deviantART: by:meth http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:meth&section=today deviantART RSS for by:meth en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 21:00:05 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png just blues and grays http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/27177679/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/27177679/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 19:47:59 PDT

i haven't produced any "art" for months
i only ever came on here to be weird

but im not weird anymore

well
no
i am
but i try to be less public about being weird

i try to be less public in general and have reverted back to my ignorepeopleatallcosts attitude, i just want a holiday from noises and bodies and movement and how are you?s and howisyoursummer?s and weneverreallytalkanymore....s


ohhh im getting weird again, i need to buy an excercise book and scribble the shit out of it

lol did i just threaten an exercise book?


anyway.. what?
ohyeah

I need to get off my arse and start creating and stop being weird
and see a dr.. and probably a dentist.. and an optician

tho, fun story
about a month ago I went along the opticians and nearly passed out 'cus i hadn't eaten, barely slept and the back of my eye was grossing me out (yakno where they shine a light back there and you can see the veins(?)) it was JUST like this [link]
the optician being Glenn Beck and i being David Buckner. we were also discussing Obama's "path to destruction" aswell, odd.

my friends are no fun, none have heard of Beck, Limbaugh or even fox news.


seen that episode of sarah silverman program where she gets high and calls herself? i've been recording conversations between a drunk me and my friend stephen, apparently i don't think highly of the pyramids and i can hear my dad in me. i knooooow "you're not your father" but you are 50% of him and thats undeniable.

ok one last thing just so its off my mind...
to answer an earlier question, here is how my summer has been...
ive seen things that have made me ..apathethic
things where im just like "so?"
like the piercing sounds of jack screaming at my dad to stop hitting his mother.
or the way he throws huge tantrums everytime someone leaves the house because everyone has threatened to fuck off so many times he has no trust in us when we say we'll be back.
or the image of my father holding a knife staggering, stinking, screaming.. n we lock him in a room so he doesn't disturb whatever tv show is on in the next room.
or the fact i heard that fucker claim that i'm who i am because he beat me as a child. if im a success its down to his drunken ass? him throwing me out the house at 12 yr old and leaving me on my mother's doorstop hoping she was still awake so i wasn't locked out in the middle of the fucking night. perhaps they should put that in the curriculum to build children's characters? (my father is a school teacher btw)

how does a person become apathetic to a child's crying? some nights i can look at jack and feel nothing but the annoyance that his crying is drowning my itunes. some days i just get so angry .. at irrelevant things, things that happened months ago but for whatever reason jump into my mind and i turn to my left.. and there's jack. there's my release for anger. and if i was to record my actions and view them back they'd most definiately make me ill.. or i wouldn't care. because thats my normality, thats why my father doesn't care because thats his normality.. and his father before him. and for my son? i dunno. there's no much violence in this house. in all of us, there's not a single person here who hasnt swung a punch at another of us. it's exhausting. anyway..

i wonder what made it so easy for me to disown my own mother but this man, the same man who for a day acted as if i was literally invisble cus i let slip he smacked me to a teacher in primary school.. he still has my loyalty



ah i ended up being weird again

nevermind.. we all need a release whether its in spoken word or written
image or sound
relationship or substance

so thats my summer, thats how i've been, thats why we don't talk anymore and thats why i need to start creating again....

sorry for my poor writing. i write as things come to mind.

]]> ~meth unknown muslim protest http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23834015/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23834015/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:58:07 PDT I was back home (my w.yorks home) this weekend, visiting a friend, and whilst approaching the train station I came head to head, literally, with a protest march. Quickly got some phone-cam shots;

1.* 2. & 3.
* His sign says "Love for Hummanity what you love for yourself"
** The men carrying orange bags have sweeties in there
*** Check out the fat kid looking at me, lol


I'm not entirely sure what they were protesting for, to be honest with you when I first saw the row of Imams (muslim priest) leading the march yelling into megaphones I expected the worst, from both the protesters and "on lookers" but they were happy to have me walk along side of them and shoot some film photographs at a closer distance, and the pedestrians let 'em do their thing, at least for the 10 or 15 minutes I was with them. The people in their photographs are all men because the women were following behind them in vechicles.

I asked the old man (white beard, glasses) what was happening but all I could make out was "bratfud" (Bradford) and he carried on handing out STRAWBERRY quality street chocolates. nicely played old muslim man. I couldn't hear clarity in their yelling from the music they were playing over themselves, through an old skool ghetto blaster.



I also managed to record a 'Jesus Rap' in Manchester city centre yesterday morning, also on my way to the train station. By that I mean I was recording Christian demonstrators rapping about Jesus, I wasn't recording a Jesus rap single or anything... although....




and I sent a mothers day card (it's progress)


]]> ~meth irish people and other observations http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23752236/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23752236/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 18:23:32 PDT
My friend Amar has never experienced St.Patricks day before, coming from the sober country of Pakistan, sober of both alcohol and Irishness, wasn't aware of the err.. holiday? Plus since he broke (I use that term very loosely) his arm he doesn't leave the house so he never saw any signs, leaflets or leprechauns so it was pushed onto him quite suddenly and the utter fear he must've felt at such a spectacle is unimaginable. Similar to the haunting clips they show on charity adverts I imagine, everything in greyscale with Jeff Buckley as a backing track. In slo mo.

When I recieved the phone call Amar had taken refuge in his house, observing from his 4th floor kitchen window, astonished at what he described as "insane half naked people painted green". I, as any good friend would do, decided to feed his fear by acting equally baffled.

"Oh wow. They must be on drugs. Definitely. It's definitely drugs. Stay away, it's really dangerous."

I then explained that in the UK, we have industrial drugs. Hallucinating drugs that cause the human mind to seek the colour of green as it represented nature and a primitive, more comforting state .. that somehow also means you have to wear massive hats. Then I got stuck and couldn't bullshit about giant green hats (who could?). Then I had to hand the phone over to me housemate, who is from Northern Ireland, and was off his face.. and still is atm, to explain the situation. But Amar can't understand the Irish accent let alone a drunk, contemplating Irish accent..
Then I briefly heard "What, Daniel has drugs that makes you see trees?"

Anyway, I missed st.patricks day because I was asleep, I took so many stimulants during the day that I crashed very badly and literally felt like a walking bag of shit. My friend Sam refuses to celebrate it because nobody cares about St.David (thats the dude of Wales) and the Welsh are really sensitive about stuff like that. And everything else.
(Wales is a country attached to England, by the way).
His heart broke when he was bragging about Wales having the fastest powerplant in the UK, and I replied "THATS because they have the slowest people though" and he had to leave the room he was so mad.

WHY IS IT SO DAMN WARM?!? I've been boiling for about a week, I dunno if its me.. it's march, it's Britain... it has to be me doesn't it? I think if the temperature was warm it would've been on the news by now though.


]]> ~meth art is demanding man http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23634293/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23634293/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 20:25:42 PDT

im soooo swamped at the moment.. I don't know if it's cool to say swamped anymore.. erm..

anyway at the moment I have so many things fighting for my attention, yet I still manage to waste hours doing pointless activities. if I direct my list into the universe it should somehow make it easier.

-I'm in the middle of three books..
(the classic) "Catch 22" by Joeseph Heller that someone handed me aaaages ago and I'm still only a third through.
"Choke" by Chuck P (cus I wanna see the film after)
and "Persepolis" by Marjane Satrapi 'cus I saw the film based off the graphic novel and thought it was quite funny. I'm almost finished there 'cos graphic novels go weeee.

-My list of films on lovefilm.com is at 33, eeeek... with two titles currently at home.

-There's a film festival this week I'm trying to attend as much as possible, and I'll rent the titles I miss.

-I have to write a backlog (is that a thing?) and reviews of all the exhibitions and design lectures I've attended since Christmas, for my journal.

-FOUR uni assignments.. virtually none started all with looming deadlines.

-A couple of albums I've had awhile and haven't listened to properly yet. Including Propagandhi's new album :|

-Exhibitions running that I haven't attended yet.

-Found out there's a bar in Manchester that screens "freaky" or banned films FOR FREE on Sunday nights.

-Bought a new fish-eye lense for my Holga.
-Have 3 unused films, one expiring in June eek.

aaaaand I'm playing GTA San Andreas for the billionth time. If the government charged men to play video games by the hour there would be no credit crunch.
I'm swapping art, music and film for 4 hours of blowing shit up in a tank. it's genetic, I can't help it...
(ohmygod I played skate 2 on my friend's xbox 360. I NEED AN XBOX 360. SERIOUSLY.)

all this yet I still have mass amounts of free time. I think not sleeping is not good OR it's the best thing that's ever happened to me.


]]> ~meth twitter is the most boring online fad yet http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23612562/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23612562/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 15:59:12 PDT







*ohohoh my week is full :D [link]

]]> ~meth in for an uncomfortable year of music http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23140951/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23140951/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 15:09:37 PST
[link]

[link]

I didnt think it was important when i first heard two days ago but then a fellow bitter human being pointed me in the direction of [link] and
" [After American Idiot] we asked how much more ambitious can we be? We could take a sideways step or go back to our roots. We chose to move forward. It's about reflecting what's been happening the past three years and putting it to melody with some bold statements.

Though there aren't too many details, the article named one song, "March of the Dogs," which apparently criticizes religious hypocrisy.. "


yea it'll change the world, it'll make it slightly more annoying.

did you know in 2004, Kerrang magazine made enough money to buy every person in China a lifetime supply of eyeliner?*

* not true

]]> ~meth you can say no to being a man hoe http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23029213/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/23029213/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 20:09:01 PST [link]

i fucking love flight of the conchords.
Jemaine, Bret n Rhys are on my list of top 10 favourite people from New Zealand right above that weird looking fruit that kinda hurts my mouth if I eat it incorrectly..



oh n this tickled me fancy.
[link]



-question- the next world leader to get a shoe thrown at him/her will be ______

]]> ~meth ok last one http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22961247/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22961247/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 10:14:01 PST ..i dunno why thats in speech marks, anyway
thats all this website has ever been to me and it feels bad 'cus some people take it real seriously. plus, last night.. this morning. i'd gone walking in the snow because it was thick and undamaged, but I went alone cus not many people are awake at 3am. everything seems to happen at 3am. and when you walk alone at night, you think. and when you think you go crazy, and when you go crazy.. when i go crazy i ramble.

eh anyway
i only come here to go a little craaaaizy cus i have nowhere else to go, when i "talk about my feelings" with someone I always feel dirty and stupid and the need to apologize the next day, or sometimes even minutes after saying something. then i get quiet. and people always link quietness and saddness together, since i was little teachers and social workers and strangers (remember when strangers were allowed to talk to children?) would assume something was wrong. which is odd cus I think the opposite is true. people are having problems when they're being loud and crying for attention, sometimes literally. they're the people you should bug, not me.

i like being quiet. and i like being alone. i like sitting in my room alone when I could be out drinking and dancing to some terrible music. i don't see whats wrong with being comfortable in your own skin, in your company. i don't get these people that need to be taken to the toilet with a friend, like some toddler. or need to be accompanied to every fucking event of their life.
but then ive never liked people

i walked home with a woman i met on the street and was terrified by how friendly she was being, and how geniuely interested she was in our conversation, which slowly died off from me just answering yes or no, by that time she'd scared me. then i left abruptly when i got to my house and said "bye" from across the street and woke up the next day feeling guilty. ohwell, crazy lady shouldn't tag along with strange hooded men at 3.30am.

I just wish people could disapear. the week after christmas was my favourite, my house consisted of me and Amar and i only ever saw the people i wanted to see.

Amar says I shouldn't fear people because people always love me and enjoy my "quirky" conversation, which is mostly serious. I seriously do want to know how we would cope if Japan built an army of robots that spray chlorine gas from their eyes. Or maybe when the world floods will we have to move to highland Scotland, will there be enough room on the penines to accomodate 50 million English people. or will we let the southerners die in some form of "day after tomorow" style revenge. or what about southerners that have lived in the North for longer than 3 years, will they be granted citzenship in our new country on the penines. what kind of interviewing and clerical process will they undergo. will i have to sit on the hill with a gun and blow away anybody that pronounces laugh "larf" or bath "barf" or the queen "useful".

One guy in a bar my friend works in said he would love to meet me when i turn 35 because he couldn't believe how smart, and "mature" I was at 21. and by the time I am his age I will know amazing things. what he didn't know was he had coke left on his nose, so my stomach sank in that this man doesn't geniuely love me. he's just high on coke. he doesn't think there's a connection in our thought pattens. he's just high on coke. he doesn't believe im a very good listener and conversationlist. he's just high on coke. and dribbling.

but anyway, Amar says im a "major role" person. in life, people have people close to them classed as Major role, and Minor role. and 9/10 im a major role person. someone somebody misses, someone somebody wont forget. and I say thats horrible, the amount of attention and responsibility placed on you. and Amar says something like I take it for granted and its what every person on the planet desires, to not be forgotten. and i correct him. and i say you don't know everybody on the planet. and he says neither do i.

i trust what he says to me as geniune because he is a freshie, and not high on coke, i've only ever been close friends with two freshies in my life. him and a Persian girl in highschool. there's something about my own people that keeps them quiet the majority of the time, but a freshie is very "on your face" as Amar says, and I corrected him on that too.. cus it sounds kinda weird him being on my face. but I hate it when he pays me such deep, geniune compliments.. as i hated in highschool when Zehra did the same because I can't respond. it's different when my own people pay me the same compliments because they do it subtley, therefore I can respond subtley.. or in sarcasm. the... ]]> ~meth she is they http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22952335/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22952335/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 20:12:42 PST to be yelled

its 3.55am
i have a lecture at 10am
and i cant be arsed with anything
again..
i seriously have no concern, or care or desire for life
NOT to sound like an overly emotional 14yr old girl but its true, its a fact of who i am
that doesnt mean i dont have desire for the future. but the future is the future, never the present
i cant stand people. i loathe them. the world is better when its empty.
well no, the world is better when theres the two of us
and i really cudnt give a fuck about anything in the future
if i could just have her now
i would be content to live a life with her minus any goals or desires, or interests or people
or any other thing ive been trying to adapt to or change myself for
all i need is her
and everyone i love
and have ever loved, brought back to me
in what is rightfully mine
everything else can remain the same, i really dont care.
they're literally all i want
i dont give a shit about social stance or any of the bullshit the people around me stand for and live for
they're all just a mass of cunts that i hate and have always hated and will no doubt continue to hate
but she can divert my entire attention onto her and the mass of cunts is once again invisible and im happy
we live how we wanna live. i can be whoever i want to be and she too and every other fucker can either adapt to my liking or fuck off back into the mass
you people dont exist. you're irrelevant. make believe, you fake who you are and are therefore not real
yet i continue to waste my energy on you
unwanted fucking leeches that spawn again and again identical to the last. always replaced and forgotton
you do what those around you do because you're you
and you is terrified to be alone
so you group
and in grouping you lose yourself so you are not you
you are make believe
you're imaginary
but at least you're not alone

you're a fucking idiot

kajkjkngjiugebjkenjkdnkjkbjsbzkcb ksjzfsakrh

id say i want drugs. or blood. or sex to help me
but then id be you
and id be make believe too
and id clearly rather be fucking miserable and ill
than conform to being make believe
and happy
i'd rather be angry in the real world
than happy in a pretend world

and thats where im a fucking idiot

its 4.12am

i just want to sleeeeeep

]]> ~meth err.. giraffe http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22947916/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22947916/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 16:28:21 PST
My karma scales are weighted very heavily to one side it seems as my week's been filled with bad luck, highlights including me injuring my right arm (the most important one), my friend Amar moving out of the house (the name Amar meaning "Making a Home" - which I thought was nice) and suffering my first panic attack of the past few months. And other silly little things. Anyway Amar says God didn't want me to go on the trip, that's why He made our government slow, incopetent, paranoid and crushed my right shoulder, scraped the skin off the bottom of my left hand and made me believe that my runny nose was a result of me about to die (wednesday night: panic attack) .. He could've just left me an email with subject line "DON'T GO" like any modern day person would do but I guess He's all traditional n shit.

And it snowed, Amar says God didn't want me to go so I could experience the snow with him (snow for him is a rare experience-being Pakistani n all), despite Germany's snow being superior to Manchester's, which is pretty for aprox 22 mins until someone notices it and screams SNOW and everyone runs out to realise that it's fucking freezing and they're missing TV. So they retreat back inside and leave it all grey and wet and used. BUT tonight I was quicker than everybody else and was able to enjoy it for approx 7 minutes whilst I went to buy some milk and by the time I'd come out of the shop approx 4 minutes later the snow had been defeated and my kitchen window covered in snow balls. But I have a really nice picture on my phone.

So Amar has gone, he says God made our housemates loud, obnoxious and ridiculously stupid so he would have a reason to move and maybe his new house has some really important pre-destined kinda deal waiting for him, or maybe God was only testing him and in moving out he has failed God's loud, obnoxious and ridiculously stupid test and he will be punished in his new home.

:shrug:

Anyway the German's make terrible food, I'd rather have a brew over their beer any day.

Oh yeah I went to an ALE convention. A convention of ALE. WTF. And then discussed the meaning and effect of true Communisim on the walk home (me being against.. my drunken friend for) I dunno who won.

Anyway, cool things that happened to me this week;
-scored a free drink off a middle aged man in a Jazz club (flirting = win)
-found a bar with really fun spinning chairs and low music (I hate loud music in bars)
-went to my first proper underground psychobilly gig, litterally underground
-had the shit kicked outa me at the wrecking pit at that said gig
-walked into a hi-rise flat kitchen and had a staring contest with a pigeon
-went to the TWO films where it was ok to yell at the film (My Bloody Valentine- for being shit) and Slumdog Millionaire (the phone scene where the phones in the car and you're all :ohnoes: THE PHONES IN THA CARRRR!) btw I reeeally enjoyed that film
-had my first experience of the gay village, i got lost
-fell asleep before 10pm (for me thats fffffing awesome)

]]> ~meth just documenting http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22652210/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22652210/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 12:10:28 PST


]]> ~meth have you smiled today? http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22639984/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22639984/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 19:13:18 PST [link]

blaten rip of the Frozen Grand Central video, but still quite cool.


ps. t-mobile is shit, don't fall for it.



]]> ~meth I have no moral fibre, but I do have juice http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22575832/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22575832/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 10:43:23 PST By the time I got out most of the shops in Manchester had locked their doors or had security blocking anyone from entering the shops. Which was disapointing. On my way down to the bus station there was a street performer eerily stood in white cloth, with no expression or movement, which isn't creepy on a normal day but there was something about this bloke I didn't trust it was just.. weeeird..
Anyway I was also a little disapointed that we didn't have a car on us because the traffic lights were shut down aswell and being a pedestrian was more fun, but much more dangerous.

Oh yeah I also saw "Che - part 1" on monday.. it's okaaay.. but I wouldn't wanna see it again, I thought it was good for some insight into the Cuban revolution seeing as it isn't really spoken about that much in England, but one of my friends thought it was boring, which it is a lot of the time if you're into boobs and unrealistic explosions. Or unrealistic boob explosions, which hollywood is flooded with at the moment (chick flicks).

"Women, we'll stop making movies about trying to kill you if you stop making movies about trying to marry us." Bill Maher


Anyway I'm going to see that Bloody Valentine 3D film in a few days, last time I was at IMAX was for the The Day The Earth Stood Still, my main highlight of the experience being a woman sitting in a man's lap in protest that it was her seat and not his. She won.


OHOHOH this was weird, I didn't sleep the other night so I took some pro-plus (caffeine tablets) the next day and got sea sickness! My walls and furniture were moving and my mate thought I was having an acid trip, which tbh I wasn't sure if I was or not.. I have no idea what happened there. So I took a nap to stop myself from throwing up. You useless product! You're supposed to keep me unaturally awake, not nap in the afternoon.

God I love naps. Which reminds me I'm becoming more fond of Christopher Hitchens.

[On God] "..wishing that it were true, would be wanting to be a slave, a plaything. And One can't want that, as a free person."




]]> ~meth wooo thank you! http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22278377/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/22278377/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 11:21:17 PST mudimba bought me a subscription, though unfortunately I haven't been able to make the most of it as I haven't had computer access for the past week....


heehoo ohwell. thanks mudimba :D



]]> ~meth all my friends are dead http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21751544/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21751544/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 15:35:10 PST i seriously wanna get back into this site.
i miss communicating with other arty types and spending hours viewing people's entire galleries.
it really is a brilliant place and i don't know why i've strayed really.
i've learnt more from this site and members of this community than tutors, books and friends (artisically i mean..) and i can really feel the quality in my work slipping because of my absence here.

my new aim to post something everyday, even the days i'm only home for a few hours.

me stuff
yakno whats REALLY WEIRD? i'm enjoying this christmas.. ok well no but i'm content with it..
i thank barack obama. i am cured of my uncessecary anger. ahhh hope n change.

oh and i went in my first fancy boutique the other day and have never been looked at so negatively in my life. I LOVED IT. plus it had been raining (typical manchester) and my hood was up and the clerk.. clerkess..? woman looked at me like i was gunna deficate in a gucci bag.

me n a mate saw the lead singer of The Feeling shopping whilst we were in the vintage cafe in Afflecks and my mate couldn't keep the fact of how shit they were under her breath and I think she hurt his feelings.. HA feeling.. feelings...

i've also fallen in love..

...with the black couch at the cornerhouse... [link]
that couch'll love ya better than a woman.

for christmas i would like to be able to enjoy chicken again, seriously why did it have to be a gross corpse? why not a vegetable. god, its not like im asking for world peace or ..universal love.. just chickens to be vegetables. oh and also a new xbox.

an xbox that tasted like chicken, fuck me that'd be lovely. i could have it with peppers and eat/play it on my black couch whilst worshipping Obama. mariah carey should sing a song about that instead.

bedtime i think.

anyone want me to look at their galleries just say n i'll be there. wanna be more active.


]]> ~meth predicted hangover tuesday http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21205832/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21205832/ Tue, 28 Oct 2008 17:02:47 PDT [link]

wanted to catch em year before last in Newcastle with The Unseen but they sold out, the tickets that is.

I was gunna do looooads of new stuff, seriously. then I got ill.

yakno those uncontrolable laughing fits? had one after Brad Pitt gets punched on "Burn After Reading". just one of those natural impulses.


sorry i don't have anything interesting to say other than im gunna do some tutorials soon, proper ones .. not "how to create an eclipse - oooooooo" ones. ok, I may do one how to create an eclipse tutorial. ps. it involves going to google image search and getting an eclipse.


I'LL BE BACK!!! feel kinda bad comin on ere with my no point journals with nuthin to back it up....

]]> ~meth ok nevermind http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21048872/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21048872/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 14:30:59 PDT
plus now I have a reasonably ok computer and a scanner and a printer and a shit load of acetate so woooooooooo here i go.

OH I saw the coolest anti-scientology protesters in town today hording (is that a word?) around a scientology demonstration, gotta love manchester on a saturday, they were basically just dancing around in masks...

though what's with religious people thinking scientologists are "weird"?

]]> ~meth METH account name going, anyone interested? http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21033057/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/21033057/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 14:34:13 PDT

Let me know.

]]> ~meth lately http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/20547623/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/20547623/ Thu, 18 Sep 2008 03:49:48 PDT
]]> ~meth technophobe is such a racist word http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/20364690/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/20364690/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 20:38:14 PDT
I finally saw that film "Shift Happens" and whaaathafuhhhh....k (to quote myself whilst watching it).

First off this entry is kinda antagonistic (I don't know if thats the right word btw I found it on thesaurus.com ironically) to my ..point? I dunno if I have a point. I'll see how this works out first.

ANYWAY. Saw "Shift Happens" which for anyone who doesn't know is a series of videos that basically has a lot of facts about modern technology. (Viewable via youtube). Not the nice interesting facts that make you go
"wow I didn't know you could actually eat that stuff..."
but like scary shit that
"makes you feel you're doomed to a future of robot sex and reality tv about robot models having robot sex with robot entrepreneurs selling sex related products to underage alcoholic robots with knives"
kinda facts. Heavy stuff.
Who the hell would even want to have sex with a robot?! Surely you'd encounter some kind of bug issues now and again, like it'd have a memory shortage and then what, you give it robot viagra to make it last longer and run more applications at once.. WHAT?! Duracell could really capitalize on that though. And how expensive are these robots going to be? Surely it's cheaper to get an escort.. or better yet, buy a 14yr old a bottle of cider... I hope that last suggestion doesn't appear on some paedo catching device.



errrr... anyway....
I didn't know what to make of it to be honest and I think a lot of people don't even realise how insane technology has become, you have to think back to what it was like before.. if you even know what it was like before, which I don't 'cus I'm too young, but my dad does as he reminds me every-single-day.
Obviously there's good and bad sides to this "era" (?) but my mind just seems to be concentrating on the bad side, as I listen to a CD I own via youtube cus my cd drive is broken whilst reading two different forums, looking at digital art which is a core interest of mine aaand also having wikipedia open.. hmm...

Nah, I still dunno what my point is, I just wanted to express my confusion and hopefully spread some too.








Expression and spreading, got me thinking of that robo sex again...

430am, I think I need to go to sleep now, before the flood takes my bed away. Stay away from my bed you liquidous bastard. :shakefist:


]]> ~meth isn't it ironic http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19904734/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19904734/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 20:02:43 PDT



i'm going through a break up this summer so i'll probably be back here to be all .. "arty" about it. or crying in a pub somewhere with a man who will most definitely have better facial hair than me.

& i've been thinking about death a lot lately. well.. not death, it's more nihilistic than that. I told my friend about how i'd suffered from nihilism and its weird just how hard it is to explain it out loud to someone. i won't bother doing it again..
and it's also really fucking irritating having to talk about your current problems in the past tense cus you're surrounded by people, not friends.

anyway that's all.

ps. cat, maybe this'll explain why i haven't replied as fast as I usually do, ha...

editediteditedit: just been browsing around the site and saying thanks to all the +favers and watchers and I feel better. maybe I just need to properly get back into things. going without art makes me loooopy.. and a little bit emo..




I watch her eyes like a TV set
as she connects me to the outlet
the soft admission of cold electric into my veins
it's like a ripe and reddening sunset


ahhhh iwantsomedrugs!

 ]]> ~meth tshirt art available for remix http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19253178/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19253178/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:35:38 PDT

someone's bound to be interested in this..
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]]> ~meth happy independenenence (yester)day http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19206092/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19206092/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 16:37:34 PDT
i'm not drunk...

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"we don't dream in great britain. WE DON'T. there's no British dream"

]]> ~meth new work http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19182826/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19182826/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 11:33:08 PDT .. Doesn't exist.

well it does.
but at the moment it's floating in space.

I can't believe it's been over 3 months since I last uploaded.
I wanna say I've been busy, but I haven't.
I can't believe it's under 3 months 'till I get outa here.
friends are all "oh, but you'll be back?" n I struggle with finding a polite version of "OH FUCK NO!" 'least I'm honest..
I don't really worry about them because I'm more concerned about leaving my girlfriend..
I'm gonna stop this paragraph before it gets all sensitive.

I'm at a weird point in my life atm 'cus I'm trying to figure out how to balance my personal artwork and my design work which often compare quite differently.. I don't want to produce all this "slick, trendy & corporate" design but I also don't wanna go OTT on the grunge-mixed-media. so. will see how I manage that. fine art students don't know how easily they've got it, graphic design is definitely one of the more difficult areas of A&D. I keep getting tempted to switch courses out of simplicity..

I've also noticed just how freekin HUGE the British art scene is, yah kinda slow.. I mean it's good, but I also want to be noticed.. I've never really worried about stuff like this before because it's all been about myself, a hobby with freelance work. but this past year the phrase "you may not make it" seems to be appearing everywhere, at exhibitions, at design events and even in books.. it got a friend of mine really down and I think it's rubbed off on me a lil bit. guess it wouldn't be as fun if there wasn't all the nerves and the fear though.

Two of us were travelling on a train home from an art talk a few weeks ago >>[link] << surrounded by loadsa other design nerds getting all philosophical and shit. he was all down and bummed out n I was tryna boost his ego whilst doubting my own in the back of my head. plus the actual place was packed out, I musta touched quite a few arses at drinks after the talk cus there was so many of us there. that and I'm a pervert. I was staring at all these people like "there's my compotition" and thats just in NEWCASTLE. shit. nevermind Manchester..

OH and WTF?! we totally had the same problem as this dude >[link] when finding the event. WHO PUTS THE NAME ON THE ROOF?!? is what I screamed. oh I screamed. I was all wet 'cus it was pissing it down and we were lost and running around the city centre. my hood kept falling down so my hair got wet and I wear baggy jeans so they were seeping with dirty street water and bah..
yakno was kinda like parkour but completely on the ground with wet grumpy british people running around like there was another invasion due... hmm.. maybe not like parkour. then we asked for directions literally next to the freekin' building! .. *calm down, it's over now*.

I like art talks 'cus you're among people who care as much as you do, well that's till about 30 mins thru when certain areas begin to numb and then I'm all "please end before my ass falls off..." LOL eww. gay joke, nevermind..

I've been getting more immersed in the scene though (not the gay one), which I'm happy about. I guess you sometimes miss that when it's just a hobby. Art has litterally become my life these past two years so I'm taking it a lot more seriously than before.


....

I've finished college and I was awarded best of my class aww yeah. with this added free time (that should be spent earning money, but won't be) I should get back into deviantart.


]]> ~meth damn http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19017522/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/19017522/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 10:04:12 PDT [link]

"I have as much authority as the Pope, I just don't have as many people who believe it"

]]> ~meth brb & links edit http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/18128379/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/18128379/ Wed, 07 May 2008 06:55:04 PDT

[edit] i've been veggie for over a year now. so much for phases.

just to be polite, brb. I'm not ignoring your comments. If I do come back I'll deffo be with some new work woohoo.

did anyone else see 1 giant leap the other night? pretty awesome stuff considering it's ch4 music.

ohohohohoh go to borders and BUY THIS MAGAZINE dooooo it.



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]]> ~meth my proposal for the 2008 olympics http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17785664/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17785664/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 19:10:36 PDT how'd dya fancy a
"Which country's protestors can steal the olympic flame first?!" competition?
Anyone whose been watching the news coverage should know how crazy it was out there and to me it seemed like a sporting event in itself.. You know for a few minutes I entirely forgot about Tibet and was more concentrated on which country was making more of protest :o

I saw this middle-aged, slightly overweight bald bloke in London get SO close to the torch before a Chinese guard turned round like "SHIT!" and pushed him down lol.

It's so mad seeing all these different countries protesting for the same thing, I don't know whether it's a good or bad thing... I mean the unity and freedom to protest is good but it was handled badly, yakno the riots and everything but sometimes aggression like that is needed to gain the most attention... sooo....

As for whether I think the UK should boycott I'm litterally 50/50, it's too complicated. Does anyone remember EUROVISION 2003?! WTF?? UK was the black sheep of Europe and I reckon if the rest of Europe choose to boycott and we don't (again...) then London 2012 = byeeee bye tax payer's £millions.... I can imagine only British and Kiwi athletes that year (NZ wanting the attention and USA being too large by that point...) At least we'd win :D

btw I'm joking about America, I know you're sensitive about your moobs.

]]> ~meth "Aussie Soap Drives Men to Genocide" http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17784149/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17784149/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 17:42:39 PDT PS. the following rant contains nonsense and hippy politics.

I went home very briefly yesterday for 2-3hrs and ..pffft, the community I lived in is in decline. I saw on news the latest outbreak of suicide bombers are also from West Yorkshire, just like the last batch and the ones before that and it's like WTF and with each "turn" people become more seperated. Like when the London bombings happened, stuff changed so much it was weird.. and I mean on behalf of both "sides" of racism/class/etc.
It seems there's very few people who are honest about the situation, what I find more annoying than the extremists are these whimpy type of people trying to fix things the wrong way. You've got the scared Muslims who don't wanna be isolated so they're sucking up, trying to loosen their own culture and adapt and the scared whites constantly nagging them about what THEY want, which makes the angry white people even more angry and isolates the Muslims further it's like FUUUCK *breathe*.

I know this is probably gunna sound a little "eh" but people are taking things way too seriously, why are people being seperated into little groups and then debated on and examined like some social experiment? Like who reeeally gives a fuck if 87% of Muslims do blahblahblah or 14% of Whites think that 28% of Muslims actually don't like the 25% of Greek that think 10% of America is actually FLAB. (I don't understand what I just typed either...)

Personally, in my eyes there's Rich and Poor. Intelligent and DUMB and those are the only groups I care about. I know this rants a little "oh why can't the world love each other" and all that equality crap but yakno.. I don't think its fair for communities of 10,000's of person's opinions to be altered 'cus of 10's of people who weren't very strong minded yakno?

Am I the only one who thinks this or do you lot think it's better to manage people into social demographics in everyday life?
Maybe I'm just being lazy about it but I cudn't give a fuck about who's who, lifes too short for me to be running round on eggshells round other races & creeds - and being a mix of 3 races and athiest don't help me much either..

BUT saying that, I couldn't be with anyone who was v.middleclass or religious, friends - already have 'em but.. "romantically speaking" nope.. is that hypocritical? :o

I need a conservative to shake me into some sense.

THE END



oh and LOL Home&Away mentioned in suicide bomb threat, well done Al Qaeda. Point well made, can't argue with that.

oh shit! I have a Yorkshire accent and just ate poppadoms, best retract on that Al Qaeda statement or I could wake up in Guantanamo ....


]]> ~meth features http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17458306/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17458306/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 12:38:15 PDT
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Got around to making a "collection" in my favourites of the work that inspires me the most, check em out.
Some goooood stuff. Well it's all good stuff. I only went back about 4 (120 devs) pages thru my favourites so there's a lot lot lot more I missed out.

Oh and Happy Easter to those who celebrate it, I think that's tomorrow? hmm yeah.



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]]> ~meth my first "find" http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17061272/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/17061272/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 16:47:55 PST
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it's what every so-called conceptual, indie-artist wishes to discover whenever they finally manage to stand outside their unorganised scrapheap of accomodation, preferably something from the 60's, remember how cool the Beatles were? and of course, everyone outside of Phil Ochs loooves Dylan.

but sadly, this isn't Paris and people don't just leave artistic memorabilia in public toilets like they used to, literature about how many inches of cock your girlfriend can get down her throat just isn't interesting anymore.. unless it's 8. that's pretty impressive. don't worry fellas, evolution is a slow process but you'll get there eventually.

ok cut the crap - I'm talking about guys that collect public trash and cherish it for it's hidden social value. yakno, a starbucks container with "beautiful" written on it with coffee, except it's kinda hard to write with coffee if you don't have the right tools...
so it more or less says "be..a ti l l z" I dunno how the z got in there. maybe the owner slipped in attempt to do a kiss.

anyway, I found a sticky note on the back of a bus seat, which at face value was pretty cool until I actually read the contents of that note. someone actually took the time to write a poem (rhyming!) about how I really shouldn't reproduce because it's unfair to the future generation and the bitterness in my blood was genetic.

kinda rude...

i've been having some intense dreams lately which are causing me to think of certain things and people who wouldn't usually cross my mind. also keep having repeated dreams of moving to Manchester, 6 months left nooooow.
my just turned 1yr old cousin has also been in and out of hospital lately too and my great nan is going thru radiotherapy BUT another cousin is in boxing national finals.
how're you?



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Ever notice that anyone going slower than you is an "idiot", but anyone going faster is a "maniac"?
]]> ~meth sooooo... http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16846231/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16846231/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 10:23:57 PST



I dunno what im doing at the moment. I have a lot of things to think through. I'm going to remove my past 5 or so deviations because I didn't enjoy makin them or enjoy looking at the end result, so they're useless. I've kinda turned traditional, maybe i'll scan 'em in sometime.

It's like my attitude has arrived at a point where all I want to do is sit down and stare, yet I'm going through one of the busiest years in my life.

what's the deal?



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    cycling in circles with your eyes closed
    no hands, blind faith is what she called it man
    said life's an ocean with a lot of commotion
    once you dive in, yeh it's deep
    but if you can swim that aint mattering




]]> ~meth sarrrr-car-zoom & the national front http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16415553/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16415553/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 10:16:17 PST credits | inspiration pt 1 | inspiration pt 2

sahkazem

Firstly, if you actually pronounce sarcasm in that way you've got a problem...

Secondly, I may've .. may've?
*might've brought some of you to wrongly believe that I campaign for spider rights but honestly I couldn't give a flyinnng fuck what happens to those little BASTARDS. I hate them. I hate hate hate them. if there's anything I hate in this world, it's them. and possibly Hollyoaks.

So, my deepest apologies if you actually thought I was a better person than I actually am. and sorry to any spider activists, just in general really..

People really don't pick up well on sarcasm, at first it was just a virtual thing but its happening more often offline.. don't be so niave!

OH I'm also not in a cult, not at present anyway. But if you own one and are looking for new recruits in the N.England/S.Scotland area then just note me the myspace url and i'll check it out. :]


national front? more like.. irrational cunts! .. er, yeah..


[link]

ok. i'll try keep this rant as open minded as possible and with as little swearing as possible.. but holy shitfucktitwanking-crap what is wrong with you?

"We need to fight to keep the evil of Islam at bay and protect our people. No more immigrants"

Actually, you HAVE to agree with them there, since the whole world turned Islamic I've been shitting myself silly, it's only minutes before they take the UK too.. HEAD FOR THE MOON!!! or is that an evil dirty muslim state aswell?

I can understand it when I see teenagers preaching this crap, they've only known one story and feel in danger but 50/60year old men.. with all your "life experience" are the scraps of humantity, I'm preeeetty sure "god" wanted you to be a cockroach but somehow you managed to earn yourself a human body, good for you though.

but this..
"Making our forefathers proud."
you mean our Viking, Norman and Italian forefathers? I guess history isn't their strong point.

"Single mothers having no morals having relationships with Johnny foreigner confusing the children and creating half breeds who have mixed colour and mixed beliefs. Many of these men's sole aim is to obtain British nationality. This will result in problems in schools, healthcare and also in our communities within 15 years." LOL wtf? where did 15 years come from? whats gunna happen in 15 years... ? is "Johhny Foreigner" (coming from the Jewish name - John) gunna realise he has HIV from his CRAZY bed hopping, die.. and all will be well?

Let's hope so, for a better world for us all. Damn you Jews, coming over here and making our children confused with your wild sex!! bah!



read this

trust nobody. hate everything. be bitter. ... and don't watch hollyoaks.


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]]> ~meth progressive electro death reggae pop revival http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16388756/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16388756/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 13:48:41 PST credits | inspiration pt 1 | inspiration pt 2

everyone's a writer nowadays

spider kick, spider's kicked..
melt the chocolate, oh how they stick.
spider smack, spider's smacked..
spider's on crack in a chocolately trap.
spider snack, spider snack..


..yeah, I started a band. this is just a verse I threw together for the song "Spider Snack". I think it grabs the essence of spider-abuse perfectly, I encourage you all to eat free range spiders from now on.
I originally wrote the lyrics on the back of a cashew nut, from my own cashew garden. How ironic that such lyrics of tragedy can be displayed on smiley nut.


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• I'm having trouble choosing between whether I should move to Liverpool or Manchester.

• ..but on the up side I have a pretty cool idea for my latest college project, it's a complex & creative response to a corporate and overdone brief.
Since I've cut back on spending time on personal projects I've been putting a lot more imagination into college projects, which take priority at the moment.

• Thanks to all my new watchers, my list is growing fast despite my lack of updates which is BRILLIANT. So thanks for that and I'll try respond to all messages but someone is clogging my message center lately (~PeerieCat) ;P


read this

Epic ballads by the musical whores
Life is so boring, they project their's onto yours
Hear the anthems of the pepsi generation
See the martyrs of our spiritual degradation

Emotions aren't a product to sell and cannot be consumed


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]]> ~meth Britney's weapons of mass-annoyance http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16256229/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/16256229/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 14:05:39 PST credits | inspiration pt 1 | inspiration pt 2


I hope you all enjoyed your holidays, whatever culture, religion or status of drunk you happen to be ;P

And happy new year, whenever your new year starts.


...and out come the tits

and nope, it's not her flamboyant gay fans. (RE: ) It's the suckers that actually care to see her acting like a human being, granted, not your average person but still a person nonetheless.

Personally I don't care if she sets fire to Lindsay Lohan and uses her own shit to put it out, (kinda like a 2girls1cup scenerio... but the allstar version), in the middle of "imaworthlessproduct BLVD, Hollywood" surrounded by all her equally slimey, half naked, half baked girlfriends and one of evolution's greatest mistakes yet - paparazzi ..

Aslong! as it doesn't come near MY tele..ok my father's television set. That shit doesn't do well with me, I watch the news for News.. not for some chavette walking around with ruined makeup, I can see that for free on my own street.

oh just put her on a mountain in Wales somewhere and be done with it. It's what they did with Tupac, I'm telling ya the bloke's in Wales.. it's the LAST place you'd look for an african american rapper am I right? or just civilisation in general, the mountains I mean, not Wales... *COUGH*

*** I think Britney would take part in a celebrity 2girls1cup, I mean after kissing Madonna.. how bad can a mouth full of turd seem, hm?


Journal

I've been a lazy bugger I know, lazy-bugger.. is that an oxymoron? Anyway, it finally caught up with me when I had to respond to 60-70ish messages (that doesn't include comments) (from just 5-6 days!! so thanks for that :] )
I know a lot of people ignore 'em but I like to personally thank the person by taking time out to visit their profile & gallery and at least contribute something, if I can.

No new uploads due to the fact my cult leader says it's bad for the soul and has ordered I give him all my material possessions, in order to banish the pressures capitalism puts on us westerners. and of course sex is key if one wants to reach true happiness and intimacy with another person.. and I was foolish enough to believe the opposite but I have to do as "TASAN" tells us to do.. and he's a horny bugger! .. uhh, eww..

Anyway, must dash - Tassie (as I call him) is forming a gathering tonight where we'll all take acid and be in our element, naked, free of materialism and clucking like chickens whilst he nicks off with all our ipods.

god, I've lost it haven't I.....



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"To the west you'll find our silicon promised lands where
machines replace our minds for systematic profit plans.

The course of human progress staggers like a drunk
its steps are quick and heavy and its mind is slow and blunt.

I look for optimism, but I just dont know
its seeds are planted in a poison place where nothing grows.."


]]> ~meth take warning, take warning http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15579434/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15579434/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 16:25:36 PST


whoaaa where'd the sun go eh? it was GREY today, not white.. not a dark gloomy blue.. but thick grey. crazyness. and I had to walk thru the wet, muddy damp leaves that cover about 90% of the pavement. with the cold wind and rain and raaragrha.. not pleasant.

i wasss supposed to be going home for the weekend because my great nan had a stroke and a heart attack, unsure of which order.. she must be like.. 83..84, maybe. but apparently she's just fine, i wanna see her make great-great grandma status- how mental would that be?? she would already be there had my step-sister been related to her but ahwell. my aunt told me seeing as she's really the only relative I have contact with, I tryy talk to my grandad but I dunno.. he's totally lost it, he's been an alcoholic for the past what.. 40 years? it's a wonder he's alive nevermind sane. and my other grandparents are still in divorce-status.. getting divorced at 60? what a waste of soliciting fees. (which sounds kinda shallow.. but yakno)

i miss making art but i've been pretty busy lately, I MAY ACTUALLY MAKE A DEADLINE!!!k$!!?! plus with the dodgy graphics card and low virtual memory it's a hassle. i'd go traditional but - no scanner.

wussup wit chooo? im tiiiired

"all flags start to look the same when covered in the blood of the faithless and insane"


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]]> ~meth DISCLAIMER.. I guess http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15433871/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15433871/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 12:18:25 PST


there is A LOT of er... "emotionally charged" (lol, wut?) journals on here and they all go without/little comment. seriously dudes HELP. it usually happens when i go comment on a watchers profile and let's face it - the emo kids love me AND I LOVE THEM! and they have these journals where they're just opening up to space and I think if everyone took more effort to comment and critique (I don't just mean "it'll be ok :hug: oh and thanks for watching me!") you could make people feel a lot happier. oh and the personal help forum is pretty good for that too.

ps. I don't plan to change anything with this journal as I know my journal gets little attention also, maybe I shud pimp it up with boobies - even though they're NOT that great! seriously.. ya see em all the time, well I do. & geordie ladies are the essex girls of the north.

my great-aunt died recently and she was only about 60 something which seems to be quite common on that side of the family. my gdad was telling me all these stories about my nan and how she has this huge history where she had to escape from Burma as a child, which is cool but I don't feel as interested as I should...


OH do you know what I LOVE? BABOONS. we live kiiinda close to a zoo (I say that but it's like 70 miles...) and i'm always making excuses to go 'cus they're so fun! i've always wondered how they've got exotic animals to live in Britain. which reminds me I want another cat.

ohohoh&oh i'm aware most of my er... blogs(?) are usually me getting all scrooge on ya but tough tits, when i'm happy i'm usually off sword fighting with tin-foil tubey things. who isn't?

oh and on another random thought, yakno when they record politicians arguing? how childish is that? I say we elect the loose women 'cus at least they can contain themselves, but i've always thought women make more serious politicians.


''give me a chance to shine and i'ma blind the world"



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]]> ~meth i'd rather nap than protest http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15406060/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15406060/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 12:54:39 PST


soo tired. not just physically but generally. my chest, back and legs hurt and i've had 3hours of sleep today because the wind is all with the whoooosh.

the ratio of good-bad is a big input in my exhaustion, I come home every night defeated, I can't keep up the argument with the ignorant and the irritating. then home, i'm faced with chain drinking, chain smoking. unbreathable air and screaming matches. jack constantly wants to race and play 'lion' but i'm way too unfit and tired to keep up with him. plus now he's discovered the phone book :|

ohh and the computer dies when I have photoshop running with anything else, so art is increasingly difficult and I have college work I need to do so I guess that has to take majority.

erm, good news... good tv tonight!

"talk to me, I want to take you all under my broken wings"


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]]> ~meth why do the US boast free speech? http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15307470/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15307470/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 19:21:23 PDT


I know it's something Americans like to, I dunno.. boast? a lot, but lately i've been watching a lot of American tv and I was watching ''world news'' - which was an american news show on at like 3am and honestly it consisted of Iraq, how America is saving Darfur.. more Iraq.. and how the Italians were refusing to eat pasta.

... ok. .. and i've seen fox news quite a lot and I know a lot of you yanks are agreeing with me when I say 'WTF is that all about?!' that is NOT liberal media at all.

so basically this is just a little something on my mind and I have to disagree with you guys, on the media front.. you lose BADLY. infact you're worse than most countries, so ya know...

oh! it's like with sex, the americans are very conservative about sex.. and I know us europeans are VERY open about it.

so any americans reading?

this was basically sparked by watching the britz show earlier, I really doubt America would air such programming.. I mean viewing terrorists as confused individual human beings? I kinda doubt it... and this is hardly the first time stuff like that this has been aired, i'm actually really proud of british broadcasting. but maybe I just have a filtered view of US releases.

maybe it just comes with being european.. YES WE'RE TRASH AND WE FUCKING LOVE IT. there's nothing wrong with naked french people dancing around an obese german man who feeds a beligan lady his sausage as an upperclass brit sits back on the loo and whipes their ass with the euro, lol what? im tired.



here's a quote to end this, poorly constructed, journal off..

''if australians were black, aussie would be a racist word!''
- Queen Elizabeth



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~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth not so-devious journal entry http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15133238/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15133238/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 18:18:10 PDT



crap, I hate sleepin in 'till noon cus then im awake during the night and tv NEVER puts anything good on during the night except "strange french porno films which involve 9inch baguettes that pass off as artistic but if the british did them it'd just be BAD" film genre... mhm.

oh, apparently France isn't even that good on the art front, unless you want that old renaissance stuff.. but if ya want modern design the UK is where it's happening YEAH. I read it in a UK published totally non-biased design magazine. so 'ave it france, AVE IT.

i've noticed something strange about my bedroom, since i've moved in I havent seen any spiders, not one. not even when I left the window open for like a week straight because the stench of paint decided to make itself comfortable and wouldn't leave, damn sponger. I didn't notice until emily pointed out she used to get loads when she was in there, I wasn't so much relieved.. more offended...



ofcourse, i've had a lot of deep, life changing, mind provoking and just plain intelligent thoughts lately, i'd express them but I fear NOT EVEN deviantart's hu-u-u-u-u-ge server(s) could withold the size of the journal entry. nope.

now i'm going to watch people fall over on youtube now.
er, no actually I meant... read some Edger Ellen Joe, I think that's his name.


ohohoh! I can do art again, either the monitor has sorrrt of fixed itself (it's still bad, but not as bad) orrr my eyes have adapted. if they can do that.




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last.fm -- -- folio
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credits
44suburbia -- corbis -- sxc
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth i just slept with an invisible person http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15084230/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/15084230/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 07:58:47 PDT



i dunno, keep feeling this "presence" next to me in my bed, it's odd.

but anyway that's not important, what is important however is these craaaaazy semi-diagonal horizontal lines on my monitor which i've been staring at for a week now. i switched monitors over, they're still there so somethings wrong with the computer, suprise? EVERY bloody computer in this house is broke because people here just shove tonne after tonne of crap into them. so no art from me for a while cus everythings screwy, will this damage my eyes? i hope not, i still havent got the glasses i need either...

i need a fast way to get some cash quiiick, im goin insane over here having to deal with all this nonsense ontop of more deeper issues currently happening. plus my £10 mp3 player finally died on me, which is ok cus it lasted like 2years. £10=2years.. that's magic that is.

oh! and my grandad is looosing it, either 'cus of his old age.. of 60... or the alcoholism.

i've also realised the thought and sight of people eating makes me feel sick & im down to just one meal a day. hmm. :|




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last.fm -- -- folio
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credits
44suburbia -- corbis -- sxc
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth msg 4 teh theives; sticky journal http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14457938/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14457938/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 15:43:20 PDT



there's been a huge increase in blog-related art thefts in the previous year, i've already found my artwork and designs on myspace.. and that was only because I was notified by someone else [me being accused as the theif] so who knows what I could find if I was actually to go on a search. and bare in mind there are 100s of forums and networking websites around now.




it's really annoying, working on something for someone else to just go and take the credit, wtf? eh, well you're the one who has to go on living with the fact that I am BETTER than you.

I know it must be hard being born without an ounce of creativity and having to steal off others to get more hits to your generic attention-starved profiles, but i'm sure your e-friends will think no different of you. I know you academics don't attract as much sexual attention as us artists, but there'll always be late night tv to accompany you. :hug:
now go tell your girlfriend the poem you sent to her last valentines wasn't yours afterall, and be sure to give her the writer's email addy, she'll wanna meet him.



yes, I can be a bitch.



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conditions I allow;
- artwork to be used in layout form with PROPER credit, that includes a working link back here.
- artwork printed for private use or for charitable profit, such as `ArtistsForCharity
- extraction or 'remixing' aslong as a link back here is given.
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last.fm -- -- folio -- -- *EliteArtists
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credits
44suburbia -- corbis -- sxc
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth collab / battles / monkey http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14318656/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14318656/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 12:06:37 PDT



i'm going away, again, for a week but after that I AM going to get my computer fixed, no lazying about... hopefully... i'm going to have to format the hardrive, which im not so happy about. the only thing i'm bothered about losing is my recieved files which are very few since I deleted a lot of stuff... and of course music, but that can be downloaded in time.

once I do get everything fixed hopefully I can do some decent stuff without the computer spazzing out. I wanna do some collabarations too, it's been YEARS since i've done that. or battles, which are also cool. I don't really care what quality your stuff is, it can even be done in paint... whatever. NO ANIME though, i'm open minded on the subject but anime IS way too bland and unoriginal.


no actually, i'd LOVE to see what I could do to anime.
it's not that I want the pageviews or anything, of course.
*COUGH*

:pointandlaugh: [link] aww.



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last.fm -- -- folio
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credits
44suburbia -- corbis -- sxc
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth 20th August 2006 http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14258125/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14258125/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 14:55:36 PDT



this time last year I was full of a lot of ..hope? though i'd prefer to relate to it as false hope.
if you ask me, hope can only exist when there's actually a strong possibility of the subject occuring, and even then..what's the need in hoping for it?

if I had the chance to go back and change anything I definitely would not, though this year has been hard in various ways i've learnt a lot from it, i'm barely even the person I was on 20/08/06. the past year has been a year of criticism from all directions and usually i'd say bollocks to your opinion of me but this time around i'm trying to progress into a better person.




though, unlike 2006, I have NO hope for August 2008. I 'spose I know better, whatever happens happens. and whatever doesn't, may never happen.


looking at it creatively, here's my improvement(?) -
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apologies for any negative realism that may have leaked onto you.




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last.fm -- -- folio
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credits
44suburbia -- corbis -- sxc
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth redredwine in a modern beat style http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14169614/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/14169614/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 18:42:01 PDT



I'd have sworn
That with time
Thoughts of you
Would leave my head
I was wrong
Now I find
Just one thing makes me forget

Red, red wine
Stay close to me
Don't let me be alone
It's tearin' apart
My blue, blue heart
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i'm ill, blood, bone/muscle and stomach problems.
computer's ill too, it's been a month since I last did art ):

but! new shoes and I have a bed!! it's not assembled but, it's a start. I had to get an expensive mattress for my stupid back.

i've also ordered a lot of cheap oldschool pc tycoon games to fill the creative void.
ok *SheIsLaLaura, I AM a nerd.
let's call this my coming out.

job prospects on the horizon too (: -more clothing companies

oh and the rain is back. :|


I actually feel kinda good

(:

I hope the rest of you are enjoying your time, and to any Brits, there, there :hug:

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^ insomnia meets mspaint






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last.fm -- -- folio
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credits
44suburbia -- corbis -- sxc
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276

]]> ~meth credits http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/13769426/ http://meth.deviantart.com/journal/13769426/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 11:54:26 PDT

brushes
44suburbia
stock
corbis -- sxc
textures
~masterjinn -- *aqueous-sun -- *Sanami276
fonts
dafont -- misprinted type

recomended (though not used by me)
brusheezy -- squidfingers -- 555 design

Journal style by *shatteredplastic. Background from The Inspiration Gallery.
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