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I don't use this one anymore... and I'd love if all my watchers watched my new account

Much love and thanks,
Melissa ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/6080657/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/6080657/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 11:05:31 PDT
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[EDIT] You all should know that I did NOT take down my whole gallery, Its just in storage... Hopefully I will be able to put it back up soon. Im trying to support jark, and wil hopefully be putting some yellow in my gallery soon. I hope you all do the same.

Melissa

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width="150" height="150" border="0"> ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5552339/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5552339/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 14:20:38 PDT Mood: YAY!
Listening to: Blood Red Summer - coheed and cambria
Reading: The truth about forever

haha! this is great! i was finaly chosen for that random da subscription thingy. i think im gonna get one this summer when i get some money, cause its really awesome!

]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5524627/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5524627/ Wed, 01 Jun 2005 18:58:30 PDT Nicknames: um... idk. lissa i supppose
Age: 15
Location:wisconsin
Hair color: brownish-blonde
Eye color:green
Height: 5'7"
Weight:
Tattoos: No
Piercings: Ears

About you.

Scars: legs mostly, some on my arms, and a burn on my ankle.
Freckles?: no
Do you wear Makeup:rarely
What color is your bedroom:white
Most expensive item you own: um, my dolls i guess.
How would you classify your style: eh. idk
Fear: small spaces...drunk ppl in cars
Loves: hm... my camera
Worst Habit: idk... hm... ill hve to get back to that
How do others see you: idk... how do u see me?
What are you labeled: idk. probably alot of nasty stuff behind my back
How many contacts do you have: 125
How many are online right now: 20
What song are you listening to: wake-up call - Hawthorne Heights

Love
Significant other: no
How long have you been together: --
What attracts you most to them: idk. lotsa stuff. maturity is a big one tho
Your crush: what?
Do they know you like them: Probably
Would you ever hook up with someone of the same sex: I don't believe so. No.

Home
Are your parents together: no
Pets: some fish and a dog
Siblings: no
Siblings ages: --
Parents age: Older than the hills.
Parents job: Communications operator and some welding dude
House color: green
Number of floors your house has:2
Fav. thing about your house: It has a /pool/.
Least fav. thing about your house: its old and un-cool

Friends
More acquaintances than friends: Why not.
Do you like all your friends: Eh- they're alright.
Worst thing a friend has done to you: Stabbed me in the back. and then stolem y boyfriend
Worst thing you've done to a friend: Killed- I mean lied.
Loudest friend: bob
Shyest: meagan?
Most talented: trust me... they're all talented...
Smartest: jake mabye?
Sexiest: hm... idk
Craziest: Every last one of them.
Weirdest: eh. i dont know
Always makes you smile: bob... most of the time
Someone You wish you were better friends with: cortney
An acquaintance you wish was your friend: hm... idk

Secrets
Done drugs: no
Got drunk: no
Smoke:no
Stayed up all night partying: i suppose. if youd like to call it partying...
Stayed up all night alone: Yes
Hooked up with someone you didn't know: No
Hooked up with a friends guy/girl: No
Broken the law: no
Snuck out: no
Stolen: no
Skinny-dipped: no.
Stalked someone: No, but I know /for sure/ that a few people stalk me.

Favorites
Color: Lime green, purple
Music Genre: Rock
Movie Genre: Comedy, Macabre
Band: A lot.
Animal: hm. idk
Sport: i like cheerleading
Song: hm... toom any
Quote:hm idk that one either...
Book: Burn Journals, as simple as snow
Movie: idk
Composer: hm... i like several jazz composers
Language:french
Person: idk
Clothing: jeans and a comfy tee

Beliefs & Views
God: mabye
Attend Church: Yes
Spiritual: Not particularily
Aliens: No
Ghosts: sometimes
Love at first sight: Maybe
Wishes: Yes (might not come true though )
Abortion: epends on the situation
Politics: Not interesting
Death: Sucks
Sex before marriage:i dint think so
Legalizing marijuana: no
Eating disorders: i know some ppl
The media: What about them?
Gay marriages: Yay for gay!
War: Annoying
Meat: id like to quit, but cant suck it up enough
'Angry music': \m/>.<\m/

Word Association
Love: nope
Music: crossfade
White: plain
Death: fun
Computer: time-consuming
Peace: nowhere
T.V: lame
School: meh
Sexy: haha...
Plant: hibiscus
Hate: heh. liz

Family life.

Get along with your parents?: Sometimes
Divorced?: WTF You already asked that.
Who do you live with if so?: my mum
Flip your parent(s) off?: Not when they're looking
Do all the housework?: What housework?
Ran away?: thot about it
Rich?: Pfft. No.
Parents hate you?: Dunno, I'll have to ask them.
Hate your parents: occasionaly
Favourite family member?: idk
Least favorite?: terry


Ethnic background?: Irish, german, french canadian
Hair?: wavish, medium long, blondish brown
Wished your hair looked like?: long, striaght, and very brown
Eye style?: Excuse me?
Wished your eye colour was?: grey
Body build?: meh
Wished your body build was?: skinnier
Favourite feature?:i li... ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5513964/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5513964/ Tue, 31 May 2005 17:12:07 PDT Melissa

2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
Black

3. What are you listening to right now?
the "Wicked" soundtrack

4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?
83

5. What was the last thing you ate?
a brat and tuna salad

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple

7. How is the weather right now?
its a bit chilly, not bad tho...

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Andrew

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite/same(if your gay) sex?
probably eyes

10. Favorite Food?
spaghetti

11. Favorite Drink?
i like water... and root beer

12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink?
i dont drink.

13. Favorite place to shop?
just the mall...

14. Hair color:
bronish blonde

15. Eye Color:
green

16. Do you wear contacts?
No

17. Top or Bottom?
eh...bottom?

18. favorite month?
December

19. Favorite Fast Food?
culvers

20. Last Movie you Watched?
cheech & Chong - up in smoke (spelling?)

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
hm. i dont kno.

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
sumtimes i guess

23. Summer or Winter?
Winter !!

24. Hugs or Kisses?
Both

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
vanilla

26. Do you want your friends to respond back?
If they have time, but don't have to.

27. Who is most likely to respond?
you?
Dunno.

28. Who is least likely to respond?
-_-

29. What books are you reading?
"The truth about forever" - Sarah Dessen

30. favorite TV Show?
idk

31. What's on your mouse pad?
Its an AFS mousepad... hmm... wonder where that came from...

32. Favorite board game?
eh. scrabble?

33. What did you do last night?
yay! water gun fight!

34. Favorite Author?
i dont know... i read several

35. Who inspires you?
All creative people and their works; known or unknown.

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
salted and butter !

37. Dogs or cats?
dogs

38. Favorite Flower?
tulip

39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M.?
argh...

40. Do you still talk to your best friends from middle school?
Yes, a few of them

41. What's on your desk?
lotion, glases, a hair clip, my phone, sunflower seeds, stickey notes, some pens, a friends graduation card, some boxes... and more stuff i cant see...

42. Rock Concert or symphony?
ROCK

43. Play or Opera?
Play

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
Noooo !!

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Yes

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right

smooth

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
like 8...

49. City and State you were born?
columbus wisconsin

50. Ever hitchhiked?
nope. ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5442342/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5442342/ Mon, 23 May 2005 19:46:55 PDT ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5303829/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5303829/ Sun, 08 May 2005 16:07:06 PDT
AAH! Greenday is playing in madison tommorow with My Chemical Romance. its gonna be so great! I'm going with stacy. she rocks. its too bad shes graduating this year. shes the best to stunt with dyring cheerleading... meh... oh well. hopefully she'll come back and visit. lol. anyways... yea. fun weekend... ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5106729/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/5106729/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 20:13:41 PDT who stole it from other people and on and on...

What would you do if:

I cried:
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I died:
I was afraid:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I were hospitalized:
I ran away:
I got in a fight and you were there:

Would You?...

Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, No matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash If i needed it:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Love me for who I am

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] How long have you known me?
[19] Describe me in one word:
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[28] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone?
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4962475/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4962475/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 16:02:16 PST
Im in a fairly good mood today. no idea why tho. I finally got into the darkroom today. it was nice. i like it there. i just wanted to say hi... mostly because i was sick of the increadibly long journal taking up a crapload of space... so here goes...
HI!

~mELISSA ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4928191/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4928191/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 19:54:15 PST
[ 1 ] First grade teacher's name: Mes. Kirtchberg
[ 2 ] Last word you said: um... dinner
[ 3 ] Last song you sang: existintilisim on prom night by straylight run( i didn't even try to spell that right...)
[ 4 ] Last person you hugged: Um... Bob i think
[ 5 ] Last thing you laughed at: without a paddle...
[ 6 ] Last time you said i dont fucking remember: huh?
[ 7 ] Last time you cried: a couple weeks.. i dont think you could consider that crying either
[ 8 ] What's in your CD player: the used
[ 9 ] What color socks are you wearing: none
[ 10 ] What's under your bed: um... boxes of photos and some random things.
[ 11 ] What time did you wake up today: like... 10am
[ 13 ] Current hair: light brown in a pony
[ 14 ] Current clothes: pajama pants and long-sleeved shirt
[ 15 ] Current annoyance: uugh... a person
[ 16 ] Current longing: That guy
[ 17 ] Current desktop picture: a girl on a swing...
[ 18 ] Current worry: everything...
[ 19 ] Current hate: ignorant people
[ 20 ] Current favorite article of clothing: um... idk...
[ 21 ] Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes
[ 22 ] Last CD that you listened to: the used
[ 23 ] Favorite place to be: In his arms
[ 24 ] Least favorite place: my house
[ 25 ] Time you wake up in the morning: Anywhere from 6 to about 8
[ 26 ] If you could play an instrument, what would it be: I already play trumpet...but i wish i could play the piano...
[ 27 ] Favorite color(s): purple
[ 28 ] Do you believe in an afterlife: I don't know what I believe right now
[ 29 ] How tall are you: About 5'6" or 7"
[ 30 ] Current favorite word/saying: idk
[ 31 ] Favorite book: um... idk. ive read so many...
[ 32 ] Favorite season: Late spring/early summer
[ 33 ] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: I don't know
[ 34 ] Favorite day: Any day with him

[[[ FUTURE ]]]

[ 35 ] Where do you want to go: no idea
[ 36 ] What is your career going to be like: Not a clue
[ 37 ] How many kids do you want: no idea
[ 38 ] What kind of car will you have: idk

[[[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]]]

[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc]: My cat kicks my ass all the time, but this last time I won
[Been to New York?]: yes
[Been to Florida?]: no
[Been to San Diego, Cali?]: nope
[Been to Hawaii?]: No
[Been to Mexico?]: no
[Been to China?]: No
[Been to Canada?]: Yes
[Danced naked?]:no
[Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day]: Yes... all the time
[Had an imaginary friend?]: Damn right

[[[ RANDOM ]]]


[Do you have a crush on someone?]: Yes. i think its more than just a crush
[Worst feeling in the world]: Rejection
[What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?]: Do I have to get up?
[How many rings before you answer?]: 2
[Future daughter's name]: um... idk
[Future son's name]: idk that either
[Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?]: they sit on my bed... its not like i need them there tho
[If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?]: no idea... id like to take pictures
[Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?]: I do most things with my right
[College plans]: I should probably figure out what I wan't to do in life, first.
[Piercings]: just my ears

[[[ THE EXTRA STUFF ]]]

[Do you do drugs?]: No
[Do you drink]: No
[Who are your best friends?]: they know who they are...
[What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?]: Whatever is in the shower
[What are you most scared of?]: Losing loved ones
[What clothes do you sleep in?]: T-shirt and shorts
[Who is the last person that called you?]:bob
[Where do you want to get married?]: idk... in a church mabye?
[If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?]: everything
[Favorite number]: eleven
[Are You Timely Or Always Late]: Depends what I'm going to
[Do You Have A Job]: i babysit
[Do You Like Being Around People]: sometimes
[ Best feeling in the world]: when im being held... by someone that loves me
[Are you for world peace]: Who isn't
[Are you a health freak]: No.
[Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After]: i dont think so...
[Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now]: yes
[Are You Lonely Right Now]: yes...
[Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married]: no
[Do You Want To Get Married]: Yes.
[You Want Kids]: depends

[[[ IN THE... ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4883527/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4883527/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 16:59:15 PST
I stole it from

Bands/artists you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. straylight run, greenday, simple plan.
Things you look forward to:
1. going to my own house...(im at my grandma's)
2. the greenday concert!!!
3. state solo and ensambles
4. going to State Art Competition

Things you like to wear:
1. neato socks!
2. tiny silver hoop earrings
3. my pink DC shoes
4. my orange and white bracelet

Things that anger you:
1. the children that i babysit
2. my parents
3. my stef father
4. politics

Things you say most days:
1. "uugh"
2. "hey!"
3. "sweet"
4. "holy crap!"
5. "ic..."

Things you do everyday:
1. check my hotmail and deviantArt
2. listen to music
3. read

People you want to spend more time with:
1. my parents
2. the friends i dont have
3. the darkroom...YES! she is a person!... haha

Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. NMBC
2. um... girl, inturpted i guess
3. idk
4. idk

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
um... i dont have one...

NUMBER OF:
- height: 5'7' i think..
- shoe size: depends
- hair color: med. brown
- siblings: step...sis(almost) 15, bro 19... i think

LAST:
- movie you rented: the village, jeepers creepers, jeepers creepers II
- movie you bought: Girl, inturrpted( cant spell...lol
- song you listened to: exentilisim on prom night-straylight run
- song that was stuck in your head: above ^
- person you've called: my mom
- person that's called you: my mom
- show you've watched: the weakest link
- person you were thinking of: corey...

DO:
- you have a crush on someone: kinna-sorta
- you wish you could live somewhere else: sometimes...
- you believe in online dating: no
- others find you attractive: no, i dont think so
- you want more piercings: yes
- you like cleaning: its not bad all the time...

FAVORITE:
- food: idk, spaghetti mabye
- things to do: go to concerts, sing, doodle, listen to music, draw!!, spend time with friends, go in the darkroom, shopping...
- things to talk about: idk
- drinks: i like water... and root beer
- clothes: idk... usually whatever fits...
- movies: hm... war or horror... comedy
- holiday: christmas!!

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: no
- ever cried over a boy: um... once or twice
- ever been in a fist fight: no
- ever been arrested: no


WHAT
- shampoo do you use: garnier fructice( still cant spell)
- are you scared of: um... alot of things
- number of people I would classify as true and could trust with my life: one mabye... mabye not even that...
- number of people I consider my enemies: lots.

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: mulan
- word: i dont think i have one...
- nickname: melissa... i like my name the way it is...
- eye color: grey
- flower: lilly

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- pretty: i have my days...
- funny: yes
- hot: no
- friendly: i can be
- amusing: mabye
- ugly: often
- loveable: idk... someone tell me...
- sweet: i guess...sometimes
- dorky: i can be

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet- pinkish mauve with cute little pockets on the front
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – a linky bracelet with cute charms, an orange and white beaded si revovered bracelet, a cancer bracelet. silver hoop earrings
[ x ] Pillow cover – greenish pasley on 2 and multi colored stripes on the others
[ x ] Underwear – torquise
[ x ] Favorite shirt – a lt blue one i;ve had so long there are holes in the elbows.
[ x ] Perfume/cologne – lilu
[ x ] CD in stereo right now –a mixed, greenday, my chemical romance
[ x ] What you are wearing now – an old bowling shirt of my grandmas, capris and my rainbow striped socks.
[ x ] In my mouth – a hersheys kiss
[ x ] In my head – a majow headache
[ x ] Wishing – i were loved...
[ x ] After this – browsing...
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – im not sure...
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – sometimes...
[ x ] Do you believe in love – im not sure...
[ x ] Do you believe in Hea... ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4876028/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4876028/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 19:42:37 PST
+ layer one:
+ name: Melissa
+ birthplace: c-bus, WI
+ gender: female
+ eye color: greenish
+ hair color: med. brown
+ height: er... 5 7 mabye?
+ righty or lefty: righty
+ zodiac sign: picies

+ layer two:
+ your heritage: german... some french canadaian...
+ the shoes you wore today: lol... i wore socks all day
+ the clothes you wore today: tan pants, a white tank with my grandmas old bowling league shirt
+ your perfect meal: hmm...im not sure...
+ goal you'd like to achieve: everything?

+ layer three:
+ your thoughts first waking up: meh... its too early for these ppl to be in my living room.
+ your best physical feature: hm... idk
+ your bedtime: whenever

+ layer four:
+ pepsi or coke: both are black, both have the same taste, both make your teeth fall out eventually...
+ mcDonald's or burger king: if i have to choose... burger king
+ adidas or nike: adidas
+ chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
+ cappuccino or coffee: hot chocolate!

+ layer five:
+ smoke: no
+ cuss: not to often
+ sing: occasionaly
+ take a shower: i took one this morning
+ do you think you've been in love: yes, i think i have been...
+ liked high school: its only my first year... but yea, i guess
+ want to get married: not sure, yet...probably, yes.
+ get motion sickness: sometimes
+ think you're attractive: erm...no
+ think you're a health freak: erm...no
+ get along with your parent(s): yes, pretty good
+ like thunderstorms: i sometimes like them..
+ play an instrument: i play the trumpet... i tried playing the piano... heh

+ layer six:
in the past month...
+ drank alcohol: no
+ smoked: no
+ done a drug: no
+ had sex: no
+ eaten sushi: eww.
+ been on stage: hm... no, i dont think so
+ made homemade cookies: yes!
+ gone skinny dipping: no
+ dyed your hair: nope

+ layer seven:
in a guy/girl...
+ best eye color?: green
+ best hair color?: dark
+ short or long hair?: medium
+ height: my hieght or taller
+ best weight: larger than me is good...
+ best articles of clothing: it depens on the guy...the clothes are not so important in a person.

+ layer eight:
+ number of drugs taken illegally: none...
+ number of piercings: my ears twice
+ number of tattoos: none
+ number of scars on my body: like... ten million! ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4844864/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4844864/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 10:28:28 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4804919/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4804919/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 18:53:34 PST as told to cassie
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*note... some names may have been changed.
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this is the sotry of my heartbreak... this is the reason for my cold heart.


ok, one day, out of the blue, I was bored, so I decided to text random people on my phone... and I texted bob... this Is how the entire mess got started... me being bored. so we texted for a couple days, every other day... I would always text him, but he’d never me... and I started going to pep band too. where we'd see each other. so, being bob, he flirted around with me... a lot...
eventually, he started asking me to hang out with them more and more... Jake, zach, bob, Meagan, Whitney, Cortney... and one night, recently, we were watching movies at Whitney’s house and Meagan was playing Nintendo, so she didn’t notice any thing any one else was doing. bob and I sat next to each other... and eventually we were playing footsie... and then he sat up, and we were holding hands...
(I forgot to mention up above that I was bob's "#2" and we both liked each other) and I asked him to take me home, and Cortney, rite away, said she was coming with, obviously she didn’t trust us together... alone... so he took me home. I still texted him, and he still texted me back. same as before. so them my birthday came, and I had some people over.
he came over with Meagan, and a whole bunch of other ppl came over. we flirted, like usual, and It was all fine, till the end of the night... It was time for him to go... and It all ended with a kiss on the cheek.
the Sunday after, he texted me saying that we had to stop, and couldn’t be Involved with each other any more. he had to stop flirting with me cause, before he and Meagan were dating, he had always thought of her as "just my section", but It changed when they started dating. and he said that at my party, he felt like she was just my section" and he was dating me. and It ended there.
on the Monday after, he asked me If he could talk, and I agreed. he said he was so sorry for hurting me, and that Id always be his "number two", I think that’s what hurt the most. he gave me a huge hug. that’s where It ended. now I'm just taking It day by day, and I haven’t decided If I'm taking my walls down for anyone else... I’ve got a cold heart. now he checks In on me... to see If I'm still alive... he’s worried about me cause I don’t text him much any more. ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4300491/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4300491/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 06:41:44 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4206013/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4206013/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 20:12:31 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4148746/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4148746/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 21:28:29 PST

merry [insert holiday here] ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4018610/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/4018610/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 11:54:11 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3888321/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3888321/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 20:13:57 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3859541/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3859541/ Wed, 17 Nov 2004 17:42:28 PST i think he actually did it... im so scared for him... I feel like its my fault... i fear i was too late... *cries* i hope he held on a little longer... long enought to get my 4 messages...

i had to let it out... *cries some more* ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3770310/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3770310/ Sat, 06 Nov 2004 17:29:44 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3763879/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3763879/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 20:51:47 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3754331/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3754331/ Thu, 04 Nov 2004 16:48:27 PST
I want this aweful feeling to just go away...

Art is over... meh. i like art... ]]> ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3744563/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3744563/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 15:16:15 PST ~me1issa08 http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3736549/ http://me1issa08.deviantart.com/journal/3736549/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 18:08:34 PST
(just had to share cause nobody's listining) ]]> ~me1issa08