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Boo you whore.
michkyxx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/18588921/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/18588921/ Sat, 31 May 2008 07:00:46 PDT It's a rather depressing song.
Which isn't a surprise, because it's about depression, someone talking to, or at, or about - take your pick - someone who's depressed &that person wanting to let them know that they're always there for them &they're pleading for them to know that, pleading for that person not to do anything rash. I guess it can be implied that the depressed person's so far down into depression it's unlikely they realise the support they have, hence the pleading.
Pretty sure the only reason I added the very, very faint glimmer of hope there was so that it wouldn't be completely &utterly depressing which would mean people would say "emo." &to follow that, "Trust you to do that."
I wrote that song in two nights.
That's not really a long time to write a full 6min song.
I worry a bit that I thought of that particular concept &elaborated that much in that short period of time.
Hmm.

In other news, exam week coming up.
Obviously absolutely no relation to "Please Stay."
*cough*
Really quite worried about these exams. I can't afford to mess up any of them. &I've already messed up French.
&it's not so much about my benefit, more like if I get a bad result on any of these exams, les parentals will miurder me &I'll be made a hermit until November 21st without a thought.
That might not seem so bad given it IS Yr12 &I should be voluntarily doing that anyway, but I can't handle that whole self-recluse concept. It's too dreary. And I don't much like being only with myself for long periods of time.

Oh, and happy winter.
michxx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17752569/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17752569/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 18:07:25 PDT 2. My piano exam is in about a month... &I haven't had a lesson in a month. I've practiced maybe three or four times in that month. I am screwed.
3. My songs are slowly getting better, but they're still quite crap. Finished one more, will upload lyrics eventually.
4. Excitement &lanning my London trip with Gab will be one of the few things that will get me through the next 7months of my life. We're going to go to Paris for a weekend &Sweden &Spain throughout the month bwahhahah. Still looking for cheap flights, we'll probably have to go to a travel agency eventually to see if there's any good student deals~? :]
5. Formal is incredibly annoying &I can't wait until it's over.
6. I will most likely end up in Commerce, may do collaborative law... divorced couples heh. Watch them bitch about each other.
7. I have very, very, VERY little chance of getting 45 NENTER &am doubting my chances of getting the 41 I want.
8. I'm fucked for parent teacher interviews.
9. I digress incredibly easy &have a terrible attention span;; I can't focus on the one thing for more than like 15mins unless I'm REALLY into it.
10. I am currently fearing my parents may experience last-child syndrome... where they'll clutch onto me &won't want to let me go anywhere because I'll be the last one living at home.
11. Having stress-or-anxiety-or-something-psychological-&-school-related-induced issues with food at the moment. Nothing anorexic, just something wrong with my tummy, can't eat a lot, food makes me feel nauseous at the moment =/
12. Am becoming more intolerant towards religion &I don't know why.

michxx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17551978/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17551978/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 04:53:07 PDT I have a back-up dress &another potential dress that I may wear for formal should my dear Asian mother be willing enough to fork out $80.
I have a date. I think. The boy must check with the gf.

Progress reports made mumsy &daddy quite cranky &mumsy tried to ground me today but I ended up going out anyway. Am going to have to work hard to be able to go out Sunday though &sleepover >.> Don't like being locked up.

Am definitely going to have to study lots too =[ *sigh* Death to school.

michxx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17384519/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17384519/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:03:09 PDT &I get holidays from Thursday for about two &a half weeks.
YAY FOR HOLIDAYS.
About to die from school so holidays is good huzzah.
Mind you, already dying from heat =[
But byebye dA for 2wks.
There'll probably be about 50 deviations when I check it after holidays >.>
Shite, still trying to find a better dress than I already have. Though I spose if I just really cbf getting another dress, I'll just wear the green one I have ^^"
michxx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17052001/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/17052001/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 03:55:50 PST Would like to find a new, inexpensive dress.
Would like to have nice skin.
Would like to erase the shadows under my eyes.
Would like many, many things.
NEED to find a date.
God, this is so depressing.
michxx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/16603021/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/16603021/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 19:24:09 PST Hellooooooooooo Yr12.
Goodbye life as I once knew it.
Hello another year of sleep deprivation.
Goodbye free time.
Hello exams.
Goodbye childhood.

[ x ] I have two new songs up;; Dried Roses &Empty Eyes.
xx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/16198888/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/16198888/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 02:31:57 PST
Spent the next 2hrs playing pool &sharing three drinks with Kim, me having most of it &having no idea how much alcohol was in it because it tasted ridiculously sweet, so it could've been piss weak or rather strong for all I know.

I ended up feeling tired, a little sick &a little out of it as though I'd been awake for 40hrs &seeing as I'd never gotten drunk before, I only assume it was my body's way of saying, "God you're such an idiot, why did you not stop, I'm pretty damn sure you're drunk even though you're not acting any different or at least have just a teeeeeeeeeensy bit too much alcohol in you."

On the ride home I became carsick &that just triggered my body into throwing up on the front lawn of another one of Kim's cousin's when we dropped her off home. The lack of chunks of food in the puke is explained by my idiocy in eating rather little that day as I did not feel hungry at all. Plus I hadn't really planned on drinking &didn't bring money with me to buy food :] Fucking idiot.

Drank water for the next hour on Kim's brother's advice &was told to expect throwing up again, this time mostly water.

I went to the toilet in Kim's spanking new house &sat there for half a minute, wondering, "So... how's this supposed to go... should I stick my fingers down my throat to get this over with a bit quicker or do I just wait... dum de dum... somewhere over the rainbow..." My body soon responded to this odd thought with a lurch &I threw up water.

Felt much better before having a panic-attack with Kim in her room about being in Yr12 this year, then fell asleep &awoke up several times over the next few hours, feeling slightly out of it &as if merely sleep-deprived &no evident hangover. Yay.

Fantastic way to start my 2008, I'm pretty damn sure that'll sum up what's sure to be a stressful, panic-filled year, feeling out of it &feeling like I want to throw up.
I guess the better way of thinking of it as would be starting my year already learning new lessons.

Or just the realistic way of thinking of NYE: Connex sucks.

Awesome NYE overall though, most interesting one of my life. I don't think of this as a bad experience despite the fact nothing all that flash hot happened &I did end up feeling pretty sick, just quite interesting &amusing :]
xx

]]> ~maifire http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/15611267/ http://maifire.deviantart.com/journal/15611267/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 18:29:40 PST I personally had a really good time watching The Simpsons &You've Got Mail with my brother. Cocooned we were in our doonas, slowly raising our body temperatures heh &eating ice cream to cool ourselves off. Twas good.
But screw Christmas.
We know the REAL celebration lies within the hectic &vicious few hours that is the Boxing Day sales.
Apparently I'm going to the city soon with my parents to check them out &hopefully buy some stuff... I hope all the good stuff isn't gone yet
xx

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