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(declaration of love, conference call style.)

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yes. thats a myspace url.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/8402873/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/8402873/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 22:06:56 PDT
along with my grill and two headlights.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/8152477/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/8152477/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 18:16:41 PST that she wants to know why
it is though
she's the door
she can't be the room

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/7242471/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/7242471/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 21:12:15 PST
Please respond to this journal with your recommendations and ideas for my portfolio. I appriciate every opinion, and will be submitting many more new pieces.


I will send you a cute/provacative emoticon if that persuades you more.

may god have mercy on my procrastinating soul.

If this helps, a list of colleges im applying to:
Art Insititute of Boston
SUNY Purchase
SUNY New Paltz
Fashion Institute of Technology
Parsons School of Design
School of the Visual Arts
Montserrat College of Art

i have no safty schools.
im going to cry.
S.O.S.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6910506/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6910506/ Sun, 30 Oct 2005 20:36:03 PST i drink coffee because i think it might wake me up not because it tastes good
i spend most of my weekends putting on make up just in case someone calls to hang out
i want to live in new jersey
intruction manuels interest me more then poetry and novels
complaining is a great way to start a conversation
i only buy impressive thick books so my shelves are full
i refuse to donate my clothes in case they come back in fashion
i try more then i could ever do
on my list of things i do, avoiding imtimacy is right under breathing
my hands are alwasy cold because i have poor circulation not because im single
my feet are hideous so i wear cute shoes
chances are high that i have already seen your myspace
i go to partys to be seen, not heard
my future consists of a one bedroom apartment and nine cats

if you ever see me, just to save you some time
your better off with the short blonde
im sober

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6411703/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6411703/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 07:29:48 PDT
oh my darling

oh my darling

clementine

you are lost

and gone forever

dreadful sorry

clemetine

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6317327/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6317327/ Wed, 24 Aug 2005 16:24:35 PDT and we still run
and we still throw ourselves
upon love's boats
but it is much deeper
and much later
than we think





(lawrence ferlinghetti)

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6215131/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6215131/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 10:07:36 PDT and i failed
im not surprised
(but i am.)
i did everything right except
back in parking
and the driver instructor couldn't
get out of the car
because i was parked too closely
to another car
(maybe he was just too fat)
he was a really nice guy though
and i would of passed
(i got all checks, except that one...)
if i just took the back in parking
alittle more seriously
(it didn't seem like i was going to fail.)
(at the time.)
my sister drove me home
because i insited on crying
the whole way home
(because i knew i could)
then i went inside my moms house
and told her i failed
and she lovingly stated:
"Of course you were going to fail!"
and i got even more upset
(even to the point of talking back.)
and i willingly went
up to my room
(she didn't even have to tell me.)
i read a book
and my mom came up
and told me she was sorry
for yelling at me
and i told her
that she was not at the top of my shit list.
(which she claimed she was during the argument.)
i tried to stay at my moms house
and wait for my aunt
but everytime someone talked to me
i started to mumble and cry
(in that crying language)
(or "are you even speaking english?" "repeat por favor")
so my mom let me drive back to my dads.

to be 100% honest
i can live another 30+ days without my license
(i wasn't really dying without it)
but i really thought
i was going to suprise myself
and that this
just might be different.
(my driving skillz have nothing to do with it.)
(hell to the no!)

[on the other hand]
-my dad told me about rehobeth and asked if i wanted to come down with any friends. i told him i had no friends and that he called the wrong number.
-im going to playland tommorow
-kathleen is home
-alice has her drivers test sometime soon
-flordia scares me
-im going to find a rock and live under it.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6210145/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/6210145/ Fri, 12 Aug 2005 19:55:11 PDT (i might not.)
my mom told me that i can't drive with friends
or out of town
for the first couple of weeks
(the last weeks of summer.)
because of safety issues
but im pretty sure
that i will stick my head
into an oven
(not seriously.)
if my summer
doesn't change
(in courtney freindly ways)
i wish i could see
this summer
as being worthwhile
(or anythign positive.)
but im not going
to realize that untill
school starts
(summer ends.)

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5815034/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5815034/ Fri, 01 Jul 2005 19:50:42 PDT i stayed at my uncles house in Itri for Camp Linderman which is like a family gathering of sorts.
im not going to go in that much detail,
-horible plane ride up there.
-lost luggage.
-majority of people in italy are italian.
-signing avril lavigne karoke.
-wine bars and bacardi.
i basically woke up at 10:30 every morning, ate Life ceral, got my bathing suit on, and sat by the pool untill 12, when i woudl either have to do a walkign tour, or sneak my way out of the tours for the afternoon and sit by the pool for longer. around 6pm my family (approx. 30 people) would pile into these huge white vans and drive into town and eat dinner. dinner was a pain just because there were alot of little kids and they were very loud, and we often distrubed the other people eating there.
i was usually fine because in italy they serve you wine like they serve water, with lots of refils.
with that said, i usualy spent the evenings talking about the oil crises in america, to my lasangna.


also, very sorry for the delays in the "thank yous" and favoriting and so on and so forth. i will look at all my messages and any new watchers/favoriters gallerys as usual. im sorry if i dont add a "thank you" to your user page. but just know that i am alooking at your gallerys.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5675575/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5675575/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 11:04:51 PDT i went with =bo88y as my date and we took a town car to the prom, my school is really small so only 30 people showed up. my camera died a couple weeks ago so i used a polaroid camera the whole night.
me and bobby had to eat lamb because we didn't understand our waiter's french accent when he said the other option, which was fish stuffed with crab meat. Then after dinner we went on the dance floor with everyone a shook it like a polaroid picture. dispite the fact that i was yelling at everyone the whole night not to shake the polaroid pictures when they were developing. at aroudn 10 almost everyone was gone but bobby and i's town car was not comign till 10:45 so we hung out with the photographers at the prom who remeber me from last year. Its funny when everyone leaves prom and all the waiters and servant staff go on the dance floor and just go crazy. the town car finally arrived and we got in the car only to realize that the driver had no idea where bobby lived, so we tried to tell him where to go but we got lost. i was about to fall alseep and was alittle angry at the driver for not knowing where he lived. when we got to bobbys house we said are goodbyes and i got back into the car. it was the longest car ride ever, thats all i will say. i got home and passed out on my bed after i removed the millions of bobby pins in my hair.

ill put the professional photos in my scraps section.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5573794/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5573794/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 19:43:42 PDT it has a broken lens.
and it just clicks and buzzes when i turn it on.
i dropped it on the ferry when i stood up to leave the boat, and i just laughed and said fuck really loud, and then i saw the lens was cracked and stood in the aile as people started to line up behind me. adam tapped my shoulder to warn me of the line, so i laughed once more and said i had no hard feelings.


RIP.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5524212/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5524212/ Wed, 01 Jun 2005 18:12:13 PDT one of them is a Crown of Thorns (Euphorbia milii) and i named him Harry.
the other one is a Dracaena "Magenta" (Dracaena) and i named him Luigi
The names come from my Dad, and when i was little i got scared and ask my parents if i could sleep in their room. And my Dad asked me what it was, and i said there were monsters in my room. my Dad then asked me what their names were and i said i didn't know, so he came up with the names Harry and Luigi.
After that night i didn't really become scared of monsters in my room.
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i bought them at stop and shop and when i got home i looked for new pots for them instead of those plastic pots. i did some research 7th period today and learned that ceramic pots let the plants breath more. i only found some ugly pots that looked like they were painted by some housewife going through a midlife crisses and claiming shes an artist. i used them, but there only temporary for now.
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i placed each of them in front of a speaker and they're listening to the Smiths at the moment.

]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5196434/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5196434/ Tue, 26 Apr 2005 16:20:33 PDT ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5168737/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5168737/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 15:33:33 PDT all of our friends were gathered there
with their pets just talking shit
about how we're all so upset about the disappearing ground
as we watch it melt

it's all of the good that won't come out of us
and how eventually our hands will just turn to dust
if we keep shaking them
standing here on this frozen lake

i do this thing where i think i'm real sick
but i won't go to the doctor to find out about it
'cause they make you stay real still
in a real small space
as they chart up your insides and put them on display

they'd see all of it, all of me, all of it
all of the good that won't come out of me
and all the stupid lies i hide behind
it's such a big mistake
lying here in your warm embrace

oh you're almost home
i've been waiting for you to come in
dancing around in your old suits
going crazy in your room again
i think i'll go out and embarrass myself
by getting drunk and falling down in the street
you say i choose sadness
that it never once has chosen me
maybe you're right

let's talk about all our friends who lost the war
and all the novels that have yet to be written about them

it's all of the good that won't come out of them
and all the stupid lies they hide behind
it's such a big mistake
standing here on this frozen lake
it's all of the good that won't come out of me
and how eventually my mouth will just turn to dust
if i don't tell you quick
standing here on this frozen lake

-Rilo Kiley "The Good That Wont Come Out"


I really love this song. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5160278/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5160278/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 17:07:57 PDT It makes me wanna rough you up so badly
Makes me wanna roll you up in plastic
Toss you up and pump you full of lead

Johhny my love, get out of the business
The odds are getting fatter by the minute
That I have got a bright and shiny platter
And I am gonna get your heavy head

I only ask because I'm a real cunt in spring
You can rent me by the hour
I know all about the ugly pilgrim thing
Entertainers bring May flowers

So Johnny my love
We got us a witness
Now all we gotta do is get a preacher
He can probably skip the "until death" part
'Cause Johnny my love you're already dead

I only ask because I'm a real cunt in spring
You can rent me by the hour
I know all about the ugly pilgrim thing
Entertainers bring May flowers

May flowers, May flowers, (To You)

-Liz Phair

I dont know why i love this song so much. I have no secret passion about the death of John the Baptist. It just makes me melt for some reason. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5150389/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5150389/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 16:02:12 PDT cindy got me a chinese lamp, a carvel cake, and she drew me a birthday card.
bobby got me a jewlery box, an old photograph his grandpa took, 2 japanese pokemon cards, and his fourth grade assignment pad.
ian gave me a bullet shell, 5 dollars, and provided some tunes from his music box.
dan danced.
it was a wonderful time. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5072338/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/5072338/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 18:35:40 PDT ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4992137/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4992137/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 20:38:54 PDT
"Fight for your opinions, but do not believe that they contain the whole truth, or the only truth."

Which is very true. And i think some people need to be reminded of that. Another good quote on one of my tea bags was:

"Ignorance of certain subjects is a great part of wisdom."
-Hugo De Groot

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If any of you want to listen to a good song, i would recomend "Shane" by Liz Phair.

Also, if you haev noticed that i dont thank you any more for yoru comments, its not that i am not thankful, its just writing thank you after every comment is startign to get annoying, i am very thankful for every comment and favorite. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4928904/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4928904/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 21:27:40 PST bo88y

if you dont know him, you should learn about him.
1. his hair is actually a miniture forrest.
2. he can form his face into any shape possible. (i.e. polygons to tori spelling)
3. i know a secret about him. but if i tell, he swore he would come into my room at night and give me split ends.
4. will eat a bowl of rice even if theres larvas in it.
5. will marry fiona apple or the human rencarnation of his dog, mollly.
6. he likes pie very much.
7. he dreams about giraffes.
8. he enjoys talking about perfumes and the newest edition of readers digest on roller coasters.
9. he likes his handwriting
10. was born in danbury, ct.
11. has a beautymark above his left eye.
12. was once worried about dying because he ate too many Cup of Noodles.
13. he bought me a belt for christmas.
14. he will be "famouse" one day.
15. he is subconciously emo.
16. he is an extrodinary machine. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4735770/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4735770/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 15:08:23 PST
What did you last eat? chicken noodle soup.

What did you last drink? cherry coke.

What are you wearing? rolled up jeans with my plaid cowboy shirt and my brown blazer

What are you doing? waiting for dinner.

What was the last thing you did? walked into a wall and banged my hip.

What was the last thing you said? "i hate my life"

Current Music: "Dance of the Seven Veils" by Liz Phair

Current Jewlery: my hideous baby G watch that needs to be burned.

CurrentEveryday Style: i've got taste and flavor.

Other stuff...

Shop-aholic? not anymore, i spend all my money on greasy diner food.

Music obsessed? i like music, i listen to it, i have cds. but i dont know much about cool music.

Alcholic? i'll have a rum and coke, sans the rum.

Druggie? i try to alter my brian chemicals manuely.

People:

Last person you talked to? my sister

Last person you hugged? my mom usually hugs me, but when she hugs me, she puts her arms over mine so i cant hug back, so i pat her arms. but bobby give fantastic hugs.

Last person you kissed? George Tropicana...no wait i mean Glass. George Glass.

Last person you yelled at? Haden 2 years go for scaring me.

Relationships:

Boyfriend/Girlfriend? no

Closest/Most Trusted Friends: I trust almost everybody, even homeless people. it migth be a bad habit.

Are you in love? My Limbic System overflows at the sight of you, you make my vagus tremble, my oxytocin wants to cudle with you, my "PEA" is hot for YOU, you cant have serotonin without some tryptophan, ok, i'll admit it, the last one made NO SENCE at all.

Do you think friends with benifits is okay? it gets old after awhile.

Do you hate anyone? Nope.

Do you like anyone? i like my friends.

Do you forget people easily? i forget what people say more then i forget them.

Lets talk about sex baby....

Last time having sex? never.

Last person you had sex with? no one.

Do you belive in premartial sex: yes. even though its seems like i don't, im not choosing this celibate life of mine.

Would call yourself a slut? im a skanktastic. i'll give my digits to anybody. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4701496/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4701496/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 11:13:14 PST FiNe x MaDnEsS: god.
FiNe x MaDnEsS: i am real.
FiNe x MaDnEsS: real.
the color of we: fuck you bobby
FiNe x MaDnEsS: god.....i sure am wild about giraffes.
the color of we: hahaha ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4638722/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4638722/ Mon, 21 Feb 2005 15:25:59 PST Waking up: Rumble - Link Wray and His Ray Men
Average day: Mama Told Me Not To Come - Three Dog Night
First date: Big Me - Foo Fighters
Falling in love: Good Vibrations - Beach Boys
Love scene: Teardrop - Massive Attack
Fight scene: Gut Feeling - Devo
Breaking up: Bad Diary Days - Pedro the Lion
Getting back together: 30 Century Man - Scott Walker
Secret love: It's Not - Aimee Mann
Life's okay: Fix - Pedro the Lion
Mental breakdown: Fake Plastic Trees - Radiohead
Driving: Here Comes Everybody - Autolux
Learning a lesson: Scatterbrain - Radiohead
Deep thoughts: Life in Mono - Mono
Flashback: Paints Peeling - Rilo Kiley/I Might Be Wrong - Radiohead
Partying: For Your Love - The Yardbirds
Happy dance: Genius of Love - Tom Tom Club
Regretting: Ball and Chain - Big Brother and the Holding Co.
Long night alone: Lullaby - Pedro the Lion
Death scene: For the Damaged - Blonde Redhead
Closing credits: Moon over Marin - Dead Kennedys
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I wrote this all down, and i went to click copy on my computer and i accidently clicked paste and didn't realize it untill i posted it on deviant art, so i had to redo the whole list by memory. I got most of it down except teh Flashback part, so i just put 2 random good songs there. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4565508/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4565508/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 21:01:03 PST There is not way to say this lightly, so i am forced to bluntly declare my infatuation towards you. I am a female and aware that you choose males when it comes to intimate relationships, but i'm afraid that will not hold me back from my on going desires of us spooning on an 18th century oriental rug in front of a warm stone fireplace. I think we deserve a quiet night more than anyone else, and i dont think you should be quick to throw away my offer due to the fact that i have ovaries. The truth is that we our soul mates, i have known this since i was just a little girl, when i would look down through the holes of the laundry room floor to see you on the TV. Your voice haunts my reverie when i hear it through my blown out two inch speakers. And i have made your delicate symmetrical face my wallpaper on my computer that my parents bought me for christmas. I ache for your eternal touch and i'm hoping that you would accompany me to my junior prom. If i fail my drivers license test then my mother will drive us there in her brand new mini van. Please contact me as soon as you get this, i dont know if i can ever love again if you reject my simple proposal of us being life long lovers. I can not go on any longer with this letter, i must stop before my heart descends into my lower intestine region. Farewell my love.
<3 courtney.

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i felt that i needed to write a love letter for valentines day, so i decieded to write one to my childhood crush Michael Stipe, the lead singer of the band REM. I hope you found it amusing, because it would be a shame if someone took it seriously and sent it to him. the only thign true in that letter is that i actually did go up to the laundry room and looked through the holes in the floor into the TV room because i was really nervous when someone saw me watching him on TV. i still get nervous when i watch a sex scene in a movie with people. and i already invited bobby to my junior prom, and my desktop is really just a simple blue and white flower pattern.

so happy valentines day (a little early) and may the love letters flourish. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4532991/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4532991/ Tue, 08 Feb 2005 19:49:15 PST
i take that back. valentines day is very fun. i get to miss classes to have parties (even though im in highschool) and all the candy that goes around to eat, and how fun it is making valentines out of construction paper and doilies and decorating them with stickers. and it was snotty what i said about how it would suck to listen to all the sad people on valentines day because im sure those people want someone to talk to that isn't secretly thinkign about how annoying they are in ther head. no. valentines day is a very nice holiday, and i cant wait for it to come so i can bathe in its candy heart and contruction paper glory. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4531291/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4531291/ Tue, 08 Feb 2005 16:31:31 PST
my lazy and unmotivated attitude towards life is slowly eating away at me. all i do is sit and wait for something to come my way, and once it does come my way i panic and put it off untill it comes my way again. I am really starting to hate my inner persona.
my dad bought home a laptop for me, and i thought it was just one of the many computer appliances that he brings home from work because no one wanted it. and when he gave it to me i didn't act all surprised or excited because i thought it was just one of those "we dont need this in the office so im giving it to you". But my mom later told me that it was my birthday present, because i wanted a laptop. So i feel bad because i hurt my dads feelings by not appriciating the laptop.
but this is where it really eats me alive because once i heard it was my birthday present i got really bummed because i was looking forward to getting some new shiny laptop for my 18th birthday and not some hand me down/nobody wants this kind of laptop from the office that was made 8 years ago. And i shoudl do the nice thing and be happy with what i have like i always do. and not be a brat and not want it because its not new and i cant take it out of the box. my mom said we cant afford anything like that, so ill have to wait till next year. so i'll just bite my tounge. but it got me alittle depressed that im not getting anything new or big and special. i guess im just tierd of getting used stuff.

but i hate to think like that because i should be happy with what i have, and i do have new stuff, i'm usually fine with the second best situtaion. its just eating me alive and i dont know how to get rid of it.

im sure valentines day is going to be wonderful. and how i will have to listen to how miserable people are because they dont have a boyfriend, and then i say i dont have one but no one really does care when they have themselves to worry about. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4438986/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4438986/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 16:56:35 PST i wish it was my wisdom teeth so i coudl just get them removed and have the problem over with. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4436224/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4436224/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 10:41:25 PST winst for painting that wonderful picture. I am truely honerd and acting like a giddy school girl. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4428603/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4428603/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 12:52:40 PST I have noticed that there are alot of picture of me in my gallery, its not like i need to be reminded, its just that when i take pictuers of other people they sometimes seem disappointed that it didn't come out the way they wanted it to come out. if i take a crappy pictue of myself i could care less, i can just take another one instead of getting all upset and give up because my picture didn't come out the way i wanted.
another reason might be that i have grown very attached to my bed and couch and woudl rather be with them then going out with my friends. Nothing against my friends though. i just like being home.
so i hope that this can help you change your mind to think that im not some egotistic snot. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4367044/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4367044/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 08:36:20 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4329458/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4329458/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 19:23:51 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4327303/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4327303/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 13:53:10 PST First car: it will come to me soon.
First date: i dont remember
First real kiss: ...
First self purchased CD: jamariqui
First pets: a hermit crab
First piercing/tattoo: my ears in 6th grade

LASTS.
Last kiss: a long long time ago, in a place far away.
Last good cry: cryign is never good.
Last movie seen: garden state
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: gum
Last phone call: chad last night.
Last time showered: yesterday afternoon
Last shoes worn: vans
Last cd played: the mr. rendich mix.
Last annoyance: havign no one to talk to online.
Last disappointment: not studing midterms i guess.
Last website visited: myspace.
Last word you said: please.
Last song you sang: love will tear us apart

What color socks are you wearing: brown hiking socks, i get very angry when my toes get cold
What color of underwear are you wearing: black, but there cotton brief, so its not sexy.
What's under your bed?: boxes of pictures, and old school work


.CURRENT.

Current mood: tierd
Current music: one by aimee man
Current taste: the moisture in my mouth.
Current hair: nice
Current clothes: brown pants and a white shirt with little hearts sewed in it.
Current annoyance(s): peopel with away messages
Current desktop picture: just some pattern of lines and circles
Current book: texts books.
Current color of toenails: natural
Current hate: not having my license.

Mark "X" for yes...

(X) been drunk
(X) been high
(X) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
() crashed a friend's car
() been to Japan
(X) ridden in a taxi
(X) been dumped
() been fired or laid off
() been in a fist fight
(X) snuck out of my parent's house
() ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
() ever dated someone of the same sex
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
() been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(X) stole something from my job
() celebrated new years in time square
() gone on a blind date
(X) had a crush on a teacher
() celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to Europe
() skipped school
(x) cut myself on purpose
() been married
() gotten divorced
() had children
() seen someone die.
() been to Africa.
(x) Punched a friend
() Been to Canada
() Been to Mexico
(X) Been on a plane
(X) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
() Thrown up in a bar
(X) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(X) Eaten Sushi
(X) Been Snowboarding
() Met someone in person from the internet
(X) Been moshing at a concert
() had real feelings for someone you knew only online
() been in an abusive relationship
() been pregnant or got someone pregnant
() lost a child
() gone to college
() graduated college
() had sexual intercourse of any kind
() tried killing yourself
() taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now



LAYER ONE: On the Outside
Name: courtney
Birthdate: April 19 1987
Birthplace: new jersey
Current Location: conneticut
Eye color: green
Hair color: brown
Righty or lefty: righty
Zodiac sign: aries, but im a cusps, so i have more tarus traits.


LAYER TWO: On the Inside
Your heritage: german irish
Shoes you wore today: vans
Your weaknesses: deep voice
Your fears: waves.
Goal you'd like to achieve: get my license.

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your most overused phrase on aim: awesome
Your thoughts first waking up: why.
Your best physical feature: my shoulders i think
Your bedtime: whenever i run out of peoelp to talk to
Your most missed memory: for some reaon i really miss being at silver hill


LAYER FIVE: Do You?
Cuss: radomly
Sing: to myself
Take a shower everyday: i try
Have a crush(es): no. yes. no. yes. no yesnoeisnofnseiofh;sehs
Think you've been in love: no
Like(d) high school: yes
Want to get married: yes
Believe in yourself: at times.
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're attractive: well accordint to all the compliments i get from my friends mothers, hell yes.
Think you're a health freak: no way
Get along with your parents: yes
Like thunderstorms: most of the time.
Play an instrument: im musically inept.


LAYER SIX: In the past month have you...
Drank alcohol: yes ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4322736/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4322736/ Fri, 14 Jan 2005 22:07:40 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4303265/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4303265/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 14:24:16 PST
rick springfield - love is alright tonight
the only ones - another girl, another planet
marcy playground - sex and candy
devo - mongoloid
devo - gut feeling
le tigre - keep on livin'
le tigre - mediocrity rules
the delgados - sink or swim
the undertones - true confessions
squeeze - up the juntion


listen to any of these songs if you dont know them. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4255488/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4255488/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 15:43:23 PST
Watching: Nothing.
Music: The Police - I Cant Stand Losing You
Book: Bartleby the Scrivner...

i always wanted to do that. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4241263/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4241263/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 20:08:57 PST
By the way, i hope you guys are all enjoying my ugly face ID, because im getting nervous that people might think my face is always like that. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4240091/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4240091/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 17:56:47 PST I'm planning to get my license by april, otherwise ill be alittle concerned abotu being 18 and still havign my mom drive me to school. so please bitch at me to go and tell me all the reasons why i should go because if i dont do get my license by 18 people are going to "start talking" or so thats what im told. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4230298/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4230298/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 15:11:52 PST I went to a prom.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I tried to keep it, but i never actually acomplished it, and i made the same resolution as i have in the past 3 years.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no, i dont think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No one i knew who I was very close too.

5. What countries did you visit?
Italy

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
My license

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I guess new years eve from last year. it wasn't anything important, I just cant remeber any other dates.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Finally graduating sophmore year.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting my license.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I got dehydrated alot.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I usually dont buy anything amazing, usually just food.

14. Where did most of your money go?
It went to many diners, resturaunts, and the happy people who work at the 24 hour dunkin donuts.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I got really excited for Cindys party.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Im Sorry for 2004 by Ruben Studard because it has the date in the song title, besides that i never listened to the song completely.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder - sadder
Older or wiser - wiser
Thinner or fatter? - thiner
Richer or poorer? - poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
listen to people.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
complained about being lonely.

20. How will you be spending Christmas/How did you spend Christmas?
I was with my family in my house and i opened presents took a shower and went back to sleep.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
no, not that im aware of.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Degrassi, Doctor 90210, and i woudl watch VH1 if nothing else was on because anythign on VH1 is good.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i know more about some people, but i wouldn't say i hate them because i dont know them that well.

26. What was the best book you read?
The Rum Diary.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Old Liz Phair songs

28. What did you want and get?
i got a camera and i got some pictures of the year.

29. What did you want and not get?
my license

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Buffalo '66, Garden State, Wet Hot American Summer, and of course Forrest Gump

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 17 and i invited heather, amanda, and kathleen to sleep over but no one could make it. however i went to the city with heather several months later, and she bougth me dinner saying that this was my birthday present. which was nice.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
having my license

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
colorful, warm, and sometimes really lazy.

34. What kept you sane?
Being really tierd alot of the time.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Paul Rudd.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Hmm, i dont know, i try not to read to much about politics, but the pictures of the prisoners in Iraq were pretty disturbing.

37. Who did you miss?
Rob, Lori, Heather

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I got to know Heather more, Bobby, Cindy, Alice, Ian, theres more, but those are the ones on top of my head.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Look at question 40.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"And I came upon a doctor, who appeared in quite poor health. I said, "there's nothing I can do for you, you can't do for yourself" He said, "oh yes you can, just hold my hand, I think that that would help". So i sat with him a while and i asked him how he felt, he said, "I think I'm cured, no infact I'm sure of it, thank you stranger... for your theraputic smile." So that's how I learned the lesson that everyone's alone.
Also
"You see I used to think that I'd get over everything. But everything just... ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4222688/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4222688/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 17:06:43 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4220579/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4220579/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 12:35:07 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4216204/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4216204/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 21:30:30 PST
the color of we: well i was contemplating finding a rope to hang myself but now that you came back i migth just postpone that

MapleLeafRagg: why would you

the color of we: because im cold

MapleLeafRagg: get warm

the color of we: i really dont have a reason

MapleLeafRagg: but what are you feeling

the color of we: feeling? im feeling cold. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4215703/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4215703/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 20:32:35 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4196298/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4196298/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 19:28:49 PST


Feel my fingers as they
touch your arms
I'm spinning around
but I feel alright


The only answer i liked on the quiz was
Describe yourself in one word:: waiting. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4187488/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4187488/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 18:01:10 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4177341/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4177341/ Tue, 28 Dec 2004 13:00:35 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4165463/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4165463/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 22:26:32 PST
1. Seeing guys in there swimsuits - Its very awkward seeing a guy you know wearing swim trunk when you are used to seeing them in shirts and pants. I get very nervous by this

2. When people dont say goodbye - I never know if someone is angry and they just leave, or if they just forgot, or if they never even noticed me, those are all bad things and make me nervous

3. When people cry around me - I'm not very good at emotions and knowing what people mean when they do things. And when someone crys i dont know why and i dont know what to say because i dont want to make them cry anymore. I usually just leave when this happens, and it makes me seem like im cold hearted, which is not what i mean by leaving.

4. Being naked in the shower - Now i know the only way i can get clean is if i go into the shower with no clothes, and i know no ones is there and if someone walked into the room i still had the shower curtain to block anyone from seeing me, but i cant help but cover my private parts while taking a shower. You could of gone on with your life without knowing that, but it makes me very nervous and it just had to go on the list

5. Looking people in the eye for to long - When i was in third grade my teacher would always tell my parents that i should work on my eye contact skill. And whenever the teacher woudl ask me a question i would look at the wall or somethign else and answer her, then she woudl answer back "Courtney, the stapler didn't ask you about your homework" thinking she was so witty. And so i guess i improved because people stoped bothering me about it but i still get nervous when i look someone in the eyes for to long, theres so much people can know about you when they look at your eyes, its like being naked. Theres this one time where i saw this guy who worked in Brookstone who looked just like my dear friend bobby, he had the same hair and lips, and i wanted to see if he had bobbys eyes but i didn't want to look at this strange guys eyes because he might think that i had a crush on him and that would be embarrasing, plus he was flirting with my sister and telling her that if she bought this special touch screen alarm clock that he would reduce the price to only 12$ instead of 20$. My sister bought the clock and i left the store as soon as possible. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4157737/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4157737/ Sat, 25 Dec 2004 21:07:39 PST

I was thinking one night about death, first i started off with what would it be like if i died, and what would you act like when you found out. Would you cry first and be more in shock and cry a little later. Im not thinking of death in a depressing way and im not saying to myself "no one would care if i died!" I know people would be sad. Then i started thinking about what it would be like if you died. I was thinking of how it could feel, and how i would react. I played the "I heard it through the phone" scene where i would hear the voice over the line tell me about you being gone, and how i would not answer back immeditaly and just say bye and hang up. I thought about who i woudl hear it from, your father or maybe from a friend? I also thought about how i would be so angry with you for not saying goodbye, because you know how angry i get when you just sign off line or leave to go somewhere without saying goodbye. It ran across my mind about what i would be like at your funeral as well. That i would not cry because i know you wouldn't want to see that, and that i would wear my ballet shoes even though they are pink and you are suppose to wear all black to a funeral. But the thing i thought most about was where i would sit at your funeral.
I decieded that i would sit in the back.
Now i have not been to that many funerals, I only remeber being at a funeral for my aunts father, who i never even knew. I dont really know why i had to go, but i remember sitting in the back and observing the people and were they sat and who decided for them to sit there. Which was how i came up with how people would sit at your funeral.
The first row of course would be family, thats the VIP golden section that nobody can get in. Its like Buddy Holly trying to get in studo 54, you and they know that you just dont belong. Then after the family its the friends. Which would contain all your best friends, buddys, pals, and even the bitches who talked to you twice in ceramics and now that your gone they think you changed their entire life. After that very long long section of people you have your people who are there for the moral support of everyone else. They didn't know you that well or maybe not at all, but their there to support there friends or relatives who knew you. I am not particularly fond of this group due to the large amounts of crosswords puzzles being solved or gameboys beeping and flashing. And last there is the back row, with the people who showed up late or the people who feel like they would need to excuse themselves multiple amounts of times and who are thoughtful enough to sit in the back to not disturb the ceremony.
Like i said before i do not belong in the first section due to the fact that i am not a family member. I wont even try to sit up there. Then theres the friends section, which is where i techincally should sit. But i know there will be a mad house of friends there, and finding a seat would be ridiculous. Im horrible at asking for things i want, i have a way of sounding like a shy 3 year old. I would probebly ask a question like "Um..Can i..uhh...sit here?, if..um.. no one is sitting here of course" and i would get some response such as "Im sorry, but Mike, Dan, Jen, Sally, and Chrissy are suppose to sit there.They called 5's." and i would walk away and ask someone else. I would probebly run into one of those bitches who barely knew you and i would ask and get a comment such as "Sorry, but he was my best friend, we talked all the time. I really should sit here." I would get angry but theres not point of asking her to move because she would probebly sit behind me and bitch to her friends the whole time about how no one even knew who i was and that my head was blocking her way of your "hot cousin in the corner". After that long crowd of your friends i would come across the moral supporters, and i would simply not sit with them because you mean more to me then finding a 7 letter word for "junk" and capturing a level 23 charmander.
Which leaves me with late or the bladder infected people. Even though i am neither of those people, I know that i dont deserve a better seat then anyone else there. Im not special or important. I'm just a friend. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4153931/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4153931/ Sat, 25 Dec 2004 11:46:27 PST
I didn't get to sleep last night till 6 in the morning. I dont know why i couldn't sleep, i was just sitting in my bed and thinking about so many things. I ended up having to my sleeping meds only to be woken up at 6:40 to open presents. The sun wasn't even up when i had to go downstairs and i was really grumpy. I'll make a list of what I got.
1. A Nikon camera body with 2 lens with a UV filter for each lens from my dad
2. A lime green sweater and a red sweater from my mom
3. An Coca Cola alarm clock from katja since i love coke and so she doesn't have to wake me up in the morning for school
4. The book "Where is Coco Going?" by Sloane Tanen from my mom because my family used to call me coco, and my mom said i looked like the chick in the book
5. The 90's Edition of Trivial Pursuit from my sister
6. A pin from Katja. I thanked her by quoting what she once said to me... "Isn't is great?! I mean you can change the whole outfit by putting just one little pin on your shirt...its amazing, and only .50 cents!"
7. A pack of Pokemon cards from my brother

And candy in my stocking. I thought that is was a good christmas. I took a shower after opening presents and then went down to have some pancakes. Then i went up stairs to go back to sleep and i just woke up now.
Everyone liked the presents I got them, which was a green sweater for Katja, a tea pot for my mom, a book about sharks for my brother, and katies present should be coming soon. Thats about it for my christmas day, i think im going to watch napolean dynamite in my new sweater. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4139245/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4139245/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 09:11:33 PST
"at ryans por
la noche."

With this in mind i felt more like the turtle then the hare in the race, I might as well apply myself while i wait for some human contact a.k.a fililng out a job application. I went to coldstonecreamery.com because there buildign a new one in my town and thiere "holding auditions" on there website for new employes. I clicked on the new applicants page and read a paragragh about how its so much fun to work in this ice cream enviroment, i felt alittle better, so i clicked the "Apply" button and got to another page with another paragraph, but this paragraph was alittle more informative about what i had to do there, such as multi-tasking at a fast pace yet still creating the best ice cream experience for each custumer. Which made me feel alittle more nervous. And living in CT, parents aren't afraid to come back in the store and tell you that you added caffinated chocolate to her 6 year old sons milkshake, i dont know if i woudl be able to serve as a Coldstone employee and still live with myself if i made a 6 year old stay up past 8 PM. One of the first things i noticed when i entered the site was on the top part of the window it said "Ice Cream Franchise". Ice Cream is suppose to be made with love and care from someone who is happy. Hearing the word Franchise i imagined a big factory of small sad people makign ice cream and slapping... ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4130099/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4130099/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 18:22:28 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4106916/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4106916/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 22:42:32 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4058761/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4058761/ Mon, 13 Dec 2004 14:54:06 PST 1. First best friend: Anna, but i dont remeber her last name, it was in kindergarten
2. First love: yaya
3. First real kiss: I dont see a difference
4. First screen name: fireflower12
5. First pet: I bet it was a hermit crab
6.First car: i dont have a care

LASTS:
1. Last cigarette: saturday night
2. Last kiss: . 1 year
3. Last good cry: when was crying ever good
4. Last beverage drank: Coke
5. Last food consumed: a moonpie
6. Last crush: a leaf under my foot
7. Last phone call: Alicia

RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Who is your best friend: Do you want to be my best friend?
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: no

FASHION STUFF:
1. Where are your favorite places to shop: H&M and flee markets
2. Favorite item of clothing: I guess my yellow shirt with animals all over it

SPECIFICS:
1. Do you do drugs: ocasionally
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: herbal essence
3. What are you most scared of: people being mad at me

FAVORITES:
1. Colors: yellow, yellow-green, and red clothes
2. Foods: mashed potatoes
3.Favorite subject in school: Mr. Mason, Mr. Rendich, and Ms. Phelps class
4. Animals: ducks, sheep, penguins
5. Sports: i used to horseback ride.
6. Movie: forrest gump.

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: if throwing someone in the shower to sober them up doesn't count then no, but i wish.
2. Smoked: yes.
3. Made yourself throw-up: no
4. Skinny dipped: i was to afraid to take my underware off, but i have in my underware, does that count?
5. Been in love: i dont know what love technically is because whenever i ask someone they never give me a straight answer.

CURRENT:
1. Clothes: pink cord pants, white polo shirt with a brown sweater vest, blue slip on shoes, and a green headband
2. Music: Wreckless Eric
3. Make-up: whatever is left eye makeup from yesterday night and me rubbing my eyes
4. IMs: bobby, but hes away and im leaving irratating messages

LAST PERSON:
2. Hugged: christina
3. Imed: bobby
4. Last person who slept at your house: cindy
5. Last persons house you slept at: either adams or heathers, i have a bad long and short term memory
RANDOM:
1. In the morning I am: dead
2. Love is: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness (thank you dictionary.com)
3. I dream about: pirates. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4051215/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4051215/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 16:00:27 PST Waking up: Big Me - Foo Fighters
Average day: Kamera - Wilco
First date: Lou Reed - Perfect Day
Falling in love: Fools Rush In - Elvis Presley
Love scene: Somewhere only We Know - Keane
Fight scene: Fast Cars - Buzzcocks
Breaking up: People Ain't No Good - Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds
Getting back together: Someone Must of Nailed Us Together - Wreckless Eric
Secret love: I Figured You Out - Elliott Smith
Life's okay: Me and Julio Down by the Schoolyard - Paul Simon
Mental breakdown: Needle in the Hay - Elliott Smith
Driving: Karma Police - Radiohead
Learning a lesson: Golden Brown - The Stranglers
Deep thoughts: For the damadged - Blonde Redhead
Flashback: Somebody to Love - Jefferson Airplane
Partying: From A Shell - Lisa Germano
Happy dance: Hey Sandy - Polaris
Regretting: Do You Love Me Now - The Breeders
Long night alone: Interlude - Morrissey with Siouxsie
Death scene: Apparitions - Matthew Good Band
Closing credits: Mother of Pearl - Roxy Music


This took me forever to make and i left out so many good songs but i just couldn't fit them in. ]]> ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4030403/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4030403/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 19:54:34 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4021974/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4021974/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 19:01:45 PST ~my-darling http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4003156/ http://my-darling.deviantart.com/journal/4003156/ Mon, 06 Dec 2004 13:30:55 PST - height: 5'10
- shoe size: 10
- hair color: right now its brown, but its naturally dirty blonde
- siblings: 1 older sister and 1 younger brother

LAST:
- movie you rented: the weddint singer
- movie you bought: magnolia
- song you listened to: The Smiths - This Charming Man
- song that was stuck in your head: The Beatles - Back in the USSR
- person you've called: Dave to pick me up
- person that's called you: my house according to my cell phone
- show you've watched: this absolutly dumb kids sci-fi show on the family channel while doing my homework
- person you were thinking of: Katja, because she walked in on me watching this dumb show

DO:
- you wish you could live somewhere else: sometimes
- you believe in online dating: no
-others find you attractive: maybe if I wore a pound of makeup and a push up bra.
- you want more piercings: yea i guess
- you like cleaning: not really
-you write in cursive or print: its print but it usually every letter connects with the other one.

FAVORITE:
- food: I like banana bread and soup.
- thing to do: going to heathers house
- drinks: apple juice, and the chocolate milk with the cow on it made by Hood
- clothes: warm clothes
- movies: i like Forrest Gump
- holiday: new years

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: maybe once or twice because i wanted her to be my friend when i was little
- ever cried over a boy: sometimes, but who doesn't
- ever been in a fist fight: no
- ever been arrested: no

WHAT
- shampoo do you use: my sister usually picks the shampoo at the store
- shoes do you wear: navy blue slip on shoes
- are you scared of: confronting people, people being mad at me
- number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: i'm not good at naming "true, trust my life with friends" because i dont know if they would feel the same way back.
- number of people I consider my enemies: hopefully none

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: Robin Hood
- word: darling
- nickname: boo, untill i realized that bobby called everyone boo
- eye color: whatever looks nice on the person. i wish i had dark brown eyes so my eyes would look big.
- flower: the orange lillys

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- Handsome: Well Chads grandma and some Moms tell me i'm pretty
- funny: I have a good sense of humor, but it depends on who i'm with
- hot: no, im pretty far from being sexy or any of that jazz
- friendly: yes
- amusing: i am amused easily if thats what your asking
- ugly: dont remind me that word exsists
- loveable: more like hugable
- sweet: i try.
- dorky: to the extreme.

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet - a blue wallet with little flowers on it that i got from a dollar store for 3 dollars
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - i rarely ware earings or rings, but i do like my magnetic pearl necklace b/c i can pretned to rip it off like im in a fit of rage.
[ x ] Pillow cover - boring floral ones that my mom finds pretty.
[ x ] Underwear - beige cotton underware from victoria secret, you probebly wouldn't find them attractive unless i said they were from victoria secret. but there still ugly.
[ x ] Favorite shirt - a bright yellow shirt with animals all over it, but i never wear it because it rubs agianst my arm and leaves a red rash there and it hurts.
[ x ] Perfume/cologne - gap dream or so pink, but the smell never stays.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - Patti Smith and Serge Gainsbourge compliments to Mr. Rendich
[ x ] What you are wearing now - grey sweatpants and a white lace tank top, its a total clash but i could care less.
[ x ] In my mouth - nothing
[ x ] In my head - the smiths
[ x ] Wishing - i coudl go to soup alley and get some soup.
[ x ] After this - ask my sister when we will leave to get soup, if we are even going, then get my jeans from the dryer.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - i kind of wish the bryn twins were here, or anyone from brewster, or kathleen from college, or rob from asr.
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - new years
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - no. this is a creepy question.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - i believe in it when old people tell me about it, but not 13 year old girls.
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - i dont know
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i want a gravestone, but i dont mind what people decied to do with my body...as long as its legal.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would... ]]> ~my-darling