http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:maklenard&section=today deviantART RSS for by:maklenard en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 17:08:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/19638215/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/19638215/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 09:10:30 PDT but i have been having a hard time with my chest. it kinda hurts and ive been blaming it to bad posture caused by sleeping in sofas.
But it doesnt feel like that anymore, so i'm gonna have it checked out on wed.

im hell scared ...even backout on getting drunk tonight.

On the good side of things ive been enjoying a bunch of indie comic books, i got "amazing joy buzzards, summer blonde, lost at sea, scott pilgrim, and spider-man loves mary jane" (ok, spiderman aint so indie).
For some reason their all sappy books that wasn't intentional

On the work side..i just finished directing my first commercial and preproding my second one. fun fun!

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/19253018/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/19253018/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:28:01 PDT i dont fit in yours.

sucks big time.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/18998694/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/18998694/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 09:59:49 PDT Today I went against instict, and got what i deserved.

A reality check

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/16159923/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/16159923/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 23:24:07 PST not going anywhere, im just gonna bum in my house for 2 months.
(and i wish i really do this time...last time i tried that i ended up working after 2 weeks)

This year was a complete mess.. i lost track of a lot of things so yah, i need this vacation and do damage control.

theres a lot of things in my life that i seem to forget. If it weren't for other people I don't think id remember them.
like, everything before grade 5.
or how my friend crashed his car on our front gate in drunk stupor.
or how my ex happend (no ones seen that so i have no idea how).
and things i planned to do this year that was supposed to make my year worth it.

they're happy memories and sometimes really important memories, it really sucks that i couldn't bring them to mind every time i want to. I guess i'll blame it on being such a detached person. if im here my mind wanders there. and if im there my mind wanders here.
what kinda shit is that anyway.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/16008437/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/16008437/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:19:37 PST and going around with 0 cash is kinda scary.
my gahd, whats happening to me

I finally got money last week (after being bankrupt for a while) and asked mau to deposit it to my ATM account.
then my ATM got lost in the process, so i froze the account for safety,
and prepared an afidavit of loss. but i couldnt get the card coz i dont have enough cash to pay for the
lost ATM fee thing. coz all my money was inside the ATM.
got through a week walking around town with 0 cash or any access to it.
and thank the lord that i have a restaurant that can feed me for free.
then yesterday i got checks from projects. (AH FINALLY SPENDING MONEY)
then today as i tried encashing it i found out that my driver's license has been expired for a year.
hence i couldn't encash my checks for lack of valid IDs.
bank teller told me to deposit it to my account. (which i cant coz its frozen)
now i need to find money so i could renew my ID, or get my lost ATM processed.
so I could deposit my money and wait 3 days so i could get my money.
and hopefully start living normal again and end my STUPID. FUCKING. YEAR!!!!

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/16008430/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/16008430/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:18:08 PST and going around with 0 cash is kinda scary.
my gahd, whats happening to me

I finally got money last week (after being bankrupt for a while) and asked mau to deposit it to my ATM account.
then my ATM got lost in the process, so i froze the account for safety,
and prepared an afidavit of loss. but i couldnt get the card coz i dont have enough cash to pay for the
lost ATM fee thing. coz all my money was inside the ATM.
got through a week walking around town with 0 cash or any access to it.
then yesterday i got checks from projects. (AH FINALLY SPENDING MONEY)
then today as i tried encashing it i found out that my driver's license has been expired for a year.
hence i couldn't encash my checks for lack of valid IDs.
bank teller told me to deposit it to my account. (which i cant coz its frozen)
now i need to find money so i could renew my ID, or get my lost ATM processed.
so I could deposit my money and wait 3 days so i could get my money.
and hopefully start living normal again and end my STUPID. FUCKING. YEAR!!!!

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/15995647/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/15995647/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:16:15 PST not again..

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/15912047/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/15912047/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 02:21:08 PST maybe they wont hurt as bad
lets make clowns for the holidays
maybe it wont be as sad
lets go back to nonexistence
maybe its best that way
especially when theres no other way

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/15560271/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/15560271/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 09:44:04 PST there are only the things you know.
and the things you don't know.


a fool asked a wise man
"what will happen if i take my dagger and stab it through your chest?"
"then i would die" the wise man answered
"how do you know that?" the fool pursued
"because the dagger will puncture my vital organs and my body wont be able to function without them" the wise man replied
"i THINK i if i bring my dagger to your chest you would become a bird" the fool told the wise man.
"No. i would most certainly die. When you stab a person on the chest they always die! And no man has ever become a bird" angered the wise man.
"How would you know that? Do you know every bird and man? have you ever been stabbed?" the fool asked.
"no and no" the wise man answered after some thought.
"So you don't know." the fool concluded.
"I don't know" said the wise man defeated.

The fool then drove his dagger to the wise man's chest. He was disappointed to find the wise man did not become a bird but died.

"Now we know" the fool said.

_________________________________
to be continued..


erm, was looking for a place to write. this is where i ended up haha
incase your wondering what the f that is. im drafting an essay which i know i wont finish haha

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14933916/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14933916/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 22:20:59 PDT fun stuff
great stuff

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14926588/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14926588/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 12:45:42 PDT ----

as early as i can remember, the First thing I do when I get home from school is watch cartoons
My uncle owns a family computer rental shop...we play computer games all day
My cousin draws really good, im envious.
My uncle buys a lot of Archie comics, and Astrix and TinTin, i read all of them
I want to tell stories.

12 I started collecting MAD magazines, and Spider-man. I wanted to be a comedian. and tell jokes and be funny.
I join a drama club and learn some acting. realizing how gay it was I made it a point never to go on stage and crew myself, and eat donuts.

I'm 13 years old and im watching MTV and I tell myself "wow, these animated segment bumpers are cool. I wanna learn how to do that". but have no idea where to start.
The good artists at school starts to weird me out. But they challenge me.

The internet opens up to me i play more computer games. - I love it
I learn that most of the successful artists/animators are crazy and dont have lives. I want to be sucessful.
I prime myself on becoming crazy and lifeless.

Im 15 I take notice of posters and ads, I sort of enjoy them. My godmother comes home she decorates interiors. Shes filthy rich and single and independent.
I become envious of her.

I want to go to fine arts, But i hear theres no money there. So i go for something more
commercialized and take Industrial Design.
I want to make furniture and decorate interiors.

I fall in love, fall out of love - I conclude that girlfriends aint fun, and hinders career.

Im 16 and I start college. I learn to draw boxes and do carpentry. I still watch a lot of cartoons. I know now that i cant really draw..
I enjoy life, hang out with superficial people, have more girlfriends, drink and drug a lot.
They open a new course, Multimedia Arts, they say you'll learn to make computer graphics.
Me and my friend shifts.
I enjoy my new course and for the first time in my life, starts getting good grades.
I stop drugging and pimping.

I meet someone who works a graphic designer and is sort of famous in his circles while still in college. I become envious and befriend him.
I become good friends with movie buffs and share good movies. We start a design collaboration called Hempyre. We did a lot of weed, and I remember thats not what I want.
I OJT for a web company as a graphic designer they liked what i can do.
I felt I was better than that place

Im 21, I graduate, I pass a portfolio at my working friend's office. I dont get a job, but an employee at the company asks me to help on a music video. It won an award.

I become a web designer at a small company; I still make videos on the side and enjoyed them more. The company closes

I study Cinematography.
I write scripts as a pastime
I freelance doing graphics for videos
Everyone is impressed on how young and knowledgeable I am.
I’m not impressed with me yet.
People say i work too hard

I’m 22 and I meet a girl who thinks relationships just get in the way of things especially career. She’s still and college and already working. I fall in love and I worked my career harder to impress and do lots of great things. She becomes a drug.
3 years later, still unrequited I fall hard.
I work to forget about it.
I realize girlfriends can be good too. or muses

Im 25, im not so young anymore. A lot of people are starting to learn my game.
I realize Ive been making graphics for videos for a long time now. I try out on directing
just so i get a sense of promotion.

Im 26, im writing this entry coz im sick of work. I felt ive lost my purpose and with it my wits.
But now I remember.

Im doing all this so I could be me.
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]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14116474/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14116474/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 08:26:55 PDT
]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14015601/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/14015601/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 13:25:46 PDT sinimulan sa pag basa
tinapos sa pag basag
nasawi nanaman..
lahat ng balak ko sa araw na to d ko nagawa
ayoko magsalita kasi panget raw mga sinasabi ko..
ayoko makilala kasi d raw maganda pagkatao ko..
iniisip masyado kinabukasan kaya takot mamili ng daan.
d ko kaya mag commit sa kahit anong bagay... period

laseng ang maklenard, tumatagalog sa blog.
laseng ang maklenard, hindi dahil sa tadhana
laseng ang maklenard, kasi lasengero sya
laseng ang maklenard, period

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13996737/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13996737/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 05:36:30 PDT balik sa mali

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13595526/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13595526/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 17:20:32 PDT
Im doubting its fun factor. ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13555039/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13555039/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 18:12:28 PDT idiot knowing your fighting a losing battle
retard for doing it all over again.

my love is retarded

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13537371/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13537371/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 10:09:47 PDT
haym, how could i have let that happen.
i was already weary from the start and was worried about dragging my name into it.
and now im shamed infront of my peers.
SHAMED!
i've learned my lesson...i will never rip anyone off...or work on a proj that will shame me.
so shamed that i wanna drop everything and make something out of this crappy megamiks song that were working on.

i hate the people i worked with for laughing it off without a care..
i feel like some sensei who realized that his students were evil.
I believe its ok to copy someone when what your copying speaks to you or is close to what you do.
but thats not their case...they RIPPED IT OFF!!
the concept even tho ripped off spoke to me because of the technicalities but my added inputs and art direction to the concept was shoved aside during preprod because it wasnt like the peg and would be hard to pull off coz it hasnt been done.......omg how could i have stayed on board.

i think i know myself now. i know my look. but sometimes its just hard to implement them to videos.
and helping everyone around me create their look makes me a bit of everyone, so i loose myself sometimes.
as a compositor its not really my job to create, i just layout sort of.. I hate compositing that sometimes i wish i wasnt so good at it..
amidst everyones mess i really want to find myself.

well, im starting to get a lot of directing gigs and stuff that requires my art direction.
I wish i could find myself easier this way...
I really wish id stop getting those compositing gigs...

lesson learned..time to draw

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13531730/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13531730/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 22:12:23 PDT im still fooling myself..

happy me

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13496989/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13496989/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 10:09:21 PDT i just noticed happy place is gone now...

and for a while i thought happy place was more than that...
i thought happy place would last ...
i thought i reached a state of mind and philosophy thats never gonna change and keep me bouncin till i turn to ash..

now im just irritable..
and tired...

realized that Happy place was a lie that i told myself and the people around me.
theres was no happy place.

I was actually happy for a month... happy with a lie...like before
good as it gets in this life of mine.

I used to tell people that happiness comes from accepting the truth.
these days the truth dont make things better, accepting it makes me feel pathetic.
I need another lie and find my false happiness.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13465310/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13465310/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 21:49:06 PDT treated the me, phil and heidz to dinner.
after not showing his face for a year.
i wanted to punch him in the face for worrying us, but damn...

weve known each other for 7 years.
and i havent laughed like that in a loooong time.
the last time was 2 years ago, also the last time we were all together.

group of friends with the best chemistry.
too bad theres 4 of us left..
and the funny thing is this barkada was made in an IRC chatroom.

im trying to figure out how 4 people who knew each other by annoying other people in chatrooms came to be best of friends.. heidz even called us her core group, and man she has lotsa other friends..
we just let ourselves loose when were together and laugh even if theres nothing to laugh about... i hope everyone has something like this.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13465309/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13465309/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 21:49:03 PDT treated the me, phil and heidz to dinner.
after not showing his face for a year.
i wanted to punch him in the face for worrying us, but damn...

weve known each other for 7 years.
and i havent laughed like that in a loooong time.
the last time was 2 years ago, also the last time we were all together.

group of friends with the best chemistry.
too bad theres 4 of us left..
and the funny thing is this barkada was made in an IRC chatroom.

im trying to figure out how 4 people who knew each other by annoying other people in chatrooms came to be best of friends.. heidz even called us her core group, and man she has lotsa other friends..
we just let ourselves loose when were together and laugh even if theres nothing to laugh about... i hope everyone has something like this.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13436545/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13436545/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 17:54:06 PDT someone was drunk last night.

watching camy draw day in day out makes me wanna draw.
then last night ene had some funky pens and was drawing on cards so i joined in.

never drew drunk before...
will upload what i did soon.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13417882/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13417882/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 10:05:37 PDT
im turning down so many projects..so many..and so big....

a big banana man was dancing infront of us during a meeting yesterday. (very surreal)

avids coming to the office, finally.
mah hommies needs some motivation

Im in some kind of weird place thats probably caused by the fete season

working with camy
maui talked to me after 1 yr.
tita len added me in YM.
i see ebe or joey everywhere these days last i saw either was a year ago..
joyce talked to me after 3 years.
and i saw giselle a few weeks ago.

we all kinda connected one fete ago..
Twiglight Zone maan...


its nice talking to old friends.
makes you realize how stupid stupid stupid you are or were
and how omg this is so much better than what i compare it with.

im still in my happy place which is good

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13356722/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13356722/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 13:35:41 PDT tho i dont appreciate their music much, at least they can setup good gig lineups.

the bigsky xbit was nice. modern cute

mr ballesteros (apparently not brian) is good
a bit cocky...but good
he recognizes his western influence and has a sort of vision which is kind of avids.
very marketable vision..
i wish he gets discovered or lands a good job so he'd lose that ego

team sally makes me happy in so many ways
and another good friend wants to be part of it..

y do girls i like come to me to look for jobs? its starting become unflattering.
im not even that big a racket which makes it unsettling.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13328658/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13328658/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 11:19:06 PDT
]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13316412/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13316412/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 12:37:47 PDT ME: yes, and i think she knows that...
AMY: ...you poor schmuck.

after 20+ years we can now say what kind of women i like.
and i can say that i dislike my type of women, but what can i do... blame it on freud

saw a movie last week where they explain that true happiness comes from fulfilling fetishes. icky stuff... i never cringed like that before.

and i beg to differ on their theory..

________________________________________ ________________


gabie said im awkward..
i know that.. so i'll try to list things that makes me awkward.

im awkward when:

people compliment me, again and again.. (im a humble guy)
my worlds collide (meaning different circles in 1 room, i get confused)
5 people talk to me at the same time (happens everyday)
surrounded by a conversation that doesnt really interest me
nearing a place where i will be subject to ridicule (rather not)
people make jokes that doesnt really make me laugh
people do akward things to me
too lazy to think of witty responses
restraining my resentment
showing respect
conversations dont go as planned
giving people wrong ideas
words are on the tip of my tongue

wow that was weird.. damn u social graces.
wikipedia says awkwardness comes from self consiousness... hmm ok
hope i get past myself after this.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13264911/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13264911/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 12:03:08 PDT it was a good feeling...

its starting to look like that again. surprisingly...
heres some vids thats currently airing

[link]

[link]

[link]

[link]

but no more of this. its time to do the inevitable.
SAVING SALLY BABY!

2 months to go and its already crunch time... Saving Sally's gonna suck the life out of me.

so yep, its time to shine

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13182951/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13182951/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 22:36:29 PDT but i know that the end of this road will turn me into some future version supah tough Hiro Nakamura.

the good wont be as good if it wernt for the bad.
This is true to me ever since i was a kid.
most of the situations i created for myself was based on that.

Thats why Im so in love with life now..despite everything

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13135727/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13135727/ Tue, 29 May 2007 08:44:12 PDT
just imagine me walking around makati looking for people to push my car.
after 3 batches of pushers, some officemates came in to help. So we pushed my car to the nearest parking place that charged 40 bucks an hour.

story of getting my car running would span 5 paragraphs so nevermind.
what i found interesting today is the
types of comments i recieved. everyone seems to think im in some deep shit and i seem to be oblivious about it.

PHILIP: Putanginang karma yan 3 linggo ka na nimamalas ha!
JL : Putangina ano ba pinag gagagawa mo at kinakarma ka ng ganto?!
Wally : Putangina mag simba ka nga!

yes ive had really bad days lately. day in day out something like this happens.
but all i could do is laugh.. even my annoyance is just an act.

i like these things.
these are the things that makes life worth living i guess.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13110680/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13110680/ Sun, 27 May 2007 08:21:25 PDT 3 hours of theiving ungreatful scumbag, not so great

note to self, never share

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13093625/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13093625/ Fri, 25 May 2007 20:47:06 PDT
I think i can say im a much better person from who i was a few years ago.

It was pretty wild back then, and realized i didnt really like that.
I didnt want those wasted girls and drunk conversations.
It wasnt who I wanted to be.
So I packed up and tried something else,


But i think its this better person thats making me miserable.
this wouldve been so easy 6 years ago..

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13067848/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13067848/ Wed, 23 May 2007 19:16:08 PDT
yahoo kat's gonna edit my interview

yey bamboo falls into springboard.

wowee i woke up early and ive been getting good rest
(wish i could say something similar with my eating habits)

Sinosikat vids coming down to the final strech.
means its sally sally sally time sooon, finally

i saw my dad for the first time in a week, odd considering i still live with him
yet to see my sister tho.. its been a week to

i have like more than 80k out there, PAY ME!!

Piu's moving to an office near mine.

Cowking has new street signs.

Im one arrogant bitch.

gonna see Jean Pierre today.

Gabie's being dodgy

rotates aura wheel to yellow green.

Must do some banking...

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13018472/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13018472/ Sat, 19 May 2007 21:09:59 PDT Now that my grandparents are back down under..
,my mom and mikole wreaking havoc in the U.S.
and monica hogging the dvd player.

Sundays have become booring.

makes me think about stuff
and after looking at my current situation in perspective
i conclude that there some kinda mystical conspiracy going on.
like someones gonna blow purple dust on me and turn me into a frog anytime soon.
today, unicorns and trolls are real to me.
and yesterday i was talking to myself aloud walkng around greenbelt
and realized it after maybe 3 sentences and some dude staring at me.

my dettachment from reality is getting more apparent.
scary crap i tell u
I think them druids cure them with that silver dust.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13009529/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/13009529/ Sat, 19 May 2007 05:54:41 PDT my superficial friend is back in my life and already destroying my work habits

this time around, he dragged us to crash some party and get some free drinks.
(like old times)
it was a bar opening this time..it had 3 floors and it was still packed!
its like a fucking pulp summerslam for well dressed individuals

.horrible.

they wernt even dancing..everyone was just standing around staring at each other and i doubt they could even make a decent conversation with that loud trance crap

me and camy didnt last 5 mins in there

mishaps worth it tho coz its really nice hanging out with my new workmates.
i know barkadas.. i have like 50 of them.. this ones still young but its the lasting kind.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12976393/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12976393/ Wed, 16 May 2007 11:00:34 PDT I'll keep fighting.

But dear god im so tired.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12925057/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12925057/ Sat, 12 May 2007 05:27:07 PDT Great band, making a music video for them is a dream come true for me.
The shoot finished early, most of the extras were drunk by 7pm. so there wasnt much i could do
I got everything i needed but the early pack-up scares me.
I also acted like a complete dork on the MYX interview.. thats the second time.
Oh well, i hope they edit my whole interview out...again.

We also shot Bamboo 2 days before that.
This is the 4th video im doing for the band, i try not to let them know that..
It had a lot of sexy women whos heads i want to chop off
I have a feeling this gonna suck...again.

But i didnt really want to blog about that.
Im blogging on getting myself in the same kind a mess as before
I really wish it would work this time around..
I dont want to go through all that.... again.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12662397/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12662397/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 00:56:49 PDT
makes me dizzy
makes me unproductive
makes me feel flabergasted (not sure what that means, but thats what it feels like)

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12347546/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12347546/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 09:07:23 PDT March 28, 2007
6-9PM

I will be about :
motion graphics
directing & video production
freelancing
or in other words myself

So if your studying at CSB or just happen to be there
then do watch

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12078722/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/12078722/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 09:35:22 PST
layers in cakes
how many shirts i have to take out to reach the bottom of my drawer
how my dvd cases are stacked up against each other
how stories overlap each other in movies or in novels
layering of paintings
family trees..
sandwiches..
personality layers...
plate then steak then gravy then garlic
even obsessing over whats underneath the pavement and underneath that.

this goes on top of this, and on top of that, then they all go to the bottom of this.

...god damn layers.

today i realize that my mind has started to think in layers with most of the things i do
i guess it's coz of the job... I layer things to make pretty moving pictures

im gonna make a philosophy out of layers pretty soon.

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i am an idiot.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/11690444/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/11690444/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 21:38:50 PST haym what else is new

I started watching LOST, coz someone said it was the best out of all the other shows.
and all i can say is, I HATE IT! episodes about pulling someone out of a cave-in or looking for water just isnt my thing. Wasted a saturday night for that argh!
wasting time with LOST will now be the third thing that can actually piss me off.
Im lost enough thank-you-very-much.

I'm still sticking with House and Prison Break.

I realized that the only reason i havent moved out is coz of my lazy ass...
or an effort to save money which doesnt seem to be working. I still cant imagine how i could spend so much money eating, drinking, and driving. seriously, thats all i spend on. and i dont do them that often.

will-find-place-by-march, make that April.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/11510232/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/11510232/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 20:18:25 PST HUGH : Nah, I dont need gifts. All I need is love..... sweet love

... and all I needs is to unhear that.


finally got ourselves a name... Springboard! (i like it i like it)
I've been itching to do some sort of door to door marketing.
... oppurtunity knocks, and runs before you can say who's there.

Working on my second music vid for this supposedly band of land. Even tho i really didn't want to. We're also bidding for another cellphone tvc. Snore.
...fate, even tho excitingly unexpected, merely bothers us with things that we were really fine without.

Bit excited to shoot them probono NINJAPORMS skits next week and hope to see some gratuitous violence, haphazard harrasments, and all manner of offensive and degrading behavior.
....and hope is time depositing your money in a bank, that's about to go bankrupt.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/11209203/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/11209203/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 07:34:11 PST
'Thanks you gave me hope'
'Thank you for inspiring us'
'You make me see the more positive things in life'
and a bunch of nonsense such as that, that were'nt junk messeges mind you, But
addressed to me personally.

Chaarming Chaarming my smile's broader.. So I guess i've been a good boy this year...
...explains my empty bank account.

Anyway,
New year..new goals coming up. Last year was barely a success but still a success.
And one of my goals for this year is to do an EXHIBIT.

Yep its gonna happen
I have grown an ego and intend to use it.

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[link]

i didnt put that there ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/9995699/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/9995699/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 05:59:36 PDT

[link] ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/9661284/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/9661284/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 08:56:18 PDT
It got stolen! im so happy!

..and the other one got torn up in a fistfight
so ill never get to see how it turned out. ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/9279006/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/9279006/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 08:13:08 PDT ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5720169/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5720169/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 03:41:46 PDT ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5690450/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5690450/ Sat, 18 Jun 2005 23:55:34 PDT
favourite parts would be a crush screaming my name from accross the room. Finally asking and remembering sheila a.'s name after the tons of conversations weve had before. making fun of bong's new hairdo. legendary bagets performance. stupid conversations with those guys at mcdo. and finally got to watch kiko machine. those silly bastards rock in their red jumper suits.
hated parts would be feeling sorry for piu's gf being left alone all the time. had to entertain the poor girl. Kathy being stupid again. seeing that faggot and even remembering his name, even had a conversation with him. and not being able to move very far with the crush...hay whats new...this gonna take another year.

]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5606924/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5606924/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 07:11:12 PDT i better be careful, it's starting to feel like home.
they even gave keys to an apartment that could be mine ..
just have to say the magic words 'yes i'll be your slave.'

fete's coming up... blew my chances on my free pony shoes.

oh and...
Amy you fucking whore! where are u! i wanna go to bangkok!!

life's lesson?
never ever hope... ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5499438/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5499438/ Mon, 30 May 2005 17:17:41 PDT maklenard: sorry i guess im immature
Amy : haha
Amy : well if u cant help it
Amy : then dont force yourself
maklenard: ...damn edowment

Yes i was endowed....i know u wouldnt beleive me but i was. I was just chatting around and listening to people then...everything came clear and I knew exactly what to do. Everything thats said to me was expected. Like I saw all the patterns and it all makes sense. The past few days led me to that moment and it's just plain weird.

Today me an Amy broke ties with the people closest to us.
She did it coz she loves him
But I did it coz i love myself...

I am so sorry I had to do this to you now.. ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5479850/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5479850/ Fri, 27 May 2005 19:23:03 PDT i can name a gazillion now. how do u become an asshole in 1 year? beats me

the worlds really starting to look ugly, and i know i can't go back. I saw this coming and i thought i was prepared.
I keep looking back to my past tho I know i can never have it back. I keep hoping for a future just to be disappointed at every waking moment.

You live in such an ugly world with ugly friends in ugly places. I guess I hate it so much that I don't want anyone to even remember me.

I really have changed and this is what it feels like. Did i grow up? I probably grew back...
Her shrink said i have this big wall on who I am. She's so dead on. Its so thick that even I don't know whats in there. I wanna see it so bad.....I have an idea how, and i think that's what ive been trying to do...for quite some time now.


I could while away the hours, confering with the flowers....if i only had a brain.
-that scarecrow from OZ ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5242966/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/5242966/ Sun, 01 May 2005 23:36:06 PDT I really should put something new.

I wanted to stop playing world of warcraft and be productive today

So .... started writing my never to be seen and usually forgoten stories again.
This ones entitled "An Aggressive State of Regression" .... sounds like an Emo band ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4319923/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4319923/ Fri, 14 Jan 2005 15:56:56 PST ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4319602/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4319602/ Fri, 14 Jan 2005 15:11:23 PST
So we just skipped out to get away from all that noise. Although i can't follow most of our conversations, I found her intonations and enthusiasm mildly entertaining and just kept nodding my head pretending to understand what she's saying, and hoping she wasn't asking a question because I just wasn't listening. Quietly wandering to blistering oblivion, Till she asked me with a nice pat in the back... are you ok? .... I thought I really was, life has given me a lot to be happy about, but without hesitation a big NO came out of my mouth. My face must've turned into a prune.
I don't even know this person.
My guard was so down.

its 6 A.M. and I must be ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4214939/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4214939/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 18:45:56 PST ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4152241/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4152241/ Sat, 25 Dec 2004 07:43:57 PST Did something about that.
Found my old life.
Produced a video.
Cherrypop's taking shape.
Bought a damn car.
New life's shaping up.
Everything had a catch tho....damn the man.
but the point is i did everything i set to do, that never happens

This Year's Moral lesson is...
i haven't learned a goddamn thing. Im not even taking my own adivice.
still can't handle familiarity...tho im happy everyone's still here this time around.
actually almost everyone i left from years past are with me again. that's good i think.
I feel like playing musical chairs.
the music stopped a few days ago...and im already waiting for it to turn back on.
Im still sitting in the same rot...the faces are just different.
i wanna sit forever..but all the chairs i've sat on had one leg missing, i don't want, i don't want. ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4140614/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4140614/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 21:57:12 PST there's a lot of truth in that.

Tho im surprised that inanimate objects are also flirting with me.
Can't wait till january ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4109247/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4109247/ Mon, 20 Dec 2004 08:47:01 PST after 6 months of looking, finally bought my first car. so no more gifts for everyone.

and the first thing i did straight from the carfactory?.....pick up my sister...pick up my mom....bring my other sister to work and the parlor. had to redeem it by watching a movie.... Alexander sucked ass ]]> ~maklenard http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4085638/ http://maklenard.deviantart.com/journal/4085638/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 04:30:47 PST ~maklenard