so last christmas i bought myself a subscription just for the heck of it, to finally see what all the fuss was about.

i LOVED it. swore i'd never go back.

that is until sometime last spring when they decided to update the entire site and the message center and everything, and basically most of my subscription perks (or at least the ones i enjoyed) were gone and made available to pretty much everyone.

so i decided i'd just let my subscription run up and not buy a new one, especially since i haven't submitted art all semester long because of how freaking ridiculously busy i am.

and then, a whole week before my subscription is supposed to end, guess what they do?

INTRODUCE NEW BETA PAGES >.<

and guess what? i love it hahahaha.

so now i don't wanna get rid of my subscription because i don't wanna lose my new user page and maybe i'll actually also build up my portfolio page over break when i submit all my school art and maybe i'll actually be more likely to use my deviantart next semester since i won't be taking four studios ;_;

i hate you deviantart. every time i find a way out, you find a way to suck me (and my money) back in.

so yeah i promise i'm not dead.

i've just been juggling my classes, my job, my friends, and my new boyfriend :]

sooooooo it's been pretty insane. but three weeks from now i'll be at home for christmas break (oh yeah, new home, we moved haha) and maybe things'll be calm enough that i can upload all my school stuff (trust me there's tons of it haha).

first off, congrats to obama! i didn't vote but i'm glad he won b/c i felt slightly better about him than mccain. either way though, it's going to be an interesting four (and maybe eight) years.

i'm kinda sick of all the ignorant people, on both sides. no, your president is NOT black. no, "you" didn't do it, all of americans who voted did, not just the african-americans. no, the world isn't going to end just because obama got elected. quit looking for the signs, god doesn't want you to decipher when it's going to happen. he'll decide when he wants jesus to come back and bring all the christians home, it's not up to you to figure it out. what it is up to you is to live your life the best you can and in the most righteous way you can (or if you don't believe, then it's up to you to live your life how you see fit lol). and if you wanna move, go right ahead, quit complaining and saying you'll do it and just do it. yeah, didn't think so.

in other news, i bought death note volume 7 and ouran high school host club part 1 :]

the ouran dub's growing on me. vic as tamaki doesn't sound so ear-bleeding anymore (albeit he's not great and i still hear EDWARD ELRIC no matter what). but everyone else is pretty good, and aaron dismuke as that little elementary school brat in like, episode 5 or 6 is AMAZING. he got that character down and almost has me convinced that he can still pull off alphonse in fullmetal 2 if need be. apparently that wasn't him hahahahaha but seriously, whoever played him did an amazing job. i swore it sounded like aaron though, shiro sounds the same as al throwing a fit haha.

but yeah...i've got homework to finish now, so i'll be going :]

i bought the bleach: memories of nobody dvd tonight.

was gonna buy death note volume 7 but best buy had already sold out of them. in one day. ridiculous.

oh well...more money for me :]

my misa-misa costume for friday is now complete too.

well it's been about a week...here's what i've decided to watch, what i've finished, what i've dropped, and what i'm still not sure about.

continued from the summer season:
chi's sweet home - it's ended, but four episodes have yet to be released. episodes 100-104 were released earlier this week and i completed this friday night :]
chocolate underground - also over, but one episode has yet to be released. episode 13 was released earlier this week and i completed this friday night as well :]
telepathy shoujo ran - i'm actually like, 7 episodes behind on this one so i'll probably marathon it over fall break and catch up and keep up with it (maybe). i'm holding off on this one until christmas break now. i'll probably marathon it and hidamari sketch x365 then. i just don't have time to keep up with it lol.

english dub stuff i'm still watching:
bleach - sticking with the dub until it goes on another hiatus...then major marathoning time? lol.
code geass - still on season one haha. i believe R2 starts in a month though so that'll be fun...it'll be weird watching something that just ended O_o
tengen toppa gurren lagann - the one thing that gets me through mondays haha.

new stuff for fall:
hyakko - i may stick this one out. it looked really funny and cute when i read the preview, and then i watched the first episode and i wasn't quite sure what to make of it. it's weird, but cool. we'll see how it develops.
toradora! - still love this show. seems like it's going to be a romantic comedy kinda thing, but it's good :]
kuroshitsuji - saw the subbed first episode and OMGAMAZING. i love it. hottie demon butler who's also really funny and amazing at what he does? i'm in.
chaos;head - this one turned out to be way different from what i expected but it's still really good. i feel like it's the otaku-ness of lucky star meets the creepy little girls killingness of higurashi with the murder-mysteryness of death note :] basically, awesome.
stitch! - as i stated before, first show to go. it's impossible to find it on veoh and i don't really have time to be tracking down fansubbers and downloading and stuff haha. too much searching involved and i've already got a full plate as it is lol. i may watch it later on one day though.
ef - a tale of melodies - i spent most of last week watching ef - a tale of memories. watched 2-3 episodes a day. it was absolutely amazing, and i'm glad i completed it and am now watching melodies because so far it's lived up to the standard :]
ga-rei -zero- - another one i've cut...i didn't even make it through the first episode. it seems cool and i may watch it one day but it was the wrong kind of action for me. idk :/ it might be one of my filler shows during a break.
today in class 5-2 - i haven't completely decided to stop watching this yet but it's like stitch! - way too hard to find. i mean if i went to the fansubbers who said they'd do it, i'd probably find it, but when it takes 3 hours to download an episode because of your crappy internet...yeah haha. i'll probably watch this and the OVA over christmas break. which is a shame because i watched the first episode live last sunday and thought it was cute, and i really didn't need subs to watch it and understand it (i slept through the episode today )

this is pretty much final...i may put on hold another show or two, but this is what i found i can keep up with comfortably, and what i like :]

well, the fall 2008 anime season is upon us :]

being the super otaku i am, i've got about 10 shows i'm going to try and keep up with (and also knowing my habits, i'll probably keep up with two of them religiously, drop two or three, and keep up with two or three whenever i have time and marathon what i missed when the season's over).

continued from the summer season:
chi's sweet home - it's ended, but four episodes have yet to be released.
chocolate underground - also over, but one episode has yet to be released.
telepathy shoujo ran - i'm actually like, 7 episodes behind on this one so i'll probably marathon it over fall break and catch up and keep up with it (maybe).

english dub stuff i'm still watching:
bleach - sticking with the dub until it goes on another hiatus...then major marathoning time? lol.
code geass - still on season one haha. i believe R2 starts in a month though so that'll be fun...it'll be weird watching something that just ended O_o
tengen toppa gurren lagann - the one thing that gets me through mondays haha.

new stuff for fall:
hyakko - i may stick this one out. it looked really funny and cute when i read the preview, and then i watched the first episode and i wasn't quite sure what to make of it. it's weird, but cool. we'll see how it develops.
toradora! - i actually wasn't going to watch this 'cause it seemed really stupid when i read the synopsis, but apparently it's /a/'s show this season so it's pretty much required watching. but after watching the first episode, i'm in love kinda. maybe extreme like. i'm not sure yet, but i know this is one of the shows i will be keeping up with every week.
kuroshitsuji - still waiting on subs for this one, but i'm certain i'll like it. it's dark and beautiful. the art is absolutely amazing...i mistakenly downloaded a raw thinking it was subbed and i started watching it anyways 'cause i was instantly drawn in to the art. i didn't get far though because the video/audio sync was completely off on the file :[ i an't wait for subs though :]
chaos;head - i am REALLY excited for this one to start and i have a feeling i'll be keeping up with this one weekly too. madhouse is producing it, and it seems like higurashi meets death note kinda murder mystery thing...it looks promising.
stitch! - i'm watching this for the lulz, to be honest. a japanese version of lilo and stitch? why wouldn't i watch? we'll see how often i stay updated on it though lol. it'll be one of the first shows to go when i have to cut back for time.
ef - a tale of melodies - still debating if i wanna watch this. i haven't seen ef - a tale of memories yet and was planning on marathoning it this weekend since melodies starts monday, but idk (especially now that i have shiny new bleach season 1 dvds ). i may not start this one until after fall break.
ga-rei -zero- - LOL SPEAKING OF BLEEEECH. hahaha. guy sees spirits, girl comes to help him fight them off? yeah. it sounds good though :]
today in class 5-2 - i've heard lots of good things about this manga and ova, so i figured why not check out the series? don't have my heart AS set on this one either though...well see what comes of it :]

sooooooo there you have it. all the anime i'm going to try and keep up with while still being super involved in school haha. like i said, i'll probably only keep up with a third of these and then play catchup and marathon later on (or watch them halfway through or something). we'll see which ones are good enough to last :]

what are you watching this season?
ps - check this out: [link]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngsrimilHQM

you will be missed.

even if i haven't been watching you since you kicked kenshin off the air and started showing crappy shows.

there was a little bit of nostalgia in that message...made me really happy :] i wish they had shown clips of the old days though haha.

adult swim, you're next.
well, the action block, anyways.

if i said that that was a real, legit, authentic, straight from japan copy of L change the WorLd...


and that i bought it today at the local japanese market for fifteen bucks?


yeah. i'm still amazed too.
no subs, but eh, i can download it. just the fact that i have an imported copy of L change the WorLd (and got it on the same day as i got viz's release of the first death note movie, for that matter) baffles my mind.

ps - i also have gurren lagann on dvd...sub only :]
and i've been keeping up with the dub on sci fi.
plus i'm caught up on all my anime releases that i'm collecting.
i really need to stop spending money on this habit, though haha. i have a feeling that my anime/manga collection will be the heirlooms that i pass down, which'll be funny since everybody else contributed things like tea sets and china cabinets and tables haha.

sorry about that, folks :[

4 studios and being an RA is kinda busy busy busy though :]

never fear, because i am back in school that means i am creating though! and you know what that means...more submissions!

first one will probably be a realistic zorro self-portrait that i've got due on monday.

that's right.

you heard me.

realistic. ZORRO. self-portrait.

i love my intro to illustration class

and i've got some figure drawing stuff due on tuesday that i'll probably submit once it's done, and a painting i'm working on that's due on the 16th (SAME DAY AS THE DEATH NOTE MOVIE DVD OF AWESOMENESS COMES OUT) soooo be looking foward to that :]

OH MY GOSH I MOVE INTO SCHOOL TOMORROW AND START RA TRAINING AND WHILE I'M EXCITED I'M TOTALLY NOT READY.

not to mention i still have to wash my dark clothes and blankets, gotta clean out my messenger bag (chocolate syrup in the back...haha), gotta go finish buying stuff for my room (might do that tomorrow since i have to make an afternoon run to hobby lobby to get curtains for my bed so i can have a cool 4 poster-like bed haha. and i've only read 60 pages of the 318-page book i gotta have read...ugh.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm scared!

oh and btw, 25 more views until 10,000. whoever catches it gets some pretty arts by me (just don't expect it within the next two weeks haha). ~IndesireableSins caught it! congrats!

ps - some of the best music ever:
[link]
you gotta be a member of imeem to listen but that's not hard to sign up for
oh and also other good music:
[link]

haha i'm so mean. i'm only joking though :]

so the contest idea was apparently a bad one...NOBODY participated. can't say i'm surprised though.

and i'm kinda glad because i've kinda been too busy lately what with trying to get back into school and working and sleeping and anime-ing...no prize art time for me.

so yeah.

i'm tired.

i'll probably write more when i'm coherent.

DON'T FORGET! 10,000 KIRIBAN IS COMING UP SOON...CATCH IT!

oh yeah - i'm getting my code geass dvds (and soundtrack and sound dramas and artbooks and manga and whatever else comes in the limited edition) in two-ish days!!!! i can't wait, although i heard bandai was having trouble with the first batch of dvds (which mine are among b/c i preordered it) sooooo i'm hoping they work or i'm gonna be pissed.

ahhhhhh i watched L change the WorLd today...what a good movie

easily the best out of the three death note movies :]

the ending was amazing (and sad, obviously, but i knew that was coming) and so sweet when he dropped the boy off...ohh i wanna go on about it but it's best i don't spoil it for you 'cause it was so cool what they did.

this scene in particular was my favorite:



L's standing up straight! LMAO he looks so weird doing that D:
and i messed up when saving it and named it as "lsavetheworld.png" for some reason haha. which then got me thinking...



LMAO. i love it
in all its ms paint and laptop mouse glory

so that's my contest idea...just a small (two week i guess?) thing. take the original picture that i posted and do something with it. you can be serious or funny, good or bad, i don't care. print it out and color it with crayons and scan it it, or throw some paint filters on it in photoshop and add stuff and make it look like an oil painting. you can make L be a janitor or a pimp or king of the world.

i really don't care, creativity is what counts in this.

i guess the deadline should be august 1st...that should give you PLENTY of time (hell i did that in 20 minutes haha), and that way i can give you your prize drawing before i head back off to school and start RA training (won't have any time after that).

depending on how many entries i get, i may pick more than one winner. it's all up in the air right now.

SO GET CREATIVE AND TELL YOUR AMIGOS

EDITEDITEDITEDITEDITEDITEDITEDITEDIT:
so my friend dana and i were myspacing back and forth with this picture and this is what we have collaboratively come up with



lol the yellow stuff is me asking her why L's got his hands inside of his superhero spandex that she said he needed (she added the spandex, i added the "i heart k" (KIRA, not the K from the movie lol) and the death note pattern

this cracked me up SO HARD when i first saw it

expect a sexy new screenshot soon

it's truly amazing how much can change in three months' time.

and how getting on your laptop for the first time in three months and seeing everything you were working on and all your photos and music and even the pages you were on in firefox at the exact moment that everything stopped...how much life has changed since then, and all the things that were important to you then that might not be now, and things that weren't then are now.

and how much dang updating you have to do haha.

our world moves really fast today :/

as of 1:30-ish am, monday, june 23rd, 2008, lelouch vi britannia has stolen my heart away.

seriously.

THAT SHOW IS EPIC.

in a matter of 58 hours, i watched all of season one and caught up to turn 11 of R2.

new record for me, fyi.

i cannot seriously get enough of this show. for the past two-something days i have not had any life haha. and now i feel weird having to wait until sunday to watch it :[

it airs at 4am sunday morning, my time (i believe that's 5pm sunday in japan) and i have to wait about 12-24 hours for subs :[

i'm also watching chocolate underground and telepathy shojo ran, but subs for those are hard to come by :/

actually...here's everything i've been up to lately: [link]

but yeah...code geass. watch it.
and a little bit of irony: i don't watch mecha anime. never have enjoyed it.

UNTIL NOW ♥

i kid you not.

thanks to 4chan, i came across this new manga called lost+brain. so far there's only two chapters out...at least that i could find that were scanslated.

but this is hilarious:

[link]
[link]
[link]

description:

"Hiyama Iori is a genius student at a prestigious high school, who is looked to as a future candidate for the Superintendent General (head of police).

One by one he kills criminals who are not punished by law using "hypnosis" that he accidentally discovered.

His objective is the realization of an ideal society with no crime. Meanwhile the ICPO initiates investigation, considering the mass deaths of the criminals as a murder case. They have sent in the mysterious detective -M-, who has solved countless impossible cases, into the investigation.

The decisive battle between two geniuses, Hiyama and M has begun." ~ [link]

there's more on wikipedia too.

so basically, if light was a slightly bigger asshole and didn't have all those tricky rules and could hypnotize people instead of writing their death...this is what would happen.

i'm not sure what to think about this. on the one hand, it's actually pretty good and i like it, i mean it's almost exactly like death note but there are enough minor differences that i could enjoy it (or maybe i'm just excited b/c it's like getting a whole other arc added on to death note haha) but at the same time, i mean this is almost flat out plagiarism and it's kinda lame. and either way, whether i like it or not, the whole thing's hilarious b/c of the similarities.

idk...i'm gonna follow it as it gets realeased, see how it plays out.

read it: [link]

(i'll really laugh if they make an anime out of it that's exactly 37 episodes long and madhouse produces it and nightmare and maximum the hormone make the opening and closing theme songs...and if apples and watches start showing up everywhere )

PS - there's even a matsuda and a mikami! if/when you read it...i think oosawa is matsuda and shitara is like mikami. oosawa is really goofy and clumsy and kind of an idiot and when you first see him, he looks almost exactly like matsuda. shitara's not a fanboy, but he looks like mikami (glasses, kinda longish dark hair) and hiyama chooses him to help him carry out his plans lol. no confirmation if he actually joins him yet, though. i can't find scans that far...chapter 2 was only just added on the 15th :/

activate fangirl mode NOW.

i've been having a bleach marathon of sorts lately.

and omg i love urahara haha.

i will have that hat...and soon.

he's the only blonde i like haha.

i'm thinking about it.

i'm wanting to earn as much money as i can this summer and i realized, hey, i'm an artist lol. so i think i might start setting up some of my deviations to be sold as prints. i was looking into though and i really wouldn't make much off of it though and if i did commissions i'd get to keep a much greater share of the profit lol (although they'd be a bit more of a hassle 'cause i'm the one who has to send them out).

soo basically i was just wondering your opinion...if i did set up prints, would you buy? maybe suggest a few deviations to make prints?

and same with commissions...i don't think they'd be too expensive. i'd have to look at shipping costs first (which i have to do anyways 'cause i still have to send ashley her sims 2 cd heh) and they would be way cheaper, obviously, if i could send them to you digitally.

idk. it's just a thought i'm tossing around at the moment.

so what d'you think?

(and me, too)

was not as awkward and weird as i thought it would be.

although it had its moments.

overall it was really good.

and DANG i LOVE matsuda haha.

and L too :]

btw - brad swaile is freaking hot haha.

sooooo...lots of stuff coming up. kinda.

first order of business. i'm slowly but surely coming up on my TWO kiribans. that's right. TWO kiribans.

one at 9,999 and one at 10,000. haha. make note of it :]

what i will do: pretty much anything traditional and illustrator-y or fanart-y. i doubt i'll have a tablet or my laptop working by then (i'm using my mom's, which is actually my old laptop, for the time being) sooooo no digital art :/

what i won't do: basically anything else. no fanfiction, no digital art (unless otherwise noted), and any yaoi or yuri or even some mild forms of it. idk. i don't really wanna get into it here, just request it and keep it pg and i'll probably do it.

second order of business:
OMG DEATH NOTE MOVIE SHOWING IN THEATERS! here! like 20 minutes away! next week!

how freaking exciting is this?! lol. i'm so going. i wanna go both nights but i don't think i can...but i will go at least once should be a blast :]

it's gonna be weird though...i've already seen it online in japanese w/english subs and they're dubbing it with the anime english dub cast so it's gonna be weird hearing american voices with asian actors haha. ryuk'll probably the easiest thing to watch.

i can't wait until the last name comes to theaters too :] and then maybe L change the world after that!

third order of business...my birthday's coming up! may 31st show my dA page some love? i'm having a dinner on the 30th. i can't wait :] i'm gonna be 20! no longer a teenager

fourth order of business...i'm bored haha.

but realize i just wanna say goodbye.

ahhhhhh i love this song :]

avenged sevenfold's just awesome anyways but "afterlife" being on the radio just makes me love it that much more haha.

so it's saturday...and i am finishing up my website, turned in my 3d presentation on time, and didn't ever get around to that paper (i started it but slept in too late this morning so i never got to finish it >.<...which is a shame because i would've done so well on that. gah.

i was doing my write-ups for my presentation and i was like "wow, it feels so good to actually have to write something again!"

so once again i'm considering switching to english.

idk, i keep going back and forth with it. i've been told i'd make a pretty decent english major and there is some sort of rush or adrenaline that i get once i get into writing essays (very much like the feeling that i get once i really get into a drawing or a 2d design and i finish the actual drawing part and start busting out the ink and paint haha).

but i don't think i want to spend my college days writing essay after essay and i don't want to be an english teacher (about the only thing you can do with an english degree from here).

gahhhh indecisiveness sucks.

i'm going home tomorrow...ugh i can't wait, however sad it may be. i'm just ready for all this stress to be done with.

oh and and i didn't get the SA job over the summer, which makes no sense b/c i'm obviously perfectly qualified for it because I'M AN SA NOW. and on top of that, my roommate did get it! we have the exact same qualifications for it and she got it and i didn't. and if anything, i live CLOSER to campus than she does and i have my own car and she doesn't sooooo wtf?!

i'm trying to give up on trying to understand everything right now.

i'm just happy that my last night is going to be in richardson :]

i'm gonna go out with a bang

and that really breaks my heart.
because wednesday used to be my favorite day of the week.

damn i'm tired.
and i can't sleep for twelve more hours >.<

i'm gonna try and knock this drawing project out tonight. i'm working the nance front desk so i have a nice big table, access to water, and eight solid hours to draw and ink my metamorphosis drawing. once i get that done, all i have to do is spend the second half of tomorrow and all of tomorrow night in the mac lab coding my project so i can get it done by friday morning and get it turned in. and then i'm gonna go to drawing final critique and collapse for a while after that, spend friday evening/night fixing my 3d projects and taking pictures of them and putting together a presentation and writing a 4 page critique and then i'm doooonnnnneeeee omg.

i wish i had decided to wait until the fourth or fifth to leave. 'cause there's no way in hell i'm gonna wanna move everything out of my room saturday afternoon. i'm gonna wanna sleep haha.

oh yeah, and then i'm working saturday night too. great.

i think i'm going to sleep the entire first week of summer break away, once i leave richardson for the last time tuesday morning.

hey, chris' birthday was three months ago today. and chad's was a month ago. and mine's in a month and a day.

huh. cool.

i like this song :]
i may go see sixx:am when they come here july 5th. gotta find someone to go with me though, i hate going to concerts alone :/

is a dream come true.

for serious.

well all the bad stuff has seemed to stop happening to me, i guess. other than grades and typical end-of-year crap.

i want to be done so badly but i don't think i'm ready for the hell that's waiting for me at home when my mom finds out how badly i did this semester and about my laptop :/

at least i might have a job already haha.

i'm just praying that i can save my grades enough so that i can stay above a 2.2 so i can stay an RA for next year. i'm at a 2.75 now so hopefully that gives me enough cushion to do so...

because out of everything that i could lose right now, if i lost that, i don't know what i'd do. i worked so hard for that and want it so badly.

gahhhh.

school is way too stressful, kids.

best piece of advice anyone could ever give you:
COLLEGE IS NOTHING LIKE HIGH SCHOOL.

once you learn that, things go well i guess.

for serious :[

matsuda being my laptop, lol.

today around noon. i put him in my tote bag with the cord and everything else like i always do, stuck my headphones in and headed off to class. when i got to class i set my drawing pad down on a drawing horse and then my tote bag down and threw my keys and cell phone down as well. i ran off to the bathroom and came back to set up...opened him up and the screen was all screwed up. there's a rather nice size crack in the top left corner and the entire screen doesn't work, rendering him useless :[

soooooo now idk what to do because i'm a broke college student who has very little gas in her car and doesn't even know if she has enough to go home and get the papers that have the warranty info and stuff on them.

and besides, i really don't wanna send him off to get fixed, i really just wanna take him to a computer shop and have him back three days later, even if it does mean paying a lot more.

gahhhh why couldn't it have been my phone to get broken? jeez.

i wish i even knew how he broke...on the side there's a little thing that's broken too that makes me wonder if someone knocked him over while i was gone and just never fessed up to it in class (smart idea on their part 'cause i'd have laid into them and they would be paying to get this fixed and you can best believe i'd go to the most expensive shop around to get him fixed because i deserve it after the hell my mom's gonna give me when she finds out about this).

sooooo yeah. my good year is slowly getting bad.

hopefully this is just a momentary bump though...april's just gonna be a bad month and may'll be better :]

hopefully.

-looks at "friends" section-

my homies are mudkips, yo.

whatever those are.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRED AND GEORGE WEASLEY!











oh yeah, and i watched athf:mfft last night. good movie :] wish i would've seen it in theaters a year-ish ago...oh well.

ahahaha i'm alive, wow.

first off, i'm going to apologize for any and everyone who faved/added to their collections anything that i've done...as mentioned before i've been a pretty big slacker and i haven't properly said thanks, so here it is. a nice big THANKS there's too many to go on their pages and thank them individually and i'm sorry that i let it get so out of hand that it ended up that way :[

just got back from spring break last night. tortured my ankle like whooooa. i was going downstairs with a handful of my crap and somehow it didn't register that i was still three steps up? idk either. but i stepped too far and ended up crashing to the floor and bruising my right foot pretty bad. i didn't sprain or break my ankle, thank god, but i sorta wished i'd had because at least then i'd have crutches and some good meds instead of pain, tylenol, and this massive disgusting lump on the side of my foot that's bound to go through all the blues and purples and browns in the color wheel hah (i know brown isn't on the color wheel, shut up ).

but spring break itself was pretty good...mostly boring and slightly depressing, save for last tuesday which was easily the best day out of the whole thing 'cause i actually WENT somewhere with someone haha. mah roomie and i went dress shopping for the nance dance that's coming up, since chris said he'd come with me :] although it wasn't so much shopping as going and getting the dress that i had seen in the mall like a month ago and decided that i was going to buy no matter what, if nothing, just to have it haha. so we got the pretty pretty dress and some shoes to match, then went over to the alteration shop and maggie moo's for some ice cream :] there's a new walmart in tega cay so we ventured over there to kill some time and then we ate dinner at quiznos and went back to her house to chill for a bit before we went to fort mill high's production of high school musical (some of her friends from high school were in it and it was their last musical 'cause they're seniors this year, so she wanted to be supportive).

i don't hate high school musical as much as i thought i did...it's actually a pretty good story with pretty good songs. i'm thinking - and i hate to say this, as much as i like disney - that i can't stand it because of the disney cheeziness and moralness that gets thrown into everything they do :/ or maybe it's just cause i saw it live, idk. but i should hardly think that a high school production should be better than what supposedly is a group of really "talented" people...idk.

it was fun either way :]

sooooo now that i've been up for an hour when i was supposed to come back and go to sleep (lol my class got cancelled! hurray for no web design, although i was pissed 'cause i hobbled all the way to rutledge to find out my class was cancelled and i had to hobble all the way back...yuck) i think i'm gonna go to sleep for an hour or so, then fix my room perspective.

ps - i forgot...there's a really really good chance that i'm going to animazement after all :] chris and i have been talking about it for a few weeks now and we're actually finally making plans to go...we'll see haha. i don't wanna say for sure until i'm registered and all that jazz, but yeah. it's likely i'll be there :]

but i've been seriously neglecting dA lately.

i go through these phases every once in awhile. i'll just come on to see if i have any messages and respond to them (sometimes) and go look at my devwatch and glance at everything before selecting all and marking them as read without faving or commenting or anything.

i feel bad, because it's pretty much selfishness on my part (you guys put all that time into your artwork and i'm not giving it the proper attention it deserves) but during these phases i really am just kinda apathetic :/

idk.

i think it has to do with stuff that's going on in my life at the time. like lately i've been having so much fun and stuff that i've neglected blogger, devart, and livejournal. the only things i really keep up with now are facebook and myspace :/

eh, give it time. i'll be back and super active again :]

ps - saw cobra starship last night. amazing concert. would've been better without all those dang strobe lights, a little bit more air conditioner, and if i had had more sleep and food in the previous 24 hours before it. i was so sore and tired afterwards lol. i got hit in the head with ryland's water bottle xD

all i have to say is that it's amazing.

thursday just have may have been the best day of my life. it was so good that like, my awful 3d critique didn't even phase me haha.

i got my RA letter!! i have one more thing to do before i find out if i get the job. i have to go on an individual interview now, next friday. it's thirty minutes long and basically i'm scared. but everyone keeps telling me i'll do fine, so pretty much at this point i'm trusting their judgement and i'm trusting God and where He thinks i need to be.

it's like i told courtney earlier...my life could go either way now. i could either be an RA or get really involved in so ill and rush alpha omega. or i could do some other third completely unknown thing that i haven't come across yet. i just don't know. but i have sooooo much opportunity right now it's crazy.

plus i've also been getting a lot closer to a few of my friends (one in particular ) and i'm just so excited because they are all so amazing and are there for me and i've found out this week that a couple of them actually really look up to me or admire me for what i do (doing what i love, being myself, standing up for what i believe in...that kind of thing). courtney told me tonight that i really have this effect on people that i make their lives better just by being in it.

i was instantly reminded of when i went to meditation several weeks ago and how i just got that feeling that i really needed to just trust God and where i need to go, and in the meantime i need to just shine and be the best person i can be. i have to admit i've kinda lost sight of that with recent events but i'm so glad i saw her tonight 'cause she reminded me of all that.

and idk, maybe i'm just rambling on because it's 4:30am but i'm just really excited and overwhelmed by all the good that's going on in my life...i don't think i've ever had it this amazing before.

the only problem is that all of it can be snatched away in an instant with one wrong move, and i'm so scared that that's gonna happen that i've not been fully enjoying it. but several people have told me to just enjoy life and it will continue to go right, so i think i'm gonna stick with that.

i really want sleep :[

i've never been one to like valentine's day much.
but now that i've had such a great day-before-valentine's-day...i'm not gonna want tomorrow to come. AT ALL.
especially since i kinda sorta made plans with chris to watch fullmetal and i just now realized that i have a class from 6:30-9:20 that i definitely cannot ditch.
BOO.
this blows. majorly.

tonight was wonderful though :]

i'll just consider today my valentine's day, i guess. i pretty much celebrated it today.

i was leaving campus to come home today and i saw a fire truck go into winthrop. then while i was at wing king waiting on my mom to get my dinner another firetruck or two went in there. so when she came out we went back to winthrop and rode around to try and see where they were at and it turns out there were like, four firetrucks and a lot of people were milling around outside of rutledge. but then as we were leaving for the second time, everyone was going back in so we passed it off as a false alarm. but then i got on facebook and one of my friends' status was saying that she was amused that rutledge almost burned down today. i'd ask her, except that we really aren't friends haha. but i figured one of my real friends on here might possibly know...

so, any insight? did it really almost burn down?

i told my mom i figured a kiln blew up or something lol.

it needs an icon :[ i guess i'll get around to it later unless someone wants to do it now?
i'll get it set up later (journal listing the members who want to be listed, etc.).

but for now i'm off to go use lola one last time to make a poster for a program my hall's having in two weeks.

i've gotten mixed reviews about making a so ill club on dA...some like the idea, some don't. i think it's a pretty cool idea, but then again not everyone in so ill has a dA and besides, we don't hardly use the group on facebook lol.

but even so, i've still seen a definite interest in everyone wanting to watch each other...and as it stands i think i watch everyone in so ill who has a dA. so here's my list, just in case y'all wanna watch each other and whatnot. if anybody's missing, lemme know & i'll add them.



& in other news...well there isn't much haha. still trying to be productive, still failing at it :] i'll probably get that sephiroth slaying naruto picture thingy up tonight since i gotta have it done by midnight. woohoo.

because i had too much fun with it on facebook, i'm doing a new one on here to give you guys a chance at it too (some of you a second chance haha) :]

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 37 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game, post your own.
Step 6: After a week, any songs left, I will add the next line.

1. sorry! S-C-A-N-D-to the A-to the L-O-U-S.

2. sunday morning, rain is falling.

3. man's becoming more corrupt now, godless, wicked and cruel.

4. i was buried alive; i came back to haunt you.

5. i dried my eyes, now i crust them with sleep; i crust them over.

6. how dare you say that my behavior's unnacceptable; so condescending, unnecessarily critical.

7. success has its price, and can you hear me now?

8. keep on writing, you're just raping yourself.

9. i am wrecked, i am overblown.

10. i've got emotion dripping out my pores and i thought i would let you know that you are the night light ripping through my wicked world.

11. '81 was the year shit hit the fan in a major way; a sad day for aspiring artists.

12. ain't nobody rocking like this!

13. give us this day our daily dose of faux affliction.

14. you say goodbye, i turn my back.

15. i confess, i messed up, dropping "i'm sorry" like you're still around.

16. i wrote a goodbye note in lipstick on your arm when you passed out.

17. there's that star, the one they said we'd never reach.

18. i need love, you need love, we all really need love.

19. i love everything about you that hurts, so let me see your moves, let me see your moves.

20. boy walk walk in the spot, he's so fresh and he got what he needs, impressin'.

21. and i came here to dance tonight, i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you.

22. a few times i been around that track, so it's not just gonna happen like that.

23. it was a plane ride from lax to o'hare, and what happened next was a series of unfortunate events.

24. i missed you so much that i begged you to fly here to see me.

25. like the time in school when we got free lunch and the cool kids beat us up, and the rich kids had convertibles and we had to ride the bus.

26. i've been the needle and the thread, weaving figure eights and circles 'round your head.

27. caught here in a firey blaze, won't lose my will to stay.

28. i've got my things, i'm good to go.

29. hey now, don't make a sound.

30. she said she's no good with words, but i'm worse.

31. hey, remember that time when i found a human tooth down on delancy.

32. hello world, hope you're listening.

33. hey chris, you were our only friend, and i know this is belated, we love you back. (hint...i know that's a chorus but this is a remix so it starts out with that part it's a kanye west & fall out boy mashup, that should help you)

34. these are your good years; don't take my advice, you never wanted the nice boys anyway.

35. let me tell you the story about the call that changed my destiny.

36. walking out on the show is walking out on you, and walking out on you is the best thing that i ever did.

37. you joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of best friends.

have fun <3

anyone love me enough to help me out HUGELY?

so i have a friend of mine who's got a birthday coming up on the 30th :]

and i'm drawing him a wicked awesome picture of sephiroth spearing naruto.

i know, totally unrelated, but sephiroth's pretty much his favorite character/villian/whatever out of everything that exists, and he absolutely hates naruto with a passion haha.

and this comes at the most *perfect* of times
because i no longer have a tablet :[ and i don't have any prisma markers, and i don't feel like painting or coloring it in with colored pencils. i mean, it's his 20th birthday and that's pretty important in my opinion so i don't wanna give him something that's not good lol.

so this is where you come in.
does anyone have a tablet i could borrow for about 4-6 hours (or better yet, overnight...i could color the entire thing in photoshop overnight while i'm SA-ing and get it back to you the next day...then i'd have this picture done by the end of the weekend and it won't interfere with school), or a set of prismas i could borrow? i PROMISE i will take super extra good care of them, and like i said, i'd only need them for a few hours ('cause when i start coloring, i don't stop).

please say you do :]
it'd mean a lot to me.

dang long weekends make me lazy.
off to dinner, maybe a real update later.

and life is as it should be...just about.
i just need the boy, that's all.
then it'd be perfect.


some photos:

well, these last few days have been pretty interesting, to say the least.

sunday was weird. got up a little later than i planned, finished packing, started loading both vehicles up, got in a fight with my mom, said my goodbyes to my puppies who i miss very dearly, and headed off to school. unloaded, went to lunch, came back, unpacked, hung out with serena, had dinner with serena and ashley, went out to walmart with them, came back and did some more unpacking/grumbling/socializing. went to bed at 12:30.

monday i got up insanely early - 8:30am, gawh - went to my 9am web design class. got out of that slightly early and had lunch with ashley and serena. unfortunately that won't be happening again lol. went to drawing, got out of that super early, came back and did most of my web homework (i've still gotta find a few more terms that were super hard to find), went to dinner, super bi-lo, walmart, and michael's, came back just in time for a floor meeting, spent thirty minutes trying to find an on-campus spot for my car, came back in time for a surprise party for one of my new friends, ate cake, went back to my room and slacked off for a while, watched colbert, then did part of my drawing homework and watched all dogs go to heaven, went to sleep around 2-2:30ish.

today i got up at 10am haha. it was nice. spent thirty minutes in mclaurin trying to get a lock for the locker i wanted but since the lady was "gone" and the student assistant wasn't very helpful, i didn't get it. came back to my room and checked my stuff, went to lunch and saw chris and almost died (omg he smiled at meeeee, and was headed over to talk to me and leave at the same time 'cause he was done eating and i just like, kinda sped off to my seat haha...i knew if i talked to him everything would crash. it did anyways haha), went to the bookworm and martin's with serena to get some other stuff that i needed for my drawing homework. came back and finished my reading for drawing, started the rest of my drawings, went to psych and finished them. ran all the way to mclaurin after psych to try and get a lock but they were gone like, 10 minutes early. gah. so then i went to dinner, went to 3d 2, and got out of that early and came back here :]

so tonight consists of finishing drawing and web homework, starting 3d homework, and figuring out a way to snag a psych book before thursday since i can't afford it (i'm 26 dollars short >.< ) so i can get my reading done :/

overall i'm okay this semester...generally i like my professors and classes. the only one i'm not too fond of is psych, and i'm probably gonna s/u it since i heard that the professor was really sucky and i don't wanna get a c and have it count against my gpa >.< and even if i fail it and get a u, it doesn't matter 'cause i don't need psych to graduate, i just need to be enrolled in 12 hours so i can be a full-time student haha. and the u won't count against my gpa so yeahhhh.

i'm also a little worried about 3d design because that's pretty much not my thing, but my professor's really cool so i spose i'll be fine.

i've been avoiding it all week, and even all day. and as i sit here with only less than two hours before bedtime ('cause i have to get up "early" to head to school tomorrow), i've still only got half my stuff packed :/ i've still got stuff in the washer haha.

secretly, i'm not entirely sure i want to go back.

i'm excited, i get to see my friends again, i get to go back to class and be who i used to be, who i really am. i've talked to my roommate and she seems really cool. i may even have a job soon. i mean, i've got everything going for me.

but i'm scared :/

i won't be at home. home has become my secure zone all over again. and i'm gonna be out on "my own" again (which isn't completely true, as i'll probably still come home to eat occasionally, and probably still go shopping with my mom and stuff) and i'm scared. i don't know what i'm scared of, really. i'm just scared that something will go horribly wrong while i'm away from home and i won't have that security blanket. i won't have my mom there right away taking care of everything. i'll have to deal with it on my own for a while, and that scares me.

i'm also scared i'll fall into old habits...procrastinating, being lazy, being stressed and unhappy.

i know once i get back into the swing of things i'll be fine, but i'm still scared. i guess it's the unknown all over again, and it's the whole moving out of home thing again.

i don't know. i wish it'd go away though.

i hate change.

to my wu peeps - i'll be seeing you all tomorrow, or very very soon.

so after MONTHS of waiting (four and a half, to be exact), i finally find the death note: director's cut with (bad) english subs online.

it's not even worth the download.

i heard it was three hours. the video i got off of veoh? 130 minutes = 2 hours 10 minutes. it took me at least an hour an a half to download. yeahhh >.<

i'm halfway through and so far, other than the opening scene between ryuk and some other shinigami that's new, and a scene where light goes into this big theater with L and watches the kira tapes (i thought he did that in a hotel room...?), THERE'S NOTHING NEW. it's all a recap of crap i've seen before :[

what the heck. i waited this long for stuff i've already seen ;_; and i was soooooooooo good too, i didn't read any spoilers online or ANYTHING (i mean, i couldn't even do that for harry potter for one week, but i went FOUR MONTHS without reading any death note spoilers shouldn't that be rewarded? lol). and all i get is a cut-up version of the anime? lame.

so now i'm pretty much sitting on "fast foward" right now, skipping parts i've seen. i read somewhere by accident in a comments section, something about someone's funeral and how someone else was shockingly there and i'm like, sooooo wanting to find out but i don't wanna sit through the entire plot all over again just to find out >.< and what about the voice actors' interviews?

gahhhhhhhh.

this had better get better. soon.

[edit] IT DIDN'T >.< i ended up fast fowarding through almost the entire second half (i stopped during the higuchi car chase scene though to enjoy some maximum the hormone "zetsubou billy" haha...i wish that was playing during that scene in the anime, and to enjoy my favorite quote: EXACTLY AS PLANNED! :] and then i skipped foward to the last ten minutes...i have to say, the funeral scene was beautiful until *someone* ruined it >.< but i shed a tear or two anyways lol. i'm pretty sure that that unknown shinigami was light, though. ryuk acted like it was him at the end. although he had goggles on his head...maybe it was MATT! ahahaha a fangirl can dream so anyways...i don't recommend downloading it unless you wanna watch the first half of the anime condensed into two hours. you're not missing much and it's definitely not worth the long downloading time (an hour and a half on a fast connection...i can't imagine how long it'd take on dial-up or a slow connection...one person said it took them 3-4 days lol).

and i really really really want the three OSTs now :[ but i'm trying to watch my money...gahhhhhh.

oooh, and i have to buy "how to read 13" when it comes out next month in english [/edit]

sooooo...i've been going on a goth/punk lolita craze lately...keep playing with dollmakers online, making them look like me and then dressing them up in all these crazy styles haha.

well i finally got inspired to go digging through my closet today and lo and behold, i had everything all along to make a misa outfit for AWA (which i ended up missing for work :/). all i had to do was turn one of my skirts into a dress and tada! instant misa (although the shrug thing i added i wouldn't have had because i got it for christmas). i think i'm gonna get a pair of red & black stripey socks sometime between now and may so i can have TWO outfits ('cause i have another that has potential if i just accessorize it right).

but i seriously might wear this around school a few times. other than the "dress" being a little loose around the top and the ribbon not staying up (which is caused by me wearing the clothes improperly and is an easy fix anyway, nothing a few well-placed pins couldn't fix) i really really love this outfit and it's more towards where i'm taking my wardrobe (well kinda...this is probably the extreme haha). i wanna add a few lolita, punk, goth, and street influences into my clothes, since i like a little of each style, and my style now is just basic from high school that i'm kinda sick of :/

btw, i FAIL at taking pictures of myself in mirrors. especially teeeny tiny ones :[ so i'm sorry these are kinda crappy. that's the good thing about going back to school...i have a roommate who can photograph me whenever i feel like playing dress-up







so what d'you think?

wooooohooo. enjoy the fruits of my labor :]

another banner.

because i make funny dolls of my favorite characters and then turn those into graphics when i'm bored haha.

i should be washing clothes and packing...but i've got till saturday night

[edit] giving css another shot...still keeping it pretty plain though. whatchoo think? [/edit]