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deviantART: by:nekohime http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:nekohime&section=today deviantART RSS for by:nekohime en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 17:57:39 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png How the hell did I get myself into this... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/28207331/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/28207331/ Sat, 07 Nov 2009 21:33:43 PST

My Gallery

Ugh...sorry about the last post, I think my patience finally wore me down. But I've gotten rid of what's bothered me, so now I can focus.

Somewhat, anyway...

God, I'm not even at 10K for my NaNoWriMo entry. Why on earth am I writing again? *SIGH*

Okay, focus. I need to focus.

And maybe that'll help me where I'm stuck with my art too. Grrrr...

---

I am sorely tempted to make Supernatural fanart. Because we only need one more crazy fangirl to add to the growing population.

I really am blaming Jensen Ackles for this one. And Misha Collins.

]]> *nekohime what kind of bed did you make? http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/27587637/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/27587637/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 21:01:39 PDT

My Gallery

God fucking damn it all.

I hate you. You and your preaching. You and your attempts at being subtle in your bitterness towards what I am and who I am are getting on my last nerve and frankly, you're being about as subtle as a freight train. How the fuck did we become friends when you changed too much just because I couldn't respond to your advances? How the fuck could I have been so blind to remain your friend and think that you still saw me as one. You're obviously living a bitter, empty life and trying to fling barbs at me, sour-graping about my life and then pretending that you had never wanted what I wanted. You said so yourself that the first step to everything is always the hardest to take but you can't be happy for me that I took that first step toward what I wanted? You'd done things to embarrass me, but I'd never brought those up because I chose to forgive you.

All for this? This kind of stupid psychological war that you're trying to wage that I want no part of?! Grow the fuck up and get a new brain, I've never liked psy-wars and fighting one with you is the last thing that I want.

]]> *nekohime Twenty-fucking-five http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/27111598/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/27111598/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 10:46:01 PDT

I wish I didn't wake up today. -__-

]]> *nekohime oh for fuck's sake... =__= http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/26883115/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/26883115/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 19:48:29 PDT
I'm going to have to delete this account if this fucking keeps up. >__>

]]> *nekohime Michael Jackson Memorial http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/25801967/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/25801967/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 17:38:05 PDT
Growing up during the height of his career made me feel even more privileged to be his fan. Though I only had glimpses of him from TV or read about him in news articles, his songs made me feel somehow...closer to him. I suppose I could credit my Dad for introducing me to the music of the Jackson 5. He told me how sweet Michael Jackson sounded as a kid, singing songs that were written for older entertainers with a maturity that even surpassed these entertainers. I remember singing "Santa Claus Is Coming To Town" and giggled when I listened to "I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus" and it made me wonder if Michael ever got to experience that kind of Christmas.

Then I listened to his solo albums and fell in love with Thriller and Bad almost instantly. There was just something extraordinary about this man's lyricism that blew me away and even more so when he danced. I remember that, as a little girl, I wanted to learn how to dance like him and even dreamed of one day being able to ask him to teach me how to moonwalk. And of course, I saved like mad for my own Thriller jacket. I never got that jacket, but MJ was instrumental in influencing me how to curb my spendthrift ways. It seems like such a small thing to other people, but at that time, it was a pretty big thing for me.

Seeing how he'd inspired so many artists from both older and younger generations and how he'd touched the lives of millions of fans around the globe makes it even harder for me to believe that he is truly, physically gone. What has become like a permanent fixture of my childhood, like that old, familiar family couch is now gone. And I am sad.

His life was painful to watch, and as it continued to unfold through the barrage of controversy, I hoped that he would someday find peace and be able to make the biggest comeback in entertainment history like the man he worked hard to become. He's one reason why I can never let go of my inner child and perhaps, will not let go of it forever.

His success in breaking so many racial barriers and uniting people in the MJ Fever is what makes him legendary. I was surprised that he'd made it to the Guiness Book of Records for the most charitable institutions supported by a celebrity. I didn't know that. But that was probably because he had never been one to brag. During all his public appearances, interviews and such, he appealed for nothing but global healing and love for children. At that time, I was a little girl and when he had started his mission to bring more smiles to children, I felt like maybe I could believe in the world a little more.

Some might think I'm exaggerating, but a lot of what he did for the world made someone like me feel happy. I never got to see his concert in Manila, but he went out of his way to visit sick children in the hospitals in Manila and make them smile. It showed on his face how much joy he took in a child's laughter. And that was one reason why I held on to my belief throughout the controversies that Michael was innocent. Indeed, he was proven innocent but the damage had been done and my heart went out to him in the days that he was mocked and ridiculed by people who just refused to understand.

Others may say that he doesn't deserve this kind of tribute, that there are others who deserve much more, but I say that this was a fitting farewell. It was the best kind of send-off for someone who shaped so many lives by moonwalking and creating a form of escapism for us through his music.

Few are privileged to see such a star shine so brightly up close, but Michael made it possible for us to see him shine from every corner of the world. And for that, I thank him for all the music.

I love you, Michael Jackson and I will miss you.

]]> *nekohime RIP... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/25556846/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/25556846/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 01:06:27 PDT I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change

Michael Jackson (August 29, 1958 Â June 25, 2009)

++++

And farewell to one of the most beautiful women in the world...
Be with the angels now...

Farrah Fawcett (February 2, 1947 Â June 25, 2009)

]]> *nekohime Logging back in and hopefully getting my muse back http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/24870005/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/24870005/ Thu, 21 May 2009 08:28:28 PDT

As of now, I have officially moved to New York. We've yet to settle in a place of our own, mom and I, so in the meantime I'm crashing at a relative's in Queens and trying to catch up on my doodling. I've actually missed drawing and admittedly, am more than a little rusty. It's a terrible thing to do, being an artist and then purposely neglecting your art. I come back here and things are different and everyone's art styles have evolved so tremendously. Someday, I really hope I can catch up.

Thanks again for all the comments while I was away.

You guys have actually helped boost my confidence up a little more.

XOXOXO,

]]> *nekohime TO WHOEVER IS HACKING MY PAGE http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/24735636/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/24735636/ Wed, 13 May 2009 10:59:16 PDT
Spare yourself the aggravation, you'll find nothing here.

]]> *nekohime *__* http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/19132070/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/19132070/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 17:06:47 PDT
It's been almost a year and one broken scanner later, I can't upload ANY of my works. Ugh. I have no right to call myself an artist.

There is some good news and I'm happy about this. I'm finally going back to school. AND IN NEW YORK!

Can you feel the excitement?

I'm working on the other requirements needed for enrollment and by August, I'm off! Whoo-hoo! ^_^

]]> *nekohime For the curious http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/14720754/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/14720754/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 20:07:00 PDT
I know you were hoping for that, but it'll take more than prayers to get rid of me.

Secondly, new look, new life.

[link] ; [link] ; [link]

Can I just say I love my hair and yes, I am allowed to be vain?

I'm thinking of getting a lip piercing and a couple of tattoos. I've finally worked up enough courage and made up my mind about the piercings but the tats sort of are an iffy thing because I'd like a design that I'll love for the rest of my life. I was thinking of having the entire heart sutra tattooed on my back, just like Miyavi's but I already have his hairstyle, I don't want to copy his tattoos.

So yes, decisions, decisions...

More art coming. I've recently gotten my groove back and I'm itching to make something again. ^_^

]]> *nekohime WTF!@kjasglajkh http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/14591835/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/14591835/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 15:43:01 PDT
So pissed off.

]]> *nekohime OH MY GOD http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/14036529/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/14036529/ Sun, 05 Aug 2007 23:52:05 PDT
Holy crappola, it's been THAT long since I last logged in here??? *flails at the number of deviations and comments and messages in her inbox*

I have an excuse, I swear! *dodges projectiles* It's called real life + job + girlfriend + lack of motivation to update.

These days, I'm just really too tired to even lift a pen and draw properly. I work nights now and when I get home, I go straight to bed and don't wake up until evening. So yes, a few of my various "territories" online have been forgotten.

But I'm back, more or less. Or I'll TRY to be active again but I can't force myself.

]]> *nekohime *yawn* http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10880743/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10880743/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 15:37:00 PST

The move is this Saturday and it's about damn time too. Gads, I hate packing and all that, but at least we're moving to a better house.

]]> *nekohime Minor update http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10733181/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10733181/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 11:21:26 PST Re: Life in general - We're moving out of our old house on the 25th. Mom's finally gotten us a bigger home and we're all happy with it. My sister and I finally get to have our own room after so very long.

The house is also within Metro Manila already, so I won't be as late for appointments anymore!

For anybody who's curious, send me a NOTE and I'll give you my address.

Things are okay, I'm fine and enjoying life as it comes.

No rushing into anything and I'm feeling good. I think I may be getting a sideline job designing a website for someone, I'm still waiting for them to contact me with the specs. I prefer all these random jobs right now, I'm not intent on getting sucked into the corporate world like last year. *eyeroll*

Re: Art and Writing - While my writing is fairly okay now and I think I'm teetering between obvious disgust for some of the shit I churn out and being 'okay' with other stuff, my art is suffering. Still not confident about it, sorry.

I love to punish myself, unfortunately and the truth is I AM SHY! yes, you heard it right, I'm effing shy when it comes to putting up my art. I go through mental debates all the time. So, anything I put up here were all thought of a hundred times over.

AND NOW, A MINI-RANT...

I'm currently boiling over the fact that my very first transaction on eBay is giving me a whole lot of aggravation!

The fact that the person whom I bought the item from was stupid enough NOT to give me her REAL name...

I sent the money order promptly through Western Union and a few weeks later, I expect to get what I purchased but noooo~~~ The moron complains that he/she hasn't gotten ANYTHING yet, so I give them tracking number and FUCK! It turns out everything was addressed to his/her mother!?!?!?

GOD-FUCKING-DAMMIT-ALL-TO-FUCKING-HELL-WHAT-THE-
FUCKING-FUCKITY-FUCK-FUCK?!?!?!?

SERIOUSLY!

Why the fuck didn't you tell me this before?!?!?!?

skjdfga;ksgakjg

I always refuse to believe that stupidity exists in the world, BUT APPARENTLY THEY LIKE PROVING ME WRONG!!!

*headdesks*

And now the fucker wants me to go and change the name of the recepient to his/her name!?! *insert another long string of invectives here*

If I find out that I have to re-send money, I am demanding a fucking refund! Thank you so VERY KINDLY for making my brain IMPLODE, kthanxbai!!!!!!

]]> *nekohime 15 statements and a Happy Halloween! http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10570017/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10570017/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 11:22:54 PST Taken from

Write fifteen statements
Intended to different people.
Not all to friends.
Never tell which one is to whom.

1. I have moved on and I'm living a fabulous life. You're still bringing last year's shit with you. BELAT!

2. God is good. God is VERY good to us, indeed.

Apir!

3. Must you always bask in my reflected glory? I'd rather avoid you and secure my way into Heaven, thanks.

4. Yuck! You're tainted and I'm three million times hotter than you!

5. Putaragis ka! Ang laki na ng utang mo sakin! I hechu and I wanna feed you to the dogs! You deserve to be sporked and I hope you remain a virgin for the rest of your pathetic life!

6. Tsk, tsk...Don't underestimate me just because I act younger than my age. That's baaaaad~!

Hehehehe.

7. Of all the people in my life, you remain my hero. I love you so much.

8. You couldn't make it in the real world even if you tried, huh? And you say you're hardcore and real?

9. Maturity does not come with biological age. And you've proven that VERY well. Watch me laugh at you!

10. You want to get into a fight with me? Bring it on, bitch!

11. I hope someday to get the chance to really know you guys.

I have a feeling we'd get along very well, if not great.

Now if only I lived closer!

12. I'll never leave you hanging.

You'll always be my bright star.

13. Could anyone be more insane, passionate, and so wonderfully crazy than you guys?

PUTANGINA, I MISS YOU ALL!!!

14. You hot sexy thing!

15. You have a gift, use it. And use it well.

*nekohime grrrr... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10484789/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10484789/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 08:25:00 PDT
They contact me via email and give me their cellphone numbers but if I SMS them or call them, they don't answer.

What's the big deal with you people?! I WANT TO WORK, OKAY?!?!

]]> *nekohime 100 Facts http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10400615/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10400615/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 11:54:24 PDT

1) Full Name: Bona Dea *censored family name for reasons being that I HATE my family name and people rarely get it right*

2) Male/Female: Biologically female

3) Were you named after anyone? No, and I wish I were to have made it easier for me.

4) Does your name mean anything? Good harvest or Good goddess, I have no idea. It's supposed to be from Greek Mythology.

5) Nick Name(s): Maia, Mai-mai, Mai, Maying, Maiatot

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: Maia?

7) Date Of Birth: September 9, 1984

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: General Santos City, Cotabato - Imus, Cavite

9) Nationality: Filipino

10) Astrology Sign: Virgo

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Rat

12) Religion: Agnostic these days

13) Whats your favorite smell? Oceanus by The Bodyshop

14) Political Position? Neutral

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water

16) Hair + Eye colour: Black with red highlights + dark brown

17) Do you look like anyone famous? When I was a kid, they told me I looked like Lea Salonga. And then I had long hair and people called me Alanis Morissette and some went as far as calling me Amy Lee. Now, I'm told I resemble Miyavi sans the piercings and tattoos.

18) What do you look like? A girl who lacks sleep?

19) Any unusual talents? I can sometimes pick things up with my toes?

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? Righty.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Goddess First Class

22) What do you do for a living? Bumming right now, but I'm soon gonna have a job!

23) What do you do for fun? Sing, write, make artworks, dance to disco tunes, goof off, play too many RPGs and strategy games.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with? Pencils, charcoal, watercolor, acrylic, gouache and I'm learing to like ballpens.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with? Oils, but I hate the smell so much.

26) Have you met your grandparents? Yes, I was spoiled rotten by them.

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Not at the moment, I'm going to take a LOOONG vacation from that sort of thing.

It's time for friends again!

28) Crush: Google for Hyde, tetsu, Ken, Kaoru, Heath, hide, Miyavi and Yoshiki.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could? Kate Hudson, Scarlett Johannsen, Monica Belluci, Iza Calzado, Miyavi, Hugh Jackman, Kaoru, hide, Hyde, tetsu, Ken, Yoshiki, Heath, Charlize Theron, Stuart Townsend, Heath Ledger, Jake Gyllenhaal, Dermot Mulroney, Alexis Bledel

30) Current worries? Am I getting... ]]> *nekohime Retarded meme and a random update http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10378869/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10378869/ Fri, 13 Oct 2006 10:51:01 PDT

[x] I have walked into a glass/screen door.

[x ] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face.

[x] I have choked on my own spit.

[ ] I've seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.

[ ] I type only with my pointer fingers.

[x] I have accidently caught something on fire.

[x ] I've told a cop to freck off and gotten screwed for it.

[x] I attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidently went into my nose, rather than my mouth.

[x] Sometimes when I think of something funny, I laugh out loud and people look at me weird.

[x] I've caught myself drooling.

[ ] I've accidentally caused an explosion.

[x] If someone says the word "fart", I can't help but laugh.

[ ] I've turned into a "do not enter" one way road plenty of times.

[x] Sometimes I just stop thinking & zone out.

[ ] It is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow.

[ ] I just tried to lick my elbow.

[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from me.

[x] People often tell me to use my "inside voice".

[x] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking.

[x] I've used my fingers to do simple math.

[x] I've jumped off a moving vehicle.

[ ] I ate a bug for $5 or less.

[x] I'm taking this test when I should be doing something more important.

[ ] I repost chain letters because I'm scared of what they threaten will happen if I dont.

[x] I've done something really stupid while I was drunk.

[ ] I've run around naked when I was drunk.

[ ] I've run into a golfcart tire when I was drunk.

[x] I've searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time.

[x] I accidently break a lot of things.

[ ] My friends know not to use big words around me.

[x] My friends like me because I'm fun to laugh at.

[x] I move my head to the side when im confused.

[x] Sometimes I start telling a story and suddenly forget what I'm talking about.

[x] I've fallen out of my chair before.

[x] When I'm laying in bed, I sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.

I have NO idea if this makes me retarded, but anyway!

Because I'm such a camwhore and I love my new haircut, here are some pics: [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]

I've just put red highlights in them but the webcam quality is shitty, so that'll be up next time.

I

my new look! It's so...androgynous and I actually find myself thinking 'Girl, you're fucking HOT!' on several occasions that I glance at the mirror. For the first time in my life, I'm actually feeling UBER confident about my looks.

And it's not a bad thing, I'm glad I've finally gained some confidence! Oh my god, I want to do a photoshoot just because I feel confident enough to show off. Hahahaha! I'm so crazy!

]]> *nekohime One, Two, step...step by step http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10357564/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10357564/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 11:28:06 PDT

For the curious, I have been filling my brain with nothing but sexy j-rockers since last week in the hopes of getting me back in my writing and drawing groove. Because I DO hate being unproductive and I want muses to help me work.

And I'm also trying to find a job IRL and get my driver's license so I won't have to hear my mother's nagging any longer. Mfff...

I've been steadily downing "Choco Baby" candies. They're from the Meijii brand and...I've just finished my second case and there aren't any more for me to eat.

OH NOES!!!

I joined NaNoWriMo AGAIN and I hope to reach the 50,000 word limit before November. I've already started writing the crappola novel of my 22nd year, but I'm cheating a bit, adding a little bit of stuff I've already written here and there.

I think a lot of other people are doing it, so... *shrugs*

Art-wise, I'm finishing two EXTREMELY late pieces for some friends and I hope they haven't started sharpening their knives yet to kill me.

Sorry, sometimes I'm just not confident enough in what I do that I have to throw away something nearly-finished and start from scratch.

It's how I've always been.

T____T Oh gods, I'm craving for more chocolates. And I need coffee and a cigarette. These two I can find, but the chocolate... mff... what rotten luck. Ah well. Tomorrow might be a good day for Choco Baby... And for a haircut!

]]> *nekohime All Ara's fault! :P http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10302557/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10302557/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 10:24:13 PDT Rules:
1. MUST (!!) answer EVERY SINGLE question (I actually erased some).
2. Be HONEST (uh-huh).
3. Pass onto 6 of your DA friends. (I am not tagging anyone, but if you want to do this you can blame me...)
4. Have fun and let us grow together as a community...yaddayadda...

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF : The Survey

Name: Maia
Birthday: September 09
Birthplace: General Santos Hospital, General Santos City, Cotabato

Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: black with reddish hints
Height: 5" or 5'1", I don't really know. I have this annoying acquaintance who always insists I'm 4'11" just because she's envious that I'm prettier.

Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Filipino, Chinese, Spanish, Lebanese, Italian
The Shoes You Wore Today: Islander slippers.

I didn't go out today.

Your Fears: Not living life to the fullest.
Your Weakness: Sweets, coffee, food in general, gorgeous smiles

Your Perfect Pizza: Manhattan Meatlovers from Yellowcab

Your Most Overused Phrase On an Instant Messenger: OMFG, FTW, LOL, ROFLMAO, ROTFL, WTF, OMG, LMAO
Your Bedtime: 3am
Pepsi or Coke: Sprite!!!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Strawberry na lang para maiba.

Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: Socially.
Do you Sing: ALWAYS!
Have you Been in Love: Yes. And I always find new things to fall in love with. ^_^
Do you want to go to College: Will be going to a new college, yes.

Do you want to get Married: The thought has crossed my mind, but I think it'd have to be to a j-rocker.

Do you believe in yourself: Not all the time, unfortunately.

Do you get Motion Sickness: No.
Are you a Health Freak: NOOOOOOOOO~~~ I don't give a shit, I just give in to whatever cravings I have. Fortunately I DO crave for salads often.

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Ugh. Yes.

In the past month have you Smoked: Yes. I just had 2 sticks now.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: No.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yeah.
Do you work (as in official work): Nope.

In the past month have you eaten Sushi: YES. I

sushi.

In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Yeah. I love sweets, didn't I already mention that?

Number of CDs I own: I dunno, I stopped counting.
Number of Piercings: 2
Number of Tattoos: None
Number of things in my Past I Regret: A LOT

]]> *nekohime Typhoon Milenyo http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10254848/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10254848/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 01:47:19 PDT [link]
[link]
[link]
[link]
[link]

All are links to reports on one of the biggest and strongest typhoons to hit the Philippines in 11 years.

I was stranded at my aunt's house for a good 5 days. The rains were steady until Thursday morning when the REAL fun began. Isn't it ironic though, that the international name for this typhoon was "Xangsane" - which is the Laotian word for "elephant".

So it really DID feel like a herd of elephants tearing through the city. Hundreds were stranded in the rain, there were landslides in several provinces, floods, and those gigantic billboards peppering the city collapsed - some on buses and vans, killing some people and injuring many others. Some billboards that were threatening to collapse had the power lines supporting their weight.

Up to now, people are busy cleaning up after the storm. It left much destruction and while I somehow found beauty in it (because I'm twisted, sorry!

), it has left thousands of others reeling. And while the government makes such an issue about those billboards now, I'm pretty sure that in a month's time, we will have forgotten about people dying under those billboards and we will have moved on in true Filipino fashion.

I don't want to go into details anymore. I'm just glad the power's back. And my beloved Internet is back! *hugs connection*

]]> *nekohime *very amused* http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10128897/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/10128897/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 04:10:11 PDT

and

I now know and I actually spent the better part of the evening laughing.

When I collaborated with Bex, all I was interested in was the opportunity to work with her and create some really awesome images. So that would explain the series of violin shots that are found over at

and

So if some people are still a bit confused, Bex was the photographer and I was the model and we share rights to the pics.

Anyway, Bex and Al just told me that I got featured in a DD. Rather, one of the several shots Bex and I did was featured as a DD. And it had to be this one ---> [link]

I don't know why I find it so funny, but maybe it's because I didn't really think of it as very special compared to the other shots Bex took (and believe me, there were A LOT). Maybe I should have put more in my stock account so you guys could see for yourselves.

This tickles me, seriously.

]]> *nekohime something else http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9998924/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9998924/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 08:17:09 PDT

ART NOVEAU.

Whether you have an LJ or not, you can leave comments - just be sure to leave your name if you're commenting and you don't have an LJ. Title of the entry is "Attack of the pornfic from Hell".

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Oh yeah. I forgot it's my birthday tomorrow.

Erm. Yeah, I forgot again. ]]> *nekohime A crazy music meme http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9952691/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9952691/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 05:57:42 PDT
Put your player on "shuffle" and list down the first 20 songs that pop up. Add "in my pants" at the end of each of the titles.

1. More Than Words in my pants (urm...)
2. World On Fire in my pants O____O;;
3. Lullaby in my pants (dear lord, my player is scaring me!)

4. Power of Two in my pants (WTF is going on in my pants?!)
5. Velvet Underworld in my pants (Jesus, WHAT'S IN MY PANTS? I'm almost afraid to look!

)
6. Digital Butterfly in my pants (*shakes player*)
7. When You're Gone in my pants (*DIES*)

8. With A Smile in my pants
9. Big Yellow Taxi in my pants (omg...)
10. Corazon Espinado in my pants (must be one hell of a party down there, huh? I can hear Santana playing -__-;; )
11. Last Goodbye in my pants
12. Green Apples in my pants (no, I really don't want to look)

13. I Can't Cry Hard Enough in my pants (I suppose nobody can?)
14. I'll Be in my pants (right...and before this, I was naked...)
15. Desperate Angel in my pants (whoa nelly!

)
16. Windmills of Your Mind in my pants
17. Torn in my pants T___T *flails*
18. Pump It in my pants (I doubt anyone would want to do that. Then again, see #9. It might need some gas.)
19. Adia in my pants (Sarah McLachlan, I am SO sorry!)

20. Bad Day in my pants (this is killing me)

I'm stopping now. I realize that even with the amount of randomizing I do, my player will churn out something freaky.

]]> *nekohime Another tag and boredom setting in http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9656528/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9656528/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:34:08 PDT

10 THINGS ABOUT MY ART
tagged by:

1) I've never been able to function properly without a spare notebook or sketchpad in my bag and a bunch of pencils. Whenever I misplace my sketchpads or pencil case, I go slightly crazy and bounce off the walls and throw tantrums.

2) My biggest inspirations lie in surrealism and gothic art, even though I'm not that good at both, I still try my best. I

the works of Rene Magritte and Ayami Kojima the most and I try sometimes to inject their style into my art.

3) I'm unfortunately not very good with digital art and until now, my WACOM tablet remains untouched. I think it's mad at me now.

4) I tend to not put a price on my art. When someone asks for one of my drawings, I just give it away without hesitation. Bad habit, I know. Especially when it's something I can't reproduce.

5) Whenever I can't think of anything to add to an artwork, I take a LONG walk around the suburb where I live with my iPod Shuffle in my ears playing Van Halen, Nightwish, In Flames and Symphony X.

I dunno, it usually works well for me.

6) I cannot function well making art without coffee and a tuna sandwich. If I can't have one of both, I get cranky.

7) I can't stand having an audience when I draw. Especially an audience that asks too many questions simultaneously or too loudly in my ear.

8) I originally wanted to stay away from deviantART because I thought I needed to be a professional artist to have an account.

9) I have a drawing dummy at home that I named "Steven".

It's silly, yes, but you haven't heard the names I gave my two guitars and my three knives.

10) Most of my art involves A WHOLE LOT of happy accidents. I swear. Each and every one of my works has a ton of mistakes that I tried to cover up. (except for my desktop wallpapers and photographs)

Tagging:

*nekohime Tadaima! (and well, a rant) http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9601198/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9601198/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 18:45:09 PDT

Of course now, my mood plummeted when I came home to find that our desktop PC has been infected by a virus and it's all my mom's fault. No wonder she was anxious to get me and my brother home. -_-;; As soon as I heard the words "total reformat", my stomach twisted and I felt like a ton of bricks crashed down on me and the first thing I mentally screamed was 'No...no...nononononononoNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!'

Oh god... all the precious files in there... Pictures I saved from friends, Thomas' pictures, my unfinished fics, my website layouts, my scanned artworks...AND ALL THOSE MUSIC FILES!!!

NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sobs openly*

Mom explained that she had accidentally opened a file attachment in her email that was in '.exe' format and I wanted to tear my hair out and take back all the make-up I bought for her but GAH! All I could do was stare in stunned silence at the computer while my brother was desperately trying to fix it...

Shitshitshitshitshit... AUGH! All that hard work! T___T I shouldn't have trusted my mom to handle that pc and just backed up all files the way Thomas oh-so-consistently reminded me to, even up to now. Effing computer programmers...I hate it when they're right. T__T

*sigh*

But well, at least I came back in one piece and still as gorgeous and as sexy as ever.

(I'm trying to psyche myself out of wallowing over the PC, can't you guys tell?) ]]> *nekohime Tagging http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9534163/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9534163/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 14:37:13 PDT
+ + + + +

from

10 things that begin with the letter E

1) Ego - We've all got an ego, I've pretty much got ont too. I just inflate it whenever I really need to. Like say, when people tell me I'm ugly, I just shove my modelling portfolio in their faces.

2) Eggplant - One of the things I will NEVER EVER EAT and for GOOD REASONS. I swear. There's a horror story behind eggplants that have traumatized me for life.

3) Evanescence - Yes, the band. Some of you may think they're posers, but I listen to them when the mood strikes.

4) Eggs - I prefer my eggs over-easy or

5) Endless - Neil Gaiman's characters draw much inspiration from me.

6) Ether - I carry a spray can wherever I go in case of pervs.

7) Elevators - I hate them. I hate waiting for them. I usually take the stairs.

8) Elephants - I remember an elephant making the news once for running loose and entering a highway.

That shit was funny.

9) East - For some reason, I love that point on the compass more than all the others. Dunno, I'm weird that way, I guess.

10) Eucalyptus - I love the smell of eucalyptus. And having them grow in your backyard help ward of mosquitoes, guaranteed!

Now, pick a letter from this word and go make your own list ---> C H U V A

It's a gayspeak word in the Philippines. It means just about anything, actually.

]]> *nekohime How about it? http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9496158/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9496158/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 00:40:17 PDT
Wow.

What a "dad". ]]> *nekohime Here, have an update... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9334462/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9334462/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 16:11:48 PDT
(This is going to be something very personal. If you don't want to read this, please just skip this entry and go someplace happier.)

I'm tired of people assuming instead of asking. It's come to the point that the real-life friendships I've made are wavering because of all these assumptions flying about and the lack of initiative from these people to approach me instead and simply ASK QUESTIONS. Even my own friends are better at making assumptions than talking it out and I'm sure as hell fucking tired of it.

So you want the dirty details of my life spilled out? Sure, I'll bring it right here.

First of all, I did not take this US vacation to see the sights or to go to AAU to inquire about enrolling before heading back to the Philippines to finalize my student visa.

I came to the US because my mother begged me to try and patch things up with her husband, the man I once referred to as "Dad". But just two hours ago, when I had tried talking things out with him in the hopes that after everything was said and done, we both could lay down the past and start fixing our relationship, everything fell apart.

I used to look up to that man and call him my hero. But then one night when I was 12, he woke me up at 3 AM and told me to my face that I wasn't his daughter. And then he went on to tell me that my mother was a whore.

This cycle continued all throughout highschool, in spite of my efforts to try to reach out to him and make him see that I still loved him in spite of the hurtful things he had been spreading about me, my mother and my mother's family to complete strangers. It came to the point that I felt I was growing up without parents because both him and my mom were too involved in their fighting to actually understand that they had children who needed their guidance. In highschool, I never felt I had parents and I always felt that I was living a lie when people would ask me about the kind of parents I had and I would just smile and say that they were great parents.

The man my mother married resorted to using me as a shock absorber and told me just how much of a whore he thought my mother was and all that, just because she wasn't a virgin anymore when they got married. He told me that I belonged to someone named Mike Vasquez and that there was no chance on Earth that he sired me. And I think he just took too much pleasure in breaking my mom's heart to even care that he was also hurting his other children.

I am only thankful that my siblings haven't been scarred by him and were too young to remember anything he had said or done in the past because they still love him and look up to him and respect him. I, on the other hand, no longer want to try.

My mom convinced me that this time, he would listen. But I am turning 22 and all he has done is deny, deny, DENY. A couple of years back, he went as far as wishing my mother would get cancer and die and he said once again that I wasn't his daughter. My mother had saved his SMSes on her phone and when I read them, I was beyond anger. I have told my mom that it's better that she leaves him because he has not changed. I have told my mom that he will always run away from the issues that people have against him and he will always refuse to acknowledge his faults. Mom has told me, however, that she was able to convince him to listen to me, since he expressed his worry that I was drifting apart from him. She told him to just listen to what I had to say, listen to me shout, rage, cry and just insult him so that I could let out every hurt that I have been feeling for almost 10 years of my life.

Mom told him that if it really mattered to him, he would allow me to just say whatever I could say in front of him and he agreed. He prodded me ever since I came to his house to talk to him and I had tried to summon up enough courage the entire three weeks prior to my visit to Daly City just to say everything that I had kept bottled up inside me.

Right now, I'm crying over the keyboard because I'm tired. Because I've done all the shouting that I could possibly do and telling him just how much he hurt me, but all he did was deny that he had ever done anything to me and then tell me that my mother was the person who was presuming that he felt that way about me. And so I told him he didn't fucking deserve to be with someone like my mom who so stupidly defends him and tries to justify his actions in front of a heartbroken daughter. I told him he deserves his back pain, I told him he deserved his misery, I told him he deserved to freeze his ass off here in Daly City and I told him he deserved to not be with his kids because of how prideful and stubborn he i... ]]> *nekohime :D :D :D http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9265961/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9265961/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 23:08:39 PDT Andaming tao siguro sa Araneta...

Man, I LOVE boxing! I can't help it, I've always thought it thrilling to just watch two men throwing punches at each other. Or well, maybe I'm Pinoy that way. A lot of Filipinos find glory in boxing because it's one of the few sports they actually excel in.

So congrats to my boxing hero on another victory!

And my cousin just got engaged a few days ago.

It's about damn time.

Yay!!! ]]> *nekohime *GRINS* http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9227541/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9227541/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:54:58 PDT Superman Returns just a few hours ago and yes, I'm just very happy that it was a good movie and that Brandon Routh eerily resembles Christopher Reeve in many parts of the movie and yet holds his own and gives his own touch to the role of the caped one.

Yes, I wanted to cry when I watched it but I held back my tears because I had company with me.

I love the Superman series for a lot of sentimental reasons and seeing it on the big screen again with the same incredible musical scoring by John Williams...

*sniffles*

I love how Bryan Singer continues to surprise me as a director. Okay, maybe some won't like it when they see it and will think of the new Superman as nothing more than a corpse, but hey, he IS the Man of Steel, he HAS that trademark pose. Ah well, it's for you guys to judge once you watch it. All I know is that I enjoyed it immensely and I'll probably get a DVD copy of it.

It's good to have Superman back on the screen. I like having my childhood heroes making appearances every now and then and it feels plenty good to relive my childhood through them.

]]> *nekohime LA http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9135121/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9135121/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 09:01:58 PDT
I spent most of our flight asleep and mentally cursing the flight attendants who were on PMS and woke up to a really nice breakfast meal of longganisa, boneless bangus and garlic rice with scrambled eggs.

I love Pinoy breakfasts.

We arrived and went out for burgers at this place called "In-N-Out" and I'm really sorry to the Americans who may be reading this but...

WHY ARE YOUR BURGERS SO BLAND???

I'm already missing REAL Filipino food, where the servings are just right and the flavors are so varied that you easily get stuffed.

I miss my country already. *sniffles* ]]> *nekohime So long... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9113925/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9113925/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 09:27:09 PDT
Gyeh. I can't believe I'll be waiting for 3 damn hours in the airport just to board the plane. Already I'm hating international flights.

I miss my friends already and I haven't even left yet. I miss the people of

, I miss the band, I miss the Windangers, I miss my dearest little sister

...

*sobs*

I HATE PARTINGS.

*Fag-hag mode ON*

Hoy, kayong mga walang-hiyang hayup kayo!

Wag na wag ninyo akong kalimutan, mga leche kayo! Minsan lang ako nagiging ganito ka-bakla para sa inyo!!! Waaaaahhhh~!!! Kukurutin at kukurutin ko kayo kapag nasubukan n'yong kalimutan ako! Ang mga katulad kong diyosa ay hindi dapat kinakalimutan!

Hehehehe...

]]> *nekohime ..... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9098742/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9098742/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 18:24:24 PDT
At 101 years old, he was still strong and coherent and could remember almost all his relatives and loved to talk about farming and planting trees.

When Thomas and I visited him just a few months ago, he was lying in bed and was taking a nap but he woke up just to talk to us and he remembered who I was.

And now he's gone.

And I miss him so much... ]]> *nekohime Vacation pics http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9047314/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9047314/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 13:29:03 PDT

Just click on this [link] ]]> *nekohime Sad... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9045108/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9045108/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 09:22:02 PDT

Be warned! Artists, writers, people on DA, please always be vigilant about your works! Put a watermark on your pieces all the time and in such a way that rippers can't erase them!

This is so sad...

When will they ever learn?

]]> *nekohime A song for women http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9026738/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/9026738/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 10:14:03 PDT Endangered Species
by Dianne Reeves

I am an endangered species
But I sing no victims song
I am a woman I am an artist
And I know where my voice belongs

I am a woman I exist
I shake my fist but not my hips
My skin is dark my body is strong
I sing of rebirth no victims song

I am an endangered species
But I sing no victims song
I am a woman I am an artist
And I know where my voice belongs

They cut out my sex they bind my feet
Silence my reflex no tongue to speak
I work in the fields I work in the store
I type up the deals and I mop the floors

I am an endangered species
But I sing no victims song
I am a woman I am an artist
And I know where my voice belongs

My body is fertile I bring life about
Drugs, famine, and war, take them back out
My husband can beat me his right they say
And rape isnt rape you say I like it that way

I am an endangered species
But I sing no victims song
I am a woman I am an artist
And I know where my voice belongs
I know where my soul belongs
I know where I belong ]]> *nekohime Quick update http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8859258/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8859258/ Tue, 23 May 2006 23:12:10 PDT
I'm having a lot of fun, got myself a tan at the beach and I'm still going to another beach tomorrow.

To my darling muse: I'll be back, love! I promise!

I love you so much!

]]> *nekohime Ready for Love http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8803740/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8803740/ Thu, 18 May 2006 10:23:47 PDT

: "Amazing" by George Michael

Mood:

Oh mama, I've been hit by cupid!!!

: "The Violin" by Anne Rice

I AM READY FOR LOVE.

I can feel it in my bones.

*sigh*

I'm in love. I'm so so so in love. My new muse is just so wonderful...

I love you.

I love you so much, you sexy thing!

I love you, dammit.

I can't help it, you're simply amazing!

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
That day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing
The way that love can set you free

So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my savior would come
I think it's amazing
I think it's amazing

I think you're amazing

-- Amazing by George Michael

And you're so damn insatiable and I just love you, beautiful!

[edit]

Boo! Elliot Yamin got voted out! Damn it all to hell!!! I wanted him to win!

]]> *nekohime On translating songs and American Idol http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8775416/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8775416/ Mon, 15 May 2006 06:44:45 PDT BITUING WALANG NINGNING
lyrics by George Canseco
sung originally by Sharon Cuneta

Kung minsan ang pangarap
Habambuhay itong hinahanap
Bakit nga ba nakapagtataka
'Pag ito ay nakamtan mo na
Bakit may kulang pa

Mga bituin aking narating
Ngunit langit ko pa rin ang iyong piling
Kapag tayong dalawa'y naging isa
Kahit na ilang laksang bituin
'Di kayang pantayan ating ningning

Balutin mo ako ng hiwaga ng iyong pagmamahal
Hayaang matakpan ang kinang na 'di magtatagal
Mabuti pa kaya'y maging bituing walang ningning
Kung kapalit nito'y walang paglaho mong pagtingin

Itago mo ako sa lilim ng iyong pagmamahal
Limutin ang mapaglarong kinang ng tagumpay
Sa piling mo ngayon ako'y bituing walang ningning
Nagkukubli sa liwanag ng ating pag-ibig

Mga bituin aking narating
Ngunit langit ko pa rin ang iyong piling
Kapag tayong dalawa'y naging isa
Kahit na ilang laksang bituin
'Di kayang pantayan ating ningning

Balutin mo ako ng hiwaga ng iyong pagmamahal
Hayaang matakpan ang kinang na 'di magtatagal
Mabuti pa kaya'y maging bituing walang ningning
Kung kapalit nito'y walang paglaho mong pagtingin

Itago mo ako sa lilim ng iyong pagmamahal
Limutin ang mapaglarong kinang ng tagumpay
Sa piling mo ngayon ako'y bituing walang ningning
Nagkukubli sa liwanag ng ating pag-ibig

Nagkukubli sa liwanag at kislap ng ating pag-ibig

I've tried translating this song.

It's just not the same... Such beautiful and poignant lyrics only gets lost in translation... PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO SING IT IN ENGLISH.

It will sound horrible to your ears. I prefer you sing the Tagalog version. X_X An excerpt from the translation goes:

"I'd rather be a star without brilliance
If only to have your never-ending love"

"In your embrace I am a star without brilliance
Hiding in the light of our love"

Now seriously, the Tagalog version sounds INFINITELY BETTER. There are just some songs that refuse to be translated.

"Bituin" means "Star" for the benefit of my dear non-Filipino friends. It sounds nice actually when you say it, like "etoile" sounds to my ears.

I think it's a lot classier than saying "star" which is so horribly simple.

George Canseco - bless his soul - is revered as one of the greatest Filipino song writers ever and without a doubt, he should be. The man's songs are difficult to translate after all, and far too poetic for me who speaks poor and horribly colloquial Filipino.

Now if only they got someone else to sing that song and not Sarah Geronimo.

Chris Daughtry is gone from American Idol and I am SORE. Chris, come back!!! PLEASE!!!

I miss his vocals, I miss his presence that just lights up the entire stage... I still can't believe he got voted out, especially after how incredible his performances were. Grrr...

I admit, I love watching American Idol. Other people might consider it stupid, but I am a fan of singing competitions, having been in several competitions myself, both solo and choral.

I like getting up on stage and performing, even more so when it's a competition. There's a lot more pressure and it's fantastic and scary at the same time.

I actually get more nervous when I'm asked to speak in front of an audience than sing. Anyone else here who shares that sentiment?

Who among you get more nervous when you have to speak in front of an audience than when you have to dance or sing or act?

http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8749142/ Fri, 12 May 2006 22:45:10 PDT

Directions: Open your choice of music player and put it on shuffle. Press play. For every question, type the song thats on. When you go to a new question press the next button.

Opening Credits: "Away From the Sun" by 3 Doors Down (I can already tell that my life as a movie will be full of existential angst)

Waking Up: "Kung Okey Lang Sa'yo" by True Faith (Wehhh??? WHYYY???)

Average Day: "Jesus Take the Wheel" by Carrie Underwood (I think I'd need this more for a bad, BAD day)

First Date: "Foolish Heart" by Nina (WTF?! Foolish for agreeing to that first date?! Oh no!!!

)

Falling In Love: "Fell In Love With A Boy" by Joss Stone (Oh gads, when I fall in love, it's going to sound too sexy for comfort! Ang landi mo, Maia! Shet, ang landi mo!!!

)

Fightscene: "Les Yeux Ouverts" (*WINDANG* MY FIGHT SCENE WILL BE CHOREOGRAPHED TO A FRENCH SONG?! Oh gads, my music player in Shuffle Mode is crazy!)

Breaking Up: "Give Me One Reason" by Tracy Chapman (Oh, we're going to be going around in circles now, are we?

)

Getting Back Together: "More Than Words" by Extreme (Yeah, why would you have to keep going around me in circles anyway when it's damn obvious?

)

Secret Love: "I Sleep But My Heart Wakes" by Fruit Sandal (Ahuuuuu~~~!

)

Life's Okay: "The Right Kind of Love" by Jeremy Jordan (Ah, elementary days!!!

)

Mental Breakdown: "Chopsuey" by System of a Down

("Wake up! Bawal sa lalakeng magpa-pick up! Bawal sa babae ang mag-make-up!" Sorry, bad joke, I can't help it...

)

Driving: "Venus" by Bananarama (Someone had better take the wheel, I'll be car-dancing to this song.

)

Learning a Lesson: "Careless Whisper" by George Michael (Oh gad! Oh gahahahahad~!! How APT!

)

Deep Thought: "Analyse" by Cranberries (Yeah, I figured as much

)

Flashback: "Almost Honest" by Megadeth

Partying: "Be With You" by Atomic Kitten (let's go disco! Wahoo!!!

)

Happy Dance: "Volare" by Gypsy Kings (And they're French?! Al, tell me it isn't true!!! x_x The universe is playing tricks on me!)

Regretting: "All You Wanted" by Michelle Branch (WAAAAAAAAAHHHH~!!!

)

Long Night Alone: "Out Of Reach" by Gabrielle (Yeah, yeah, make me feel miserable why don't you?!

http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8737922/ Thu, 11 May 2006 13:50:51 PDT

: "It's Raining Men" by The Pointer Sisters

Mood:

YES!!! RAIN!!! BLESSED RAIN!!!

: "The Solitaire Mystery" by Jostein Gaarder

IT'S RAINING~!!!!! IT'S FINALLY RAINING~!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSS~!!!!!! I LOVE THE WORLD TODAY~!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!!!!

http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8708680/ Mon, 08 May 2006 09:09:50 PDT : "Dressed for Success" by Roxette
Mood: Why is it always so hot and humid at the same time?!
: "The Solitaire Mystery" by Jostein Gaarder

Four Jobs I've had-
1. Customer service agent (outsourcing, graveyard shift)
2. Porn movie transcriber (MY DIGNITY~!!! WAAAAAH!!!) T___T
3. Freelance artist
4. Band vocalist

Four Movies that I could watch over and over-
1. Star Wars (4, 5, 6 only)
2. Big Fish (actually, anything by Tim Burton, I can watch all over again)
3. Dead Poets Society
4. Sin City

Four Places I've lived-
1. Cagayan de Oro (Philippines)
2. Cebu City (Philippines)
3. Cavite (Philippines)
4. General Santos, Cotabato (Philippines)... gads, I've never been out of the country!

Four TV shows I love-
1. CSI Miami
2. House (I Dr. House's sarcasm)
3. Supernatural
4. The Practice (yeah, I plan to be a lawyer someday)

Four Places I've been on holiday-
1. Pangasinan (boating is a good way to get around the small islands)
2. Tuguegarao (see the caves, definitely!)
3. Vigan (you'll feel as if you've stepped into the pages of a history book)
4. Sagada (up in the mountains where you see nothing but mists) ... again, these are all places in the Philippines, but I've never been to such lovely locations in my life either, so I'm quite proud I went around my country first.

Four web sites I visit lots-
1. Deviantart
2. Super Robot Wars (er... I DO have a geeky side to me and I love mecha fights. )
3. StickDeath.com (Yeah, I can be sadistic too )
4. Fanfiction.Net (I love returning to my roots of fandom writing there)

Four favourite foods-
1. Mom's pochero
2. Chinese spring rolls
3. Baked clams
4. Tiramisu

Four Places I'd rather be-
1. Monaco
2. Tuscany
3. In bed with a certain someone *sigh* I MISS so much!
4. Somewhere rainy right about now.

And again, I tag anybody who wants to do this! ]]> *nekohime Meme time~! XD http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8668469/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8668469/ Thu, 04 May 2006 05:46:52 PDT : "So Wonderful, So Marvelous" by Tower of Power
Mood:
: "Unexpected Magic" by Diana Wynne Jones

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people. Ready, Start!

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21.

*nekohime ANG INIT! http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8631789/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8631789/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 14:26:05 PDT : "Shape of My Heart" by Sting
Mood:
: "Unexpected Magic" by Diana Wynne Jones

Seriously.

WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH THE HEAT?! If this goes on, people here are going to die of heat stroke in their sleep. I'm not kidding. 39ºC is just TOO MUCH. And OH MY GOD, I just checked the weather forecast and Manila is going to be experiencing 40ºC of heat later? What a Labor Day this is going to be.

I'm going to be showering all day long if this keeps up. Unfortunately I share the house with 5 other people so my mom will kill me if I hog the bathroom. I remember I said I hate bathroom hogs in another journal post but now, we seem to be doing it a lot, fighting over the bathroom. And I know my friends on my LJ who are also on my friends list here on DA are probably tired of hearing me rant on and on about the heat, but seriously, this kind of heat is unberable. It's like Manila has this clear circle of sky around it while the rest of Southeast Asia is cloudy. T___T

Any available Europeans out there for me to marry? Or maybe Scandinavians? Or Russians? Or hell, ANYONE WHO LIVES IN A COLD PLACE?

I wish the rain would come soon. Then I'll be able to wander out of the house and go through heavy downpour with a smile on my face.

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Sacred Geometry" (portrait for )
"La Belle Dams Sans Merci" (portrait for )
"The Endless" (mixed media; LATE gift for ) [50%]
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for ) [75%]
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

*nekohime Just a random journal note... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8604952/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8604952/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 18:10:47 PDT <--- that for emphasis. Damn all the lack of proper ventilation in this house! I couldn't concentrate and I kept getting up and leaving my table just to get some water to drink. That's how hot it is now.

According to the weather forecast, it's about 34°C outside. Gah. I do NOT want to go out. I'm supposed to watch Silent Hill with the siblings, but we're all too lazy and too overcome with heatstroke to go anywhere.

I feel so unsexy today. I hate that kind of feeling.

Going to sleep now!

I'll edit this later when I'm coherent... x_X ]]> *nekohime What? Another random journal update? http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8558705/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8558705/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 09:19:21 PDT : "Can't Take My Eyes Off You" by Boystown Gang
Mood: KAPE! Dammit~! KAPEEEE~!
: "Unexpected Magic" by Diana Wynne Jones

I'm trying to ignore the infection in my left ear that's been bugging me for two days already and all because of my earring. Weird how it only affects my left ear and yet my right ear is perfectly fine and I have the other earring on.

Yesterday I went driving around UP in spite of 36 hours of no sleep. It was quite fun to drive around and I actually feel at home driving our van. Even my sister said that for one who was still learning, my driving was smoother than she had expected.

Mom's gone up to the mountains with her project team for another workshop and won't be back until Tuesday and then she'll be flying to Mindanao the same day and won't be back until Friday. Gah, what will I do without my mom? I can't function properly without my mom! The siblings, on the other hand, seem to be taking everything in stride and are partying to the fact that no one's going to pressure them into sleeping early. Heck, my two brothers have already abused the PS2 all day and they're now fighting over the other desktop to play LOTR.

I'm rather bored right now so I'll just post this funny list for the benefit of everyone Pinoy out there.

You know you're Pinoy if...

You're related to everyone. (and boy, did I get THAT feeling when I visited Mom's hometown.)

You eat more than three times a day.

You think that a meal is not a meal without rice.

Your dining table has a merry-go-round (lazy susan) in the middle.

You tail an ambulance just to beat the traffic. ( We actually did this before! )

You think traffic regulations are recommendations, not rules.

Signs like "No left turn" or "No U-turn" applies to everybody but yourself.

You think a yellow light means "Step on the gas, you'll make it!" and the guy behind you is counting on you to do just that. (This one my mom does al... ]]> *nekohime 6 Weird Things About Me http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8485526/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8485526/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 04:40:42 PDT : "Of Sins and Shadows" by Symphony X (thanks to the boyfriend for introducing me to the band )
Mood: Writer's Block...OH NO~!!!
: "Smoke and Mirrors" by Neil Gaiman

I was tagged by and I ought to do this because for the lack of better things to write, these memes are a good substitute.

6 weird things about me:

1. I collect knives and I name them all. So far, two of them have been named after characters from Shakespeare's tragedies.

2. I sometimes love pain and gore a little TOO much. To a point that I sometimes eroticize blood. And on that note, I'm very determined to someday make a painting using my own blood.

3. When I eat either a sandwich or a slice of pizza, I like to bite off the sides and leave the center until the last bite.

4. I color code my clothes when I arrange my closet.

5. I have a paper fetish and I love buying sketchpads or notebooks with very smooth paper.

6. I love the smell of fish sauce. (patis in Tagalog)

Now tagging:

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Portrait of Thomas..." (mixed media; surreal; a very long title)
"The Endless" (mixed media; LATE gift for ) [50%]
"Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for ) [DONE!!!]
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for ) [75%]
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LI... ]]> *nekohime Holy Week...Oh noooo~! http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8436154/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8436154/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 08:37:09 PDT : "Falling In Love (Is So Hard on the Knees" by Aerosmith
Mood: HOT HOT HOT~!
: "Smoke and Mirrors" by Neil Gaiman

Holy Week is coming up and I am partially dreading it.

We used to be able to go on vacation for Holy Week, but now my mom has this idea in her head that we all need salvation because we're discussing philosophies at home ranging from Nietzche to Kafka to Sartre to Confucius and we start bringing up questions about God and she will make us endure almost every Filipino Catholic tradition there is to endure.

I mean, I do believe in God, don't get me wrong there. I'll always believe in God, but I don't believe in the kind of god my mother and grandmother force me to believe in. They say God is all-merciful and all-loving but they also use God as emotional blackmail and a way to make me feel guilty, saying God will smite me for my sins. Which is kind of...well contradictory to what they say about God being forgiving and all about the love.

So I believe God is fair. God is discerning. God is just. But God is not humane. Not for me. Because you need to be fair, you need to be impartial. If someone does something wrong, he has to pay his dues. And that's the kind of God I believe in. One who will impose justice where it is due.

Now my mom is a deeply religious and spiritual person. Sometimes, when she gets into evangelizing mode, she gets scary and borders on near-fanatic. At the same time, she's a woman who tries to be a mother and friend to her children by encouraging free discussions and being as diplomatic as she can at home. Of course we try to avoid hurting her feelings when we talk about these things but sometimes, things DO get crazy and we start debates and then you'll hear my mom say "Oh, what's happening to you? I'm going to have to pray for you..."

Gyah. She makes it sound like we're all going to Hell. x_x;; My brother Cyril, believes that God is dead and we have killed God. He's a hardcore Nietzche fan. Kissy (she's called that for a reason, I'll explain it in my next post), my little sister, believes that God will always exist if we believe Him to exist. My youngest brother, Vinny, believes that God and Satan play poker every second Wednesday of the month.

Between those three, I think I go most for the one about God and Satan being regular poker buddies.

Unfortunately, my mom believes in neither of our versions of God.

So this Holy Week, we will be visiting 7 churches, pray the entire 14 Stations of the Cross, and endure a 3-hour mass we don't understand on Good Friday, while our friends will be on vacation somewhere else like in the mountains or at the beach.

T___T

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Portrait of Thomas..." (mixed media; surreal; a very long title)
"The Endless" (mixed media; LATE gift for ) [50%]
"Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for ) [DONE!!!]
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for ) [75%]
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandr... ]]> *nekohime Happy Happy Happy http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8382535/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8382535/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 09:22:36 PDT : "Shape of my Heart" by Sting
Mood: : Happy and High

Today I finished a photoshoot with and the pictures are more than what I expected. Thank you so much, Becky! I love what we did today and I'm glad I got the chance to work with you! It's always a pleasure to work with fellow artists.

Guys! Gals! Everyone! This is and she's the greatest! Show her some love!

And this is a nudge in your general direction to start collaborating! This is how art should be! A meeting of the minds! Something that stretches beyond the borders of your horizons!

Now go go go!

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "The Endless" (mixed media; LATE gift for )
"Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for )
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for )
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

PROUD MEMBER OF :

... ]]> *nekohime Horny Minds and a Bitch Unleashed in the Grocery http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8352024/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8352024/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 09:51:21 PDT : "Ring My Bell" by Anita Bell
Mood: :

Met up with Peloy, my friend whom I could undoubtedly call my twin brother because we practically have almost the same personalities...same sense of humor, same obssessive-compulsive disorders, same sex appeal (?! Hahah, dream on, Maia!)...

And well, when two horny minds meet, you'd expect the innuendoes to start flying around...

Me: Oh god, twin! I've been successfully deflowered!
Peloy: Ahahaha! Oh man, the bud has opened!
Me: Yes, and how the bee stings!
Peloy: Well, careful that you won't get swollen with the pollen!

*me and Peloy cracking up with evil laughter*

And I think the people in OZ Cafe got this feeling that they were serving two psychos so they stayed behind the counter, hidden from our view.

I also told him about the latest bitchessa incident I had last Saturday at the grocery right after my brother's graduation. I was pushing our shopping cart to the counter with my little sister in tow and there was this guy walking SLOWLY in front of us, swinging his empty shopping bag with nary a care in the world. Because I was in such a hurry to get home, I got pissed off and pushed the cart forcefully so that it would hit him from behind.

The guy stopped, turned around, and stared at us. But instead of me apologizing, it was my little sister who spouted off all apologies while I just kept glaring at the guy.

And my little brother, the graduate, saw all of what was happening and he said "Oh my god! You bitch! I'm telling mom!" And so off he scampers with my little sister at his heels, also just as eager to tell my mother about what their big sister had just done.

After much giggling, they tattle on me, describing in exact detail what a horrendous mistake I had made and my mom just cracked up and said "Yes, you really ARE my daughter. Except I would have also yelled at the guy for not getting out of the way."

And Peloy told me he was just happy that the one thing that hasn't changed about me is that I'm as colorful a character as the first time we met.

So before we part ways, he hugs me and says: "Gads, Maia, you're STILL a bitch!"

Yes, what a day to remember, indeed...

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "The Endless" (mixed media; LATE gift for )
"Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for )
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for )
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (penc... ]]> *nekohime An End-of-March Resolution :P http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8320848/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8320848/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 06:25:12 PST : "Breathe Today" by Flyleaf
Mood: : CRAZY!

My youngest brother is officially graduating tomorrow and we're all beaming with pride. Well, he didn't reap any honors and that sort of disappoints my mom a little, but for me, I'm glad he was able to successfully overcome one hurdle in his academic life. Hopefully, he'll have a lot more fun once he gets to highschool.

The lower back problem I used to keep having is almost gone. The wonders of stretching. has resolved to do some working out everyday by doing 20 minutes on a treadmill and I'm inspired to have my own workout because now I do feel that I'm slowing down a little when I walk and I can't walk as far as I used to without losing my breath after a while.

So here's what I'm going to do starting Saturday morning...

30 minutes on mom's stairmaster
+
30 minutes of weights, sit-ups and push-ups
+
30 minutes of Pilates
=
hopefully a more agile and healthy Maia.

And I have to make sure that I do this everyday, not just 3 times a week. 3 times a week would just make me forget and then go back to my old habits. And I have to admit, I miss my 23 and 1/2 inch waistline, so this is probably for vanity's sake too.

And I will make it a habit to go to bed no later than 11pm and wake up at 7:30am to do my workout and then get started on my art and writing.

So yes, I'm gonna get a LOT MORE physical this summer. No more bumming around on the couch or falling back into sleep after waking up! That has GOT to go!

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "The Endless" (mixed media; LATE gift for )
"Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for )
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for )
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)<... ]]> *nekohime Ligaya!!! XD http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8301253/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8301253/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 06:47:09 PST : "Ligaya" by The Eraserheads
Mood: : loved

Sagutin mo lang ako, aking sinta'y
Walang humpay na ligaya

At asahang iibigin ka
Sa tangahali, sa gabi at umaga
Huwag ka sanang magtanong at magduda
Dahil ang puso ko'y walang pangamba
Lahat tayo'y mabubuhay ng tahamik at buong
Ligaya

Yes, that's right. You just tell me that you're mine and I swear you're going to be happy for the rest of your life.

The cold seems to be getting better but I'm also in a fairly good mood today and I've been trying to make heads or tails of what I should do next, like maybe make a kiriban for someone who deserves it. Better yet, get my butt moving faster on the gift art I promised some friends.

Ah, I love my broadband connection. It's so much easier to just download all the music I want and everything uploads faster. *snuggles broadband*

I'm going to talk to my mom about kung-fu lessons.

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for )
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for )
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

PROUD MEMBER OF :

http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8283215/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 10:05:35 PST : "Walking on Broken Glass" by Annie Lennox
Mood: : having a cold

I hate the humidity of my country sometimes. It's the number one reason why I get a cold so often. I probably get more colds during the summertime more than during the rainy season, which is even more weird. And I hate having to blow my nose all the time. Someone has to catch my nose already!

I'm supposed to enroll in driving lessons this entire summer and mom's telling me I have an option to enroll in something else, but I have no idea what will work best for me. So far, I have 3 options, all of which I want to do:

1) Kung fu
2) Going back to violin
3) REALLY learning French (I think I already owe it to the bf to learn his language )

Any suggestions? Because I'm completely right now.

Been staring at the bf's pics that I still have on my cellphone and I'm sorely missing him.

Actually, I don't really know if we're really together-together in a sense... Maybe we are and maybe we aren't since he gets these bouts of uncertainty all the time and I'm practically getting numb to it and accepting that he's just the way he is when he's like that.

I wish we were closer to each other. Now more so than ever. It's nice to cuddle up to someone during the early hours of the day when everyone around you is still waking up. And the smooches are nice too.

I'm not usually like this. I think the only person I'm openly sweet to is my mom. I can allow her to baby me or hug me or kiss my cheek in public and I reciprocate a lot. But with the bf, I kind of like to reserve that kind of affection for when we're alone, even if I get the feeling that he likes a little show every now and then. So yeah, I guess I'm still biased to my mom and I'm still more proud of the love I have for my mom than what I have for my bf. Is that a bad thing? I wonder...

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Afro Beauty" (mixed media; art trade for )
"Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for )
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8242563/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 03:31:19 PST : "Anino" by Imago
Mood: embarrassed

The UPCAT or University of the Philippines College Admission Test is one of the most awaited and most dreaded college entrance exams of the year. Each year, thousands of students hope to pass this test because not only is UP a state university with a government-subsidized tuition, but it's been called the university of scholars (and I don't know why, but they always say if you come from UP, you're hella smart...well, that part I don't believe).

For those who are interested in taking the UPCAT and are in the Metro Manila or Quezon City Area, UPCAT review classes are already being conducted and I would suggest you sign up for them. For more details, visit 's journal at this link ---> [link]

+ + +

Oh man, I'm stunned! If someone starts singing "It's A Small World After All" to me any time soon, I'm going to just laugh in embarrassment.

Hello to and , my two new DA friends who are the only ones who can understand what I'm talking about.

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Richter Belmont" (mixed media; art trade for )
"MiG Ayesa" (pencils)
"Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

PROUD MEMB... ]]> *nekohime Australia http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8173592/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8173592/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 22:31:26 PST : "Master of Puppets" by Metallica
Mood: sick

There's been a recent development lately and I have a feeling I'll be heading off to Australia to pursue my art studies, instead of San Francisco.

I just hope that this will really push through because the tuition is cheaper (plus currency exchange, of course) and it's closer to the Philippines.

In other news, yes, I'm sick. I don't know what I'm sick with, just that I've had dizzy spells since yesterday and I vomited a few times and I've been feverish since this morning. I hope it's just another bug...the weather's been doing a lot of shit on me lately that I find it hard to concentrate on ANYTHING.

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

PROUD MEMBER OF :

*nekohime Lovesick http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8136810/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/8136810/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 06:58:01 PST : "Highway to Hell" by ACDC
Mood:

I'm drained and still trying to keep my eyes open.

Thomas left for France yesterday and the last two weeks that he was here were both stressful and relaxing. It was a welcome distraction to have him here with me because we got to talk things out and we're basically doing better than when two years ago. Of course, taking into account the maturity that we've gained from our mistakes, it's expected that we'd make progress.

I miss him of course. And I can only hope he got back to France safely because I'm aching to talk to him again. It's going to pale in comparison though to all our last conversations. I miss his voice already and I'm afraid I'm starting to forget what it felt like to be in his arms. That's probably why I know I won't do well without being with him physically now that we've had the chance to be physically intimate again after two years to our last meeting...coincidentally enough, we also spent two weeks together around February and March of 2004...

Okay, so I love him. You did expect that, right?

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

PROUD MEMBER OF http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/7978458/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 07:18:56 PST : "Baby, I Love Your Way" as performed by MiG Ayesa
Mood:

Tomorrow, I get to watch the WWE Tour in Manila with my brothers.

It's a special match between John Cena and Edge for the title with Mick Foley as the special referee! Huzzah~!

I am such a dork for getting dragged into stuff like this.

*scampers off to make crowd signs*

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

LINKAGE:

The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

PROUD MEMBER OF :

*nekohime Argh! Argh! Argh! http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/7954773/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/7954773/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 16:18:41 PST : "Cry, Baby, Cry" by Carlos Santana featuring Sean Paul and Joss Stone
Mood:

I'm losing precious sleep over the impending visit of someone very special to me. It's not because I'm excited, even if a part of me is happy that he's visiting me again after two years, but it's mostly because my family is going through "chastity issue" and is doing everything they can to stop us from having our private time. I'm getting quite annoyed with all the religious dogmas they're throwing at me and I hate that they LOVE to use God as emotional blackmail.

"God dictates that sex before marriage is wrong.", "God would not be pleased with how you're acting, insisting that you stay with him alone.", "God does not allow indecency..."

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHH~!!!

Okay, first of all, I love God, I believe in God, but I DON'T believe that God would emotionally blackmail you if He loved you. This is where I want to dial G-O-D and ask Him "Hey, do you really emotionally blackmail your followers? Because if that's the case, I should stop believing in You for the sake of my torn and frayed soul."

I'm 21 years old, for fuck's sake! Anything that I do from here on should no longer be questioned by these people because I'm a legal adult! And if I want to have sex, I'll go and have sex but that doesn't mean I won't be careful either! The fuckers...they think that having sex before marriage will immediately be cause for me going to Hell.

Well, you're ALL going to Hell for using God's name in vain! That's right! You use His name for emotional blackmail on your kids, that sends you on a one-way ticket to Hell! Don't tell me about where I'll be going and acting like you know more than me! If you think I'm not making God happy, listen to the way you people talk about Him before judging me!

Yeah, I've made mistakes! Yes, I was weak during certain moments of my life! But at least I can admit it! I can shout it to the world that I'm human! But what about you shitheads, huh? You brag that you're stronger than me just because you've never made the same mistakes that I made?! Well, fat chance I'll give you the satisfaction of succeeding on your fucking terms!

If I fail, I fail on my own terms! And I will treasure my mistakes! I will NOT submit to your whims of success! Not even if someone had a gun at my head!

I am going to spend a week with him alone and that's final. He'll only be here for two weeks and I want to make the most out of his visit. I want to show him how much I've missed him without people like YOU monitoring us through a microscope!

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

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The official ALI... ]]> *nekohime ......Oh god... http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/7924191/ http://nekohime.deviantart.com/journal/7924191/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 09:46:46 PST : none...
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Oh my God...

This is horrible. I know that I should get used to the typhoons that attack the country every year, but it just seems that I can never get used to coping with the loss that typhoon victims experience.

The last mudslide disaster in Leyte in 1991 was in Ormoc and it left so many people homeless... An estimate of 5,000 people were killed and it made world news.

Environmentalists had warned that illegal logging and not enough reforestation projects would cause a disaster to happen, but many refused to take heed.

People should have learned from that experience and even now that there have been some efforts to educate the people about reforestation and "smart logging", many still resort to the same practice of just wiping a mountainside bare of any trees and not bothering to replace them with any new ones.

One cannot blame Nature for what it does. But one can try and prepare itself for Nature's fury.

I hope that we will all learn from this tragedy.

The loss of life is always unfair. But not being smart enough to prepare for the worst can also lead to loss...

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Maps of the Philippines:

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CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

: "Papa Jun" (pencils; special portrait for my grandfather)
"Joe Dallesandro" (pencils; on hold)
"Eros" (acrylic on canvas; on hold)
"Prince of Stories" (watercolor; still conceptualizing)
"Castlevania - Nocturne" (acrylic on canvas; fanart; still conceptualizing)

: Everything I write can be found here: Art Noveau.

: My new website layout which is currently going through a REVAMP.

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The official ALIWAROS website (I do the vocals)

MY WISHLIST

MY SCRAPS PAGE

MY MODEL MAYHEM PROFILE

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