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if there was one actor i would love to meet, it would be him. i know it. i could never decide who i would want to be introduced to, but i know for sure i want it to be him.

unfortunately, it hurts me that i will probably never fulfill that wish. unless i can somehow meet him at a con or something... yeah. it sucks.

anyway, lately, i've been doing some drawings for my secret revenge comic and polishing the script up. i'm also going to start a huge, ongoing series of portraits on 3x5 notecards.

i bought a few movies the other day as well, adding them to my collection. they included May, P2, and Last House on the Left (the remake). movies are awesome. hahaha
(by the way: those are 3 really good movies!! even though May and P2 may not have gotten much coverage, they are GREAT. P2 is so creepy! even my one best friend, one of the pickiest people i know, liked it! )

today i watched 12 Rounds. it's really pretty good! i was all like "pfft, John Cena" before i watched it, but after i did, i really thought differently of him. he was pretty good in it. i recommend it!

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/27402565/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/27402565/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 00:45:08 PDT
i have so much stuff to post. a lot of it is just crap sketches, but at the same time, i find that i come up with my best stuff when i'm just doodling. i even came up with a new character and storyline a couple weeks ago! but i'm keeping that quiet for right now.

Dirty Harry is the best character ever, i'm convinced. i think he and Brian Mills (from Taken) could be best friends. I THINK THEY SHOULD BE. 8D

ummm let's see. what else is there to update.. OH! i got my traguses pierced. in case you don't know, that's the little bumpy outcropping opposite the floppy part of your ear. whatever you know what i'm talking about. if you don't, google it. they hurt sometimes and are still healing but i'm SO IN LOVE WITH THEM. i think they're the cutest piercings i've ever had. i miss my industrial but it got snagged on stuff all the time.. these are so tucked away i could sleep on them the first night! they're the best when it comes to being out of the way. i only hit them for the first day or two. then i got used to them.

other than that, not too much. happy with how things are going socially, not so much educationally. didn't do well in my classes. failed 2, actually. well i passed one, but failed the final, so ultimately, i didn't make it. so upset about that. i was thinking about doing online classes. maybe that would work better for me.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/27086876/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/27086876/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 01:58:47 PDT
i'm going to do some singular pieces, not comics, that revolve around emotions, mostly pain of loss and heartbreak.

i have some images thumbnailed, so i should be going with those. some may have violent images, but they're all psychologically-based.

i'm exhausted but i can't sleep and i have to leave for class at 8:30am.

classes are almost done for the quarter, then i get a week-long break. so tired..

i HAVE been working on my lesbian comic, though, that's coming along fairly well. i'm into the fourth chapter and i'm almost done doing basic outlines and pencils for that.

i need puppy kisses.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/26338568/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/26338568/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 13:39:46 PDT
i'm trying to win these auctions on eBay but i keep losing.. there's a huge one coming up and i really, really would love to get it.. i set a maximum bid, so.. i guess we'll just see.

woo! just found out that my bf got the 9th off of work, so we can go to Cedar Point with my family now!!

AND i did my first digital painting!! woooo!! okay well it's practice but i like it anyway. it's my flapper character. she is sexyyy! haha. i don't feel so intimidated now! but of course, it depends on the program. i think i'll stick with Corel Painter when it comes to doing stuff like that, otherwise, i'll use Photoshop when i'm filling in panel borders and stuff.

IN OTHER NEWS, a couple weeks ago i had an AMAZING burger called the Mafia Burger, haha. it was a half-pound patty with pizza sauce, pepperoni, and pepperjack cheese. OM NOMMMM!! so good. then, the next week, i had a third-pound Jameson Burger, which was a patty that you could SMOTHER with Jameson's Irish Whiskey sauce. i sure know how to choose a meal, don't i?

PS. Clint Eastwood is a BAMF and i love him.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/26177152/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/26177152/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 19:22:15 PDT
or when you see someone that you felt something for and you remember what they were like and you miss that even when you don't miss them, or want to be with them?

and when you feel lonely and like an outsider when you realize that everything that used to be the world you lived in still continued after you left?

or when you see that the person you had such strong feelings for didn't give a shit about you after they broke your heart? and that the worst part is KNOWING that they don't give a shit about you when you're sitting somewhere wishing that you would die.


i really gotta finish my rejection comic.

so think about THAT! fun stuff, i know.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/25735589/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/25735589/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 13:07:13 PDT
i want to do modeling! there's a girl i know who does it, and if she can do it, i know that i can be at least 5 times better. hopefully i will find a photographer soon.

also been thinking about things i could do for a burlesque routine!! that's been interesting, haha. i have to be so creative since everything's pretty much been done.

how does everyone feel about sex in comics? i know how some of you feel but i'd like to get varied viewpoints. not erotic comics, but suggestive with some-to-moderate nudity. i want everyone's opinions!

and remember.. The NAME'S Lonnegan. DOYLE. Lonnegan.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/25240767/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/25240767/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 17:34:03 PDT First Order of Business
I'm going to do some pieces focusing on puppy mills. I don't really know HOW yet, but I think I should do more proactive pieces dealing with my own morals and ethics, not just my interactions and romantic outlooks. Which reminds me that I should tell you to HELP ME STOP PUPPY MILLS!!

Second Order of Business
My tonsils are finally out (yay!) but they hurt like you wouldn't believe (%#$@!!). The actual 'foods' I have had since last Tuesday evening (yes, over a week ago) have been: 10 1" diameter raviolis that took me about an hour and a half to eat, one 2" tall biscuit from a restaurant that took me about an hour to eat, 2 Hostess mini donuts (or 1.5, I don't remember), and like 80% of this yogurt smoothie. All the rest has been liquid codeine or whatever drug it is. I try to sleep most of the time so I don't hurt so much.
And it seems like every other physical issue decided to just *POP* up right about now. Gee thanks, body.

Third Order of Business
I have a pretty amazing lineup of Pokemon on my copy of Pokemon Blue. Sorry. I had to say it. Because it's true.

Also, my boyfriend and I were looking at dogs and dog breeds together recently. They're so adorable!! I'm getting him as interested in dogs as I am, haha. Or at least as educated.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24973225/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24973225/ Wed, 27 May 2009 04:16:29 PDT

working on my lesbian-esque comic! going well so far. inking chapter 4. it's 13 chapters long but i could stop it at various places. i think if i can do it, i'll do the entire thing, though. i mean.. it's the finished section of the book i wanted to do. the rest of the story i've moved on from, but this is the only girl-girl romance i had in it and so i want to finish it. i like it, it's subtle. and there isn't ONE kiss in it! i frustrated my friend so bad with that, hahaha!

almost done doing the outline for my awesome REVENGE story! i'm so into it. i think the finishing it (well, and the motivation for writing in general) is the hardest part. cuz i have to make it AWESOME.

also, i'm trying to see if i can move out of my parents' house. it's getting a little stifling, even though i love them and will have some trouble being away from them, and i will miss my dogs tremendously. the other factors are financial. even though i have a job now (YES I GOT IT!!), it's only starting out part-time and i don't know if i would be able to make my half of the rent (since i'd be moving in with a friend). i think i would, but we still need food, and i want to get some ferrets somewhere along the line!! i just need to accept that it won't be right away. i'm so impatient.

IN OTHER NEWS:
i love Small Animal Husbandry & Disease
i got my temps!! (don't judge me)
my boyfriend is still being amazing

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24866509/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24866509/ Thu, 21 May 2009 00:23:44 PDT

nothing much going on here, just trying to do well in school and get a job. i have an interview (much) later today. school has been rough.. i'm so bad at physiology..

maybe i should watch more revenge movies. but my thing is that i'm having trouble giving my story a big twist. i know WHAT the twist is, i just don't know how to go about applying it. bleh. WRITING. if anyone has any tips (and yes i'm using books too argh), please suggest them!

i really should post some new drawings on here, i'm tired of seeing the same old stuff. besides, my work keeps changing and everything so i should update it.

so tired. i have class at 9 but i can't sleep. lame. i'll probably lay down in a couple minutes and try again.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24203207/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24203207/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 14:38:09 PDT

disturbing article on teenage sexuality

things with the bf have been very good! we play a lot of video games, haha. good times.

speaking of which, i ordered a game called Rule of Rose - IT'S AWESOME. i've only been playing about an hour and it's really really intense and creepy. i love it. i thought i would, when i heard someone tell me about it, and even seeing the box in a store one time intrigued me. so it was definitely interesting! and there is a dog sidekick! :3 so awesome.

new story ideas, so i'm character brainstorming and plot-storming as well. bllrff. worst part haha. i have to work out a few kinks but it should go smoothly eventually, i like the idea of it.

bought some new movies. Tremors being one of them.

oh! i bought a board game off eBay, hopefully it will get here soon.. D: it's called Boxers or Briefs and it's out of print!! D: i'm so wary to order off eBay anymore, but i did it anyway. i got screwed over once, someone "shipped" me the package but it never got here and when i tried to talk to them about it and get them to take the initiative, they ignored me. but the buyer is much nicer this time.. just don't want a repeat.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24127741/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/24127741/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 10:59:05 PDT
i'm on Facebook today and i see my ex's picture. i feel sick to my stomach and i do whatever i can to GET. AWAY. from the page. i just.. it's like i'm SO happy and then something has to come and just stomp it. not even fair! so again, i've decided that it's probably best for me to stay as far away from Facebook as possible - wow, especially since i just woke up a bit ago from a dream where this same thing happened. FML. heh.

in other, non-relationship news, i'm not going to the San Diego Comic Con. all the plans are screwed up and i don't even know if a) i'll have enough money for everything and b) my comic will be done. it's just a lot of stuff to cram in, and if i wait til next summer, it should go more smoothly. what a hassle..!

finished my first quarter of vet tech school; totally STOKED for second quarter!! i've been poring over my dog anatomy book that i got, haha. it's so fascinating!!

also i think that more light-gun games should be used. i'm kicking major butt at Resident Evil Dead Aim.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23847783/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23847783/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 12:06:00 PDT

i'm officially obsessed with Clint Eastwood. just thought i'd mention that. he's .. brilliant. haha.

things are going well!! school is almost over for the quarter, which is cool, but i do enjoy the classes i'm in. okay well mostly.

many pregnant girls i go to school with are due soon, and one of my friends switched majors, so it's gonna be a little lonely. fortunately i still have friends in the program with me.

i have been out and about since spending time with my new boyfriend omg. things are going well and i want them to stay that way! he even got me to try something new - peanut butter banana sandwiches. which are amazing. so congrats to him, haha.

still working on my comic blaagghh but i was drawing yesterday so that's a good sign. bipolar season must be letting up! now i just gotta buckle down and get it done. at least, as much of it done as i can before the con. *frantic*

oh and just so everyone knows, the Simply Asia dishes by Thai Kitchen are amazing, most especially the honey teriyaki one.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23515751/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23515751/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 21:11:26 PST
i swear, that most recent poem i wrote is one of the most accurate i've ever written. i KNOW that i don't deserve what i'm going through right now, even if i'm not the best person.

hopefully once i get my room clean, my new ferrets (which i will buy once my room is cleaned, ha) will keep me occupied and i won't have to waste time hating people that aren't worth it.

i'm doing really well in my classes..? heh. one good thing.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23392048/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23392048/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 01:10:05 PST
my brother made some snarky comment tonight about how he and my mom would be able to watch so many more tv shows together if i hadn't "dropped out of college" and just stayed in Columbus. i turned up the volume on the tv while my mom explained to him that lots of people transfer. he's a piece of work.

my comic is going well. almost have chapter 2 completely inked, and chapter 1 almost completely finished!! i'll probably post some pages online if i can get the stupid scanner working, it's been giving us a hard time lately.

i should get to work on chapter 3 pencils, but some of the poses are haaaarrrddd so i'm all deterred, haha.

full of love but can't give it. the ones who had it don't deserve it and the ones that deserve it don't want it. but it's okay.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23297522/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/23297522/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 21:39:03 PST
nothing else really going on. doing well in my classes, it's awesome.

still hating being single. but i guess it's necessary if i'm going to find the 'right one,' blah. my dad's like, "focus on school. that'll come later." but it's so stupid and lonely sitting around. i guess when it happens, it better be amazing. he better be worth it. because everytime i offer what i have, it blows up in my face. someday it will be worth it.

i've been sitting here for hours watching movies and i have nothing to show for it, so i should get back to work, haha.

best books ever:
Scott McCloud's Making Comics
Virtual Pose 3
Body Parts (except for the models )
the Art of Perspective
Allan Kraayvanger's Secrets to Drawing Heads

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22914671/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22914671/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 23:23:50 PST the GOOD
had a snow day wednesday and so had a very lovely conversation with `mooncalfe. but when it comes to school, the math is very simplistic. it's just decimal stuff and conversion for medications.

watching Cesar Millan. god i would love to work with dogs like he does. him and Victoria Stilwell. and he has the best pack of dogs, omg. so diverse and adorable!! he really does seem to understand dog psychology, and i'm trying to learn more from him. i seem to do pretty well with dogs, and even cats, even though i don't understand cats as much. i like my grandma's cat Boo because he acts like a dog, and he doesn't scratch or bite. he barely hisses.

i want to go see Taken really bad. my mom suggested it, so maybe we'll go. god it looks sooo good! i like Liam Neeson and i like vengeance films, haha. hope it's gooood!!

i'm applying for a job at PetCo but i'm sort of waiting for an email back from a former teacher saying that i can use him as a reference. so we'll see how that works..

the BAD
been having a lot of trouble with friends lately. i find that i'm lacking worthy ones. i'm going to have to go through my dumb contacts and take out everyone i don't want or don't have in my life anymore.

men are really making me sick. there's only a few i know that either aren't typical males or can at least hide it. (there's examples of both in my circle of friends.) i'm getting really tired of people falling into stereotypical roles, especially after i think that they're not 'that way.'



the AWESOME
i've almost finished thumbnailing my part of my comic. i'm really excited to get to work. i should keep scripting the rest of the comic, but things have been hard lately and i'm not really looking forward to delving into that part of my mind. but i'm excited to have part of it done! maybe i'll do each chapter in a different style..

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22748058/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22748058/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 21:30:04 PST school: classes went really well the other day! i only have them mondays and wednesdays so that's really nice. i have intro to psychology, intro to sociology, and life science (which is mostly anatomy and some med-based math). i'm really excited, and i have an exam on monday over some anatomical terms, but it shouldn't be too bad!

entertainment: my mom and i were watching episodes of Family Guy tonight, haha. love it. i bought some new movies today, too omg. because YOU CAN NEVER HAVE ENOUGH. haha. i bought Alien, Die Hard 2, Halloween, Heathers, and Hellboy. I also now have May, But I'm A Cheerleader, Firefox, and thenewresidentevilcgmovie. don't judge me. i love Leon..

art: sketching has been going well! i did some damn nice inkwork the other day, if i do say so myself, haha. i have some ideas for minicomic page layouts, too. now i just gotta get the script finished, speaking of which..

writing: once i start writing my minicomic, it goes pretty well, but.. i lack the motivation to GET started, haha. i always put it off. but i AM already on like.. the 3rd scene out of 12. so it's not going too bad, i think i did all that in like.. a day, too. but i still have to finish it so i can make the pages look really nice for San Diego.

cleaning: AUGH i started because i want to get ferrets really really bad.. but it's so overwhelming, it's so messy.. i have so much stuff but no storage at all. and i need more boxes for organizing. afjadkpqikdj

human interactions: pretty good, pretty good.. met some new people at school, which is cool, cuz it's really nervewracking going around by myself, though i do know a few faculty/staff members. felt pretty cheery/playful this evening when i went shopping, i was talking to anyone who talked to me. and i was in a good mood - WUT. haha. i'm still in touch with almost all my CCAD friends, which really means a lot to me. i'm feeling better about my breakup, but i know that i'm not going to date for a little while. need a break. besides, anyone who wants to be with me has to court me. no more chasing/worrying. none of that.

probably gonna be lazy for a bit, then watch a movie and maybe write some. or go to sleep and work tomorrow. hopefully my parents and i are going to go see Gran Torino this weekend!! i'm excited because i think the last time my dad went with us to the movies was like.. 2 years ago. so this should be good! excited to see that movie too, no spoilers please. or you will suffer my wrath. aaaand you don't want to.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22644048/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22644048/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 00:16:24 PST i will forever call you CourtTV!!) and then i watched Jaws, Red Dragon, and the Silence of the Lambs. but when i watched Silence i was already sitting on the couch and drawing. and eating. and since i ate all the food in the house and my family was gone all day for my brother's hockey games, i had to nom on some interesting things. i had cereal for breakfast, and then when i got hungry i ate like 3 paper cups full of frozen peas (CUZ THEY'RE AWESOME), and then i got really hungry and ate 2 things of Easy Mac. which i haven't eaten in a really long time. i also had my *SOB* last can of Sierra Mist. we need to go to the store.

but so ANYWAY my comic is coming along really well, i was pretty surprised, haha. it's got 110 scenes WUT i know. a lot. but those scenes vary in length, it's mostly just me differentiating what needs to happen. it's mostly like a detailed outline. but so then i was sketching, but mostly inking, some character designs, and they're looking really good! i think i really improved at art school, and even though we didn't do much figure drawing THERE, the books i've bought on figure drawing really do me a lot of good. i also re-organized my reference folder yesterday; holy crap i have SO many pictures, haha! it's .. pretty crazy. i'm sure i won't be happy with the way my stuff is organized so i'll have to go back to it, but you know. it's good for now, it's pretty basic. and it's better than having it all scattered everywhere.

i have to get some good scans of my drawings so i can post them. i'm going to color them, but not the originals, cuz i'd be devastated if they were ruined.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22588854/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22588854/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 01:51:32 PST statuette of Mary Jane from the Spider-Man comics.

the article talks about how women (fangirls) are outraged by it, calling it cheesecake and demeaning or whatever. the article calls it a 'fanboy's dream come true'..

1) sure it's a little cheesecake-y, but since Marvel objectifies MJ every other time, what makes a little comiquette any different?

2) i can see why women are getting defensive about it; the sexual nature, the domestic task she's doing.. but the thing is, that's how she's portrayed..

3) ..wait a sec, why are WOMEN so offended? aren't men..? BESIDES, i'm a woman and i don't find this offensive at all. actually, i think it's pretty sexy. so what about all the LESBIAN readers..? just because they're women, should they be offended?

4) the sculpting is beautifully done. every detail is perfect, and it captures MJ's playful side extremely well!

overall, i'm disappointed by the reaction from the 'fangirls' and i think that they should just back off. focus on the comics, not the propaganda.

i found this quote in the article VERY interesting:
"Other sites, such as the Eisner award winning website Journalista by Dirk Deppey, have taken a fairly different approach, basically saying that comic books are made by men for men and if women want to change the face of comic books, “make the f-ing comics,” as women have when it comes to manga, making a huge niche that continues to rise on the book charts."

heh. well good thing i wanna make comics, then. it's a harsh quote.. but it's kind of true. men have taken over comics, and actually, as i write this, i have about 7 other tabs open where i'm reading about female comic writers/illustrators.

for anyone who's interested, here's the article i came across.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22464100/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22464100/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 03:55:36 PST
some new things have happened.
i start my vet tech classes January 20th.
i was dumped last night.
i realized who i want in my life.

though things will always be changing, there are certain people that will stand by you.. and those are the people that you should bother with.

it's funny how you think you know someone (or at least think you want to be with someone) after knowing them for barely two months.. and it takes them hurting you to make you realize that it's the one who stuck with you for two years that you should be worried about.

if only life worked the way we wanted it to.. i wouldn't be hurting and confused right now. for once.. i wish things would come together for me.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22131201/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/22131201/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 22:00:50 PST
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being home has been extremely stressful so far. dealing with extended family issues is hard, especially when i'm struggling so much with my own. and as for being home, i almost wish that i lived in my own apartment or something. i love being home with the dogs, but it seems now that my own stress is menial.. and that it makes it worse that my entire family is stressing and my brother isn't quite done being an immature adolescent.

as for my relationship, things have been going well. though the distance is hard, we are staying strong. he has been so good to me and helpful through my recent hard times, and i appreciate it so much.

christmas is always a very.. dismal time of year for me. many family deaths have happened around this time of year. my dad gets really stressed and sad, too. for i don't know how many years.. maybe.. 3 years now, we haven't had a christmas tree. we used to go and get one the day after thanksgiving.

though i have decided that i'm going to work on a new comic. i'm hoping that i can still go to the Comic Con this year.. i've been getting pretty antsy and i want to move out. but that probably won't happen til next school year, when i transfer schools again. (oh right i haven't written - i left CCAD and am now going to be a vet tech. i'm going to go to a school near my house for this semester, and then i'm transferring back to Columbus.)

ah jeez my shoulder hurts to the touch. i sleep so badly, on my stomach with my neck all screwy. blegh. i can't sleep anyway right now, heh. ah well. perhaps i will go and script for a bit.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/21815171/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/21815171/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 12:43:39 PST
i might have another kidney stone.
my body is slowly trying to die.
why can't i just produce citrate like everyone else?!! i'm not taking those stupid horse pills, "take 2 twice a day WHEN EATING." hell no.

aaaand i've started counseling with a psychologist here at the school. definitely need it. stressing majorly. so much work, so little time, so many other worries. probably should stop that.

i drive myself insane with worry. i hate it. but that doesn't make it go away. unfortunately. buh.

hadn't been able to eat for a while, i had to ignore my stomach trying to digest itself for a couple days. i don't know what happened, every time i wanted to eat something (or even coughed!), i'd gag and feel like i was going to throw up. so i did what i know how to do, thanks to the wonderful Acid Reflux, and i didn't eat. only drank water.

i have to get to work on some comics for San Diego, too. at least i have a whole month off school, so i should have some time then. god i have so many projects to do for next week.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/21603190/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/21603190/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 19:19:01 PST the things in my life that make me happy
1. art
2. animals
3. my boyfriend
4. my friends
5. my family/my pets


i'm having a hard time right now; i'm having a mid-year crisis.
i think i want to switch schools. my mom isn't happy, and neither is my dad.. i don't know what's going to happen with it. i want to go to a vet tech school in Columbus.. it's cheaper, they have dorms, it's a program that can be completed in 16 months, and you work at an on-site veterinary clinic.

the thing is.. i love making art. i do. i love looking at art, studying it.. but i can't live solely off it. if i worked as a tech, i would have time to make my art. but as it is now.. i won't even have a steady income. i need to be able to support myself, i need to EAT. pay bills. and then i will have time when i'm not working to do my art. i will have days off.

my parents don't know if they want me to do this in Columbus.. but i really want to. i don't want to go back home right now.. visiting is fine, but.. i love it down here. i love the city. i want to stay here, maybe even live here. so.. i don't want to go home. i hope they understand that.

i love animals, i find them fascinating. my mom doesn't think i'll do the work. then again, she didn't think i'd do the work here at CCAD, but i HAVE been. so i don't know. i guess i just have to keep sending her the information on the school and convincing her. i love art, but.. it won't support me. not alone.

in other news, i am so happy with my boyfriend.. we both agree that we owe Sarah big time, haha. our weekend together went wonderfully, and we talk every day and text when we aren't talking. we're both very happy with each other and want our relationship to last. i know we haven't known each other very long, he knows too, but we can't deny that everything feels very natural, very right.. i don't know. my parents dated for three months and then got engaged. so yeah. he found that very impressive, and inspiring, it seems. so we hope that things go well.

after all, i just want to be happy. not only with someone, but with school too.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/21452591/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/21452591/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 11:22:23 PST

sooo a good friend of mine here at college, Sarah, introduced me and a friend of hers. he and i have been talking almost constantly since we started, and he is one of the sweetest guys i've ever met. he's respectful and polite, and he compliments me.. and he MEANS it. not used to that. it's nice.

we have similar taste in movies, and we have similar personalities. i hope we have enough to go on (we obviously have more in common than i listed), because i'd like this to work out. he's a really good guy and the way he thinks about me.. is very different for me. a good different. he said i was gorgeous. not used to that.

he is just so awesome. i get butterflies every time he texts me. and he's coming up this weekend to meet me.

other than that, classes are going okay. i've missed 2D twice in a row.. not good. i gotta get my shit together. heh. but i still LOOOOOVE my drawing class. we'll be starting figures soon.

*siiiigh*

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20730696/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20730696/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 19:11:22 PDT
then apparently my cousins think they know everything about me. a family member asked my mom if Josh and i were still together and my mom said, "well.. sort of." and my cousin goes, "no they're not!" my mom was like yeah okay like you know everything. BUT i guess we're not together, Josh doesn't know what he wants anymore. i'd be okay with that if there were actually people that were interested in me, but there's not.. so yeah.

i miss my dogs so much, i honestly cannot live without animals. i had nightmares all day, and i dreamt that i had 5 dogs: Sadie (my rottweiler that passed away 8 years ago), Gridley and Lucky (which are my babies right now), and two other dogs.. and i dreamt that for some reason, they all died.. and in my dream, i just wanted to kill myself. i had no reason anymore, i just didn't want to live without them. i've been crying for like an hour.. i even called my mom to make sure they were doing okay, but now i miss them even more.

i wish i was with them right now...

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20577605/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20577605/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 00:21:01 PDT Before I finally go insane.
Please don't say we'll never find a way
And tell me all my love's in vain.

Layla, you've got me on my knees.
Layla, I'm begging, darling please.
Layla, darling won't you ease my worried mind."
(c) "Layla," Eric Clapton

~

so everyone, i'm going to be redoing Nothing Really Serious! don't worry, it's a good thing. i'm completely revamping it. i'm making it longer, more involved, and i'm changing a lot of other things about it, including adding a new character.

i have ten months to finish it completely, including putting it in book form. this is because i want to take copies of it to the San Diego Comic Con next summer! i have to put together a portfolio of pieces to get pictures/scans of, and prints of, so that i can lug 'em all with me. i really need to start looking into getting some work; i hope i can continue with my college, but i'm not sure. but in any case, i need more money.

BUT! the main point of this entry is to ask WHAT i should take to the con, art-wise. this is my first time doing anything like this, and i want to make sure i have a variety of pieces to show. what kinds of things should i make? how many pieces would be reasonable?

i'm probably not going to post anything for a while; we're still working on stuff, and my scanner isn't compatible with my computer. so.. gotta wait until like.. thanksgiving. probably. we'll see.

OTHER NEWS:
being home really is like.. okay. i don't know, it's weird. i don't feel all that welcome.. and it's like i'm already (after a month) used to living in the dorms. i have a wonderful roommate, *MessengerSelece, we get along so well. i'm not used to sharing a room (or much else, haha) with anyone, but it's working very very well, and i think we're both a little pleasantly surprised, haha. we only met each other like.. once in person before we decided to room together. so that's cool.
my other two roommates are *speedlight and ~Britan, and we all get along and have fun together. but none of us have hardly any classes together, which is kind of disappointing, but okay at the same time.

the power went out last sunday! *MessengerSelece and i went to her sister's house about 20 minutes away, and she had power, so we stayed there for a couple days while the situation was fixed. pretty crazy. we didn't have class like.. all week. except for thursday, but my late class was canceled for unrelated reasons, so i got to head home early. (i don't have class on friday.)

oh, and by the way! if all goes well and i stay in school, i'll probably be majoring in Illustration and minoring in Art History. OMG LOVE THE MASTERS MUST STUDY THEM

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20245856/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20245856/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 02:18:30 PDT

*

well my first week of school went okay.. i had a panic attack monday night thinking that my 4-classes-in-one-day tuesday would be horrific, but it actually went alright. i was EXHAUSTED, but you know, when you're in a new place and can't fall asleep as early and quickly as you would like, it's to be expected.

everyone thinks i'm insane because i LIKE the cafeteria food, haha. though i do wish they had some more offerings; pizza every day gets the tiniest bit old.. this friday will be lasagna, though, so i'm STOKED, STOKED, STOKED. hahaha.

i don't know if i can do this for 4 years, though.. i mean, i have to see how the rest of the year goes, but at this point, i just am not sure. i feel like i'm tied down, you know? it's sort of weird..

right now i'm alone in my double room; my roommate went home for the weekend, so i'm a tad lonely. :\ but she'll be back soon. but everyone's been busy doing their own thing..

so i'm sitting here and wondering whether or not i should read a bit.. i've been up most of the morning digitally coloring a WIP i uploaded. but i really should be reading up on comicking. i need to make some short stories, or sample pages, or SOMEthing that i can take with me to the ComicCon next summer. (only 10 more months! woo! i know you're excited, Ross, don't lie! haha)

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20047005/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/20047005/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 18:16:08 PDT
so i left out some pages the other day and OMG WATERED-DOWN POP SPILLED ON PART OF THEM i'm so sad.. but i might only have to do like.. part of one panel again. or when i put it in Photoshop, everything will be cool. we'll see.

so i'm actually really looking forward to leaving.. only because now i hardly have any friends here in my city, heh. but you know what, that's okay. they obviously didn't appreciate my friendship, and i can find better people. the things i'm going to miss most are my family and my dogs! how am i going to go on without my babies??!

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19851146/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19851146/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 19:07:29 PDT
had my sort-of-two-year anniversary with my sort-of-boyfriend on the 4th. don't think anything's gonna continue once i head off to college on the 22nd.

don't know if i'm looking forward to it. parts sound interesting, but at the same time, it'll be weird sharing a place with three other girls. and i mean.. i don't know. i have to write this dumb essay for it, too. bluh. gotta get on that, too..

finished posting Nothing Really Serious on Drunk Duck. i guess the turnout was pretty good, even if i hate it now, XD. but i'm working on Sirah and it's SEXXY. the panels and pages are looking really, really good.

the tablet is OMG FJKDAFJ;ADKJA SO HARD. Leon was the only thing I was able to do, haha, and that was just coloring. drawing is tooooo haaaardddd

okay gonna go work on some drawings.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19688457/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19688457/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 20:33:29 PDT
not too much goin' on over here; just got fed up playing The Ship, which i just bought last week. heh heh.. it's HAAARD i got frustrated quickly haha. i kept getting arrested.

been working on Sirah again, got a LOT done on the pages i've already drawn; but i need some advice. should i use Sharpie on them? they're ballpoint-pen-inked (shut up, i'm cheap) and i'm thinking i'll a) use Sharpie for the base color and then colored-pencil over it for shading and depth and stuff, or b) do things digitally when i get a tablet. ???

also, read `mooncalfe's Water Baby. loved it! READ IT. READ IT AND LOVE IT. any people who don't like the ending can deal with ME. haha. but really, if you give it a bad review, i'll kick your ass. cuz i really liked it and it's gotten some not-so-nice reviews from rude, picky people.

umm other than that.. pining, being impatient (), and listening to good music..

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19549164/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19549164/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 04:50:56 PDT Micah Armstrong and his wife preaching, and i just watched it..

the thing that makes me sad that there are such zealots out there. when Micah's wife (name apparently unknown) is on camera, she appears to be completely deranged and judging. i thought Jesus's message was to "turn the other cheek" and to not judge.. and i'm not even religious and those are good theories to live by.

maybe i'm alone in this, and maybe i'm not, but doesn't it seem that religious people, whose god is supposed to be all-forgiving and unconditionally-loving, are the most judgmental of all? masturbation, homosexuality, sodomy (oral and anal sex is even banned in some states), and probably most fetishes and open views (including piercings, tattoos, and sex), are all 'condemned' by extremely religious people (or so it seems). i mean, everyone judges, don't get me wrong. we're almost raised to judge. but i just find it ironic. and what's most ironic about it all is that most of the things they preach against are human nature, or practices and ideas that have been around for hundreds, even thousands, of years. (Alexander the Great's best friend was also his LOVER! GASP! AND he was MARRIED!)

if religious people are going to preach against something, why don't they preach about genital mutilation in other countries? they should help stop these problems, rather than focus on people who are doing things VOLUNTARILY. or maybe they feel that even male circumcision is evil? circumcision, a rite of passage started centuries ago, which has now become a common practice. not only does circumcision NOT affect anything physically, but there are advantages as well, both hygienically and disease-wise.

but i digress.

maybe it's just my views, as a self-proclaimed 'agnostic atheist' (hehe), that religion shouldn't be used to isolate people from society. and as for the separation of church and state - why is religion getting involved in politics? or rather, not getting involved; why was it EVER involved. the government was created meaning to be a guide for the people. a democracy - run by the people. now, we have become a patriarchy. we have proven it by almost forcing Hillary Clinton out of the race.

and i'm also very bothered by the fact that religious zealots won't let homosexuals be religious also, as well as not leaving them alone. i don't understand that someone so "forgiving" would reject another human merely because of their sexual orientation. does it really matter if someone prefers men over women or women over men? do we really need to procreate with all the death, famine, and overpopulation in the world? though i admit, i think many people confine themselves to one outlook, even sexually. many gay people only consider themselves interested in one sexuality, and maybe that's how it is. but isn't everyone a little bisexual? i say, why not be open to both genders? in my opinion, it's not a matter of sex and pleasure. it's a matter of who you fall in love with. i know that if i fell in love with a woman, it wouldn't matter to me that she was female. but i can just as easily fall in love with men. it's not about the sex, it's about the person. watch 'Brokeback Mountain,' people. it's one of the most honest and beautiful movies ever made. and don't turn it down just because you don't "believe" in homosexuality. everyone questions their sexuality at SOME point, whether you admit it to yourself or not. there's numerous movies based on that feeling.

next time you start to judge someone, maybe question why you feel that way. i know i have to work on it too - next time i see that girl in ass-shorts, maybe i'll think to myself, "hm, i wonder what made her choose those to wear today. is she looking for something specific? or does she just want to show off her booty?" instead of "wow, what a ho. SHE'S looking for sex." it's something as simple as that.

but anyway. enjoy Mr & Mrs Armstrong.

(my favorite part of the video is when an audience member goes, "Sir--Sir, you're fat. Isn't gluttony a sin?" aaaaahahahahahaha.)

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19327649/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/19327649/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 08:03:05 PDT
okay well this new layout is very very strange.. i think i'm figuring it out.. haha.

i'm still updating Nothing Really Serious on Drunk Duck, and it's coming along nicely.. i update Monday, Wednesday, and Friday each week and i usually put up about 3 pages.
my user page

working on some new comics, and some new comic ideas, as well. i've only got some character sketches right now (for the most part) as for artwork, but they're going well so i can't complain.

just been sitting around for the most part.. read a graphic novel (well it was all the comics in book form) called Bite Club.. heh. it was good, though! it's all like.. vampires and underground crime shit.. i liked it. and the art was very consistent and well-done. the del Toro boys are hot. especially Leto.

also, i just played a game within about 3 days called Still Life.. SO GOOD. it's like.. a forensic point and click. i liked it a lootttt.. i'm stoked for Still Life 2 coming out THIS FALL, i just read. it was so good, and really realistic and refreshing. there were cinematic cut scenes and you could visit the murder scenes and stuff. it had really dark undertones, which i enjoyed. OMGFORENSICS

new tattoo!! pictures when i get some that are good.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18993166/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18993166/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 00:39:05 PDT
the other good news!
i got friggin' FEATURED on Drunk Duck!!
whoever did it.. i love you. haha. i'm so ecstatic right now!!



my life is so good right now. or as `mooncalfe put it, "for today. " hahaha.

(by the way, i'm not remorseful, it just won't change. blah.)

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18865132/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18865132/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 01:07:38 PDT
i'm working on posting Nothing Really Serious to drunkduck.com STILL (YES I KNOW SHUT UP), and it's going to be awhile. but i have the first.. 29? pages up, and you can check it out if you like. i hate how it goes to the last page first, so here's the link to the first page:

[link]

if it doesn't work, let me know.

also! i started a short comic, it's going to be about 5 pages, so i'll be sure to post it ASAP. but it's gonna be good. just wait! i'm excited. i'm still doing the pencils right now, though.

well, my weekend was going downhill, but i think it's coming back up again. i had a great night, even if things around me are falling apart left and right. damn the emotional rollercoaster!! and the rollercoaster of life, too.

..and if anyone needs commissions, i'm still open to them.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18812416/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18812416/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 00:31:15 PDT
but the important, art-related news is that i will soon be posting Nothing Really Serious for sure!! i uploaded the entire thing the other night and they ended up too big. -_- so i have to resize the pages and start over. ah well. probably best anyway, now i can spread the word! take a look once i start posting. my screen name is mortmortmorty over there, too, heh.



prepping for CCAD this fall.

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18777552/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18777552/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 03:25:20 PDT
Wow, is it just me or is Drunk Duck Comics really hard to navigate?

Anyway. I'm posting "Nothing Really Serious" there. Well.. I uploaded the entire thing and have now realized that it is far too large to view. Heh. *fails* But it's gonna be good.

Listening to NIN's "the Slip," the new album which is able to be legally downloaded FO' FREE!! It's really good, actually. I'm loving it, especially this dramatic track 'Lights in the Sky.' The piano is beautiful. And I want Trent Reznor to have my children. He is a gorgeous, sexy, amazing, talented man and he is perfect. XD. But seriously, if I don't get to see him in concert when he arrives in my city, I think I'll die of sadness.

College orientation today and tomorrow!

]]> ~mortmortmorty http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18264766/ http://mortmortmorty.deviantart.com/journal/18264766/ Sat, 10 May 2008 22:18:57 PDT
For all of you that don't know me, I go by Andrea or Rea Morton. I'm not new here on dA; I've been a member since 2006, but I've been loitering on my other screen name, ~rea-v-mort.

On this account, I'll be more focused on my comics. This will sort of be like the Second Chapter, heh. Since I'm going to college this fall, I'm giving my art a new start as well. But don't expect me to post my ENTIRE comics on here -- I need to make some money too!

I'm open for commissions and small jobs. Let me know what you need.

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