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ANYWAY, I'm getting really back into writing. You can find my first published book, The Gulick House, here: [link]
It's a great one-day read and only $10 so support a college kid!
I'm working on "Saturday, Everyday" and "Second Period" simultaneously so keep your eye out for updates on that!

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Mythology: A
Communication Theory: B
Hebrew Bible: C+
US History II: B+
Principles of Planning and Public Policy <3: A

me=smart

check out my FIRST PUBLISHED BOOK at [link]

Also, drink a bottle of percocet and fck off!

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/30227283/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/30227283/ Tue, 09 Feb 2010 16:35:31 PST
For those who are keeping up with me, you may know that I've written a book, "The Gulick House". Here's a quick summary:

Stanley Gulick is an 18-year-old high school drop out who has never been loved or in love. 15-year-old Emily Meyers has lived nothing but a life of isolation and order. When the two meet on the beach during the summer of 1988, they both quickly fall in love and think that nothing can ever go wrong. However, Emily begins her first year of high school and realizes that life has much more to offer her than her first boyfriend. When Hugh, a senior boy in one of her classes starts flirting with her, she instantly develops a crush and goes along with it; only to get caught in a love triangle with Stanley and Hugh for almost over a year. Afer she and Stanley have sex for the first time, she loses her mind and finally breaks up with him and turns to Hugh for good. As for Stanley, his life would never be the same. He moves on, meets and marries Jennifer, an underage stripper, and moves to the Jersey Shore where he becomes the owner of a laundromat. But when he sees 16-year-old Rachel Phillips, his new next door neighbor that looks almost exactly like Emily, all of the hate and much wanted revenge begins to build up again.

For anyone who is interested in reading a great book for a LOW price AND also supporting a college student, you can buy the book here:

At Barnes and Noble: [link]

At Amazon.com: [link]

At Amazon UK: [link]

At Amazon Germany: [link]

At Amazon France: [link]

At Amazon Canada: [link]

and you can probably find it at other sites. For anyone who doesn't have a credit card, message me and we will work out a way!

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I have decided to use DA as a way to advertise and promote my current and future projects, as well as help out in the community. I love to edit, and I would love to take a look at anyone's stories (though keep in mind I go to college and I have a busy schedule! I try my hardest!).

My personal website is here: [link]
Feel free to check it out, leave comments, or just say hi!

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/29082461/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/29082461/ Mon, 21 Dec 2009 11:58:15 PST I wake up this morning with a severe pain my upper right wingbone, stretch to work it out a little, I feed my cat and then I go in the bathroom. All I remember is falling against the wall face first and then I wind up on the floor and my gma is screaming my name and all I see is orange light and I get really hungry and thirsty at the same time and like, i wanted to get up and say something and walk away but I literally COULDNT and to not be able to control your own body is a SCARY thing. I wasn't even out for a minute but it felt so weird...I got up and I was fine afterwards, and I made it to Rutgers to take my last final...kinda sad this semester is over

but yeah...so I pretty much could have died today if no one was in the house with me. I'm so behind...I have to wrap presents, I still have to get my mom something, i have to somehow get to work (icy roads and passing out=no car) and work out my schedule...blegh.

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I'm taking 18 credits next semesters...my mama thinks its gonna be too much and I'm afraid she's gonna be right cuz she always ends up being right about everything! lol!
Last summer she told me that working 2 days a week plus school was gonna be too much and I was like no it wont and well guess what..it was haha.

My baby is in Florida and I miss her mucho!!!! <3

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Ugh, what a week...it had its ups and downs, I'm trying to just focus on the ups. I wish my dumb psychologist would email me back about making an appointment. That's right kiddos, I'm a lunatic...not really, I'm just having some non-personal identity problems.

Good night all
<3 to my baby <3

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After 5 grueling years, I have finally finished writing and have published my very first book, The Gulick House, which some of you here may recognize in its early stages as "The Stanley Story".

The storyline, you ask?
When 18-year-old Stanley Gulick meets 15-year-old Emily Meyers during the summer of 1986 in Ocean Grove, NJ, they instantly fall in love. However, once Emily begins her freshman year of high school and meets senior Hugh, she starts to realize that she shouldn't tie herself down to one person.

After severely breaking Stanley's heart and sending him into a spiraling depression, he finally meets 17-year-old Jennifer, a stripper at a local strip club in Neptune. He offers her to move in with him when she gets kicked out of her house, and they eventually get married.

After 14 years, everything seems great. Stanley is married, he has a job at a laundromat, and he has just recently moved in to his first house. But on one overcast night, he sees the girl next door in her backyard, who looks EXACTLY like Emily, triggering Stanley to want to get revenge once and for all.

Sound interested? It's only $10, and you can buy it with any major credit card at this website: [link]

So far I've had mostly friends and family read it, and most of them have said they read it one day, couldn't put it down. My one friend even bought two more copies to give away as birthday presents. So if you're in the mood for a good, suspenseful, scary, romantic, disturbing read, support a college kid and buy The Gulick House!

Oh, and if you do buy it, shoot me a message and say so I love to hear from all of the people who read my book!

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]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/25124373/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/25124373/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 12:06:06 PDT but im just not feeling it.
the fact that i have to go back to college eventually is making me so depressed.

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And now it's the summer after my first year of college and I met three really great people amongst a bulk of other great people, but ever since I picked up my life right back where it started, I don't really miss college...now that I work more, I've gotten closer with the people I had to leave behind last august and I made new friends and I mean, I have no feelings for college anymore.

Is it bad? My girlfriend says I don't miss it because I know I'll be back. Yet I knew I was going to be back at work and I missed it terribly all year. It's like I'm a different person at college and a different person at work. At college I'm fun and obnoxious and I'm the same way at work too, but it's just so different...

Ever since being home with people like michelle, kasey, leisa, deb, earl, kayla, sarah, even cami, etc, life has been fantastic. It was as if going to college was a long vacation.

College was nice, but it's not a home. I grew up in my store, with the people I work with now.

Work is my home. And I'm home.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24879983/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24879983/ Thu, 21 May 2009 19:14:32 PDT
but tonight...

the new manager....she came up behind me on drive thru, put her hands on my shoulder and said something, i forget, but i was being nice and i said "well, drive thru isnt so bad" and she said something along the lines of "yeah and plus you have a sexy voice you could be a show announcer" and then like, she pretended she was me and went like, "hi, this is ari so and so" and just the way she said it was so...seductively like...not cool man! I hardly kno this chick...and for ME to feel VIOLATED....is a very rare event.

And to think i accidently touched her ass two nights ago cuz the space between the register and the drink station is so smalll...ugh she probly liked it!!!

FML!!!!

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24864523/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24864523/ Wed, 20 May 2009 20:47:41 PDT
That's all I need.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24790321/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24790321/ Sat, 16 May 2009 16:16:57 PDT What really pushed me over the edge was, she was saying shit about my friend who is retarded and works in the kitchen, I wanted to say something so bad to her because he can't help that he is retarded. Back by the sink he was telling me how all he got was negative vibes from her and he said if she kept being mean to him he was going to bring it to corporate and i encouraged him to do it. me and my friend up front couldn't even relax and enjoy ourselves.
all i have to say is one thing: if the general manager and senior assistant manager go, wall can kiss my ass GOODBYE and from there on in, it will be, helloooo howell.

I'll never forget, when i first started out there, i was having trouble, because my 2 friends quit, and i was thinking about quitting, so my general manager called me up one night and said, "i know you like it when we work together, so would you want to switch from sunday to saturday because I don't want you to give up".

then today, i went to tell her how i almost had a meltdown last night and she gave me a hug.

do you all see why i love my job? i consider everyone (well...almost everyone) there family. we all have each other's backs. blood is thicker than water!

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24726446/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24726446/ Tue, 12 May 2009 18:32:33 PDT Debbie
Michelle
Linda
Adam
Kim
Earl
Mary Margaret
Kasey
Kayla
Sarah
Joe
Johnny
Zita
Zakia
Aunt Shirley
Cindy
Lisa
Cami
Jeanne
and the rest

I LOVE YOU ALL!!

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but tonight I burnt my fingers! agh!!!! oh well its worth it i couldn't ask for a better job in the wholeeeee wideeeee worlddddd!

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24222284/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24222284/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 14:50:29 PDT
I started out by parodying the movie, "The Glass House", which came to be known as "The G House". It was pretty much the same story line, just as a spoof.

Anyway, it stayed as "The G House" from 2004-2007 with several different versions, but nothing spectacular. Then one day in 2007, I saw this cooler outside the abandoned house next door to me with the word "Gulick" written on it and I snapped my fingers and said, "The Gulick House".

Then one night about a month later, I had a nightmare about a guy known as "Stanley" who tried to kidnap me and my friend Sarah outside the house, until our friend, Jen, saved us.

So that's where I got "Stanley" and "Jennifer" Gulick. As far as the name Rachel, I just like it.

Originally, Stanley and Jennifer were supposed to be serial killers whom Rachel wants to exploit. So then she gets her friend Dave, (who I've written out thus far) to help her break in to the house, where she gets kidnapped and Dave escapes but gets sent to a mental institution. The main idea was for them to cut off Rachel's ear so "she would never be able to overhear anything again".

I tried to take the idea further but it didn't work. So a few months after that, I got my heart severely broken.

About a year later, I decided to try and revive "The Stanley Story" and I wrote a short story about how Stanley and his first girlfriend, Emily, broke his heart by leaving him for someone else, and then his bout with drugs, and then when he meets his future wife, Jennifer, who he became a serial killer with.

I got the idea for the name Emily, because the first girl who I ever told I loved was named Ember, and sometimes we'd say "ily" to each other. So I took "EM" from Ember and "ily" and got Emily.

Eventually, I cut out the drug use and began to write a screen play, where Stanley owns the laundromat that was on the same property as the actual Gulick House, but he and Jennifer were still serial killers, but their last victim was Rachel.

I didn't know where to end it, but one day as I was walking to my basic comp class, I got the most craziest idea, which I can't give away because it is now the current ending of my novel, "The Gulick House" which I hope to be around 100 pages

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24114400/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/24114400/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 15:29:07 PDT i am an independent person now.
im nobody's bitch.
no one can make decisions for me.
i let it go for too long.

I AM MY OWN PERSON.

SO FUCK OFF!

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I wasn't going too but my friend showed me this like, 100 page book and said it was actually really famous so I realize that my book should be quality and not quantity.

So I'm organizing everything thus far. Everything in the book is going to be extremely symbolic. Names, addresses, places, phone numbers, license plates, everything that isn't a noun, verb, adjective, or other figure of literature will be in some way, symbolic.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23983167/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23983167/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 10:13:53 PDT
See when you grow up with nothing you learn to make the best of things.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23972200/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23972200/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 16:42:11 PDT
I would like to make a public announcement that I am 18 years old, I can manage my own life, I don't need anyone telling me how to live my life and I especially don't need any *babysitters* on facebook.

No one is going to tell me where to live, no one is going to tell me what job to have, no one is going to tell me how many animals I can have, no one is going to tell me who to marry (even tho I already know who im going to spend my life with <33, no one is going to tell me how to dress, no one is going to tell me how many times to take a shower in a week, no one is going to tell me what I can and can't do. No one is ever going to talk me out of anything I want EVER EVER again.

For everyone's information, I would be happy living in the Jumping Brook Apartments managing Burger King with a couple pets, with my love, and dressing professional in clothes from K-MART. I don't care if I am rich or not. I don't care if I'm diverse or into multiculturalism.

The only things I care about is my family, my aunt especially, my girlfriend<3, burger king <3, my managers, history, video games, animals.

Kabeesh? (yeah thats right im 100% polish). Jak sa mush. Dubshe. Icha Duma Spasch.

I didn't spell any of that right.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23935138/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23935138/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 14:01:30 PDT Living in the apartments, but it always felt so familiar.
Remembering the first day in that house, feels like only yesterday,
The housewarming party, the playroom, I remember it all.

Seven fourteen, never forget.
Getting caught up in the volleyball net.
These treasured moments make up my past.
Sometimes I wish longer they'd last.

Barbecues, water slides, the inflatable pool, volleyball.
Basketball in the driveway, sugar cookies at the end of the day.
When the swing set was new, and you were the old you.
Manhunt in the basement, air hockey, too.
Action figures and XBOX, hot chocolate, and Pizza Hut,
Always a band aid ready if we fell and got a cut.

Seven fourteen, never forget.
Getting caught up in the volleyball net.
These treasured moments make up my past.
Sometimes I wish longer they'd last.

Climbing my first tree in your backyard, I was in fourth grade,
Secret clubs and fireworks, and all the things we made.
Sleepovers every Saturday night, staying up late, turning out the lights.
You did my makeup for Halloween when I was eight,
No one ever cared that we would all stay up late.

Seven fourteen, never forget,
Getting caught up in the volleyball net.
These treasured moments make up my past.
Sometimes I just wish longer they'd last.

I grew up at your house, it was my second home.
Never wanted to be anywhere else but there.
Now these times are just a memory.
Will I ever be able to see them again?

Seven fourteen, never forget,
Getting caught up in the volleyball net.
These treasured moments make up my past.
Sometimes I just wish longer they'd last.

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Yeah, man, those were the days of 2nd and 3rd grade.

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I was one of those loners who spent their entire day looking out the window, and among all of the people who walked up and down my block was a guy who always wore black, had round glasses, and a full, black beard. He kind of reminded me of a very scary version of john lennon.
He always had a foodtown bag dangling from his hand that would sway back and fourth with his movement.

I saw him all the fucking time and he scared the shit out of my poor 7 year old self.

I'd see him on 4th, I'd see him on Steiner, I'd see him on Ridge, everywhere!!! He lived in the Charline Motel (surprise surprise).

Okay so maybe I'm not traumatized. But he sure intrigued me. He was so mysterious, Mr. No-Name.

Zak, my cop friend, said everytime he dealt with mr. no-name, he thought he was jesus. Gail, my next door neighbor, said he had a church set up in the charline.

I wonder what ever happeend to him. Just like whatever happened to Lori and Monty and all the other freaks on my block?

Monty was retarded and lived in the gulick house and we liked each other. He couldn't talk and was like 50 years old and really tall and i was like 5 but we liked each other. Lori was retarded too, but more girlish i guess, shorter and she could talk she just sounded weird.

I wish I could capture this all in art. Like, I've already got the gulick house in art but what about all the 4th avenue freaks? So mysterious.

I want to know if Mr. No-Name is in jail.
Probably.
I bet his name was Stanley.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23659825/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23659825/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 13:28:52 PDT
Pretty soon I'm going to have a job as a radio personality
I'm going to play a lot of shit G-Rock 106.3/106.5 (god rest its soul) played so that should appeal to a lot of people. I'm also going to be playing some other favorites of mine such as Bright Eyes and Nicole Atkins.

Haha Bright Eyes...I wonder if they would let me name my show "Radio Razorblade" lawlz.

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But I'll give you all the gist of it...Stanley and Emily finally break up and Emily continues to date Hugh and fuck with Stanley's mind. Meanwhile, Stanley meets Jennifer and years later they move far, far away from their hometown so Stanley can finally forget his experiences with Emily. Then Stanley sees Rachel, his next door neighbor and becomes obsessed with her for a reason unknown to him. He and Jennifer kidnap Rachel, rape her, and then drown her. Then Stanley learns that Rachel was Emily's daughter, but not by Hugh; by Stanley himself, conceived on the night they had sex and then shortly after broke up. The story ends with Stanley hanging himself in front of the back door in his kitchen.

I just think this story requires a certain style and criteria and I can't see anyone who doesn't know me understanding this story. Besides, I might want to write a Second Period III.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23214861/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23214861/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 11:39:40 PST "Bugs!"
"Street Fighter: The Movie"
"Off-World Interceptor EXTREME"
"Corpse Killer Graveyard Edition"

Yay for me. I'm running out of room in this house for all my vintage shit...but thats not going to stop me. mwahahahaha. But I notice the thrift store only gets Sega games because I got 2 Genesis games the other. How about some nintendo, people??

I had a great v-day yesterday <333
despite being blocked in on 10th ave ><;
I had a great day with my lovey.

Tomorrow night, I'm going to the radio station to learn how to work the board. Should be fun.

Later bitchess

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Blegh, don't want to go to class. I have better things to do. Me and Dante are going to Princeton tonight to see a play and SATURDAY IS V-DAY WITH MY VERY TRULY AMAZING LOVEY DDDDDDDDDDDD

I think tomorrow or late tonight I am going to post an array of old-school poems and stories because it's what makes up my collection of works. Even though I'm past the things that my old works are about, they're still works of literature in my eyes.

Man, I really hope me, Dante, Maggie, and Danielle get the apartment next year. Four goofballs living together in one house. We'll never sleep nor get our work done, that's for sure. I love living at college, it's so much fun. The work sucks but it's manageable. When I get back from class I have to pack up my shit for the weekend.

I almost forgot to take my crazy pill this morning my bad haha.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23067193/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23067193/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 18:03:36 PST First of all, YOU ARE NOT 20 YEARS OLD. You look no older then you did in Ghost Ship (2002). You look younger then my 13 year old cousin who still looks like she's 7 years old. You need to mature already and grow boobs, not that I was looking, but you need to stop starring in movies directed by third parties that make your flat chest look blatantly obvious.

Dear Third Party Director Who I've Never Heard of in my Life,
Stop casting people who look like my ex girlfriend in your movies. Every time there was a shot with Anna and Alex I almost choked on my popcorn out of laughter. Especially in the scene where they were in bed together and when they kissed each other.

Dear Christopher Young,
I could tell you were the one who was in charge of the score from the moment the movie started. You made the music from The Glass House (2001) and maybe changed one measure. There were several times I forgot I was watching this shitty movie and thought I was watching my favorite movie. Learn variety damn it!!!!

Dear Elizabeth Banks,
If you turned the scene where you were undressing Anna into an sex scene, I would have enjoyed this movie a lot more.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23026371/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/23026371/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 17:53:55 PST Yep. I have to start my board training and stuff for like a month and then I have to submit a demo but I'm totally gonna do it. Imagine me, a radio personality. I'd like to work up to having my own show, something that features rock-alternative in memory of G-Rock.

Just imagine hearing..."Hey everyone this Ari ready to bring you ALT ROCK INFERNO!" and while I'm training to become a DJ I can help out with other things like the news and stuff. God, this is really something I have to look forward too. Maybe I'll eventually get a job with Press Communications LLC...yeah thats right I would submit myself to something that ends with the letters LLC. But they're right in my own backyard pretty much and even though I still hate the fact that they switched over G-Rock, you gotta stay true to your hometown. And besides, Erin Vogt and Matt Knight still DJ there.

Or maybe I could get a job on 94.3 the point. I like that station too I used to listen to it in eighth grade haha wow that seems so far gone...

One of my teachers once told me I had a radio voice and I've been on the radio before...oh word. I'm gonna do this. Because I want too and because I want to show up every single person who's ever degraded me.

And because I want people to hear me. And what better job would that take then to be a radio personality?

and just for the records the last statement wasn't a threat.

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Being in college makes me feel so great. Rutgers University. THE state university. You know how that makes me feel?
Well, when I used to hook up with everyone in sight and date people who were bad to me, I used to feel like that's all I was worth and that's all I would get. And I would always be the one they made fun of in school...

And now look at me....I have a posse XD

It makes me feel smart, intellectual, worth everything I could ever be worth.

I can't wait to be a drug counselor/elementary school teacher/journalist/powerful CEO/whatever.

<3333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22688442/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22688442/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 07:34:08 PST then i have to go to expos.

I had a horriblehorriblehorriblehorrible nightmare last night. I was so relieved to wake up. I dreamed that I was at burger king after it reopened and my co-worker and friend adam was there and i walked into like, the back of the office and he was laying on the ground because someone shot him through the drive thru window and then leisa came running in and grabbed his hands and said "adam, who did this to you?" and he muttered something and then he died.

and i mean, its not like he's my best friend but we are good friends seeing that we've been working together since last spring and i always see him so its just very disturbing to dream that someone like that gets killed right before your eyes.

anyway today is my 8 months with my true love <3
now lets hope i stop these violent nightmares, once again.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22648097/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22648097/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 08:13:31 PST Ugh, I should just not sleep.

On the other hand, it feels so good to be a mature adult.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22628472/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22628472/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 07:34:41 PST but i had a nightmare last night....it was so real and scary...
there was this like whole neighborhood of abandoned, boarded up houses and there was this one house where the everything was boarded except for the front door. and there was a light on in the front of the house and there were a bunch of cars in the driveway.
and i didn't want to go in.
but someone forced me to go in.
and i got in...and i saw this girl...tall, skinny, blonde hair, she was very pretty. and there was a baby with her.
and i pointed and i said, "who's that?" and whoever was with me was like "who?" and i pointed and i said "them!" but they couldn't see the girl.
then next thing i know, the girl hung up this noose and only im seeing it and im freaking out and i want to leave but they won't let me...
and i see the girl hang herself.
then the person im with tells me her husband killed her, and to check the glove box in his car in the driveway. so i run out into the driveway and go to the white car and open the glove box and i take out all these...sex toys...-_-;;
so i guess i thought the husband had sex with her and killed her
then i get out of the car and i turn and look at the tree on the front lawn and theres a man's body hanging from it.
the man was kinda fat and short kind of like joe pesci and he was wearing a white tuxedo
so i jump in my car and speed off but the dead husband starts chasing me and for some reason i ended up at the ritz diner (demolished) and i kept circling and circling and the spirits of the dead bodies haunted me forever and then the blonde showed up and her face was all cut and bruised

gahh it was fucking scary.
and i wasn't in the gulick house...or the murder house...god it was so scary i was so relieved to wake up

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22594515/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22594515/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 11:42:55 PST the fact that i have to get a root canal done (which i had a terrifying nightmare about last night)
the fact that the diner is definitely going to be torn down (which i had a similarly terrifying nightmare about the night before)
or the fact i have to go back to college, which right now is the least of my worries

i spoke to the mayor of my town. a four store strip mall is going where the diner is. well, when all else fails, i need to contact these private owners and see if i can get a brick or something.

it times like these that make me wish i was a 30 year old business man. but only times like these.

good day

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22541325/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22541325/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 11:05:48 PST maybe i will be happy to go back to rutgers after all.

x_x

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22485061/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22485061/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 10:03:41 PST
I have puke and blood in the backseat of my beautiful car.
I have excruciating pain in my mouth and throat.
They're taking down my diner whether I stand on the front steps and face the bulldozer or not.
They're taking down East Coast Ice whether the chemicals that are going to mutate the town leak out or not.

but guess what...i just saved 15% or more on my car insurance by switching to Geico. 15 minutes could save you 15% or more on car insurance.

Not really. But i DID save $100 smackers on a math text book thanks to maggie.

and despite my body falling apart and my hometown meeting a horrible fate, i still love life <3

bay<333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22469021/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22469021/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 12:12:27 PST
It's about a guy who gets his heart broken by his first love, falls in love again, and then uses the hurt he feels from his first love to do horrible things.

I know it sounds cliche, but there's a HUGE twist at the end that no one will see coming.

Here's the list of characters....

Stanley
Emily
Hugh
Jennifer
Rachel

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22420389/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22420389/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 17:55:06 PST im cranky
i want french fries
and i want to go home
ughhhhhhhhh
i should have never come
it's my time of the month
im very irritable
gsdgkj;drslgjs;fj

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22409645/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22409645/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 08:02:16 PST im so so so so so sick of burger king.
i wish wall would just get the fuck done so i can go back and i bet you 10 to 1 its not gonna be the same and im just gonna end up quitting...
because honestly...who's going to be there when i go back? ken is gone...which means kayla and sarah are probably gone....all that will be left to hang out with are kasey and her sisters/friends but how long is that gonna last
me and kasey aren't even that close anymoree...all my friends get arrested or fired or quit....
i'm just sick of bk. never thought i'd say this. but i'm young and i need to have fun before i get a real job.

thats right i admit it i only wanted bk to be my real job because i established social connections there. its so hard for me to make friends and i made them here.
but its all going to hell
and its making me see the reality of things: they weren't my best friends...they were just...friends.

i guess the summer is reallly over.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22370595/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/22370595/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 09:40:35 PST And we just sort of patched things up, exchanged apologies and now we're starting anew again.

its really important to me that this happened because i treasured our friendship and it hurt me subconsciously when it happened becausde i kept having dreams. but now its all better and i hope one day we can get back to where we were

<333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21816774/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21816774/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 14:23:15 PST no friday classes and a 10:55 class on monday.
dropped my 8:10 class
i can come home thursday nights or friday mornings if i wish.

that made my day.
<333bay

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21749052/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21749052/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 13:13:19 PST i don't want to go back to college
i like being home, being able to hang out at BK every night, etc
the only thing i like about college is that i get to be on my own and i live with friends.
other then that, i hate college.
i really hope i get promoted over the summer in which case i would drop out and go to brookdale for another year to get an associate's degree.

then again...i suppose college is good...i don't know. wherever life takes me down the education path will be meant to be.

bay<333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21643386/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21643386/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 07:49:03 PST As you see, I have uploaded the first chapter of the new and improved "Stanley", although it needs a better name.
I want it to open up where Stanley meets Emily and I want the age differences to be stressed. I want it to go through Stanley's undying love for her, and then their breakup, then Stanley's period of insanity and then where he meets Jennifer, and there needs to be a hook with Jennifer, and then where they move and he gets the laundromat and his fetish starts.
I want it to be a novel. And Emily is going to have certain traits that hides something else...it's going to be such a twist!
Mwahahha....it's just going to be a fucked up story either way...
=] =] =] =] =]

phenomenal. that's all its going to be =]

i love bay <333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21354227/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21354227/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 09:05:35 PST >;;

I'm getting something really special for Bay =]]]]

This Christmas I want to make cookies in my kitchen and watch christmas movies with bay and light a fire place, and work at BK a lot. and maybe if I get a wii i can teach bay how to play it with me

I used to love this holiday when I was a little kid. December would go slow and I'd always play home alone on my super nintendo complete with a bag of free popcorn from Local Video (rest in peace)and i'd dig thru the box of decorations and i'd watch all the home alone movies all up until christmas morning. and on christmas eve i could never sleep, i couldn't even get to sleep watching pokemon the movie 2 cuz it sucked, and when I did get to sleep i'd wake up at 7 a.m.

This christmas will be amazing
It was ruined for me when i was 9 yrs old cuz all i wanted for xmas was Dragonballz toys, and most of all, i wanted the DBZ Rejuvenation Chamber and Nimbus Cloud, but did I get shit? NO! well, yeah, i did. i got shit that christmas. I didn't get a single thing I asked for. thats the yaer i stopped beliving in santa. i remember instead of getting my rejuvenation chamber i got those stupid marvin's magic markers and sabrina the teenage witch dolls and some green slime (which was actually pretty cool)
and to make it worse, my friend micheal got the rejuvenation chamber.
I ended up getting the Nimbus Cloud but only because someone got it for EJ and he was like 3 at the time, and janine said I could have it
That's the ONLY thing i got that I wanted, and it wasn't even for christmas.

That is my tragic christmas story, we all have them, we all had christmas where we didn't get what we wanted and it fucks us up for life.

Well, so much for my rejuvenation center (which lit up and made sounds and...) buttttttttt i got the best thing in the world and its not some cheap toy from Ames (haha timewarp right there) cuz i got bay!! the best gf in the world =] and i don't need anythiing else <3333

merry early christmass, w00t

p.s. here is the chamber i wanted...[link]3286.m20.l1116
NOW LOOK! ITS WORTH MONEY!!!! HALJHFGDLKJHGSDLF
MOTHERFUCKER MOTHERFUCKER MOTHERFUCKER ARGHHH!!!!
NOW WAHT ! ljdckjvdldddfdm

whatever. i'm too cool for a rejuvenation center.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21334135/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21334135/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 05:44:31 PST i was on the phone with my girlfriend watching tv and all of the sudden i hear blood curling screams throughout my dorm.
i thought there was a gunman, so i got off my bed, tripped head first over my desk chair, did a 180 in the air, and locked my door.
then i found out Obama won.
now, i don't really have an opinion on this presidential election
but I wrote a song to make my friends who wanted mccain laugh and i thought it was good enough to share:
(p.s. dont flame me if u like obama this is just something funny)

here goes...

Obama's the president
We're all in deep shit
Maggie (my friend) is very mad
I'm gonna miss the life that I used to have!
Obama's the president!
(oh shit!)
He's going to get hit
(oh shit!)
The torch has already been lit
(oh shit!)
Dear life in america,
I QUIT! !

haha
bay <33333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21216195/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21216195/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 12:13:54 PDT I just found the first draft of the sequel to "The G House", which is the first draft of "The Gulick House".

The storyline is pretty much the sisters named Megan and Taylor get kidnapped by John and Heather, the same people who kidnapped them in the first one, 5 years later. They want to kill them as a way of revenge but then Taylor's boyfriend Billy comes and rescues them.

I found this in an email from my ex best friend on my old AOL account dated November 17th, 2003...
November 17th...November 17th...why is that date so familiar to me?

The Gulick House has come a long way.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21093391/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/21093391/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 11:12:12 PDT
I'll call it..."Abstract City".

Sound good? Good.

bay<3333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20902675/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20902675/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 09:08:20 PDT
As you know, most of my stuff is based around my characters Stanley and Rachel.
Well for the hell of it one day, I googled "stanley gulick" and look what I found...

[link]

happened on my birthday too....a coincidence? I think not.

bay <3333333333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20884982/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20884982/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 05:45:59 PDT
but this could cause some inspiration heh heh heh

baby bay<333333

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20854833/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20854833/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 09:01:05 PDT
The more recent stuff is intended for the more mature and darker audience, so if you're a lovey dovey romance freak, go to the back of my gallery where you'll find some cheesy love poems I wrote when I was 16 years old.

Then of course there's some photo manipulation scattered about, most likely of an abandoned building if not something conceptual.

My goal is to have something on here that everyone can enjoy, so if anyone wants to make suggestions, feel free.

With all my love to baby,
ARIKUN.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20806860/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20806860/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 10:40:45 PDT
....is out of business.

i can't even....i want too...i....



.......................please kill me.....please......not really....cuz...i want to be alive when....i get my.....


AVENGE!
REVENGE!
SOMETHING~!
ANYTHING!
MARK MY WORD--I *WILL* GET JUSTICE.

]]> ~neuroticparadox http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20774525/ http://neuroticparadox.deviantart.com/journal/20774525/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 10:26:19 PDT
sounds good to me

bay<3

]]> ~neuroticparadox