
[x] Wear a lot of perfume
[ ] Wear flesh coloured tights so your legs look darker
[ ] Wear a more then 5 pieces of jewellery at a time \
[ ] Most of your clothes have fake diamantes on them

So far= 11
Have you :

[ ] Considered a boob job
[ ] Considered/had lipo suction
[ ] Wanted your lips to be fuller
[ ] Considered/had botox
[x] Gone on a diet
[x] Gone to the gym
[ ] Had your teeth bleached /whitened professionally
[x] Bleached/whitened your teeth at home
[ ] Had work done on your teeth so they are perfect
[ ] Had any plastic surgery

Now multiply your answer by 2:

I'm 28% fake....okay that's not that bad....*NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!*

lol

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27701470/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27701470/ Sun, 11 Oct 2009 07:49:26 PDT
the age part is good...
but what I did on that day didn't turn out as great.

I've finally had it with all of everybody,
treating me like I'm a bad kid and an outcast...

just because of my style and what I wear.

But, I'm too afraid to say anything about it to my father,
because I'm scared that he might get mad at me and maybe even..
hit me and ridicule me further for it.

I can't go to anybody about this because no one in my family understands, and why...because they are all preps and jocks.

The only one in my family that's kinda like me is Allysa,
but she turned out to be a piece of work..

Everybody, mom, dad, and everybody says I'm going to turn out like her practically...just because I'm into the same stuff she is...
except for the drug part, I'm not into that.

But, on the day of my birthday,
me, mom, and donovin were going to a dinner out, but mom came home in a bad mood because of her dramatic soap opera day so...

Mom and I argued most of the time,
she was fed up with me so she chose where we were going to go,
she forced us to sit through another A.A. meeting with her,
she almost embarrassed me in front of everybody because she had to say to the waitress that it was my birthday which wouldv'e caused a giant music bragade to come around me which in turn would cause me to go under the table in shame...
and last but not least one of the most common things that happens during my birthday every year...some way or another I end up crying because of someone or something, and it happened again as usual.

Because, I tried to explain to my mom how I felt about being ridiculed and casted out from the family just because of my style and clothes, and she told me this...

What do you want me to do about it?
I don't care what you think or feel, get a counseler for help.
Talk to your dad about it, that will help.
I don't care! Get a counseler for help!
Well, I can't change my whole entire life for you.
Well, I'm an alcoholic Madison, I'm sick I can't control it.
I'm sorry...

Well, mom I just want someone there for me when I stand in front of my family being judged, I want someone to understand how I think or feel about things and not foucus on god damn A.A. or your fucking cleaning buisness that is apparently not going anywhere if you keep on spending money for yourself and on others that can afford the stuff they need.
I don't want a total stranger to help me with stuff they don't even have a clue about, and I don't want them in my life. I don't care about the alcoholism and that your sick, your not sick! You don't have a fucking disease! Your mind is just weak and falls when it see's a bottle labled, Jack Danials! Your strength to refuse is weak, your weak and only care about yourself and your reputation!

I'm just sick of everybody on my Dad's side of then family and I'm sick of mom...

I just wanna go and live my life and not be dragged down by anybody...

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27555563/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27555563/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 09:57:03 PDT
Nightmare on Elm street ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ YAY!!!

It looks so awesome I almost crapped myself at it's awesomeness

lol jk jk

But, seriously it is so cool, you should find it on google ^^

Just type in Nightmare on Elm Street 2010 official trailer,
and you will find it and it's awesomeness ^^

Watch and enjoy

The Movie itself won't be coming out til 4/30/2010 though...

I wanna watch it now!!!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27522457/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27522457/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 14:06:41 PDT

I don't know what?

I'm turning 16 soon, oh yeah!!!!

Sweet 16 finally, after all this waiting,
I'm finally turning 16!!!

I'm so excited!
Even though it's not going to be like the Sweet 16's,
some kids have on T.V., it's going to be great ^^

My birthday is...october 8th so it's coming soon.

Yay!!! and and

Omgz!!! 0_0

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27392399/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27392399/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 13:26:56 PDT hey wait...YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE POCKETS DINOSAUR!!!"




lol

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27264385/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/27264385/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 14:45:24 PDT
Donovin's been talking about preposing to me...0_0

I know, I know it's early and we need to take our time,
and, yada yada yada, blah blah blah...

But, it feels like I knew him for such a long time,
and I just feel like I'm ready to become his bride ^^

Please tell me, how you feel about this...

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26892888/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26892888/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 10:12:56 PDT
I had the weirdest dream last night where,
I was at my dad's and everybody was going to church,
but we were all dressed as ninjas, everybody in the whole town was going to this church dressed as ninjas.
Then, when we got to the church everybody,
started to throw samurai swords at each other for some reason.
Then, there was this huge bug that looked like a giant tick,
that every time you kicked it pickles came out of it,
then I killed it and got a ton of pickles ^^

the end ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26667522/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26667522/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 09:13:14 PDT
1. your name

Madison- If you are a teenage girl with the name Madison,
you are blonde and sexy, and really amazing,
because you were named after the mermaid in the movie,
"Splash" from the 80's

"Damn that girl is fiiiinnnneee,
she is so hot her name must be Madison"

*Yes ^^ go me*

2. your age

15- one of the worst ages of being a teenager

Damn...that sucks ><

3. one of your friends

Gretchen- An amazing girl that no one has discovered yet,
she is smart, sexy, usually blonde, loves god and jesus, and loves to hang with a ton of guys.

That's not really the Gretchen I know, but it's close enough.

4. what should you be doing?

Hanging out with my boyfriend- Just hanging out with my boyfriend ^^

5. Favorite color?

Red- favortie color koolaid to a black person *kay 0_0*
one of the primary colors of paint ^^

Black- The darkest color, just darkness, this text is black, lol ^^

6. birth place

Princeton- Home to enlist in douchebaggery *kay 0_0*

Not cool...not cool

7. month of birth

October- Best month of the year, birth stone is opal ^^

8. last person you talked to

Donovin- a obnoxious smelly ass dominican *not to be racist*
talking all the time to his 400 pound girl friends

That's definetly not my Donovin...screw this definition!!! ><

Donovin- A nice boy who cares for his significant other and tries to be the best he can ever be!!!

9. your nickname

Maddy- A brilliant smart girl, extremely hot, and fun to be with.
Can make just about anyone laugh, but is inclined to psycopathic tendencies twords people or things only that desurve it.
Very inqusitive by nature, and can't stand not knowing the answer to something. People are always jelous of a Maddy mostly because they're against pretty/smart people, or they just wish they were as cool as Maddy.

Wow...I'm loving this ^^ Thank you, whomever wrote this definition ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26402668/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26402668/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 13:10:18 PDT
Leave me any messages and such and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.


BYYYEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26062708/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/26062708/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 10:07:59 PDT
So many things happening this weekend,

Donovin+Maddy's 7 month anniversery
Donovin's Birthday party
Donovin's and Darion's Birthday

Woooooohhh...so much stuff ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/24997732/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/24997732/ Thu, 28 May 2009 13:26:58 PDT

It's all because of my mom too,
she never wanted to practice with me,
and wouldn't let me drive with her.

All because of the fact that she was too nervous,
and didn't even care if I passed the class or not

She's always been selfish with me and...
I'm the one who's always fucking paying for it,
and it isn't fair for me, to pay for somethings she's done,
or what she caused me.

But, she doesn't fucking care, she never does,
all she cares about is herself, A.A., and her "said" family that's just as screwed up as she is.

I'm pretty much screwed at this rate for getting a licence because of her....just because she doesn't care.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/24590452/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/24590452/ Mon, 04 May 2009 18:51:25 PDT

Please read my story, "Behind the shattered Looking Glass."
*Really good stuff *

Ignore the other story...it's stupid 0_0
I lost my interest in it...anyway -__-

So, please read my story, comment it, and enjoy it

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/24293792/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/24293792/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 15:59:52 PDT
She called me a little earlier,
telling me that he might not live to see Monday.

I haven't known him for very long...but he's like a brother to me,
as Gretchen is a sister to me.

Gretchen's been my friend for 6 years...
I'd hate to see her one love die...and so soon.

I'm hoping he doesn't die...but hope can only go so far,
and I don't know what's goign on over there...all I know is,
that Gretchen's upset and Abe might not see Monday.

It's really sad...

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/23792937/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/23792937/ Fri, 20 Mar 2009 08:08:15 PDT as soon as a child turns 13 they turn into complete assholes,
or they figure out that life isn't all that it seems to be.

Why are people so unpleasent?

Why do so many people go around everyday,
strutting themselves like ego crazy peacocks,
being total assholes to everyone they see,
that's not in their group or style?

It's a sad day on this god forsaken planet,
when a dumbass prideinduced mother fucker,
can't just stop and shut their damn mouth and think.

And, when they don't stop and think,
they end up killing a poor soul in need of a friend and help.

It's just so god damn annoying,
when you see another teenage face in the obituaries,
saying they were sick and they killed themself.

Well, they weren't sick, they were hurt and alone,
and had no one to go to in they're god forsaken life,
and they died because of some dumbass people in this world,
that wouldn't leave them alone and made there life worse.

It's just very, very, very, sad....

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/23662860/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/23662860/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 16:16:06 PDT watch it, understand it, and think to yourself...

Are you like the girl in someways,
do you fight for your happiness in life,
and when someone hands you a gun, will you throw it down?


"Everyday I tell myself...
Fight for what is right, fight for your happiness,
do not let other people drag you down and take it away,
just fight for what you want most,
and never give up."

P.S.- I have a new bf & his name is Donovin ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/22018189/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/22018189/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 15:41:01 PST ARE SENDING HER TO HAMMIT SCHOOL OF THE MENTALLY RETARDED & BEHAVOIR DISORDERED!!!!

SHE'S DOING FINE IN SCHOOL NOTHING IS WRONG WITH HER & YET THEY'RE TOO CLOSE MINDED TO SEE THE REAL PERSON SHE IS!!!

I'VE KNOWN GRETCHEN FOR 6 YEARS & THOSE DUMBASS TEACHERS WON'T STOP & SEE WHO SHE REALLY IS!!!

AND, HER FUCKING DUMBASS MOTHER FUCKING PARENTS AREN'T DOING ANYTHING TO STOP THEM!!!!

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE GRETCHEN'S TEACHERS & I HOPE THEY ALL FUCKING DIE BECAUSE THEY'RE HURTING HER & THEY'RE ALL TOO STUPID TO SEE THAT!!!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/21802513/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/21802513/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 16:07:56 PST & every single day I fall deeper & deeper in love with him.

Here's something he typed me one day:

"I want to hold you til the day we die,
kiss all of your pain away & keep you after death, because your the one I love."

I love Tyler with all of my heart & soul,
& I can't wait any longer to finally be with him.

Tyler's the one for me &
I'm the one for him, we were meant to be.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/21769565/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/21769565/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 16:01:50 PST
I'm gonna do fine on them,
the teachers are going over them w/ us,
she's freaking out & yelling at me,
and telling me that I need to study when I'am,
just at school.

I don't like to do homework or anything from school, because it's boring & I got stuff to do at home.

She's just getting on my case cause,
she thinks I'll fail the finals & have to redo all of the classes when I'm actually gonna do fine.

She needs to stop freaking out & calm down,
and realize I know what the hell I'm doing.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/21610406/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/21610406/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 08:32:53 PST it wasn't the greatest movie I've ever seen.

They skipped lots of good parts,
& it felt like flashes instead of a movie.

All the scenes were so quick,
and were very quick to change,
so it all was a bunch of flashes,
& they could've really done a better job.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20964464/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20964464/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 05:59:36 PDT Me & her have been friends since,
I first moved here.

Anyways, she told me she might have,
servical cancer.

I don't know what to do,
if she has it I will be devistated

I just can't see her in a coffin or
on machines in a hospital.

That would kill me seeing her like that


God, I hope she doesn't have it,
I already have had enough with cancer

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20820751/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20820751/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 07:19:57 PDT October 8th ^^

It's comeing up soon people,
and I'll be 15.

The years go by quickly don't they? 0_0

It's like last night I was 5 years old,
and now I'm going to be 15 0___0!!!


I'm going to be 15...WHOORAY!!!!!!

cake & pepsi for everyone ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20714213/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20714213/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 22:40:56 PDT and we have just fallen deeper & deeper in love.

It's so awesome, and I can't wait to meet him in person,
that day will be the greatest day of my entire life,
to finally meet my one true love in the flesh.

We both are so alike & we just love each other so much,
that absolutly no one can comperhend it at all.

No one can seperate us,
no one can tear us apart,
we are going to be together forever,
even after death & even then,
neither God nor the Devil can take us apart.

Where ever he goes I will follow.

Yes, I love him that much ^^

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20371001/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20371001/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 08:25:49 PDT
Would u...

()Kiss me?
()Hug & kiss me?
()Hang out with me at my place?
()Let me kiss u?
()Let me hug & kiss u?
()Take a shower with me?
()Fuck me?
()Marry me?
()Go to a movie with me?
()Hang out at a resterant?
()Hang with me & some friends of mine?
()Slap me?
()Tell me I'm a loser?
()Kill bareny & all other pediphiles with me?

Do u think I'm...

()smart
()artistic
()stupid blonde
()slow
()pretty
()short
()tall
()So, unbelieveably gorgous that u burst into tears when u see me in person.
()ugly
()mean
()overly serious
()loose & goes with the flow
()Fun to be with
()a party animal
()goth
()emo
()punk

Do you...

()miss me
()hate me
()love me
() like me

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20203409/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20203409/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 14:42:18 PDT
I have to live with this she-devil of a mom,
that hurts, insults, and hits me,
for three more years, and I can't take her anymore.

Last night, she got me so pissed off & angry at her, that the demon inside me was only a second away from coming out, and I'm so close to just ripping her apart & watch as she bleeds to death.

The cops won't help me,
my dad won't stop her,
my brother ignores her,
and I can't stop her or fight back,
if I do, I get my ass arrested.

I just want to get out of here, and leave her forever.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20098250/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/20098250/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 15:12:43 PDT
He is my heaven on earth, my hope

He has saved me from ending myself...forever

I love him so much, and I will forever & ever.

Tyler, I will come to be with you,
I promise, my love, my king.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19683443/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19683443/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 15:30:04 PDT so leave me messages & al that stuff,
and I'll try to get back to you as soon as possible.

ttyl

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19659158/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19659158/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 10:56:30 PDT
He's coming decemember 10th,
or around that time, but I'm so excited ^^.

Do any of you have any ideas for names?

My sister wants names that r out of the ordinary.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19469021/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19469021/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 17:05:56 PDT
ttyl my peeps ^^.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19443313/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19443313/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 10:00:16 PDT and the sparks just flew.
I sware to God he is the one,
I can friggin feel it, man!!!

He's written so much stuff for me,
and it's just so, right.

He just feels right.

If you want to see what he wrote follow these directions:

Go to vampirefreaks.com/VampireQueen93.

Then, go to friends in the top bar,
and find friends journals.

Look for dp16ryanthorn's latest journal entries.

and, that's what he wrote for me.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19091011/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/19091011/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 10:47:24 PDT forgive me,
but I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
and barely conscious you'll say to no one,
isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my abence I know,
you forgot me long ago,
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
you won't try for me, not now,
though I die to know you love me,
I'm all alone,
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
but I won't be home again,
I know what you do to yourself.
I breathe deep and cry out,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
you won't try for me, not now,
Though I die to know you love me,
I'm all alone,
Isn't someone missing me?
And, if I bleed,
I'll bleed,
I bleed knowing you don't care,
And, if I sleep just to dream of you,
I'll wake up without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
you won't try for me, not now,
though I died to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18836262/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18836262/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 10:43:03 PDT boy troubles then this will help u.

1. Temple

It's supposed to kill the brain,
when hit hard and, precice.

I wouldn't use it though,
it's hard.

2. Nose

It's also supposed to kill the brain.

I would use it for defence,
it's really simple.

3. Adam's Apple

It's supposed to choke the boy,
when punched hard enough.

I would also use it for defence,
it is also easy.

4. Dick

There's a main blood vein down there,
so if you kick it hard and,
precicely enough the boy will bleed to death.

Happy to help.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18780180/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18780180/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 08:24:39 PDT
But, I'm gonna be away from my mom 4 2 weeks, yay!!!!!!
No more bitch fits 4 two whole weeks!!!!!!
But, now my baby cousin Blair thinks that I'm her Mom, god help me.
But, NO MORE BITCH FITS 4 TWO WHOLE WEEKS I'M FREE!!!!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18647465/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18647465/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 15:20:18 PDT
]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18597673/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18597673/ Sat, 31 May 2008 17:48:06 PDT Luv u 4-eva baby!!!!

Baptised with a perfect name
The doubting one by heart
Alone without himself

War between him and the day
Need someone to blame
In the end, little he can do alone

You believe but what you see?
You recieve but what you give?

Caress the one,
The never-fading rain in your heart
The tears of snow-white sorrow

Caress the one, the hiding Amaranth
In the land of the daybreak

Apart from the wandering pack
In this brief flight of time
We reach for the ones, whoever dare

You believe but what you see?
You recieve but what you give?

[2x]
Caress the one,
The never-fading rain in your heart
The tears opf snow-white sorrow

Caress the one, the hiding Amaranth
In the land of the daybreak

Reaching, searching, for something untouched
Hearing voices of the never-fading calling

[2x]
Caress the one,
The never-fading rain in your heart
The tears of snow-white sorrow

Caress the one, the hiding Amaranth
In the the land of the daybreak

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18433578/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18433578/ Wed, 21 May 2008 15:37:13 PDT
It's getting worse every day,
soon it might get to the point where she pushes me down the stairs.

She punches, kicks, pinches, yells, threatens, and critizizes.
And, the cops think it's all disaplinary.
But, if I hit her it's mother fucki'n battery!
My bro already got arrested twice for "said" battery.

help.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18231032/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18231032/ Thu, 08 May 2008 17:32:32 PDT I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of

is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowley losing you.

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real

I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thrist for you
Oh how I need you

Breathing life

Waking up My eyes
Open up

Don't leave me alone

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18207220/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18207220/ Wed, 07 May 2008 06:00:45 PDT
I'M GONNA HAVE A NEICE OR NEPHEW!!!!!
WHOOO!!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18197833/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18197833/ Tue, 06 May 2008 14:35:33 PDT
And, I gave Johnny the note.
He didn't over react when he was done reading it,
but, his sister katie told me that he was mad.

Now I regret even writing the thing.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18183691/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18183691/ Mon, 05 May 2008 16:03:25 PDT I'm not going on DA for a while, because I'm depressed.
I 'll talk later.
bye.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18144466/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18144466/ Sat, 03 May 2008 07:03:52 PDT
And, the reason why he won't is because, for his 50th birthday he got a African Safari to South Africa, and the date of both events sota collide.

It's not fair if he doesn't show up to mine because, he showed up to my brother's confermation, and my brother isn't really his real son.
My dad adopted Matt because, my brother's real Dad left him when he was a baby.

And, do you know what my Dad does if he doesn't show up, he sends his subsitute.

His wife, my step mom Sandy and, I really degrade her, and it would really hurt me if she only came and, not him.

I think to myself somtimes, that it would be easier if I were aethiest or that it's not worth the pain.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18088093/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18088093/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 15:04:13 PDT
but sayi'n that to Justin,

even if he's soft or not,

or even if you were joking,

he didn't deserve that.

Friends wouldn't do that.

And, I'm calm right now.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18036814/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18036814/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:41:49 PDT because I kept on skipping his weekends for stuff I had to do.

But, then I get a call for my dad sayi'n,

"Sorry, but I can't take you this weekend,
because I have to work to earn money for matt's dental bills."

My stupid brother eats too much candy and,
he had suckish dentists that didn't notice the cavities,
which are now root canals.

2,000 dollars a root canal.

I really want to see him,
because I've been having these visons about him getting killed in, car accidents and,
at work.

He's not really that fast anymore,
he's 50 years old.

And, I'm just worried.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18010968/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/18010968/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 17:07:45 PDT Shakira-vs-Carleen, it was pretty one sided, with Shakira as the winner.
This is how it happened, it started out as an arguement between Shakira and Carleen, then Carleen decided to talk tall.
Then, when Carleen had her head turned, Shakira walked over and, grabbed her by the hair dragged her over to the center of the cafiteria and, just started knocking her senseless. Punching her, kicking her, Shakira even bit the janitor and, hit the vice princible.
She got arrested after that and, Carleen has the nerve to say we'll have another fight on Monday to see who the real winner is.
Wow, she does not know what just hit her.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17853779/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17853779/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 18:06:11 PDT I saw.......... DISCRIMINATION!!

The cruel things that people say and,
do about emos, just makes me sick.

Like, "I wish my grass was emo,
so that it could cut itself,
or, No emos allowed,
and this cheer up emo kid."

They should all just shut the fuck up,
we have a right to be what we want and,
they have no say in it what so fucking ever.

I curse all who think us emos, goths,
and punks should be made fun of like this.

They should all walk in our shoes for once,
and see that we have reasons for being like this.


FUCK YOU ALL HATERS AGAINST EMOS, GOTHS,
AND PUNKS ALIKE!!!!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17768801/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17768801/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 18:05:43 PDT besides the fact that he's the HOTTEST GUY IN THE WORLD,
is the fact that he's not a virgin.

OMFG, I wonder, that fact has been on my mind 4-EVER,
along with him they both take up my mind.

I draw pictures of him and I all the time,
and last time I saw him he was staring at me.

When, I was at his house for the weekend,
his little brother CJ was having a B-day party,
and while I was sweeping the padeo,
he was (again) staring at me.

Sometimes, I think he has the hots for me, too.

I mean, why else would he be staring at me?

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17640971/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17640971/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 19:25:14 PDT
johnny is a guy who's nice, fun, funny, and my style.

he's also a trouble maker (sorta) but that doesn't matter.

he's got troubles with his past and his parents like i do.

he's also very cute, he's tall, pale, has long dark bangs and dark red fluffed up hair in the back, he wears black and white all the time because he's color blind (sorta a little), he's an artist and a cook, and he's just so mystrious.

the bad part is that he's 17 and i'm 14, but it could work out, maybe.

hopefully.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17532073/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17532073/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 20:16:41 PDT you'll think i'll need to be closed off and locked.
If your a emo,punk, or goth you'll think of me as a friend,
because i'll be a depressed girl to the very end.
You see my soul, mind, and body have been hurt in the past,
even though it never lasts.
But, on the inside it's a spinning top of pain and torrment,
and in those times everything I had was spent.
The core of this pain you ask,
is my own mother, who I would like to shove into a flask.
She's been a bitch to me most of my life,
she's almost made me commit suiside, by sliceing my throat with a knife.
I'm all alone in this world of death and sorrow,
and my likeliness of living is narrow.
I also live in the getto of my city,
and there's no need to pity.
Because I still have a little fighting spirit,
and my heaven, of course I'm near it.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17506673/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17506673/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 09:42:20 PDT My God, that girl is as scary as hell!!
When she crawls out of that hole of hers, brrrr.
It's like you go to bed turn off your T.V., and all of a sudden it turns on all by itself, brrrr.
Samara is just so mother fucki'n creepy, and ugly.
I had nightmares because of that movie!!
And, that video tape of hers is so creepy, too!!

IT'S JUST SO CREEPY!!!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17488470/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17488470/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 08:19:32 PDT still can't find what keeps me here.
when all this time i've been so hallow,
inside.
i know your side
watching me, wanting me, i can feel you pull me down,
fearing you, loving you i won't let you pull me down.
haunting you i can smell you, a knife,
your heart pounding in my head.
watching me, wanting me, i can feel you pull me down.
seething me, raping me, watching me.
watching me, wanting me, i can feel you pull me down,
fearing you, loving you, i won't let you pull me down.

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17368047/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17368047/ Sun, 16 Mar 2008 18:07:01 PDT i really hate leaving him and having someone else drop me of at home.
i didn't even get to say see-ya to him before i left.
when i was only 5, i saw him pack up and move out.
that day still haunts me till now.
and, i'm haveing these visons and nightmares dealing with his death.
and sometimes those visons and dreams i have come true.
he's the only TRUE parent i have.
and, i don't anything to happen to him.

what do u think?

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93 http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17317790/ http://maddyXkankuro93.deviantart.com/journal/17317790/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 15:03:29 PDT He would say, "oh, maddy you smell like dipers." or "you're a hoe!"
And, so i desided to ignore him and, do u know what happend?
He started to bitch about me not talking to him!!!
Then, he started asking everybody "who upset maddy?"
And, i'm sitting there like "dude, your that retarded!?!"
He's such and gay fucking bastard!!

NINJA OUT!!

]]> ~maddyXkankuro93