she'll never take you to giddy stratospheres.

~meggcup — Wed, 07 Feb 2007 16:22:08 PST

Oh dear! Well, hasn't it been a long time since I updated? Christmas went swimmingly, back at Uni and five weeks in and I'm counting the days until springtime.

You know what else I'm counting the days until? Lost. It's on Sky on friday, but as I don't have Sky I'm going to have to download it. --So-- excited. For anyone who doubts the wonderfulness of Lost- shame on you! I've watched the third season up until ep6 twice now.

I've also been watching a lot of Desperate Housewives recently. Series one, though, because I stopped watching it half way through and now I have to catch up. My housemates girlfriend lent me the box set, so night times are very much fun.

Doesn't really leave all that much time for work... haha. Going to get up earlyish tomorrow and do some photography. Hopefully it'll be snowy and beautiful.

Got two gigs this weekend: The Long Blondes and Regina Spektor. Very excited, especially about the Long Blondes. They're my current favourite. Also very much in love with Harry and the Potters (I got my Hufflepuff scarf in the post the other day!)

Anyway. Sleep time x

blahblah.

~meggcup — Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:30:54 PST

so today i've been failing to do my last 3000 word essay. it's a bitch. in order to stay on target i need to go over 1000 words before i go to bed at 10pm. but what am i doing? creating animations for my deviantart journal. i'm such a rubbish student it's quite unbelieveable. but there we go, i'm done with the procrastination now.

on a more exciting note, my mummy just bought me a sewing machine, which should be here in a week or something! i'm so excited. i can finally get around to all those projects sat waiting in a box in my room. it's also something productive to occupy my mind while i'm all alone in brighton.

css for the win?

~meggcup — Mon, 27 Nov 2006 06:17:11 PST

today i am doing essays. you may or may not choose to read this as "i am doing everything i can possibly think of in order to not do them, even though i know my time is running out and it actually counts for something this year".

i even considered, at length, getting a new phone. a samsung blush (ever since getting my DSLR, which is a samsung, i have felt this affinity with all of their products...) which looks cute, but i don't want it in pink. i'll wait 'til a) i have a bit more money and b) they bring out the yellow one. i love yellow.

okay, so now i'm going to fiddle with the CSS. livejournal taught me *something* useful, at least.

love.

new avatar.

~meggcup — Mon, 13 Nov 2006 10:05:48 PST

i don't know. i just decided it was time for a new journal.

some of you may have noticed that i have submitted some stuff today. it was nice to get some good feedback and tips from ~DutchMilk thanks!

am currently writing an essay on "femenism in popular music: pre and post the girl power era". it's actually disconcertingly dry. maybe it's because i feel like i'm just rehashing the same ideas over and over again. who knows.

it's really bloody cold. i saw this great coat someone had made in a livejournal community i watch (sew_hip for all you jivelournallers). it was made from old jumpers and had some great faux fur around the hood.
i want to go shopping. i want to go to h&m. i know everyone has one, but i want one of those long leopard print hoodies. or if they have a plain black one in the same style that'd be even better. i'd like to stencil it...

judge judy is on tv. man, she is such a weener.

hope everyone's feeling great- lots of love
x

the dungeon.

~meggcup — Mon, 11 Sep 2006 11:53:01 PDT

so i've moved into my new flat, henceforth known as "the dungeon". it's totally rad. i know, i know... "the dungeon" doesn't sound so appealing, but i've nicknamed it that purely because it's a basement flat (and because of the chains and guillotine in the living room).
i do love it though. don't have TV yet, so i while away the hours listening to radio four. the only thing that annoys me about it is the way they go on and on about the same thing. maybe sometimes it's in a different guise, e.g. any questions, but mainly it's about the prime minister or immigration and the many shades of topic that involves. obviously, it's interesting and something we really need to know about, but i wish they'd make the episodes of madame bovary a little bit longer.

i spent this weekend chillaxing watching the venture brothers. it's amazing, everyone should watch it. by far one of the funniest adult cartoons i've seen since family guy. i also watched little miss sunshine, which, as reviews will more or less tell you, is supercoollikewoah. the kid that plays olive is just brilliant- i cried when she cried. steve carrell, though, played his usual part, which, considering the character he's supposed to be playing, was a little disappointing... but don't get me wrong, i still love the guy. okay, maybe not brick tamlin/steve carrell, but definitely forty year old virgin-esque. bloody funny film though, you should go see it.

still don't have a computer, and probably won't until after christmas. smurses. but i really, really can't afford one. i really am learning from the financial mistakes i made last year...

i'm planning on going out and photographing maybe tomorrow afternoon or the day after, so hopefully will have something of interest to show soon!

lots and lots of love to everyone xxxxxxxx

holla.

~meggcup — Wed, 19 Jul 2006 11:53:30 PDT

~~~~~~\o/~~~~~

hey everybody,
this is just a short journal to let you all know that i'm still photographing, but will probably not be able to update too much, because a) i'm not in my own home currently and b) because my computer's died.
i miss you all very much, and hope to get back to being an active member when i get my own place finally, and get a new computer...

to everyone who's d stuff, i'll get round to noting you soon

and to everyone who promised to come see me, DO IT. or face the enormous wrath of my sulking.

and to everyone back in wales, i'm coming home for my birthdayyyyy. so i'll see you all then, i guess i still love and miss you.

take care everybody xx

~~~~~~/\~~~~~

sorry if this means nothing to you.

~meggcup — Sun, 11 Jun 2006 12:24:44 PDT

~~~~~~\o/~~~~~

*meggcup
has geek chic.

* is a Procrastinator
* is Female
* is a deviant since Dec 13, 2004, 1:52 PM
* is subscribed until May 8, 2007, 7:35 AM
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--

today is a day full of sighs and heavy limbs.

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i can't see any further than tonight. and it frustrates me.

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love to you all.

~~~~~~/\~~~~~

first few photographs.

~meggcup — Sun, 04 Jun 2006 19:13:50 PDT

~~~~~~\o/~~~~~

so, this is what i have managed thus far with my camera:

auto (jpg)

manual (raw)

wunderbar. constructive criticisms would be lovely, i shall return them too.

--

i'm thinking of naming my camera millie- what does everyone think?

--

you should all listen to lily allen. she is wonderful good.

--

love xx

~~~~~~/\~~~~~

wow.

~meggcup — Mon, 29 May 2006 14:11:11 PDT

~~~~~~\o/~~~~~

oh my goodness. postprocessing from RAW [rather than jpg] is just on a level so much higher than love.
it was like i was having intimate relations with photoshop.

--

i'm so happy.

--

i'll be honest, my first use for my camera was to take photos of things to sell on ebay... so i'm not going to post them here. they lack artistic merit. but i will do something fun with it soon, once my essays are done and i can justify leaving my room.

--

kisses

~~~~~~/\~~~~~

sitting, waiting.

~meggcup — Thu, 18 May 2006 07:02:50 PDT

~~~~~~\o/~~~~~

am still waiting for my camera to arrive [the memory card i bought post-purchase, realising there's no point having a camera if you have nothing to put the pictures on, was the parcel that arrived for me the other day]. boo hiss.

--

going out for a meal tonight, to a chinese buffet. cannot wait. i haven't eaten anything all day.

--

drove 250 miles last night. and still managed to wake up at 9.30 this morning, for no particular reason. i did, however, manage to organise most of my life today in the time i would have spent laying in bed. which is a plus.

--

i really, really, really, really need to find a house for next year.

--

and a cuddle.

~~~~~~/\~~~~~

curious.

~meggcup — Mon, 15 May 2006 15:39:00 PDT

does anyone know anything about shooting in RAW? yes, i know the basics, like how it's better, cus it's like a digital negative and you work with more colours in postprocessing blah blah blah. what i really want is practical advice, about postprocessing. hint, tips and suchlikes. if anyone passes by and sees this and knows... well, i'd like to hear of any information/experience you can impart.

--

i just lost my job today [fuck]. and i found out that a friend from high school died on friday, which made me very sad. today has been the most awful day in a while. i just need a good friend around. and a cuddle.

on the other hand, it's nice to be home. i need to see sadie and jess before i go. if i don't, sade especially, i'm sorry, i'll be back in a few weeks anyway. although i do fully intend to.

--

i've been very impressed with the work of ~gakkgakk recently. i hope to do something vaguely similar. and, building on something *hotburrito2 said, i'd like to do some more "stark urban" shoots. i'll have all summer to potter around brighton, which, i'm sure, will be immense.
going to bed. love love.

purchases and other funitivity.

~meggcup — Wed, 10 May 2006 19:43:51 PDT

dear world,
i recently drew a picture of a camera on a box and labelled that box "camera fund". bollocks to that, however, because i really just want one now, with all this beautiful weather. so i ordered one.

Samsung Pro 815 DSLR!

features:
# 8 megapixels
# 15X Optical zoom
# 3.5 inch Rear LCD
# Full manual control
# Zoom, focus, and exposure via the 3 ring control system on the lens
# Schneider Kreuznach lens
# External flash capability
# Hi-speed mode to reduce camera shake

-"equipped with a 15X optical zoom with a focal length of 28- 420mm(35mm equivalent), this means you can shoot from wide angle to telephoto with one lens."

blahblahblah. i'm just very excited. it didn't really cost that much either. about... 12 days wages? which is six weeks really, but it's fine. i'll be good for it.

...i also bought a pair of jeans, but they won't be here for a while.

and i bought a dvd of 'kolchak: the night stalker', because i watched some the other day and i thought it was really cool.

i really don't have enough money to be doing this. i'm way irresponsible, especially when i have a job. someone stop me? i need to keep enough money to pay my deposit for whatever house i move into in september.

i'm going back home to wales this sunday, yay! because i need to sort out my student loan and stuff. then the next big happening is probably essays, then go to see sleater kinney, then holiday. how is my first year of uni nearly over?

well. i love you all. goodnight.

bizarre.

~meggcup — Wed, 26 Apr 2006 06:49:59 PDT

so taggedeth me, and i'm going to fill out this list of bizarreity right now. for your amusement.

rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1. I like to mix ketchup and brown sauce together. I like to mix most things together.

2. Sometimes I just stop, and sit, and then realise an hour's passed.

3. I can never have just one cup of tea, if I have a cup then I always go back and make another when I'm done.

4. I read every night because if I don't then I can't get to sleep. At least a chapter every time.

5. I have an addiction to prawn cocktail flavoured crisps.

6. I don't like hugging people when one of us is sad. It makes me feel like someone's private grieving space is being violated.

there we go, hope that was entirely insightful. i'm not entirely sure it is, but, thinking about it, i realised some stuff about myself. hmmmm.

these people are tagged:

dear everybody...

~meggcup — Fri, 07 Apr 2006 17:30:02 PDT

this is for all of you.

i am back temporarily, and I hope to get a lot done in that time. i've submitted a few new things, and i hope you can find the time to give me some comments and whatnot. i'll really honest to god try to do the same with yours.

i am poor as buggery right now, and am desperately seeking a job in brighton.
i have an essay to get out of the way. i keep forgetting about that. comparative societies --yawn--.

going to an "electro pouf" party tomorrow for my best friends 21st- i'm going to wear a dress i made. it's a very sexy dress, i will produce photos as and when i get back. i don't even know what that means.

i have missed being able to contribute to the art world. i've lost my bloody camera somewhere in my hole of a room, i can't find it. i've resorted to borrowing pauls and jamies. they don't seem to mind overly. theirs are better than mine anyway. i'm considering asking for a new one for my birthday.

it's late and i know i have to drive back to halls, from this nice house with a clean kitchen, sky tv and the internet. that thought makes me sad. i hate halls, apart from the people.

some guy's trying to milk 200 english pounds out of me because i accidentally scratched his car a tiny bit. he can go through my insurance, i don't have that much money to burn. i don't have any money to burn. i wanted to buy some thigh high boots, but i have not enough money for them and survival.

give me love.

and i'll give you some.

xxx

Woah... I'm back

~meggcup — Mon, 12 Dec 2005 17:52:17 PST

Well, the past two months have literally flown by. I've met so many new people, made some incredible new friends and learnt a whole lot about myself, who I am and what I want from life. All in all, University has thus far been a positive experience for me. I've enjoyed almost every aspect of this first term- cooking for myself, keeping my own time, seeing who I want to see and when I want to see them, going out whenever I want, wherever I want and with whoever I want... It's been brilliant. I'm half sad to be home, if I'm honest.
I can't wait to see my old friends though- I did miss them a little while I was away. You know, those times late at night when you're just awake. That's when it became most apparent. But now I'm here I know I want to see them all

I have actually taken a whole bunch of photos, but I didn't bring my camera cable so I'm going to have to wait until easter to upload them all to t'internet it'll be okay though, eventually it'll get done.

I had about 650 deviations waiting for me to look at, and I did look at them all. They're all brilliant, but I can't bring myself to comment just yet. It's a mammoth task, and if you don't get everything commented on it's really not personal. I just can't do it. I got a monthly sub to help me out a little there, too.

Hopefully you've all been having a great time and are well within yourselves.
It's good to be back!

Love&hugs

Just in Case...

~meggcup — Thu, 22 Sep 2005 11:04:31 PDT

Just in case you don't hear from me for a while...

I'm not going away forever- just to University. The problem is that for the next few months I don't think I'll have internet connection (and I'm not paying for dial-up) so I really won't be spending as much time on DeviantArt.
I'm sure I'll have something to submit now and again, I might even manage to comment on a few things. It's kinda sad because I'd been enjoying getting to know quite a few people since I've had time off. You know who you are.
I'm hoping to get a job to pay for everything I'm going to need/want, which takes out of my free time quite substantially. And of course there are loads of bands I want to see, and hopefully I'll make a friend or two to boot! Who knows

Either way, I'm leaving tomorrow straight after work. Those of you who can, please come and see me in Brighton! I'd love to have anyone stay over
Computer's being packed up tonight so...

Take care, I will be back very soon if I have internet connection (fingers crossed, but unlikely). But if not, be good and keep submitting that awesome art you know I dig so much

Love and Leaving-Home-Llamas,

Meg.

I am:

~meggcup — Wed, 14 Sep 2005 05:34:10 PDT

the happiest I have been for a while
excited about leaving
going to miss my house- 14 years is a long time
worried that ninjas will break in during the night
putting off packing
getting much better at making omlette- worlds most burney food
confused by the university library system
thinking about budgeting
having strange dreams a lot
missing being able to drive
enjoying meeting new people on deviantart
contemplating new photography projects
excited about seeing all my friends tomorrow
looking forward to the award ceremony on friday
needing some social interaction
finished updating this journal

love

We drew our own constellations

~meggcup — Fri, 02 Sep 2005 07:06:40 PDT

I woke up this morning and felt really displaced, like everything was going on somewhere else and I was just waiting to get out and into the warmth and the sunshine, but I couldn't.
It's no mystery as to why... all my friends are slowly leaving, one by one. I'm excited about leaving, going to University, but I know that when get back none of this will be the same. So it's hard.
But I'm sure it'll be fine.
There are people I really need to see before I leave- Sadie, Fleur, Kate, Han. Although I'm sure you'll all come and see me when I'm in brighton

Anyway, it's a beautiful day. I'm going to go and rollerskate.

"It was just another night
With the sun set
And the moon rise not so far behind
To give us just enough light
To lay down underneath the stars
Listen to all the translations
Of the stories across the sky
We drew our own constellations"

...and watch for shooting stars...

~meggcup — Fri, 12 Aug 2005 16:54:47 PDT

I had such an awesome birthday. Went to watch Madagascar with everyone I mentioned in the previous journal, and they gave me a surprise party!!! It was so amazing... with Nachos and Guacamole and mint and chive dip and "onigiri"... haha, so cool.
There was also a huuuuge waterfight with pistols and buckets and a paddling pool, unfortunately I got smashed in hte nose with someones head so I had to sit the rest out and bleed profusely. All in the name of fun, of course.

Tonight we watched a film and got Garageband up on Al's iBook, and made some phat clarinet/recorder tuneage.

Lovely lovely day.

I have le returned...

~meggcup — Wed, 10 Aug 2005 13:48:21 PDT

Hello everyone!

I went to the hospital this morning to have two canine teeth extracted under sedation (for those of you who had never seen my vampire fangs, count yourself lucky they are gone now) Anyway, it was considerably painless and drugs are cool. I have two holes in my mouth which are nicely hidden by my upperlip, so my mouth shape and smile have changed which is AWESOME. Because I used to hate smiling so much.

It is my birthday tomorrow too! I will be eighteeeeeeen. How scary. I can vote.
The Liberal Democrats sent me a card for my eighteenth birthday. How lovely of them. I would probably have voted for them anyway, if I decide to vote. But it's still cool. THE CONSERVATIVES DIDN'T SEND ME A CARD.

I'm gonna go and watch Madagascar in the Cinema. And have a pancake breakfast in the morning I have presents. I love presents. Nothing big, but I like even little things to just unwrap, make it seem tons different to other days.

Happy Birthday to ~Tenzo for tomorrow! Birthday friends! Yay!

I'm sorry I didn't take part in the DevHugs Project... I kinda ran out of time and then went on holiday. Seems like such a shame, I took some photos for it but they were crappy and I wasn't happy with them so... yeah

Love to you all, hope you're having great summers xxx

The DevHugs Project

~meggcup — Fri, 08 Jul 2005 13:19:52 PDT

The DevHugs Project

Click the link above for information. I'm certainly going to have a go I'm in the mood for cute. Very much in the mood for cute It finishes on the 30th of July, so... get going! You know you want to

From the 18th I'm really not going to have time to post anything or reply to comments, so if you think it's because I'm being boring then you're completely wrong. For every friend I've made on DA, I will be back around the 12th of August. My birthday's on the 11th, so if you feel the need to make me something pretty...

I'm having a little go at pixel art today. Well, kinda. My graphics tablet needs a new battery, so I was looking at things to do with a mouse. It's kinda hard, kudos to those who can do it

Anyway- tomorrow I'ma play some swingball! It's the best game if you really can't play tennis...

Meg-love is overflowing for ~unlikely-skymoo, who is awesome and stuff <3

Ok ok ok... I'm done.

I got no secret purpose, I don't seem obvious do I

~meggcup — Sun, 26 Jun 2005 10:49:35 PDT

I read a journal the other day. It was fun to read, and the last bit really changed my outlook since then.

Not to take anything seriously.

And I suppose that's the only thing I've taken to heart these past couple of days. The unimportance of everything is staring me in the face, and it really doesn't matter.
Maybe it's the juxtaposition of that journal with my Communication Studies exam.

Is most communication honest? Discuss this in relation to personal and cultural communication.
[roughly speaking... I forget the real question]

I think I came to the conclusion, right there, sat at that desk, that every moment, every single thing communicated by anyone at a given time, regardless of intention or related notions, beliefs or contexts, is ultimately honest because it is what it is. And it can't be anything else.

I more than likely failed, but it doesn't matter. It's the flow of the world, you can't go back and change it, you can't change something that's already happened. So you take what you get and you try and live with it. You move ahead.
As with everything... out of one bad thing comes one good thing. And vice versa.
I get good grades, I get more pressure to do well. I have a biscuit, I get fat.

It doesn't even matter anymore anyway. What's done is done, you can't change it. You just have to endure the result of it. And you have to appreciate everything that comes from it.

Or not, whatever.

You're beautiful, it's true.

~meggcup — Tue, 21 Jun 2005 12:05:21 PDT

I realised today I have only four weeks left in work. Only four weeks of income. How depressing indeed. But it also means that in four weeks I'm free from all my responsibilities, so... well, like my mood says, it's bitter sweet.

I'm feeling like that about a lot of things- exams tomorrow, but soon they're over. I'm going to lose my income but I gain more free time.

Go figure.

I went to Sadie's house last night, too! We had a picnic beneath a leafy canopy on top of a sunny hill. It was awesome fun, thank you sweetie! Love you --->

_{[Beautiful Sadie is on the left, yucky Meg is on the right]}

I have a photo of Seth that you don't have! HA HA

~meggcup — Sun, 19 Jun 2005 16:27:31 PDT

I have decided not to inundate DA with numerous crappy pictures of my last day of school, but I know you should all see them so I'ma post them in my journal.
Enjoy!

_{Girls on a Bench}

_{Me and Kate!}

_{Ooh La La! Ma classe Francais!}

_{Me and Bec!}

AMAlice is my pet

~meggcup — Sat, 18 Jun 2005 17:25:21 PDT

Today, Ladies and Gents, we are to embark upon a voyage of discovery. We shall be discovering strange new faces full of potential tragic beauty.
We shall be visiting the gallery of the wonderful ~AMAlice.

She has such absolute ability to draw and to sew such emotion and feeling into simple, two dimensional brush strokes.

Pah. Alice, you are totally and utterly deserving of the attention of all the people who read my journal (I'm sure so many of them just mark it read, I don't blame them ).

Regardless, carry on being awesome <3

_{"Witches Aren't For Playing With"}

_{"Clown On A Lunch Break"}

_{"My Heroes All Killed Cowboys"}

_{"Snow White"}

Alice - ~AMAlice

Half asleep in the snow...

~meggcup — Mon, 13 Jun 2005 16:43:27 PDT

I'm tired. I don't want to revise Dr Faustus, I don't want to sit the exam again and I most certainly do not want to re-fail. Where's the justice? I've got A's in every other exam so far, and a D in Dr Faustus. Which could bring the total down to a B.

Stupid *swear* Christopher *swear* Marlowe *double swear*

I know, I know. B's are awesome, I should be happy with a B. I will be happy with a B. I'd be happier with an A though. Humph.

*wail* If only we'd done the Duchess of Malfi like we were going to! */wail*

Intermission: cue muzak, soft lighting, ice creams and, yes, you can go to the toilet now if you're quick about it.

This is the point in my journal where I tell you to go and look at peoples work. Now I have the ability to implement thumbnails, so I might just do that::

*FixMeNow
I think this lady, one of the most amazing, kind and wonderful people I have ever met, is far too good at emotional expression these days. And... well... I want her to like me so ...

_{One of my personal favourites... Make of the others what you will <3}

Sadie - *FixMeNow

"we're into love today"

~meggcup — Sun, 05 Jun 2005 12:52:14 PDT

Wow, I'm in a very good mood!

Had an awesome weekend with Alex, Bod (once Bon) just chilling, playing on Garageband, playing Halo. It's put me in such a gorgeous frame of mind.

I am a bit sleepy now though. Having a lovely chat with my new best friend, ~newspeak, he's thinking I'm a bit weird. It's ok, I think he's weird. Mwahahahahaaaa!

"Are you listening? Sing it back."

Love and kisses go to some hot babes, ~FixMeNow, ~sososinvida and ~silver-faery. Give them some love. Please. Just so they stop trying to jump on me. Thanks!!

p.s. check out Beefour. It's great. We're great. Yes.

Yellow SUBmarine

~meggcup — Tue, 31 May 2005 13:43:36 PDT

Meg bought herself a sub fer a month juuuuuuust to see what it was like. I have to admit it's worth my Â£2.50 just to not have to trawl through eeeeevery one of the awesome deviations on my watch list.

Enjoying very much.

I HAVE A STAR! YEAH!!!! In your face. I'd like to be a beta tester, only I don't want the little equals sign *note: Meg is incredibly weird

So, yeah! Right now I want to chill out in front of some Full Metal Alchemist. I'm loving the theme tune to that right now.

Hullo!

~meggcup — Tue, 19 Apr 2005 07:04:52 PDT

Bonjour!

Hola!

Hullo!

[I'm multi-lingual, as you can no doubt tell ] <--- [not true]

Today is a day of good stuff. I am the happiest rabbit in all rabbitdom. If I were indeed a rabbit, which I am not, but that's beside the point. Why, you ask, when my world is changing, crashing down and crawling forwards into the big abyss of knowledgelessness that is "the future"?
Today saw the completion of my final piece of A Level coursework, and with Thursday comes exam season. Nothing to be as overtly happy about in the way that I am, I know. But it signifies two things, the first of which is summer. I can be bloody happy about summer in the face of all the shit that's going on at the moment, just because it rocks harder than anyone or anything. FACT.
Secondly, it signifies impending study leave, which in turn signifies a whole bunch'a stuff. Freedom to... stay up late! Play lots of videogames! Watch "Murder She Wrote"!

I guess I also put a lot of things- people, situations- into perspective last night. I'm pretty sure I could live with myself if I told them to "get away from me" in no uncertain terms. Then I realised that whatever their problem was with me, or whatever inconsiderate, bloody-minded thing they were doing to me, it was for them to sort it out. I wasn't going to set about making myself feel guilty by being the first to cause the Final Argument, either.
There are just certain people in the world that piss me off fairly regularly, and I'm just not having it any more. It's not just one person, I can quite safely say it's three. And I'm never going to tell you who they are.
I'm not going to get angry, I'm not even going to get even. I'm just going to let go and stop caring.
Bye bye care! *waves adieu to the sense of compassion, floating out above the trees and off to burn in the sunlight*

See, not so hard? Not so hard.

I'm mine now. I haven't been my own for so long.

"I'd rather be a good memory, but I,"

~meggcup — Fri, 15 Apr 2005 12:32:24 PDT

"I won't be there to comfort you."

Music Reccommendation: Fingers Cut Megamachine.

I got their self-titled album in the post today, and it's amazing. Whatever you normally listen to I suggest you download some of their tracks at their site.

Beautiful, beautiful. Anyway, not too much to update. I've got a coursework deadline on monday and two french oral exams on thursday.

Have fun everyone x

Woo hoo!

~meggcup — Mon, 11 Apr 2005 14:28:09 PDT

~meggcup
Call me post-modern.

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Thank you to everyone who visited my page You guys are currently rocking my world.

p.s. The ~Biffy-Army community is sooooo the place to be seen right now.

"It's foreign on this side"

~meggcup — Sun, 10 Apr 2005 10:55:13 PDT

"One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean,
Take her or leave her she will still be the same.
She'll not try to buy you with her time,
But nothing's the same, as you'll see when she's gone."

It's a crying shame that nothing can ever be what you want it to be. It makes it worse that you never stop hoping. There's something in that.
Maybe if it was the way I dreamed then I wouldn't want it anymore. Maybe if, all your life, you hoped and wished that someone would just hang on tight to your syllables, your breath, your meaningful pauses... maybe if one day they did, far from making you happy it would diminish you. For what is life without hoping, wishing and waiting for a dream? Even those who conquer this world and stand proud, at the summit of achievement, might feel lost- alone. For who else can stand upon the highest point but one? It must be a lonely existence, having fulfilled your life's ambition, standing proud upon the pinnacle, watching those below you climbing, clambering, helping each other up, laughing, joking.

Paradoxically, that is why one can never become completely fulfilled. For once you have attained your loftiest position you inherit a new set of desires, presumably. For companionship, possibly. Who knows?

I don't pertain to be any kind of theorist, I'm just wondering out loud.

It still makes me sad that once I feel that I'm happy where I am; that, now, I am not being taken for granted or ignored because I am "valued", that it gets changed; twisted; reversed and I'm back where I started and my heart's racing and sometimes I think it shows; the things I say, the way I disappear with a sharp remark [where's the "sarcasm" button on MSN?], the fact that I'm feeling this so intensely how could you not be?
But then, it's been the same now for as long as I can remember.

"I'm not through, I'm not through, I'm not through, I'm not through..."

From the objective to the involved. I try to distance myself from it all sometimes, but I can't help getting caught up in the ridiculousness of gender difference and similarity.
I'm just a girl, this is what we do.

"dead leaves and the dirty ground,"

~meggcup — Thu, 24 Mar 2005 13:05:42 PST

"when I know you're not around."

Feeling: Contentedly Lonesome
Listening: Land Locked Blues - Bright Eyes
Reading: The Little Friend - Donna Tartt (nearly finished)
Playing: Animal Crossing on the Gamecube

Animal Crossing is the cutest game in the world. I am postively addicted, even though I'm not quite sure why. There doesn't seem to be that much to it. Catch some bugs; some fish, pick some fruit. You make your house bigger, you get into debt. You pay off your debt, you get some more. Eventually you get a statue- "big whoop" indeed. It's just so... fantastic.

I'm adoring my new collection of music. Bright Eyes... I mean, so, so beautiful. Just the sound of his voice makes me feel like crying. Haha- angst-ridden is what I am. I have also been introduced to the joys of Cake. Cute

Also, ~FixMeNow, ~sososinvida and ~yvonnelachav deserve some of your time. Go and have a look at their galleries. If you're watching me then you should 100% be stalking them to their HOMES by now.

That's pretty much it. Have hot fun x

"We can dance to the radio station...

~meggcup — Wed, 23 Mar 2005 08:46:04 PST

that plays in our teeth..."

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

...and it really doesn't matter if you post this to ten million people within five minutes; your boyfriend won't dump you; your best friend won't bitch about you and you won't be unlucky in love for the next twenty minutes.

Really, we shouldn't use scare tactics to get people to spread a message to someone who might need to hear something beautiful about themselves, for, once they've read it, there is instant panic that something will be detracted from the message if they don't make someone else read it.
The message has been lost, and you replace security brought about by the message with insecurity from the "chain letter".

It should be something nice to pass around without superstition or fear. Let's face it- what exactly can a bunch of electronically simulated words do?
It's all about encouraging the spread of the message- you should remember that.

If you're going to pass something on, always remove the "chain letter" section at the bottom. It just spoils it. Pass the message on for the smile it may give to someone.

That's all, really. Just try and remember next time that it's not fair to instil fear in someone elses heart. Next time you get a chain letter, just think- ok, I'll pass it around (if you feel you need to) but I'll take the "post this message to 10 friends by 2:25 tomorrow or you will be unlucky in love" bit off.

Sorry for the rant. Thanks for reading

Rawr.

~meggcup — Wed, 16 Mar 2005 23:35:54 PST

I miss Jess.

I'm going to see Rhiannon tomorrow!

You should love these people:

p.s. The ~Biffy-Army is the place to be seen right now.

p.p.s. Love goes out to ~xGothicRosex who is taking a little break from DA right now and ~yvonnelachav, who is my new friend! She's got fantastic poetry and is beauuuutiful. And scottish. This girl has everything! Go stalk her.

You painted pictures with my tears...

~meggcup — Sun, 13 Mar 2005 16:00:46 PST

Feeling: Tired but wired
Listening: RJD2 - Ghostwriter
Reading: The Little Friend - Donna Tartt

So I read, on average, a page and a half every night, instead of the usual half a book. That's how tired I am. I've been reading this book for weeks now- it's not like me.
I also spent much internet money today. But it's ok because paypal isn't real money, is it...?

*sigh*

RJD2 is cool. Not much hip-hop stuff you can get me to like, but this is funky. I also had coffee. It was nice, but apparently coffee's no good unless it's naked *shrugs*.

Check it...

~meggcup — Thu, 03 Mar 2005 16:17:13 PST

Feeling: Overworked
Listening: Biffy Clyro - Just Boy
Reading: Donna Tartt - The Little Friend

~jesskajuice has the most incredible ideas. And she's beautiful and a stunning artist, please go and look at her gallery. You don't know what you're missing if you don't, I swear.

*Pixeltees- Meg*
If you've got £14 to spend on a fabulous t-shirt designed by Meg, then this is the place to click.

*Pixeltees- Beefour*
The Beefour tees were designed by ~ Baruni-kun, as an ultracool addition to Beefour.com. You want one of these.

I've been doing a lot of work. I am going to carry on in this fashion until Easter, at which point I will most likely die of exhaustion/boredom/stress.
While you're mourning the imminent void that will have been my life, please feel free to browse the following gallerys of the following DeviantArtists:

Wonderful, wonderful. Now shoo.

edit! go here. Funny as... french.

"I don't believe in anything,"

~meggcup — Mon, 28 Feb 2005 13:41:06 PST

"that's the message in your eyes."

Biffy Clyro were so, so wonderful. So heart-wrenchingly amazing. If you haven't heard anything by them then you really should click on the link above!
I have a phenomenal amount of work to do, but I don't want to. But I do want to. But I don't want to have to do it. I just want it to be done. If that makes sense.

So now I'm going to do something productive *enthused*...

...lies. All lies. I even lie to myself. Because sometimes I believe I'm going to get the grades I need for Sussex. Will I hell. Haha- I care about this much *holds fingers to signify MINUS AMOUNTS*
I'm going to play on ebay now.

I don't remember one jump or one leap...

~meggcup — Thu, 24 Feb 2005 02:42:43 PST

...just quiet steps away from your lead.

Today I remembered exactly how much I love Nickel Creek. I finally got my replacement album and it makes me so happy! Sara Watkins has the most beautiful voice *explodes with love for her voice*.
Yep! That's my day thus far! Really couldn't be bothered with the whole school thing, even though I was up and ready for it, so I just got on with some work. Actually, I watched "Everybody Loves Raymond". It's cute. Then I did some work- I'm proud of myself.

If you're bored, check out ~FixMeNow, ~sososinvida, ~jesskajuice and ~Etkin. Their galleries are my favourites right now. Although I have to say my watch list is possibly the best watch list ever everyone's so talented, it really is wonderful!

love to you all x

February won't you be my Valentine?

~meggcup — Mon, 14 Feb 2005 11:45:06 PST

...and we'll both be safe 'til St. Patricks Day.

Music: John Mayer - St. Patricks Day
Book: The Little Friend - Donna Tartt

Today my Dad and I went car shopping in lieu of my test on some day at some time which shall not be disclosed here. We (rather, he) decieded upon a Suzuki Alto. I decided upon yellow. If I pass, that it what I shall be driving. Brand new, so I get free roadside assistance and 3 years warranty. Plus it's a cute car, low insurance bracket (group 3, for those interested) and low price. I wanted one of those tiny jeep-looking things, but the insurance group is like 9 or something. So no.
I have to pass yet though. I'm not really thinking about it.

I bought a book at the train station and I've already read 1/4 of it. It's really, really good! I reccommend it. It's up there, on my list of things. It's like a slightly morbid, poignant story. I shan't explain more, but it's fascinating.

Anyway! Sorry for the essay! Take care xx

Woo hoo!

~meggcup — Fri, 04 Feb 2005 17:13:34 PST

You should be listening to: The Dramatics! - Stupid Girls

We've got tickets to the *sold out* Biffy Gig. And [most of] you haven't.

Oh yes.

I'm muchos excited. And Sadie has hers, so it's all super-perfect! Not long now either! Most exciting event of the year so far, I think you'll agree
But it's 01:12, and I have a driving lesson in a few hours, so I should get some sleep.
x

If I can make it there...

~meggcup — Fri, 28 Jan 2005 11:26:09 PST

I'm gonna make it anywhere.

Today was fairly appalling, I got completely trampled on by my Communications Teacher, who, incidentally, seeing as he never marks any of the work we give him, can know sod all about how hard I'm working. He basically asked me to make a bet with him on whether I was going to pass my last exam. I was completely dumbfounded- how unprofessional! It's an age-old saying, "that Dr Jones, what a wanker". No word of a lie.
I went to my driving lesson in floods of tears, I couldn't help it. I feel exhausted pretty much all the time anyway, and I seriously considered giving up on my A Levels forever for that half an hour. It was soul destroying for me, to feel that no-one has faith in me. If no-one else does, why should I have faith in myself?
Yeah, so I tried to keep it together for my driving lesson, but Mike knew straight away something was wrong, so I told him and he asked if I'd like him to go and shout at this teacher of mine. I laughed, told him no. It was nice of him, though. He said he'd pretend to be my uncle :s but nonetheless I felt a bit better.
My head of Sixth form was great about it too. She's lovely. With everything in her life, she manages to hold together hers and everyone in the sixth form's. Wonderful woman.

I'm ok now. Going to super-excel in my working this weekend, just to prove everyone wrong- that I am great, and I can do well. I'd be disappointed in myself if I didn't get the grades I need for Sussex... and that's the worst feeling ever.

Sorry for the rant! Tinternet hugs would be greatly appreciated xxx

And I'm feeling good...

~meggcup — Sun, 16 Jan 2005 08:26:36 PST

I really, really want to be a soul or jazz singer today. That would rock harder than a landslide, really it would. Instead, I have petrol station work.
I did an acceptable amount of coursework yesterday, which was nice. I finally managed to motivate myself.

I had a dream last night about my driving test, because I realised yesterday that it's just over a month unil I take it and now I'm getting really, really nervous. That is mainly due to the fact that I suck. I improved loads in the beginning, but I think it's a case of "thus far, and no further". But if I do pass I can't wait to be driving and everywhere ^_^ Which is the only reason I should pass!!

Love and cuddles xx

Dance with me...

~meggcup — Thu, 13 Jan 2005 14:49:32 PST

Today I have mostly been feeling flat; squashed down by the thoughts in my head. Sometimes, I think I think too much. I'm sure other people feel that way!
I'd really like to just let go of everything for a while, take a break from feeling and worrying and just relax. My mind has been in a constant state of worry for one reason or another for the past few months.

I'd really, really like to go to a gig or even just "out"- somewhere with music- so I can dance. I feel like dancing (wanna dance the night away) . Luckily I shall be going to see Biffy Clyro soon, with my love (Sadie).

Some things are best when you hold your breath and wait it out.

Love xx

Sing a little...

~meggcup — Fri, 07 Jan 2005 18:26:46 PST

So this is my first journal entry. How exciting! Thank you to everyone who's ever commented on any of my deviations. Everything I've been told has really helped me so far (even if it doesn't seem like it)! So love to all you lot.

Monday brings with it my first resit- FR3, which is basically French comprehension. So far my hours of revision amount to zero (possibly minus one considering how I've been spending my time on the internet rotting my brain). It really isn't an exciting prospect, going in to that exam room, I'll tell you now.
I never did like mondays...

It is now time to retire to my boudoir. I'll probably sleep in, and that thought depresses me a bit.

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"It's foreign on this side"

"dead leaves and the dirty ground,"

"We can dance to the radio station...

Rawr.

You painted pictures with my tears...

Check it...

"I don't believe in anything,"

I don't remember one jump or one leap...

February won't you be my Valentine?

Woo hoo!

If I can make it there...

And I'm feeling good...

Dance with me...

Sing a little...