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                <title>Where do I go from here?</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 07 Dec 2009 08:50:01 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have so much stuff to do, and on top of that I have my boyfriend coming home for christmas. I am so stessed out, deppressed, tired, and overwhelmed. This question still lingers is my  mind, "Where do I go from here?"; I have this feeling that I am running around in circles and going nowhere.<br /><br />On my To-Do list is:<br /><br />1. Creating my friend's OC for his fanfic.<br />2. Making 15 Christmas cards for family members.<br />3. Christmas gift shopping<br />4. 3 scarfs to finish knitting<br />5. Get out of artist block hell...<br />6. Finish writing the first chapter of Raku's new story.<br />7. Start writing an RP for Darron and I (which is not a problem at all).<br />8. Start creating a DnD character for this Saturday<br />9. Decide what I really want for Christmas<br />10.Welcome the boyfriend home on Dec. 18<br /><br />As you can see its alot to do, any advice would be very welcome! <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Four, 3 hour drawings, Due Tomarrow!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Nov 2009 11:05:40 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Gee, can you say HOLY SH*T?!?!??! I am sooooo screwed, and in addition to this I have a 35 lesser drawings to do as well! I will never get all of this done in time. <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/d/dead.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":dead:" title="Dead (RIP)" /><br /><br />I must say though that I have finished one of the 3 hour drawings and it looks stupendous... unfortuneately I won't be able to post it due to it being 18X24... it's freaking huge!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Thanksgiving Holiday Could Not Come Soon Enough!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 09 Nov 2009 14:15:23 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am so tired and irritated at most, if not all, of my teachers this quarter. I am constantly working my ass off to meet deadlines, and my art work suffers. I am about ready to stab my Life Drawing teacher in the face, because he tells me that the art work, that I spend 2 hours on, is better than the stuff that I spend 4 or 5 hours working on... AND HE REQUIRES THAT WE SPEND AT LEAST 4 to 5 HOURS ON THE ASSIGNMENTS!!!! There is no way in hell I am going to pass this class and keep my 3.89 GPA. I am so stressed and all I ever want to do anymore is go to my room and sleep or pray that my boyfriend is gonna call me (which never freakin' happens). I also hate that I am stuck at home, dependent on my parents for everything. I am still trying to find a job so that I can start putting money away for my future and possibly a marriage. In addition, I want to save up to get my own appartment, my own laptop, and my own vehicle... lets just say that my 3 year plan for my "after high school life" is slowly working its way to 6 or (GOD FORBID)8 years. I still have to complete 4 years of school on top of the 2 years I need to finish my asociates in Fine Arts. I seriously hate my life right now. I wish there was a way to go into a coma until Christmas and then wake up and everything would be great!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>68 MORE PV's UNTIL I HIT 4000!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 26 Oct 2009 16:03:14 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am kinda excited about me actaully breaking 4000 PV's so pl,ease  keep watching and faving my art! You guys are awesome and really keep me going! Once I hit 4000 I will start a new contest! <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Name Game...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 16 Oct 2009 15:13:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 1. YOUR REAL NAME: Meagan<br /><br />2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (1st 3 letters of ur first name +izzle) Meaizzle<br /><br />3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (ur fav color color & fav animal) Red Wolf<br /><br />4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (1st 3 letters of ur last name & 1st 2 of ur first name) Coome<br /><br />5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (ur 2nd fav color & fav drink) Black Gold<br /><br /><br />6. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle names) Bailey Kevin<br /><br />7. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black +pet's name) Black Mocha<br /><br />8. YOUR NINJA NAME: (1st 2 letters of ur name +ruto) Meruto<br /><br />9. YOUR PIRATE NAME: (ur middle name after Captain) Captain Elizabeth<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Now I'm Jumping On The Band Wagon...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 12 Oct 2009 11:21:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ why did you join this site?<br /><br />"I joined Deviantart as a request of one of my friends. After I checked out DA I was hooked and started posting."<br /><br />what does your username have to do with you? is it a combination of your favorite things, or a character of yours?<br /><br />"Not really mlizcook is just a sorted version of my name Meagan Elizabeth Cook... nothing major."<br /><br />what is your current icon of?<br /><br />My current icon is a musical theme that I found on Photobucket.<br /><br />do you have more than one account?<br /><br />"Nope."<br /><br />name 3 of your favorite artists on da.<br /><br /> *dolphy ~chikinnugets =Teruchan<br /><br />what deviant do you admire because of their personality?<br />~ghostbastard<br /><br />how many people on here do you actually know in reality?<br /><br />~LadyRae7 ~FellHound ~Rasika-chan ~Elxtoria ~Ryusei-Forever<br /><br />do you comment, fave, or both?<br /><br />"I do a lot of faving and a little bit of commenting when its really good."<br /><br />what do you typically post on deviantart?<br /><br />"Usually not by best stuff, I really need to learn how to use Photoshop..."<br /><br />do you participate in clubs or contests here on da?<br /><br />"I participate in the Jim Hawkins Fan Club and that is about it. I usually don't have the time to participate in a contest."<br /><br />what's your favorite submission in your favorites gallery?<br /><br />"Ok I have over 8,000 favorites... that is like trying to fine a needle in a haystack of awesomeness! To tell the truth they are all my favorites."<br /><br />what are the things you wish you could draw better?<br /><br />"Everything..."<br /><br />are you a subscriber?<br />"I was for 3 months, but I don't have the money to continue my subscription."<br /><br />how many hours a day do you spend on da?<br /><br />"I usually spend 1-3 depending on how many messages I have."<br /><br />are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?<br /><br />"Medium"<br /><br />what is the most annoying thing people ask you?<br /><br />"Did you draw this???"<br /><br />what is the most annoying comment you get?<br /><br />"I don't get a lot of comments..."<br /><br />what inspires you?<br /><br />"Movies, music, friends, and life..."<br /><br />do you use any traditional media?<br /><br />"Pencil, markers, charcoal, paint"<br /><br />do you associate people online with their icons?<br /><br />"I usually try to remember their usernames... if I can"<br /><br />have you ever suggested a daily deviation?<br /><br />"Nope."<br /><br />everyone has considered leaving da once or twice. have you? why?<br /><br />"I considered leaving when the admins attacked one of my political pieces and again after they banned one of my friends.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>A Contest For Anyone And Everyone</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 10 Oct 2009 19:40:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am now starting a new contest! I am trying to get a t-shirt design together so that I can have a Christmas present for my boyfriend. The idea is that it has my character Raku, Travis, and Burner from the Electronic Mayhem comics. The design needs to be related to the comic... and since I haven't been updating the comic or anything else for a while, this is going to be a challenge.<br /><br />This contest will last until the end of November. Happy Drawing! If you have any questions don't hessitate to ask.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>UPDATING THE 3000 HITS COMMISSION CONTEST!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 07 Oct 2009 21:51:41 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am reinstating my contest as of now, as a request by one of my new watchers. So all of the rules of the previous contest art still relevant. If you want to join then please do. The rules are on my previous journal entry. HAPPY DRAWING!!! XD<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>3000 HITS &amp; A FREE COMMISSION CONTEST</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 29 Jun 2009 14:03:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ HOLY CRAP I CAN'T BELIEVE IT's FINALLY HAPPENED!!!! Anyways looks like I need to pick up my game to get more pageviews, and I know exactly how to do it...<br /><br /><img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/headbang.gif" width="47" height="16" alt=":headbang:" title="Headbang!" /> ATTENTION <img src="http://e.deviantart.net/emoticons/h/headbang.gif" width="47" height="16" alt=":headbang:" title="Headbang!" /><br /><br />I am starting a contest that is open to any and all of my watchers. <br /><br />HERE IS YOUR MISSION (SHOULD YOU CHOOSE TO ACCEPT IT...):<br /><br />1. Since my character, Raku, is lacking in the girly bff department I would like you guys to design a character that is her total opposite.<br /><br />2. Add a theme to the pic, something like... Raku being given fashion advice that she doesn't want or even forcing both characters into their opposite styles.<br /><br />3. Submit them by posting a link to your image in comments on THIS journal<br /><br />4. After I have reviewed all entrys (if there are any...):<br />       -1st Place: Gets a Free Commision and an appearance of their character in an upcoming EP2 House comic!<br />       -2nd & 3rd Place: Gets to congradulate the winner and try again next time. (Sorry I just know if I promise more than one drawing I will never get them done... I will try and do better in the future... but baby steps are a good thing.)<br /><br />CONTEST IS OPEN UNTIL THE END OF JULY!!! HAPPY DRAWING!<br /><br />NOTE: If you have any questions don't hessitate to ask me!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>My Laptop Has Officailly Crashed!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 13 May 2009 07:46:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Two days ago my laptop decided to breath it's final breaths while I was making my new Meme. I am sooooo pissed, because now the only times I can get on the computer are late in the evening or at school. DANG IT!!!! And I can't get a new one until I have a job, or I loose all my weight! And to top it all off I have lost the progress I made on my Meme, I have no more music, I have no more videos, my AMV projects are offically gone, I have no place to charge my iPod, or digitally draw anything!!!! DANG IT! DANG IT! DANG IT! WHY NOW?!?!?!?!?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~mlizcook</author>
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                <title>Only 14 Days Left!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 05 May 2009 17:48:25 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ In just 14 days, 4 hours and 19 minutes I will be in the loving arms of my fiance'. I am so thankful for those who have supported me through this horrible time. Trust me, without your thoughts, love, support, prayers, and advice I would not have made it this far with my sanity in tact. So thank you! I may only get to spend a week with him, but I will charish what time the Uncle Sam gives me. Oh and he is going to call my dad and ask him for my hand! Tell me that ain't awesome! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Upcoming Updates... and the torture of 3rd quarter</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Apr 2009 14:03:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ UPCOMING UPDATES<br />I am it the process of, finally, starting the EM House Chronicles. I'm just trying to rough sketch the first five episodes, and design the rooms that each of the characters are staying in. So far I have the first two sketches completed, but I'm planning on adding one more panel to the second sketch... only because I feel it's lacking something. Another new tidbit is that I'm trying to design t-shirts for the EM series... so if anyone has an idea of a cheap way to put designs on t-shirts then feel free to comment. Trust me you will really be doing me a favor! These t-shirts will be gifts for my returning fiance (Travis), Burner (Scott), and his brother Chris. I have exactly 2 1/2 months to complete these shirts, but I just know if I procrastinate I'm never going to finish them, so assistance is much appriciated. Oh, and for the commissions (still open...) that I promised... those will be delayed another 3 weeks due to the copious amounts of homework I'm getting from my classes, and the other artwork yet to be finished. I am also trying to finish/start writing: My Last Fight: Raku's Tale of Death, RONIN, and a new story that I've been working on with totally different characters (I'm going to try and include illustrations).<br /><br /><br />THE TORTURE OF 3RD QUARTER<br />I have just started my 3rd quarter of class and it seems like in just the first week of class I'm doing two weeks worth of homework! I have a math class in which I practically teach myself because my teacher is being taught by the students (he is always being corrected for his mistakes... and its only day 2!!!). My history class is lied back, but it's also complicated, and my English class is fairly easy, but I already have a paper due tomarrow! College is really stressfull!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>As Depression Sets In...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:16:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Today the love of my life leaves for Naval Basic Training. I'm not going to see him for 9 - 10 whole weeks... no telephone, no letters, no e-mail, and to top it all off I can't stop crying! Everytime I hear a song on the radio pertaining to: saying goodbye, America, or soldiers giving of themselves for our freedom, I start sobbing. Why does saying goodbye have to be so hard, even if it's just for a short while? The night we officially said goodbye it was 11:17 p.m. and I was trying to hold back the tears so that he wouldn't have to see me cry anymore, and then I totally broke down... causing him to do the same. We just stood in the pooring rain, crying, and repeatedly saying, "I love you". I just can't stop thinking about him. His family is being really supportive and suprisingly this includes his little brothers. I can't wait until I get to hear his voice again, and touch his face... I think I'll probably cry then too, but it's to be expected <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" />. I ask for my few viewers to pray for me and him and if you aren't religious just keep us in your thoughts. Trust me the more support I get the less sobby I will be, and the less depressing my art will be. <br />Thanks To Those Who Actually Read This!<br />~Love Meagan<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Free Commitions (... In My Style Of Course)</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 07 Mar 2009 13:33:51 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am open to commitions. Anyone that has a character they would like me to do or to insert into an upcoming episode of Electronic Mayhem need only contact me via profile comment and I will start working on it. I am despritly trying to get some pageviews so spread the word!!!! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Art Depression....</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 Jan 2009 07:20:30 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I finally finished an EM comic after almost 3 months of not touching it and right after I finish outlining it, my copic marker starts to leak all over my beautiful comic!!!! I was sooo depressed and angry that I'm going to have to redo that panel... I'm one of those people that doesn't like to mess with perfection and like it done right the first time.... so you can imagain how pissed off I was. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I Re-Took This... Soooo Yeah....</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 03 Jan 2009 22:46:58 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. <br /><br />"...Weird, the pattern dosen't line up because one side is bigger than the other..."<br />~Michael Crichton: "Timeline"<br /><br />2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can and see what you touch. <br /><br />and old office phone...<br /><br />3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? <br /><br />Straberry Shortcake (I was watching it with my little cousin)<br /><br />4. Without looking, guess what time it is: <br /><br />1:30 am<br /><br />5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? <br /><br />1:42 am<br /><br />6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? <br /><br />silence... everyone has gone to bed...<br /><br />7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? <br /><br />a few hours ago... walking out of a movie theater<br /><br />8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? <br /><br />checking myspace, listening to music, and checking facebook...<br /><br />9. What are you wearing? <br /><br />black Twilight t-shirt, fuzzy cloud pajama pants, black earrings, and white underwear...<br /><br />10. Did you dream last night? <br /><br />yeah<br /><br />11. When did you last laugh? <br /><br />a few minutes ago<br /><br />12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? <br /><br />just tan paint<br /><br />13. Seen anything weird lately? <br /><br />the "family wrestling match" scene in the movie "Four Christmases"<br /><br />14. What do you think of this quiz? <br /><br />rather interesting<br /><br />15. What is the last film you watched? <br /><br />Four Christmases<br /><br />16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? <br /><br />I would buy me a bunch of art supplies, a college education, a house, an art studio, a midnight-blue Mustang GT with silver flame decal on the sides and a silver dragon on the hood, new clothes, tons of anime and manga, a skinny body, and a whole litter of timberwolf, chowchow, and puggle puppies ^_^<br /><br />17. Tell me something about yourself I didn't know.<br /><br />I am a very loud person now, but before i met my friends i was extremely shy and never spoke to anyone... so now its kind of like i found my voice ^_~<br /><br />18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?<br /><br />McCain & Palin would be in the White House, there would be a required IQ test for all citizens and illegals in the US and if you get below a certain number you are killed, end terrorism, libral bullshit, hate crimes, racism, melestation, rape, and drugs (srry potheads...)<br /><br />19. Do you like to dance? <br /><br />Yuppers... I love to dance, but no one should watch me for fear of their eyes bleeding...<br /><br />20. George Bush: <br /><br />better than Kerry and Clinton... but not my favorite president<br /><br />21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? <br /><br />Payton Elizabeth Hartman or Rachel Baily Hartman<br /><br />22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? <br /><br />Griffen Alexander Hartman or Micheal Alexander Hartman<br /><br />23. Would you ever consider living abroad?<br /><br />Yeah!!!!<br /><br />24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?<br /><br />GOD: Wow... hey you didn't kill yourself... well that's great *cough* <br />*cough*<br />MOSES: *whispers* ... hey you owe me $5<br />GOD: DAMN... i mean ... here you go *hands over keys and stairs at me* Go to your manson filled with hot anime guys and ramen and LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Holy Crap It's 2009!?!?!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 03 Jan 2009 22:14:30 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's crazy 2007 seems like a billion years ago... I mean I have gone through soooo much this (*cough* last) year, like the begining of my first serious relationship with my first boyfriend, my 2 high school graduations, reciving my license, attending my first college class, falling maddly in love, getting asked for my hand in marriage (yeah... I can't believe it myself), loosing my "innocence".  I'm so baffled at how fast time has passed, and a little apprehensive at what 2009 holds for me.  I mean in just a few short weeks my best friend/boyfriend/fiance will be leaving for Naval basic training and I won't see him/talk to him for 3 whole months (I truely hope absence makes the heart grow fonder and not contempt...oh wait that's familiarity lmao whatever...) I am so terrified that something is going to happen to him... I am seriously doubting my ability to assume the duties of a naval wife.  Also I've been struggling with my weight more than ever before... I am over 300 lbs. and I can't bare to look at myself in the mirror... I still am unable to believe that I have let myself go this far down the road of self-distruction, my wonderfully sensitive best friend/boyfriend/fiance tells me that I'm perfect and that he loves me no matter what... and every time I feel bad about what I look like he says, "Well I guess I'm just gonna have to love you more, stop feeling bad about yourself, you are a beautiful woman, and you are mine...that's all that matters to me!"  I sometimes worry that I treat his presence like a drug (I use it to the point of feeling numb to everyone else, but when I'm without it I am completely misserable.) I think the only things that I can truely count on to get through his absence will be my focus on school and his wonderfully supporting family.  I cry myself to sleep every night dredding his departure... I mean we have been dating for almost a year now and I won't get to see him on our one year anniversary.  I am sorry to those that read this, beacause yes, this journal is a pitty party that enables me to vent my non-art-related issues, but at the same time I don't care what anyone thinks about this so I am shameless.  Anyways Happy 2009! And A Blessed New Beginning For You All!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>About Me</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 12 Nov 2008 13:47:36 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Here is some really random stuff about me ^_^<br /><br />Favorite Food:  Yakisoba, pizza, Oreos, Cookie Dough Ice Cream, Mashed Potatoes, chicken alfredo *yum*<br /><br />Favorite TV Shows:  Family Guy, NCIS, CSI, Monk, The Big Bang Theory, Two And A Half Men, Reba, Rules Of Engagement, Mind Of Mencia, Blue Collar TV, The Bill Engvall Show<br /><br />Favorite Movies:  Bruce Almighty, Evan Almighty, Titan A.E. , Inuyasha Movies, Nana, Zuse & Roxanne, Andre, Over The Hedge, The Last Mimzee, Cheaper By The Dozen<br /><br />Favorite Animes:  Peacemaker Karogane, Elfen Lied, Sola, Murder Princess, RomeoXJuliet, Nagasarete Airantou, Negima!, Azumanga Diaoh, Lucky Star, Bleach, Beck<br /><br />Favorite J-music Singers:  Hyde, Lena Park, Chieko Kawabe, Utada Hikaru, The Birthday <br /><br />Favorite Band & Singers:  Nickelback, Disturbed, Kelly Clarkson, Boston, System of A Down, Louis Armstrong, Rascal Flatts, Keith Urban, Billy Currington, Bullet For My Valentine, Three Days Grace, Gorillaz, Jason Aldean, Big&Rich, Cowboy Trot, Maroon 5, Linkin Park... and sooo much more<br /><br />Favorite Songs:  Good Directions and Turnip Greens by Billy Currington, Online By Brad Paisley, Lost In This Moment by Big&Rich, Moments by Emerson Drive, Tears Don't Fall by Bullet For My Valentine, This Ain't A Scene by Fall Out Boy, Wake Up Call by Maroon 5, Inori You Raise Me Up by Lena Park, Sanctuary by Utada Hikaru, Seasons Call by HYDE, Astirisk by Orange Range<br /><br />Favorite Ice Cream Flavor:  Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough<br /><br />Hobbies:  Downlaoding/Watching Anime, Drawing, Reading, Writting<br /><br />Favorite Drinks:  Real Gold (japanese soda), Diet Coke, Diet Dr. Pepper, Diet Mountain Dew, Game Fuel, Starbucks Frapacieno (Carmel & Mocha)<br /><br />Favorite Games:  Kingdom Hearts (series), Sly Cooper (series), Tekken (series), FFX-2, Mortal Kombat (series), Soul Calibur (series), Sonic The Hedgehog (series)<br /><br />Favorite Manga:  xxxHOLIC, Godchild, Hana Kimi, Nagasarete Airantou, Tsubasa Chronicles, Chobits, Nana<br /><br />Favorite Books:  Maximum Ride (series) by: James Patterson, Romiet And Julio, The Bar Code Tatoo, The Thief Queen's Daughter, Harry Potter (series) by: J.K. Rowling<br /><br />Celebrity Crushes:  Christian Bale, Gerard Butler, Matthew McConaughey, Johnny Depp, Hyde, Orlando Bloom, and Chris Daughtry...<br /><br />Backpack Weight:  87.5 lbs<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Updated, AND IT FEELS SOOOOO GOOD!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 14 Jun 2008 02:40:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have stayed up all night, literally, and I have put 24 new posts up so now I can finally sit back and wait for the comments <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> YAYA!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Hello... Blah Blah Blah...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 08 Jun 2008 10:56:26 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well now that my father's computer is working, and i know that i can scan stuff... OMG I'm going to update for the first time in like 2 years <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!! I soooo happy and joyful, and my dear friend is designing me some characters for my story that I hope to finish sometime this summer <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> WOOT WOOT!! Life is soooooo good right now!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Hilary Lovin Fan Club.... NOT!!!!  X(</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 02 May 2008 05:51:17 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Apparently within the last few weeks my Hitler VS Hilary Motivator was deleted from DeviantART without my knowledge.  I would like to ask the admin why they insisted on deleting my artwork.  If you are a Hilary fan, while I may not think you are acting in with the good sense God gave you, I truely have no problem with you or any other hilary fan, but I will not accept deletion for biased reasons.  If you use the Keywords: "Hilary Clinton" on your site you will realise there are many more anti-Hilary Clintion pieces out there and some of them even joke around with assassination, so before you go judging me, talk to those people first!<br /><br />Anyways now that I have delt with that, thank you to all the people who didn't do Hate posts yourselves, and to the ones that loved my hilary-ious motivator! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /> Happy Commenting!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~mlizcook</author>
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                <title>Electronic Mayhem</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 26 Dec 2007 20:00:41 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well now that I have the first 4 episodes of the webcomic out... all there is to do is lay in wait... hoping that it will gain a supportive audiance.  It sucks having to wait, but I know that the time it takes will bare fruit, but even if it doesn't I will still continue to make them for mine and my friend's amusement.  Oh yeah! I just got back from my grandparents house where i spent a glorious Christmas, and I got almost everything that I asked for!  An iPod, 2 DDR games, a DDR Dancepad, new sketchbooks, new sketchpad, POC3 DVD, Rattatoullie DVD, and Harry Potter 5 DVD... all I need to make my happiness complete would be to see Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber Of Fleet Street before New Years.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>i feel Ucky</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 21 Nov 2007 17:30:12 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ have you ever had just one of those days when you don't wanna get up and do anything..... today is that day for me.  my stomach hurts and my abdomen fells like someone ran me through with an kantana.... *i hope someone would so as to end my suffering* .... i hate that certain time of the month... oh and srry to my loyal viewers ... though there are few of you.... for not being around for almost a year.... i shall try to update with so of my current drawing as soon as possible. well ttyl for now :hugs: and love XD <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~mlizcook</author>
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                <title>so me...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 26 Mar 2007 17:49:47 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. <br />
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"...Weird, the pattern dosen't line up because one side is bigger than the other..."<br />
~Michael Crichton: "Timeline"<br />
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2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can and see what you touch. <br />
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old photo of my dad eating pizza<br />
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3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? <br />
<br />
King Of Queens<br />
<br />
4. Without looking, guess what time it is: <br />
<br />
8:30 pm<br />
<br />
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? <br />
<br />
8:16 pm<br />
<br />
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? <br />
<br />
Avril Lavigne~ "Keep Holding On"<br />
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7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? <br />
<br />
this afternoon... when i was throwing a ball for my dog<br />
<br />
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? <br />
<br />
checking myspace, listening to music, and watching anime and amv's on youtube...<br />
<br />
9. What are you wearing? <br />
<br />
black Nickelback concert t-shirt, blue jeans, black socks, small silver hoop earrings, hanes-her-way underwear, and my ribbon~chain~cross neckelace...<br />
<br />
10. Did you dream last night? <br />
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yeah<br />
<br />
11. When did you last laugh? <br />
<br />
today when i saw the first episode of DearS ^_^<br />
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12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? <br />
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University of Kentucky stuff<br />
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13. Seen anything weird lately? <br />
<br />
DearS Ep1<br />
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14. What do you think of this quiz? <br />
<br />
... good... but why all the weird questions -_-^<br />
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15. What is the last film you watched? <br />
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Harriet the Spy<br />
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16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? <br />
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I would buy me a bunch of art supplies, a college education, a house, an art studio, a midnight-blue Mustang GT, new clothes, tons of anime and manga, all the ramen i could ever eat, and a whole litter of timberwolf puppies ^_^<br />
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17. Tell me something about yourself I didn't know.<br />
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I am a very loud person now, but before i met my friends i was extremely shy and never spoke to anyone... so now its kind of like i found my voice ^_~<br />
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18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?<br />
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kill all the stupid people, and end terrorism, libral bullshit, hate crimes, racism, melestation, rape, and drugs (srry potheads...)<br />
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19. Do you like to dance? <br />
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Hell Yeah!!! ... i suck... BUT WHO CARES! ^_~<br />
<br />
20. George Bush: <br />
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better than Kerry and Clinton... but not my favorite president<br />
<br />
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? <br />
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Lucy or Olivia (Livy)<br />
<br />
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? <br />
<br />
Bradley (Brad) or Christopher (Chris)<br />
<br />
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?<br />
<br />
Yeah!!!!<br />
<br />
24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?<br />
<br />
GOD: Wow... hey you didn't kill yourself... well that's great *cough* <br />
*cough*<br />
MOSES: *whispers* ... hey you owe me $5<br />
GOD: DAMN... i mean ... here you go *hands over keys and stairs at me* Go to your manson filled with hot anime guys and ramen and LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!<br />
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                <title>Inuyasha Movie 4</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 24 Oct 2006 10:25:41 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I watched the 4th Inuyasha movie reciently and i thought to myself just how pointless it was to release it.  It had nothing to do with the series, and the story-line was wack. I liked the animation, (and I'm sure I'm not the only one) but i noticed that in every movie in the series the animation changes slightly.... I'm wtf?! Anyways I liked the movie, but it was completely pointless and a huge let down.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Kentucky!!!! ^_^</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 29 Sep 2006 19:22:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I well judging by the title you should probably guess where i currently am located ^_~... i am spending the weekend with my grandparents and cousins <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/e/excited.gif" width="23" height="19" alt=":excited:" title="OMG! I can't contain my excitement!" /> this is the only time I get out... so for those of you out there you think that i am extremely pathetic...well lets just say I COULDN'T GIVE A FLYING RATS ASS!!!!! LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!!... anywho gotta go!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>LMAO</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 27 Sep 2006 08:45:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Omg I went into my classroom the other day and saw this cart that had some type of mold on it.... so instead of doing my lab work....I poked the mold with stuff.... it was so wet and gross... I think i'm gonna do a comic about it and post it sometime this week or next week, or whenever the hell i can get it done and downloaded onto my page.... I shall call it "MOLD MONSTER OF DOOOOOOOOOM" ... Anyways i gots to go, class it almost over and i don't want to be late for computer class (yeah right!).  TTYL<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>LOL ^.^</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 23 Jun 2006 14:36:31 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have no idea why but I am struck with a sudden feeling of happiness inside me *smiles*.....what could this mean....why am I soooo freakishy happy??? Could it be that I have gotten or will be getting a new manga or maybe I will be drawing some more stuff today even though i should be cleaning my filthy room???? Nope I'm just listening to my favorite songs on my stereo system ....*sings to self* la la la la la la......la dooo bop la bop i doo.... *turns around to see people staring at self* any ways i gots to go ....byes ]]></description>
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                <title>OMG I AM OUT OF WRITER'S BLOCK HELL!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 23 Jun 2006 11:51:44 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OMG last night i was drew like 6 pics...and i have decided to spend 4 hours scanning all of my pics from all of my old sketchbooks to my com so i can put them on deviantart...and all though very few care i'm just doing this cause i have nothing better to do with my summer -_-^ ]]></description>
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                <title>I Am In Official Art Block Hell!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 23 May 2006 07:39:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Of Late I haven't been able to think of anything to draw or even scetch... I mean sure i've got a bunch of stuff in my head, but i can't get it out on paper!!!! -_-^ this totally bites...hey if anyone can help me out of my artist's block, please don't hesitate to respond, any ideas are welcome....even though that doesn't mean i will be able to use them all... <br />
And tell me why i had the Parapa The Rapper first stage stuck in my head during a math test O_O i was unable to consentrate at all...."Kick, Punch...It's all in the mind, if you wanna test me I'm sure you'll find the things i'll teach ya...." OMG IT'S BACK!!!!! O_o *runs out of room screaming* anyways I gotta go! TTYL!!! ]]></description>
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                <title>Soooooo Bored!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 19 May 2006 07:38:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Ok...so what do you do when you have nothing to do in study hall??? *person raises hand* "Read A Book?" *smacks person* NO!!!!... you go to the nearest computer and go to Deviantart and add friends and check out other peoples art...make comments and hope that the person will take time out of their day to give you the same curtesy, but nooooooooooooooooooo... they forget about me and *sob*...ahhh screw 'em ...i like making comments anyways and lets face it...my art is too big on screen... i am not being mean...i'm just venting lol please don't try to e-mail hate letters to me cause obviously i am not one of those people who will take them seriously...more that likely i'll just send something back to you that says someting like..."Get a life Jackass" or "Screw off it's your falt anyways (...um yeah I'll say this even if you don't blame me... yeah random huh?)..."...this is just how crazy i am...don't ask any questions and you won't be lied to -_-^ and now for something completely random...THE CHICKEN DANCE...er THE HAMSTER DANCE *dancing hamster pops out and starts dico dancing*...wtf? *shoots hamster*...i gots to go... the bell just rang...or is it rung? ah whatever!!! BYE!!! ]]></description>
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                <title>Why I Do What I Do</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 16 Mar 2006 15:29:27 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My parents have always asked me why I am totally obsessed with drawing anime and manga.  It's not that i don't enjoy drawing other things, cause I do, but I have always been attracted to everything about it.  Ever since i lived in Japan for three years, I came in contact with alot of the J-Pop culture and adapted quite easily.  I wished I could have stayed there longer to gain a better respect for anime, but that's how the military is... i snatches up a child's dreams and crushes them.  Don't get me wrong, I love my dad and the awesome lifestyle that I have been brought up in, but everything is so fast pased that if you don't move quick enough, you fall behind. You try switching to a new school every three months or years, and you can bet that you'll feel the same as I do.  I use my drawing as an escape from anger, saddness, loneliness, and when Ifeel like I can't go on putting on a show for people.  My whole life is one giant mask that i hide behind so that no one can see the real me, and as sad as that is, that is why I do what I do.<br />
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Raku,<br />
~~~SHADOW DANCER~~~<br />
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