http://browse.deviantart.com/journals/?order=5&q=by%3Amanya deviantART RSS for in:journals sort:time by:manya en-us Copyright 2013, deviantART.com Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:58:56 PDT deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://st.deviantart.net/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/updated-folio-new-work-going-up-soon-336335303 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/updated-folio-new-work-going-up-soon-336335303 Mon, 05 Nov 2012 22:39:36 PST updated folio, new work going up soon! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2012-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
feel free to let me know your thoughts / comments (good, bad, irrelevant, etc)

:skullbones:

oh, and lots of new work coming soon... :meditation: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/oh-hai-hai-319704338 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/oh-hai-hai-319704338 Tue, 07 Aug 2012 15:02:19 PDT oh hai hai! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2012-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Check-out-my-band-s-new-EP-265766791 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Check-out-my-band-s-new-EP-265766791 Fri, 28 Oct 2011 12:21:24 PDT Check out my band's new EP! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2011-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://www.facebook.com/TheDeadTricks?sk=app_2405167945

and if you like to support, Buy! --> http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/thedeadtricks

:blowkiss: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/New-Portfolio-site-254940211 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/New-Portfolio-site-254940211 Thu, 25 Aug 2011 09:08:56 PDT New Portfolio site nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2011-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
:heart: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/I-love-you-all-243807543 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/I-love-you-all-243807543 Thu, 21 Jul 2011 01:33:02 PDT I love you all nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2011-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. :heart: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Thanks-to-Hugo-Froes-for-the-interview-220574774 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Thanks-to-Hugo-Froes-for-the-interview-220574774 Thu, 24 Feb 2011 08:59:20 PST Thanks to Hugo Froes for the interview! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2011-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
http://creative-end.com/exclusive-interview-with-multimedia-designer-manya-kuzemchenko

:heart: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Goodbye-Sony-Music-Hello-AOL-220921473 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Goodbye-Sony-Music-Hello-AOL-220921473 Fri, 11 Feb 2011 12:32:43 PST Goodbye Sony Music.. Hello AOL! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2011-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
More variation other than music sites coming soon! ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Calling-all-design-students-graduates-in-NYC-226616645 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Calling-all-design-students-graduates-in-NYC-226616645 Wed, 21 Apr 2010 07:42:55 PDT Calling all design students / graduates in NYC nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2010-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
Do you happen to be a graphic/multimedia design student or graduate living in the NYC area?
Would you, by chance, be having a graduate / end of year show this spring or summer?
Wouldn't you just love to have a design internship at Sony Music?

If you have answered yes to all of the above, let me know, because we are looking!

You'll get to work directly with me to provide various design work for high profile music artists, be in a fast-pace professional environment, and learn tons of shit and get credits towards your degree! And don't worry, I won't yell at you too much ;)

Give me a shout if you're interested and link me to your ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/bllllaarrrg-226979788 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/bllllaarrrg-226979788 Thu, 01 Apr 2010 10:56:29 PDT bllllaarrrg nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2010-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
damn april fools, gets me everytime.. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/YEY-227585285 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/YEY-227585285 Fri, 05 Mar 2010 07:46:14 PST YEY! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2010-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
A giant thanks to everyone's comments and faves as well! :blowkiss: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/rar-228090334 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/rar-228090334 Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:28:38 PST rar. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2010-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
so what's happenin? i've recently had a browse through my old whiney drippey crappy journal entries of the past decade, christ why did anyone read all that bollocks?

well here is life as i know it right at this moment, sans any self-promotional crap. maybe this is just for the record, one for the ol' archive, to keep it goin. and i'm making a list, none of this embellishment i used to spend numerous hours regurgitating.

- im officially walking the fine line of the 20's. they call it 25. i call it 5 years till i give up.

- i currently work as senior designer at ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/new-prints-232371378 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/new-prints-232371378 Tue, 05 May 2009 08:57:23 PDT new prints.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2009-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
:shop5954971:
tweet

:shop5991348:
star so bright

:shop5991040:
when im up ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/goodness-232658290 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/goodness-232658290 Mon, 13 Apr 2009 08:28:15 PDT goodness! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2009-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
Thank you so much for those who made it happen and those who faved and watched and then faved again..
Don't want to make this an oscar speech but jeez! I've waited like 8 years for this!

I guess now you unfortunate souls will have to suffer some more of my work in the near future, thank you for all of the inspiration! :blowkiss: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/--234432354 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/--234432354 Thu, 04 Dec 2008 08:28:48 PST ... nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2008-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
its prob cuz i've been spending the most time on the behance network, which is pretty much the grown up deviantart for professional designers.. ill still get something up sooner than later.. maybe.. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/what-the-duce-236165628 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/what-the-duce-236165628 Fri, 11 Jul 2008 10:25:59 PDT what the duce! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2008-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/SOASdesign-v-3-or-is-it-4-237246395 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/SOASdesign-v-3-or-is-it-4-237246395 Mon, 07 Apr 2008 02:35:22 PDT SOASdesign v. 3.. or is it 4? nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2008-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
www.soasdesign.com ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-life-of-a-letter-237520552 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-life-of-a-letter-237520552 Fri, 14 Mar 2008 04:34:24 PDT the life of a letter nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2008-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
and trampled with my foot while reaching for a chance.

to all the stars that fell upon the ground,

and pieces i have glued together again.

to all the souls that smiled at my raised eye,

and bit me back with growling tears.

to all the windows in this world,

and panes that cried behind closed lids.

to all the eyes that swallowed me whole,

and words that spun me to the skies.

to all the loves.. the hates.. the maybes and the nots,

with all that is left of feeling, just to say...

im sorry.

i always will be here, where i always was..

waiting for another day.

another chance. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/just-cant-be-bothered-237671636 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/just-cant-be-bothered-237671636 Thu, 28 Feb 2008 02:09:40 PST just cant be bothered nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2008-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
thank you for everyones support in my last journal, twas a bit of a weak moment and i just needed to vent.. and vent i did!

so life has taken an extreme turn.. i am now moving back to new york in may, so thus completing my (almost) 5 year hiatus from the states.

i just hope ive learnt something.. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/lessons-238397191 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/lessons-238397191 Thu, 20 Dec 2007 17:54:29 PST lessons nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
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Ramblingswhat does anyone else do at 1am other than reflect? yea.. i've got a year to reflect on..

perhaps its best if i work my way backwards..

i'm slowly losing my mind, living in a shared house that is testing my patience and sanity.  While one of my housem ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/upgrading-to-this-century-238503026 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/upgrading-to-this-century-238503026 Sun, 09 Dec 2007 05:57:02 PST upgrading to this century nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
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RamblingsIn my recent mini-artistic outbreak, i have come to realize that i am waaaaaaaaaaaay out of date on this deviantart thing, so i got a facelift.

While waiting for the results of my application for a Masters degree from Central St. Martins, I'm seriously ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/days-gone-by-239044606 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/days-gone-by-239044606 Mon, 15 Oct 2007 05:56:04 PDT days gone by nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
i suppose any emotion that will pour out of me in poetry right now will be beyond comprehension, so i must save it till my mind puts the feelings together first, and then run with the words..

the recent passing of my grandmother Valia has opened my eyes to a blinding picture of the future.  this steady path of life isnt good enough, there is something missing.. a goal.. perhaps a skill.. perhaps an opportunity of a lifetime.

and so, i have decided to take on a masters course in london, a full-on, all-go, straight-in full time masters degree starting this spring. and it is through this course, that i shall acc ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/a-ship-has-sailed-239641430 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/a-ship-has-sailed-239641430 Thu, 16 Aug 2007 09:59:23 PDT a ship has sailed.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
the parrots squeak and wail each second closer to the tide, a warning apology to the future graves, a pity amongst the land, still oblivious to the dangerous shadow they dance upon.

the sun has said its last farewell, as wet eclipse falls upon the earth.. wash away, wash away, wash away.. all the footprints in the sand have now disappeared into a vast cloud of  failed memories, choking on the foam.

the balance once again restored, the button has been pressed, all souls are now released, and time has starte ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-end-of-days-240012284 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-end-of-days-240012284 Fri, 06 Jul 2007 03:06:04 PDT the end of days. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim i must have dreamt we're dead
kicking through the sunshine skies
and petals in my head

i woke up to your words of love
to tell me all i know
i woke up to your tears as well
i woke up fears of woe

indeed someone did die last night
and it was me for sure
your fears of loss have overflown
what was and still is pure

i woke up to the end of dreams
a sign of things to come
you've planted all these seeds of love
but i'm the growing one

a painful sigh of dry relief
a future saved indeed
another formula erased
and now a different breed

i woke up in your arms today
a touch i won't forget
i woke ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/in-a-dream-240615172 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/in-a-dream-240615172 Sun, 22 Apr 2007 10:31:20 PDT in a dream nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
dancing with the light, i blur all lines and brighten my view.. familiar breaths fill the air with new undertones of moments missed and other similar misconceptions.. sounds of silence are louder than thoughts, i thought as i walked through the breeze and stared at the trees which stared right back.

the birds sang a strange tune, one i've heard before.. the melody paints the path i try not to trod on too harshly, stepping on some invisible air, she lifts my spirit and cries with me.  the bow on my heart, realizations on my mind, she winks and sends me on my way.

i close my eyes, and understand. to smi ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/new-york-new-york-240652077 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/new-york-new-york-240652077 Tue, 17 Apr 2007 09:57:56 PDT new york, new york nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
anyways, looking forward to hearing some commentry! ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/humble-240845421 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/humble-240845421 Sun, 25 Mar 2007 03:29:08 PDT humble nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
ever get the feeling that everything is somehow balanced?  today feels like that. nothing is necessarily right, but very balanced.  maybe its the hangover talking, but i think im actually feeling the karma of the world.

yes, i am just making a random 'just for the fuck of it' journal, and you cant stop me.

so what have i been up to? pretty much just work. you've all probably sensed the disturbance in my submission flow *chuckles*

although i am extremely inspired, being behind the computer day in and day out designing leaves little room for much else, especially personal things. in fact, my life pretty ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/c-mon-now-241342155 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/c-mon-now-241342155 Mon, 22 Jan 2007 01:38:54 PST c'mon now.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2007-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
since i havent been doing much art lately due to full time work, thats pretty much my latest stuff.. so for those who are bored and need something to look at or comment on, please give it a go..

thanks people, hope everyone is doin well! ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Czech-it-out-241641302 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Czech-it-out-241641302 Tue, 12 Dec 2006 10:33:36 PST Czech it out.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
this is my first site with Syrox eMedia, so be gentle! ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/I-GOT-A-JOBBIE-242261235 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/I-GOT-A-JOBBIE-242261235 Thu, 07 Sep 2006 00:54:12 PDT I GOT A JOBBIE! nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/SOAS-V2-242328880 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/SOAS-V2-242328880 Fri, 25 Aug 2006 04:35:28 PDT SOAS V2.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
she will now stop talking in 3rd person.

:bonk: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Because-242370089 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Because-242370089 Tue, 15 Aug 2006 04:09:37 PDT Because nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim >

having said that, if anyone knows of anyone that needs any sort of designage of any kind, doesnt matter on what side of the world.. please, do let me know.. i'm pretty cheap as well, but the design wont be, thats a promise.. but i suppose if your reading this, your watching me and you must not think that my design is cheap anyway.. so yea, keep an eye out pleeeeaaase.

other than that, hope everyone's enjoying summer.. keep at ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/in-case-you-havent-heard-242514578 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/in-case-you-havent-heard-242514578 Fri, 23 Jun 2006 09:14:45 PDT in case you havent heard.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
www.soasdesign.com

yea, and shout on my blog

www.soasdesign.com/blog1

that is all. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/you-best-be-gettin-up-242606926 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/you-best-be-gettin-up-242606926 Mon, 01 May 2006 07:17:43 PDT you best be gettin up.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
and you best not be downloading this shit, because the case is beautiful, filled with alex grey..

expect new artwork from me soon.

and now back to unconsciousness.. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/yep-im-tagged-242620543 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/yep-im-tagged-242620543 Sun, 23 Apr 2006 06:22:48 PDT yep.. im tagged. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
10 Firsts...
First Best Friend: Akiko
First Imaginary Friend: im not sure, id have to round up the crew
First Pet dog name: the only that came close as a pet dog was named Blue.. and he wasnt mine
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: some guy named Pete in 1st grade.. he was a jerk so i soon found someone else (hmm that seems to have developed an early pattern)
First CD: Greenday - Dookie.. fuck yea it still rocks!
First Car: a purple Dodge Neon.. crashed it after 3 days lol that was a good start..
First School ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/like-squeezing-a-242637400 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/like-squeezing-a-242637400 Thu, 13 Apr 2006 12:39:48 PDT like squeezing a.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
apologies for the last entry, i was exremely pissed off.. if it didnt show..

a big thank you and :hug: to everyone for their support, those were some powerful words and do more than just help keep bipolar idiots like me from collapsing into a state of mental institution.

so with that said, im happily underway with my final project.. due in a measily few weeks and pretty much shitting myself, but i recon ill get all this done... hopefully.. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/no-one-242690792 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/no-one-242690792 Sat, 11 Mar 2006 17:53:02 PST no one nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
i fucking hate this ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/a-new-beginning-242742718 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/a-new-beginning-242742718 Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:53:29 PST a new beginning nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2006-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
too many hazy days gone, too many blurry faces singing their drunken song in your ear, have you been listening? or just grinning away, at your own misconception that its all just a play, youre the narrator, invisible if you must be, the center if you want.  not a life but a stage, a stage drowned with mind altering promises, fake dreams made real, but you pay as you go.  and ive paid enough, too broke to choke on one more glimpse through the plestiglass of mild eup ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/keeping-warm-242850496 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/keeping-warm-242850496 Thu, 24 Nov 2005 04:12:40 PST keeping warm nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
well some squish hit the fan pretty hard and im moving out of my flat this weekend.. thanks very much to my hypocrit jerk off flatmate, but its all good, contract runs out jan 10th and papa kuzemchebti (purposefully misspelled, dont ask, i obviously know how to spell my lastname but this is an inside joke simply written to amuse no one but myself) is helping me pay off the month rent ahead as a christmas present.. pretty sad innit? either way, im moving above the bar i work at, into a bigger room, with no dogs, no dirty nasty arseholes, and no doorframe (unfortunately, but i c ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/stress-stress-stress-stress-stress-242895556 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/stress-stress-stress-stress-stress-242895556 Sat, 22 Oct 2005 10:29:21 PDT stress stress stress stress stress nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
thats all for now. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/back-from-the-ussr-242949366 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/back-from-the-ussr-242949366 Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:17:11 PDT back from the ussr.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
other than the horrors and idiots of the italian airways, russia was stupendous! i got in touch with my roots, learned more about my country, and partied in red square on moscow's 858th birthday! how bout that! and yish i got pics ;) but i posted them on my photography account :mwahaha: but heres the link : http://motiv.deviantart.com  there should be some manips makin their way as soon as i get my head back arou ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/a-migration-242968183 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/a-migration-242968183 Sat, 27 Aug 2005 09:22:25 PDT a migration.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
they say the south warms the soul.. spontanious escape has healed the various dark matter and burn marks that have ultimately crowded my headspace..

the river dart flows with my heart, carrying my love out to the sea.. never want to leave, never want to be anywhere than the warm corner of your arms..

ive turned my ways, my eyes do see.. afterall, its you they want to look at..

and though you might not believe, and mock and critisize with that cheeky smirk that sends me flying to kiss your cheek in every way immaginable..

my fear of sunrise has widdled to my anticipation for the sunset, with sweet music dancing aroun ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-rain-242973705 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-rain-242973705 Mon, 22 Aug 2005 15:42:34 PDT the rain nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim  every sorrow alcohol can never touch..
the cold rude awakening to your own demon.. the one thats shaking in the corner playing victim.
 realizations of who you are, what you do..
why?
 why were you built this way?

reprogram me.
it can be done..
i swear it..

youd think that wouldnt you?
everytime.
 nothing can stop you.. you cant stop yourself..
if you could you wouldnt..
dont fight what comes as natural.. just let it seep into your thoughts until youve paralized your fear

 all numb now

what fuels your fire and strokes your maine?
 purr at the pleasures.. dance in this hologram
a ballroom's crown has hi ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/itchy-n-scratchy-242983403 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/itchy-n-scratchy-242983403 Sun, 14 Aug 2005 11:29:06 PDT itchy 'n scratchy.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-last-two-digits-of-counting-backwards-242992161 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-last-two-digits-of-counting-backwards-242992161 Sun, 07 Aug 2005 05:57:32 PDT the last two digits of counting backwards.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
wow ive been away a while.. last journal entry april 15th! ooof how things-a-changed!

been everywhere from fox 5 news at 10 from a suspected plane highjacking, to a roadtrip to miami and getting my feet tattooed.. living in a suitcase in my car and on couches for a month.. flying, moving, painting, and now im a bar girl shakin up the cocktails.. my dreams have left me chasing magic wizards.. my mind has left me in all 2s and 8s.. my heart.. well thats a whole other story.

back again, for another round.. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-peanut-243155886 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/the-peanut-243155886 Fri, 15 Apr 2005 05:27:38 PDT the peanut nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/MIA-243229136 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/MIA-243229136 Tue, 15 Feb 2005 05:01:35 PST MIA.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2005-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
anywaysh, i miss ya all loads and hopefully ill be checking bck a bit more often now! :blowkiss: ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/nuclear-winter-243298682 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/nuclear-winter-243298682 Mon, 13 Dec 2004 08:31:11 PST nuclear winter nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/goodbye-we-are-doomed-243335569 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/goodbye-we-are-doomed-243335569 Wed, 03 Nov 2004 05:45:30 PST goodbye, we are doomed... nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/buried-243353731 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/buried-243353731 Thu, 14 Oct 2004 03:02:44 PDT buried nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
you ask yourself

how many drops of tears does it take?

this brewing potion of sickness and hate
we are gurggling and vomitting onto each other.

lets weave another basket to carry off the heads of the
guilty?

and the axe ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/poof-243366617 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/poof-243366617 Wed, 29 Sep 2004 03:29:02 PDT *poof* nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
apologies for the disappearance, its been quite a journey of a month... for those who care to wonder where ive been here it is:

well, i flew back to england, then wam bam took right off and went to moscow for a week, then to st. petersburg for 3 days.. then flew back here to england and spent an agonizing 3 weeks trying to get broadband and a landline set up in our new house.. and behold! we got it! WOOHOO!

whats changed?

1. ive gone straightedge.. but its only been a day ^^;

2. influences and artstyle, but that would be more relevant when i submit my new work :D

3. the path im on is on the brink of stumbling upon ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/lets-throw-beer-at-the-drunk-girl-243406645 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/lets-throw-beer-at-the-drunk-girl-243406645 Sat, 14 Aug 2004 09:12:41 PDT lets throw beer at the drunk girl.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
note to self: drinking 100 proof vodka gets you drunker than drinking the average vodka, and sneaks up on you when you least realize it...

note to self: playing billiards for money when your drunk is a bad idea.. especially when you have a few ones and a fiver.. cuz, hehe, when that fiver is missing and you didnt bet it, who are you gonna blame?

note to other people: drinking a russian girl's vodka would not make her happy...

note to self: swimming after a drunken rampage to find your $5 i ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/round-up-243415122 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/round-up-243415122 Fri, 06 Aug 2004 05:14:02 PDT round up nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
someone needs to kidnap me. ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/summa-tiiiimmeee-243461263 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/summa-tiiiimmeee-243461263 Mon, 14 Jun 2004 09:29:52 PDT summa tiiiimmeee nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
(not quite)

theres mystical energies penetrating every gleam of my soul.. the purpose and reason is lost within every blink and swallow.. the forces are dancing and pulling tighter and tighter, ripping the dead membranes of yesterday to breathe a new tomorrow.. why cant i stop it? where is the control? when was the beginning? how shall it end?

what is this magic? ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Biter-243481472 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/Biter-243481472 Sat, 22 May 2004 07:45:07 PDT Biter nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim at this example of human shit.. the one that you've helped spawn.
the one you've helped stay down too long, and spat at through your teeth... the one you stab straight through your thoughts.. worth less than pennies, so damn cheap...
keep grinning through your whitened caps, keep sipping plastic chains..
keep laughing through your green high chair, you'll be there.. then you'll see.
you'll rest in colder ground than him, you'll feed on less than dirt..
same maggets will digest your flesh, and leave you sore with worth.
at least your decency lives on.. to keep on feeding next, ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/bit-the-bullet-243483074 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/bit-the-bullet-243483074 Thu, 20 May 2004 04:58:55 PDT bit the bullet... nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim you cant kill what is already dead, you can only flick it until it decides to move again..  moves and morphs through what it once lived, peeling the dead cells of past to reveal the raw flesh of present... a present come too soon? a present going too fast.. a crust already flaking for a new beginning, as it leaves a mark too staining to fade... too real for a dream.. to separate from your world of maliscious encounters ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/explosion-in-my-pants-243489154 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/explosion-in-my-pants-243489154 Wed, 12 May 2004 06:34:33 PDT explosion in my pants.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
has your body ever felt the soul of a tune carry through every vein, jitter every muscle, touch every gland that makes you tingle in every single molecule? every single instrument vibrations convulsing ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/lunatickin-243493760 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/lunatickin-243493760 Thu, 06 May 2004 09:37:30 PDT lunatickin' nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
and the energies dancing all over me know exactly what to do.. how to push.. when to ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/oh-holyness-243499827 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/oh-holyness-243499827 Wed, 28 Apr 2004 06:59:02 PDT oh holyness... nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
other news: i have batteries. sweet, sweet batteries. and rechargable ones at that! with a charger, mind you! nothing stands in my way anymore! nothing! :mwahaha:

over and out :o ]]> http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/why-243506191 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/why-243506191 Mon, 19 Apr 2004 07:59:18 PDT why nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/on-the-road-again-sorta-243509641 http://manya.deviantart.com/journal/on-the-road-again-sorta-243509641 Wed, 14 Apr 2004 07:37:51 PDT on the road again.. sorta.. nonadult journals/personal manya http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/m/a/manya.png?1 Copyright 2004-2013 ~manya @squeakyjim
day 2 - wagamama's! noodles are always special...

day 3 - dont think anything happened...

neither did day 4... except my hair is black now... no more purple murple... well except for a few streaks here and there..

day 5 - my friend gets the shit kicked out of her after being followed from a pub by pikies from this shithole town... *manya loses it* ...  karma is dancing in the air since then ..

day 6 - getting nerves back together.. got a haircut too!

day 7 - start to run in the park! woot! this chicky is getting in shape damm ]]>