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deviantART: by:mikey-madness http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:mikey-madness&section=today deviantART RSS for by:mikey-madness en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 22:11:04 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Life Without Katie... http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/18740215/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/18740215/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 00:00:46 PDT
Katie will be missed by me. There is not a day that goes by I do not think about her and how she was. She had made so many strides for improvement. Not but a week before we had been celebrating her 11th birthday. All seemed fine.

She was having issues with diarrhea, so we took her to the doctor. The doctor was not sure what was going on so he had her admitted for monitoring. 24 hours later my wife and I were leaving the hospital without our beloved Katie. It is all too sudden life changes.

I have searched for reasons for this. Why? Why her? Why now? Why when things were going so good? I still remain at a loss for words and emotions that fit.

I had dealt with loss before, with my father. But I had some amount of preparing (although only 2 weeks) before his untimely departure from the earth at age 43. But this was different. I donÂt understand how, but it is.

Is it the fact that she was just a child? That she had not ÂlivedÂ her life? I am not sure.

It could be that I could do nothing to stop it. I wanted to, but there was nothing I could do. I keep blaming myself - that I should have known something. That if I had been more persistent with the doctors or taken her in a day earlier it would have mattered - that the doctors would have had the time to figure this thing out. It is want haunts me and the nightmares I still have to this day.

I sometimes stand at the entrance to her room and peer into it. It is still. It is quiet... too quiet. It is a quiet too hard to fathom. I imagine her looking at me from her bed as she watches her television and plays carelessly, but so focused. It is a vision that brings such joy and such pain altogether.

If there was a word to sum up my feeling and thoughts it is confusion. It seems to be the most fitting.

We would later come to find out that she had died of a Volvulus bowel, or simply put twisted bowel. There was nothing anything anyone could have done to stop it. But I guess that is all part of the grieving process.

Life has started to get Âback to normalÂ I suppose. We are re-writing our path without Katie. It is harder thing than you would imagine doing. You revolve your life around one person for so long, and then they are gone in an instant.

We have been getting the house to the way we want it and make sure that is in order. That has been keeping our minds somewhat at ease in regards to the situation. But I miss her, and I always willÂ

]]> ~mikey-madness My daughter has passed away http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/17904663/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/17904663/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 23:01:01 PDT
]]> ~mikey-madness No Longer In My Twenties http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/17069699/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/17069699/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 07:37:40 PST
Linda and I are doing great. As they say, no news is good news.

Today marks the last day of being Âin my twenties.Â And I concede that 30 is not old, it is definitely the start of not being young. But what are you to do? Everyone ages. You just got to make the best of it I suppose.

Well hopefully I will post more. I am trying to get to everyoneÂs comments and such. As always thanks for the support!

Linda's book is now available at places like "Barnes and Noble" [link] and "Borders" , [link] so check it out. And if you cannot buy online, go to your local store and request through them. I am sure they can do that for you.

Art Joke

An artist had been working on a nude portrait for a long time. Every day, he was up early and worked late - bringing perfection with every stroke of his paint brush. As each day passed, he gained a better understanding of the female body and was able to really make his paintings shine.
After a month, the artist had become very weary from this non-stop effort and decided to take it easy for the day. Since his model had already shown up, he suggested they merely have a glass of wine and talk - since normally he preferred to do his painting in silence.
They talked for a few hours, getting to know each other better. Then as they were sipping their claret, the artist heard a car arriving outside. He jumped up and said, "Oh no! It's my wife! Quick, take off your clothes!"

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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

~mikey-madness Where in the $%&# have you been Mikey!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/15739743/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/15739743/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 19:11:07 PST
So needless to sayÂ I have been busy! So what is everyone else up to? I hope all is good with my DeviantART friends. I hope the upcoming Holidays receive you well!

Linda and I are doing well. We get along pretty good. We have our few and rare moments, but what couple doesnÂt? All in all it is going really well! Well I hope it is not next year when I do another one of these. Drop me a line, I am curious to see how everyone is doing!

Linda's book is now available at places like "Barnes and Noble" [link] and "Borders" , [link] so check it out. And if you cannot buy online, go to your local store and request through them. I am sure they can do that for you.

Art Joke

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/13691325/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 04:45:14 PDT
I have gotten A's on my first few classes, and I am glad about that. I hope to do equally good in classes to come.

I also have been studying for my Network+ certification. I am now Network+ certified and hope to continue on and become Security+ and Microsoft certified over the next few months. I also want to complete my associates degree in Information technology by the time I get out of the military. So my plate remains full.

Life with Linda is great. We get along great. I have never been in a relationship like this before, and feel very lucky to have found her. We bought a new car together. It is a fairly nice car too. I traded in my 2005 Hyundai for a 2007 Suzuki SX4. It has All-wheel drive and more power than my other car, with plenty options. It is by far the nicest car I have owned.

All in all, life has never been more satisfying.

Linda's book is now available at places like "Barnes and Noble" [link] and "Borders" , [link] so check it out. And if you cannot buy online, go to your local store and request through them. I am sure they can do that for you.

Art Joke

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/12821436/ Wed, 02 May 2007 20:53:12 PDT
Well first of all, I am sorry about not posting so much and commenting I have been busy with starting married life, school and work. My dance card is full. Linda and I are doing wonderful. I couldn't be happier.

Linda

just received her first box of her first published book called The Greenhouse Murders.

Here is the cover I designed --->

I am so very proud of her. She is now a published author! No matter what may comes of her book, I remain very happy for her. She did it! She took the time and waged through the painstaking task writing a book, editing it, reediting, etc. It took her well over a year to complete it. But she did it! And I am still amazed by her and what she can accomplish when she put her mind and heart into something. And that, above all things, is why I love her. Her dedication in whatever she does remains unsurpassed by anyone I have met. I am so luck to have found her.

The book is available for sale at The World of Myth Store [link] for now. But soon it will be available at many of your favorite online stores.

Also read her prologue, [link] , to see what wild ride you have in store. Her reading is simply great! Just read a few samples from her DeviantArt page and you too will soon agree!

Art Joke

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/12516942/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 21:18:18 PDT

Well just a short note here... Me and Linda got married. The wedding was great! We had a blast! Even though it seemed like 90% posing for photos and 10% wedding. I never even got to finish a full beer or glass champagne!! But me and Linda are so happy together and we have been (and will be ) in the process of moving her to Colorado. So my apologies in advace if I am neglectful in responces. It is not intentional. For the first time in a long, long LONG time I am... Happy

~mikey-madness Life With Mikey http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/12380315/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/12380315/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 19:37:11 PDT
Well first things first, I broke 13,000. Thanks for all the support I have received from you all. You make it all worth while.

Well as you heard before, the big day is creeping up fast. I shall be married again come April 7th. It is scary thing the first time around. I find it to be even more scary the second time around. I am more nervous of things this time around. It has nothing to with Linda, but I am nervous just the same. It is a big step in anyones life.

I am nervous I will be a good step-dad for her cerebral palsy stricken daughter. Worried if I will be able to deliver. Her daughter was predicted to live only till 3 months, then only 3 years. After many surgeries and long hours at the hospital her daughter has made it to 10 years old as of the beginning of April. But she does not possess the ability to speak or walk. And normal functions that are taken for granted by the average citizen. Heartbreaking in a way. The sad part continues with the fact that she may possibly not live to be even 20. Are days are numbered

These are a few of the reasons I admire Linda. It shows how strong she had to be. I can't even imagine what it would be like. I can't imagine if my sons were born with such a condition. It just shows how determined and and dedicated she truly is. And I love her for it.

But then it comes to me, can I be as dedicated and strong as her? When that time comes, can I be the man I expect myself to be? Can I be there and pull Linda up and help make it through this? And I am already attached to her daughter. It is going t break my heart when she passes away I know it.

Scared about money and finances too. Will I be able to support them both? Just all around nervous, but I guess that is normal for such a big day. A lot on my mind these days.

All I know is I love Linda very much, and with her support I know I can make it through anything. I can only hope that I am half as great and caring and wonderful and supporting as i know she is. I am very excited about the day, don't get me wrong. But I am nervous, too.

Also I am now 29 years old. That also happened since I last posted.

Well bye for now, the next time I post I will married again. Wish me... wish US luck!

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/11912077/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 17:44:46 PST
Well for you that do not know, the big day is April 7. And I am looking forward to walking down the aisle one more time. For me I cannot think of a greater person to share the rest of my life together.

The wedding has gotten quite a bit bigger. It initially was just going to be the two of us getting married somewhere like Vegas. But we have rented a Church and a country club in California for the reception. Not only is Linda planning the whole thing mostly, she has sewn her own dress, her daughter's dress, a mutual friend's dress and her brides maid's dress! She is something amazing. But the ceremony should be beautiful and wonderful, and I am very much looking forward to the day. I just hope my family can make the ceremony. We shall see.

I get nervous at times of taking the plunge, especially for the second time in my life. But I just think of Linda and all my worries seem to disappear. She is something extraordinary. I have yet to meet someone more thoughtful, giving, caring and loving as her. I could not help falling in love with her.

In a week I am turning 29 as well. My last year in my twenties. Though I have conceded that 30 is not old, it is definitely the start of not being young anymore. But I am taking it in stride. My birthday has never been a big event as long as I could remember.

I also have been going to school to finish up my certificates and degrees. I already have had some interest in my computer skills when I get out for quite hefty salaries. But we will see when I get out in a year (in the military if you didn't know already).

Linda's book is going to be on sale coming in the next week or two. I am so excited for her. It is quite an accomplishment. We will have to think of something to do to celebrate the event, but I am not sure of what.

I have also reached 12, 000 pageviews if you did not notice. Thanks for the support!!

All in all I have tons of stuff going on, yet me and Linda stay strong. That is how I know we make it. Though both our lives are stressful at the moment, neither of us tend to take it out on the other. But instead we nurture each other past the stormy moments. I never thought I would have a relationship that has now gone on for 6 months, and not even one fight that I can recall. Simply put, Linda is everything I want and more.
Art Joke

An eccentric billionaire wanted a mural painted on his library wall, so he called in an artist. Describing what he wanted, the billionaire said, "I am a history buff, and I would like your interpretation of the last thing that went through Custer's mind before he died. I am going out of town on business for a week, and when I return I expect to see it completed."

Upon his return, the billionaire went to the library to examine the finished work. To his surprise he found a painting of a cow with a halo. Surrounding this there were hundreds of Indians in various stages and different positions of making love. Furious he called the artist in.

"What the hell is this?" screamed the billionaire.

"Why that's exactly what you asked for," said the artist smugly.

"No! I didn't ask for a mural of pornographic filth, I asked for a mural of the interpretation of Custer's last thoughts!"

"And there you have it," said the artist, "I call it, 'Holy cow look at all those #@&*ing Indians!' "

Copyright of jokecrazy.com [link]
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/11871659/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 17:45:10 PST how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they did not know how" -- Don McClean

I often find it perplexing on why so many quickly dismiss the brilliance of Van Gogh. Labeling him as a mad man, and not taking note of how trapped he was in his own brilliance. I have recently started reading through several of his letters to his brother Theo. My impression is he is like many artist (or so I assume). I know in of myself I seem to trapped by art.

She is my mistress in life and this will never change, no matter what.

We, as the creative, often get locked in a fit of despair. It is not that we are selfish or what not. On the contrary. It is how we with our acute ability to see the world we can tell, as artist, how beautiful the world really is. And how beautiful the world really could be.

We, as the expressive, tend to see the world in minute detail. We are able to pin point small details that no others see unless we bring it to their attention.

"That is my ambition, which in spite of everything is based less on anger than on love, based more on a feeling of serenity than on passion. Although I am often in trouble, there is inside me a serene,pure harmony and music. In the poorest hovel, in the grubbiest corner, I can see paintings or drawings. And as if compelled by an irresistible urge, my soul goes out in that direction."

I think that we tend to not recognize that we see things differently then the general public. Colors are more vivid. Lighting is brighter. Shadows fall deeper. Things that the average citizen simply cannot see at all are shown clear as day to our eyes. And my theory is this is why so many artists have bout of depression. We see how beautiful the world can be, and have extreme emotions about how the rest of the world should see the world. But the truth is they cannot see it. And I am not sure if they cannot see it or they choose not to.

I often find these things to be true. To not be able to express my thoughts clearly and views smoothly. I am often accompanied by look of perplexed eyes and puzzled smirks. So quickly we are dismissed as crazy or just merely an idiot because our ideals do not fall in line. Or more correctly that our thoughts and emotions are brought outside and not bottled away like so many. Leaving our souls to ask questions like: Why Doesn't the world understand me? Why can they not just see what my heart screams so clearly? It is so obvious!

But society deems it not worth speaking of. So we save our tears for isolated moments so not to offend others. And lock our heart away so not to "embarrass" ourselves.

"So what do you want? Does what happens inside show on the outside? There is such a great fire in one's soul, and yet nobody ever comes to warm themselves there, and passerby see nothing but a little smoke coming from the top of the chimney, and go on their way."

"So then, what to do? Stoke up that fire inside, have salt in yourself, wait patiently, yet with how much impatience, wait for the hour, when someone might want to come and sit down by it and stay there, how should I know?"

As an artist I can so relate to the thoughts of van Gogh. Should I wait idly by? Wait for some passerby to take notice and try to warm themselves by the fire which is my heart and soul? I'd rather scream my passions in vivid display for the world to see and not be so caged. This depresses me to no end. That no matter how many pictures I paint, no one really seems to get it. The world's eyes are just partly open.

I myself have seen the aftermath of my expression and my passions such as Van Gogh. Being left because I have devoted myself to something other than the touch of another. Frantic to allow the world to see my vision.

"Art is jealous and demands all our time and all our strength, and then when dedicate these to it, it leaves rather a bitter taste to be taken for some kind of impractical person and I don't know what else Well, we just have to try and battle on."

So many times I have been spoke of by others as being impractical and without common sense. For me I have no clue what these people mean by this, and their lack of explanations for such statements are both irritating and puzzling to me provoking anger longing for some kind of explanation to what they mean. But I am left saddened by these thoughts. And I am left to feel I am truly alone in my journeys. But somehow I know there are others out there are just looking for answers to the questions of the universe and left frustrated at no resolve.

"I want to make drawings that touch will touch people. Either in a figure, or in a landscape, I would like to express, not something sentimentally melancholy, but sincere sorrow."

An entrapment of us all that are of... ]]> ~mikey-madness Life in the Beginning of 2007 http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/11354475/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/11354475/ Sun, 07 Jan 2007 19:20:05 PST
Well over the holidays I lost a girlfriend. But no worries, I gained officially a fiancée. A ring is on Linda's finger and I feel so privileged she has chosen me. I feel privileged to know her let alone being the one that gets to marry here. She is quite the remarkable and strong person. You can't help but be happy when you are around her and talking to her. But we plan to be married in 3-4 months and I cannot be happier.

The holidays went mostly well. I loved spending time with Linda and her daughter. The cerebral palsy makes it difficult to talk to her, but we had fun just the same. You can see the thoughts behind her eyes, I hope one day she can speak to let us in on all her thoughts and dreams.

My sister has got me concerned as well. Her boyfriend decided to leave her for 5 days over New Years with his 3 daughters ( not her children) and not call or anything. She has left him, but is saying that she will give him another chance if he goes to rehab. I tried to convince otherwise (being the older brother) that this guy is no good and just using her. But love is blind.

I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays and hope to catch up on my Deviantart real soon!
Art Joke

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/11118711/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 16:38:09 PST
Well would like to say sorry for not updating for a couple weeks, but seeing I received two comments on my last journal, I am not thinking people are reading them. It is kind of ironic and cold seeing I comment on just about everyone's stuff. But hay, what can I say. But I think I am going to start commenting less if it continues that no one else tends to take the time to read my entries and what not. Not exactly fair I think. But that is fairly typical of most people I think. Think only for themselves and not others.

On my art note, two of my pieces are featured in the online Magazine "The World of Myth's" 2007 calendar. I am stoked about this. I have been rated the #1 artist for the past two months. So I am happy to see my work listed in there. Pick up your copy today [link]

I have been very busy. I enrolled back into School and have already finished one course and I am about 2/3 the way done with the next. By the end I hope to at least have my MCSA (Microsoft Certification) if not my MCSE (Still a Microsoft cert, just higher). I think these will prep me for getting out of the military. I don't think I am going to remain in past this enlistment. It has been a good run, but I think I have much more calling for me outside the military. We'll see, but I am getting ready otherwise. It will also put me in the right direction for getting a degree in computers (my 9 to 5) and get me in a position paying $60K or more a year annually. We'll see what happens.

Also I am looking for ward to see my beloved in California soon. It will be a great time. I think her mother is settling on the fact that we are not just a fling or a rebound type thing, this is the real deal. So that is cool. It will be a blast to be had by all.

My brother is in Jail (again) for stealing some over the counter drugs in order to get high off of them sometimes. He is quite frustrating at times. I wish there was more I could do to get him on the right track. But he seems to be a lost cause and driving my mother insane (as well as the rest of us in the family). I hope there is some way to get him on track. For some reason I got a feeling he wont survive much longer. Sad really, but his schizophrenia is beyond out of control. And no can keep him grounded and his head so far out of reality.

Well in case I do not have a chance to tell all those out Merry Christmas merry Christmas!! (or whatever you celebrate) and enjoy the new year!!

Art Joke

~mikey-madness Give the World The Best You Have http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10940910/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10940910/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 19:26:55 PST
I "borrowed" this quote from

's page. I think it is a good practice for all of us to follow in the world, no matter what our background may be in religion.

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered...
Forgive them anyway

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives...
Be kind anyway

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies...
Succeed anyway

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you...
Be honest and frank anyway

What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight...
Build anyway

If you find serenity and happiness, people may be jealous...
Be happy anyway

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow...
Do good anyway

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough...
Give the world the best you have anyway

You see, in the final analysis, it's all between you and God...
It was never between you and them anyway

- Mother Teresa
Art Joke

A Brit, a Frenchman and a Russian are viewing a painting of Adam and Eve frolicking in the Garden of Eden.

"Look at their reserve, their calm," muses the Brit. "They must be British."

"Nonsense," the Frenchman disagrees. "They're naked, and so beautiful. Clearly, they are French."

"No clothes, no shelter," the Russian points out, "they have only an apple to eat, and they're being told this is paradise. They are Russian."

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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

~mikey-madness What More Is There To Say? http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10772817/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10772817/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 01:32:14 PST
Not much is happening to report up here. I am looking forward to Christmas coming up, so I can spend in with my dear sweet love

. Should be fun. I also get along with most her family anyways. See it was quite weird how we met, she happens to be the sister of my best friend in the world. We started talking and the rest is history. It is quite true what they say about when you least expect it. She is absolutely the most endearing person you could hope to meet. I can not think of another person I would want more to spend the rest of my life with.

I have been working on some computer related stuff. Studying for some certificates I have to take, so apologize in advance if I do not get to all you guys wonderful works. Eventually I will.

Thanksgiving is close, and I have no one to spend it with. I will find somewhere to go. Maybe my aunt's in Denver. Who knows. I will look into that this upcoming week. Remember all to think about what we do have and not what we don't this next week.

I will update the featured artist in a bit. But I am continueing to re-amp my page. any feedback is highly encouraged!!
Art Joke

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10618221/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 20:27:57 PST

news

First off, I will update the rest of this later.

Second off i surpassed 10,000 pageviews!!! I cannot believe it. You like me you really like me!! LOL tahnks you all for your support. You are all wonderful to me and I love you all. And I hit it before my on year mark... YES!!!

Third off, How you like the new look of my page? I reamped my avatar and Journal. I was tired of the old. Wanted a change. you know how that goes. Comments on the new format is always welcome. Suggestions are welcome too!!

I am also creating more (if you haven't noticed) I feel inspired by Linda. She makes me strive for excellence. Thanks for memories. i have made quite a few friends along the way. on and off deviantart. you know who you all are. I thank you especially for the love and support you have given me. Your kindness and honesty makes my heart sore. I love honesty. I think it is the greatest thing ever. So don't be afraid to tell me my stuff is crap if it is crap. But be gentle when you do so and tell me specifics on why not. The more feedback I get the more I grow.

Also a friend of mine is helping me out to possibly do gallery work in new york. I won't mention at this juncture, in case he does not want the attention (some do not like it) but i thank you very much. It is kind of scarry to me to think of my stuff in a NYC Gallery. I never thought I'd see the day. But nothing is certain yet and i am not one to count my chickens before they hatch. But it could prove to be a wild adventure. I think I plan to try so at least i know I gave it a try and if I fail. I fail. but getting there is the difficult part. Again we'll see.

But to all of you that have viewed my work once or a hundred times. I thank each and every last one of you. you have made my stay at deviantART a pleasurable one!

Art Joke

A woman in a northeast Pennsylvania art gallery is staring at an exquisite painting entitled Home for Lunch. It depicts three very naked black men sitting on a park bench with their penises in plain view. But while all the men are black, the one in the middle has a pink penis.

Excuse me, the woman says to the exhibits curator. I am curious about this painting of three African-Americans. Why does the man in the middle have a pink penis?

Im afraid youve misinterpreted the painting, says the curator. These men are not African-American; theyre coal miners, and the fellow in the middle went home for lunch.

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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

~mikey-madness Getting Back to My Old Self http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10418420/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10418420/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 23:23:29 PDT

News:

Well I am getting back to my old self. that means getting back to my old style of journal. I like paying tribute to other great artists/writers I have found out there.

I want to start off by saying I miss

very much. I long for the days we can be together forever. But untill then I am sad I cannot be with her. If you haven't checked out her great writing you should. She is soon to be published. Her work is great! It might be your only chance to say I knew her when. So go Check her out!!

Also a special thanks to my dear friend

for her portrait of me and my son. I am so touched that she did that. I have never had someone draw me before (outside characatures that is and self portraits that is). It turned out wonderful, as does all her work. So check it out as well as all her work as well!!

I am going back to my old style of Journal to include some people's work I think stand out. These are people that may not get a lot of recognition otherwise, so go check them out. They are superb talents that normally get little recognition for how talented they truelly are. So pay them a visit.

I am also thrilled. I believe I will break 10K by the time I reach my one year mark on DeviantART. So I thank you all for all your support and encouragement.

Art Joke: Home For Lunch

A woman in a northeast Pennsylvania art gallery is staring at an exquisite painting entitled Home for Lunch. It depicts three very naked black men sitting on a park bench with their penises in plain view. But while all the men are black, the one in the middle has a pink penis.

Excuse me, the woman says to the exhibits curator. I am curious about this painting of three African-Americans. Why does the man in the middle have a pink penis?

Im afraid youve misinterpreted the painting, says the curator. These men are not African-American; theyre coal miners, and the fellow in the middle went home for lunch.

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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10362124/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 19:00:41 PDT

Well I thought I would update this Journal thing. To keep you all informed on my doings in life. I recently got back from California where I spent 5 great days with the love of my life

. We had a great time. And soon we will be together again. I am so glad I found her. And I don't wanna lose her. She is my everything. So soon we will be together forever!

I am sorry I have not done any work as of late, but I have been fairly busy with real world things and agendas. I hope to have more pieces to share in the near future. But my mind has been other places.

Also for some reason "Castles In the Air" has received a lot of increaseed attention these days. i am not sure qhy it has, but I am dying to know. So if you have any idea where these hits are coming from.

I hope to get back to my old style of Journal too with featured artist and writers i have uncovered that i think need to get noticed as well as a joke of the week. So look forward to those future entries. Also if you care to see me and my honey, don't forget to visit my myspace page [link] .

All in all it seems life is slowly falling back into place. Funny how it get turns upside down at times.

On a final note, if anyone knows how to include an image in CSS style sheets on here as a background image, let me know. I am still trying to figure that portion out. For now it is just colorful. I may get more decorative later. Any suggestion I will take into consideration as well.

Keep away from those who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you believe that you too can become great.
~ Mark Twain

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]]> ~mikey-madness Ode to the Nice Girls!! We need you too!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10266924/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10266924/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 02:31:38 PDT

I found this here [link] (thanks to

and

) for pointing it out to me. I had a few weeks posted a ode to the Nice Guys. But let us not forget the the nice girls out there. The ones that get so overlooked. Oh yah I surpassed 9000 pageviews!! Thank you all!!
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Repost this if you're a nice girl!!
Guys Repost if you're lookin for this/or appreciate these girls!!

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his... ]]> ~mikey-madness Who Will Save Your Soul? http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10168256/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10168256/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 02:53:53 PDT

Listening to: "Who Will Save Your Soul?" ~ Jewel

Until you know that life is interesting - and find it so - you haven't found your soul. ~Geoffrey Fisher

We as the creators must find new ways to unfold ourselves in the Medias. We paint our dreams and hearts in vivid colors and lavishly decorative words in hopes that others will hear our cries and relate. When we unfold our emotions into glorious melodies and inspiring lyrics, the lofty dancers take flight in fluid motion and with their bodies paint their expression into world. We seek this as artist. We seek this as writers. We seek this as humans. And our whole life attempt to tap into the spirituality. We do crave no more to show the world that we do indeed have more to offer beyond our body and flesh.

One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever come to sit by it. Passers-by see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on the way. ~Vincent Van Gogh

A soul is defined by the dictionary as:

1. The animating and vital principle in humans, credited with the faculties of thought, action, and emotion and often conceived as an immaterial entity.
2. The spiritual nature of humans, regarded as immortal, separable from the body at death, and susceptible to happiness or misery in a future state.
3. The disembodied spirit of a dead human.

We have all heard this word thrown around, that we do indeed own a soul an embodiment of us in a spiritual form. So many cultures throughout history have expressed this in one form or another. And I have heard many theories and thoughts about the subject of what a soul is and what happens to it when we part of this world.

In just about every religion and culture there is some perception on what the soul is and whether or not it exists at all. Most Christians regard the soul as the immortal core of a human - the seat or center of human will, understanding, and behavior - and that after death; God either compensates or reprimands the soul. Plato, pulling from the words of his teacher Socrates, thought of the soul as the fundamental nature of a person, being that which decides how we act. Aristotle, following Plato, defined the soul as the core essence of a being, but argued against its having a separate existence. For example, if a knife had a soul, the act of cutting would be that soul, because 'cutting' is the essence of what it is to be a knife. Or how I look to view it, painting would be the soul of the Artist. In Hinduism, the Sanskrit words most intimately parallel to soul are "Jiva", meaning the individual soul or personality, and "Atman", which can also mean soul or even God. In Egyptian mythology, the human soul is a combination of seven distinct parts: the Ren, Sekhem, the Akh, the Ba, the Ka, the Sheut, and the Sekhu. During life, the soul, including those of animals, and even that of gods, was believed to dwell in a body. There are countless more accounts on numerous cultures on what a soul is and is not.

Even science has attempted to prove or disprove the existance of a soul. During the late 19th and first half 20th century, researchers attempted to weigh people who were known to be dying, and record their weight accurately at the time of death in order to prove they had in fact had a soul. That is was in fact tangible and could be measured as it left the body. One doctors conclusion was that the soul actually weighed 21 grams!!! But these studies later were proven to be inconclusive in nature. But I am sure you figured that much out already.

We all talk about finding our soul mates and touching our souls. We speak of art and writing as an expression of our soul. But to know what one is to express is to know one soul is. And will someone please come here now and save our souls!!

"Who will save your soul if you won't save your own?" ~ Jewel

So I pose these questions to you: What is a soul? Is it something that is gifted from us from God? Or is it something that is earned and forged by each individual by the burdens and struggles that face each and every one of us? Or do we even have a soul? Or is this something that was created to keep faith in us human beings for something better then this? In other words, is a soul just fiction?

What is soul? It's like electricity - we don't really know what it is, but it's a force that can light a room. ~Ray Charles

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]]> ~mikey-madness A Toast to the Nice Guys http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10128821/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/10128821/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 13:37:16 PDT

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girls every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

^This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once theyre at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow dont end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldnt worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree youd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didnt have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing serious between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: oh, but were just friends! And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because youre nice like that.

The nice guys dont often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys dont seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I cant. From what I have observed in life and what I have learned from talking to friends from all over and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as oh, hes too nice to date or he would be a good boyfriend but hes not for me or he already puts up with so much from me, I couldnt possibly ask him out! or the most frustrating of all: no, it would ruin our friendship. Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I cant figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (Im going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesnt last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know youre sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, insane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to y... ]]> ~mikey-madness Fairing fairly good http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9926913/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9926913/ Fri, 01 Sep 2006 10:32:52 PDT

Mood: Comical

Doing Great!!
Listening to: "Calling You" by: Blue October

First off I would like to introduce the angel of my strife and the love of my life, LMMercer

. She is quite the amazing writer. She is brand new to deviantart so give her a warm welcome. Her writing is great. Just wait till she posts her short stories and all. They will blow you simply away. If you recall me stating that I had an Angel named Linda save me and continues to wow me and save me day in and day out. Well this would be her. She is my inspiration and guiding light. She loves feedback on her work.

She is also one of the Senior Contributors at "The World of Myth" [link]

World of Myth is a collection of Art and Poetry put out there for the world to see. They usually have a Horror, sci-fi, Mythological, and fantasy persona, but shows many different sides and faces. And they defenitely do not stick to that alone. So check her out there as well. You will also see a few of my pieces posted up as well. It is an online magazine dedicated to the arts and writing. They are always looking for new submits from many different people as well. So check them out!!! And tell em Mikey Sent yah!!!

(No I get no commission or anything

lmao.)

Ok, enough plugging.

Life is fairly good. I am just recovering from my money situation. And still staggering to get back on my feet to stand tall and firm in life. I will get there soon enough though. Just you wait. I am also trying to decide whether or not to stay in the Air Force. It has been 7+ years in and will be 9 when I get out. But they are forcing me to retrain out of my career field, and I am not sure I like that. My second passion is computers. I have spent 10 years perfecting that talent, now they are telling me I cannot do it no more. So I will have to decide on that.

Again my brother just got out of the hospital, and is doing ok. He will make it through. He scares me at times, I wonder when I will be called to come home to bury him. He gets that bad.

All things considered I am doing well. But we will see what the next day will bring. As well as the next.

Stuff I forgot first entry:

Also I have been feeling a bit down about my dad. There are three ocassions that his death gets to me. That is around father's day, his birthday and the anniversary of his death. His birthday just passed a few days ago. And it occurred to me I have never even seen his grave after the funeral. Never laid flowers on the grave. He is buried in texas, so it is not like he is close. But still i have been to texas since and have not paid my respect recently.

I also have owned my car 1 year. LOL not very signifigant, but I will mention it anyways. Funny things you notice as you are paying bills. LOL. Does not seem that long. Oh well.

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]]> ~mikey-madness My First Serious Hate Mail http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9917228/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9917228/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 10:05:51 PDT

Mood: Comical

Doing Great!!
Listening to: "Calling You" by: Blue October

So I am looking for feedback on my feedbak

It seems I progressed in my writing to now get hate mail. And I am so happy about it!! seriously!!

I got this a few weeks ago. And perhaps you will think I am crazy, but I was so impressed that someone hated my work so much to give me such a detailed posting on another site. I was in aww... that they spent so much attetion to it. Ironically my longest posting hate to be so hating LOL. But I am not bitter. I think i am going to frame it.

It was in regards to Shattered.

A poem/graphic thing i did. You got to read this!!! Click on thumb to read the original piece

"Your poetry I found both disturbing, and difficult to understand. Poetry is indeed often meant to be subject to interpretation, yet in your case I felt it was more (or more likely, less) than that. My suspicions led me to your web site, and the short thesis (or question?) you offer on the subject of love. I have copied it, and offer the below critique. If you are sensitive to criticism, or averse to advice, stop now and close my comments. You will some of which I believe to be misspellings, grammar errors, or flaws in logic inclosed by parenthesis. Your words, and my critique follow:

I have gone to try to understand this thing called life (where did you ?go??). More specifically this thing called love (is love a specific form of ?life? as you have now stated, rather than a ?part? of life?). What is it? And why is it so? (Why is it so? Did you state what it is or how it is ?so? yet?) Is it at as simple as impulses of the brain to (perhaps ?that? would be a better word than ?to?) cause us to attempt reproduction or (did you mean ?as?, and not ?or??) part of some greater scheme?

I am one to always search out (the) answer; both within logic and within my soul. (You do not search ?within logic?, rather you may search ?with? logic; further, logic and soul are not things you can lump together with ?both? in such a context) These answers bring nothing but more questions to me.

For what I have come to understand about this elusive thing is diverse and complicated, but all the while simplistic in nature. (Did you really mean to say that your understanding is diverse? Perhaps you meant to say: I have come to understand that this elusive thing is diverse and complicated, but all the while simplistic in nature.)

How does one know when they are loved? How does one know they love another? My answer comes down to perspective and belief. For if you have faith that you love someone. You in fact do. (Both the preceding sentences are incomplete, use a comma, not a period in this single thought.) Everything else becomes trivial and obsolete. In also if you believe you are loved, you in fact are. No matter what one tells you, contrary belief. (I have no idea what either of the preceding sentences mean. They make no sense at all, and no matter how I attempt to correct the grammar, the statements defy logic.)

I always here ?that is not love?? or ?that is what love is all about?? (?hear? not "here?) But that seems so surface and vague to me. But isn?t that what love is? It is vague in nature. It is something that has baffled scholars and philosophers alike.

From my stand point love is this: It is the faith that you love someone and the belief they love you too. (In this context, standpoint is one word, not two.) It comes down to trust. And when it comes to two people being ?in love? it comes down to 2 people believing this way towards each other. (Be consistent. Use ?two? or ?2?. Professional writers would recommend ?two?.)

But fear comes to corrupt love. It is the killer of love. For our fears is what bonds us. (?fear is? or ?fears are what bond us.?, take your pick) To say that you love someone and they (when they do) not feel the same is devastating. But why is this so? Why is it that we must be loved to love? Or it is our pride protecting us of such things. (Did you mean to ask this as a question, or pose it as the only ?other? explanation to a previously unstated answer or statement?) It is because within love we wish to be accepted by those that we love. Ergo lays... ]]> ~mikey-madness My Eccentric Life These Days http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9848316/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9848316/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 08:18:18 PDT

Mood: Doing Great!!
Listening to: "Calling You" by: Blue October

So I have heard a lot of things. I did not realize I was so vastly missed by you all. And I am very much so touched by your kind words and spirits. It fills me up to no end.

I also have heard all sorts of rumors on my livelihood and whereabouts. I even heard someone tell me that they had thought I had killed myself. But obviously that was not the case at all. Although I was pretty dead inside. It is amazing what one person can do to your heart and soul. How much one person can rip you to freakin shreds and not even care that they did it. How one person can be emotional abusive and belittling till you are screaming for them to just leave you alone.

But on top of an Ex that was very belittling and game playing, even after we broke up. I had got into a bit of a financial pickle as well. My mom was getting ready to live in a hotel, because my brother with schizophrenia and drug addiction has seemed to have gotten them evicted once again. On top of that, it has came down that I am being forced to retrain out of computers (one of my other passions) to a unwanted career field in the Air Force, or decide to get out.

It had gotten to the point I was twitching on the couch laying with my eyes fully agape staring into the ceiling. I was sitting in the shower with the water running over my body for an hour or more in the fetal position shaking. I wasnt eating or sleeping. It got so bad that mom was deeply afraid for my life and well being. My family gathered what money they had, and bought me a plane ticket to get me the hell out of there. Dealing with my Ex girlfriend and her belittling games of how great her new boyfriend was and how much a piece of shit I was had taken its toll. This amongst many other of her cold mind games she loved to play.

I then went to the ER to get some valium to calm down and was scheduled for counseling sessions in the near future. But going to be near my family was very helpful, to feel as though I was loved and had some backing allowed me to mustard the strength in me. And slowly start to rebuild the self worth inside me that had been so mind numbing to me. I literal had seen no way out of the abyss I had stepped into. With absolutely no exit from this darkness, the demons had surely won this time and I was sure I was to not stop spiraling down till I shook hands with the devil himself. I was lower then I had ever felt in my entire life.

I had intended and was bound and determined to never date again. It was not worth. The ex could have her new fiancée and I will just die alone slowly and painfully.

Then I was talking to my best friend, who I have so many times considered to be like a brother to me. In fact I have often called him that. He was trying to help me out. I started talking to his sister, because she too was going through a bad break up as well. It was nice to have someone to talk to and listen to me and know I was not alone after all. We began to talk more and more. And found out that not only was it that we had that in common, we had much, much, MUCH more in common. For the first time in my life I can honestly say now I feel I have found the One. Me and my eccentric ways I suppose. But what more can you expect, I am the mikey-madness after all.

But in my darkest hour. A time when I thought there was no way out. I voice of an Angel spoke to me and guided me to the light. And showed me the way.

I love you Linda. You are more then my friend. You are more then my girlfriend. You are more then my lover. You are my everything, my reason for being. You are my Soul mate, this much I know is true. I can feel it pulsating in my veins that you are the one. I have never said that before. You are the answer to my prayers. And out of the ashes of strife, I have found the guiding light to lead to heaven. I have been waiting for you all my life.

]]> ~mikey-madness The Art of Friendship http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9502981/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9502981/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 16:03:35 PDT

Mood: Doing OK
Listening to: "Blister in the Sun" by: Violent Femmes

friend(frnd) NOUN:

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.

What is a friend? A single soul in two bodies.Aristotle

You can have a lot of acquaintances, but only a few people will become your best friends. These are kindred spirits, much like David and Jonathan in the bible, whose souls were knit together. Friendships like this will endure, even though the intensity of the friendship will ebb and flow over time.

One of the dangers in this kind of friendship is co-dependency. The sheer delight of having such a friend can also create weighty expectations in the relationship. A good question for friends to ask regularly is, Are we truly seeking the other persons highest good?

A true friend stabs you in the front.Oscar Wilde

Leave it to Oscar Wilde to lay out an important truth with such wry humor. A true friend is one who helps you see the truth, even if it hurts. This doesnt mean we can go around stabbing our friends with hurtful words. Rather, it means being up front with friends about important issues, raising gentle questions with tact and love, never gossiping or putting them down to others behind their backs.

I do not wish to treat friendships daintily, but with the roughest courage. When they are real, they are not glass threads or frost-work, but the solidest thing we know.Ralph Waldo Emerson

Modified from Jeff Yourison [link]

]]> ~mikey-madness Do you believe in Soulmates? http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9459244/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9459244/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 14:56:22 PDT

Mood: Doing OK
Listening to: "Blister in the Sun" by: Violent Femmes

Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep affinity, friendship, love, strong intimacy, sexuality, or compatibility.

A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul - thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.

However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations; they are sometimes used simply as an expression of strong emotional feeling for someone.

Greek mythology states originally humans were combined of 4 arms, 4 legs, and a single head made of 2 faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spending their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

There is a prevalent concept in some segments of the New Age movement that some "souls" are literally made and/or fated to be the mates of each other, or to play certain other important roles in each others' lives. These souls are thought to have created something in a past life and they have chosen this lifetime to help each other "heal." Following this concept, one can have many soul mates. For example: One could see another person they have never met in this lifetime and instantly hate or love them because of previous interaction(s) with the other in one or more previous lifetimes. The most popular use of this concept is in applying it to those who were loved intimately in other lifetimes which were then found in this one.

So the questions are this... Do you believe in soulmates? And do you think your soulmate is out there? Do you think you have found your soulmate? You think you ever will? What do you believe a soulmate is?

]]> ~mikey-madness Devious Journal Entry http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9459243/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9459243/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 14:56:20 PDT

Mood: Doing OK
Listening to: "Firewater" by: Yellowcard

Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep affinity, friendship, love, strong intimacy, sexuality, or compatibility.

A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul - thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.

However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations; they are sometimes used simply as an expression of strong emotional feeling for someone.

Greek mythology states originally humans were combined of 4 arms, 4 legs, and a single head made of 2 faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spending their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

There is a prevalent concept in some segments of the New Age movement that some "souls" are literally made and/or fated to be the mates of each other, or to play certain other important roles in each others' lives. These souls are thought to have created something in a past life and they have

]]> ~mikey-madness 8000 PAGEVIEWS!!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9379388/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9379388/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 20:17:09 PDT

Mood: Doing OK
Listening to: "Firewater" by: Yellowcard

First of I would like you to all welcome my new friend ucallmewho He is new and is trying to get feedback on his poetry. I think he is quite good. Tell him what you think.

Life has been busy still. I am getting back to my old self again. But it is taking some time to adapt back to it. I am trying to enroll into school. I have been real busy trying to settle down to read all your stuff and comment. I have had my sons and have stayed fairly busy. I am getting to your comments but it is hard to keep up. I am touched by every comment I get and makes me

Well I got 8000 now. Took a little while. Thanks for all you guys support and kindness as well as your brute honesty. It is all aprreciated.

]]> ~mikey-madness What is Love? I pose this question. http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9174327/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9174327/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 00:30:50 PDT

Mood: Doing OK
Listening to: "Firewater" by: Yellowcard

I have gone to try to understand this thing called life. More specifically this thing called love. What is it? And why is it so? Is it at as simple as impulses of the brain to cause us to attempt reproduction or part of some greater scheme?

I am one to always search out answer; both within logic and within my soul. These answers bring nothing but more questions to me.

For what I have come to understand about this elusive thing is diverse and complicated, but all the while simplistic in nature.

How does one know when they are loved? How does one know they love another? My answer comes down to perspective and belief. For if you have faith that you love someone. You in fact do. Everything else becomes trivial and obsolete. In also if you believe you are loved, you in fact are. No matter what one tells you, contrary belief.

I always here that is not love or that is what love is all about But that seems so surface and vague to me. But isnt that what love is? It is vague in nature. It is something that has baffled scholars and philosophers alike.

From my stand point love is this: It is the faith that you love someone and the belief they love you too. It comes down to trust. And when it comes to two people being in love it comes down to 2 people believing this way towards each other.

But fear comes to corrupt love. It is the killer of love. For our fears is what bonds us. To say that you love someone and they not feel the same is devastating. But why is this so? Why is it that we must be loved to love? Or it is our pride protecting us of such things. It is because within love we wish to be accepted by those that we love. Ergo lays our dilemma. Fearing to love someone on the chance they will not love in return.

So I pose this question: What is love?

]]> ~mikey-madness Father's Day http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9107794/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9107794/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 17:31:17 PDT

Mood: Doing better
Listening to: Bonnie Rait - "I Can't Make You love me"

Father's day is not the happiest day of the year for me. It reminds me I can never talk to him again. Unless I want to talk to a headstone. But if he is out there and he can see/hear this. I still love you dad. I will never stop missing. And 7 years later, it still hurts. I still want him here. So I have someone to turn to. Happy Father's day to everyone. And make sure you tell him that you love him, you will never know what day will be your last with him.

]]> ~mikey-madness What does it all mean? http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9021727/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/9021727/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 19:20:55 PDT

Mood: Doing better
Listening to: Bonnie Rait - "I Can't Make You love me"

I often find it very interesting relationships. I tend to get the needy women. And this is fine, but when it comes to my needs in a relationship or my desires they are overlooked. I often find my normal appearance and normal finanacial situation tends to hinder my relationships. It comes down to physical appearance and financial status in this world. Which is sad.

I hate onesided relationships, which is what I tend to get into. I have to be there for them, but rarely are they there for me. They want me to open up and share every little thing about my past, but don't want to share their past. I believe in fair and equal relationships, if they are indeed that. Fair and equal. I would settle for someone that is there for me 10% of the time.

But for some reason it is the tendacy of humans to flee when things get rough. That is why I have very few friends. People that have been there for me. That is what I consider strength.

Not sure what I am looking for now. I guess a nice woman that treats me right and respects my wishes and returns pampering once in a while. Someone who see no one else but me in their eyes. Someone who doesn't try to control me cause of their fear within.

I don't know, just ranting. Not sure what to make of life right now. And love. Both seem to betray me constantly.

]]> ~mikey-madness Sorry I have been busy(updated again!) http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8980738/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8980738/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 21:46:15 PDT

Mood: Doing better
Listening to: Bonnie Rait - "I Can't Make You love me"

First off I would like to start off with my Myspace address. [link] If you added me already. Add me again. I had to change it. Was having issues with it. Sorry.

Second vote for me for Traditional Artist of the month at [link] I updated the link. Sorry about that. Let me know if you all are still having issues with it. I think you have to register. Not sure. But I was nominated and as always I am excited!!! So register, then rate me and delete if yah want later... but that is up to you.

Sorry for right now I am going back to a more selfish Jounal. More back to about me and what is going on in my life. In a month or two I will start back up with favs of mine. Sounds selfish, but I got entirely too much real world stuff going on right now.

I am also trying to stay up with comments on works, but I am finding it hard to do this. So forgive me if I give brief comments and notes. I am trying here, but not being very good at responding.

I would like to take the time to thank everyone for there great support. You know who you are. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have been great both on and off DeviantART. I have needed that. No more bad talking, it is over. I am pressing on.

I have been busy. Been taking some computer courses and also just passed a motorcycle training class. I am now licensed to ride a motorcycle. I just wish I had the money to get one. But I will get there in time. It is one more thing I wanted to do that is now crossed off the list.

Life is unwritten I have come realize. That you can't sit there anticipating what is going to happen. This is how people get choked up in it. Scared about what may happen and. You have to just live your life and hope it works out for the best. Fear is all of our worst enemies. It is what binds us. We should work to reduce fear in our lifes and leaving ourself then open for the more wonderous things in life.

]]> ~mikey-madness Devious Journal Entry http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8784493/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8784493/ Thu, 18 May 2006 01:29:46 PDT

Mood: Doing better
Listening to: Panic! At The Disco - "I Write Sins Not Tragedies"

News:

I am doing a lot better now. Everything is coming together as it should be. I am in some Computer classes this week, so I have that. I also plan to take a motorcycle course.

Been talking to all my friends that I wasn't allowed to when I was with the ex, cause her enraged jealousy.

Starting to understan from my friends it wasn't right theways he treated me and she shoould of supported me in my artwork and more in life.

I will find that one that will be there for me as much as I am there for them. It is all I really want. An equal and well balanced relationship. I will have it sooner or later.

I will update the rest of this later as well, not right now. It is time for bed

Art Joke: Van Gough in a Bar ( I Know this weeks joke is not very good, oh well... sue me)

Vincent van Gough walks into a bar, and the bartender asks him if he's like a drink.

"No thanks," says Vincent, "I've got one 'ere."
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):

Featured Poetic Favs (definitely check these out):

"EYES WIDE SHUT" by: insideproductions [link]
"Sad Creature" by: ssymbol [link]
"Bindings" by: Viky [link]
"Interwoven" by: tearingmascara [link... ]]> ~mikey-madness What Do You Want When You Die? http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8547085/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8547085/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 02:49:07 PDT

Mood: Thinking
Listening to: None

News:

I was reading a journal of my friend's. On how her grandfather wanted to be cremated, but it was decided to go against his wishes and bury him for religious reasons. This got me thinking. How do I want my remains to be taken care of?

Now I am by no means a morbid individual, and this is not meant to be morbid in the slightest. But it got me thinking.

I am Christian, but does this go against my beliefs? To be cremated. I researched it some more and found that it really wasnt. But I think I wish to be buried. But I want it to be done as cheaply as possible. So I Google Searched Coffins, and sure enough there were some at up to 75% mortuary prices. Even some that guaranteed their coffins up to 80 years?!?! I was like WTF Who would return them? Imagine that conversation. It is hard enough to get the electronics store to take back my used CD, imagine the difficulty with that one. And who is going to check?

It seems to be quite a bit of people passing away around me. Nothing directly with me, but with the people I know. Just brings me back to when my dad passed away. I know my dad would have flipped on how much my mom spent on the funeral arrangements. I want it to be as done as cheaply as possible for me, no need to burden the living with the cost of my death.

But the questions are these: How do you wish your remains to be dealt with? Why? Do you wish to be embalmed or not embalmed? And if your family members did not adhere to your wishes, would this upset you? I know you are dead, but I think you know what I mean. Are you adamant about your funeral arrangements and why?

Art Joke: Van Gough in a Bar ( I Know this weeks joke is not very good, oh well... sue me)

Vincent van Gough walks into a bar, and the bartender asks him if he's like a drink.

"No thanks," says Vincent, "I've got one 'ere."
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):
http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8517033/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 03:36:33 PDT

Mood: In an Ok mood
Listening to: DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE - "Crooked Teeth"

News:
I have been with DeviantArt now for a little under 5 months. I have now reached 5000 Pageviews!! My rate is going up fast! Thank you all! I appreciate you all! I appreciate every single person that has looked at my work. Just to know my thoughts and dreams have somehow made it to the hearts and minds of 5000 people makes me feel honored and priveleged. thank you all for your support!!!

I have no print sells as of yet. That is ok, I am not painting for the money (although make a few buck to pay for my DeviantART expenses would be nice). Didn't get any responses from the last entry, but that is ok too. I understand peoples have lives. I am just thrilled people actually think I have talent. I see how much better I could be. This makes me a little upset. But I will keep painting if people will keep on looking and loving. That is the important thing to me. Not print sells.

It is weird how I have not had anyone add my Essence of Women series to their wishlist. Hmmmm....

I am getting two Siberian Huskies. My girlfriend is obsessed. Her friend's dog had some puppies and she pestered me until she conned me into two of I agreed to one, but somehow I am ending up with two. I am sucker.

Someone bought me an addition to my subscription? I only paid for 3 months, and it says I have until September. I counted it up, even used my fingers to make sure. So if someone bought me an addition to my subscription I say Thank you to you, whoever you may be.

I am slowly getting around to adding more and more of my pieces as prints. So if there is a particular piece you think I should release to print, let me know.

One of my prints is listed as the featured prints which makes me happy.

My Elfwood page can be seen here [link]

I plan to maybe get back into my short story writing. I am not sure when and where. But stay tuned for that. I have also been feeling better about my writing lately. At first glance I do not like my stuff. I have to tweak it till I like it. Some I will never like. That is how it goes. Not all can be winners.

Art Joke: Van Gough in a Bar ( I Know this weeks joke is not very good, oh well... sue me)

Vincent van Gough walks into a bar, and the bartender asks him if he's like a drink.

"No thanks," says Vincent, "I've got one 'ere."
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):
~mikey-madness No Print Sells Yet... But Thats Ok :D http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8464360/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8464360/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 03:34:09 PDT

Mood: In an Ok mood
Listening to: DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE - "Crooked Teeth"

News:

I have no print sells as of yet. That is ok, I am not painting for the money (although make a few buck to pay for my DeviantART expenses would be nice). Didn't get any responses from the last entry, but that is ok too. I understand peoples have lives. I am just thrilled people actually think I have talent. I see how much better I could be. This makes me a little upset. But I will keep painting if people will keep on looking and loving. That is the important thing to me. Not print sells.

It is weird how I have not had anyone add my Essence of Women series to their wishlist. Hmmmm....

I am getting two Siberian Huskies. My girlfriend is obsessed. Her friend's dog had some puppies and she pestered me until she conned me into two of I agreed to one, but somehow I am ending up with two. I am sucker.

Someone bought me an addition to my subscription? I only paid for 3 months, and it says I have until September. I counted it up, even used my fingers to make sure. So if someone bought me an addition to my subscription I say Thank you to you, whoever you may be.

I am slowly getting around to adding more and more of my pieces as prints. So if there is a particular piece you think I should release to print, let me know.

One of my prints is listed as the featured prints which makes me happy.

My Elfwood page can be seen here [link]

I plan to maybe get back into my short story writing. I am not sure when and where. But stay tuned for that. I have also been feeling better about my writing lately. At first glance I do not like my stuff. I have to tweak it till I like it. Some I will never like. That is how it goes. Not all can be winners.

Art Joke: Van Gough in a Bar ( I Know this weeks joke is not very good, oh well... sue me)

Vincent van Gough walks into a bar, and the bartender asks him if he's like a drink.

"No thanks," says Vincent, "I've got one 'ere."
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):
http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8438132/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 12:51:25 PDT

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Dress You Up - Madonna

News:

Well I hit 4000 Pageviews. Awesome. My sons have gone home. One of my prints are listed as the featured prints which makes me happy. No print sells as of yet.

I will add more to this later. Not much to talk about now. Read the Joke if yah haven't yet. I don't know.

My Elfwood page can be seen here [link]

I plan to maybe get back into my short story writing. I am not sure when and where. But stay tuned for that. I have also been feeling better about my writing lately. At first glance I do not like my stuff. I have to tweak it till I like it. Some I will never like. That is how it goes. Not all can be winners.

Art Joke: Eye of Gratitude

In the prime of her career, a world famous painter started to lose her eyesight. Fearful that she might lose her life as a painter, she went to see the best eye surgeon in the world.
After several weeks of delicate surgery and therapy, her eyesight was restored. The painter was so grateful that she decided to show her gratitude by repainting the doctor's office. Part of her work included painting a gigantic eye on one wall.

When she had finished her work, she held a press conference to unveil her latest work of art -- the doctor's office.

During the press conference, one reporter noticed the eye on the wall, and asked the doctor, "What was your first reaction upon seeing your newly painted office, especially that large eye on the wall?"

The eye doctor responded, "I said to myself, 'Thank God I'm not a gynecologist.'
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):

Featured Poetic Favs... ]]> ~mikey-madness My Sons Are Here (Fully Updated) http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8396337/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8396337/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 14:19:24 PDT

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day

News:

I am sorry I have been neglecting my Deviant art account for the last week. My sons are here to visit and that take precedence over anything in my life. I will try to respond to all your comments and such in the near future.

I started to have prints available. They are very modestly priced, so if you are up to it, buy something and make me smile.

We'll see how far I go with prints. Even if it does enough just to support my DeviantArt Acoutna and such, I will be ok with that.
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On my Elfwood page I received the Moderators Highlights (or Mod's Choice)

for on the 25th of March!!! This is simular to the Daily Deviation of Deviantart.

My Elfwood page can be seen here [link]

I plan to maybe get back into my short story writing. I am not sure when and where. But stay tuned for that. I have also been feeling better about my writing lately. At first glance I do not like my stuff. I have to tweak it till I like it. Some I will never like. That is how it goes. Not all can be winners.

Art Joke: Eye of Gratitude

In the prime of her career, a world famous painter started to lose her eyesight. Fearful that she might lose her life as a painter, she went to see the best eye surgeon in the world.
After several weeks of delicate surgery and therapy, her eyesight was restored. The painter was so grateful that she decided to show her gratitude by repainting the doctor's office. Part of her work included painting a gigantic eye on one wall.

When she had finished her work, she held a press conference to unveil her latest work of art -- the doctor's office.

During the press conference, one reporter noticed the eye on the wall, and asked the doctor, "What was your first reaction upon seeing your newly painted office, especially that large eye on the wall?"

The eye doctor responded, "I said to myself, 'Thank God I'm not a gynecologist.'
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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):
http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8279576/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 22:20:08 PST

Mood: Very Happy
Listening to: Fall Out Boys - Dance, Dance

News:

On my Elfwood page I received the Moderators Highlights (or Mod's Choice)

for on the 25th of March!!! This is simular to the Daily Deviation of Deviantart.

When I posted this Journal I had received visitor 3375 to that page page since March 24th. I have had it up for 3 days!!! And already it has surpassed my DeviantART Views!!! Holy Crap!!!

I will defenitely have to do more Fantasy pieces to post up there.

This makes me extremely happy, seeing it was denied to be published (see: [link]). It just shows that you should not give up, someone will appreciate your work. It just has to be presented to the right audience.

My Elfwood page can be seen here [link]

I am feel highly encouragesd now. And many positve people at both locations have let me know how much they appreciate my work. And that is what is all about. I create for myself, but I also create to see if there are any others out there feel the same way I do. It is hard to explain exactly.

It is how a woman wants you to say, "you look beautiful today."

I plan to maybe get back into my short story writing. I am not sure when and where. But stay tuned for that. I have also been feeling better about my writing lately. At first glance I do not like my stuff. I have to tweak it till I like it. Some I will never like. That is how it goes. Not all can be winners.

Art Joke: The Art Collector

A famous art collector is walking through the city when he notices a mangy cat lapping milk from a saucer in the doorway of a store. He does a double take.

He knows that the saucer is extremely old and very valuable, so he walks casually into the store and offers to buy the cat for two dollars.

The storeowner replies, "I'm sorry, but the cat isn't for sale."

The collector says, "Please, I need a hungry cat around the house to catch mice. I'll pay you 20 dollars for that cat."

And the owner says "Sold," and hands over the cat.

The collector continues, "Hey, for the twenty bucks I wonder if you could throw in that old saucer. The cat's used to it and it'll save me from having to get a dish."

The owner says, "Sorry buddy, but that's my lucky saucer. So far this week I've sold sixty-eight cats."

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Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

<... ]]> ~mikey-madness New Piece Out/3000 Pageviews http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8250527/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8250527/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 02:09:07 PST

Mood: goofy
Listening to: Fall Out Boys - Dance, Dance

News:

I hit 3000 pageviews. Seems to be coming a lot faster now. that is why I decided to just update my journal instead of writing a new one.

I completed an Impressionistic piece. I have not done impressionistic pieces since High school. I would like your honest in depth opinion. I dub you all art critics. So let me have it. But if you think it is crap. Tell why. if you think it is good, tell me why. I want to know. I am very curious.

I am going to keep this on here for a while it is funny. So read it!

Art Joke: Home For Lunch

A woman in a northeast Pennsylvania art gallery is staring at an exquisite painting entitled Home for Lunch. It depicts three very naked black men sitting on a park bench with their penises in plain view. But while all the men are black, the one in the middle has a pink penis.

Excuse me, the woman says to the exhibits curator. I am curious about this painting of three African-Americans. Why does the man in the middle have a pink penis?

Im afraid youve misinterpreted the painting, says the curator. These men are not African-American; theyre coal miners, and the fellow in the middle went home for lunch.

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I have finished Psychedelic Women Series. It turned out great I think.

Vampira did not win, but I received "best Design" as well as a featurette on 's page. Thanks for that!

Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):
http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8242054/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 01:07:25 PST

Mood: Cynical
Watching: Family Guy... TV Show

I have nothing important to say. I am working on an impressionistic piece. I feel better. How about a Joke? this is from Maxim Magazine. It is Art related

Home For Lunch

A woman in a northeast Pennsylvania art gallery is staring at an exquisite painting entitled Home for Lunch. It depicts three very naked black men sitting on a park bench with their penises in plain view. But while all the men are black, the one in the middle has a pink penis.

Excuse me, the woman says to the exhibits curator. I am curious about this painting of three African-Americans. Why does the man in the middle have a pink penis?

Im afraid youve misinterpreted the painting, says the curator. These men are not African-American; theyre coal miners, and the fellow in the middle went home for lunch.

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I have finished Psychedelic Women Series. It turned out great I think.

Vampira did not win, but I received "best Design" as well as a featurette on 's page. Thanks for that!

Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):

Featured Poetic Favs (definitely check these out):
"EDGE OF LIFE" by insideproductions [link]
"Poets in the Alley Making Love" by: sketchy1 [link]
"Memories" by: Viky [link]
"Passive Distance" by: Sai-ya-ka ~mikey-madness Thanks for all the Support http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8222305/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8222305/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 22:21:32 PST

Mood: Fine

I heard back from the person, in which I submitted to for publishing. I had emailed them out of pure curiosity on why it was not selected. I try to improve myself, and try to find what people don't like about it, so I can improve. It was told to me that it was great and it was one of the final cuts. It was unlike any of the other submissions. And that I only submitted one for the competition may have had something to do with it. I guess thats my fault for standing out in the crowd, as it comes to my artwork. Everyday, you would never guess I am an artist/writer. Although many have stated I have a deeper understanding then most and that I come off as homosexual. Oh well aye. Never claimed to be Normal, whatever that means.

I don't mean to come off as egotistical as well. But thats the thing I guess about Journal entries, suppose to be about you I guess.

Also take my survey, I am truelly interested on what people HONESTLY feel about it.

I create to attempt to make something that people have never seen. To open their minds and heart to paths unlike what they have faced before. This might sound idealistic. But what do we have but our dreams.

I have finished Psychedelic Women Series. It turned out great I think.

Vampira did not win, but I received "best Design" as well as a featurette on 's page. Thanks for that!

Here are some friends I admire and have supported me for some time now and give me plenty of feedback on my work. I can count on them time and time again to point me in right direction. You should check them out. Also if you were not mentioned, let me know. To error is human. These are in no particular order.

Featured Artistic Favs (definitely check these out):
~mikey-madness 2500 Pageviews http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8213438/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8213438/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 04:35:20 PST

Mood: I am Ok
Listening to: "Game" -- Disturbed

Latest News:

Well I don't know if 2500 is to be mentioned, but I am doing it anyhow. Why? I have no other header to mention.

I have finished Psychedelic Women Series. It turned out great I think.

I am still waiting on notice of the house. So more to come on that. Other then that I am Ok. Nothing great nothing to bad. I may update this entry a bit later.

Vampira did not win, but I received "best Design" as well as a featurette on 's page. Thanks for that!

Quote: "We cast away priceless time in dreams, born of imagination, fed upon illusion and put to death by reality." --Judy Garland

Groups I Support:

]]> ~mikey-madness Thanks All http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8174299/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8174299/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 01:22:16 PST

Mood: I am better now

Latest News:

Well I feel better today. I was also a bit rattled by that a bit discouraged by the whold situation. But I am better. Thanks everyone for your kind and comforting words. They meant a lot. That is the main reason I am on DeviantART is to get encouragement and for people like my friends on here to put a BOOT up my ass when I don't. So I thank you.

I am looking at buying a townhouse too. We will see how it goes. My credit is seriously lacking. So we will see if I get approved or not. I surely hope so.

Also if anyone knows any miscellaneous contest that you think I may be well suited for, let me know. I will give it a whirl. Contest are a good way to get me going in different directions. Or also if you would like to see work of certain sort (that does not mean i will do it). Let me know. I turn to you all to pump me with ideas. Even if you are not an artist, you can give me a: "you know what'd be cool if yah..."

Quote: "We cast away priceless time in dreams, born of imagination, fed upon illusion and put to death by reality." --Judy Garland

Groups I Support:

]]> ~mikey-madness Houston, we have 2000!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8135715/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8135715/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 19:42:21 PST

Mood: Indifferent/Ho-Hum
Listening to: "Mr. Jones" (not listening to it, it is in my head

Latest News:

Well I reached 2000 pageviews!!

It is nice to see people actually like my work. I have been feeling a bit of "whats the point?" lately. Also feeling like no one understands where I am coming from. I feel I am alone in the universe lately, with no one really to turn to. I know it is my imagination, but what else am I suppose to do.

I just finished "Vampira." I think it turned out fairly well. Only problem is that Scans do not do the piece any kind of true justice. But that is always the case. I touched it up as much as I could., without it not looking nothing like color pencils. some honest critics on that would be much appreciated.

Also If I leave "harsh" comments I intend no offense. It means I care and just making mild suggestion for improvement. I expect the same. If you think I can better myself, please don't hesitate to let me know.

The next portion I will be adding prints to the list and then promoting. It is going to cost me a bit of green... but I am hoping it will pay off in the end.

And any of my friends that want to suggest one of my pieces as a daily deviation here... I promise I will not mind one bit

Quote: "Life beats down and crushes the soul and art reminds you that you have one." ~Stella Adler

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]]> ~mikey-madness I Am Back from the dead! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8105279/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8105279/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 16:49:24 PST

Mood: Indifferent

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I leave for a few days and i have like nearly 300-500 addtional Pageviews!! I just posted the 1000 pageviews a little while ago. So this is starting to get popular. Still not listed with daily deviations yet. But I am working on it.

If you have suggestion on how to decor...let me know.

I see a subscription as my next step in progression. I am not sure if this art thing is going to pan out for of anything. But I am giving it a go. We will see Alice about how deep this rabbit hole goes. I am also considering 2 separate pages for my art and my poetry. My artwork seems to get a lot more attention then my writing. But I am not sure if I separate the two out. My poetry receives little attention. I am still trying to figure that out.

The next portion I will be adding prints to the list and then promoting. It is going to cost me a bit of green... but I am hoping it will pay off in the end.

And any of my friends want to suggest one of my pieces as a daily deviation here... i promise i will not mind one bit

Quote: "When you're young, you long to be accepted by a group, but by and large artists are not joiners."
-- David Salle

Also My friend I am getting to looking over your fantastic works you created. Give me a bit a time though to do so... over 100+ comments in the box.

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]]> ~mikey-madness Well I Got A Subscription http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8051940/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8051940/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 23:20:24 PST

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Well I am playing and messing. I got a trial subscription and I got to admit it is a lot nicer to mess on DA with. I also get Journal headers and footers. It took me awhile to figure out how implement HTML within it... But I think I got it now. I figured out to get the banner to be 100% the top of the journal page... no matter what resolution the screen is. That is kind of nice. No cutting off on smaller resolution or short-stubby one on higher resolutions.

If you have suggestion on how to decor...let me know.

I see a subscription as my next step in progression. I am not sure if this art thing is going to pan out for of anything. But I am giving it a go. We will see Alice about how deep this rabbit hole goes. I am also considering 2 separate pages for my art and my poetry. My artwork seems to get a lot more attention then my writing. But I am not sure if I separate the two out. My poetry receives little attention. I am still trying to figure that out.

I am probably not going to be on here for about a week or so. I got personal matters to attend to starting Friday.

Quote: "Artists to my mind are the real architects of change, and not the political legislators who implement change after the fact." -- William S. Burroughs

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]]> ~mikey-madness 1000 Page Views!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8027023/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8027023/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 15:24:22 PST

I got a thousand hits!! And it happened on my birthday!! So I thought I would restate it again.

Well My birthday is over and I feel the same as I did a week ago: no less, no more. Age is just a number I suppose. Cause not just the last year of life was I reflecting on. It was the last ten years. I graduated at 18 from high school, and now I am now 28. A whole decade has gone by. Just a lot of thought.

I finished my first oil. It is by no means a great piece. But I am just getting back into. My mom and sisters are suppose to be sending digital photos of some of my old work (sculptures and what not) of the past. So that might be interesting posts.

Sorry if it takes me some time to get to all your works and comments. I am doing my best here. So I will try my best to look you all over and leave comments.

"The photographs don't arouse me. All I can think about is the hard work it took to make them." --Helmut Newton

]]> ~mikey-madness Birthday is TODAY!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8005727/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/8005727/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 09:03:46 PST
On a new and latest updated news I rolled over 1000 Hits on my birthday that kind of cool.

I did another color pencil piece, but it is incomplete. I haven't even started oils. I have been contending with personal stresses: brother in the hospital, girlfriend being overly suspicious of every little thing I do (I hate control freaks) and the normal financial pinches. Trying to place limits on an artist is a ridiculous thing.

"The whole idea of making art is to be open, to be generous, and absorb the viewer and absorb yourself, to let them go into it. I have to go into all those places in order to make it work." --Frank Stella

She just does not seem to get that. Thats ok, not a new thing to not have anyone that truly understands me on a whole in my life. Would like her to just understand a bit, thats all.

She gets mad that I am on DeviantART talking about my love and life. She does not realize that art is love Art is life And her jealous nature does not permit for my freedom of expression to be released fluidly.

But I will dive into my oil paintings in the near future. A bit nervous, seeing it has been over 10 years since I have painted. Perhaps that is the reason I have been avoiding it or coming up with excuses not to paint.

I am planning on getting about 10-20 more pieces made u, then open for print selling. At least give it a go. Perhaps pay for some advertising, build up a webpage and have a gallery there. Try to get some commissioned pieces perhaps. We will see what happens in the near future.

"I don't like to say I have given my life to art. I prefer to say art has given me my life."
--Frank Stella ]]> ~mikey-madness My birthday is coming (Updated) http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7942880/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7942880/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 05:48:51 PST
I guess that is why I have been trying to create more lately. I was suppose to be a great artist (or so I was told by my classmates) by now. Now It has been ten years since then, and my ten year graduation anniversary is upon us. And artistically, I have done nothing for myself since then.

So here I am on DeviantART trying to rekindle what I use to love: my artwork and my writing. So feel free to drop a line a piece or two and tell me what you think. I can take constructive negative criticism as well.

I am approaching 28 and feel old. To me, life is passing me by on a fast train. I have been running after it, but can't seem to catch it. Now, I am getting more tired and not running after the train as fast.

"I believe that life is a journey, often difficult and sometimes incredibly cruel, but we are well equipped for it if only we tap into our talents and gifts and allow them to blossom." -- Les Brown

I bought some oil paints and supplies, so hopefully I will be cranking out some oil work. It has been ten years since i did an oil. We will see how they turn out.

Make sure you visit [link] It is a great little club for writers. Support them as much as you can. ]]> ~mikey-madness I have noticed http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7846848/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7846848/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 13:14:53 PST
I just finished Woman in Pink Stockings. It is a piece that I did from a nude photograph of gwendelin-artanis. The photo can be found here [link] Thank you for allowing me to use the photo.

"Sometimes life seems too quiet
Into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark
Meant to make me strong" -- Flyleaf ]]> ~mikey-madness 500 page Views!! http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7742753/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7742753/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 15:04:46 PST

I entered my first contest here on DeviantArt. Check it out and please leave some feedback. Don't hesitate to tell me where I might want to improve it. It is the Megadeth Contest. Let me know ok all! Leave your Feedback with the Piece itself. Or here I guess. I dont really matter.

The piece can be found here. [link]

I plan on adding more too. I have been working on several different items for the contest. It is something to do with my free time. And it improves my drawing skills and creativity. It gets me brainstorming.

Lately I have working more on my Art then My poetry. I am trying to get my art number up to the same number as my poetry. But a completed art piece can take anywhere from 3- 24+ working hours to complete. And I can usually crank out a poem in under an hour.

Thank you everyone for your support and comments up till this point!! Look forward to future response from you as well! ]]> ~mikey-madness I am entering my first Contest http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7734733/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7734733/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 18:31:40 PST ~mikey-madness Thanks Everyone http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7709534/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7709534/ Thu, 26 Jan 2006 00:10:50 PST
I have been more motivated to work on pieces as of late. It has been due to both DeviantArt and my Girlfriend. She gets on my ass to create more. Thanks love. ]]> ~mikey-madness Hay I need A Title http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7581226/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7581226/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 08:32:39 PST
But I am looking for a title to one of my pieces. I need suggestions. It is currently named "Surreal Woman" but I don't care for that name. Let me know.

So far I have "Nothing Within" and "Unravelled"

Here is the link : [link] ]]> ~mikey-madness Staying longer http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7572540/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7572540/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 10:05:18 PST as always ]]> ~mikey-madness I Have Made Updates http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7547688/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7547688/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 18:24:25 PST ~mikey-madness My sons are here http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7512290/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7512290/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 20:47:57 PST
I had bought them this race track and all. And the damn thing broke 15 minutes out of the box!! I have new cars coming though, I hope then it will be ok.

I am trying to reply back to responces, and I will in due time. I am just busy spending time with my boys. My girlfriend and them seem to get along fairly well, which makes me happy. more to come when I have more time... ]]> ~mikey-madness It Is New years Eve... http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7464714/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7464714/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 08:32:24 PST
Me and My girlfriend Went to the this Stand up club. It was the first time I had seen stand up comedy in a club environment. We had a wonderful time!! I am not sure what I am going to be up to this night. I am feeling a bit sick. New years has never held much signifigance to me. Drink a bit, eat a bit, be "merry," and kiss someone at midnight while downing champagne. Something along those lines I imagine. ]]> ~mikey-madness Day After Christmas...oh yah http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7426977/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7426977/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 22:36:25 PST ~mikey-madness Day After Christmas http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7426673/ http://mikey-madness.deviantart.com/journal/7426673/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 21:46:56 PST
On another note, my brother has been mentally institutionalized. It is unsure when he will be released. He is rather disturbed individual. I wish this court ordered time in the hospital will be what he needs to recover.

I still have not commented on my past and my life. I have much to tell. It is a wonder that I too did not fall to the fate my brother has. More on that in future entries. Not yet though. Everything in its due time. ]]> ~mikey-madness