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With alot less crap on it.
Please watch me on it.
ILY bunches
~JvRn33

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/11586458/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/11586458/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 10:20:08 PST
whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10964241/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10964241/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 18:25:47 PST
the fist funny thing that happend was we went in spencers and started throwing stuff at people and then turning around..that lasted for about an hour.

and then we went to get something to eat..and i droped my pretzel and it got stuck on this ladies shoe..and i was being an idoit so i fell out of my chair and said hey! wait! thats mine!!! i was crawling on the floor! and then i started running and then when i got her attention i said you have something of mine on your shoe! and she lifted her shoe with a weird look on her face..and i took it off..andi said thank you! and ran back to my seat! lol

then me and kelsey saw the massageing chairs so we sat in them! we were craking up because the tickled! and the were perverted to!

and then we went to the omg i dont know how to spell it..the things that are moving stairs!!! lol we went up the one that was going down! for about an hour making people really mad! and this one girl came up to me and said gothic lil freak..so i said preppy lil bitch! and threw my soda on here shoes!! ha ha ha!!!

and i forgot all of the other funny things..but i bought some Green Day shoe strings!!! and i got Ryan so H.I.M. shoe strings!!!!!

omg i just had fun today..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10901142/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10901142/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 12:11:07 PST
go smoke that cigarette,
its not going to help you,
u think it will,
but i now it wont do,..
anygood.

think about tomarrow,
or are u going to make it through,
please im helping you,
just drop that cigarette.

(chours)

Dont smoke that cigatette,
it wont help you,
but baby im warning you,
just watch what u do..
dont smoke that cigarette..
(repeat)

you might think your depressed,
you might think your helpless,
and im trying to help you,
but i cry because im restless.

I cried last night,
look what ytour putting me through,
i thought that u loved me,
and i thought i did to.

am i worth more than a cigarette,
apperantly im not,
you once told me i was,
but i guess u forgot..
go smoke that cigarette..
(chorus 1 time)

uh yeah watever....if u already know my number than call me and maybe i'll sing it..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10882484/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10882484/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 18:07:03 PST
ok today was a good day!!! me and my friend emily have a little saying we say to each other..
this is it..
"guily,shame,cry,cut,
bang bang goes the gun,
dont wrry my friend,
this day will end,
we'll pull the trigger,
and we'll b together,
dont wrry my friend,
this day will end."

ha ha! dont worry nothing to be worried about i promise!! we arnt even think about this suicidal stuff we just wanted to make up something.

as you know..well if u dont know your going to find out..

me and emilys friend Patrick..we met him on bebo..well
he comitted suicide!

R.I.P. Patrick!!!!!!!!

He was a really good friend..he was really sweet..and everyone would call him fake and he wouldnt even do anything about it!!

well nothing else to write..oh yeah i had to run track today..but that is pointless to say..so im just going to poof..so *poof* bye..ok im still talking so this time really


*POOF*

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10848838/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10848838/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 19:06:42 PST
i was on my trampolie trying to act like a worm(dont ask) and i almost broke my back!!!

and then earlier i was getting a popcicle and there was an orange and a purple and i forgot what my color names were!!!! so i made a big fool out of my self by saying this,"Carrie do you want the pink(purple) or blue(orange)?" and then i finally got it right best then i droped them in the trash can so i had to get a different one!

and a few days ago in P.E. i had long pants on and the covered my shoes and i went running across the gym saying wee..and it was so childish i slid and fell flat on my back!! and my gym teacher mad me sit down and roll up my pants!!

so yeah i dont know whats wrong with me..i hope it goes away though..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10803624/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10803624/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 18:30:41 PST
It just makes me so mad..hes cheating on her to! hes already fucking married and he had carrie with my mom!!! omg!!! i swear to god its either hes out of all our lives tonight..or i go..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10777074/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10777074/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 11:41:31 PST
i just think it would be better if i did..

theres just haters on here and people who are to obsessive and then theres people who say they love me but they really dont because it all goes to a different girl..

im still not sure if i should quit..

i just need 3 good reasons why i shouldnt..

and maybe i can stay..

but i dont think anyone knows those reasons..

or would even care to put them on here

so..

whatever...

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10769915/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10769915/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 18:47:30 PST
alot

of

stuff

has

been

happening

first

i almost get sent off

almost got ran over

got chiped on the shoulder by a car on the highway!!!

and im aching all over now

but my heart feels the worst

but whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10725775/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10725775/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 17:05:27 PST Scopophobia or Scoptophobia- Fear of being seen or stared at.
Brontophobia-fear of thunder and lighting
Virginitiphobia- Fear of rape.
Vitricophobia- Fear of step-father.
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched. (Haphephobia)
Apiphobia- Fear of bees.
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.
Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions.
Dystychiphobia- Fear of accidents.
Eisoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors or of seeing oneself in a mirror.
Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight.(Pocrescophobia)
Tropophobia- Fear of moving or making changes.

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10699719/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10699719/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 10:39:38 PST i hate my brother!!! i wish he would just move out! my god!

ok well enough of that..

drama is starting again.. between me and my friends..i hate it so much..

alright well i dont have anything else to say..

whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10681845/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10681845/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 16:48:43 PST
after school i got to go to the movies! and 10 minutes before the movie was over the power went out.. lol but i had fun just sitting there..actually..no..lol

now im just sitting here listening to my sister sing the same song over and over again with my step dad..(well at least hes nice to her)

alright well whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10671852/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10671852/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 17:58:30 PST
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go look at it its funny! we were being idoits!

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10647663/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10647663/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 13:16:23 PST
well im bored today..no school! yah! lol

tomarrow im going to make a music video with my friend emily..its going to be fun!

my brother and his band were playin today..they were awesome! me and kaitlyn got to listen to em..


I put a new picture of me in scraps because i was bored lol i was playing around with animation.

alright well nothing else to write..so

whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10636687/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10636687/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 13:18:30 PST today on the bus my fried jessy came up to me and said Jurnee my mom doesnt like you cuz she saw u wearing black and skulls...

so i came home and almost cried..becuz jessy is one of my closest friends..and either i have to change how i dress..or jessy cant hang out with me...

but i dont wear black that much..and i dont dress prep like jessy! and i only wearing like a skull belt..but yeah i'd wear any belt..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10625772/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10625772/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 13:43:27 PST everythings better now! well im still unsure about one thing thoguh..

well today i got a linkin park cd! yup!

and a linkin park poster!!!!!!!!!!

im so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was going to get the new MCR cd..but the didnt have it.. so i just got linkin park!

alright well

whatever...(god i say that way to much!)

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10618284/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10618284/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 20:34:56 PST
have you ever tried to say something to someone..but the turn it all around?i have

and do you ever feel like if you say something wrong to that one person..they will never speak to you again,or break your heart,or just change it around again..i have and im feeling that way right now..

you see i was talking to someone(not mentioning who) and everything i would say he would turn it around..and im afraid if i say one more thing..it might be all over..

so i think im not going to talk anymore..i should just shut up..so no one can turn anything around..

whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10615556/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10615556/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 15:37:43 PST
ME: brb and dont say anything while im gone.
Hannahok
ME: I saw that!!!
hannah saw what?
ME: This is Jurnees mother and why were you guys talking about sexual stuff?
hannahwe weren't
ME: Um I have the IMs to prove it.
hannahum sorry...
ME:May I have you phone number so i can contact your mother.
hannahno.
ME: Excuse me!


and they blocked me but it was so funny..i scared them so bad! lol!

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10614360/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10614360/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 13:31:01 PST
i have been watching tv and listening to music..ALL DAY! lol
im bored to.. alright well i dunno anything else to write so..
whatever.

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10606764/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10606764/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 18:00:42 PST
No one is on so im bored..and my best friends dog died today..i MISS REX! i cried so hard..well R.I.P. Rex

um well theres nothing really to say..
so

whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10595620/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10595620/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 16:59:15 PST Tokyo City like a big playground
when suddenly Batman burst from the shade
and hit Godzilla with a Batgrenade
Godzilla got pissed and began to attack
but didn't expect to be blocked by Shaq
who proceeded to open up a can of Shaq Fu
when Aaron Carter came out of the blue

and he started beating up Shaquille O'Neal
then they both got flattened by the Batmobile
but before it could make it back to the Batcave
Abraham Lincoln popped out of his grave
and took an AK47 out from under his hat
and blew Batman away with a rat-a-tat-tat
but he ran out of bullets and he ran away
because Optimus Prime came to save the day

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny

Godzilla took a bite out of Optimus Prime
like Scruff McGruff took a bite out of crime
and then Shaq came back covered in a tire track
but Jackie Chan jumped out and landed on his back
and Batman was injured, and trying to get steady
when Abraham Lincoln came back with a machete
but suddenly something caught his leg and he tripped
Indiana Jones took him out with his whip

then he saw Godzilla sneaking up from behind
and he reached for his gun which he just couldn't find
'cause Batman stole it and he shot and he missed
and Jackie Chan deflected it with his fist
then he jumped in the air and did a summersault
while Abraham Lincoln tried to pole vault
onto Optimus Prime, but they collided in the air
then they both got hit by a Care Bear Stare, oooh

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown...

angels sang out in immaculate chorus
down from the heavens descended Chuck Norris
who deliver a kick which could shatter bones
into the crotch of Indiana Jones
who fell over on the ground, writhing in pain
as Batman changed back into Bruce Wayne
but Chuck saw through his clever disguise
and he crushed Batman's head in between his thighs

then Gandalf the Grey and Gandalf the White and
"Monty Python and the Holy Grail"'s Black Knight and
Benito Mussolini and The Blue Meanie and
Cowboy Curtis and Jambi the Genie
Robocop, the Terminator, Captain Kirk, and Darth Vader
Lo Pan, Superman, every single Power Ranger
Bill S. Preston and Theodore Logan,
Spock, The Rock, Doc Ock, and Hulk Hogan
all came out of no where lightning fast
and they kicked Chuck Norris in his cowboy ass
it was the bloodiest battle the world ever saw
with civilians looking on total awe

and the fight raged on for a century
many lives were claimed, but eventually
the champion stood, the rest saw their better:
Mr. Rogers in a bloodstained sweater

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown...
this is the Ultimate Showdown...
this is the Ultimate Showdown...
of Ultimate Destiny

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10594436/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10594436/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 14:44:51 PST
i just got home a little while ago..and im really bored..no one is on..

i had a better day..Jordan left me alone! yah!

i had to take 2 test today..*yuck* alright

whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10582768/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10582768/ Wed, 01 Nov 2006 13:48:01 PST
and gym sucked to..i had no shirt to wear in gym..cuz i forgot my gym shirt at home..so i had to waer emilys undershirt..so wheni walked out of the locker room..jordan was stearing at me smiling.. and he called me sexy..

and no one said happy halloween to me yesterday..except people on da..not even my mom...

(and im not cheerfull..im sad..actually worse..my mood just wont change!!!!)

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10571734/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10571734/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 14:04:43 PST its halloween! finally!!!!

im going to drees up as a goth! and im going to scare older kids..scaring younger kids is to mean..i get to carry a gun to..but it wont be loaded..


ALRIGHT WELL HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Izzy

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10562328/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10562328/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 17:26:01 PST

i had way to much homework..and it sucked..tomarrows halloween..YAH!! im going to pass out candy and scare little kids! no not really..just pass out candy..and scare older kids!

i feel weird..i dunno y..and no one is on!!!!!! rawr!!!! i shall eat u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah..my pictures annoy me!! i cant take on good picture of myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok well

whatever..

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10551758/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10551758/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 18:15:59 PST WEEEEE!!!!! i am bored though..no one is on msn..or bebo..only DA..waa..

Oh and at the halloween party yesterday we got to play with a weegee board!!! Not telling what happened..only telling one person.well if they even ask to know lol..well anyway the are not to be fucked with!! im serious!

Oh at the party i got dared at like 3 in the morning to run down the street screaming as loud as i could,"IM A PRETTY PONY!" and repeat it! lol i did it! it was fun..except my ex kept looking at me weird!

Alright well im not going to write anymore so byez!

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10548066/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10548066/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 11:50:25 PST
ok well i came home from a fun party to hear something horrible..

well i got on the computer and ..

hannah..she sent me a message saying that..

*****(cant say her name)was cheating on her bf

i dont know y i feel so bad about it..

well i guess its becuz he left me..

for a guy..

and i DID not now..have feelings for him..

and also..

cuz her bf and me..

are really good friends..

alright well..

whatever..

(oh yeah and the song im listening to has alot to do with whats happening now

]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10529326/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/10529326/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 16:23:48 PDT
first my sister head gets smashed..

then i get cut on glass..

then i almost break my thumb..

and now my best friend tried to commit suicide!!!!!

and the worst part is..

she said she didnt cuz..she wouldnt be wit james...

and she didnt even stop cuz of her family or friends!!!

and i was thinking..

maybe i should commit it..

just to hurt everyone else like they hurt me!

but im not going to ..

becuz i dont wanna leave anyone..

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peace and darkness,
Izzy <333

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WEEEEEEEE!!! IM SO BORED..it aint funny! LOL OK IT IS!!!!!..LOL CAN YOU BELIVE IT!!! I TRIED TO BUNGEE JUMP OFF THE STAIRS!!!..it didnt feel to good... LETS JUST SAY NEVER BUNGEE JUMP WITH A "JUMP" ROPE...owww!.. ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9726735/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9726735/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 15:31:02 PDT

WEEEEEEEE!!! IM SO BORED..it aint funny! LOL OK IT IS!!!!!..LOL CAN YOU BELIVE IT!!! I TRIED TO BUNGEE JUMP OFF THE STAIRS!!!..it didnt feel to good... LETS JUST SAY NEVER BUNGEE JUMP WITH A "JUMP" ROPE...owww!.. ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9634158/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9634158/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 21:08:24 PDT

You are one sick person if you dont repost this i feel for you if this dosent touch you because this is just wrong. read this. its disgusting


Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes
My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend
He pats the seat in the middle; i sit
Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends

"Jessy you love me dont you" a smile; his
Their breathe spirts weep
"Daddy you know i do; what is it?"
He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps

His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes
Daddys creeping up my nightie; cold hands
I try to pull his hand away; grip is strong!
They look at one another; nod; something planned

I feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers
"Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again
But there grip is to strong for weak me
I look at both; and ask, who are these men?

His fingers going up me; pulling away
His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why?
His toungue moving mine; my eyes squint
Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?"

No answer, i feel the pain inside me; him
Chucks the quilt on the floor; me to
I try and scamper away, but im not fast
"O Daddy please, i love you"

His friend; pulling at my nightie
And my Dad pulling my pants down
His friend pinning my hands to the floor
As my Dad lies himself on the ground

I squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me up
And places me ontop of Daddy; thrusts within
I cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail
"O Daddy please you win you win!"

I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free
I can feel the blood seep down my leg
"Daddy your hurting me please"
I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg

Daddys laughing; why does he laugh?
His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans
Tieing my hands togather; moving in and out
"Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans

They smile at one another; laugh to
They roll me over and spread me wide wel
My daddy sits on my face; himself in again
While his friend talks and pushes himself inside

I can hardly breathe; i gag for air
I cough and splutter; cry and weep
I beg and plead; but its no use
Theyve already made me hurt and bleed

I stare into his eyes; that look upon me
This is not my Dad; where is he?
If he was still here; would he care
Would he actually even; see?

Finally they get of and lie me on the sofa
My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain
They play with them selfs; all over me
Rub it in; making me feel the shame

"Why Daddy? Please tell me why?"
Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away
"Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek
"Is that all you have in your heart to say?"

He puts my nightie on me
I walks me to my bedroom door
Ever since that night; His friend
And himself every Friday come back for more

"Night sweet Girl; You are my life"
Closing the door, tears still down my face
Still the smell of him and his friend
Fade into me like disgrace


I watch the Moon go down; the sun come up
"Jessy its school" Knocking at my door
I cant help but cry; weep in pain
Because im so scared he wanted more

But one night daddy took it too far
Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot
They were worried they would get caught
So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot

I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back
"Daddy please!! Not tonight!"
Daddy and his friend both had their last fun
After that i tried to put up a fight

I begged daddy "Please no more!"
All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!"
Daddy unblindfolded me at last
He said I love you so much

He went back into the car and pulled out a bat
"Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!"
I was dead
After only one swing.......................... ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9622488/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9622488/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 22:00:50 PDT ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9591806/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9591806/ Thu, 03 Aug 2006 21:03:54 PDT heart: I LOVE HIME SO MUCH!!! I THOUGHT HE WAS NEVER GOING TO TAKE ME BACK..I DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR ANOTHER CHANCE HE JUST GAVE IT TO ME!!!! I LOVE RICKY!!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9580041/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9580041/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 18:21:32 PDT ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9559498/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9559498/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 21:28:01 PDT and my other friend Rachel Ebeler is in the hospital right now cuz of her diaese call systics fybrosis or however you spell it. well i really want a mirical to happen for them right now..and i thought if i got alot of people to pray for them it might work! so all my true friends out there can you please pray for them..and when you do post a comment on this saying, "i prayed"


AMEN

R.I.P. "Corey Michael Vandament" ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9491200/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9491200/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 14:48:24 PDT

I AM JESUS


I AM JESUS,
WHERES MY DUMB SHEEP,
SHUT UP MOSES,
IM TRYING TO SLEEP.

OH MY WHERES NOAH,
AHH, I THINK SHE ATE MOSES,
NOAH SAYS,"EMM..TASTE LIKE,
ROSES

AHH THERES SATAN,
PLEASE DONT EAT ME,
YOU FOOL I COME TO GET NOAH,
HE ATE MOSES YOU SEE.

HE NEEDS TO COME WITH ME,
I WILL GIVE HIM SPANKENS,
AHH YOUR MEAN,
WELL DUH, I AM SATAN!

NOW YOU ALL HAVE BEEN BAD BOYS,
AND YOUR ALL GOING TO HELL,
HA HA MOSES, NOAH, AND JESUS,
GOODBYE AND FARWELL. ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9483561/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9483561/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 20:55:51 PDT i cried my tears out in blood if you get what im trying to say! (i cut them out) i love him so much..he shouldnt have asked me out if he knew he was going to break up with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM NEVER GOING TO LOVE AGAIN!!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9439359/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9439359/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 15:54:39 PDT

He told his friends that it was cool,


And when he pulled the trigger back,


It shot with a great crack.


Mommy, I was a good girl, I did What I was told,


I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!


But Mommy, when I went school that day,


I never said good-bye,


I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.


When Johnny shot the gun, He hit me and another,


And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother.


Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,


And please tell Chris; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.


And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,


And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now,


And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best;


Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest.


Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,


And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass.


Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one deserves this,


Mommy, warn the others, Mommy I left without a kiss.


And Mommy tell the doctors; I know they really did try,


I think I even saw a doctor, Trying not to cry.


Mommy, I'm slowly dying, With a bullet in my chest,


But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest.


Mommy I ran as fast as I could,


When I heard that crack, Mommy, listen to me if you would,


I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new,


I guess I'm not ! ! going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo.


I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,


I wanted to be an actress, Mommy, I wanted to live.


But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,


Mommy, tell my Chris, I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date.


I love you Mommy, I always have, I know; you know it's true,


And Mommy all I wanted to say is, "Mommy, I love you."


****In Memory of The Columbine Students Who Were Lost**** ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9436446/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9436446/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 10:59:54 PDT
Im a bitch and i got class,
mess with me and ill kick your ass,
so for all the people that think your cool,
JUST REMEMBER THAT BITCHES RULE!!!
------
My name is what hoes like to mention...
Keep talkin bitch i love the attention:]
don't like me? `keep my name
out of your mouth. have
something to say? you just'
defined yourself. have a
problem 'with me? then solve
it. think I'm 'trippin'? tie
my shoe. can't stand me? sit
'down. can't face me?'
'then turn around. ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9375418/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9375418/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 12:30:41 PDT You got mine,
I'll help you out
Anytime!
To see you hurt
To see you cry
Makes me weep
And wanna die
And if you agree
To never fight
It wouldn't matter
Whos wrong or right
If a broken heart
Needs a mend
I'll be right there
Till the end
If your cheeks are wet
From drops of tears
Don't worry
Let go of your fears
Hand in hand
Love is sent,
We'll be friends
Till the end!!!!

if your my friend even if your not repost this!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9333511/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9333511/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 14:23:55 PDT you were right i love volleyball a little more than basketball! its FUN !!!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9254680/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9254680/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 20:30:40 PDT
Well my mom know my step dad is cheating on her with his wife! and she knew it ever since they met which since i was 2 and she never told me!!!! my brother knows but not me!!!! what am I going to tell my sister...his real dughter!?!! i meaN HES MARRIED...HAD A CHILD WHITH MY MOM...and never even told me!!!!

My mom does not need to be cheated on! she can do better than that!! there is plenty of other people in the world she does not need one thats already married!!!! I need advice! please reply! I cant belive it..i lost my real dad by death..and now almost another by an affair! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9010247/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/9010247/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 15:29:55 PDT and these are the people i need to say sorry to
1. - taking your bf.
2.- hurting your best friend..and wining to you.
3. all meh other buddehs for causing you trouble. ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8952596/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8952596/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 17:54:37 PDT ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8952319/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8952319/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 17:05:02 PDT 1.I have done alot of sins.
2.I tried to take my life away.
3.I lie.
4.I'm mean.
5.i'm stupid.
6.I'm worth nthing..(i was even told that)
theres like 600 more.

Oh yeah.. everytime i pray to him for forgiveness, or even other people bad things happen to them and to me. Does anyone have any good advice?? please help! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8914548/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8914548/ Mon, 29 May 2006 18:42:17 PDT
And guess what i found him!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8906376/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8906376/ Sun, 28 May 2006 22:02:35 PDT make me cry,
let me fall,
watch me die.

you suffocate me with my pain,
you repeat what i did over again,
you shoved me down the drain,
i thought you were my friend.(cousin)

this isnt finished yet. I'm going to put a deviation of the finished piece. This is how I feel right now. well hope you like and i need to know if the first part of this is good enough. ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8758682/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8758682/ Sat, 13 May 2006 11:51:27 PDT i feel so happy!!! hes the url to my poem [link] hope you like it i think its on DA to. woot!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8692564/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8692564/ Sat, 06 May 2006 15:34:23 PDT
I'm happy because: I got asked out by this guy named Calvin and I am over Stephen!! I think I'm going to say yes to Calvin because I have had a crush on him since grade 2, but I have never told anyone not even him.

POed because: Well now this is the story to y Im POed...
I was skateboarding at my friend Kayla's house when my mom had called for me to come home. So I went to get my sister and this little fat girl Abby was playing with her and she was a trouble maker.

I told my sister Carrie to come home. Then Abby wispered in her ear to throw a rock at my stomach and Carrie did because she follows what her friends say. It hurt so bad I almost coughed up blood it was a huge rock to I thought it would have killed me.Anyway I started to grab Carrie by the hand to come home and abby yelled for her cousin to come out and beat me up(which she never could) , But I was suprised because Abbys cousin took up for me saying to abby."Let them go home abby and mind your own bussiness." Then abby kept telling Carrie to stay. Carrie wouldnt move at all when I tried to get her to come home. The I got down low and said to abby," Abby look Carrie has to go home or she will never be able to come back!" Then Abbys mom came out saying to me,"Dont be picking on my kids! Theres a huge age difference!! your 13 and abbys 7!" Then I slammed my skateboard on the ground walking face all red to abbys mom i said,"Look Im not starting any trouble, your little FAT daughter keeps teling my sister to stay here and i have to go home because my mom just called!!!" then abbys mom said," look if you dont get along with them dont come back to this street! " she acted like she owned the whole street! i said," fuck you!" took my skateboared, took Carrie and left! ]]> ~monkeycheetah http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8643711/ http://monkeycheetah.deviantart.com/journal/8643711/ Mon, 01 May 2006 16:47:25 PDT I am never giving him another chance! well this is the story of how it happened..

As you see my friend Amanda was at my house.
We were riding skateboards and holding onto to the phone to see if stephen would call to come over. Then Amanda called Stephens house to see if he would comeover. well.... when no one answered she left a message saying,"LET ME TALK TO STEPHEN!!!!!!!!!!" I said,"Why did you do that!?" She said,"I thought it would be funny." I got so mad at her The she called back saying "Is Stephen there?" to his mom and she said,"NO! were you the person who has called here the passed 10 times?!" Amanda said,"no of course not!" and really she was.
Then his mom asked"What is your name?" She should have said Amanda because you'll see why in a second. But she really said"this is Sara" And his mom asked, "sara who?" Amanda said,"Sara Sency" which was a fake name!

Then I called about five minutes later and Stephen answered saying,"sorry we don't take blocked calls!!" Then I called back and no one answered, so I was going to leave a message but on the other line was someone with the caller ID which said Stephens name, so I clicked over and Stephens MOM was on saying May I speak to Ms.My last name which I'm not going to tell. I was so scared so I said Shes at the store. Then I hung Up and chased amanda all the way around the neighbrhood.

When I went to school the next day I went to talk to Stephen I said,"Stephen look that wasn't me it was amanda ,I only called twice to say sorry for her mistakes." Then he said," Look I don't fucking care you lied to my mom by saying you were Sara your a lying bitch!" I was so sad I almost started crying!

Theres my story now amanda is trying to tell her it was all her fault but he just wont listen.... Im so heartbroken....can someone give me advice? Somthing to comfort me? Should I give him another chance If he asks for 1??? HELP ME!!!!! ]]> ~monkeycheetah