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***********FOODOLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice??
Ummm.. Cu comber Ranch. My High school got me addicted to it...

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
I.. Honestly... can't.. say.. I... haven't... been... to many...

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
My cold cut trio at subway. I've actually done it a few times thanks to theater productions i was in.

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Sausage and Mushroom. Nummy!

What do you like to put on your toast?
Peanut butter!!!! its a comfort "food" of mine.


***********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many televisions are in your house?
Lemme see.. 8 i do believe. Half of them are either broken or unused, and i think our newest one is over 10 years old at least.

What color cell phone do you have?
I have no cellphone (they are too danged expensive!)

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
I write with my right hand. shoot with my left, and the rest is pretty proficient either or.

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Many splinters... um... LOTS of blood!!! Much from donation. More non.

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
My Tomahawk tot. Its full of camping equipment and fun.

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Not that i recall.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Sure. Why not? i don't like surprises.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Honestly... I LOVE MY NAME! it flows wonderfully!And its fun hearing teachers mispronouncing my last name!

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Take away a zero and cut the number in half and I'd still do it.

************DUMBOLOGY******************
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
None. I haven't owned a pair of shoes that show off toes in over 10 years. Kind of uncomfortable with my feet showing i guess.

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
About a month and a half ago. I was visiting my dear friend, and didn't leave tell 3:30 am *neither of us had classes or work the fallowing morning* And i didn't want to wake up the parents, since they were between the back door and where i was. so I went around the house. Now they live on a street corner, a street corner to a well populated well known street. I walked around sort of between trees the exact second a police car drove by... They spotted me stopped me, and had me answer a LOT of questions. Pretty sure they were checking to make sure i wasn't high as well. My story checked out and everything. But yeah... Still crazy. (sorry to make you read all that)

Last person you talked to?
Karen.

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
Spring. I love April showers, I love thawing out of our 5 months of freeze, i love the smells, and just the general feeling of rebirth.

Holiday?
Christmas. Cause its the one time of year i can be happy with my family.

Day of the week?
Saturday. The first day of supposed freedom, and kind of the chill yet still get things done day.

Month?
June... Don't ask me why.

***********CURRENTOLOGY***************

Missing someone?
Yes... Many people actually.

Mood?
Tired, beaten, sore, sick, but magically alive.

What are you listening to?
At the moment. nothing. But i'll get my play list started soon.

Watching?
my Monitor. I'm going to go to bed watching Harry Potter again though!

Worrying about?
School... I don't know if i passed the requirements to get me out of my academic probation, and if i didn't my life is sort of over.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
the living room.

What's the last movie you saw?
I just got done seeing Iron Man.

Do you smile often?
Yes. Yes i do!

Sleeping alone tonight?
Yeah.. i have for the passed 5 years.

Do you always answer your phone?
Only if i'm the only one home and not passed out.

Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
No one. i need a phone to text. Though i'm pretty sure it would be Rachel if it had XD

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Light blue. Like ice blue. Like the same color eyes Link has!

What flavor... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/21486741/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/21486741/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 15:02:48 PST
"If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars."

I Fear…

[ ] the dark
[x] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs (well, not all dogs)
[ ] birds (mostly seagulls XD)
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 4

[x] being touched(sorta)
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] failure
[X] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places (see above XD)
[x] snow (drving in it mostly)

Total so far: 8

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death (of loved ones)
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes

Total so far: 15

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[x] school (i love college, but i keep screwing up)
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
Total so far: 20

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles(yes!)
[ ] blood (VERY yes!)
[ ] dinosaurs (lol)
[ ] the welcome mat
[x] high speed
[x] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets
Total: 23

YUP! I'm kinda paranoid. Not suprized XD. anyway! Um... I'm still into Scetching but since my laptop has connection issue and refuses to charge, i dont have ability to get art on here... Whenthings get fixed i'll get back to having fun with digital art, tell then enjoy whatever and have fun

any qeustions comments concenrsn anything i'm here people don't be afraid to say hi! I'm a nice dude ^^

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/18795221/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/18795221/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 02:57:49 PDT she made me do it XD

----------• × • A L L | A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

- Name: Benjamin (better known as Nightmarephynix)
- Single or taken: its Complicated.
- Gender: Dude
- Birthday: September 2nd
- Sign: Virgo
- Hair color: Dark Brown
- Eye color: Hazel
- Height: 6'3
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

- favourite place to shop for clothes?: ummmm... Fleet Farm i believe is the place i can get Jeans for $15
- Favorite designer?: N/A
- What is your sexiest outfit?: I'm not sure, but I am pretty sure it has something to do with my Trench Coat.
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Jeans and T-shirt and socks. probably one of my show shirts.
- What do you usually wear?: Jeans and a T-shirt, again probubly one of my show shirts.

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: stuff that smells funny and reduces dandruff.
- What are you listening to right now?: Linkin Park. i can do better... COME ON RENT!
- Who is the last person that called you?: Ummmmm... oh golly... its been a few days. lemme see if I remeber. Either Ned or Mike.
- How many buddies are online right now?: lets see... 2.
-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

- Food: Orange Chicken or Tacos!
- Girls names: Kerri Karen Rebeca Tamera Ann
- Boys names: Benjamin (sorry i like my own name!) Michale Brain Javier James many more
- Subjects in school: Maths, science, english and probably SOSE
- Animals: Hyena, black leopard, Ocelot, wolfs, there are more XD

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

- Given anyone a bath?: Nope
- Smoked?: nope
- Bungee jumped?: not yet.
- Made yourself throw up?: ummmm... If taking pain medication even knowing it would make me sick counts.
- Skinny dipped?: not yet. I wanna though!
- Ever been in love?: *nods* too many times for my own good.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Nope.
- Pictured your crush naked?: most of them XD
- Actually seen your crush naked?: one or two of them/
- Cried when someone died?: no... got close last year around this time. but no.
- Lied: Who hasn't? I know i do. perhaps too much...
- Fallen for your best friend?: a few times.
- Rejected someone?: *nods* haven't needed to much though.
- Used someone?: only for their own good. (TRUST ME ON THAT!)
- Done something you regret?: Life is full or regrets. welcome to the past. I try look forward.

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •--------------

- Clothes: Black Jeans, and a college shirt that isn't my own. and socks.
- Desktop picture: cool Assassin's Creed pic
- CD in player: ummmmm... Last thing i played was probubly a burned CD from a friend.
- DVD in player: I don't recall. Probubly Simpson's Season Seven Disk.
----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

- You touched: Ned. i think i gave him a hug.
- Hugged: Probubly Ned again XD
- You IMed: Don't recall. too Tired...
- Talk to online: Equidna i think.
- Sex it up with: Still a virgin. probubly will stay that way for awhile.
---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

- Understanding: Always
- Open-minded: Completely
- Arrogant: I have my days... but normaly its the opposite that gives me trouble.
- Insecure?: rarely
- Random?: in the right mood
- Hungry: Kinda.
- Smart: oh HECK NO!
- Moody: Not externaly.
- Organized: See answer for Smart.
- Shy: Depends on the situation. In large groups i tend to be.
- Difficult: Wouldn't put it past me.
- Bored easily: not at all! i keep myself very well busy.
- Obsessed: Almost constantly.
- Angry: not as much as i should be.
- Sad: Too much
- Happy: I can be ^^
- Hyper: Commonly.
- Trusting: Not often enough... few can say they REALLY know ME.

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

- Kill?: I'm not the most violent person out there...
- Slap?: Bain. cause he probably deserves it right now.
- Get really wasted with?: Ned. I hear he's a fun drunk.
- Get high with: Mike is the only one that offerd, but i don't see myself... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/18586671/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/18586671/ Sat, 31 May 2008 01:50:46 PDT

Heyo!

Fist of all. Yeah i'm lazy, i'm still drawing just too lazy to finish things. And i'm also makin a lot of 3D stuff on second life? wanna add me, lemme know
Secondly I stole a Name Meme

NAME MEME taken from

1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
Martial Anet
(I think...)

2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Robert Jonhdoe (don't know my mom's dad. never did never will)

3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Willbe
(ummmmm... Sounds like an Australian animal)

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Crimson Hyena
(sounds better as a pro wrestler name, and even that would be pushing it)

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Matthew Mapplewood
(I um.. will just let that one go )

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Black Bauls!
(ummmm.. really?)

7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Bele
(sure!)

8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Peppermint Bonbon Chocolate Chip!
(sounds more like a stripper)

9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name)
Jenkins Holloway
(I kid you not!)

10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)
Desert Wind Everlasting Gobstopers
(the first part is a Simpson's Joke and the rest, well, never mind XD)

11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Pipsqueak Holloway!
(i go by that people will think i'm gay!)

Yeah, fun um, anyone wanna see more art just lemme know, i'll stop being lazy and atleast post some WIPs in my scraps, tell then peace boys and girl, ladies and gents, and all of you in between and out and beyond!

Journal of

thanks for stopping by. ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/17789029/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/17789029/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:03:17 PDT

HEYO!

Ya know. I'm still here, alive whatever. I'm not really updating much since i'm a busy dude, and i know the only people who would comment me on anything talk to me outside of DA anyway, so there isn't a huge deal. I'm still in college, still workin on classes. Some are better then others, but I'm still breathing. lol. Ya wanna know somethin, ask me, i'll talk. Want me post more? ask me, i can work if i have a reason to. lol.
Well what about this? Lets make a deal k? if i get 6 differnt people. any 6 differnt people to comment to this, I will do a pic a week. It may be something cool and compleate, or a work in progress that i'll be workin on harder later. But thats if i get 6. If i don't, it means not enough people on here care, and i'll work on my own pace and mine only.

You want art status?
Um.. Phynix Refernce sheet is well skeched, worked on
I have a girl biki contest in the works. cool eh?
And i'm trying think of a new ID and Avie. its hard to get my whole existance on a small 50x50 pixl box. hard also to get it into 400 >.<

I Do trades if ya care. I don't do commissions cause i don't have paypal and my art really isn't sell worthy yet. Requests? WELL! Here's the deal, you got a request? Note me, we can talk about it. Sound cool?

Other then that? you wanna know anything? want Anything from me? Wanna just tell me you still care. I'll be happy to hear it Tell later, peace ^_^

Journal of

thanks for stopping by. ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/17308413/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/17308413/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 20:50:50 PDT

HEYO!

Yeah. remeber when i said i lost my subby? well, the same friend from before took it upon herself to give me 3 more months. i never asked her to, but she did, and i'm thankful. So here i am again with a few more months XD anyway, as you can see i've added a few pieces, i hope not to have freaked you out TOO much, but guess what. MORE TO COME! i have to two more i'm adding tommorow, after that i'll be working on and off of things. so YAY! Look and comment if you have time, hehe. Anyway, if any of you want to know anyhtiing going on in my life outside Art, go ahead and ask, otherwise i wont bore you with the facts. otherwise have a nice day here in DA and please wipe your feet on the way out of my page

Journal of

thanks for stopping by. ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/17258635/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/17258635/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 15:44:26 PDT

I was tagged by that punk of a girl

Please remember these steps while tagging:

1. Post these rules in your journal.
2. Each tagged person shall post 8 aleatory facts about themselves.
3. Tagged people shall write a Journal/Blog about their facts.
4. After posting your 8 facts, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their dA websites and comment that they have been tagged and hugged, or have inspirational qualities...

Lets see, eight things about me. great...

1. I create tons of crap, but hardly finish ANYTHING
2. I am an under archiver who procrastinates by saying he works best under pressure.
3. I am horribly undeceive and will bug my friends constantly on accident because of it.
4. I have billions of dreams and thoughts of creation a day when in truth i may do one of them in a month.
5. I most of the T-shirts a wear are from the highschool productions i was either in or worked on. (currently wearing Brigadoon T-shirt)
6. I am the self proclaimed expert of Gnolls.
7. I would love to be a radio DJ so i could talk to hundreds of people without needing to look at them XD (i'm a good public speaker, i just SUCK at making eye contact.)
8. I practily live in this room, i can spend 18 hours a day in here, more if i don't have class and or scouts.

now to tag 8 peoples....
If
you
read
this
but
haven't
taken it
yet XD

THATS RIGHT I TAGGED YOU!!!!

Alrighty! now onto my real journal

Yeah, no more subscription, I don't weap though since i totaly wasted it. I mean its GREAT for helping one view others art, and comments, but haha i didn't do much in the NEW department, more of #4 for you. But this doesn't mean i stoped making art. Ha, i got two things done i need to post, one thing i'm finishing up, and then i'm gunna post those and get to writing something. Since i'm sure a few of you miss lyrics. I kinda do to XD. So yeah, thanks for reading this, i hope to be more active on this happy little art comunity page, and untill later peace ya'll.

That was the journal of Nightmarephynix. Enjoy?

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/16783606/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/16783606/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 11:30:48 PST
Pictures and bullets come later!

Gosh darn it, why am i so lazy? OH YEAH! NO MOUSE XD so i saw this thing going around, and i figured.. why not waste the time of few watchers i have?

1. Are you single or taken?
Kinda taken. its... confusing...

2. Chocolate or flowers?
I totaly love chocolate, but something about having something in here living other then me sounds good! Hehe ^^

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Haha no... I'll sit here like i do any night.

4.Do you like anyone?
Like like? hehe, yeah i do

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
Yes and no... lol i was with someone, but i have a feeling she didn't really care for me.

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
A non expensive dinner at some Chinese place, then a long night of cuddling by the fire watching some moive.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
It does a good job of that on its own now doesn't it? every year somethiing big happens in my life. two years, two differnt girls, same situation. Year before that was a party were my good friend had to get rushed to the hospital mid way through. fun isn't it?

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Once yeah... THat didn't go well... at all... Her mom thought i was cute though XD

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Haha, no. I'll either tell you what i think, or avoid it.

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Nope. If i did, that would mean there was some fairness in the world of love.

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
WTF??? NO!

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
Nah. I got no peeps here, and thouse there are too busy to care what i do or do not do.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Yeah ^^

15. Is Valentines depressing?
Brings up a LOT of thiings i dont' want to remeber. But depressing? nah! half the time i can't even remeber what day it is.

16. How do you feel about PDA?
PDA. Fine as long as it doens't dget in my way. Two people necking mid hall way. fine.. I'll deal with you. But the two guys i had cuddling infront of my locker every few days a week a few years agon, that caused issues

17. How is your love life?
Confusing and wavering thank-you.

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
V-day? Nope, that little pleasure was held tell Easter, though i think we were ready for the whole break up thing by V-day.

19. How many roses would you want?
not enough to bankrupd anyone. but enough to feel loved...

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
If thngs move how they are. i think i will.

Another journal down. and please don't get the thought i'm depressed here, just a little cynical right now...

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/16550833/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/16550833/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 12:25:29 PST
Pictures and bullets come later!

I'm here to let you know, i'm not dead, i'm not sick, and i'm DEFFINTLY NOT ignoring you! To start off, i started college a few weeks ago, i love my classes for the most part and things are movin and grovin. However it does take time. BUT one of my classes is an art class, so i may post things on here from that. ANOTHER THING i got me a new laptop, i've been needing one for months but i have one for the sake of college. The good news, i'm conected to highspeed, this thing is amazing, i can do fun things. the bad news. no mouse... so tell i get one, no new pictures. BUT i shall get one and HOPEFULLY get PSP on so i can draw and ink and color and POST!!! ^____________^ that would be funular. anywhoms thank you all for reading. I apricate your being here, i really do, and you know it

may the wind brush up agenst you in a pleasureable way : B.M Wille the Nightmarephynix

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15839627/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15839627/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 19:43:05 PST
Pictures and bullets come later!

As you can HOPEFULLY see i am currently supscribed all thanks to my friend :iconlittle-Jewl: Thank you VERY much ^__^.
In other news! I'm still drawing. I know you haven't seen me update in, weeks, but i do have things i'm working on, when i get the camera back i can get pictures up! *can't wait to get back into using PSP* But things will come in soon enough

As for my life! Well, you wanna know, you can ask for it ^_^ otherwise you know i'mnot a fan of putting all the odds and ends of my existance into jorunals. Thanks all for reading!

Nightmarephynix OUT!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15630590/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15630590/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:20:48 PST
Bejamin the Nightmarephynix

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15614221/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15614221/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 01:39:27 PST Honestly, is it the lack of art that drives people away as a whole? Or is the world of DA just hitting a rut? i don't know, this place became my life, and i'm almost woundering if soon it will be time to say goodbye. I will continue to make art, but if people don't really see or care about what i'm making, whats the point in posting it? again i'm not doing this to be emo. I'm just, thinking... Any thoughts right now would be nice. Thanks for your time.

As alwase... :Love Benjamin, the NightmarePhynix:

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15569223/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15569223/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 21:17:18 PST
The rules:
1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 4 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged


1. My intils are quite honestly B M W

2. I am the best Rogue player i know via D&D. I play them quiet well hounestly, and i fail at any other type.

3. My mom decited to name me after my great grandfather Alber... (though my name is ben.)

4. I feel very uncomfortable going barefoot around, no rhyme or reason, i just don't like it, i haven't even owned a pair of sandles since i was 9.

5. For having VERY little self confidence, i hide it very well

6. I LOVE music, like i totaly obessess over it. to crazy amounts, like i sleep with music on, i have music on while i do everything! ^__^

7. Though i do have a fursona, i almost treat him as a differnt person, since he kinda is.

8. I didn't join DA cause i'm an artist, i'm an artist because i joined DA. (I didn't even consider drawing for fun before someone got me here )

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15488088/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15488088/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 03:16:06 PST cause she felt if she had to suffer through so do I... Thanks >.> Phynix...

here are the rules!

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

5. (my added rule only for myself and anyone else who wants to do this!) You may ask any character any question, they will be availble to answer anyhting honestly so don't be shy! Ask away!!!

Yeah. As i warned you before, i was placed, not so nicely into a character quiz, and i gave it three days, so now here are my happy characters interviewd in The Red Fire Bar and Grill, a little place open to crowds. let me frist start by letting our five stars introduce themselfs!

Phynix: Thanks Ben. My name is Phynix, I'm pretty much Ben's Fursona, though he and i are sorta two differnt people, I've lived a differnt life then him, and have done things he has not! I'm a tabby cat/Husky dog hyrbid Furry anthro.

Bryan: HELLO! Call me Bryan, i'm a wolf Anthro and human, sorta depeneding on whats going on, confusing i know, but bear with me, Ben created me weirdly, I'm sorta his 12 Year old self, before his middle school/high school emo days.

Sonic Neon: Yo! Peeps call me Neon! Not my my REAL name obviosuly, but come on! It sounds cool right???? RIGHT!!!!

Hope: *giggles and turns a little red in the cheeks* um.. hi... My name is Hope! I'm the little sister of Mi... *pauses turning more red* Neon... *giggles again and places herself a little behind him:

Gasoline X: Yeah.. Here by popular demand, so lets make this quick! i got hampsters to kill, shoes that need disloaction from children, and entire continets to set on fire! THATS RIGHT!!! *grumbles in a cover with a candy bar*

Ben: Right... Well, first queston. How old are you?

Phynix: Um. I guess i'm 15, though i sware i don't feel a day past 15...

Bryan: Well, as i said in my introduction, I'm 12! Thats right! I don't need my big sister to watch over me, i can take car of myself! *opts to stick his toung out at me*

Neon: I'm 20, so close to legal drinking age *Hope pulls on his pant leg* i know hun, promised i wouldn't for you.

Hope: I'm 9. ALmost 10! *big smile, but turns red again and hides behind Neon again*

Gasoline X: WHat the heck kinda question is that? Why do you want to know? how could you benifit from knowing my real age? I'm gunna be sexy anyway... Fine.. FINE! i'm 35, though thanks to a deal i made with the Angel of Death, i haven't techickly aged past 22 yet. Happy now?

Ben: Um, ok... Whats your height?

Phynix: A hair over 6'3 or so.

Bryan: I don't really know... Haven't mesured myself in awhile, i top five feet easy, not six though.

Neon: I'm 6 feet of sheer hotness! *Hope give him a weird look* your hot? *neon gives her a weird look* Not quite hun, don't worry about it.

Hope: I'm ah.. Short.. *Neon smiles* She's a little over 4 and a half feet.

Gasoline X: I'm 6 7 and don't you forget it!

Ben: right... Next question. Are you a virgin?

Phynix: Well... I've never done the big Part A to Part B, but i've had some other fun!

Bryan: Goodness! I may be a the main event, and the cutest dude EVER, but i'm too young for that! Really!

Neon: Hahaha! I'm a rock star! I'm a legeond! How couldn't i have been laid before?

Hope: *gives a confused look* *neon pats her on the head* don't worry about it hun.

Gasoline X: I want to take over the flippen world! Dang right! i don't have time for sex!

Ben: Interesting... next up, Who's your mate/spouse?

Phynix: Challanging quesiton... I guess I'm close with Blanc a lot, but she isn't really a mate, or spocuse.. is she?

Bryan: I'm not old enough to worry about that yet, all the girls love me anyway, so whats it matter?

Neon: I've gotten close to weman before, but honestly, i don't share intimate feelings with them, the world loves me! i'm a celebraty so i don't need a mate.

Hope: *giggles* i'm not old enough, but, hehe i wanna be with Bryan! *turns red again and hided behind Neon, Bryan gives her a wide eyed look, getting a little blush himself:

Gasoline X: Mate!? Are you KIDDING ME!?!?!? NO seriously! is this a joke!? Me being with somoene! HA!!! I'd rather burn down a million buldings then ever fall in love! again... ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15442896/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15442896/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 01:51:41 PST
Now i humbly ask your help. a certain mrs. phynix, taged me in a journal about character questions, i don't have a lot of characters, but i love them all, and i don't know who to pick for this honner. So i respectfully as your openion. ^__^

Here are my characters, atleast my most used ones.

Phynix: ok, he's my fursona... doens't he count?

Umbra: A wolf anthro who is both dark and mysteriose, and rather emo too..

Bryan: He's human to some, anthro wolf to others, hes my cute 12 year old self whom i love, and don't draw enough!

Sonic Neon: This dude is my cool dude, he's a rock star, a gutiarest, a song writer, and the creator of a new type of music called sonic rock (thus his nickname)

Hope: little sister of Neon, not by blood, but still by love. She's only 10, but has a heart graeter then most anyone you can meet. She's inncoent, but knows what to stand up for.

Blanc: was givin to me by Phynix. She's a white rabbit that has quiet a sad past, if i work with her, i'll need to talk it over with her creator.

Gasoline X: the weirdest supervillan EVER! ^_^ he wants to take over the world and set everything on fire, he hates hamsters, loves chocolage, and has a goal of stealing the shoes of children! MWHAHAHA.

S.I.D.D: Stands for Sadistic Insane Demoic Death! This dude is a crazy psycho killer, who has many many many things wrong with him, and he's the younger brother of Gasoline X to top that off. He is as weird as they get.

Shade: Rival and sworn enemy of Gasoline X, he leads an underground assassin ring, he wants to take out many of his targets, and Gasoline X is the big one, no one knows why. And this guy hasn't shown his real face in over a dacade!

Thats most of my cool cool characters! i can only chose a few of them! So if you wanna give me your ideas you'll be VERY VERY appricated! Thank you for your time

Your bud and or not! Benjamin (tha Dungeon Master Phynix)

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15181545/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15181545/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 00:01:36 PDT
Phynix loves you!

Benjamin (Phynix) the Dungeon Master:

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15181514/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/15181514/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 23:55:14 PDT 1. Copy this whole list into your journal (including the instructions, so that other people can understand what it is about).
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
< b > Bold < / b >
3. Whatever you don't bold are false

001. I like laser pointers
002. I don't drink water
003. I believe in world peace
004. I sleep with a plushie
005. I'm ambidextrous
006. People accept me how I am (some more then others)
007. I'm addict to anime/manga
008. I speak 1337 better than english
009. I'm daltonic (i don't even know what that is..)
010. I don't like mirrors
011. I play card games (Point or Order...Yes..)
012. Puppy eyes melt my heart
013. I have a job
014. I love chocolate
015. I can type faster than I speak
016. My heart is easier to break than my bones (i brake bones too easly already)
017. I collect things
018. I don't trust people
019. I have a lucky number
020. I'm afraid of knives
021. (I start too much projects and never finish them
022. I have more than one pet
023. I can't see anything without my glasses on
024. I play chess
025. I have lied to protect other people
026. I am vegetarian
027. I know the future
028. I prefer books than movies
029. I love to draw
030. I don't have brothers
031. My handwriting is unreadable
032. I believe in extraterrestrial life (gotta be SOMETHING out there..)
033. I don't use Google
034. I can't live without my cellphone (i dun own one!)
035. I always wear a cap (no, i alwase have sunglasses)
036. I have more diskettes than books
037. I've never seen a snow day (i'm in Minnesota for gosh sakes!)
038. I'm not religious
039. I can understand graffiti tags
040. I'm not afraid of death
041. I go to the bathroom more than 7 times a day
042. I believe the government is into a conspiracy
043. I love videogames
044. I'm an activist for the defense of nature
045. I'm a moody person
046. I always carry a weapon with myself
047. I prefer cold than hot
048. I look for known shapes in the clouds
049. My Internet connection sucks (Juno SUCKS!!!)
050. I rarely go to the cinema
051. I'm old (for how i feel...)
52. I have insomnia
053. I have tattoos
054. I don't know what people expect from me
055. I'm unbeatable in domino
056. I don't like IMs (Instant Messengers, like MSN or Yahoo)
057. Horror movies scare me
058. I used to eat non-toxic glue
059. I feel rather than think
060. I use Firefox
061. I have hope
062. I have a car (ben Loves his Mazda!)
063. I remember what I dream
064. I don't need to use Liquid Paper/ Corrector Pen (i'm cheap enough to use Mechanical pencils and computer paper)
065. I'm patriotic
066. I worship the devil
067. I hate Windows XP
068. I like solving crossword puzzles
069. I have a social life (sometimes)
070. I always read the newspaper
071. I checked the box to avoid seeing mature content in dA
072. My I.Q. is above 160
073. I like mexican food
074. I don't give a good impression (Tony's mom thought i was a punk...)
075. I get bored easily
076. I'm passing through a period of changes
077. I hate taking a bath
078. I can't go out without makeup
079. I don't know what RAM is
080. I like to talk about politics (my beliefes have gotten me threaten before...)
081. I have a third eye
082. I'm uninteresting
083. I have a Blog
084. I have to take pills
085. I have lots of CDs
086. I always have a dictionary at hand
087. I'm tired of this quiz
088. I care about copyright protection
089. My computer is older than me
090. I have a boyfriend/girlfriend
091. I see dead people
092. I drink tea
093. I have a good memory
094. I've never been to a concert (sorta... no REAL concerts,,)
095. I enter to my house through the window
096. When I was a child, I wanted to be an astronaut
097. I don't watch TV
098. I'm unresistable (to quote someone from my favorite anime... "Goddamit I'm sexy!")
099. I have invisible friends
100. I love deviantART

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/14738004/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/14738004/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 03:39:47 PDT
I'm 19... I graduated HS back in June. I have neither a job or a college. Its not like i'm not looking for school. its the fact i bombed my ACT so badly i can't find one. YOu think i should be one happy kid right? No work, no school... BULL SHIT! i sit around trying to find things, and nothing's comming, i sit here feeling like some failure beacuse i can't even get hired or get even get into the comunity college. THE COMUNITY COLLEGE!!! So i'm just pissed right now.
My mom came home Thrusday. two days after she was expected to be home. If you didn't know she was diginosed with cancer awhile back. they had taken a few samples, thought it was fine, and said "alright, we'll take a bit more and you should be good" so they took more to test it. and BOOM ITS WORSE! a good chunk worse then the thought it could be too. I'm not saying all they had to take, but she was in the hospital for awhile, and now she still isn't doing so hot here. And to top that off, they are still doing tests to make sure it hasn't spread any more. I sware since early july its been a waiting game.... tests results take time, especily the second or thrid time through.. go figure... My dad gets to be ever more stressed since now he's doing a lot of the stuff she did ontop of work. I don't even want to think of how expensive some of this shit is going to cost... My wisdom teeth were expensve. this is worse. and i'm not helping much...
Things have seem to stress me out over board. I know this is going to sound compleatly crazy, and totaly off the wall, but... I'm finaly mournig the death of my friend... the one that died months ago. back in early Febuary... I guess i let so many things get in my way, i tried so hard to forget it. but i can't.. and recently it seemd to effect me again, like it happend yesterday. i don't tell people cause its stupid. She died 7 months ago! but i feel it...
If any of you read down this far in hopes of seeing some comment of hope, or happeness. you've come to the right place. Yes things are going shity, and yes i'm freaking out and worried. But it could be worse. i have friends! SO what if i hardly leave the house, and see my friends maybe once a month (if that). But i recently learned, there are no tears to cry. Things go from w00t to shit in seconds flat... and in times of both, the ONLY thing you controle of is your attitude! And you know what? depresion is something you have to fight out of! And either you do, or you die. its really that simple. You let something like depresion take you, your faced with that choice again, fight out or die. And you fight out beacuse life is worth living! I am happy to report i;ve met a few new friends here on DA. I know your reading this Jedi so thanks ^_^. and ofcourse alwase to the rest of you! your suport gets me though the good times and the bad. And that isn't easy! trust me i know, i live with me
And BTW to a certain someone, i hope you know who you are. I'm fine, and no need to worry ^__^ you make me happy like i make you happy. were both good!

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The Phynix has rose from the ashses of death! Soon he will fly again. 5K Welcome to the new world!!!

PEACE!

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]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/14362478/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/14362478/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 09:48:59 PDT Be completely Honest!

18 or lower means you're not stupid.

[] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.

[x] You have run into a glass/screen door.

[x] You have jumped out/off of a moving vehicle.

[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed out loud, then people gave you weird looks.

[x] You have run into a tree.

[x] It Is possible to lick your elbow

[x] You just tried to lick your elbow.

[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.

[x] You just tried to sing them.


[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen

[x] You have choked on your own spit.

[ ] You have seen the the Matrix and still don't get it.


[x] You didn't notice that in the last question "the" was spelled twice

[x] You just looked at it


[ ] Your hair is /dirty .

[x ] People have called you slow.

[x] You have ally caught something on fire.

[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.

[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

[x] You've fallen asleep in class.

[ ] If someone says "fart" you laugh.

[x] sometimes you just stop thinking.

[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about

[x] People shake their heads and walk away from you (its happend...)

[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice"

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math. (yes... a dungeon master has done that before...)

[x] You have eaten a bug. (fear factor thing, i dun care)

[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important

[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it (three times in the past year, that i've noticed)

[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand, hair or pocket.


[ ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't even when you know it won't happen to you.

[x] You break a lot of things. (including me)

[x] Your friends know not to use big words around you (some do cause they think i undestand them. others do so they can pick on me later. little do they know 50% of the time i actuly know what they are talking about)

[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before (chairs, stools, tree's, rocks, you name it...)

[x] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling (water damage in my room and parents room have created what apears to be sword shaped pictures. its rather cool, but also distracting)

[x] The word "umm" is used many times a day.

30... go figure, we all knew i was a dumbass. we just proved it. *shrug* atleast i know how to have fun!

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peace peeps: Benjanin Phynix. (the nightmarephynix)

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I graduated, big deal. i still need summerschool, but whatever. Um... i am drawing still. Fighting off a little depression, and REALLY woried about a few frineds right now. Other wise. Life. it lives, lets see it not

Talk at ya later. Thanks and love all around!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/13056464/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/13056464/ Tue, 22 May 2007 20:57:05 PDT
Your friend, has yet to come to terms with his current situation, doing stupid regretfull things, and pretty much slumping around and doing diddly squat. SOOO GIVE HIM WORK DAMNIT!!! I have a chalage for ya my peeps! Look through all my pictures, scaps and other wise, and give me one, you'd like to see me redo. I want to redo somethin, but i want you to pick, cause i'm too flippen lazy, AND I DUN WANNA! i have other things to do, but i wanna do this NOW! so if you wouldn't mind helping, i would be most happy ^__^ thanks for readin, and keep kicken. From your friends here at Nightmarephynix productions... AKA ^_^ HAVE A NICE SAFE TRIP FROM THIS WINDOW!

Peace peeps!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/12917010/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/12917010/ Thu, 10 May 2007 22:52:13 PDT
School sucks, too little time TOO MUCH TO MAKE UP, arg. wish me luck people, cause i need one hell of a mirical to fix this owie... I am also more then likely going to prom, i lack a date though... wish me luck there. um... Oh yeah, still a little depressed, but i'll live! and erm... I guess wish me luck with art, i need to get more done, but now i need time, just give me time. Thanks peeps for reading this, you all mean a great deal to me, remeber that! Now tell later, see ya!

Oh yeah, and um, Keep up the good fight, cause it would suck to lose a bad one!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/12882445/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/12882445/ Mon, 07 May 2007 23:17:46 PDT
Now that you sat through the shits of my journal, i figured i can tell what is acutly going RIGHT! For one thing i have art to submit, sware i do! but i want more art first ^__^ i need a reason to submit it, i know i don't make sence, but its weird. and i accept that! And more on the lines of art, i am REALLY connsitering making Phynix more, erm... cute. i guess is the right word, i just don't REALLY know how to do that... if someone could give me some assitance on that, heck if all of you who have read this far are willing to give me your 2 cents on what he is now, and what it would take, i would LOVE to hear it, and it would do me VERY well!!! Another thing to mention, yours truly is now on Youtube!!! WATCH ME DAMNIT! [link] its a friend video by a VERY good friend of mine named Ned, if you want more detail come ask me, but i wont waste time here.

I guess there isn't much more to say (as i hear the chearing in the back cause this thing is too damn loung already) i will leave you with the messige... I am still VERY down, and i am failing missrably, but like anyone who has the name Phynix, i am constantly finding some new reason to come back from my ashes. Go figure. thanks for reading, it does mean a lot!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/12796716/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/12796716/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 21:52:47 PDT Where do you stay when the vacencys off?
What do you do when you've lost what kept you alive?
What do you do when no one can truly understand?
How do you cope, when you failed the ulatame test?
How do you live with such a loss?
Why do I keep fighting?
Why do I think theres a light?
Who am I to prove to you?
Who am I to say theres a chance?
When can I finely admit my end?
When can I finely say it's over?

Some of you know what happend, othes of you don't... I don't know how, but I'll be fine, just tell then, i wont make much of a converstaion....

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THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!! Those of you who know who you are, you did me a huge favor getting me through these hard times. All of you here on DA made my life better in your own ways. some of you commented, and some of you went as far as getting my IM name and takling to me. But even the smallest things helped. So thank you very much, and lets all hope i stay ontop of the clouds now for awhile!

Phynix over but NEVER OUT!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/11849104/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/11849104/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 23:31:30 PST
Bad news: fighting with friends, future going NOWHERE, seriouse computer issues, school STILL not going well, doubts on college, the normal stuff. well all but one thing...
This time last week, a friend of mine, Named Sarah, finaly gave up in her fight... i had known this girl since 3rd grade, and i was REALLY good friends with her for a long time, then she became distant, hung around other people. And last year, she distenced herself from everyone, tried to make us all hate her. I should have seen this. I should have seen the OBVIOUSE sign ahead of me... I should have done something. As this year went on, she got worse. More fights with her parents, a break forced break up with a boy she may have acutly loved. And still... i did nothing. This time last week, she set up a plan, she wrote a note, and she tied a nuse on her garage door. Planed so when her mother got home from work, it would pull the nuse and kill her. She planed it out so well. And she... she did it...
It may have been a full week ago, but only now i am starting to truly greive. People at school do everthing from pretend it didn't happen, to making jokes about it. some of the assholes think suicide is funny... And i guess i haven't had time grive. Some many people i care about have been so deeply effected by this, i had to be there for them, not cause i HAD TO BE, but cause thats the person i am. And i worked myself into mental exustion. To the point, i had no emotion left in me, i didn't care, i felt dead inside. Those of you who talked to me online, or got messiges or comments from me more then likely didn't notice. but life wasn't much of a prioroty at that point. a lot of you tried to help me, and i thank you for that. But when i do this kinda crap to myself it doesn't matter... So that was the butt of what went wrong.

The good news? i may post that later. for now, there is none.

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/11690982/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/11690982/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 22:51:48 PST
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 people.
5. In brackets answer the questions with your own comments on how it relates to the songs best as possible.

How are you feeling today?
Papercut by Lincon Park (PERFECT for the day i am having!!! I am stressed, pissed off, and well, it is PERFECT!)

Will you get far in life?
Ultamate Showdown of Ultamate Destineny by Lemon Demon
(meaing... I will become famouse then, killed off at some point by Mr. Rogers in a blood socked sweater. FUN!)

How do your friends see you?
So Bad by Nickelback (um... I HOPE NOT! they aperntly see me as either the guy who whines about being neglected, or the dude whos is doing the negletciting...)

Will you get married?
Cautioners by Jimmy Eat World (um... MAYBE, but not without SERIOUSE WARNING!!!)

What is your best friend's theme song?
Tribute by Tenasiose D (NO!! NO!! NOT NED!! NOT NED!!!)

What is the story of your life?
Stricken by... Disturbed... (HOLY CRAP!!! this is GREAT... This is me.. Just Read the lyrics people, its me right there...)

What was high school like?
SWEETNESS by Jimmy Eat World (kinda accurate i guess... Well it was fun, and i let it numb mer )

How can you get ahead in life?
100 Years by Five For Fighting
(Hmmm... If i look at what i have, and don't try to rush things, i will get ahead... This works, it REALLY REALLY WORKS!)

What is the best thing about your friends?
Do This Again by Nickelback (that they cause me to waste my energy losing them when truly they should be the ones leaving me? well, thats a swell thought...)

What is in store for this weekend?
Your Life by Switchfoot (um.. i guess i am going to learn who i am, and look DEEP into my life to see if i REALLY like the person i became. I can already tell you i don't though.)

To describe your grandparents?
Calling All Angels by Trane (perferct since all but my moms mom is dead.)

How is your life going?
Shoulda by Hinder (yep, I am FULL of regets. Those Three little words coulda saved my life. Heck many little words coulda done PLENTY for me.)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Beacsue of you by Nickelback (WOW my MP3 player LOVES this band. Well that would be the PERFECT kick in the pervirbal ass... It would say i was needy and demading, and i will quote the Choras (You know i can't be there each time that you call. I swore not to come but i'm here after all. i know by the look that i see in your eye, i wont stand around and i wont watch you die for what you've done!)

How does the world see you?
Pain Redefined by Disturbed (once again, the world sees me as more of a hinderence, one that it won't be sad to lose.)

Will you have a happy life?
Numb by Lincon Park, (ummm like the rest of these deals go, NO, i will be numb, desperate and lost. Sounds like me)

What do your friends really think of you?
Your Beatifull by James Blunt (Awwww... You hate me but you think i'm attractive. Gosh i feel loved...)

Do people secretly lust after you?
Lips of an Angel by Hinder (aparently... PLEASE BE OPEN ABOUT IT!!! i need self esteme...)

How can I make myself happy?
Bliss (i don't wanna know) by Hinder (ummm Get myself drunk out of my ass, deny ALL that happend, and slowly lose focus. Yep that works!)

What should you do with your life?
Stand out by I don't know who... (i will, obssess and get stubern over one of the popular girls!!!)

Will you ever have children?
The Best you Could Do, by Dashbored Confesional (NO! I would be lucky to get some girl before i die!)

What song would you strip to?
Holiday by Greenday (HELL YEAH!!! theres MY way of taking down the efiel Tower!!! and chritizing your goverment!!!)

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If you go over 45, you're a bad influence.
If you go under 15, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh.

*Rules
Total the number of things in each list you've done.
No need to say which ones.
If people really want to know they will grow the balls to ask.
If you got tagged, tag at least 3 people on your watch list.

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. done drugs.
TOTAL: 6

1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. cut yourself.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 6

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
TOTAL: 6

1. been to a wild party.
2. seen the Mardi Gras.
3. drank more than four beers in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. own(ed) a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 4

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed prep.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
10. had someone sneak into your room.
TOTAL: 4

1. snuck into someone else's room.
2. had a crush on your best friend.
3. been to a concert.
4. dry-humped someone
5. been called a slut.
6. called someone a slut.
7. installed speakers in your car.
8. broken a mirror.
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 5

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 6

1. owned/rented an apartment.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. cheated on someone.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10. been verbally harassed.
TOTAL: 5

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 12 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 12 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 7

Total:
49...

Yep!!! I am I am, and people tried to tell me otherwise... Well... I am quite the open dude, so if you wanna know which of these i did, just lemme know, if not, i wont bore ya with this

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So thus i leave again, no closer to getting anything done. Signing off for awhile, it is your sunglasses, neon tie, wearing freaky fan Nightmarephynix

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The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 Weird Habits/Things About Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 Weird Habits/Things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their devPage comments and tell them to read yours...

> 1) I literly have waited tell the ONE TIME i don't have extrea time do this and anything else i SHOULD be doing, aka 1:30 am when i SHOULD be sleeping, ya know a few hours before school. i do that A LOT!!!
> 2) Um... i am friends with someone who was on lastnights American Idol, the one in Mineapolise... Yeah... I AM ROOTING FOR YOU MATT SATO! (he had a story on there and everything ^__^)
> 3) I am PROUD to be driving a stick shift. 5 on the floor is how my Mazda runs
> 4) I am the only non nerd D&D player i know (I CAN ONLY ROLE PLAY ROUGES CAUSE I AM TOO DAMN VIOLANT WITH ANYTHING ELSE!!!) oh, and i am a DM ^__^
> 5) I get ideas on ideas on ideas... when i CAN'T DO ANY OF THEM... then when i have time, i spend heck knows how many know hours doing NOTHING!!!
> 6) ummm... i don't like going barefoot... i don't know why. i just don't. it is wierd. i am not even really comfortable without shoes on less i am in my room, or at certin friends house. :S

I don't tag ANYONE cause i am SURE all of you have done this atleast once... if you haven't then.. well., i strongly sugest you do this, it makes you think

Hey little extend thing i added. anyone who replies to this gets ONE FREE QUESTION!!! you may ask me ANYHTING i WILL NOT LIE TO YOU, and there IS NO BOUNDERIES, i will NOT refuse ANY quesiton... K???

Updates come when i get off my not so fat butt and work again.

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word of the day: Akward!

Quote of the day: "IT WAS LIKE WOAH! I HE WAS LIKE WOW! AND THEY WERE LIKE DUDE!!! THAT WAS TOTALY JAKIE CHAN MEETS THE LEE DUDE!" me TRYING to explain i forgot what movie i was watching.
Advice of the day: Take more time to enjoy what you have. Nothing like the present to enjoy it, otherwise you are just going to end up missing it. i know this from personaly experince!

Five Featured Artists!

Yeah... it has been over a month, and ladies and gentelman, furries, and dragons, all of you, i guess i should apologize. Now i know Joe has told me MANY TIMES to do art only for myself and not worry what others think, but i have been making a LOT of stupid promises i couldn't keep. "OH YEAH! Give me a week I CAN GET THIS DONE!" like hell, i never did it, I know i have been a bastard about it and i am sorry. So there i said it. Now i just need to work on what i can, do what i can, and make this a fantastic new year
WHICH BRINGS ME TO A NEW POINT!!! HAPPY NEW YEARS! if not yet sick of hearing this, i am sure you will be, cause it is people IT IS NEW YEARS! And heck 07 best be better then 06 cause i need a good year . I wont go ranting on about what i got from christmas, cause quite frankly, you don't care, which is cool by me, i don't need you to care
I would also like to say, IF YOU HAVEN'T YET! VOTE ON MY POLL!!! Cause my subscription is running out within i think 10 days and then after that my poll option disapears along with the rest of it. SO let me hear what you want to say, so i can put it in my jar of thoughts and POOF WORK ON IT! Thanks for understanding!
Besides this, i have plenty i could talk to you about, but heck, less you really want to hear how your old friend Phynix is doing in his daily life, (boring as heck i know ) then i will be on my way, doing some more art here and there, and carring on with my life. Good eaving you all, and have a wounder existance! Peace!

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word of the day: Tarty

Quote of the day: "Yeah, usely best to leave airheads alone..." quote on Trigun i JUST HEARD! Vash said that to Mis. Maryann after Maryl was complaining about something.

Advice of the day: Don't sweat the petty things and don't pet the sweaty things.

Five Featured Artists!

Swpied from someone, sorry i don't remeber!!!

1. Pick one of my characters, any one.
2. I will tell you the origin of his/her/its name.
3. I will tell you five random facts surrounding his/her/its creation (if I can remember).
4. I will tell you his/her/its favourite colour, book, band/song/album, and/or movie. Indicate which one.
5. I will give you a brief summary of his/her/its backstory, if you desire. Indicate yes or no.
6. I will give you a brief summary of his/her/its forestory, if you desire (and if active rp plots allow). Please indicate yes or no.
7. You may ask me up to ten questions about the character (I have the right to refuse to answer any due to active rp plot spoilers).
8. If you place this in your journal, I will return the favour.

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10805700/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10805700/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 22:19:35 PST

word of the day: Celestrial!!!

Quote of the day: " I don't want some half dragon sucking up my master plans... NO i refuse to have a freaking pixi on my side... Fine stick me with the half celestrail... But i can't gurntee i wont kill it. Half fiends are known for that kinda shit. what? my other half you ask? wouldn't you like to know?" D&D club after school. i am such a nerd.

Advice of the day: Don't fight they system if you lack good reasoning too. otherwise your just a poser.

Five Featured Artists!

Yes ladies gentelemen and childern of all ages (that means you Joe ) I am working on some changes here on DA, i am working harder on art, that is right HARDER!!! and and and, i am going to change things like my icon, the flashy freaky picture of me is beging to anoy me, and by now i am SURE it is anyoing you. SOOO that will go as well as my current ID, cause i am terribly afraid i am beging to not like that pic. My sig will change and Name dealy under my username. things like that. i just need a good weekend to work, oh wait HERE IS ONE!!! And as you all can see i have changed my Journal, it WILL change more ^__^ so yeah, if any of you want to pry into my personal life i say go right ahead. i am an open book, but this journal isn't about that, only letting you know that the here and now is pointless, i am aiming for new and GREATER!!!

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word of the day: NEW!!!

Quote of the day: "Doing what your doing is wrong, but you make it right, which is still wrong, right?" Good ol' Luke in a conversation with me in math!

Advice of the day: Don't regret what you can't fix, think it over, learn from it, and then forget it. The best you can do, beacause if you start regreting all your mistakes you end up stressed out and sick out of your mind, like me. So think clearly!!!

Five Featured Artists! :iconmausuz : + one cause i feel like it

I am back to being randomly busy. I got school stuffs, a college around the area that i love and apears to love me, THAT IS A GOOD THING INDEED!!! I got some random art ideas, that i MUST DO!!! so i am working on them and BOOM NEW ART LOADED!!! YAY, i know there isn't much to say in journals like mine, so sonner or later MORE SOONER THEN LATER I am going to turen this into a journal for the sake of a journal, ya know write down pretty much what is up with my life, so yeah, if you enjoy hearing about your sunglasses clad freaky freind then you may read as much as you want. if you are watching me for no real reason, then you don't need to do anything, though i love the random HI'S here and there. So yeah, on the acount i should be in bed right now, if not VERY SOON i am heading off. Take care all of you and thanks for reading!

Even in Maddness i know you still belive! Paint me on canvas so i become What you could never be! (I dare you by Shine Down) ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10553833/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10553833/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 22:16:53 PST

word of the day: Candy

Quote of the day: "POKE"

Advice of the day: Find out who your TRUE friends are, before the fakes stab you in the back...

Five Featured Artists!

Long time no... Anything. I am one heck of a busy dude, I mean 17 days... have to be a record for me... Yeah, things aren't looking too good right now. I am having issues with things... Yeah, i am complaining too much. Art will come sooner or later. lol... Hey BTW from know on, Phynix is prolly not prononced how you THINK it is... it has a Silent I, so it is like Lynx, only with an F sound... I like the sound of it. So we cool???

Even in Maddness i know you still belive! Paint me on canvas so i become What you could never be! (I dare you by Shine Down) ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10374939/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10374939/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 22:54:29 PDT

word of the day: FOOOD!!!!

Quote of the day: "Goodnight to you dear friend. But quite frankly my dear, i don't give a damn!" (said by me, while telling ol' TYS goodnight... didn't turn out like i wanted it to )

Advice of the day: Getting your self over stressed and over emotional about things isn't a good thing, rare is it even a thing we must do. Getting over stressed can even cause physicl sickness. So take a break now and then, and eat them apples like the doctors tell you to, IT REALLY DOES HELP!

Five Featured Artists!

OHHHHHHH MAN!!! it has been TOOO LONG!!! i have not really disparead, or left, or gone invisable, it is mainly just school, which right now lead me to so PRETTY BAD emo thoughts, but I am happy right now!!! SOOOO it is all good! I supose i am doing this to let you know that infact I AM NOT DEAD! not that a lot of you would know any different , but hey, we all have our lives we must live.

In other news, as you can see, i am inproving my aime skillz, and i just keep getting better. whats next for me??? I AM WRITING!!! What may you ask... a totly awesome story that stats my awesome fursona Phynix, and other charcters you either already know, or will know SOON! SOOO i need some luck while working with it, cause yeah, i NEED IT!! anyway, thanks for reading another pointless journal by yours truly. Keep your sticks on the ice, and your thoughts at half price!

the Phynix now, takes his land for the long night ahead of him. Will he fly again? Yes, i don't know when, i don't know how, i just know HE WILL RETURN! ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10177508/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10177508/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 22:27:28 PDT

word of the day: Awhgh BOARING!!!

Quote of the day: "Football, the only sport where hitting someone with your arm and pratickly killing him isn't a penitly, less it is after the whistle... Damn i love this game!" (me talking to, well myself...)

Advice of the day: Enjoy those days you have that are open, that arn't causeing you to stress out, boaring isn't alwase a bad thing.

Five Featured Artists!

Try Winamp/iTunes/media player, etc!
Just open the program, set your music list on random, and let the program sing an answer to the following questions. Don't cheat and skip songs! You wanted to be die hard fan of depressive bands, so... your fault!

Here, my own ones:

1. How is my mood today?
Gaurded-Disturbed... (That isn't depresing at all, is it???)

2. What will happen to me tomorrow?
Where do i go-Angry Atom. (well love will apear and i don't know what to do about. SOOOO like me )

3. What kind of person am I?
Lips of an Angel-Hinder (casue we all know i cheat..)

4. Am I well loved?
Pain Redefined- Disturbed (aparntly it is more then not loved, I am HATED!)

5. How can I reach my max effort?
Novicaine-Greenday (so i make myself numb and go depressed? that is the anwaser to ALL of my problems RIGHT there!)

6. What should I do with my life?
Runaway Train-I don't know... (great, pack up and leave forever. sounds like a plan...)

7. Will be everything OK after all?
Pain-Jimmy Eat World (aparently not...)

8. What's my best feature?
Made of Scars- Stonesour (i HOPE NOT!!!)

9. How is my sexual life?
Slow Chemical-Finger Elevn (i am horrible and desprite I guess)

10. What's the sense of living?
Give Me Love- Geroge Harrison (that is right, LOVE!!!)

11. What do people think about me?
Bliss (i don't wanna know)- Hinder (I drink, have issues with weman, and deny the whole damn thing, yep thats me ^_^)

12. Do I give a good impression?
Somewhere Only we Know-Kreed (its a lasting one atleast,...)

13. How crazy am I?
Just Tonight-Jimmy eat world (no... just NO!)

14. Generally, Will I have a good life?
This is How you Remind me- Nickelback (sure, why not???)

15. Will someone love me with all their soul?
Side of a Bullet- Nickelback (nope i will die young)

16. What's that thing that will make me extremelly happy?
Anywhere but Here-Dropping Daylight (Acording to this, NOTHING!!!)

17. What will happen to me on this week?
Stonger-Trust Compony (I will break through this bad week!!!)

18. Where will I be in a year?
Step-Drowning Pool, (6 feet under i guess)

19. Which one is my biggest desire?
Uninspired-98Stop (to figure me out. SWEET!)

20. What is my whole love life doing right now?
Sound Of Silince- Simon and Garfunkle (it is... ignoring my pleas...)

21. How will I die?
Tournaqute-Evenessence (Oh shit... i will kil... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10033707/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/10033707/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 21:52:11 PDT

word of the day: Inspreation (or lack there of XP)

Quote of the day: "What do you do when when you sudenly haven't a clue what it is you need to do? You take a dive and let the cold water wake you up to true reality!" (me talking to, well myself...)

Advice of the day: You are you! Come all hell, and whatever may be on the way, remeber that. No one can take you outa you, even if you have yet to know who "you" is yet, tha plan is set and instead of being another brick on the wall, be a book that feel off the self, and see what happens!

Five Featured Artists!

Took a drive up the coast for the first time, where the cities are few and far between. Found redemption, street signs bearing my name, and the direction, last thing on my mind. Cause i feel once again for beleiving, and in faith i begin to drive. I left my home to search for a feeling, that i lost, it must have died, it must have died. Cause i've been feeling uninspired. Battard and... Broken tired, cause there's many things i've never learned, or decited, if i ready to serve...
Uninspired by 8Stops7
I heard that song again last night, on a CD burend for me that i swore i lost... And for the first time, it made me think... Who is this nameless driver? Why the coast? And what was he doing??? Well, i began to realize all the power in this single song. This driver is me. The coast is the MN state Trail, and I am looking for inspertaion. I get ideas, but drawing them, becomes an hastle, not worth it, i find myself not even able to make a full head. And i realize this cause i have no real insperation to do it right. No push saying this is how it must go. I do my art for me, and heck you are all my friends who love it (and i sware i love you all for it) but with the exception of a few peices i do this art for me. and right not, i don't feel i need to make art. Though there is a force in my mind telling me to get off my ass and get craken, but how do you do that when you not in the game? I need insperation, i need a push in the right direction, i need soul search. Figure out who i am, what I am here for, and how it connects to art. I am an artist, there is NO denying that at all, i got a creative imaginitive mind, and i need use that, but tell i figure out WHO I AM, it wont do me much good to give you lifeless art. It is bad for me, and shit for you I am sure. Heck, i could use a girl that would give me insperation. Have you ever tried to make a love song with no love? Lol, but really i may need some time, but i am going to get back in the nack of being me and delivering the kinda art i do. And if you perfer this dry, near dead me, then screw you i am going to do what it is i love to do, and if you are going to stay with me through this ride i am forver greatfull and i promise i will be back. If you have decited i am not what you are looking for, for entertainment then i am sorry to have wasted your time, and i wish you a good day. No hard feelings. So i say to all my friends out there, thanks for viewing this journal, you had a re... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9970626/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9970626/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:12:42 PDT

word of the day: Pain! (my sence of hope, not shatterd...

Quote of the day: "SCREW IT ALL PAST HELL! i don't even desurve to be there..."

Advice of the day: What you say matters, what you did you can fallow you for the rest of your life, and mistakes made, and you must learn to deal with them, or you may end up like me...

Five Featured Artists!

what do you do when no one is there?
Three of four hours of silence, i feel you don't care.
I need some love, I need a hug
Perhaps my only escape for the deadly drug
had i had a bottle, gone it would be
Drunk off my ass not carring about me...
Had a had some drugs, i would soon by high
Cause even with my pain, without it I can't cry
With a nife i would do wose shit
festering my tough skin causing it to split
instead i have a ruler to cause me this pain
At least i have a sorce of hell too keep me sane
Hit my head agenst my bed
Steel cold agenst my head
Perhaps i could casue internal bleeding
perhaps i will kill me while sitting here and pleeding
May i be the one to slowly take my life?
May it be my action that slowly pulls the knife?
I am stupid, I'm pathetic
I don't want you to be apethetic
I can't do much anymore
All windows now locked, ever single door
I take a final bow tonight, whatever happens happens
Tomrow will be a new day, and yet the rain still dampens

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word of the day: Roster... (you may not want to ask...)

Quote of the day: "Jane likes Dick. Dick likes... Roster." BEST DAMN COASTER EVER SEEN!!!!

Advice of the day: A trade of Break fast and Sleep to anything is already a ryno's bargin. It's a death trap. EAT AND SLEEP WELL!!! Your future will thank you for it...

Five Featured Artists!

Well, an hour and 4 minutes ago i turned 18. Damn i should be in bed... I need to get up early, got fun day planned, but i just feel so inclined to let you all know i am now a leagle adult. that really doesn't do much for me. but heck i am 18, SO THERE!!! peeps, i really don't know why i am writing this, i just feel inclined to waste all your time, again... I am good at that. ^_^ but i guess i should stop that... So i would thank you all for being you, and making 17 a totlay awsome year from when you "met" me, and i KNOW 18 will be better.

Phynix out... COLD! HA HA HA *faints*

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word of the day: Conquer (Joe know's why )

Quote of the day: "I hate my art, no, i don't, i hate to not like my art, but in a hateing way... I hate my art." (discusion with me, and myself. lol. I was looking at my most recent picture, and well, that is how it turned out!)

Advice of the day: To make a guarantee is like sending a messige to the greater power saying, DO YOUR WORST! Something is going to happen to prevent it. It is like the law that says if you drop a peice of butter toast, it is destained that it will land butter side down. So use that word sparingly!!!

Five Featured Artists! :iconteh-tehyoungscribe: :hunterbahamut:

Well, things are slowly but shurly moving, and once again i am going through an art drout, as well as doing another pointless journal at 4 am... I am like addicted to wasting your time at odd times of the night... or mourning if you wish me to be politcaly correct. BUT!!! i am getting things done, i am almost done with my NEW ID!!!! *aplause sign lights up* I plan on posting it 3 days from now, AKA september 2nd, AKA my birthday ^___^!!! there seem to be a LOT of late Augest early September birthdays!!! I am going to the Mall of America with some of my friends, i hope to have a blast, or something like that... And School starts next Tuesday. YAY! i guess this is my senior year so i KNOW it is going to be SUPER! And i know all my classes and my teachers, and even my locker location, THE BASTARDS GAVE ME A HALF LOCKER!!! ON THE FREAKING BOTTOM!!! but it has a semi easy combonation and a sweet loaction so i can't complain TOO MUCH! I mean i have a fun shedual, if you give a damn ask me, if not, well then that is just your loss isn't it? I guess this is going to be my greats and worst year ever. SOOOO I will leave you now with these words of wisdome!!! "Wipe off ye ol' monitor to stopith the fog and wreched gunk that casueith so much collimate!"

This was another waste of your time brought to you by your friend at THATS RIGHT I WASTED YOUR TIME!!! HA HA HA HA! don't sue me... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9901712/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9901712/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 21:40:14 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: "Here i am, here is me, now please wont, you sing for me?" I arived late to a friends house, and decited to say hi in that way...

Advice of the day: If you make even the most tiny promise, do as you need to keep it. Because even the small ones cause damage.

Have You Lived?

[x] You've slept under the stars (couple of times...)
[X] You've watched a meteor shower
[X] You've seen the Northern Lights
[x] You've lain on the hood of a car and just watched the sky
[ ] You've got skinny-dipping
[x] You've had a near-death experience
[x] You've broken a bone
[x] You've made a snow-angel
[x] You've spun in circles until you fell over
[ ] You've gone skydiving
[x] You've kissed someone in the rain
[ ] You've gone snorkeling
[ ] You've gone scuba-diving
[ ] You've swam with dolpins/whales/seals
[ ] You've seen something magical
[X] You've told someone how you felt about them
[ ] You've held a newborn baby in your arms
[x] You've lay listening to someone's heartbeat
[ ] You've owned a pet
[x] You've been to another state
[ ] You've been to another country
[ ] You've travelled overseas
[X] You've been in a car accident
[X] You can speak another language [LEARNING]
[ ] You've seen a ghost
[x] You've been to summer-camp
[x] You've camped in the woods for at least a week
[x] You've seen an actually-threatening wild animal
[x] You've woken up to watch the sunrise
[x] You've watched more than 3 movies in a row
[ ] You've laughed so hard you couldn't breath
[x] You've had the wind knocked out of you
[x] You've had your heart broken
[x] You've fallen in love
[x] You've accomplished a major goal
[x] You've done volunteer work
[x] You've done someone a favor and never told them
[x] You've fallen asleep reading
[ ] You've conducted a seance
[ ] You've taken this quiz and tagged 5 people

Now count up the number of checked boxes.

26 ^_^ I AM LIVIN!!!

1-10 = You need to get out more.
11-19 = You've lived, but not enough
20-26 = Now you're livin'!
27-40 = Woah... take it easy!

]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9891792/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9891792/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 02:38:21 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: "Here i am, here is me, now please wont, you sing for me?" I arived late to a friends house, and decited to say hi in that way...

Advice of the day: If you make even the most tiny promise, do as you need to keep it. Because even the small ones cause damage.

Choose twelve of your original characters in any particular order (NO PEEKING AT THE QUESTIONS AT THIS STAGE!). Then, answer the questions that follow and don't forget to tag a couple of people when you're finished. |D


1. Phynix (My fursona, or as close as one I can get…)
2. Bryan (My cute innocent dude! You should know him)
3. Gasoline X (he is a little weird, but hey, still cool)
4. SHADE (Evil, sadistic, mean, whatever you call it… he runs an underground murder ring.. Spooky)
5. S.I.D.D. (Crazy, psychotic, nuts even… The number 1 Assailant to SHADE and he is crazy enough to make it work…)
6. Neon (My super hero! He is cool, collect, and thinks he can do NO WRONG! He is truly self centered though…)
7. Sparky (Neon’s sidekick, he is young, smart, and witty, but he isn’t always sure of himself.)
8. Sonic Saydum (The pot smoking, beer drinking, rock and roll artist of them all! He loves the ladies and the ladies love him, but crap ALWASE seems to happen to him)
9. Widow (she is as crazy as chicks can get. She is addicted to action, loves to fight, and is a fan of anything small and deadly, crazy as she is, she has a good heart under her VERY VERY rough exterior)
10. Hope (good friend of Bryan’s who holds a secret love to him. She is young, very smart, but extremely naive and innocent. He heart is perhaps the biggest of all my characters!
11. Silver (young fox who has caught the attention of Phynix , she is sweet, caring , but knows when enough is enough. She can do much damage if she feels necessary
12. Tina (your average air-head. She is pretty, weak, and completely clueless to that world around her.)


01)Who would make a better college professor, 6 or 11? What subjects would they teach?

um... Silver i GUESS, she is a good "person". And um, i think she would make a good heath teacher... Ok i pulled that from my butt sorry...

02) Do you think 2 is hot? How hot?

Bryan??? He is a 12-year-old boy... They aren't hot, he may be cute, but not in a sexy way. Gosh darn...

03) 12 sends 8 on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

Tina sends Sonic Saydum??? Wow... Um, i guess it would be to pic her up a beer, and he would fail, because while going out to get it he would find himself in the presence of another girl he likes and forgets about poor tina. Heck she would prolly forget about her mission too...

04) What is or would be 9's favorite book?

Widow doesn't read much, but something to do with a murder romance would suit her pretty.

05) Would it make more sense for 2 to swear to 6, or the other way around?

Well, Bryan doesn't sware, and Neon has no pataince at all, so without question it would be 6 to 2!

06) For some reason, 5 is looking for a roommate. Should he/she share a studio apartment with 9 or with 10?

Yeah, S.I.D.D would ONLY deal with SHADE and SHADE ONLY!!! but I guess 9 Widow would be better the Hope cause Widow can be just as crazy and poor hope is scared of saner people...

07) 2, 7 and 12 have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?

Bryan, Sparky, and Tina... Well, Bryan and Sparky are just kids as Tina has about the same intelegnce as them both, perhaps less... They would at Chucky Chees's discusing cartoons and what not...

08) 3 challenges 10 to a duel. What happens?

EEEP! Gasoline X chalenges Hope??? WTF!?!?! Well i guess he would be trying to steel her shoes, and well he would chalenge... Hope, being kind and smart would try to find a peacfull solution, and ends up trading her safty for some chocolate she had left... Sad i know but that is the best i could come up with at 4:15 am...

09) If 1 stole 8's most precious possession, how would she/he get it back?

Well, Phynix probubly would steal Sonic's guitar. This would force Sonic to ex... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9878319/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9878319/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 21:21:20 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: "How the SHIT can i help you when i can't even help myself?" my silent messige to a part of the world i wish to not mention...

One can only do so much, if they can first do for themselfs... (Advice i WISH i could fallow myself...)

Five Featured Artists... TELL FUTHER NOTICE!!! FUCK IT ALL!!!

Ok... i think i need a break... i need to soul search or SOMETHING... I should be happy... I REALLY should be... i mean i get most of my internet time back cause i am partily an only child at the moment. But... Shit is going down, i can't controle it, i can't help it, and worst off, i can't deal with it... I just go home from doing that, 8am and i get home at 10:30... After quite family debates that could do some future damage, i am tired, sore, sick, and all around depressed. And i get home, and i pop on DA, i could use some love, and i can get it there, but what do i get??? 10 journals all a rant in some form... I want to talk to friends, all of them are eitehr SO deep in their own problems to care about me, or they are just want to whine to me, cause i can uslay deal with that... For the first time, I CAN'T HELP!!! i am kinda freaking out cause everthing is going nuts and i am feeling like shit about it too. I think stress is effecting me bad enough to make me sick. i need a friend right now. someone that will take a deep breath and set aside their problems... But more then likely if it is on here, i can't deal with that... i wont reply to most journals, most art, most anything. cause i am JUST BEAT! i am flat out wiped out. I am getting close to tears. something i haven't done in over 8 years... I am turning 18 in 6 days. less by the time you people read this... AND I DON'T WANT MY NEW YEAR TO START LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!

if you wish to ignore this messige and wish it never happend, you have the right. Take me off your list for awhile, do whatever is nessisary. I understant. I really don't want to be a burden for anyone. But perhaps a prayer could mean the difference from a mirical and total insanity...

That is my rant. And i am truly sorry you had to see this...

I TAKE THE BLADE OF THE PHYNIX! STAB IT INTO ME!!! HIS BLOOD KEEPS ME ALIVE!!! BUT THE PAIN IS ALL I NEED! ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9846094/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9846094/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 01:58:15 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: "My head hurts, i have a swollen toe, i am tired as hell... come on TV... ENTERTAIN ME DAMNIT!!!" today at lunch time...

Pain is a part of life... Deal with it... (cruddy advice but true...)

Five Featured Artists

Holy cow, near four am. I SHOULD be in bed, but i am not... why? cause i can't sleep... I am tired, i am weak, but i hurt, i finaly had some toe surgery done, and well the problem is partaily fixed, and it really hurts right now... so i am just kinda haning around here alone in the dark... ^_^ but hey guess what!?!?! i got working on art again, more characters comming and posibly for once GIFT ART!!! ouuuuuu ahhhh thats my favorite!!! So, crap is going down in the near future, but i will keep up the fight cause i can and BTW vote on my poll, it isn't VERY importent, but it does give me an idea... thankz and LUFF FOR YOU ALL!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 ^_^

P.S. 9 days left ^_______^

Once Phynix, the king of flames drew his sward in the heat of battle, the war ended, and the slaughter began! ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9797724/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9797724/ Sun, 20 Aug 2006 20:59:07 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: "You and I, we are going to go burn things, how does that sound? feel better?" dealing with a depressed friend...

Advice of the day: friends are one thing that are nither replaceable or imortal. Hold them close to your heart because in the end, they matter more then any date. Love them beacause you never know how good they are, tell you have lost them...

Your Life: The Soundtrack
So here's how it works. Open your choice of music [iTunes, Limewire, Kazaa, etc.] and put it on shuffle. Press play. For every question type the song that's on. And when you go to a new question, press the next button. Ready? GO!

Opening credits: Have a nice Day by Bon Jovi

Waking up: Snow by Kamelot (that's depressing...)

Average day: Sunday by Sia... (shit... really. this isn't a good life i am creating here..)

First date: We didn't start the Fire (well, intersting...)

Falling in love: Rock Star by Nickelback (WTF?)

Fight scene: (I DON'T FUCKEN BELIEVE IT!!!!) Banna Phone... it is like a flippen Semsame street song!!!

Breaking up: Serenty by God Smack, (i guess that works...

Getting back together: Through the Glass by Stonesour (well that is good ^_^... if it is ment for a fricken stalker!)

Secret love: D.O.A by Foo Fighters. (I guess that works... though it could be my death...)

Life's okay: Smooth Crimonal by Alein Ant Farm (HA HA HA!!! DAMN that goes back to my pathetic life...)

Mental breakdown: Man Without Fear by Rob Zombie, Feat, and Drowning Pool (well, it COULD work...)

Driving: Blind by Korn (I SURE HOPE NOT!!!)

Learning a lesson: Boheamin Rhapisty by Queen (wow, learning a lesson that kills me...)

Deep thought: Hate Me by Blue October

Flashback: Getting Away with Murder by Papa Roach (holy snipit, that works with this life...)

Partying: Here Without You by 3 Doors Down (well a lony party anyway...)

Happy dance: Stricken by Disturbed (I sure hope this aint the HAPPY song...)

Regretting: Living Dead Girl, by Rob Zombie

Long night alone: Happy by Mudvayne (that sounds like a night of vengefull thoughts...)

Death scene: Be Prepared Disney's Lion King (no comment nessisary...)

Ending credits: Stacy's Mom Has got it going on... (SON A FLIPPEN B!T$H that is really F'ed up!)

Y2P is here, is this the end of the world? It may aswell be for me... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9778021/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9778021/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 00:58:04 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: " SPIDERMAN! This is why only fools are heros. Because you never know when some lunatic will come along with a sidistic choice! Let die the woman you love! Or suffer the little childeren!

Advice of the day: friends are one thing that are nither replaceable or imortal. Hold them close to your heart because in the end, they matter more then any date. Love them beacause you never know how good they are, tell you have lost them...

I... I am not going to tell you all the shit that went down, or what stupid things i did and i am probubly going to continue to do. I went out of the ranting game a long time ago... I just... i just don't want you to worry about me, and... i guess i just need a hug right now... or somehting i don't know... I just, don't know anymore.

Y2P is here, is this the end of the world? It may aswell be for me... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9777158/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9777158/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 22:32:58 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: " SPIDERMAN! This is why only fools are heros. Because you never know when some lunatic will come along with a sidistic choice! Let die the woman you love! Or suffer the little childeren!

friends are one thing that are nither replaceable or imortal. Hold them close to your heart because in the end, they matter more then any date. Love them beacause you never know how good they are, tell you have lost them...

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

Probubly the second one, cause with the exception of ONE GIRL every girl i have liked i have been able to tell.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY you were angry? Do you still feel the same way? If not WHAT CHANGED to make you feel differently?

More then likekly it was a confrontation with my ex GF, and it wasn't anything to do with our lost love. more about her not respecting me, and how VERY few do. I was losing it to a point, but i didn't do anything too stupid... so it was ok.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you say to them?

Gosh, i would call my dad, i guess... I am not sure, i think i would let the rest of the plane go ahead of me. not worried about my call...

4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days?

um.. I would tell thouse i REALLY care about, and probubly make my way across to the coast and do what i swore i would...

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why?
a. $2000
b. no more worries.

I guess no more worries, but that is kinda the fun of life. had it been more money i may have hit that but 2K aint enough for my happieness

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

Gosh I am the hero type. I gots to save the dog, and well, i guess the boss would have to understand, if not, well i guess i could work somewhere else.

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?

Me? Be unfaithful, that is a funny one. But really, i probbly wouldn't tell cause i am a wimp like that, but as said before, i wouldn't do that.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you ( or did you ) do/say?

Well, depends on the friend, but for the most part i am REALLY not sure, but really i have NO IDEA cause the situation has ALWASE been reversed...

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

Um. sure i would give him the hour, let him spend it with those he loves most, cause A) he was a good guy, and i would sacrifice a year to fix the family issues his death cost. i would have wasted that last year anyway.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

for the most part yeah... i would learn to hate myself though.

11. Does love = sex? sex = love?

ha ha no! Sex don't equil love. Does the phraze ONE NIGHT STAND mean anything to you?

12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

Well, this is a hard one, I am not the type to leave somone like that stranded, but i gotta look at my priorties, and what i have and don't...

1... ]]> ~nightmarephynix http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9755308/ http://nightmarephynix.deviantart.com/journal/9755308/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 01:41:03 PDT Journal of the

Quote of the day: "I have gone from Shit level to less shit level! w00t!"

Advice of the day: What we do is what we do and how we do it. Don't believe those who think their way is the "only" way. Because the novise sees a fork and in the road and sees only three ways to go. The true traveler sees there are infinate paths he may take to his final destination. Just fallow your heart, and make sure the deciouse you make are yours!"

Well, Y2P is back in running order! I found the charger so i can finaly start using the camera again, so more art on the way. My question to ALL of you is, what do you see me as? we all have our little signitures, my good friend Teh-Youngscribe is like the chibi master! Nosafatuangelouse (i just slaugterd your name and I know it, sorry...) does dark and glomy pics with her fursona and blood. I mean everyone has thier signiture. and i have NO IDEA what the heck i do, i just feel i need to pick me a style and run wild, and i want to hear what you all have to say. i am not going popular vote hear, i am just taking all into consiterination and preparing a soul search of all time! So right now your help would be greatly apreciated.
BTW 17 DAYS TELL MY BIG 18 B-DAY!!!! I CANNOT WAIT!!! ^_______^

IT HAS COME! THe Phynix of the Future. Y2P, not the end of the world, but the ashes have summond a new beauty! ]]> ~nightmarephynix