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go here now: ~shishimai //

]]> ~murder-scene M O V E D ! ! ! ! ! http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/13641868/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/13641868/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 02:24:05 PDT

// ~shishimai ! ! !

follow me there. plzkthnx.

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]]> ~murder-scene M O V I N G ! http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/13125496/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/13125496/ Mon, 28 May 2007 12:56:21 PDT

// ~shishimai

once my subscription runs out over here, that's where i'll be moving permanently...
it's time for me to move on from this name... i've grown out of it...
i don't have the energy to explain what the new name means to me particularly, but i'll explain it later when i DO have the energy....
i won't be posting any new art over here, so please, rewatch me over on ~shishimai okay?
that's where all my new art and shizit will be posted from now on...
just a slow move over.

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i adore you guys! thanks for always sticking with me!
<3333

]]> ~murder-scene !! originals and commissions FOR SALE ?? http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/13082924/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/13082924/ Thu, 24 May 2007 23:45:44 PDT

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okay, it's about bedtime for me, but i am still in serious need of some moolah... graduation hasn't stopped sucking the money from us, and i want to do my part to help pay for some of the expenses, and a job really isn't much of an option until the end of school because of time/ schoolwork/ stress , etc...

so if any of you are willing to help me out by perhaps taking some of these originals off my hands, or by maybe commissioning me? PLEASE drop me a note, or a comment here...

thankyou all so much for your continued support.~

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ps. i'll be going through my gallery and maybe choosing a few more originals i might be willing to part with.... but until then, this is what's being sold. <3

]]> ~murder-scene IMPORTANT: art trades/art owed? http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12706387/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12706387/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 15:22:34 PDT

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i need to know who i said i'd do art trades with, and who i owe art to still....
so if i owe you art or whichever, please comment here, and i'll edit my list of art trades and shizit...

i appreciate all replies ahead of time... thankyou.

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also, thankyou all for your patience.

]]> ~murder-scene this is SPARTA! http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12598541/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12598541/ Sat, 14 Apr 2007 21:59:39 PDT

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safhkda;oirsdhjikapertyhkjiopawesdfjvnlk!!!~!kn;KDJFHSOFGIH~!@!@@
i saw 300 tonight!!!!!
just want to say, it's one of THE most amazing movies ever!
and it gives anyone who's of related to the Greeks specific bragging rights that you are from completely AWESOME descent!

seriously, the effects are amazing, and the whole storyline is totally captivating... i totally cried at the end too... and i don't remember the last time i've cried in a movie, so that's saying something...
ohgod, seriously, i'm just ASTOUNDED.... i want to go off and see it again... and if i had money, i would totally do so.
EXPECT FANART!~
bah! it was so good that i'm almost infuriated at the genius of it all!!
i do believe i'll go off and watch Troy soon.
hurray for amazing greek-inspired movies!
geeeez!
and ontop of it all, we've been doing a Greek myth unit in English.
(i'm pretty sure it's safe to say that my friends consider me a Greek mythology encyclopaedia now)

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hah i'm back on a Class of the Titans kick now~!
i blame it on all the wonderful Greek myths and movieeeeeeeeeeees.
lol.
okay, i gotta get this outta my system...

OMFG CRAP. SUCH A FREAKING AMAZING MOVIE! IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT, GO DO IT NOW~!

okay, i think i'm done....
OH!
and it has some really cool quotes, like:

Persian Messenger: Why does this woman think she can speak amongst men?
Queen Gorgo: Because only Spartan women give birth to real men.

_{"Go, tell the Spartans, passerby, that here, by Spartan law, we lie."}

]]> ~murder-scene wtf? http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12509238/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12509238/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 11:33:42 PDT

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_{just got randomly disconnected from Kil'Jaeden, (my WoW server) annnnnd it won't let me reconnect. lolz.

i've been trying for about 20 minutes or soooooo....

and out of ALL the servers? it's just Kil'Jaeden.... hmph....

WoW is a poopy-head!!

ps. happy easterkins!~ <3}

]]> ~murder-scene my characters. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12484506/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12484506/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 14:05:11 PDT

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i decided to make a list of all my original characters, since i tend to forget some of them at times, and it sucks, lol. i'll put a brief description beside their name, and perhaps maybe some links to pictures, when i get the time.

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_{ahlika - electric blue hair, older sister of trauma -

anonymé - red cat/wolf - [link] drawn by *agenza

sachiko - (under construction) -

marlo - mutt - [link]

albany - jabberwocky - [link]

trauma - albino, dyes her hair purple - [link]

au revoir - shiba inu doll - [link] [link]

arlington - shiba inu - [link]

alodie - shennille's little sister -

leahland - bandmate of shennille's, childhood friend -

shennille - most pictured female in my gallery (has many hairstyles) - [link] [link]

cheshire / - cheshire cat, pink and blue hair - [link]

madesin - doberman - [link]

siouxsie - ram - [link]

morgue - nightmare hound - [link] drawn by ~grihm

arisu - japanese dormouse -

william frederick - mouse opossum -

<... ]]>} ~murder-scene quiz/survey thingggg. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12481719/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12481719/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 09:39:35 PDT

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mmkay, =tundrawind told me i should do this quiz thinger, so here it issss. plz fill out about me kthnx.

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_{What would you do if...

I cried:

I committed suicide:

I said I liked you:

I kissed you:

I lived next door to you:

I died:

I was afraid:

I started smoking:

I stole something:

I were hospitalized:

I ran away:

I got in a fight and you were there:

What do you think about my?...

Personality:

Eyes:

Face:

Hair:

Clothes:

Voice:

Humor:

Choice of music:

Mannerisms:

Family:

Friends:

Would You?...

Be my friend:

Tell me the truth, No matter what:

Lie to make me feel better:

Spread rumors about me:

Keep a secret if I told you one:

Loan me some cash If i needed it:

Hold my hand:

Take a bullet for me:

Keep in touch:

Try and solve my problems:

Love me:

Love me for who I am:

[1] Who are you?

[2] Are we friends?

[3] When and how did we meet?

[4] How have I affected you?

[5] What do you think of me?

[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?

[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?

[8] Do you love me?

[9] Have I ever hurt you?

[10] Would you hug me?

[11] Would you kiss me?

[12] Are we close?

[13] Emotionally, what stands out?

[14] Do you wish I was cooler?

[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?

[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

[17] Am I loveable?

[18] How long have you known me?

[19] Describe me in one word:

[20] What was your first impression?

[21] Do you still think that way about me now?

[22] What do you think my weakness is?

[23] Do you think I'll get married?

[24] What about me makes you happy?

[25] What about me makes you sad?

[26] What reminds you of me?

[27] What's something you would change about me?

[28] How well do you know me?

[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

[30] Do you think I would kill someone?

[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?}

]]> ~murder-scene deviant ID? http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12395736/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12395736/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 23:17:00 PDT

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_{urgggh.

someone make me a deviant ID?

;___;}

]]> ~murder-scene FOR THE HORDE! http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12369136/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12369136/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 21:46:43 PDT

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_{World of Warcraft owns my soul.

lolz.

the end.}

]]> ~murder-scene animal cruelty. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12260517/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12260517/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 15:49:40 PDT

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even more reason for me to hate humanity.
owning animals is a priviledge!
they love us unconditionally, and is it too fucking much to ask that we do the same?!
some people just make me sick...
how can you live with yourself knowing you've done something like that? i couldn't... i'd want to fucking die...
i want to fucking throw up, i'm so furious.
how can you, honestly, stare in the face of a beautiful little kitten and toss it aside, abuse it, and leave it? HOW CAN YOU?
behind every abused animal, there is a human guilty of it's suffering.
every person who has abused an animal should be SHOT, damnit.
it escapes me that anyone could live with themselves after leaving a loyal friend in a cold, lonely shelter to be euthanized...
especially the older dogs and cats... they must know chances are slim that older animals will get adopted, so why do they do it?! i just... can't believe it.
i am SO FURIOUS.
fuck....

so please... everyone of you, who has a beautiful, wonderful animal companion? tell them you love them, and hold them.... let them know you appreciate them... because you sure as hell know they appreciate and love you...
i wish there was something more i could do for all those poor creatures...
my heart goes out to them, i love them all....
and seeing them in pain completely breaks me...

i can't stand it.

]]> ~murder-scene HAHA! omg. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12255448/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12255448/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 08:03:05 PDT

LMAO, WTF!!
GO KITTY, GOOOOOOOOOO!~
XD

]]> ~murder-scene DA content. { W T F } http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12241484/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12241484/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 06:11:34 PDT

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WTF is with all the gross anime pictures lately in the top faves?
i'm sure you know the ones...
the ones where they're HUGELY over-pregnant, or have IMPOSSIBLY LARGE boobs?!
like, WHAT THE HELLLLL.
they're DISGUSTING, and certainly are NOT art....
i....deviantART sure does have a tendency of letting me down when it comes to content...
a lot of the so-called 'Artistic Nude' submissions are borderline pornographic, and i cannot begin to see them as 'tasteful', which is what they're supposed to be...
OMG, i'm just.... reallllly annoyed....
i sign on to see tasteful, thoughtful works of art.
i DON'T sign on to see: overly pregnant women OR men (ew), borderline pornographic photographs (mainly of women, i rarely see men in this position), disgustingly large breasts that (in real life) would fucking break your back!
AUGH.

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what is DA coming to?
now, don't get me wrong, there are a LOT of things i really enjoy seeing, but this journal isn't really about that, now is it?
*sigh*
it really is a shame to see some artists using their talents for things like that...
i dunno...
and really, if you disagree with this, well, quite frankly... i don't want to hear it...
this is my opinion, therefore, if you disagree, i'm pretty sure i won't care... because you can have your own opinion too.

]]> ~murder-scene crying. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12199955/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12199955/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 21:45:20 PDT

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crying for no reason.

_{and i can't stop.}

]]> ~murder-scene MODELLING? edit. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12187233/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12187233/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 23:34:16 PDT

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i wanna be on America's Next Top Model...
or... Canada's, rather.
they get awesome makeovers and get to take beautiful pictures!
ugh, ENVY ENVY ENVY.
hmph, i hope brittany or jael win this round of ANTM.

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any photographers around wanna use me as a model? <333
seriously, drop me a line.
i'd LOVE to broaden my horizons as a model...
honest. <3

go check out

's photography, it's amazing, and she's SOpretty.

AND OMG: [link] *cry*

]]> ~murder-scene cancer. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12168985/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12168985/ Tue, 13 Mar 2007 13:08:19 PDT

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i have some upsetting news....
my beautiful rat, Brazil, is sick... and she has cancer...
i just discovered the lumps yesterday night.
i know she's old, and i know that she was old when i got her, but that's not the point...
it doesn't mean i love her any less...
i've only had her for about a month or so, and i knew i was going to have to deal with her dying soon, but i wanted to give her the best life she could have at that age...
so when i took her out of her cage last night, and saw the lumps, i immediately started crying...
she's such a sweet little girl...
my mum and boyfriend said that i knew this was going to happen, and that she isn't dead yet, so not to get so upset...
but it hurts, that she's going to die of something so horrible, like cancer...
i fucking love her, and i'm upset about it...
there's nothing i can do about it really, because we have no money to take her to the vet, and all they can do for her is put her to sleep...
all i can do is make the rest of her life as comfortable and pleasant as is possible...
it's just heartbreaking, because she's such a lovely little girl...
while i was holding her, and crying, all she did was start to lick my hand.... which made me cry even more... because she's a mama rat.... she wanted to look after me, and i feel so horrible, because i can't help her any more than i already am...
she's so gentle, and i can't bear the thought of her being in so much pain...
i hope she knows just how much i love her... and i hope she isn't hurting...
fuck, now i'm crying again...
i love her so much, and it sucks, because i knew she was going to die soon, but i don't want it to be from cancer!
fuck, life isn't fair...
i'm so afraid that whenever i get home, she'll be gone from this world... fuck...
she's one of my babies!
i love her...
and i hope she knows that i will do everything i can to help her...

my baby.

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" how can i believe,
when this cloud hangs over me? "

]]> ~murder-scene wrist injury... http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12136880/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12136880/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 21:36:11 PST

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i've suffered some sort of wrist injury, and i haven't been able to draw for the past few days...or write....or type properly really...
*sigh*
the pain in my wrist started the other day when i was trying to write a good copy to an English essay i had been assigned, then all of a sudden, my wrist just decided to quit on me...
i've been wearing a tenser (sp?) bandage since then, and yesterday i went to the clinic to get it checked out, and the doctor said it was probably just from over-use.
nevertheless, he gave me a sheet to go get my wrist ex-rayed.... which i'll probably get done on monday...
but damn, not being able to write or draw is really upsetting, especially because i have a lot of things to draw for people.

*sad*.

]]> ~murder-scene i'm going to the seventh level of hell, baby! http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12081234/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12081234/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 13:45:00 PST

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The wretched King Minos has decided your fate. His tale wraps around his body 7 times.

The sweet light no longer strikes against your eyes. Your shade has been banished to... the Seventh Level of Hell!

Seventh Level of Hell:

Guarded by the Minotaur, who snarls in fury, and encircled within the river Phlegethon, filled with boiling blood, is the Seventh Level of Hell. The violent, the assasins, the tyrants, and the war-mongers lament their pitiless mischiefs in the river, while centaurs armed with bows and arrows shoot those who try to escape their punishment. The stench here is overpowering. This level is also home to the wood of the suicides- stunted and gnarled trees with twisting branches and poisoned fruit. At the time of final judgement, their bodies will hang from their branches. In those branches the Harpies, foul birdlike creatures with human faces, make their nests. Beyond the wood is scorching sand where those who committed violence against God and nature are showered with flakes of fire that rain down against their naked bodies. Blasphemers and sodomites writhe in pain, their tongues more loosed to lamentation, and out of their eyes gushes forth their woe. Usurers, who followed neither nature nor art, also share company in the Seventh Level.

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level : Who are sent there? : Score

Purgatory : Repenting Believers : Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo : Virtuous Non-Believers : Very Low
Level 2 : Lustful : High
Level 3 : Gluttonous : Moderate
Level 4 : Prodigal and Avaricious : Moderate
Level 5 : Wrathful and Gloomy : Extreme
Level 6 : Heretics : Very High
Level 7 : Violent : Extreme
Level 8 : Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers : High
Level 9: Treacherous : High

those are the results of a quiz i took, and i find it extremely humorous!
GO TAKE THE QUIZ AND LAUGH: [link]

]]> ~murder-scene responsibility? [ RANT ] http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12035218/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/12035218/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 03:48:58 PST

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tell me...
at what point does a daughter become more responsible than her mother?
your answer would probably be never, am i right?
well NO, you're answer is wrong...
it is fucking 3:24 am, and my mother is still over at her "friend's" house "watching a movie" (the friend is a male, i might add)
now, although said male only lives about a block away, it still bugs me....
i could care less about her hanging out with him...
but when it obstructs her responsibility as a mother? that's where i get upset...
yes she has a right to a social life, and no i'm not jealous, but when i wake up and see that she's still not home from 7 hours ago, when i she first left for his place? i get upset!
we had quite a big fight about how i worry about her when i wake up and she's not there, and other things i don't feel like mentioning... and you know what she said?
she said i was being ridiculous, and that i was a "baby" and needed to "grow up and get used to being alone at night".
now, i'll admit, i am afraid of being alone at night, but that's not why i worry.... it's because i am just naturally an anxious person!
she took more than one occasion to tell me that she was a "big girl that can handle herself" and that i wasn't her parents, and that what time she comes home at night is not my responsibility....
i'm sorry, but i don't think asking for my mother to be home when i wake up at fucking 3:30 am is too much to ask, do you?
i'm at home, and my little sister is upstairs sleeping, and i'm the one who's with her... not my mum...it's ME.
so really, at what fucking point does a daughter become more responsible than her mother?
at this point of 3:40-something am, on saturday morning of march 3rd...
how fucking nice is that?
i don't think i'm being unreasonable here, but she says i'm being selfish, and thinks that the only reason i confronted her is because i wanted to go out instead... which yes, i did want to go out instead, but if she had given me warning that she was making plans, it wouldn't have been an issue!
my boyfriend and i had been planning for me to stay at his place for at least 2 weeks... and then she just forces the fact that i need to watch my little sister for her...
and when i question it?
she bitches at me, saying "how dare i ever expect anything from you two?" and stupid shit like that...
that's not fucking fair, because she never asks me to watch my sister, she just expects i'll do it....because noooooo, kelseyanne never has any plans, so why should she be asked?
fucking hell!
i'm so upset right now... and really, i know i'm being selfish and immature, but so is my mother... and really, i don't think i'm being unreasonable!
FUCK.
what is wrong with this world sometimes?
i bet you she won't be back home by the time my little sister wakes up at around 7:30 in the morning, and i'll have to be the one to call her "friend"'s place to get her back over here!
damnit... this is freaking ridiculous!
i'm SO upset right now....it's unbelievable...
...sorry for the rant...
i just... needed to get that out...
take care guys, and to anyone who reads all of the above words...?
thank you.

]]> ~murder-scene big mama BRAZIL. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11886714/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11886714/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 00:05:13 PST

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"...tears falling freely down her frost-kissed cheeks."

well here she is!
the newest addition to our rattie family, but most certainly not the youngest!
her name is brazil, and i got her for free...
the pet store she was at, couldn't have her anymore, because the other rats were picking on her (she's VERY sweet-natured <3 )...
she's already 2 years old, so she's already on the last legs of her race...but i couldn't just leave her there...
i wanted to give her a good rest of her life... so i took her home!
she's so sweet...
she's a big mama rat, and she likes to give you licks and kisses...
i hope she likes it here with us.
isn't she BEAUTIFUL?!

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ps. lima and peru stay up on their top shelf place, and since brazil's little feet can't handle the ladders, she stays down on the bottom level...
i hope they'll all get along okay. <33
so far it seems alright, so here's hoping!!~

pss. go look at this: [link] , it's SO true, haha. <3

]]> ~murder-scene lima and peru. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11857514/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11857514/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 16:28:48 PST

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"...tears falling freely down her frost-kissed cheeks."

LOOKIT MY BABIES!~
the little albino girl's name is lima, and the little girl with the racing stripe is peru.

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lima is the older one, but only by a few months.
oh how i love them.
they're so beautiful and affectionate, and AUGH!
ijustlovethemsomuch.
<33333
ADORE THEM WITH ME.
ok.

ps. i'm still sick as all heck, but i figured i should post something happier, soyeah.

]]> ~murder-scene UPDATE: okay, uhm....OW much? http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11808815/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11808815/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 04:53:13 PST

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"...tears falling freely down her frost-kissed cheeks."

some fucking valentine's day this is....
i'm even more sick than i was before!
i have the single most painful sore throat that i can think of...
it hurts to even so much as THINK of swallowing, and that's why i'm up at this ungodly hour of the morning...
it's so bad it makes me want to cry...
i can't breathe properly out of my nose or my mouth, and even so much as a tiny flexing of my neck sends my throat screaming in a fairly silent agony....
damnit, why ME?!
it's all thanks to one of my little sister's friend's, who comes over here even when he's fucking sick as a dog!
damn him.

i don't even like the kid either!
GRR.
and, ontop of that,
i have two academic courses this semester, so missing school is pretty bad....considering my english teacher is pretty freaking anal about attendance... (she's nuts, i swear)
UGHHH.
even as i'm typing, i'm trying so hard not to swallow...
i've heated up some warm milk, and it kinda soothes my throat, but...still not to the extent i wish it could!
i hope all your valentine's day's are going to be better than mine...
i'll probably be lying in bed, in agony.... waiting till i need to go have a shower and see an eye doctor about new glasses lenses...
(my eyes are getting woooorse!)
wtf.
sorry for the huge rant guys....
i'm just...really upset about this.

ps. one of my cat's, michael, is sitting in front of the computer screen, nuzzling me and meowing at me... i actually think it's cause he wants out, but let's pretend it's cause he worries about me...

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UPDATE:

i have now been sick for two days... UGH.
managed to get up to the clinic yesterday, and i felt like i was gonna faint/puke the WHOLE time...
so needless to say, when the doctor wanted to swab the back of my throat?
i threw up...
at the fucking clinic! *sad*
and, it was basically pointless going up there, i might add, cause whan i'm sick with is a VIRUS, which i can't really take anything for....
so yeah, that wasn't too fun, and i kept waking up in the middle of the night cause of the throat pain again...
mum came home from work today on her lunch break to bting me some cans of chicken noodle soup, popsicles, and throat losenges.
bless her wonderful soul for doing that, GAH.

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so i've been trying to sleep, on and off all day, but it hasn't been too successful, cause it's windy outside and cause i keep choking on my own bodily fluids...
sorry if that's too graphic, but...it's true.
UGHHH.
my head aches, my body aches, my throat aches, HECK! everything on me aches.

DAMN YOU SICKNESS!

oh, and one more thing....
having to walk around with tissue permanently stuck up your nose is NOT FUN OKAY.
neither is sneezing when you have an immensely sore throat.
the end.

]]> ~murder-scene thirteen months. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11800612/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11800612/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 15:19:22 PST

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the punchline to the joke...
is asking:

"someone save us".

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[thirteen months and still going strong]

]]> ~murder-scene turn the lights out. <3 http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11610541/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11610541/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 11:30:44 PST

!!!

look at the lovely birthday gifts i received!

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thank you all so much for the wonderful wishes, and the beautiful gifts!
i had an amazing 18th birthday, and i thank you all for it.
<3

ps. my boyfriend and friends threw me a surprise party!!

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ILOVEYOUALL!~
THANKYOUUUUUUUUU! *floofs up all happy-like*

]]> ~murder-scene the EDGE of reason. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11576754/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/11576754/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 13:56:54 PST

!!!!

want to help out with a GREAT cause?
go here: [link]

it's an amazing project, and you don't need to have money to help out!
all you need is your pencil and some paper!
PLEASE go check it out.

WE NOW HAVE A CLUB FOR THE PROJECT!
GO NOW!

(i'm an assistant to the club *puffs up proudly*)

]]> ~murder-scene how i disappear. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10639343/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10639343/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 17:11:52 PST

can you hear me cry out to you,
words i thought i'd choke on?
figure out,
i'm really not so with you anymore.

]]> ~murder-scene and you can take all the pain away from me. //edit http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10507195/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10507195/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 18:54:08 PDT

today, my mother collapsed from low blood sugar, stress and lack of sleep...she hurt her face quite badly, got taken to the hospital, and now she's upstairs, resting... she'll be okay....

.

edit:

two more shitty things happened today:

my step-dad almost killed himself with an exacto-knife, he stabbed a vein, and just barely missed his heart....

and on my way home from picking up dinner, there was a car accident behind me...

now here's the real kicker:

my boyfriend's mother passed away on monday morning, at 4:27 am... hence my journal entry the other day...
tomorrow is her memorial, it will not be a funeral...it will be a celebration of her life...
she was one of the most inspiring women i have ever had the pleasure to meet, and i'm so glad i got to hold her....to meet her....to love her....

rest in peace laurel, i love you...but you know that, don't you...?

.

]]> ~murder-scene i wasn't there. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10484802/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10484802/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 08:26:14 PDT and she died,
4:27 am, i was none the wiser...
while i was asleep in my bed,
her last breath left her.
but,
i had to get the phone call,
because...
i wasn't there.
she was, is, and always will be in her loved ones hearts,
i am one of those loved ones...
but,
i had to get the phone call,
because...

i wasn't there.

]]> ~murder-scene oh sweet angel of mercy... http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10427487/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10427487/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 19:24:55 PDT

life is throwing too much at me, WAY too fast, and it hurts...

]]> ~murder-scene RANT. omfg i r gewing tew kut maiselfff! http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10310700/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10310700/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 04:13:09 PDT i sign on MSN and it's like it's a fucking trend to have 'omfg i r so hardcore, i slit my wrists' in their names.
seriously...FUCK OFF.
i have a person that used to be close to me, that tried to commit suicide over 6 times now...and it's not a fucking joke.
they would cut all up their arms, all up their legs, and they didn't care anymore about anyone but themselves...
and even if you don't actually cut? and you have something like that in your name? just know that it pisses people off, because cutting isn't fucking cool, and it's a serious issue...

and for THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL!
BEING EMO DOES NOT AUTOMATICALLY MEAN YOU CUT YOURSELF R-TARDS!

ps. if anyone takes this personally? and bitches to me about it? well, then, you obviously don't know me in real life, and don't know what i've dealt with...so prepare to have a new asshole torn for you...
the end.

]]> ~murder-scene i knew it. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10232001/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10232001/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 01:00:30 PDT

no one looks or comments on people's art anymore...
it's obvious.
i uploaded 4 pieces of work?
2 comments.
it makes me not want to even bother posting.
like...
do you all even want to see my art at all?
geez.

]]> ~murder-scene ( update ) ART I OWE: http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10028700/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/10028700/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 18:53:30 PDT it isn't in any particular order really, so please don't be offended...
if i've missed you, or anything, just let me know, and i'll fix it ASAP.

EDIT:
UGH, since in keep missing like fucking EVERYONE, this is gonna be edited lots, so get over it...
and just for the record?
i didn't mean for people to start poking at me and prodding at me.... i'm really actually pretty swamped....

Portrait of Brett and I for Brett.
Au and Brett's fursona for Brett.
Rainey for ~megalithic.*

Jason and Hermes for *dustbudde.*
Something for *odduckoasis.
Cryth for =SilverCoils.*
Bunnie for ~runlittlerabbit.*
Emo Archie and Shenn for ~jennieman.*
Grihm and my Nightmare for ~grihm.
Marcus for ~inaliak.
Owl for *chien-san.*
Kyo for ~riceball.*
Lyanti for =Lyanti.*
Savvs for *SavvyPanda.
Nimbus for ~alblage.
Ni'am for *nelena.*

Jaylavere for *mime.*
Kidd for ^y2jenn.*

Black Unicorn for ~greenglowingeyes.*

Fursona design for *Tali-Chan.
Leilani for *ZephrWiltshire.
Alexa for ~shigeko01.
Fala for =fala.
Jal for *Shizuka-NIX.
Cheshire and Kaninchen for *agenza.
Stuffs for *lavabeast.

sorry to everyone having to wait, i'll get the pictures done as fast as i can.
and just for the record, things marked with a * are art trades... and things marked with

are super old and need to be dealt with first and foremost!!

]]> ~murder-scene RANT AHEAD: http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/9603856/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/9603856/ Sat, 05 Aug 2006 01:22:09 PDT

let my just get this rant out, before i fucking EXPLODE.

what is with people and going all EMO and sad on MSN, and the internet?
i came across the most sickening MSN name today, and i nearly screamed, for lack of anything to CHOKE TO DEATH.
you all need to grow the fuck up, no one has TIME TO CARE about your fake depression.
stop fucking diagnosing yourself with it, it is an actually CLINICAL ILLNESS YOU FUCKING IDIOTS, not just something you can pass around and get rid of, like a cold.
god damnit...
you sign on msn and your name is "OMG I WANT TO GO DIE NOW"
when i see names like that? i feel like typing out "WELL THEN GO FUCKING DIE"
seriously.
suck it up buttercup, no one really gives a shit, we all have our own problems to deal with, okay?
so fuck off.
yes, i admit, i've been sad and emo on the internet too, but at least i have some fucking discretion!
FUCK.
some things just REALLY rub me the WRONG way, and this is one of them.
anyways, if anyone ever has their MSN name like that any time soon?
i'm gonna fucking BUST A CAP.

the end.

]]> ~murder-scene dramaaaaaaaa....NOOOOOO. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/8807200/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/8807200/ Thu, 18 May 2006 12:03:30 PDT i posted a rant about how i hated internet drama, and then what do i sign on to see?
drama.
whyyy?
i know i set myself up for differing opinions, and as stated, i am more than capable of handling different views and everything, so...yeah...
and i didn't find anyone's comments offensive, so there was no reason to defend my view...i can see both sides...
i appreciate the fact that you're trying to defend my views, and thank you, but right now, i have a very thin string dividing my sane self and my huge anxiety....
so bare that in mind next time?
that's all.

.

]]> ~murder-scene hey, you know what's cool? [RANT AHEAD.] http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/8790103/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/8790103/ Tue, 16 May 2006 15:56:47 PDT well you know what?
YOU'RE NOT.
all you artists that think you're so much better than everyone else, and who think you're SO original?
spare the bitching and complaining when someone's character has the same coloured hair as yours.
god fucking forbid someone likes the same colour.
YOU DON'T OWN COLOURS.
YOU DON'T OWN SPECIES OF ANIMALS.
this is the internet people, stop with the fucking drama.

by the way, this isn't a personal attack at anyone in particular, this is me ranting.
don't like it? don't read it.
simple as that.

the end.

]]> ~murder-scene i left my marbles at the airport. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/8365659/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/8365659/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 16:20:39 PDT ^word.

]]> ~murder-scene economy sized dreams of hope. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/7610615/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/7610615/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 12:21:23 PST

so, there's this guy.
we went out on a date on Friday the 13th.
he asked me to be his girlfriend.
i like him.
lots.

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]]> ~murder-scene so give me all your poison!~ <3 http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/7285567/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/7285567/ Sun, 11 Dec 2005 18:20:43 PST
the concert was amazing.
aside from the fact that as SOON as MCR came out onstage, i got pummeled and squished, and couldn't breath...
i got kicked in the head and mouth, and i started to cry...actually, more like SOB. x_x
so i had to get pulled off of the floor, which SUCKS, cause i was like...RIGHT THERE.
i could see the exact details of Gerard's eyeliner... *sigh*

but after i got pulled off the floor, the security sent me to the medical area, and i was still sobbing...trying to breathe...
the sweetheart first aid attendant got me to sit down, and have me a bottle of water, and came over to talk to me.
he was so nice...i was crying and explaining to him why i was so upset...
(the combination of not being able to breathe, not being able to hold myself up, being squished, and kicked AND the fact that i was missing MCR, was needless to say, a LITTLE hearbreaking...)
he put his arm around me and told me that as long as i took care of myself and didn't go back into the mosh, he would let me go back out and watch the rest of the concert. (i love that man!~ don't know who he is, but I LOVE HIM)

so, all in all, they are amazing live!
i love them, and their talent never ceases to amaze me, ever.

annnnd after the show, i went out by their tour bus, there was a gate there of course, (the concert ended at about 10:30 pm), and i waited there till 12 am, before anyone came out...
first, Mikey walked outta the building, then onto the tour bus, with the fans screaming...i told them they should be quiet if they want Mikey to even consider coming over...cause i don't imagine any of them like being yelled and screamed at...hah.
but they didn't listen, of course. (some of them even threw stuff at the windows of the bus, which pissed me off...i went over to them and told them not to do that, especially cause Mikey was still in the bus...lol)

then, a couple minutes later, Ray walked out of the building and came over to all of us at the gate, and i squeaked out: "It's Ray!" (i had like, no voice...lol) and he started sigining our stuff for us!
it was awesome.
hah, i had this piece of cardboard from one of their merch boxes that i held over the gate for him to sign...and i was like "Rayyyy, can you sign my cardboard for me?" and he was like "Yeah, sure!" and signs it, then gives it back to me saying, "Here's your special cardboard!"
i smiled at him and said thank you, and then i said, "OH! Ray? Can you...can you...?" then i handed him over two of Sasha's pictures that i had promised her i would get to them, and one that i had drawn also.
he looked at them and was like, "Holy fuck! Did you draw these?" and i smiled and shook my head, "My friend Sasha did the first two, and I did the one on the back," and he just goes, "Whoa..." and continues to sign the other stuff being handed to him.
after he had finished, i said thank you to him, and then he walked back into the tour bus.

then the next to come out, like half an hour later, to sign stuff, was Mikey!

Mikey walked over to us from the tour bus, and had this diet coke can in his hand. he put it down on a box in front of me and was like "Um, anyone have a pen I can use?" so i handed him my sharpie and he was like "Oh, thanks!" and i replied by saying "No problem!" then he signed my cardboard too, and i told him i had like, almost the same jacket as him, and he was like "Really? Neat!"
and i just nodded and said "Yeahhhh..." then he went all the way down the line and back again, still signing stuff, and after he was done, he held up my pen and was looking for who's it was. and i was like, "Oh, that's mine!" and i smiled as he walked over, he handed it to me and i said "Thank youuuu," and he was like "Thank YOU" and gave me the thumbs up and a smile as he walked away to go back on the tour bus. (he left his diet coke on the box, by the way...heh)

thennnnn, about an hour later, Frank walked out...he didn't have a pen either, so he was like "Anyone have a pen I can borrow?" and i was like "Yep!" and handed the same sharpie Mikey had used, to him, and he was like "Oh thanks! I'll give it back!" and i said, "Oh that's okay!" and smiled, then he signed my cardboard on the wrong side (someone told him it was the wrong side...) and was like "Oops! Oh I'm sorry....I can sign that on the otherside for you too if you want!' and he signed it on the other side, even though I told him he didn't have to.
then he signed everyone elses things, and he came up to a girl who had a silver sharpie, so he used her sharpie, and put mine in his mouth temporarily! ohmy.
when he had finished using my sharpie, he handed it back to me and i said thank you to him, and he thanked me as well...
then he walked away and went into the tour bus. (it was some girl's birthday, so a couple minu... ]]> ~murder-scene AW SUGAAAAAAA'!~ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/7268214/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/7268214/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 19:26:37 PST
my chemical romance + december 10th = ME SEEING THEM IN CONCERT.

yes.
ohgod.

]]> ~murder-scene testosterone boys and harlequin girls. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/6963273/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/6963273/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 14:18:16 PST
why is it that we always seem to fall for the ones that won't ever love us back?
we fall so hard.
and it fucking hurts like hell.
you walk down the hallway, and see that person, the one you would give your heart to.
yet they don't see you.
you trip, and there you go, you're flat on the floor, your knees skinned and bloodied, and all they do is walk right past you.
left there, on the floor, you place your head in your hands and grip at your hair.
you ask yourself why it had to happen to you, and you can't answer yourself.
the truth is that you don't know.
no one does.
all you want is to hold their hand, to be close to them.
you want to be loved, by that one person, and that one person only.
and that's the only thing you ask for, but the sad truth is that you won't ever get it.
you see those couples in the halls, holding hands and kissing...the sight of them makes you sick, because you know you won't ever have that again.
all you feel like doing is screaming.
you open your mouth, but no one hears you.

those kisses are poison. yet you drink it.
those looks are fatal. yet you don't look away.
those hugs are nothing. yet you continue to hold on.

the love is tearing you apart inside. yet you still stay.

.

]]> ~murder-scene i'm not o-fucking-kay. really. http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/6940159/ http://murder-scene.deviantart.com/journal/6940159/ Wed, 02 Nov 2005 21:52:04 PST welcome to the depressing life that is Kelsey...
be prepared to hear her pathetic emo-self whine about how her life sucks...

_{it seems as though i have no friends.

although i know i do.

it just seems as though they're distancing themselves from me, or ignoring me.

and on another note, i'm not happy with myself...

i don't like how i am or how i treat people.

i hate how i look, and i have poor self-esteem right now, for unknown reasons...

and no, i'm not looking for compliments about my looks, so anyone who thinks that can go fuck themselves thanks.}

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_{hello angel...where are you?} ]]> ~murder-scene