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Well, kidlettes, guess what? Mysie up and wrote her first piece of fiction in god-knows how long. So here it is. Hope you tell me what you think.
]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/473665/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/473665/ Sun, 02 Feb 2003 02:06:59 PST
I should be in bed, but I'm not. It's 1:59am Pacific. I'm tired. My eyes hurt. My sinuses hurt. But here I am, wrapping things up with my "Dreaming" story. Wish I was dreaming!

I have come to the conclusion that Word SUCKS. OK, I knew this ages ago, but since I've been uploading things to DA, I've had to realize it all over again. Word auto-defaults to auto-editing any document you create. That means all quotes are turned into "smart quotes". Rather, they should be called "dumb quotes", since the break when you try to use them on the internet. Seen any capital E characters with an accent on top? That's most likely someone trying to upload a document that had a smart quote where the E is. Fucking Word. Grrrrrrrr...

Oh! And, I just realized, it turns your 3 dots ... into a weird character that LOOKS like 3 dots! So you're looking, thinking you have 3 periods, and you upload to DA, and suddenly you have capital E with accent at the end of your sentence! Who's idea was this shit?????

Anyway, I wanted to say one thing about this story I just uploaded. I've basically kept it a secret from my husband for the past few years. Now, I've never let him read any of my stuff, but he knew that they existed. Not this one. It was way too personal, too freaky, too anti-our-relationship for me to even mention to him. I hope he doesn't read it. Or if he does, it doesn't hurt him. I'm a new person these days.

But I really like this story, and I was feeling bad that I hadn't uploaded anything in a while, but I had stuff I could, so why hold back?

Never hold back.
]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/469004/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/469004/ Thu, 30 Jan 2003 13:55:48 PST
Frustrated.

That's a word that comes to mind alot when I try to write journal entries.

Today, I am frustrated with my health, which I will not dwell on here.

But over the past few days, I've been frustrated with my art. I am frustrated that I don't have anything "new" I can post, and I don't know if I ever will.

My attempts at various works are always my way of trying my hardest to get a vision in my head or in front of my eyes out to other people. And I often fail miserably, like when I pick up a pencil and think that because I can see a room so clearly, I should be able to sketch it clearly. And it just doesn't work that way.

When I see nature or rain or beauty, I want someone other than me to share it with me. Share what it does to me. I don't know how. So when I write, I often try to get EVERY last detail down, hoping that if the person reading has all those exact details, they may be affected similarly to me.

But poetry, art, photograpy. I just can't even come close to doing that. It just doesn't work. I see a landscape, and my soul soars. I want you to see it with me. But I pick up my camera and the lens isn't big enough to see the whole thing. And if I try anyway, there's no way to zoom in on all the detail I can see with my eyes.

Poetry. I hate poetry. I write poetry at the rate of about 1 poem every 3 years. Something just has to come to me, and then I write it down. I can sit here and ache to tell you about the beautiful lines the rain is making on the windows here, but nothing will come to allow me to make a poem out of the emotion or my vision.

And frustration. of people. and annoyance. and distraction. evil.

~ * ~

So I come back after the interruption, and am even more frustrated. Because I have a plan for these things. I knew what I was going to say. And my current ailment keeps me from staying very focused for very long, and I have no idea how I was going to finish off that entry.

And this keyboard sucks so bad i want to shove it up someone's tight motherfucking ass. It drops every 3rd leter or something. I'm a fast typist. This blows.

and homophobes suck ass. Unfortunately, not in a good way.

And art and sex can and do have stuff to do with each other.

And I thought DA was inclusive becuase it says it's "art" and it let me, the writer, join, so I was happy. Except, I always thought musicians and filmmakers were artists too. I guess their medium is too hard to include on DA???

anyway, it sucks when you come to a place that you think is inclusive and you find out how many bigoted assholes there are here instead. never in my life have i been in a community as bigoted as this one, and i grew up in hawaii and port orchard, WA. Hawaii is amazingly racist, and PO is amazingly redneckville.

and anther distraction.

Frustration. evil.
]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/468995/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/468995/ Thu, 30 Jan 2003 13:46:36 PST
Frustrated.

That's a word that comes to mind alot when I try to write journal entries.

Today, I am frustrated with my health, which I will not dwell on here.

But over the past few days, I've been frustrated with my art. I am frustrated that I don't have anything "new" I can post, and I don't know if I ever will.

My attempts at various works are always my way of trying my hardest to get a vision in my head or in front of my eyes out to other people. And I often fail miserably, like when I pick up a pencil and think that because I can see a room so clearly, I should be able to sketch it clearly. And it just doesn't work that way.

When I see nature or rain or beauty, I want someone other than me to share it with me. Share what it does to me. I don't know how. So when I write, I often try to get EVERY last detail down, hoping that if the person reading has all those exact details, they may be affected similarly to me.

But poetry, art, photograpy. I just can't even come close to doing that. It just doesn't work. I see a landscape, and my soul soars. I want you to see it with me. But I pick up my camera and the lens isn't big enough to see the whole thing. And if I try anyway, there's no way to zoom in on all the detail I can see with my eyes.

Poetry. I hate poetry. I write poetry at the rate of about 1 poem every 3 years. Something just has to come to me, and then I write it down. I can sit here and ache to tell you about the beautiful lines the rain is making on the windows here, but nothing will come to allow me to make a poem out of the emotion or my vision.

And frustration. of people. and annoyance. and distraction. evil.
]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/440129/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/440129/ Mon, 13 Jan 2003 16:50:05 PST
While I've heard rumor that Ministry now despises the song "Everyday is Halloween," it's always been an anthem of sorts for me and my feelings of being an outsider. Feeling rather persecuted by the anti-gay rhetoric spouted in this forum discussion [link] I thought I'd post this here. I'm not the one that's so absurd.

well I live with snakes and lizards
and other things that go bump in the night
cos to me everyday is halloween
I have given up hiding and started to fight
I have started to fight

well any time, any place, anywhere that I go
all the people seem to stop and stare
they say 'why are you dressed like it's halloween?
you look so absurd, you look so obscene!'

o, why can't I live a life for me?
why should I take the abuse that's served?
why can't they see they're just like me
it's the same, it's the same in the whole wide world

well I let their teeny minds think
that they're dealing with someone who is over the brink
and I dress this way just to keep them at bay
cos halloween is everyday
it's everyday

o, why can't I live a life for me?
why should I take the abuse that's served?
why can't they see they're just like me
it's the same, it's the same in the whole wide world

o, why can't I live a life for me?
why should i take the abuse that's served?
why can't they see they're just like me
I'm not the one that's so absurd

why hide it?
why fight it?
hurt feelings
best to stop feeling hurt
from denials, reprisals
it's the same it's the same in the whole wide world

ok, I cheated, I got the lyrics here [link]
]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/433679/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/433679/ Thu, 09 Jan 2003 17:51:53 PST
one of the bummers of having a sore bottom is that i can't spend much time in front of the computer. esp. @ home, since my chair there seems to be the worst for my condition. so this means i haven't been able to write up some stuff i wanted to submit. mostly, i have some longer items that are multiple-word-documents long that i want to submit, and i'm not sure how to do, and i don't have the endurance to sit down long enough to try and figure it out. but there's one little something that still needs to be typed up from long hand that i want to smack up and can't.

positive side: today is *much* better pain-wise. still just as easy to make it sore, but i am not exhausted like i was yesterday and the day before from my efforts to be nice to my spine. hurrah!

best part of this most-excellent day: i just told my best friend i'm bi. she took it like a champ. yay! actually, she made me blush by... um... mentioning she kinda... had some experience of her own with the matter. WOW!

]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/430133/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/430133/ Tue, 07 Jan 2003 15:59:04 PST
so this week is better, and yet not. I'm still sore. Will be for some time, I imagine. Doc said 2 weeks. It's been almost a week since the injury. Wonder if she meant since the injury or since I saw her, which was only last Friday?

At least I have stuff to do. My first class is tonight. And I went and volunteered at the preschool today. First time there in almost 2 months. I had my trepidations, but it was really nice. Great to have something to do for a change. After I get out of a routine, I start questioning why I was on it, and why I should try getting back to it.

I'm still not convinced of everything though. I think I need a good dose of Tom Drummond. 2.5 hours of a class with him always reassured me last quarter, and I got it 2 times a week, so that was brilliant. The perfect kick in the ass I need right now. Too bad this quarter's class with him is Friday only.

Hopefully there will be househunting soon. Hopefully I will not fall asleep or start balling from pain before class tonight. I cant decide which I'm closer to right now. Odd. ]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/423961/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/423961/ Sat, 04 Jan 2003 01:18:40 PST
my ass hurts and i made a new friend.

that sounded bad. not in that order. er... those 2 items are completely unrelated.

my ass really hurts. i can't believe i am going to be unable to sit down like a regular person for 2 weeks. only strict attention to posture and short terms for 2 weeks, plus lots of ibuprofen and praying. damnable group health doctors. at least she was nice to me for once. ask me to sound off on group health for y'all sometime.

um, so my ass hurts. no more uploading for me tonight. must sleep.

i hope 20 year old hotties IM'ing me at 1am do not get the wrong idea and have read the part about me being married, and then everything will be just dandy. i get all paranoid about people i meet through IM.

please, ass, leave me be. i'll sleep, you'll feel better tomorrow, ok? please stop hurting now... ]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/421319/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/421319/ Thu, 02 Jan 2003 14:39:37 PST i hurt my bum sunday. oddly enough, it's gotten worse instead of better. i was going to call in sick, but my direct boss, the only one who can cover for me, is in the hospital. so i dragged my sore bum into work to do a few scant required items, then high-tail (harhar) it outta here. you know what they have me doing instead? playing fill-in-for-the-receptionist. am i bitter? no. am i about to cry from sitting on my bum for only a 1/2 hour so far. yes.

oh, and it's hot in here. ]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/420081/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/420081/ Wed, 01 Jan 2003 19:57:54 PST

does anyone else think it's odd that your "current mood" doesn't tell you what emoticon you're gonna get stuck with? *sigh*

i was feeling all sad, so much money in my pockets that i couldn't find anything to spend on, so my hubby and i went out and i bought art! yay!

if only i had a way to tell you about it. or show you it. *sigh*

anyone here from seattle? there's a lovely store called the fireworks gallery, and they sell photographs by this guy that i just *love*. unfortunately, i can't remember his name, and they didn't give me anything when i bought this, so i can't even tell you who it is! i purchased my third print by him, all of them are framed. they're quite cute, the frames about 6x6 inches square, and each photo is about 2x3 inches.

anyway, he likes doorways, esp. from europe or mexico. they way he photographs them, so full of color, and in this little box, it just looks magical, like faeries or pixies are going to emerge from that door and invite you in. my friend jenni likes them because she wants to know where they lead. i like them because i want to see who's going to walk out of them to say hello.

the one i bought today is a lovely mexican backyard garden with a rustic wooden door. very sweet. i also own an austrian doorway, and a charming image of the gondolas tied up in front of venice.

i also bought a signed and framed postcard by jia liu. you can see her stuff at [link]. it's called 'imagined paths' and it's just lovely. my favorite is called 'flame', but this one holds a little extra sentimental value for me. now i have to figure out where i'm going to put it! ]]> ~mysie http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/416745/ http://mysie.deviantart.com/journal/416745/ Mon, 30 Dec 2002 18:46:00 PST
Um, anyway. I found this play by way of the SpacePirate. Her stuff is so nifty. You should check it out. ]]> ~mysie