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you weren't worth the breath for an apology, dumb bigot.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/11697285/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/11697285/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 13:04:28 PST haha; here's a big love-you to life.

i'm working again;
even though i'm still in this goddamn school.
i feel so much better now though.

i guess that's the lovely-effect of changing things.
i'm balancing my indulgences with my obligations.
i can't wait to move on with my life:]
it's going tobe something wonderful.

never living up to my aspirations;
and knowing that whatever
i achieve will be shit.
thank you dave.
you're going to have me prosper
to nothing while i blot you out.
the last thing to change will be my name.


of course kids; i'm still writing occasionally.
i see less reason for it in large amounts anymore;
i've become more detached; more- impersonal.
i've been more of noting the problems of other people;
such as with:

"the cool cat sound: to rave."
[link]

also; because i care less whom agrees with me;
i've been becoming more political too.

regardless;
catch you on the otherside

dahlia electrickk.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/10798080/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/10798080/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 09:22:59 PST that rainbow connection.
those lovers; these dreamers
and me.



terrace students are fhucking dumb.
if i disagree with organized religion
that doesn't mean i disagree with belief.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/10533309/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/10533309/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 01:15:10 PDT religion has to be
the largest hipocrisy i've heard of:
pleading for charitable behavior
while the intention is for
one's own personal paradise.





i hope you find your liberation.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/10172732/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/10172732/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 13:20:23 PDT so;
i'm back.
and perhaps i'll be in production soon.
i proposed an idea for production;
as to speed things up maybe.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8715488/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8715488/ Mon, 08 May 2006 21:41:36 PDT if you really knew me, you'd know:
-I have gained a infatuation with you, that probably shouldn't be this strong, this fast.
-writing has been my way to tell people their problems, or what's "wrong" with them.
-I indulge in all the arts;; moreso than anyone might think.
-I'm far too egotistical to let anyone besides that special someone sing my lyrics.
-I've been missing that bassmore and more as of late.
-I seem to only view my superior qualities to you, as of late.
-as much I remain friendly to you, I secretly have grown fucking tired of your act.
-a friendship is a two way street, too bad you're caught up in all the traffic blocking me from view.
-you feel replaced now? (too bad it seemed like you replaced me a couple months back)
-I'll go through my phone for people to call.
-and I'll hesitate or waver on your name.
-but I don't call anyone;; I have the secret phobia that no one wants to talk to me.
-not to mention, a phobia that no one likes me.
-I've never admitted it;; I despise myself for every quality everyone says I have.
-I don't see any of those qualities.
-even if I like someone, I'll usually just be big brother or psychiatrist to them.
-I started music, because I wanted to be recognized for something&& found a passion for it. yet I don't know what I wanna do with myself.
-I can't stand being at home, nor is it healthy to leave me solitary for a long time.
-I think I've been trying to make as many friends as possible, was because I was a complete outcast in middle school.
-as much as I've sworn neutrality through agnosticism, I don't believe in a higher power. I do believe that no life is insignificant, and this makes it so we have to decide our beliefs, goals, morals, and ethics.
-I think religion is a crutch[although I don't think that's a bad thing at all, it's just not for me]
-a temple is a purely a building, it's our sentiment or attachment to it that creates it's significance.
-the flying spaghetti monster has touched me with his noodly appendage.
-I refuse to use the word "love" because it more often makes an attachment through it's use describing someone [ex: I love _____]
-secretly, I wonder how long it'll be till your next cycle of " I don't think I love him" only to cling to him yet again, two days later.
-I've written atleast 10 or so pieces of work that I've avoided putting up, so to retain friendly relations, or to be nice to those I am affiliated with.
-unless I'm at a friends', or the food is in front of me, I will starve myself
-although this will make me sound vain[which I, and everyone I know say I'm not], in a way, I want these lyrics(bright eyes- take it easy[love nothing]) to fit me the best:

"Now I do as I please and lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free...
and a little bit empty
No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
There will be no arguments
We will always agree
And I'll try and be kind when I ask you to leave
We'll both take it easy
But if you stay too long inside my memory,
I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
and I will keep you there so you can't bother me"

-the song that describes me best;; thursday -the love song writer
-sex[or rape] is only as valuable or as important as you make it to be.
-I have a large advantage with psychiatry&& philosophy;; it's always come to me easily.
-I feel a bit like a tool to you.
-I know as much music as I do, not to be known or recognized for listening to good music, but because I love music in all it's forms, I can recognize beauty in nearly everything now.
-I used to think of you as a friend until I was replaced so quick.
-I critque bands' stage appearance, as well as their overall sound.
-I'm not a groupie to anyband any longer.
-myspace has only been for communication, nothing more.
-I have one foot that's wider than the other.
-I'm attracted to depressive spirals.
-along with a lust for metaphor.
-I usually write when I feel that if I say anything to anyone, they'll freak out, or misunderstand me.
-----
saying you doesn't mean it goes to any ONE PERSON in specific.
I've thought of a couple people for them ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8279695/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8279695/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 06:10:54 PST this burden wasn't a heavy one
but I'm afraid
you've lost him, my dear
with the grasp of a million
yet without anyone to take
this was meant to fail
you were meant to fail.
under a facade,
a way of protection
he is to keep
every last memory
every painefd and
beautiful expressiomn

that's not for you
no, it's not for you.

This burden might not be the largest
but perhaps
he'll fall just the same
fail to reform
And finally
collapse. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8194102/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8194102/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 12:57:20 PST so. it's my birthday today.
and I'm sort of neutral.
I mean.
I'm happy a bit
but at the same time
I feel bad.
>>;;; that's such a horrible horrible word to use
because it's so very vague
that when I say bad
it leaves for you to speculate all kinds of fucked up
that I could be
I guess.


I feel I'm being replaced again.
that I'm being pushed away again.

I haven't really hung out with any of my other friends in a while
and I feel that.
I guess
they're fine with it.
not that I can do anything about it.

I meann

I'm not exactly the most
promiscuous fuckk of the bunch.
I was never to be the
most accurate gun of the armada.

I'd kill to be the hero of the story
but you decided I'd be
one hell of a supporting character.

I don't knoww.
I'm trying not to write a five page one.
because I get complaints that I do that often
well, while talking, I mean.
but whatever.

-----

I start writing again.
and I still have some photos to upload.
so perhaps I can get around to it soon.
buttt. I haven't been in the mood as of late
too much shit going on, I guess.

I heart you all though

-----

I've been listening to the postal service again.
and I've been getting back into
punkk and skaa.

good times. good times.
and let's not forget
electronicaaa.

ehh.
fuckk thiss.

I got driver's ed today.
and I don't long to go
but I have to.
one of the meets was cancelled this week
because of an outage.

----

happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to me.
I've taken the time
to fill out a journal
to say

happy birthday to mee.


tell me when i could finally
take a breaak
that goddamn kitkat
sounds good.

---

yes. I did swear a lot this timee.
I'm apathetic to it.


edit: consider this a quick rant.
I find it bullshit for a parent
to push you into driver's ed
when you don't want it whatsoever
and then
go through the bullshit of considering it
a birthday present.
fucking asshole.

I understand your reason to push me in
[[to take you to the hospital]]
but I don't want to be in driver's ed.
so why don't you listen to your son
for once in your goddamn life

I'm tired of not having a voice
or a voice that counts in the family
because of your goddamn lack
of comprehension
that I don't like driving.
at all. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8070848/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/8070848/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 03:20:25 PST Mood: homicidal-suicidiac.
Listening to: Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
Reading: the truth machine

I hear that your friends insult me.
I hear that I'm insulted often.
that you stand up for me.
when I'm not around.
I see that you still listen to the mix.

I know you're still attached.

but if all I'm doing is bringing you down
perhaps I shouldn't be there at all.

all the more evidence to know what I thought
seemed perfectly right in the very first place.

prepare for disappearance.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7921439/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7921439/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 00:01:09 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: homicidal-suicidiac.
Listening to: lover I don't have to love - bright eyes.
Reading: the truth machine

I think I know how he felt when he transfered schools.
or that's if he has already.
I speak of a kid that I used to sit next to in geometry.
but that doesn't really matter.

ever feel like you don't belong?
of course, who hasn't?
even if you love the place you're at?
I love it with a passion.
are you struggling to write this?
I've always had trouble with it.





-deletes part on thoughts of suicide-

I'm starting to scare myself again.
I'm making myself miserable with insecurity.
and I want run.

so much for being stable, right?

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7799358/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7799358/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 12:13:00 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: fucking squish me.
Listening to: Centuar: Half Man Half Motorcycle
Reading: the redemption of christopher columbus by o.s.c.
Watching: Moulin Rouge.

my grandmother just died.

and I needed a way to say it.

but nothing could help me

as much I could really help myself

I think.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7695431/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7695431/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 13:44:38 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: go.fuck.yourself.
Listening to: Centuar: Half Man Half Motorcycle
Reading: the redemption of christopher columbus by o.s.c.
Watching: Moulin Rouge.

he sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
he tries to tell me what I put inside of me
he's got the answers to ease my curiosity
he dreamed up a god and called it Christianity
your god is dead and no one cares
if there is a hell I will see you there
he flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
he made a virus that would kill off all the swine
his perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
demands devotion atrocities done in his name
your god is dead and no one cares
drowning in his own hypocrisy
and if there is a hell I will see you there
burning with your god in humility
will you die for this?





this is what you call a temperary filler of space, in the meantime,

I give you a song.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7531975/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7531975/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 01:40:55 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: I eat [heart attack]
Listening to: Centuar: Half Man Half Motorcycle
Reading: the redemption of christopher columbus by o.s.c.
Watching: Moulin Rouge.

alright. so today is the one year anniversary of my mother's death.

honestly. I wasn't too sad. I was just.

somber.

nothing overly dramatic. or whatever.


got out of school early. visited my half brother Joey.


got a free lunch, considering I wouldn't have eaten otherwise.

and meh. I guess I'll have to get drama from the female siblings of mine.

because I write how Alesa wasn't perfect.

I have one thing to say to that.







if you don't like it Angela or Liz:


don't fucking read it.if you do, don't bitch to me about it. I don't care.


and I never have about idiotic views.












everyone else. I'd love for you to read my work, and comment on it.


critque me, if you may. if not, just whatever comment of praise or insult.


have a good fucking night. <3

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7346891/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7346891/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 15:38:15 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: fuckin' [rape] me.
Listening to: You're Not Welcome Here. By. Phantom Planet.
Reading: erg. I don't wanna open my backpack.
Watching: Shaun of the Dead.

Upon the hour of your arrival
I will draw the line
You take your side of the city
Don't set foot on mine

You told me when we met
I told you when we left
That we're through
We're through
So I thought
You knew
You disappeared
Now you're not welcome here

Across the park we used to walk through
Keep that for yourself
Well the next that heard
You wouldn't have me
That's for someone else
That is mine to keep
That is mine to keep
I know at least
I shared my keys
Made it clear
That you're not wlecome here

I told you when we met
You told me when you left
I know at least
I shared my keys
Made it clear
That you're not welcome here
You're not wlecome here
You're not wlecome here
You're not welcome here

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7314541/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7314541/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 23:41:41 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: fuckin' [rape] me.
Listening to: Mexico by Cake.
Reading: erg. I don't wanna open my backpack.
Watching: Shaun of the Dead.

# ~Placidie Dec 14, 2005 @ 11:35 pm



Bless her for 7000.


and you know what.


maybe I'll try and draw something for her.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7278518/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7278518/ Sat, 10 Dec 2005 23:42:54 PST for subscribing me. <3

Mood: fuckin' [rape] me.
Listening to: Mexico by Cake.
Reading: erg. I don't wanna open my backpack.
Watching: Shaun of the Dead.

Alright. ergh. I'm tired of that post. so I'm posting this.

-smile- and you know. I'm perfectly fine. other than I'd just come in contact with my rapist again.

heh. yeah. I wouldn't consider that to be a boring way to start off a story.

egh. basically, we conversed over trivial things, his girlfriend stayed in the car.

t'was a bit awkward talking to him.


other than such.

Ipod died yesterday durring school. not really much of a big deal. taking it to the store tomorrow.

Getting a Kelli's birthday or christmas (whichever you wanna consider it as) present tomorrow. I guess I'll find out what she'll get when I go.

Multiple scheduling changes/problems for school. But having the same class as Nicole/Kelli/Josh/Sarah/Paige will be nice. and lunch at 12. luckily, I appear to be enjoying my AP biology class.

In the meantime. I think I'll wish you all a good night.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7208540/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7208540/ Sat, 03 Dec 2005 00:48:01 PST And now I have friends of her harassing me about being bitter.

I should not get shit for shit getting done.

I am trying. and I am pushing myself to be happy for her.

For you to say otherwise is complete and utter bullshit.

erg.

in the meantime:

good morning Cyndy. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7163608/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/7163608/ Mon, 28 Nov 2005 01:26:20 PST They won't see the fire you have lit inside of me.
They look up to the stars and wonder where you might be.
Leave the gun.
Without realizing they're standing in the palm of your hand.
I can't explain or understand.
I just love you.

It's common knowledge that; you've been dead for a while.
It's well known that the cross is only a burden with pains and trials.
But thinking how come my shoes are so light, how come I can walk for miles?
And still, just love you?

So I think I'll stay, caught up in silent prayer, cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words.
So why don't we just walk along the shoreline with our silent song?
Cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words, the same words.

We have to prove that our love is real, over and over again.
But let them think what they want cause I know It'll never end.
Cause I know when it began.
And my heart still pumps twice as fast whenever you walk by.
Cause I still love you.

So I think I'll stay, caught up in silent prayer, cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words.
So why don't we just walk along the shoreline with our silent song?
Cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words, the same words. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6979030/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6979030/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 14:57:34 PST Well, basically Kelli, Daniel, Apple, Jason, and myself watched Saw2. I liked the acting a lot more, and the the violence was more brutal; but it seems like they were running out of clever ways to kill someone; or give them a chanceto save themselves. But erg. Its no good if you have a huge phobia of needles. But yeah. Iliked the movie>______>

TRICK OR TREATING. We went to shoreline afterwards; when we dropped jason off. It was funn.

kelli was Marla Singer.
Apple was Poison Ivy.
Daniel was Dave the Car.
And I.. Well, there were a lot of different ideas there, but I came up with something:

A poor emo rockstar guitarist hobo that doubles as a scarecrow from new orleans. or John Lennon.

I'll be john lennon. lol.

but yeah; O_< ran into a bunch of stoner friends of hers that used to be all good. >_> I'll be nice. But yeah; we had to go and walked around for a bit longer; trick-or-treating till we finally were like "BEACHBEACHBEACH"

So, we went to the beach; played in the sand; saw some good photo moments; and finally decided to huddle together for a bit to wait for the train; and then finally decided to leave *the train came when we halfway up the hill. Damn.* and go to Daniel's house. We got fries on the way; and we saw Kelli's old high school.

I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeearly went thur! ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6905637/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6905637/ Sun, 30 Oct 2005 10:35:30 PST the last year, it'd be pretty easy to get depressive. But I guess I'm good so far,
because of bad choices. Why do I make such unintelligent choices? because I decided to be unintelligent, immature.

I've tried to fucking lie my way through my life.
I've tried to make it seem like I've bene okay. Happy. Content.
I've known all along that I've been holding a large wall of emotion back.
I've known that I'd eventually fail. Crumble. Fall.
I've seen that I would eventually write something like this.
I've seen this sort of behavior a hundredfold before. and each time, I would be the one to stop it.
I know that I shouldn't be depressed. sad. negative. pessismistic. tragic. emo. bitchy.
I know I shouldn't act like this.
I know I'm not allowed.
I know that I can't afford to act like this.
I know I can't afford to be a slacker in school.
I know that I've been completely unbearable.
I know that no where near a prince.
I know that I won't be the one to ride in the sunset with you.
I know that I couldn't be that man. because. I. Am. A. Complete. Asshole.
I know that I don't hold qualities in a good parent.
I know though I will want to be one when I'm older in my life.
I know that I'll probably fuck it up somehow.
I know that its not romantic to think you're nothing.
I know that its not romantic to write about depression.
I know that I'm not romantic at all, happy?
I know that I'm a shit artist.
I know I have shit taste.
I know that I make poor choices.
I know that I have overactive authority issues.
I know that its especially with those less intelligent than myself.
I know I'm being unintelligent.
I know I'm going full circle.
I know that I'm centering myself with the negative in my life.
I know that I should be positive for my father dealing with that fucking bitch.
I know that I should be more polite with my sister dealing with her own qualms.
I know I should back off and give MikeslashKatie their own life.
I know that I'm not important in that aspect to them. any of them.
I know that I should keep smiling. Keep this drama going.
I know I want to help all of my friends. family.
I know I want to fix my failures. mistakes. problems.
I know that it applies to everyone else.
I know that I'm being unreasonable.
I know that I'm good at being unreasonable.
I know that I'm proficient at being negative.
I know that I have the ability to formulate bloody sketches of my life.
I know that I am completely unoriginal at this.

eh.

Here. A song. Name it for the metaphorical term of a cookie.

glass slipper

no one's asking to go dancing its not like that anymore
its romantic if they mean it when they shut your fingers in the door
its a gory sort of story thats been told a hundred times before
it gets tricky dont be picky if the slipper fits you wear it whore


how many tips can i take home tonight without them getting mad
how many stitches do you think it takes to fix a cut that bad
how many minutes until midnight and you get your eyesight back

not to knock it i've been off it never moving very much at once
its been awkward i still offer it when its that time of
ot her girls shower but i give out flowers
to curious strangers who throw dollars at my feet

how many crimes can i try spotting dry before it leaves a stain
how many times say that i love you til it doesnt mean a thing
how many fittings must i sit through with my big feet blistering
how many strips until it hits me and my big mouth strikes again

i'm not asking to go dancing i'm not that dumb anymore
its exhausting to keep smiling when your toes are bleeding through the floor
its a gory sort of story thats been told a million times before
don't be sorry just ignore me because honestly
i'm too sore from fitting exactly to ride into setting suns aching to
stand on my own two feet

how many wishes do i still have left to fix the way it ends
how many princes will it take to put a girl like this back together again
how many instances can you point out where i was less than kind
how many happy endings do you need to change your fucking mind
and how much time do we have left before it's midnight and
you see that i was never the right size?

I know that I'm not the only one with problems.
I know that this is what is known as a annoyance.
I know that this probably won't get read.
I know that I am completely and utterly emo.
I know that. ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6886016/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6886016/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 20:18:42 PDT this is god.this is god.
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this i... ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6827698/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6827698/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 12:34:08 PDT
I am currently workibng on my bird feeder project. mehg.

some one talk to me o_O.

I equall the borde.

:/ DAMMIT.

I bought Punkgoddess a new copy of The Meloncholy Death of Oyster Boy and Other Tales.
And I felt good about it.

BOOYAH>



She more than deserves the random act of giving

happy dayyy. Perhaps I shall work on a new drawing.

la-di-da-di-da-di-da~! Bored.

KITTENS. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6811393/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6811393/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 16:30:37 PDT

questionmark. QUE


nicole=moogaL HOUSE. BLUE.


PUNK MOOGLE GO'D WELL> YUS.



ENJOY . doty

SHARI~!!


THIS IS KELLI"S MARK.
happy face. que.

YUS.

AND MISTAH MOOGAL RIDES AGAIN. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6437487/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6437487/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 00:12:15 PDT

Well, I sincerely thank you all for looking at my work. lol.


meh, schools back. Partially excited, but my teachers seem to becoming bitter with age.


But I now have places to draw. that's good. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6369654/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6369654/ Tue, 30 Aug 2005 14:01:19 PDT And I say it’s all right.
Little darling it’s been a long cold lonely winter,
Little darling it feels like years since it’s been here.
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
And I say it’s all right.
Little darling the smiles returning to their faces,
Little darling it seems like it’s years since it’s been here,
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
And I say it’s all right.
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes.
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes.
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes.
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes.
Little darling I feel that ice is slowly melting,
Little darling it seems like years since it’s been clear,
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
It’s all right, it’s all right. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6364791/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6364791/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 23:13:22 PDT forgot how it feels well almost
no one to blame always the same
open my eyes wake up in flames
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me see the light
smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do
covered in hope and vaseline
still cannot fix this broken machine
watching the hole it used to be mine
just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
of the trust i will betray
give it to me i throw it away
after everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become
i tried
i gave up
throw it away

-------

By_teh_nine_inch_nails.


David_<3_Song.

Yes. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6095629/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6095629/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 00:02:14 PDT
Jark was forcibly removed from the sounds of it, and for unjustified reasons as well in my opinion. He put so much work into this site that it was basically a child of his.

Second off. I. Am. Done. Writing. Like. The. Fucking. Whiny. Bitch. I. Am.

I am tired of making others depressed through my work, and I feel that I should not cause that. I do not feel pride in the negative structure of others thoughts. This could be a permanent stop. This could be a temporary. Atleast for now, know that I'm done. Feel like trying to convince me to continue writing? go for it. Whether in a note, email, or comment I will read and comment to every last comment I get on this. Even message me on a instant messanger about it. My email is moogleBdead at gmail dot com, and I check that account every once in a while, so give me a little time if you email it. my messanger things are: aim: moogleBdead . yim: moogleBdead666 . and msn: moogleBdead13 at hotmail dot com. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6000810/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/6000810/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 01:02:41 PDT ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5771246/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5771246/ Mon, 27 Jun 2005 11:44:36 PDT __________333333333333333__________
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TAG UR IT! THIS IS A SEXYY TRAIN IF U RECIEVE THIS IT MEANS
UR FREAKIN SEXY.... IF U GET THIS BACK UR EVEN
SEXIERR ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5573339/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5573339/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 18:52:58 PDT A maggot in the underbelly of society,
whose life is getting flushed out from itself.
I feel as if my feelings for others are
completely worthless as of now.
I only bring myself into a perpetual state
of depression whenever I shed light
upon on the hole of myself.
I am in the verge of passing up
Giving up on the ideal of love.
I feel as I have become
my own tyrant, enslaved upon
my very own feelings.
I am the marrionate that you
innocently manipute, puppeteer
to your ever so sweet hands.
I am wasted. I am the point
in which cannot be turned from.
I am epitome. I am done.
The complete crossing of daulity.
There is no more parallel. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5550212/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5550212/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 09:25:50 PDT
So thank you to all of these Deviants:


* 1. *crazycrazedgurl- June 3, 2005
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* 77. ~Ryu-Samaslover August 28, 2004
* 78. ~buttercup-samurai August 20, 2004
* 79. *Divine-Star July 24, 2004
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* 95. ~shippo-kun May 20, 2004
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* 97. *ChibiLoveXX May 19, 2004
* 98. ~DarkOrchid May 18, 2004
* 99. *Maximillian-X May 16, 2004
* 100. ~Raivenn March 14, 2004 ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5441802/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5441802/ Mon, 23 May 2005 18:48:00 PDT
Mood: psychotic extremes.
Listening to: Pink Killer by Dir en Grey
Reading: Angels and Demons
Watching: Star wars ep.3

ep. 3 fuckin' rocked.


Too bad now I feel so feel so messed up that my head's gonna split in two. maybe I'll write something.



I discovered Dir en Grey, they are teh awesomer.


I got a free subscription for a week. sweet.


and now, I am off.

]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5368461/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5368461/ Sun, 15 May 2005 21:00:04 PDT
Everything's so hot.. augh.. I feel sick.. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5330475/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5330475/ Wed, 11 May 2005 14:27:44 PDT


Maybe you can look forward to some new things then in the future..


This fucking sucks. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5302525/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5302525/ Sun, 08 May 2005 13:19:07 PDT


Yeah... Alright, considerin' someone gave a comment stating I have 3k, I'm gonna do some tributes for ya, as soon as I have access to the right elements.


gosh... I'm never gonna be able to clear that thing out... ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5132341/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/5132341/ Tue, 19 Apr 2005 17:46:02 PDT
I got JTHM vol. 1 - 6 today, happy about that. I like Jhonen's work, but I haven't really been lookin' into his stuff in a long time. And I got it all with my gift card for hot topic too, so that's good. I should have bought the 7th also though.

Uh, Gonna start teaching one of my friends how to play guitar, and another how to play bass. Oh yeah! I was talkin' to a friend of mine, and we're probably gonna put a band together and do some covers of the Black Mages, and probably out own music too if we get into it. Luckily, I've got my work cut out for me as a guitarist/bassist at least, and maybe I could try being a vocalist for a band too. As I said, I don't know.

Hmm.. Sorta been a long time since I had a long journal like this. I mean, I wouldn't say I've written a lot like this in a long time, probably partially because I didn't feel like typing taht much, or just because I never had anything to say, but not this time I guess.

Well, uhh.. Maybe I could start updating you all again, and I can get more of my work out there.

Oh yeah, a couple friends of mine started inking my stuff, so some looks different with inking, and some you haven't seen without, sorry, I would have gotten a pic without, but I guess you'll just have to bear with me. And a girl I know wants to do the inking for my older stuff, like the stuff on unlined paper, so yeah, I wonder how she'll do on Maynard, the only one of my drawings I like. Oh, and it's a sorta odd thing for me to let other people to do stuff for me, so err... yeah. I probably would try the inking if she would have let me borrow her pen. But she says she likes doing it. So I'll be nice lol, I don't know.. eh, yeah.


Well, this has turned out really long for me lol. So uh, later.

EDIT: Also, I started conversing with a friend of mine Blair over business ideas about my art, eh maybe I'll end up being a manga artist or comic artist or animator? Somethin'. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4860313/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4860313/ Sun, 20 Mar 2005 05:46:47 PST

just because I'm egotistical like that

moogleBdead has 2,456 pageviews total and his 117 deviations were viewed 1,586 times. He watches 404 people, while 49 people watch him.

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His deviation with the most comments is My Picture, Newer with 19 comments, receiving an average of 1.35 per day in the first 2 weeks, while his most favourited one is Rupture., with 3 favourites, averaging 0 per day in the first 2 weeks. His most viewed deviation is Happy Halloween with 71 views.

2 favourites were given for every 10 comments.

Every 3.1 days he uploads a new deviation, and it's usually on a Tuesday, with 32 (27%) of his deviations.

His busiest month was May 2004 with 33 (28%) of his deviations.

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I watch a lot of people... O_O 404? wow, that's the title of my story. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4834550/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4834550/ Thu, 17 Mar 2005 06:13:50 PST 1. David
2. Rath
3. D

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. moogleBdead13
2. moogleBdead666
3. moogleBdead

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Humor.
2. Gift of originality.
3. Intellect?

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Easily Depressed.
2. Too giving.
3. My art sucks.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Native American
2. German
3. Part Jewish, plus a lot more.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU (or mostly creep you out):
1. um.. Heights?
2. the complete differences and person between me and my family.
3. Death without alknowledgement.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My Ipod.
2. Pencil.
3. Gift of Originality.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black slacks.
2. Jimi Hendrix T-shirt.
3. 3-year old sneakers.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. A Perfect Circle.
2. Tool.
3. My Chemical Romance.
(meh, couldn't think of anything lol)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Passive.
2. Third Eye.
3. You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Flash.
2. A Complete style change-wait, going through that.
3. Meh.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. A person I can hold a conversation with, And whom can hold one with me that lasts a while.
2. A feeling of brightened existence from her.
3. Um.. I can't really think of anything?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I've made Breakfest Pizza? It was good, and odd to make.
2. I am a alterer of minds?
3. It's a girl!

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Long Hair
2. Cuteness.
3. Short in height.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Any given sport.
2. Be Normal.
3. Brussel sprouts. Euch.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing.
2. Reading. Writing.
3. Guitar

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get a girlfriend.
2. Make A band.
3. Write a Book.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. CG artist.
2. Animator.
3. Programmer.
4. Musician.
5. Game Creator.
6. Manga Artist.
7. Novelist.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe.
2. Japan.
3. Egypt? I don't know.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Work in a Games Company. (not a janitor >= ( )
2. Travel.
3. Be known.

Raped from Apocalypse-om3ga. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4715085/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4715085/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 20:58:58 PST

Well, basically, drawing-wise, I think I'll warn you now, I believe it's gone a bit more morbid/happy sorta, and in some cases, more anime-like. Yeah, life's been really good more recently, I'd say. Actually, for a while now, which is probably why that I haven't really been able to do my macabre art, but I'm fine with that. Really, I sorta find the new mix sorta interesting, maybe I'll upload it sometime.. Yeah, life's been goin' great. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4671416/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4671416/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 15:52:09 PST .... Teha {EANT!.................................. ....................Shut down.







Oh, The story, don't take that as me being evil or anything please. I'm just writing. and I'm finding that story quite hilarious. Speculation is fun. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4666781/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4666781/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 22:54:14 PST



*HUGS* TOTAL!
give moogleBdead more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own





Yeah. I = teh sad. Well, incase any of you were wonderin', I'm sorta dead right now, in a sense... lol.

Nothin' bad goin' on in my life or anything right now, so I've been sorta dead on lyrics, poems, and drawings. maybe I'll come up with some forced, but I don't know.

well, I'm trying to work on the story, but eh, I've been gone a lot.



]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4618605/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4618605/ Fri, 18 Feb 2005 23:05:49 PST But I assure you, it's present
This burden's not a heavy one
But I assure you, it is present

You say that you're in control
You say that you are
I can't think of a time
When you looked less alive
You said, "Wait until light, my dear"
Just wait until light
One more day will go by
Maybe today you should try
Look past the mirror and find
Look past the mirror
That there's something inside
Something more to your life
My words won't heal you now
My words won't heal
It is you who decides
It is you who decides

This burden's not a heavy one
But I assure you, it's present
This burden's not a heavy one
I assure you

Believe that you are just fine
Believe that you are
You'll feel so alive
You'll feel so alive
Be what you are now (be what you are)
Be what you are
Do not keep it inside
That hate will not subside
Be what you are now (be what you are)
Be what you are
Do not keep it inside
That hate will not subside

It's you, decide
It's you, decide

So alive
You'll feel so alive

This burden's not a heavy one
But I assure, I assure you
This burden's not a heavy one
Not a heavy one
Not a heavy one.


Control By Alexisonfire.

Yeah, I'm bored lol. How about you all? Startin' to write more on the story, more frequently. But, meh. Well, Later. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4573981/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4573981/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 21:05:38 PST I've missed you so much.
So glad it's over.
I've missed you so much.
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running away?
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running?"

-Shrouding all the ground around me.
Is this holy crow above me.
Black as holes within a memory
and blue as our new second sun.
I stick my hand into his shadow
to pull the pieces from the sand.
Which I attempt to reassemble
to see just who I might have been.
I do not recognize the vessel,
but the eyes seem so familiar.
Like phosphorescent desert buttons
singing one familiar song... -

"So good to see you.
I've missed you so much.
So glad it's over.
I've missed you so much.
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running away?
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running away?"

(Prying open my third eye. 4x)

So good to see you once again.
I thought that you were hiding.
And you thought that I had run away.
Chasing the tail of dogma.

(Opened my eye 3x) And there we were (Opened my eye 3x) And there we were

So good to see you once again
I thought that you were hiding from me.
And you thought that I had run away.
Chasing a trail of smoke and reason.

{whispering voices}

(Prying open my third eye. 10x)
Yeah. I love this song by the way, but that besides the point.

I have some new stuff, I'll get around to typing in off my lyrics/poems book, and also, I have a rough draft for a story, I'm conceplating wether or not to post it or not, but oh well. Any way, I sorta think I need change. )time for a bad pun/joke( I'm going to pry open my third eye. hehe. Alright, well, now that I got that outta my system, my hair's been cut again. well, this has been the second time it was cut without you all knowing, but yeah, sorry. lol.

GOD I ARE SO BORED> ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4497015/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4497015/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 14:38:16 PST

I'd like to apologize to anyone that's been talking to me recently, because I've been an asshole.



So now, I'm just gonna hang out with me, my bad attitude, and my fucking asshole self.


later. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4255334/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4255334/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 15:21:02 PST

She's dead. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4253553/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4253553/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 11:14:51 PST
Well, Here's lookin' at you all.

Later. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4169853/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4169853/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 13:42:39 PST ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4131182/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4131182/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 20:41:43 PST ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4053753/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4053753/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 21:54:31 PST

Well, I found out she was resting at the hospital fer a while, and is back home today. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4031998/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/4031998/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 01:30:41 PST Leave a Note, Shattered across the scenery,
Leading to this, Uncertainty.

Retain,
Our focus, driving blindly,
Cascading across The Edge,
deepening our feel, our difference, Left.

Take a breath.
Our lives aren't gone,
We won't be done, quite yet.

Undertow,
Taking the weight of others,
Leaving little to desguise,
We are not drowning.

Tempest,
Etching the whispers,
Leave our words,
Respect, and Burn.

Closing.
Safe to ignore,
Easy to Recollect.

Full-Moon's Aria.
End.

~Yeah, So I decided to try writing somethin with a lil Shadow's Fall/mixes of thoughts, and this is what I got, So... Yeah, just focusin' pent up emotion, I guess.
Shit's happened yesterday:

moogleBdead: Left school early to go to mom's
moogleBdead: cuz she wasn't feeling well
moogleBdead: (remember, she has cancer)
moogleBdead: We thought this might be it earlier
moogleBdead: and I'm signed out of school tomorrow too


Yeah.. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3972938/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3972938/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 14:26:42 PST

Well, Thanks to everyone for the comments, Views, and everything, Sorry I haven't really been that active with my account.

I haven't really been that expressive.. Just sorta Restless, and empty. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3827872/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3827872/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 18:56:44 PST ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3813641/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3813641/ Thu, 11 Nov 2004 21:28:46 PST

I'm back!@ ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3560905/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3560905/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 21:36:25 PDT


and possibly, could someone remind me, please? ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3453776/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3453776/ Sun, 26 Sep 2004 19:46:52 PDT
Sorry I haven't been updating much, just been havin thee sucky drawing block, but I have my poems and such , yeah wrote some, but not sure if I'll upload them, cuz, they suck.


Been listenin to Imagine by A Perfect Circle, not too bad of a sound, only thing I don't like is the fact that Maynard's givin hipocritsy like mad. (this is also because I got informed by a friend that his original msg was we're not for money, but for the music, etc, and that changed) Basically, with APC, he started making these mixes and songs that are against Bush, you see, I'm not against a artist stating their opinion, but his words were that it was about the music, not money, or fame, etc. I (and my friend) are glad atleast he isn't doing this with TOOL, or else it'd fuckin' suck.

yeah, Cole, I probably recycled your words, but I agree.

"Imagine all the people
living for today."

Yeah, I've been thinkin a lot latily, about life, and how I've been making choices, and I've decided, I've been far too cautious about myself, and everything about me. I shall live today as it may be my last.

"Nothing to kill or die for
no religion too."

I think I've found a religion that is pretty interesting,
Buddhism.

"Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can.
No room for greed or hunger,
a brotherhood of man."

I've decided that I won't let possessions be a large part of my enjoyment of life, I'll create my own fun, besides, I have friends, I have a future, and I have my health, things could be a lot worse.

"they say we're dreamers
I'm not the only one."

I Hope things go well, I hope things go right,
And if they don't, I'm going to be fine,
For there shall only be things to look up to later.

"I hope someday you'll join us
in a world that is one."

I hope someday that you'll understand my statements, if you don't as it is.
I hope someday you'll understand not to let our pasts and choices imprison us from each other.
There's nothing worth killing or dying for,
There's nothing to be afraid of.

Peace,

David


lyrics copyright to Maynard James Keenan and A Perfect Circle. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3300570/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3300570/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 13:34:25 PDT I went to the hospital to see my mom today, she was on morphine, and very pale. She ended up neasuated(sp?) because of the morphine, because of her Allergies, and she ended up throwing up. She couldn't really do anything.. all I could do was hold her hand and watch her sleep, but from the looks of it, one bit of good news is that she may get help from the Cancer Center in Seattle, but They'll have to look at her financial situation, among other things. My Sister is probably going to live over here at my dad's for about a year and a half, but she seems to be feeling a bit better, because she was crying a lot before. I hope things go well, and I'm hoping that the center will help mom too.


Sept 3>... Looks like things aren't going to be very well in life, I was told that the cancer/tumor has spread to her stomach, throat, liver, and lymph notes... If she doesn't do Kemo, then she'll probably have maybe like 1 - 3 months, maybe, if that. If she goes through with Kemo, she'll have a 20% chance of even defeating it, and if not, it'll just enlengthen the time to about maybe a 1 year or a year and a half. She called, but I chose to leave for a while before she did, mainly because I wasn't ready to deal with anything yet. She didn't tell my dad wether or not she'll be doing Kemo, so I don't know what was happening... Thing's don't seem to be doing well.. My Sister is going to go to school over here by my dad's house... Dammit...

I was also told that day that she was mis-diagnosed for 2 years... My dad says that the children of hers might want to think about taking legal action...





Thank you, really, everyone, I really hope things go well, although its becoming Grim. I get to see my mom tomorrow, and after that, I'm gonna hang out with my half-bro Joey all weekend, he's someone I get along with a lot, and I'm gonna jam with him on instruments.







I really hope things will work out...





Sept 6 > Alright, back- I got to stay the night with Joey, but I got to see my mom again.. She was doin better from the looks of it, and she was on Clear liqulds, But, meanwhile talking to Joey, he told me that it was pretty much what I thought, she's screwed. about 6 months, from the looks of it... I've just been positive for mom, and I got to see her again today too, that was cool... well, damn, thing's in life can't always be cool... but, apparently mom's going to be cremated, and split between the five children (Joey, Amanda, Angela, Liz, and I). ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3262839/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3262839/ Wed, 01 Sep 2004 12:52:07 PDT

pretty much, My stepmom's outta work (still employed) because of a balance illness she has attained. She's been stuck at home fer the past 2 or 3 months, so there's a source of Income that has been lost, because she's outta Sick days and Vacation time.

My Dad, still isn't completely sure wether he still has his Tumor on his patuatary gland, and he's the only source of money.

Our house, We now wonder on wether we'll be able to keep it.. so, Internet's probably gonna die, along with bass lessons, etc.. it sucks, but I guess I don't need it...

My Mom has a Tumor in her Colon, and its tested positive for Cancer, She's in the hospital, I can't see her, and she'll have to go through Kemo Therapy. She's Currently unconious.

My Sister, is basically left alone at my mom's house 24/7 right now, and my Dad is thinking that he'll have her move in meanwhile Mom's goin through Kemo, because Don(going to mom's husband, because of a obsessive and Abusive other) is going from work to her, more likely like everyday.


She'll be in the hospital for a month, and she'll be down/out for like a year and a half.



With this said, that means there's going to be another child to feed, and we were not sure about being able to offord the house anyway..


So, I'll pretty much have a tumor when I grow up too, probably, I have Sticlar's Syndrome, and Depression. School starts tomorrow.



Thing's aren't goin that well, don't ya think? ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3157652/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/3157652/ Wed, 18 Aug 2004 16:28:26 PDT ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/2922755/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/2922755/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 22:52:35 PDT

Also, Listened to very good song on friday, and listening to it now, World So Cold by MudVayne, its really not quite the same as their usual music, in my mind anyway, but sort of goes to their roots. Very good song.

Also, I've written some lyrics, and drawn a lil bit, I'll probably upload it sometime soon, but yeah lol, I'm sorta busy at the moment, I'll send some thaty I'm unsure about though. I probably suck at writing, but I guess I can only get better, with more effort.

Lets not forget, I began a LJ account, so anyone who is on there, you can add me. [link]

and one of the last things, I've started taking Bass classes, My reason: Too many people try to learn the guitar... And its true, really, like on the musician requests there, there was one guitar wanted, but like 10 bassists wanted. Once I've played long enough, I might start putting up my own, or go and recruit some of my friends, like one of the three drummers, one or two of the like 50 guitarists, and myself. I can sing, at least, thats what I'm told.

Another thing, I've maybe even thought about seeking a medical career, maybe a nuro-sergurn. can't spell lol.


_INCOMPLETE_

NEW!!

maybe a medical career, I mean, I don't want to just be crushed financially if I tried to make a career in music and never got it, well, journalism isn't a bad thing either. 'course, there are a lot of choices to make, and I don't quite a set path for myself at my age, because I'm most likely forgetting some looks on the subject.

Birthday of James = going to Netplay first, and playing games like Battlefield: Vietnam, Warcraft 3, Starcraft, Counter-Strike, Starwars Galaxies, and more. till like 10 30, then from there, to his house. like 4 hours of poker(I didn't join in)(Alex's poker face = best), 4 or 5 hours of the mega mix, and a act of extreme hilarity of Alex pooing out his mouth. rofl. I drew a guick drawing at James house too, but I left it there. I have james and wayne as witnesses for it, that it was about 15 minutes total for drawing it. Alex, James, and Wayne(not completely sure, lol) said it was pretty good but sorta sketchy. lol. Too bad i can't get it back, if I wanted to upload it, from James until August, because they left on Vacation today, to Ashland. I hope he can find something to do while there...

lol, and also, James burned me a Adema cd, eh, they're okay so far, but I haven't really cracked that much into the cd yet. I think this may be one of their first cds though.. also, the singer has a new york accent, and its funny.



I'll probably start updating a lil more often from now on. ]]> ~moogleBdead http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/2911774/ http://moogleBdead.deviantart.com/journal/2911774/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 14:21:30 PDT

Also, Listened to very good song on friday, and listening to it now, World So Cold by MudVayne, its really not quite the same as their usual music, in my mind anyway, but sort of goes to their roots. Very good song.

Also, I've written some lyrics, and drawn a lil bit, I'll probably upload it sometime soon, but yeah lol, I'm sorta busy at the moment, I'll send some thaty I'm unsure about though. I probably suck at writing, but I guess I can only get better, with more effort.

Lets not forget, I began a LJ account, so anyone who is on there, you can add me. [link]

and one of the last things, I've started taking Bass classes, My reason: Too many people try to learn the guitar... And its true, really, like on the musician requests there, there was one guitar wanted, but like 10 bassists wanted. Once I've played long enough, I might start putting up my own, or go and recruit some of my friends, like one of the three drummers, one or two of the like 50 guitarists, and myself. I can sing, at least, thats what I'm told.

Another thing, I've maybe even thought about seeking a medical career, maybe a nuro-sergurn. can't spell lol.


_INCOMPLETE_ ]]> ~moogleBdead