http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:manga-coon-girl&section=today deviantART RSS for by:manga-coon-girl en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 17:13:04 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/20295928/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/20295928/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 18:06:54 PDT don't know, but i be giving info out

Edit: I'm slowly going to case I caqn't change my icon easily and a new start is needed. need to stop writing stuf about exs.... i might, still thinking, but if so changing my emails and msn and stuff too (so a big mess in the end TT)

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/20265768/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/20265768/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 06:27:35 PDT
so I'm looking into making an avator and id for everything I am in, meaning I need it in two sizes, 50x50 and 100x100. and in two or three forms, bmp, gif and jpeg. now no one has to help, I looking for something personal for me, mangakittycoon is my newish name, though I will be also mangakitty, kittycoon or mangacoon so yea... um I was thinking my gaia look except that means i have to stay with one look and that can't last forever sooooooooo yea... ok gt the idea I think, if you plan on trying to help that be great.

oh and if you got it from a largr thing, i can use the larger thing for my id here since I won't use anything else.

oh and should i start over again, was thinking not except i hate the user name as it is right now, though I think I had no choose, oh well i'll figure that out after work too, on wheather to start everything over again, cause you know I will.... wow i reallly like talking to myself....

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/20251231/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/20251231/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 10:58:13 PDT my seasons almost out for buying and i can't hoose cause i don't keep bookmarks very well but i like the hades one so it's like a choose between maybe getting the right bookmark with a postcard with her signature (maybe?) or just the book with a postcard without her signature (maybe...) so like it's a 5 buck differance, and I an afford either of them.... it's driving me crazy cause I just want to buy the book T_T.... I never been good with bookmarks.... so like it's a hard choose... any help?


forgot to mention coupons at my job are kicking my ass and the managers are not helping... i wish they burn...

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/18799911/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/18799911/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 10:27:39 PDT
thugh the ex does pop it's ugly head with a random youtube message, even though I'm sure I told him to leave me alone, but I being nice (only god know why) and all I keep thinking is the guy is contacting me for some reason, like things arn;t perfect with his Amy and he wonders if he made a mistake, or that's how I'm taking this random messages.

anyways, I bored as hell, and going to be for a while cause Eric's game that he has been waiting for 4 years (give or take) and he says he doesn't have to completely ignore me, but I'm like it's fine, cause is they ever did announce that they have a new pokemon game (not for the ds, I hate that thing) for the advance, I be in hiding with the game. SO I more bored but giving him his game time, but being my only day off other then yesterday with the dentist, I get to be lazy... cause then I work the rest. Which is fine, cause rent not paying itself.

Oh Im quiting youtube blogging. doesn't mean that if me and my friends felt like ding a stupidly funny video we won't, just may not be on my account. instead I'm doing my passion, AMVS!

That's about it! Wow!

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/18489971/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/18489971/ Sun, 25 May 2008 06:29:02 PDT
anyways that guys, he wanted me to tell you it was a misunderstanding (talking last journal page)

he's my current bf now, and I may not be madly in love or anything like that but I do love him and he makes me happy, so yea, that's a good feeling. his name is eric by the way.

I'm not happy that I been so dependent on him that I can't stand not talking to him once a day, and not seeing each other once a week... I know it's insane... but maybe that's who I really am, and clingy person except on my really random off days...

anyways theres your update lol

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I don't know why, could be that I didn;t en up being around people all weekend and even though I wanted some alone time, I only endded up needing it for not even a day before I anted to go out and do stff with my friends.

"What's wrong, Sam?" That's all I keep asking and can only say, "I wish I knew." I suddenly feel like I not in love with anyone. That I deeply care for my friends but other then that, there is nothing.... what happened...

They say humans are weak cause of love, yet here I am without any and I reather be dead before this continues.... am I sick? Do I have somethin that going to take my life away and my body and heart has given up? have I finally gone mad? Or was I ment to be alone, and I forgot with the reuniting of old friends that I loved. Why did these feelings come back, after I moved on with Tony, and left Alex and the life before that behind, I got better... but now I don't thin Tony can help me... I just feel broken... And I know deep down that even if I found the one I would spend the rest of my life, I can not escape the feelings... I am trap... and I alone can free myself, but don't know how...

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I really love hanging out with the guys in rl again, but they are just friends of my best friend lavon, and the only reason I go is because Lavon won't unless I say I'm going. I miss my real friends, the ones I love with all my heart. And not just Ray, Tony and Gin. The others too, I hav't seen any of them in forever... I love them so much... and now with finals and and work getting harder and me not into rpg anymore and stuff... it's lonly... I oved talking to everyone all the time... I miss them.... I really miss them...

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other problem was i wish i could have been held by tony for whatever reason... ok that's it

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/15541264/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/15541264/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 23:23:16 PST
So what the fuck will i do... that's a good question... since last time before I become 24/7 girl online, i was on the phone with alex about him being with me and not amy...... wellll

Going for night walks again
Movie exchanging craze!
Nature explore!
Course.... *waaaa*
um check email TT and that's it
um... oh! work buddy hang outs again!

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/15384903/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/15384903/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 22:28:54 PST
I went on my old account and read over my old stuff... I wish i hadn't so some of it, cause it only reminded me how happy Alex made me at one point. Bla. And I am happy here, and Alex just doesn't fit in it anymore. Anyways I'm in love with Tony, and I'm so happy to have him, Ray and Gin in my life and everyone else that has touched my heart. I feel like I finally found what I been looking for... other then a job... ha...ha.... i need a new job T-T

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]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/15265866/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/15265866/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 22:48:07 PDT
anyways, i'm so depressed it's not funny... job was ok though i went on my break without my mangers permission cause I was tired confused and a co worker told me to, and I took his word for it. Thank god it wasn't brought up after the fact but I had a good cry befroe going back, which stopped me from crying at my job like what use to happen when I got upset and pissed off at myself for doing something so stupid. And then i found out that paul, my bk idol, is gone... yet again... and he probably never ever coming back... which sucks cause the days i did happen to see him, since now i can do what he did and is not my partner in crime in the back anymore..., he made me feel good about myself and could always make me laugh even when I'm so angry or down...

So I come home, and my brother is upset... and needs a break from me... so I removed all games... I'm so tired of meeting people, loving them with all my heart, just to be left behind. He told me it was parcially because I couldn't choose between him and tony... that's great.... you know i knew it bugged him... But I loved that he needed me and that I needed him... I finally had someone i called family that didn't give me third degrees or the family famous gualt trip and was ok with me being me and not, do as family wants or else crap... I mean yes I had my dad... but he's in jail... and I don't know if he still doing drugs or drinking, though he seems to have his act together...

I have a sister and I want to protect her but she so much more mature then I am that she doesn't want my help... crushes me everytime... I want to help... It's a need to protect them... and then I finally had my brother... and for once he actually needed me, like my sister did before I had a differant lauch time then her... ahh the pain..

I'm tired... so tired of letting them in...and here I though tony would break my heart... but it turned out to be Ray... my own brother... and that's fine cause if you love someone they will break your heart, cause that shows how much you care... but....

To be told they need a break from you... after having been emailed before that your needed.... what does that send.... I need my little brother... I just want to see him more then anyone of my crew or whatever I call them... hell I had times where i see myself opening the door and it's him and me squialling like a pig and hugging him tightly, cry and saying how happy I was he was there... I need my brother...

but he doesn't need me... and neither do the others... i love them all to death... but my brother just keeps cutting me... I removed my msn, and all the games... and i tried to reload the one that i saved to cd, but it didn't work... and i was just going to make new charatue without manga in it and just play.... cause it was fun... not to play alone but still fun...

he's right, if they were both drowning I could not save both... I don't know what I do... The love for Ray is more then I do tony, but not by much... Hell I was training with Tony and Ray is dieing and I stopped, and warped til I got close enought, and then tried to save Ray... it didn't work... but I tried... if you have a boss plus 75 other monsters trying to kill you... you wouldn't survive either....

But basicly... I may be 21... but my body feels older... like 40 sometimes... and the strain of my heart... it's not helping... so I'm shuting down... I'm going to try really hard to ignore every feeling of caring... I can't keep letting people in... it's just stupid... Thanks you guys for being my net from Alex... but I can only protect myself now... No one ever has stopped the pain... and it probably never wil stop... so I'm done... causeing more pain to it... Cat lady road, here i come...

But as i was deleteing ray msned me, i read but it didn't stick... I was tired... and told him I just don't care anymore... and signed off and deleted msn... and I cried... I cried really hard... now I have nothing... i deleted emails i saved... may even shut down the email box... but i don't know..... but I went u stairs and cried myself to sleep... I kept seeing myself on a new charature on the game, running into them to see tony and ray fighting... and me screaming Tony, Ray please stop!... which gave away my new charature... and me smaking my head about it... anyways... tit think I got it all out... sometimes it's easier to type then trying to write it in a journal that you keep... you know...

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Anyways other then that, if I stay single that's ok too (at least today it is). I got my father, my brother, my sister, and my best friends! Without them, God I would have drowned a lot time ago.

Dad, Sandra, Nauro, Shadow, Tear, Icy, Silver, Chao and Mem. Thank you, never ever lose contact with me, I hope to anyways XD.

Oh and I got a new theme song: I'm a bitch, I'm a lover BITCHES!

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]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/14908671/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/14908671/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 05:56:37 PDT
Anyways my gaia connection has died but i'm keeping the name for now. May change it though changeing it on tricksters will be hard...

All I have left is this and my email and tricksters... so I can start over again easily, but you know... you can find me though shigurelilflower and mangacoongirl, so why change it... plus don't know what to change it too.

SO Coon now means crazy, since half the people i meet think I'm crazy or nice or both. I not ment for this world, cause the world is too mean.

I'm better off alone til I die, and I hopingmy body is warning me about my heart cause then I can die eventually. Life sucks and I am ready to go home, which has been heaven it turns out. A place void of emotions. That be great cause I'm really sick of being hurt and hurting others. I try... I can love without strings, and yet.. I won't let anyone close then the friends I got. Tear, Shadow, Nauro, Mem, Chao, Icy and Silver.

Also I wanted to state this, How can you love someone so much and yet let them go? How can you be ok with time pass by you qwithout the one you want to be with, and honestly be ok with it? I"m struggleing. I'm extrelemly hurt, but I don't blame Alex entirly. But I think even if we do find u trying again, I couldn't forgive him for taking away the year or longer from me I could have been with him. I don't know, I get pissed to the point of no return with it, then i get depressed to the point of no return. I'm not winning this fight, cause I'm fighting a battle I long lost. I want to stop breathing already... I want to go to a place without emotions... the only way I'll have piece anymore.

]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/14736578/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/14736578/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 23:39:47 PDT I'm sick of being played,
You love her, but she's not the love of your life, you told me
Your too honest for your good and mine
You still love me, feel exactly as I once felt for you, but you are staying with her.
Don't blame me whn the love I once had for you, Alex
has been replaced with hate.
I may always have a part in my heart that loves you,
but for these moments, all I feel towards you,
is hate and hope that you never find the happiness you seek.
If I have to curse you myself so be it.

I have moved on. I may be waiting 5 or more years but I think if he is actually returning my feelings like I think he is, I'm willing to wait.

The last thing I have to say to you, Alex



is Fuck You.

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I still talking to Alex.. but there are going to always be times where talking to him is overwhelming.. but deep down... he's the one friend I would not throw away for a boyfriend... because friends come and go, family stays and I wish they wouldn't, But Alex... he will always be there.. friend at least and I don't want to throw it away, though some times I'll call and tell him not to that day, because it hurts too much... but my friends come and go, so holding on to them against an boyfriend makes no sence to me, because I loose interest, but I don't think I have to worry about a friend getting in the way except for Alex... and with Alex... I just... we have a deep connection somehow... can't explain it... friends or ex lovers, whatever the reason, it's there... and he's the one person I really stand up for, I will defend him, I will brush other people's comments about him or fight for his side... my heart and gut want me too, and I hope for once that stays... because it would suck if we drifted... he's the only friend I have that's worth having around... Call me crazy! Stupid! Immature! I know who I am, who I can be and Who I want to be, and I know that the feelings and connection with Alex, are painful but beautiful... and I can now look back on us and not cry... though sometimes I wish I would. I will care abut him and worry like a mother or sister, even if I never got contact from him again... so I rather stay in contact, cause then I'm not ripping myself into more pieces just because a month goes by and no word from him...

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]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/12837684/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/12837684/ Fri, 04 May 2007 08:44:05 PDT if you love me then stop playing us both
stop lieing, stop hurting,
I have to turn my phone off just to breathe
So that way I'm not by the phone waiting.
She doesn't treat you better but you talk about it
Does that always mean it's right
Does that mean you love her
Or do you choose her because you too afread of me

Well I will scream at the top of my lungs
I'm screared to be near you.
It's too much and I want to be friend
I wish I lost my feelings fo you or you felt it too

My body ache and I must rest.
I though it was over late night, I thought I had won
I though I beat the insanity but I was wrong,
I'll never be ok with just friends
But I'll never be ok without you in my life...
So what do I do? please tell me that!

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]]> ~manga-coon-girl http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/12753093/ http://manga-coon-girl.deviantart.com/journal/12753093/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 10:02:35 PDT DeviantArt.com (Manga-Coon-Girl)
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Yahoo.com (Manga_Coon_Girl)
Aol.com (GreenMangaCoon)
HotMail.com (Manga-Coon_Girl)
PokemonCrater.com (Manga-coon_girl)
GameKnot.com (Manga-Coon_Girl)

Tha many ways to spell my name!! @_@

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