http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:mzRudeJude&section=today deviantART RSS for by:mzRudeJude en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 08:35:02 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/10209096/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/10209096/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 21:34:32 PDT
Oh yes, I teach piano now at a couple of music studios and so far, it's very rewarding. I'm getting in touch with my spirit child again. It's getting me to remember the days when I was a child and learning to play piano or music of any kind for that matter...

I've been trying to get in touch with my creative soul more often. Trying to make more time to do my art. Any art... like drawing again, or painting, or beading more and even playing more piano! So, that's what I'll be doing more in the next few months and hopefully into the new year. It's time to take care of that inner part of me, itching to be expressive creatively.

That "September feeling"- season changing- is finally settling down for me as I'm getting use to this whole teaching gig and such... and soon October will come and oh how quickly the year goes by.

Okie... I'm going to work on some of that art I was talking about.

Peace.

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Our next stop was Koh Phangan. It's so beautiful there. We stayed in bamboo bungalows. Turquoise waters. White sandy beaches. We went to the Full Moon Party. That was a riot. The biggest party of this entire world, I think. We went on a boat tour a couple of days after. Went to other beaches... one was Bottle Beach... went snorkling and swum with the tropical fishes... I wish I had a waterproof camera. Some of my friends went cliff jumping...

Now we're in Koh Phi Phi. We've been here for about 5 days. Partied it up here. Lotsa drinking. Lotsa dancing. Caught some fire dancing shows.

Today we're heading to Rai Lay where we'll spend a week there... maybe do some rock climbing. More sun tanning. Some more shopping. Just plain chillaxin'.

Gotta go check outta our hotel room now! Peace! Hope everyone is doing well!

kisses. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/8951457/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/8951457/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 15:16:49 PDT
Until next time!
~Judes

P.S. I may decide to blog here once in a while when I'm over there so do check back if you'd like. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/8636785/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/8636785/ Mon, 01 May 2006 01:14:48 PDT Peace. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/7452901/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/7452901/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 16:38:13 PST
In the last couple of weeks, I've been pondering up fundraising ideas for my trip to Thailand and one of them is to sell my photographs... and thanks to an idea from my friend Matt Day, I've decided to try to put together a booklet of my music photography. So, in the next month or so I'll be busy with that project. I'm really eager to get started on it! I've already started selecting some of my fav music photos. AHHHH! I don't think I'll sleep much tonight! I'm toooooo psyched about this book!!! stay tuned... I'll let you know when I'm done with it...

I want to extend a HUGE THANK YOU to my friends and friends' bands who have allowed me to shoot their shows in the last 2 years. I love you all for giving me so much support and inspiration.

yay!!!!! Peace and MUCH LOVE! XOXO ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/7182467/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/7182467/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 03:53:06 PST School is killing my soul at the moment. I need the holidays. I need to sleep; I need GOOD sleep. I nearly snapped tonight after sitting in the computer lab, working on a band chart arrangement for 3 hours straight and then misplacing the file in some other file other than my own. For half an hour, I was freaking out that I had lost the entire arrangement; 3 hours wasted. I nearly punched in those computer screens-- ok, i lie about that part but I was so close to tears. I think I freaked out at a couple of my friends tonight. I apologize for that and thank you for being there at the time. Then! The Glorious Jade found my file and put it in my folder and sent me home. Thanks girl. You saved my sanity. A bit of it anyway.

Breathe. In. Out. Breathe.

Half a week of school left. Then exams... then it's over. Done this before. Yes. It's been done before. Just breathe. and keep on breathing...

Hope everyone is well. Peace out. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6986382/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6986382/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 00:01:18 PST but what to write about?

New job is going good. It'll be alright. We'll see how insane I'll become after working there for Christmas....

School is going okay these days. I finally got over that feeling of not wanting to be there and now I'm having fun again with my classes even though some are very challenging...

I haven't been able to get out with my camera these days. I'm hoping to shoot some photos with a friend of mine this weekend seeing I have 2... count 'em... 2!!!! DAYS OFF! Yipee!!!! So stayed tuned folks...

Not much of an update but it's an update. drop me a line.
Be Peaceful. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6714283/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6714283/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 17:09:27 PDT
I've had it with being stepped all over by the idiots I allowed into my life. I've been very unhappy lately and so I decided to change something about that.

I gave in my 2 weeks notice at work. 1 and a half years I've worked for this company and for the very first time in that time period, the owner has hired the hugest flake who stresses about EVERYTHING and drags everyone down with her. In fact, she's at the hospital right now because she just had a panic attack... it's RETAIL honey. Now, I know what anxiety attacks can be like but I have no empathy for her because she doesn't treat me nor any of my co-workers/friends with respect. So that's karma on her ass. She brings stress upon herself. Everyone does. She just doesn't know how to handle herself when she's stressed. She just takes it out on everyone. She thinks I quit because I didn't get my raise... well, partly it's because of that, but her stupid pea brain couldn't process the fact that I'm one of their senior staff and I'm making as much money as the NEW STAFF... which is pretty much minimum wage... so it's about RESPECT. R-E-S-P-E-C-T. But she's quite dense so she probably won't get it... even if she read this journal entry I feel she wouldn't get it. She'd probably just tell my co-workers and twist my words around... or put words in my mouth seeing she's been doing that all yesterday... fucking idiot. Anyway, enough about her. I have a new job with a clothing company and they're paying me more and I'm working with people who respect me.

There have been a couple of other people I have spoken to that I have been unhappy with... just bad friendships. I didn't need that. I don't need to surround myself with people who sort of-kind of care about me but really don't. No. That's bullshit. Don't be all wishy-washy around me friends or you'll hear from me.

Getting rid of all the negative energy... one day at a time... enough rant... on with my day...

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Check out the new stuff. Comment. Thanks for stopping by!

Be Peaceful. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6427340/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6427340/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 21:45:26 PDT
peace. much loves. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6281652/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6281652/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 17:58:21 PDT
Here's to new and exciting adventures!
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I was so WRONG. I passed. I f***ing passed. 15 years of piano examinations and theory courses... it's over! Well, the hardest part is over. I still have an Analysis course to do but that'll be a breeze compared to this exam which I slaved over for the last 2 years. In half a year, I will have my ARCT diploma. I'm just flyin' right now. I'm so happy. I don't think I've ever accomplished anything this big in my entire life... I have all this free time to do whatever I want with music now!

Big things are gonna happen. I can feel it! ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6118064/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6118064/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 23:42:29 PDT
5 artists sit in the cozy little room; Artists who have known me since I first started modeling 2 1/2 years ago; easels lined up in a semi-circle around me. Tables set up with palettes of paint and brushes. A slight breeze in the room cools my skin from the warm summer heat. A sense of calm and peacefulness washes over the room. All is quiet except for the sounds of the music and brush strokes along canvases. My breathing steady as I stare blankly at the wall of portraits and meditate... 20 minutes to go... then 10... then 5... time up. Get up. Stretch... go again for another 20 minutes... 10... 5... do it again... 3 hours later, I look at all the canvases. Paintings of me in oil, in watercolor, in acrylic... gorgeous colors intermingling with one another.

In the end, my artist friends gather around one anothers' paintings and critic each other while I gather my things. "See you next week," I say. They smile and wave goodbye. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6095839/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6095839/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 00:36:20 PDT
Center stage. Spotlight all on me. I look up into the shadowed audience and nervously speak as i always do when public speaking. I wish I could just avoid the speaking but I knew I have to practice and overcome it eventually... still stuttering and stumbling over my words as if English were foreign to me... oh girl, come on now, did you really just do that??? ... did you really just say that??? I couldn't even tell you what I said... I said a lot of thank yous... because I really was grateful that people actually came out to a CLASSICAL PIANO RECITAL... my classical piano recital... and supported me. I have to admit, since performing in piano recitals since the age of 6, they are not the most exciting concerts in the world... in my opinion anyway.

I finish stuttering my intro... I take a seat at the bench and there I am in a trance... an hour goes by but it felt like half an hour... my last song is frantic... I finish at last. I take my bow... more thank yous around to family, friends, and strangers congratulating me... then everyone left and in a matter of minutes, the place was empty... just me, my family and a grand piano left in the center stage...

I am still recovering from tonight... the adrenaline is still strong in my system. I can't believe how quickly that recital flew by. I can't believe how much of a blur that was. I can't believe I played for an hour... I can't believe I pulled that off... I can't believe it's over. 2 more weeks and I'll be playing my exam in front of 2 Royal Conservatory Adjudicators... then that's it. I'm looking forward to my exam. I can't believe I just said that. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6080341/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6080341/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 17:59:34 PDT
I don't know whether to be excited or cry from nerves building up inside of me... then 2 more weeks of this tension...

...and breathe in..... and breathe out... breathe in.... and breathe out.

Here goes nothing. Wish me luck. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6036320/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/6036320/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 04:18:16 PDT cause I eat a lot of vegetables
it don't have nothing to do with your new friend..." ~Erykah Badu (Mama's Gun album)

In regards to my last entry, I'm doing a bit better now. Healing takes a bit of time... Playing my music makes me forget for a while... listening to music of other artists give off hope and inspiration...
I feel once I go on vacation at the end of August, I'll come back feeling whole again and okay.

In other news... I'm playing a recital on the 31st... I'm a tad bit nervous seeing it's my first piano recital EVER where I'm the only one playing... family and friends are coming out. oh so excited but fingers crossed.... I hope I do alright. 2 weeks after the recital is my ARCT piano exam... then I'm outta this city for a couple of weeks... hooray! Speaking of music... I'm quite excited to upload the new music photography... more to come another day....

sooooo tired.... must tear myself away from the computer and get some sleep... had caffine too late in the evening again... my own fault for accepting the coffee... I'll just take some valerian root.... sedate me PLEASE! ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/5985072/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/5985072/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 09:12:47 PDT
I try not to think about it... try to suppress my feelings... but they always end up back on the surface again and my pillows stained with tears. thoughts run through my head of the what-ifs, and the what-could-have-beens... thoughts of someone else with a better chance of getting what I want... and I suppress these thoughts until my body can't contain them any longer to the point where I just collapse and just want to be isolated from everything and everyone. I don't want to feel like this. I want to snap out of this daze.

Everything will be alright. Just peachy keen. promise. ]]> ~mzRudeJude http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/5859356/ http://mzRudeJude.deviantart.com/journal/5859356/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 17:40:14 PDT
I'm new here. Still trying to figure this site out... Feel free to comment!

Cheers.

~mzrudejude ]]> ~mzRudeJude