http://browse.deviantart.com/journals/?order=5&q=by%3Amamoru14 deviantART RSS for in:journals sort:time by:mamoru14 en-us Copyright 2013, deviantART.com Tue, 21 May 2013 08:32:52 PDT deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://st.deviantart.net/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Chorus-Concert-is-Over-372066649 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Chorus-Concert-is-Over-372066649 Thu, 16 May 2013 18:31:28 PDT Chorus Concert is Over nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I haven't been able to talk with Matt (the Bass in the quartet) a lot since we were preparing for the concert (he was doing some piano accompaniment), and I'm a bit sad about that. I came in 10 minutes late for the call time because the car stalled, and I began to freak out and cried while waiting for my mom to pick me up. I came into the auditorium, and he immediately came ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Chorus-Happiness-371086923 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Chorus-Happiness-371086923 Sat, 11 May 2013 15:54:55 PDT Chorus Happiness~ nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
Oh, and I forgot! I found a recording of my All-State Mixed Chorus Concert~
Here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eY_A947dulA

I've asked my mom if she could record the chorus concert so I can post it on YouTube. So I hope I can! ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/this-is-Yupina-s-friend-370310364 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/this-is-Yupina-s-friend-370310364 Tue, 07 May 2013 15:55:31 PDT this is Yupina's friend! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
Byee! She's coming back xD ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Dress-Shopping-s-a-Pain-368470387 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Dress-Shopping-s-a-Pain-368470387 Sun, 28 Apr 2013 12:50:12 PDT Dress Shopping's a Pain nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
So seeing myself in a dress is really new to me. I have gone through two dresses, and I have mixed feelings about both so I'm going to find more. Dress shopping is not as easy as I though. In fact, it's a bit of a pain. My parents can't agree on the type of dress.

And then I realized my brothers' Band Banquet, which is for all band students in their school is the day after Honors Banquet. S ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Starting-to-Hate-Marching-Bands-366811758 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Starting-to-Hate-Marching-Bands-366811758 Sat, 20 Apr 2013 12:48:27 PDT Starting to Hate Marching Bands nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I told my parents I wanted to join the Orchestra to play cello like I've always wanted, but whenever they get the chance, they always tell me to join band. I'm beginning to hate marching band now. My entire family knows that I want to play the cello, but they really aren't giving me choices anymore. I finally have a friend in my school right now who wants to join the orchestra and I don't want to abandon him.

It' ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Suddenly-Feel-Happy-366681528 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Suddenly-Feel-Happy-366681528 Fri, 19 Apr 2013 20:19:38 PDT I Suddenly Feel Happy nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I had some new ideas for drawings and a story. It's about a girl, Ichinose Kanako, who is a shy and quiet girl. But in real life, she's a cute and peppy voice actor who goes by the name Yupina-chan. When the class president, Hiroki Shinnosuke, notices her absences (when she secretly goes to Anime Conventions to sign autographs and meet her fans), he decides to do a little more investigating. This is subject to change, but I kinda like it.

Also, my French Horn quartet will be playing for this banquet for the graduating students in our schools. I'm also graduating soon too, so I'm ex ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Animes-I-Recently-Found-365554569 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Animes-I-Recently-Found-365554569 Sat, 13 Apr 2013 19:25:18 PDT Animes I Recently Found nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I watched Devil Survivor 2, and it's pretty interesting in my opinion. There are things that I still don't get, and it kinda freaks me out a bit.

I saw Amnesia, and I was a bit freaked out about that too. The one that scared me the most would have to be Toma. Who thought Toma would d ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Taking-a-Break-from-Deviantart-361897609 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Taking-a-Break-from-Deviantart-361897609 Wed, 27 Mar 2013 12:44:51 PDT Taking a Break from Deviantart nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
Not to mention that I'm actually sick right now and I haven't eaten anything since Monday. That, my friends, is not healthy. I'm hoping that I can eat the soup my mom is making for dinner . . . cuz I like soup.

So yeah. I don't know how long I'll be off of DA but as soon as my creative juices come back for DA, I'll be back ASAP. ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Hand-Holding-Awkward-but-Funny-360468482 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Hand-Holding-Awkward-but-Funny-360468482 Tue, 19 Mar 2013 17:47:24 PDT Hand Holding: Awkward but Funny nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
So he grabs my thumb and squeezes it, trying to get it purple. Then, because it wasn't working, he takes my entire hand and tries again.

My cousin was like,"What are you doing to her!?"

"Trying to stop the circulation!" He says and squeezes.

So we were like that for a couple of minutes and he says he won't let go until the bell rings. Then my friend, lets call her Emily, comes up and sees that we're holding hands.

"Um… you two are holding ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Just-Found-This-358657206 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Just-Found-This-358657206 Sat, 09 Mar 2013 20:22:39 PST I Just Found This. nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
Just watch it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iuhg8qDCQ7Q

I'm in there. I won't tell you which one is me but there is one fact: I'm not the boy.

I actually wasn't aware this video was here until today. Like, 2 months after the real event.

I have to say that we did a really good job. Sure there were some iffy places, but overall, it was together! ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/C-Mon-Megacon-358641757 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/C-Mon-Megacon-358641757 Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:46:32 PST C'Mon Megacon! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
Also, I finally have some friends that will be going to Megacon! I used to just go with my brothers, but they'll be taking a trip for their band to another country. Some of my friends are going to be cosplaying. On ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Have-Work-To-Do-HetaliaxReader-Requests-357538619 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Have-Work-To-Do-HetaliaxReader-Requests-357538619 Sun, 03 Mar 2013 13:55:08 PST I Have Work To Do/ HetaliaxReader Requests? nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I have some work to do at home, like get the rest of my homework done over the weekend, maybe get that poster I got from Christmas hung up or frame it. I don't know what I'm gonna to with it yet.

Stuff is boring right now. I'm just alone in my room, I fell asleep about three times, and I'm trying to do homework and I'm getting nowhere. I'm on a break right now.

Also, I've been thinking of doing some HetaliaxReader requests since my creative juices have stopped flowing. My answer will be no, I will not do Lemons. I'm technically too young to read them, let alone write them.

But I don't know for sure, if I end ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Inspiration-from-Songs-are-Wierd-354747497 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Inspiration-from-Songs-are-Wierd-354747497 Sat, 16 Feb 2013 19:27:24 PST Inspiration from Songs are Wierd nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
These songs spoke to me the most. I thought about the story behind the songs, and I thought how come I feel so connected to the songs? The next thing I know I wrote a short story that is somehow connected to me, too.

I was thinking about putting it here, on DA, but I'm kinda hesitating. I feel emotional whenever I think of the songs, so I poured a lot of my heart into all of them. But I also put a bit of personal thoughts i ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/My-School-is-doing-Brodway-Revue-353818564 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/My-School-is-doing-Brodway-Revue-353818564 Mon, 11 Feb 2013 19:19:52 PST My School is doing Brodway Revue! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I'm really excited for the Dress Rehearsals, because I get to see their costumes. There are guys there that are playing princes, and from what my friend (who is playing Cinderella from "Into the Woods") is saying, they could be wearing some tights. :iconifailedplz:

I'm really pumped up even though no one will see me. T ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/The-Lovely-Quartet-is-a-Go-352695676 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/The-Lovely-Quartet-is-a-Go-352695676 Tue, 05 Feb 2013 20:03:27 PST The Lovely Quartet is a Go! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
Yay~ So a long time ago, I said that my chorus teacher would make a quintet out of the five that auditioned for All-State Mixed Chorus, and it came true!

Well… unfortunately, that boy alto in the picture didn't make it, and we became a quartet.

I'm really excited, because that means I get to sing with these guys again! This is my last year at this school, so I'm glad I can make this memorable. Do you see that Bass guy?

I actually knew him before now. We stopped talking due to some friendship problems, but we were able to make up about that and we can talk to each other again without it feeling really awkward.

I might tak ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-m-Gonna-By-A-Cello-352114904 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-m-Gonna-By-A-Cello-352114904 Sat, 02 Feb 2013 18:35:44 PST I'm Gonna By A Cello~! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I've decided to dedicate myself to playing cello in the orchestra when I get to my new school. I'm not actually going to rent a cello from the school because of the fact that I'm too small to play their full sized cellos. I had my brother, who's a pro with instrument choosing, find one that would be best for me. So I have to get a 3/4 size cello.

I have to admit, I was actually inspired to dedicate myself to it from watching K-On. After seeing Yui and her dedication to buy her guitar, I thought, "She's right! If I want to play a cello, I need to start saving up and start practicing before I get to school!"

I' ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/HetaliaxReader-Notebook-Entries-into-a-Series-350895421 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/HetaliaxReader-Notebook-Entries-into-a-Series-350895421 Sun, 27 Jan 2013 08:51:52 PST HetaliaxReader: Notebook Entries into a Series? nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I didn't know if I could change the style for each character, but after experimenting, I'm thinking I can do it now.

Do you think I should? ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Him-Again-349661160 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Him-Again-349661160 Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:40:31 PST Him Again!? nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
So, as I was leaving, I saw him there! He was still writing but I did give him a wave and he waved back! Then I waited for my brother to pick me up (I can't drive). He sat by me and said hi. So we started talking, and it was a really ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Procrastination-348881349 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Procrastination-348881349 Wed, 16 Jan 2013 15:43:25 PST Procrastination. . . nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2013 ~mamoru14
I chose to do a documentary because I thought that this type of project would be better with . . . y'know, spoken words than on those tri-fold thingys. The one problem with that is that means my project will have to be 4 minutes to 10 minutes lo ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/How-I-Discovered-Hetalia-What-I-Think-Now-345340571 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/How-I-Discovered-Hetalia-What-I-Think-Now-345340571 Fri, 28 Dec 2012 15:52:18 PST How I Discovered Hetalia/What I Think Now nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
So now, I saw the Season 5 trailer and I'm like "OMG, COME INTO MY LIFE NOW!" I LOVED the new art for Hetalia! And it made me love everyone a lot more!  Especially France, Japan, England, and America! France changed a lot in my perspective! The one thing I love the most, to be honest, is the hair ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Happy-Christmas-and-Merry-Holidays-344785104 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Happy-Christmas-and-Merry-Holidays-344785104 Tue, 25 Dec 2012 17:18:16 PST Happy Christmas . . . and Merry Holidays! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
I got an Awkward Turtle Keychain that I'm gonna have to choose a name for. And I got an I'm Jelly Poster that I still have to choose a place for in my room. I know you have no idea what I'm talking about, so here's a link~! http://areyouaniceguy.com/ Yeah, that's right! I'm a Wong Fu Lover!
I also got a Cake Pop Maker (thank you my brother~) and loveable Hetalia merchandise! ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Gosh-Darn-Problemos-344427333 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Gosh-Darn-Problemos-344427333 Sun, 23 Dec 2012 18:11:52 PST Gosh Darn Problemos nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
Well the good news is that I was planning on getting a new pack of crayons. So it worked out . . . I'll just finish later.

My cousins are watching Little ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Hetalia-Character-Meme-343411298 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Hetalia-Character-Meme-343411298 Mon, 17 Dec 2012 17:39:56 PST Hetalia Character Meme nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
[] You were bullied a lot in your childhood
[] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit. (Eh... xD)
[] You're very happy-go-lucky
[] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies
[] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up 
[x] You're a good artist 
[x] You can be clumsy at times
[x] You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something
[] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
[] You would surrender in a war situation (Be strong! ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/What-Happens-When-I-Can-t-Say-No-337625009 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/What-Happens-When-I-Can-t-Say-No-337625009 Tue, 13 Nov 2012 14:38:25 PST What Happens When I Can't Say No nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
I walked into the Chorus room, and the first thing I heard was "[my name], how well do you play piano?"

And because I'm me, I said, "Decent . . ."

My teacher asks me, "Do you think you can play the melody for these songs for Ethan (Fake Name)?" She shows me two books of Tenor/Bass solos.

"Sure I can." Dang it. Wish I could say no.

In the end, I got stuck in her office with a keyboard and Ethan for most of the class period. I don't do well with men. All I did was pl ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/My-Life-is-So-Cliche-332056384 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/My-Life-is-So-Cliche-332056384 Fri, 12 Oct 2012 15:19:01 PDT My Life is So Cliche nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
Right now, call that the story of my Cliche life.

Trust me, it's the last thing I want to happen in my life. I don't want to have a cliche movie made out of my life!

Let me explain: In chorus, there is this one guy that we will call Ethan for the fun of it. Ethan, a friend of mine, and I have made an All-County Chamber Choir. So, we have practices on Fridays. I get really nervous around Ethan because I don't want to make a fool out of myself. He's a damn good singer, I swear! So is my friend! They're both so good ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/School-Update-In-the-Shadow-of-My-Brother-325116087 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/School-Update-In-the-Shadow-of-My-Brother-325116087 Mon, 03 Sep 2012 12:29:53 PDT School Update/ In the Shadow of My Brother nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14 I already have two projects due, and it looks like I won't be in show choir anymore. I don't know if it's a good thing or not, but I'm not in the same class as my crush anymore. My band class was conflicting with Show Choir, so I was switched into last period advanced chorus. I feel a little sad, but at least I can still sing, right?
Algebra is killing me, and my Language Arts class is annoying. But I like both teachers. Spanish is just getting difficult because my teacher was out the whole week, leaving us with a native Spanish speaker who spe ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/School-s-Coming-Back-to-Haunt-Me-319487045 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/School-s-Coming-Back-to-Haunt-Me-319487045 Mon, 06 Aug 2012 19:00:36 PDT School's Coming Back to Haunt Me . . . nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
Speaking of school, I'm beginning to think about quitting my band class. Playing French Horn isn't really my thing. I'm going to stay in chorus, of course, but I'm not sure about my second elective. My dad thinks that I should do Theater, but I can't act on a stage ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Hetalia-Addict-291363214 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Hetalia-Addict-291363214 Tue, 20 Mar 2012 09:20:39 PDT Hetalia Addict nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
I've been wanting to make fanart, but I can't get them looking right. But I chose for next MegaCon, I'm going in as China! I don't want to dye my hair or wear a wig for that. Besides, my hair is naturally black and I've been growing it longer. Now all I gotta do is get the clothes for China's thing and I'm all set.

This'll be my first time cosplaying, so I want it to be memorable. I'm going to do my best to make it awesome. I ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Faced-Reality-288972525 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Faced-Reality-288972525 Tue, 06 Mar 2012 15:18:00 PST I Faced Reality nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
But I decided to ignore that fact and do what I never expected: I faced reality.

Everyday, I try to persuade myself that I don't like Matthew (fake name) and I really am in love with Ethan (another fake name). But I faced reality and I said that I am in love with Matthew. But truth is that I do have a small crush on Ethan. But it's so small you can't even see it. So I really am a bit nuts right now and I don't know what the heck is going on.

Facing reality is stress relieving. But sometimes it gets you more and more confused about your emotions. ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/MegaCon-2012-285844335 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/MegaCon-2012-285844335 Sat, 18 Feb 2012 17:16:04 PST MegaCon 2012 nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
Alright, well, next year, I'll be cosplaying! I don't know what I'll be, but I will cosplay! :D ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Who-Am-I-manga-on-hold-upcoming-projects-280833432 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Who-Am-I-manga-on-hold-upcoming-projects-280833432 Sat, 21 Jan 2012 20:23:59 PST Who Am I? manga on hold/upcoming projects! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
Project Revealing #1
A 13 year old girl suffers amnesia. Before she lost her memory 7 years ago(when she was 6), she was a knight-in-training in a castle in a magic world. She saved the prince of that world, however she was knocked unconscious and lost her memory. To add to that, she had a lot of major injuries. So she was sent to our world to revive for the rest of the time. But the world needs her back again, so the prince goes t ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Getting-Ready-for-Valentine-s-Day-278218979 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Getting-Ready-for-Valentine-s-Day-278218979 Sat, 07 Jan 2012 17:02:57 PST Getting Ready for Valentine's Day! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2012-2013 ~mamoru14
Mille Feuille

I want to make it with either a lemon curd or with whipped cream and chocolate. Although, I want to make it both with strawberries. My problem is that I'm going to school with it and I'm worried that it might break apart while I'm bringing it to school.

Mille Crepe

I'm going to make it traditionally, of course. I want to add strawberries to this recipe, too. I want to put the strawberry slices in the crepe cake. I still might have ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Worried-About-Falling-In-Love-270745671 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Worried-About-Falling-In-Love-270745671 Thu, 24 Nov 2011 16:35:29 PST Worried About Falling In Love. . . nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14
After she said that, she practically begged me to ask him out for her because she wanted to be his girlfriend! She knew perfectly well that I loved him and she came out and begged me to ask him that! I feel like she was lying to me so she could torture me with that stuff.

I think I found the reason why I've been so confused with my feelings. Be ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Can-t-Get-Over-Him-Finding-Reasons-To-265617562 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Can-t-Get-Over-Him-Finding-Reasons-To-265617562 Thu, 27 Oct 2011 16:09:11 PDT Can't Get Over Him~! Finding Reasons To! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14 trying to find reasons to give me an excuse to give up on him, but I can't find any that can work cause no matter what, there's always a loophole for me to love him again.

My subconscious is turning it's back on me and doesn't want me to find a reason. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm unsure if it's a good idea for me to look for fake reasons, but I'm just unstable right now.

The only usable reason I could find was that he's cousins with one of my friends. That . . . just creeps me out a bit. I couldn't imagine that they were related. But if I thought about it, they did kind of have the ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Feel-Wierd-262777487 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Feel-Wierd-262777487 Mon, 10 Oct 2011 15:54:49 PDT I Feel Wierd ... nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14
And then when I was heading to the final period of the day, another one of my friends, who thinks me as "Neko-chan" glomped me while I was shouting "NO PDA MAN! NO PDA!!" He turned at me again and chuckled*. I was soo embarrassed and she finally ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Still-in-Love-258812830 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Still-in-Love-258812830 Sat, 17 Sep 2011 07:45:56 PDT Still in Love nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14
Well ... in my family, it's tradition for a girl to grow their hair long when they fall in love. And my hair is beginning to grow... cuz I'm still in love with that dude i was talking about long ago... yeah. But he likes one of my friends. Last year in school, they went out. Though my friend broke up with him (lets call him Matty-kun). She said, and I quote, "I just don't know what it means to 'go out' yet. So, for now, lets just remain friends." I can understand her since we're friends.

But what I don't understand i ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Stupid-Scanner-Printer-256977766 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Stupid-Scanner-Printer-256977766 Mon, 05 Sep 2011 16:59:42 PDT Stupid Scanner/Printer ... nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14
I can't draw digitally without beginning with pencil and paper. I'm not sure about any of this  ....

hoay ;8byhralebsnlkg shbfvgu ijwmenr fvgeyhjm fv

thats how I feel right now! ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Scanner-Problems-253852134 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Scanner-Problems-253852134 Fri, 19 Aug 2011 12:21:14 PDT Scanner Problems nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14 :I

I can't draw with a mouse like some people can, and I'm still trying to get used to the tablet my dad got a couple weeks back. So, I can't make digital or pen(cil) and paper art for a while. But I can post my fanfictions for Ouran Highschool Host Club, and others maybe. But no art for a while.

Man, I hate this so much. But I'll keep drawing with pencil and practice with the tablet so I can submit them ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/A-Bit-About-Me-251998782 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/A-Bit-About-Me-251998782 Tue, 09 Aug 2011 18:52:18 PDT A Bit About Me nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2011-2013 ~mamoru14
So people always judge me like a book's cover. I hate it. I mean I literally hate it. People always suspect me to be the person I look like. A mean girl that'll pound the guts outta you. But that's because of all you people who judge me! I mean, no one does it online cause you know most of my facts. I'll be glad to be buddys and I'm fine with taking requests, but I do not want anyone from the online world judging my att ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Can-you-help-me-221969540 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Can-you-help-me-221969540 Thu, 30 Dec 2010 09:09:06 PST Can you help me? nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2010-2013 ~mamoru14 I've decided to write a love letter to him, but I wonder if I should send it. Something inside me says, you have to do it! But something else says, no! You cannot!

So . . . I have 4 more days of winter break then I go back to school. Then I see the dude again.

We've known each other since 1st grade. We stopped talking during 2nd to 4th. We only talked for about five seconds, then we leave. But we talked more in 5th grade. So on and so forth.

Now that I think of it, we are pretty similar . . . we both like music, we do pretty good in reading, we like to sing.

But we hav ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/What-I-realized-222279271 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/What-I-realized-222279271 Thu, 16 Dec 2010 13:46:46 PST What I realized nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2010-2013 ~mamoru14 :date: ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Me-my-love-nothing-222295051 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/Me-my-love-nothing-222295051 Wed, 15 Dec 2010 15:58:14 PST Me+my love= nothing nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2010-2013 ~mamoru14 Last year, I had someone I loved. I didn't really realize it at first, but then I started feeling weird around him.:blush:You've had that feeling right? But I found out we were going to different schools on the last day.:faint: It was HORRIBLE! So, yeah, I haven't seen him in months.Here, I thought that I was gonna forget 'bout him, but I'm still in love! I just can't move on.:invisible:
My friend has been bothering me and that my frenemy has a crush on me.:whisper: I can pretty much doubt her ALL the time. I me ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/My-Brother-s-problems-inside-my-life-I-need-help-222889892 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/My-Brother-s-problems-inside-my-life-I-need-help-222889892 Sat, 13 Nov 2010 19:20:50 PST My Brother's problems/ inside my life/I need help! nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2010-2013 ~mamoru14
Sometimes I wish I was popular. I have no friends and I can act pretty bored. Here, think of it like this: Imagine the funniest thing that can happen in a school. I'd be there, no expression whatsoever. This is like my one sanctuary where I can express what I wanna do.

And if you know how to submit fanficions here, can you tell me? ]]> http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Can-t-Sleep-223758121 http://mamoru14.deviantart.com/journal/I-Can-t-Sleep-223758121 Fri, 24 Sep 2010 20:29:45 PDT I Can't Sleep nonadult journals/personal mamoru14 http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/mamoru14.jpg?4 Copyright 2010-2013 ~mamoru14