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Much love and cookies.
~Ri

]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/12412966/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/12412966/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 08:16:26 PDT And I have no time.
and I need new software.
and i realllly should be working on my 6 page paper due tomorrow.

I'm sending some stuff in to photo contests...maybe I'll get something.
heh.

<3 Ri

]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/9759446/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/9759446/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 11:38:19 PDT
Speaking of which, I should be working on a paper right now. Damn my laziness.
Glad I'm back!!
<3
~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/8557873/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/8557873/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 06:11:11 PDT ive been tooooo busy.
damnit i havent taken any photos in FOREVER.
*dies*
just wanted you guys to know im alive and daydreaming about a studio. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/8170171/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/8170171/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 15:45:21 PST This
music
is
hard.
and if I get re-auditioned tomorrow I am dead.
*takes deep breath*
im gonna go crunch notes/insane beat patterns.
and possibly throw up on my music.
Symphony Hall, here I come.
]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/8012075/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/8012075/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 19:13:03 PST ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7884848/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7884848/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 15:40:18 PST Umm...have a hippity hoppity happity Valentines.
(day)

How obvious is it that Im procrastinating.
And I cant find my lit book ANYWHERE.
grrrrrrrrrrrr. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7867826/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7867826/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 19:17:51 PST my throat is killing me. and the pillows are CALLING ME.
'chicago' the musical didnt make it (missed byt more or less a point) but we're gonna try to perform it at the Harvard tournament.
why am i telling you all this??
because......
THE PILLOWS ARE CALLING ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7829027/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7829027/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 13:55:13 PST

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
sphere fall begins on march 21). At this time of
(its this gigantic book i got at a second hand sale for 25 cents, just for kicks. it analyzes your horoscope depending on your birthday)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
*pauses* nothing happened!
well that was pointless.

3. What is the last thing you watched on tv?
ER

4. Without looking, guess what time it is.
4:40 (*jawdrops* whoa, i was DEAD ON. freaky)

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
see above.
but just for clarification, 4:40

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Dave Matthews and the garage door

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
A couple hours ago, walking home.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
uh. somebody's journal.

9. What are you wearing?
brown sweater, blue shirt, these strange blue pj bottoms. (dressed for comfort, not style, and i look like a displaced bag lady)

10. Did you dream last night?
Yes.

11. When did you last laugh?
Getting onto the bus

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Umm, these little tile paintings from Holland, some of my dad's photography

13. Seen anything weird lately?
*looks in mirror* yupp.

14. What do you think of this quiz
no one's gonna care about any of these answers, but its fun

15. What is the last film you saw?
In Her Shoes

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
lunch.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I'm a really good mimic.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
think about what i would do. and then do it.

19. Do you like to dance?
YES! (though im not very good.)

20. George Bush:
What more is there to say? the name itself has enough negative connotation

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
OMG Narnia Crouton!!!! (jk)
Zara (??)


22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Damon/Damien (??)

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I plan on it...

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Clearly your mother was wrong about you.

25. Who do you tag:
~whiterabbitwhatever-the-number-is ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7784873/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7784873/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 19:56:10 PST i made highest honors (in school). woot.
i got the Madame de la Grande Bouche (ie: the wardrobe) in Beauty and the Beast. woot.
i broke some kind of a record selling stuff for Educational leadership for a Nonviolent Age (ELNA). yay.

the downside being that im overworked, stressed, a total emotional mess and otherwise sick of life.

several photo sessions planned, should be done by the end of feb!!!

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7577706/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7577706/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 19:47:48 PST but a reasonable time was had by all. almost all the pieces are lovely. im so glad we're seeing Jabberwocky!!

the bus ride home was....eventful. to say the least. boys are silly. but so are girls i guess. people are all idiots.
ANYWAY, i came home and im tired and stressed and i heard the rain start to pound down, and i was like "thank GOD" i needed rain, it always calms me down, it's soothing. and less then 10 secs. later is stopped. talk about a sign.
and thats the end of my story. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7401558/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7401558/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 10:00:43 PST at least that nightmare's over for another two weeks.
sorry havent taken too many pics lately, ive been writing a lot though...nothing i feel like posting however. i really have to do that shoot of the ABK (band) but cant find a decent location. so many ideas so little time.
everything feels overused.
whatever. im sorta floating right now.
crap i have to go do my hair.
im singing 6:15-9 and then 10:45-1 AM tonight. and i have a cold. ickickick.
so now im going to go act like a pretentious artist and mope around the house and refuse to help anyone out and post jim morrison poetry at the bottom of this entry.

have a happy non-satanic holiday!!!!
you guys!!

ps - to whom it may concern: HAND OVER MY ID im having an indentity crisis!!!!!! (i wanna photoshop a bckrnd onto it, so joe, dont take all the lines out of the lioness logo thing cuz then it might not show up. sami - if we're going with that whole "falling down a rabbit hole" concept i can 'shop the hole and the floor in, if you just mail me the pic.)
pps - dont stress tho, i spose i can wait.

--------------------
LAMERICA

Clothed in sunlight
restled in waiting
dying of fever

Changed shapes of an empire
Starling invaders
Vast promissory notes of joy

Wanton, willful & passive
Married to doubt
Clothed in great warring monuments
of glory

How it has changed you
How slowly estranged you
Solely arranged you

Beg you for mercy

by Jim Morrison

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7156757/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7156757/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 09:51:27 PST
Through the corridors of sleep
Past the shadows dark and deep
My mind dances and leaps in confusion.
I don’t know what is real,
I can’t touch what I feel
And I hide behind the shield of my illusion.

So I’ll continue to continue to pretend
My life will never end,
And flowers never bend
With the rainfall.

The mirror on my wall
Casts an image dark and small
But I’m not sure at all it’s my reflection.
I am blinded by the light
Of God and truth and right
And I wander in the night without direction.

So I’ll continue to continue to pretend
My life will never end,
And flowers never bend
With the rainfall.

It’s no matter if you’re born
To play the king or pawn
For the line is thinly drawn ’tween joy and sorrow,
So my fantasy
Becomes reality,
And I must be what I must be and face tomorrow.

So I’ll continue to continue to pretend
My life will never end,
And flowers never bend
With the rainfall. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7094543/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/7094543/ Sun, 20 Nov 2005 07:12:50 PST ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6883756/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6883756/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 15:49:26 PDT me and the rest of america i guess.
i am now the official photographer of a band. *insert happiness here*
i took the color test (again after a long time) and these are my results.
i took one of those tests where they pshyco analyze you. it said that
subject maintains her attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off her feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for.
AND
she must know exactly where she stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against her own tendency to be too trusting
(whatever)
AND
that I tend to hate conflict
(hmm...does this make me sane?? honestly, ive always thought i was sort a melodramtic conflict junkie, but apparently not. )
IN FACT
subj. Tries to escape from her problems, difficulties, and tensions by abrupt, headstrong, and ill-considered decisions or changes of direction.
(i can think of one specific instance where this was true)
AAAAAAAAAND
subject is able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.
(what a relief. )

the end. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6883755/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6883755/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 15:49:20 PDT me and the rest of america i guess.
i am now the official photographer of a band. *insert happiness here*
i took the color test (again after a long time) and these are my results.
i took one of those tests where they pshyco analyze you. it said that
subject maintains her attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off her feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for.
AND
she must know exactly where she stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against her own tendency to be too trusting
(whatever)
AND
that I tend to hate conflict
(hmm...does this make me sane?? honestly, ive always thought i was sort a melodramtic conflict junkie, but apparently not. )
IN FACT
subj. Tries to escape from her problems, difficulties, and tensions by abrupt, headstrong, and ill-considered decisions or changes of direction.
(i can think of one specific instance where this was true)
AAAAAAAAAND
subject is able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.
(what a relief. )

the end. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6768768/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6768768/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 18:12:21 PDT i am so not a morning person.

PSATS 7:30-11
12 15 multiple rehearsal
2:30 -3:30 meeting
4:30-5:30 cantoring mass
6:30-? dinner party (argh)

hopefully i can get out of the dinner and go to the movies!!!

my dad just brought pizza home but it tastes funny or ive just lost my appetite or something i ate half a slice. weird.

im sleepy and its only 9.

okay, im definitely coming down with something. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6678765/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6678765/ Tue, 04 Oct 2005 14:32:26 PDT You! Yes you! No, the other you!! Yeah, that one! Kill it! Go on, stab it with a pitch fork, a pointey pen, drop a piano on its overgrown head, I don't care, juse kill it before it GETS TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

i have a chem test tomorrow. excuse me while i puke. i DONT want to study, and so i am procrastinating with mindless journal entries. what a shitty waste of time. i realllly wanna watch love actually whichi have never seen which is sitting on my bed and just waiting for me to devour it wholeheartedly and i have to do CHEMISTRY?? what has the world come to? academics are standing in the way of artistic...uh...stuff! it's time for another revolution!
k, done now.

oh my Lord, how i can i possibly STILL be hungry?? i just ate enough to feed a family of killer whales. it's like im eating for....7. GASP!!! i must have gone an somehow managed to impregnate myself yet again. and am now the mother to be septeplits. how careless of me. jeez. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6452458/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6452458/ Thu, 08 Sep 2005 17:08:37 PDT
I procrastinate
and twiddle my thumbs
wiggle my toes
wondering if you got lost under the sky.
a figure in my head that fluttered and died.
(i wish you let me say goodbye)

I dizzily hum
the world shifts methodically
in instant long incraments
that stretch and dawn
convulse and shatter
slit my fingertips
as the ink trips forth
from the shallow birth
into the bowl shaped heart below
(i wish you let me say goodbye)
-R. Dia
---

i don't want to do my homework *stamps foot*. In retaliation I ate a bunch of potato chips AND drank Pepsi. I might die of clogged arteries tomorrow. As long as its after voice, Im fine. I'd like to die happy. Though its pretty masochistic since I come out of there with cramps everysingle time from stretching muscles that I didn't know existed.
I want tomato soup.

im so lazy




-T/R/M/D
i hav so many names its no wonder im totally schizo ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6348082/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6348082/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 04:49:48 PDT School in three more days! I'm looking forward to seeing people, but none of the work...
We went to the beach yesterday, it was a lot of fun. Got some cool pics.
Then we went to dinner at my aunts, and got home at midnight.
And now I have to get ready for math tutoring. My brain doesn't function at 9 AM. this is probably why school is an issue .
I'm so sleepy....... *yawns* ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6263263/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6263263/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 15:47:00 PDT However, this is just a song by the Kings of Convenience. Who are Norwegian. I've gone all happy about Norwegian bands. It's a sort of a growing passion.

Anyway, lots of personages have been asking for pics from the trip I took this summer, and thankyouGodorHigherBeing () I found my them! :wOOt: On my dad's photo album! Don't ask me how they got there!
So here are some from Amsterdam and India. Pleeeeeease look at them and comment (see I'm begging! Shamelessly - or shamefully - but begging nonetheless.)
If you dont.... Wow shameless and threating I have a future in...homicidal stripping... I guess...

Good to know I have a future.

~Mal ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6075246/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/6075246/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 07:26:07 PDT I'm back!! and I only have about a thousand views to go through, but I'll try.
India was pretty cool. I didnt take half as many pictures as I wanted to. The main problem being the risk of gettin mugged or pick-pocketed was greatly increased if you walked around with a reasonable expenisve camera in your hands. And, the places we went didn't really lend themselves to leisurely strolling and taking pictures of what appear to be commonplace sights, as the streets were so crowded.
Here are bits and peices from my journal:
The prickly heat crawls over me, the smooth sunlight pounds my skin, turning it into a rough tan hide, an initiative embrace, a taste of what’s come.

The streets are finally lulled to sleep by the gentle pounding of the monsoon, and the harsh hiss of the secretive palm trees.

The roads are a warm orangey red everywhere. There is dust and many trees. Huge banyans stretching over the traffic jams, like a mocking God, growing to the sun, while we struggle down below.

---
I went street shopping in the middle of the monsoon!! It was ridiculously fun. We get drenched of course, and my leg got kinda infected probably due to the street water, but it was such a great time.
The country itself is one big contradiction betwen rich and poor, those with values and those who are corrupt, even the weather - the dry heat, and the rain that comes like a stampede.

More musings to come, unfortunately for those loyal peoples who bother to read this.

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5697462/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5697462/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 18:52:05 PDT haven't posted in a while, sorry. Been soooo busy.
It's just me and dad at home now, since the rest of la familia have gone to India already.
TONS of packing left to do, and we're off on Saturday. The main problem is, I'm wearing everything I need to pack, this week.
It's all very stressful and hectic.
And of course final exams are this week as well. Plus two projects and a speech. So I'm cramming stuff into my head and suitcase (wow that was lame) and it's so hard to get anytime to do work on any kind of art.
argh. *bangs head against wall*
I'm excited to go to India, have a feeling I'll be writing a lot there, and TONS of phots as well...
but I'm also sad. I know it's brattish to say so, but why does EVERYTHING at home have to happen while I'm gone. And I'm going to miss my friends, even if it is just a month.
It's funny all my relationships with everyone at school, (frnds and otherwise) seem to all of a sudden have intensified this past month.
*sigh*
better go...i've got a project to do, and a paper to write.

Take Care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~Ri

ps. - luv you guys muchly and thanks for all the support I've been getting.
okay, well nobody's actually commented in about a month, but to all of you who just drop in and say hi or whatever, thanks!

- has anybody else noticed a lull in submissions? I watch about a thousand people, and usually, by now there's a bout 87 things for me to look at, and after a month of not checking em, theres only been about 27. strange. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5601525/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5601525/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 16:53:06 PDT Julianna and Mik are making out with a fierce passion. In the middle of the hallway. Again. Must be true love. It's like a planned parenthood commerical. Jeez.
It's way too hot to be doing that anyway. I cringe every time some one comes within a foot of me anyway. Body heat. Smell. Eeeeew.
Does she really think anyone's listening? France's position in WW II means nothing to me at present. I am busy watching Joe fan himself with his most recent test. Every four seconds or so he hits himself in the nose and says "Ow." It is fascinating. The struggles of ancient man mean so much more to me now.
Tom is occupied with fanning up his shirt. Once he figured out that he was circulating very little air since the paper just kept hitting the material, he has proceeded with the much more fruitful task of repeating "I am so effin hot. And sweaty." and slapping his stomach with a wet "slap!" to further illustrate his point. Riveting. God Bless America.

----
More later... I have been summoned with loud cries to do the laundry. yay. My life has purpose. I feel so fulfilled.


~Mal ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5583010/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5583010/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 19:14:19 PDT WHY DOES CAFFEINE HAVE NO EFFECT ON ME??
I am so tired. I barely remember my name. I have to write an essay for my English final now. I just went to the Speech and Debate awards. I wish it was like a drive thru, pick up your award and go. bad, bad, crazy day.
and it is like the temperature of a volcano in here.
and i have so many bug bites i look like a lepper. i think it was an attempt to kill me from the mosquito population as revenge for the deaths of many of their kindred, which im responsibll\e for. excellent. and my mom stole my makeup. woot.

STUPID ESSAY.
blah.
here's hoping your day didnt suck.


mal

]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5543964/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5543964/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 14:58:39 PDT

Blue and gray paint
exploded on my black and red
walls.
Deep lips, deep kiss,
the smile was laced in
purple ink.

Been drunk on words
music, music, music,
to drown out the song.
the spider cast it's cobwebs
lace thin, so fragile
they capture claw
and hold
Her brown eyes
were so old and tired
and with no other way
to break the rules,
she spilled the coffee
on the floor.
---

I'm so emo.
In OTHER news, it's so busy, finals looming ahead. Scary.
Also, mom organized this concert for the people of Sudan/Darfur. I was in one of the acts. much fun. and 5000 bucks raised. yay!
Got contacts, straightened my hair, ran for student council today. *groan* I feel like one of the girls in those weird makeover movies.
I have to write a long French movie script with a limited vocabulary. In the next three hours.
SOOOO excited. I'm going to India soon!. My mom, sis, and brother are leaving this weekend. I'll catch up after finals.
Hope you all are dandy.
i havent submitted in a while, but I still look at everybody's work. Im just to damn rude to comment, I guess.



~Ri
Mal
-T
and everybody else in my head. Everyone knows I'm just a high functioning schizophrenic.


p.s. - to all who know him - Spike says hi!

]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5332829/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5332829/ Wed, 11 May 2005 18:59:34 PDT
2. excessive biology homework must be put to death before it takes over the world.

3. very cowardly people drive me insane. i have a feeling this is because i am an overbearing heartless bee-yotch. but then again, this has its perks.

4. I really need constructive criticism (praise works to ) on my excuse for photography because i would like to take a few somewhat presentable pictures, preferably before I die.

5. Anybody have a solution to make me not tired?
All the time.

6. Anybody got any decent music recommendations?

7. When people read Shakespeare horrifcally I either get homicidal or want to throw myself on the floor and weep (not that i'm the next Ophelia or anything, but for Hades sake, does a 30 line monologue of Juliet's HAVE to be read monotone?)

8. Someone needs to teach me how to speak Russian, Italian, cockney, Greek....


Me ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5278156/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5278156/ Thu, 05 May 2005 18:41:49 PDT infections
SUCK.

Unlike normal people, who get sinus infections that are not obsessed with the lime light, mine bulldoze me. And I get cranky.
I totally looked like crap in sneakers this morning. Wore my very oldest-most-faded-i-am-a-homeless-person -give-me-money sweatpants and an old shirt, staunchly resisted the impulse to spend an hour plying my hair into a presentable style, and stumbled onto the bus.
and of course really cool guy had to come up and start talking to me. Why guys are allowed to look terrible and are forgiven for it, and girls arent, is beyond me.
i was like "[SNIFF] uh, hedo. How are oo tobay?[SNIFF FRANTICALLY LOOKS FOR TISSUE]"
and three tests today.
And then I couldnt sing for monkey hair () in chorus, which didnt really help matters.
i do so love complaining.
it's spring, though. yay.
and i'm really excited cuz I'm going to India in the summer. The photo ops there are making me hungry.

i promise i had something vaguely interesting to say but i forgot. that is becoming a big problem...

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5241502/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5241502/ Sun, 01 May 2005 19:35:43 PDT ...with New York City.

I've been so many times before but this time I enjoyed myself soooo much.

The Met. Opera House, etc. was mind blowingly orgamiscally INCREDIBLE.
I sang my very first note there. The guy said "You're a soprano - test the acoustics" I sang one long note and the sound quality in there was fantastic.
I love love love love loved it.

Saw Mama Mia on Broadway - was much fun!

But now I've got so much homework to do, dang it.

"oh god it's wonderful
to get out of bed
and drink too much coffee
and smoke too many cigarettes
and love you so much"
- Frank O'Hara



Take care...
~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5175371/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5175371/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 10:47:00 PDT
What happened was the computer I normally use has been surely and steadily moving itself towards the impending doom of a crash, and crash it did, with lots of noise. The end result was that if you even clicked on a folder it would take up to half an hour to open it. Which basically made my computer unusable and the internet connection was completely messed up (a lot of this having to do with the fact that certain members of the family installed a million popup blockers on trial subscriptions). So I'm using my dad's laptop now. He wants to reboot, or clear out, or do something weird to my computer, so he transferred all my photos (715 of them) to his laptop. I had them all filed and titled and everything, but in the process, they got mixed up and the titles were lost. So now I have 715 pictures to sort and catalogue. *sigh* at least they're still there. And we lost photoshop *moment of mourning* and photoshop was my baby...

So this has a lot to do why my life is sucky right now, and why I haven't been around. It was really frustrating cuz I took lots of pics, but couldn't submit them.

I feel like I am in the arms of my long lost lover (DA)!!

Here's hoping all you are still alive and kicking.
I'm going on a singing trip in NY from Apr. 27 - May 1.
Can't wait!

I'm afraid that there is no way in Hell that I'll be able to catch up on 320 deviations that I've been missed, so I'm gonna start anew...

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5169260/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/5169260/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 16:45:33 PDT ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4831866/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4831866/ Wed, 16 Mar 2005 19:39:57 PST for her sweet Muse
that give new drink
to words of hue."
- Teresa's Sonnet, by V. Bjorge
--------------------------------------

Thanks so much to all the :hugs: and :glomps: I got!! I felt much better and basked in the glow of emoticons (and nice words). Varg, I saw your's first, and I nearly fell of my chair.

What if.... I grow up and become an a.) peniless unproductive alchoholic, or b.) rich unproductive alchohlic, or c.) something not depressing, and I meet some absolutely amazing person who I have a wonderful friendship and/or fall madly in love with and I found out that they are a Deviant.... oh, life would truly be beautiful.

If this snow doesn't stop soon, I will kill it. I LOVE it during the actual process, as in the snow coming down from the sky thanks to the magical powers of gravity (I think). It encompasses everything, and I feel tiny, like I'm in a glass teardrop with these white exquisite drops pouring and dancing down from the sky like words onto a page.
But after that, it sucks. It gets gross and brown and slushy and all over my shoes and it just SITS there and it just GLARES the sunlight off it, so that you have to squint everytime you step outside (and consequently makes it VERy difficult for me to see when I'm taking pictures.)

check out *TVPR's latest journal entry. 'Twas inspiring, and very well written and I am in complete agreement with it (watch, he's probably changde it now, and if people go look for it, they'll find something on how to speak Norwegian ) AND he's a very talented photographer who I look up to lots.
Yay!

I would like to recommend to you
1. Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke
2. The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
3. Franz Ferdinand
4. Vanilla ice cream and Scotch
I completely did not say that last one.

I am currently battling a case of the blues, using mostly the addictive power of TV, Tolstoy, and an utterly pointless cat and mosue game of eat-chocolate-and-then-do-a-million-crun ches.
Speaking of which, I have fitness testing in gym tomorrow. gross. I don't see the point of running if no one is chasing you. I attribue my constinent habit of just meeting the requirement in the running portion of the test to this entirely logical reasoning.

Viva la revolution!!!

or whatever.

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4793106/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4793106/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 10:29:57 PST finite deeds like weak fountains,
falling back just in time and trembling.
And yet, what otherwise remains silent,
our happy energies—show themselves
in these dancing tears.
-- Rainer Maria Rilke
(tr. Cliff Crego)
---------------------------------------- -----

Bad day.


give me a / please!

argh.

I reeeeeally want to go home!!!!! ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4652136/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4652136/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 09:03:29 PST 1. a movie
2. a book
3. a musical artist, song, or album
4. a awsome web site

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth, to the best of my ability. Unless, I find it too personal, then I'm sorry but I can't.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.

I am bored and trying to amuse myself. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4569408/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4569408/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 12:02:24 PST }
check out ~zhephyr 's page. she's a friend of mine, and pretty good.
band practice, musical practice, recording, school, speech and debate, boyfriend, school, school, bad computer... all making me worry.
eek.
I have an extremely adolescent terror of mediocrity. It has the side effect of raising my expectations way too high.
alas, alack, quack.
Valentine's Day is stressfull.
I really wish I had a car.
I am complaining.

I have s whole bunch of stuff to submit as soon as my computer stops being an unresponsive ass.
(ahem.)

"I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell."




Happ Valentines (which is just a holiday created by Hallmark to get more money and force me to where pink and give me a chance to wear my little frog pin that says "kiss me" which i think is cute but would be embarrassed to wear at any other time) Day.

heart
Me ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4431735/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4431735/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 19:10:28 PST
exams just finished today (thank heaven) and i already have an english essay due tomorrow. and it's 10:00 PM. and I really want sleep. and because i am a very crappy first draft writer, i am going to have to rewrite the damn thing. VERY long musical rehearsal tonight. Mostly dancing.
Sorry to complain.
I'm probably not going to get and submissions in for a while, i'm going to be pretty busy.
Goodnight....eventually.
'sleep. and dream your dreams of oversleeping."

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4417164/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4417164/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 04:09:57 PST GLORY. BE.
I should be struck down for saying this, but it's only slightly annoying because I was looking forward to finishing those dratted midterms, getting them out of my way. And plus, now play practice is canceled.
The good things is I get to finish this violin part I was writing. Yay. It's sooo much easier to sit down and do it at a piano, vs. bumping along in an undignified manner on a school bus with a bunch of clueless adolescents staring at you like you are a blue-headed monkey because you keep on humming frantically.
I'm so happy I'm starting to scare myself.
oh dear.

I think I'll go back to bed.


-----
"Somebody tole me
you had a boyfriend
who looked like a girlfriend that I had
in February of last year."


Poem of the Entry
The Game

Outside my windows an English spring was
summoning home its birds and a week-long fog
was tattering into wisps and rags and at last
I could see the railings when I looked out.

I was a child in a north-facing bedroom in
a strange country. I lay awake listening to
quarreling and taffeta creaking and clattering
of queens and aces on the inlaid card table.

I played a game: I hid my face in the pillow
and put my arms around it until they thickened.
Then I was following the thaw northward and the air
was blond with frost and sunshine and below me

was only water and the shadow of flight in it
and the shape of wings under it, and in the hours
before morning I would be drawn down and drawn
down and there would be no ground under me

and no safe landing in the dawn breaking on
a room with sharp corners and surfaces on which
the red-jacketed and cruel-eyed fractions of chance
lay scattered where the players had abandoned them.

Later on I would get up and go to school in
the scalded light which fog leaves behind it;
and pray for the King in chapel and feel dumbly for
the archangels trapped in their granite hosannas.

- Eavan Boland ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4410429/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4410429/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 10:48:19 PST ) And right now I'm freezing. Which I suppose is what you should expect if you are sitting in a basement wearing sheer black nylons and a miniskirt when it is -2 degrees outside.
I've been doing some fashion 'ads', lately, just for fun. I put them in my newspaper, but that's about it. I think I'll start posting some just for kicks.
Now I have to go take a shower but the water is going to seem frigid since I'm shivering/
Freezingly Yours,
~Ri
Mal
or Rose.


"...the battle is won, with all these things I've done."
THE KILLERS ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4324347/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4324347/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 05:28:08 PST So I'm supposed to be at the concert at 10:45 (even tho the actual thing is at 4:00). I'm excited, it'll be fun I think. We sing this wonderful African song as we walk in. I'd better go get ready...
]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4088217/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4088217/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 12:57:11 PST I'm really beginning to understand what people are saying about how the American lifestyle is horribly, disgustingly fast-paced. This is not right, normal, or remotely sane. I really must slow down.
It's about 12 degrees Farenheit, and snowy which is great, cuz I love winter, but it's one of those days when it's sunny AND frigid, which is just too weird.
And i can't find my coat, and I wish I could actually go outside with my camera. the downside is that I will die of pneumonia/frost bite/hypothermia/embarrasment because I look like a sumo wrestler in winter garb with all these layers on.

god bless hot chocolate. here i go, into the wilderness....
oh damn, that's cold.
]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4034683/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4034683/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 12:08:11 PST
Fell asleep on the bus home, almost missed my stop. I had to walk up the hill to my house (and it's the tallest hill in the town) in the rain. I love rain, but this was the annoying drizzly kind. Then I get home to find that I forgot my cell phone in my room (crazy morning) as well as my keys. I then calmly proceeded to break into to my own house. I entered hoping that no one had seen me since I looked like an uncoordinated psychopath. And now I have a cold.
Lovely. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4030296/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/4030296/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 19:39:33 PST Please don't feel you have to read this. I'm just venting.

I've been depressed and v. very stressed out lately. As in not eating and going to bed at three and puking and all that nastiness.

I auditioned for Footloose against my will and got a callback. Now that that's over all i've got left is 2 more nights of auditioning. and now here i am at home FINALLY. with an ice pack on my thigh, no coffee and about 5 hours worth of work to do and a chemistry exam 2morrow.

Jeez i need viagra or SOMETHING. i'm such a whiny little brat! ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3910540/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3910540/ Wed, 24 Nov 2004 16:23:22 PST THANKS SO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO COMMENTS ON HERE, it means so much to me.
~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3884385/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3884385/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 08:28:26 PST I'm thinking about posting a script I've been working on with wilohmsford...
he is so cool.... ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3769138/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3769138/ Sat, 06 Nov 2004 14:38:26 PST Stayed at home and overdosed on cough drops...
wish i had the enrgy to go the mall.
Anyway, Even though I'm supposed to be working on a history of Christianity proj. I am submitting Deviations with wild abandon. Most of them are horrible, which is why I never submitted them before. My camera needs a new battery/charger, and i don't have any money, so i haven't been able to take any pictures. this is very depressing. So i resorted to drawing on my walls, writing, and generally behaving like a completely insane bitch without coffee.
I've been listening to Daughters by John Mayer for the past like, eleven hours. Some cheesy part of me is connecting with that song. Oh dear lord, I need a vodka. (but a cappacino wil do just fine...where IS Scott when you need him? ) ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3733113/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3733113/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 11:27:01 PST I have an 'interpretive art sort of a project' to do on Theodora (hooker turned Empress from the Byzantine Empire)
Je vais finir mes devoirs... ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3673822/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3673822/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 18:43:17 PDT

anyway, i'm beyond thrilled that it's actually working okay. people can send me attachments! i can send them attachments! yay!!

vineknots@gmail.com

(get it? i have a strange love for knots and vines, and you put 'em together and it sounds like why nots?? get it?? huh??
yeah okay just shoot me before i do further damage)

yes, so that's actually all i have to say. i hope you all have lovely days that are filled with oppurtunities to eat chocolate.



~Ri
-Mal
and
Rose. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3654461/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3654461/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 09:04:29 PDT .
yesterday went to voice lessons, then the car broke down, and i had to get to a rehearsal in 10 minutes. My dad had to drive by from the other end of the planet and jump-start the car. rushed to rehearsal, messed up the dance number,

~~(God, Julia, I had better get it right for tonight, and I have to break in the new character shoes properly - i'm gonna slip all over the place, especially on the part where I have to fall back. it doesn't help that i stick out my left foot instead of my right. p.s. - can i borrow your black fishnets if you're wearing the red? if not, does Catie have an extra pair?)~~

and didn't have time to change into my costume. at least I sang it right. then i went to the town Debate to support the Speech and Debate Team (which i belong to) and look intellectual. our team creamed the other one!!!! but it wasn't hard since the other team consisted of two men who were at least 82, and barely understood any of the questions. but either, way, they did great.

then ran home, changed, went to Julia's. (God, CarbFest!!! i'm going to have to do like a million sit-ups now. )

now, i have to go perform at the show at 7:00, and i really don't want to. i wish Brent would hurry up and kick K.C. out of his band (he absolutely refuses to do anythng till K.C. leaves) so he could hurry up and start practicing, and I could sing the vocals.

I've got a show in Boston w/Anna on Fri, and we're never going to have time to even go over it once. and it's a RECORDING!!! ugh!!!!

breathe.

okay. umm...
anyway.
please shut me up.

~Ri ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3639674/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3639674/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 03:32:43 PDT Shockingly Treu: (though it didn't really say much good stuff, so this really isn't exactly what I'm like)

Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.
Feels cut off and unhappy because of the difficulty in achieving the essential degree of cooperation and harmony which she desires.
Feels that she is burdened with more than her fair share of problems. However, she sticks to her goals and tries to overcome her difficulties by being flexible and accommodating.
Longs for sensitive and sympathetic understanding and wants to protect herself against argument, conflict, or any exhausting stresses.
Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of outstanding characteristics. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3627718/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3627718/ Tue, 19 Oct 2004 15:11:00 PDT
In order to sustain one's inner harmony and hormonal balance:
When on is
or :angry:
one should

in order to acheive
:happy:

thanks, Varg, for the inspiration for the above.

I have to go to Speech and Debate (6:30-9:00 PM), and I have a French and Geo. and English exam tomorrow.
So once again we come to the question, what the Hell am I doing on DA right now.

I'm addicted.
I admit it.

And a girl needs a break, for Heaven's sake! I've been getting 3 and a half hours sleep for the past two weeks, i look like a ghost (a very tan one anyway), and i'm going insane.

Lovely.

Must go practice singing while lifting weights with one hand, and doing my study on Christianity with the other. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3621578/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3621578/ Mon, 18 Oct 2004 18:42:04 PDT THE PERSON WHO GIVES ME THE MOST within the next month gets a deviation dedicated to them.
whatever. i just loves hugs. (but kisses are better!)

ouch, i sprained my ankle walking around in my stupid dance shoes, since i had to break them in. also pulled a thigh muscle walking around like a complete idiot in 3 inch heels the day before. (they made me about 5 ft 4 in. ah, the trouble i go through, being petite! ) anyway, as a result i have a swollen ankle and a bruised and v. painful thigh, and as a result could not go to Tae Kwon Do tonight, and as a reult did not get to kick anyone's ass, and as a result am a little bit cranky.

I have several very rigourous auditions to go through, in November, so of course the voice coaches are pushing me pretty hard so i'll be prepared. it's hard work, but i don't really mind. it's just the piece that i'm not too fond of."Gia Il Sole D'al Gange" (probably murdered the spelling) by Scarlatti. it's much too cheerful for me. i don't like singing cheerful opera! does this make me morbid?

I wish i knew some really good guys to sing duets with.

am practically falling asleep, and i've got so much biology left to do. but i need to have the DA window up, or else i'll commit suicide by the time I get around to finishing my English!!

PRESSURE!!! help!! (this means more telephone phsyco-therapy, Matt)

:tired: ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3614153/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3614153/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 20:11:00 PDT
]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3588852/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3588852/ Thu, 14 Oct 2004 13:12:32 PDT ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3572344/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3572344/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 10:42:40 PDT if i have to read one more piece of useless information of the history of early Chinese civilization vs. that of early Indian civilization i will hit myself repatedly with the first heavy object i can find.

i want to get up, get out, GO...

!! ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3571086/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3571086/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 06:38:38 PDT ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3518752/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3518752/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 12:42:29 PDT ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3480548/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3480548/ Thu, 30 Sep 2004 13:21:45 PDT then i went downstairs to do my homework.
talk about anticlimatic. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3468580/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3468580/ Tue, 28 Sep 2004 19:06:24 PDT a.) i have a cold b.) i'm tired c.) i have four hour of h.work d.) my tv has been disconected for three months and i can't take it anymore and e.) this entry sounds pathetically juvenille. ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3172199/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3172199/ Fri, 20 Aug 2004 11:23:36 PDT it's like 800 degrees and i am bored. i have to goo wade through Jane Eyre. don't get me wrong - it's a beautiful book - but as soon as it becomes an assignment, it sucks. a lot. why do they have to wreck books by making you pshcyo analyze em? no fun! ]]> ~malrose http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3132449/ http://malrose.deviantart.com/journal/3132449/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 14:34:37 PDT ~malrose