http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:nidopug&section=today deviantART RSS for by:nidopug en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 04:09:28 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/27178828/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/27178828/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 20:54:49 PDT

Who is Toboe, you may ask?

Toboe is a favourite character of mine from the anime series, Wolf's Rain.

My local Anime convention is arriving this coming April/May. I hope to not only attend a convention for the first time but to cosplay as a character for the first time as well(human form Toboe, not wolf(I'm a furry, but not quite to that extent.))

I've chosen Toboe to cosplay for I feel I fit his personality and physical description as it stands better than any other character. Know, though that my transformation into this charming young chap will be no simple matter and will involve quite a few necessities. I've compiled an elaborate list of items I'll need:

Toboe Costume Checklist
-haircut
-maroon hair dye
-red button-up shirt with dual breast pockets
-forest green cargo pants
-lace-up black combat boots
-plain black belt
-golden yellow prescription contacts
-four round, silver bangles
**optional items
-brown fur material(for tail covering)
-wooden hinge snake toy(for tail support and dexterity)
-second, alterable black belt(to attach tail to)

The italicized items are ones I already own or have attained.

I had a successful shopping expedition today at the Bargain Center as I managed to get two possible shirts to use for the cosplay, a belt, and the boots as well as some clothes to give to my big brother for Christmas, all for the unbelievable price of $10.98! Talk about a bargain! Considering every last item there was used though, I shouldn't be overly shocked . . .

I have over seven months to prepare for this event, so I should have no trouble getting all I need in that time to be the best Toboe I can be. Even though this is my first true cosplay, I want to go all out with it. Everyone please wish me luck! I'll continue in the future to give updates on my accessory status.











http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/26844937/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 20:06:40 PDT

I changed my avatar for the first time ever on this site.
That's about five years, I believe, of that same shitty animation. I probably should have just kept it though.
I've likely just thrown my life serenity off its delicate balance into a devastating oblivion of bad juju for all eternity . . . plus I had a Viky motif going with my previous icon. Oh well.

For those who haven't heard much in the way of comments from me:
I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose, so please don't feel as though I am. Seriously, stop that now.
I love you all, I say that enough at the end of nearly every journal. I just don't read every journal or comment on every deviation, nor do I expect you to do the same(Please don't do that anyway; it overloads the box.) I don't get on the computer much at all anymore, so when I do, I usually have upwards of hundreds of devations and journals to go through. Face it, I care greatly about you all, and that should be not measured by how many comments I leave. Keep up the great work, everyone.

Jag älskar dig allt.












]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/25779055/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/25779055/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:44:43 PDT

For the past few days, I've been caring for an infant Cottontail Rabbit. I'm left to assume he was abandoned, but I'm afraid he may have just wandered a ways from his nest. When I was given him, his eyes had not yet opened. I read up on all the sites, feeling more and more guilty about agreeing to take him in as each site began by saying that under the circumstances he'd been found that he should be put back where found. I continued on to learn how to house him and feed him, even how to encourage him to urinate(all over my favourite shirt.) Assuming the rabbit to be male, I named him Leonard Rico Dribbles, a collaborated name, if it weren't obvious enough.

I suppose it was a form of redemption for me to raise this rabbit, as I'd taken on a similar responsibility a few years ago and failed miserably, to say the least.

Within a day or so, I was thrilled to find that his little eyes had finally opened. He even began grooming himself on his own. It was becoming clear to me that the four-hourly schedule of makeshift formula feedings I planned for him would only sustain him for so much longer.

All the sites told me that there was an enzyme only a mother rabbit could provide her babies if they hoped to survive now on green foods adult rabbits eat. Lack of this bacteria in their systems proved to be the leading cause of death in captive rabbits, as their stomachs would not be able to handle the leafy green diet without. I knew my time of caring for Leonard was coming to a close.

We called a wildlife rehabiltation center this morning, the nearest one in the midstate area. They agreed to take him, so we drove with Leonard for a good hour or so up to this facility that seemed well suited to caring for him. We know now he'll continue his journey with other fellow cottontails to call his brothers and sisters. He'll be released in a few weeks into a forest area, far from the city, living the greatest life I could ever dream for him.

As I sit here at home, finally allowing my cat into my room again as there is nothing he could snap the tiny neck of any longer, I see clearly Leonard's still affecting my subconscious thought, as I think to myself every now and then "Is the music too loud for. . ." "What time is it? When's the last time I fed. . ." "Is the door closed? I don't want Ardimus to get in and find. . ."

It will easily take some time for me to completely fall back into my normal regime, and even longer not to miss the apricot-sized ball of fluff and bones, sticky with condensed milk, hopping eagerly toward me when I made the noise his mother would. Leonard Rico Dribbles will have a good life, and perhaps he'll even manage to recall his fosterer, the first face he saw, as he reenters the wild he crawled out from.













]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/25608364/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/25608364/ Sun, 28 Jun 2009 13:57:35 PDT

I've discovered something quite adorable:


They are curious types of critters known as Woodbabies. Essentially, it is a puppet that commonly sits on one's shoulder and is controlled by a cable mechanism that moves its head, allowing it to look about as if it were a living creature. They come in many styles and colours. There are dragons, unicorns, gryphons, birds, cats, wolves, etc. Each is unique and very beautiful. if you ever wish to order one, check out the website: [link]
I just recently chose to get one. mine should be arriving in the next few weeks. I myself am deeply enthralled by them, especially considering you don't need to feed, water or clean up after them!











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/20256897/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/20256897/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 17:10:47 PDT

It has been a time. What more can I say?
Deviant isn't the only place I've isolated myself from; It's been the computer in general. Part of it has been all the camps I attended over the summer, but most of it has been my latest significant other. He's really brightened my life.
I'm not going to say I'm back to stay, but I'm at least checking in. I've missed talking to all of you. I hope you hold no hostility toward me on account of my scarceness. I'll try to reconnect. Drop me a note to tell me how you are, any big happenings you want to inform me of, anything really to show that you've not given up on me. I love you all.


I only have 597 pictures left to delete, err sort through. Seriously, everyone has gotten so good over a short 5 month period!











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/17549070/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/17549070/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 21:11:43 PDT

I've been a ghost from the computer for some time now. Sorry for those I'm frustrating by not responding to messages and roleplays. I'm such an anti-computer whore, I know. I'll be back soon, I promise . . . again . . .

I just realized recently how much 60's music I know. There was an infommercial playing a compilation of songs of the sixties and I was able to sing along with every single song, songs people my age probably wouldn't know at all. I also know a good deal of 50's, 40's and even 30's and 20's music. I guess I owe that to my mother^^ She's a fan of big band music.











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/17065402/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/17065402/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 21:10:46 PST

Not too much to report. Procrastinating again from posting replies on Lonemoon. Sorry, fellow Lonemoonians. I've just not been in the roleplaying mood. The second I get a waveof inspiration, you all can bet your asses I'll hotfoot it to the Lonemoon roleplay boards.

I've been picking up odd new habits.

- I've been drinking mass amounts of water, at least four bottles as soon as I get home each day. It's quite strange, but it's been keeping me from getting sick^^

-I've been compulsively pacing. In classes in which I'm not doing much of anything, I'll head to the back of the room and pace for as long as I can. I always set a certain number of steps I'll take in one direction before turning to pace the other way with the same number of steps, usually nine or twelve steps.
I'll even stop whatever I'm doing just to pace for a minute or two.

I honestly don't know where this odd behaviour is stemming from all of a sudden, but I guess it's not all that bad. I just wish I weren't having severe moodswings that may be in connection with them. Is it possible to actually develop Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, or must you be born with the condition?











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16757172/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16757172/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 13:37:08 PST

Hey all. I'm getting my wisdom teeth cut out tomorrow! It'll be the first time ever I've been sedated^^ I've heard I'll seem like I'm tripping when they wake me up after the procedure to send me home. I'll also likely not be online for a few days. Sorry Mourgie and Sora^^''' Feel free to virtually beat me up.

Strange, usually I have more to report . . .

Update
Hey! I got a chance to get on!*miracle*

Greetings, all! I've been out from school today, getting my wisdom teeth removed, (though I've yet to see what's so 'wise' about them . . . ) I had to have a designated driver take me home. Apparently, I sang Beatles music the whole way to my grandma's house.
In 23 hours, I've eaten a pudding cup, a yogurt cup and a popsicle . . . Everything hurt to eat, but the pain has gone down. My tongue and the right side of my lower lip were numb for four hours, but I can feel them now.
For everyone who's tried calling me, I apologize for not calling back, unfortunately, the gause and numbness make me sound like the Godfather --; I won't be at school tomorrow either. I love you all. If you've worried about me at all, don't; I'll be just fine^^ I love you all.











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16581993/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16581993/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 13:37:32 PST

Salve, all. Sorry I've been a ghost lately. I'll try getting up more art soon.
As of recently, I've gone to see Sweeney Todd. It's likely the goreyist movie I've gone to see willingly. I covered my eyes quite frequently XD;;; Overall, it was a very spectacular movie^^ Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter sang beautifully. Definately worth seeing in theatres. Another Tim Burton masterpiece!

I've been doing a bit better academically, though they're slipping a bit. Hopefully, if I keep the good brades up, I'll be able to attend the philosophical discussion meetings I love so much. They are starting back up again where I live and I hate to miss them^^

I also went to see Meet The Spartans. It was cheaply made, badly acted, crude, distgusting and positively hilarous! It's not one I'd reccomend going to see in theatres, but certainly worth seeing if you have a sense of humor . . . Leave Britney Alone!!! elohel.











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16438169/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16438169/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 20:07:21 PST

Tagged. Thank you kindly, Cheche.


1) First name: Erin

02) Your nickname in DA: any one of the following: Xuu, nidopug, nido, niddster, niddykins, niddypoo, etc.

03) Birthday: It's probably clear by now to those who've kept up with my journals.

04) Horoscope sign: Libra

05) Birth town: Somewhere down south where the accents make you wanna go the way of Van gogh.

06) Religion: none

07) Nationality: American? Caucasion? Irish/Scottish?

08) Parents: What about them?

09) Do you love them: of course

10) Brothers or sisters: yes, an older brother and sister.

11) Do you like the place where you live: I've put up with it for 12 years, so I'd say so.

12) Hair color: light brown with random threads of red and blond.
13) Color of your eyes: hazel

14) Height: 5'8

15) Weight: a lot.

16) What school/grade are you going to: juniour year, I do believe

(18) Do you work anywhere: no, only volunteer at this point.

(19) What do you want to be in your life: author, illustrator, graphic art designer, maybe.

(20) Your life: What about it?

(21) Personal quote: "It's that sort of thing"

(22) Lucky number: I'm quite partial to the number 2.

(23) What are you interested in: Art of all kinds, particularly drawing, roleplaying, Anime and Manga, Wolves and other wildlife, erotic stories and pornographic art.

(24) Good side of your character: I'm very open.

(25) Bad side of it: I'm overly open?

(26) Is your life happy: In comparison to the life of others I know of, I'd certainly say so.

27) Do you think that you are crazy: Of course not, I method lies within my utter madness.

(28) What is the time: 9:36 pm, central time

(29) What is the date: Jan.16, 08

30) What's the weather like: a bit snowy.

(31) Favourite day in a week: Thursday's and Saturdays

(32) Favourite music: Alternative, 60's rock, Indie, Gothic rock, Punk rock, Metal, Industrial, Techno, Dance, Death Metal, Orchestra, Nearly any music sung in a foreign language(i.e. Japanese, Spanish, French, Swedish, Bulgarian, etc.)

(34) Band: Mae, Postal Service, Frou Frou, Hot Hot Heat, Within Temptation, Secondtunez, Hellogoodbye, Gorillaz, Sonata Arctica, to name a few.

(35) Song: Currently? Jag går i säng med min lärare by Secondtunez

(36) Best concert you have been to: heh, not been to many . . .

(37) Actress: Helena Bonham Carter

(38) Actor: Johnny Depp^^'''

(39) Film: Currently, Meet Joe Black.

(40) TV series: Scrubs

(41) Theatre play: Rent!

(42) Film director: Tim Burton

(43) Do you want to be famous: not especially.

(44) Do you want to be an a----: Mrmm?

(45) Do you want to be a singer: Not especially; I hate my voice.

(46) Book: Twilight.

(47) Colors: Electric blue.

(49) Food: Spaghetti.

(50) Drink: water.

(51) Sweet: Pocky.

(52) Fruit: I've grown fond of apples recently^^

(53) The worst food: All forms of meat

(54) The Worst drink: Cheap champagne

(55) The worst Singer: Those who call themselves one but don't actually sing.

(56) The worst Band: can't think of one at the moment.

(57) The worst Actor: ''

(58) The worst Actress: ''

(59) The worst Movie: Rugrats Go Wild; it made me see that I no longer thought like a child ;;

(60) The worst book: again, can't think of one at the moment.

(61) Do you drink alcohol: not to much of an extent.

(62) Do you smoke: No.

(63) Do you take some drugs: aspirin is about as far as I go.

(64) What do you adore to wear: Button-up shirts, flare-leg, cargo pants and a pair of grey chucks with striped toe socks. Add the goggles and collar, and you have what I wear to school each day 8D

(65) Do you think you're pretty: in many respects

(67) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/male: Toboe, Hitachin Twins, Brad Pitt in Meet Joe Black

(68) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/female: Cheza of Wolf's Rain, drawing a blank on others.

(69) The most beautiful person on dA/male: Every one of you.

(70) The most beautiful person on dA/female: Everyone.
(I choose to skip the following section as the questions are far too difficult for me to offer a straight answer to. My apologies for the b... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16225109/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16225109/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 13:53:25 PST

Hello all. I have some fair news to report:
Yesterday afternoon, I sat my mother down to tell her all I'd been struggling with recently, as explained in the last journal entry:[link] I started off by telling her what my sexual orientation was. Unsurprising to me for the most part, she easily accepted that. We blew through the conversation in ten seconds. When I told her I no longer believed in the existence of a god or higher power, however, we ended up talking on the subject for a good four hours. I broke down into tears twice as we talked, still afraid she would take my confessions to her as an attempt at pulling away from my parents as my older sister had done. She did not seem to believe that to be my intention, though, thankfully. She accepts it as well, yet seems convinced that it may just be a phase that I'm going through. I guess I was too scatterbrained at the time to fully explain my reasoning for no longer believeing in a higher power. Also, my voice was so shaky, I couldn't say much at all. I'm such a wuss. If I had a right mind, I could have explained better my ideas about existence and death. I managed to tell her about my thoughts on the probablility of reincarnation, but I don't think I made enough sense for her to understand that much, let alone be convinced that my ideas were really going anywhere. She has told me that through what I tell her though, my morals don't seem to have drastically changed and that she doesn't seem to see how God doesn't fit into all else that I believe. One's lack of existance makes perfect sense in my head, unfortunately not to her, though. I thanked her for not being upset or disappointed in me in any way, and she insisted that questioning or even denial a god for a while is what makes a christian stronger once one has returned to christianity. I'm not convinced that something I find as ludacris and irrational as a higher being to be something I'll fall back to believe in, especially not out of loneliness or lack of guidance. My mum hopes I'll return to a godly belief system but assures that she will never stop loving me the way she always has. So, we're good. We've reached an impasse, as I have with many of my friends, which is frustrating, but we're still good.

I wish to thank you all for being there for me in my great struggle for words to tell my parents. Your support makes it clear that regardless of knowing some of you only through my computer screen, you all are true friends of mine. I love you all











]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16166393/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16166393/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 12:27:19 PST

As I've previously informed in an earlier journal, I have become an atheist as well as realizing that I am in fact bisexual. One problem I'm facing, though, is figuring out the best way to tell this to my parents. I'm certain this task wouldn't be very difficult if I did not have an older sister who coincidental is an atheistic bisexual as well. In her teenage years, she fell under the influence of peer pressure, and as the oldest, became the rebel of the family. In time, it became that anything that my mother and father were for, she was thoroughly against. Arguments and fits of silence were very frequent between them. She started smoking in her mid teens, angrily insisted against going to church at all, was sexually active before she could drive, and sneaked out of the house regularly to do who-knows-what. She's tried nearly every kind of drug that's been illegalized. She nearly commited suicide by OD. By the time she was seventeen, she had moved out of the house. Though she has cleaned up her act very well since then, going to college and getting a full time job at a pharmacy industry, she is still resentful of my mother and her antics, rolling her eyes and sighing hard at any pun my mom makes. I and my family love her very much, but she still acts in a way that upsets my parents and causes me to resent her. I only see her at family gatherings every month or so. that works well enough for me.
My mother and father already know that I am a vegetarian. My sister openly became one when she was fourteen as well. But now, I am more worried than ever that telling them that I have dropped religion and realized how appealing both genders are sexually will cause them to falsely believe that I am heading down the grim path of rebellion and defiance that my sister took. My concern is that they will believe I am purposefully choosing my own lifestyle simply to go against them as my sister did, and that isn't the case at all. It is completely coincidence that I'll share some similarities with my sister that lit her hateful path. My mother, especially, has always felt close to me, praising me and telling me how much alike she feels we are. And truly, I still feel that way about the two of us as well, regardless of who I know I am now.
I ask you now, my friends, how do you believe I should tell my parents that I am atheistic and a bisexual without them seeing redflags and fearing that I will grow apart from them in a violent way as my sister did when she was my age and told my parents these things?


On a lighter note, I finally made some use of my subscription by giving my journal a CSS layout^^ The only big problem I'm facing is getting a background image to appear. I can display the background to appear, but the image by itself wil not. If you could offer assistance with the code, I would love it! thank you guys



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16062791/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/16062791/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 17:38:15 PST

To whom it may concern:

Paige, my buddy since kindergarten, has finally joined dA. If you love her as much as I do(fat chance X3 ) click and stalk --->.

I was at Starbucks earlier. I'd ordered a white chocolate somethingerrather. The girl at the counter who made it handed it to me only to find that she'd accidently made it plain mocha. From there the conversation went as such:

Clerk: Oh, shoot! Lemme fix that.
Me: Oh, no, that's fine. Don't worry.
Clerk: No, in fact, let me just make you a white chocolate one, free of charge.
Me: No really, it's fin-
Clerk: JUST LET ME DO THIS!
Me: oo;;; Okay . . .

So, I got a free one. I was halfway back to the car before I'd realized how funny the conversation sounded and started cracking up.

ZOMFDIES! I have finally gotten a cell phone. It's the first cellphone I've ever received. I already know how it works; I've been teaching myself for the last 3 hours. It's an AT&T Razr, I think . . . and it's shiny silver^^ I luff it dearly.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15991459/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15991459/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 18:38:50 PST



Everyone, Nera says hi.*urges to greet back*

No really, this is Nera (Nair-uh,) a coyote(?) skull that was kindly given to me by my old biology teacher. I love it very much^^

If random, unprompted messages about the Woodsprinter pack were snowballs, I would swear that Sora and Mourgie had planned a successful ambush upon my sorry hide as I wander unknowingly through the snow covered forest that is dA. Wow, I broke my brain with my own metaphor . . . 8D I'll answer you both soon, I promise D'8

Hey, Fruits Basket, cosplay, interpretive dance fans, watch this!

[link]

and yaoi(technically yuri), Ouran Highschool Host Club, Weasley twin fans, watch this!

[link]



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15624450/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15624450/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 17:00:14 PST

I was bored and decided to do this rather badly done and not incredibly random quiz. Mucho love, Korvykins!


1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you said?:
I haven't yet.

2. When is the next time you will make out?:
What the fuck kinda question is that? How am I supposed to know?

3. What's a word that rhymes with "LUCK"?:
I can guess what the most typical response is, therefore I shall respond, muck.

4. What's your favorite planet?:
probably Jupiter

5. Who's the 4th person on your missed calls list?:
I don't have a cellphone, so I cannot answer this question

6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?:
Refer to the answer above.

7. What shirt are you wearing right now?:
One of my favorites; a long sleeve, nearly off the shoulder,horzontal, hunter green and white striped shirt.

8. What do you "label" yourself as?:
I find the idea of using labels to be arrogant and childish, and certainly wouldn't give myself one*shot*

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?:
none

10. Bright or dark room?:
I assume you're refering to the room I'm occupying at the moment? Very well lit.

11. What do you think about the person who last took the survey?:
I want to molest her socks.

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?:
the one outside the room

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?:
raping an antelope. What were you doing doing?

14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?:
There should be a notice at the beginning of this quiz stating that you must own and use a cellphone before taking it.

15. What just so happens to be the best song in the world?:
That is a thoroughly opinionated question. you likely are refering to what my favorite song is. In that case, I don't have one at the moment.

16. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot?:
"It's that sort of thing."

17. Who told you they loved you last?:
My mother, maybe?

18. Last furry thing you touched?:
The answer to this question could go so many clearly perverted ways XD I, however can honestly answer, My tabby cat, Ardimus,

19. How many drugs have you done in the past 3 days?:
Tylenol?

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?:
none

21. Favorite age you have been so far?:
15, I guess.

22. Your worst enemy?:
No one, silly! 8D

23. What is your current desktop picture?:
teh sex.

24. What is the last thing you said to someone?:
"Ardimus! Stop it!"

25. Do you love someone?:
I love everyone I know!(yes, everyone)

26. Last song you listened to?:
Hellogoodbye - Jessie Buy Nothing

27. If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot at what would you do?:
(odd question) It depends on who it was.

28. Do you do the games in the ads on myspace?:
Fuck no. My comp sucks at blocking adware, spyware, etc.

29. What are your favorite Pjs?:
My silk, indigo ones with little teddybears sleeping on crescent moons covering it ^///^

30. What do you do when you pass graveyards?:
wonder many various scenarios that involve me having to stay the day there or traveling underground through one.

31. Have you ever seen a shooting star?:
A few times, yes.

32. How old do you think you'll live to be?:
At my cureent rate, rate, mid 70's

33. Your favourite website?:
dA(expected), Lonemoon on proboards and Furaffinity.

34. List five things you want to do in your lifetime:
1) stop procrastinating
2) make a real difference
3) find the right one for me
4) learn to ride a bike
5) visit Japan or Australlia

Happy Thanksgiving!



http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15438318/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 17:49:28 PST

Title? No clue.

Just an update to show that I'm not completely estranged from this site. It's the usual excuses: schoolwork is piling up, fixing up the house 'cause its a wreck, trying to better understand myself. As of currently, the best way to sum me up is that I'm an atheistic, bisexual vegetarian who finds interest in pencil sketches and kinky, yet well-written smut as well as rice noodles and reality shows depicting highspeed, police chases.

My sincerest apologies to my friends and watchers if any information I've revealed about myself is unsettling for you. I'm proud of who I am, and I don't expect everyone I know to be. I love you all.

I've been absurdly inactive on nearly every website I'm signed into. It's becoming far too much to ask of you all for my unreasonable absence. I will gain some insriration and motivation to respond to roleplay's and finish and post promised pictures. Until then, I retreat to Ritsu's infamous catch phrase "Please, forgive me" ;-;

Again, much love



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15109438/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15109438/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 23:46:35 PDT

Where to start?

It's 1AM here and I am having the absolute worst time of my life trying to fall asleep. I convinced myself to drink 5 cups of coffee so I could pull an all-nighter to finish Algebra work I'm behind in. The only problem that I've since found out, I get incredibly tired any time I even look at the textbook. I try to focus on the problems yet I actually begin falling asleep as I do(note: not fully asleep; if fully asleep, I wouldn't have this current problem, nor would I be typing at this very moment.)
So, I gave up on that and have tried numerous times to lie down and fall asleep. Yet I find myself plagued with a fully active, and frankly pesimistic mind, reminding of all the horrible worries of bad things that are to come tomorrow, of which I will not go into detail.
Plus, I can hear a mouse within the walls that has so chosen to dine on something crunchy right in the area beside the head of my bed. Whoever created the term 'quiet as a mouse' is an utter twit; this wall residing rodent chews louder than an obnoxious five-year-old with a bag of Cheetos! I tried slam the wall repeatedly with my fist to frighten off the pest, yet all I receive in response is a brief pause before the crunching persists.
Finally, all the worries on my mind have caused my alter ego, Xuu, to go absolutely insane( My alter ego is essentially the less civilized version of me that dwells within my mind(My therapist doesn't get it either, don't worry.)) She persistantly springs to all corners of my room, clinging momentarily to the walls before darting to another area like a rabid squirrel monkey. Her restlessness is affecting me to the point that I am occasionally giving involuntary muscle spasms of my own. If it offers any clearer of a mental image, I nearly bit the leg of my nightstand.
Let me remind you all that I am running on negative four hours of sleep. I'm being honest in all that I tell you, difficult as it may be to believe. Truly it is not that I am over exaggerating, but perhaps that I am revealing things with far to much truth at the moment.

I love you all. Good morning!



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15004770/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/15004770/ Wed, 10 Oct 2007 17:47:14 PDT

Well all, I am thoroughly pissed. It turns out this site has now disabled the ability for deviants to view mature content until the date they put while signing up here has claimed them to be eighteen years of age. I always put an alias date for mine whenever I sign up for a website, and without thinking, I gave myself the birthyear of 1990. What a stupid fuck I am, right ><###

My apologies for the severity of this journal, I just hold a great disdain for this new policy. I'm aware dA just wishes to prevent getting in trouble, but I truly find this to be ludacris. You may catch me creating a new account that can properly accomidate this ridiculous obstruction I've come to face.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14943160/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14943160/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 15:27:28 PDT

I have recently been advised to not visit the Lonemoon page until further notice. While not fully sure as to why, I'll faithfully comply with this request.
I may be mistaken, but I'm fairly sure I was asked this. Hope I'm right @@


Also, Saku, I want my tablet back please >< This sounds pathetic, but I'm desperate for it back as soon as you can manage. I've been getting so many new ideas that I wanna draw out, but alas, I have no tablet! I'll give you Pocky if you give me tablet ;3;

A final note:

I love driving carts whenever I go shopping somewhere. Not for the fact that it conveniently makes carrying a heavy load of purchase items easy, but more for the fact that I can glide down the aisles and the parking lot while clinging to it, getting an exhilerating breeze and fun ride. Unfortunately it wasn't as pleasurable an expirience when I went grocery shopping today.
As I entered the store, cart being pushed in front of me, I decided I'd glide to the first aisle using the cart, without considering the fact that the cart was still very empty, I am rather heavy, and there was nothing to counterbalance my weight on the front end of the cart. That was an unfortunate miscalculation, For I suddenly lost my footing and ended up landing on my stomach, still holding the handles, which caused the cart to rear back and land sitting up in front of me.
Now I lay there in the floor for about four seconds or so, considering how foolish I probably looked to everyone around the store, yet thanking my lucky stars that the cart indeed had no contents in it to topple onto me. I then promptly stood and continued down the aisle with a smile on my face, likely many confused onlookers in my wake.
The End.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14652179/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14652179/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 23:28:51 PDT

I wished to inform you all of some wonderous news: I've finally found my Wacom Tablet Pen! I have been looking for this thing for over a year now and found it while rearranging my room . . . under my old desk. But I finally have it back^3333^

That is all.


(ecstatic me, drawn with newly found Tablet pen ^3^)



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14416452/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14416452/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 19:55:50 PDT

Guess who got tagged twice in a row. Thank you, Sora, Cheche. I figure I'll combine them and give 16 facts about myself.

1. My favorite breed of dog is the Pembroke Welsh Corgi.

2. My two favorite sitcoms are Scrubs and Boy Meets World.

3. I am quite possibly one of the most open conversationalists you'll ever know. I am willing to converse about nearly anything. I kid you not.

4. Vocalized, audible yawns and sighs annoy me horribly.

5. I have a giant box filled with nothing but pokemon merchandise that I stocked up on when I was younger.

6. I've yet to break a bone or sprain anything. *knocks wood*

7. I'm fairly certain that I swing both ways.

8. My knees pop loudly anytime I bend or straighten them.

9. I am obsessed with the japanese culture.

10. I went to see the movie Corpse Bride four seperate times in theatres.

11. My right foot rotates outward slightly.

12. I still am unable to balance on a bike.

13. I convinced a group of third-graders that my real name was Xuu and that I know a wild wolf in real life.

14. I am unceasingly ridiculed for my appearance, yet am only aware of this by reports from concerned friends who must think I'm affected by the derogatory statements people make about me, while in actuality, I don't notice most of the rude things people say about me.

15. When I sit on the ground, I fold my legs oddly, or so I'm told.

16. I tell more then I should about myself to people who probably shouldn't learn such knowledge about me so early on.

I also will tag no one. Enjoy the freedom^^



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14400882/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14400882/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 19:18:44 PDT

Spectacualr news. It turns out that the kitten, Ardimus, who my father was originally insisting we get rid of as soon as possible, is miraculously now permited to be kept inside! This is honestly one of the most improbable things I'd ever expected my father to agree to. After all, we've not kept an animal under these circumstances in nearly a decade(I kid you not.) We are actually keeping Ardimus.

I also just realized I'd been tagged

1. Do you like anyone?
like is never a strong enough word for me.

2. Do they know it?
I hope so

3. Simple or complicated?
it depends

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

5. Bought something: yes

6. Gotten sick?: bad stomach aches and headaches, yes.

7. Been hugged?: more times than I can count. My friends and I have this morning ritual of hugging everyone in the group. I get at least seven hugs a day.

8. Felt stupid?: incredibly

9. Talked to an ex?: both, yes

10. Missed someone: of course

11. Failed a test: I think so.

13. Danced: every day XD

14. Gotten your hair cut?: not this month, in July I did(the drastic cut I mentioned previously)

15. Lied: yep

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?: I talk quickly and obsessivly clean my nails

17. Are you double jointed? no

18. Can you roll your tongue?: yep, and make three folds in it

19. Can you raise one eyebrow? yes

20. Can you cross your eyes?: yes

21. Do you make your bed daily?: no

22. Do you think you are unique?: in many ways, yes

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

23. Said "I Love you": to many, yes

24. Given money to a homeless person: yes

26. Waited all night for a phone call?: more times than I'd like to have, yes

27. Snuck out?: no

28. Sat and looked at the stars?: yes

M A N N E R S

29. Do you swear/curse?: a lot recently, yes. My friends are bad influences >O

30. Do you ever spit?: yes

31. You cook your own food?: ususally

32. You do your own chores?: I know I should

33. You like beef jerky?: I don't eat meat

35. You're happy with your life?: pretty happy, yes

36. You own a dog?: yes

37. You spend your money wisely?: I've been more conscious of the money I spend, lately.

38. Do you like to swim?: yep

39. When you get bored do you call a friend?: no, I find that to be annoying.

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

41. Flowers or angels?: angel!*huggles Britain*

42. Gray or black?: I'm divided. I love them both.

43. Color or black and white photos?: depends

44. Lust or love?: Overall love, but a good dose of lust every now in then doesn't hurt

45. Sunrise or sunset?: ooh, tough one. Don't know.

46. M&Ms or Skittles?: Skittles are pure sugar, m&ms are chocolate coated in pure sugar. Nun, plz

48. Staying up late or waking up early?: I love staying up on coffee suspensions, and wake up early, regardless.

49. Hot or cold?: hot

50. Winter or Fall?: Ack! Don't make me choose!

51. Left or right?: You know what? left!

52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: ten aquaintences eventually become best friends one way or another for me, so lets do the first 8D

53. Sunshine or rain? Rain!

M O R E - H A V E - Y O U - E V E R S

Slept in a bed of the opposite sex?: I think so.

Hooked up in the woods?: no

Hooked up in the shower?: no(intrusive, no?)

Been asked out?: yes, twice

Stolen money from a friend?: heh, yeah, but she knew it.

Slept naked?: I think so

Been in a fist fight?: not one that wasn't for sparring purposes.

Snuck out of your house?: Didn't you already ask this?

Had a crush on a teacher?: kinda. It's complicated, but you could say I have a crush on everyone I know.

Seen someone die?: yes, unfortunately

Been on an airplane? yep

Slept all day?: tried once, I awoke sooner than I wanted, though.

Missed someone... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14353044/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14353044/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 17:17:34 PDT

I've been struck with some sorrow in the last few days. And there is still more to come:
My duck, Quackers, died two days ago while I was away at a friends house. We think she died from heat exhaustion, which is especially hard on my part since I was her main caretaker. I feel like I let her down, like there was so much I could have done to prevent it.

There is also a visitor here who is breaking my heart:
I stepped outside Wednesday hearing a distant mewing. I walked over to the shrubs and trees where I heard it coming from. I bent down to push the leaves out of the way and see if a kitten was there, when suddenly a branch pressed down on my head from above. I looked up to see a wide-eyed kitten staring down at me from atop the branch.
We decided since it was hot out to leave water for the kitten . . . and some food 'cause he looked skinny, then we went inside. Since then, he hasn't left. He's been out there everyday waiting for us to come outside. Anytime I go out to feed my animals, he follows me constantly. At first I found him to be a nuisence, but he's grown on me. I'd be willing to care for him as an outdoor cat, but my dad won't have any of that. he demands we get rid of him by any means possible. I understand why he doesn't want the kitten: he curls around peoples legs while they walk, endagering his life and the person walking.
Still, it hurts to know that we may have to send him to a shelter. I understand fully why they need to kill unadopted pets there, but it hurts to consider sending the kitten there.
I especially hate myself right now because I've started calling him Ardimus, even though naming him makes it that much harder to give him up. I've even begun writing him into Ikikata Kitai as a persistant cat/monkey anthro who is following one of my characters, Kaneka, around.
Hopefully we'll find a suitable home for Ardimus soon.

Life sucks right now, but I'll get over it. I'm already feeling a bit better by typing this.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14275353/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14275353/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 16:16:21 PDT

. . . . 20 journals?! Good lord o________O;;;

Will you all hate me if I don't respond to all of them?


School has had me wiped. Latin, Chemistry and Mythology are not my friends, even if the teachers are . . . I'll get to the messages when I can, guys



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14229815/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14229815/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 18:18:07 PDT

I just saw the movie Hairspray today, and I must admit, I've never gone to see a movie where I ended up dancing in the aisles to the end credit music ^333^ I probably would have for Rent, though, had I seen it in theatres ;-;


And now, a quiz! stolen from

Name 7 things in your bag (or if you're male...wallet/ pocket):
1. gum wrappers
2. snack wrappers
3. ipod
4. a pencil
5. a lead pencil
6. a pencil sharpener
7. theatre makeup( don't ask)

Name 6 things you do when you're really stressed:
1. procrastinate
2. draw
3. shower excessively for an incredibly long time
4. sleep
5. worry like hell
6. do these quizzes

Name 5 favorite fruits:
1. blueberries
2. bananas
3. honeydue
4. grapes
5. apples

Name 4 names you go by:
1. Erin
2. Xuu
3. nidopug( or any variation, i.e. nido, niddy, niddykins, niddypoo,etc. )
4. Beeber

Name 3 things you are wearing right now
1. Jack Skellington shirt
2. an undershirt
3. pajama shorts


1. What are you thinking about right now?
Ideas to improve my chatracters for Ikikata Kitai

2. Where do you sleep?
in the living room recliner or my bed; wherever I land when I'm sleepy.

3. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Hot Topic

4. What was the last thing you ate?
Pancakes

5. What kind of cell phone service do you have?
Cingular?

6. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
My wall

7. What is the last movie you watched?
HAIRSPRAY! ^3333^

8. When did you last cry?
I think yesterday, possibly the day before

9. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
watching the Naruto marathon*lame*

10. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace page?
Yep^^

11. What beverages have you had to drink today?
water and V8

12. What's one thing you wish to change about yourself?
my procrastination habits and my skin condition

13. What do you wish for?
love and peace

14. When was the last time you got really hurt?
physically? emotionally? mentally? well, in any case, not recently . . .

15. Any plans for Friday night?
mm, not right now

16. Something you are excited about?
spending more time with my friends Monday

17. What is your favorite flavor of jelly?
(mmrm?) grape, I suppose

18. Describe your key chain?
It has an image of Victor Vandort making a "ZOMGWTFI'MGONNADIE" face

19. Do you know anyone in prison?
mm, I don't think I do

20. When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?
a day or two ago in a tortilla wrap

21. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?
not at a good one DX

22. Name someone you miss?
Diane

23. Are you named after a grandparent.
no

24. Who loves you?
I'd hope my friends and family D: and maybe some stalker I don't know about . . .

25. Have you ever broken a rib?
nope*knocks wood*

26. Would you rather be a girl or a guy?
I've wondered occasionally what it'd be like to be male, but I'm pretty content being female^^

27. Who is the most spoiled person you know?
My horses X[

28. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love?
Tru Luv plz

29. Have you ever had sex in church?
owo . . . can't say I have . . .

30. Would you rather date someone 2 years younger or older?
older

31. What's your favorite junk food?
Pocky!*incredibly lame*

33. Is your birthday on a holiday?
don't think so

24. Are you old enough to vote?
maybe

35. Do you have any friends or family in the war right now?
I don't believe I do

36. Are you a vegetarian?
why yes I am!

37. Do you worry about global warming?
heh, yeah

38. Seen Shaun of the Dead?
. . . no(wtf kinda questions are these?! )

39. What song do you want played at your funeral?
. . . nice music?



http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/14136027/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 16:11:30 PDT

Good God, I love this song!

All right, I realize again that I've been incredibly lazy. I haven't even made a freakin post on any proboards site I've joined for over a month ;_;
A message I wish to offer to Rivermoon, Mourgie and Sora: I'm holding you guys up on Lonemoon and not going through with a lot of things I need to do, plotwise and roleplaywise. I've currently found myself at a loss for inspiration. I hope to gain it back soon. Also, I'm under the stress of starting back to school. I'll respond in Lonemoon when I get good momentum to push my roleplay creativity into a decent post. Until then, I'll continue apologizing and offering lame excuses until I get off my lazy ass and post. I love you guys ;<3; Thanks for putting up with me.

I'm starting to develop a story that I may turn into a manga. I've based the main plot of the story on a phrase I'm working to live by:
"Be who you want to be,
Not who you're expected to be" so I've entitled it as Ikikata Kitai (which roughly translates in japanese to "Lifestyle Expectations") In short it's about a human highschool boy who has moved to a new home with a new school that is unlike any he ever knew of. Anthromorphic animals as well as humans attend his highschool, called Yooshiki-Tooyoo Kou Kou (Western-Eastern Highschool.) A few even have elemental powers of different properties of nature. Though most of the anthro's don't hang around the humans, he is accepted by a group of students that is comprised mostly of animals. They are the considered 'misfits' of the school and welcome people unconditionally. Each of my characters are struggling in their own ways about whether to live the way they are expected to live or the way they truly wish to live.

By suggestion of good friends, I'm getting into the series Full metal Alchemist as well as Bleach. I love the music in both, and the story lines are quite good^^

Did you actually read all that?



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13991590/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13991590/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 19:32:43 PDT

As of today, I have tried Pocky for the very first time. To answer your questions.

1. strawberry
2. hooked me up with it
3. Venezuala
4. It tasted freakin awesome!!!!

I left Saku's house after trying it and screamed at the top of my lungs "I'm no longer a pocky virgin!!!" I got a few stares.
Gah, I even have a full box of it, courtesy, again, of Saku^^ My mission with it, now, is to take away the pocky virginity of everyone else I know by having them try some(and to have a few for myself ^////^ )

yes, this single bit of information was worthy of its own journal entry |3



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13962600/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13962600/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 20:57:31 PDT

I just realized something in the last five seconds, everyone:

Leon=Squall

At this time, feel free to now point and laugh at my utter lack of the ability to know something fairly obvious to everyone else.
*feels like randomly mortifying self even though few will likely understand how* (ignore this if you don't know what I'm talking about in what I just realized.)

In other news, I finally returned from my trip to the Smokies! 8D *cough*over a week ago*cough**cough*
We couldn't do much hiking as my mom tires easily. I learned a lot about the Cherokee Indians, too^^ I hated when we went into all the gift shops though, since I knew I'd spot a wolf souvenir that I'd likely obsessively want. I managed to get two new wolf tees and a corgi figurine. I'm pleased with my catch^^
It was loads of fun, but I'm glad to be back.

Fellow Lonemoonians(especially Sora,) I'm so sorry for not responding to all the roleplay messages. I've been very busy, but that's a lame excuse for leaving you hanging.*has Ritsu moment* It's not fair to you guys that I'm such a procrastinator and am leaving you with no roleplay messages to respond to. My lack of time and inspiration(motivation) for posting shouldn't be your problem. I hope you guys can forgive me as I work to get life matters out of the way and give my dear buddies the acknowledgement they so rightly deserve.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13796996/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13796996/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 15:29:22 PDT

Afraid I'll be gone to the mountains till Sunday. It'll be fun, but I'll miss you guys ;; Don't have too much fun without me. Be back soon!

As of today, I'm still a pocky virgin ;____; I checked our local grocery store today to see if there was any of that highly-proclaimed treat in the orientall section, only to find that they had none. I've never tried pocky, and I want to so badly >_<# nearly all my friends have and tell me it tastes delicious. Lord, I wanna try some so badly!



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13671644/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13671644/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 13:16:08 PDT

I wished to make something known to all the people I watch and who watch me, as well as all my online friends: I've considered recently all the things I hold dear in my life as well as all the people I care most about. I gotta say, the internet is quite the essential convenience in my book, as it is a gateway to a massive amount of the joy in my life, mainly because, without it, I wouldn't know any of my wonderful online friends. You guys are a big influence and joy in my life, each and every one of you. Know that I do have good family and awesome real life friends that I care about very dearly as well, and they're very important to me. I just find that I'm especially blessed to know people all over the world who share similar interests as I do and that I can get along with so easily that we'd likely get along just as well if we knew each other in real life. I just wanted to thank everyone online who knows me for being such an awesome person. I wish you all the joyous feelings you bring me each time I log on. Much love, guys

My latest haircut is now without a doubt closer to the haircut I include on the drawings of me than ever before. From the ears forward my hair falls into the horseshoe cut, angling downward, being longest at the very front. From the point of my ears back, however, it shifts immediately into a male cut, tappered all the way up to the back of my hairline. To give you an idea, the reluctant stylist used shear cutters on the back of my head. Though it's unorthodox, I must say, this style is what I've wanted since last year and I'm quite happy with it. Half my friends seem convinced I've lost it, yet in truth, did I ever really have it to begin with? ^3^



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13407349/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13407349/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 13:10:12 PDT

Suspense was about to kill someone last night. A further explanation is required, I know.

It was roughly 3:30 AM this morning when I was nearing the climax of an exciting story that had been divided by chapters into a series of deviations. I had been reading it unceasingly for about four hours or so. I'd gotten sucked into the story, enthralled by every line I read. So, imagine the doorway that leads to the climax wide open before you. You walk forward eagerly to pass through it, when the door suddenly slams in your face, casusing you to fall backward, shell shocked. Now, written on a sign hanging from the door is something to the effect of "Down for maintainance; read-only mode activated"
Normally, that fact wouldn't be enough to stop you from merely opening the closed door to continue, yet you find there to be a lock on the door, a padlock that reads, "mature content, do not enter."
And you have my situation; because of a block for non-members on account of language and inapropriate material combined with the maintainance mode that didn't permit you to log in, I was left to stand pathetically outside the door that led to the precious next chapter I so desired to read about.
Now as I'm sure you can imagine, I was about ready to scream so loudly that I would have inevitably awoken everyone in the house. In the end, however, I settled for repeatedly slamming my head in frustration against the computer desk.

Talk about a cliff hanger. Life sucks sometimes. It's all good, though.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13329018/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13329018/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 11:57:18 PDT

I know, a late respnse to show that I'm back.
DC was awesome! And different >>; Their crosswalks have timers! @o@ And I saw nearly every monument and memorial they had there. There are so freakin many of them! There was more history in that one trip than I ever got in my sixth period class last year!
And it was freakin hot there! Imagine walking two miles over burning assphault in one-hundred-four degree weather with the sun glaring at you the whole time and no water. x_X Now see the sign that says "Welcome to DC; There's a frying pan just your size here!" 8D

I was feeling down over little things the last few days, but I wrote a poem about it, so I'm feeling better now. It's amazing what expression can do to help when you feel down^^ Plus the song by Abba that I was listening to was encouraging.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13212276/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13212276/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 08:09:31 PDT

Hey all! Afraid I must report that I'm not gonna be here for several days. I'm going on a trip to Virginia until Sunday.
Fret not, I plan to catch up on ALL my roleplay messages I've not responded to before I leave tommorow*ish trying to motivate self*

I'll be back before you guys know it and I will miss you all.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13188888/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13188888/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 11:52:07 PDT

I feel bad for doing this quiz instead of catching up on roleplays. I'll reply soon, buddies, I promise ;_;

Stolen from Korvy

THE BASICS
Name - Erin, Xuu, variations of nidopug
Gender - Female
Age - mid to late teens :3
Screen Name - nidopug
Birthday - March 4 or October 8
Race - Caline
School/Grade - Not telling, sorry
Job - I volunteer at pet shops and animal shelters
Status - Single
Hometown -
Current Town -
Parents Still Together? - Yes
Siblings - A brother and sister
Pets - Two horses, two goats, a duck, a dog and a cat
Smoker - No
Drinker - No
Virgin - Yes
Orientation - I'm not fully sure yet, I seem to lean more toward straight
Drugs - No

APPEARANCE
Hair Color - Brown with various strands of reds and blonde
Is It Dyed? - No
Eye Color - Hazel
Height - 5'8 I believe
Style - Dark tees, jeans, converse or crocs, my goggles, the two bracelets on my right wrist, a collar on my left arm
Glasses/Contacts/None? - Contacts
Freckles - Some
Body Type - Not thin, not chubby
Shoe Size - 10 to 11 in womens ( ~o~' )
Piercings - Three in each ear
Want More? -Yes, five more in my right ear, four more in my left, a librette piercing( center lower lip), possibly an upper centered lip piercing so I can pierce my lip shut :3
Tattoos? - No
Want More? - Want some^^
Braces? - Used to
Overall Best Feature - Eyes maybe?
Overall Worst Feature - My chest and chubby areas
Do you get most of your traits from mom or dad? - I thin my mom


LIKES/DISLIKES
Favorite Color - Electric blue
Worst Color - Orange
Favorite Number - 2
Favorite Animal - Wolves and dogs
Least Favorite Animal - Pigs and monkeys
Favorite Flower - Snap dragons
Favorite Food - Spaghetti and my Nannie's lasagna ^w^
Worst Food - An arabic food I'd tried once. The vinegar in it nearly made me vomit ;_;
Favorite Junk Food - cheetos >.>
Worst Junk Food - most candy
Favorite Restaraunt - Gyro Cafe
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor - Vanilla
Favorite Candy - Most chocolate
Favorite Alcoholic Drink - Haven't found a very good one yet
Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink - Gatorade and milk
Worst Alcoholic Drink - cheap shampagne
Worst NON Alcoholic Drink - bottled water
Favorite Genre of Music - Rock, alternative, metal, indie, etc.
Worst Genre - Country + Rap = Crap
Favorite Band/Artist - Mae, Postal Service, Hot Hot Heat, Ladytron, Gorillaz, Within Temptation, Celldweller, KoRn, System of a Down, Mindless Self Indulgence, Evenscence, Avenged Sevenfold, My Chemical Romance, Incubus, Chevelle, Megadeth, My Dying Bride, Fall Out Boy, Jimmy Eat World, Gym Class Heroes, Panic! at the Disco, Funker Vogt, Green Day, Good Charlotte, The Distillers, Oasis, Seal, Enya, Sonata Arctica, Beatles, Monkees, Grass Roots, Danny Elfman, Thomas Newman, The Pillows, Yoko Kanno . . . sorry, was I only supposed to name one or two?
Favorite Song - I don't currently have just one
Worst Song - Fergalicious
Favorite Radio Station - Don't have one
Favorite Book - Twilight
Worst Book - Can't think of one
Favorite Type of Movie - unrated, romantic comedies
Worst Type of Movie - Horror/gore
Favorite Movie - Rent
Worst Movie Ever - Rugrats Go Wild
Favorite TV Show - Law and Order: SVU
Worst TV Show - Any reality show
Favorite Season of the Year - Fall or Winter
Worst Season - Summer
Best Friend - Ugh, so many @_@
Worst Enemy - don't think I have one
Favorite Day of the Week - Saturday
Least Favorite Day of the Week - Monday
Favorite Sport - Horseback Riding
Sport You Hate - Kickball
One thing you cant get enough of - hugs :3
One thing you hate more than anything - ignorant idiots

LOVE LIFE
Are You Single? - Yes
If not, who is your bf/gf? -
How Long Have You Been Together? -
If You're Single, Do you Like It? - I guess so
Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now? - Little features and traits of everyone ^W^
First Kiss - From my momma when I was born 8D
Ever Kiss in the Rain? - I think I did once
In a Movie Theater? - Yes
Underwater? - No
First Love - I don't know if I've truly been in love yet.
Ha... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13128364/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/13128364/ Mon, 28 May 2007 17:16:41 PDT

The Goddamned comp screwed up and deleted the well-lengthed journal entry I typed. I'm much too pissed to retype it so I'll paraphrase what it said:

Sorry for my continued absence from dA and roleplay. Real life comes first I'm afraid. I'll respond when I can.

I fear my final report card won't be very good. I might have failed half my subjects because of the stress of final and the end of the school year. I'm most worried about how upset my mom will be if it is that bad. She's been worried about my grades since I didn't do so hot last time*cough* two F's*cough**cough*

I may post another scanned picture soon. Keep checking.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12879103/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12879103/ Mon, 07 May 2007 17:24:14 PDT

Simple update:

I am so thrilled! I just got in an imported soundtrack from Japan. It's called Uncharted Waters II by Yoko Kanno( a favorite composer of mine.) I got it mainly for the thirtenth track on it. It is the theme that plays( well used to) on the page of the lupe, Euphotus. It is simply a brilliant song^^ The other songs on it are very nice, as well. To me they sound like a cross between early twentieth century music, music you'd hear on the weather channel during the Local on the 8's and Sims music.

I realize I've not been responding very much to roleplay messages or messages in general. Forgive my absence, as I've been trying to get my life in order. I'll be more punctual with online responses once the summer comes( or the school and everyone in it gets sucked into an interdimensional, time portal --" )



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12805350/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12805350/ Tue, 01 May 2007 15:54:46 PDT

I have a strange feeling about further updates Neopets may be making to the site.
I noticed that the pets pictures load in small bits, starting with the base of the body, then tail, then limbs, then head, then eyes, then nose, etc, until the full picture is shown, like in layers of an image being developed on an art program. I have an odd suspicion that they plan to have the neopets moving in their pictures on the lookupsO-O""""""
It's just a hunch, but I fear I may be right. That may seem neat in a way, but personally, I find it creepy . . .



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12764428/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12764428/ Sat, 28 Apr 2007 08:55:33 PDT

Yet another impossible project I've taken on of my own choice which I'll probably regret agreeing with myself to do later . . . Sorry, Sora and Kovus, I feel unoriginal --;; It is calling out to me to do this now!

1. IntroductionX
2. Love X
3. LightX
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. HeavenX
8. InnocenceX
9. Drive
10. Breathe AgainX
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. MisfortuneX
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No TimeX
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My HandX
36. Precious Treasure
37. EyesX
38. Abandoned
39. DreamsX
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. DyingX
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the HeadX
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. AnnoyanceX
70. 67%
71. Obsession X
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. MirrorX
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. FoodX
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I HaveX
93. Give UpX
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety FirstX
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Wish the procrastinator luck . . .





" title="corgi-lovers" ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12748135/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12748135/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 20:54:12 PDT

I must say, the makeover neopets concocted threw me off to say the least.

Pros:
-It lets me know who's online
-It gives more info about my active pet
-I don't have to hover over the new message symbol to see who's sent me something
-The sidebar isn't taking up much of the page
- It appears more organized

Cons:
-It stretches the page badly TT
-It farked up the HTML including doing away with backgrounds
-The change was too drastic, too quick
-Everything is in a different location than it was previously
-Its layout is rather confusing @@

That's my opinion. Any input, fellow Neopians?



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12530894/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12530894/ Mon, 09 Apr 2007 19:58:07 PDT

This is supposed to be some tagging process thing, but I felt like stealing it instead.


100 things about me:
1) Full name: Erin Xuu why-the-hell-should-I-share-that-with-you? niddykins
2) Male/Female: Female
3) Were you named after anyone?: Some saint
4) Does your name mean anything?: A girl from Ireland XD I'm not even Irish( I don't think.)
5) Nickname(s): Xuu, Xuumachi, niddy, nido, niddykins, niddy-poo, (by some friends ErinErinErinErinErinErin
6) What do you think you look like... name wise: . . . a chore, minus the 'd'? (errand, Erin, get it?)
7) Date of birth: Oct 8, maybe Mar 4
8) Place of birth and current location: Afraid I'm not giving that much away.
9) Nationality: American
10) Astrology sign: Libra, maybe Taurus
11) Chinese astrology sign: Somewhere between the tiger and the sheep
12) Religion: Christianity, though I respect all religions and without one
13) What's your favorite smell?: Clean sheets, I like some male body spray smells, too.
14) Political Position?: Politics suck 'cause we can't live civily with them or without them.
15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Milk.
16) Hair + eye color: Brownish, but it shifts in different lighting; hazel
17) Do you look like anyone famous?: I've not been told that I do.
18) What do you look like?: Why do you wanna know? . . . stalker. I'm considerably tall. I hate my shape though.
19) Any unusual talents?: I can do numerous unusual things with my fingers and tongue.
20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?: righty
21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?: Still figuring that out. Currently, though, I seem to physically prefer the opposite sex.
22) What do you do for a living?: No job yet, I draw, though.
23) What do you do for fun?: Draw or roleplay *is a lamo with no life*
24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: pencil usually, though I'm getting into pens now X3
25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: A more highly advanced art program T^T
26) Have you met your grandparents?: yep.
27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: no one currently
28) Crush: I believe we've established the boyfriend answer.
29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: celebrities are overated. Nun, plz.
30) Current worries?: failing
31) Favorite online guy/girl(s): Don't make me choose ;_; I love you all
32) Favorite place to be?: my house, really.
33) Least favorite place to be?: grocery Store with my parents.
34) Do you burn or tan?: Both. I don't like either.
35) Ever break a bone?: nope*knocks wood*
36) What is your favorite cereal?: Cheerios
37) Person you cry with: usually myself or my dog, taffy
38) Any sisters: One
39) Any brothers: One
40) Any pets: a cat, a dog, two billy goats, an elderly mare, a gelding*cough*pig*cough**cough* a duck and a partridge in a pear tree
41) An illness: an upper respiratory infection that has currently subsided in intesity.
42) A pager: nope
43) A personal phone line: fft, no
44) A cell phone: not till I need one
45) A visible birthmark: on the upper part of my left arm
46) A pool or hot tub: no
47) A car: eventually
48) Personality: in my opinion? friendly, yet highly invasive; I'll be myself from the moment you're aquanted with me, showing you all my sides. I'll naturally test your tolerance threshold, though I'll offer as many warning as I can to let me know when you'd like me to turn it off. I have the potential to act with the maturity ranging anywhere between that of a perverted ten-year-old boy or an educated adult. It depends on who I'm with and trust.
49) Driving: horribly frightening on a busy interstate
50) Your clothing style: Usually a dark tee, jeans and my Converse or Crocs. Sometimes I'll dress up a bit. Rarely will you find me in a dress or skirt.
51) Room: blue-themed and immensely cluttered
52) What’s missing: my new computer desk
53) School: creates too much pressure and drama, wait, no, that's just the students there
54) Bed: comfy, good for sleeping on
55) Relationship with your parent(s): I love them. They love me. They cared to have me and trust me, so I'll care not to be a pain-in-the-ass, angsty teenager that drives them up the wall with fear, frustration and worry by my overexcessive need to express myself and display individuality.
56) Do you believe in yourself?: I don't believe some of the things I come up with, but I do belive in myself, yes.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: maybe in first conversation and genuine connection.
58) Consider yourself a good listener?: Huh, what?(lame) Depends on how well it holds... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12484796/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12484796/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 14:45:12 PDT

My computer is being the biggest farktard! It's acting so idiotic! It was hard enough just to get to this page to post this after all the "This page cannot be displayed" messages I received. I kept repeatedly having to hit the enter key
This is how Erin feels:
"

You remember the journal entry I wrote about Primal Urges? Well, I went primal all over my computer moniter.

And does anyone know of that animation showing the dude trying to type on the computer, getting frustrated with it and angrily hitting his fingers on the keys till he wears his little stick arms off, then ends it by wacking his head against the keyboard, face getting bloody, eyes being shaken out of the sockets before the beaten pulp of a head slows down and eventually stops by landing on the keyboard?
Yeah, I feel like that.
I'll be fine, I just need sedation.

In other news, two days ago, it was 76 degrees here. Now it's currently snowing. What a world.



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12313040/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12313040/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 17:38:45 PDT

Lonemoon members: as I'm sure you're all aware, our 2nd birthday is coming up March 31, this Saturday. Unfortunately, I must report that I'll be gone on a camping trip then, as will Saku(who didn't kindly care to inform me of that ¬¬) I'm very sorry to all, and I hope you all have the greatest time celebrating. Next year, I'll be sure to see when our upcoming camping trips are. Until then, I'll sulk over not being able to attend, hugging my Xuumachi plushie as I sit in the tent.*is shot for overemoness*

In other news, I've found lately that I like adding borders to my pictures. What do you think? Does it help?



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12263880/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12263880/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 19:57:12 PDT

Hallo everbody 8D Hokay, here's da scoop:

Usually new designs for a character of mine are sparked and set into motion by a sudden idea. Often, that idea is of a species, name, marking, trait, etc., and inspiration for it can come from numerous things, such as a song I like. If I've decided that the idea is worth using, I'll start to develop a character, sometimes combining other ideas that have been floating around in my head. From there, a lot of editing may be done. For example, My character, Nal, the creamy-tan, spiky black-haired, muscular gelert was originally a thin, nameless grey-furred, fox-like, female character. The one thing that remained the same from the first drawing to the latest of Nal is the blankness in his eyes.

I felt it was high time I made a demented character.
I warn you now that this character's story, personality and traits are rather gruesome. This is part of the reason he'll likely never be posted on Neopets. Read with caution, please.

Well my latest idea is for a canine who was created genetically in a laboratory with the intent of being the most efficient guard dog ever. He would be unstoppable, possessing a durable heart and innerworkings, attacking any who attempted to breach security and being sure they suffer great pain and a horrible death, unless he was told a specific command that was to be programmed into him that would make him stop( it's programmed into all guard expirements for safety.) The only problem was that the command was never programmed into him for a reason yet to be known. That fact would have been reason enough to label him a reject and terminate him. Yet also, he was found to be unstably masochistic, psychotic and cunningly intelligent. In short, he would callusly, remorselessly torture and kill anything he chose to; this included himself. He enjoyed pain more than anything, he's smart enough to disobey, unlike a true guard, who follows orders, and he's insane enough to do horrid things without a second thought. He found pleasure in ripping his own flesh to bits, giving himself deep gashes, amputating many parts, including his ears and tail and gouging out his right eye, among doing many other horrible things to himself and any he felt like hurting. He especially loved to watch things bleed.
The scientists that made him attempted to terminate him to prevent the creature from being a threat to society and himself, yet were unable to, as he'd been made too indesructable. His heart wouldn't stop beating, no matter what. The second most humane thing they could manage to do for him was to remove his canine teeth, dull the rest to the point that he couldn't continue biting parts of his tongue off, and putting a steel muzzle over his face. Even removing his claws wasn't enough, since he was still able to pick up sharp instruments and continue harming himself and everyone else. They ended up removing his digits as well. They stitched some of his more serious gashes, including sewing his right eyelids shut. Also, any further restraints, such as a collar or wrist bands, were removed, as they would only give him more of an oppurtunity to hurt himself; he would create deep lacerations by tightening them. Once they felt he'd been altered to the point that he was relatively harmless, they caged him, branding him a reject. Unfortunately he used his amazingly clever mind to escape the facility. He managed to elude the masses of search teams and is still keeping well hidden. He eats whatever he can find, and continues to find ways to harm himself and anyone he chooses to when coming into contact with them. Such a doomed soul he is.

His description is as such:

Name: (none yet)
Species: a canine of some sort(a lupe if on Neopets)
Gender: Male
Age: unknown
Personality: Uncaring, masochistic, psychotic, demented, passionate, intelligent
Description: Light brown with a cream underbelly
Markings: Numerous cuts, bruises, gashes, scars, notches, etc.; various, missing patches of fur; branded on the right side of his torso are the letters GSEC(Genetic Security Enhnacement Corporation.); the letter R for "reject" is on the left side of his neck
Accesories: Steel, cage-like muzzle
Miscellaneous: He either can't, or doesn't choose to pronounce the letters 'f' or 'ph'; he instead pronounces it with an 'h' sound

Now I ask you, the reader, to help me come up with a name for this hideously demented creature. I've come up with an elaborate description and background story for this character, yet am having the worst writer's block in a name. All I can offer is that I feel his name begins with an 'A' and/or has the sound 'eh' as in 'pet' in it somewhere. Just offer some ideas, please. The name can be like anything from 'Anthony' or 'Evan' to 'Mattres... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12172960/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12172960/ Tue, 13 Mar 2007 19:03:01 PDT

Some survey thing for five of my characters, stolen from Took long enough to complete o_____O;;;

Characters Chosen:

Xuumachi: I am the beta fea of Lonemoon
Nidi: Need, need nidorina!(Erin's Nidorina and first Pokemon!)
Benny: I'm a corgi with the occupation of a cattle herder.
Alec: I'm a feline anthro trying to make a good living in the city.
Viky: I pity the fool who doesn't know me!

---

1. How old are you?

Xuumachi: 5 or 6 in human years
Nidi: Need(unsure)
Benny: 17, 18 maybe
Alec: 19
Viky: ageless!( twenty-three)

2. Height?

Xuumachi: 3'5
Nidi: Need, nida(2'4)
Benny: I'd prefer not to say -.-'
Alec: 5'9 maybe?
Viky: two foot something on all fours.

3. You got any bad habits?

Xuumachi: I fear lonelyness.
Nidi: Need nida nida(not that I know of)
Benny: I having a herding obsession.
Alec: Not really . . .
Kerri: No.*tucks away blueberries*

4. You a virgin?

Xuumachi: no
Nidi: nida(no)
Benny: eh, yes
Alec: Afraid so
Viky: nope(Whoot!)

5. Who's your mate?

Xuumachi: Touchstone
Nidi: Nida need need( a very sweet Nidoking)
Benny: no one . . .
Sokkz: haven't found the right person yet . . .
Viky: Leland ;~; *lonesomely hugs Leland plushie*

6. Have any kids?

Xuumachi: Lysithea, Grandeur, Xenuus, Darkroot, Tarlo, Sioux and a new litter on the way
Nidi: Need need need nida( a whole mess of them, including one named Ello)
Benny: no
Alec: not yet
Viky: I got a son I never see anymore.( o0o who knew?)


7. Favorite food?

Xuumachi: rabbit
Nidi: Need(bread)
Benny: Pedigree dog food^W^
Alec: Chicken
Viky: Blueberries 8D (who didn't see that coming?)

8. Favorite ice cream flavor?

Xuumachi: what is that?
Nidi: Nidorina(vanilla)
Benny: pecan butter
Alec: pistachio
Viky: Blueberry o-0

9. Killed anyone?

Xuumachi: Only what's neccessary
Nidi: Nida(no)
Benny: not that I can think of
Alec: I wouldn't say killed. The goldfish just stopped moving one day. . .
Viky: *mushes a roach* I'm sorry, what?

10. Hate anyone?

Xuumachi: No
Nidi: Nida(no)
Benny: Poachers T^T
Alec: No
Viky: Gelly, she lost my stereo . . .

11. Any secrets?

Xuumachi: I truly didn't want Xeifei to leave ;;
Nidi: Nida nida, need( I can't think of any)
Benny: I bit a cow's tail once and let it drag me around when I thought no one was watching* shifty eyes*
Alec: I have a fear of rodents *shudder*
Viky: I'm not hiding a band of rabid, purple foot weasels under my bed O_O""""


12. Love anyone?

Xuumachi: My companion, my pups and my pack
Nidi: Nida Nida( that wonderful Nidoking^~^)
Benny: no one in particular
Sokkz: eh, Virginia _oo_ shh!
Viky: Leland!

13. TACOS?!

Xuumachi: . . . what?
Nidi: NIDA!?(indegestion?)
Benny: No, I'm fine.
Alec: No.
Viky: Yes plz

14. Ever slept in all day?

Xuumachi: on a day that I'd had a big meal the previous night
Nidi: Nida(a few times)
Benny: No, I rise with the sun *ish proud*
Alec: Once, I think.
Viky: What does 'slept' mean?

15. Favorite show?

Xuumachi: what do you mean?
Nidi: Nida need(I don't watch TV)
Benny: don't own a TV
Alec: Oprah
Viky: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles!(the old show)

16. Favorite movie?

Xuumachi: Again, what?
Nidi: Need nida nida ;_;(Black Beauty; it makes me cry)
Benny: Corpse Bride
Alec: all my friends and I love Rent
Viky: Movies take too long @W@

17. Favorite band?

Xuumachi: What? Well, I love my, pack's howls.
Nidi: Need(not sure)
Benny: Enya
Alec: The Postal Service or Frou Frou
Viky: O-Zone!

18. Eye color?

Xuumachi: My left eye is a greyish blue, my left(blind) is grey
Nidi: Need nida(red-violet)
Benny: teal
Alec: light brown
Viky: turquoise!

19. Skin?

Xuumachi: Not tan but, not pale
Nidi: Nida(teal... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12161743/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12161743/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 20:02:21 PDT

First off, I'm comepletely aware of how moronicly, morbidly weird this sounds. Having said that, I've felt oddly dark behavior lurking within the depths of my mind lately. I'm passive by nature. I know how idiotically pointless it is to get into a fight with someone who is provoking you, as you're then just giving that person the satisfaction they crave by your loss of temper and blind risk of punishment. As a human, I've been given great intelect and the ability to reason at the expense of defensive/offensive features such as claws, sharp teeth or hard coating. We weren't ment to fight eachother, we were meant to think.
Still I find that every now and then when I'm pissed with something like my horse or even inatimate objects that are defying what I expect of it, causing my patience to wear thin, I'll gain the strangest urge to lash out at the object of my frustration, particularly using my jaws. When angered enough, I can pleasurably envision the outer surface of it being dug into by my teeth, ground sharp somehow, the interior collapsing beneath the painful clutch of my mandibles, flesh or innerworkings seaping into the crevaces between my teeth, me finding the taste of the gore to be very desirably delicious, able to sense the utter pain the whateveritis feels as it shudders at the mercy of my harshly binding jaws that seek sufficiency in the amount of vengeance being had.
My sincerest apologies for frightening anyone. I guess I overexaggerated. know that those feelings rarely occur, especially when around people. I don't focus those visualizations on any humans or most living things for that matter; usually on my computer or something like that.

In other news, I've been coming up with a better, more updated diagnosis for the condition my one wolf character has.
As I'm sure many of you Lonemoonians can assume, Darkroot is not normal. Not that it's a bad thing, not currently anyway:
The best way I can describe the way he functions is that he has photographic memory(able to accurately recall large volumes of minut details from long periods before,)highly developed sensory gating, meaning the many things he observes around him are all stored away into long term memory; while most forget small things after a while, it stays very fresh in Darkroot's mind, no matter how much time goes by. He also has an odd form of schitzophrenia. As apposed to most cases, All of his thoughts stay well organized, so long as he meditates regularly. This makes a dangerous combination if he neglects to routinely meditate and sort through the incesantly incoming thoughts. His recent bump on the head in the roleplay, which knocked him unconscious, offered him a small taste of mental simplicity he greatly desires; when knocked out, the voices that inform him of everything, the visual images that play constantly with whatever else he sees or when he sleeps, are stopped until he awakens, puttting him in a state of temporay serenity. Now, of course, he'd love nothing more than to speak more and talk with others as apposed to being his withdrawn self. Unfortunately, him opening up conversationally will only contribute to a gradually-approaching overload of thoughts; speaking what he thinks will only duplicate the incoming thoughts: the thought itself, and the worded description of the thought which he speaks. If he talks too much or suddenly stops meditating for an extended period, his mind will be crushed by the mass of his own unsorted thoughts, causing a devastating outcome x_X

Do the reasons for his actions in the roleplay, his silence, isolation and seemingly sullen detachment make anymore sense to you guys?



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12038599/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/12038599/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 10:36:53 PST

Checking back in. I've been lazy with many things( homework, Lonemoon roleplay, etc.) not bothering to keep up, and I feel bad about that. I've only been focusing on select things, I need to prioritize more.

In all honesty, I'm beginning to detest phone conversations. I mean no offense to anyone who does call me as it is no one in particular that I'm annoyed by. I'm just not liking talking on the phone in genral. Most of the time, I'm doing something such as working on a picture, feeding the four-legged gang, eating, etc. I try to make it clear to all my friends that I like to be called for a relevent reason. If there's a purpose behind the phone call, sure, I'm happy to talk. Otherwise, I sound less than eager to converse. I just get so many calls from friends. It's gotten to where no one else in the house will answer the phone because it's likely someone is calling for me.

This is proof positive that I was mistakenly born as a human instead of a quadruped or equine of some sort:
As mentioned in a previous journal entry, I have two goats, two horses, a duck and a dog to feed and water twice daily. The hierarchy of dominence goes as such:

Little Bit: aka Bit, Pony Boy, Pig, Jerk; head of the group; highly greedy; fears being tethered for extended periods because of a careless mistake I'd made in leaving him attached to his food post all night once. I tethered him to be sure he didn't so after everyone else's food after he'd finished while they were still eating. The fence is still weak from his attempts at breaking free of it, pulling down slightly.

Filly: aka Fill, Filly-Filly; competes for second rank with our one goat; twenty-three year-old mare; does what she told without resisting

Snowfur: aka Snow, Snow-Goat; competes with Filly, forming confrontations occassionally. Acts big and brave unless around a human; he's then very skittish; when being shooed, he often tilts his head to the right, looking up at you with an expression that suggests he'd like you dead; is pretty much a mini Little Bit with horns

Magellan: aka Gelly; lowest of the group; more trusting of the two goats with humans

Anyway, we go through a routine everytime I change Quacker's(the duck(I didn't choose her name.) pool water.
I give bit his troph full of food first, then Filly hers. Then I lay food down for Snow, and finally Jelly.
While the eat, I pull the hose over to Quacker's enclosure, redoing her water.
Now, I guess the hose makes Bit nervous, because as I'm filling her water, I'll notice him walking away from his troph, still loaded with food, to eat the goats' food off the ground, making his way to Fill's troph, which is fartheest from the hose and Quackers's yard.
With a deep sigh, I walk over to Bit and drag him back to his troph. As he starts eating from his again, I tie his halter to the fence(reluctantly) so that I can finsh with Quackers.
Well, by the time I've finished, Bit is getting ancy, pawing the ground to show nervousness as well as that he won't stand to be tied. So finally, once Quackers's things are done, I unhook him.
Now, I'm convinced that if Little Bit weren't fully aware that I am his only link to the food he so desires and that I'm pretty much useless in that respect if in the state of being a rotting corpse on the ground of which he stomped and trampled to a bloody pulp for challenging his authority, he would kill me on the spot. For that reason though, he agrees not to buck me when I get near him.
However, he'd gladly shove the other three out of the way to get what he wants, as to him, they're nothing more than a burden.
Once free from the rope that once held him back, he'll proceed to parade around the yard, showing his dominance in every way he can think of; pawing, bucking, and rolling. He basically gains the mind set of a toddler with a bad temper. And you haven't seen anything until you've seen a 1,500 pound baby throw a tantrum. He finishes his little charade by going over to every food spot he finds, devouring everyone's food going to his own half-finished food troph last.
He ends up booting Filly out of her area, and I lead her to his so she can eat a meal's worth of feed. She's happy enough with the settlement. And the goats don't really need their food anyway; it's more of a peace-offering so they don't feel left out.
I get really pissed though when Bit begins walking over to the troph Filly occupied(his) demanding that she moves so that he can have the rest.
I did something differently today that worked rather efficiently.
Now, normally while in the horse yard, I'll mimick dominant horse behavior to establish dominance and gain respect. While everyone else heeds my respect demand display, Bit only does to a... ]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11900347/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11900347/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 19:43:15 PST

"I hurt myself today to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain- the only thing that's real."--Johnny Cash

Obsession much. I just love this song.


Anyway, I've been tagged yet again, *cough*hate*cough*you*cough**cough**cough**pops in a Halls*

The 1st player of this 'game' starts with the Topic. '6 weird habits/ things/ hates about yourself.'

People who get 'Tagged' MUST write a Journal about their 6 weird habits/ things/ hates as well & state this rule clearly.....

In the end you need to choose the next 6 people to be 'Tagged' & list their names....

Don't forget to leave a comment that says, 'you are Tagged' in their Deviant page comments, & tell them to read yours.....

1. I can flip my tongue upside down both ways.

2. I once wrote a story for English class about a candy-obsessed, mad scientist who brought a marshmallow to life. It got me the highest grade in the class.

3. I'm convinced that dark-intentioned, demonic creatures follow me down the hallway of my house as well as other rooms( like the bathroom, Korvus^^) I have no clue what they look like; they are more like phantoms. But I feel their presence behind me as I cross certain parts of my house. They never hurt me physically. Yet I get a sense of them running beneath the skin of my spine. They cause me to stop dead in my tracks. I then proceed to jerk, spazz and twitch, making the sputtery sound I described in my last journal. It's only for a moment. Occassionally, they'll do it to me in public places, and people will look at me funny when I react.
To prevent them from doing it to me sometimes, I'll rush down the hallway until I find another human or a source of light. Once I do they seem to dissappear. I've seen cats do things like that too. I'm wondering if they're aware of the things, as well.

Again, don't tell my therapist.

4. When making or resizing a picture, I do everything in my power to make sure the length and width of the picture in pixels ends in either five or zero.

5. I get terribly disgusted when everything someone says sounds artificial. Basically, if everything they say sounds as though they got it off the TV or they repeat a line that has been said by everyone, I don't like to hang around them, especially if they're trying to sound macho or smooth in doing so. This also goes for those who try to make everything a drama, particular lines being assaulted over and over through being reused by everyone. Most don't even realize they're doing it. Hell, I'm probably a hypocrite myself in talking about it XD

6. I drink a glass of milk daily, so my finger and toe nails are unusually light colored. Most people I know have pinkish-colored nails. Mine are a pale, purpleish white.

Again, no tagging. Defiant little bum, aren't I?



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11871144/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11871144/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 17:06:51 PST

Thank you for the repeat tag, Mourgie . . .

The 1st player of this 'game' starts with the Topic. '6 weird habits/ things/ hates about yourself.'

People who get 'Tagged' MUST write a Journal about their 6 weird habits/ things/ hates as well & state this rule clearly.....

In the end you need to choose the next 6 people to be 'Tagged' & list their names....

Don't forget to leave a comment that says, 'you are Tagged' in their Deviant page comments, & tell them to read yours.....

1. I get royaly pissed with anyone who changes the song in the middle of it or right near the end, especially when they cut off whatever it was that was being sung right in the middle of a word.

2. I'm deathly afraid of the recorded sound of ocean waves. Seriously, I downloaded this song by Enya called Water Voices. It said in parenthesis "helps you sleep" like those sounds of nature CD's people buy when they can't afford prescription knock-out pills like Lunesta. I heard about twenty seconds of the water rushing up the shore then shut it off. I was trembling.

3. When annoyed by something(commonly when someone pokes my petpeeves) I start to twitch, spazz and make a gurgling/hissing/sputtering sound, my mouth gaping open and shut.
3 1/2. I'm aware of how odd this makes me sound, but I think I do that because I feel there is a missing vocal chord that I had in a past life that would help me make the sound. Either that, or it once existed but years of evolution has caused that chord to no longer help me make that sound. I can imagine the sound of it very clearly in my head, and I can feel where that sound-making chord would be located in my throat, but it just isn't there anymore, so I can't make that sound. It's very frustrating.
Don't tell my therapist.

4. When aggrivated with my tenacious horse and/or goat for misbehaving, I'll start growling at them. Even odder, I'll mimick agressive-llama behavior by spitting at them. I also grow tempted to lash out and nip their heels with my bare teeth to keep them in line.

5. When eating cereal with assorted pieces in it, like Lucky Charms or Crunch Berries, I meticulously, throroughly eat them in a seperated arrangement. i.e. 1. the Cap'n Crunch squares 2. the red berries 3. the green berries 4. the blue berries 5. the purple berries

6. I once orally violated the window of a stranger's van by mistake.
Make no sense to you? I'll explain:
One night, in a restaurant parking lot, my friend and I headed out to my mom's vehicle to retrieve something. My friend had the key and was the one who was actually going to get it. I was simply tagging along. She was going around to the driver's side to unlock the door, so I decided to be silly and make faces at her through the outside of the passenger window. I planted my face against the window, watching her fiddle with the keys. I had my mouth wide open, lips against the window, puffing out my cheeks. Then I started sliding my tongue against the window(get off my back, germophobs.) My friend knew what I was doing and was ignoring me. Suddenly, I saw her face turn pail, her jaw dropping, eyes growing wide as she looked in the van from outside and through the windows to the other side back up at me. I wondered what was wrong. I looked in the van myself. The interior didn't look like that of my mom's van. Suddenly, it hit me that my tongue was resting on the window of someone else's van. We'd walked up to the wrong one! We both scurried off, my friend laughing at me the whole way as we located the right van. We walked back by the other van on the way back into the restaurant. My nose and mouthprint were still on the window. Hurriedly, I did my best to wipe it off. That sent my friend into another wave of laughter. Later on, we saw from inside the restaraunt the owner of the van drive off. I don't think they noticed. One thing is certain, I don't intend to do that ever again . . .

Perhaps I've given more info than needed.

Out of spite, I'll not be tagging anyone >D



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11684506/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11684506/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 13:13:06 PST

I acknowledge that this test is stereotypical enough to make your head explode. I really just wanted to see what the results would be.


[RICH KID]
[ ] You go to a tanning salon. (eww, skin cancer)
[ ] You watch The OC and/or Laguna Beach/ The Hills.
[ ] You own something designer.
[x] You love going to the mall (Hot Topic and Spencer's, at least)
[ ] You take your cellphone everywhere or would if you had one.
[x] You own an iPod and/or an MP3 player.
[x] You love Starbucks.
[ ] You love flip flops.
Total x's= 3

[GOTH]
[x] Red or black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thoughts about death.
[ ] You wear chains.
[x] You like/love heavy metal.
[x] You love/ like Hot Topic.
[x] You have worn black lipstick (I believe I did once)
[/] Your hair is dark. ( demi-dark)
[ ] You dislike preps.
[ ] You're an atheist.
[x] You have/Want piercings in unusual places
Total x's= 6 1/2

( I think whoever made this comprimised by trying to combine the style 'Punk' with this. They are similar in some ways.)

[SKATERBOARDER]
[ ] You can skateboard.
[ ] You wear plaid.
[x] You love/like Converse.
[x] You think you're different.
[ ] You hate BET. (What's that?)
[/] You have moshed. (tried once)
[ ] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair or highlights.
[x] You love/like skater girls/boys. ( the style, not always the people)
[x] You hate pink.
[ ] You hate rich kids. (that's discriminating there.)
Total x's= 4 1/2

[NERD]
[x] You love computers.
[ ] You like Star Trek.
[x] You wear glasses/supposed to (contacts)
[ ] You get straight A's. (used to)
[x] You love reading. (romance novels and nonfiction, baby!)
[/] You are in band. (used to be; I'm a band kid at heart)
[x] You don't care what you look like.
[ ] You have a curfew...
[ ] You always do your homework. (is there an option other than leaving this blank? like a nether 'x'?
[ ] You never cut school. (there are special occassions)
Total x's= 4 1/2

[EMO]
[x] You're depressed sometimes. (in short bouts)
[x] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[x] You like Thursday.. (the day we go to my favorite resaurant X3)
[ ] You comb your hair in front of your face.
[ ] You cry easily.
[/] You're gay ( I don't know yet)
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep a journal/diary. (a little notebook I write in whenever I get a thought that stands out.)
[x] You have written a sad poem.
[ ] You have had a sad MySpace layout. (don't go to MySpace XP)
Total x's= 5 1/2

[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[ ] You like rap. (again, is there a nether 'x'?)
[x] You are in a gang. (Girlscouts X3)
[ ] You wear Tag.
[ ] You say "nigga" frequently.
[ ] You wear rubber bands in your pants.
[ ] You swear a lot
[ ] You have had a freestyling contest.
[x] You have said "fo shizzle". (just to hear how it sounded)
[ ] You have been called a "playa".
[ ] You have worn Converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total x's= 2

[ScENE/HARDCORE]
[ ] You wear a bandana.
[x] You love Pokemon, the Ninja Turtles, etc. (XD)
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[ ] You wear slip-on Vans.
[ ] You love/like Norma Jean (Who?)
[x] You wear band tees.
[x] People have called you a freak and mean it. (I guess they meant it)
[ ] You love to "hardcore" dance
[ ] Your hair has been dyed in more than one color.
[ ] You will kill if called a satanist
Total x's= 3


[Hippie]

[ ] You have dreads/want dreads.
[x] You listen to Marley/ The Beatles,/Grateful Dead.
[ ] You smoke. ( I abuse my body enough with food)
[x] You hate shoes. ('cept for Chucks)
[x] Designer brands? what are those?
[x] Uncle Sam pisses you off. (He rudely points)
[x] You protest/have protested the war.
[ ] You know all the words to John Lennon's "Power To The People".
[ ] You wear Hemp.
[ ] You like to hang out in trees.
Total x's= 5

I did the math:
I am:
9% rich kid
19% goth *cough*punk too*cough*
13% skateboarder
13% nerd
16% emo
6% ghetto/ghangsta
9% scene/hardcore
15% hippie

Heh, neat.



http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11612859/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 14:57:34 PST

I started smacking the hell out of my computer . . .

I was just finishing up a picture; I'd done a lot in the last forty minutes and it was turning out quite nicely.At some point, I accidently click something I didn't mean to hit. Suddenly, this godstavved error sign shows up. I don't pay attention to it as I've gotten them before and usually they mean next to nothing. After I exited it, some other error thing shows up saying 'Click OK to terminate the program,' and I'm thinking WTF? I figure I'll exit and save before it does anything. I click the 'X' box at the top of the message, it goes away for a split second and it pops up again. I click the 'X' a few more times. Finally, it goes away, but then thing whole thing exits! I hadn't even gotten it saved and it's gone! I open it up again and it's how it was when I opened it up. Forty-stavved-minutes of rigorous work, LOST! I screamed obscenities for a while then came here to vent.

Life can really suck sometimes. At least I'm better now . . .



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11558236/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11558236/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 20:24:20 PST

My new buddy, tagged me. Never done one of these; let's try it out.

The rules are thus:

The 1st player of this 'game' starts with the Topic. '6 weird habits/ things/ hates about yourself.'

People who get 'Tagged' MUST write a Journal about their 6 weird habits/ things/ hates as well & state this rule clearly.....

In the end you need to choose the next 6 people to be 'Tagged' & list their names....

Don't forget to leave a comment that says, 'you are Tagged' in their Deviant page comments, & tell them to read yours.....

1. Something weird I do? Anytime I ride past my house in a vehicle, I always mutter "Bye-bye, house," quoting a line said by Ben Savage on the show Boy meets World.

2. I positively detest it when someone adds a audible sigh at the end of their laugh, especially high pitched ones. I find it to be very unecessary and annoying. The same goes for audible yawns.

3. From the time I was an infant, I would suck my middle and ring fingers, my index and pinky fingers resting vertically on my cheek, my thumb just hangin. I got braces in third grade and had my jaw fixed by it, so now it's uncomfortable to do that anymore.

4. I have never liked careless typing. This doesn't go for those who have trouble with spelling or grammer and cannot help it. I'm refering to messages with chatspeak or simply overexaggerated wording. This includes things typed like such:
"huh???wat ru talkin about?????"
"yea...........ok so......"
"hi!!!!wat u doin??me nuthin much......."
Heed my warning: I do my best to type as understandably as I can when typing to someone, especially if I don't know the person well. Be considerate of how well you type around me. Use capitalization where needed, use one end punctuation mark( with the exception of a long pause which calls for only about three periods,) and no chatspeak. There are always exceptions, such as my friends and I purposefully typing like idiots to each other(though even that wears thin after a little while,) but not much else. If there isn't at least some decency in the way you type to me, I cannot take you seriously.

Rant over

5. I never learned to ride a bike. Never. I have tried to many times, yet I always end up losing balance, falling off and scraping something. Thankfully, I've also never broken anything*knocks on wood* Hopefully, one day I'll learn.

6. According to some of my friends, I never let things go. If there's an issue I wish to have solved, I will tenaciously stick to the topic until A. It's resolved B. I finally lose interest(unlikely) C. A way is found to shut me up
I usually don't prefer to debate, but if I'm set against something, I will defend my point of view on the dispute. Though I think if I do it in the presence of select friends ever again, they just may kill me o.o


Done done! Not quite sure who I'll tag ( provided I remember to.)



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11328891/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11328891/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 19:05:12 PST

I got a kick out of this after viewing

1. Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question press the next button.
6. Some songs fit perfectly and some really don't!!

OPENING CREDITS: Bloodhound Gang -Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo

WAKING UP: The Spinners -Rubberband Man

FALLING IN LOVE: Ben Lee -Catch my Disease

FIGHT SCENE: Barlow Girl -She Walked away (boy, what an anticlimatic fight scene xX)

BREAKING UP: The Verve -Bittersweet Symphony

GETTING BACK TOGETHER: Thomas Newman -Full Chemical Gear ( o_O All right . . . )

SECRET LOVE: John Williams -Hedwig's theme

LIFE'S OKAY: Hajime Mizoguchi -Sora's Folktale

MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Mae -Cover Me (HELL YES X3 )

DRIVING FLASHBACK: Within Temptation -Our Farewell

PARTYING: Pillows -Super Trampoline School Kid

HAPPY DANCE: Dire, Dire Docks Theme from Super Mario 64

REGRETTING: The Beatles -Eleanor Rigby

LONG NIGHT ALONE: Donny Osmond -Close Every Door to Me

THE NEXT MORNING: Daft Punk -One More Time

FINAL BATTLE: Soundgarden -BlackHole Sun

DEATH SCENE: Enya -Fairytale ( . . . curious . . . )

END CREDITS: Vanessa Carlton - 1000 Miles

Well, this was fun. Anyone even know half those songs?



]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11294606/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11294606/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 21:39:24 PST

ATTENTION Lonemoon members! Our founder has joined dA! Go gawk at her pictures :B --->


All right, it's approaching midnight here and I am only slightly drowsy. I've been working on a quick pic for the past hour which I'll likely post tonight or tommorow(next week.)
I got a little bit done of the makeup work I needed to do over the break(started it tonight if that's any indication as to why it's only partially done.) I wasted most of this break nasaly inhaling eggnog and listening to my new album, The Everglow. Therefore, I have not completed any promised artworks I said I'd work on. Virtually shoot me if you were included in the following *provides gun* Actually, I don't think any are even on dA . . .
I really shouldn't be up this late(early) since I go back to school tomorrow. Ah well. Good day to you all.





]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11077386/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11077386/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 20:13:45 PST

I cradled my dog, Taffy, this evening, never feeling more blessed to have him than in that moment.
The chronicles of fate's great might compelling the will of unknowing, misguided life to find itself trecherously, tragically colliding in the most literal sense of the word with man's bittersweet creation that is machinery continues to unfold.
While driving home, my family and I saw something on our side of the road near our house. It was an outspread form that no one could misinterpret. Once we pulled into the driveway, my mother approached it cautiously,
"Pointless," I thought to myself, as I knew it was dead. She wasn't sure if it was domestic or wild, just that it was canine. By now, I came up, the already painful knot churning more furiously in my stomach at the thought of it being a rarely-seen coyote. I looked closely at it in the dimness of the night, the street lamp being the only light source. The short, wide, rounded snout and beaded eyes against its white pelt told me that it was a pit bull. Two familiar, black blotches lined its head. It was then clear to me that this was was my friend's dog who lived across the street. He would let her run loose during the day with others. I would sometimes see her romping around while feeding my horses. It seemed so eerie to see those same eyes now, staring blankly up toward the heavens.
Of course it's needless and would be downright stingingly hurtful to scold him and explain the risks in not keeping pets secured on chains or within fenced areas. Losing a four-legged friend is all-too-much more than enough for that.

Again I tell you all: keep your pets close, keep your pets safe.

In other news, I've been sick. I've had a viral, upper-respiratory infection and a splitting headache. Then when that finally subsided after four days, I find out that I have an eye infection. This morning, I couldn't open my eyes since they were glued shut with gunk. I had to chizzle away the crust. By the way, enjoy your meal >D Now my eyes are horribly bloodshot. Around twenty people have commented, somehow assuming that if I somehow missed it when looking in the mirror this morning, perhaps I just don't feel it. Twits. At least they're concerned, though. Geez, I read back now and that makes me sound crabby.

All my journal entries seem rather negative, my apologies for that. When I'm in a good mood, I don't have much to say. When I have issues, I like venting here. I guess that wasn't its intent but I'm doing it, stavvit!





]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11022226/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/11022226/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 20:37:09 PST

I'm getting better, but I still have little to no time to post anything, art wise or response wise. I have exams soon and endless things due if I care to pass any of my subjects. I may have to drop to standard Algebra II -_-'

Heed my warning, all of you. Procrastination is not simply a problem, it is a DRUG! Not the kind that you ingest by smoking, snorting, popping, injecting, etc. but it is dangerously, severly bad for your health. With excessive use, it will eventually take over your life,change your personality and, in the end, kill you. And sometime before then, all your friends,family and loved ones will have a big intervention to try to set you on the right track. You'll do okay for a while, sure, but you'll end up having a withdrawel, and every now and then, you'll let your strong hold over the addiction slip, and then you 'll start using again and dig a grave even deeper than the original, going into a downward spiral that drives you to suicide that was all too unnecessary as you could have sought more help that just might have gotten you through it. And you'll use the drug after you die too. And in your next life, you'll be a procrastination-addicted baby, and it'll suck.

. . . in short, don't procrastinate. Thank you.

(All right, perhaps not that graphic, but still, don't procrasinate.)




]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/10873127/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/10873127/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 20:58:19 PST

I'm still such a lazy fark . . .

I got my net back and will be posting some art-- the break and internetless computer have given me a chance to bide time and fulfill some promises. I have butt-loads of crap to catch up on. And please don't feel bad that I didn't take the time to respond to all the journal entries( all twenty-farkin-one of them) This sounds arrogant and angsty, but I really haven't been in the mood. And when I post art I'll be brief in the description (out of character, I know.) I have no more time to go into detail. And going back to school again hasn't helped my time schedule or sleep schedule in the proccess. You're all also lucky you haven't heard me cussing the hell out of this journal entry like I feel like doing, thanks to my four-letter-word-using buddies whom I love.

I'm also getting a Gamcube for Christmas, so that will be one more method of procrastination and frustrating addiction. Stav you, DDR and Animal Crossing.

In case you're all wondering, I'm not depressed or pissed at anyone or anything, except maybe myself for being so lazy and procrastinating so much, like right now as I type. Venting mostly I'm really just rushed and falling into another insomnia fit which has me groggy. It's hard to be the positive one most of the time. So if you guys can do anything for me, please DO NOT feel bad for me-- I don't need the sympathy( I'm not meaning it in an offensive way; I honestly just shouldn't have others attending my twisted pity party.)

I'll probably regret typing all this when I wake up tomorrow, but I'd like to feel like I actually accomplished something. I need sleep now.

I love you all.





]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/10736731/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/10736731/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 17:05:44 PST

I'm such a lazy fark . . .

To get to the straight point, I likely won't be posting anything for a long while. I need to get my grades back up and all the art and roleplay stuff I'm doing is sparking procrastination. Perhaps if I don't feel bound to my art and comp for a while, I can get more things done. Terribly sorry if I'm not seen for a while and that I didn't respond to everyone who's sent me a message/comment. Just give me time, guys. Love you all.

Going into ghost mode now.





]]> *nidopug http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/10651176/ http://nidopug.deviantart.com/journal/10651176/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 18:26:23 PST
For one, highschool students are just as ignorant, heartless and immature as they try to convince you in middle school. I normally don't have brushes with characters like that since I don't usually make big scenes. Most days go without incident. Get ready, everyone: I'm gonna vent to all of you.

I'm passive agressive, so I usually don't physically harm or cuss anyone out when they act like insensitive jerks toward me. My mom has always taught me to do the opposite of what they'd expect you to do, such as throwing a punch or senselessly letting out a barage of four letter words.
Having said that, I was heading to third period dragging my rolly backpack. Yes, I have one of those dorky little wheeled backpacks. I have no time between classes to stop at a locker, and I don't wanna stunt my growth and kill my back by carrying 23 pounds of textbooks on my shoulders. So I think it only makes sense to have one. Sadly I am one of about three students who actually has one at the school and I kinda stand out with it. Even worse, one of the wheels has broken off on it, so it's kinda loud when being dragged across the pavement.
Anyway, some girl rudely called out from the crowd a few feet away from me that I shouldn't have a backpack like that here. She was also considerate enough to point out that it had a bum wheel, thinking somehow that I wasn't aware of that. I sarcastically answered( I don't know if she heard or not)
"Thank you so kindly for your concern!" Some of my friends giggled at my response.

But if that wasn't bad enough, another incident happened the same day as I walked to fourth period. It was rainy, so kids who entered to class had tracked water in onto the floor near the entrance doors. I was walking with another friend through the rain. Well, as luck would have it, the second I stepped into the building, I slipped in a puddle. I landed flat on my ass. My left thigh still hurts. As I was getting up, two guys behind me were cracking up. They didn't give a flying gwiks if I was all right. They seemed euphoric-- lost in a world of absolute hysterical laughter. I got up and kept walking. My friend gave them as disgusted a look I would have given them if I wasn't in such pain at the time, and asked if I was okay. But the one guy thought it was so comical that he ran and caught up with me just to see my face. He matched my pace as I continued down the hall, and he was laughing the whole way. He was just staring at me, laughing as if I were some side-show freak. And I stared back, waiting for him to say something. Whether it was an apology(which I was increasingly doubting would come as the seconds ticked,) a description of my fall as he saw it, anything. But no, he just laughed. My eyes were begging to know why-- why he was still laughing, why he hadn't gone off to his next class or something, why he was acting so absurdly inconsiderate. He wouldn't answer. He just kept laughing. I continued on and shouted back to the jerks
"Do me a favor, Don't hyperventelate!" I stormed off to math class then.
At least God still cares about them . . .

So, how farktastic was everyone else's day?

On a lighter note, I'll try to start posting more art soon. Tough I've been very busy lately (as always.)





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Reporting back. I don't have too much to update on right now, but I'll post what I know.

Yes, I do plan to post more art; I've just been either too lazy or busy. I've embarked on a bunch of new projects that I'm having trouble keeping up with. Sorry to be seeming like such a shell when it comes to my dA account.

I've recently discovered that I really like industrial music. My new favorite band is Funker Vogt. I was shown the light after visiting a lupe, Nokkturn's petpage. That German Mechanic pwns XD

Sadly, the other day while driving along, my friends and I passed a dead dog on the side of the road. Calling it road kill would have been an understatement. To be honest, some of us thought a ripped red jacket or something was covering it. It turns out it was just bits and pieces of the dog spewed across the pavement. It's pretty bad when you're able to tell the dog was a rottweiler simply because its head was the only thing still intact.

Great, now I can't finish my spaghetti . . .

Sorry for sharing such gruesome expirience; I felt compelled to type it. It's just times like those that I'm exceedingly glad I keep my dog in a well secured, fenced area. I'd hate to see what the owners of that dog would do if they'd seen it like that. So please, keep your pets close, keep your pets safe.





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Geez, my birthday snuck up on me this year. Well, now I am officially 15. I've been trying to convince my parents to put an article in our local paper, warning citizen that I am now eligeble to drive and that they should clear the roads. It won't be my fault when I have twenty-eight collisions on my first test drive.
Anyway, I shall report what all presents I got later on. I do wish to count the lovely picture my buddy, Korvus, did of Viky [link] as my first gift received, whether she intended it to be one or not

I've discovered the beauty that is png. files. They pwn! I tested it on a a file I'd just saved under jpeg. The png. looked so much better! It wasn't fuzzy or blurry^^ I actually let out a series of happy bwees, squees, and gwees when I saw thew difference. Expect my future pictures to look a lot less blurry^^




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