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BAHH..
So today I went on my religion retreat today!
It was fasinating,
I mean I may be aethist...
But just the history and the many points of view,
Are interesting?

So anything we went to both the buddist and sihk temple?
It was really cool!
When we went to hindu temple...
HOLY EFFING SHIT IT WAS HUGE!
AND MARBLE!!

IT WAS SO EFFING BEAUTIFUL!!! :D
Guess who ruined that for me?
Wallen (sp?)!!!
(UPDATE LATER)

BACK!
Okay anyway since you the audience know I am aethiest..
He didn't...
And hearing things that he was trying to convert people...
Two people at school I know of also,
One graduated and one in my grade :P
Yeahh, I gotta admit..
I was sorta scared! Dx

It took me TWO YEARS.
TWO EFFING YEARS Dx.
So yeah, and being in a hindu temple...
Shouldn't we be talking about hinduism...
Not CHRISTIANITY?!?!?!
FML.

Anyway he suddenly, OUT OF NOWHERES-VILLE...
He asks me "if you believe in God...blah blah blah"
Of course I was sitting there like a dolt...
And like staring at my teacher,
Then you hear like half the class laughing!
(Since probably they knew I was aethiest, and well, why would you ask someone like me that?)
Of course if that pissed me off very much....
LAWLS I didn't answer back...
But gawd the ruined my experience there...
BLAH!

RELIGION YOU HAUNT ME A LOT...
AND FRANKLY...
IT'S STARTING TO PISS ME OF REALLY.

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]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Interesting Voices... http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28532835/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28532835/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 16:30:12 PST



[link]





[link]
Listen to this azn boy...he's fabulous :D

Anyway, been thinking about interesting voices...
Well musically....yeahh...
There is so many interesting voices when I went to Jam Night a WHILE AGO.
I have mentioned this sometime ago...
Gonna mention it now :3.

Hmmm...when Walcott came on,
I though his voice was cute :P
How can I explain cute voices...I can't...sorry xd
And when Strazz came on...
PHJESUS FELL IN LOVE WITH HIS VOICE!
My Love by Justin Timberlake...<3
I HEART IT SO MUCH.

Famous people: MAYDAY PARADE AND THE ACADEMY IS OMGOSHH SO AWESOME LIVE!
THANK GOD I GOT THE TICKETS AND WENT WITH FRIENDS :3

Lmfaoo anyway...just wanted to know...
Who's voice you think is...hot? :P
Or whatever...famous, not famous..
No matter what...
Their voices shall touch our hearts :3

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Why would you fights like that so early? http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28517082/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28517082/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 19:26:14 PST Gonna run out of days to write with free skins...
So here goes!

This morning,
I sorta was woken up by my mom,
So she was saying:
"Why don't you believe in God anymore?"
(Yes people I was born Catholic...typical filipino chick xD)
"Urgg...MEHH."
And so whatever time this was...
JESUS CHRIST IT WAS EARLY!

The ranting goes on and on...
Until she leaves and I go back to sleep.

Doesn't that annoy you?
I mean it's my personal decision to convert to aethiesm.
Why would you want to question what's with the sudden change?
By the way, it wasn't xD
It took me about two years to figure it out...
Lol high school years ehh?

So yeahh...
ERMM...
HAHAHAHAHA...

Anyway other words to squeeze in this?
Lmfao new poem:
[link]
I was having a epiphany?
I dunno what is was...
But it made me realize...
How much I deny a lot of things...
God...
Wanting love...
Bunch of idiotic things.
Honestly.
And this is why my friends...
I am an emo kid :P.

Hahahaha I would never mean it on typing/writing,
The words "I love you"
OBVIOUSLY.
So yeahh, I can safely say Roshaan...
ROFLWAFFLES I don't like you like that ;]
Too bad for you!
HA!
I get to say that...
Due to well,
You'll stalk this and read :D.

But really,
We joke too much dude,
And your a test subject...
That somewhat exploded in my face. x]

Hahaha if anyone wants to know what I'm refering to experiments I conduct...
TOO BAD YOU WILL NEVER KNOW. x]

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 People Are Slowly Getting Even More Shallow... http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28396164/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28396164/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:26:29 PST


I've been thinking about a lot of things lately...
This may be the cause of well....
WRITER'S BLOCK.
AGAIN.
MAN...

I need to write...
It's like my substitute for drugs,
It's the coffee that keeps me awake.
BAHH.

So anyway getting back on track here:
Shallow people.
Ain't cool at all.
Honestly...
This is why people -points at self-
Have really REALLY REALLY low self esteem.
And to remind myself of this living cry for help and misery:
That the world has the more chances of being imploded because of the stupidity of us humans,
Everyone is shallow,
ADDING MYSELF TOO.
Was watching DYTV this morning (school channel)
And there was this realling long commercial and people commenting on like what would you like in the opposite sex.
By the way...it was never meant for the blood testing thing at school coming....LIKE FAIL.
And it was suppose to be only thirty seconds :P
EPIC FAIL.

It just made me think...
As much as some of those people mentioned personality...
Most of them mentioned looks.
It really annoys me.
Or maybe due to the fact to us,
Looks will get you somewhere in this society?
I'm sick of it.
IT JUST EFFING ANNOYS ME.
It really does...



]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Rocking Out @ The Guvernment! :D http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28357729/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28357729/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:20:59 PST In such a happy mood :D
I was gonna be typing this out yesterday..
But I was REALLY tired from concert! ^^

Friday the 13th my friends...
Went to the Guvernment to watch The Fall Ball Tour with headliners The Academy Is and Mayday Parade! <3

There were a lot of problems on the way to Toronto
I) TIME
II) GPS being a fag
III) Friend didn't get directions
IV) Food held us up and we eat for like an hour xD

My goodness...LMAOO
Anyway when we got there...
LONG ASS LINE!
Leik OMGOSHNESS!
And then my guy friend...well he was actually the only guy there xD
Wanted to go to the bathroom :P
What a fail at life xD
You know...
Well we did go...
There was a lobsars...I forgot what that other building WAS CALLED.
So yeahh went there to go to bathroom.

Anyway when we got back the line got shorter...ain't that SICK?
And we went in, and honestly, I felt like a little kid!
It was my first concert...
Okay really I had that feeling since I got out of my my girl friend's parent's car! :P
And we tried to get merch from the Mayday Parade one...and they ran out of all the good shirts...-sadface-
So we went into the crowd a little bit after putting stuff away...and getting freebies :P

OH MY GOD IT IS A CLAUSTOPHOBIC'S NIGHTMARE COME TRUE.
Yeahh I sorta am...not enough to like....YEAHH.
Anyway I got split up from one girl friend (okay remember there is four of us, so the ratio was three girls to one guys xD) and like I was like always meeting up with my guy friend and my girl friend.
I felt like a really awkward azn kid again in that crowd...here's a few examples of that:
I)Holding a random guy's hand thinking it was my girl fiend's hand.
II) Getting cussed at by a significantly shorter groupie scene girl.
III) Getting hit by the back of the hand....turning out of be someone crowd surfing...

Anyway TOO MANY TO MENTION!
So yeahh after all of that...
MAYDAY PARADE IS SO AWESOME LIVE
AND THE ACADEMY IS!
WILLIAM BECKETT WAS GORGEOUS WITH SUSPENDERS.
And such, I gots a black t-shirt with sick colours saying The Academy Is!
That's about it....lots of chaos on the way back...
And went back to girl friend's house and had to drop off guy friend once picked up by dad around...12:30ish?
Didn't get home till 12:50...so tired then went to sleep till like 1:30 due to going to work the next day and needed a serious shower.

YEAH THAT WAS MY DAY :3
IT WAS SO SICK AND OMGOSH MY FIRST CONCERT WAS OMGOSHH I LOVED IT SOO MUCH <3

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 To Hold Hands Is To... http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28316518/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28316518/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 15:55:09 PST I am suffering through internal bleeding.
Like years worth of it.
Please.
End THIS.
FATALITY.
LMFAO.

Sorry, I tried to make that funny...
-Goes to emo corner-
Besides, I'm gonna enjoy the free skins on dA for a while...
LOVES IT :3

Anyway, I'm gonna talk about something...
Yeahh SOMETHING!
So listen up :P.

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot lately,
Even though I don't have a boyfiend, like at ALL...
There are some strange men that has come into my life.
What would you call them...
Distractions?
They are like...
Nice, whatevers.
Anyway, I think they just pity me.

They hug me, make lots of love jokes.
If I name them...
Lawls, they would kill me XD
It's nice,
But as much as I have a HUGE CRUSH ON THIS ONE GUY.
There are those guys that distract.
Sometimes I wonder xD.
They ain't my type....
Sorreh lovelies :3.

And even though I WOULD SOUND RACIST...
LAWLS.
One brown guy (hahaha...hint and thanks to Elysia...LMAO...it's a friend of mine :P), maybe one azn, and two black guys in particular.
What is this?
Crazy people...
I hearts...
But I don't deserve to be loved anyway.
And like I said, at some point,
I think I'm just being pitied.

DAMMIT!
Why can't the guy I want just...
BLEH ALL HUMANS SOMETIMES.
Like. BOO!
]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Crazy...simply CRAZY. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28278391/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28278391/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 19:18:14 PST Because apparantly my friends are reading this...
Shall I keep it sane this time?
PFFF YEAHH RIGHTT.

I'm gonna be moody, especially this week.
GAHH.
Mhm my friends...mhm.

Anyway...I've always had those feelings..
Regret...Non-living.
Some people are shocked when they read that.
Like really, it's only because you don't know me that well yet.
Sheese.

I dunno, I wanna get better.
But part of me...just doesn't.
I've felt unloved,
And left behind.
I'm just...I guess in my subconsiousness...
Looking to be love and be loved.
MAYBE?

Like really...
I'm going insane.
LIKE INSANE.
Problems.
Don't know what to do with life.
Don't wanna do anything.
Don't have motivation.
Don't have the heart for life.

Well, ain't that something?
I'm surprised at some point that I'm still alive.
I really am.
Why don't I have done it yet?
Like because I was insane enough to make a pact...
With my ex.
Please, I would, and should have shot myself there.
Actually, preferably I would have shot him.
What a dolt.
REALLY.

Anyway, gonna go...
Don't wanna say anymore..

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Blood on the Morning Daisies. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28107671/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28107671/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 14:16:32 PST I'm alright, or as alright as humanly possible I COULD BE.

Ahh this week, gonna chill out at my friend's house.
HOPEFULLY? :P
The week after...Alternative Press Tour with Mayday Parade and The Academy Is...
Yes my LIFE!

My life hasn't been the best, to say the least.
I mean you know..lately I've been trying to diagnose myself and figure out what the effing hell is wrong with me.
Ohhh boy, don't let your friends or family get involved with that diagnosis...because well :P

Last week..other week..? I was really depressed, to the point I was having these CRAZY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS IN THE BEGINNING OF MY EFFING FOURTH PERIOD CLASS HOLY PHJESUS.
Yes...you can put it like that :3
Oh man, my one girl friend was not there (having NO CLUE where she was).
Really noob...:P
I joke, I <3's you xD
Well I was gonna go insane and I had no one else to find...but guess who was there...OH MY LIFE. FML.
Quite...engaging conversation till almost the end of the period?
Oh ho. Do I have to encypt another work of art to tell you guys who it is? XD

I dunno...I haven't told ANYONE about it (well just vaguely to whoever) but man WHY ME?!?!
I can't REALLY get into it...but let's say it involves me being stupid...very stupid Dx
It's just like Jam Night all over again...wait that was like a week after BUT!
But at Jam Night I told this azn dude with the super saiyen hair it was sick (which it is...mind you).
I had the guts that my friend didn't (yes the noob LOL)

Mehh. I'll Live.
Maybe.
Loves?
Maybe not?
You decide...
I wish he did XD
<3

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Great...mental breakdown xD http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28050694/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/28050694/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 17:36:53 PDT Fever, bloody coughs, and of course...sniffling?

Gahh getting sick sucks, and partly due to the fact I mut be getting sick due to this damn depression....BAHH.

Today I was suppose to go see Paranormal Activity today with my friends...wait either way I couldn't go due to how yesterday I didn't call my parents when I was out really late from Jam Night. Man FML.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Oh Problemss problemss, http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27806346/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27806346/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 21:46:50 PDT I got off work...and FML I had caffine!
URGGG.
And I have to go to Yolkdale tomorrow,
FML.

I had to just let it out, slowly...
Gezz like internal bleeding.
Gahh it's horrible!

People don't really understand.
I have problems too.
I have a bloody past.
I suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).
If people knew..
What it's like to live life with a guilty concience for the rest of your life.
I won't let them.
Never.

It's been hell here people.
And lately...
I've felt like I've been left behind.
I mean I always feel that.
But here's the thing...
It's been more...simutanious?
It's weird.
I saw it coming.
See...
Reckless gene and is good at predicting bad things that will happen to yours truly.
That's a great combination.

My friends are getting into relationships.
And I get left behind.
Friends are leaving me out.
The wrong guys are liking me.
BAHH.
WOOT.
PFFF.
Yeahh right.
Can't it be the right guy for once?
Maybe like most of the time for once?
The guy I do like well...
I can't even totally make sense around him.
GREAT.

This is why at some point I'm better off anti-social.
Won't have to deal with humans.
I can't get too close with anyone.
Many people will think they are close to me.
But really,
I'm limited on words.
But unlike Twitter,
Which has a 140 word limit xD.

If I explode,
That my friend,
Means I'm DEAD.
But the bogeyman will get me.
For sure.
UUHHHGG.
I'm just coding it.

I'm better off dead.
Friends won't have to deal with me.
Family don't have to worry about a lazy bum like me.
I would be erased from human existace.
But I still have that deal.
I'm gonna have to get around it somehow...

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Happy Thanksgiving guys! :D http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27692283/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27692283/ Sat, 10 Oct 2009 17:37:43 PDT It's been a while,
Canadian Happy Thanksgiving!

No more projects!
I've been worried about two projects for this whole damn week and so my sleeping patterns are seriously FAR OFF!
FREEDOM!
I sleep till like 1 in the afternoon!
Yeahh, I'm THAT TIRED!
But I have work tomorrow....
BAHH

Just grateful that well...
Family, friends...the sun?
Lol I was watching Knowing and Angels & Demons today :P
SICKK MOVIEESSSS!!
Yeahhh there's just something fasinating about apocalyptic movies!
The Day After Tomorrow anyone?
I loved that movie?
See what I mean?
What a presimist I am ROFLCOPTER!

I haven't been writing lately because well, sort of writer's block.
Except for Rebelling Is Too Hard Too Do All Alone.
Which would be here:[link]
Hahaha, typical.
Another love poem.
Seriously...
BAHHH.
Haha oh noess :D
FML.

I've only told one person :P
TEEHEE~
Yeahh no offence any others who are my friends...
LOL you don't need to know yet!

Oh yeahh look at this commercial: [link]
Lol the girl that plays Mizuki from Hana Kimi japan live drama version
LOLZ
Though the idea with Pocky...
We should people, Valentine's Day anyone?
FREE POCKY :]
And the awkward part....UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Imma gonna go,
Watching The Proposal!
YESS :]

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Cosplaying and such...? http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27486469/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27486469/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 13:42:07 PDT So yeah I've been thinking about a lot of things lately.
Well not so much, but yeahhh :P

Today I did my speech today....on anime?
Man I havent't dont that since grade 7?
It was sorta epic :D
I was cosplaying as Misa,
And dude I was inprovising everything!
It was that AMAZING :D
So yeahh you might see some pics of that a BIT LATER.

And at the same time,
I was thinking about semi-formal
I really don't wanna go
Might as well just go to prom!
Will probably be forced too D:
GAHH
Yeahhh myself in a dress..?

NO.
PFFFF
NO.

That's till February,
But mann!
I think it's at that place where Anime North takes place too!
All I know it's in the Pearson Airport area :D
ANIME NORTH!!!
Yeahh I know I'm thinking about it WAY TOO EARLY D:
But that makes me me, right?
Dates.....bahhhh
BAHHHH
I gotta go before I get sick to my stomach...
BYE <3

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 All in the day of an actress. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27229718/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27229718/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 15:13:19 PDT
[link]

Man what a brutal day!
I tell you man I tell you D:
All day, all I could really focus on was my audition,
And man, did I blew it up good.
AGAIN.
FUCK.
WHY?!?!?

Short term memory lost,
That's what.
-CRIES-
I memorised all of it....
AND YET I CRACKED!!!
I feel like I'm in grade 9 again on my first audition Dx
Kareem and Steven tried to make me feel better,
It worked, but it doesn't last long.
I am such a preministic person.
You know that saying,
"The worst critic in the world is you."

YEAH THAT IS ME.
YEAHHH D:
Well you know what's the strangest thing though?
I still get into the plays.
Never the one I want,
But still, I DO.
HOW DO I DO THAT??
I dunno, but I have to go now.
Enjoy your turon my filipino buddies, because I am :D

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]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Devious Journal Entry http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27043268/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/27043268/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 20:57:29 PDT Yeahh just wanted to make this official,,,
Man it's really LATE at night D: Oh yeahh, I have finished Blood+ anime and that makes me HAPPEH!! VERY HAPPEH!!
BHUAHAHAHA!!

I went to Niagara-on-the-Lake today! With Tita, Uncle, and her friend!
Went to winery...I think I got a LITTLE DRUNK.
I am a whimp when it comes to acholol...sucks.
Aww well...:P
Had lunch at a place called Little Red Rooster.
Then went around this old fashioned British looking downtown (sorta).
Went to Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory at first!
Got free ice cream from a random set of people, well a family.
It was very kind of them :3
FREE ICE CREAM TASTES BETTER THAN PAID ICE CREAM!
Well they had too much ice cream so the lady gace it to me :D
It was awkward, but yeahh I took it and said my thank yous.
Of course :D

Well nothing much after that,
Went back home and eat,
Finished BLOOD+
:D :D :D
So yeahh now tomorrow going to CNE for airplane show...
It's gonna be SO crowded!
I was gonna invite a friend of mine to go meet me there,
But it's fine,
He might be busy with this GF.
Whatever, it's fine :D

Just short...
REALLY TIRED!

FROM LIVEJOURNAL...might use it as official journal instead XD

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Ahhh BRAIN-ACHE!!!! http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26879844/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26879844/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 16:35:15 PDT
So basically....
I'M DYING.
DYING!
Why the asian kid...HUH....HUH!?!?!?

Sorry :D
So yeahh I'm trying to feel better by watching either Sxephill or watching Blood+ xD
EPIC FAIL MUCH?
Oh yeahh have I ever mentioned that I got Goth the movie from Pacific Mall a little while ago (in other words a few days ago) and sadly...IT HAS NO FUCKING ENGLISH SUBTITLES?!?!! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! It was a very sad time Dx So yeah it only has I'm presumming Cantonese and Mandrid subtitles...Yeahhh I wish I can understand that...or Japanese so all I have to do is watch the raws instead...AWESOME-NESS INDEED!

Oh my sweet sweet Kanata...YAY I was just happy I can't see him on screen, and besides I have the novel...so I'm sorta good? Oh boy...I gotta go, before like I go crazy from not watching my Blood+ And if anyone has the translated version of Goth...that would be awesomes...since I [u]HAVE[/u] been waiting for like EVER :D And Fanexpo started today, AnimeCon is there! -GASP- I wanna go SOO BAD! D: And sadly...I cannot..what a sad ending D:

Peace out! :3

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 I want to re live some parts of my life... http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26742806/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26742806/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 20:44:24 PDT
I wanna go and re-live some parts of my life, send that guy my way. Where do I get my ideas? Best way to think strange things is when I'm about to go to bed :D Ohh man. Re-live.

And right now I'm dying from boredom at the moment at party...parents and other adults are like ranting since like forever!!!!! D:

So...if you would be given the chance of re-living a moment in your life, what would it be? Me...well, you might know XD

SOOOO DYINNGGGGG....HELP MEE!!! D:
Okay...ermmm...bye? :P

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 What's your phobia? http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26525444/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26525444/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 11:16:58 PDT I'm afraid of a lot of things. Lol. But in particular I am afraid of getting on a transit bus. Going to Pacific Mall on Tuesday next week and we (as in my friends and myself) to get there D: About like four buses...three hours on a bus? Gahhh as long as we don't get lost...and get lost...AHAHAHA oh mannn :P

So what's your phobia?
Heights?
Being alone?
Chicken...?

Well short and sweet <3

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 House is british? SWEET :) http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26411662/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26411662/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 21:08:49 PDT Omgoshh I am so happy to say that I finally finished Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World! YES! Now I just have to replay it to get all of the sidequest...which sucks because I was never good at that sort of thing. Though for the facts that my cousin is a hell lot better than me at doing such sorts, so yeahh I'll give it a try. (Yeah I played the first Tales of Symphonia duhh, I own it!)

So yeahh I dunno what else shall I report? I am bored with my life, I am slowly unlocking a potential life sentence of death that is hanging in the balance of my life, which really sucks. Well it ain't really a life sentence, just suicide. It's really hard, I don't know who to talk to, my time feels short. Yet I do have enough drive to have lived as long as I have, well that's goodie to know. -Sighs- Well I'll get over it eventually, I might have developed a bipolar disorder, meaning the real thing. I want to change, and change I shall...again.

Wow it's so much fun to rant about such things. I guess I'm like House like that LOL. I love the show House, didn't know he was british you know. It is pretty cool. We have a lot in common...in some ways.

But I feel love in my veins, and it sucks because I am just losing it. It's like I need it so bad or I can't keep my promise to my little brother, and another such person I have made a promise I have REALLY regret.

Nothing makes sense of what I am typing, partly due to me being REALLY sleepy, but I must pursue the road that will lead me to redemption, where hopefully not clinging to an idea of that love is in my hands. I leave with Crazy thoughts, and goodnight.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Deja Vu Dreams? http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26198101/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/26198101/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 19:53:04 PDT
So anyway a Deja vu dream is basically is a dream you would have known you've had before! For me: I've been having a lot lately! It's strange, because it makes me feel like an idoiot no matter what the dream was, it sends me a message of that I've been making repeated mistakes of something! D: It's scaring me! So yeah I had work today, and I woke up at 5:30 in the morning MAD! I've had this dream a few times in a few alternate ways so yeahh Xd WAKING UP ANGRY IS NOT GOOD FOR WORKING PERSON! Dx It's really weird though, I've never woken up angry before =\ So what do you think guys? I'm losing it? (Well probably :D)

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Thinking too hard is my speciality! :D http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25993349/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25993349/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 19:55:06 PDT HURRAA!!! Okayy...had to get that out of my system!~

Anyway I just wanna rant quickly due to the fact that I'm trying to go through Prince Hours to the end of episode one XD Yes...so you know when you think about significant moments in your life, it tends to be a powerful memory right? I have one of those memories, and unfortunately, I am driven to regretting it to be honest. I know I would be a nutter to even mention this sort of thing...BUT YEAHHHH.

For a girl for the most part, your first kiss is like...an epic sorta thing. Why do I say my moment of shine is a regret? It's because of the inconsiderate/arrogant jerk who I kissed. The thing is, if anyone ever mentions it, I just get chills. And you know what? I never really truly heard the end till I got out of school =( Here's the thing, the only reason people even fucking knows about it is due to the fact, that somehow after two years since this event, he goes around mentioning it! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?! It's annoying, and a lot of people knows now because of him. Since it's true, there is really no point of denying it...denial is BAD to have with you, especially NOW. :( It's a private thing, and if you wanna feel higher up, your using me? FUCK YOU.

I've told (not even joking) two people of my true feeling when this happened in grade ten...great grade eleven is gonna be hell for me sheese...If there was a time where I'd love to be a sadist, it would be now, like Bellalix Lestrange (spelt wrong sorry XD). Wait a minute, I must have mentioned to someone also to kick him if EVER they see him...I forgot who that was? SORRY.

It's weird that I'm thinking about this at the moment. But me, I've been having SERIOUSLY weird dreams, and as you know, "dreams manifest your inner desire" AND FUCK FUCK FUCK THIS SUCKS. I don't like him anymore at all for sure...besides apparently he's hitting on like some other girls that is totally out of his league, as Mitch Fatel says: "and that makes me happy" in a way that he has no chance :) So by chance...I would LOVE to change the person that it's been done :D

Okay I'm done now :D

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Hey Mad Hatter...can I have your hat? http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25775270/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25775270/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 13:36:21 PDT It's really sad for me to say but dude I ain't going to warped....DANG IT's THIS FRIDAY TOO :(

This SUCKS.
Danggg.
Anyway I have some good news!~
I gots a job at Tim Hortons!
I am soo happeh! :P

That's a real scale thing...
I really wanna get some of the things to get on my list of things to do done by the end of the summer:

1) Make videos for youtube
2) Go chill out in Toronto (TWO WEEKS ROM, August 1st Spidina so stay tuned...there should be more dates for a chill day)
3) Get started with a cosplay costume of some type
4) JOB! (CHECK)
5) Get more manga books (CHECKISH AND STILL GOING)
6) Continue to write poems (coming soon to dA ASAP)
7) Watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blooded Prince (I SO WILL!!!! :D)
8) PACIFIC MALL: SO AZN LIKE THAT! ^^

^_^ Really hyper due to cookies...should get more! See yeahh laters to all who watch me...?
Wait who does??? -Stares at screen with extreme sad face-

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 It's summer and time for Warped Tour '09~~~ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25502319/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25502319/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 18:32:57 PDT

It's summer time~~ YESS!
I'm right now trying to get a job LOL Tim Hortons and Sobeys (job fair tomorrow ^^)
Pray for me that I do get a job! I'm poor :)
So yeah because there's Warped Tour '09 which I really wanna go to this year!!

[link]
ROFLWAFFLES.
Toronto people...GO YOU ROCK LOVERS =D
It would be awesome too if you donate me money ;)

OMG it's gonna be my first rock concert (actual famous bands) LOL Supernova...some of my friends have bands and they had a gig on Saturday before at the Sound Academy XD
Vote for Assuming Sleepless :D
Though c'mon...they have another singer??
Darren this time?
Darren your a good singer :)
Gezz what happened to Danica?!?!
You know what...whatever XD

Probably gonna go with some of my friends!
It's really sad due to the fact that a lot of them have summer school to fast track D:
-extremesadface-
I'M ALONE.
NOOO~~~~
Better get Domo-kun then :D

I'm quite high!~
No not drugs that's for sure :P
Anyway gotta get back in like looking in my piggyback for money...
PHJESUS what does it take to get money here!!!

-hearingcrashingsoundslikeithurtalotsortofyeahh-

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Quick jotting of the notes...-poke- http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25311292/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25311292/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 14:43:00 PDT Yeahhh...OH GEZZ!
Anyway nothing new-ish much.
Well I've been sick for a month and is sorta getting better:
I CAN BREATH THROUGH MY NOSE! :D
YESSSSS!!!

[Yeah I know I'm weird, but if you can't breath properly or taste anything you would be celebrating too!]

So I'm like having this ginger/lemon brewed thing...and let me tell you...AHHH PASOO!!! [YES I'M USING MY FILIPINO-NESS]
BLEHHHHHHHHH!!!

Oh yeah...it's sooo close to SUMMER VACATION OMGOSHNESS I'M GONNA FREAK OUT NOW!~
Yeahh exams are this week, and I only have 3 exams...YES!
Then I am free to frolic for a few days and such and such :D
And report cards and then after...truly vacation :P

I need a job.
Yeppers I'm poor.
WAAH.

Oh yeahh...I gots into Comm Tech for Grade 11...YESS!!! DYTV here I come?
Actually, that class is really messed, so I really don't know if I am doing it XD
And most of the people that are doing it are like first sem, me second NOOOO!!!

Ahh...feel better!~
Summer vacation, I am free to travel...
Wait..where to exactly?
Ummm somewhere that's all I know :P

OKAY~ BYEEE~ (In other words...stop reading NOW ^w^)

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Epik High....is EPIC :D http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25039432/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/25039432/ Sat, 30 May 2009 19:43:43 PDT I'm bored and this English CPT is really wearing me out!
Well oh ho I'm sorry for being being a procrastinator (that is a long word guyss)
So Yeah Deal With It.

Anyway nothing much.
Well not nothing...but yeahh!
I've caught myself like dancing a lot more lately.
(Yes people I dance, get over yourselves idiots out there :D And I know I'm still pretty big for someone who USED to but I had to move to Brampton, blame the timing really...)
FUDGE YOU ALL.
LOL.
Sorry, really feeling angsty as well.
It's the time of the month again XD.
Or maybe...it's something else?
MAYBEH???
I might go make a video later...DURING SUMMER VACATION!
I'm free by then :P

WOW feeling pathetic lately.
-Sigh- gahhh what day didn't feel like that?
If it ain't on the front of my mind, it's at the back!
WELL.
That's badddddddddddddd :P
It's the emo/goth side.

Yeahh.
I've been through some pretty bad shit in my life.

Near death experience which I blame myself for a death that was meant for me.
It's something I REALLY try my best not to talk about it.
But as of last year...drama class...
SNAPPED LIKE A TWIG THERE.
GREAT.
It's been eleven years brother...
You would have been like what...?
Twenty two by now?
You wanted to be a doctor
And because of me...
Your dead and can't fufill that wish.
Your parents must blame me because your gone.
I'm sorry.
No matter what anyone says,
I'll always blame myself because you pushed me out of the way for that bullet.
It was a freak accident.
I'm sorry brother.
Onii-sama, your gone.
And always, you will be like a brother to me.
-Sighs-

Gahh, that's just GREAT.
That's off my chest
Not completely :D
Because no one would read this...
(I pray so :P)

I'm on the brink of the edge.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Sparkly Idol: Hongo Kanata <3 http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/24146637/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/24146637/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 12:41:40 PDT I'm just saying this from a really lovestruck (only way to describe this....) FANGIRL! :3 I SWEAR! =D

So yeah back to business! Anyway I just really wanted to rant of my fav of the fav Japanese actor EVER! He's only 18, and he has already has a lot on his plate! He's also model ;). Awesome NEE~ So yeah the first time I saw him on screen when I was watching ' Prince of Tennis ' live! He was Echizen!!! He was soooo KAWAII~ And hot!! =D So yeah I watched that maybe I drooling LOL. So yeahhh that's how I got introduced to him as an actor :3.

Then I saw him on 'Nana 2' as Shin (replaced the guy who also plays L sadly) and OMGOSH! My fav character is Shin and seeing him play Shin, I was like like FREAKING OUT! I'm watching him in Seigi no Mikata right now (though I had to stop, I have to find a different video feed), Seito Shokun! (have to look for different feed too), and Himitsu no Hanazono. Yeahh I'm really juggling it right now!

He's like has three movies in the works! I heard one was called 'Goth'. So yeah hopefully I can find the video on that....or in Pacific Mall OOOOO. O.O

Yeah this is getting really long...RANT. EHEHE~ Anyway I think he is a really good actor and is hot and cute and YEAHHH! -Squels- :3 He's like my IDOL!

Wonder why I call him 'sparkly idol' ? Well that's because...you know those moments when you see someone on a Japanese drama they add the sparkly background to emphazise you know pretty-ness and what not? That's what I saw when I saw Kanata-kun :3. No special effects necessary! He is that AWESOME!

Holy CRAP. BIG RANT.

ABOUT. A. JAPANESE. KAWAII. HOT. GUY. NAMED. HONGO. KANATA. <3

~Yeah I'm really done now! JA NE!

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 HAPPY HOUR! http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/21816952/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/21816952/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 20:45:16 PST
Sorry, really bored! But to be honest...wait yeah! You know what is making me so happy right now? Getting over a GUY! It's the greatest feeling ever! Not that he is aware that I like him for a bit of a while of a bit XD. I'm just glad it's over (Y)! There are other factors too on why I'm happy [REALLY LAZY TO LIKE...TELL ROFL.]

You know I've been so happy that I've been somewhat been...looking like I do crack (honestly I don't)! I've been singing like crazy during lunch LIKE GOD!! Hot N Cold by Katy Perry has been powering me up like INSANE! Also the show "So You Think You Can Dance Canada" has me very happy! FINAL FOUR I SAW LAST NIGHT!! I was voting insanely when the show was over too! NICO TOTALLY FOR CANADA'S FAVOURITE DANCER!!! I really wanna get back to go dance contemporary jazz dancing again! Okay, it's been like 3-4 years since last time I have ever danced, but I think I can pull it off! =D Well I need to find a dance academy school then XD OR like I can do swing dancing....fasinating stuff =D. BENJI INSPIRED TOO XD.

OKAY I AM DONE! SERIOUSLY! THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME RANTING LIEK DRUNK GIRL XD.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Judas Kiss. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/21188385/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/21188385/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 14:58:22 PDT
Hahaha...that reminds me, I got recommended for concelling/therapy last year...OH THE MEMORIES. I even mentioned that in front of my friends...and WELL..let's just say they were freaked out XD. NO FUCKING WAY LIKE I WOULD!! I don't need it, if I can suffer/survive through guilt and shame for 11 years and still be alive, why would I need it now?!?!?! Pathetic, honestly. I don't need some dude in a labcoat telling me, "how do you feel about that?" LIKE STFU!

Anyway past that, cosplaying again this year! WOOT! Anyway my first aim was to be Reno from FFVII but then I realised that I would look weird with the short red hair, so I thought about being Gaara. Yeah, it is so awesomeness! I'm keeping the suit, and spraying my hair red, getting the tatoo on my forehead and maybe mixing it up and getting a spiked belt or just getting a tie ^^. Though I pray that I don't get mistaken for a pretty boy and girls approach me with the "I REALLY WANNA RAPE YOU" look and then they ask for a picture. After that then when they hear me speak and tell them, "dudettes I am really sorry, I ain't lesbian." Then they all RUN AWAYS! My theory I came up with...my friend was laughing like crazy!! ROFL! Yeah I am so Macgiver XD My picture would be everywhere....GOSH.

You never know, it could happen! I have been mistaken for a man before! Several times actually...! Okay, who am I kidding? With my personality, who wouldn't think I was a dude? I'm not exactly LADY-LIKE. Ask my parents XD.

Anyways this is the end of my ranting, see you arounds :P.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Highschool Sucks. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/21095912/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/21095912/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 14:35:21 PDT
See? I'm actually writing poems basicly the involves ME (as selfish as that is, and anyway it's more DEEP if you actually experienced it). Like really the only rules that I have when I write stuff:
1) Simple!
2) Deep!! LMAO
3) Some part of me/experiences are in it!!! PWNED
.

It's a good thing people don't really read journals (and if you do, well COOL). It doesn't really matter, I'm just getting my feelings out. GEZZ it's not like I do that enough writing poems LMFAO. OR what's left of IT anyway...:] It's okay, I seriously don't need anyone's pity. Actually I would get really, REALLY PISSED OFF if you do give me that. To me if you do I don't think it would be genuine and a just a ton of BS. NOT COOL.

Oh yes, it has been offically been a year since I have started playing guitar! WOOT! =D =3 That rocks honestly...though I am quite a SLOW LEARNER. Quite sad...I won't give up at all though! Besides music, (which is doing a lot better) than my love life. OH YES, I WENT THERE XD. Well as you can see...EWWW, it's all over in my writing....like FUDGE! EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. I TOTALLY HATE IT!!! Now to me, it sounds worst than my past....O________________o

Well it isn't all BAD. Anyway I have RANTED OFF like crazy..so I will be going now....=] WHEW. I feel better nows.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Fearless? WOW. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/18979568/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/18979568/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 08:30:03 PDT If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.


If you get 10-20, you are normal.


If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.




I Fear…
[ ] black people
[ ] The dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 2

[ ] being touched by older guys
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] lightening
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 2

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] God himself
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] dentists
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 4



[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing old
Total so far: 7

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[x] throwing up
[x] falling in love
Final Total: 10


Post it with the subject - "I'm afraid of __ out of 73 fears.

]]> ~magnolia-scent26 Survey Stolen Whinnie10 BORED =D http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/18366521/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/18366521/ Sat, 17 May 2008 12:02:46 PDT
Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (causes: clumsyness, emotional)
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (its there, to an extent, im more of a guy than a girl)
[x] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing. (wished O________o)
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles. (Around one eye)

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home. (ive tried when i was younger, but i was scared shitless to go outside in the dark XD)
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday. (DUNNO ACTUALLY)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. (your a weirdo if you do)
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples
[ ] I've broken a bone
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. (umm actually my parents if it counts)
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (4 of them at once)
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (driving to the U.S)
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada. (living currently)
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan. (DEAR GOD: PLEASE LET ME GO THERE!)
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe. (I WISH SO ALSO)
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (Everyday in grade 5. )
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't. (I'm sure I have... I just don't remember...)
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've... ]]> ~magnolia-scent26 BoredAsHell. http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/15847666/ http://magnolia-scent26.deviantart.com/journal/15847666/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 11:37:50 PST
FMA Chibi OVA

LOL chibiness...*pray it works*

or not here's the link.
[link]

]]> ~magnolia-scent26