deviantART: by:memyselfandAyame

Hurrrrr

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 16:29:43 PST

This is just to get the other one off the front page.

Doo be doo be doo!

An Explanation And Apology

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 16:29:10 PST

The apology's just for not doing much lately. Art school man, it takes it out of you.

The explanation is a little more serious and it's only because I have some friends here who I don't keep frequent contact with anywhere else and it's something they need to know.

WARNING; THE FOLLOWING IS DISTURBING AND GRAPHIC AND UTTERLY TRUE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON'T READ OR STOP READING IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE DOING SO.

Last Wednesday night I was the victim of sexual assault and attempted rape. The man fed me a jug of absinthe, made me drink his blood, then nearly violated me in my own room. Even in my drunken state I was still able to convince him not to without provoking him, so I sustained very little physical harm. As soon as he left I raced to my RA's room and told her what happened and they were able to call the police in time to catch the guy. He was apparently a registered sex offender and was violating parole by possessing a knife, so he is now in jail. I have spoken to my Head of Housing, two school councilors, my department head, and most of my teachers, so all the people who need to know what happened and I am being given all the support I need by these people and my friends and family. Needless to say, I am very shaken, but am not self-destructive and will pull through in time.
Let's hope I at least get some good art out of this, yeah?

I should maybe apologize again if this freaked anyone out. But for some of you, it wouldn't be fair if you didn't know what was going on (you know who you are).

Ohohoho

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 20:51:33 PST

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Finally skins aren't part of the bourgeois of deviantArt, at least for a little while.

This one makes me want to wear a beret and write poetry.
Oh wait, I do that anyway

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This journal was on the verge of sounding too snobbish. So I added some nerd.

Features

THUMBS GO HERE. Give me time to get the hang of it and I'll put something here : D

Hooplah Hooplah

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 03:42:52 PDT

I live, I promise. So busy. No time for many words. Ya ya.

The newest deviations indicate a new thing I will be working on in my leisure time. There's more than that (that I drew all tonight), but I won't be posting it all since it's all drawn on torn-up pieces of paper and taped to the walls. This whole thing started because the blank walls were driving me crazy xD

Devious Journal Entry

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 13:42:44 PDT

An update to inform everyone that I am now ensconced in my college dorm, already leading college life, and am at this moment tired out of my mind. And somehow I already infiltrated the party scene here, the good/awesome party scene. I'm a sneaky bitch.

So yeah! Thanks to everyone who favorited or commented on the recent Star Trek art, soon as I get my scanner hooked up there'll be more. I haven't replied and thanked everybody yet, but I'll get there.

I gotta go sleep off this headache, there's a smoothie-mustache-accents-costume party happening in the other dorm tonight :3

SO TELL ME ABOUT IT

~memyselfandAyame — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 03:22:27 PDT

Hey, hey.
Guess what word I used today.

Nerdery.

As in "Yes Dad, I bought the ST Starfleet Communicator with Bonus Holster toy and walked into the room doing my best 'Kirk to Enterprise' impression to show it to you. Don't deny me my nerdery."

True story.

KM+BR=2gether 4ever

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 23:42:28 PDT

Oh, Basil Rathbone, you fox .
I walked for three hours to Fred Meyer and back to buy the TMG Sherlock Holmes movie collection and got a new celebrity crush out of the deal.

It's...it's so beautiful.

[link]

*bookgasm*

I think I've figured it out

~memyselfandAyame — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 22:28:08 PDT

I'm a creature of cycles. Before a couple days ago, I hadn't drawn anything decent in months. I've been too preoccupied with senior year and other things and did tons of poetry and such. Blah de blah. So I'm getting back into the system! It might be a summer thing...

Soooooo yeah! Have a few warm-up sketches to upload, as well as a backlog. I haff to remember how to do that drawing thing

See y'all around!

P.S. I promise less crap sketches soon.

oh gawd

~memyselfandAyame — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 00:50:55 PDT

What is this. What IS this cosplay madness?! I swear i have arts tucked away that I'm keeping from you. School's pretty much done soon, so there's an obstacle that'll soon fix itself.

Anyway. For those not in the know, I just went and made myself another account specifically for cosplay/things of the physical costuming nature. It really is a hobby of mine that I've downplayed on here (y'all have no idea how much I love dressing as someone else. And taking pictures of myself. Wtf kind of moody artist am I? xD) So, go check it out! --->

...Except not right now, because there's nothing there yet Dx

Also, steampunk is my latest obsession. Tam and Kaela and I are aiming to go to SteamCon in October; [link]

guess what guess what? EDIT: A CHALLENGE

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 00:09:16 PST

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It's my birthday : D

What a happy life, what a year to be eighteen!

EDIT: I have a project for you, cats and kittens.
I credit =EdwardElricFan for the sprouting of this wonderful idea.

If anyone among you, my frequent visitors, wishes to bestow on me some kind of Birthday Awesome, I ASK THIS OF YOU:

I want you to make it out of love. I WANT LOVE FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

You can take that as metaphorical or literal as you want, just as long as what ever it is was created out of some kind of love for something. And I mean anything; smother your face in chocolate sauce and take a picture, draw a page full of hearts and unicorns, make a sculpy bust of your favorite author, kiss a loved one and document the experience. As long as it's love, I will enjoy it beyond any sort of fan art, because I know it is something personally and uniquely from you and you alone.

So I guess you could classify this as a birthday challenge. ANYONE can participate and I will post the art in this journal (once I figure out thumbnails xD)

So y'all get it? Go make some love .

In Need of a Header!!

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 00:08:50 PST

This is silly! I have a subscription, but have no clue how to customize my darn journal. It' needs to be epically David Bowie, though.

So.

I was planning on making this an epic journal of artistically featured proportions...but I'm not feeling up to it anymore. I will fo sho at a later date, but now is not the time. I'm not feeling so hot, not going to lie.
I kinda just want to be moody and listen to music all day.

But tomorrow is One Act auditions.

And I have to go be a director.

Good god, what was I thinking when I said yes to this. I'm a horrible organizer, I micro-manage, I don't have a car, I'll probably have to bum rides home from my own actors. How freakin embarrassing.

Whine whine bitch moan.

ANYWAY, life. Let's go live it, ya crazy fiend.

EDIT
OH GUYS.
MY ONE ACT IS GUNNA BE AWESOME.

Hey

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 04:42:17 PST

You guys.

You GUYS.

I love John Curly.

[And Happy New Year ;3 I gave you a biiiig fatty art update as a present.]

Before the Morning

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 24 Dec 2008 23:28:05 PST

Whatever you believe, I'll see you when I wake.

O HALO

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 14 Dec 2008 22:52:10 PST

HI MY NAME IS KATE AND I AM NOT UP WITH THE INTERNETS.

Which is to say that I have WAAAAY too many messages in my box and need to hurry up and reply to them. Geez Kate, y'spaz.

ALSO A PUBLIC THANK YOU TO FOR THE SUBSCRIPTION. I need to take advantage of it while I have it, so I'll need to make a header/footer. Anyone know how to do that?...

If anyone's interested in knowing, I am watching the Rurouni Kenshin series in its entirety for the first time. That show meant so much to me as a kid, and thanks to and the Tuxedo Cosplay Team I am rediscovering it anew for the truly spirited and beautiful story it is. Man, anime. I give up on you for being immature and not cool enough for school and then you go and surprise me by actually being really, real-world good. I can be so pretentious xD

P.S.;
DEAR COLLEGE,

WHY CAN'T YOU APPLY FOR YOURSELF.

SINCERELY FRUSTRATED, KATE

So here I am...

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 21:51:54 PST

...still on hiatus I guess.

This musical is taking all my energy.

There's nothing new to add. I'm not unhappy, there's just nothing new. When there is, y'all will be the first to know : )

....Warning; it will probably involve The Boosh.

LESBIANIC SUPERSONIC

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 14:15:46 PDT

That's right, ladies and germs; two new songs are now up on the Lesbianic myspace with more on the way. Myself and my best mate Seth stayed at my place until almost twelve last night cranking out a plethora of tunes for your listening experience and we invite you to come enjoy them with us. Bear in mind, it's just the two of us and Garageband, so if you find them not to be of the best quality, why then you are correct. But I believe we get our idea across.

It's quantity that counts, kids.

CHECKIN' YOU OUT WITH MY MIND;
[link]

Wine gums, envy, and pieces of rainbow

~memyselfandAyame — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 00:19:10 PDT

Soooooooooooooooo I'm being really lazy with messages right now, sorry guys. And updates, but I'm trying to stay as much with school as I can. Also because I've been too distracted watching MIGHT BOOSH CLIPS ON YOUTUBEZ? AND JULIAN BARRATT/NOEL FEILDING/RUSSELL BRAND??! British glamrock comedians, what will they think of next!

BOOSHBOOSHBOOSHBOOSHBOOSHILU.

I'm thinking about...

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 01:55:05 PDT

...asking for a donated subscription.

Of course, this means that if someone was willing - and only if they were willing, it's only hypothetical at this point - to come to some arrangement with me I would provide them with the required artistic payment for their generosity. And since it only seems fair, I guess that means I would draw oh...five or so things in return? Five full-blown art pieces of whatever they wanted, and I will do my darnedest to do whatever is asked. That number might also change according to how long the subscription would be.

So really, I'm hypothetically asking; would anyone be willing to buy me a subscription?

I'm filling up

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 21:44:16 PDT

...with optimism : )

That's actually a really beautiful word.

You guys are the BESTEST

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 21:46:54 PDT

So I love all the feedback I've been getting on the recent upload batch. I will reply to comments and favorites and such (all of which I'm as pleased as a punched porpoise about), but I am bogged down with a rather nasty cold and all I want to do is eat, sleep, and poop. Kind of like a second infancy...

SO YES, I love all of you and keep being there to let me know what you think!

A Letter

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 21 Sep 2008 09:50:46 PDT

Dear ~Chow-MeinVampire

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it that night in women's clothing and I saw you pull the toupee off my best friend. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that I did a sex-change. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of Oprah Winfrey imitations .

Good luck on your short term leave from jail,
-Alice-

[link]
TAGS

(you don't have to tag I guess, but I wanted to :3)

Look! A distraction!

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 00:34:28 PDT

Ha ha haaaa...
Yeah, this is just to get my last one off the front page. And because I love you all. Yes, that too.

Sweet baby Jesus on a stick, bowel movements. Don't get be started on bowel movements, I will beat any crusty old person in a bowel movements talk-off. Just be warned kids; never, under ANY circumstances, eat the burgers at Kidd Valley. F'real guys. Instead of being at the years' first football game, do you know what I was doing? Paying homage to the Porcelain God for an hour straight.

And that was probably way more than you needed to hear.

...

Um, look!

That Time O' Year

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 21:30:07 PDT

Laptops were handed out today, along with pictures and schedules. School hasn't actually started yet, they do this stuff beforehand, but it gets one in a school-oriented mindset. So.

I am a senior.

I am a wreck.

I want what I want.

I am scared shitless.

I know I will break down.

I already have.

This is it.

I hung out and went grocery shopping then saw a flick (with the groceries, cuz we didn't have time to walk to her place, unload, and walk back xD) today with the Tam to get my mind off college, which worked. I asked mom what I should do and she said, "Spend some time with someone who has their shit together. Imagine yourself in that setting."
Going to art college. Having a job. Owning an apartment. Grocery shopping. Seeing movies with friends on the fly. All things my flown, teenage, growing-up heart are burning for. There's this great fire in my brain goading me on with all these crazy ideals. I can't hardly concentrate on the now and the how of how I get there, it just wants to be there, which takes the whole point out of the journey. I'm gonna fucking write a song and wail it, excuse me.

Disgruntled

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 22:29:31 PDT

I am not at Nick's cabin right now because I decided that a three-hour rehearsal of R&J was more important. A rehearsal I could have easily missed.
And yet it was important, because it gave me the chance to deliver a goodbye present to someone important leaving for college. Even if I couldn't deliver it personally.

A lot of things have just not been going according to plan. The Tempest cast was supposed to see Dark Knight at the IMAX last night after our last show, but didn't because we didn't have enough time to get there. A close friend missed said show because I was stupid and forgot to see if she would be able to get a ride home (which she would have). It rained today. Again. Ugh ugh ugh.
But I know tomorrow will be better.

...Someone call me! I'll be so bored! T_T

It's all wonderful

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 00:18:43 PDT

I love it.

Reading all the sonnets. I'm making it my goal to memorize them all. Mom promised to get me a smaller book of them for Christmas.

Art is coming.
Music is coming.
Harmonica is coming.
Beauty is coming.
I am coming out.
ALL OVER.

SEEyuh

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 22:50:02 PDT

In the morning I'm away to Chelan for a week. Don't y'all be gettin' up to any shenanigans while I'm gone, hear?

There'll be plenty of arts when I get back!

OH HELLBOY 2/DARK KNIGHT

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:03:00 PDT

Way to steal my heart you big red jerk.

In actuality, it was that lanky hunk Abe Sapien that really made my thump-thump feel all kinds of funny. I always go for the lean, geeky, nice guy ones. YOU'RE A BABE, ABE .

ALSO THE DARK KNIGHT HELLZ TO THE YEAH???!! It was sweet, oh the pencil trick you tricksy tricksy Joker you. Except for the obsenely loud woman in the row behind me, and the seats were RIGHT THERE OH MAN MY NECK HURTS it was a killer movie.

Man, now I am seven shades of obsessed with all this comic madness. Which means possible arts?? A win win situation, says I.

I don't like it

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 19:37:28 PDT

Way to make things over-complicated, dA.
You are not my favorite right now.

I need someone to watch movies with.

Their ain't no pawteh like ma nana's tea pawteh!
DID STEVE TELL YOU THAT PERCHANCE?

Calling Major Tom, come in Major Tom...

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 06 Jul 2008 21:06:28 PDT

It'll be going on 34 hours of no sleep since yesterday. Man. MAN. I felt Tamlin and I were the only ones that had fun at Seth's birthday party. We were spending the night in her apartment (plus Felipe) and were watching Fight Club, Howl's Moving Castle, and Stargate Atlantis. Friggin Stargate Atlantis. I'm so in love with you now (and Ronon), with only because of all the jokes that come out of watching you late at night/early morning. SO MANY JOKES, guys. Jokes only Tamlin and I will ever understand, the rest of you have to be kept in the dark since you weren't there. That's how great these jokes were. OH MAN. Then at 6 or so we went out for coffee and sat in the park for a few hours and talked about our personal turn-ons for being attracted to someone (AND THEN WE FOUND SOME GUY'S CREDIT CARD. Curse the banks for being closed Sundays. Why is it that it's insanely difficult to do the right thing and get ahold of someone to tell them I have some guy's card and I want to give it back? IT'S INSANE, I TELL YOU. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU HAVE TO PEE REALLY BAD). Then proceeded back and tried to wake up the cuddling fags who were being ridiculous and had slept far too much we both thought, thank you very much. AND YET STILL MORE JOKES WERE BORN. Seriously, Tam, where have you and Ronon and FUCKIN MCKAY been all my life?
So much joy.

Fact tagged

~memyselfandAyame — Fri, 04 Jul 2008 02:37:49 PDT

Got this nice little tag from to list some character facts (wow, can you tell I'm tired?) The three that have not been introduced will be at some point, they are; my resident hippie (Chaba); from an alternate, manga version of Cinderella I and a few friends made up in middle school while in England (Malice/Charming). Fun and sprinkles.

1. When he was a kid, Brett wanted to be a cage fighter when he grew up. Any excuse to beat the grapes out of people was ok by him (and still is to some degree).
2. Crusade hates three things; beaurocrats, rabbits, and Jullian. Oh, and kidsÂ.And spaghetti.
3. ReiÂs only form of escape and meditation while on the Anchor is working out. You may frequently find him in the exercise room doing yoga or handstands against the wall. People have learned not to laugh at the yoga thing.
4. Chaba (unintroduced) is really gay for mango chutney bubble tea. One of the many ways in which I find him to be an adorably gross human being.
5. Margo remembers very little of the seven years she was married. Most of it sheÂs blocked out. She also enjoys harassing her cook, Tavish, trying to get him to speak. He has actually sworn at her in Norwegian a few times, immediately followed by feeling ridiculously embarrassed and hiding in the pantry. To all this Margo only laughs at him in a loving sort of way.
6. Raymund went through a phase where he was an art student in college with a rather nice amount of talent (nothing to be sneezed at), when he suddenly became disillusioned with the system and dropped out.
7. Prince Malice (unintroduced) used to play the harp up in his tower, but his brother (see #8) took it away after he tried to kill a serving maid with one of the strings. Without the outlet, this has caused him to be even more introverted and psychotic than usual.
8. Prince Charming (unintroduced) is horribly awkward with girls, especially those he gets up the courage to develop a crush on. Unfortunately for him, his brother (see #7) usually ends up scaring them away. Sadistic brother-in-laws are not a turn-on.

EDIT: Forgot to tag xD

Not enough time! + FRIGGINTAGGED

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 22:20:12 PDT

Hi y'all. So I know I've basically been none-existent since before summer started and for two reasons; 1) End of the year is always a bitch, and 2) Often times summers are even busier for me. Twelve hours of Shakespeare rehearsal every day (we're doing The Tempest, come see me be a rather sloshed butler) sort of takes the energy out of a person. So it's being busy, but a much nicer busy than being school busy. But I'm catching up! I promise! THOSE OF YOU WAITING ON TRADES, IT WILL BE DONE, ON MY LIFE I PROMISE YOU.

El, I wish you had a cookie or something so I could take it away and make you cry. Curse you so hard.

1. Are you scared of people hearing you pee?
The profoundness of this question escapes me.

2. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life what would it be?
Fried rice.

3. Spell your name how it sounds.
Kah-thah-rin

4. List one word to describe your personality.
Open.

5. What are your top 3 Turn Ons on the opposite sex?
Lean physique, dark hair, effeminate face.

7. Where do you see yourself in 6 years?
Hopefully out of college and immersed in the acting world.

8. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
My rose ring. Never take it off.

9. What type of service is your cellphone?
Ahhh, Nokia?

10. What do you hate most about Maine State?
The fact that they're a state. I mean ugh!, what's their deal?!
(JK)

11. What kind of car is your dream car?
I always wanted a black Lincoln Towncar. It's a bitchin' granny car. They don't make them anymore. Sad Kate.

12. Can you leave the house without makeup?
I have yet to have my face explode, so yes, everyday.

13. What are your top 3 favorite stores to shop at:
Value Village/thrift stores, Barnes & Noble, Aaron Brothers (art suppliesss!)

14. Do you consider yourself to be good-looking?
Yeah, but not as much as everyone thinks I am.

15. What do you miss about being a kid?
Innocence, having a brother.

16. What is your favorite animal?
Cats. They're cute and sneaky.

17. Do you think youÂre going to have a good Valentines Day?
Affiratory!

18. Apple, Orange, Cranberry juice?
OMG. OMG. CRANBERRY. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

19. Do you get enough sleep at night?
Never.

20. Favorite Channel on T.V?
58, 59

21. Are you dating the person you text most?
Why no, he's gay.

22. What's your favourite colour[s]?
I don't have favorite colors so much as favorite color schemes. I'm rather fond of earth tones and really bright candy colors.

23. What do you want?
My boyfriend to NOT GO TO CAMP FOR A WEEK DX

24. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
I'm counting a couch because it was a futon; Nate (Btw El, HAHAHAA.)

25. Do you talk to yourself?
Course I do.

26. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
Ew, no.

27. Who knows a dark secret or two about you?
f'sho, and :iconchowmeinvampire: and .

29. Do you like Batman?
FUCK yeah!

30. Who did you last hug?
Errr, Morgan? Yes, it was Morgan.

31. Do you swear at your parent(s)?
Not AT my parents, but in front of them? Occasionally.

32. Do you like anyone now? for real?
I like EVERYONE.

33. When was the last time you lied?
I don't keep track anymore.

34. Obama, Hillary, McCain, or Huckabee?
HAHAHA Huckabee. No, Obama all the way.

35. Is your birthday on a holiday?
It's about a month after Christmas.

36. What instant messaging service do you use?
Facebook.

37. Last thing you cooked today?
Well, I bought an egg salad sandwich on whole wheat with mayo and pickles at lunch...

38. Did you have a nap today?
Negatory.

39. Who's house did you go to last?
Gosh, I guess it was Nate's.

40. What are you currently listening to?
"Mukilteo Is For Lovers" ~Lesbianic

41. Why is the sky blue?
Because the earth is green. God had to have complimentary colors.

42. Do you like green beans?
Cooked in butter.

43. Do you swear a lot?
I find the use...

End of year face-stuffing

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 22 May 2008 21:22:06 PDT

AUGH, so I have about a squillion and one things on my plate right now with school letting out in a few weeks and me with semi-failing grades in two classes ( T^T ), so I'm doing my best to reply to things right now, but I'm just not spending a lot of time on the computer. I'm real sorry to all those who feel like you're being ignored, YOU'RE NOT (I'm sorry Elly my love!!!) I'm waiting for things to cool.

A week full of closure

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 12 May 2008 01:40:19 PDT

I guess you could call it that. Our closing night for Dancing at Lughnasa was yesterday night (along with an entertaining cast party and a rousing game of Duck Duck Moose; my right knee still aches like a mother) and went well. Good crowd, good energy, good Boxer Run 8D Got to see some people that I haven't in a while. It was strange; as anyone who knows me is aware, I will usually be bouncing off the walls with the adrenaline rush right after a show. But yesterday... there was this feeling of sadness? liberation? relief? satisfaction? Probably all of those things. It was real heavy stuff we were dealing with, and now it feels like the ending of a life; you mourn for it, but you exalt the time you spent with it. But I will miss you less and less as every day goes by, so it's said.

I dunno, I'm in a weird mood. I feel like writing a song, but never know what to write about. I drift that way.

Speaking of songs, today (yesterday, really) Seth and I finally got into a more-professional-than-ours home studio to record Mukilteo Is For Lovers for the Imprints magazine. It was a fun experience. The guy who's house it was at is the drummer for a local band out of SW called Faded Outlets. Their lead singer (Andrew, a real nice guy) is Asian and has a voice that sounds just like Kurt Cobain. It's freaky when he does Nirvana covers.

Old old neighbors we haven't seen in ten years came over and we all had margeritas and swapped stories at our new neighbor's house. They were yummy.

Comin' an' goin'

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 23 Apr 2008 20:14:57 PDT

elohel

So, things have been happening. I feel like I've traded the bad stress of History Day for the good stress of Lughnasa, the simple confusion of being single and fancied for the complicated confusion of a maybe-new beau (with whom I feel my emotions slipping into that fragile category known as "love"), the irritation at a self-induced art block to the irritation of never having enough blank paper handy. All-in-all, things are on the up and up. If only I can get my sleep back to being somewhat consistent and keep the meals coming, I'll be set.

My mom had a mini talk with me about starting to learn to take care of myself when I will no longer be living in the house (because I'm not going to lie, I'm lazy) and it was rather...shocking. I mean, I'll be leaving my house in a year or so. Thankfully, and with a wave and a smile, but still, the fact it would be happening so soon and what exactly that meant had slipped my mind for a time. This shall need some thinking on.

IN THE MEANTIME, I made myself a shirt! I designed something for a Day of Silence shirt for Friday and wore it today to show it off after staying up late last night to finish it. I'll upload a picture when I think of it xDD

The word of the day is: pIcKlE

On a more personal note

~memyselfandAyame — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 00:53:10 PDT

I've been really in touch with my Muses lately and felt the urge to share all the most recent of my really personal pieces. These are not the sorts of things I generally showcase, seeing as they tend to cause some amount of stress or discomfort from others on my behalf (I'm not actually depressed and suicidal anymore guys, so stop worrying xD) But anyway, they're all more conceptual/surreal and more to the style of my actual thinking process when it comes to things like stuff from my life or whatever.
So yeah, hope they don't freak anybody out, although I guess it's good if they do since that's what they're for xD.

~~~

This I posted in a note on Facebook and felt the need to put it here as well. The note was entitled 'What I need...' and it pretty much sums up the mood I've been in lately;

...is MORE.

I need Leonard Cohen. I need pale eyes. I need a still-life painting. I need a drum beat. I need free verse poetry. I need Walt Whitman. I need a good tryst. I need something tan. I need fresco. I need charcoal. I need Ghostbusters. I need a punch in the gut. I need chocolate hair. I need a secret jar. I need more boy-talk instead of girl-talk. I need more girl-talk instead of no-talk. I need something old, one thing new, nothing borrowed, and everything blue. I need a water fountain. I need rainbow sharpies. I need less passive-aggressive and more ACTIVE-aggressive. I need warmer feet. I need a jazz tune. I need passion.

I AM EXUBERANT.

Duuude!

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 22:29:26 PDT

Choir trip. Was. Awesome.

We went to Tacoma (lol Tacoma) for a high school exchange at Lakes High on Friday and a one-day jazz festival at PLU on Saturday. Sunday we went to the Point Defiance Zoo and I will be posting pictures once I email them to myself from my digital photography computer at school. Peacocks, guys. Lots of peacocks.

There were also some rather raunchy things that went on (so this one time, at choir camp....) It was sexy fun for all. ANYWHOO, yes. Tacoma. Fabulous. The weather was nice on the zoo day.

C-C-C-C-Ceili, you're the one I adore...

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 13 Mar 2008 22:14:50 PDT

Went to a ceili (pronounced KAY-lee) tonight, which is basically an Irish dance party. The reels were pretty sweet (although I came late and only got to do the group one at the end). It was highly recommended for those in the play to attend and most of the Mundy sisters were there. It was so cool!! I was, like, amongst my Irish people with my 90%-Irish self. The teacher lady with the mic sidled up to me when I passed and said "Well, aren't you a natural!" X3.

Sooooooo, yeah. I'll be in Tacoma all weekend for a choir trip, leaving tomorrow morning at 7 and ohh getting up early again (this was WASL week for the sophmores-everyone else sleeps in!)

AAAAAND yes. Um, OH! For English homework she assigned us to read "The Masque of the Red Death" and i was all like "Pshhh, man, I read that in fifth grade!" and Ms. Gade was all like "Really?!" and I was like "Yeah, I went through a Poe phase in elementary school where I read all his stuff".

You had to have been there.

~~

So I heard this gross story today in English about a woman in Wichita, Kansas who sat on a toilet seat in her boyfriend's house for TWO YEARS. She sat there so long her skin grew around the seat and it had to be surgically removed when her boyfriend finally called the cops Dx.

People these days.

Mimes are the new black

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 09 Mar 2008 21:43:51 PDT

DUDE.

DUDE.

Spent four hours yesterday being a mime.

IT WAS SO EPIC.

I'm still psyching out.

The Booster's Auction theme this year was A Night In Paris, so they needed some drama kids to come be mimes and Seth and I volunteered. I wish my memory card hadn't been full or I would have taken pictures. There'll be some showing up in The Enterprise anyway, so I'll show it off then, but DUDE. A form of comedy I hadn't yet tried. All the make-up trouble was so worth it.

How it worked was the mimes would follow around a person selling raffle tickets for some of the prizes in the auction and our jobs were basically to goof around and be ridiculous. Mimic people behind their backs, do somersaults, have fake duke-outs, pretend to beat up our raffle partners and steal people's drinks were all part of that. My partner was some big burly guy from the football team so I puffed myself up and walked all manly behind him. I made the cheerleaders laugh xD

Speaking of cheerleaders, we bugged them constantly, too. Always sneaking up behind them and holding our heads over their shoulders waiting until they turned around and jumped. It was so satisfying

I've always said that I love making people laugh, and oh baby, I felt so good about myself yesterday. I really felt like I was doing something important. So many people found us hilarious .

So much reading

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 23 Feb 2008 23:52:58 PST

I'm reading the play.
I'm reading GLBT.
I'm reading Mercedes Lackey (or trying to).
I'm reading Saiyuki fanfiction.
I'm reading poetry.
I'm reading messages.
I'm reading HISTORY DAY.

So much reading.

Dur duh Dur!

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 17 Feb 2008 20:19:10 PST

Got into the show!!
In case I didn't mention that xD
Coincidentally, the name of my character is also Kate. So there won't be any confusion when Ms. Lachman's calling names.

"Ok, now Kate-"
*turn* "Huh?"
"No...not you."
"Oh."
AWKWARD GIRAFFE

Which also means that I get to yell at people! Huzzah! She's sort of the iron hand in the house, making sure everything's the way it should be. Yet another role to force me out of my comfort zone. It's delicious.

I wasn't that excited about it before, but now I'm really freaking excited.

Happy IDEALISTIC Valentine's Day

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 20:29:56 PST

Because people (in general) need to bitch less

Also, because I'm too happy a person to be depressed by a single holiday. I support the idea of a day of love, not the corporate hassle. Think about it! A whole day devoted to loving something. Not just a person, but anything you want.

At the very least, I wish you all a happy day. I hope at least one good thing happens.
MAKE CHOCOLATE, NOT WAR

~**EDIT**~
My day was full of gay things.

Gay people; they're everywhere!
And I love them. So much.

I wore my rainbow heart pin and earrings to represent.

And I found out an ADORABLE fact about a friend (that I'm not allowed to share), but it made me so friggin happy

And I wanted to check out two books from the library from the GBLT section that the librarian had pulled out during our booktalk (she had tables with Native American, African-American, Asian, Hispanic, GBLT, and disabled stories for us to look through), but I had an overdue book and couldn't Dx< A trip to the public library may soon be happening.

And Nick and I sent each other flower grams, but mine got lost But he got his

AND CALLBACKS WERE AWESOME. Yelling in an Irish accent must be one of the top ten most fulfilling activities ever.

WHOA GUYS. WHOA.

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 23:32:21 PST

Made it to One Acts finals.

WHOA.

A big deal 1)because I didn't think we would and 2)I dunno, I got pulled into the cast right before the week of dress rehearsals, so I guess I didn't feel as connected to it as everyone else. Like, it wasn't as big a deal if we won. BUT WE DID. And I'm excited; I've never actually made it to finals before! How fitting that it should be for a play that I've only been involved with for a week xD. Irony, you slay me so Xcore.

Also, I was really impressed with everyone's work. I don't think there was a single bad play in the whole festival and we've had some rotten eggs in the past. Gosh, everyone is so amazing xD

My throat is gross and dead. It's like, the mucas wants to drip down my throat, but it's too solid and stuck there where the two air passages meet. Ew. Ew ew, ew.

COME SEE FINALS 8D

P.S. Sorry if it's taking so long for me to reply to some stuff. I'm setting all my chicks straight for the start of the second semester.
P.P.S. OMG DIGITAL PHOTOGRAPHY WITH BALLEW. I"M PSYCHED.

character survey

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 19:39:36 PST

Blatantly ripped from ~waywardsailor in the name of procrastination. And actually figuring out character details.

1. Crusade
2. Jon
3. Rei
4. Jullian
5. Michelle
6. Marcus

1) How old are you?
Crusade: It's hard to tell. At least 300 or so.
Jon: Um, I think my appearance is around 25?
Rei: Same here.
Jullian: 17.
Michelle: 28 creation years.
Marcus: 32.

2) Height?
Crusade: 6Â 5Â
Jon: 5Â 10
Rei: 5Â 11
Jullian: 5Â 4
Michelle: 5Â 6Â
Marcus: 5Â 3Â

3) You got any bad habits?
Crusade: Killing people, drinking, getting shitfaced. I canÂt hold me ale!
Jon: Some people tell me IÂm too cheerful
Rei: I donÂt talk much.
Jullian: * sigh * Being anal.
Michelle: I can have a bit of a temper.
Marcus: If you call trying to appreciate all the beauty IÂm surrounded with a bad habit, then yes :3
Jullian: No one likes you.
Marcus: * sigh * You all make it so hardÂ.
Jon: ÂI like youÂ.

4) You a virgin?
Crusade: * grin * Definitely not. AinÂt that right, Michelle?
Michelle: Kindly keep your mouth shut before I phaser your face off -_-;;;
Jon: * blush * Yes.
Rei: YesÂ.
Jullian: Well, I certainly would hope I was.
Crusade: Aw, the baby afraid of pussy? >:3
Jullian: HATE. DX<
Marcus: No, honey, IÂm not.

5) Sexual orientation?
Crusade: Straight and only straight.
Jon: Ah, straight I guess?
Rei: So am I.
Michelle: DonÂt lie, you two are totally doing each other.
Jon: Dx No weÂre not!
Rei:Â.No.
Michelle: Sure, whatever.
Jullian: * sigh * Straight.
Michelle: Straight.
Marcus: Gay! ^_^

6) Have any kids?
Crusade: None that I know of.
Jon: Nope! ^_^
Rei: No.
Jullian: You must be joking.
Michelle: Ah, no. No. *shudder*
Marcus: *laugh* No.

7) Favorite drink?
Crusade: Alcohol. I like a good red wine. And blood.
Jon: Fizzy things. They make my nose tingle.
Rei: The juice from a desert fruit on my planet. It has all sorts of healing properties. And itÂs delicious.
Jullian: Espresso.
Michelle: Champagne.
Marcus: Fruit cocktails!

8) Favorite ice cream flavor?
Crusade: Jamaican rum >:3
Jon: Sherbet.
Rei: Vanilla
Jullian: Chocolate chip mint.
Michelle: New York cheesecake.
Marcus: Chocolate fudge.

9) Killed anyone?
Crusade: Yep.
Jon: Only out of necessity and even then I didnÂt like it.
Rei: Â.
Jullian: IÂve seen people get killedÂ
Michelle: Yes I have.
Marcus: HeavenÂs, no. I hope I never have to.

10) Hate anyone?
Crusade: A certain four-eyed, smart-ass brat.
Jullian: Right back at you, jerk.
Jon: I hate people who torture others.
Rei: IÂhate anyone who threatens Jon.
Michelle: I HATE BABIES D: So much noiseÂ.
Marcus: Player-haters; the big-headed, ignorant, pissant kind.
Jullian: Funny, thatÂs how IÂd describe Crusade.
Crusade: I am not ignorant, you little fuck!! Or a pissant!
Jullian: I bet you donÂt even know what a pissant is.
Crusade: *sound of teeth grinding* *mutters* If I werenÂt under contract, I swear to GodÂ.
Marcus: Well, I put up with him *wink*. Being all heroically dashing and all *eyelash flutter*
Crusade: NO.

11) Any secrets?
Crusade: My Second and Third names, among other things.
Jon: I suppose, doesnÂt everyone?
Rei: Not many.
Jullian: Nothing very interesting. (IÂm a closet-lover of techno.)
Michelle:ÂYes.
Marcus: Maybe, what are you willing to do to find out? ;3

12) Love anyone?
Crusade: Yes.
Jon: Yes! *smiles at Rei*
Rei: *tiny blush* *smiles back*
Michelle: And you say youÂre not doing each other.
Jon: OMG We are not!! WeÂre just soul-brothers!
Rei: ActuallyÂno.
Michelle: *smirk*
Jullian: I try not to. They all end up getting killedÂ.
Michelle: YesÂ.
Marcus: I try, but no one will let me T-T

13) TACOS?
Crusade: Not unless it has lots of meat.
Jon: Huh? What are they?
Rei:Â.
Jullian: I likeÂsalad.
Michelle: Burritos are better. And less messy.
Marcus: Not fond of Mexican food, though I am fond of many Mexicans B3
Jullian: OMG please shut up DxÂ.

14) Ever slept in all day?
Crusade: Only if IÂve been knocked out by a serious injury.
Jon: Sometimes itÂs nice to sleep in, but not all day...

CLARK COLLEGE PWNGE

~memyselfandAyame — Sat, 26 Jan 2008 14:56:22 PST

That's right, kats'n'kittens, the SW After Hours Jazz Choir took home the first place plaque in the triple-A division. Which basically translates to AFSHLKJSHERLKJBFGAKWEHFKKEWE'RENUMBERONEGUYS.

I am...beyond pleased. I think everyone was expecting we'd make finals, but not this. There was one school in particular (Battle Ground High) that we felt had us beat easy. I am also tickled pink to announce that I received an Outstanding Musician Award, one of only four to be given out between the seven schools to make it to finals.

(Gahh, I have Erin and Elly coming over really soon, so I'll continue with the details later.)

A jolly holiday indeed

~memyselfandAyame — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 16:53:40 PST

Thanks for dying on my birthday, Heath Ledger. You prick .
There's this weird small, sickly feeling in my heart that shouldn't be there.
I'll make sure to buy all your movies that I don't already own.

Suzanne also lost a cousin she was apparently close to.

So, ah, besides that, I'm 17? Happy birthday to me! I feel something different about being 17, but I'm not sure I like it yet. And I felt sick this morning when I drank coffee on an empty stomach. *Sigh*

We're going to Wendy's for my birthday dinner. I'm excited^^.

PS. Bleach is the beez knees, guys. I'm really diggin it. Ichigo/Ishida is the crackiest, cutest thing since Axel/Roxas, or Harry/Draco (if you're into that...) Or PEANUTBUTTER&JAM.
Jam is so uke

So basically...

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 20:30:52 PST

If you were suddenly ruler of the planet, the first seven things you'd do are:

1. Make being gay universally acceptable. Period.

2. Have a mandatory Chill-Period everyday; listen to music, read, draw, smoke pot and fantasize, whatever floats your boat. Everyone would get time to reflect on themselves and whatever philosophical problem they feel the need to wrap their cranium's around. This way, people could concentrate better (not harder, but better) during the day, knowing they'll have that time to themselves no matter what.

3. Decrease the homework load; not to encourage stupidity, but to encourage the slower and more permanent retention of knowledge.

4. Put everyone on an alternate energy source. Different sources for different environments.

5. Ban the banning of books and/or boobs.

6. Encourage a more androgynous frame of mind towards things like stereotypes and gender roles. Also just in general.

7. Legalize marijuana (this is me afterall. Of course I'd condone illegal things xD.)

~~~

So basically, my planet would be a bunch of free-thinking hippies, but what's so wrong with that?

I taaaag ~NonchalantConcern, and ~starlight-mustang.

A Fish-Cooking Adventure

~memyselfandAyame — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 00:09:21 PST

So mom calls me at home and asks me to look thru the new Teen Cook Book she got to find something for dinner. I decide on Potato Chip-Crusted Whitefish with Potato Wedges and she's like MMKAY. In order to crush the potato chips I had to put them in a plastic bag and beat them with a rolling pin. Most therapeutic thing I've done in AGES, you have no idea. No really, you don't.

So, being as it's me, I thought I would share with you some of the more golden moments from cooking with my mother;

Kate: *spreading potato wedges on cookie sheet*
Mom: You don't have to spread them that much, we'll be coating them in oil anyways.
Kate: But we could arrange them artistically *in a nit-picky manner, moves wedges around until they're perfect*
Mom: *chuckles* You know, since you can cook -well, I hope^- and you're so funny*, you'd do great on a cooking show, keeping people entertained! The next Rachel Ray, or Emmeril.
Kate: Ha ha, like Rachelemmeril. Rrracheril.... Heh :3
~~
Kate: *holds up hands, fingers coated in breading* I'm Mister Breadfingers!
Mom: What?
~~
Kate: *mixing tartar sauce* I didn't know you could make tartar sauce with pickles.
Mom: *rummaging in fridge, not listening* I bet there are tons of ways to make tartar sauce.
Kate: Just like there's a ton of ways to make chili. *thinks about it* I bet you could make pickle chili.
Mom: What?
Kate: It would be like pickle soup.
Mom: Oh...

And then I ate half a lemon. My face was like this ---> SOURFACE IS SOUR.

(*Did you see that? My mom says I'm funny.)
(^But she doesn't think I can cook.)

I want to touch it...

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 07 Jan 2008 19:18:42 PST

So I'm sitting here, eating mini-quiches (what is the plural of quiche?) and I thought I would take this time to document the beginning of my journey towards bettering myself artistically.

Over the past couple weeks I've been sucked to the computer screen, drooling over the Anatomically Awesome works of *Jubilations and *ImageC0rrupt3d and just generally getting myself all in a tizzy with skillz-envy. Last night I says to meself "Well hot dog, Kate, ya gotta start somewhere!", so for practice I went back thru my old old old scetchbooks (uh, yeah, lots of shirtless guys, itÂs what all the cool angsty kids were drawing. Besides, the bare male torso entranced me then, it entrances me now) to look for things I could redraw or whatev. I also came across this [link] and this [link] in my search today for reference material. I highly encourage all yÂall to check ArtistÂs Hospital if youÂre looking for help or encouragement.

So basically, the whole point of this journal was to inform yÂall that if you see all these submissions of hawtyz with bawdyz itÂs because IÂmÂ practicing. MmyesÂm.

AH WEEL CONCOR DIS MOUNTANN.
Wish meh lukk.

liquid-brain

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 27 Dec 2007 15:30:58 PST

I'm tired.
I do not want to be in my house.
But I don't want to finish my homework.
Graaaaah.

The scanner works like a dream. How convenient it is that I just now realize how little colored pieces I have ._o *twitch*.

I have nothing else to say.

Except AHRJKFDBLJHVMoondanceandStarwindaresopre tty_

Having Hives on Christmas

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 00:00:53 PST

I'm covered in tiny red welts and I itch all over, guys. I think the reindeer snuck into my room last night and were scratching fleas on me.
God is laughing at me right now.

Besides that, I got a wonderful new sound system and Bright Eyes/Snow Patrol CDs to test it out with. And a really keen Wizardology calendar with tarot cards 8]. AND IT"S SNOWING. And we went to see National Treasure; Book of Secret, which was so keen ^_^.

I picked up my first Mercedes Lackey book (Magic's Pawn) last Friday and have been thoroughly addicted to it since then. Unfortunately, it's also made me feel inherently depressed about life. The main character Vanyel is a newly out-of-the-closet (yeah, you read right) young noble in a typical medieval fantasy setting who's life is an incurable Vacuum of Suck. It's currently taking second-place on my list of Things Kate Has As An Equivalent To Crack. Brett and Jamie are first, but just barely.

p.s. GUESS WHAT I GOT FROM SANTA YOU GUYS.
YEAH, A SCANNER.

p.p.s. Okay, maybe it isn't exactly hives (seeing as I have never had hives, I wouldn't know), but when I said I was covered, I didn't realize to what extent that was true until I came out of the shower. I feel slightly greasy with all the anti-itch cream I have slathered all over . Plus I have to try not to move. It invokes their wrath .

p.p.p.s. It's spreading folks. I am not liking this. And I love you all dearly, but if anyone makes the suggestion to 'just stop scratching', I'm sorry, but I will backhand you in the face. Itchyyyyyyyy T-T.

Snow, then rainrainrain

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 20:04:31 PST

My basement flooded today. But just a little bit.

Ok, I am here to tell you all that the new miniseries Tinman on the sci-fi channel is rather excellent. Alan Cumming is the most adorable glitchy "scarecrow" ever. Seriously. I love him lots . The second part is on tonight at nine!

So I was doing the gift wrap thing at Toys-R-Us from one to four on Saturday when it starts snowing. And not just half-assed 'oh, I think I'll raise your hopes for a snow day and then DASH THEM ON THE ROCKS OF UNFAIRNESS' little slushy flakes. We're talking 'OH HAI THER IM HALF THE SIZE OF YOUR CAR' flakes. It was sort of insane. And then it all went away the next day when it started raining like it was nobody's business. Stinker.

(I'm kind of going in reverse order with all of this, but whatev.)
Friday was our jazz concert at Bellevue Comm. College. I didn't really realize what an honor it was to be there until I realized there were only three groups performing and we were the only high schoolers. Oh Lord, the BCC group was amazing. I've never - I can't - ...wow. I enjoyed their scat solos the most. One guy looked JUST LIKE James freaking Taylor. Hand him a white fedora and he'd be the best damn impersonator ever. Guh. Except, really, the most exciting part was the car ride there. Words can't properly form themselves to describe the pain and frustration involved in that trip. Nobody had the directions to get there, we called people and either didn't get ahold of them, didn't get clear-enough directions, or got five different directions all contradictory to each other. Poor Nick was driving T_T. We barely got to Red Robin in time to get food. When I went to grab a chair I wasn't paying attention to the fact that the table was taken, so the guy was like "Ah, excuse me?" So I go to put it back and I hear him say under his breath "Thanks for asking." I SWEAR TO GOD I WOULD HAVE KNOCKED HIS FUGGING HEAD OFF. YOU JUST SHUT UP AND SIT THERE QUIETLY WITH YOUR SKINNY, BUTT-UGLY GIRLFRIEND AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. It was running through my mind at the time. Not happy-happy joy-joy was I. Anyway.
The one nice about it was the sunset. All gold and creamy and the sun twinkled like a friggin ruby. No joke.

Ima go finish character bios. Forgive my disregard to basic grammar and sentence structure throughout this journal. I'm suffering from liquid-brain at the moment.

Gurrrr...

~memyselfandAyame — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 00:00:53 PST

Uh, yeah.

Third night of the play was tonight. Weekday crowds are always such humourless zombies . But a few really good friends were there! So I tried hard for them ^^. I got a few more bruises to add to my growing collection. Ow.

I was totally hanging out in the guys bathroom checking my phone messages today. It was pleasurable. (?!?!)

P.S.: Laudamus te = LOUD MOOSE TEA.

Oh choir jokes. They slay me.

LULZ Fear

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 15 Oct 2007 22:18:56 PDT

This kind of makes me laugh-out-loud, if you know what I mean.

If you get more than 20 youÂre paranoid.

If you get 10-20 then you are normal.

If you get 10 or less youÂre fearless.

People who donÂt have any are full of shit!

I FearÂ

1. [] the dark (not anymore)
2. [x] staying single forever
3. [] being a parent
4. [x] giving birth ( I watched an episode of Deep Space Nine as a kid where Kira was giving birth and it looked REALLY painful )
5. [] being myself in front of others
6. [] open spaces
7. [x] closed spaces (with white walls, yes, I really do)
8. [x] heights
9. [] black cats
10. [x] dogs
11. [] birds
12. [] fish
13. [x] spiders (DUH)
14. [] flowers or other plants (lol what? xDD)
15. [] being touched
16. [] fire
17. [x] deep water (sharks!!!)
18. [] lakes
19. [] silk
20. [] the ocean
21. [] failure
22. [] success
23. [] thunder/lightning
24. [] frogs/toads
25. [] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
26. [] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
27. [] mice/rats
28. [x] jumping from high places (I'll break my neck or shatter my pelvis or snap my femur-*BRICK'D*)
29. [] snow
30. [] rain
31. [] wind (LOVEIT)
32. [x] crossing hanging bridges (um, who besides Indiana Jones wouldn't?)
33. [] death
34. [] heaven
35. [x] being robbed
36. [x] falling
37. [] clowns
38. [] large crowds of people
39. [] men
40. [] women
41. [] having great responsibilities
42. [] doctors, including dentists (I've never understood this one)
43. [] tornadoes
44. [] hurricanes
45. [] incurable diseases
46. [] snakes
47. [x] sharks
48. [x] Friday the 13th
49. [x] ghosts
50. [] poverty
51. [] Halloween
52. [] school
53. [] trains
54. [] odd numbers
55. [] even numbers
56. [x] being alone (at night)
57. [] becoming blind
58. [x] becoming deaf (it would SUCK)
59. [x] growing up (srsly, never will I grow up)
60. [] monsters under my bed
61. [x] creepy noises in the night (too much CSI x< )
62. [] bee stings
63. [x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals (please oh please oh please I wanna get into a good school ><
64. [x] needles (when getting my blood drawn)
65. [x] blood (when having it drawn)
66. [x] dinosaurs if they were alive (wouldn't you?)
67. [x] the welcome mat (dude, those ones that screach at you around Halloween? they freak me out)
68. [] high speeds
69. [] throwing up
70. []falling in love (haha. ha)

Score: 23 D:

I knew it.

PMS, for the lose

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 20:23:26 PDT

Yeah, today was wild T_T.

Until today I couldn't have made the claim of needing so much coffee to keep me awake that my hands start shaking. I can now stake that claim. It was weird, guys.
And a couple mood swings later I'm sitting in class doing a practice timed SAT essay prompt about whether normal people can be heroes and realizing I don't actually have a hero. Well, maybe one, but I can't quite describe them as a hero. It's...different. So I'm sitting there, already stressing out because I'm NEVER good at writing when I'm timed, plus thinking about somewhat painful things, then going to rehearsal and dealing with a totally incompetant lead actor....
I'm going to do something fun tomorrow.

ElfQuest?! ElfQuest.

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 23 Sep 2007 14:14:34 PDT

Seriously guys. If anybody knows a good place to buy the volumes, let me know. Or I could resort to buying them online. Either way.

I am on the biggest ElfQuest-crack crave ever; a need made worse because I don't have any right now at the moment. I'm totally going to the library tomorrow. Or today; are they open on Sundays? Hmm....

Another exciting bit of news, I found a pad of watercolor paper someone gave me for my birthday aaaaages ago (might have been Milly...actually it probably was). So some ElfQuest watercolor art might be happening? Maybe? Here's the website for all y'all that don't know what I'm talking about [link]

...IF I CAN FIND A GORRAM SCANNER THAT IS. @#!$*!?/.

hi guys

~memyselfandAyame — Tue, 18 Sep 2007 17:59:50 PDT

So recieved the birthday present I sent her and it's so exciting. Oh Caitlyn Caitlyn Caitlyn, you are my favorite .
My scanner situation is getting desperate. All I need now is the stupid software for the computer. I tried a download site last night, but the model I have is one of five out of one hundred that doesn't work with my computer. I hate technology.
But I'm doodling! I feel accomplished. Note to personal friends; I can now claim to have watched the entirety of Firefly. The movie is next. I am EXCITED . I have not yet picked who is my favorite...

Wash =

Dur, school.

~memyselfandAyame — Sun, 09 Sep 2007 16:46:08 PDT

And laptops!
With a five-hour-a-day limit on the weekends.

WHAT.

And other such restrictions that get me hot under the collar. Thanks Mr. Dunbar.

Aaaaaaand I think my scanner will be fixed soon!
You: Jesus, it took you long enough, Kate. Finally some actual art from your lazy ass.
Me: Ya I know tell me about it.
EXCITED.

I'm sick. I hate being sick. And it's this kind of sick [link] *picks at nose crust*.
Guuuuhhh.

Edit
BTW, I was also dragged to my brother's soccer game yesterday. Which I would have enjoyed. If I wasn't sick. And if it weren't freezing. And if my hair wasn't irritating my dribbling nose . I do not enojoy the watching or the participating in sports, no I do not. Even though I went to a tailgate party for the first football game of the year on Friday and ate almost a whole slab of steak (which was delicious).
The girls of jazz choir this year went for a second round of dress shopping yesterday as well. Anyone who knows me is aware of how much I hate shopping for clothes that look great on other people, but horrible on me (i.e. dresses), and how bitter and spiteful and frustrated that makes me feel. Multiply that by the fact that I'm exhausted with a headache and add in how I can't voice my bitterness because I'm with people I don't want to feel awkward with my behavior, plus shopping for FOUR 1/2 HOURS.....and that's basically what the last half of my day felt like. But we found I dress that we all really like and is so gorgeous. It looks very much like something a 20's jazz singer would wear in some nightclub in New York . So pretty!!

gugh, tagged...

~memyselfandAyame — Wed, 29 Aug 2007 19:23:44 PDT

Curse you, Nehemet.
Six random things;

1) I currently feel rather ill physically and like shit mentally.
2) I'm afraid to sleep in my own house.
3) I'm afraid of dogs, yet I dog-sit for $200 a week.
4) I miss musical theatre.
5) I will soon be join the actor's union AFTRA.
6) I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I'll tag people later.

GEEK

~memyselfandAyame — Thu, 23 Aug 2007 01:16:31 PDT

Oh, I so am.

My geekiness blows me away, guys, srsly.

Things I Own That Are Harry Potter (Besides The Books):
A Gryffindor tie.
A Slytherin tie.
A Gryffindor knitted scarf (made by me).
A Slytherin knitted scarf (made by friend Caitlyn).
A Gryffindor tank top.*
A Slytherin shirt.
A Gryffindor jumper.
A Gryffindor book bag.*
A Gryffindor keychain.*
A "Sorcerer's Stone" movie poster.*
The "Sorcerer's Stone" soundtrack.*
A "Platform 9 3/4 Hogwarts Express" hanging sign.*
Dumbledore's wand.*
(* = Things bought within the last month.)

THIS LIST WILL CONTINUE TO GROW, MARK YOU ME.

Went shopping at Hot Topic for the third time this month. There's always so much cool stuff after a book/movie comes out. Yes. My dogsitting clients pay well.

guh...?

~memyselfandAyame — Mon, 06 Aug 2007 21:58:28 PDT

Soooo, ye olde summertime. Have been avoiding the internets for most of it. Not having the school-issued laptops anymore dampens the experience. And being in King Lear is like having my energy constantly sucked like monthly blood pumpings. Except less blood.

Have I mentioned I love Harry Potter 7?
I love Harry Potter 7.
OH SNAPE YOU ARE SO BEAUUUUTIFUL TO MEEEEE .