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weeeeeweeeeeweeeeeweeee! COOKIE! << (that was random btw)
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Well, that's a thingie I got from miss ~Sphynxia 's diary, which basically goes as following. I feature ten artists I with a few favorite images from each gallery.

Originally, it was a fairly democratic process, where people had to sign up for this, and put the same thingie in their profile, but I tweak it a little, since barely anyone read my journal. So I will feature ten people here on dev whose art I like. And hopefully they will also put this up. But I'm not going to wait for anyone to answer that 'yeah, you can feature me'.

(If anyone really WANTS to be featured though - feel free to throw me a note )

(Below artists are in random order. xD)

1. - She is much the same as me when it comes to taking pictures - taking a lot and picking out those few that end up great. That's why I choose to feature her - and because some of her gallery is very damn good!

Feat image: [link] - Leading Light (I don't know, it makes me feel calm. )
Feat image: [link] - Lamp (I have stared at that one for a fairly long while, just because... I really don't know why. xD)
Feat image: [link] - Skate (One of her best pictures I think. I love the frozen-moment effect of it)

2. - One would think that a person with soon 50,000 pageviews shouldn't need any more publicity, but I really can't let this one go unnoticed. I have a thing for that kind of art. There's something Mark Rydenish over it. xD

Feat image: [link] - Dollhouse (It's a doll. Dolls are spooky, and somehow utterly fascinating. )
Feat image: [link] - Selene Le Rouge (I have no idea if the girl in this painting is a Succubus, a part of the fairy host or something else.. and I don't care. If I saw her, I'd follow. xD)
Feat image: [link] - Melinda the Boo Keeper (I don't know why - that picture cheers me up. xD And of course, it is an amazing drawing. xD)

3. - I am normally not a big fan of cosplay model-thingie-deal. However, miss Rasmirin does such an amazing job, that I just have to feature some of her stuff.

Feat image: [link] - Crimson (This is a picture I have in my favorites, and one of the few in her gallery that are not direcrly cosplay. But it is fucking amazing! )
Feat image: [link] - Jessica Rabbit (I am always amazed how people can convert cartoon characters to real life like that... And this is really an awesome conversion.)
Feat image: http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/20263758/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 02:22:59 PDT
I made the stupid fucking mistake of showing her that I was more afraid of loosing her than she was afraid of loosing me.

Learn from my mistakes kiddies. -_-

As such, my psyche is shot to shit, along with my health (due to an attempt to fix my psyche with a very Russian medicine - namely booze).

This also explains why I have sort of ditched deviant for a while - got some other things to think about. I will of course return, stronger than ever, etc.. but I have no idea when. -_-;

Have a nice day all,
-M.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/19531049/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/19531049/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 05:25:01 PDT Bad news, I don't have time to mess with dA that much.
Good news, I will get a nice paycheck next month.
Bad news, I have a lot of work.
Good news, I am going to Iron Maiden concert in a few days.
Bad news, I am going to Iron Maiden concert in a few days, and I really can't afford it.

Just a quick update. xD

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/19088301/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/19088301/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 06:55:30 PDT
Still though, we remain good friends, so I guess it is alright.

On a lighter note, I have taken quite a lot of pictures in Croatia, some of them even deviantworthy. So I am looking forward to come home and fix up some photos now. Also, since I am single, I will have more time to waste on all kind of artsy crap.. So at least my dev gets a bit more attention, heh.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18911564/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18911564/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 12:40:01 PDT So, if you thought I was inactive before, I will be even more so now.

I'll try to take some dev-worthy pics while there though.

So, byebye all! I'll try to update my twitter [link] with any news I might have while there. xD

BTW - Something is wrong with the world. Russia actually plays decent soccer... It's about as unlikely as flying pigs.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18621659/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18621659/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 05:36:59 PDT
WRONG. Since I only have 40% position, I am not allowed to use the discount.

And it would be okay if I had 40% position and actually did 1/3rd of the work as I should, but I am the one who actually fixes things! So while I do 80% of the work, I have a 40% position and thus I still get no discount.

How the hell am I supposed to be motivated to do a good job in such a situation?

*pissed*

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18395759/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18395759/ Mon, 19 May 2008 09:00:41 PDT
Yeah, pretty much an ordinary day for me.

New scetch made at work up in scraps [link]

Yeah, I should learn to draw something else than simpsons chars, I know.

Meh at you all

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18332347/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18332347/ Thu, 15 May 2008 07:17:26 PDT
I don't think it's fair that I do more than he does, and I only get to work three days rather than full-time, but hey - we all know, life isn't fair. So, I waste my time here on dev as a silly retribution.

I want to write something, draw something, kill someone. Anything that will give me an impulse for creative expression - but I can't. My brain appears to be in a sort of a sedated mood where even a simple calculation of events takes four times the time it usually should.

I am going off in around an hour though, to help a friend with some English tasks, so I figure I'll at least jumpstart my brain then.

I need a challenge. Something to make me get together my act and start thinking, fighting, solving. Routine and boredom are my two worst enemies. At least its summer now - it means I wake up a little by default compared to winter and that damned spring.

Meh.. Someone - challenge me. Discussion, argument, riddle.. anything. Hack my computer for Satan's sake - at least it will amuse me to find you and pay back in kind.

*yawn*

I'm bored.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18193920/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18193920/ Tue, 06 May 2008 09:47:57 PDT
I drew/doodled a few things at work, which I have tossed into scraps - so those of you who actually watch what I upload here might want to check those out... [link] and [link]

O well, Im off.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18097666/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/18097666/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 07:12:04 PDT
On a more artistic note, I have an idea for the image "creation" in the 100-theme challenge, something I will work on when I get home. Should turn out quite amusing methinks. xD

All in all, a good day. Fixed many things I wanted to fix, so I am pretty content.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/17669879/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/17669879/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 15:50:10 PDT

Well, hello there all you guys, gals and those who are yet to determine what you are. I am sort of back to deviant, celebrating that with a couple of pictures (one of which is in scraps since I don't have the (C) to it, nor do I think it is so spectacular, even though I am damn happy with the work I did on it. )

It almost feels like I am back into my photography-photoshoping mood again for some reason - and I am not drunk saying that. Quite amazing, eh? Fen is about to ressurect, lol.

Now I just have to start writing again and I'll be happy, hehe... though, of course, for complete happiness a few millions USD wouldn't hurt either.

Meh. I'm going out to look at the stars and have my beer now - and if there are no stars, it's to bad for them, since they miss looking at me.

(I don't intend to make sense, so MEH!)

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/14132450/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/14132450/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 11:40:58 PDT
I have answered comments, checked diaries, etc today, something that means I've spent more time on this site in this single day than I have for a few months. I hope it's a start of a tendency. xD

Let's hope I can find some inspiration now.. I think I left some in the topmost drawer over there..

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/13046620/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/13046620/ Tue, 22 May 2007 04:26:29 PDT
I've reinstalled the bloody system 4 times on one single Packard Bell Computer, without it working. Not only that - when I finally got it to work, it told me that there were no way of starting the program, and after looking around the net I found out that the only solution is reinstalling it again.

And this is not the same as XP reinstall or Linux install which takes 1-1,5 hour. No, every reinstall takes an approximate of 3,5 hours (!!!!).

To add to the pain, Packard Bell has a screwed up system called XTHS validation, which in a nutshell means that I have to call Packard Bell support and wait 15 + minutes in line before I can start reinstalling.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. And people actually PAY for that screwup of an Operating System. The only reason I use Windows at all is the vast support of soft and hardware, but Vista nullified that. I could as well use Linux and get the same result with only one thenth of the headache.

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Being really tired yesterday, my crazy mind thought up something that I might consider putting into live - if I find enough support for the idea.

Basically, the concept is really simple. As a writer I know that there are certain things I want to write about, but will not do it under my own name. Or any of the names associated with me. Perhaps I am wrong, but I believe that very many writers have such a desire - to be able to share their thoughts with the world, yet keep it from the very same world that the thoughts are their.

Many reasons for that - maybe the writer does not want his or her parents to see the difference between them, or maybe the matter is so controversal that the writer fears a direct retaliation for bringing it up.

So, the plan was to create a community (or, just to test the concept, a group here on deviantart), which allows anyone to send in articles, and publish them under the name of the group. This way the group takes responsibility for the article - taking the heat off the actual writer - and the message will still go out to the net.

The only thing I would demand of all and any writers to join such a group would be that the article is structured in a fashion which is logical and based on relatively plausible facts. An article about Hitler Clones running the world would thus not pass the cut.

So, any thoughts, ideas, comments? Does any of you think this idea might work? Why? Why not?

Feedback please.

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Bored - so - a useless list.

Stolen from ~celestial-elevator

[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark.
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed

(That was a boring section.. lol)

[ ] I am gay/bi.
[ ] I believe in true love.
[x] I've ran away from home (AND been kicked out. X-))
[x] I listen to political music (Punk counts as political per definition, ne?)
[ ] I collect comic books

[x] I shut others out when I'm sad. (When I am not sad as well )
[x] I've stayed out all night.
[ ] I open up to others easily. (I give the impression to open up though )
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news

[ ] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I dont kill bugs (eww)

(Another boring section..)

[x] I have "x"s in my screen name. (In some of my screen-names.. I have a lot of those, heh)
[x] I've slipped and fell in public. (At some point I probably have..)
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation (Lol, as well as "brb, btw, fu, stfu, n00b, and so on)
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I bake well.

[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[x] I want a better job (Yeah, a job where I get paid to stay away from work X-))
[ ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[x] I like multiple people (Depends on the definitions of like.. in a platonic sense in my case X-))

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious. (I guess)
[ ] I love to laugh.
[x] I have tried alcohol.
[x] I drink alcohol on a regular basis. (Im still Russian.. heh)

[x] I have tried a cigarette.
[x] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[x] I loved Lord of the Flies. (Great book!)
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[x] I have a lot of scars.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I like chocolate. (Only with my coffee X-))
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.

[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[ ] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas

[ ] Hugged a stranger.
[x] Been in a fist fight. (Fight club is fun )
[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.

[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose (selfdefence!)
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[x] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour (YUCK! I hate milk)

[x] Bitten someone (Someone enjoyed it though)
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car
[ ] Been to germany. (I have to go there though.. they say german beer is THE shit)

[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[x] Shoplifted. (I wonder if cops read this kind of lists.. they'd catch quite a few minor thieves that way..)
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Stole something from your job. (*cough* I am cleptomanic with pens.. I have like 200 pens from my last job, lol)

[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (celebrate what now?)
[x] Been to Europe. (noo.. Norway is not Europe! I've been to Denmark though, so I guess it counts)
[x] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee. (Slept being the key-word. Nothing else. X-)))

[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[x] Saw someone/something dying
[x] have a list of people you want to kill. (Only a mental list though.. to paranoid to write it out on paper)
[x] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day (400 miles? Easy!)

[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ]... ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/12455367/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/12455367/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 10:46:43 PDT Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

So finally I cleaned up my computer and managed to load up an old CD with Ubuntu 5.04 version I had. And I have to say, that after trying Windows Vista for a short while, I am seriously considering a nearly-complete switch to the Penguin side.

Now, of course, comparing the unnecessary graphics and flashy moves, VISTA comes out on top. But I have never been one for eyecandy... and looking at how much faster and more stable my computer has become, it is safe to say that for me, Ubuntu comes out on top.

Adding to the concept is the wonderful apt-get command, which gets anything you need - just type the package name! Compared to that blasted VISTA again, that doesn't even HAVE the drivers or software out yet.

And GIMP! Compare that to MSPaint you all... I haven't really looked into it as yet, but it seems way closer to paint shop pro or photoshop than our favorite pixel editor MSPaint. Other fancy goodies are included as well. Open Office suite, decent MSN and media player clones...

Penguin for the win! This is the first debian based system I actually enjoy using. X-)

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Well, let's see.. I have one and a half kg of meat, prepared for barbeque in the Russian fashion, taught to me by my uncle. I have one liter of vodka, which will be drank tonight - also in the Russian fashion.

I have a list of people coming ( ~eirwen , ~kronjuvel , sharon, and my cousin)... I have a side-dish to the meat, I have a load of vegetables.

So, what do I lack.

I haven't boguht the beer yet, and I need a specific kind of pickles. Hm. Time to get my ass out to the store so that I can buy what I need.

This is gonna be fun.

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Happy St' Patrick's day everyone! Today everyone have to speak english with an outrageous Irish accent, drink a pint of guiness (except me, who hates guiness... I'll just use regular beer ), and have a nice bar brawl.

w00t. X-)))

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... I counted right. I have ten out of hundred done. Go me. X-)

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100-theme challenge ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/12059066/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/12059066/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 19:21:03 PST Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

Mweh. I thought I had 10 themes covered out of the 100-theme challenge. Seems I only have 9. To tired to count properly, LoL. X-)

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100-theme challenge ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/12012253/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/12012253/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 11:11:24 PST Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

I'm a relatively simple creature. I am not a genious, I am not extraordinary, and there are many people out there who are both smarter, more brilliant and in general more worth than what I am. I have no trouble admitting that.

I am however curious about a few things that those people, those incredibly smart people, who are at edges with major religions, at edges with metaphysics and everything else they cannot explain are so quick to say.

Misunderstand me right - I am not a believer of a religion - in fact most of religions repulse me (religions as concepts rather than people who follow them - note that!). Still, I find it really interesting how those who are so obsessed about disproving religions achieve nothing except creating a religion of their own.

To illustrate, I will quote a conversation I had with an aquantance (I know I misspelled) of mine from a few years ago.

Malefique: Well, what happens when you die then?
Person: Nothing. Everything just becomes black.
M: Really? How do you know that?
P: Well, what do you think then? You go to Hell?
M: Don't stray from the question - how do you know what happens? Have you died many times lately?
P: YES!
M:... Outside Counterstrike.
P: ...
P: But.. I.. I KNOW IT WILL JUST BE BLACK! YOU DONT GO TO HEAVEN OR HELL!
M: Possible. But you cannot exclude the possibility, can you? It's mathematics. Nothing can be 100% certain in a case where you haven't experienced it yourself. Even if you have, it might be an elaborate hoax. So you don't know for sure - even though I agree, the chances are utterly slim to meet Jesus or Mohammed, or whomever, when you die.
P: But you know just as well as I do, that you will not meet any of them!
M: I don't know. I think it is unlikely. Very unlikely. But you think that you know. And that makes you just the same as any fanatic Christian. He believes that he'll meet his creator when he dies. And you believe, I stress the word BELIEVE, that everything will go black.
P: ...
M: So what's the difference between believing one hundred percent in Nirvana, Heaven, Hell, or black *POFF*, if you can't prove any of them? How are you different from any of those who say that your soul will be measured and tossed into Limbo? You have no actual proof, nor do they.
P: ... I hate you.

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The conversation that has taken place back then annoyed me, since it proved that those who so eagerly opposed religion and searched for proof, where in fact another religious sect. The only notable difference was that they created a God called "science" and worshipped it instead. While that God did give answers to some things, the believers were quick to take to 'faith' again when they could not prove something - leaving it at "Well, I KNOW IT IS LIKE THAT!"

*sigh* I have been sceptical towards atheists since then. An Atheist (a-theist, anti-theist, anti-believer, in a crude translation), would be a person who *BELIEVED* in nothing other than what he could prove. And when he could not prove something, he would not exclude possibilities, simply because his "God" (Science) did not match the possibility in question.

Just a shoutout. A true scientist is not he who claims there is no life after death. It is he who claims that he does not know if there's life after death, and that there's a chance that any of the theories is correct - UNTIL *PROVEN* otherwise.

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100-theme challenge ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/11998890/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/11998890/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 10:36:45 PST Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

I am not much of a writer when it comes to defending the existence of God. I dislike Christian values, I dislike most people who worship anything else but themselves, and so on and so forth. I've been called a cynic, an atheist, a satanist, and oh so many others.

So, being really bored today, I figured I'd entertain my mind by writing out a theory that goes for the existence of a creating entity (further referenced to as God), rather than against it. I not as much believe this theory myself, as I feel I cannot exclude the possibility. Besides, it's an interesting topic for argument, so I figured I'd throw the concept down in writing.

Firstly, let's establish the two arguing points here. I don't feel like arguing Christianity vs. Satanism, or Islam vs. Buddhism, so I will make this much simplier. I will argue the point of evolution vs. creationism.

On one side, we have the theory of evolution, which is marked by people believing that everything has evolved from a spark of life in a bacteria, and eventually, over aeons and aeons, into us, Homo Sapiens.

On the other side, we have the creationalists, who believe that the world was created by a supreme entity (further referenced to as God). The accounts of such creations vary from culture to culture, ranging from Adam and Eve, to Ask and Embla. That is of no consequence however, since I do not intend to prove any legends true.

The theory of evolution has a great advantage in the fact that it has been proven several times by Darwin's finches for example, and by noticable traces of evolution along the lines of fossilized remains. It has in fact gained so much of a standing that most people believe it to be true, and even many creationalists have formed sort of hybrid-ideas of God being the one who created the first spark of life, and evolution taking over there.

However, let's twist the tables a little. It would not be fun to argue for the theory of evolution, since it has so much evidence to back it. And let's look at what we can do to back up the creationalism.

Firstly, let's refute the evidence of evolutionaries. Starting with fossilized remains and such concepts.

We all know that fossilized remains can be tested for age, etc, etc, etc. We can trace many things and a lot of evolution concepts through that. And all is well, but is it not possible that all those things were created as well?

Now I must ask my reader to bear with me, as I will demand a slight leap of imagination. And that leap will be - imagine God as a writer who has a blank page in front of him. This is the world he will create.

So, he starts writing. He writes that the world is so-and-so old, that the world has an atmosphere, that it has water, that it is inhabited by people, etc, etc, etc. He writes all the characters, their thoughts, their beliefs and motivations. It is one hell of a huge book, of course, but hey - it is just an analogy.

So, God writes that. And, in most cases, in a book (The Neverending story being a notable exception), the characters are not aware of the writer's existence. They live their lives, and when they look for their origins, they find (relatively) plausable explanations, as placed by the writer. The writer can write that the world is filled with fossiles, and when people find them and date them, they find out that fossiles are trillions of years old. But that wouldn't change the fact that had not the writer started to write - none of that would have existed in the first place.

Of course, this punches hole in the concept of 'free will', as everything is subjected to the writer's will - but hey, I said I'd ask for a leap of imagination.

Now, over to the consequences of this theory.

Of course, the most notable consequence is the one which I mentioned above. If a God is writing us as his characters, he is the only one to decide. We are but figments of imagination. Which is a somewhat sucky thought, unless you already believe in fate - in which case, it does not matter.

A second consequence is the fact that we don't know when this so-called creation has taken place. This is closely linked with the highly theoretical concept of 'time', as for all we know, we were created only a split second ago, and all of our memories are 'artificial', as they have not really happened, but were instead written by the writer to have happened. A basic example for such would be an 'in medias res' start of a short-story with a following explanation of the events.

The events have not actually *happened* by the start of the short-story, but they are remembered by the characters as if they have had.

Meh. Complex? Maybe.

Anyways - I will close this off now, since I doubt anyone will bothe... ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/11863908/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/11863908/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 06:07:41 PST Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

A fairly silly question to ask me is if I am an asshole. It is silly due to the fact that everyone know the answer. Yes, I am. As such, my reaction to the situation described below is not that hard to predict. I am curious though, about what other people would do in that given case.

Being a computer geek (presumably the best computer fixer in town - not to brag but to explain the situation), I have been getting requests for help with everything, from downloading things, to "ripping" images from sites that have disabled right-click, to actual data recovery and computer repairs. While computer repairs are something I do with pleasure, since I get paid for it, the above minor "favors" is not something I take money for.

However, when I start getting requests from a person several days in a row, asking me more and more and more, I start wondering.

I learned all that shit myself. I didn't have anyone to help me with every little thing I wanted to do. I had to use google and my own brains. So why the hell should that kiddie get shit I didn't get? And besides, while one favor takes two minutes to take care of, fifty favors take a 100 minutes, and that's quite a lot. If the people around here know the prices of computer-repairs or computer education, you will see that 1-2 hours will end up at 100-120 USD. (At least according to Norwegian prices).

So why should I do it for free, to a person that is not a friend but rather an aquantance, who has not once said "thank you", and who will, in a few days, ask for even more favors?

My reaction to that line of thought is obvious. I told the person to fuck off, and either pay me as a regular client, or stop annoying me.

The question of this diary is though - what would YOUR reaction be, and how far would you let someone go with asking you for 'favors' without getting anything in return.

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This is amusing. For once I have some spare time at work. All the computers are fixed, no new sales at the moment and in general, things are slow.

Guess this is the eye of the storm, considering the massive ammount of stress I've been under the past couple of weeks. Oh well, relaxation is a good thing, ne?

So, what to write about... Yesterday was a shitty day, only saved by a vast ammount of beer consumed in the evening. Still, I guess it could have been worse.

Wonder what'll happen today. Maybe I'll finish making the site for my business later... Got the domain access codes in my email in the morning. W00t, more HTML... oh joy.

So, what else is there to say..? I should probably drink a cup or ten of coffee. Coffee is good, mhm. Or maybe I should steal a sheet of paper out of the printer and draw something.

Or both. If I just wasnt so lazy... Oh well. One can be lazy while one is in the eye of the storm. X-)

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Being at work, I finally have a moment to poke around my deviant while the computers I am fixing show pretty blue screens with Windows Logos on them. Oh joy.

Being inspired by several people whose entries I've read here on deviant, I decided to write a philosophical entry as well. Especially being that I have nothing better to do at the moment, but to stare on the install-progress bars.

Why does it happen to be that so many find solace and comfort in pretty, yet awfully naive thoughts of the "good in man", and the so-called soul? Why is it a general concept that only what is defined as "good" is good... What is the definition anyways? Why is it so that lending a hand to someone is considered an invariable virtue, while hitting someone in the face is stigmatized as evil and mean?

Why is it so that the so-called "anti-social behavior" is frowned upon, while the foolish filantropes are universally loved? Is it not better to offer a man a challenge that would bring out the best in him, instead of granting him a silver plate with everything he needs, making his life devoid of a goal, and as such worthless?

I find myself arguing the point of destruction, or at the very least the impulse to destruction being the form of creation, a form which is far superior to it's vis-a-vis, which is so popular nowadays. Why is a villian who challenges the boundries of the so-called human "morale" so hated? I mean, without the villian we would not have heroes, and if our morales were not challenged, how would we know that they are right?

A story of an old villian retiring tells us that he did not in fact retire, but rather chose a different strategy, waiting for the heroes who were the embodiments of morale to force their morales on a sufficent number of people as to make those "heroes" unpopular, and their morales "amoral" in the eye of common man. If not anything this illustrates the fact that morales are as fleeting as poetry written on a lake's surface.

So why is everyone so stuck at following their morales? Why won't people learn that a morale is an illusionary perception. The paradox is that even those who consider this whole world an illusion still stick to their morales and raise them to a level of divinity.

But then again I guess people always want to justify their lack of responsibility with big words and gods that "told them it was right that way".

Anyways. Now windows has finished installing the last drivers, and I am off to keep working.

"A jester may speak like a king,
Yet still his words are those of a jester.
A king often speaks words of a jester,
But would you want to be the one to tell that to the king?"
-Unnamed poem

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After a couple of hours of tedious onscreen reading, I'm through J. Sallinger's "Catcher in the Rye". And while I will be dead tomorrow because of this late-night reading session, I don't regret it.

If you haven't read that book yet - do so. While in many cases the protagonist and his whine may get on your nerves, I can honestly say that I personally, recognize myself of a few years back in many of his thoughts and considerations. So, basically, the people out there, who are somewhat like me (Yeah, you KNOW who you are, heh! ) will probably enjoy the book. Not to mention the fact that it's extremely well-written in regard of style. TRY writing a short-story in a fashion a kid with poor vocabulary would write it... now try writing a whole book.

Anyways, me is off to bed.

Another book added to my list of "Books you should read before someone shoots you". X-)

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Being tired of long arguments on other people's journals, Malefique decided to write his own entry, and instead let those who are interested enough argue on his.

Reading through a few entries, I am struck by the incredible difference in values I have if compared to regular people. Even those who are highly irregular in many cases seem to hold values that are to me as absurd as thunder from a clear sky.

While I by default don't mind the fact that people are different and have different values, those values are the reason as to why me and some others are eternally clashing in discussions, ending up in a deadlock where none can convince the other. And again, being very aware that convincing people is per say futile, I am still unable to back away from a good discussion.

In this case, the particular view that stroke me as a complete absurdity (by that not saying it is wrong, but rather saying that it is something I do not understand the logic of), was the sad admittal of "humans being confused, exploiting, and enjoying abuse".

In turn, I agree with all the three statements of confusion, exploiting of others and themselves, and the basic masochism of the human nature. But why is that so sad, really? Why is it so that so many wish to change something that is so natural, rather than accept and enjoy that fact?

It's not hard to see how the fact can be enjoyed, for everyone know that pain (or abuse), in correct doses is indeed a form of pleasure, and exploitation is the natural prerequisite for progress. So why not just accept it and deal with it rather than try to 'enlighten' the masses about their so-called 'flaws'?

I will never understand the so-called 'do-gooders' who want to stop people from hurting themselves (or letting themselves be abused), nor will i understand those who are so certain that humans should care more, involve themselves more, and so on. People are oversensetive already, something clearly shown in the fact that I cannot call a black person a "negro", even though, by definition, the word "negro" has nothing insulting in it - certainly nothing more than any other reference to color like "white-skinned" or "yellow-skinned".

And still, there are people who want to protect everyone! Who preach the philosophy that we should 'get involved' and 'help others'. I read a pretty quote by Nietszche earlier today, and while very supportive to the case my respected vis a vis was commenting, I still find it as my duty to say that Nietszche out of all people preached the idea of ubermensch, and to become such a 'superhuman' one would have to be able to manage without help from each and everyone.

I've already written much, so I will close of the topic by saying - in my world, I'd gather egoists, people who do not help unless they get something in return. Sure, some people would have a hard time in that world - but an individual is strong by himself - if he isn't, he is not worth having in a group. And I'll be damned if I can call any person who expects help from others, or expects others to shelter him/her from the world outside, by, for example, means of censore and other "involvements" which I think we already have to many of.

"Boy, when you're dead, they really fix you up. I hope to hell when I do die somebody has sense enough to just dump me in the river or something. Anything except sticking me in a goddam cemetery. People coming and putting a bunch of flowers on your stomach on Sunday, and all that crap. Who wants flowers when you're dead? Nobody."
-The Catcher in the Rye

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How can two bits of data make me annoyed? Very simple...

Quoting two articles, set a couple of years apart from a Norwegian newspaper.

Norwegian star recieves a lot of praise for her role.

and

"Norwegian" actress nominated for the worst actor.

The two bits of data I am talking about is of course the ""s. I truly hate hypocrytes, and if the above is not a prime example, then I don't know. I don't really have to say that both articles refer to the same person, the only difference being that Kristanna Loken played well in Terminator 3, and sucked badly in BloodRayne. But look at the concept.

When she is good, she is NORWEGIAN, while when she sucks, she is "Norwegian". Truth be told, she's about as Norwegian as I am Ukrainian (I have some remote roots that go back there, but I've never actually even been there that I can recall). But why did the goddamn press even called her Norwegian in the first place?!

I am pissed off. Meh. Fucking people.

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Well, it's really painful to realize that one is not likely to ever come out of the writers' block period. Especially when writing means as much for the person in question as it does to me. However though, arguing with a friend over that topic, I stated, and I still state, that writing two poems a day does not make a poet. Indeed, many poets never write a single poem in their lives.

I'll let the reader consider that statement for a while.

To many scars now separate
What was from what is now
The time has hurt me,
Set the rules
For things it wont allow.

However broken though I plead,
take my word for the truth
Even the Cronoss cannot change
Or banish mental youth.

A poet still, a child in mind,
I will not let it die
A "poet was" is "poet is"
On that I must rely.

So, burn my heart and damn my soul
Come Beelezebub, it's yours!
A poet for eternity,
My only gift - my curse.

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Im waiting for my food to warm up, and I am bored. As such, here's a random list-quiz thingie. Stolen from ~callmelilium

1. What are you listening to right now?
Frank Zappa - Muffin Man

2. What song makes you sad?
I don't get sad from songs.. but maybe Havayoth - Teloah

3. What is the most annoying song in the world?
Several fighting about this position... I would say "Crazy Frog" piece of shit, but it's not per say a song.. "Boten Anna" is the worst atm.

4. Your all time favorite band?
No favorite bands, just songs... Among the good/great bands there are to many to pick a favorite from.

5. Your newly discovered band is?
Cruxshadows

6. Best female voice?
Tarja Turunen

7. Best male voice?
Hm.. several interesting ideas here... I'd say Tom Waits.

8. Music type you find yourself listening to most?
Goth/Metal/Rock/Punk. All of those equally much.

9. What do you listen to hype you up?
Hm. Punk. Flogging Molly (ONE song, yes )

10. What do you listen to when you want to calm down?
Instrumentals. Shakuhachi (I spelled wrong, I know ) flute is calming.. Themes from Final Fantasy VI work wonders too.

11. Last gig/concert you went to?
Blind Guardian in Oslo

12. Band you find yourself listening to the most right now?
Sektor Gaza (old russian punk-rock)

13. Most hated band?
Don't get me started on this. All the bands that do techno (Except maybe Apex Twin), all those poppy idiots who can't write a lyric without "baby" "why" "oh, oh, oh!"

14. Song that makes you think?
Many.. to many.

15. Band that you think the world should love as much as you do?
Johnny Hollow! No one knows about them, but they rule.

16. Coolest music video?
Many, many cool ones.. I sort of like Marilyn Manson's "Tainted Love"

17. what do you play/would you play in the bedroom to spice things up?
Uhm.. Depending on whom I had in my bedroom - d'oh!!

18. What song makes you yearning/longing/something of that sort?
Hm. Swamped by Lacuna Coil makes me long to go to some fancy goth party. Other than that, not quite sure. Ghost Woman and the Hunter by the same Lacuna might have an effect too...

19. Ever been in a mosh pit?
A what?

20. Are you in a band?
Can't play, can't sing. Can write songs, but that's not enough. So - nope.

21. Ever dated a musician?
No

22. Do you wish yourself that you were a musician?
I envy all people that can do stuff good, be that art, music, or whatever else... So, yes.

23. Best chick band you know of?
I sort of don't pay much attention if it's a chick band or not. Chicks work better as solo singers anyways.

24. Last song that you heard on the radio/cd...etc...?
Tristania - The Shining Path

25. What do you think of classical music?
It's good for relaxation

26. What do you think of country music?
Well, if it could go outside "my girl/guy left me, im so sad, i'll go drive a trailer" pattern, it could be decent. But, unfortunaly, it does not.

27. What do you think of Death metal?
w00t X-) some good, some shitty.

28. Last BIG band that you saw live?
Blind Guardian is big, OKAY?! Other than that, Black Sabbath at Roskilde 2005

29. Are you a groupie?
*yawn* can one even be a male groupie? Anyways - I'm not

30. Do you listen to music in foreign la... ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/11361250/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/11361250/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 11:19:09 PST Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

The biggest challenge at the moment is to stay awake. I have to learn that working a full day after a few hours of sleep is a bad idea. Of course, it will not make me go to bed earlier, but the fact remains.

Another thing is the fact that I cannot decide what I should do with the 100-theme-challenge thing (link in the signature) in regard of theme called "Hold my hand". I have an idea, and I know how it will look, but I am wondering if I should do it as a photograph or a drawing. Any ideas on what I should choose and why?

Oh the choices - the choices!

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I hate people. In general. While of course that does not justify much in itself, I think that a little bit of self loathing (well, one can’t really hate people without hating oneself, as being one of them) is a healthy thing that more people should implement in their lifestyles.

Right now, I saw a picture on the net, depicting a hunter and his prey. Not talking much about quality of the picture itself (I would call it fairly average), I was surprised, annoyed, and outraged over the people’s comments to it. People were attacking the photographer for taking a picture of something as cruel as hunting!! (Mark the two exclamation marks, I rarely go to the extreme of putting more than one of those in the end of a sentence.)

I do apologize to whoever hates hunting, thinks we should eat salads made out of synthetic vegetables (as to not hurt real and living plants), and believes we should all walk with an air-blower in front of us as to blow away any stray bugs that we might unfortunately step on, but this is nonsense.

I am not a hunter. In fact, I don’t see the point in running around in the woods with a shotgun, chasing random birds. I much prefer regular slaughtered cattle in my plate (and if anyone gives me hell for this comment, I can officially and indiscriminately refer you to the first paragraph of this essay – you are the people who make me hate the human kind. Creds to you!)

But when I see people whining about how a photograph may “endorse hunting”, or that “hunting should not be publicized in this way”… It pisses me off. As said, not because I am a great fan of hunting – but because I am a great fan of free speech and free expression.

For Christ’s (or whatever other mythological deity you believe in) sake! Who gave you the right to decide that hunting is wrong, and it should not be publicized? Who is it that made you privy to the secret that said hunting is despicable, horrible, evil, and so on. Animals die – yes. But so do people – and I assure you, world would be a better place if some died more often than others. Who made you the judge about what is moral and what is not? I don’t see a decree signed by (insert a random god here). Do you?

Bottom line being – stick the hell to commenting the picture. Your views on hunting, your views on the morals, your views on deaths and so on and so forth are not welcome – not interesting – and as such, keep them the fuck to yourselves! Excuse the language, all you ladies in the crowd, but I am pissed, and I never claimed to be very well behaved.

You are not special. Your view is not special. Your view is in all probability not even right. The statistical chance of your rightness being one to 5,000,000,000 (I don’t even know how to write that number in letters in English) and that is assuming that at least ONE person living in the world right now is correct. So, start hating yourself a little more – and as a result, learn to shut up about things no one asked you about.

Thank you ladies and gentlemen and goodnight.

PS. Before anyone asks – YES I am for completely free art. If someone posts a dead human on a picture, I will first criticize the artistic aspect, and then call the cops.

PPS. If people like the abovementioned idiots were allowed to comment back when for example Goya was drawing, the poor artist would probably hang himself in frustration of “I don’t think war should be publicized like this” and “I think war is stupid”.

PPPS. If you have read this far, you are either bored, or you are agreeing/disagreeing with me. Give me comments in any case, since if you are bored, you have nothing else to do – if you are agreeing, give me a pat on the shoulder, and if you are disagreeing, prove me wrong.

PPPPS. The picture that sparked me for this entry is listed in my favorites. It doesn’t take Sherlock Holmes to figure out which one it is.

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Well, go me. I uploaded my first contribution to the 100-theme challenge. And I again concluded that I am not an artist.

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Well, since I need to poke my creativity alive, I am taking the challenge. Being a writer rather than an artist however, I reserve the right to write poetry and prose as well as using pictures in order to complete it.

w00t.

The rules

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

THE LIST


1. Introduction - DONE [link]
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again - DONE [link]
11. Memory
12. Insanity - DONE [link]
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning - DONE [link]
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation - DONE [link]
22. Mother Nature - DONE [link]
23. Cat - DONE [link]
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night - DONE [link]
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand - DONE [link]
36. Precious Treasure - DONE [link]
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork - DONE [link]
42. Standing Still - DONE [link]
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family - DONE [link]
47. Creation - DONE [link]
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out - DONE [link]
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale - DONE [link]
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror - DONE [link]
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero - DONE [link]
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed - DONE [link]
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me? - DONE [link]
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words - DONE [link]
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
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And here we are then - it's Christmas. While I am not a great fan of this holliday (Samhain and Midsummer beat it by far in my opinion), it is still cool enough. Well, especially if one adds into the equation that one gets gifts.

But of course, Christmas is not about gifts, so I will just quote Bart Simpson on that...

"Hey, since when is Christmas just about the presents? Aren’t we forgetting the true meaning of this day? The birth of Santa?"

Anyways, Merry Christmas to you all who celebrate it. Merry Yule to those who will celebrate that tomorrow, and merry days off from work/school for all of you who don't celebrate Christmas at all.

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Muwahahaha... weeheehee uweeeeheeeheeeheeeheeee!

That means, I tricked my computer into uploading. And not only that - I fixed my MSN which has been troubling me for a while, and I can toss new stuff out here on deviant.

IN YOUR FACE MICROSOFT!!! ITS YOUR FAULT, I KNOW IT! ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!

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Gah. When I finally decide to upload something, things don't work. W00t! What the hell is up with hanging at "uploading" screen?!

I wanted to replace my brilliant "artwork of the day" with a picture from Hellsing... but nooooooooo...



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Well, sheeeeeesh!!! My neighbour, aka ~eirwen here on deviant told me that i havent updated my diary for a while. Goddamn it, she is right!!!! So, I update. I update with writing that... uhm.. yeah... hm.

I can tell you all about... hm, damn.

That's right, my life is fun. X-) Nothing ever happens. O well. Bah. this just gets stupid, so I round it off here.

*Written to entertain ~eirwen *

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After several days of trying, I finally managed to put in my fucking contact lenses.. GO ME FFS!!!

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Happy Samhain to you all. (Halloween, aka. All Hallows Eve for those of you who dont know what Samhain is.)



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ANGER
1. With whom did you last get angry? - Uh.. that guy who had an accident a couple of days ago.. yeah.. accident it was, I tell you!
2. What is your weapon of choice? - Katana.. Nuke... AK47.. whatever I can get.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? - Not unless it would be necessary for something I planned.
4. How about of the same sex? - *hits*
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? - Dunno. Don't care. It's not like it changes anything.
6. What is your pet peeve? - PEEVEE!! WTF is a pevee?
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? - I never forget unless I get drunk.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? - Uhh... hm.. Many things I guess.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? - 11pm. X-)
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't - I dont feel like contacting people..
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? - "To lazy"
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)? - Nevah!
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? - Workout? I apologize, but I have no such word in my vocabulary.
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? - I dont use snoozebutton. I have 5 separate alarms on.

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? - Corona!
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? - I haven't paid attention to the color. It's mostly bloody.
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? - 3 bottles of champagne, 1/2 bottle of vodka, several beers and some wine.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? - Nevah!
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? - Neh. Don't care enough.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? - Spicy!!!
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, LUNCH? - Hm.. well.. you know what happened to my cat in the third grade? Yeah, that's right...

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? - A fair ammount
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? - Not many of those are alive. I can show you but I'll have to kill you
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? - Isn't that normal?
4. Have you done it? - NEVAH! NO! I'VE NEVER DONE IT! I've never smeared myself with candycream and whipped myself with a spoon.. oh.. that's not what you meant? Oh.. Yeah, I've had sex.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: Can't say.. the wholeness I guess.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? - o.O not to my knowledge.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? - Yeah, pregnancy, twice.. (that means no)

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? - None
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? - Guilty? Pleasure? Pleasure is never guilty.
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? - One million? Meh, that's barely enough to cover my beerfund.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? RIIIIIIICH!
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? - I would.
6. Have you ever stolen anything? - Yups.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? - ~20gbs. I guess it would make something like 5-6k.

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? - Survived for as long as I have.
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? - Dunno, don't care.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? - Well, getting wasted. Or becoming a world dictator. One of those.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? - Yes. I am always the first.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? - yups.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? - Cheat? Not for the sake of high scores.
7. What did you do today that... ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10402473/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10402473/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 14:55:20 PDT Another completely pointless entry sponsored by Malefique

Bored.. figured out how to enter images into the signature with deviantartcode rather than HTML. Go me. (Yes, I used the whole a href html line before.. what can I say, to lazy to look through FAQ until tonight. )

Looking through a few websites on piczo... I should make a template for emo-kiddies there. Nothing against emo, or kiddies, but sheesh - all the sites I've seen there would qualify for a prime example of "I must be emo" concept... (Link to YouTube).

I should sleep now, but I am far to awake... damn. Got work tomorrow, and I wonder how I'll manage to survive it without my glasses (see previous dev journal entry for an explanation of why I dont have glasses anymore >.> )

ZzZzZzZ... I should eat, or drink, or do something. Instead I am writing this journal.. lol. Ah well...

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10387818/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10387818/ Sat, 14 Oct 2006 07:17:24 PDT
Well, sheesh. I hate people more than usual today, and I got some reasons for it.

Yesterday I decided to indulge myself, and went on a nice drinking spree, going from party to party. The first place I arrived to was a place that played trance and techno - really not interesting. So I moved on after one beer.

The second place I got to greeted me with Guns and Roses on full volume, so I decided to hang around for a while, socializing with some aquantances. And while it started so nicely...

The people got moderately (as in, I can't stand up on my own) drunk, and that resulted a basic concept, a girl whom two of the attendants started trouble over. With a slight twist, since one of the troublemakers was also a girl with a somewhat irregular sexual orientation (now known as bisexual girl for easier further reference). As such, no drunk fight occured, but... Well, seeing that things were well on their way to a fight, I decided to stop it. Something I did quite easily, talking to the bisxeual girl. She freaked out and I tried to calm her down, a task in which I also succeeded. Hey, I am a smooth talker...

In progress though, I got repeatedly bitchslapped, something that caused my glasses to fly hell-knows-where, so at the moment I am typing this in a relative blindness. w00t.

And here things go wrong. EVERYONE else at the party start talking to that girl, trying to comfort her, resulting only in a hysteria. When I tell them to go away, since they were ruining the relative status quo I have achieved, I GET THE BLAME. So, frustrated with that shit, I went out and got wasted, using the scraps and remains of whatever money I have. So, now I am broke.

Concluding the yesterday, I can say...

Lost glasses ~3000NOK
Drinks out - the remains of whatever money I had, like 300 NOK
Getting the blame for trying to help

Great achievements, huh? Fucking people... Next time, I'll just sit on the fucking couch and get wasted, letting the idiots fight or whatever. I've had enough of trying to do something positive.

,.l.._(-,-|

On a nicer note, I joined a new club.

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10301570/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10301570/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 08:19:25 PDT
Yeah, sue me. I was bored, so I bought a webcam for 200NOK. Wee....

Now I will be able to scare random people on MSN with my evil and unshaved visage.

Go me.

Other than that - nothing much to say. Nothing ever happens. *yawn*

coffe for the win!

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10262471/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10262471/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 17:05:46 PDT
Outside the moon is hidden
Beneath the murky clouds,
The stars are there, yet unseen,
I hear the baying hounds.

I hear them call upon me,
I hear their ragged breath
I know it's time to rise,
And hunt my game, your death.

The hunt is calling to me,
Slua Sidhe are in the sky,
They chase you, kill you, break you,
On wicked wings we fly.

Let me forget my duty,
As siofra, changeling,
Wild hunt bids me to stand and fall,
Before the Raven King.


Well, some people will understand the symbolics, some will google them. Some will wonder "wtf", and others again will simply read this and think I'm crazy.

Hey, I guess it works in any case.

Sorry for bad poem to those who expected a good one from me, by the way. I'm drunk.

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10149216/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10149216/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 04:17:38 PDT

Listening to: Entwine - My mistress

Well, seeing that I have only recently learned how to include deviant references in my journals (well, shoot me, I'm lazy), I figured I'd do some promotion of people I know around here. X-) So, here it goes.

*alteropptatt - This one here, is called Nelo. He is utterly Russian, and he sure as hell can draw. I was surprised that he turned out to have the needed ammount of concentration, but hey. Guess life's full of surprises.

~Chatelle - One word - malkavian. Those who don't know what a malkavian is - google it. This girl is utterly crazy, and that's why we all love her. A good writer. Nuff said. ^^

~Serissa - Well, what can I say... I can't really describe her in words. She's highly unusual and one of my very good friends. She doesn't load up much here on deviant, but what she does load up is definately worth checking.

~scionboss - "People always ask me... do I know Tim Grimstad?" X-) Well, I do. That's the guy. Insane to the brink and almost russian.

~LadySiofra - Well, full of surprises indeed. She can write, she can draw, and I didn't know that until she casually mentioned it. One thing she really CAN'T do though, is figuring out computer thingies. That's why she has so little deviant stuff. She hasn't figured it out quite yet. Still, give her a visit and check her gallery. It's still worth it, even though it's small for now. X-)

~celestial-elevator, ~Ercarret, ~NeverEndingNightmare - Unfortunaly, I dont know those three very well, since most of our communication goes via deviantart, but do believe me, they all got stuff that's well worth a look and they are all mighty nice people. If they weren't, they'd not be talking to me.

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10089914/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10089914/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 10:31:38 PDT
Mood: Alive
Listening to: Ariya - Torero
Reading: Incompet(e)nce

Yeah. My gallery is cleaned up. All the older deviations that recieved no comments are gone. So meh. And another note to self, I have to stop submitting written stuff here... It's no point. No one reads it anyways. X-)

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10039077/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10039077/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 12:47:59 PDT celestial-elevator , my results of her quiz.

Mood: Alive
Listening to: Frank Zappa - Montana

1. How does the world see you?
"Kill a Kitten"-Stephen Lynch
(LoL.. so they see me as a murderous bastard )

2. Will I have a happy life?
"Flower of Carnage"-Mejiko Kaji (Kill Bill Vol 2. Theme)
(Carnage... says it all.. )

3. What do my friends think of me?
"Who You Love"-Doro
(Seems I got better friends than I deserve. )

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
"December Elegy"- Tristania
(Looks like a no... no surprises here.)

5. How can I make myself happy?
"Dead to the World"-Nightwish
(Yeah, I guess that would work)

6. What should I do with my life?
"Sleepwalker" - Nightwish
(Sleep more? Yey!)

7. Will I ever have children?
"Kill the Wabbit" -Metallica
(Haha! Sums it up - NO!!)

8. What is some good advice for me?
"Morgenstern" -Rammstein
(To hide from the world? Yey, lol..)

9. How will I be remembered?
"Sun and Steel"-Iron Maiden
(So I will eventually snap and become a murderer.. yey)

10. What's my signature dancing song?
"Wildfire" –Sonata Arctica
(LOL!)

11. What's my current themesong?
"Disposable heroes” -Metallica
(Haha.. disposable me. )

12. What do others think is my current themesong?
"Planet Hell” - Nightwish
(Really? )

13. What shall they play at my funeral?
"This town" – Jack Off Jill feat Korn
(Guess it works)

14. What type of men/women do I like?
"Asgard" - Nightwish
(Wtf? I like Valkyries?)

15. How's my love life?
"Aerith Theme"- Final Fantasy Soundtrack
(Has any of you HEARD that awfully SAD theme? LoL!!)

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10038423/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/10038423/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 11:34:03 PDT
Mood: Alive
Listening to: No Woman No Cry
Reading: -

Mynetisbackmynetisbackmynetisbackmynetis back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg, yeah, woot, yey! *bounces*

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9891974/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9891974/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 03:18:50 PDT
Mood: Alive
Listening to: throbbing headache
Reading: Lovecraft

Ok, this is just a shout of frustration... why oh WHY is there no mood smiley that says "hung over"?!?! I would need that one right now...

Meh. I guess dead smiley works too. that`s what happens when one mixes beer with vodka in relatively big quantaties. ^^

*yawn* so anyways. Deviantart, get a hung over smiley to suit us alcoholics!!! *pokes deviantart* I can even make one when I get back home.

Sayonara.

Edit: I just saw how amusing it looked with "dead" mood smiley and "alive" mood tag next to it. lol. It does sum up my condition though. ^^

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9858542/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9858542/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 05:38:14 PDT
Mood: Alive
Reading: Lovecraft

Little time again, but I can update you people that I finished my CG color of Lucy+Nyu scetches for which are found in scraps. Going to upload the complete piece soon sometime... when I get my ass around to burning out a CD and taking it to the computer with the net.

Sayonara.

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9802305/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9802305/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 09:09:45 PDT
Mood: Alive
Reading: Lovecraft

Little time... meeeep! Check out my scraps for an up and coming elfen lied drawing. Enjoy the deviation I loaded up too. Chatelle (here at deviantart) is the mdoel for it.

Moo.. have to run. *stress*

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9562768/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9562768/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 06:57:40 PDT
Mood: Alive
Reading: Lovecraft

Well, some good news first. I got answer from my ISP about my internet line.
Now bad news, they said they couldn't deliver to the place I live. Means I have to find another ISP. >.<

Good news again, I have learned to draw relatively normal anime. Another Lucy from Elfen Lied is drawn. Bad news is that a) my scanner ate the shading and made it look like shit, and b) I forgot the CD with the drawing at home, so I can't load it up.

Good news, some of my magic worked, and I got some unexpected monetary aid. Bad news, even with that aid, I am broke. D'oh.

So I dont know if I should be happy or pissed off, lol.

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9530755/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/9530755/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 07:21:16 PDT
Mood: Alive
Listening to: Shivaree - Goodnight moon
Reading: C. Kastaneda

Well then... here we go. I have still not gotten my internet back, and it seems like it will take a looooong while. Goddamn ISPs... Slow assholes. Still, I can get on the net now and then, so it's better than nothing I guess.

I have joined the Elfen Lied fanclub, so now I have to figure out how to add an icon to this post. *poking around for info*

I have also been drinking steadily for like four days in a row, and I am getting a little tired of alcohol... Even though it does sound absurd, me being tired from booze. Ah well. Weird things happen at times I guess. ^^

Well, what else can I say... Oh, right. I can give the answer to the riddle in my previous post.

The answer was that the old man told cossaks to switch horses, since the deal was "whose horse last crosses the finishing line".

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]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8979977/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8979977/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 15:57:52 PDT
Mood: Alive
Reading: H.P. Lovecraft
Watching: The Upper side of Anger

I'm bored. So here comes a riddle for anyone who reads this.

"Once, in a distant village of Russian Cossaks, there lived two men who were the best horse-riders in the whole country. They became that good by racing eachother many times every day, getting their share of wins and losses. However, as time went, they grew bored of their races. So, they found a different competition. They said that the one whose horse crosses the finishing line last will be declared the best one of them.

As the contest started, the two men did not move from the starting line. They sat there for several hours, until an old man walked by. He asked them why they were sitting there, and they told him about their contest.

Smiling, the old man whispered something to each of them, and walked on. The two cossaks however, were already rushing towards the finishing line in desperation.

What did the man tell them?"

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8666727/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8666727/ Wed, 03 May 2006 21:28:03 PDT
Mood: Alive
Listening to: MCR - I'm not OK
Reading: Carlos Castaneda
Watching: X-Files series. X-)

Alright, so I got back to drawing, since Im insomnic and bored. I wish I wasn't. Not because I mind being bored or insomnic, but because I suck at drawing.

Ok, I admit, it was my fault entirely to pick an image of Jeanette from Masquerade (also known as "that damn malk") to copy. It was also my own fault that I never learned to shade properly, nor had any semi-soft or soft pencils, or even charcoal. But still... GODDAMN THAT MALK!

I've never, and I repeat, NEVER put more than one hour's work in a drawing. Until now. This goddamn malk wasted me most of the paper I had in the vicinity, half an eraser, and a lot of nerves. *Imagine me banging my head on the wall, yelling "WHY DONT YOU COME OUT LIKE YOU DO ON THE PICTURE?!!"* Still, I'm done, and I uploaded the image before I change my mind and go at it again.

I really should learn to shade though... grr.

On a different note, I hate people a little more than usual nowadays, I've watched through 11 episodes of X-Files over the course of the past two nights, and I really need a beer.

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8507831/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8507831/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 07:00:45 PDT
Mood: Alive
Listening to: Isis - Carry
Reading: Carlos Castaneda
Watching: Kill Bill vol. 2

Well there. So now I have an active one year-long subscribtion. Thanks a bunch to the people who arranged that contest I won. The big question is now, what to do with it. Shoutbox, nicer journal and such are cool, but I'll have to poke some around devart before I figure it all out.

And poking around devart isnt really my top priority at the moment. Seeing the fact that I got a writer's block, I can't draw worth damn and I've forgotten everything about photoshop except the blur filter.

Meh. We'll see I guess. Just felt like whining a little about my lack of creativity at the moment. X-)))

]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8496348/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8496348/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 05:31:12 PDT [link] ? The one about nightmare poetry? Well, my "Hellforge" came in second. I got a year of deviantart subscribtion to play with. X-)

Any ideas on what to do with it? X-) ]]> ~malefique http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8403024/ http://malefique.deviantart.com/journal/8403024/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 22:27:56 PDT ~malefique