http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:mekurat&section=today deviantART RSS for by:mekurat en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 04:43:43 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/17659023/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/17659023/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 21:08:02 PDT Got a Shiba pup, moved back home, got my job at Petsmart back, moved into our first apartment, my parents split up(way out of left field to me), got engaged, got into another car accident which left me with back problems, got a new car that sucks balls, got a new job as a prep cook, quit my job at petsmart, moved across town, got my old dog back, started running in the gym, lost my Shiba to a car, got a new Shiba, got my hair straightened again(it'd been a while), got a cat, lost new Shiba to congenital disease, found out I love to sing, started working as a line cook in addition to prepping, got a bass quitar, which brings me to now where we just got a new puppy(Siberian husky). So yeah, life's not really fun unless it's a pain in the ass right?
Coming up for me: Got some painting supplies and hopefully I am going to start that soon, turning 21 in 4 days, going to start taking bass lessons, getting married in July...and well thats all I have in my foreseeable future.
Sooo. Yeah hopefully some new art soon.

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So, since my last journal entry I've moved to Denver with Tyler. It's been going great but he's started to get anxious and frusterated at life and he really misses Tucson and there's nothing I can do to help him. It makes me feel worthless and miserable because if there is nothing I can do for him is there any point in me being here? I mean he misses his friends, his fun, his job and just the freedom to go to places he knows. He has his mom here which at first I know helped but now I don't even know because he's shut that part of himself off to me. He's become so distant and moody and I can't live like this. I'm not a people person because people scare the crap out of me but I live off the energy and emotions that I get from them so I must keep myself around other people. But it's a big backfire when the person I see the most is closed off and having issues that he wont talk to me about and is constantly frusterated. I in turn feel like an utter worthless waste of his time and that he would be better off if I wasn't around. I want to tell him that I'm suffering to but I don't see how that would help. I'm just in constant turmoil and it wouldn't bother me as much as it does if I weren't getting migranes from stress. One of the fricking things sent me to the hospital because I thought it was leading to something MUCH worse than what it was. So now added to my already monumental stress and silent suffering I know have a huge bill that I can't pay off. I can't even make monthly payments of $50 because the job I finally got is only part time seasonal. I can't stand this much longer! I just want to run away sometimes, not back home, just away. I'm so numb half the time and then when I feel something it's just despair, and a double dose of it because the person I love and depend on so much because he's the only person I know here is wallowing in it I can't breathe. I just wish he would come to me but I know he wont because he's a lot more independant than I am and is probably really annoyed with me because I'm constantly trying to see if I can help him. I feel like I'm pushing him away and that he'll come to hate me and all the shit I went through to get here and to be with him is going to backfire into my face.

**Edit**
Alright, so I talked it out and lifes much better. It still feels great to get it out in the open like that.

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"less than two inches. She would later tell Jim Gardener..."

02. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.

There's my bed...mmm...comfy

03. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Family Guy

04. Without looking, guess what time it is?

5:00

05. What time is it?

6:02

06. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

My fan and my room mates annoying doves...grr

07. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

I just got back inside from walking my dogs

08. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

Erm, nature?

09. What are you wearing?

A t-shirt and soccer shorts

10. What did you dream last night?

Something rather odd that I can't remember

11. When did you last laugh?

Last night

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Color? I never hang anything on my walls

13. Seen anything weird lately?

Lotsa weird stuff last night after I ate those shrooms...

15. What is the last film you saw?

The Cooler

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

I'd buy my parents a house and then get myself one, and a really snazzy car for me and all my closest friends.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.

I have a birthmark shaped like africa on my left leg

18. If you could change one thing about the world

Thats a stupid question because if you change one thing think about all the stuff that it would affect and placeoutof order thus making the same sized mess which causes no difference at all or a BIG mess you wish you never created.

19. Do you like to dance?

In my room...

20. George Bush.

I don't give a shit one way or the other about that

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Bailey

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Ooo, thats a stumper. I've always had a prob with boys names.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?

I wish I could

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

Hey...I know you

25: The people that I wanna tag:
uhhh. you! Your it and no tagbacks! Hah! I win... ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9845749/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9845749/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 00:42:20 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9515069/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9515069/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 18:59:34 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9503162/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9503162/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 16:22:04 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9463378/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9463378/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 23:23:13 PDT
Oh well, this was just another ranty, giddy, happy and tired vomit of information onto the net from me to you with not much of a shit given one way or the other about it.

Oh wow, I really like that I think I'll keep it for a signature. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9051870/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/9051870/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 22:38:33 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8712369/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8712369/ Mon, 08 May 2006 16:04:49 PDT April

If I were a day of the week I would be:
Tuesday

If I were a time of day I would be:
2am

If I were a planet I would be:
The moon

If I were a sea animal I would be:
A shark ^_^

If I were a direction I would be:
backwards

If I were a sin I would be:
Forbidden passion XD

If I were a liquid I would be:
An energy drink

If I were a tree I would be:
An oak

If I were a flower/plant I would be:
Lily

If I were a kind of weather I would be:
A Thunderstorm

If I were a musical instrument I would be:
Violin

If I were an animal I would be:
A timberwolf

If I were a color I would be:
Charcol

If I were a vegetable I would be:
A pea

If I were a sound I would be:
A raindrop

If I were an element I would be:
Fire

If I were a car I would be:
A nissan z

If I were a song I would be:
People are strange by The doors

If I were a movie I would be directed by:
M. Knight Shamalayn or whatever it is

If I were a book I would be written by:
Steven King

If I were a food I would be:
Cheese

If I were a place I would be:
France

If I were a material I would be:
Flamable

If I were a taste I would be:
sweet and sour

If I were a scent I would be:
cotton candy

If I were a word I would be:
NO!

If I were an object I would be:
A window

If I were a body part I would be:
hands

If I were a facial expression I would be:
stressed

If I were a cartoon/Anime character I would be:
That twitched out squirrley thing from ice age

If I were a shape I would be a:
question mark?

If I were a number I would be:
21


So yup. thats me I stole it from Phailin who stole it from somebody... ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8631241/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8631241/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 13:24:42 PDT
Ahh poo...I want a puppy!

Very random, eh? ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8322243/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8322243/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 09:53:41 PST ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8293951/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8293951/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 11:19:47 PST
Confused? So am I.

I have 2 picture I HAVE to get done for my digital photography class that I haven't even been able to shoot yet because I've been working through the time of day that I need to take the shots at. So in other words I'm screwed.

I haven't had time to think let alone finish painting the room I'm going to be moving in to and after I finish that I have to move. Ouch. Just ouch. I haven't seen any of my friends or been able to go out in so long and I've just about had it.



...and thats it for now because I have to go drive to class.

/rant] ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8040865/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/8040865/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 19:04:43 PST All of my homework is art and I have my photography down fine, but my drawing homework is so technical that I can't muster the brain power to translate it to the paper. Whats worse is that I'm in training for a new job and it is so much repetitive information that my already frazzled mind is ready to explode. All I hear is and that all I say too...heh...

I just wish I could go out to a nice relaxing movie this weekend but there's nothing relaxing when it comes to my life. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/7943858/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/7943858/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 13:55:40 PST
There was something else I wanted to mention but it just slipped my mind completely. In the time it took the page to load. Gone. Not a clue what I was thinking. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/7863818/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/7863818/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 10:24:39 PST
Geh...I've got to go to work in half an hour! *Cries* ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/7310121/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/7310121/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 13:57:15 PST
Ahhh...now that I have that out of my system! A little update on me.
School...work...school...work...school...work...school...well, you get the picture. I've been waiting for finals to be over so I can start some new art works that I can hopefully display here on DA, I might upload some of my projects from class if I can find a way to scan them in(very big).

So, with more promises that will likely go unfulfilled for a long while I bid you all adieu! ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/6868330/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/6868330/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 20:41:55 PDT Oh boy.

Anywho, later I'll probably upload some of my art projects. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/6638823/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/6638823/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 23:55:27 PDT _<
Hmm, yep, and this has all happened in the span of this last month. I started school, the very same week a got a job that took up all my spare time, I got into a car accident, I've developed stupid allergies and have loads of homework(which I am currently procrastinating against right now by writing this journal entry) so why not add some tonsilitis?
As if the shit hadn't hit the fan before, right before my first essay in my writing class is due I have to go and get so sick I end up missing a week of class which is all that my writing teacher will allow. Yay! So I e-mailed my teacher and told him I couldn't be there and I still haven't gotten a reply so I'm probably in some hot water over there. My essay is still not done even though it was due at 4 o' clock today when I was still delierious from the stabbing pain in my ear that devoloped when I was at the doctors office. It's funny really, I was feeling pretty good and then I go to the doctors and when I come home I'm in bed with a heating pad yelling at everyone because I could have sworn someone was trying to shove a pile of broken glass into my ear! Oh silly silly me.
All in all I keep telling myself I didn't enjoy my summer nearly as much as I should have. This semester is going to kill me, it's already started to and I'm just a month in. Oh well, I better stop my procrastination and get my fricking paper done before my teacher gives me a REALLY bad grade on it instead of just a really bad one. Like my math teacher did. But I shall stop here because I could write a whole page full of fun just about math. Heh... ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/2036035/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/2036035/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:20:54 PST _< I've gotta stop that, I get all deranged and disoriented when I spend to much money and I'm gonna get lost one of these days and not make it home. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/1417130/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/1417130/ Tue, 18 Nov 2003 00:21:54 PST
Bleh...I know I'm not making any sense right now because I've never really explained this much about stuff so for those of you who actually read this, I'm sorry for my confusion. It happens to be contagious though, I'm passing it off to one of my co-workers. She's really thankfull for that...heh...

So anywho, a general update on my life.
I bought a used car, I got my drivers permit, I got a cell phone and this lovely cold I now have. That whole bunch of minor stuff(yet big enough for a sixteen year old) happend right after I got back from my Hawaii vacation except the car which my parents bought when I was gone. *Laugh maniacly* Watch out world, I'll run you over! Why? Because I still can't get it out of my head that pedestrians only have the right of way in crosswalks. Mcuh to my chagrin I found out they have the right of way anywhere(which, granted, I already knew) when I flunked my drivers permit test the first time. Go figure.

Eh...well, It's 1:20am and suprise suprise, I have to work again tomorrow. Thank God for Tylenol. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/1171831/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/1171831/ Wed, 17 Sep 2003 09:38:35 PDT
Lets start of with the best news. I got a job! *Dances* I'm a Subway employee *grin* Bleh...I'll be going to work in an hour...this good news comes with some bad. I'm working a LOT. This was supposed to be my day off, and I'm probably going to be working on another one of my days off. All because someone was in an accident and he has neck problems(little turd). He's one of my long time friends though, he told me about the job too...so I can't be that mad at him.

Bleh...at least I have a vacation planned in October, if I can make it that long. In 23 days I'll be on Hawaii. *Glee* I'm going on a cruise all expenses paid by my most wonderfull friends mother. She's a single mom and her daughter is a handfull so I get to come along and party with her. Hehe, she wears me out but with so much fun.

Oh yeah, I have another job. My first job actually. I'm the head webdesigner for my dads company. I have my first webpage for a client published on the web. Woohoo! Everything is going great now. Life has smoothed over since way back when. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/788508/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/788508/ Mon, 02 Jun 2003 16:13:12 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/785640/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/785640/ Sun, 01 Jun 2003 21:57:06 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/760254/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/760254/ Sun, 25 May 2003 23:15:00 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/736971/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/736971/ Sun, 18 May 2003 22:12:15 PDT
I need to go buy a new pen anyway, gotta wait for Office Max to open tomorrow. Evil Target and evil Walgreens were all sold out. *grumble*

While I'm on the topic of evil, Mr. is evil too. It's so hot! The heat is going to be unbearable this summer. Can't wait for the pool to open.

Geez, I'm really lonely. I need to see my friends soon... ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/733542/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/733542/ Sat, 17 May 2003 23:52:15 PDT

Bleh...why can't I seem to do anything I like anymore? I like to be accomplished and clean and neat. Recently nothing I do is finished, I keep dodging schoolwork, my room is a pit, and I blew off my friend today. All in all I'm pretty pissed at myself, I have this really irritated angry homocidal feeling right now, not very fun. There's sharp pointy weapon like things near me too...thats not good. I get to the point where when I hold a pen I have to grab my hand and put it down because I need to stab something and I'm usually the subject intended.

Aha! now I remember, I've been looking through my gallery and I noticed I haven't done much more than sketch in a long time. I'm a sketch artist, lol. I think it's that I'm afraid to CG my stuff. *Grumble* I was trying to CG a pic a while ago and it just looks like crap. *Grumble*

Whee...I'm just blathering on. Fun!

Oh yeah, the Matrix:Reloaded kicks much behind. I didn't care for some of the CG, but overall it was cool. Geh...I blew off my friend today to see it. I didn't totally blow her off though, she was supposed to call me but she never did. I feel like poo...

I must do something and get outta my sorry slump I'm in, I was doing really good about not being lazy and depressed but it's sorta falling apart. I need a hug...

Heh, this is totally me ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/733537/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/733537/ Sat, 17 May 2003 23:51:05 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/717818/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/717818/ Tue, 13 May 2003 10:24:18 PDT
I've got an earache from a few months ago thats acting up. Its what I get for walking in the rain that lasted for 30 seconds then wind. Yay. Hiccuping hurts...

Matrix...this Thursday. I'm so impatient. I have to wait to see it on Friday.

I need more Hellsing manga... *zombie*

Dang...allergies have finally hit them, I eluded them for 15 years and now they hit me. I feel like I'm sick all the time, what joy.

Jeeze, I'm rather boring/bored. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/477012/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/477012/ Mon, 03 Feb 2003 21:03:14 PST [link]

It's a great art and anime board. The owner of the board is one of my real life friends. People I actually see. Woah...

Just saw them all last saturday, went to an anime screening at the local university. I got a nasty bruise on my leg when i was getting out of one of the rows of seats. Bleh.

My head itches...I think I should wash my hair tomorrow...might help. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/418179/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/418179/ Tue, 31 Dec 2002 14:01:26 PST
I haven't been doing much here have I? Well, blah. I'll try and post some more work more often.

Hope everyone is having a good time this holiday, staying safe and healthy. I've been sick and my great grandmother had a mild heart attack Sunday.

Also, I'm rather excited for new additions to the animal family. My aunt has a pet wolf and the woman who has his parents is getting kicked out of her apartment so we're going to take care of them for about 3 months, and we're going to get a puppy out of it. Hehe. I'm so excited. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/345220/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/345220/ Thu, 14 Nov 2002 10:29:26 PST
Oh yeah, a big to all you nice people who comment on my work! ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/344122/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/344122/ Wed, 13 Nov 2002 15:12:29 PST Oh my aching head. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/245220/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/245220/ Sat, 24 Aug 2002 14:26:16 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/234009/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/234009/ Fri, 16 Aug 2002 09:35:49 PDT I'm really excited, I haven't been out of state in way too long, and I haven't been out of the house since sunday I think.
I get a whole hotel room almost to myself, there is one other girl going on the trip so we get to have fun in a big room to ourselves. Too bad there isn't a mini bar though, , but there is lots of .
Oh well, bye bye!
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I also spent about half an hour talking to myself about my many problems and dreams. Heh, I'm my own psychiatrist. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/212657/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/212657/ Wed, 31 Jul 2002 01:10:01 PDT

I also spent about half an hour talking to myself about my many problems and dreams. Heh, I'm my own psychiatrist. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/192135/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/192135/ Fri, 12 Jul 2002 15:55:03 PDT

Dammit I have to go babysit. Normally I don't mind, but now I'm just really tired. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/177648/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/177648/ Fri, 28 Jun 2002 16:41:15 PDT Thats a plus, but then I also remember how humid it gets.
oh well, I went to today, got some stuff. Wheee!


Ahh, ta hell with it! I'm grabbing my and going on a killing spree! Hehehe. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/175116/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/175116/ Wed, 26 Jun 2002 11:11:50 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/170351/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/170351/ Fri, 21 Jun 2002 23:26:26 PDT I am obsessive compulsive, paranoia is my middle name, a mild perfectionist, a big time procrastinator, I am in a constant state of depression, I hear voices when I'm tired, I'm constantly strung out on caffine, I hate myself, I am hyperactive and I am a mild pyro maniac.

Thats just to name a few. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/169850/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/169850/ Fri, 21 Jun 2002 12:54:56 PDT ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/167363/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/167363/ Wed, 19 Jun 2002 10:40:02 PDT
I was looking at movie ticket stubs yesterday, and I noticied a very startling fact. io've been to eight this year, 2 in this past week. Normally I will see one maybe once a year. Whats up with that? I seem to be doing a lot of goofing of or nothing this year, I've been drawing a lot and seeing a lot of movies, my schoolwork is suffering from that. Agh! *Beats herself silly with a frying pan* ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/164605/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/164605/ Sun, 16 Jun 2002 23:33:25 PDT Fathers day has been interesting, dads have big egos. ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/161247/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/161247/ Thu, 13 Jun 2002 19:17:22 PDT . We went shopping today, woohoo! ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/157649/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/157649/ Sun, 09 Jun 2002 23:22:06 PDT Today, not so good, my dad and I can't agree on anything and are constantly snapping at each other. I really miss how it used to be, I was daddy's little girl, now I'm that evil white witch.

If the world didn't suck we'd all fall off."; ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/155560/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/155560/ Fri, 07 Jun 2002 17:34:29 PDT ]]> ~mekurat http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/145311/ http://mekurat.deviantart.com/journal/145311/ Tue, 28 May 2002 01:32:27 PDT I have a lot of things to be thankful for, alot of reasons to be happy, but I'm not. ]]> ~mekurat